《The Stars In Your Eyes》


 Chapter 1 - Your Name?

    "This is the final boarding call for passengers on flight 372 to B city. Please proceed to gate 14 immediately. Thank you."


    Jian Kang Lu raises his head slightly and looks at gate 14, he just watches the people queuing into the boarding gate. His eyes didn''t show any emotion, and stared over the gate. He didn''t like to stand there with a bunch of people. He decided to wait until only a few people left, and then stand up to board his plane.


    He looks at his elegant watch, the flight is on time. Jian Kang Lu dressed casually since this is a short and simple vacation. He wore a plain long sleeve sky blue shirt, the sleeve rolled into his elbow. Paired with dark blue jeans and white-pale blue sneakers, he looks elegant though simple.


    He had short hair and nice hands.. His nails are short and round. One of the requirements from his work is to have short and clean nails. Jian Kang Lu is charming, not a kind of divine handsome man, but definitely 8 out of 10 people will say that he''s handsome, despite their gender.


    He has to admit this short vacation is nothing special, since he is just alone without any companion to enjoy W city. But to spend 5 days of free time without having to think about his patient, or receiving non stop calls and messages from hospital, is such a rare pleasure for him.


    At his age, most of his acquaintances are already married and have family of their own. Even his younger brother is already married and has a son. His friends are bound to have vacation with their own little family. Almost 36 year old, Jian Kang Lu is still single.


    He shows his boarding pass to the flight attendant and starts to look for his own seat. He didn''t manage to get a business class seat since this is a peak season and he booked his ticket last minute. He just hoped he didn''t get a seat next to an annoying person. Luckily he managed to check in earlier from his mobile phone, and still got a window seat. His favourite seat. He''ll be pissed off if he got the middle seat.


    He found his seat, and planned to give one of his professional smile to excuse himself to get on his seat. The aisle and middle seat are already occupied. A young girl sits in the aisle, and a young man sits in the middle.


    "Excuse me, sorry to bother both of you. My seat is in the window, apologised for this hassle."


    The young girl stood up and smiled back at him. "It''s okay"


    The young man raised his head, and then stood up following the girl beside him to give space for Jian Kang Lu. When that young man looked up to him and moved his body next to him, Jian Kang Lu''s heart skipped a beat.


    This young man is cute.


    This boy definitely is not a stunning pretty boy that will attract people at first sight, but there''s something in him that made Jian Kang Lu''s heart beat faster when he saw him at this moment.


    His black hair looks so smooth like satin, with bangs covering his eyebrow. His white skin looks pale, contrasting with his black hair. His eyes are typical asian eyes. Not a perfect phoenix eyes, but gives warmth to people around him. His straight nose complemented his facial structure, and his pale pink lips...


    That lips definitely look so enchanting. Not a sensual lips, but made Jian Kang Lu wonder, how that lips feels when he bite him.


    His height is slightly shorter than Jiang Kang Lu, maybe around 174 cm, since his own height is 182 cm. His body looks proportional though a bit thin under his black T-shirt. His body is not a muscular type, but looks just fine. His slender hand brushed Jian Kang Lu arms when he passed him to give spaces.


    It only took 5 second for Jian Kang Lu to move immediately to his seat. He doesn''t like to wait, so he is sensible enough rushing to sit in his own seat. He doesn''t want to obstruct the people behind him. When he put his safety belt, the young man already sat back next to him and started to put on his own safety belt.


    Jian Kang Lu took his phone out of his pocket and turned the phone into airplane mode, then turned it off. The young man next to him also takes out his phone and types something. Jian Kang Lu glanced at those slim fingers typing. He didn''t want to pry someone else''s privacy, but he can''t help to look at those beautiful hands next to him. He noticed the background image of that young man''s phone is from a game he played too. Magallan.


    The flight attendant starts to count the passengers and soon they notice all passengers to turn off the mobile phone and any electronic devices. That young man then turned on his airplane mode and turned off his phone too. His phone case also had the symbol of Magallan elemental signs.


    Jian Kang Lu is almost 36 years old this year, and still single. He is already alone for more than 2 years. After his last relationship ended, he thought he would never meet any person that would attract him again.


    Jian Kang Lu had a quite wild history of romance. He had 5 ex-girlfriends, 4 of them ended so bad. Either he cheated on them, or they cheat on him. Last girlfriend he had only lasted for 8 months and they just separated nicely.


    He used to wonder why he never had any deep attachment with them. All of them are nice women, smart, and beautiful. Well, not all of them are kind though. But all of them are smart. He is a smart man also, he didn''t like dumb individual to become his partner.


    Then he met Wu Shen. That''s when he knows for sure that he was gay. He was always attracted to beautiful men, but he never tried to have any relationship with a man before. After all, his background and his working environment is not a supportive one to have an open relationship with man. They spent 3 years together but it doesn''t work well for him too.


    After his relationship with Wu Shen ended, he had a serious relationship with Zhang Min for 4 years. Jian Kang Lu thought Zhang Min was the one. He even planned to marry him if Zhang Min wanted to. But in the end, all of his effort just disappeared in vain.


    Then he just spent his last 2 years working, and working, and working. It doesn''t mean that he doesn''t want to have any relationship again, nor that he can''t forget Zhang Min. But you have to know that it''s difficult to find a single man around him at his age that can attract his interest.


    He might have had wildlife in his young age, but when you spent all the wild in your youth, all that is left now is just an urge to find someone who wants to spend a lifetime together.


    He used to go to bars and have some fun, but nowadays no one he met can attract him anymore. Jian Kang Lu is the type that can tell at the first glance whether he was attracted or not. His instinct is some sort of magical, all of his "first time glance" always right on the spot.


    All of those people that can attract him for the first time are usually smart, and hardworking people. That is the top requirement for Jian Kang Lu''s partner. Of course he won''t pursue all of the people that raise his attention at the first glance. He also needs to communicate and know them better. But for sure, Jian Kang Lu will never have any relationship with someone who can''t raise his attraction level at the first time meeting.


    And now here we are, on the plane, after 2 years, he had this kind of feeling again. His world sparks once more. He wants to know this young man next to him better. Though this young man looks very young compared to his own age, he really really wants to know this boy more.


    Jian Kang Lu can''t help whispering in his mind "Will he think that i''m just a pervert old man?"


    But... Let''s just have a small conversation first. Though he was 36 years old, lots of people said he doesn''t even look like a 30 years old man. He is quite confident with that. The flight attendant starts to announce that they will take off soon, and that young man just stares at the front seat.


    "Hello, sorry to bother you, did you play Magallan?"


    That young man looked at him, his eyes stared at him with wonder. And after 5 second he answered, "Yes, how do you know?"


    His voice is quite soft, just like a fluffy cloud in clear blue sky. Soothing like an azure lake in spring. Somehow, to hear this young man''s voice for the first time made Jian Kang Lu''s heart flutter. Just like a small kitten that''s so cute, and pure. Make him want to embrace this lovely kitten in his arms.


    "Oh I''m sorry, I play that game too. And I noticed your phone case had elemental signs of Maggalan. I didn''t mean to pry though."


    "..Hmm.."


    Then silence wrapped them once again.


    Jian Kang Lu is not someone who likes to disturb other people, he himself doesn''t like to be involved in conversation with strangers. But he really really can''t help to open his mouth just for the sake of hearing that young man''s voice once again.


    "What level are you now?"


    That young man looked at him again, seeming to make sure that Jian Kang Lu was really throwing that question to him. "I''m level 92"


    "Oh.. Wow, I''m still 76. Did you play it for the first time it launched?"


    "Yes"


    "I also play it from the beta version, but i can''t play it often though." Jian Kang Lu gave him one of his apologetic and embarrassed smiles. He then continued to ask "Which one is your favourite?"


    "I play Quadra a lot, but my favourite is Sigma."


    "Me too! Sigma is just wonderful, her elemental chain reaction is the best. But you need a good companion to release her potential. Too bad i don''t have many in game friends that can support her."


    "Yes, but it doesn''t matter if you pair her with good electro artefact."


    "True. But to craft good electro artefact needs a lot of grinding. Can''t buy that artefact just with money. Too bad I don''t have that much time to grind. By the way, I''m so sorry to bother you, but i don''t have any friends that play this game. So it just feels wonderful to discuss this game with real people. If you don''t want to converse, please tell me so I won''t disturb you again."


    That young man just lowered his head and softly answered, "Mmm.. That''s okay"


    The airplane started to take off. And Jian Kang Lu keeps trying to converse with this attractive kitten next to him. They have a quite lively conversation for the whole 2 hours flight. And he noticed that this kitten''s smile is very.. Cute..


    When Jiang Kang Lu heard that soft laugh, it made him fall deeper. He also doesn''t understand how he can feel this way to this young man. Is he just being single for too long and dried up like mummy? This young man is not a very attractive person too, but he can''t help to look away. The more he talks, the more he wants to know this young man better.


    When the airplane finally landed and the flight attendant opened the door, lots of passengers prepared to go down. Some of them turn on their mobile phone again. Jian Kang Lu then ask "Can I add you as my friend in Magallan, we can have co op together"


    "Okay"


    Jian Kang Lu then took out his mobile phone and turned it on. The young girl sitting on the aisle already stood up and prepared to take off from the airplane along with other passengers. The young man took out his mobile phone too and turned it on too.


    "Okay, what is your game ID? I''ll add you when we''re outside. Do you have any baggage? If you have, let''s go together. I have some baggage to pick."


    "My game ID name is Mist, but i don''t remember the number ID. Let me check it later."


    "Okay."


    Both of them went down after most of the passengers walked out. They walk together and chat again and wait for their baggage. After they added each other in Magallan, their baggage also popped up one by one.


    "I just have this one baggage. I guess i have to leave first."


    Jian Kang Lu''s heart sank immediately. He doesn''t want to have this conversation end. But of course he knows he can''t hold this lovely kitten with him here without any reason. That will make him look like a complete pervert weirdo. Jian Kang Lu then gave him his warmest smile.


    "Okay, thank you for accompanying me chatting this whole time. By the way, what is your name?"

 Chapter 2 - I Want To See You One More Time

    "Doctor Jian, you''re so bad! Why did you take vacation last month just in time when I have my annual visit!!!"


    Jian Kang Lu laughed a little and smiled sweetly to a middle aged woman in front of him. She insists on having an extra visit today just to make sure she will meet him.


    "I''m sorry. That''s my bad, auntie. Now please let me hear your heartbeat. Did you take your medicine regularly this last month without me?"


    "Of course, you keep nagging me each month to keep my blood sugar under control. You even nagged me more than my own daughter!"


    "Mmm.. That''s because i want auntie keep healthy so we could meet each month for a long long time in the future"


    "Sweet talk!"


    Her daughter beside this woman just laughs and gives Jian Kang Lu an apologetic smile.. "My mother keeps saying she won''t take her medicine regularly if she can''t meet you this month, doctor Jian. So please don''t take vacation without notice again."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled and finished his examination. "Okay, based on your lab result and physical examination today, everything is under control. I will give you the same dose of your medication. Please come again next month, and let me know if you have additional symptoms. Auntie knows I love you the most if your blood sugar is under control just like this month. That will help to maintain your kidney."


    The nurses told him that he has no more patients for today. This is already 8pm. Jian Kang Lu is hungry. The patient in the ward is under control. He''s tired and glad today is not his on call day for emergency patients.


    "Good night Nurse Yu, Nurse Li. I''m going home first then. Have a wonderful weekend. See you next week!"


    "Bye Doctor Jian!" His two nurses said in unison.


    Nurse Yu looks at Jian Kang Lu back as he walks away from them. His white coat already hung on his left hand and revealed a slim muscular body wrapped with a green long sleeve shirt paired with black trousers. His long legs emphasise his elegant image as he walks in steady steps towards the hospital door.


    "Ahh.. I just realised how lucky I am to work in this kidney polyclinic though our patient is loaded. Just realised it after Doctor Jian was absent, but he truly is an apple to our eyes. Doctor Jian is so handsome compared to other radishes in our hospital. Why is he still single until now? I can''t wait to see the lucky woman at last manage to capture his heart."


    Nurse Li laughed at her younger colleague and said, "But that makes you young nurses come to work diligently, right? If Doctor Jian is taken, all of you will have heartbreak and will affect your job. Or you girls will be mourning and take a long leave to heal your broken heart."


    "No!!! How can you say that, Nurse Li!!! Me myself will be happy from my bottom heart if Doctor Jian finally ties a knot!"


    Nurse Li just laughed and cleared the patient record in her own computer. She prepared to go home also. Looking at the knitted brows of her young colleague, she really wants to tease her again. But she decided not to talk more.


    As a senior nurse, how come she can not see all those sweet shy smiles and sometimes a little too bold body gesture thrown to Doctor Jian by her younger colleagues. Not only one or two, but a bunch of them.


    Nurse Yu might not be the one of them that is too bold with Doctor Jian. But Nurse Li can see, sometimes Nurse Yu will steal some glances to their handsome doctor with some hope expressed mildly in her face.


    It''s common to have a doctor-nurse pair in the hospital. With a busy schedule and inhuman working time, it''s natural to meet their own partner in the same environment.


    And Nurse Li sometimes heard these young nurses come and go just to make small conversation with Doctor Jian, to make sure he saw them and maybe will take interest in them one day. Who knows that with more interaction, Doctor Jian will finally choose one of them.


    Although Doctor Jian is not young anymore, you can''t deny he had a charming look. He looks not more than 30 years old, his body shaped even better than those younger residents who are either too thin because too tired, or start accumulating fat under their skin because they don''t have time to exercise. As one of the senior doctors, Doctor Jian also has a good income.


    Doctor Jian already had his own apartment, car, and his appearance is one of those charming elegance looks. He had short black hair to reveal those smooth forehead, with straight eyebrows and those curved eyes that smiled a lot. His smiles charm not only his colleagues, but also his patients.


    Doctor Jian is so popular with his patients. Lot''s of his patients will bring their unmarried daughters and try to pair him with their daughter once they know Jian Kang Lu is still single without any ring in his finger. But Doctor Jian just smiles and laughs a little, teases their patient with politeness.


    Doctor Jian is not only popular because of his looks, he is also smart. Most of his patients are long term kidney patients that not only need to take their medication. Sometimes, what the patient needs is someone to hear them and talk to them to ease their struggle with their permanent illness. They need someone who is smart enough to utilise their brain and conversation skills to make them diligent enough to take their medication and do check up regularly.


    And Doctor Jian is one of those rare doctors that will make patients comfortable enough and keep coming back to stay in their best shape.


    Jian Kang Lu already orders food from his mobile phone before he starts driving, he wants to have his dinner right when he reaches home. At this hour, it will only take 30 minutes to drive back to his own apartment. He told the restaurant to deliver his meal 40 minutes later.


    Not long after he arrived home, his food was already delivered to his door. The hot steam from the beef noodles warms his cold face, with clear broth and a little bit green onion sprinkles on top. He sits on the dining table and opens his game, Magallan.


    He checks whether his kitten is online. When he sees that Mist is online, he can''t help to smile bitterly. It''s already 1 week from his first and last meeting with that lovely kitten. They just met online two times this week, but it''s so short because he can only be online late at night. He can''t help upwards the corner of his mouth, and starts typing.


    [Did you have free time? Can we do a co-op tonight?]


    10 seconds later Mist replied.


    [Okay, give me 10 more minutes to clear daily tasks.]


    Jian Kang Lu tries to finish his meal in 10 minutes. They spent 1 hour together in the game. Not much conversation because co-op with Mist in his level is quite hard for his own lower level. Luckily Mist is really good at this game and can bring them together with good rewards.


    After co-op, Mist said he had to go offline. Jian Kang Lu felt bitter in his heart. He wants to chat more, but he can''t find any excuses to bring himself forward.


    He missed his kitten, so much. He also can''t explain why. He doesn''t converse much to know him better, nor he knows anything about this kitten except from game. But Jian Kang Lu is someone who always tries his best in anything he decides. So he bravely typed.


    [Do you have free time tomorrow?]


    Five seconds passed without reply. Jian Kang Lu stared at the screen, his heart racing fast. He hoped for a good response from his kitten. Then he saw the lines pop up from the screen.


    [I don''t have classes tomorrow.]


    Jian Kang Lu was really glad to see that positive response. He cautiously typed his response. He doesn''t want to frighten his kitten.


    [If it was alright with you, I want you to accompany me and buy a gift for my colleague''s son. He just admitted to T university last month. I don''t know what youngsters nowadays need. So I need some advice. Otherwise, i can only give a red envelope to him.]


    10 seconds passed without reply.


    Then the screen shows one short line.


    [Okay.]


    Jian Kang Lu can''t help but feel butterflies flapping their wings in his heart. He''s so relieved to see that one short word. He then types the place he suggests them to meet tomorrow, and asks his lovely kitten which time it''s convenient for him to meet.


    After his kitten goes offline, he finishes his daily task. Then he closed his app and took a bath, preparing to sleep. He can''t help but smile while lying in his lonely bed, and try to remember that kitten''s face. He closed his eyes and whispered.


    ''I want to see you one more time...''

 Chapter 3 - Saturday Round

    "Morning Doctor Jian, why so early today?"


    The nurses were quite surprised to see Doctor Jian visit the wards early in the morning. The residents behind him still look like living corpses with black eyes. Usually Doctor Jian is kind enough to have morning rounds at 9.30 on Saturday morning. This gives his resident time to sleep longer and breathe easier.


    Jian Kang Lu stands behind the nurses table with one hand above the desk. He just smiled slightly and said "I have lunch appointment today, so I need to finish the morning round earlier."


    "Woah, is it lunch with a beautiful lady? Doctor Jian, you can''t do that! That''s called cheating. You''ll break my heart!" The senior nurse who is already married for 25 years and has a 24 yo son makes an exaggerated surprised and sad face. After that she pouted her lips like a maiden in vain.


    Jian Kang Lu laughed and put his hand in his heart with a solemn face "I swear sister Liu is still the most beautiful lady in my heart.. So don''t give me your sad face. Give me your smile and the patient''s charts instead, my beloved sister."


    "Liar! You even wear your best shirt today! You''re even wearing these blue jeans that I haven''t seen for a million years. Why do you even have to dress up so handsome if you don''t have a date today?"


    Jian Kang Lu made a surprised face and slightly raised his beautiful straight eyebrows.


    "So sister Liu thinks that this expired old man is still handsome? What a pleasure to hear that from my beautiful sister. I believe you tell the truth, since sister Liu is the purest and honest fairy of this hospital."


    Nurse Liu just laughs to hear that sweet talk, and gives him stacks of patient records of her wards. "Here, I don''t want to be the person who prevents our Hou Yi to meet his Chang''e from his lunch date. You still have 4 wards to visit, right?"


    "Yes, but I plan to finish those earlier today. Can''t let my Chang''e wait too long for me, or else she will fly back to the moon."


    Nurse Liu was even more surprised to hear those affirmation back from Doctor Jian. She never heard Doctor Jian confirm his statement that he has a date in the past few years. But then she smiled sincerely and said "I hope your lunch date today will go well, Doctor Jian. I want to see your wedding invitation with that beautiful Chang''e soon."


    Jian Kang Lu smiles back and starts to open the patients charts. He questioned the residents on his side right away.


    Nurse Liu smiling then turned around to see her young junior nurses still have a shocked face and curiosity aroused filled the air around them. This is the first time in so many years that Doctor Jian implicitly tells them that he had a date.


    And he looks so damn handsome today!!!


    Doctor Jian''s face today beaming with a different glow from usual. His smiles look more enchanting, and those curved eyes emitting the warmth which feels different from his usual charming smiles. It looks so fresh and his complexion is just blinding.


    Nurse Liu right about Doctor Jian wore his best shirt. The beige long sleeve shirt made from a smooth high quality material. It had a soft emboss pattern which made Doctor Jian radiating his elegance aura more than usual. The cutting also emphasises those slim but muscular chest and waist. Elegant, yet sexy.


    He doesn''t look like a man over 30 years old. In fact he looks younger than those living corpses behind him! The dark blue jeans add the young looks from Doctor Jian. It wrapped his long legs perfectly that made his legs look even longer. It''s not tight or loose. Just the right figure that only a small percentage of man could achieve. Definitely an apple to the hospital worker''s eyes.


    Who would believe if this is not an outfit for a date? And now they are just curious, from which moon this Chang''e came from and suddenly visit the earth to hook up with their Doctor Jian?


    The residents can''t even have the privilege to get surprised upon hearing their senior superior have a date. They are too busy to think about their own life. They haven''t enough time to think about the right answer from the pile of questions from Doctor Jian. Usually he will ask them slowly and point the charts one by one before they visit the patients.


    But today, Doctor Jian asks them so quickly and starts to walk to each patient''s room without even hearing their stuttering answer. The sweats from their forehead down to their armpit just flow freely. Who the hell is this Chang''e that makes our living Buddha torturing them like this!!!


    From Monday to Friday, the morning round is at 8 o''clock. Which means the resident usually starts wandering in the ward at 5 in the morning. Sometimes even earlier if the professor has rounds too.


    But Jian Kang Lu is a living Buddha in the eyes of an internal medicine resident. He took the Saturday round which was supposed to be his junior, Yang Haoyu''s responsibility. And he is kind enough not to punish or scold the resident if they don''t master the patient''s record. Unless the resident made a fatal mistake.


    So Saturday round is usually a half free day for the resident. They can start checking the patient from 8 o''clock and wrap up the rest of the administration job later after visiting the patients. But last night, at 11 pm, the resident saw the horror message for the first time in their life. Doctor Jian will do his morning round at 7 o''clock.


    Jian Kang Lu wakes up at 5 o''clock today. He just made a simple breakfast this morning, egg toast and cucumber juice. It was too early to order food and he wanted to arrive earlier at the shopping mall today. He already arrived at the ward at 6.45 in the morning.


    He can''t be late at their first "date", right? He planned to finish the morning round at 10 at the latest and meet his kitten at 11 o''clock.


    Three hours surely is not enough. So the residents today feel like rushing in a hurricane, busy writing the notes and pointer from Jian Kang Lu, with no leisure time to discuss the patient further. Usually the morning round is one of the times for them to learn more about the patient''s symptoms and other possibility of complications and treatment. And Saturday round is even more special.


    This Saturday used to be their ultimate weapon to perfectly having Monday round with Doctor Zhao Yang. Even though Doctor Zhou''s position is below Doctor Jian, but he is surely a living Enma1 from hell! His questions are sharp, and he has so many curses vocabulary and scolding variations that will make the 1st year residents cry and question their capability as doctors. Some of them even want to quit the residency.


    But if they manage to squeeze Doctor Jian''s knowledge on Saturday, and ask for an important pointer, they surely will pass Monday round alive. Not so well, but at least alive. Doctor Jian sometimes even treats them for lunch and discusses the patient furthermore.


    Or sometimes asking for their struggle outside the patients matter. He will help them in his capacity, if he could. That''s why Jian Kang Lu is their living Buddha.


    Jian Kang Lu gives them an apologetic smile when he sees his resident''s face getting paler with black lines once they know he will leave them to study alone for their Monday round. He actually knows about Zhao Yang''s cruelty. But in this medical field, cruelty is necessary.


    He believes in one institution, there has to be a good cop and bad cop system. Without the bad cop, the resident won''t push their own maximum potential. But without the good cop, residents will fall into depression and anxiety. And he saw a lot of his own colleagues suffer from those.


    Zhang Min is one of them.


    Since he''s single, he offered to stay at his role doing Saturday round 2 years ago. At that time, Zhao Yang was supposed to take over his role as his junior. But Jian Kang Lu said he wants to stay at his schedule and offer Zhao Yang to fill the Monday round.


    Last month, his junior Yang Haoyu was supposed to take over the Saturday round too. But he is a married man with 1 daughter. So Jian Kang Lu said it was necessary for Yang Haoyu to accompany his family on the weekend compared to a single dog like him.


    "I''m sorry I can''t accompany you today, but if you still have questions, you can list the questions and email me. If I manage to have free time today or tomorrow, I will send you the reference to read more about our patients today."


    The resident''s face colour returned to normal a little bit after hearing his promise. They bow to him and waved him goodbye.


    "Hope your lunch appointment today went well, Doctor Jian!"


    Jian Kang Lu smiles slightly hearing them. "Yes, I need good luck wishes. Thank you."


    He really hopes this lunch "date" with his kitten turns out well.

 Chapter 4 - Did I Disturb You?

    The sun rays from the autumn sun shines through branches of trees and warmth spreads to Jian Kang Lu''s heart. The autumn comes with regal ease, content to arrive with slow grace. Though the first leaves have tumbled to the soil so rich with rain, most remain green, fluttering in the strengthening wind.


    And so, though Jian Kang Lu wishing for the freshly calm with that hint of earthly aroma, the fragrance of homeliness, he knows he must be patient to wait for his own spring to arrive.


    His kitten said that he had free time around lunch time today. They agreed to meet in this big shopping mall not so far from his hospital. Jian Kang Lu arrived 20 minutes earlier than their appointment time.


    He stands at the mall lobby near the reception. They promised to meet each other here. He just stood there with one of his hands in his pocket. His handsome face and elegant figure made people around him can''t help to wonder why this attractive man was standing there alone.


    His other hand holding his mobile phone, browsing for the best topic to talk with youth male in the internet. He doesn''t want his kitten getting bored while having a "date" with him.


    Besides, it''s been so long since his last date. He knows his age gap with the kitten is also wide. To be honest, this is one of his reason why he''s being so fucking single without any romantic relationship for last 2 years. He''s tired of having to try guessing the other person''s mind, and tired to maintain a lively conversation.


    He already had to talk too much with his patients and colleagues, giving so many different smiles to people around him just for the sake of maintaining good relationships with them. When he finishes his work, he just wants to go home and have a silent night reading books or watching movies. Without having to be a good doctor, a good colleague, or a good friend.


    But somehow, he doesn''t mind doing this one hell of a cycle again just for the sake of hearing that lovely kitten''s voice once again. In this last week he even questioned himself whether it was just a sexual desperation, maybe he was also tired after 2 years maintaining a mutual relationship between his hands and his "brother".


    Jian Kang Lu tried to analyse himself, and found his curiosity towards his kitten not really a sexual attraction towards his kitten. He doesn''t have any lewd imagination about him, and he also didn''t want to start that perverted dream about his pure kitten. He just felt a sprout seed of happiness, from the first time he saw him in the plane.


    He doesn''t want to think too much about that. He decided to just walk one step towards another step to know his kitten better. He felt this road is quite beautiful with autumn triumphant in colour. After all, he met his kitten in autumn.


    Just let the flow of time bring forward the answer to him.


    Suddenly the phone in his hand rang, Sun Hongjia''s name appeared on the screen. He''s one of his friends from his high school. Though Hongjia studied abroad after high school, he is still one of his best friends. He''s a fuerdai, a second generation nouveau rich family in the B city. Though rich as hell, he''s a smart and calm person. That''s why they could maintain a good friendship after almost 20 years.


    Sun Hongjia is a happily married man. He and his wife, Xie Lihua, married 10 years ago after he graduated and took over some of his father''s company. Xie Lihua is not from a filthy rich family like Hongjia, but she''s a really sweet and smart woman. Her father owns a small furniture company.


    Their wedding is small compared to any fuerdai''s wedding around their circle. But so warm and intimate between friends and family. Just like this couple''s personality. They have 1 daughter and 1 son, ages 8 and 3 years old.


    Even though Hongjia has his own driver, for some reason he''s so damn afraid to go home just with his driver if he''s going to have some business meeting that will have the possibility of women and drinks around. He will always give Jian Kang Lu a call before to make sure his friend can drive him home safely after that. If not, Hongjia will pester him all day because he doesn''t want Lihua to think he''s doing something out of decency outside.


    He''s such a henpecked husband.


    But there''s another reason for Jian Kang Lu to spare his time to accompany and drive this man home after a drinking party. It all started before Hongjia married Xie Lihua.


    One day, he was drunk enough in the party and one low class model in the party tried to take advantage of him. He was dragged to a hotel room above by this young woman. And only God knows what will happen after that if Jian Kang Lu didn''t call him at that time.


    Jian Kang Lu kept talking to Hongjia non stop for 20 minutes until he picked him up at the hotel, while also noticing Hongjia''s driver to look at him while he was still on his way and make sure Hongjia was safe.


    The driver noticed the hotel security to track this young master via cctv and found him in the hotel room corridor with a young woman who tried to drag him. Jian Kang Lu immediately took him from the hotel security and the driver. Then he took Hongjia back home sound and safe.


    And that''s the story of how Jian Kang Lu started his profession as a professional driver and drinking companion to Hongjia, becoming a private joke spread around the fuerdai circle. Not a malicious joke, but a teasing one that was used between close friends.


    These young masters used to see him previously as Sun Hongjia''s high school friend who liked to hang around with Hongjia in those wild parties. But later they know that Jian Kang Lu won''t accept any party invitation from them without Hongjia.


    All of them value Jian Kang Lu quite high. Jian Kang Lu is polite, but always add liveliness to the party. He''s really smart and easy to talk to. His parents are also quite rich. He has no problem buying his own liquor, without needing anyone to cover his expenses.


    People like to be around him, and he''s not a person who likes to take advantage of their high status. That''s why Jian Kang Lu is really popular in the fuerdai circle. Besides, Sun Hongjia won''t receive any trash party invitation from trash fuerdai again after that last incident with the low class model.


    Jian Kang Lu stares at his phone, slides the screen and answers the phone.


    "Yo, why did this brother suddenly call me on Saturday noon? Does sister in law finally get bored with you and want to get rid of your clingy ass this weekend?"


    Sun Hongjia''s laugh could be heard from the other side of the phone. "You bastard! Why didn''t you tell me that you''re going for vacation to W city? Are you hiding something good from me over there? That''s why you don''t want to invite me to have some bachelor party by yourself in W city?"


    "Bachelor party your ass! I''m going for a pure mind and soul vacation alone to soothe my suffering single dog soul. I don''t want to have a vacation with you just to see you having some perverted video call with my sister in law like our last vacation. That''s really a traumatic experience for my pure virgin soul."


    Sun Hongjia snorted, "If you''re a virgin, then I''m a holy saint. So how''s your vacation? Did you manage to get my future sister in law there? Don''t tell me you''re enlightened to shaved your head, become a monk dedicated to stay celibate for the rest of your live."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled though the other party can''t see his smile over the phone. He then replied with a light teasing tone.


    "I don''t know, maybe i will just adopt a kitten to accompany me at home."


    "Shit! Are you going to transform into that granny near our high school that raised 14 cats at her home, and just smelled like cat''s poop every time we met her at mini market?"


    "No way! Nowadays cat''s litter is of good quality and I guarantee you that my kitten''s smell will be wonderful. But of course it''s only me who can hold and sniff at my kitten."


    Sun Hongjia was surprised. Will his best friend really adopt a kitten? "Do you seriously want to adopt a kitten??? God, i need to tell Xiao Hua about this. And why the hell are you so possessive with your future kitten? Why only you can sniff at your kitten. You won''t let Xiao Hua and MeiMei play with your kitten? Why so stingy now?"


    "I''m not stingy, unlike you. I haven''t even counted my fee from having to send you back home after every business party or our annual meeting we had when you''re so wasted. If I didn''t bring you back home, I''m sure my sister in law will whip you so hard until you forget how to walk with 2 legs and lose the ability of your third leg."


    "Why do you have to bring those things up? God, your pure mind and soul vacation definitely failed. It didn''t bring you any changes. You''re still as bad as a fox demon."


    Jian Kang Lu''s playful tone was heard once more. "You know my fees are hourly, right? And it''s definitely not cheap to have a nephrologist as your personal driver. Don''t worry, I''ll give a 5% discount considering our friendship for all this year."


    "I will pay all those fees when you get me a sister in law. Don''t stack your money when you don''t even know how to spend it." Sun Hongjia knows his best friend rarely spends his money except for good food.


    "Oh I will definitely send the bill to my sister in law. Don''t look down at this single dog. By the way, how do you know I have vacation to W city?"


    Jian Kang Lu heard some voices from the background. He can recognise it was HongHong and MeiMei''s voice. It seems they are pestering their dad to let them talk with their uncle Jian.


    "Oh, I met Ah Se yesterday when having dinner at Altitude. He then asked me why I didn''t accompany you on your vacation. Your brother was a little worried when heard you had vacation alone, it was not like you. So we wonder if there''s something happening with you recently. You know this big brother will always support you, so please tell me if you had something bothering your mind."


    Sun Hongjia''s tone now conveyed his worries, and Jian Kang Lu touched. But it really was not necessary for them to worry about him. He was an adult, and knew how to handle his loneliness.


    Suddenly Jian Kang Lu feels someone appeared in the corner of his eyes. He looks at the person next to him. That person stared at him and had a kind of ''did i disturb your conversation'' face.


    He wears a green hoodie sweater with black jeans. His bangs slightly shifted to the left, revealing his eyebrow so Jian Kang Lu could see his facial expression better than last time. He has a slightly curved eyebrow that suited well with his phoenix eyes. His bright eyes looked at him, and he tilted his head a little bit while stare at him.


    That is his lovely kitten.

 Chapter 5 - Cedar Wood

    "Hey, you just arrived?" Jian Kang Lu asked his kitten.


    His kitten nodded his head, and then raised his finger to point at the mobile phone that still lingered around Jian Kang Lu''s ear.


    Sun Hongjia keeps silent on the end of the line. Jian Kang Lu then said back to him.


    "Sorry brother, i have an appointment today, and my friend just came. I''m flattered you guys think about me. But it''s nothing like you guys worried about. So don''t think too much. Let me call you back later, okay?"


    "Okay, call me back later when you''re free."


    At the line of the phone, Sun Hongjia kept silent while staring at his phone.. His son and his daughter are still pestering him and asking why they can''t speak to their uncle Jian. He definitely can hear that different tone of Jian Kang Lu''s voice when talking to the other person that he can''t see nor hear the voice. It''s been so long he didn''t hear Jian Kang Lu doting tone. It seems that the vacation to W city definitely brings something new to his best friend''s life.


    He''s glad, but now he is really curious about that person. He doesn''t even know the gender of that person. He knows his best friend is gay. But he has also had relationships with women before. But considering his best friend''s past, Sun Hongjia was 70% sure that this person must be a man. No woman ever made Jian Kang Lu can speak with that tone.


    He just doesn''t know if this is the best for his best friend. Sun Hongjia still remembers Jian Kang Lu''s state when he broke up with his last boyfriend. He knows how hard for gay couple in this country, doesn''t even mention how Jian Kang Lu''s job need to make him appear respectable. It will be hard for him to have this kind of relationship with a happy ending.


    He just hopes the best for his best friend. Because he knows how good Jian Kang Lu is as a person.


    Jian Kang Lu then hung up the phone, and put the phone back in his pocket. He tilt his head to look at his kitten, and can''t help to think why his kitten looks even cuter compared to the first time he met him. He starts to wonder whether he turns into a pervert uncle that likes to eat fresh meat. This is the first time he took interest in someone much younger than him.


    "Do you want to have lunch first or just straight wandering around to accompany me choose the gift?"


    "This is still 11 o''clock, maybe we can choose the gift first?"


    Jian Kang Lu nod, "Okay. What do you think is the best gift for a new university student nowadays?"


    Both of them then walk towards the mall.


    His kitten answered him back "I assume this is a male student, right? Which department he accepted?"


    "Medical faculty."


    "Hmm.. I didn''t really know what medical faculty students need. I have no friends in that department. He must be really smart."


    "Yeah, his father is one of the youngest person to become a professor. No wonder his son chose the same field as him."


    There was a five second of silence before his kitten replied. "I do remember you said that his father is your colleague. Are you a doctor also?"


    "Yes I am. Doesn''t look like one, am i?"


    His kitten gives him a surprised face while his phoenix eyes get rounder and stare at him. Then his kitten smiled and chuckled a bit. "Yes, you don''t look like a doctor."


    "Then what do you think my job was?" Jian Kang Lu tease him.


    "Hmm.. I was guessing that you work as white collar worker, or have your own business. Or maybe even in the entertainment industry."


    "Entertainment? Why do you think that I was in the entertainment industry?"


    "Well.¡­ You look like those one in the magazine or television." His kitten said in a low voice and his ear tip looks a bit red behind his soft silky black hair.


    This time Jian Kang Lu didn''t restrain his laughter because he heard about that many times before, and said in a light tone. "A stand up comedian, maybe? Or a model in that flora and fauna magazine?"


    His kitten laughed back and said "No really. You look like an anchor or a model. A¡­ Anyway, since you''re a doctor, don''t you know better what to give for a new medical student?"


    Since his kitten''s ear turns red even more then start to stutter and try to divert the conversation, Jian Kang Lu decides not to tease him more and get along with the question.


    "I do, but honestly it''s like a million years ago when I was accepted as a new university student. I don''t really know what youngsters like nowadays. He won''t need any medical book like i used to back then, his father has tons of that. And new medical students won''t need any medical tools also. We''ll need it later when we start our internship. I just want to give him something that will make him happy despite the hardship that will come soon."


    "Hmm.. Do you know his hobby?"


    Jian Kang Lu felt that his kitten''s pondering face is exceptionally cute, it makes him want to touch that soft cheek and straighten the lines between his kitten''s eyebrows.


    "I only know that he likes to read. We talked about books every time we met. But I bet he will hate books later when he starts his study."


    His kitten stopped in front of a branded shoe store. Then he looks at Jian Kang Lu. "How about shoes? I think most of my friends love to get a new sneaker or boots. And it will be winter soon. So maybe it was good to get a functional gift. But i don''t know your budget."


    Jian Kang Lu nodded. He felt that he couldn''t reject anything his cute kitten suggested. "Okay then, let''s choose some boots or sneakers that you think are popular around youngsters nowadays."


    "Actually I don''t really know about style, but let me show you what most of my friend''s wanna get for themselves."


    "Sure!"


    Both of them walk inside and his kitten tries to show him some of sneaker. This branded store has some limited edition display shoes. Not many people are inside even though it''s the weekend. Maybe because it''s still noon time. The store attendant welcomes them and asks for their needs, then also gives them a few suggestions.


    After walking around to many branded shoe stores to compare different kinds of models and discuss for almost an hour, they finally made their choice. Jiang Kang Lu even managed to make his kitten try a few different shoes in the name of ''I want to see how it looks when youngsters wear it''.


    Jian Kang Lu is satisfied with himself. No matter from which angle or which model, his kitten looks very cute in everything he tried. Jian Kang Lu even managed to half kneel in front of his kitten to look at the shoes better. And when he stands up, he can smell the soft cologne from his kitten body. It''s a soft musk with a hint of cedar wood underneath. He wonders how it feels if he can sniff at his kitten''s nape.


    He shook his head and tried to clear his mind. Both of them agreed that the limited edition dark blue and white sneaker with some thin gold lines in the brand logo is the one that looks the best.


    Jian Kang Lu then made a phone call to his colleague to ask about his son''s shoe size. The store doesn''t have the size at the moment but they said they can get him the size around 1-2 weeks later. He agreed to pre order and asked the store to notify him once they got the shoes.


    "Thank you for accompanying me. Do you still want to wander around? You need something to buy also? I''ll accompany you back."


    His kitten shook his head. "No, I don''t. I rarely go to the shopping mall."


    "Okay then, let''s have lunch shall we? What do you want to eat?"


    "Mmm.. Anything. I don''t have many preferences."


    "Do you have any food allergy?"


    "No, I don''t."


    "I also can eat anything. It should be your choice, since I dragged you here to accompany me. It''s my treat."


    "I really rarely go outside, so i don''t really have any preferences."


    Jian Kang Lu thought for a while, and gave his suggestion. "Then you choose, Chinese food, western food, hotpot, or vegetarian."


    His kitten stops walking, and thinks for a while. He then answered slowly. "Hotpot? Is it convenient for you to eat hotpot at noon?"


    Jian Kang Lu smiles. "Why is it an inconvenience? I told you I can eat anything. This shopping mall doesn''t have an excellent hotpot restaurant. How if we go outside, i can take you to the nearest excellent hotpot restaurant. It''s not very far from here. But if you prefer to eat here, that''s also fine for me."


    "I don''t mind."


    "Great. I park my car on the 3rd floor. Do you want to go to the car with me, or do you want to wait in front of the lobby?"


    "Let''s just go together in your car. More practical."


    Jian Kang Lu smiles so bright while walking to the parking lot together with his kitten. He was so happy, he managed to have a lunch date with his kitten. His voice can''t conceal his excitement.


    "Okay!"

 Chapter 6 - Do You Have Free Time Next Week?

    This hotpot restaurant has a private room and table hall. Jian Kang Lu thought while he drove, he wanted to bring his kitten inside a private room. But maybe it will not be convenient for his kitten. After all, both of them just know each other and only meet for the second time today. So he chose the table for 2 people near the window.


    This restaurant has a modern classic interior style. The Chinese style on the ceiling with thin red paint along the dark brown wood, combined with beige painting and dark brown wood pillar giving the warm classic Chinese architecture atmosphere inside. The large window framed with thin dark brown wood and thin red paint similar to the ceiling add the modern looks, but it blends well and lightens the restaurant well. The small garden outside completed the classy overall look for this restaurant.


    The waiter brings the menu and asks for the soup choices for them.


    Jian Kang Lu asked his kitten. "Do you want the 2 grid or 4 grid? If you want you can also order the 9 grid, though it''s just both of us.."


    "Mmm.. 4 grid maybe?"


    "Okay, which soup that you want to try? I will order 2 of my favourites. Three delicacies and Sichuan spicy."


    His kitten looked at the menu for a while, and asked him while still staring at the menu. "Is this mushroom soup good?"


    "It''s nice, good to boil the mushrooms and vegetables. Meat also, but depends on your preference."


    "How about the jade chicken or the tomato soup?"


    "Tomato soup is not suitable for meat, in my opinion. But great for fish. Jade chicken is neutral for all ingredients. The soup is clear and gives a clean taste. But you can try anything you want. All of this restaurant soup is good."


    The waiter tries to open his mouth every time this young man asks. But this man across the young man always gives faster answers and even more accurately than what his answer will be. He feels that if he is just standing here without any function, he won''t get any good tips. So he gives them the best customer service smile and adds his proffesional opinion.


    "If you plan to order a variety of food, I suggest you go with jade chicken soup since it''s neutral for all. But if you plan to order a lot of seafood, then tomato soup is the best. It''s one of our best seller soups here. The pickled soup is also great for seafood, but a little bit sour."


    This young man then silent for a while, and then choose jade chicken and tomato soup. The handsome man across him then ordered the special noodle, black pork, marble wagyu, pomfret fish, scallops, vegetables, tofu, and lotus root. He then asks the young man if he wants to order anything else. But the young man shook his head and said that they can order more if it is still not enough.


    The waiter quickly taps their order into his order tablet, asking whether they already know how to mix the sauce and ask if they need the apron to protect their clothes from the soup spills. After catering their needs, the waiter leaves the table and prepares their order. In this weekend lunch hour, if he doesn''t work fast the other customer will give complaints.


    Jian Kang Lu stares at his kitten across him. From his looks, it seems that this is the first visit for his kitten. His kitten stares at the ceiling, at the ornaments in the sauce and salad bar, and even at the window frame. It''s not a look from someone who never goes to the fancy restaurant, but the looks given when people are interested in something.


    "Yutang, can i call you Yutang?"


    His kitten startled a bit, and shifted his stare back to him. He looks a bit embarrassed since his eyes widen and his ear tips reddened. He answered him. "Yes you can."


    Bai Yutang opened his mouth but then closed it again. Jian Kang Lu feels his kitten wants to ask something but is too shy. He decided to just ask him.


    "Is there anything you want to ask me? It''s okay."


    Bai Yutang glanced at the corner then looked back at him. His voice is a bit low and sounds embarassed. "This is my first time coming here. This restaurant design is really mixed well between the function and the space utilization, the architect and the designer really did well. I wonder if I can look around more."


    Jian Kang Lu laughed and said "It''s okay, you can look around. The soup will come soon but will need a minimum of 10 minutes to heat and cook the ingredient. You can look around and come back here. I''ll wait here. But be careful, it''s getting crowded."


    Bai Yutang nodded, and started to stand up walking around. First he goes to the salad bar, looking at the tables and ornaments, then he goes to the corner, looking at the pillar, staring at the small stairs in the opposite corner, then he even goes to the toilet too.


    Jian Kang Lu noticed all the facial expressions made by his kitten. It is filled with wonder and calculating looks. This is the first time for him to look at so many different expressions from his kitten. It seems his kitten is interested in architecture and designs. He decided to ask more when his kitten came back.


    The soup is served, and the waiter starts to boil the soup. The waiter left and back a little bit later with several of his orders. When his kitten came back, Jian Kang Lu already started boiling some of the vegetables.


    "Come, let''s eat. If you are really interested in the restaurant design, we can ask later whether we can take photos with our mobile phone."


    "Really? It won''t bother you? Is this restaurant giving permission to be photographed?"


    Jian Kang Lu put lotus root into the jade chicken and delicacies soup, and the meat into all kinds of different soup while answering his kitten with a pampering tone.


    "Of course, some of the people I saw here took some selfies and the restaurant never bothered by them. But if you want to take different photos around it''s better to ask before."


    Jian Kang Lu then put the cooked meat into his kitten bowl.


    "Try this first, then later try all different kind soup. The noodles will be made here in awhile. You can try everything and later tell me which one you like the most."


    His kitten lifts his chopstick and starts to eat, and from his face it is shown he likes the food here. He''s glad. This is one of his favourite hotpot restaurants, and most of his acquaintances love to eat here. It''s good if he knows one of his kitten''s favourite foods.


    "So, i can see you took great interest in architecture and design. Are you an architecture student? Or design?" Jiang Kang Lu asks with a light tone.


    "Yes, I''m a third year architecture student."


    His kitten started to try different kinds of soup, it seems he likes the delicacies soup and jade chicken the most. Jian Kang Lu noted that, and will remember it the next time he brings his kitten here.


    "Where did you study?"


    "T university, the same with your colleague''s son."


    "Really? That''s my alma mater too. It''s been so long since the last time I visited there. Does the cafeteria still sell that weird-tasting meat bun? We used to have those meat buns as a punishment for losers in our card game."


    Bai Yutang lifted his head and stared at him. "You must be really smart to be accepted as a medical student in T university. The meat bun tastes fine, I often bought that for breakfast. I guess maybe they changed the chef if it tasted weird before."


    Jian Kang Lu laughed when he remembered that meat bun from hell, and boiled the scallop and fish into the tomato soup and Sichuan soup.


    "Well I guess i''m lucky to be accepted there. And good to know our tuition money is enough for them to change the chef. So you don''t have to experience the horror of end of month poverty that pushed us to have that meat bun as our choice of food."


    "Mmm.. The cafeteria food is good enough for me. I rarely eat outside except for some food stall around the dorm."


    "Do you like to eat at the hotpot restaurant outside the 17th dorm? I used to love to eat there back then. Or is it close already now?"


    "Yes! That Huxiang restaurant, right? It''s quite cheap and the food tastes good. I thought it was the best hotpot I had until I tried this now."


    "Oh, i miss the tastes though. For university students, I guess that restaurant is really the best one. Maybe we can eat together over there sometimes. I missed the ambience over there."


    Bai Yutang''s eyes look like he really loves the fish boiled in the tomato soup that he just put inside his lovely mouth. His face has already blushed from the hotpot heat, and his pale pink lips turn into the hot pink colour slightly swollen from the spicy Sichuan soup before. He looks enchanting.


    Jian Kang Lu heart skipped a beat, and he really really.. Really trying hard to hold himself not to stare too long at that lips. He is afraid he will start to raise his hand, wanting to touch that soft pink petal. In Jian Kang Lu''s mind, he starts to think all the dirty thoughts he wants to do with that lips.


    ''Kang Lu!!! I can''t believe you turn into such a horny dog! This is just a pure young man who knows nothing! Don''t you dare to turn yourself into an old perverted uncle with no dignity!!!''


    While he was busy scolding himself, his soul dragged back to reality and flew to heaven when he heard his kitten say something.


    "Okay, next time it''s my treat. How about next week? Do you have free time next week?"

 Chapter 7 - White Bucopa

    This cafe inside the hospital is one of Jian Kang Lu''s favorite places. With many potted plants inside and a small bucket of white bacopa on the table, create a clean and fresh environment in this hospital. Not many cafe put white bucopa as their main flower decorative. With big and wide white windows, made the visitor forget that this is still inside a hospital.


    The menu is simple western food, with excellent coffee. No wonder the coffee addict or the night shift hospital worker loved to order here. Especially their special blend, from the dark roast arabica beans. It has deep, full bodied flavor and notes of caramelized sugar. With that subtle note, the after taste of pure black coffee doesn''t have any bitter lingering feeling.


    In the corner of the cafe, the autumn sun gives the light gold speck at Jian Kang Lu''s hair. His soft short black hair slightly shifted to the left, showing his smooth forehead and straight eyebrows. His slender finger holding the tablet which showed the CT scan result of their discussed patient today. He''s pointing at the part of adrenal adenoma which confirms their diagnosis of Conn''s syndrome..


    "As you can see, it will be quite challenging to find this with CT scan only. If you want to make this as your selective case, you need to do the selective adrenal arteriography or dexamethasone supprresed iodocholesterol adrenal scan too. But in the clinical field, to diagnose you only need the elevated aldosterone level and hypokalemia along with the symptoms before you decide to do CT scan or other imaging. And never underestimate the friendly conversation with your radiology colleague to achieve a comprehensive CT result."


