<strong><u>Who Am I</u></strong>
Chapter 44
Ji Yushi asked, “Why are youing to Ning City so suddenly?”
“It’s not sudden.” Song Qinn said, “I have been away for a month and should go and visit my grandfather.”
Ji Yushi asked when Song Qinn would arrive and said, “I happen to be outside right now. I cane to the station to pick you up.”
The information about “Wang Xiaoqian” was very important to the current Ji Yushi. He didn’t think much about it and he also didn’t consider whether or not it was inconvenient for the other party.
In fact, Song Qinn had driven his sports car at a super high speed as soon as he hung up that morning, so he had already arrived in Ning City. After arriving, he finally realised that they had been up all night and Ji Yushi may still be resting.
Thinking this, Song Qinn resisted the urge to look for Ji Yushi and went to his grandfather’s ce first.
He had also only just received the information and he sent a message to Ji Yushi as soon as he was done ncing through it.
He didn’t expect Ji Yushi to call back so quickly.
After the call connected, in order to avoid seeming too eager, Song Qinn casually lied and said that he was still on the way.
So when Ji Yushi asked him this, he nced at the time and lied, “I’ll arrive around eight.”
Ji Yushi started the car, “Then wait for me in the waiting lounge. I’ll head over now.”
After hanging up, Song Qinn who was still at his grandfather’s ce hastily cleaned himself up and drove to Ning City’s North Station.
He rushed the entire way and managed to park his car and reach the waiting lounge just before eight o’clock.
There were many peopleing and going from the station, and there were a lot of people in the waiting lounge.
Song Qinn nced around and didn’t see Ji Yushi’s figure. Having confirmed that he hadn’t arrived yet, he breathed a sigh of relief. Immediately afterwards, his heart sank, and he quietly let out a curse.
Since when did he deceive others like this?
Was it really necessary?
Song Qinn had never had this experience in the twenty-six years of his life. He had never felt anxious because of another person and had never felt the need to see someone with his own eyes in order to feel relieved.
Song Qinn had noticed that Ji Yushi’s mental state wasn’t right.
He didn’t know if people with hyperthymesia have a tendency to overthink but the ‘Chief Wang’ mentioned by Ji Yushi was a discrepancy between his and Ji Yushi’s memory. The calm attitude after seeing Chief Qi, and the ‘brain in a vat’ mentioned over the phone, it was all quite negative. It waspletely not like the state a person would be in after sessfully escaping and returning to the real world.
For some reason, the scene of Ji Yushi opening the medicine box and taking a pill lingered in his mind.
In the park management office, the bookstore, outside the ward…..The chaos in Ji Yushi’s memories were all curbed and controlled by those pills.
The other party’s fragile face, his trembling eyshes, as well as the unconscious groan he let out when the space capsule was sucked into the crevice, it all contrasted greatly with his logical, intelligent and rational appearance.
No matter how perfect the psychological evaluation report was for Ji Yushi, there was a saying that goes ‘those that are too rigid, fold easily’. A human would breakdown if they stubbornly persist and endure past their limits.
It stood to reason that after the transfer was over, Ji Yushi shouldn’t have any further connection with their squad with the exception for the mission report.
There would naturally be people caring about Ji Yushi’s mental state and it was clear that there were no shortage of people who would do that.
But Song Qinn couldn’t help but think.
Since it was possible for him to have several rtionships at the same time, it was also very likely that each one of them weren’t serious.
So those people, would they really care about Ji Yushi?
“Cap Song.”
Song Qinn only waited for a few minutes when he heard a calm voice sound in front of him.
He looked up and saw Ji Yushi’s face.
They had only been apart for two days so there was naturally no change to Ji Yushi.
A simple white short-sleeved T-shirt that was simr to the one Song Qinn found for him in PU-31 somehow made him stand out even more. Just by standing in the waiting lounge, many people’s eyes were drawn over.
What Song Qinn noticed however, were the two faint shadows under the other person’s eyes.