    His residents record their conversation so they don''t need to be busy writing notes. They can play the recording later while reviewing the patient chart again. This Saturday round was spent to discuss more about the patient in the ward. After all, Jian Kang Lu didn''t give them much time last week.


    Today, his kitten promised to treat him in the hotpot restaurant near T university. Jian Kang Lu asks for dinner time, since he still remembers the pale face of his residents when he abandons them for his lunch date. He doesn''t have the heart to forsake them again.


    He treats his residents for lunch in this cafe. After they finished lunch and discussion, it was already 3 o''clock in the afternoon. He prepares to say goodbye while asking the waiter to give the bill. One of his residents suddenly asked.


    "Doctor Jian, how''s your lunch date last week?"


    The other residents start to lit their eyes and ask the same question. "Yes Doctor Jian, you don''t have any lunch date again today? When can Chang''e goddess graciously bless us with her appearance?"


    Now they have confidence that they can pass the Monday round alive, their curiosity starts to emerge and shamelessly ask a bunch of questions about their superior love life. If this is their other superior, they won''t have an ounce of courage to ask these kinds of things.


    Jian Kang Lu laughed and opened his mouth to answer. But before his voice emerged, suddenly there''s a woman''s voice behind his back asking him with an amused and teasing tone.


    "Well well well.. Is this because Mid Autumn is coming soon so Chang''e Goddess finally decided to descend down to earth? Can this Chang''e blessed me too? Or you want to keep her privately for you only to see? Don''t be a stingy donkey ass. I swear I''ll send every patient I had with slightly elevated creatinine to you if you let her get back to the moon before I can see her."


    Jian Kang Lu looked back to see Wang Mingyu''s bright face blinking her round eyes behind those turtle frame glasses. She crossed her arms and looked like a teacher scolding their naughty students. She''s his university friend, and doing the residency in the same hospital. But Wang Mingyu chose endocrinology as a subspecialty while Jian Kang Lu chose nephrologist.


    "This Chang''e hasn''t blessed me yet and you guys are already pestering me? I can imagine my Chang''e don''t even bother to fly on her own. She''ll definitely run away as soon as she can with a rocket back to the farthest Saturn moon, if i ask her to meet you guys now."


    Wang Mingyu looked at her friend with a disbelief. And the residents laugh as if they don''t believe in his words.


    "Now you really intrigued my curiosity. What kind of Goddess that doesn''t want to blessed our living Buddha."


    Jian Kang Lu tried to give her the best solemn and sad face. "But it''s true. This uncle is already so old and his dating skills are rusty all over. Especially when facing the moon Goddess. So this uncle needs to try harder and learn from the success experiment. Do you guys have dating advice for me?"


    Wang Mingyu waved her hand over the residents and said with a mocking tone "Don''t bother to get advice from these zombies. If they can manage to have a date, that''s because their partner is blind or only wants to have a doctor as their lover. Just like I managed to hook my husband. Fortunately his sight didn''t recover until now, or he''ll divorce me on spot."


    Jian Kang Lu laughed because he knew how much her husband loved her. Wang Mingyu''s husband is their senior, a calm and a bit nerd anaesthesiologist. They suit each other perfectly.


    "Don''t curse my brother in law. By the way, why are you here at the weekend? You don''t need to make sure your kids still remember you as their mother and don''t call you auntie again?"


    Wang Mingyu poked his shoulder and shouted, "Donkey ass! Don''t reveal that to these zombies. I still need to maintain my dignity as their superior! I came here to do the doppler. My research still needs nine more patients and my time is running out. If you find some diabetic patient with my research criteria, please send them to me."


    "Okay, I will. Just sent me the criteria through email. I''ll let you know."


    The waiter gave the bill to him, and Jian Kang Lu paid with his cards. He then signed the receipt and stood up. "I need to go now. Send my regards to my brother in law and my nephew."


    Wang Mingyu nodded, but didn''t forget to remind Jian Kang Lu. "Okay, please remember to ask your Chang''e to bless me!!!"


    Jiang Kang Lu laughed and patted her shoulder. He waved goodbye to his residents and all of them stood up and sent him out.


    Wang Mingyu looked at Jian Kang Lu''s broad back, walking further from them. She is really curious about this Chang''e. The last time she met Jian Kang Lu''s girlfriend was Fu Xiulan, it''s more than eight years ago. After that, she never met any other girlfriend or heard about any woman in Jian Kang Lu''s life. She once suspected Jian Kang Lu can''t forget Fu Xiulan. Because she knows her handsome friend is really popular among ladies.


    He''s handsome, smart, successful, polite, gentle, and another bunch of superior quality that will make any woman feel lucky to be his lover. She also knows his friend used to have a few ex-girlfriends before Fu Xiulan. All of them have their own charm. But Jian Kang Lu never had any signs that he will end his bachelor life until today. Especially this last year. He is always busy at the hospital.


    He still looks radiant as ever, no one can pinpoint anything different about him. But Wang Mingyu knows him for more than 10 years. She can see that Jian Kang Lu is not happy. He just lives his life like a robot. And she feels sorry about that, though she doesn''t know how to help him.


    After all, Jian Kang Lu had a big role to introduce her to her husband now. He also helped her a lot in her residency life and her thesis. She knows Jian Kang Lu just helped her out of their friendship. He is also a straightforward person that won''t help others if he''s busy or out of his scope.


    Jian Kang Lu is a really smart doctor with high efficiency, so he always did his tasks faster than others. He may not be the smartest, but he knows a lot of things outside the medical field. He fluently writes and speaks in english, uses the computer very well, and has a systematic work style.


    That''s why Wang Mingyu never refuses if Jian Kang Lu offers to help her. And she tried her best to bring out her maximum quality. In residency, your life depends on your team mate. The faster they get the work done, the faster they can have rest and do other things.


    Most of their colleagues are already married. Seeing Jian Kang Lu single for a long time, lots of them try to introduce Jian Kang Lu with blind date. They know Jian Kang Lu criteria, so they pick the smart and lovely lady to have the blind date. This excluding Wang Mingyu, because she herself knows how annoying it was when people keep asking why you haven''t married yet and disturbing her private life.


    After five times going for blind date, he bluntly rejected all of these ladies politely and asked his friends not to try asking him for blind date anymore. He said it was not working for him.


    And today, this is the first time in this many years she accidentally heard Jian Kang Lu have a date. She really hopes this will work well for her friend. She prays that Jian Kang Lu will find the happiness that he deserved.

 Chapter 8 - The Smile

    It''s 6.45 pm when Jian Kang Lu arrived at Huxiang. The restaurant is small, with the trace of time staining the walls outside. The inside is still as clean as ever, though a little bit old. With a square black wood table and few calligraphy paintings on the wall. There''s a stove in the middle of each table and already quite crowded inside the restaurant.


    This Huxiang is really popular among university students, especially at the beginning until 3rd week each month. The price is still friendly for students, but not many of them still can afford to eat leisurely at the end of the month. The taste is one of the best around the other restaurant. But the price really doesn''t lie.


    The hotpot restaurant he brought his kitten last week cost 5-10 times more than this restaurant. Because that hotpot restaurant is the classy one with a private room, highest quality ingredients, and best grade of wagyu beef.


    But still, coming back to Huxiang, made him feel nostalgic about his youth. When everything is hard back then seems so simple now. He realised how much he changed in the last 18 years. He wished he could come back when everything is so simple, and lead a simple happy life.


    He looked at the counter and found that the man behind the cashier already turns into a grandpa. His white hair looks a bit thin, and his face already has wrinkles around. But his eyes still look sharp as ever, and his hand works fast separating each order and bill.


    He walks towards the counter and greets him.


    "Hello Uncle Zhang. Do you still remember me?"


    The old man raised his face and looked at him, and his eyes showed him a disbelief expression. He looks like trying to make sure he guessed right.


    "Kang Lu?? Is it really you? How many years already since the last time you came here? 6 or 7 years?"


    Jian Kang Lu smiled and leaned to the counter.


    "Uncle Zhang''s memory is still the best. I think it''s 6,5 years. I should conduct some research about the ingredients of this restaurant. Which one makes your brain retain their memory fresh even after this many years."


    "You little brat! Why have you never visited me again after this long time? Did you get bored eating at my place now when you finally became such a famous doctor?"


    "Uncle, don''t tease me. I''m not famous. You''re the one that''s famous. Almost all T university alumni and students know you. How are you? And where''s auntie? I missed her too."


    "Don''t try to seduce my wife again. I''ve been working hard to win her heart back since you left. She already plans to leave me immediately if you want to take her away. Luckily today she''s not in town. She visit our grandson in H city until Mid Autumn festival finished."


    "Ah, too bad. And here I am ready to kidnap our Goddess to my humble cave."


    Uncle Zhang pounced on Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder. "Don''t you start to repeat those dark times again. Why do you look like you never aged after these years? I''m the one who needs your youth elixir. Look at my white hair and wrinkles now."


    "Uncle! Since when did you start to learn those sweet talks? If I don''t know you, I''ll believe those sweet words for real."


    "I learn from you, stinky brat! I had to learn or my wife will keep pestering me. You came here to eat? Are you waiting for Luo Yan and Zhuo Ying?"


    "Yes uncle, of course i came here to eat. Since my first plan to kidnap our Goddess failed. But today i''m not here with Luo Yan and Zhuo Ying. I''m waiting for my friend. Is my usual table empty? No reservation? If it''s empty, i would like to sit there."


    Uncle Zhang checked his reservation list and told him that the table is empty. If there''s any reservation, he will make the other customer sit everywhere else. Jian Kang Lu just laughs because he knows uncle Zhang will never do that. He always serves his customers well and fair.


    Both of them walked towards the table, and when Jian Kang Lu looked at the entrance, he saw his kitten walk inside the restaurant. Today he''s wearing a maroon sweater with beige letters in front. His maroon sweater makes his face complexion look whiter and smooth, feels like someone can pinch water from his cheeks.


    He waved his hand and called his kitten to come over.


    Bai Yutang''s head turned around to his direction when he heard Jian Kang Lu''s voice. Then he starts to walk to him. Uncle Zhang was surprised to see the person that came still looks so young. He looks like a university student.


    "Do you know him?" Jian Kang Lu asked Uncle Zhang.


    "Hmm, I know that he must be studying here in T university. But i don''t know him. Who is he? Your younger cousin? I remember your brother already graduated and not this young."


    Jian Kang Lu raised his hand towards the incoming kitten. He soon arrived in front of them.


    "Let me introduce you. Uncle, this is my friend, Bai Yutang. He''s a third year architecture student here. And this is Uncle Zhang, the owner of Huxiang. Please take care of him, uncle. Give him a discount if he came here again in the future. He told me that Huxiang is his favourite hotpot restaurant."


    Uncle Zhang still wonders why his favourite customer has a friend that is so young. It seems they''re not having family relation, because Jian Kang Lu definitely will introduce him as one if he was his distant family.


    "I''ll remember that. Bai Yutang, right? Give me a call for reservation if you want to come here in the future. I''ll definitely take care of you since Kang Lu said my restaurant is your favourite. But don''t ever try to follow his steps of kidnapping my wife or I''ll black list you as my customer."


    Jian Kang Lu held uncle Zhang both hands, and said with a higher tone.


    "Uncle! Please leave me some dignity in front of this young generation. Don''t disclose all my dark past to him! I''ll make sure not to try kidnapping our Goddess again in the future!"


    Uncle Zhang snorted and said "Hmph! How many times you deceive me? This is my chance to pay you back for all my suffering back then! Just wait and see!"


    "Okay okay, I surrender. Now could this kind and compassionate uncle give us the menu? I haven''t been here for a long time, who knows if you have a new menu I haven''t tried yet."


    Uncle Zhang snorted again and patted his shoulder, then left and told the waiter to bring them the menu. Jian Kang Lu asks his kitten what he wants to order. Since this is his treat, Jian Kang Lu doesn''t want to order anything that may burden him.


    His kitten looked at him and asked him for his preferences for a while, then both of them settled with the menu. Jian Kang Lu didn''t have additional orders. Even if tonight he only can eat that weird taste meat bun back then from the university cafeteria, he thinks he will still be satisfied and feel full if he can spend time eating together with his kitten.


    His kitten still looks at him with a weird expression.


    "Do you have a question for me?" Jian Kang Lu asked him with a gentle tone.


    "Mmm.. I bet you were really popular back then. The restaurant owner still can recognise you after all this time. I came here several times, but just come to eat and never converse with that grandpa. I don''t even know that he is the owner."


    Jian Kang Lu smiles and explains to him slowly.


    "It''s not that i''m popular. But we are medical students. One day, his wife looked so pale and kept holding her left stomach. Back then we''re still in our 2nd year. We are still learning the basics, not yet the diseases nor the treatment. But we knew something wrong with her. He also worried about her but his wife refused to go to hospital since she already visited the doctor 2 days ago. We knew if the symptoms didn''t alleviate after 2 days, it must be something worse than regular stomach ache. So we talk to her and volunteer to send her to the hospital just to make sure everything is okay. Turns out she''s having acute appendicitis. She''s having the surgery on the next day. After that uncle Zhang and his wife always give us discount every time we came here to eat."


    Bai Yutang looks at him, and (maybe) Jian Kang Lu can feel some hint of admiration from his expression. Jian Kang Lu could hear his kitten''s soft voice when he said "It''s really cool to become a doctor."


    Jian Kang Lu heard that line already like a million times. He gently smiled and said "It''s not that cool. In so many circumstances, we also could not do anything. Every profession is cool in their own way. Maybe I know better about the human body than you, but that''s because I learned about it. I don''t know anything about architecture. And i think it''s great how human imagination can build a beautiful yet functional building, and shield us inside from the dreadful outside. I know great buildings not only give safety in the physical matter, but also can heal the human soul. And that''s also very cool."


    Bai Yutang''s lips curved slightly, revealing his smile to him. And Jian Kang Lu''s worlds stop spinning in that moment. That smile is the prettiest thing he has seen, for it extends to Bai Yutang''s eyes and deep into his soul.


    The gentle, the purity, the innocence so vibrant and free.

 Chapter 9 - Jian Ge

    "Uncle Jiaaaannn!!!"


    Jian Kang Lu kneels right away to catch the red ball running into him. His 4 years old nephew looks like a cute ball inside that red coat. This year''s autumn is windy and children need to wrap up when they play outside.


    "Mmm.. Xiao Ming is bigger than last week we met. Good job!


    "Yes, that means I can get my reward???"


    Jian Ming''s round eyes look at him with hopeful looks, and his round cheek blushed with pink tint after running towards him so fast. Luckily he didn''t trip this time. Jian Ming used to cry if he tripped by himself when running. But his family taught him that he had to stand on his own and never cried just because he tripped. If he doesn''t cry, his parents will reward him with a hug and 1 scoop of his favourite ice cream or carrot cake..


    "Of course! Uncle Jian never lied. What games do we wanna play today?"


    "Let''s play football, uncle. Ask dad to play with us too."


    "Okay! Let uncle Jian greet your grandpa and grandma first, after that we can play. Is that okay for our Xiao Ming?"


    Xiao Ming giggled and held his hand and dragged him inside. His small fingers wrapped around Jian Kang Lu''s wrist. Both of them talking while walking. Usually Jian Kang Lu will ask about his friends, what kind of new things he learned at kindergarten, and tease him if Jian Ming said he didn''t learn anything.


    His father, Jian Shen, is 60 years old this year. His hair still had lots of black colour compared to his colleagues around his age. People can''t see that this old man turns 60 this year. He looks 10 years younger and still looks handsome in his late age. His body is still well maintained.


    His father sits on the sofa of their living room next to a big window facing the garden outside. His brother is sitting across from him, they seem to be talking about something serious. Maybe the financial market again.


    Jian Shen used to work as vice president in a big trading company. He retired 5 years ago, but sometimes still invests in the stock market. They''re not a filthy rich family, but more than enough to support his 2 children. His childhood house already moved into this luxury housing complex 20 years ago. His father did quite well.


    After Jian Kang Lu greets his dad, he asks where his mom is. He already guessed that his mom is in the kitchen preparing the Mid Autumn lunch feast with his sister in law. And his mother just walked into the living room. Lin Caihong also looks younger than her real age. She turns 56 year old this year. Jian Kang Lu''s good looks are inherited from his parents. But his elegant posture and gentle smile definitely passed down from his mom.


    Since they live in the same city, Jian Kang Lu always tries to spend every Sunday with his family. This time differences only the lantern decoration outside the gate, they will celebrate the Mid Autumn festival together.


    Every Mid Autumn his mother will cook their favourite beggar chicken. His mom never cook moon cake, she said that the moon cake from W hotel definitely tastes much better than her own. So she doesn''t want to waste her effort.


    "Hi Mom, how are you? What time will we have lunch? I want to play football first with Xiao Ming"


    His mom hugged him back and told him to play only for 30 minutes. Since it''s also windy outside. And remind him to change his clothes first into a more comfortable outfit.


    Jian Kang Lu invited his brother to play together. Football is best played with more people. His father told his brother to play together and they can continue to talk about the stock market later after lunch.


    Jian Kang Se working in the bank as treasury. His father''s knowledge about trading surely helped him a lot. Most of the conversation every Sunday dominated with that topic. While Jian Kang Lu usually talks about daily matters with his mother and sister in law. His sister in law is also working in the bank, but in a different bank and not dealing with financial matters. She works as human resources manager.


    After lunch, the whole family spent their time talking together in the living room. The lively conversation is dominated by Xiao Ming who wants to show his uncle the chicken dance he learned at school. His nephew is really lively unlike his father. Jian Kang Se personality tends to be more calm. A gentle person who smiles a lot but doesn''t talk much. This lively personality must be inherited from his mother.


    At 4 o''clock Xiao Ming tired and took a nap with his mother. His brother then spoke to him.


    "Ge, I have classical music tickets for two people next month. I remember you like Yang Jing. She will perform in that concert. If you want, i can give you the ticket."


    "For real? I love her! Is it for free? You won''t charge this handsome brother of yours right?"


    "Ge, please don''t shamelessly state that you''re handsome when you don''t have any wife. I won''t charge you. Take it as my effort to fill your lonely soul." Jian Kang Se''s face didn''t change his expression even slightly. He really felt it was not necessary to agree with his brother''s shameless words. Too bad that handsome face of his brother left alone without someone to admire it everyday.


    Jian Kang Lu laughs and knocks his brother''s arm. "Then i will gladly receive the ticket. How can you get it? Is it really free? If it was too expensive, I''ll pay the ticket to my sister in law."


    "Yes it''s free, Ge. My bank is sponsoring the concert. We got a few free tickets in the invitation box. You enjoy that kind of performance more than me. So it will be better if you were the one who watched it. The performer will be happier if their fans watch it compared to bankers who didn''t really know her."


    "Okay, you can give me the ticket next week when we have family lunch again."


    After that, Jian Kang Lu goes upstairs to take a bath. His room is still the same as he used to have in high school. His light brown desk in the corner, with beige soft carpet in the middle of the room. The differences are only the bed and the bathroom. He changed it into the better one. But his closet is still the same, and he still has his old clothes inside the wardrobe.


    After taking a bath, he opened his mobile phone. After staring for a while, he opened WeChat and pressed his kitten ID.


    [JianKangLu] Happy Mid Autumn festival!


    He stares and no reply until 5 minutes.


    He missed his kitten, but he also doesn''t know how to get closer with him. He met him almost 1 month ago. But they only meet 3 times. In the plane, lunch date, and dinner date. He shamelessly thinks every meeting with his kitten is a date. Last time they met, he asked for his kitten WeChat ID.


    His excuses? So he can do co-op together when his kitten is offline. So lame, but he can''t find any better reason. He looks at the family picture on his desk. It was taken on his graduation day.


    He feels lucky. Though he hasn''t married until now, his parents didn''t pester him or shove him with a list of women to a blind date. Sometimes they tease him, or make jokes about him being an expired old uncle. But they never forced him to get married.


    Even at the new year when his big family kept asking him the same question, when uncle and auntie pestered his parents, his parents defended him and said that this is his own life, no one should interfere with that.


    There''s only one time his mother asking him seriously why he didn''t get married. At that time, he''s still with Zhang Min. That time he said to his mother that he has a serious relationship, but his partner is still not ready yet to get married. He was honest that time, and ready to stake everything for Zhang Min..


    But in the end, a relationship is like clapping your hand. You can''t clap your hand with just one hand. He doesn''t want to be a jerk that pushes his partner. He loves him so much that time, and respects his decision.


    But in the end, he can''t take it anymore. Clapping with one hand is tiring enough. So he doesn''t want to be a toxic partner that will create toxic relationships. Jian Kang Lu chose to walk away and give freedom to Zhang Min.


    After that one serious talk, his mother never asked him again. His parents know how he is responsible for his whole life. He did his best in high school. He graduated well in university. He was admitted into one of the best hospitals in the country for his residency. He always lived his life as best as he could.


    None of his decisions in life were decided by his parents. He chose the medical field by his own decision. They have no doctor in their family, so his parents are also surprised by his decision. But they let him choose and he shows his parents he can do it well. It''s the same for the rest. His parents respect his decision, and he shows them that he is responsible for his own choices.


    ''Ping''


    He looked at his phone, and his kitten replied back.


    [WhiteMist] Happy Mid Autumn festival. I hope that you go well and have a bright future.


    [JianKangLu] Thank you. Did you spend the Mid Autumn with your family?


    [WhiteMist] Yes, i''m in my hometown now.


    [JianKangLu] Let me guess, W city?


    [WhiteMist] Yes. How do you know? Are you from W city also?


    [JianKangLu] No, I''m a B city native. I guessed right, because I met you in the airplane from W city last time.


    [WhiteMist] Then what are you doing that time in W city? Some working matter?


    [[JianKangLu] No, only for a short vacation. I haven''t had any vacation for more than 1 year. If I don''t use it again this year, it will just be wasted like last year.


    [WhiteMist] But i saw you alone that time in the airplane.


    [JianKangLu] Yes, i''m going alone. So pitiful, right? My friends were busy and that was a last minute decision. So I was just on a whim and booked the plane. But I enjoy my vacation.


    [WhiteMist] You''re not going with your family?


    [JianKangLu] I think it will be more pitiful if I have my vacation with my parents.


    ¡­.


    [WhiteMist] Your wife?


    [JianKangLu] Unfortunately i''m still single. When will you be coming back to B city?


    ''Well, I''m single now. But maybe if i can bend you, i''m not single anymore next Mid Autumn festival.''


    [WhiteMist] 2 days more. I have classes so I can''t stay here for too long.


    [JianKangLu] By the way, my brother said he has 2 tickets for a classical concert next month. I don''t know whether you like it or not.


    [JianKangLu] My favourite violinist will perform there. If you''re free, can you accompany me? Going alone is kinda weird.


    [White Mist] I have never been to a classical concert before, but i like classical music. I can''t promise you anything. But if I''m free, then I can accompany you.


    [JianKangLu] Great! Let me tell you the exact date and time when i received the ticket next week.


    [JianKangLu] Oh, do you have someone to pick you up at the airport? If you want, i can check my schedule to see whether i can pick you up at the airport if you don''t have anyone to pick you up.


    ¡­


    [WhiteMist] No need Jian Ge, I will take a taxi back to the dorm. My flight landed at 1 o''clock at noon time.


    [JianKangLu] Okay, just let me know in advance if you change your mind.


    They chat a bit for a while, and when his kitten says that his parents call him to go down preparing for dinner, Jian Kang Lu said goodbye too.


    Jian Kang Lu feels happy today. This is the longest conversation he had while chatting with his kitten, and the first time his kitten called him Jian Ge. It will be better if his kitten calls him Gege.


    It''s just a small thing. But he feels happy with every small thing his kitten does to him. He never realised, sometimes happiness can come from small things if the right person does that for you.

 Chapter 10 - Spring

    Jian Kang Lu already arrived at the concert hall at 6.20 pm. Today he wears a black suit with black V-line T-shirt inside, paired with black pants and black leather shoes. His hair combed slickly to the back.


    He wears his best watch, a super expensive gift from Hongjia as his last year birthday gift. It costs around USD 20.000. Maybe even more, since his name is engraved at the back of the watch. And it was a limited edition collection that year.


    He asked Hongjia last year when he received that watch, why he gave this expensive watch as a birthday gift. He knows this watch can''t even match Hongjia''s watch collection. One of Hongjia''s watches even cost more than USD 100.000.. Sun Hongjia answers that maybe Jian Kang Lu won''t get married for lifetime, so he gave that watch to console his lonely soul.


    He just laughed that time and said thank you, hoping his sister in law is not jealous and demanded a limited edition Cartier necklace for her next birthday gift.


    His overall looks tonight are not too formal, giving him fresh and young looks. But not too casual since this is a classical music concert. Most of the audience is wearing formal suits while the ladies look magnificent in their dark colour gown.


    This concert is surely one of the top classical music concerts this year. He checked the concert ticket price in the ticket box last week. The cheapest ticket price is around USD 200, and the most expensive is USD 1000. No wonder, since Yang Jing will perform. She is a world class violinist that performs internationally with major orchestras around the world. And she rarely held the concert here.


    His ticket is a good one. The view is surely almost the same with the diamond class since it is dedicated to the sponsor. His brother is one of the top treasury at his bank. His brother''s superior really appreciates his talent in predicting stock market and investment. That''s why his brother gave these 2 tickets for free.


    He''s standing near the corner, around the cocktail buffet table. Leisurely put his left hand in his pocket and his right hand opened the WeChat on his phone. He contacted his kitten to ask whether he arrived already. He''s afraid his kitten will get lost or late. The concert will start at 7 o''clock, the audience can start to go inside the hall from 6.30 pm. The door will close at 6.50 and the late audience can only come in on the break of concert later on.


    His elegance looks standing alone over there inviting the interest of young ladies around the hall. They stole glances toward him, but no one was brave enough to come over and talk to him. They are just curious who is the lucky woman that will accompany him tonight.


    Suddenly a middle aged man with formal suit and a young woman with dark blue glittering gown come over. The sexy low back of her gown revealing her smooth white jade skin, but didn''t make her look cheap. The asymmetric curve of her gown at the front and the back, paired with abstract pattern of thin silvery line across her lower gown makes her overall looks like enchanting princess from fairy tales. Her hair is styled with asymmetric bun, some of her hair falls into the side of her face. It compliments her simple diamond earrings and the gown well. She wears a simple necklace with a single big diamond dangling in her back.


    "Doctor Jian, what a surprise to meet you here."


    Jian Kang Lu raised his head and saw Mr. Zhong, one of his patients. He was having kidney failure and underwent a kidney transplant last year. He is still going for regular check up for the immunosuppressant treatment after transplantation.


    Even though he was just an assisted nephrologist in the transplant process, and Mr. Zhong initial doctor at that time was not him, but somehow after transplantation Mr. Zhong insisted to choose him as his doctor every time he''s going for regular check up. That''s why he remembers Mr. Zhong well.


    Jian Kang Lu greeted him politely "Mr. Zhong, how are you? It''s a wonderful surprise. Didn''t expect to meet one of my favourite patients here."


    "I''m doing well this month. Doesn''t have any major complaints. By the way, this is my daughter. I don''t think you ever meet her. She just came back from France last month."


    The young woman beside him greeted him and smiled. "Hi Doctor Jian, i''m Zhong Liu. Thank you for taking care of my father all this time."


    "Hello. Not at all, your father is a very disciplined man. He''s doing well of his own. I''m just facilitating the medication. But it was all due to his own effort and your support to his successful treatment."


    Mr. Zhong laughed and said "That''s correct. But without your motivation, i''m going to die from the boring limited diet menu and bunch of pills i have to take everyday. Are you alone, Doctor Jian? Where do you sit? If I knew you would come, I can get you the seat next to us."


    "I''m waiting for my friend. Our seat in the invitation box. My brother gave us the ticket, so I just took advantage of the free ticket."


    Zhong Liu wondered, who is his friend. Is it male? Female??? His father said that Doctor Jian is single. His father praised Doctor Jian a lot. At first she didn''t even bother. But tonight after she saw with her own eyes, she regretted she didn''t follow her father''s advice to accompany him for his regular check up to see this ''talented handsome gentle charming doctor'' promoted by her father.


    There''s a vibrate sound from Doctor Jian''s phone. He looks at the screen and gives them an apologetic smile. "I''m sorry, my friend just arrived outside. I think I need to pick him up, since his ticket with me. Let''s talk again on the break time."


    Mr. Zhong and his daughter smiled back and they saw Doctor Jian walk towards the hall entrance.


    Jian Kang Lu waits at the entrance. Few moments later he noticed his kitten standing in the left bottom of the stairs. He looks so charming in Jian Kang Lu''s eyes. He can''t look away from him. His world seems to spin in slow motion.


    His kitten is wearing black turtleneck wool shirt and straight black pants. His hair combed slickly to his left side, revealing his whole face. His pale pink lips look more radiant since his white skin emphasised by his whole black outfit. His bright eyes look at the entrance and steadily walks upstairs when he sees Jian Kang Lu standing over there.


    Jian Kang Lu feels like a feather tickled his heart. The more he meets his kitten, the more he knows that his kitten is nothing like a burning fire, but a warmth sun rays that slowly heat up his grey cold world. Seeps into his bone, engraving his existence in his soul. Giving him the peculiar sense of finding his home.


    "I''m not late, am i?"


    His kitten asked him in a soft voice. He seems nervous since he didn''t see anyone else in the entrance and no one arrived after him.


    "No, just right on time. Let''s go inside, the concert will start soon. Or you need to go to the restroom first? We''re not allowed to go out in 1 hour once the door closes."


    He shook his head and spoke with a low voice. "No need, we can just go inside. I''m sorry Jian ge, the taxi driver turns out didn''t know the right gate to this concert hall. We took almost 20 minutes outside before we got the right gate. If I knew, I wouldn''t reject your offer to pick me up."


    Jian Kang Lu gently smiled and said in a doting tone. "That''s okay, it was my fault that I didn''t give you the warning before. Come, it''s cold here outside and you didn''t wear any coat."


    Both of them walk inside and sit in their respective seats. Not long after, the door closed and the light dimmed. A sign that the concert will start soon. Jian Kang Lu reminds his kitten to turn the phone into silent mode. Few moments later, the stage filled with the orchestra members.


    Jian Kang Lu really enjoyed tonight, Yang Jing truly lived up her reputation. She played the Vivaldi 4 season in a different interpretation from her previous record. He used to prefer the Concerto No.4 in F Minor, Op 8 the most. ''Winter''. But this time he loves Yang Jing''s interpretation of Concerto No.1, Op 8. ''Spring''. It really describes his mood right now.


    Once in a while he took glances toward his kitten face, and his kitten face seems to absorbed in the performance. His pink lips slightly opened sometimes. His honest expression showing his admiration to the performance.


    He''s glad. He was afraid his kitten would get bored and doesn''t like this kind of concert. Not many people willing to sit patiently for hours listening to classical music, and can appreciate the music. Especially young people who prefer to go to pop music concerts.


    When the break comes, and the lights come back illuminating the concert hall. He asks whether his kitten is hungry or thirsty. The break allows people to have light snacks and drinks at the buffet outside. They will have 30 minutes intermission time.


    When they walk outside and eat some snacks, he asks his kitten whether he likes the performance or is bored to death. His kitten said he never comes to classical concerts before, but he really likes it. The atmosphere and ambience is different compared to hearing the recording. He said thank you for inviting him into this new experience.


    Jian Kang Lu saw a little bit of cookies crumble in the corner of his kitten''s mouth. At that time, doesn''t know which devil took over his body, his hand moves by himself, out of his mind, and wipes the corner of his kitten''s lips. Both of them were a bit surprised with his action.


    Jian Kang Lu hurriedly said "Sorry, there''s a little bit of cookie crumbles there." He tried to maintain his facial expression like this is the most natural thing for people to do for each other. He then diverted his eyes into different directions to control his own emotion.


    At that time Mr. Zhong and his daughter walked towards them. He then hurriedly wiped his hand with tissue and tried to divert his kitten''s attention from his improper manner before.


    "Hello Mr. Zhong. Do you enjoy the performance?"


    "I really do. It was a fresh interpretation of Vivaldi. A bit radical, but surprisingly i enjoy it a lot."


    "Please let me introduce you to my friend. This is Bai Yutang. Yutang, this is Mr. Zhong and his daughter, Zhong Liu."


    His kitten nod and shake their hands. "Nice to meet you, Mr. Zhong, Miss Zhong."


    "Oh, are you Doctor Jian relatives? You look so young. Rarely meet young people in this kind of concert."


    "No, I''m not. This is also my first time coming to this kind of concert, and I truly appreciate it. All due to Jian Ge kindness inviting me here."


    Zhong Liu is glad to see that Doctor Jian''s companion is not a female. She then tries to converse with Doctor Jian while his father is talking to this young man. He looks like still in university. She''s wondering why this young man was introduced as Doctor Jian''s friend. She thought he was his cousin or relatives.


    She really enjoys her conversation with Doctor Jian. His knowledge is wide, he can talk quite much about art and paintings. Her major in France. And he''s funny enough to make small jokes around the famous controversial paintings. His gesture and his posture shows that his elegance personality is the one that is born with, not something you can fake or imitate.


    When the intermission time is almost over, Doctor Jian excuses himself and his friend, saying that they need to go to the restroom first. Zhong Liu is kinda disappointed because Doctor Jian is too polite, all his manner is so gentle but didn''t show any sign of wanting to know her more.


    She realised that she''s not the kind of dazzlingly pretty girl. But she knows that she''s a very attractive woman with a great background. Lots of guys out there chasing her, saying that she''s the perfect wife material. She decided to meet him again when she accompanied her father on his medical check up.


    A lot of handsome men out there. A lot of smart people out there. A lot of kind hearted individuals out there. But a handsome, smart, and kind person is a rare combination. And his father''s judgment in someone''s personality is almost 100% correct.


    She wants to try her luck, to become the owner of Doctor Jian''s heart. She believed that he was the right husband for her.

 Chapter 11 - Rotten Girls

    The concert finished around 9.30 o''clock. Jian Kang Lu knows that his kitten lives in the dorm and it was not really convenient for him if he''s coming back too late. But he also knows that his kitten might be hungry.


    "Do you want to eat first or straight going back to the dorm? I''ll drive you back to your dorm, and please don''t say no. Going back alone by taxi at this hour is not quite safe."


    His kitten walked beside him, and thought for a while. "Okay Jian Ge. I think you''re also hungry. Maybe we can have simple and fast supper first."


    They walked towards the parking lot and agreed to have supper in a 24 hour fast food restaurant near his dorm. At first Jian Kang Lu wanted to suggest the restaurant near the concert hall that he knows is open until midnight on weekends.. But he is afraid his kitten will be tired waiting for the food served.


    When they arrived at the fast food restaurant, people around them couldn''t help but take glances at this couple wearing black outfits from head to toe. The tall one looks handsome and charming. He''s not a divine handsome like a celebrity, but there''s something in him that makes people can''t help to stare at him.


    The young man beside him is a bit cute if you look at him closely. But his overall appearance is not something that can stand out among the crowds. Honestly, people notice him right now just because he''s walking beside that other tall guy. Maybe he''s a distant relative of that charming tall guy.


    The tall guy talking to the young man beside him, and then ordering the food for both of them. They wait in the counter for a while. After their food is done, that couple walks to the empty table in the corner and starts to eat.


    The way that tall guy having his meal is not like someone eating fast food, but seems like he''s in the 5 star restaurant and made people wonder if that meal is just the same with what they have in their own table.


    He looks like enjoying a divine taste of luxury food, with one leg across the other. His suit slightly rolled to the middle of his forearm, and showed his watch in his wrist. His watch looks so classy, and didn''t suit this fast food restaurant image at all.


    Sometimes they talk in between their meals. People around them who silently steal glances at that charming tall guy saw that guy keep giving his companion a gentle smile, and sometimes laugh with low voice. His voice is so gentle and full of doting tones.


    Few girls around can''t help to hope they can replace this guy''s companion with themselves. They can''t hear his voice clearly because he talks with a super soft tone. They eat their food fast enough, and after they finish their meal they straightly stand and walk outside.


    That tall guy opened the restaurant door for his companion, and held that glass door until his companion walked through the door. Then this couple went from their field of vision. These girls feel disappointed they can''t see that handsome guy any longer.


    There are 3 girls who are lucky enough to sit in the next 2 tables from that couple, which lets them have a better view of them. They start discussion about these two guys after both of them have left.


    "I bet my sexiest underwear that these two men are a couple!"


    "Dream on, all your underwear is granny''s style."


    "That''s the charm! What do you think? A mature gong with a shy gentle virgin shou. Do you think that shou is one of our university students?"


    "You rotten girl, you read that web fiction too much! I bet that handsome tall guy is just his cousin, or distant family."


    "Your eyesight is in par with my grandma before she''s having cataract surgery. I agree with LianLian. Those two guys must be a couple!"


    "See? Two versus one! You lost the bet!"


    "When did i agree with your stupid bet? They must be relatives. No one in our university dare to bring his gay couple around here for late dinner. Furthermore, if they''re a couple and have a date, why is that tall guy bringing his little lover here and not to a fancy restaurant? He smells like money."


    "Maybe they had a fight in the car and finally made up a few hours later. So they missed their reservation in a fancy restaurant. But since that little shou is still a bit angry, he doesn''t want to stay over at the tall guy house. Or maybe they have not yet reached that base. So they decided to have their meal here. Because that handsome gong afraid the little lover was going back to the dorm too late."


    "No no no, your analysis is full of holes. That tall guy seems like pampering his little lover a lot. Impossible to have an argument until they missed the reservation. They must be doing something before and don''t have time to eat."


    "Mmm, I guess your career as a rotten girl exceeds mine. I agree with that analysis. But what kind of activity makes them can''t eat their dinner on time?"


    "Concert? Party? But the party must serve dinner for them. Their outfit looks a bit formal."


    "I heard from my cousin that his father invited her to a classical music concert tonight, but she rejected his father''s offer. If we analyse their outfit, it was perfect! Oh I bet my cousin will bite her own hands if she knew that she missed the opportunity to see this handsome couple."


    "Honestly, i still don''t think they''re a couple because that tall guy is too handsome and classy for him. Usually a handsome gong will be paired with a beautiful baby face shou. He doesn''t fit the shou criteria for a handsome mature gong."


    "Tsk tsk tsk.. Even though I agree with your opinion, but you need to open your horizon. We''ll never know that maybe this ordinary shou had an extraordinary skill in bed. You know, that kind of shou that keeps blushing and crying in pleasure when his gong pa pa pa him hard. And while he talks daily with a soft voice, his moan in bed is very seductive. Imagine that little shou crying with tears flowing to his blushing cheek while begging ''Gege, I can''t take it anymore. Please let me stop, I have already come three times tonight''. And then he collapsed while his gong was still inside him."


    "Seriously! You won''t need to repeat that classic literature class if you can memorise and write an essay creatively as your dirty imagination right now!"


    "All my brain cells are already stamped with many cut sleeve variety positions. I can''t cramped that classic literature anymore into my brain cells. It''s boring to death."


    "I bet that little lover is this university student. Which department do you think he belongs to?"


    "Definitely not our literature department. It seems I never saw him around."


    "Mmm, that''s true. And definitely not the PE department. Economics? Humanities?"


    "If they eat around here, his dorm must be near from here. I guess maybe from engineering. Or architecture. I don''t know, he''s not a popular face around here."


    "Ahhh, forget about that. Do you hear that gong''s voice when he talks to his little lover? When he asks whether his stomach feels uncomfortable from eating too late at this hour? That''s a perfect pampering tone I always imagine when I read my precious collection."


    "His smiles!!! Definitely melting my fragile heart. I can see that gentle smile clearly from my seat. Oh that shou is so lucky. A doting and pampering gong, while handsome and have that kind of body. I bet he can last for the whole night pampering him. Torturing him with overwhelming pleasure again and again."


    "You girls really have to wash your brain with holy water. I have no idea why you girls can have an extraordinary dirty imagination of strangers."


    "My brain works just fine. You''re the one who needs to be more creative. Why else are you studying literature if you can''t stretch your imagination."


    "How do you think they can be together? The gong looks mature enough. 28? 30? Definitely not more than 30 years old."


    "Maybe that shou is his best friend''s little brother. They have known each other for a long time and have a forbidden chemistry between them. But then one day the shou accidentally saw the gong take a shower and blushed. That''s when they realise they have feelings for each other. Unfortunately they can''t do anything because of their circumstances. Finally that little shou sick while he''s alone at home because his family is going for vacation. The gong then came over to take care of him. While they are alone at the house, the gong keeps wiping the shou forehead to ease the fever and holding his hand and his slim waist. The gong then fell asleep beside the shou. In the morning, the shou wakes up and looks at him. The gong also wakes up and when he opens his eyes, the shou staring at him is the first thing he sees. At that time, they finally kissed for the first time."


    "Good analysis! I can''t think of a better possibility. Because that gong doesn''t seem like our senior on campus. They must meet outside."


    "I wonder how good that shou in the bed is, he can hook that high quality gong into his love slave. Hope that shou realizes how lucky he is to have a gong like that and do his best to keep the gong on the leash. Otherwise, I bet a lot of people want to steal that gong away from him. He needs to learn a lot of variation to keep the gong entertained. Bondage? Role playing?"


    "I think I will have porn dream today if you keep talking about this. Let''s go back! I don''t want to dream about that little shou wearing a leather outfit with his hands tied in the bed pole while that gentle handsome turns into sinister devil character and whips his butt hard."


    "Sister! Your little brain cells finally proved their capability in the creativity process! Congratulations!"

 Chapter 12 - If...

    Jian Kang Lu has loved to read since toddler. He has known letters and numbers since three years old. He can read simple books at four years old. When he''s going for his first day at elementary school, his teacher loves him so much. He can read all his text books fluently, he can memorise multiplication tables up to 100, and he''s not as naughty as other boys his age.


    He read everything. Comic book, fairy tales, heroes tales, encyclopaedia, biography, self help book, fashion magazine, travelling guide, everything.


    It shapes his personality today. He was inspired by all the successful biography books he read before. When he''s in junior high school, he loves Edison''s quote the most.


    ''I have not yet failed. I''ve just found 10,000 ways that won''t work..''''


    He believes every hard work will pay well. All his life, he''s trying his best in everything. Including his love life. But then he found that someday hard work is not enough. Even though you''re working hard and doing your best, the relationship between humans is not like one plus one always equal to two. He learned his lesson well.


    So today, even though he wants to spend his birthday with his kitten, he doesn''t want to ask his kitten to celebrate it with him. He doesn''t know how to ask. He also will feel awkward if some old stranger asks him to spend his birthday together.


    He knew he was too old. 36 years old today.


    His kitten is so young. Just 21 years old..


    He doesn''t know his kitten well.


    He doesn''t even know whether his kitten will want to have a relationship with a man.


    He enjoys their relationship so far. He doesn''t want to ruin this little happiness by rushing and frightening his kitten. He decided if someday his kitten realised his feelings and was willing to open his heart for him, he would treat his kitten as best as he could. But he can''t even imagine whether such a beautiful day will come.


    After their concert date a few days ago, they often chat with each other. Not everyday, but surely the frequency is increasing day by day. The topic of the conversation now is not only about the games, but including the classical music they listened to at the concert last time, or some old inside jokes about the T university. Sometimes they also talk about his kitten daily lives and interests.


    His kitten has been busy lately. He''s having some mid semester project to present at the end of this semester. His project inspiration comes from the hotpot restaurant interior design when they visited last time. He chose a restaurant as his project while most of his friends choose house or school. He told him that some of his friends bravely choose a sports stadium or museum as their project. It''s really a tough one.


    Jian Kang Lu then offered to take him into a different restaurant style for his project. Song Lixia, Luo Yan''s wife, has a famous Italian restaurant in the city. His kitten can see all the details inside if he wants, including kitchen and maintenance area too. His kitten asks whether it was convenient for him. Of course he said it''s okay. They agreed to go in another 2 weeks. His kitten is still having mid term tests next week.


    After having confirmation, Jian Kang Lu thought to try his luck. He asks his kitten to accompany him watching movies before they''re going to the restaurant. There will be a superhero movie premiered at that time. His kitten surprisingly agreed to his request. Jian Kang Lu feels like using a dirty trick. Offering some help for his project first then after that his kitten will feel bad for rejecting his request.


    He decided to give his kitten a best restaurant study tour. He calls Song Lixia to ask her permission for doing research in her restaurant. Song Lixia was surprised to hear that, and teased him, "Ahhh.. Jian Ge, why using excuses like that to have a date in my restaurant. Do you need me to arrange the roses inside with some musician to sing privately for you and your partner too?".


    He laughs and warns her mildly that this is not a date. This is pure research for his junior. He doesn''t want his kitten to get the ''wrong'' idea if suddenly Song Lixia and Luo Yan show up there at their dinner time and tease him with his kitten.


    He knows Song Lixia must be curious. He never asks for special requests every time he visits her restaurant. He always booked and ordered like a regular customer without asking for special treatment. Though all her employees know him well and always treat him carefully.


    This Saturday morning, Jian Kang Lu is going for his Saturday round as usual. His colleagues surprised him with cakes and sang happy birthday for him. Even the patient also sings with them. He got a lot of gifts from his junior and the nurses in the hospital. Even he got a few flower bouquets.


    The cake is round like white moon and has a bunny figure with Chang''e costume on top of the cake. His resident gave him underwear from a high class brand as a gift. The cards said ''Intelligence is like underwear. It is important that you have it but not necessary that you show it off. Though we hope our Chang''e Goddess will see this underwear.''


    He laughed and scolded them a bit. He teased them how they even know his underwear size. This Saturday round is so lively. He said thank you for their surprise and gifts. He promised to treat them all next Friday night at a famous Japanese restaurant near the hospital. They all cheer to hear his promise.


    His friends called him too. He also promised to have a simple celebration with them next Saturday. Their chat group is already full with dirty birthday wishes. Luo Yan promised to book the restaurant and karaoke room under his name. They threatened him that he must drink until wasted later on his birthday party.


    His chat group consists of his friend''s wives also. These naughty sister in laws tease him saying they will bring all their single cousins and friends to the birthday party. Jian Kang Lu''s friends come from so many different backgrounds. All of them mingle well with each other through Jian Kang Lu.


    He decided tonight he will go back to his parents house and have a simple birthday dinner with his parents. He already booked the private room at their favourite Chinese restaurant. He met his parents at the restaurant.


    They spent the night well. They talk about the golf tournament held by those retired old men in their house complex. The prize is a two days vacation into a hot spring in the famous place in their city.


    His mom talks about the new spa place that she and her friends frequently visit now. Jian Kang Lu teases her that maybe that spa has many handsome young men. Her mother said her son must have someone to follow her because the spa place indeed has many handsome youths.


    When they arrived home, he was lying down in his old room at his parent''s house. He looks at the ceiling, and feels satisfied with his life. Even though he''s a bit lonely, he thankful for everything he had.


    He used to spend his birthday with his loved one before. When he spent his first birthday alone 2 years ago, he thought he''s so miserable. The sky no longer seems limitless. He feels falling into a dark pit. The tears won''t roll down, the fake smiles seem frozen in place. The pain feels like never ending.


    But after a while, though he lives his life day by day like a robot, he can see that he''s so lucky after all. He had a wonderful family, great friends, stable job, and financially well. He starts to appreciate all the kindness around him more, and repay that kindness back. He learned that in life, never look at your misery, but count your blessing instead.


    So he tries to spend more time with his family. Maintaining good relationships with everyone. He''ll never know if tomorrow he still can see his parents or not. He''ll never know whether tomorrow he can still see his friends, his colleagues, his subordinate, or even his security guard at his apartment.


    When you deal with so many dying patients, you will realise that life is too short. You''ll never know what will happen tomorrow. He saw too many tears and regret, and too many words ''if''.


    If I spent more time with my dad, I''ll definitely notice that he was sick before it''s too late.


    If only I had received my mom''s call last night, I could tell her that I love her so much. I didn''t know that today she''ll leave me forever.


    If I treat my brother better like he deserved, he won''t be this miserable. I have no idea he will leave this soon.


    If I didn''t fight with my husband last night, he won''t have my curses as my last word to him.


    If i support her well, maybe she won''t keep her illness from me. I have no idea my wife is this sick.


    If only I bought that mobile phone for my son, maybe today I can still hold him.


    If I didn''t push my daughter to get married, she wouldn''t die like this. Alone when her husband cheated on her.


    If I didn''t scold my junior yesterday, he won''t drive home late at night and have that accident.


    If only I treated my nanny better, just now I realise she was a lonely old woman.


    If..


    If...


    If....


    Time won''t turn their hands back. No matter how much you pray, or how big your grievance is, once they pass they won''t come back. So Jian Kang Lu lives his life as if he has no tomorrow. Spend his time well with his loved one. Leave no regret when they''re gone. And give no regret to them once he is gone.

 Chapter 13 - All The Blessings A Life Can Unfold

    Luo Yan booked a C KTV bar for their second destination this Saturday night. It''s one of the most luxurious KTV bars in B city. Before they came here they already had the birthday dinner at his father in law''s restaurant. Song Lixia''s father has a luxury Chinese restaurant chain spread all over the country.


    Luo Yan took over his family business. From small stores selling Chinese delicacies and healthy food, he expanded the business into importing bird nests and exporting abalone to South East Asia. The bird nest he imported was sold into many upper class Chinese restaurants all over the country. He became the sole bird nest supplier for Song Lixia''s family restaurant. That''s how he met his wife and now they are already married for seven years and have a lovely six years old daughter.


    Song Lixia then expanded her restaurant family business and both of them built their own western style restaurant kingdom. They hired talented chefs from the original foreign country, and targeted high class society.


    Tonight, all of them gather together to celebrate Jian Kang Lu''s birthday.. There are twelve of them. Five of them bring their wives to this party. Their wives also have good relationships with Jian Kang Lu. Huang Yin, the only female in their original group, divorced four years ago and stayed single until now. She was also a nephrologist. That''s why it becomes a private joke between them, that nephrologist fated to be alone.


    The karaoke room is big enough to fit around sixteen people. There are V shaped luxurious dark brown sofas with small square pillows on top of them. The big chandelier at that oval ceiling hung above three glass tables. The square glass tables illuminated with warm yellow light from inside. The back wall is styled with shelves and lots of prop books inside. Small lamps hung on them. Overall ambience is the warm luxurious living room style.


    This KTV is famous for their luxurious themed room. The huge screen hung in the opposite wall has a futuristic model with high end sound system technology.


    Jian Kang Lu sat in the middle. His friend''s evil nature already popped up even though they are not yet choosing songs. Huang Yin asks for a few attendants to accompany them singing. It was important to know that all of them are horrible singers. So they have few attendants who can sing well to save their own eardrum from constant out of tune notes.


    These attendants often accompany this group, and they know how to behave themselves. They were hired only for singing, and these groups are not to be offended. One female attendant used to overact and try to seduce Jian Kang Lu, she was blacklisted right away. Why bother to offend these people, they give very generous tips for them each time they visit this KTV.


    Hongjia ordered three bottles of the most expensive whiskey at the KTV for them, agave tequila and wines for the ladies. When the attendant finishes her 1st song, the liquor is ready to serve. This group wildly coerced Jian Kang Lu to drink and sing. Jian Kang Lu can hold his liquor well, and he starts to drink two glasses of whiskey plus one glass of tequila.


    After one hour, most of them are tipsy already. The out of tune they sang starts to sound better under the alcohol influence. Zhen Guo and his wife, Luo Jiao, start to sing some old dance songs and do their chicken dance duet. The others follow them and they do their own signature dance. Monkey dance, snake dance, peacock dance.


    Luo Jiao dragged Jian Kang Lu into the floor and they did Jian Kang Lu''s signature dance, the donkey dance. The attendants just politely sit down and clap their hands, enjoying this performance.


    Hong Jia starts to wildly hopping and dance around, throwing money to his friends. "Come, this young master need to spend his unlimited allowance. Give me your best hips shake! Shake that hips, baby!" His wife dances alongside him and gives him more money from her purse to throw around.


    If someone comes inside the room now, they won''t believe that this bunch of wild and crazy people are upright citizens and very calm in real life. Huang Yin starts to do her snake dance. It was supposed to be a sexy dance, but she did it comically and looks like worms wriggling around from up to down the floor.


    Jiang Kang Lu is really good at choosing best friends. He has a lot of friends, but not many in their private circle. All of them know how to enjoy themselves without going too far. All of them hate drugs and prostitutes. They are also faithful companions to their partner. That''s why the wives of this circle also love to hang out together.


    It was hard to find good party companions that appreciate your nerd and crazy side without judging or take advantage of them.


    The money thrown on the floor later will be collected by the attendant. It was supposed to be the part of their tips. They don''t mind collecting the money from the floor. Usually these groups also help to collect the money and give polite apologies to them if they offended them. Who has time to feel offended if these money is equal with their 1 week whole tips combined.


    Jian Kang Lu sat down and wiped his sweat from his forehead with tissues. Song Lixia sat next to him. She asks, "So, do I have the privilege to know the details of your next week visit to my restaurant?"


    Jian Kang Lu turns his head, and answers "It''s just a favour to my friend. He''s an architecture student, and has some projects about restaurants. Yours is an excellent one, i think he can learn a lot from it. I remember Zhen Guo himself designed that restaurant."


    "Yes it was, since that was my first restaurant. I want it to be the best in the city. Zhen Ge helps us a lot at that time. But, Jian Ge.. You never asked these kinds of things before. Who was this friend? Seems i don''t know him yet?" Song Lixia asking this question with one of her eyebrows lifted.


    Jian Kang Lu took mineral water from the table and drank half of it. "Yes, none of you met him before. It was just an acquaintance I met recently. He was a promising young man. I can''t help offering him a visit to your restaurant when I heard that he took the restaurant as his term project."


    Song Lixia silence for a while, and finally talking to him again with a soft voice. "I trust your judgement towards a person, Jian Ge. If you don''t mind, I would like you to introduce this person someday. When you''re ready." She then poured some tequila into her glass and Jian Kang Lu''s glass.


    "Toast Jian Ge, I sincerely pray your year ahead filled with all the blessings a life can unfold."


    Jian Kang Lu smiles at her, toasting and finishing his drink. He then says nothing more.


    Chen Rong came down and sat next to him also. He brought the whiskey bottle in his hand and poured some in the empty glass in front of Jian Kang Lu. After that he poured some to his own glass. "Kang Lu, come have a toast with me. Wish you had a blast year ahead, and pray for my research this year."


    Both of them toast the glass and finish the drink in one gulp. Jian Kang Lu asked him, "Do you need some sponsor? I think the pharmaceutical company in my last research is generous enough. Do you need their contact?"


    Chen Rong shakes his head. "No, I have one already. But the clinical samples needed this time are quite large. Maybe it will take more than one year to collect the samples." Chen Rong is a paediatrician, and focused on rare diseases. It''s hard to collect samples from rare disease patients. That''s why not many doctors want to take this subspecialty. The treatment cost is also very expensive.


    Chen Rong turned his head into Song Lixia. "How about my niece? She''s doing well? Since I never saw her this year in my clinic I assume she''s doing perfectly fine. Don''t forget her vaccination schedule next month."


    Song Lixia pouring wine for herself, took some sip and answered. "Yes Doctor Chen, your niece is very healthy this year. Thanks to you. I remember the vaccination supposed to be in early December. I''ll ask you before the time."


    Chen Rong''s wife starts to sing a girl band song, and some of the attendants accompany her. She acts coquettish with a discordant cute voice. The overall effect looks like a parody from the girl band music clip.


    Her husband stood up and said, "When the captain sings, this husband definitely needs to be a groupie." He then joined her and started to ask for a photograph together and some signatures. Then Chen Rong started to dance as the background dancer for his wife.


    This pair of pediatricians really knows how to have fun. That''s why they are famous among their patients. Children tend to be afraid to go to the doctor. But when your doctor is funny and knows a lot of jokes, these children will forget that they visit a doctor. When the children are not afraid, they will take their treatment diligently and do their checks up regularly.


    Hongjia came to sit next to him, and Luo Yan sat next to her wife, Song Lixia. Hongjia pour the whisky into Jian Kang Lu''s glass and Luo Yan''s glass. They toast and finish the whiskey. They chat a bit and sing their favourite song together, Livin'' On A Prayer by Bon Jovi. Their harmonious voice shows how much they sang this song together before.


    Chen Rong poured another whiskey to him, and asked Jian Kang Lu to sing blue and white porcelain by Jay Chou together with him. They finished that glass of whiskey while singing.


    After the song finished, Hongjia started to hold the third whiskey bottle and wanted to pour it on Jian Kang Lu''s glass again. "You guys, please go easy on my liver. I think I have finished one bottle by myself already!" Jian Kang Lu clumsily tried to close his glass when he saw Hongjia want to pour some more.


    "Donkey ass, you need to drink more to spill all your secrets. I can see you''re not drinking enough. Who was the one that made you hang up your phone last month and didn''t even call me again after that? I keep waiting that day like a maiden stood up by an ungrateful bastard!!!"


    Song Lixia and Luo Yan perk their ears upwards hearing Hongjia''s statement. They look at each other, and their minds speak in unison. It seems this is the same mysterious person who will visit their restaurant next week.


    Jian Kang Lu''s eyes were already a bit glossy and drifted around. He was definitely drunk. He waved his hand to Hongjia, closed his eyes and said with a soft lingering voice, "It''s my future kitten."


    All of them suddenly became a bit sober when they heard that statement and gave a beam to Hongjia. ''Good job Hongjia!!! You finally made this man finally reveal his secret!''


    They all knew Jian Kang Lu was going for vacation alone last time, and worried a bit. If he wants to have vacation, why not invite them? Even when they already had their small family, they are definitely willing to accompany him if he wants to have vacation.


    Honestly, they worried to see Jian Kang Lu keep working like a robot this past two years. They know how hard it was for Jian Kang Lu when he broke up with Zhang Min. All of them are adults, and they know Zhang Min is a really good guy. It was a bit cruel to put the blame on Zhang Min, but they can''t help to curse him inside their mind.


    Now finally it seems that their favourite boy is willing to open his heart again. It''s been too long¡­

 Chapter 14 - Mush Brain

    [WhiteMist] Jian Ge, I already arrived at the cinema. Have you bought the ticket? I can buy them first if you haven''t.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t see that message. When that message was sent, he arrived at the cinema and looked at his kitten typing something on his mobile phone. His kitten''s head bow down, his long bangs covering his facial expression.


    He notified his kitten that Song Lixia''s restaurant won''t allow casual style outfit. So hoodies are not allowed. Today, Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten wearing a long sleeve white shirt with an ocean blue V-neck sweater. He''s wearing dark blue pants with white shoes.


    Jian Kang Lu was mesmerised by him. His kitten''s clothes were ordinary, the ubiquitous look all the young man had. So how come on him those same clothes garbled his brain to mush, stopping him from stringing a simple sentence together..


    He shook his head, tried to focus his mind then walk towards him. It seems his kitten didn''t notice him at all. He greeted his kitten, "Hi, did you wait for long? I''m sorry, I didn''t know you would come so early."


    Bai Yutang raised his head once he heard that familiar voice. "No, I just arrived. I sent you a message, but it turns out Jian Ge already here."


    Jian Kang Lu took his mobile phone from his pocket, "Really? Sorry I didn''t notice I have a new message."


    Bai Yutang shook his head, his soft silky hair flowing around his ear and his pale pink lips slightly opened when answer, "No, I think it was only two minutes since I sent that message. What do you want to watch today, Jian Ge? I''ll buy the ticket if you haven''t bought any."


    "No need, I got the ticket already. Come, let''s fetch the ticket."


    Bai Yutang followed him in silence while putting his phone back to his pocket. "Do you want to have some snacks, Jian Ge. I can buy it if you want some."


    "Mmm.. I do want to have some simple snacks. Action movies need to be enjoyed with good snacks. But we can order it later while we fetch the ticket."


    Jian Kang Lu walks towards the VIP auditorium. His kitten seems to walk in different directions before hurriedly following him. It seems his kitten wants to walk towards the ticket counter. But he said nothing.


    Jian Kang Lu saw the two ladies behind the ticket desk in the VIP auditorium. They smiled and greeted him, "Mr. Jian, you want to fetch your ticket? Two tickets at B1 and B2, right? Do you want to order your meal now or later inside?"


    Jian Kang Lu took the ticket from them and asked for the menu. He gave the menu to his kitten and asked him, "What do you want to order? You can order anything you want." He then talked to the ladies, "I''ll order the spring rolls for myself, and one mango latte, like usual."


    Bai Yutang looked at the menu, and silently studied them. The ladies put the order in their tabs. Then they said, "Is this your brother, Mr. Jian? You usually come here alone. Why never bring your cute brother before?"


    Jian Kang Lu smiled and said, "Yes, this is my brother. Very cute, right? I know you girls will fancy a cute young man instead of an old uncle like me, so i deliberately keep him so my value won''t fall in front of you. Ah, it seems like a mistake i brought him here now."


    The two ladies laugh back at him, "Nooo, please bring him here more often. It gives us heartache every time you bought two tickets just for yourself."


    Bai Yutang then ordered popcorn and hot earl grey tea for himself. Jian Kang Lu asks him, "Are you sure you don''t want to order something else? Their mozzarella french fries are also good. Not too greasy."


    Bai Yutang shook his head and answered they will have dinner later so he doesn''t want to eat much.


    After finishing his order, Jian Kang Lu took his kitten to wait until the movie started in another 25 minutes. They sit on the table in the VIP lounge. Bai Yutang told him, "This is my first time coming to the VIP auditorium."


    "Mmm? When I was your age, I also rarely watched movies here. But at my age, you need a comfortable seat to enjoy the movies."


    Bai Yutang looks at him. His phoenix eyes look so warm. Jian Kang Lu can''t help but stare back at him with a gentle gaze. He always feels comfortable every time he looks into those eyes. He feels like he found the meaning of home from the deepest layer of his eyes.


    His kitten asks, "Do you often come here alone? Why buy two seats if you watch movies alone?"


    Jian Kang Lu embarrassedly smiles and explains slowly to him, "I usually watch movies after work when i don''t have a polyclinic schedule. Even though the VIP seat is comfortable and big enough, the seat is paired for two people. It connected with a small table in between to hold the food. So it was kinda awkward if you sat there with a stranger, sharing the table. I don''t want to feel that kind of feeling again when my intention coming here is to relax myself after a busy day. So I always buy two tickets for myself, and I can comfortably enjoy my dinner at that table without disturbing other people."


    Bai Yutang nodded his head. His long eyelashes flutter like dragonfly wings. He said, "I think i understand that. But is it nice to watch movies alone? Usually people prefer to watch with friends or relatives."


    Jian Kang Lu''s heart felt itch when he saw those beautiful eyelashes. He answered with a pampering tone, "Yes, of course it will be nicer to watch movies with people you are comfortable with. But i don''t have friends who have lots of free time to accompany me. That''s why today I''m thankful for you here."


    Bai Yutang startled a bit hearing his answer. He then bowed his head and said with a soft tone, "I can accompany you in the future if you want. When I didn''t have an assignment, I was quite free."


    Jian Kang Lu can''t help but smile widely hearing his kitten words. "Really? Then I will shamelessly ask you to accompany me in the future. But please tell me if you''re busy. I don''t want to disturb your schedule."


    Bai Yutang nodded. "But Jian Ge, today you also paid for the movies and snacks. I intended to treat you since you already took me to eat at your friend''s restaurant. I checked the restaurant on the internet. It''s so expensive. Next time we watch movies, let me treat you."


    The waiter then came and told them that the movies will start soon and they can enter the theatre now. Both of them stand up and walk to the theatre. Once they were seated, Jian Kang Lu set up the reclining chair to sit more comfortably. He also rolled his shirt a bit. He shows his kitten the adjusting button beside the chair.


    The waiter then came and served them the drinks. The snacks will bring later on. Bai Yutang looks at the beautiful hand that took the drink on the table. He noticed the watch at Jian Kang Lu''s wrist is different from the last one he wore to the concert.


    He asks, "Jian Ge likes to collect watches? This one is different with your last one."


    Jian Kang Lu sipped his drink and answered, "Yes, it''s a habit. We doctors need the watch to count heartbeat, gut movement, respiratory rate, and many things."


    "Your watch last time is really nice. I bet it costs a fortune. I didn''t know many things about watches, but surely it looks so nice. This one is also nice."


    Jian Kang Lu shows him his watch, "This is one of my favourites. We can see the arms clearly. This one is very suitable to wear to the hospital. The watch I wear to the concert has a dark background, we can''t look at the arms clearly. So I only wear it on formal occasions."


    Bai Yutang looked at his watch and told him, "It looks nice. I think i have seen this kind of model before in the advertisement. But I did not recognize the brand you wore to the concert, never saw an advertisement for that watch."


    "The watch I have worn before rarely had advertisement in the magazine or billboard. I think they only advertise in selected magazines or sponsoring events."


    His kitten said in a soft voice "It sounds so expensive.."


    Jian Kang Lu laughed, "Indeed. It was a gift. I don''t think I want to buy that with my own money even though I love to collect watches. I collect them for the function, not the prestige."


    Bai Yutang was a little bit surprised to hear his honesty. "A gift? It sounds like a very expensive gift."


    "Yes, from my best friend. He''s very rich. He gave me that watch for my last year birthday gift, said it was to soothe my single dog soul."


    The waiter then came again and served them the food. The theatre''s light soon dimmed, and the curtain started to open wider. The movie will start soon. Once the movie starts, they don''t speak much. It was not quite nice to converse inside the theatre. If you speak too loud, you will disturb other people.


    Jian Kang Lu is glad to see the more he knows his kitten, the more he likes him. He didn''t really enjoy converse much inside the theatre. Once in a while to comment about the scene is fine. But not too much. It was different if you watch movies at home.


    He also hates people who talk loudly inside the theatre. His kitten really suits his personality well. He enjoys the movie and keeps opening his phoenix eyes. Made those eyes look rounder, really cute.


    Suddenly Jian Kang Lu felt electrified. His hands want to get some spring rolls from the table. He didn''t see clearly because he fixed his eyes on the screen. At that time, he accidentally brushed his kitten hand. It feels so soft...


    In a few millisecond, Jian Kang Lu minds already wandering around the galaxy and coming back to reality with a fast heart beat. He really.. Really wants to hold his kitten''s hand. To feel that soft hand wrapped in his own, and feel the tip of those slender fingers...


    And kissed every tip of it slowly.


    His hands froze, in a short moment he tried to clear his mind and took some spring rolls and ate it. He tried to look as natural as he can, maintaining his face to calmly look at the screen. Only God knows how hard he tries to collect all those scattered dirty minds and lock it inside so as not to be seen by his kitten.


    Jian Kang Lu tried. But as the rest of the movies goes, he can''t even remember what movies he watched. He kept thinking of that soft feeling lingering on tips of his hands. Sometimes when he was out of his control, he lowered his gaze to his kitten''s hands, and also stole some glances to his kitten''s face.


    After the movie is finished, they start to stand up and prepare to go outside. His kitten''s face shows nothing out of usual. Jian Kang Lu also tried his best not to show anything on his face.


    They walk to the parking lot discussing the movies. It was a superhero movie, adapted from a comic book. Now he knows his kitten also likes to read comic books. When they reached his car, they settled inside and his kitten praised his car. It was a hybrid car with eco friendly features.


    While Jian Kang Lu is driving to the restaurant, suddenly his kitten asks. "Jian Ge, when is your birthday? I wanted to ask this before when I heard your friend gave you that watch as a birthday gift, but the movie started and I forgot to ask."


    "Mmmh.. Me? My birthday is October 20. Two weeks ago."


    Bai Yutang turned his head toward him and said in a disbelief voice, "Two weeks ago? Why didn''t you tell me? Ah.. Happy belated birthday, Jian Ge. I''m sorry¡­ I didn''t know."


    Jian Kang Lu almost raised his hand to pat his kitten''s head, wanting to ruffle that soft silky hair to comfort him. Luckily he managed to stop that urge and tighten his grip on the steering wheel.


    "That''s okay, thank you for your wishes." He turns his head to look at his kitten''s face. Look closely into that deep eyes, and find his home.

 Chapter 15 - Small Details Won’t Matter

    Tang Liyue is a very attractive woman. Her baby face made her looks like university student even though she''s wearing formal attire to increase her maturity appearance. She always dress formally to look like true manager of this best Italian restaurant in the city. Her one strap shoulder dress made her collar bone looks more delicate. Her simple makeup emphasise that red lipstick she wore today.


    Most of the customers who saw her for the first time won''t believe that her age is 32 and already have 1 daughter. Her body is still well shaped, even better than an ordinary woman. She''s waiting in front of the reservation table, waiting for Jian Kang Lu.


    Song Lixia already notified her that today Mr. Jian will bring his friend to look around the restaurant. She greets the incoming customer while waiting, and chats a bit with them before asking the attendant to show the customer into their table.


    When Jian Kang Lu finally showed up, she was a little bit surprised.. All of Mr. Jian''s friends are also Mrs. Song''s inner circle friends. Only a few of them, and Tang Liyue memorise them all in heart. But this one is very young, and she never saw him before. She also remembers Mr. Jian''s brother is not this young. His cousin? His distant relatives? Anyway, she doesn''t need to ask more. Her duty today is to assist them well.


    Jian Kang Lu and his kitten walking inside, and Tang Liyue greet them. She was an excellent manager. She politely greeted them, and made opening conversation. Efficiently asking for the point of this visit. She then immediately shows Bai Yutang around. She focuses her attention on this young man, even treating him like a VIP customer.


    She won''t get paid well if she doesn''t have a good instinct. She truly is one of the best in this field. As an experienced restaurant manager, she knows Mr. Jian never asks for special treatment before. This is the first time, and all for the sake of this young man. Only dumb person will ignore this young man. Obviously you need to please this young man, and it will lead to Mr. Jian''s satisfaction. Mr. Jian''s satisfaction is equal to the restaurant owner''s herself.


    Jian Kang Lu watched two of them chat and look around. His kitten took a lot of photos inside, and even with red ears shyly asked Tang Liyue whether he could measure some of this restaurant''s properties. Tang Liyue didn''t laugh nor show any excess emotion. She smiled politely and answered, "Sure. Did you bring your measurement tape? I think we have some in the office."


    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten''s eyes brighten and took out his measurement tape from his small bag. For today''s purpose, he brought a digital camera and measurement tape, also some sketch books.


    Jian Kang Lu leisurely leaned on the door frame, gazing at his kitten do his job. His intuition works once again. This small kitten really fired up and focused on his job. He is a hard working person. And a hard working person is very sexy.


    After almost an hour, it''s already 8.30 pm. His kitten finally finished and said with a small voice, "I''m sorry. Took longer than I predicted. You must be hungry." He stood up there with head bow down and closed his small bag.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled and said, "It''s okay. Hope you got nice material. Come, let''s eat. I already ordered today''s specialty. Pan seared scallop with white truffle, and today they also served Russian Osetra caviar. I haven''t ordered the main menu. You can choose for yourself."


    Tang Liyue shows them their seat, and after a while she''s coming back with the waiter. The waiter skilfully served the scallop and caviar. They also served the Foccacia, flat oven bread seasoned with olive oil and sea salt. The Taralli bread is cooked in a delicate ring shape with lovely golden colour. The Laterza bread, a long slender loaf of bread, had a stiff and crunchy crust with soft melted centre inside. The aroma from the light gold seared scallop surrounded by small potato fondant, mixed well with the scraped white truffle on top of it.


    While the waiter preparing the appetizer, Tang Liyue took a bottle of white wine from the serving cart. "May I suggest you try this 1999 Billecart-Salmon Le Clos Saint Hilaire from our collection? This Blanc de Noirs paired well with our today''s caviar and excellently matched with the scallops."


    Jian Kang Lu nodded, "Glad to have your suggestion. I didn''t really know about this wine pairing and your suggestion always works like magic every time." He then looked at his kitten who was still staring at the menu. "Can you drink alcohol? This is light, though. And since this lovely lady offered us this white wine, how about ordering some lobster and crab pasta for our main menu? I remember you said you have no food allergy."


    Bai Yutang looks relieved, and closes the menu. "I''ll follow you, Jian Ge. I can drink alcohol, and eat anything."


    They enjoyed the appetizer. Bai Yutang didn''t seem comfortable at first. But after he follows Jian Kang Lu''s movement to savour the meal, his face brightens and he eats silently.


    Jian Kang Lu asks, "How''s the taste? Does it suit your palate? Not everyone can enjoy the caviar taste. Here, to get the real flavour of caviar, you need to take a small bite and don''t chew on it. Use the tongue to feel the beads and taste the buttery fat. Some people like to eat it on this cracker and with sour cream. You can try which one suits your taste."


    Bai Yutang nodded and didn''t say anything. But he follows Jian Kang Lu''s suggestion. He then said, "I think i like both. They have different unique tastes."


    Jian Kang Lu sipped his wine. The waiter was very attentive, and came right away to fill the glass again. At a high class restaurant, you almost didn''t need to call for the waiter. They always stand not too far away from you and notice every movement with their hawk eyes.


    Their main menu comes 30 minutes later. The crab pasta served with angel hair pasta style, with crab meat shredded on top of it. The taste of olive oil and a little bit of lemon add the freshness of seafood flavour and not greasy at all. The lobster pasta beautifully served with a shaped lobster stand near the ocean. The blue colour from the blue cheese sauce comes from butterfly pea flower.


    Jian Kang Lu is glad that his kitten seems to enjoy the food. He sipped his wine while looking at that lovely face chewing the lobster. His kitten eating style suits him very well. No slurping voice, the pace is slowly to enjoy every bit of taste. This is how you enjoy your dinner, in appreciation of the chef''s effort.


    After they finished, they slowly sipped their wine. His kitten looked at him while holding the wine glass with his other hand lean on top of the table, "This is my first time experiencing this kind of dinner. I didn''t know the table manners here. I''m sorry if there''s any mistakes, Jian Ge. And thank you so much for inviting me here."


    "I''m glad if you love it. Don''t worry about table manners. Small details won''t matter. Your eating habit is very good. I bet if the chef looks at you while you''re eating, he will be very happy. As long as we enjoy the food, don''t really bother with small details etiquette. My table manners also sucks."


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "No. I didn''t even know how to eat that caviar before. You taught me a lot today. I also just realised that different kinds of wine are paired with different kinds of food."


    They almost finish their wine, the waiter comes and divides the rest of the wine into their glass. "About wine pairing, it was not the same for every one. The only way to know about your own taste is tasting different kinds of pairs and choosing the best one according to your own taste. You don''t have to follow other people''s suggestions. Just try to feel the aroma lingered after you ate and drink the wine, and how the after taste feels. Everyone will have their own preferences. The owner of this restaurant prefers light rose wine to pair with their caviar, and it was okay. We''re here to enjoying ourselves, not to pleased other people."


    Jian Kang Lu asked for the bill, and not long after the waiter came and swiped his card. Jian Kang Lu said to his kitten, "Let me take you home. This is already 10 o''clock. I''m sorry you come home so late every time you''re going out with me."


    Bai Yutang smiled, "It was my pleasure, Jian Ge. Every time I went with you, I always learned something new. And I really enjoy every minute I spend with you. Besides, I am always going out with you at the weekend. I have nothing to do on Sunday except working on my project. What are you doing on Sunday, Jian Ge?"


    "Me?" Jian Kang Lu put his card back to his wallet. "Usually i spend my Sunday with my parents and brother. We routinely have Sunday lunch together at my parent''s house. Or sometimes we''re going out to have lunch at some new restaurant."


    "Mmm, i think i remember you said you originally come from this city. Does it mean your parents and your brother stay in the same city?"


    "En.. My parents live in the suburbs, and my brother''s apartment is near CBD. It was more convenient for him and his wife since they both work in the CBD area."


    "Oh, does it mean on working days all of you live in a different place?"


    Jian Kang Lu finished his wine and answered, "Yes.. My father already retired. And I live alone in my apartment near the hospital. It was more convenient that way for all of us."


    Bai Yutang slowly finished his wine. He then said softly, "I didn''t know you celebrated your birthday a few days ago, Jian Ge. Even though it passed already, I do really want to give you a birthday gift. But honestly i have no idea what to give. Is there something you need, Jian Ge?"


    Jian Kang Lu was stunned, and felt some happiness spread from his heart, warming every part of his body. His soft gaze framed by beautiful eyelashes, mirroring the sweetness he felt inside. "You already gave me a birthday gift. You promised to accompany me watching movies when you''re not busy. Remember?"


    His kitten silent for a while, but then nodded, "Yes, I do. Please let me know in advance. I''ll keep my promise to you."


    His lips slightly wet from the wine. His face looks like an angel, illuminated from the soft candle light. His eyelashes fluttered, his eyes glazed like honey and turned into million shades of gold, scratching Jian Kang Lu''s heart. This is one of the best dinners he had. He loves every minute of it.

 Chapter 16 - This Humble Slave

    Bai Yutang lives in the university dorm with his classmate, Yu Dong. Both of them rent the two beds room. Yu Dong is his best friend, they often play games together. Yu Dong is a geek nerd type, but very funny. He''s also a very clean and organised person. Their room is one of the most hygienic rooms in the building.


    His other best friend, Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang, both rent the room upstairs. They often hang out at Bai Yutang''s room, because it''s very clean and tidy. Today both of them visit his room and invite them to have lunch together at the cafe outside the dorm. Every first week of the month they usually eat outside, celebrating momentary wealth sent by their parents.


    Four of them walked together to the cafe. Today''s weather is a bit cold. Winter is coming.. Bai Yutang wears his sweater and black jacket to protect him from the cold wind outside. His hair disheveled by the wind, he shuddered a bit.


    Tang Yuxuan suddenly put his arms around his neck and asked him with a playful tone, "Baby, did you cheat on me? Why have you spent your Saturday night outside lately? Daddy drank tons of vinegar alone last night, wondering where my baby went without telling me."


    Liu Xiang also hugged his waist from behind. With a voice that sounded like an abandoned wife, he complained, "Uh huh, me too. You really change into a heartless man. How could husband leave me alone with this pervert scoundrel? This wife almost lost her virginity last night."


    Yu Dong walks in front of them, turns his head back towards them and looks at them with a disdainful face under his glasses. "You guys know nothing about my suffering. I thought we would celebrate finishing mid term exams last night, finishing Cecilia Dungeon. Turns out my knight betrayed me and I can''t find a good team to finish the dungeon. I almost spent all my precious potion because that stupid elf i found randomly."


    He then poke Bai Yutang''s chest, "Are you happy, traitor? You know how hard to collect the Holy Wing material. I''ll make you pay dearly for this."


    Bai Yutang laughs, and knocks Tang Yuxuan ribs with his elbow. "I think I already told you guys before the exam that i have something to do. I can check the group chat and show you the evidence."


    "Tang Yuxuan jumped to avoid the attack and bumped to his back. "Daddy doesn''t care! Who can pay attention to what you said before the exam. You know Daddy has short term memory loss! Tell me honestly, which fairy you hid from us? I thought we already sworn as blood brothers not to leave each other behind."


    Liu Xiang bumped away by Tang Yuxuan and tried to hit his back. "You scoundrel! If Yutang''s fairy had some friends, it was me who needed it the most. You already had so many fans clubs out there! Don''t try to steal the light from me again this time.


    Yu Dong shakes his head, "What are you guys talking about. It was me who needed it the most. I think the only fairy i can get in this life is that swindler bastard."


    Bai Yutang laughed and tried to poke Yu Dong''s arms. It was true that Yu Dong''s story is so miserable. He met this ''beautiful fairy'' at Magallan last year and likes to do co-op together with her. Magallan could be played on PC, mobile phone, and game console. That''s why this game is so popular.


    Yu Dong spent a lot on this game, including giving some expensive costumes and weapons to his fairy. Yu Dong even exchanges WeChat IDs and they sometimes chat until midnight. Until one day he receives a message from his friend, asking him to read an online forum about this "beautiful fairy".


    Turns out this ''beautiful fairy'' is a swindler. This fairy is not even a female. He''s a troll that likes to take advantage of pure heart nerds and extorting expensive items in the game from them. His victim is not only one or two. He keeps changing her appearance in the game, and also his name.


    Yu Dong even doesn''t believe that forum post in the beginning. He tried to ask for clarification from his fairy. Of course his fairy denies it. But when Yu Dong ask for a video call, this fairy keeps avoiding him and finally blocks his WeChat. This ''beautiful fairy'' also blocked him in the game. Once again that swindler changes his appearance and his name in the game, and maybe now has a new victim.


    Liu Xiang is also right about Tang Yuxuan. Although Liu Xiang is handsome, his face belongs to that pretty boy category. And his height is average. A little bit shorter than Bai Yutang.


    While Tang Yuxuan is 185 cm, his body is one of the best among third year architecture students. He played for the faculty basketball team, and his face was really handsome. Lots of girls will cheer on him every time he plays and fight for each other to give him water or a towel.


    Bai Yutang pushed Tang Yuxuan aside and poke Yu Dong, "Please forgive this humble slave, your majesty. Let me guard you tonight to clear that dungeon once again, and let this humble slave honoured with your grace."


    Tang Yuxuan didn''t give up. "Don''t try to avoid this subject, baby. Daddy is really curious. I noticed this semester you missed for a few times, and you won''t tell Daddy any clue. Come one, who is this fairy? Daddy will bestow you with a one week free lunch if you introduce your fairy''s beautiful sister to your Daddy."


    "This humble slave didn''t meet any fairy. I just met my friend. Remember the restaurant I told you guys which was the inspiration of this term project? He was the one who showed me that restaurant. Last night he took me to his friend''s restaurant to let me do some research there about the restaurant building specification."


    Bai Yutang tried to explain to his friend. If he didn''t explain it clearly, they won''t stop pestering him. They already teased him so much when Yu Dong told them that Bai Yutang had a date last month. Just because he dressed quite formally to go to the concert. And last night he also dressed well. It was understandable that all of them thought he''s having a date.


    "Is this the same person who invited you to that fancy concert last month? Where did you go last night? Another fancy place?" Liu Xiang spoke with an envious tone.


    Bai Yutang nodded, "Yes, his friend''s restaurant is really fancy. It was an Italian restaurant in the K building. They allow me to take pictures and measurements too. I''ll show you guys later."


    Yu Dong''s family is quite rich, he actually can choose to stay in a better apartment near the campus. But he chose to stay with Bai Yutang since the dorm is also more practical and really near to their faculty. He was surprised to hear Bai Yutang''s answer. "Is it Il Mare? The name of that restaurant you visited last night?"


    "Mmm, how do you know?" Bai Yutang opened the cafe door and held it to let his friends walk inside.


    Yu Dong stops his step and looks at him with disbelief. "That place is super expensive. I think the architect is Zhen Guo. You know, architect of the year for three times in a row. Rumor said he didn''t want to win this year''s award so he deliberately took out his name as the project leader. That''s why that old fox could win this year''s award."


    That old fox is their design class lecturer. He is really good, but his demand is quite high. He loves nitpicking minor design utility matter. And he''s very good using his words to destroy his student''s excuses. It''s really hard to pass his class. But if your design is exceptionally good, he will praise you to heaven and give you an opportunity to gain extra income by designing some small project.


    They found the empty table in the corner and sat together. "Really?" Bai Yutang asks Yu Dong. Liu Xiang asked for the menu from the waiter.


    "Really??? Are you really going there and they allow you to take pictures plus measurement?" This time Tang Yuxuan''s voice raised two tones higher.


    "En, the manager let me do everything. Even she show me the office and the kitchen flow. I spent almost an hour there. I even took the pictures of the kitchen ceiling. I really want to see the details of their ventilation. It was seamlessly blended with the ceiling but we can''t smell any smoke residual in the room. But I don''t think I can shamelessly ask for that." Bai Yutang answered while looking at the menu.


    Yu Dong grabbed his hand and asked him with a high pitch tone, "You should! If your friend could let you walk around and do so much over there, I bet he also knows Zhen Guo. You said that it was his friend''s restaurant, right? I remember Zhen Guo didn''t accept the project for a small building unless it was for his relatives."


    Bai Yutang just waved his hand, "How could i ask for that? My friend already does so much for me. I don''t want to take advantage of him. Unless he offers by himself, I won''t ask for that matter."


    They finish ordering and chat a bit. Liu Xiang looked and scrolled at his phone''s screen and suddenly screamed, "Holy shit!!! You really went there last night, husband? I saw the pictures and price for this place. It was really expensive. It said the average cost per person there is 600 yuan! It was the same cost with our dorm rent per month! Why didn''t you invite this wife to eat there with you also??? You heartless man!"


    This time Bai Yutang really turned into a heartless man and said with some smug tone, "This humble slave even tasted caviar for the first time last night. So this slave is asking for the young lord''s lenience about why i left you guys last night."


    Yu Dong threw him with some candies popped up from God knows where, "Bastard! Who is this rich lord you hooked up with! No wonder you left this master alone! Is this your way betraying your old master??"


    Even though Yu Dong parents could count as the richest among them, four of them are actually on the same financial status. They have enough pocket money to live leisurely, but as university students of course their pocket money is still limited by their parents. Spending 600 yuan for one time dinner is out of question.


    Bai Yutang laughs and dodge to avoid the candies attack. They chat, laugh, and discuss the architecture details of Il Mare restaurant. His friends can''t wait to go back to the dorm and look at the pictures taken last night. They said too bad he didn''t take pictures of his meal last night too.


    Bai Yutang highly praised the dishes. No wonder it tastes heavenly. And Bai Yutang had to admit inside his mind that last night''s dinner was definitely worth more than 600 yuan per person with caviar as their appetiser.


    When they finished their lunch, they realised three girls sitting at the table next to them kept stealing glances toward them. Liu Xiang teased Tang Yuxuan, saying that those three girls must be his fans club members.


    They left the cafe and went straight back to the dorm. Too bad they can''t hear this girl''s conversation.


    Yes, these three girls are the same rotten girls from the fast food restaurant.


    "See!! My analysis is accurate. He''s an architecture student!"


    "Sister, please don''t be too proud of yourself. You were guessing engineering as your first guess."


    "Architecture is also part of engineering!"


    "No no no, sisters. Please don''t add more water into your brain. They are already floating and drowning there."


    "That tall guy in front of him is also handsome. I think i know that person. The male God of third year architecture faculty. Saw him in the basketball competition last semester when our team pitifully lost in the first game."


    "Ah, but still can''t beat that little shou''s gong level of attractiveness. Truly the most handsome man I saw in real life."


    "I really think that gong is not just a handsome face, but he has this charming and elegant look. I can''t forget his face until now."


    "Sister, me too! And his gentle smile.. Ah, I really support that little shou. That way, we can see that handsome gong again when he visits him."


    "I think I heard that little shou called Yutang. Wish i was in architecture class too so I can silently support him by showing him the art I draw based on them."


    "Don''t show me the art. I already can guess what kind of art you draw."


    "Show me sister! I can describe to you tons of the positions they do inside my head."


    "No, please don''t draw that little shou with a gag ball, blindfolded, and wearing the cat''s tail on his butt!!!"


    "¡­."


    ''Sister, actually you are the person among us with the wildest imagination.''

 Chapter 17 - Changed

    December is when the city''s sky gradually turns into dove grey, each hue darker and richer than before. The naked winter trees line in the avenue. There is a freezing chill in the air that brings crispness to the leaves. The sun shyly radiates from the horizon, bringing the unnoticed warmth into the surface. Morning comes, and another day carries on.


    The crispy sound of alarm awakened the two young men slumped in the bed. Their eyes stubbornly won''t open, try to abide the body''s instruction to rest some more. Gradually their brain starts to focus and their lid finally opens.


    Bai Yutang raised his head, tried moving his hand to support his body from his bed. His neck feels cramped. He thinks he just passed out last night and didn''t even care about his sleeping position. Finally he sat down and his head pinched his right shoulder. His neck and right shoulder really hurts.. Guess he had to put some oils and patch later on.


    Yu Dong also tries to wake up but he sluggishly wriggles under his quilt. Fatigue from two days pulling an all-nighter combined with this freezing weather outside, really lure mortal humans to stay in the bed and hug their pillow tight all day. Bai Yutang prepared to take a shower first and kick that quilt to make sure Yu Dong woke up.


    Today is Monday. They have morning class today, and also the last day to hand in their project assignment. Bai Yutang already finished his assignment two days ago. The files were sent to their lecturer''s email yesterday morning.


    But last night he still only managed to sleep for 3 hour since he still needed to beautify the presentation and made sure the rendered 3D model didn''t have any issues. It will be a huge loss if a good project had a bad presentation and issues in presenting it.


    Actually, it won''t take a whole day to edit your presentation. The presentation was basically done last week. The real reason he only slept for three hour last night, because he was watching a movie with Jian Ge.


    It was unusual for them watching movies in Sunday, and also Jian Ge suddenly ask him. Usually they''re going at Saturday, or Wednesday. Wednesday is the shortest day for Jian Ge at the hospital. Jian Ge told him that on Wednesday and Saturday, he doesn''t have polyclinic schedule. And every time Jian Ge asking him to watch movies, he always notify him 2 or 3 days in advance.


    That''s why Bai Yutang agreed yesterday, despite his unfinished presentation. Because he sensed there''s something happening to Jian Ge and he might need a friend. Last night''s movie time was spent in silence. Jian Ge didn''t talk much as usual. His face is still calm and his eyes still gentle as always, but there is some uneasiness inside him.


    Bai Yutang didn''t ask, and didn''t try to converse much. He just silently accompanied his Jian Ge, made some comments once in a while, and tried to smile a little bit more to brighten Jian Ge''s mood.


    Surprisingly, though it sounds weird that two people spending more than two hours together and converse not even ten minutes in total, Bai Yutang didn''t feel awkward at all.


    Jian Ge''s silence was somehow comforting and spoke for itself. Although Bai Yutang could see that Jian Ge was not his usual self, the shadow in his mind was not a dark poisonous one. Instead it was surrounding them like a night blanket, smoothing the roughness of the day.


    Last night they had dinner as usual at the theatre. Every time they planned to watch movies, Jian Ge always asked him in advance whether he wanted to have dinner outside or in the theatre. But he was ashamed to make Jian Ge always pay for his meal. Besides, the theatre menu is also very good. The time is also not quite right, since he is still busy working on his project.


    As individual projects, they didn''t have to do everything in detail. They can choose to present the concept, the initial function and the movement flow, as long as they understand the meaning of differences of design needed to utilise the space and the purpose of the building.


    For example, high class western restaurants will have different space utilisation with hotpot restaurants, or how family restaurants need to emphasise the children''s and geriatric needs.


    Jian Ge really helps him a lot in understanding the space utilisation for this project. Jian Ge also likes to ask him about his project. Sometimes Jian Ge only smiles and stares at him while he explains the progress of his project. It looks like he was listening to the most important thing in his life. Sometimes that makes Bai Yutang wonder why this magnificent man likes to hang out with him.


    Jian Ge is the most astounding person Bai Yutang ever met in real life. He admires him so much, and silently determines that he also wants to have that remarkable personality like him.


    The first time he looked at this man in the plane, his only impression was that this person is handsome. His face is smooth, his body is tall with slim muscular posture. Even Tang Yuxuan will look like an ordinary person beside him. There''s something inside this man that will attract people''s attention. His mature appearance adds his charm instead. Even the young girl sitting in the aisle is smiling so sweetly and beaming with happiness when talking to him.


    That''s why he was stunned for a moment when this charming man suddenly talked to him, asking him about the game. He doesn''t look like a gamer at all. He looks like a young successful businessman, or model.


    When they chat for the rest of the flight, he could see that this man''s knowledge is very wide, he even knows a lot about the game which shows he really plays it instead of just joining the hype.


    Jian Ge''s gestures are always elegant, he always speaks politely, his calming voice also very soothing. When Jian Ge told him that he was a doctor, Bai Yutang really thought that sometimes the world is unfair. A handsome and charming man, smart, and successful.. It really looks like a person in books or TV drama characters.


    From the way Jian Ge introduces him to his acquaintances such as Huxiang''s owner, the wealthy look businessman in the concert, even the VIP lounge ladies or the manager and waiter in that Italian restaurant, he can see that Jian Ge truly a cultured man. He can talk to anyone, about anything, and makes people around him feel very comfortable. Including Bai Yutang himself.


    He wonders whether Jian Ge will feel bored talking to him. He was not a very talkative person, his knowledge also can''t compare to Jian Ge. That''s why sometimes he didn''t talk much at first. He''s afraid he will look stupid if he made inappropriate comment. But the more they talk to each other, the more he can be himself and speak comfortably.


    He also noticed Jian Ge''s simplicity looks add more dignity and reflect his personality well. It was the reason for Bai Yutang lately to dress in propriety to imitate him. How he wished that he could go back and dress more appropriately when he accompanied him to the shopping mall or when they had dinner at Huxian. Bai Yutang doesn''t want to look like a ruffian young boy any more beside Jian Ge.


    Bai Yutang just noticed, if you''re going out with a well dressed person, you will feel appreciated. The biggest charm of Jian Ge is not how his gentle peach blossom eyes curve when he smiles, or how playful his straight eyebrow raised a little, or how his revolting lips curled upward when he smiled. But the overall gesture that makes you feel like you''re important, wrapped you in friendly summer sun soaks into your soul.


    He realizes people always stare at them every time they''re going together. He knows that people''s attention is due to Jian Ge''s presence. Because he never felt that kind of attention if he was going out by himself.


    For the 21 years of his life, he never had any girls that would stare at him with that awe in their faces. Bai Yutang has been single for his whole life.


    Bai Yutang also has some crush on the girls around him like a normal healthy young man. Once when he was in his second year of high school, he really liked this one girl in his class. She was cute, with round glasses, and a sweet smile. She draws very well, and both of them are assigned to draw the yearbook art project.


    He tries to have more conversation with this girl. Even one day he mustered his courage, offering her to send her home when they stayed late at school. But this girl didn''t show any interest to him at all.


    Last year he also had a crush for an economic freshman. She was a friend of Liu Xian''s girlfriend back then. He had secretly hoped that since they often going out together with Liu Xian and his girlfriend, they will get closer naturally so this girl can see his sincere effort and heart. But then Liu Xiang broke up, and turns out this girl only agree to go out together if Tang Yuxuan also there.


    It made him feel that maybe he and Yu Dong destined to be single in their whole university life. Who will take second glances at them if there are these two superior specimens like Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xian around them? Truly a bad fate.


    If he can be a man with Jian Ge''s attitude, then maybe his unfortunate love life can change. Not only love life, but his whole life. Since he can see that this kind of man is someone who can bring happiness to the people around them.


    He also likes to hear Jian Ge answering hospital calls. Although he doesn''t understand every single one of those medical terms, he can see that Jian Ge is a very respectable doctor. He answered clearly, simple but meticulous. Sometimes he would talk longer to patiently explain to the person on the other side of that line.


    Jian Ge always gives him an apologetic smile before he answers the phone, and always politely says thank you for his patience waiting for him taking the phone calls. These phone calls vary from as short as five minutes to as long as more than fifteen minutes. He likes that part about Jian Ge. Made him feel like an important person.


    But that''s what makes everyone around Jian Ge likes him. Even the janitor in the toilet feels that way. Jian Ge always politely smile and say thank you for their hard work cleaning the toilet.


    Once he asks about that to Jian Ge. His answer was, "All professions in this world are hard and important. Without them, we won''t have a clean and hygienic toilet. Not many people want to choose this profession, it was not an option for them. Every single person will be happy if we appreciate their fruits of labour. That''s why I always try to give them the appreciation they should receive in the first place."


    And that''s how Bai Yutang also changed slowly this last 4 months. He tries to be more polite. He tries to be more attentive. He tries to be kinder to other people. He is also seriously doing his project and studying diligently than ever.


    Jian Ge told him that he was never a smart person. But he is studying and working hard to reach his position now. Nothing comes free in this life. Jian Ge also told him, life is only once. So if you waste your life, there will be no second chance and it was no use to feel regret later on.


    Sometimes Bai Yutang used to feel whether choosing architecture is the right choice for him. His father was a small contractor in W city. He always admired those architects he saw when he followed his father in the construction site. He can draw well, and he was a top ten student in his high school. It was his main reason to finally choose architecture as his university major.


    His parents rejoiced when he was accepted in T university. After all, it was one of the best architecture faculty in the country. Even his father bought him the high spec laptop and tablet he needed two years ago.


    But in his third year, he already knew the nightmare story about the unemployed architect, or that low salary with long working hours from his seniors.


    Famous architects paid really well. But from hundreds of thousand architects spread around this country, only those super talented and extremely good luck that can achieve that level. Bai Yutang also feels that his talent in this field is just an average. Many people in his class are really worth admiring. He feels that he might not be that great architect he dreamed of.


    That''s why he feels lucky he met Jian Ge. His words always inspire him. No matter if you become famous or not, the important part is you enjoying your job and doing it well. Every job, every profession is matter, despite how insignificant it was in the eyes of others.


    He wished to know what was disturbing Jian Ge''s mind last night. He wished he could do more, like how Jian Ge introduced a whole new world to him and changed his view of life.


    He realizes right now he only can accompany him to watch a movie. But someday he also wished to imprint his existence in Jian Ge''s life, just like he did to him.

 Chapter 18 - First Time Hold Your Hand

    The Christmas decoration around the campus is very lively. Lots of couples walking together with their bodies close to each other, trying to warm their bodies in this freezing weather. The white mist outside crystallised into the jewels hanging around the branches. The mild sun made the jewels shine brilliantly in the rainbow''s spectrum of colour.


    Yu Dong and Liu Xiang congratulate him for his successful presentation. They have their presentation this week, divided into a few meetings. After the last presentation, their lecturer gave them his pointer for overall presentation, and also mentioned Bai Yutang as the best space utilisation and functional design. His lecturer said that his restaurant design is not spectacular, but definitely could win the bid if this project is for real.


    Bai Yutang blushed hearing that praise, and deep inside his heart he was grateful for meeting Jian Ge.


    They plan to have Christmas dinner at the cafe last time. Liu Xian said that he and Tang Yuxuan will fetch them at 7 o''clock. Tang Yuxuan still has basketball practice inside the gymnasium this afternoon..


    Bai Yutang and Yu Dong planned to do the Sea Dragon dungeon while waiting for dinner time. While walking to the dorm, Yu Dong asked him, "You didn''t have any plan going out with your Jian Ge?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "No, Jian Ge has Christmas dinner with his colleagues. He''s busy this week. We planned to go next Wednesday."


    Yu Dong also adds Jian Kang Lu as his game friends, three of them sometimes doing co-op together. He can understand why Bai Yutang really admired this man. Even he can''t help to feel amazed even though he has never met him yet in real life.


    He also noticed the change in Bai Yutang. The way his friend dressed and talked now is different from what he used to know. Yu Dong feels this change is for the better.