Song Qinn stood up and said naturally, “You came so quickly.”
If he drove a little slower, he would’ve arrived after Ji Yushi.
Ji Yushi said, “I was outside when I called you, so I came directly.”
The two walked out side by side.
In the hustle and bustle of the summer night in Ning City, cries of cicadas apanied the intermittent waves of heat.
When therge ck off-road car was revealed, Song Qinn was quite surprised. He couldn’t imagine someone like Ji Yushi driving such a domineering car.
Song Qinn unlocked his phone, opened the information and handed it to Ji Yushi, “Take a look first. I’ll drive.”
Of course, this was what he had wanted. Ji Yushi had no objections, “Okay.”
The car entered the traffic. Neon lights shed in Ning City. Ji Yushi quietly looked through the information.
Wang Xiaoqian, female, 52 years old. Previously a professor in the Department of Quantum Physics at Capital University. The information reported that she was from the capital and also included some of her papers, essays and teaching subjects. Just like Song Qinn had said, it was however notplete. Except for these, there were no photos and there was also no information about Tianqiong.
Ji Yushi searched Capital University on the inte. There was nothing about Wang Xiaoqian on the page with faculty staff.
“I have some connections.” Song Qinn said, “Through the name you provided, I found many women with the same name and surname. After excluding some candidates with toorge age gaps and different educational backgrounds, I ended up with this one. If it was really as you had said and Wang Xiaoqian was the chief of the Jiang City branch, this professor who taught quantum physics would probably be the closest candidate.”
Ji Yushi nodded. In this era, privacy was highly valued, so all databases were encrypted. It already wasn’t easy getting all this information.
What he didn’t expect was that Song Qinn who had no impression of the ‘Chief Wang’ he mentioned still invested so much effort to investigate.
“They will send more detailed informationter.” Song Qinn continued, “You can confirm if it is her at the time.”
As he said this, Song Qinn inadvertently nced at Ji Yushi and was slightly stunned.
There was a bright red mark on Ji Yushi’s neck.
This mark wasn’t something Song Qinn hadn’t seen before.
If Li Chun went out to y for a few days before returning to the squad, he would have a few of these things on him too.
He originally wanted to ignore it.
But with that one nce, perhaps it was because the red mark on the extremely fair skin was too eye catching, he couldn’t help but notice it.
Song Qinn gritted the back of his teeth, “Ji Yushi, your neck. Pay attention.”
Ji Yushi was baffled. He pulled down the mirror in the passenger seat and took a look, “Forgot to close the windowst night.”
No wonder he was scratching that ce today. Turns out he was bitten by a mosquitost night.
Song Qinn was silent for a while.
Ji Yushi wasn’t very good at guessing other people’s thoughts, nor was he good at handling interpersonal rtionships. Song Qinn helping him in private with gathering all this information already meant a lot to him.
He withdrew his gaze and gathered his thoughts together before asking, “You said on the phone that you also noticed some differences. What differences were they?”
“Thest time I was in the Ouroboros mission, I realised that it was a cycle only when the woman on the street charged over.”
Passing a traffic light intersection, Song Qinn turned the steering wheel. His actions were very smooth, and it carried arrogance and haughtiness. It gave a strong sense that he was the one who suited this car more.
“I didn’t remember anything at first and at most just had a feeling. After I realised that everything had happened before, the memory of thest cycle suddenly appeared in my mind. This was something I was very familiar with. When Old Zhou and I were participating in a witness of time program in the army, we had undergone memory enhancement training. It was very simr to having a key to a memory, but it was actually a subconscious hint. That is why, unlike Tang Le and the others, we could more or less remember what happened in the cycles.”
After saying this, Song Qinn’s furrowed brows didn’t rx. His heroic face seemed to have tightened even more, “I had no impression of Wang Xiaoqian’s name before I read through her information but when I read some of her essays, I suddenly had a vague impression. I seemed to remember debating about some of those points and was eventually persuaded but in my current memory, the person I debated with was Chief Qi.”