    Sometimes they talk about Jian Kang Lu, and Yu Dong can''t help but admire Jian Kang Lu. It''s rare to meet a man that looks like he has everything, but is still humble and influences others with a positive attitude.


    "Is it true Jian Ge is still single? I thought you said that he was already over 30 years old." Yu Dong shuddered a bit from the cold breeze. "And you said that he''s really handsome."


    Bai Yutang raised his turtle neck to block the cold wind. "Yes, I also wonder why. I bet his fans club is even greater than Tang Yuxuan."


    Yu Dong snorted, "Maybe that''s the curse of extraordinary beings. Better to be ordinary like us. Remember that tragedy that traumatised Tang Yuxuan so much?"


    Tang Yuxuan used to have a girlfriend. She was his high school sweetheart. She was the high school flower in his hometown. Tang Yuxuan comes from a small prefecture where the family over there tend to know each other. This girl is pretty, well matched with Tang Yuxuan.


    But the tragedy happened when Tang Yuxuan accepted into T university and his girlfriend was studying in a local university. The tight schedule and heavy workload made their communication not as smooth as they used to be.


    His girlfriend started complaining that Tang Yuxuan didn''t pay attention to her. She even protested why Tang Yuxuan still had time to play basketball instead of video chatting with her. His girlfriend accused him of cheating, and they fight a lot.


    One day, when Tang Yuxuan played basketball as usual, his girlfriend suddenly appeared. God knows how she can even find the basketball field where Tang Yuxuan played. She was furious to see Tang Yuxuan fans club around the field. After that, she forcefully hug Tang Yuxuan and ask him to hug her back in front of the crowd. Even suggest to sleep at Tang Yuxuan''s dorm.


    Of course Tang Yuxuan rejected her, no visitor allowed to stay at the dorm. Especially the opposite gender. Tang Yuxuan then sent her to the hotel around the dorm after having dinner together. Tang Yuxuan tried to appreciate his girlfriend''s visit even though he didn''t feel comfortable with her imminent jealousy.


    At the hotel room, his girlfriend suddenly attacked him. Even try to get herself naked. When Tang Yuxuan rejected her with all his effort, she was crying non stop and ask him why he didn''t love her anymore. She always dreamed to be his wife, his soul mate, inseparable.


    No matter how Tang Yuxuan explains to her that he appreciates her, cherishes her, and loves her, she won''t listen to any of it. She accused Tang Yuxuan didn''t loving her anymore because Tang Yuxuan was attracted to big city girls instead of small town girls like her. She accused Tang Yuxuan of preferring the smart girl in top university instead of a girl from an unknown university like her.


    And so on.


    When his girlfriend is going back home, suddenly her family accuses Tang Yuxuan to take advantage of her. Tang Yuxuan explaining to her family. His family is furious to hear that, his father almost beat Tang Yuxuan when he comes back to his hometown explaining this whole mess. His mother cried and tried to defend her son. In the end, Tang Yuxuan could clear his name. They broke up after that. But his family relationship with hers is irreparable until now.


    That''s how Tang Yuxuan was single at the beginning of their second year. And now he stays single for more than one year. He said that he will be looking for a girlfriend only when his life is stable enough to think about the future. He doesn''t want to walk through that one hell of rollercoaster again in his university life.


    Bai Yutang opens the door of his dorm followed by Yu Dong. They took off their jackets and started to online on Magallan. He noticed Jian Kang Lu wasn''t online for today also. This is Saturday. Usually he is always online at this hour if they''re not going out together.


    He hasn''t met Jian Kang Lu this whole week. They still play games as usual, and everyday Jian Kang Lu chats with him talking about trivial matters. Until now he didn''t show anything out of his habit except that last Sunday''s movies. Bai Yutang still didn''t know and didn''t ask why he was gloomy last time.


    Around 7 o''clock Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang come to their room. Four of them then walk to the cafe together. They lively enjoy the dinner. The cafe is decorated with green and red ornaments, giving the merry atmosphere and warm inside despite the cold weather outside. A lot of couples inside the cafe, enjoying their own Christmas eve date.


    They talked about the upcoming final term test next month. After the new year, their leisure time will be over. They will cram all the material in two weeks then they will have the nightmare in the middle of January.


    Bai Yutang''s mobile phone suddenly vibrated. There was a new message from Jian Kang Lu.


    [JiangKangLu] Hello, did you enjoy your Christmas Eve?


    Bai Yutang looked at that message, and replied.


    [WhiteMist] Merry Christmas Jian Ge. Yes, I enjoy Christmas eve dinner with my friends. How about you?


    [JiangKangLu] We''re also having Christmas eve dinner with my colleagues from the hospital. We eat hotpot at the restaurant you admired before.


    [WhiteMist] Oh, thanks to you Jian Ge for taking me to that restaurant. Today is the first time my lecturer specifically praised my project. I won''t make it if not without your help.


    [JiangKangLu] It''s all due to your hard work. Do you want to come here again next Wednesday? Or try somewhere else?


    [WhiteMist] I don''t mind, you know better than me. Let''s go somewhere you are comfortable with.


    [JiangKangLu] Let''s go to the Japanese restaurant then. Near my hospital, there was this excellent Japanese restaurant with an authentic chef. We can see how he prepared the sushi and sashimi. If you like Japanese food, you''ll love it here.


    [WhiteMist] Sure. Tell me the location and the time, Jian Ge.


    [JiangKangLu] I''ll send you the location. How about 6 o''clock? So you can go back to your dorm before 9 o''clock. Or I can fetch you at your dorm. It''s so cold lately.


    [WhiteMist] It''s not convenient for you. It would be better if we meet over there.


    Bai Yutang''s friend looked at him, who suddenly absorbed his phone. They know Bai Yutang must be chatting with Jiang Kang Lu. Everytime he chats with Jiang Kang Lu, Bai Yutang always shows this face. The kind of face full of admiration and beamed with happiness.


    Tang Yuxuan still feels uneasy about this friend of Bai Yutang. He can''t understand why an over 30 years old man who still single wants to befriend a university student. He knows Bai Yutang''s explanation, but he was afraid that this man is actually a wolf who wants to take advantage of Bai Yutang''s naivety.


    Liu Xiang teased him to turn into a jealous sugar daddy. Liu Xiang said, even though Bai Yutang is kind and a very good person, he''s just an ordinary man. If this man is as great as Bai Yutang''s story, why does he want to take advantage of him? A lot of cute and pretty fish out there in the ocean. So far they only play games, dinner together, or watch movies. Nothing out of ordinary.


    When they finished their dinner, the temperature outside dropped below 0 degree. It seems the snow will fall again tomorrow on Christmas day. Before they reach the dorm, snow falls already. The swirl of the white flakes dropped like bird feathers from the sky.


    Bai Yutang loves cleanliness. After that snow falls outside, he still insists on taking a shower. He doesn''t like to go to sleep with sweats or dirty dust outside. He only went to bed without taking shower when he was too tired from doing his project.


    On Monday night, he feels his head spinning around. And his throat started to feel itchy. His nose also starts to smell nothing. He took his medicine, and slept after playing co-op with Jian Kang Lu.


    On Tuesday night, he was already coughing. His fever reached 37,9 degree. He has no appetite to eat and even wants to vomit every time he eats. He forces himself to eat because he knows he won''t get better if he doesn''t eat. And the cold medication also needs to be taken with food.


    Yu Dong bought him chicken rice congee from Chinese restaurant near the dorm. The chicken boiled tenderly with pieces of onion. ginger, and scallions. It is really suitable for sick people.


    He usually loves that chicken porridge, but tonight his tasting bud feels nothing except bland congee. He still managed to finish third quarter of the congee. He took his medicine and feels sleepy after that. He didn''t even notice that Jiang Kang Lu messaged him.


    This was the first time Jiang Kang Lu didn''t receive any reply the whole night long.


    Bai Yutang awakens at 2 o''clock in the morning because his fever comes back again after the medication effect wears off. His cough was getting worse. He took medication again but can''t sleep well the whole night long. He saw his mobile phone and replied to Jiang Kang Lu''s message. Apologised he fell asleep so early last night.


    Bai Yutang got worse in the morning, his fever reached 38,2 degrees. After taking medication again after breakfast, his fever was still 37,6 degrees. He needs to get better soon. Today he promised to have dinner with Jiang Kang Lu.


    Bai Yutang decided to take a sick permit to skip class today, and go to the infirmary. The doctor over there gives him antibiotics and advises him to be admitted into hospital if not getting better in two days.


    Bai Yutang wonders if he needs to cancel his dinner. He decided to take his antibiotics and medicine first to see whether his fever was going down. But he felt bad for meeting Jiang Kang Lu and later infected him with his sickness. He fell asleep after having his lunch and medication.


    When he opened his eyes with difficulty and kept coughing, it was already 5.30 in the afternoon. Yu Dong saw his face flustered, and his breathing also short. Bai Yutang decided to cancel his dinner rather than go with his condition.


    [WhiteMist] Jian Ge, i''m sorry. I don''t think i can keep my promise today. I need to cancel the dinner.


    10 minutes later Jiang Kang Lu replied.


    [JianKangLu] It''s okay. Is something wrong? You seem quite busy these 2 days. If you''re busy you can tell me. We can schedule it again when you''re free.


    [WhiteMist] It''s nothing Jian Ge. I just feel unwell. I''ll take some medicine and have some rest.


    [JianKangLu] Okay, if you''re feeling worse, please tell me as soon as possible. We can check you up here at my hospital to make sure you''re okay.


    [WhiteMist] Thank you Jian Ge, I will.


    At 8 o''clock Bai Yutang''s fever reached 39,2 degrees. He vomited his dinner and his medication. He doesn''t even have energy to get up from his bed. He''s just lying there half conscious. He was breathing rapidly, Yu Dong really worried about him.


    Bai Yutang suddenly feels someone''s hand on his forehead. It felt cold and comfortable. He didn''t have an ounce of consciousness left to open his eyes. His throat also hurts and he can''t speak. He also felt like someone held his body and took him away from his bed. He feels floating and his body feels heavy. He also feels like everything around him is moving. He wants to vomit again but he can''t.


    He can sense that he was finally placed into something stable in a bright place, but the world around him still feels spinning around. Something sharp stabbed his arms, and he can feel something drawn out from his body. He wants to pull his hand.


    Suddenly he feels like someone holding his hand, and another hand on his forehead. Soothing his anxious nerve. From that stabbed place, he feels something cold run through inside his vein. That hand holding his hand the whole time.


    When he finally opened his eyes, the first thing he saw was a familiar handsome face filled with anxiety. His hair looks damp from the sweats around his smooth forehead, his eyebrows furrowed accompany that black eyes filled with chaos below. This is the first time he saw the distressed face of Jiang Kang Lu.

 Chapter 19 - TangTangs Luck

    Yu Dong pressed the elevator button to the eighth floor. Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang follow him behind. Tang Yuxuan still gives him a cold glare and crosses his arm while they''re inside the elevator. There are two women and one man in middle age inside the elevator.


    "I can''t believe you didn''t tell us last night. The worst part is you let some stranger help you send Yutang to hospital instead of letting us know." Tang Yuxuan whispered in Yu Dong''s right ear with a threatening voice.


    "En.. And you just remember to tell us this morning in the class. Don''t even bother to call us, or send messages in group chat once you arrived in the hospital last night. What''s the use of being brothers?" Liu Xiang said those words slowly on Yu Dong''s left ear while tapping his shoulder in a dangerous manner.


    The elevator door opened on the 5th floor, and two young men wearing doctor gowns came inside. Yu Dong just holding the fruit basket in front of his chest tight, and answering them in a wronged tone, "I''ve told you guys the detailed story this noon at lunch, why you still blaming me."


    Tang Yuxuan wrapped his hand around Yu Dong''s neck. "Daddy is still shocked to hear your news this noon. After we went back to our dorm, we just managed to think clearly. It''s definitely your fault. How come you didn''t know he was that sick. TangTang said it was just a minor cold, and you say nothing yesterday at lunch. How do we know that he collapsed last night?"


    Yu Dong mumbled, his answer filled with slurred words, "You have no idea how guilty i felt. He said he already took antibiotics from infirmary and just needed some rest. He was sleeping when I came back from campus. I told you that I also bought him chicken rice congee for dinner. How do I know that he started to vomit everything and collapsed after that. He still can answer me when I ask him questions after vomiting."


    "How could you didn''t know that he had a high fever?" Tang Yuxuan is still pestering Yu Dong.


    "He said that he was fine, and do you think that touching each other as a dorm mate is a usual conduct? Only both of you like to grope us even more than you interact with your girlfriend before." This time, Yu Dong''s voice is not low, and the people inside the elevator peeking at Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang.


    Tang Yuxuan''s arms almost choked Yu Dong''s neck once he heard that. The elevator door opened again at the eight floor. Three of them walk out from the elevator. Liu Xiang chuckled while he walked, "Okay okay, we don''t really blame you. I know that TangTang was weak during winter. But he was always doing fine with taking medication before. I also thought it was just an ordinary cold when we visit him on Monday night."


    Tang Yuxuan is still pestering Yu Dong while walking in the hospital corridor. "But how could you telltaling to that man while you say nothing to us?"


    Yu Dong sighed, "I''m not having short term memory loss like you, so i still remember what i told you guys this noon." He then greeted the nurses at the nurse station. "Hello, we want to visit Bai Yutang at room number 8008."


    The nurse station in this Super VIP ward was designed like a reception lobby in the hotel. It doesn''t look like people coming here to visit patients at the hospital. The lounge provided for visitors waiting, complete with long sofa and magazines. There''s a small cafe selling coffees and drinks in the corner of the lounge even though this VIP ward only has 8 rooms on this floor.


    The nurse is still young and cute. She smiled and said, "Please wait for a moment. May I know your relation with the patient?"


    Yu Dong answered, "We''re his dorm mate. Thank you." The nurse politely replied, "Please wait at the lounge, we will get back to you as soon as possible."


    Three of them are sitting in the sofa lounge, and Yu Dong continues to answer. "I told you, i panicked when i saw TangTang breathing rapidly and just lying in the bed. His phone kept ringing so I picked up the phone, It was from Jian Ge. He said he was near our dorm and also worried about TangTang. He''s a doctor, so i told him about Yutang''s condition. He said he will come to check and I picked him up at the gate. After that he took TangTang to hospital with me. He''s the one who admitted TangTang to the ER, and took care of all the administration. My job only brings TangTang''s wallet and gives his ID at the administration table. Can you really blame me not calling you guys at that time? My mind was blank the whole time."


    Liu Xiang commented with his hand on his chin, "Hmm.. Surely he knows better than us about TangTang''s condition. What time are you coming back to the dorm last night?"


    "I reached the dorm around 11 o''clock. Jian Ge sent me back to the dorm." Yu Dong answered.


    Tang Yuxuan''s face still frowned. "Do you think this Jian Kang Lu is not suspicious? You said he took care of TangTang''s hospital admission. He''s not Bai Yutang''s relatives, why does he care about him so much? This hospital also looks expensive. Why must go that far for someone you''re not really close with?"


    Liu Xiang laughed and poke him, "Why are you so sour, daddy? This wife is not even complaining but you already smell like 1000 old vinegar. That''s good if TangTang receives the best treatment. And I bet he also works here. Maybe he got some employee discount or something."


    Yu Dong saw the nurse coming and told them that they can visit the patient. She also accompanies them to the room and reminds them that visiting hours are limited until 8 pm so the patient can get early rest.


    She also gave them masks and said, "Please use the masks inside. The patient has respiratory disease so it''s best to protect yourselves from getting infected."


    Three of them nod and put the masks before they come inside the room.


    Bai Yutang is with Jian Kang Lu at the moment. Jian Kang Lu visited him before his clinic schedule. The nurse opens the door and greets Jian Kang Lu, "Hello Doctor Jian, please don''t be late for your clinic schedule. Nurse Li already called ten minutes ago and told me to drag you down."


    Jian Kang Lu raised his head to look at the nurse and smiled under his mask, "Yes of course, i just need five more minutes. Tell Nurse Li not to come here. I can''t let my friend see her tweaking my ear and dragging me down."


    The nurse smiled and gave him an okay sign with her hand. This is the first time Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang see Jian Kang Lu, and see his smile. Both their first impressions are the same.


    ''He''s handsome! Even with a mask he still looks so handsome! Is this really a doctor?? None of the doctors I saw before looks like this!''


    Before they even have time to say anything, Jian Kang Lu already looks at them and smiles. His peach blossom eyes are curved and look so beautiful like those models in the magazine. He had this halo above his head that made people pay attention to him. Even a mask can''t hide his charm.


    "Hello, you must be Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang. I''m Jian Kang Lu. I''m sorry but we''re still in the middle of co-op. Let me finish this first and greet you properly."


    The three of them come inside and put the fruit basket in the round table. This super VIP room has a single sofa near the patient bed, and an L shape beige leather sofa near the window. The big round table placed in the middle of the sofa. The room has a big window which gives a spacious feeling. The floor is tiled with dark brown woods and there is carpet underneath the sofa and round table. A big TV screen hung on the wall to let the patient kill their boredom. A small table in the room corner has a flower vase with a real white orchid on top of it.


    Yu Dong was the first one to speak, "Hello Jian Ge, it''s okay. We''ll just sit here. How are you, TangTang? Are you feeling better?"


    Bai Yutang already looks at them when they come inside. Now his head is back to staring at his phone and his fingers move rapidly playing Magallan. He nodded his head lightly, "En, my fever rapidly going down. I only feel slightly unwell from my cough. But much better. Thank you DongDong for your help last night."


    Yu Dong shook his head, "I''m doing nothing. It''s all thanks to Jian Ge."


    "If you didn''t answer Bai Yutang''s phone last night, I also can''t do anything." Jian Kang Lu said nonchalantly.


    Liu Xiang opened the fruit basket and washed the fruits in the kitchen sink. This super VIP room also has a small kitchen with microwave and refrigerator. They also provide the glasses, plates, and dining utensils. After he peeled the fruits he sliced them and put them inside the refrigerator for a while, so it will taste even fresher later when they eat.


    Soon both of them finished the co-op. Jian Kang Lu stood up and introduced himself properly to Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang. He also asks whether they want to have dinner together with Bai Yutang in the room.


    "This hospital also provides the menu for the visitor. You can look at the menu on the tablet here, and order it from the tablet. Or if you guys want to, I can order Chinese food or Japanese food from a nearby restaurant. When the food arrives the nurse can send it to this room later on. But remember Bai Yutang can only eat the hospital menu, so don''t order anything for him. He can eat the fruits later if he finishes his dinner."


    Liu Xiang took the tablet and shook his head while saying, "Don''t bother Jian Ge, we just ordered it from this tablet. Can i call you Jian Ge too?" Tang Yuxuan is still silent and hasn''t recovered from his surprise. His whole bad imagination seems like a joke now.


    This man called Jian Kang Lu looks exactly like Bai Yutang and Yu Dong praising. No wonder those two guys admired this man so much. Even just looking at him and hearing him talking for less than five minutes already impress Tang Yuxuan. Although impressed doesn''t mean his suspicion goes away.


    "Sure, why not? Okay, then I have to go first. Visiting hours only until 8 pm, so maybe I can''t meet you guys again. Please come back safely later and see you again tomorrow." Jian Kang Lu''s apologetic tone pleasantly filled their ear and then Jian Kang Lu left the room.


    Yu Dong helplessly smiled at Tang Yuxuan. "See? No you guys can understand how i feel."


    Bai Yutang turned his head towards his friend who was sitting on the sofa. "What are you guys talking about? What do you feel, DongDong?"


    Before Yu Dong can say anything, Tang Yuxuan already jumped and put his hand to Yu Dong''s mouth, preventing him from spoiling anything. "Nothing! Yu Dong feels worried about you. Why you didn''t told us if you''re that sick yesterday?"


    Liu Xiang just gave his mocking smile to Tang Yuxuan, "Ah, Daddy.. Please tell TangTang the truth. By the way, i want to order chicken cordon bleu. What you guys want to order."


    Yu Dong took the tablet and scanned the menu with his eyes. Bai Yutang answered Tang Yuxuan, "I''m sorry. I don''t want to make you guys worried. I already took medicine and the infirmary also gave me antibiotics. I think I''ll feel better soon if I take my medication and rest enough. Please forgive this humble slave, Daddy."


    Yu Dong ordered beef braised noodles and gave the tablet to let Tang Yuxuan choose. Tang Yuxuan then chose the pan seared salmon. They talk about how this hospital menu is even better than the cafe they used to visit. They also chat about Bai Yutang and assure him his sick leave is already taken care of.


    "Don''t worry. Last night Jian Ge already gave me the doctor''s note explaining your disease. I submitted it to the campus office and they said you can go back to your class anytime when you are already better. Just don''t forget to give the campus the hospital admission note when you discharged." Yu Dong said while turning the TV on.


    The three of them then lively talking and prevent Bai Yutang from saying too many words. His voice still sounded hoarse, and they told him to get rest and not talk too much.


    At 6.30 their meal arrived, and four of them enjoyed their dinner. At 8 o''clock they said goodbye to Bai Yutang and went back.


    They took a taxi back home. Liu Xiang teased Tang Yuxuan, "So, Daddy.. Still worried about Jian Ge''s bad intention?"


    Yu Dong snorted, "Yes Daddy. You need to apologise to me."


    "Yes yes yes.. I admitted that I was wrong. This Jian Kang Lu really seems like a good guy. But still.. I can''t understand why he was so good to TangTang."


    "He also good to us." Liu Xiang reminded him. "He politely offered to order food from a nearby restaurant for our dinner. And when we eat at the hospital, you do realise that it will be charged into TangTang''s hospital bill, right? As far as i know, Jian Ge is the one who paid the hospital bill. I think it was just like TangTang said, Jian Ge is someone who is very kind to everyone."


    Tang Yuxuan can''t deny that fact. He also can see from the way that nurses treat Jian Kang Lu. Although she teased him, she shows great respect to Jian Kang Lu.


    Yu Dong added, "Don''t forget that he likes to play Magallan. TangTang told me that Jian Ge doesn''t have real life friends to play together. I guess that''s why he likes to hang out with TangTang."


    Liu Xiang nodded. "Yeah, i know that. I guess it was TangTang''s luck to accidentally meet him and befriend him."


    Tang Yuxuan was silent. With all his friends didn''t agreeing with his opinion, it was better to go along with them at this moment. "I think you''re right. I admitted my mistake. I agreed, it was TangTang''s luck to know him."

 Chapter 20 - I Dont Mind

    Jian Kang Lu finished his polyclinic at 8.30 pm. He washed his hand and put his doctor gown into the laundry bag. When he wants to say goodbye to his nurses, Nurse Yu looks at him.


    "Doctor Jian, I heard that your brother admitted last night. How is he? Is it something serious?" The young face of Nurse Yu filled with sympathy.


    "He''s not my brother, he''s my friend. He was having pneumonia. But i guess he looks better today. I will visit him again after this. Thank you for your concern."


    "I hope he recovered soon.. And don''t forget to have enough rest, Doctor Jian."


    "En.. I will. Good night, Nurse Li, Nurse Yu. Thank you for your hard work today." With those sentences, Jian Kang Lu walks away and turns in the corner. Seems he will take the elevator to visit his friend.


    Nurse Yu turns her head to Nurse Li, "I thought it was Doctor Jian''s brother who admitted last night? Nurse Wang from ER told me she was surprised to see Doctor Jian rushed into ER last night and his face so pale full with worry. He even frightened the resident in the ER. They''re so afraid they will see a life threatening case from the way Doctor Jian looked last night. They said they never saw Doctor Jian look like that before."


    Nurse Li just smiled and looked at her junior who can''t hold her enthusiasm, gossiped about last night''s incident. Every news travels at a light speed in this hospital.


    Nurse Yu added some more, "I also heard from sister Meng, that Doctor Jian accompanied his brother, err no, his friend, all night long. Doctor Jian came back to the room late at night and spent the night there to take care of his friend. He only goes back home at 5 in the morning, and comes back to check his friend before doing morning round."


    Nurse Li answered him, "It was natural for someone as kind as Doctor Jian. I remember several years ago Doctor Jian also accompanied Doctor Zhang all the time when Doctor Zhang was admitted to hospital."


    Nurse Yu''s eyes flashed when she remembered that story. At that time, she was not yet assigned to be the kidney clinic''s nurse. "Oh yes, now i remember. Doctor Zhang collapsed that time from heart disease right? But I heard that his heart disease is minor, only triggered by his psychological problem?"


    "Don''t listen to that kind of malicious rumour. Doctor Zhang is a good man. Come, I want to go home soon. Let''s wrap up." Nurse Li scolded her junior. These young nurses need to be taught to tightly shut their lips. Besides, eight of ten rumours in this hospital tend to be exaggerated. Especially rumours about the ''golden boy''. The kids who were born with silver spoons in their mouth.


    Doctor Zhang is an oncologist, the only son of Professor Zhang. His father is one of the best oncology in the country. Every ''golden boy'' will receive so much praise in front of them, but so many people want to find their mistakes and mock them behind. That sounds cruel. After all, you can''t choose your own parents.


    But some humans in this world can''t get rid of this disgusting habit, they can''t hide their dark side of the heart. They will continuously feel that they were better, only they don''t have a better chance because they were not born as ''golden boys''. It was wrong, but it was easier to find someone else to blame instead of fix yourself.


    Jian Kang Lu was already notified by Yang Hengtian, the pulmonologist who treated Bai Yutang, the result of his examination. Like Jian Kang Lu already diagnosed from last night''s examination, his kitten got pneumonia. The pneumonia is not the life threatening one, but worsened by his gastric problem. It seems his kitten doesn''t take his meal regularly. Or maybe he was lacking good night sleep that led to this gastritis problem.


    From the result, Yang Hengtian told him when Bai Yutang could finish his meal without vomiting, then he could be released from hospital. The nurse already notified Yang Hengtian that today Bai Yutang didn''t vomit at all, and finally can finish his meal tonight.


    Jian Kang Lu peeked inside the room to check whether his kitten was still awake or had already gone to bed. Bai Yutang was watching TV and heard him. After he saw it was Jian Kang Lu, he smiled and said, "Come in, Jian Ge. I haven''t slept yet."


    Jian Kang Lu sits at the sofa chair next to the bed, "You can''t sleep too late. Your gastritis is quite severe. For the next two weeks you should pay attention to your diet. No spicy food, no coffee, and definitely you need to eat regularly. Did you skip your meal a lot? Or didn''t sleep well lately?"


    His kitten laughed, "Now you sound like a doctor, Jian Ge. I guess i was too tired from the project last time." Bai Yutang then solemnly promised, "But don''t worry, i''ll follow my doctor''s advice."


    "You''re wrong. I''m not your doctor. Doctor Yang is your doctor." Jian Kang Lu teased him. "Anyway, i heard you finished your meal tonight. Good job, how are you tonight? Feeling better?"


    Jian Kang Lu''s eyes look so tender. He''s so glad his kitten looks better today. He was so panicked last night to see his kitten was having a high fever and so weak. He really felt thankful for Yu Dong answering his phone and let him check his kitten in their room. His intuition was right. He couldn''t feel at ease last night and was wandering around his kitten''s dorm''s gate. He was so worried.


    "En, i feel a lot better. I think I can go home tomorrow. Doctor Yang already told me that I can go home if I can finish my meal without vomiting again."


    Jian Kang Lu nodded, "Okay. If tomorrow you can finish your lunch, then you can go home. By the way, your friend stays at the dorm on this holiday?"


    His kitten was stunned. It seems he just remembered that from Saturday until Monday T university will have a three days break due to the new year. "I don''t know Jian Ge, I haven''t asked them."


    "??"


    Jian Kang Lu was speechless. He was already guessing his kitten might not pay attention to that. If his kitten was not sick, that''s okay. But he was still weak. How could Jian Kang Lu let his weak kitten stay alone in the dorm, without someone to take care of him?


    Jian Kang Lu just said a short sentence, "Ask them first."


    He waits for his kitten to type on his mobile phone. His kitten suddenly asks, "Do you have your dinner, Jian Ge?"


    "Mmm.. Not yet."


    His kitten frowned, "Please have your dinner. It doesn''t seem right that i have to eat regularly but you don''t."


    Jian Kang Lu laughed, "I take my meal regularly, only at different hours. Do you mind if I take my dinner here?"


    "Of course i don''t mind. Please have your dinner, Jian Ge."


    Jian Kang Lu ordered Qishan saozi noodles. It was a Shaanxi dish. A non spicy dish with fragrant, vinegary broth, and thin noodles. Four slices of meat placed on top of it, with green onion and vegetables around.


    The restaurant said they can deliver in 30-40 minutes. The restaurant is not far away, just ten minutes from the hospital.


    Few minutes later, his kitten''s voice, who was previously lively chatting with him, suddenly stopped and stared at his mobile phone. "Yu Dong called his parents tonight and he needs to go back home by tomorrow''s plane after class. Tang Yuxuan''s parents said that they will visit the town on Saturday to celebrate the new year in Beijing. And Liu Xiang''s big sister came here two days ago, and now demands him to go to this hot spring with her on Saturday¡­"


    "Then.. It means you''ll be alone in the dorm?" Jian Kang Lu asks slowly.


    Bai Yutang answered in a low voice, "I guess so.. I told my parents two days ago that I feel unwell. Every winter usually I catch some cold. So my parents understood and never asked me to travel around the winter. But usually my friends also never go back because we''ll have final exams after the break."


    There was some silence wrapped around them. Jian Kang Lu then asks, "Then, maybe it was better for you to stay in the hospital until your friends came back. You still need time to recover, and I don''t think it was a good choice to stay alone at the dorm."


    Bai Yutang said nothing for a while. Then he said with even lower voice, sounds embarrassed. "I don''t know how much i need to pay for my hospital bill, Jian Ge.." His face bushed when he finally said these sentences. Then he added hurriedly, "I also need to study. I haven''t cramped this term material, and the exam is just one more week."


    There was a knock sound, both of them looked at the door. A pretty young nurse opens the door and tells Jian Kang Lu, "Doctor Jian, your meal has arrived. Do you want me to bring it here or you want to take it home?"


    Jian Kang Lu walked to the door and said, "No, let me fetch it by myself. Sorry for troubling you."


    The young nurse''s face blushed to stand so near from Doctor Jian. "Not at all, Doctor Jian."


    Jian Kang Lu went for a while and came back with his dinner. He prepared his dinner, and said. "Excuse me to disturb you having my dinner here."


    "It''s okay, Jian Ge. Please enjoy your meal." His kitten''s face is still a bit red from his embarrassment.


    When Jian Kang Lu was having his dinner, he said with a low voice, "Don''t think too much about the hospital bill. As a doctor working here, I have my own advantage. Besides, I never used that advantage before. So don''t think about it and let me settle the bill."


    His kitten''s face flushed even more, "Please don''t, Jian Ge. I don''t think I can accept burdening you like that. I have my own savings, also I can tell my parents to pay."


    "I know that, and it was not that I underestimated you. But it was me who admitted you in this hospital, and chose this room. Besides, I don''t feel burdened at all. Between me and my friends, we never count money between us. It was me this time, but maybe tomorrow it was your turn. And I feel more ease if you let me handle the bill." Jian Kang Lu slowly explained to his kitten.


    Then after a while, he added, "And.. I really appreciate your time to accompany me all this time. When you reach my age, you''ll understand how precious it feels to have a companion watching movies or watching concerts. Or even just have dinner like this. It may look like simple things, but i really enjoy every moment i spent with you."


    His kitten silenced. Then nodded, "I understand. Then I will burden you this time, Jian Ge. But I still prefer going home tomorrow. I feel better already, and I didn''t feel good to stay here when I didn''t need to hospitalised anymore."


    Jian Kang Lu already finished his dinner. He wrapped up and washed the utensils at the sink. After drinking the water. He sat down in the sofa chair again. Then he looked at his kitten, and finally voiced his mind.


    "Do you want to stay at my apartment? That way I also feel at ease knowing you won''t be alone in the dorm. If you don''t mind, then we can go home together tomorrow night. I can drive you back to your dorm first to fetch your things and your material to study. After the new year, when your friends go back to the dorm, then I will send you back."


    Jian Kang Lu can see the shock registered on his kitten for a moment, then washed blank with confusion. His phoenix eyes and his round mouth were frozen wide open. He looks like he can''t find his voice.


    Jian Kang Lu says nothing and just stares at his kitten tenderly, patiently waiting for his answer. He was really worried about leaving his kitten alone in the dorm. That''s why on a whim he decided just to say what was on his mind. He doesn''t want to look at his kitten in his previous weak state ever again. Looking at him like that, he feels like he could lose his kitten any moment.


    His kitten finally closed his mouth, look away from him. From this angle, Jian Kang Lu can see the tip of that ear coloured with crimson colour. His bangs covering his expression. Jian Kang Lu''s heart felt tight.


    Finally his kitten''s voice filled his ear. "Okay, Jian Ge. If you really don''t mind, then please allow me to bother you in the next few days."

 Chapter 21 - Welcome To 2505

    "Hello Mr. Bai, your dinner is ready. Please finish it if you can. But if you start to feel nauseous again, let us know immediately. Today we didn''t give you any drugs to stop your nauseous."


    Bai Yutang smiled at the young nurses who accompanied the dietician. "Yes I will, thank you so much for your assistance. I don''t feel nauseous again today. I think i''m ready to go home tonight."


    "Okay. Doctor Yang already filled your medical resume for your university and permitted you to go home tonight. Doctor Jian also told us that if you finished your meal, he will pick you up after he''s done with his patient in the clinic." The nurse talked while checking Bai Yutang''s vital sign for the last time.. "And don''t forget to take your medication even though you feel better like Doctor Yang''s advice."


    Bai Yutang nodded, "En.. I will."


    The dinner ordered by Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang was delivered together with his meal. They came to visit him again this afternoon after sending Yu Dong to the airport. They eat together while chatting.


    "So, are you really going to stay with Jian Ge? You can come with me, you know that my parents like you." Tang Yuxuan said that while getting a spoon and glass of water from the kitchen.


    "Get some water for me too, Daddy. Thank you." Liu Xian lazily leaned on the sofa. "You can also stay with me if you are comfortable with my noisy sister. We''re going to F Hot Spring Resort, so you could relax there."


    Bai Yutang has already started to eat his congee. The doctor said that today his diet still consists of very soft consistency food. Tomorrow he could start to eat soft rice or other soft food if he doesn''t feel nauseous. He also needed some diet restriction for a few days to make sure his stomach is okay, since the antibiotics he took also burdened his gastritis.


    That''s the reason why he vomited everything and had dehydration when he was taken to the ER on Wednesday night. Doctor Yang already prescribed him different antibiotics, but still he needs to take precaution.


    "It''s okay. I already thought about it. Your parents must have planned to take you to your relatives also, Yuxuan. I don''t think i''m comfortable that way. About the hot spring, I would love to visit the hot spring. But will it be convenient for your sister? This humble slave also doesn''t think so."


    Bai Yutang stopped talking to nibble some more congee. Before his friends could refute, he waved his hand. And after spoonful, he added, "And don''t you forget. I''m having pneumonia. It''s infectious. What if I spread it to your parents or your sister? I also need to get some rest."


    "You''re right. I think it would be best if you stay with Jian Ge. We also worried if you''re alone in the dorm. Jian Ge lives alone, right?" Liu Xiang tried to ease Tang Yuxuan''s mind. He knows even though Tang Yuxuan already changed his impression of Jian Kang Lu yesterday, but he raged again today once he heard Bai Yutang will stay at his apartment while they''re gone.


    "But tonight we''re still in the dorm. You can stay with me or Liu Xiang. One of us can sleep alone at your room. And what if Jian Kang Lu going out tomorrow? You will also alone in the apartment." Tang Yuxuan still try to refute even though he knows that he will lose this argumentation.


    Liu Xiang immediately replied, "If TangTang stays in the dorm tonight, of course he will choose his wife. Daddy must go down and sleep alone at Yu Dong''s bed. Anyway, don''t be so sour. If TangTang sleeps at the dorm tonight, Jian Ge will need to pick him up again tomorrow and it will trouble TangTang to burden Jian Ge like that." Liu Xiang added that last statement because Tang Yuxuan won''t give up until he is utterly defeated.


    Bai Yutang chuckled. He knows Tang Yuxuan''s real personality is like that. He likes to nag the person he cares about. People will think after his past experience with his girlfriend, he won''t be a jealous person. But it was the other way around. Tang Yuxuan''s real personality is 1000 year old vinegar. That''s why he was well matched with his ex girlfriend, before he broke up because that family matters.


    They chat again while having his dinner, and Bai Yutang receives messages from Jian Kang Lu. It was a short message telling him that Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang can wait until he is discharged and they all could go back to the dorm together. Since Bai Yutang needed to go back to the dorm first to pick his things.


    While receiving that message, suddenly Bai Yutang had a question in his mind. Who was the one that changed his clothes on Wednesday night. He can vaguely recall that someone wiped his forehead and changed his clothes into patient''s clothes provided by the hospital.


    At first he thought it was Yu Dong. But it seems Yu Dong is going back to the dorm that night. Is it Jian Ge? Honestly Bai Yutang prefers Jian Ge rather than those nurses.. Even though it was their job, Bai Yutang is a young man. And he feel not comfortable if some young girls have to change his clothes and see him naked.


    When Bai Yutang conveyed Jian Kang Lu''s message to them, Liu Xiang happily agreed. They need to wake up early tomorrow, so it was better for them to go back with Jian Kang Lu rather than taking a bus or taxi.


    Around 7.30 pm Jian Kang Lu called him, asking him whether he finished his meal. Jian Kang Lu will fetch him after 8 and tell Bai Yutang that he can start to prepare from now.


    Jian Kang Lu shows up at 8.30 pm. He knocked before he entered the room, and Bai Yutang prepared already. He only brought his wallet and mobile phone. He also changed into his original clothes which were already laundered by the hospital.


    Four of them walked towards the elevator together. Bai Yutang said thank you to the nurses in the nurse station for their care and hospitality during his stay. When they were in the car, Jian Ge kept talking with Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang. Bai Yutang was relieved. He can rest this throat and just sit there in the back of the car with Liu Xiang.


    As a native citizen of B city, he told Tang Yuxuan places in B city to visit with his parents, and which place to avoid. Some crowded places in the new year will not be suitable for parents. He also gives suggestions on which restaurant worth visiting.


    "If your parents want to have family lunch or dinner, the best Chinese restaurant here is W restaurant. If you want, I can reserve their private room and you''ll get a discounted price under my name. Or you can also try the hotpot restaurant that Yutang likes." Jian Ge is talking to Tang Yuxuan who sits next to him.


    Liu Xiang''s head suddenly popped between them, "Is it for real Jian Ge? How could you get a discounted price at W restaurant?? It was expensive and also famous in my hometown. Can i get a discount too??"


    Jian Kang Lu laughed, "Yes, but you have to tell me in advance. The restaurant chain belongs to my friend''s family. They also expanded their business into western restaurants. I can take you guys there after your exams. The food they served really suits my taste, hopefully suits yours too."


    Tang Yuxuan never tried that restaurant and sincerely said, "If it''s really okay, i''ll tell my parents tomorrow and let you know in advance, Jian Ge."


    "You can ask for my WeChat ID and number from Yutang, and don''t hesitate to contact me. I like to eat good food and would be glad if people enjoy my suggestion." Jian Kang Lu then teased Liu Xiang again, "Unfortunately the owner of F hot spring resort is not my best friend, so i can''t get you any privileges there."


    "Doesn''t matter, Jian Ge. Just remember to take us after the exam for dinner together! Can we visit that Italian restaurant you brought TangTang last time? I can''t stand to hear TangTang boasting the food there. I think i remember TangTang said it was your friend''s restaurant too."


    Jiang Kang Lu''s eyes curved from his smile hearing those words. "Okay, just let me know when you guys are free. But please let me know one or two weeks in advance, so i can arrange my schedule. I guarantee you will worship the chef at Il Mare. He''s an Italian, so the taste is quite authentic."


    Jian Ge also asks about Tang Yuxuan''s hometown. He said he had never visited that town before. The famous places there, the food specialty, and how he wants to visit there if Tang Yuxuan could show him around. Jian Ge is a good listener. So Bai Yutang can see that Tang Yuxuan is more comfortable talking and not stiff anymore.


    Bai Yutang sighed in his heart. ''This is Jian Ge''s charm. He can make everyone feel comfortable around him.''


    Jian Ge also talked about Liu Xiang''s hometown. He has visited there before, so they talk about the city more lively. Liu Xiang even didn''t sit back anymore. He kept sitting in the middle, put his head between Tang Yuxuan and Jian Ge. Liu Xiang also asks about Jian Ge''s profession. And Jian Ge tells him some jokes about hospital life.


    The whole journey doesn''t require Bai Yutang to talk at all, and he feels relieved. Because he feels quite tired. They shortly arrived at the dorm. It took only around 30 minutes from the hospital in this hour.


    Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan helped Bai Yutang to pack his clothes. Jian Ge said he has extra amenities at his apartment so he doesn''t need to bring that. When Bai Yutang packed his laptop and books, Tang Yuxuan accused him of being a traitor, studying first before them.


    "You''re still sick. How could you rest if you''re studying on holiday!" Liu Xiang said caring words but with Tang Yuxuan''s accusing tone.


    "This humble slave didn''t study for this week and even missed last class. It is only natural for this humble slave to study more compared to young lords." Bai Yutang said while zipping his bag. He only needs 10 minutes to pack his things. This is the benefit of being organised and having a clean freak dorm mate.


    Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang sent both of them to the dorm gate, and then Jian Kang Lu drove home with Bai Yutang.


    Bai Yutang heard a gentle voice when he strapped his safety belt. "You can sleep in the car. We''ll need to reach my apartment in around 30 minutes. And let me order some food first. Do you want anything? Wonton soup, or soy pudding?"


    Bai Yutang suddenly remembered that Jian Kang Lu hadn''t had his dinner yet. He feels guilty.


    ''I burdened him today and didn''t even ask him whether he had his dinner or not. I should ask him to have dinner first before sending me to the dorm.. Why am i so stupid?''


    But Bai Yutang can''t say anything. He just said in a small voice, "It''s okay Jian Ge. We can have dinner around here before going to your place. I''m not sleepy yet."


    It was definitely a lie. This is already 9.30 pm. If they eat here, both of them will reach home at 10.30 even if Jian Kang Lu eats something simple in the fast food restaurant. And most restaurants around the dorm have already closed or stopped receiving orders at this hour.


    "That''s okay, I prefer going back. You''re still in the recovery phase. Definitely not allowed to hang out in the restaurant right after you discharged from hospital. If Doctor Yang knows, he will report me to the ethical committee." Jian Kang Lu still joked with him, and directly called the restaurant.


    Bai Yutang silently listens to Jian Kang Lu''s calming voice.


    Jian Ge told him that this restaurant is open for 24 hours and the taste is quite nice. Jian Ge ordered wonton soup, crab and sweetcorn soup, ginger-sesame steamed vegetables, and steamed bun. He also ordered two soybean pudding.


    Jian Ge told him that he doesn''t need to eat if he doesn''t want to. It''s just that he worried Bai Yutang might be hungry so he ordered two portions of pudding. He also asks what Bai Yutang wants to eat for breakfast.


    "Hmmm.. I really don''t have any preferences, Jian Ge. I believe anything you order will taste good." Bai Yutang answered him.


    Jian Kang Lu answered while driving, "You still need to eat soft food with less spices. How about the egg rice congee and cinnamon mutton soup for your lunch too. For dessert we can have ginger milk custard. I have to go around 8.30 to the hospital tomorrow morning, but I''ll try to go back before 2 pm. Is it okay for you?"


    "Okay.."


    "Good, now get some rest and sleep if you can. I''ll wake you up when we arrive."


    Bai Yutang tries to open his eyes, but he also doesn''t realise when he starts to close his eyes and falls asleep. All he knows that he woke up from a gentle tap in his shoulder.


    "Come, we''re already here."


    Jian Kang Lu insists on carrying the bags even though Bai Yutang tries to carry it himself. But finally Bai Yutang can''t win the argument, and he also feels his soul not yet completely coming back to his body after falling asleep in the car.


    When they''re in the elevator, Bai Yutang just realizes that this is a very nice apartment. Not a super luxurious one. But definitely a high class apartment. Everyone who rides the elevator needs their residence card. The elevator for the delivery boy is located in different areas to ensure safety.


    Each elevator is also designed to different floor areas to ensure the residence in a high floor apartment won''t have to experience the crowded elevator with stopping in each floor of the lower floor residence.


    When he walked outside the elevator, he saw the corridor''s light designed to brightly lit up the lamp from behind the wooden ceiling. The beige sandy wallpaper on one side of the wall decorated with some simple abstract painting. On the elevator side some square mirrors vertically lining the wall in geometric design.


    As an architecture student, Bai Yutang instinct suddenly woke up and paid attention to the details of this apartment. He followed Jian Kang Lu while his eyes darted around. Bai Yutang made notes to himself to look around for more while Jian Ge went to the hospital tomorrow.


    Finally they arrived at apartment number 2505. Jian Ge opened the door, and said to him.


    "Welcome to my apartment."

 Chapter 22 - Let My World Spinning One More Time

    Bai Yutang was slightly disoriented when he woke up. The table clock shows him that it was already 7.30 in the morning. He looked at that unfamiliar light grey ceiling. It reminds him that he was not in his dorm.


    The room''s dominant color is light gray. There are three white and black printed landscape photos hanging on top of the bed. Two identical rectangular shelves with black colour in the both sides of the bed also function as the night lamp. The bed headboard is also black, with black table next to a big window.


    Bai Yutang stood up from the bed and opened the curtain to let the morning winter sun rays shine fall to his face. He can see the small park down there, with a forest of high rise building protrude from the earth below. He heard someone talking outside the room.


    He walked out from the room, and saw Jian Kang Lu standing in the door talking to someone. He then walks into the living room with food in the brown paper bag and is a bit surprised to see Bai Yutang standing in the living room.


    "Have you woken up? Right on time, the breakfast is here. Let''s eat first." Jian Ge''s gentle voice filled the air around him.


    "En.. Let me wash my face first, Jian Ge."


    Bai Yutang then goes into the bathroom next to his room. He washed his face and rinsed his mouth with mouthwash. Then he walks into the dining room.


    This apartment layout is simple yet very sophisticated. Outside his bedroom is the living room, seamlessly blended with the dining room outside Jian Kang Lu''s bed room. Each room has their own window, and the dining room''s wall is made with a glass door leading to the terrace. The kitchen also blends with the dining room.


    The view of the kitchen is not seen from the living room, separated by the laundry room accessed from the kitchen. This 12 x 8 m apartment looks so spacious from the ingenious layout and designs. Bai Yutang wonders, who''s the architect.


    Bai Yutang hurriedly tried to help Jian Kang Lu prepare breakfast. But Jian Kang Lu is already done. Nothing to prepare actually. Just put the food on the table and place the utensils beside them. Jian Kang Lu made him warm chamomile tea to help his digestive system.


    Bai Yutang can feel this apartment a little bit cold, compared to the warm personality of Jian Kang Lu. He could understand that the design is minimalist with light grey and black color, just like his bedroom. But somehow, he thought that this apartment made Jian Kang Lu look lonely. He lives alone here, everyday.


    Suddenly Bai Yutang feels a bit glad he decided to stay here. He can accompany Jian Kang Lu and ease his loneliness even just for a little bit.


    "Your apartment is very nice, Jian Ge. I really like the design. Do you mind if i take a walk around here?" Bai Yutang said that while eating his egg rice congee. He noticed Jian Kang Lu also had the same menu with him.


    Jian Kang Lu poured the chamomile tea into his cup and answered, "En. I don''t mind. I''ll give you the card and the pin number for the door. Did you bring your jacket and shawl? Don''t stay outside for too long. It''s so cold out there. You are still in the recovery phase."


    "En, I didn''t bring my shawl. But my jacket is warm enough."


    Jian Kang Lu frowned, "No. I''ll lend you my shawl and gloves. Or you can wait for me and I will take you to tour around here later. I got feeling that if i let you go out now you will stay outside for hours."


    Bai Yutang pouted his mouth, "No, Jian Ge. I promised that I will take a look around just for a bit. By the way, you didn''t need to go outside today? After all this is the new year."


    "No, I still feel uneasy. I changed my mind. Please promise me to wait for me. I''ll take you look around later. Don''t go out by yourself. Just stay at home and rest."


    Somehow when Bai Yutang heard that firm tone from Jian Kang Lu for the first time, he couldn''t help nodding his head and obediently following Jian Kang Lu''s words. "Okay, Jian Ge. Then i''ll wait for you at home."


    After they finish the breakfast, Bai Yutang insists on cleaning up. But Jian Kang Lu told him that today and tomorrow his only task is to rest and recover soon. He can wash the dishes on the last day if he is perfectly recovered.


    He sent Jian Kang Lu to the door and waved him goodbye. Then he took a bath. After he freshens up, he sits in the living room. He likes how that glass door reflects the sky above and gives him a tranquil feeling. He decided to study here for his final exam while waiting for Jian Kang Lu back home.


    Like Jian Kang Lu promised him, he came back from hospital before 2 pm.


    "Have you eaten your lunch? Do you still wanna go outside? Let''s go now if you''re not tired." Jian Kang Lu asked him once he arrived back from the hospital and saw Bai Yutang studying in the living room.


    Bai Yutang laughed, "Jian Ge, how could i get tired just sitting here all day. You''re the one who must be tired. Is it okay for us to go now? You have to eat your lunch first if you haven''t eaten before we''re going outside."


    "I have my lunch at the hospital, no worries. Come, let''s go now. Before the sun set down and the temperature decreased." Jian Kang Lu suddenly seems to remember something important. "Oh, wait for a moment."


    Jian Kang Lu then walks inside his bedroom. Bai Yutang was already preparing his jacket outside, so he was wearing his jacket and trying to zip his jacket up, when suddenly he feels something warm on his neck. He raised his head and saw Jian Kang Lu''s gentle gaze, his hand draping the shawl around him.


    Bai Yutang dropped his head again, and said in a low voice, "Thank you Jian Ge for borrowing me your shawl." The shawl is warm, enveloped the whole him. He feels the warmth spreading to his body, and his heart beating a little bit faster.


    Bai Yutang saw Jian Kang Lu just smiled, and said "Come, I''ll give you the tour."


    Luckily today is not snowing, the freezing wind is milder than the other day. Bai Yutang likes to listen to Jian Kang Lu''s voice explaining the apartment area. His voice is clear and soothing, like the crystal clear lake under the spring sun.


    "So why did you choose this apartment, Jian Ge. As an architect i really like this building design and smart layout. But I want to hear the customer and residence perspective." Bai Yutang converse with him as they walk around the small park surrounding the apartment building.


    For the first time, Bai Yutang noticed Jian Kang Lu didn''t answer right away. When he looked at him, Bai Yutang suddenly regretted asking that question. It seems the question triggered something unpleasant in Jian Kang Lu''s memory.


    There''s something dimming the light in that handsome face. But it only happened in a split second that made Bai Yutang wonder whether he only imagined that. But the heavy atmosphere he felt telling him that it was not his imagination.


    "Mmm.. I guess because of my friend and the price. This apartment building belongs to my friend. The architect is also my friend. So I got a lower price compared to buying the same quality apartment in this area. And it is also not far from the hospital." Jian Kang Lu laughed hearing his own answer.


    "Sorry, i think i didn''t help you with my perspective. But maybe if you design an apartment building in the future, make sure your friends buy. Like my friends did to me."


    Bai Yutang feels that answer is not the real answer. But he said nothing, and gave Jian Kang Lu a laugh as a response to that answer.


    "I will, but it means I have to buy three apartments in the future. Yu Dong''s, Liu Xiang''s, and Tang Yuxuan''s designs."


    Jian Kang Lu let his laugh unrestrained hearing his kitten''s answer. He looked at Bai Yutang. And smiled. That smile looks so bright, but gentle like a spring breeze. The atmosphere around them turns back into normal. "No, you can buy two, and let me buy one. So both of us each have two apartments."


    "By the way, tonight is welcoming the new year. I don''t think you can stay late or go out though. So as a celebration, let''s order some fancy dinner while watching some movies in the apartment. What do you want to eat?" Jian Kang Lu asked him.


    Bai Yutang doesn''t want to say ''I''m okay with anything'' even though he is really okay with anything. All the food Jian Ge bought him is very tasty. After all, for university students, even the cafeteria menu is sufficient for him. Moreover, all the fancy food Jian Kang Lu introduced to him. But he knows how annoying it was, if your friends or companion keep saying ''up to you'' or ''i''m okay with anything.''


    So he answered "How about steamed dumplings and braised beef ho fun noodles? For the dessert we can have honeyed lotus seed and snow fungus soup. Though i have no idea where we can order that."


    "Mmm, good idea. Let me call the restaurant I told Tang Yuxuan last night. They don''t do delivery orders, but I think we can ask the courier to fetch and deliver it here." Jian Kang Lu took his mobile phone from his pocket and immediately called the restaurant.


    They come back inside after a while, and Bai Yutang feels that Jian Kang Lu is patiently waiting for him to look at every detail around the apartment lobby, the elevator, and even the parking lot.


    After they finish the tour and come back to the apartment, Bai Yutang decides to ask the thing that has been bothering his mind since yesterday. "Jian Ge, tomorrow is new year, and Sunday. I remember you told me that you have family lunch every week on Sunday." He firmly added, "Me being here alone is okay, Jian Ge. So you don''t have to cancel your own plan."


    Jian Kang Lu was putting his shoes in the cabinet and looked stunned hearing that question. He only said, "I have no plan, and my parents just like Liu Xiang with his sister. They visit the hot spring. Have I told you that my father won the local golf tournament? The prize is this honeymoon for two days at a hot spring. Besides, our family prefers to celebrate Chinese new year more."


    Bai Yutang staring at those peach blossom eyes that look so warm, and only can answer in a low voice. "Okay, Jian Ge. I just don''t want to burden you."


    "You are never a burden to me."


    Bai Yutang can''t help but give his sincere smile hearing those comforting words. They spent the new year eve with fancy dinner, and watching other super heroes movies. Bai Yutang feels quite sleepy after a while. Must be his medicine''s effect. His cough medicine made him feel sleepy every time he took that.


    Bai Yutang tried to stay awake. But his eyelid felt so heavy. And he really likes the times he spent here with Jian Kang Lu. He feels safe around him, shielded from every bad thing in the world.


    In this living room, Jian Kang Lu who always feels that his apartment is just a place to rest his tired body, now feels the warmth he never felt from this space before. Who would have known that this place finally feels like a real home.


    Just because one particular person, this whole place feels like his own small world. And suddenly this particular person''s head dropped into his shoulder. He can feel his body heat and soft breath radiating the summery scent around him. His little tiny universe feels right for the first time in this few cold years.


    He didn''t wake his kitten. He still wants to enjoy this feeling a little bit more. The feeling of summer sun soaks into his thick soul, inhaling this small little happiness from the old duffle coat feeling. Friendly and soft.


    I thank you for the autumn. For letting me meet you, and letting my world spin one more time.

 Chapter 23 - Small Things Is Enough

    Bai Yutang opened his eyes, awoke from the sound of the fireworks outside. The movies on the television screen seem to be different with what he saw before he fell asleep. He startled to find himself leaning on Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder.


    The first thing in his mind is, ''How could I fall asleep on Jian Ge''s shoulder, it must be heavy!'' And the second thing he thought was, ''Oh my God, I hope I didn''t drooled on his shirt.''


    Ashamed of himself, Bai Yutang tried to get himself in the proper position. He saw Jian Ge turn his head over to look at him, "Awake?" His voice is so soft.


    "Yes, Jian Ge. I''m sorry, I got drowsy from my medication. Oh I hope I didn''t drooled over your shirt.." Bai Yutang can only meekly apologise.


    "Mmm.. It''s okay. You didn''t, don''t worry. This is a new year already. Happy New Year!" Jian Ge smiled warmly at him. "You should sleep in your room if you''re sleepy. I''m afraid you''ll hurt your neck if you sleep here."


    Bai Yutang nodded his head, and walked to his bed room. When he closed the door, he leaned on the door and still felt so ashamed. His whole face turns red. ''How could you, how could you, how could you fall asleep there!!!''


    He flopped himself in the bed, and still can''t get over it. ''Jian Ge smells so good, no wonder i sleep so well..'' He can still sense Jian Ge''s scent. A mix of sandalwood and lavender, with a hint of orange. It was calming, but fresh. Maybe he can ask what kind of shower gel that Jian Ge used, he seems to like it.


    Bai Yutang fell asleep again, and woke up at 6 o''clock in the morning. He''s walking out from his bedroom, and drinking some water. He made chamomile tea, and then sat in the dining room, looking at the sky outside from the glass door. He can imagine how nice this apartment is in spring or summer. To sit on the terrace outside and enjoy the morning breeze, with the small park below.


    Not long after, Jian Ge walked out from his room and was surprised to see Bai Yutang already wake up. "Did you sleep well last night?" Jian Ge asked him while taking some water from the dispenser.


    Bai Yutang felt his face a bit warm, blushed from his inappropriate act last night. "Yes, I sleep well. How about you, Jian Ge? I made you some hot tea too. I don''t know what else you like to drink in the morning."


    "Mm.. I sleep well. Thank you, i like chamomile tea." Jian Ge sat in front of him.


    "I saw your tea and coffee collection in the drawer. Did you like to drink coffee also?" Bai Yutang poured him some tea into the cup he prepared.


    "On working days, i like to drink coffee in the morning before going to the hospital. It''s like some habit from my university and residency life. We need to wake up very early, so our life sometimes depends on how good your coffee is."


    Jian Ge sipped his tea. "This is good, much better than the one I brewed. You really brew the tea well. Thank you. What do you want for breakfast?"


    Bai Yutang blushed, it was just a simple task. How could his tea taste differently with the one Jian Ge brew?


    Bai Yutang answered with a soft voice, "Rice congee? Any kind of congee is good. And Hainanese rice for lunch? Or just any kind of rice. I think I could eat rice already for lunch. I haven''t felt nauseous at all since being discharged."


    Bai Yutang really feels that he recovered well. His fever is gone, his throat still a bit sore, and the cough is almost gone.


    Jian Ge stood up, "Okay, let me order that." He then goes inside his room and comes out again holding his mobile phone.


    Bai Yutang examines Jian Kang Lu''s appearance in the morning and feels sour. ''How could this man still look good in the morning? While my own hair is messy, and my eyes look even smaller. Life is not fair!''


    Bai Yutang then excused himself to take a bath. If someone can''t change his looks, then at least someone can be clean and smells good. Ah, that reminds him to ask Jian Ge for his shower gel product. But how can he ask that???


    Should he say, ''Jian Ge, your smell is so good last night, what is the product you used?'' If he asks that, better he just shot himself. How can he ask that inappropriate question after what he did last night. He doesn''t want Jian Ge to think that he was a cut sleeve that took advantage of his kindness.


    When he finished taking a bath and dressed warmly in a light blue sweater and sweatpants, he walked out and sat in the dining room. Jian Kang Lu can''t be seen. Seems he also takes a bath. Bai Yutang sipped his tea and opened his tablet. Some of the exam material is saved on his tablet, all his e-book also there. He studied quietly.


    When Jian Ge walked outside from his room, he already dressed casually like Bai Yutang but looked so different. With a beige turtleneck and dark brown wool pants, he didn''t look like wearing a home outfit. Bai Yutang decided to copy his casual home style. It looks so chic.


    Jian Ge also opened his tablet. "You should study, I won''t disturb you. I guess the exam will start next week?"


    Bai Yutang nodded, "Actually it starts in four days, extended to next week. I only have four days more to study. But some material was already learned due to the project presentation last time."


    The bell sounds ringing from the door, it seems the food delivery is already here. Jian Ge stands and takes the delivery. When Jian Ge prepared the food, Bai Yutang thought about something silly, but he couldn''t help to ask. "Did you always order food, Jian Ge? Never cook at home?"


    Jian Kang Lu laughed, "Yes, i can''t cook. Previously too busy to learn how to cook. Now too lazy." Then Jian Ge turned around and looked at him. "Can you?"


    Bai Yutang blushed, he feels like he really asking a stupid question. "I can, just a little bit." He added hurriedly, "Only the easy one. Like fried rice, congee, egg, chicken soup, you know that kind of food that doesn''t need extra skill."


    "Oh.. Do you like to cook, or any other reason?"


    "I have a younger sister. If my parents went out and didn''t cook before, my sister will pester me to cook. She doesn''t want to eat instant noodles or order food from outside. So i just cook simple dishes for her." Bai Yutang explained. "Woman in our family is on the highest hierarchy. My father always pampers my mom, and my sister. So I''m at the bottom of our family, before my father."


    Jian Ge laughed, "Your sister sounds cute, and i can see that you pamper her so much. I have a younger brother, and he''s not cute at all. I tease him so much, but he didn''t show any response. I wish I had a cute sister instead of a cold brother."


    "Oh, but your family is really close to each other too. I rarely heard of a family who still has a tradition to gather once in a week. And it looks like you volunteer to do that, not because your parents ask you to."


    Jian Ge gave him a gentle smile, "Yes. We did. I also feel very lucky to have a family like mine."


    They had their breakfast peacefully, and sometimes they asked each other questions about their family. This is the first time Bai Yutang gets a glimpse of the other side of Jian Ge''s family.


    From the way Jian Ge speaks about his family, and the way he treats his parents, Bai Yutang is suddenly ashamed. He was determined to be a better son for his parents and better brother to his sister.


    Previously he sometimes felt that his sister was kinda annoying. His sister follows him anywhere. The same elementary, same junior high school, same high school. Next year his sister will enter university. She already said that she will try to apply for architecture in T university too.


    Bai Yutang knows that her sister might accepted, she''s smart. Even smarter than him. He had to study really hard to maintain his grade. But his sister can still play games, read comics, or hang out with her friends and still get first position in her whole life.


    No matter how he felt inferior with her sister, or sometimes annoyed when she pestered him to cook, or forced him to play games together, but he knows that deep inside his heart, he truly cares about his sister. After all, his father''s influence is big.


    When for the whole of your life, you were taught to serve the best to the woman in your family, it will be ingrained into your bone and soul. It will become a habit, then become something you have to live for.


    Bai Yutang spent the whole day studying. He noticed Jian Ge also looking at his tablet and laptop, and working on something in his laptop. When they''re having dinner together he asks, "What are you working on in your laptop all day, Jian Ge?"


    "Mmh? Some presentation I have to do in the conference next month."


    "What kind of conference? It''s so cool, become a speaker at such a young age."


    "It''s not as fancy as you think. We doctors need to always update our knowledge. We are required to attend conferences or courses in specific numbers each year. That''s why this conference and courses happened quite a lot in one year. I usually attend a minimum of four conferences each year, sometimes six or seven times. They just asked me to speak next month because my last research was published recently. Nothing special though."


    "Still, none of the people I know have become a speaker in conferences before." Bai Yutang enjoying his steamed ginger and garlic chicken. He missed eating normal food after eating soft food for the whole week. Though this steamed chicken is also soft enough to chew.


    Jian Ge laughed and teased him, "Now you know one. One day if I am invited to speak at an abroad conference, you can come to see me. And you will know how boring it is to attend a nephrology conference."


    "Really? Why not the local conference? Abroad is difficult.." Bai Yutang pondered.


    "This conference next month will be held on January 28th. I think you''re still on holiday, and near Chinese new year. You must be going back to your hometown, right?"


    "Hmm.. That''s true. Then next time Jian Ge, please tell me. I wonder what it looks like to attend medical conferences."


    They finished their dinner, and Bai Yutang took his medicine. He studied for a little while, then excused himself to sleep when he felt sleepy. In his room, he is grateful to know this amazing man.


    To know him, and learn so much about amazing things and changing his way of seeing his own life. Sometimes, when you feel appreciation and protection from people around you, it will make you stronger. And strive to be a better version of yourself, for you and other people around you.


    You don''t need to do great things in life. Just do your best, and be grateful for every encounter.


    To be happy, you don''t need big things. Small things are enough.

 Chapter 24 - Though We’re Rotten But We Have Fragrant Core

    January 2nd, is the last day for this new year''s holiday for Bai Yutang. Today Jian Kang Lu needed to go to the hospital, but didn''t have a polyclinic schedule. He promised Bai Yutang to send him back to the dorm before dark.


    Bai Yutang said that he wants to treat Jian Kang Lu for dinner. He suggested having dinner at Huaxiang. Jian Kang Lu agreed and reserved the place. They will go back to his dorm around 6.30 pm.


    While waiting for Jian Kang Lu back from the hospital, Bai Yutang sat in his favourite place. The chair in the dining room has the best view to see outside from the glass door. He likes this place so much, and determines if one day he had his own apartment, he''ll design it like this. These last three days, he feels so comfortable here.


    While he was studying, he called his parents and sister. Yesterday he also called them, but his parents were busy outside and his sister was going out with her friends. Bai Yutang pondered whether he should tell his parents that he was hospitalised. But in the end he decided not to.


    He didn''t tell them before because he doesn''t want them to worry. If he tells them now, his parents will get mad, and disappointed with him for not telling them. So better just say nothing.


    Besides he is already getting better. His sore throat today is gone, his cough only sometime in the morning. But the phlegm is not green or yellow again. Now already clear white. He still needs to take his antibiotic for the next three days.


    After talking a while with his parents, he also called his sister. Bai Yutang discussed his final exam this week and his coming home for this winter break with his parents. Winter break also serves to celebrate Chinese new year. He will have winter break for five weeks before coming back and starting the new semester.


    He talks a lot with his sister. He asked her, "So how is your preparation for Gaokao?"


    Gaokao is an academic examination held annually. This test is known as the National College Entrance Examination. It''s a prerequisite for entrance into almost all higher education institutions. All third year high school students or parents who have children in third year, are stressed due to this annual test.


    "Don''t even speak that word! I heard that word too many times last year and will just increase this next six month!" His sister screamed from the other side.


    Bai Yutang laughed, he could understand the pressure. He still remembers the nightmare. All those long hours studying and pressure. Even though his parents are kind enough not to press him, he can still feel their uneasiness.


    "Are you still wanting to strive for my faculty here?" Bai Yutang asked.


    His sister was silent for a while. "I actually don''t know, Ge. I wanted to apply there because I honestly didn''t know where my passion was. But my counselor advised me to choose another field. Since my artistic sense is almost zero."


    Bai Yutang pondered for a while, then he finally said, "How about medical faculty? I have a friend here. He''s a doctor. I think he''s really cool. Listening to his story, it seems that being a doctor suits you. And your grade is also very good to apply for medical faculty."


    "Hmm.. That''s actually a good idea. Do you think i can be a good doctor?" His sister''s voice seems uncertain.


    "I think you will be an excellent one. In addition, if you have difficulty in medical faculty, you can ask my friend. He''s seriously one of the best people I''ve ever met." Bai Yutang said. "I''ll introduce you to him if you really want to be a doctor."


    "Okay, i''ll talk to my counselor about this. By the way, how do you know this man? From the hospital? Are you sick?"


    Bai Yutang denied, and told his sister about his encounter and his friendship with Jian Kang Lu. He didn''t realise that his voice boasted every positive thing about Jian Kang Lu.


    They chat on the phone for a while, and Bai Yutang hangs up. He took a nap after lunch, then after he woke up he packed his things. He feels this place is not only comfortable to live in, but he also studies well here. Maybe the tranquil atmosphere here helps his brain to concentrate more.


    Jian Kang Lu came home at 5.30 pm. He said he will take a bath first before sending him home. Yu Dong and others are already going back to the dorm also. Bai Yutang invites them all to eat hotpot also. They agreed to meet him there once he arrived in Huxiang.


    Earlier at noon time, there''s one chat group consisting of some female students (or maybe male too) from T university. This chat group lively talking about incoming exams and how stressed they are. These group''s members belong to the one university forum dedicated to one certain topic. This forum is called ''Though we''re rotten but we have fragrant core''.


    They''re the rotten girls1 of T university.


    This forum was established by their unknown senior. And the current active students have their own chat group. Our rotten girls from the literature faculty are also members of this group.


    Up until now, they have more than one hundred active members in this group. They like to gather up once every two or three months. Due to the differences in their activity, and some members prefer to be unknown, the members who come to this meeting are usually only ten to twenty five people.


    Tonight, they planned the meeting at a Huxian hotpot restaurant. The number confirmed to come is twelve people. They reserved two tables next to each other at 6.30 pm. They come there on time and lively start their conversation.


    "Sister, I miss you so much! Oh I need your recommendation to fill my winter break."


    "Exams have not yet started and you are already talking about winter break??"


    "Don''t worry, this sister has a lot of new references. I''ll share them in the group once we finish our exams."


    "Sister, do you have any recent artwork? I rarely see your post nowadays. Busy studying?"


    "Oooooh.. I have a lot. Just I don''t dare to post them in the group."


    "Why? I love your artwork, I use them as my mobile phone wallpaper."


    "Don''t turn this pure girl into a toxic rotten girl like you. Forget about her artwork, it''s too lewd"


    "Oh sister, then show me! I''m not pure like this junior!"


    "Why are you afraid to post them sister? Is it someone we know?"


    "It started at one late midnight snack at the fast food restaurant here.. When this new CP1 comes in. Our gong is truly charming!"


    "You will regret it if you saw these artwork from her."


    "Oooh.. So beautiful! Who is this handsome gong, sister? From which novel? Movie star???"


    "But why didn''t you draw the shou''s face clearly, i want to see his face too."


    "Here sister, this one has his face shown clearly."


    "Eehh, why is the shou''s face not as beautiful as the gong?"


    "Err.. Why do I feel familiar with this shou? Is this someone from our university?"


    "Oh I don''t care, i love this one so much. In this particular artwork, this gong''s face makes me want to lick the screen."


    "This position! Sister, how do you know i like this position the best!"


    "So, we meet this CP at the fast food restaurant near the dorm. Both of them wearing black from head to toe. You won''t believe how caring that gong''s act towards his shou. He looks at his shou the whole time with his gentle eyes!"


    "Don''t make your own assumption. Listen to me, they''re just wildly imagining all these things inside their head."


    "Who cares! I definitely support this CP!"


    "But it seems not right for me, sister. Why didn''t you draw the shou as handsome as the gong? I beg you to draw more and beautify this shou like the gong."


    "She didn''t beautify the gong. In my opinion, the real gong is much more handsome than her artwork. His aura is so.. Oh i can''t even describe it with my limited vocabulary collection."


    "Really?? We never saw someone like him in this university."


    "Don''t compare our God with the local radish. I''ll tell you, this gong is so handsome, and mature, and elegant, oh so beautiful. Definitely not our usual handsome face."


    "I still feel familiar with this shou."


    "Oh you should feel familiar. I think this shou belong to your department. Does anyone in your class look like this?"


    "Really?? Oh but i don''t think someone from my class. My senior, or junior maybe?"


    "Sister, why do you look like that? Close your mouth ah, you even dropped your chopstick!"


    "Sister, hello? Why are both of you freezed?"


    "It''s them!!! Oh my God, this definitely my lucky day. It''s them! Quick, at the entrance!"


    At the speed of light, the twelve pair of girls'' eyes look at the two men coming inside the restaurant. The tall man is so handsome. He wears a light blue long sleeve shirt with a dark blue sweater. There are thin yellow ornaments in the sweater sleeves. He wears ocean blue wool pants. He holds his jacket in one hand and the other hand holds the restaurant door to let his partner come inside.


    The other man is shorter than him. He opens his jacket at the entrance, then comes in and says something to the tall man. He wears an ordinary brown sweater with black turtle neck inside. The tall man looked at him gently and smiled.


    These twelve pair eyes widened and took all their effort to hold themselves not screaming ''aaaahhh'' in unison while looking at this sweet scene from the artwork come to life. They tried not to stare, but the shock was too great and took them a while until they finally diverted their eyes from that couple.


    "Sister!!! You''re right!!! This gong is so handsome!"


    "There''s something in him that makes you can''t stop looking at him!"


    "Oh my God, this is definitely my lucky day! What a pleasant view before starting exams."


    "I think i recognise him now. That shou is my senior. Third year i think."


    "Sister! You''re the only one that belongs to the architecture department. Can you dig his information for us?"


    "I really ship this CP!"


    "Rrrr.. Why do I think they''re not really matched with each other? The gong is too handsome for him."


    "Who cares? If not because of that shou, do you think you will have chances to see this kind of gong come here?"


    "Sister, you''re right as always. Please forgive me for my short sight and lack of wisdom."


    "Whoever works this magic, worthy of our worship."


    "Sister, please dig the information of that handsome gong from your senior!"


    "That''s right sister, you''re our only hope!"


    "Sister, I''ll pay for your lunch in a whole week if you can get us this gong''s name and job."


    "He might be a model or presenter. But I never saw his face before."


    "Or an overbearing president!"


    "No no no, definitely a loving and dotted president. Do you see how he looks at the shou now?"


    "Oh, you''re so damn right sister. At first I didn''t believe you when you said that this gong looked at his shou the whole time with his gentle eyes."


    "I''m your mother. Of course i''m always right."


    "Sister, please please please gather the information!"


    "Yes sister!"


    This one poor second year architecture student named Mu Xiaoya, can''t refute her rotten sister and finally just concede defeat to them. She promised them to start investigating after the exam.


    That''s how our other love story will begin. And how this rotten meeting will change Bai Yutang life forever.

 Chapter 25 - One Of His Past

    It''s been almost one month since Jian Kang Lu last met with his kitten. He missed his kitten so much. Until he once dreamed about his kitten. It''s such a wonderful dream, makes him regret why he had to wake up.


    In that dream, he lives with his kitten together, and his kitten kisses him before he goes to the hospital in the morning. Only in a dream can he have that kind of privilege. And only in a dream he can hold his kitten waist while kissed.


    Jian Kang Lu felt ashamed to see his ''little brother'' excitedly woke up in the morning because of that dream. At his age, how could he have that kind of dream again because of a simple kiss. A simple kiss in a dream. How pathetic.


    Jian Kang Lu sighed, and cleaned up the sheet.. He had to change and washed the sheet by himself. He can''t put these sheets into the laundry service like usual. He took a cold bath and prepared himself to go to the hospital.


    Today is Chinese New Year''s Eve, the clinic is closed today so he can go back to his parent''s place later and spend the new year eve together with his family. He hasn''t seen his kitten again after sending him back to the dorm early this month.


    Those four days he spent together with his kitten also felt like a dream for him. It was such a bliss to see his kitten every morning he woke up. His kitten also sent him to work in the morning. Knowing that someone is waiting for him at home, it''s something Jian Kang Lu always imagined but never knew how it feels.


    And it feels so good.


    That''s what he always dreamed when he bought this house five years ago. He dreamed not to have a house, but a home. A home together with his loved one. To stay and enjoy their simple daily life, forever.


    But in the end, even though Zhang Min often comes here, he never stays the night. Zhang Min is always going back home on his own. So the first time Jian Kang Lu had someone in this house to have breakfast together, to say goodbye when he was going for work, and that someone would wait for him to come home, to spend the day together, having dinner together, and say good night before going to bed, is with his kitten.


    It doesn''t mean Jian Kang Lu never spent the night together with his lover. He often sleeps together with Wu Shen. Sometimes in his rented apartment, sometimes in Wu Shen''s. Usually they sleep together after a very long wild night. After all, Wu Shen is his first male lover. Everything is new, and he satisfies his thirst with this new world Wu Shen is willing to share with him.


    But one of the reasons why Wu Shen loves to stay together with him is because of Wu Shen''s jealousy. At the first time it''s still okay. But his jealousy is increasing day by day, worsened by Wu Shen''s declined career. He used to be a magazine''s model.


    Wu Shen didn''t manage to become a movie star he always dreamed for. His acting skills is sucks, and his handsome face is also not enough for him to pass any audition with that acting skills.


    Jian Kang Lu met Wu Shen when he was 26 year old. Wu Shen is one year younger than him. For a model, being 25 is old. Many fresh faces always popped up everyday. At that time, Jian Kang Lu was also in his residency. He rarely stepped out of the hospital. It''s a miracle they managed to stay together for three years.


    They fought a lot. Jian Kang Lu can''t stand Wu Shen demanding to spend more time with him. How could he spare more time, while he also suffocated with those inhuman working loads in the hospital.


    But he loves Wu Shen so much at that time, and doesn''t want to lose him. Wu Shen is very sweet, and loves him too. So he tried very hard to preserve their relationship. But no matter what he does to appease him, Wu Shen''s jealousy is toxic. He is even jealous of Jian Kang Lu''s sister in law.


    Jian Kang Lu thought, maybe if Wu Shen has something to do besides wandering around all day, his jealousy will decrease. So he bought a small shop and turned it into a small clothing store for Wu Shen using his own savings. A resident''s salary is small, but Jian Kang Lu learns how to invest from his father and brother. That small store he bought under Wu Shen''s name.


    He thought it was enough to show Wu Shen his love and commitment. After all, he feels guilty with the way he treats Wu Shen as an outsider every time he introduces him to his colleague.


    Jian Kang Lu also finally introduced Wu Shen as his lover to his best friend. Zhen Guo, Sun Hongjia, and Luo Yan''s faces at that time were truly memorable. Jian Kang Lu still doesn''t have any courage to introduce Wu Shen to his best friend in the same medical field. He thought it should be enough for Wu Shen.


    But it''s not enough. No matter what he does, Wu Shen is always scared Jian Kang Lu will leave him or be ashamed of him. Wu Shen always thought since he was getting older, he''s not handsome enough to keep Jian Kang Lu by his side. And that insecurity leads to countless fights between them.


    Tired from work, and all those useless arguments, they broke up for many times, until they finally separated. Deep inside, Jian Kang Lu feels guilty. After they broke up, sometimes he thought that maybe if he can openly stay together with Wu Shen, they won''t separate like that.


    That small store still belongs to Wu Shen until today as a part of the guilty feeling Jian Kang Lu had for him.


    Jian Kang Lu finished his ward visit early today, and drove to his parent''s. His brother was already there with his sister in law and his nephew. The road is packed with people rushing home to celebrate new year''s eve with their loved one.


    When Jian Kang Lu arrived at his parent''s house, it''s already 6.30 pm. Jian Ming ran to fetch him and asked for a hug. He looks so cute dressed in red from head to toe. His mom told him to take a bath first and after that they can have dinner together.


    Before taking a bath, Jian Kang Lu stared at his phone. There''s one incoming message.


    [WhiteMist] Happy new year''s eve, Jian Ge. I hope you enjoy a good time with your family today.


    Jian Kang Lu can''t help to smile.


    [JianKangLu] Happy new year''s eve for you too. Send my regards to your family. Hope you enjoy the night and have a prosperous year ahead.


    [WhiteMist] Have you arrived at your parent''s house, Jian Ge? Drive safely later if you are still at the hospital.


    [JianKangLu] I''m at my parent''s house already. All afternoon clinics are closed today. How''s your day?


    [WhiteMist] My sister pestered me all day. It''s a good thing she''s in her third year, or else I have to accompany her to school and fetch her everyday like I used to.


    [JianKangLu] You need to try having a cold sibling like me. My brother refused to be seen with me since his elementary school.


    [WhiteMist] Oh, i forgot to ask you. I want to ask some favour from you, Jian Ge. But please feel free to reject if you mind.


    At this time, actually nothing will make Jian Kang Lu reject this lovely kitten''s request.


    [JianKangLu] Please do ask.


    [WhiteMist] I''ve been talking with my sister, and she also talked to her counselor. It seems she will choose medical faculty as her major. If she accepted there, and needs some guidance, can she ask you, Jian Ge?


    [WhiteMist] But it''s okay if you''re not. After all, you''re busy.


    [JianKangLu] Of course i don''t mind. I''ll answer her if i have time. But you need to warn her that if i didn''t reply yet, it means i''m still busy.


    [WhiteMist] En. I understand, Jian Ge. Thank you so much. I''ll tell my sister then.


    They chat almost everyday. But sometimes humans are greedy. Jian Kang Lu used to think that chatting everyday with his kitten will be enough for him. But now, it makes him miss his kitten more and more. He wants to meet him. See him in the flesh.


    But mostly, he wished his kitten to live with him. Without his kitten, his house back to the cold desolate place it used to be. It made the warm and bright feeling he felt in those four days together is only an illusion.


    Jian Kang Lu finally took a bath, because his kitten said he needed to go downstairs to help his parents cook.


    Jian Kang Lu spent the new year''s eve dinner laughing a lot from Jian Ming''s lively expression when he told his daily life stories. His parent''s faces are also brightly lit. They dote on their only grandson so much.


    After dinner they still chat together in the living room. At 10 o''clock, after Jian Ming and his mom went to bed, his parents were also tired and sleepy. They also go upstairs and say good night to both of their sons. Jian Kang Se left with him alone.


    Suddenly Jian Kang Se asks, "Did you finally find my future sister in law, Ge? Or anything good happened recently?"


    Jian Kang Lu looked at his brother, and simply said, "Why? Do I look like a bright young handsome man that looks 10 year younger, beaming with happiness?"


    "Yes." That short answer is really his brother''s style. He knows how to make Jian Kang Lu defeated and can''t tease him more.


    Jian Kang Lu can only raise both of his shoulders, "I don''t know yet, but something good really happened with me recently."


    Then Jian Kang Lu mysteriously smiled, "A lot of good things."

 Chapter 26 - Happy New Year

    The cold weather outside gradually became warmer with so many people going outside on this day. The sea of red colour could be seen everywhere, adding the contrast in the layer of white grey mists. The light rain poured in the morning, welcomed by the citizens with a great smile. This New Year is merrier than previous year.


    Bai Yutang''s family received so many guests compared with last year. His father, Bai Haoran is the only child. But his mother, Lu Hua, had one younger brother. Bai Yutang''s uncle lived with their parents. Every new year he will drive from his hometown with his wife and children, along with Bai Yutang''s grandparents.


    Bai Yutang''s grandfather from his father is still alive, he lived in the small city two hours from W city. Both of Bai Yutang''s grandparents from his mother are still alive and they live next to his paternal grandfather. Bai Haoran is the one who bought the big house for his parents in law. Bai Yutang''s uncle and his family also lived there..


    In both of their big families, Bai Haoran is one of the most successful people. He had a small construction company. Start with a very small project and gradually further develop. He had few workers under him, and all of them came to their house every new year.


    After all the merry and the night gradually wrapped them in the blanket of stars, their big family had their new year''s dinner in peace.


    Lu Hua only can cook simple things like appetisers and the dessert. Bai Yutang and his sister already wrapped a lot of dumplings yesterday with their parents. The juicy pork and cabbage filled the dumplings skilfully wrapped by them. It was served with soy sauce and vinegar dipping sauce.


    They also made sticky rice balls yesterday, the filling this year is chocolate ganache, black sesame paste, and red bean paste. The sugary clear soup tastes fresh and lightens the sticky rice ball''s heavy taste.


    The spring rolls are also prepared by Bai Yutang and his parents. His sister only helped to roll them. The rolls are stuffed with prawn and cabbage with a bit of carrots to complement the prawn''s sweetness.


    His aunt and grandmother cooked the rest of the dinner. The new year''s dinner is quite complicated and his mother can''t cook them well enough. So every new year, this cooking task will fall into his grandmother and his aunt.


    The usual menu for New Year is red braised pork belly filled with scallions and soy sauce. Soy sauce whole chicken, roasted until honey coloured glazed on the surface. The green baby bok choy cooked with braised shiitake mushroom. The steamed whole fish cooked with ginger cilantro and scallion over the top. And the last is the beef broth noodles with broccoli, smelled fresh and it represents all the new year wishes and blessings.


    Bai Yutang''s cousin is still in his third year junior high school. Unfortunately his grade might not be enough for him to register in both Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren''s high school. Bai Haoran already promised he can live together here in W city if he accepted. But it seems impossible for him now looking at his grade and how much his parents scold him.


    Bai Yutang feels pity for this unfortunate cousin. Every year, his uncle and aunt like to compare him with Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren. So after the dinner he invite his cousin to go upstair to avoid this further torture and playing games together.


    Bai Yuren popped her head up not long after, and joined the game together with them. While playing games, Bai Yutang saw the notification pop up. It was a message from Jian Ge, who replied to his new year''s message.


    Bai Yutang asked his sister casually, "I already told Jian Ge about your intention to go to medical school. He welcomes the idea, so do you need me to introduce you to him later?"


    Bai Yuren answered with her eyes still glued to her mobile phone''s screen, "Yes! Can we have a video call? I am really curious about this older friend of you, Ge. You praised him so much. I want to see him too."


    Bai Yutang frowned, "Does video call necessary? I could introduce you after you''re accepted."


    "Of course I need to introduce myself now. You said that he''s so smart, maybe he has some tips and tricks to be accepted there. You know T university requirement is quite high." Bai Yuren argued. "And I''m really really really curious to see his face!"


    His cousin''s ear perked up listening to this conversation. "JieJie, you''ll apply for T university medical faculty?"


    Oh it was bad news for him. His parents will scold him more if they heard this. It was really unlucky to have these superior cousins in your life. Even though his grade is not really that bad and he tried so hard, his brain capacity is on a different level with these two.


    They chat and finish the dungeon in the next thirty minutes. Bai Yuren keeps pestering him to have a video call, along with his cousin who is now also curious.


    Bai Yutang could never reject his sister. So he finally sent messages to Jian Kang Lu.


    [WhiteMist] Thank you, Jian Ge. We enjoy our new year''s dinner well. I eat so much. By the way, I apologised before if I offended you. My sister begged me to introduce her to you and even asked for a video call. If you don''t mind, can we call you?"


    There are ten minutes without any reply. Bai Yutang feels uneasy, he doesn''t want to offend Jian Ge or make him feel uncomfortable. He decided to apologise again and cancel his request, but the reply came before he sent his message.


    [JianKangLu] Sure. Wait, I''m going upstairs first.


    Five minutes later, the incoming video call flashed on his screen. He slid the screen to accept the video call. In that small screen he saw Jian Kang Lu''s white jade face smiled with his beautiful peach blossom eyes curved upward.


    Bai Yutang feels like his name didn''t live up to the meaning. Bai could mean white, but his own skin is not as white Jian Kang Lu''s skin.


    "Happy new year! May all your wishes come true, and joy fill your days!" Jian Ge smile''s so bright. Suddenly Bai Yutang afraid his sister would fangirling or might do something inappropriate if she saw those smiles.


    "Hello, Jian Ge. Happy new year, good luck and great success in the coming new year."


    Bai Yuren''s head already popped up behind him and Bai Yutang can see her surprised face reflected on the small screen below. His cousin''s head also popped up in the lower right corner.


    "Jian Ge, let me introduce you with my sister and my cousin. She''s the one who wants to try applying for medical faculty this year." Bai Yutang signalling his sister and cousin to introduce themselves.


    Bai Yuren''s voice suddenly sounds shy and with a blushed face saying, "Nice to meet you, and happy new year. May prosperity be with you. My name is Bai Yuren, i''m Bai Yutang''s little sister."


    Bai Yutang could not believe this was the same person with his devil sister. Who was this blushing maiden suddenly taking over his sister''s body?? His cousin also politely introduced himself while saying the new year''s greeting.


    Jian Ge politely smiled and asked his sister about her plan and her tryout score, and they chatted for a bit. He also said, since it was years ago for him, maybe he''s not suitable for giving her the tips and tricks. But his colleague''s son was accepted into T university medical faculty this year, and he promised Bai Yuren to ask him for the important pointer.


    Bai Yutang remembered, it seems the same person Jian Ge mentioned when he accompanied him in the shopping mall to buy the acceptance gift.


    Four of them chatted for about thirty more minutes and stopped by his aunt''s voice calling to come down and eat some dessert downstairs. Bai Yutang can''t help to admire Jian Ge more. No matter with whom, he always manages to hold a lively conversation and make them feel like they already know him for a long time.


    "Ge, why didn''t you tell me that this Jian GeGe is so handsome? Oh luckily i still wear this new year dress. Or else he will see me in my miserable usual state! Is he really over thirty years old? He even looks younger than the counselor." Bai Yuren''s voice still excitedly echoed after he finished the video call.


    Bai Yutang frowned, "I told you that he''s a person i admired so much. Instead of his successful story, why do you focus more on his face?"


    Bai Yuren waved her hands, "You won''t understand a pure maiden heart like mine. No wonder you''re still single until now! Oh seeing that face definitely encourages me to study harder. Maybe I can find a lot of handsome faces like that in T university."


    Bai Yutang didn''t want to shatter his sister''s beautiful imagination. Most students in T university are geeks and nerds. Just a few of them look handsome like Tang Yuxuan or Liu Xiang. And definitely he never met someone as charming as Jian Ge in the university for his whole two and half year studying there.


    They enjoy the sticky rice balls and still chat about Jian Kang Lu. Bai Haoran and Lu Hua also heard this conversation and asked them who they were talking about.


    Bai Yutang''s cousin suddenly felt a bad premonition. And he was right. When both of his cousins lively told their parents about this amazing and handsome doctor that inspired Bai Yuren to apply for medical faculty, he suddenly felt both of his parents stare at them. He can feel those eyes of his parents say ''Why didn''t you study harder and be a doctor too later?''


    ''Please cousin, stop talking! You can talk about this more when i already going back home with my parents!''


    Bai Yutang''s mother said, "It seems this man helps you a lot, TangTang. Then when you come back to university later, you need to bring him gifts from our family. Let me prepare the local specialty from our city."


    Bai Haoran nodded, "And he also helped our RenRen, send my regards to him. We''ll thank him personally when we visit you in B city."


    Bai Yutang nodded, and their family talked a bit more. His grandparents also warn Bai Yuren to take care of her body and eat more nutritious food for the brain to help her prepare for her exams.


    Bai Yutang looked at his family, and tried to remember Jian Ge''s words. It was his luck to have this harmonious family, and he silently prayed inside his heart.


    May this harmonious state and prosperity last for a long long time.

 Chapter 27 - Red Blossom

    Bai Yutang feels that his baggage''s size this time truly like someone who just robbed their parent''s house. Usually he only brings one small baggage, sometimes even just one backpack. His mother never gave him so many foods and things like this before.


    Of course all these things are not for him, but for Jian Ge. His parents really like the idea that their daughter could be a doctor. None of their family members became a doctor before. Even when Bai Yutang accepted into T university is already the highest achievement in their big family. And now, they have the possibility of their daughter to become a doctor.


    Their big family is truly envious of Bai Haoran''s luck. Maybe he was saving the country in his previous life. He managed to become successful, and have two smart children who became the pride of the family.


    Bai Yutang coming back to B city two days after valentine day.. He spent his valentine day with his sister, under her extortion. She said she doesn''t want to spend her valentine day alone, and the boys in his class all looks like pigs eyeing the cabbage. She said it would be great if next year she could spend valentine day with someone as handsome as Jian Ge.


    Bai Yutang only snorted while hearing her sister dream. He was rewarded with a hard pinch on his waist, until the skin under showed bruises from her brutality.


    Jian Ge offered to pick him up from the airport. Actually it will make it easier to give this bunch of gifts to Jian Ge. But Bai Yutang knows that on Thursday, Jian Ge is busy and has an afternoon clinic schedule. Finally they agreed to meet with each other on Saturday.


    Jian Ge still remembers his promise to bring his friends to Il Mare. He asks Bai Yutang if he doesn''t mind asking his friends whether they''re free to have dinner together on Saturday. Of course when Bai Yutang asked them in the group chat, they all got excited and immediately agreed.


    Honestly, deep inside Bai Yutang''s heart, he feels uneasy. He knows that it was pricey to eat there. And Jian Ge promised to take all four of them to dine together. He actually wants to pay half of the dinner bill. But he also realised if he paid even just half of it, it would mean he had to live in poverty for the whole month.


    Or maybe he just paid for himself. He thinks he still can manage it if he paid for himself. He doesn''t want to take advantage of Jian Ge''s kindness. But it would be weird if he paid for himself and also seems to insult Jian Ge''s kind intention.


    So finally, Bai Yutang could only ask his friend not to order anything and just let Jian Ge order for them. In that way, at least it will ease his mind a little bit. He also reminds his friends to dress properly.


    His friends are also coming back to the university today. They bring a lot of food from their hometown. They enjoy the lively dinner in the dorm and happily chatting about their holiday. They congratulated Bai Yutang for his increasing grade last semester even though he was hospitalised before the exam.


    On Friday, all four of them went to the campus administration office to reconfirm this semester registration. They already do that online from home. But to check and choose your professor schedule, you still need to go to the office.


    At the office, they also meet a bunch of their juniors and seniors doing the same thing. In the corner, there are one group of junior girls. Among them, this one particular girl kept stealing some glances at them.


    This girl has a bit chubby rosy cheeks, with medium long straight hair and bangs that made her face look like a high school student. Her eyes are almond round, with big round glasses. Her lips are also rosy with small petals, it emphasized her cuteness.


    Bai Yutang and Yu Dong are already getting used to this kind of stare. Usually it was directed to Tang Yuxuan or Liu Xiang. That''s why both of them were a little bit surprised when this girl kept looking at both of them, even though Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang already went into different offices.


    Once again, they thought maybe this girl wanted to ask for Tang Yuxuan''s contact or information. It also happened a few times before.


    Anyway, their faces can''t hide their shock when this girl finally walks towards their direction when they exit the office. She was stuttered and her face blushed, asking if both of them were playing Magallan. She said that she noticed their phone case is from Magallan elemental signs.


    Bai Yutang is the first one to recover. It reminds him of the first time Jian Ge talked to him. It was also because of his phone case. He politely replied confirming her question, and this girl seems to want to talk a bit more but is too nervous.


    Bai Yutang suddenly remembers Jian Ge. ''What will Jian Ge do in this kind of situation?''


    So he smiled at the girl, and asked her whether she played Magallan too. She answered yes, and Bai Yutang repeated the conversation when Jian Ge talked to him for the first time in the plane. But this time, he was the conversation initiator and not the one who passively answered.


    This girl seems really glad and gradually starts to lose her anxiety and talk more comfortably with them. Yu Dong also finally recovered, Bai Yutang tried to involve him too in the conversation. Make him talk some more to this girl.


    The three of them walked out from the office together to give spaces for the people inside. They finally exchanged their game ID, and promised to do a co-op tonight together when they''re online.


    Yu Dong really can''t believe he finally met a real life girl who also played the same games with him. And this girl is also a cute junior of his. Female population in architecture is a little bit more compared to Engineering or IT faculty. But still a minority compared to the whole student population.


    After dinner, Yu Dong asks Bai Yutang to clear the dungeon together. Bai Yutang could hear Yu Dong mumbling in a low voice, "I hope that girl is online."


    Bai Yutang''s ear perks hearing that. It seems that Yu Dong like this girl. What is her name again? Mu Xiaoya? Bai Yutang asks Jian Ge if he wants to clear dungeon together, and what time he was free.


    After a while, Bai Yutang told Yu Dong to clear the dungeon after 9 o''clock so Jian Ge can join them. He also added, if that girl online, let''s ask her too. He decided, maybe it was a good thing if Yu Dong could befriend a real girl instead of an online girlfriend that was swindling him.


    That girl online around 8.30 pm but Yu Dong didn''t ask her anything. Bai Yutang knows that his friends are lively around boys, but shut up like a shy turtle around girls. So Bai Yutang started the conversation first.


    [Mist] Do you want to join us to clear the Fairy Dungeon together?


    [RedBlossom] Yes, senior. I''m free today.


    [Mist] Let me create the group and invite you.


    [RedBlossom] Thank you senior. Do you still need to invite other people? Who is the DPS1?


    [Mist] I''m the tank, Yu Dong is the support healer, and we''ll be waiting for one other friend. He''s the DPS.


    [Atlas] Hello, i''m the healer.


    [Mist] You''re an assassin, right?


    [RedBlossom] Yes senior, but I adjust my equipment so I could be a damage supporter too.


    [Mist] Oh that''s why you''re asking for the DPS. My friend is still working now, he will be free to join us after 9 pm. Is that okay for you? If you''re busy, please tell us.


    [RedBlossom] No senior! I''m not busy at all!


    [Atlas] There is still time until 9 o''clock, do you want to hunt together first?


    [RedBlossom] Okay. Where are you, senior? I''ll come over there.


    [Atlas] No need, let me know your position. I''ll teleport there.


    Bai Yutang wants to give Yu Dong some chances to talk with Mu Xiaoya alone. So he excuses himself to idle, saying he wants to pack the things he will give to Jian Ge tomorrow.


    Bai Yutang messaged Jian Ge, telling him that if he went online please send a message first in WeChat. Around 9.15 pm Jian Ge message popped up saying he''ll be online in another 15 minutes. Bai Yutang came back to Magallan and invited Jian Ge to the group once he was online.


    [WhiteRobe] Hello Yu Dong, how''s your holiday? Oh, we have a new member.


    [Mist] Jian Ge, please let me introduce you with her. She is our junior, Mu Xiaoya.


    [Mist] Xiaoya, this is my friend. Jian Kang Lu.


    [RedBlossom] Hello senior, my name is Mu Xiaoya.


    [Atlas] Jian Ge, how are you? I miss you, Jian Ge.


    [WhiteRobe] You only missed me because tomorrow we''ll have dinner together, DongDong.


    [Atlas] Ahahaha.. You know me well, Jian Ge. I''ll be in your care tomorrow.


    [Mist] Please don''t pamper them, Jian Ge. They are shameless and I''m afraid we will embarrass you tomorrow.


    [WhiteRobe] I guess you''re right. Being an uncle between four handsome young men like you guys will definitely decrease my value over there.


    [Atlas] Jian Ge, even though you already have grandchildren, your value is still higher compared to both of our values combined together.


    [WhiteRobe] Ah, we talk among ourselves and let this young girl feel uncomfortable. I hope you don''t mind clearing this dungeon with an old uncle like me, Xiaoya.


    [RedBlossom] Not at all. Please take care of me.


    [Mist] Jian Ge, Xiaoya is our damage supporter. So she will assist you today.


    [WhiteRobe] Oh really? Then i''m the one who will be in your care, Xiaoya. I''m sorry to burden you.


    [Atlas] Don''t worry, Jian Ge. I''ll also support you.


    Four of them then clear the Fairy dungeon and choose the higher difficulty since Mu Xiaoya level is also high. Jian Kang Lu''s level is actually the lowest. But he had a lot of good (expensive) equipment and skills that helped him perform well in the middle of this bunch of high level players.


    Bai Yutang is glad that Mu Xiaoya seems like a good girl. Even though he still had some doubt before that, maybe she approached them to get Tang Yuxuan''s contact. But after playing together, he can see that she is a good player and truly plays this game very well.


    He hopes that maybe this is a good sign for Yu Dong. Yu Dong is very kind, and he deserves the happiness he always yearns for.