Ji Yushi was stunned, “Double memories?”
Song Qinn also had double memories?
“One memory is rtively vague and the other is very clear.” Song Qinn said, “But I don’t believe that we are in an illusion. What we are looking at is definitely reality, but it may not be our original reality.”
Ji Yushi had just left the Ji residence and Professor Ji’s words were still lingering inside him.
Hearing Song Qinn say this, he couldn’t help but ask, “You also think that we havee to a parallel world?”
Song Qinn remained silent and didn’tment on the world ‘also’.
He continued to calmly drive the car, “If this is a parallel world, then there must be another us. Where did they go?”
These words struck Ji Yushi’s heart hard, making him fall silent.
This was a problem that had been troubling Ji Yushi. Coupled with his chaotic memory and the fact that it had only been a few days since his return, Ji Yushi’s state was already very bad and possibly even worse than how he was in the Ouroboros mission.
He was already very overwhelmed.
Song Qinn, “The ‘brain in a vat’ theory you mentioned made me think about this question for a long time. I’m wondering, did we arrive at a parallel world or is this our original world and have we just acquired memories from another world? In other words, what is happening to us is the seque of travelling through time and space and the so-called double memories is actually us going mad?”@@novelbin@@
Am I the butterfly or Zhuangzi? (KKnotes: This is another reference to the Butterfly Dream poem mentioned previously where Zhuangzi wondered if he was a man who dreamed of a butterfly or a butterfly dreaming of being a man.)
How do people tell that something is truly real?
“And I finally reached a conclusion.” Song QInn said, “It’s actually very simple if you want to know the answer to these questions.”
The car had at some point in time reached Ji Yushi’s ce.
Ji Yushi had originally thought that Song Qinn would drive the car to his grandfather’s ce and then he would drive back home. This would be considered as ‘dropping Song Qinn off’.
But it seemed that Song Qinn didn’t seem to have understood his intentions. Looks like he may need to drive out again.
But Ji Yushi didn’t have the time to worry about that right now.
Because Song Qinn said to him, “The key to solving the problem lies with you. This time, I don’t want to discuss the mission report we need to give to the people above. I want you to tell me everything you remember from the moment you arrived at Jiang City, including Ouroboros, Chaos, and everything that happened after we were intercepted. If we look at the memories from a different angle and peel the skin offyer byyer, we will definitely reach the truth.”
The streemp outside illuminated Ji Yushi’s calm face. Only he himself knew how violently his heart was beating at this very moment, “My other memory? What if I make a mistake?”
“Anyone with ovepping memories can make mistakes but you won’t. Whether this is a parallel world or the aftereffects of traversing, Advisor Ji, your memory is the key for us to distinguish between the realities.” Song Qinn said, “I believe in you.”
In reality and not in a mission. This line was spoken almost too straightforwardly.
The inside of the car was suddenly quiet for a few seconds.
Song Qinn let out a light cough and said, “You can go up. I’ll take a taxi and go back to my grandfather’s ce.”
And he had to also go back to the station to pick up his car.
Ji Yushi however asked, “Cap Song, can you go back tomorrow?”
Song Qinn almost choked, “Huh?”
Was Ji Yushi inviting him to go up and stay over for the night?
Of course, he definitely didn’t mean it that way but wasn’t it a bit inappropriate for a straight man to stay overnight with a man whose sexual orientation was men?
Perhaps it was because of Song Qinn’s hesitation, Ji Yushi btedly remembered that the other party had PTSD towards getting close with a gay and felt that the other person may have misunderstood something. He undid his seatbelt, the red mark on his neck appearing and disappearing at the edge of his cor, “What I meant was———”
“Okay.” Song Qinn smoothly got out of the car, “We shouldn’t leave it until it’s toote. If necessary, we can video call Old Zhou and the others to see how they are going.”
After he said that, he looked upstairs and narrowed his eyes, “Who’s home?”
Ji Yushi breathed a sigh of relief, “Just a cat.”