 Chapter 28 - I Am Happy

    Jian Kang Lu feels satisfied with the dinner. Even though he really really really wants to spend the night just together with his kitten, he knows that he already promised his kitten friend''s and that time there is no right moment to invite them.


    It doesn''t mean he wants to impress his kitten''s friends or family. He just wants to make his kitten feel more comfortable. He already knows that his kitten is a straight man. Because one time they''re talking about his kitten''s miserable love life.


    At the first time, he truly wanted to bend his kitten. But now he feels that he enjoys their time together like this. He doesn''t want to ruin this kind of relationship he had right now with his kitten. He wants to let the time flow telling him what kind of this journey will take him. But then lately, he scared to lose his kitten if one day his kitten know that he was gay.


    That''s why he tried to befriend his kitten''s friend too.. If one day his kitten knows and is scared of him, he could say that he only thinks of him as a friend. Just like Yu Dong, Tang Yuxuan, and Liu Xiang.


    The dinner went well. They all enjoy and praise the food and the ambience. Yu Dong particularly likes the desert. At first he was embarrassed to admit that he was a dessert lover. But once Jian Kang Lu told him that the dessert here listed as one of the best dessert in the country, he throw that embarrassed feeling and even order two kind of dessert.


    Jian Kang Lu insisted on sending four of them back to the dorm before they meet at the restaurant. That''s why these four guys decided to keep their souvenirs and gifts from their hometown at the dorm.


    While they took their gift from their room upstairs, Bai Yutang accompanied him downstairs. He asks his friends to bring down his gift also.


    His kitten smiled shyly at him, and said in a soft voice, "Thank you so much for tonight''s dinner, Jian Ge. But you don''t need to do it often. I''m afraid it was an inconvenience for you."


    "I told you, I''m happy to have companions. Although I prefer just both of us if watching movies. But in moments like eating together, sometimes the more is the merrier." Jian Kang Lu said that with a doting tone.


    His kitten looked at him, and smiled. After a few seconds, he said, "Me too... For movies, better just both of us. They have a bad habit of talking during the movies."


    Somehow, those words made Jian Kang Lu very happy. The happiest moment he felt after this 47 days without seeing his kitten in flesh. His kitten''s soft and warm voice is best enjoyed by himself, without having to share his kitten''s voice with another person. It made him feel like the world just made for both of them.


    When he heard those words, his eyes gazed at his kitten lips. Suddenly he was reminded of his dreams. The dream when he was kissed by his kitten. He was wondering in a split second, did those pale pink soft petals taste the same like in his dream? Do those thin lips will melted under his tongue, and turn plump from his sucking? And when he drew himself, teasing him with the tip of his tongue, will those lips search for him? Brushing softly before asking for more?


    Damn it. Jian Kang Lu already told himself to dedicate this feeling toward his kitten into platonic love. But sometimes his healthy hormones encourage his desires, forget all about platonic for a moment.


    Maybe he has to release himself before he meets his kitten? He decided to try that method next time, so he won''t show any involuntary movement that will frighten his kitten.


    When his kitten''s friends are already downstairs and bringing their gifts, Jian Kang Lu can''t help but laugh. There were so many. Definitely he can''t eat those alone.


    "Why do you guys give me so many? I live alone and I can''t even finish all these in the next two weeks. How about this? Tomorrow I''m going to meet my parents and brother. I will share all of this with them. But if they also can''t finish these, can I share these to my colleague at the hospital too? But of course i will try a little bit of everything." Jian Kang Lu tries to bargain with them.


    "They''re for you, Jian Ge. You can do everything to these gifts as you see fit." His kitten hurriedly agreed. Maybe because most of these things are from his kitten.


    Jian Kang Lu said thank you, and waved them goodbye.


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    Jian Kang Lu spent his March in peace. He''s doing his new research, it''s simple research. Just to compare the effect of each CAPD1 method for people with kidney failure due to diabetes. He just collects the data with some of the immunology markers to find out which method is the best and why.


    He was helped by his resident to collect the data, and he predicted the data will be collected in the next three months. He rarely did complicated research, because he didn''t have any ambition to strive for a better position. Better position only means prestige for him. And he didn''t really like standing in the spotlight.


    He spent every week meeting with his kitten. Once or twice a week. Sometimes also with his kitten''s friend.


    One day in the middle of March, Jian Kang Lu had dinner with his kitten and his friend in a new Japanese fusion restaurant. Unexpectedly he met Zhen Guo and his wife, Luo Jiao. Seeing Zhen Guo, his kitten and his friend suddenly act so weird and nervous. It was like a young girl meeting with their singer idol.


    Jian Kang Lu thinks maybe if he was not there, they''ll be lining up to ask for Zhen Guo''s signature. Zhen Guo really acts mature compared to Luo Jiao who gives him a signalling look. Her eyebrow raised multiple times for the whole night.


    Jian Kang Lu could see from the first moment he saw Yu Dong and Liu Xiang''s mouth wide open, that they''re fans of Zhen Guo, Jian Kang Lu invite both of them to sit together and eat together. After all, the table is enough for 8 people.


    Before Zhen Guo said anything, Luo Jiao already sat next to Tang Yuxuan. Bai Yutang who sits next to Jian Kang Lu wants to move to give places for Zhen Guo. But Jian Kang Lu rearranged their position. Zhen Guo on his left, across her wife. And his kitten on his right side, across Liu Xiang. Yu Dong was sitting next to his kitten.


    Looking at that signalling face of Luo Jiao, Jian Kang Lu really wants to laugh. It seems that she thought the one that Jian Kang Lu pursued was either Tang Yuxuan or Liu Xiang. He knows in other people''s eyes, maybe his kitten is not as attractive as them. But Jian Kang Lu didn''t want to satisfy Luo Jiao''s curiosity and pretend didn''t see that look on her face.


    Zhen Guo appeared calm on the surface, but he silently sent messages to him.


    [Don''t torture my wife or she''ll torture me tonight. Spare me and just tell her which one.]


    Jian Kang Lu just pretend didn''t know Zhen Guo messages, and introduced these little architects to Zhen Guo. When Zhen Guo heard that they were T university students, he asked a few questions about the professors and they talked about the architecture student life.


    At the first time, they''re so stiff. Answering Zhen Guo''s question like they were in some test of job interview. Yu Dong''s face was even full of sweat and stuttered when answering the question. Tang Yuxuan looks so tight, and Liu Xiang knocks his chopstick down.


    After the food came and under a few glasses of sake, these little lambs started to chat lively and ask a lot of questions. Only his kitten didn''t ask much. He only listens and answers if someone asks him.


    After they finished their dinner, Luo Jiao messaged him.


    [Do you think you can hide? Now I know which one is your little kitten. Don''t underestimate a woman''s talent to sniff man''s hidden secret.]


    Jian Kang Lu laughed, this time he replied to that message.


    [I didn''t hide anything from you, your highness. But I am curious about your talent. Can you tell me which one?]


    Zhen Guo looked at Jian Kang Lu''s messages that blinked on his mobile phone, and also raised one of his eyebrows. Luo Jiao then replied.


    [The one next to you, and definitely not my lame husband.]


    Jian Kang Lu looks at her smug face, it''s written clearly on her face.


    ''Am i right? Right? Right??? Must be right, because i''m your mother!''


    Jian Kang Lu just laughed and nodded. Then he sneaked some look at his kitten''s face. He''s quite afraid his kitten will notice this strange behaviour of Luo Jiao. But his kitten just focused on his drink and it seems he didn''t dare to look in Luo Jiao''s direction. While Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang busy answering Zhen Guo''s question.


    Jian Kang Lu is grateful at least Zhen Guo is here to divert these little lambs'' attention, or else they''ll definitely feel that something is wrong with Luo Jiao''s behaviour. However, Jian Kang Lu also wonders.


    ''Is it so obvious? If it was obvious, won''t it make his kitten afraid?''


    He thinks he needs to give Luo Jiao a call about that after dinner.


    They finished the dinner, and Zhen Guo insisted on settling the bills. He said as their senior, it was his right to treat them. Jian Kang Lu just gave the bill to him. He and his friends are not the one who counts money between them. Because all of them are financially well.


    When Jian Kang Lu sent these little lambs back to their dorm, these little lambs suddenly changed into little chick. They''re lively talking about Zhen Guo.


    "I think I won''t wash my hand again, this hand that shakes and touches our God." Yu Dong is still staring at his right hand.


    Tang Yuxuan also stared at his right hand, "Do you think our God blessed us and let us borrow his divine power to pass next month''s mid term exams?"


    Liu Xiang replied, "I do wish I could take photographs together with our God. But my tongue is so stiff. We could put that picture and worship our God in our dorm room."


    Bai Yutang glares at Liu Xiang, "Don''t embarrass Jian Ge.."


    Jian Kang Lu laughed, "Next time, i''ll ask him to take pictures with you guys. He still owes me some favour."


    Tang Yuxuan asked him, "How do you know him, Jian Ge? I don''t have any friends from the medical faculty. But your friends seem to come from a lot of backgrounds."


    Jian Kang Lu answered him, "Zhen Guo likes to read. We met a lot in the library borrowing the same title. So from our small talks about books then lead to heated discussion. He also likes to read some foreign books that are hard to get. Fortunately i have a friend studying abroad. And he latched on to me to get access to those books. Our personality is quite similar. So we hang out together, until now."


    His kitten who sat beside him on the passenger seat suddenly said, "Jian Ge''s friends coming from a lot of background. Just look at us. I bet Mr. Zhen Guo is also wondering why Jian Ge wants to hang out with a bunch of kids like us."


    Jian Kang Lu just can''t help smiling and gazing tenderly at his kitten, but then he straightens his look. He remembers how Luo Jiao guessed correctly.


    "Zhen Guo won''t wonder about that. He likes you guys too. If he doesn''t like you guys, he won''t sit with us and have dinner together. I told you his personality just like me. We won''t bother to hang out with people we don''t like."


    All of them still chat lively until they reach the dorm. They say thank you for the millionth time that night, and Jian Kang Lu just saying that he hopes they will be inspired by Zhen Guo to study better in their next mid term exams.


    When Jian Kang Lu was driving home, he called Luo Jiao. "Sister in law, i don''t dare to doubt your divine ability again. But please tell me, how do you know? Is it so obvious?"


    Luo Jiao delightedly laughed, "Call me your highness!"


    "Your highness, please bestow this humble one some enlightenment."


    "It''s not obvious, but I''ve known you for so long. Sometimes your little gesture and tone is different to him. At first, I thought it was the handsome guy next to me, or the other one. Because they sit across you, and their faces look like you know who. Then I notice how you place some food in your kitten''s plate, and your gaze towards him."


    Luo Jiao added, "But i guess i like your little kitten. He''s polite, and looks honest. Your chemistry with him is also nice, you guys look good together. By the way, may i know the progress of your relationship?"


    Jian Kang Lu smiles bitterly, "Our relationship is not like you think. It''s platonic. He''s a straight guy, and I also don''t want to bend him anymore. I just enjoy spending my time with him. That''s all. So please your highness, don''t frighten him or he will run away from me."


    "Platonic? Are you sure you''re okay with that? But honestly, you look so happy. Just do what makes you happy. And you can relax, Jian Ge. He doesn''t seem to notice anything. Your gesture to him is totally normal under everybody else''s eyes. It''s just we know you better." Luo Jiao assured him.


    "Okay, your highness. Send my regard to your slave. Let us meet again next week at Sun Hongjia''s birthday. Good night, your highness."


    Jian Kang Lu hung up the phone, and smiled. Glad to hear his friends said that they like his kitten and they look good together. She''s right. He''s happy.


    As happy as the dog seeing his master.


    As happy as a book lover between the paper''s scent.


    As happy as the sun flower meeting his morning sun.


    As happy as a cat took a lazy sunbath.


    As happy as the bird flapping his wings.


    He''s happy, and that''s enough.

 Chapter 29 - Special

    Their mid term exams are finally over. Bai Yutang was relieved, it seems that his hard work paid well. He is studying hard for these exams, and he thinks he will get a good score. His project is also going well.


    This Saturday he promised Jian Ge to watch movies and have dinner, just both of them. They haven''t met for two weeks, because Jian Ge said he doesn''t want to disturb his mid term exams preparation.


    After shower, Bai Yutang brushes his hair. Looking at the mirror, he complained inside. No matter what haircut he has, he''ll never have half of Jian Ge''s charm. Bai Yutang sighed, and took his wallet. Ready to go to the theatre, Yu Dong who sat in front of his computer suddenly asked him.


    "What do you think about Xiaoya?" Yu Dong''s voice mumbled..


    Bai Yutang turns his head, and teases him, "What do i think about Xiaoya? She''s a good player. She played well with us, a good teammate. Our dungeon clearing with her always gives us good results."


    Yu Dong still glued his eyes to the computer, but Bai Yutang could see his ears turn red, "I mean, as a girl..."


    Bai Yutang laughed, he knows very well what Yu Dong means with that question. Since he needed to go right now, he didn''t tease him anymore.


    "I think she''s a good girl, and well matched with you. I know you like her, especially because she''s a gamer too. Why don''t you try to approach her?"


    This time Yu Dong turns his head to look at him. "I tried, but i don''t know how to start. I only know how to ask her in games and accompany her hunting or doing dungeons together even if you''re not online." He paused, then continued in a very low voice, "I think she likes you.."


    Bai Yutang was surprised to hear that, "From which part of your brain produces that kind of imagination?"


    Yu Dong bowed his head, didn''t dare to look at his roommate. He was ashamed to sound like a jealous man with his own best friend. But the truth is, he is really jealous, and envies Bai Yutang everytime Mu Xiaoya asks about him.


    "She sometimes asks about you.. It seems she approached us that time because of you."


    Bai Yutang sits next to Yu Dong. "First of all, i don''t like her in that way. Second, are you sure she asks about me? Not Tang Yuxuan or Liu Xiang? I don''t think she''s that kind of girl and definitely she won''t like me as per your imagination. We never even met or interacted before. And third, you haven''t tried to approach her in real life. Like last time we met her in the cafeteria, you don''t want to sit together with her even though the seat next to her is empty. Next time, let''s just try. I''ll support you."


    Yu Dong silenced for a moment, then said, "I really like her.. You know I can''t talk to a girl except about games or nerdy things we always talk about. I don''t know how to start normal conversation, or what they like. But i can talk to her about these things. Do you think i have a chance?"


    "You like her, then you have to show her. I''m not the one you can talk about this, my love life and experience is at the same level as you."


    It means both of them are single from birth until this moment. What Yu Dong expect with asking him for love advice? It was like asking a blind man which colour suits you better.


    Seeing Yu Dong find difficulty to express his further feelings, Bai Yutang sighed and said, "How about this. You know our birthday is coming. As usual, we''ll celebrate it together. This time let''s invite Jian Ge and her too. But it must be you who invited her. Is that okay with you?"


    Yu Dong pondered for a while, and he agreed with that idea. "Okay, i think that''s a great idea. I''ll invite her tonight. We planned to raid the dungeon together. Better we treat them at Huxiang or the usual cafe?"


    "For girls, maybe cafes are better. Jian Ge also never tried that cafe. Then you book the cafe as usual, and invite her. I''ll also invite Jian Ge tonight."


    Bai Yutang then stood up and waved his hand, said goodbye to Yu Dong. He''s going to be late if he didn''t go right now.


    His birthday is next week, and Yu Dong''s birthday is only separated by three days with his own. So usually they celebrate together. For the last two years, they treat Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang on the next Saturday after Yu Dong''s birthday. Only on that day they usually drank alcohol a little bit.


    Today''s movie is a car racing action movie. The ladies at the VIP auditorium now already know Bai Yutang well and sometimes tease Jian Ge, by saying since the first time he took Bai Yutang now they never see him watching movies alone again.


    That sentence makes Bai Yutang realise, he has known Jian Ge for more than 6 months now. He knows what is his hobby, his preferences, his favourite food and movies, and it increases Bai Yutang''s admiration for him each day.


    But he never sees Jian Ge angry. He also never sees Jian Ge in a bad mood, except that one time on Sunday. He is curious, then he asks Jian Ge when they are waiting for their dinner dishes.


    "Jian Ge, I never saw you mad or sad. You''ve seen me mad before, when I accidentally deleted my files and was in a foul mood all day before you teach me how to prevent that in the future. Or when on that particular day when someone cut queuing our lines. But I never saw you mad. What will make you mad?"


    Jian Ge raised his eyebrow in amused face, "You never saw me angry because going out with you makes me happy, and eases my hard day. But I do get mad and angry a lot. You can ask my resident about that."


    "You always tease me like that, Jian Ge. But I truly want to know what will make you angry."


    Jian Ge''s face thought for a while, then he said, "I''m angry if someone lied to me, or didn''t fill their promises without legit reason. I am also angry if people do unreasonable things, like shifting their own mistakes to other people."


    "Then what makes you sad, Jian Ge?"


    "I''m sad when sometimes my patient''s die at a young age. My patients are usually old age, or the late stage of disease. So we know what will happen in the end. But in a few cases, we got this 18 or 19 year old patient who had rapid kidney failure from infection. I think that happened also last year, when I asked you to watch movies on Sunday. He was the only child born when his parents were over thirty. We do everything we can, but somehow the treatment won''t work and he''s gone. His mother fainted and had to hospitalised for a few days after that. In cases like that, I feel like hitting the bottom and depressed all day. But going out with you that day truly helps me elevate my mood."


    Bai Yutang listens to Jian Ge''s explanation, and feels that being a doctor is really hard. Doctors had to deal with these kinds of things in their daily life. He suddenly thought about his sister, can she become a good doctor like the man beside him?


    Jian Ge''s eyes are always gentle. Sometimes Bai Yutang wants to ask why Jian Ge had a good mood when going out with him. He knows he was not someone special with much talent, he''s not a funny person to make conversation lively. His sister also said that he was boring.


    But Bai Yutang could never ask that. Because he also feels his mood brightened every time he meets Jian Ge. He could mention thousands of reasons why, since the other person is someone with a lot of talent.


    It''s just that Jian Ge once told him, every human is different. We can''t judge other people''s behaviour or decision by using our own standard. We never live by their shoes, so never assume about their act or think too much about it. As long as we happily live our own lives and they don''t disturb us, we don''t need to think or pry into their lives also.


    They spent the dinner well. Bai Yutang always loved the calm atmosphere in every dinner he had with Jian Ge. It was relaxing. He could talk about anything, or sometimes he didn''t need to talk at all. With Jian Ge, Bai Yutang always felt like he was protected, and understood. He doesn''t need to please Jian Ge all the time, nor to be someone he was not.


    Bai Yutang knows they will be going home soon, so he finally talks about his birthday. He was quite ashamed to announce that he would have a birthday. Will it make him look like he was asking for a birthday gift?


    But he remembers he was disappointed when Jian Ge had his birthday without telling him. So he just thickened his face.


    "Jian Ge, my birthday is next week. Yu Dong''s birthday is also near to mine. So both of us want to invite you to our birthday dinner. Saturday, at the end of the month. It''s only in a cafe near our dorm, but we''ll be happy if you can come."


    That cafe was nowhere near any restaurant Jian Ge took him to eat. But Bai Yutang somehow also wants to introduce places he often visits to Jian Ge. Don''t know why, but he wants to share his pieces of life to this person.


    Jian Ge''s face didn''t look surprised and just nodded. "Okay, of course i''ll come. Do you need something as your birthday gift, or just want it to be a surprise?"


    Bai Yutang hurriedly said, "No need, Jian Ge!! Your presence is already a gift! I didn''t invite you to ask for gifts!"


    Jian Ge just chuckled hearing his answer, but his next words surprised him, "Your birthday''s dinner is on Saturday, but your actual birthday is on Monday next week. What are you going to do that day?"


    "Me? I have class until lunch, nothing special in particular. It''s only a birthday."


    ''How do Jian Ge knows his exact birthday? Did I ever tell him before?''


    "Then, how about both of us celebrate your birthday with something we have never done before? We can''t see the museum or palace, it''s closed already at night. I also didn''t think you''re the one who enjoys bar hopping. So how about strolling at the night market and trying each snack sold by the food stall there?"


    "Night market? Just both of us? But, didn''t you have an afternoon schedule, Jian Ge?"


    "Yes, both of us. If you don''t mind. Strolling at the night market is better with two people. Too many people will be inconvenienced. I''ve tried strolling there with my friends, but in the end we separated into two groups."


    Jian Ge then continued his words after drinking his wine. "And i can arrange my schedule. You said it''s only your birthday. But your birthday only comes once a year, so it''s special to me."


    Bai Yutang never strolled in the night market here in B city. No one ever mentioned it to him, nor invited him. He truly feels Jian Ge is the one who opens his eyes to many things, many good things he never even thought to try before.


    And in his life, not many people will say that he was special.


    So he finally nodded his head and grinned, "Okay Jian Ge, let''s stroll. You have to show me the best snacks there!"


    After so many birthdays passed in his life, now Bai Yutang is really excited to welcome his birthday again. To celebrate the day where he was born into this world. To feel particularly special on this day every year. Just like when he used to be, once when he was still a kid.


    Before he grew up and finally realised that he was nothing special. Just an ordinary man, like everyone else.

 Chapter 30 - Birthday

    Bai Yutang turns twenty one today. He received many messages today, and he replied with those messages with a happy face. Jian Ge called him at 00.01 am just to say happy birthday to him. He was the first person who said ''happy birthday'' to him this year.


    Yu Dong, Tang Yuxuan, and Liu Xiang bought a small cake and lit the twenty one candles on top of it. With that mini size of the cake, it looks like a small hedgehog with his quills standing from his back.


    Bai Yutang told him that for this year''s birthday, he wants to stroll the night market with Jian Ge. They didn''t seem surprised anymore. They also admired Jian Ge so much now, especially after Jian Ge introduced them with Zhen Guo.


    Liu Xiang is the one that keeps reminiscing about that meeting. Even until now he is still talking about that.. He''s a hardcore fans of Zhen Guo. His designs and style were heavily influenced by Zhen Guo since last year, when he saw one presentation discuss Zhen Guo''s style in particular.


    Jian Ge said that he will pick Bai Yutang at 5.30 pm in his dorm. Bai Yutang tried to refuse, but Jian Ge said it''ll be a hassle for him to meet over there and easier for Jian Ge to pick him up in the dorm.


    It''s spring already in April, the weather is really nice to stroll outside. When Jian Ge comes to pick him, Bai Yutang really envies him. Jian Ge wears a simple dark green flannel long sleeve shirt with a silver button, the sleeves rolled casually into his elbow. He wears dark blue jeans and white sneakers. His accessory is only his silver watch in his left wrist.


    Bai Yutang also wears a similar outfit, only the shirt is ocean blue with a light blue t-shirt under the shirt.


    But why does Jian Ge look like it popped up from a fashion magazine? His short hair combed to the back, revealing those smooth forehead. His peach blossom eyes always look so gentle. His lips that always curved upward now smiling, revealing those pearly white beads behind the thin pink lips.


    And he looks like.. Just an ordinary student.


    Jian Ge said happy birthday again to him. And they soon arrived at the night market. It was one of the most well known and prosperous shopping streets in the city, with a history of 700 years around.


    These shopping streets houses a wide variety of shops and boutiques. These stores have different unique designs with many colours and shapes. This long pedestrian is also packed full of vendors selling a dazzling array of Chinese snacks.


    When Bai Yutang looked around from the shopping store part into the food part of the street, he couldn''t stop lively chatting and asking Jian Ge. If Jian Ge also didn''t know, then they will visit the store. As an architecture student, this street is really a feast to the eye.


    At the snacks vendors, Bai Yutang gains an absolute assault on his senses. There are bright lights of colourful lanterns around, and the shouts from the vendors around trying to lure the pedestrian to their stand.


    The smells from the snack vendors, oh the smells... From sweet pineapple rice to stinky tofu, steamed dumplings to Chinese stir-fried noodles. Bai Yutang even saw starfish, fried scorpions, even silkworm larvae. All the food you never even thought to eat before, is lined up in these vendors to sell.


    Bai Yutang walking with a bag of fried prawns and chicken street snack. He enjoyed his snack while looking at the shop selling grilled seahorses sticked with cheese and paprika. Suddenly someone bumped into him, making him almost drop his snacks. He stumbled and all he can think about is how humiliated for falling down because he wants to save his snacks.


    Before he really stumbles down, suddenly a pair of arms appear from behind and holding his waist, help him to regain his balance. His back bumped into a warm broad chest behind him, and his nose filled with that familiar scent. That sandalwood and lavender scent, with a soft hint of orange underneath.


    Bai Yutang turned his head back and saw Jian Ge looking at him, his voice concerned, "Are you okay?"


    Bai Yutang still feels that Jian Ge''s strong arm is still on his waist, wrapping him around with his warmth.


    Bai Yutang hurriedly turned his head around again, somehow he felt that his face suddenly hot. Maybe from the embarrassing moment before. How could he act like a kid, who can''t even walk properly. He can only nod and lose his voice. Too ashamed to say anything.


    Actually Bai Yutang is not the one who acts shy all the time. Most of the time he was an ordinary student with ordinary confidence in his own ability. But facing someone as superior as Jian Ge, sometimes he can''t help acting like this. Scolding himself inside why he can''t act as proper and as cool as Jian Ge.


    Jian Ge finally releases the arms that wrap his waist, then saying, "It''s getting really crowded here. I''m afraid a lot of people will bump into you. I''ll walk closer behind you and you can just look around freely. Or you want to go into one of those restaurants? There are restaurants here selling one of the best peking ducks. Also there are restaurants here famous for their mutton soup."


    Bai Yutang still has no courage to face Jian Ge with his face still blushing like this. So he meekly said, "I still want to look around, Jian Ge."


    They continue to stroll, Jian Ge walking on his left side, slightly behind him. Protecting him from the crowd gathering around the food stalls. After 10 minutes strolling, Bai Yutang starts to forget his embarrassing moment and lively talk again.


    They spent almost two hours strolling around. He tried a lot of food until he felt full and decided to go to the dessert restaurant he saw previously. Jian Ge also eats the snacks he bought.


    Sometimes.. Jian Ge just eats right from the stick in his hand. Staring at that handsome face that popped up closely from behind and eating the snack he held in his hand, made Bai Yutang''s heart beat faster.


    Bai Yutang somehow feels that maybe if he has a girlfriend one day, this is the feeling he got when finally going for a date. If that time comes, he also will try to be as attentive and protective as Jian Ge today.


    When they turn around to go to the dessert restaurant, one woman hurriedly runs to catch her son. But this time, before that woman bumped into him, Bai Yutang felt a hand grab his shoulder and hurriedly protect him so the hot kebab held in that woman''s hand didn''t scratch him at all.


    At this time, Bai Yutang''s face blushed again. But he decided that it was no use for him feeling shy and embarrassed. He''s not a girl. This is just the way someone superior protects his pathetic junior. So he just kept walking, and didn''t mind Jian Ge''s hand that still linger in his shoulder, until they arrived at that dessert restaurant.


    When they drive home and reach the dorm, Jian Ge suddenly goes out from his car too and asks him to wait for a moment. Jian Ge opens his trunk and brings something out from it. It was a box wrapped in green and silver colour, without any ribbon.


    Simple and elegant, just like Jian Ge.


    "Happy birthday, TangTang. I didn''t really know what you like the most for your birthday. But I hope this will be useful for you. Zhen Guo is the one who suggested this as a gift to an architecture student. I hope you enjoy this day, and your year ahead full of bliss and happiness"


    Jian Ge''s gentle voice lingering in the air. Bai Yutang had to admit, this is one of the best birthdays he had for this whole 21 years.


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    Saturday has arrived. It''s really nice to walk together from the dorm to the cafe in this season. Looking at the flowers start to bloom under the moonlight, with colours as bold as their confidence in attracting the butterfly and bees. The weather is warm with breezing wind swaying the leaves on the trees.


    Yu Dong already invited Mu Xiaoya, and asked her to bring her friends also. Yu Dong is afraid Mu Xiaoya will reject his invitation if she knows she was the only girl invited. But Mu Xiaoya immediately agreed and said she will only bring her best friend if they don''t mind it.


    Four of them are the first to arrive. They start to order, and not long after the other guests come on time.


    "Happy birthday DongDong and TangTang. I wish you guys all the best and thank you for inviting this old man. Here''s my birthday gift for you, DongDong. I hope you''ll like it"


    Jian Ge gave his gift to Yu Dong. The gift wrapped in dark red colour and some dimmed glittering gold. Somehow, Bai Yutang feels his gift from Jian Ge is better than DongDong''s.


    Jian Kang Lu almost arrived at the same time with Mu Xiaoya and her friend. They sat together and Bai Yutang introduced Jian Ge to Mu Xiaoya formally.


    "This is Jian Kang Lu, his nickname is [WhiteRobe] in Magallan. You guys have already met each other in Magallan a few times before."


    Jian Ge stood up and introduced himself to Mu Xiaoya, "Hello, we finally met. I hope you continuously support me to level up faster. I''m sorry you have to carry this old uncle."


    Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan laugh, "Jian Ge, if you''re an old uncle, then all our seniors here in the university are definitely a grandpa!!!"


    Bai Yutang signalled Yu Dong to introduce Mu Xiaoya to the others.


    "Jian Ge, Yuxuan, XiangXiang, this is Mu Xioya. She is our junior, on her second year. She also play Magallan. Jian Ge already know her ID. She''s our best damage supporter in dungeon raid." He then introduce Mu Xiaoya''s friend. "And this is Ling Yue, she''s also our junior."


    The others greet them formally. Mu Xiaoya stood up and bow, "I''m sorry senior, not to introduce myself properly. My name is Mu Xiaoya, second year in the architecture department here. I came from S city, the same with Ling Yue. Please take care of us."


    This table consists of seven people lively talking, and Bai Yutang can see that these Mu Xiaoya sometimes steal glances at Jian Ge. Her friend also sometimes looks at Jian Ge. But the difference is she also looks at Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang, while Xiaoya consistently looks at Jian Ge. Sometimes he also caught her looking at him.


    At first, he thought because Jian Ge is so handsome and they play games together. But he then felt something was weird. Why did Xiaoya also look at him and divert her eyes if she was caught? Bai Yutang sighed inside his heart. Maybe this is what makes Yu Dong think that she likes him.


    Somehow, Bai Yutang just felt something strange with Mu Xiaoya. And the way she looks at him also definitely is not that kind of ''look''.


    In the middle of the dinner, these two girls are already hooked with Jian Ge''s charming. He truly can talk to anyone. Bai Yutang can see the envy in Yu Dong''s face. Maybe he will tell Yu Dong to ask for some ''talking to girls'' lesson to Jian Ge. He also needs this lesson.


    Moreover when Liu Xiang told these two girls about their meeting with Zhen Guo. "You girls won''t believe who we met when we''re invited to have dinner with Jian Ge last month. It was Zhen Guo! The architecture God himself! We have dinner together at the same table with our God! Turns out our God is Jian Ge''s best friend."


    Jian Ge laughed, "Don''t flatter him so much, his head will turn into a big melon if he heard this. Please don''t ever say that he is your God or else I have to hear him bragging about that in the next ten years."


    Both of these girls'' eyes widen until they look like they want to jump from their eye socket. "Really? Really?? Oh My God, i can''t believe it? Our God Zhen Guo is really your best friend, Jian Ge???" Ling Yue''s voice even shrilled when she said these sentences.


    They continue to talk, and sometimes Jian Ge told them some jokes about their God Zhen Guo. These two girls start to talk about the miracle in Zhen Guo''s design, and chatter about their hometown too when Jian Ge talks about the places he visits in S city.


    After the dinner, they start to enjoy the dessert. Bai Yutang who sat next to Jian Ge looking at his mango soft pudding with milk and almond sauce. Jian Ge is the one who ordered that for him and poured the sauce on his plate.


    This is also one of Jian Ge''s habits. He likes to silently put the food that Bai Yutang likes on his plate. Sometimes Bai Yutang wonders if Jian Ge treats him like a kid, because maybe that''s the same way Jian Ge treats his four year old nephew.


    When Jian Ge poured that sauce, Bai Yutang noticed the girls who sat next to their table, keep looking at them repeatedly. At first he already got used to these kinds of things every time he went out with Tang Yuxuan.


    These girls look familiar, and they always like this every time he sees them. All the time, it was always when Bai Yutang went with Tang Yuxuan. Bai Yutang can''t help noticing because these girls sometimes just stare widely with their mouth open.


    But this time, he felt something not right. Because Tang Yuxuan sits on the opposite side of him. So if these girls are in Tang Yuxuan''s fans club, their gaze should be in that direction.


    However, these girls stare in his direction and Jian Ge''s. Maybe Jian Ge''s is so charming that even Tang Yuxuan lost his fans club to this handsome man.


    Bai Yutang talks to Yu Dong, "Do you think those girls next to us look familiar? I think I saw them a few times before."


    Yu Dong looks at those girls, who instantly pretend that the food in front of them suddenly looks appealing. "En, i think so. But i can''t remember when and where. Why are you asking that, TangTang?"


    Mu Xiaoya, who sat next to Yu Dong, suddenly coughed and drank some water.


    Jian Ge who heard him talk before, teasing him, "Are there any girls over there that caught your eye? Maybe we should try to converse with them if there''s anyone that you like."


    Now Mu Xiaoya even choked with her water until her face turned red like a steamed crab.


    Yu Dong gives her more water and some tissue. "Are you okay, Xiaoya? Do you need a cold drink? Breathe and drink slowly.."


    Mu Xiaoya couldn''t say anything, and she still heavily coughed and breathed for a few more minutes.


    Because of that, everyone forgot about the girls beside their table. And then they wrapped the dinner nicely, going back home with wide grins and happy faces.


    The happiest face? It was Yu Dong''s.

 Chapter 31 - Xiaoyas Secret

    It''s been two weeks since the birthday dinner. Yu Dong now sounds like a broken record. Keep repeating his praise and feeling about My Xiaoya. Mu Xiaoya doing this.. Mu Xiaoya likes to do that.. And so on.


    Bai Yutang is happy for his friends, but now he understands why the single people looking at this phenomena are called eating dog food. He really hates this dog food. Who won''t hate this kind of thing if you are forced to listen to it over and over for the millionth time a day.


    After that dinner, Yu Dong followed Bai Yutang''s advice to beg Jian Ge to tutor him on how to talk to girls. Especially, how to talk to a girl that you want to pursue..


    Because of Jian Ge''s lesson, Yu Dong started to have confidence and slowly met Mu Xiaoya often. Usually in the cafeteria or library, and of course inside the game.


    Either Jian Ge is a good teacher, or Yu Dong is a good student, or maybe Mu Xiaoya also likes Yu Dong. Bai Yutang didn''t know which way, or which God granted Yu Dong''s wish, the sure thing they got closer in these two weeks.


    They often eat together in the cafeteria. Mu Xiaoya also didn''t look awkward even though Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang joined them. Their conversation is always lively, and Mu Xiaoya is also a funny girl. She has many things to talk about besides games and architecture.


    She''s a good match with Yu Dong. She''s not the shy type of girl, so Yu Dong feels very grateful for that. Otherwise this shy DongDong will fail to find more conversation topics with Xiaoya.


    It''s true that Yu Dong hasn''t declared his feelings, not yet to have meals together with just both of them. But Yu Dong''s words echoed for the zillionth time today.


    "Jian Ge said to take it slowly and naturally. It''s important to show Xiaoya that she''s important to me, but I also have to give her time to convince her that I could be the best man for her."


    Bai Yutang rolled his eyes and decided to give him a cold shoulder. He really can''t listen to this anymore. Thank God this afternoon he had an appointment with one of his professors.


    His professor asked him whether he wants to make extra money. Since his project is already done, and his final exam still in another four weeks, he decided to meet his professor to calculate whether it will distract his preparation for the final exam or not.


    His professor offered him this job after he saw Bai Yutang''s presentation which included his artistic hand sketch. It was a sketch of his project, drawn using Jian Ge''s birthday gift. Jian Ge gave him a drawing pad with a digital pen. The pad connected to his computer, and it''s such a wonderful gift.


    Bai Yutang is now always using that to draw. Drawing with the pad and the pen truly feels like paper and a real pen. The stroke, the controls, and the pressure sensitivity truly feels different compared with drawing in his tablet.


    With that, he fixed his original sketch, and the final result after editing the sketch using the pad in the computer is one of the best art he made. He put that on his presentation, and his professor praised him for that.


    Since it was not a school project, his professor said he wanted to meet in the cafe near university to talk about the part time details. Bai Yutang doesn''t want to make his professor waiting for him in the cafe, and also want to runaway from this torture from Yu Dong. So he left the dorm earlier and headed to the cafe.


    When Bai Yutang goes inside, he chooses the table near the window. This table is located in the corner. If he sits on his chair, it will hide him from the next table and the entrance due to the partition has some potted plant on top of it.


    He drew a sketch in his tablet, for later moved into his computer and re-draw using his drawing pad. He feels that Jian Ge''s gift is the best birthday gift in his whole life.


    He knows this drawing pad is quite expensive, proven from the top notch quality. He browsed the price, and wasn''t surprised to see the price is above 2000 yuan1. It was more than half of his monthly allowance.


    He decided to use it well, not to waste Jian Ge''s kindness.


    When he was busy drawing, his head bowed down and his bangs covering his face. With his thin posture, he was completely hidden from other visitors. It''s still thirty minutes to his appointment.


    Then he heard some girl''s voice in the table next to the partition, calling for a familiar name with a loud ecstatic voice.


    "Xiaoya, here! We''re here."


    Bai Yutang''s ear perked hearing that familiar name. Is it the same Xiaoya with Mu Xiaoya?


    "Sister! Why did you come so early? It''s still 10 minutes from our agreed time."


    Hearing that crisp voice, Bai Yutang now sure that is the same Mu Xiaoya that he had to listen over and over again from Yu Dong''s mouth. Bai Yutang can already imagine Yu Dong''s face if he told him that he met her here by accident. Bai Yutang decided to keep silent and didn''t greet her.


    But his silence is what makes him surprised to hear their conversation. It was not his intention to spy on these girls, but he can''t help because these girls'' voices next to him are quite clear to hear.


    "Come come, these big sisters can''t wait to hear from you more! Since you didn''t want to tell us in the groups or private chat, then we have to kidnap you!"


    "How could you keep all these good materials for yourself! Don''t you know this sister needs inspiration?"


    "I already gave you the hint about the dinner last time, sister. I really feel bad. Senior Bai is really a good man, he invited me to his birthday dinner. And he is also quite sharp. He noticed that you girls keep looking at him at the dinner. I almost choked to death!"


    Hearing that these girls mention that they are really looking at him at the dinner makes Bai Yutang freezed, his hand stops drawing immediately and focuses on listening to this suspicious conversation.


    "That''s her mistake! I already told her to close her mouth and stop drooling over them. But she is just like a peasant looking at the immortal fairy for the first time."


    ''¡­. Immortal fairy? Surely it was not him, right???''


    "Our God is an immortal fairy! And it''s already a miracle i didn''t scream out loud when i saw our God serve his little lover that mango pudding with attentive care and his gentle eyes. Oh My God.. I.. Just.. Caaaan''t!!!"


    "Sister, I keep ordering that mango pudding for this whole two weeks just to replay that scene inside my head."


    "And don''t you start saying that we''re evil. You said that you feel bad for your senior, but I notice you''re the first to ask for my fan art drawing."


    ''What is this crazy conversation? Mango pudding? Means that the immortal fairy must be Jian Ge. But why do they mention his name also? Little lover? And what fan art??''


    "I also can''t help it sister. To see both of them in front of me, you know how much my hand hurt from my own pinch to stop staring at them. I can''t stare at them, so I can only satisfy myself with your drawing."


    "I think i heard you say last time that our God is already thirty six years old? I can''t believe it. He looks like thirty year the most! What is his profession?"


    "He''s a doctor, sister. Can''t you believe it? Why every time I visit my doctor they''re not like our God?"


    "A doctor? Are you sure our God is not a model?? Which hospital??? Maybe I can feign sickness to meet him closer."


    "If he''s a psychiatrist, you don''t need to feign illness. You are already sick."


    "That senior of yours is very lucky. So did you manage to dig out how he could hook our God to be his love slave?"


    ''Love slave???''


    "Sister, I truly don''t know. How do you think I could ask my senior about that? And I don''t think they''re in an open relationship.. Maybe they''re not coming out yet."


    "Mmm, that''s true. It''s kinda hard for couples like that to be open in their relationship."


    ''Couples?????''


    "But sister, I truly feel really lucky to have chances to know this couple. Thanks to you, sisters. Maybe you could try to play Magallan too. They often play together. Every time I play with them, I can sense that Jian Ge really cared about my senior. Oh oh.. Truly a perfect gong. I also feel that my senior is really lucky to have him."


    "My instinct is magical. Call me your mother!"


    "They are so perfect. We can only support them in the shadows. Just pray for them to be always together and be happy."


    "I can see why Jian Ge likes my senior. He''s so kind and always gentle too. And Jian Ge, he always treats him like treasure in his palm. And I can''t believe I can finally meet a real perfect gong in my life. Jian Ge''s face is already superior. But he''s also smart, and kind. Ah.. I''m so happy for my senior."


    "And he must be a stallion in bed. Have you ever heard your senior complaining that he''s having pain on his waist?"


    "Yes sister! I think last Sunday when we played together, my senior complained about his back pain to Jian Ge. But under a pretence of having to finish his project. I also think that they just have a wild weekend."


    "Ha! I told you! This senior of yours must be very charming in bed, that''s why his gong can''t even hide those loving gaze every time he looks at your senior."


    Bai Yutang feels his head spinning when he keeps listening to this completely absurd conversation. He didn''t even want to hear about this more. What kind of illness they have in their brain to have this kind of imagination.


    The worst thing is, now he knows why My Xiaoya approached them that time. He''s glad that it was not because Mu Xiaoya likes him. But he''s not happy that these girls slander his Jian Ge to be a gay. More over, a gay who had relationship with him! What is this madness?


    At that time, his professor called him. So he answered his phone, stood up looking at the entrance and waved his hand to his professor.


    He can see these girls looking at him like seeing a malicious ghost. Their faces instantly pale, some of them closed her mouth with her palm, and the other dropped her fork to the floor.


    Bai Yutang stares at Mu Xiaoya with a cold face, signalling her that he will have a serious talk to her after his meeting.

 Chapter 32 - The Stars In Your Eyes

    The job offered is just redrawing the sketch, making a presentation, and rendering one 3D interior of this project. His professor said one of the 3D artists is sick, so if Bai Yutang could make the 3D also, he''d be paid double.


    Bai Yutang calculates the time needed, and it will take about 1 week the most. His professor said he''ll get paid 1500 yuan for the whole job, 750 yuan if only to redraw and make a presentation. It was a big payment for a university student. It''s also a fair amount of payment.


    Their professor sometimes asks for the third or fourth year student to do these kinds of part time jobs. Bai Yutang received this job, since it also will train him about the real working environment he will have when he graduates. And he also got paid.


    So he agreed, and his professor will send the material through email. He could contact him anytime if he found difficulty, and his professor expected it to be done before 10 days, including the revision. This is the first part time job he took, he is determined to do it with his best effort..


    After he said good bye to his professor, Bai Yutang turned his head to Mu Xiaoya who was still sitting in the same place with a pale face. He could see her forehead layered with sweat, and looked like a prisoner facing the death sentence.


    It''s a good thing that these sisters of her also still accompany her and didn''t run away.


    Bai Yutang then sits on the tables next to them, without the partition between them. He looked at them with cold glare. Then he started to speak.


    "So can anyone explain to me, what is this madness you girls are thinking about?"


    Mu Xiaoya fidgets her hand and sits uncomfortably in her chair. Her mouth opened, wanting to say something to him. But no sound could be heard.


    Bai Yutang just glared at them silently. He was really mad. Finally one of the girls whose name he doesn''t know starts talking with a stuttered voice.


    "W.. We''re apologise if we offended you, senior. This.. This is not Mu Xiaoya''s fault. It''s our fault."


    Bai Yutang just kept his glare silently, waiting for these girls to speak more. But they say nothing, with their head lowered down. Didn''t dare to look at him. Finally he opened his mouth.


    "I was asking you, what kind of madness you girls are thinking about me, especially about a friend of mine. A senior, that I respect highly. And I''m not seeking your excuses."


    The other girl spoke with a low voice, "It''s.. It''s our fault, senior. We''re just making this wild imagination in our head when we see your senior with you. We.. We really apologise for our wrong way of thinking."


    Bai Yutang still silently glares at them.


    "So when is the first time this madness is infecting your mind? My senior is a respectable person, he''s a very good man. And we definitely don''t have any this indecent relationship between us like you girls imagine." Bai Yutang decided to ask about these things clearly with these rotten girls and clarify this matter for Jian Ge.


    "Answering senior, it was last year. We saw you and your senior coming to eat at the fast food restaurant outside the dorm." The girl next to Mu Xiaoya answered weakly. Her voice almost could not be heard, just like a mosquito.


    Bai Yutang coldly answered, "It was just one dinner, and you girls already think like that? Or you girls stalking me around just to satisfy your imagination?"


    "No senior! We definitely didn''t stalk on you. The second time we saw you and your senior was in the Huxian restaurant. It was all an accidental meeting! We didn''t mean to stalk you.."


    Now Bai Yutang remembers, it seems Mu Xiaoya maybe with this group of girls that was staring at him and Jian Ge that time. And he thought these girls were just fangirling Jian Ge just like a bunch of girls everywhere when they saw Jian Ge. But it never occurred in his mind that these girls were actually fangirling about him having a relationship with Jian Ge!


    "You said you''re not stalking, but why does Mu Xiaoya pretend to approach me and my friend to play a game together? While in fact she''s a mole for your group."


    This time the other girls hurriedly defend Mu Xiaoya, saying that it was their fault to push and press her to do that.


    But then Mu Xiaoya finally opened her mouth and said in a meek voice, "I am truly sorry, senior. I beg for your forgiveness. I don''t have any excuses, because you''re partially right. One of the reasons I braved myself to talk to you that time is because I am really curious about you and Jian Ge. But my sisters didn''t force me to do that. And I do really enjoy playing Magallan with you and the team. Please forgive me, senior."


    Bai Yutang speechless. But he didn''t show any changes in his face. It was still a cold frozen face. He really needs to teach these girls to think right and get rid of those dirty minds about him and Jian Ge.


    "I said it once again. And i hope you girls didn''t have any wrong impression, ever again. I''m a straight guy. Jian Ge is also a straight guy. We didn''t have even an ounce of romantic relationship between us. Jian Ge is just a very kind and respectable man. He treats everyone with the same kindness. So don''t ever think that his act toward me is due to the fact that we have that kind of relationship. It really makes me mad to hear you girls thinking that Jian Ge kindness on that way."


    "Yes, senior. We admit that, we apologised. And we won''t think like that ever again." These girls said in unison.


    "Mu Xiaoya, I hope I won''t hear these kinds of things again from you. And especially don''t ever say these kinds of things to anyone. I can''t prevent you from joining us in the dungeon raid or co-op, because it will be suspicious if you suddenly disappear from our circle. So I pretend that we have no discussion today. But I expect you to behave properly. I respect you as my junior, so i hope you also respect me back as your senior."


    Mu Xiaoya''s face still pale but looked relieved once she heard that. "Yes senior, thank you so much. I promised I won''t say anything again, and never think about you and Jian Ge in that way ever again."


    Bai Yutang nodded, then stood up and walked out from the cafe. His anger has not subsided yet. But at least he already gave them his reason and explanation.


    He really wants to cut the ties with this Mu Xiaoya. But he still thinks about Yu Dong. And he can see, aside from her wild imagination, she was a good girl. Yu Dong really likes her. So he pressed his anger, and decided just to forget about all the crazy things he heard today.


    After that he poured all his concentration to his part time job. He strived to do his best, and made himself busy to forget about all the nonsense he heard that day. He finished the task in five days and did all the revision asked in just two days. He really works hard and does his best.


    His professor commend him for his excellent job and paid him immediately after he finished the revision. This is the first money he earned by himself by working as an architect. At first, before he took his job, he wanted to treat Jian Ge with the money he earned.


    But somehow because of those rotten girls, he''s afraid to invite Jian Ge for dinner together. He afraid Jian Ge will also think about him as gay who mistook his kindness into romantic feeling.


    Him and Yu Dong are still playing games with Mu Xiaoya, and with Jian Ge too. They are also still eating together in the cafeteria. Even Bai Yutang sometimes found that Yu Dong had lunch together with Mu Xiaoya just the two of them, when he asked Yu Dong to buy him some lunch due to busy working on his part time job.


    He''s glad, it seems that he doesn''t appraise her real personality wrong. He just hoped this girl really didn''t think about anything mischief again about him and Jian Ge. He really feels guilty for Jian Ge.


    Bai Yutang knows Jian Ge likes to chat with him everyday, and asks him about his day. So it was unavoidable to tell Jian Ge about his finished project. Deep inside his heart, he also likes to hear Jian Ge praising him.


    It feels like he''s closer to a great person he wants to be. As great as Jian Ge.


    In the end, his uneasiness just piled up day by day. His final exams will also be coming soon in the next three weeks. He won''t have time again if he wants to show Jian Ge his gratitude. After all, it was because his birthday gift that makes Bai Yutang shows his potential and got his first part time job.


    He finally decided to invite Jian Ge to his treat dinner on Saturday this week. Because after that, he only has two weeks left to cram the exams material. Then his final exams, and finally the long summer break. Jian Ge agreed, and also let him choose the restaurant.


    He chose the Korean restaurant Jian Ge likes last time. The place is good, serving authentic Korean food with good ambience. The price is also not cheap, but not that expensive.


    He especially likes the thin sliced meat grilled with the restaurant''s special sauce. The savory taste mixed with a hint of sweetness from the sauce, mixed well with the sesame sauce. The premium Koreans beef ribs there also top notch beef. The ox bone soup called Seolleongtang has a very clean taste. Bai Yutang also likes the seaweed soup and the kimchi they served as appetizers.


    Bai Yutang also planned to bring home the seafood pancake, or called Haemul Pajeon, and the stir fried glass noodles called Japchae. His friends like those so much when he brought it back to the dorm last time he ate there with Jian Ge.


    One of Jian Ge''s habits is ordering so much food and asking Bai Yutang to bring it back to the dorm to share with the other guys.


    When Bai Yutang arrived at the restaurant, he saw Jian Ge already there. He sat alone at the table, staring at the window outside. He looks dazzling as usual. Wearing white beige long sleeve shirt, with black dots in the edge of his collar and black stripes in his back. The sleeves rolled to his elbow like usual. His right hand supporting his chin, showing that fancy watch in his wrist. He''s wearing a black jeans today, with black leather shoes.


    Somehow, he could understand why those rotten girls called Jian Ge immortal fairy. He looks ethereal. But today, Bai Yutang realized. Those faces are different from the faces Jian Ge usually shows him.


    That face who''s looking outside the window now looks so lonely. There are no gentle eyes, nor warm smiles that he usually showed him. Those eyes, who usually brighten up with a glint of stars sparkled from it, now seems dull and dark. Just like a black hole absorbing the light in their vicinity.


    Bai Yutang just stood up there looking at him. Is this the real Jian Ge? He seems so different from the Jian Ge he always knows. He looks so bright, attracting people around him to notice him. But at the same time, Bai Yutang feels like Jian Ge will disappear any moment. Looks tired of the world running around him.


    Bai Yutang moving his legs and walking to that table. Jian Ge seems to notice him, turn his head around and look at him walking forward.


    At that time, Bai Yutang saw that dimmed eyes lit up. The stars come back to life, sparkling around those black marble in the peach blossom eyes. The thin lips who seemed frozen before, now turn upward, and give him the same warm smile like he always used to.


    Bai Yutang doesn''t know why, but he feels glad to see those warm smiles and those gentle eyes. And Jian Ge''s words echoed in his mind.


    ''You make me happy, and ease my hard day.''

 Chapter 33 - The Score

    Bai Yutang sent text messages to his sister this Wednesday morning. He only sent short messages, wishing Bai Yuren to do well on her university entrance exams. The exams are also widely known as gaokao.


    Last night he already called his sister, telling her just to eat and sleep. Because the most important thing in this exam is to maintain her stamina on these long and exhausting exams.


    He still remembers the time when he took his exams three years ago. He followed all his teacher and senior''s advice. Eat well and sleep early. He was glad he did that. Because after the exams he doesn''t have any energy left.


    The exams will take two days in a row, and it will exhaust both your body and your soul. His sister was really nervous when they talked by the phone yesterday.. Bai Yutang told her not to think much about the result. Just answer what you can answer first, and don''t think about the questions you can''t answer.


    No matter what the result is, she''s still his beloved sister.


    This morning he chose not to call, because he knows the morning before going to the room that will change your life forever, you can''t think about anything else. So he just messaged her.


    He wished her to do well.


    He also will have his final exams next week. He already started to holed up in the dorm and studying. Yu Dong sometimes goes out to have lunch or goes to the library with Mu Xiaoya. Bai Yutang chose to stay in the dorm and ask him to buy him food. Or else he will be fed up by another dog food.


    In the afternoon, his sister called him after the first day of exams. She was crying, stressed out and panicked. She sobbed while complaining about this year''s questions. It seems like the hardest gaokao compared to previous years.


    Bai Yutang calms her down by saying, "Relax, if you think that the question is hard, then other people will have it harder. You just need to eat a lot, and sleep early tonight. Tomorrow is another hard day. But no worries. No matter what is the result, we still love you the same. And I believe you''ll do better than me."


    Bai Yuren still cried, but a little bit calmed down. She said she will eat and sleep and play to her heart content after the exam. Bai Yutang asked her to go take a hot bath and eat her dinner well. He doesn''t want to ask anything about today''s exams. It will only add the stress to his sister.


    Bai Yutang called her mom, and asked her to cook all Bai Yuren''s favourite food, and tell his parents not to ask anything about the exams unless Bai Yuren herself talked about that. His mom assured him they won''t do that.


    After all, Bai Yuren is different from him. Even though she looks strong from the outside, inside she''s still a young pampered girl. She rarely cried, but sometimes when she doesn''t know what to do, she will come to him and cry, asking him for consolation and support.


    On Thursday morning, Bai Yutang sent another message to wish her sister well on this second and last day of gaokao. His sister called him again in the afternoon after the exams.


    Now she didn''t cry, just laugh and her tired voice sounds relieved to finally be free from this exhausting journey. As all the participants in this gaokao, they have been preparing for these exams for a long time. Some schools even start to drill their students from their first year of high school.


    Bai Yutang congratulated her, and told her to go home and rest today. Tomorrow she can play outside all day to celebrate her freedom. His sister laughs and asks when he will come home.


    She wished Bai Yutang would come home as soon as possible, to see the result together. Bai Yutang promised her to go home once he finished his final exams.


    "Then i''ll book your ticket, Ge. Your exams are finished on Friday right? Then how about Saturday morning?" Her sister''s excited voice echoed from the other line. She then added with a low voice, "I really need you to accompany me see my result.. I.. I don''t want to cry alone.."


    Bai Yutang can''t help but smile. As a man, and as an older brother, he has to protect his only sister. As a result, sometimes Bai Yuren acts like children only in front of him. She didn''t even act this way to their parents.


    Though she''s the award winning actress for a ''pretend to be coquettish and pure daughter'' when she wants to ask something from their father.


    Bai Yutang spent the rest of the week studying. Then finally the final exams are done on Friday. His sister already bought the ticket for tomorrow morning. So today Bai Yutang needs to pack his things. Summer break is long, almost 12 weeks. Thus he needs to pack all his things.


    Last week, Jian Ge already asked him when he will go back to his hometown. Once he knows that Bai Yutang will directly go back to W city, Jian Ge asks him to watch movies on Friday night. Bai Yutang really doesn''t have time for that. So he rejected Jian Ge''s invitation.


    But after that, he felt guilty. After all, he can''t forget those lonely eyes he saw at the Korean restaurant when they had dinner last time.


    Finally Bai Yutang texted and invited Jian Ge, said he will treat him at Huxiang for dinner before he goes back home. Jian Ge agreed immediately, and set the time to 7 pm so Bai Yutang could sleep early for his flight the next day.


    Bai Yutang wonders why Jian Ge is free on Friday night. He knows that Jian Ge is quite busy every Friday. But he decided not to ask.


    Bai Yutang invited Yu Dong and the others to have dinner at Huxiang together. They all agreed and Yu Dong said he wants to invite Mu Xiaoya. Bai Yutang didn''t want his best friend to be disappointed if he said no. So in the end he nodded his head.


    Today''s dinner is similar to the last birthday dinner, only the place is different. Bai Yutang reserved the table for eight people, and already chose some menu over the phone. He really wants to go back early, so he can wake up in the morning tomorrow. He doesn''t want to miss his flight.


    The dinner is really lively. After all they celebrate the freedom from exams and university packed schedule, and welcoming the long summer break. When Mu Xiaoya and Ling Yue talking about the summer in S city, Jian Ge suddenly said, "It''s been quite time since my last visit there. Did you guys ever visit S city before? If you haven''t, how about all of us going there for few days next month? Mu Xiaoya and Ling Yue could be our guide, if you girls don''t mind."


    After saying this, Jian Ge looked at Yu Dong with meaningful eyes. Yu Dong immediately answered, "It''s a good idea, Jian Ge. What do you think, Xiaoya?"


    Mu Xiaoya looked surprised at first but then she grinned, "Of course i don''t mind! Ling Yue is also free this summer break. If you guys come, we''ll definitely be your tour guide and give you the authentic tour from S city native citizen."


    Tang Yuxuan also loudly says his agreement. Only Liu Xiang says nothing with a pondering face. After a while he said, "I have to go with my parents for our annual vacation every July. How about August? Before we come back to university?"


    The others also don''t mind. So it was settled that they will go to S city in August, and they are already talking about the food and which date is the best, and so on. Yu Dong looks really happy and his face shows his gratitude for Jian Ge.


    They all said goodbye at 9 pm, since Bai Yutang needed to go back early. The other will be going back home in the afternoon or on Monday. They still talk about the upcoming vacation together while walking home.


    Bai Yutang and his friends send Jian Ge to his car, and wave him goodbye. Bai Yutang didn''t know if it was only his imagination, but Jian Ge''s face was a little bit sad, and his smile was not as bright as usual when he finally left.


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    Bai Yuren holds his hand tight, her hands slightly wet from her nervous sweat. They sit in front of the computer, Bai Yuren''s eyes closed and it seems she prays to all the Gods she knows. She applied for medical faculty in T university and W university.


    It was very difficult for students from other cities to apply to these few best universities in greater cities. Students from B city are having bigger opportunities to be accepted in T university, while students from W city are more likely to be accepted in W university.


    That''s why Bai Yutang could understand her nervous act, and why she chose W university as her second choice. W university is also famous for its medical faculty even though it''s not the top 10 medical faculty in this country.


    Actually, Bai Yuren is already consulting with Jian Ge. That''s why her first choice is T university. Jian Ge told him, though T university is also very good as his own alma mater, but lately in the last few years, the best medical faculty is P university in B city too. If Bai Yuren really strives for the best, then better to apply there.


    But Bai Yuren didn''t have enough confidence, since T university was already very hard for her. So she applied there, then second choice was W university.


    From 750 points, she will need a minimum of 700 points to secure her place in T university. Bai Yutang scored 690 when he took the test. That''s already a very high score. Sometimes Bai Yutang also feels that he''s lucky to score that high. And definitely really glad that his score is enough for him to be accepted in his dream university.


    In the year when he took his gaokao and his result was announced, his parents bustled with joy and his mom even cried. No one in their family ever scored above 600 in the gaokao. All the neighbours also congratulate him, and his father celebrates it with a big feast inviting all his workers and neighbours.


    Bai Yutang feels that is one of the best moments in his life, because he felt all his hard work is paid for. He''s studying really hard for years before the exams. He rarely goes outside for his third year of high school. If he gets bored, he only plays games or reads comics. Then he studied again.


    He''s not that smart, so he can only study hard.


    Bai Yuren''s grip is even tighter when they click the result. She closed her eyes, and Bai Yutang can see her forehead layered with thin sweat too. Their parents are outside the room waiting for the result while pretending to be calm.


    Bai Yuren''s score is 685.


    Both of them stare at the result. Even Bai Yutang couldn''t believe his eyes. He truly thinks that his sister''s result will score above 700. All their life, Bai Yuren always has better results compared to him academically.


    685 is a really high score. Every parent in this country will bow down to earth, the student''s will jump in joy, and their teacher will boast that result to every student in the school.


    But it''s not enough to be accepted in the top 10 best medical faculty in this country, especially prestigious universities like T university.


    Bai Yuren''s hand loosen her grip, and a bead of tears start to roll in her cheek. Her eyes widened, full of grievances and disappointment. Even Bai Yutang couldn''t believe this result, moreover her sister. His heart ache for his sister, but he also can''t say anything. He only can hug her.


    He wanted to say, ''Let''s just wait for the final result from the university. Maybe T university cutoff point this year is lower.''


    But he knows, saying words containing hope at this time will only sting deeper and hurts more if your final hope is proven wrong. It was not fair for her sister if he gave those empty words to console her.


    So he just silently hugs her, pat her shoulder, and prays for a miracle for her beloved sister.

 Chapter 34 - Big Mountain

    Bai Haoran still planned to hold the celebration dinner even though his daughter didn''t really want to celebrate her failure to be accepted in T university. But Bai Haoran persuades her, saying his worker demands the celebration dinner and he needs to treat their neighbour too.


    After all, 685 is the best score around their neighbourhood. The dinner will be held this Tuesday. Bai Haoran rents one small restaurant in their neighbourhood, famous for their one thousand flavour Duck.


    It''s already the end of June. The summer sun is a celebration of yellow, free and bright. The sky blazes blue, the trees rise to the occasion, donning their best verdant hues, and everywhere are the flowers, the scattered rainbow that they are.


    Bai Yutang knocked on his sister''s door. This Tuesday morning he wants to take his sister to go outside. Since the results day, his sister just locked herself in the room. Only going out for breakfast and dinner together with the family.. Sometimes Bai Yutang noticed his sister didn''t take her lunch.


    Her score is definitely enough for W university, but she still can''t accept the fact that she might not be accepted in T university. This is her first failure in her life. She told Bai Yutang yesterday that maybe she needs to take next year''s exam to strive for her dream.


    Bai Yutang only said, "Do whatever you think is the best. This is your life, not anyone else. Me as your older brother can only support your decision."


    This is actually Jian Ge''s word that he borrowed. At Saturday noon after the result was out, Bai Yutang couldn''t hold himself to send a message to Jian Ge about her sister. He truly worried and didn''t know what to do.


    Thus Jian Ge said those words to him. W university is also good. And sometimes later in life, the only key point to success and happiness is not determined with your alma mater. The key lies within yourself, and how hard you work to be a better version of yourself.


    But maybe her sister could not accept any of those words now. So Jian Ge advises him just to support her, accompany her, and not give any empty consolation words. Jian Ge praised him when Bai Yutang said that yesterday he was holding his words and just hugged her once his sister results out.


    Bai Yuren opens her door, and her eyes a little bit puffy. She cried again last night. Bai Yutang asked her to go down for breakfast together. When going downstairs, Bai Yutang asked her.


    "RenRen, can you accompany me to the shopping mall today? I haven''t gone out since i came back home. We could eat at your favorite cafe there."


    Jian Ge told him, if a depressed person holed up in their own space, it will be more difficult for them to get out of that depressed feeling. People need to go out, breathe the outdoor air and be exposed under the sun. Vitamin D from the sun helps to ease depression.


    Bai Yutang planned to go for lunch and he wanted to buy a gift for her. After all, her score only has 5 point differences with him. And he knows how hard he was studying to get that score. He wants to buy her clothes to wear for her celebration dinner.


    It was also Jian Ge''s advice when they chatted last night.


    They spent the day well, her sister looks brighter after trying the new dessert cafe. Then Bai Yutang accompanied her to try those piling of clothes in a thousand different stores when Bai Yutang told her he would buy clothes for her as her gaokao gift.


    The celebratory dinner also went well. The restaurant in the neighbourhood is packed with so many familiar faces. With a big red flower attached on the board outside the restaurant entrance, filled with congratulatory words and auspicious wishes.


    After receiving so many compliments, envy looks from other parents who have children scored below 500, awe looks from her junior, and proud face from her teachers and tutors, finally Bai Yuren''s face starts to return into the usual lively Bai Yuren. Her smile turns sincere, and she jokes a lot with them.


    On the table, she said to her brother, "Ge, i decide to take the medical faculty here in W university. You are already so far away from home. Maybe this is written in my fate, not to get too far from mom and dad."


    Bai Yutang smiles at her, pat her shoulder, and says no more. There is nothing else to say.


    The final result from T university is out. Her sister truly didn''t manage to get into their cutoff point. Rumor said that the minimum score accepted this year in T university medical faculty for students outside B city is 705.


    His cousin''s face ashen in the whole dinner time. Near the end of the dinner, his face looked like want to cry and said to him, "Ge, why are you and jiejie set the standard so high? Three years later if I took gaokao and scored below 600, I''m sure my father would have skinned me alive."


    Bai Yutang laughed and teased him, "Skinned you alive will just tire uncle. He''s not young anymore. I''ll give him a suggestion that he just boiled you alive. Save some hassle."


    "Ge!!!" His cousin screamed and pleaded with him to say good words to his father. He already is having a hard time because he truly can''t be accepted into the same high school as these two outstanding cousins of his.


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    This weekend, Bai Yutang''s father said he will take them to have dinner outside. So Bai Haoran told his wife not to cook for dinner. Bai Haoran promised his wife to eat at their favourite restaurant.


    Lu Hua looked at the clock hung in the living room. It''s already 7 o''clock and Bai Haoran didn''t come home yet. It''s unusual for him to go home late when he already promised her to dine out.


    She called her husband, but the call was not going through. Her husband never did this before, Bai Haoran always answered phone calls from her, no matter what he did. If he has to accompany guests or clients, he always tells her beforehand. Lu Hua suddenly has a bad premonition.


    She sat in the living room with her hands griping her mobile phone tightly. Bai Yutang walked into the living room and saw her mother''s anxious face.


    Bai Yutang frowned. Her mother still looks pretty and young due to good maintenance from his father. But now her face is filled with lines and suddenly looks like her real age. She will turn 45 this year.


    Bai Haoran himself is a very ordinary man with a brute cut. And now when he grew old, his belly turned fat from all the alcohol and fancy dinner he had while entertaining his clients. Bai Haoran always said that it was his luck that he could manage to hook this fairy, marry him and give him two wonderful children.


    Around 7.30 pm, the phone in Lu Hua''s hand rang. Lu Hua answered it immediately.


    Bai Yutang could not hear what that person said in that phone call. But his mother looks like striked by lightning, and her face turns pale. She only said with stuttering speech, "I.. I will.. I will go there right now, Xing Ge.. Yes.. Yes.. I will. Th.. Thank you for telling me."


    Lu Hua''s face blank for a few seconds after the phone call. Then she turns around to see her son, who''s looking at her with a worried face.


    Tears started rolling from her mother''s red eyes, her lips quivering when she said, "TangTang.. Your.. Your father fainted. And.. And now he''s in hospital."


    After saying those words, she starts to cry uncontrollably. Their family only has one car, for Bai Haoran''s daily usage. So Bai Yutang called a taxi immediately, and ran upstairs to get her sister.


    He hoped his father was okay. He never showed any sickness, nor saying any complaint about his health. He always looks strong. With his big figure, tanned skin, and firm eyes, his father looks like a mountain to him.


    Bai Yutang used to complain, why he was not as big nor strong as his father. He is always skinny no matter how much he eats. He is also not as tall as his father. His father always laughs if he complains, and ruffling his hair, "Brat! It''s good that you look like your mother. I don''t want to have a son as ugly as I am. Besides, a man''s value is not measured by how big his body is, but from the way he treats his lady."


    That''s the principal thing for his father. Giving all the best to his woman. Protect her with all he got. That''s why he works hard into the point he is standing right now. To make his wife never taste any hard work, never be sad. To make his wife only know happiness.


    And now, this man makes his woman cry and sobbing like a child, in the taxi taking them to the hospital. Bai Yutang''s heart ached to hear his mother crying like that. He never saw his mother crying like this.


    All her tears he saw before are happy tears.


    From the joy of having a daughter as their second child. From the proud when Bai Yutang or Bai Yuren receive awards for their academic achievement. From the love she received from her husband.


    Bai Yutang''s mind is a mess. He still couldn''t believe nor accept this fact. He only can pray that his father is alright, that it was just fatigue due to overwork. And they will go home soon, laugh together again. As usual.


    He promised himself to take care of his father and persuade him to rest after this. Working is important, but not as important as your health and spending time with your family.


    When they arrived at the emergency room, Bai Yutang felt nauseous to smell the hospital''s scent. This is the scent of sickness, and the scent of despair. The bright light in ER makes his head dizzy, and the noises from the people inside buzzing in his ear.


    Uncle Han, his father''s worker, stands up from the chair outside the ER and walks towards them.


    "Mr. Bai is inside, with Mr. Xing."


    Uncle Xing is his father''s partner. One of his closest friends. Bai Yutang follows uncle Han with a blank face. He didn''t see his father inside. Uncle Xing met them with a haggard face, saying that his father was in the resuscitation room.


    Uncle Xing called the doctor, saying it''s best to hear from the doctor directly.


    The young doctor came with a complicated face. He said that his father had a stroke. A stroke with bleeding inside his brain. He needed surgery to remove this blood clot from his brain. The risk from this surgery is high, and they can''t guarantee the result. But his father definitely will get worse if they don''t do this surgery.


    Bai Yutang''s mind is muddy, and his mother almost fainted. He hurriedly helped his mother to steady, and took her to sit on a chair in the corner. The doctor needs the family''s consent. And the surgery will be scheduled for today.


    But even if they agreed, they still need to stabilise the patient first. So the surgery won''t be held for the next four hour. It means the family only has two hour to discuss.


    Her mother is just crying, and can''t say anything. His sister also cried next to her. Bai Yutang is the only man in the family right now who can decide. So he tried to hold himself together. He can''t collapse, or depend on his mother right now. His mother needs him.


    He really didn''t know what to do. So he finally called Jian Ge.


    Jian Ge''s voice is so gentle, but then turns worried and anxious when he explains his situation with a stammering voice. Jian Ge asks him to pass the phone to the doctor.


    After a while, the doctor gave him the phone back and patted his shoulder. Jian Ge only says blunt words, but the meaning is clear.


    "As a doctor, my opinion is the same with the doctor there. Without surgery, the bleeding won''t stop and the brain damage will be greater. Brain damage is still irreversible for current technology. But you have to understand, this surgery won''t guarantee anything. It was only our best try to save the patient, and the patient''s future. The decision should be laid on the family. My condolences to hear this, TangTang. I hope I can be there for you."


    Bai Yutang only can nod his head. He truly wants to cry to hear those gentle words. But he knows he can''t cry now. In the end he managed to gather his voice. "Thank you Jian Ge, I have decided to go with the surgery. And pray for the result."


    Bai Yutang turned his head to the young doctor, and told him his decision.


    After signing all the consent papers needed for this surgery. He looked at his mother and sister, who were still sobbing in the corner. He remembers the three of them haven''t had dinner yet. He''s not hungry, and he believes those two also won''t have any appetite.


    But Jian Ge said before he hung up, he hoped Bai Yutang took care of his own health, and also his family. So he walked outside, looking for bread and milk for him and his family inside.


    He feels lost. In this crowd and all the noises around, he feels alone. And the loneliness filled his heart, turning it into a hollow space.


    He wants to hold onto something. But none left here. His father, always someone he could hold on to, was laid in the resuscitation room inside. He''s a man, the oldest son. He needs to be someone who can replace his father and protect his family.


    But, it will be nice to have someone he could turn to. Just like Jian Ge''s soothing voice he heard just now on the phone. Giving him a sense of security. Protected and safe. Someone he could hold on.


    He hopes this will soon pass, and this big mountain he called father comes back to him and protects them like he used to be.

 Chapter 35 - Everything Gonna Be Okay

    It''s been one week since the surgery. Bai Yutang sat in the lounge located in front of the ICU with a blank face. The hospital didn''t allow family members to wait inside, but they gave time a few hours a day to visit the patient.


    For a few days after the surgery, his mother didn''t want to listen to anything from everyone. She stubbornly waited in front of this cold room. She sat in the chair here, refusing to step outside.


    She will go inside and hold her husband''s hand when they allow family members to come and visit the patient. Bai Yutang and his sister only have a few minutes everyday to see his father, the rest used by their mother.


    Each time his mother visits his father, she will cry after that. Her mother ageing so fast these few days. Her face sunken with dark eye bags under her swollen eyes. She''s getting thinner and looks very pale.. It looks like her life energy sucked by an unknown force.


    Yesterday, finally his mother was willing to go home. She takes a bath and sleeps at home, under Bai Yutang''s grandparents'' plea and tears. Bai Yutang stayed in the hospital since yesterday, and just washed his face in the hospital''s toilet.


    His sister always comes home and sleeps at home every night. Bai Yutang insists her to do that. He also asks about her admission to W university. She said before his father collapsed last week, all the administration was taken care of. Bai Yutang relieved, less than one thing that needed to be occupied in his mind.


    His father''s state is much worse than his mother. Bai Yutang can''t believe that this fragile man lying in the ICU bed is the same big man that always laughs and protects his family. His mouth connected with the ventilator, using the tube inserted to his lung. His eyes closed all the time. No matter what he did or say, his father gave no response.


    His father''s hand feels cold every time he holds it. Those big rough hands that always warm when ruffling his head, now just laying there without any single movement. Bai Yutang holds it lightly, to transfer the heat within his body into his father. Maybe his father will recognise him and recover faster.


    He imagines his father open his eyes every single day when holding his father''s hands. He prayed for a miracle, to see his father''s eyes open once again. To see his tender smile once again. To hear his raspy voice once again.


    Bai Yutang didn''t cry. He can''t.


    He feels like if he cried right now, all his worlds will collapse and his father won''t come back. And if he cried, then who would take care of his mother and his sister? He''s the one that had to stand strong and become their pillar now. Their protector. To comfort them, and assure them everything is going to be alright.


    His sister will come in the afternoon with his mom. She said she will also bring him lunch and clothes to change. Bai Yutang didn''t come home at all. Because if something happens and needs family approval, he''s the one who has to make it.


    He didn''t have any heart to ask his mother to decide anything. Should something bad happen due to the decision, his mother will blame herself forever. And he definitely can''t let her sister do that. He''s a man. He had to protect his mother and his sister well.


    His uncle and his grandparents came a few times. Bai Yutang understands that his grandparents are old, the hospital is not a friendly place for old people to wait. Besides, with a lot of sick people here, old people are easily infected with infectious disease.


    His aunt is pregnant with the second child. Bai Yutang still remember how devastated they were last year when her aunt having miscarriage. After the one child policy was abolished and changed into two-child policy, they''re trying to have another child. With this pregnancy, her aunt just stayed at home with his cousin.


    While staring at those milky white glass doors with muddy brains, his phone vibrating in his hand. He looked at the screen, and saw Jian Ge calling him. Jian Ge calls him every day. He also always chats at certain times, reminding him to have meals three times a day, and to sleep.


    He picked up the phone, and answered with a hoarse voice.


    "Hello Jian Ge."


    "Hello TangTang, are you busy?"


    "No Jian Ge, why?"


    "Are you still in the hospital? Have you had your breakfast this morning?"


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    "Hello..?"


    "I have, Jian Ge. I already have my breakfast." Bai Yutang lied. He doesn''t have any spirit left to find breakfast this morning. So he simply just washed his face after he woke up, and back to sit like a statue in the chair.


    "TangTang.. I''m in the W city. Do you mind if I visit your father in the hospital this noon?"


    Bai Yutang''s blank mind becomes full of questions at the moment. He wants to ask why Jian Ge here instead of B city. He wants to ask whether Jian Ge has something to do here. He wants to ask why Jian Ge wants to visit his father. He also wants to ask how many days he will stay here, and where he will stay.


    But he can''t find his voice. He felt like having a lump on his throat. He finally can only say, "I don''t mind, Jian Ge."


    "Can you tell me the name of the hospital, if you''re still there then i''ll go there right now."


    Bai Yutang gave him the hospital name, then Jian Ge said that he will be there in 40 minutes.


    Bai Yutang suddenly feels the lump is gone, and a rush of warmth tingles inside his vein, rushing to his heart.


    He is really really having a hard time. He never experienced becoming someone that needed to stay strong. He never imagined he had to become the head of the family in this kind of situation.


    Previously he always felt safe with protection from his parents. He doesn''t need to think about anything. Only need to study well. And now suddenly he had to face this situation. He wants to run away, but he knows it''s impossible.


    When he hears Jian Ge''s soothing voice that said he was here, he feels like he doesn''t have to pretend to be a strong man protecting his family. That''s why though he wants to ask many things to Jian Ge, he said nothing. In fear Jian Ge will cancel his plan to visit him.


    When Jian Ge calls him saying he is already near the hospital, Bai Yutang answers him that he is sitting in front of the ICU room. Bai Yutang then realizes his own sorry state. The last time he shaved was four days ago. His clothes wrinkled from sleeping in the chair. His hair is a mess, and oily too. He forgot the last time he washed his hair.


    He ran to the toilet again and tried to wash his face and tidying his hair as best as he could. Not much can be done.


    Bai Yutang went back to the lounge in front of the ICU, and saw Jian Ge walking from the corner. To see the man who he admired and always giving him guidance and comfort, he suddenly felt suffocated and his eyes warmed. He tried to hold back his desperation and all those things piling up in his heart this whole week.


    Jian Ge saw him and walked faster towards him. He then stopped in front of him, looking at his eyes with an anxious face. He stares at him, and Bai Yutang can''t help to lower down his face. He really doesn''t want to cry here in front of Jian Ge. He clenched his fist to feel the pain of nails sunken to his skin. He had to hold it.


    He wanted to say welcome to Jian Ge. He wanted to say thank you. But his throat is sore, and he''s afraid he will truly start to cry if he says something. So he just closed his eyes and tried to calm his messy mind.


    Then suddenly he feels the shadow in front of him getting closer, and feels an embrace enveloped his fragile body. Warm his heart.


    "It''s okay TangTang. It''s okay to cry."


    Bai Yutang''s head and his body falls to a solid stand. His heavy heart finally can lean on. He heard those gentle voices, and those kind words he always wanted to hear. He wants someone to say to him that it''s okay for him to cry. It''s okay for him to be a child. It''s okay for him to be weak.


    He can''t hold it anymore. All those things buried under his heart surged out like a flood after the storm. His tears start to fall one by one. He can''t stop it.


    He feels those warm hands holding his shoulder and his back. Those hands then softly ruffling his hair just like his father used to do.


    "It''s okay. It will be okay.." Those gentle words repeated, and soothing his broken spirit.


    Bai Yutang just silently cried there, in Jian Ge''s embrace. Jian Ge holds him and shields him from other people''s sight. Protecting him, so the world could not see how pathetic he was now. He finally found a place to feel safe.


    Bai Yutang doesn''t know for how long he cried. He finally came back to his senses and stopped crying when his phone vibrated. He loses himself from Jian Ge, and then takes a look at his mobile phone.


    His sister''s voice heard from the other line. "Ge, we''re almost there. What do you want to eat for lunch? Me and mom already eat at home. I want to pack the food for your lunch, but grandma said it will be a hassle for you to eat at the lounge. She suggests you go back home or eat outside near the hospital. Grandma said you need to rest too."


    Bai Yutang tried to control his voice, "It''s okay. Just come here first. Let''s talk about that later."


    He hung up the phone, but was still looking down. Staring at his own shoes. After crying, now he finally feels so ashamed to cry like that in front of Jian Ge.


    "You haven''t had your lunch yet? Do you wanna have lunch with me?"


    Bai Yutang feels that warm soft breath from Jian Ge''s mouth tickle his ear. He wants to say yes but he still can''t find his own voice. In the end he just nodded his head.


    Jian Ge pulled him to the chair in the corner. He then asked Bai Yutang to sit in the chair.


    "I want to see your father, but maybe it was not convenient without your mother''s approval. At least let me contact my neurologist friend here to know about his condition right now. Is that okay for you?"


    Bai Yutang is still looking down at his own hand, he still doesn''t have any face to look up to Jian Ge. He just nodded his head again.


    Jian Ge sat next to him, and called his friends from his mobile phone. His left hand just patted Bai Yutang''s knee in a rhythmic pattern. A soothing movement. As if saying those words he needs the most once again.


    ''It''s okay. Everything is going to be okay.''

 Chapter 36 - You’re Not Alone

    Not long after Jian Ge talked to his friends, Bai Yuren and Lu Hua came. Bai Yutang introduces Jian ge to his family, and finally can pretend that the crybaby from the previous scene does not exist.


    Lu Hua already heard about Jian Ge before and greeted him with her sad smile. Bai Yuren thanked him for his guidance even though she failed to be accepted in T university. Jian Ge politely greeted his mother and encouraged his sister.


    Bai Yutang once imagined what kind of faces his family had when he introduced this outstanding friend of his. But he never imagined that he would introduce Jian Ge to his family in this situation. The gloomy situation where a sincere smile is really hard to conduct.


    Jian Ge talked to his mother and his sister, giving them the warm words they need but didn''t try to raise any hope. Hope is important, but sometimes warm words are what we need the most for consolation compared to those empty hopes.


    Bai Yutang just kept silent and didn''t dare to look at Jian Ge''s face.. He knows that his condition right now is a mess. And he was so ashamed he could not be a strong man he wished to be. As strong as his father. or Jian Ge, in the hard time like this.


    After chatting for more than ten minutes, Jian Ge asks his mother whether he can invite Bai Yutang to have lunch. He also asks for things that his mother and his sister need. He gives his number to them in case something happened and they need to contact him.


    When they walk outside, Jian Ge asks him, "You look so pale, did you get enough rest?"


    After those embarrassing moments, Bai Yutang decided not to lie again. He nodded his head.


    "Do you want to take a bath and refresh yourself before lunch? How about this. I took you to my hotel, you can take a bath there. While you take a bath, I can order some food and we can just have lunch in the room. Is that okay with you?"


    Bai Yutang feels glad to hear that suggestion. He really didn''t want to eat outside and let other people see his red eyes and tired face like this. So he nodded his head again. He doesn''t even know where Jian Ge stays. But he didn''t want to ask.


    "Do you bring your clothes?"


    Bai Yutang freezed. His clothes are with his sister. And it will look weird if he goes back now to get his clothes.


    Noticing his movement, Jian Ge said again, "If you don''t have any at this moment, i''ll get some for you while you take a bath."


    They walked to the hospital lobby, and Jian Ge called someone. Few minutes later they stood at the lobby, waiting for this person. Bai Yutang didn''t even have the courage to ask who Jian Ge called.


    A black SUV stopped in front of him. Jian Ge opened the back door and held Bai Yutang''s hand, directing him to sit on the back seat. After he sat, Jian Ge closed the door and walked around the car, opening the opposite door to sit next to him. The driver sat alone in the front.


    When Jian Ge enters the car, the driver asks, "Where do you want to go, Doctor Jian?"


    "Lets go to the hotel first. H Hotel. I believe it''s not far from here."


    "Yes Doctor Jian, it was only 10 minutes from here." The driver then smoothly drives to the destination.


    When they reached H hotel, it was not even 10 minutes from the hospital. Jian Ge took his suitcase from the driver and told him to wait around the lobby.


    Bai Yutang only stands there. Since Jian Ge comes, he only follows all Jian Ge''s words. He''s tired of making all the decisions and taking care of everything for this whole week. Jian Ge just took Bai Yutang''s hand and asked Bai Yutang to follow him. He told Bai Yutang to sit in the lobby while he checked in at the receptionist.


    Bai Yutang knows this hotel but has never stayed here. It''s a standard 5 star hotel. The hospital is located in the middle of this city. So a lot of hotels and shopping centres are around here.


    Five minutes later Jian Ge came to him again and took his hand again. They walk through the elevator and head to the room. Bai Yutang usually likes to notice every detail about buildings. But now he doesn''t want to see anything.


    When they arrived at the room, Jian Ge put his suitcase in the closet. He turns around to face Bai Yutang. "I''ll get you some clothes to change. You just take a bath, and get some rest. I''ll be back in thirty minutes."


    Bai Yutang nodded. When Jian Ge walks outside the room, Bai Yutang suddenly feels lonely in this big room. It was really nice to have someone that he can hold on to after this hard week.


    He took a shower, and tried to clean himself thoroughly. After a long bath, he looked at the mirror, saw his own reflection. Red eyes, haggard face, thin body, and dark eye bags like his mom''s. His beard and moustache thinly spread over his chin. He then took the saving kit, and shaved it clean.


    When he brushed his teeth, he heard the door open. Bai Yutang could hear Jian Ge''s faint voices talk to him from outside the bathroom''s door.


    "I brought you the clothes."


    Bai Yutang wears the bath robe, he slightly opens the door, and Jian Ge''s hand appears, handing him a paper bag. Bai Yutang took it and Jian Ge''s hand disappeared. He then closed the door again.


    He looks inside the paper bag. Jian Ge bought him a T-shirt, wool pants, a jacket, even underwear. All of it in dark colour. He''s glad. Dark colour means difficult to look dirty even though he stays whole day long in the hospital.


    When Bai Yutang comes out from the bathroom, he sees Jian Ge sitting down in the sofa chair, and says "I already ordered the food before I go and ask them to deliver in 40 minutes. It should be here in a few minutes. I didn''t ask you what you want to eat. So if the food is not to your liking, we can order again, okay?"


    Bai Yutang nodded and sat in the sofa chair opposite Jian Ge. He just silently sat there and stared at his own hand again.


    Jian Ge didn''t say anything again and just turned the television on. He switched the channel into the international news channel. They silently listen to the television''s voice until the bell door rings.


    The waiter comes to set up the food. He brings a cart that can extend into a dining table. He took the food from the drawer and put them on the table. Jian Ge ordered congee cooked from jasmine rice with century egg and scallops. Bai Yutang can smell the garlic and ginger mixed with the jasmine scent. Few shiitake mushrooms sliced on top of the congee.


    He also saw a wonton soup, yellow egg drop soup with minced chicken, a few kinds of dimsums, and soybean pudding. The last dish the waiter took out and put on the table is fish and tofu soup with bean sprouts and thin shreds of chilli.


    Bai Yutang feels that maybe Jian Ge can sense that he hasn''t eaten anything since last night. So he just chose a simple and easy to eat kind of food for Bai Yutang to eat. The feeling of being taken care of by someone, really comforts him.


    Bai Yutang eats the food in silence. Surprisingly even though he felt that he didn''t have an appetite before, he cleaned up all the food shared with Jian Ge. Jian Ge even put some more dimsum to his plate quietly.


    After finishing his soybean pudding, Bai Yutang feels like he''s being alive again. He then looked up to Jian Ge, and said with a soft voice, "Jian Ge, I really don''t have any suitable words to express my gratitude for your visit. I just can say thank you.."


    Jian Ge smiled gently at him. "It''s okay, you''re having a hard time, and you are going through all of this very well. I''m so proud of you, and also sad that I just can do these things to ease your hardship a little bit."


    After that Bai Yutang asked Jian Ge about his father. Jian Ge silenced for a while, and said "My friend is the one of the lead neurologists there, I already ask him to take care of your father''s case. I don''t know what to say to you, but this kind of case is really hard to treat. They already do everything in their scope of knowledge. Most of the time in these kinds of cases we need to pray hard for the patient''s will to survive, and a miracle."


    Bai Yutang was silenced to hear those explanations. It''s the same explanation that the doctor gives him everyday.


    Jian Ge''s voice still resonates in his ear before Bai Yutang heard his voice again, "I really hope your father will get well soon, TangTang. He''s a good man, good husband, and good father. And remember, that you''re not alone. You have me here to support you too."


    Bai Yutang nodded his head, and tried to smile. "Thank you Jian Ge. I know that. Thank you.."


    Bai Yutang needed to go back to the hospital, so he didn''t stay long. Jian Ge sent him back to the hospital. Jian Ge brought some snacks too while he bought the clothes for him. Jian Ge gives snacks to his sister.


    Bai Yutang is glad, his sister a little bit distracted from her sorrow with Jian Ge. They talk about the medical faculty. What to expect and what need to prepare. Jian Ge promised her to send medical books as a congratulatory gift.


    His mother also can smile a bit hearing her daughter become a bit lively again after they cry together in this whole week. She also sometimes answers Jian Ge''s question and smiles a bit too.


    Bai Yutang truly feels having someone as great as Jian Ge is really his luck. He tried to make his mother and his sister smile for the whole week but failed miserably. But again, he also forced his smile to come out when needed to talk with the people who visit his father. Not a smile from his heart.


    Jian Ge accompanies them, and waits outside when they take turns to come inside to see his father. Bai Yutang offers Jian Ge to meet his father inside. Jian Ge nods, and goes inside just for five minutes.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know what Jian Ge did inside, nor said to his father. But somehow, a small seed of happiness grew inside his heart. To know this man he admired, wanted to visit his father and give him consolation.


    At night, Jian Ge persuaded Bai Yuren to take her mother home and take some rest. Jian Ge worried to see Lu Hua''s complexion that looks sickly. Jian Ge reminds Lu Hua that she needs to take care of her own health or else her husband will be sad if she gets sick due to exhausting herself.


    Lu Hua finally agreed, and Jian Ge asked his driver to send these two women back home. Jian Ge himself accompanied him all night. For the dinner, they just bought simple meat bread and fruit juice. They eat those in the lounge.


    They didn''t talk much, but Bai Yutang was comforted by having someone to be by his side and soothe his nerves. Bai Yutang asks Jian Ge when he''ll go back to B city. With a heavy face, Jian Ge told him that he will come back tomorrow night with the latest flight.


    Bai Yutang''s sad, he hoped that Jian Ge could accompany him all the time. But he also knew that it was impossible. So he just nodded his head repeatedly.


    Early in the morning, Jian Ge already showed up and woke him up from his uncomfortable sleeping posture in this uncomfortable chair. Bai Yutang felt very content when he saw that gentle smile as the first thing he saw this morning.


    Jian Ge gave him a hot tea and offered Bai Yutang to take a bath in the hotel. Jian Ge said that he will stay in the hospital lounge should something happen with Bai Haoran, and Bai Yutang could go by himself to the hotel with his driver.


    Bai Yutang feels bad if he does that, but he also knows that Jian Ge means good. So he followed Jian Ge''s suggestion again. They have breakfast in the hospital, and have their lunch at the hotel again like the day before when his mother and his sister come to the hospital. They come here fetched by Jian Ge''s driver.


    Before night, Jian Ge offered to send them home before he went to the airport and departed to B city. Lu Hua and Bai Yuren reject that offer. After heat discussion, they finally settled with them sending Jian Ge back to the airport first, then the driver sent them home.


    Bai Yutang is really sad and feels at loss when he has to wave goodbye to Jian Ge. Jian Ge just pat his shoulder lightly. Right before he entered the car, Jian Ge pat his head and tousled his hair again.


    "Take care, TangTang. Remember, you''re not alone."

 Chapter 37 - The Cold Summer

    Bai Yutang fell asleep in the chair. He''s so tired today. The last time he came home to get enough rest was three days ago. That time, his father finally opened his eyes even though still no movement can be seen from the rest of his body.


    His whole family shed tears from happiness. This kind of tears have been absent in the family since one month ago, when his father collapsed and was treated in the hospital. The light on their face that has been dimmed since, comes back to illuminating from inside their heart.


    When Bai Yutang found his father''s eyes opened from the heavy eyelid, he shed tears from his relieved heart. The tears that have been welled up this whole month, pouring like waterfalls. He just realised how much he loves his father, and never ever wants to lose him.


    He''s crying while gripping his father''s hand tight, and kissing his cheek. He''s crying while putting his head on his father''s hand.. Telling his father the gratefulness he felt for his father''s hard work to come back to them.


    That''s also the first time his mother and his sister saw him cry in the hospital. But Bai Yutang can''t hold it. He''s just really happy and relieved. He prays his father will get well soon and go home together with them again.


    The doctors said that Bai Haoran''s lung seems to be functioning better than last time. So they will reduce the ventilator and put it into the SIMV mode. It means the ventilator only works with the patient''s own breath. But when the patient didn''t breath in time, the ventilator will push the oxygen on to the lung. If it went well and the machine didn''t have to work much, they will reduce the mode again and finally release the ventilator.


    August will be here soon. The sun scorching outside made people holed up inside their home. Bai Yutang didn''t care about the summer''s humidity, which he usually hates. He just feels happy that his father finally opened his eyes.


    Three days ago, his mother told him to go home and get enough rest. His mother wants to stay in the hospital, in case his father truly wakes up and wants to talk with her. She wants to be there when her husband is looking for her.


    Bai Yutang rested well, and he also cancelled the August trip to S city. He told his friends that his father is sick and hospitalised. When they found out that his father hospitalised one month ago they were disappointed that Bai Yutang didn''t tell them, although they didn''t show it. They just ask, why he didn''t tell them sooner.


    Bai Yutang is also pondering, why? He didn''t really need to hide this fact. At that time he only thought of calling Jian Ge, since he''s a doctor. But he didn''t really need to tell his friend. Maybe he''s just afraid that if he tells them, it will become a curse.


    Or maybe, he just doesn''t want people to see his own weakness.


    Yesterday, he told his mother to come home and rest. Her mother really will get sick if she keeps sleeping in that hospital chair. Even Bai Yutang feels his whole body is really tired and his back constantly aches this last week.


    His mother finally agreed. Bai Yutang was glad that he had a friend like Jian Ge, who always accompanied him. Sometimes they play games together, sometimes they chat until late at night, and sometimes Jian Ge calls him, accompany him until he sleeps. This hard and cold chair in the ICU lounge was a bit warmer with Jian Ge''s soothing voice.


    Bai Yutang awoken from the tap in his shoulder. He opened his eyes, and tried to focus on the person in front of him. It was the nurse from the ICU room. She looks anxious, and her face shows sympathy.


    Bai Yutang''s heart dropped instantly. He immediately woke up, and heard the nurse saying, "Mr. Bai, we''re sorry to tell you that your father''s condition is worsening this dawn. His heart having an arrest and his lungs won''t work. We''re currently doing the heart resuscitation inside, but we need the family consent to continue the resuscitation.


    Bai Yutang''s mind turns into a mess. What does she mean by arrest? What does she mean by resuscitation? He still feels he is trapped in a nightmare and follows the nurse inside. He heard the brief explanation from the doctor inside and the nurse, but none of these words actually reached his ear.


    He just said, "Please save my father." And he signed the consent.


    He walks outside. In the process of resuscitation, the nurses told him that it''s best not to see and let the other family members know about this immediately. Preparing for the worst.


    Bai Yutang saw the clock, it''s 4.45 in the morning. He called his mom, his sister, and his uncle. He didn''t say anything to his mom. He just said that he''s not feeling good and needs her to come here immediately.


    He only told the truth to his uncle. He''s afraid if he told the truth to his mom and his sister, they will rashly come and he''s afraid something bad will happen due to that.


    He dropped his body on the chair, and stared silently to the door. Nothing comes to his mind. He still can''t believe it. Maybe this is just a nightmare from this uncomfortable chair. Maybe he will wake up soon and his father is already awake, calling his name again.


    Or maybe this whole thing is a nightmare. And when he woke up, his father was still the big mountain protecting him with a warm smile, waving at him from the dining table. Told him to eat a lot today since his mother cooked his favourite egg toast and Yangzhou fried rice.


    So he just waited there. Staring in silence.


    The doctor comes out, saying that they did manage to get the heart beat again. But the condition is still bad. Bai Yutang wants to ask many things, but he also doesn''t know what he wants to ask.


    He just said, "Thank you doctor..."


    The doctor is still young. He''s an anaesthesiologist resident on duty. He already knows that this patient is special. He''s a family member of Doctor Jian from B hospital. Every resident here surely wants to have residency there, or having a job there after their residency. The top hospital for kidney treatment, and listed as the top 10 best hospital in the country.


    He doesn''t want to lose any patient in his duty time. Professor Lu as the intensive care department head will count the death number here as black star. If you have ten black stars, you will have extra presentation or extra night duty as punishment.


    If you have twenty black stars, your progress will halt. It''s a nightmare for a resident if you can''t progress. It also reduces your value when you finish residency. And all ICU patients are living humans on the verge of their death door.


    But, he really doesn''t want to have black star from this patient. His sweat from resuscitating the heart still drenched wetting his back. He doesn''t know how many CPR cycles he had done tonight to get the heart back to beat. He wished morning would come soon so he can finish his duty and transfer this heavy responsibility to his friend.


    Bai Yutang''s mom and sister come at 5. 30 in the morning. They ask him whether he''s sick. His mom put her hands on his forehead. "You''re not having any fever. But you look so pale. Do you want to go home? Take some medicine."


    Bai Yutang just shook his head. He just said that his stomach feels not good. His sister was looking for hot tea outside for him. His mother kneading his head and his shoulder. They sat there in silence.


    After drinking some hot tea, Bai Yutang still feels nauseous. He really feels unwell. This whole emotional roller coaster made him want to puke. At 6.30 his uncle and his grandparents come.


    His paternal grandfather looks pale and skinny. His eyes red from the tears he holds up. There''s no parents in this world who want to see their own child dying before them. And his son is still young. Not even 50 years old! He''lll turn 50 this year. What kind of parents want to bury their only son before them.


    Lu Hua looks at her little brother with a suspicious face. Why does her little brother bring all the parents here? But Bai Yutang already told his uncle not to say anything to his mom. He''s afraid that if her mother knows, it will only add her worry and sadness.


    At 7.30 in the morning, the different doctor from this morning comes out, and says that his father''s heart stops beating again and they do all they can inside to get him back. His mother looked at the doctor in horror and collapsed on the chair.


    Bai Yutang just nodded and said the same line before. "Please save my father."


    His uncle and his maternal grandparents hold her mom and turn her back to consciousness. She starts to wail loudly and wants to go inside. His uncle held her, and her grandparents too.


    They cried together and told his mother to be strong. They only need to pray here. If she goes inside, she''ll only distract the doctors trying to save her husband.


    With a howl that sounded like a slaughtered animal, her mother was still weeping but didn''t try to run inside anymore. Bai Yutang just closed his eyes and prayed to every God he knew.


    At 8 o''clock the doctor comes out again and they said the heart is back to beat. But the family needs to prepare for the worst. Because the heart beat is unstable. Bai Yutang nodded.


    The other family in the ICU lounge look at them with sympathy. All of them didn''t want to be the family that received bad news from the doctor. They also pray that this family could return with their beloved one, alive and well.


    None of Bai Yutang''s family members stepped out from the lounge. None of them remember to look for breakfast. None of them are feeling hungry.


    His mother''s eyes still shed her tears. Her eyes swollen, and her pale lips trembling from that whimpering sound. His sister already stopped crying, but her swollen eyes are still red and she keeps holding Bai Yutang''s hand. She just leaned her head into Bai Yutang''s shoulder. Looking for some comfort and strength left from the only family member she can hang on to now.


    The sun outside was scorching hot. Pouring all the energy left in this summer to the earth. The burning sun releasing hot waves from last month will continue until next month. It''s like preparing the trees and the flower below to start withering soon. Birds even stop chirping and hide from this bright blazing sun. Leaving the world into silence.


    But inside this lounge, the silence comes from the cold and anxious heart of this grieving people. The summer never felt this cold for Bai Yutang. The scorching sun can''t even melt the freezing heart he felt inside. He felt his hand cold and lost all his energy inside. No sounds could be heard in his desolate world.


    At 9.45 on Sunday morning, July 30th¡­ His father passed away.

 Chapter 38 - Not In This World Anymore

    Bai Yutang sits on the bed. He stares at the laptop above his desk. The silver thin laptop laid in the centre of that beige desk, surrounded by his books and his drawings. That''s the laptop his father bought for him two and half years ago.


    After his first semester in the university, he told his father that it would be great to have a laptop with good specifications for graphics and have enough memory to render small scale 3D buildings. He doesn''t really need it that time, but it will help him in his third year.


    His father asked, which one he had in his mind. His father then listens to him rambling on the laptop he wants. He didn''t expect his father to buy it for him, because he knows it''s expensive and he still has his computer at his dorm.


    But the night before he goes to the university to start the new term, his father gives him a box as an early birthday gift. Inside, it was the laptop he wanted.


    His father never bought him branded things or expensive things like other parents. His father gave monthly allowance to him like giving salary to his worker. All he needs to be bought, he has to buy it by himself using that "salary". So if he wants something expensive, he needs to use his own savings.


    His allowance is not small. Since he was accepted in B city, his father gave him 3500 yuan per month. Even the average worker here in W city only has a salary of 4000 - 4500 yuan per month. But all his expenses need to use that money. Like his dorm rent, his mobile phone data and bill, or the plane ticket to go home.


    Bai Yutang never needs to spend a lot. He didn''t really like branded things. He only likes to buy comic books or architecture and art books. His money on the bank from his allowances is now around twenty thousand yuan. He saved that money since he''s in high school.


    When he hospitalised from his fever and stomach problem before, he wanted to use that savings to pay his own bill. But Jian Ge already took care of it. His original plan is to use the savings for his final project later. He knows that the final project in architecture will be quite expensive.


    His father also never gave him an expensive birthday gift before, even for his 17th birthday he only got an ordinary sneaker. But he bought that laptop for Bai Yutang, because his son wants it, and needs it.


    Bai Yutang flopped his back to the bed and stared at the lamp in the ceilings. The funeral is over. He is still wearing his mourning clothes. He decided to shorten the funeral, because he can''t stand to see his mother weeping beside his father''s coffin. She absolutely doesn''t want to go home. She didn''t even take a bath in three days.


    His mother just weep and sob besides the coffin. From the soundless tears, into wailing. Even sometimes she screams.


    "Husband, tell me that this is only a dream. A nightmare. When i wake up, you''ll be beside me like usual."


    "Husband, please wake up.. We still need to see TangTang and RenRen graduated and got married. You say you want to hold your grandchildren soon."


    "You despicable man! A liar!!! You say you''ll never make me suffer!"


    "Husband, why you leave me alone¡­"


    "Haoran, don''t leave me alone. I don''t know how to live without you."


    Bai Yutang can''t stand to see his mother like this. So he just decided to bury his father after three days.


    He doesn''t even remember how he spent those funeral days. It''s like a hazy memory. His mind blank. But he is still walking around and doing his job as a son doing his filial duty.


    He also doesn''t know how he takes care of all those hospital bills, and things to do with administration after his father''s death. But one thing he knows in these few days.


    They had a big problem.


    And now, his head hurts to think back to the day when he settled the hospital bills. Each week, he will pay the bills per week as the hospital asked him to do. He''s using his father''s card given by his mother. His father''s hospital bill is a big sum. Total bill he needs to pay for almost one month is more than 40,000 yuan.


    That number is cheaper than the actual amount, because the neurologist didn''t charge him at all. He asked about why the doctor''s bill is zero on the second week pay the bill. The administration office told him that the doctor put the free of charge note.


    Bai Yutang suspected it was something to do with Jian Ge. But he didn''t ask.


    After he paid the hospital bill, he also needed to pay for the funeral and other things. He draws some money too in the ATM. That''s when he realised the money left in that card is only 115,00 yuan.


    Tomorrow he needs to go to the bank, and ask his mother whether his father has other savings. He can''t believe his father only left them with that amount of money. He hasn''t even paid this year''s tuition fee.


    For an ordinary family, that amount of money may be enough. But he still needed two more years before he finished his study. He already calculated, per year he will need 65,000 yuan if he lives frugally.


    That money is not enough for him to finish his study, and Bai Yuren just started her university too. Luckily the tuition fee for Bai Yuren was already paid before his father collapsed. But he doesn''t know how they can manage to get through the rest of her study. Bai Yutang knows that medical students will need around 6 years to finish their undergraduate study and internship.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know how to solve this problem. He decided to sleep and just think about that tomorrow. But he can''t get himself up walking to the bathroom and take a shower, nor can he close his eyes.


    Jian Ge and his friends already flew back to their own city this afternoon. They came here two days ago and accompanied him in the funeral. He can''t recall what he talks about to them.


    He closed his eyes, and felt the corner of his eyes hurt. His tears finally sliding down from his cheeks. He could see his father''s image behind his eyelid.


    His beloved father who always protects him.


    The father who said "My TangTang could be anything he wants! Your father will support you. My TangTang is so smart so this stupid father can only give you the money for your education."


    The big mountain that shines like a sun above the skies. Who takes him to the amusement park and holds him in his shoulder when he cries after stumbled down from the crowd.


    He misses his father so much¡­


    He wished his father would still be here ruffling his hair like he used to, and telling him that his father is bragging about his beloved son to all his clients and his friends.


    His father always told him how his clients saw him with envious eyes and didn''t believe how a rough man like him could have a smart and behaved son.


    How he wished he could hold his father once again, to hug him like he did when he was still a child. Hold his father tight, and say to him that he also loves his father very much. And he is proud to have a father like him.


    Bai Haoran is the best father in the world.


    But he''s gone. He could no longer see his father''s smile, no longer could hear his father laugh, no longer could hold his big hand.


    He''s gone, and will never come back home.


    When he woke up in the morning, Bai Yutang found that he was still wearing his mourning clothes. He gets up, and no sounds can be heard from outside his room. He takes a shower, and wears a white short sleeve shirt with black trousers. He decided to go to the bank today.


    Bai Yutang going downstairs. He can''t see his mother or his sister. He also found no dishes on the dining table. So he cooked rice, then he made fried rice for his mother and his sister to eat for breakfast.


    He went upstairs again and knocked on his mother''s room. His mother didn''t answer him. So Bai Yutang went to Bai Yuren''s room and knocked until Bai Yuren opened her door. Both of them then knocked on their mother''s room until she opened it.


    Bai Yutang told them to have breakfast, he already made fried rice for them. He also told them he''ll go to the bank today so he needs the documents from his mother. He also casually asks his mother about his father''s savings.


    His mother told him his father only has two savings. One is the savings she handed over to Bai Yutang, and the other is the company related savings.


    Bai Yutang knows he can''t touch that company''s savings. It''s already his luck that he didn''t have to close his father''s company. Uncle Xing already told him that even though he and Bai Yutang can''t continue his father''s legacy, luckily the last project is almost done otherwise they need to pay the penalty for not finishing the project.


    If the project is still less than 50%, then it will also give uncle Xing the headache. They''re only small contractors. Majority of the project could be done because of Bai Haoran lobbying and his wide friendship with other small contractors.


    Uncle Xing will close the company after the project, and need to pay the severance money too for the workers. Bai Yutang asked him about that, but Uncle Xing told him that it was his last responsibility to his friend, and Bai Yutang didn''t need to think about that.


    At the bank, Bai Yutang sat in the chair and silently stared at the bank statement belonging to his father. It was given by the bank''s assistant.


    His father sent 10,000 yuan to his uncle and 5,000 yuan to his grandfather, each month.


    The house expenses and his family expenses is 10,000 - 15,000 each month.


    His father transfers him 3,500 yuan each month.


    And the last fact makes him didn''t know whether he had to laugh or cry. No wonder their savings only left with 115,000 yuan.


    His father paid almost 500,000 yuan to settle their house and his grandparents house. Bai Yutang knows most people bought their house with an instalment. Their house has four bedrooms in the city. The house pricing in their neighbourhood is around 1,5 million yuan. Maybe more, he doesn''t really know.


    His original maternal grandparent''s house is already very old. So around five years ago his father bought the house beside his paternal grandfather''s house. The house has five bedrooms, since his uncle also lived there. The house is under his grandparent''s name.


    His father left him without any debts, and the assets were also not small¡­ But the money left is not enough for him to continue his study.


    Bai Yutang put his hand and massaged his forehead. He said thank you to the bank''s assistant. And wandering around.


    He can''t stop studying. If he stops now, all his hard work and his father''s wish will evaporate and be useless. Without a degree, he also can''t find a good job to support his family.


    Maybe he can apply for a scholarship. It was too late to ask Bai Yuren to do that this year, and he also doesn''t have heart to ask Bai Yuren now. But next term he can try to tell her their financial condition and ask her to apply for a scholarship too.


    But this is already August. Too late for him to apply for a scholarship. He calculated, if he could be granted scholarship from the university, then maybe the money will be enough for them to hang on until he graduates.


    He needs to contact the university counselor to ask them the best way out from this situation. He will graduate as an architect, no matter what. And he also will protect his family. He''s the only one who could do that.


    He will try to tell his uncle and his grandparents about their financial condition. It may be harsh, but all of them need to survive on their own without Bai Haoran''s support again from now on.


    Because Bai Haoran is not in this world anymore.

 Chapter 39 - New Autumn

    Bai Yutang sat on the bench, staring and scrolling the pages in his mobile phone. He just realised how hard it is to find a cheap accommodation in B city. His university dorm is the best option, but since he takes a break this semester, he can''t rent the dorm there.


    The last summer sun in the B city is mild, but the humidity is high. Bai Yutang could feel his sweat rolling in his back, and wiped his forehead. The lazy sun will use all summer energy left to wither the leaves in the trees, and the autumn will soon come again.


    He already called the university and met his counselor two weeks ago. His counselor gave him his condolences, and said the best option is to apply for a scholarship. Even though it''s late already, he could take a break this semester and wait for his scholarship grant. He can start to continue his study next semester.


    Bai Yutang looks at the buildings surrounding him, and stares at the sky. He knows he can''t stay in W city.. How he could tell his mother now after what she''s going through, that they might don''t have enough money for him to finish his studies.


    His mother was already heartbroken. She was sick for one week after her father''s funeral. In the end, her mother agreed to stay for a while with her parents and her little brother.


    With that arrangement, Bai Yutang discussed it with his sister, and Bai Yuren agreed to rent a dorm near her university. It''s also easier for her compared to going back and forth from their empty house to the university.


    Bai Yutang asks her mother how much she needs for the living cost. But her mother said it was not necessary. She still has some money, and his uncle also promised him that they still can manage to take care of her mother.


    Bai Yutang was relieved to hear that. He needs to save as much as he can. He already talked to Bai Yuren and gave her 2,000 yuan per month, including the dorm rent and all other costs she needed. The living cost in W city is not as high as in B city.


    Bai Yuren didn''t ask him anything even though that''s the same amount with her pocket money in high school, nor telling him that the money is not enough. She obediently nodded her head and said, "Thank you Ge.."


    Bai Yutang feels bad towards his sister, he knows that his father used to pamper his only daughter with utmost care and like a princess. But he can''t do anything about that.


    Bai Yutang could hear his stomach rumbling. He only ate one meatbun this morning. For a student who never needs to save his money to eat, he really feels that he was raised in a bubble. Protected for his whole life And now he finally feels what it feels if you''re hungry but you can''t buy food, for fear you''ll run out of money.


    Bai Yutang sighed, and looked back to his mobile phone. He needs to find a room rent under 600 yuan per month in B city. But this city is expensive. No appropriate room rented with that amount. He looks at the university building in front of him. All the apartments near the university ask for 1000 - 2000 yuan per month. And that''s a small apartment.


    Looking at those prices that he used to think it was cheap, now like a luxury he can''t afford. Bai Yutang steeled his heart, even if the room is so bad, he only needs to stay there for six month. It doesn''t matter. As long as he can do his work in that room.


    He needs to find a job. That''s also his counselor advice. To make money in this six month. That way, he can save his capital and have enough savings to support his study for the next two years. His counselor promised him to give him the side project if he has any.


    So after two weeks strolling in B city looking for a room. Bai Yutang finally settled with a 3 x 3 room in this small hostel. The location is quite far from the university. The hostel has eight bedrooms with shared bathrooms and kitchen. The building is old and lousy. The paint already has some moulds in the corner.


    When he first saw the hostel, he clenched his fist. Definitely a bad choice for him who is accustomed to a clean and bright environment. But the price is just 500 yuan per month. And they provide the hot water in the bathroom, also free drinking water in the kitchen. There''s no better option for him right now.


    The neighbourhood also seems safe enough, even though the hostel is located in a small alley. Bai Yutang didn''t plan to go out often. At least he noticed there are some mini markets and cheap food stalls around. He needs to press his meal cost under 1000 yuan per month.


    Today after he settled with the landowner, he put his luggage in the room. After he finished cleaning the room, he started to unpack his things. When finished, he laid down his tired body in the small bed. It has creaking sounds.


    He looked at his mobile phone, and saw another missed call from Jian Ge. He doesn''t want to answer it. The new term will start next week, near the Mid Autumn festival. His friends also ask him in the group when he will come back to the B city. He didn''t answer them.


    He also doesn''t know why he hid the fact that he took a break this semester from his friends. Or why he didn''t reply to those tons of messages from Jian Ge.


    Maybe deep inside his heart, he doesn''t want them to pity him. Or he doesn''t want them to see him at his lowest point. Maybe he doesn''t want to hear their offer to help him. He doesn''t know. Or maybe he was just ashamed that he was not an ordinary student anymore.


    He''s just a poor student now.


    He will tell them later if he could go back to the university after his scholarship was granted. If they still want to hear him and befriends him like they used to.


    He remembered one month ago, one night before he was going back to B city by train, he was staring at his phone looking at the call log and messages. He just realised how much he depends on Jian Ge. He called him many times, including when his father died. Resulted in Jian Ge rushing to B city, came to the funeral and accompanied him for two days.


    He was ashamed. If he stays like this, when can he grow up and be a great man like his father. Become an inspiring person like Jian Ge. He can''t be strong if he always depends on someone.


    He also remembers Mu Xiaoya and those girls said about him and Jian Ge. How they think that Jian Ge always takes care of him. He''s a man. He''s the one who had to take care of his important person around him. So why did he always call Jian Ge for support?


    Or maybe he was just ashamed. He already had low esteem before when he compared himself with Jian Ge. Even with previous wealth and protection from his father, he feels like he can''t stand equal as Jian Ge''s friends. A great man who always has other great friends. Just look at Zhen Guo as an example. Best architect of the year three times in a row.


    And now? Without the wealth, he feels like a speckle of dust. Can''t even compare with Jian Ge''s fingertips.


    That''s how Bai Yutang shut himself from the outside. He didn''t reply to his friend''s messages, he didn''t answer their calls. They sent them angry messages after they started the semester and found Bai Yutang didn''t register for this semester.


    Jian Ge''s messages and calls still come every day. Asking the same thing.


    ''Are you okay?''


    ''Where are you?''


    ''What happened to you?''


    ''Please just answer my call.''


    Those four lines repeated day by day. Bai Yutang didn''t answer any of them.


    Bai Yutang got his first job from his counselor. Small 3D rendering worth 500 yuan of payment, and also a sketch for a small house renovation worth 1000 yuan. He finished the job in less than 2 weeks. Too bad the job offer does not regularly come.


    He also contacted his professor, asking if he had any job offer for him again. His professor might have heard about his situation, or maybe not. His professor just promised to contact him if he or his friends have any job for him. He says thank you and will wait for the good news.


    Just like that, September is almost over. The green flags of the trees outside his hostel have become sepia toned, waving in the gentle wind. Within the multitude of soft chocolatey browns, gleaming with golden touch.


    Bai Yutang didn''t just wait for the jobs from his counselor and professor, but he actively searched for any sketching and 3D rendering job from the forum and internet. The payment is small, only 50 - 100 yuan per job offering. But he still takes some if any job offered in his scope of capability.


    He''s glad to manage this month without touching his savings. From what he earned, he can still save 600 yuan this month.


    He lives frugally. He didn''t go outside to have some fun. Fun is only a luxury money could afford. He preferred to holed up in his room and save money as much as he could.


    He saves the data in his mobile phone by stopping all his games and social media. He only eats twice a day. Buns in the morning and rice in the afternoon. He really likes the fried rice in the food stall near his dorm. With only 10 yuan he can eat one big plate of fried rice with scrambled eggs.


    The uncle in the food stall remembers him well. Because he came almost everyday. He always appeared when the stall opened at 5 pm. Ordering the same menu. Because it''s the cheapest and eating at 5 pm means he can ease his hunger from missing lunch, and also stay full until night.


    Bai Yutang realised his clothes were getting bigger and loosely hung on his body. His bangs already covering his eyes, and the tip of short hair in the back now scratching his nape. But he didn''t want to spend another money just for cutting his hair. He wonders maybe he can ask his neighbour to do that.


    Sometimes Bai Yutang meets the hostel resident in the kitchen when he fetches some water. One of his neighbours he often met is a 23 years old guy working as a waiter in the restaurant, and the other one is a store attendant. Their working place didn''t offer any place for them to stay, but giving higher salary.


    Some of the other residents didn''t make any conversation with him, so he also just silently drank the water without saying anything. He wasn''t really comfortable when these people asked him what he was doing here in B city.


    The young store attendant comes from a small prefecture in the south, he likes to talk. He''s the one that wants to speak for more than five sentences with him. Bai Yutang only answers that he''s an illustrator searching for a job here in B city.


    Bai Yutang decided to ask him later to help him cut his hair. He doesn''t mind having an amateur cut his hair. He no longer really cares what he looks like if it means he could save more money.


    Bai Yutang called his mother twice a week. He''s glad to hear his mother now could speak in a normal tone. His mother spent most of her time in Bai Yutang''s grandparent house. The house that his father bought for her wife''s family. It really made Bai Yutang miss his father more.


    His father is a man that loves his wife, and only his wife, for a lifetime.


    He loves her, cherishes her, protects her, and also takes care of his wife''s family. To show his gratitude for allowing him to take their pearl away. His father shows them that he treats this pearl like the most valuable treasure in the world. He''s doing his best to show his love.


    Even Bai Yutang missed his father so much, he could not imagine what it felt like for his mother. To lose someone that adores her that much, to lose someone who shields her from anything bad in the world.


    That''s why he called her regularly. He could not call often. Other than to save the phone bill, he also avoids his mother''s suspicion. Because once when he calls her often, his mother asks why the back sound is different from usual, and why she never heard Yu Dong greet her like usual.


    Bai Yutang don''t want to add more wariness to his mother. He only told her that Yu Dong have a girlfriend now and often going out to meet his girlfriend. Bai Yutang feels like he become an expert liar now. He told his mom not to worry too much, and apologise he can''t going home on Mid Autumn festival last time.


    He''s the only man in his family now. If he can''t take care of his mother well, how could he answer to his father later when he finally meets his father in the after world. He had to be the man who could protect the women in his family. Just like what his father did.

 Chapter 40 - Are You Done?

    At night while waiting for the store attendant to come home from his work, Bai Yutang receives a phone call from his professor. He was offered a job worth minimum 2500 yuan. The job is similar with the last job he offered, but he doesn''t need to do the 3D rendering. He only needs to sketch a lot of design.


    His professor said this project is huge, a renovation of an old hotel into a brand new hotel. The concept is modern minimalist. There are two firms that will work together. His professor will be responsible for the park and outdoor design, while the bigger firms responsible for the overall design.


    Bai Yutang will work with a group of architects in these two firms. Helping them do the sketch that they need to do but they can''t afford to finish it on time. The deadline is in another three weeks.


    Two architects already got sick from working over time, that''s why they decided to hire a part timer to exclusively do the sketch, so they can focus on doing the more important and urgent job..


    His professor said the final payment he''ll get depends on the amount of work he has done. Bai Yutang agreed immediately with this offer. 2500 yuan is more than what he earned this month. He could save more than 1000 yuan with this job!


    He feels happy when he hangs up the phone. Actually he worried if he could not scrape up more money for October. Because for almost two weeks he had not received any news for a job worth more than 500 yuan. He now realizes how hard it is to earn money.


    Bai Yutang used to spend 50 - 100 yuan leisurely to eat at the cafe. Or buy some item in the game worth more than 200 yuan per month. But now, he doesn''t even want to spend money just for cutting his hair.


    He cursed himself when he imagined how much money he could save back then!


    But it''s no use crying over spilled milk. He will just try to earn more money in this six month to ease his mind. The more he saves, the more he can be secure for his future. He doesn''t want to look back and feel sorry for himself. He will do everything he can do for now.


    The store attendant guy comes home from work at 9 pm. Bai Yutang was waiting for him in the kitchen.


    "Ge, could you cut my hair?"


    The store attendant looked at him like looking at an alien coming from another galaxy.


    "Why didn''t you go to the barber shop nearby? It only cost 25 yuan there. I cut my hair there, not bad."


    "For 25 yuan i can eat for one day. Better you cut it for me, it''s free."


    The store attendant looked at him with a pity. He knows this thin young man never goes out, and rarely converse with other residents here. He agreed to cut his hair the next morning before he went to work. But he warned him that his cut might look ugly since he never cut anyone''s hair before.


    "Well, there''s always the first time for everyone." Bai Yutang responded calmly.


    In the morning, Bai Yutang looked at his new hair cut in the mirror. Not really bad. Even though some parts look uneven, at least he feels fresh. Bai Yutang said thanks to the store attendant guy.


    "Thank you Ge, I''m sorry i can''t give you anything."


    The store attendant guy just waved his hand and said he needed to go to work or else the boss will cut his payment if he comes late.


    At noon, he got a phone call from an unknown number. It''s one of the architects his professor mentioned. This man invites him to a group chat consisting of the group of architects responsible for the room interior and layout.


    Bai Yutang politely replied, and was grateful for this job offered from his professor. This way, he also learns how to work in real life later on. He didn''t talk much in the group. They look so busy, and he only monitors the chat to see when he will be needed.


    After a few days, Bai Yutang feels like he already sketched thousands of details requested by this group. It didn''t take him long to sketch, but at first he made a lot of mistakes.


    Under his senior''s guidance, he learned that sketching the interior or the details of designs not only need to look good. But also synchronise with the overall effects wanted to achieved with the building''s main design.


    The size also needs to be matched. Sketching in architecture not only draws, but also needs to think about the size and the placement. Luckily the placement is not his problem. But he made a lot of mistakes with the size.


    His seniors sometimes called him and instructed him how to revise the sketch so it will match with the concepts and spaces. Bai Yutang listens to the instructions carefully and tries to implement it in his next sketch. The result is after a few days, his sketch is fully approved without any revision anymore.


    At the weekend, these seniors in this group seem to have some free time. They lively chatted in the group. Some of them start to ask him questions about his personal life. From which university he graduated, where do he live, his age, and many more.


    He answers them politely one by one. All of them are his potential clients in the future! When he registers for the next term, he still needs a part time job to ensure he can safely pass the rest of his university days without running out of money.


    I''m still studying in T university.


    I live in B city.


    I come from W city.


    I was taking a break from university because of financial problems, but I strive to register next semester.


    My scholarship application is under review and my counselor told me it might be approved at the end of October.


    I''m still 21 years old.


    Since he never met these people, he feels no shame to admit that he has financial problems. He didn''t say anything unnecessary, and they didn''t ask furthermore. They just praised him for his good work, said he didn''t look like he was still studying.


    Quoting one of this senior who also graduated from T university, ''As expected from T uni students'' Those lines followed by booing and ridicule from others who didn''t graduate from there.


    They told him that he did the right thing, and encouraged him to finish his study. Bai Yutang feels lucky to know these people. He realised he missed having good conversation with other people.


    He suddenly missed his friends. To converse with them, joke with them, eat together in their favorite cafe. Bai Yutang didn''t know why, but he missed Jian Ge the most. He missed watching movies and eating good food with Jian Ge, and enjoyed the calm conversation and tranquil atmosphere between them.


    Bai Yutang opened his photo album on his mobile phone and looked at his friend''s photo. He just realised, he has no photo of Jian Ge.


    His friends still call him sometimes, but he didn''t answer. Jian Ge also calls him regularly, but the frequency is reduced. From a few times a day, now a few times a week. Jian Ge''s messages still come everyday, though.


    At first, he didn''t want to answer. Now, he doesn''t know how to answer. He knows that he disappointed them. If he was in their position, he would also get mad to himself. Their group chat turns into hibernate mode. Yu Dong, Tang Yuxuan, and Liu Xiang didn''t talk much in the group like they used to.


    Bai Yutang wonders whether Yu Dong is still pursuing Mu Xiaoya? Whether Tang Yuxuan is still playing basketball or decide to reduce his activity preparing for their final year? Does Liu Xiang still talk about their historical meeting with Zhen Guo?


    Does Jian Ge get back to watch movies by himself? Alone?


    Bai Yutang sighed. He regrets his impulsiveness, but he knows he really can''t stay strong if he receives their help at that time. And he doesn''t want to see anyone to pity him.


    Another week passed by. The sketches he did were all approved, even some receive high praise from his seniors. One of them asked if he could help with the presentation also. Bai Yutang didn''t have anything to do, so he agreed.


    It''s already another weekend. All the workload is reduced. The project is near to finished. Only one week left. Bai Yutang leisurely doing another sketch. He doesn''t need to, but he doesn''t want to spend his time doing nothing. Or else his mind will fly back to all the sad things from before.


    Because Bai Yutang fell asleep early last night, this Monday morning he woke up earlier than usual. He decided to take a bath and went out to buy some rice porridge from the food stall near the park. He was bored eating buns everyday.


    When he walked towards the park, he looked at the yellow leaves hanging in the tree branches. He remembers, last year it was never across his mind that this year he will walk alone in an unknown place, questioning his future.


    Bai Yutang looked at the rice porridge stall, it was closed. Reluctantly, he walked to the usual food stall he visited every morning, bought another buns again for his breakfast.


    When he walked back to his hostel, the sun was rising high enough to peek from the buildings around him. He looked at the blue sky. Even though his life is hard in the last few months, he''s glad that he could manage to get through this. He shuddered, and felt the weather already getting cold. He needs to wear a thicker jacket next time he goes out.


    Bai Yutang went back to his room, and decided to read books today. Read more books on his break, and maybe next semester it will help him to maintain his scholarship. He had nothing else to do.


    He lies down in his bed, leisurely reading A Pattern Language. He''s glad he bought quite a number of e-book previously. This book is interesting, It''s not a must read textbook for architecture students. But the author provides a wide variety of simple formulas that make a house into an excellent living space and demonstrates why some interior spaces are successful and why some fail.


    He absorbed in his book, when he heard his room knocked by someone. He wonders, who will knock his door at this time? He already paid this month''s rental fee. No one ever knocked on his door before. Maybe it''s the store attendant guy? Or he just heard it wrong? Maybe someone knocked his neighbour''s door?


    But after a while, he heard it really comes from his door. Bai Yutang frowned. He put his tablet on the table next to his bed, then walked to open the door.


    When he opened the door, he saw a tall man in his light blue long sleeve shirt, with dark blue coat perfectly wrapped the body underneath. The bluish black pants matched well with the black leather shoes this man wore.


    He saw that cold face. That peach blossom eyes that usually curved along with the affectionate smile, now having a piercing look like icy glaze stabbed him without any warmth inside. The warmhearted aura that usually accompanies this man is gone, replaced with a dark somber emit from inside.


    Bai Yutang was stunned. Why could Jian Ge appear here? Does he really stand here in front of his shabby hostel room? Or this is just his imagination?


    Bai Yutang just stares at Jian Ge, still thinking is this real or only his hallucination. Then the cold voice that finally emerged from that lips telling him that this is not his imagination.


    "Are you done hiding?"

 Chapter 41 - Foolish Man

    To understand the scene from the previous chapter, let''s go back to one week before.


    It was Saturday evening, the first week of October. Autumn''s wind is cold, Zhen Guo feels lucky he wore a thick sweater and padded jacket. His wife chose his clothes for this evening.


    It was rare for his friend inviting them to drink. If this was 15 or 10 years ago, it was not a surprise. They went to the bars and lounge almost every week when they were young. But after they have their own family, it was not an option anymore. Only on a few occasions they will go out together again like this.


    And it''s even rarer for his friend to invite them with just a short text message.


    [Are you free tonight? Let''s get some drinks..]


    His friend didn''t say to invite Luo Jiao, his wife. Usually if he invited them to some celebration dinner, he always told them to bring his sister in law. The last time they drank together without the wives, maybe around 5 years ago? Zhen Guo didn''t even remember when.


    All he knows, even when this friend of his broke up three years ago, he didn''t invite them like this. At first, Zhen Guo thought Jian Kang Lu was inviting only him. He didn''t think much, and just replied that he was free. Jian Kang Lu then told him the place and time to meet.


    Zhen Guo thought maybe Jian Kang Lu needed some advice in architecture or something within his scope. Zhen Guo agreed immediately because his friend never asked for this kind of advice before. Even the apartment his friend living in right now is still using the original layout that Zhen Guo designed for the template.


    When Jian Kang Lu bought that apartment, Zhen Guo offered him to customize the design and layout to give some personal touch. Most people who bought new luxury apartments want to personalise their own crib. But Jian Kang Lu just smiled and said he wanted to let the apartment''s owner decide which part of the apartment that needed to be changed.


    Zhen Guo understands who the apartment owner Jian Kang Lu mentioned. To be precise, the owner of Jian Kang Lu''s heart at that time. But that owner didn''t change anything, and then walked away. Left Jian Kang Lu alone. So until today, that apartment is still in the original design and layout.


    Zhen Guo will be more than happy if he could give Jian Kang Lu advice or help in his scope of ability. Since he and his family received a lot of help before from Jian Kang Lu. But he never felt that Jian Kang Lu needed his help.


    That''s why Zhen Guo agreed immediately to drink tonight even though in reality he has to meet his friend to discuss their future project. He cancelled the meeting, and told Luo Jiao about Jian Kang Lu''s messages.


    "Hmm.. It''s rare for brother in law to send this kind of message. Do you know what happened to him lately?" Luo Jiao asked him while she prepared lunch. Preparing lunch for Luo Jiao means transferring the food from the delivery order into the plate and bowl at the dining table.


    "Yeah, the last time was a long time ago, you know.. When he heard ''you know who'' told him ''that''."


    Luo Jiao knows exactly what his husband means with those weird sentences. Those times may be the darkest time in the entire Jian Kang Lu''s life.


    Luo Jiao always admired Jian Kang Lu. That man is strong. She never saw him sad or stressed out no matter what hardship he had to face. People will think that his life is easy. You know, the lucky man who always receives all the good in this world without having to lift his finger.


    But they all know nothing. Or maybe they just pretend not knowing.


    Luo Jiao knows him since they''re in university. People thought Jian Kang Lu never studied, so different from other medical faculty students. He looks like he enjoys his life leisurely. Watching movies, playing games, reading comics, going to the bar.


    But they don''t know he always reads the books in his free time, listening to the lecture''s recording, watching educational videos, even when he''s going outside. While driving, while running, while eating. They thought Jian Kang Lu was listening to music.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t hide those facts, he always shared the good material he found for studying. But people are just envious of him. They refuse to listen and copy his study style.


    But once again, most medical students didn''t know how to maximise the benefit of having fancy gadgets. They have fancy gadgets just for prestige. Some know and are good at using it, but some just too stubborn to learn.


    When people ask Jian Kang Lu why he didn''t study like other medical students, he said "I just need to understand the material well and maintain my score. I didn''t need to get a flying score. Why do I have to sacrifice my happiness doing the things I like for studying all the time? It''s boring, don''t you think?"


    Though he says those words, Jian Kang Lu always sleeps late and reads the books before he sleeps. Even on his holiday.


    Jian Kang Lu also knows how to treat others with kindness and sincerity. Unlike other doctors with stoic faces and treating their patients like a statue, Jian Kang Lu treats the patients like he treats his own friends or family.


    No wonder he became more popular after he graduate. But then again, wicked people will say that he''s popular only because of his face.


    When Jian Kang Lu is in his residency, he can''t sleep for two days in a row but still kindly answers phone calls from his friends when they need to ask him something. When he had to finish the research''s material for his professor in a short limited time, he still lent his hand to help his colleague with a smile.


    When he had fights all night with his lover and blamed for nothing, he still showed up in the hospital with a smiling face and talking like usual with his colleague.


    When his grandmother who was very close with him died, he cried. But he only took one day off and returned the next day, treating his patients well and smiling professionally.


    When his research''s ideas and material are stolen by his own colleague, he just smiles and changes his research immediately. He didn''t say anything, and still talked to that person politely. But he never answers anything ever again from that person other than just some empty greeting. Jian Kang Lu is easy to forgive, but he never forgets.


    Jian Kang Lu never showed anything when he had some difficulties that maybe other people can''t handle.


    He always said, "Can you solve this problem by thinking why God gave you this problem day and night? Can you be happy if you scream or mad or crying? If you find a problem, don''t think about it. Just try to look for the solution. If you can''t solve it, then just sleep. Maybe the solution will come tomorrow."


    Or he will say, "Count your blessing instead of your misery. The blind will envy the eyes that can see colours and shapes. The deaf will envy the ear that could hear birds singing and the ocean rippled. The mute will envy the words conveyed and the voice resonate."


    That''s how strong he was.


    And now, suddenly these short messages come. It''s unusual. "Do you think this is related to Bai Yutang, that little platonic lover he had?" Luo Jiao asks her husband.


    Zhen Guo looked at her wife with a blank expression, "It''s platonic. What else to think?"


    Luo Jiao could only give her husband a flat expression. Sometimes she admires how this simple brain of her husband can create an intricate building''s designs. Maybe all his brain cells can only work about buildings related and nothing left to think about anything else.


    But Zhen Guo received a phone call from Luo Yan in the afternoon, asking whether he was invited by Jian Kang Lu to drink tonight. That''s when Zhen Guo remembered his wife''s number one rules.


    Luo Jiao is always right.


    Luo Yan said that Sun Hongjia also received the invitation. So they agreed to meet at the lounge before the appointment time with Jian Kang Lu. The three of them gather 30 minutes before Jian Kang Lu shows up. But none of them knows what happened. No clues, no signs.


    Jian Kang Lu always arrived earlier, so 20 minutes after they chatted together, they saw Jian Kang Lu walking toward them in a steady step. They saw Jian Kang Lu''s eyebrow raised and said in a playful tone.


    "Am I dreaming? Why did you guys gather so early? Are you gossipping about me?"


    They can''t pinpoint anything wrong from Jian Kang Lu''s face or his gesture. So they silently agreed to make this man drunk first before scraping the information.


    As a man with unlimited black card, Sun Hongjia ordered the most expensive whiskey there.


    "Here, let''s toast! It''s rare for us gathering here without our wives." Sun Hongjia deliberately poured the dark yellow liquid to Jian Kang Lu''s glass until it was almost full.


    One hour and three liquor bottles later, Jian Kang Lu''s glossy eyes start to gaze into the blank space in the corner, and start sounding the things that bother his mind.


    "This is lame, but I can''t contact him."


    They all know the ''him'' Jian Kang Lu mentioned. Because Sun Hongjia and Luo Yan already threw curses towards Zhen Guo when they heard from their wives that Luo Jiao already met this kitten of Jian Kang Lu.


    From Luo Jiao''s vivid description, they only know that this kitten is a young man, third year architecture student in T university, looks very ordinary, a bit skinny, but gentle and polite. They curse Zhen Guo for not taking pictures or prying more about this mysterious man.


    Luo Yan is the first asking, "What do you mean you can''t contact him? Did he block your messages?"


    "No.. My messages show that he read it. My phone calls are going through. But he never received my phone call nor replied to my messages."


    Sun Hongjia is the second man to ask, "Did you do something that makes him angry?"


    "I also don''t understand.. I didn''t think I did something that would make him mad. But he also cut contacts with his other friends in the university."


    Zhen Guo is the third man to ask, "Did their friends do something to him?" Zhen Guo remembers the group of students he met before, he didn''t think those lambs would bully or doing something bad to this platonic lover of his friend.


    "No.. I don''t think so.."


    Luo Yan asked again, "When was the last time you contacted him?"


    "Two months ago.. I came to his father''s funeral."


    Now the three of them show surprise on their faces. This young man''s father is dead? That''s a hard blow for anyone. But why did this young man suddenly didn''t want to meet Jian Kang Lu?


    Zhen Guo pondered why, then asked, "Do you know his address? His family contact? Maybe he has some problems?"


    Jian Kang Lu sighed.. Since he''s drunk, his voice is a little bit incoherent. "I called his sister, want to send her a congratulatory gift. She didn''t mention anything. From what we talked about, it seems his family knows nothing."


    Jian Kang Lu silenced for a while, and drank a little bit more. Then he continued, "I think his family didn''t know that he took a break from his study. He didn''t register for this term. His friends told me that when I asked them."


    Now this is big news. Why this stupid friend of them didn''t tell them about this sooner! How could they understand what happened if Jian Kang Lu didn''t tell them the background story???


    Sun Hongjia now understands. "Is it a financial problem? Or mental breakdown? Do you have any clues?"


    Jian Kang Lu shook his head. "I don''t have any clue. I don''t even know where he is now. He also left the dorm. Whether he''s still in B city, or back to W city. I don''t know. All I know is that his family thought he''s still studying like he used to be here. I already searched for him, but found nothing."


    Jian Kang Lu finished his drink, and said with a low voice. "And i can''t contact him at all.."


    These groups of smart men who didn''t know what to say just silenced and drank more. What to say? They didn''t even know this young man! Maybe Zhen Guo met him once, but they can''t expect much from Zhen Guo with his wooden personality.


    They drive the wasted Jian Kang Lu home. They can hear him mumble, "I missed him.."


    The drunk Jian Kang Lu usually can''t be differentiated with his sober state. But tonight, they saw the other side of drunk Jian Kang Lu.


    Jian Kang Lu who sat in the back suddenly looked at Sun Hongjia and said with an angry tone, "Why didn''t he look for me if he had some troubles? Am i not reliable enough?"


    Then he laid his head back with his hands upon his eyes and said with a worried voice, "What if something bad happens to him?"


    Next he took his mobile phone from his pocket and started to call someone. Luo Yan dares to bet his house that this person Jian Kang Lu called must be that young man.


    "I want to meet you, TangTang."


    Three of them speechless. Even years ago when Jian Kang Lu asked them to drink together and also wasted, he only said "I''ve done everything I can. I will try my best until the end. I have no regret."


    Sun Hongjia really wants to mobilize his PR department power to find this young man. But he didn''t even know what this man looks like. Jian Kang Lu said he didn''t have any pictures of him. Despite all of that, the three of them agreed to find some information about this man. At least they know his name, his university, and his address in his hometown.


    They know if they can find this young man, at least this poor friend of them that stupidly devoted to this silly platonic love will be relieved and happy. They start to admire this young man. The one who could turn this smart guy into an imbecile.


    Jian Kang Lu never be this foolish, but they love this foolish man.

 Chapter 42 - End Of Story

    Zhen Guo already thinks that it will be a hard task to search for one young man in this big country without involving the police and media. Sun Hongjia is their biggest hope to find this young man with all his abundant resources.


    He already asked some of his friends from T university. He leisurely asked to avoid any suspicion if he questioned them intensely. But they don''t know who this Bai Yutang is. It''s understandable. He comes from W city with no architect family background. And he''s so young.


    Actually these friends of his already raise their attention, who is this young man still studying in university that can pique Zhen Guo''s interest. Is he a genius??? Inside, they made their mind to find out more about this young man. If they can scout him for their department, it will be a huge achievement!


    On Friday, Zhen Guo received the presentation report about the hotel renovation his firm was responsible for. Zhen Guo''s name is one of the biggest in the architect''s cycle.. He built his own firm seven years ago and that small firm grew into one of the biggest architecture firms in the country now.


    This project is handled by several departments. Although he didn''t directly design the renovation itself, he still oversaw the project and revised them if needed. He''ll be involved directly if the project is a new building and has a big budget to manifest his designs.


    The junior architects and the head department responsible for the presentation wiping their sweat. This happens everytime their boss watches their presentation. Zhen Guo was not a man with many words, but they can''t help to fear this man. Afraid they will get criticized by him. Zhen Guo always has sharp eyes, and his corrections are blunt.


    The way he talked was polite, but somehow it was even more sharp than a bark or harsh words from their previous boss. It could embarrass them, felt like they were just a small fish, insignificant.


    The presentation is quite good, then Zhen Guo remembers that this project also has joint cooperation with another small firm. If he remembers clearly, his senior works in this small firm. His senior is one of the architect leaders that also works as a teacher in T university. He should be a professor now? Zhen Guo didn''t really remember.


    So he contacted his senior, pretending to talk about this project. His senior was a bit surprised to receive his phone calls. But he didn''t think much. Maybe Zhen Guo just wants to finalise the designs and construction since it''s near the deadline already.


    After a polite chit chat of about 5 minutes, Zhen Guo asks about his original intention. "Senior, I remember that you''re still teaching in T university. My friend has a relative studying there. His name is Bai Yutang. Do you know him?"


    His senior''s voice sounds surprised, "Bai Yutang? Is this the same person we talked about? If this is the same person, then what do you think about his sketch?"


    Now Zhen Guo is the one confused. What does his senior mean by sketch? He never saw Bai Yutang''s sketch.


    "Umm.. I''ve never seen his sketch before, that''s why i asked you. My friend says that this relative of his is quite good. I just wonder, maybe you know about him and can give him more pointers if he lacks in anything."


    His senior sounds even more confused than his, "What do you mean by you never saw his sketch? I thought you asked because you''ve seen his sketches lately?"


    Zhen Guo really doesn''t know why this conversation turns into something more confusing than finding the best formula to redevelop urban infrastructure.


    "I''m sorry senior, but i don''t understand. I really never saw his sketches before. Can you explain to me, senior?"


    His senior slowly explained, "I offer him a job to do sketches for this hotel redevelopment project, since two young architects collapsed already. I thought you already saw his sketches so you ask me about that."


    Now Zheng Guo doesn''t know what to say. Is this some kind of God''s hand helping him? He really found this young man? But wait, he can''t get excited first. He needs to confirm this.


    "Hold on. Is this the same young man we talked about? This Bai Yutang from W city and should be in his fourth year right now? You mean that he''s doing a part time job for this hotel redevelopment? Which department he was helping now?"


    His senior''s voice sounds a little bit unsure, "Yes. I guess so. But I heard he took a break this semester. I didn''t really know which city he came from. He''s helping the lower and middle interior department and the park utility team."


    Zhen Guo is really glad he''s calling his senior. But he needs to make sure. So after giving his thanks to his senior, he hurriedly ended his phone call and almost ran outside to visit the division that supervised the lower and middle interior department.


    When the division''s leader saw him, they were shocked. Which trouble did they make that made the God himself go down to reprimand them? Especially when the God asks them which person is responsible for the lower and middle interior of this hotel renovation.


    The person came with a sweating forehead, and the others who didn''t belong to that department released their relieved breath. This person is quite confused when the God asks whether they have a part timer named Bai Yutang helping them with sketches.


    At first, this person thought there''s something very wrong with sketches. But he didn''t remember anything wrong, the sketches are fine, the presentation also fine. If there''s some problem, Zhen Guo must have told his department''s head first in the presentation before.


    So he decided to defend Bai Yutang. Although his voice was trembling when he said his words.


    "Yes, we have a part timer named Bai Yutang. But his work is already approved by us. It seems nothing wrong with his sketches. May I know why you asked, Mr. Zhen?"


    "Is he still studying in T university?"


    This person was more confused when heard Zhen Guo asking that. The God even further asks about this young man''s personal information, such as where this young man lived right now.


    "I was not really sure about that, Mr. Zhen. But I think some of the architects in my team asked him where he lived."


    "Did he come here?" Zhen Guo asked him, and stared at him with that hawk eye.


    This person wiped his sweating hands in his pants. "No, I think they''re asking him in the group chat."


    "Can you show me?"


    This person was shocked and regretted why he said those words. The God demanded him to show the group chat conversation. Is it too late to refuse? He knows he can''t. He tried to remember whether anyone in that group said something unprofessional there, while showing Zhen Guo the chat group with trembling hands.


    Zhen Guo actually doesn''t care. He scrolled the chat above until he found the information he needed.


    He''s still 21 years old. His scholarship application is under processed and his counselor told him it might be approved at the end of October. He''s taking a break from university because of financial problems, but strives to register next semester. He comes from W city. He lives in B city. He''s still studying in T university.


    This really is Jian Kang Lu''s platonic little lover!!!


    Zhen Guo is really glad, and he shows this person who is still trembling one of his rare smiles.


    The person from the lower and middle interior department is getting more anxious. Does this smile of the God mean a good thing, or bad??


    Zhen Guo thinking, Jian Kang Lu already knew Bai Yutang''s number but Bai Yutang didn''t want to answer. So what''s left is to just directly meet him. Zhen Guo returned the phone back to the owner and said, "I need you to do a favour for me. I want to find out where he lives, but don''t tell him that i want that information."


    The other person''s face is confused but he just nods his head. "Yes Mr. Zhen, i''ll tell you as soon as possible."


    Zhen Guo nodded, and turned back to his office. After a few steps, he had questions in his head. Bai Yutang should already know that he was Jian Kang Lu''s friend, but he still accepts this job. Does that mean he really needs money, or what?


    Or maybe he just hates Jian Kang Lu? Maybe he found out that his friend is gay? Is this a right decision to let Jian Kang Lu meet this person again? But if Bai Yutang hates Jian Kang Lu and doesn''t want to meet him, why would he accept this job? He should know that this firm belongs to him, right?


    So he stopped his step, and turned his head. Asking that person again, "Does this young man know that he''s doing sketches for our firm?"


    That person''s face is even more confused now, "Umm.. I don''t recall we ever mention our firm''s name.. And he also never asks. But he should know from the person offering him this job, I guess.. Is he supposed not to know?"


    Zhen Guo''s brain tries to create many possibilities based on this information. In the end he just said to his subordinate, "If he never asks, that''s good. Also don''t tell him in the future, until you secure his address. When you have that information, immediately contact me, no matter what time, just contact me."


    So this lower and middle interior department is having an emergency meeting. None of them gave new jobs to Bai Yutang this Friday evening. They don''t know how to pry this crucial information from Bai Yutang.


    After heated discussion in the barbecue restaurant, they appoint the most junior member of their department to ask Bai Yutang tomorrow morning. The reason to ask? This junior member is also looking for an apartment and maybe Bai Yutang''s apartment is convenient for him.


    Perfect reason! That''s what they all think, but they are already under the alcohol''s influence. Everything is good.


    Even though they don''t know why the God needs this person''s address, they tactfully agreed to halt all the work for this young man. If this person is bad, then better not to anger their firm''s director. But they had a feeling that this person is important, and it made them agree not to make him work.


    What if this person told their God something bad about them!! All of them tried to recall, did they ever do something bad to this young man?


    On Saturday noon, the most junior member who woke up with a throbbing and dizzy head, grasped when he saw the time on his clock. He regrets why he had to drink a lot yesterday. He was supposed to call this young man early in the morning!!!


    Luckily Bai Yutang answered his question cooperatively.


    "Umm.. Listen, I want to ask you about something private. You know that I''m the most junior member here. My salary is not big. I want to look for some place new to stay but not too expensive. Can you tell me about your apartment? Maybe i can take a look over there if there''s some vacant room."


    This junior member already received instruction from his superior, and all of them agreed that this young man''s financial state is not too good. So the place he stays must be cheap.


    Bai Yutang answered him politely and told him there''s a vacant room in his place, but he didn''t stay in the apartment. It''s a shabby hostel and very cheap. Only 500 yuan per month.


    This junior member is shocked. 500 yuan per month in B city??? What kind of hostel is that? He got the address and told him that he will take a look at that area. If later he wants to visit, he will call Bai Yutang.


    He immediately reported to his superior. And that''s how Zhen Guo got Bai Yutang''s address on Saturday noon.


    Zhen Guo didn''t tell Jian Kang Lu immediately. He discussed that with his wife and his friend first. Sun Hongjia and Luo Yan said they want to investigate this place first, and why Bai Yutang cut the contact from Jian Kang Lu. Just like what Zhen Guo originally thought, it might not be a good idea to directly give this information to Jian Kang Lu.


    But Luo Jian said, he should tell Jian Kang Lu immediately. It''s their private matter. And even though something bad really happened between them, it should be Jian Kang Lu''s business to solve it. They have no right to halt this information from him.


    Zhen Guo confused. So that''s why he didn''t tell Jian Kang Lu until almost midnight. That''s because Luo Jian stares at him coldly once she knows that Zhen Guo still hasn''t told Jian Kang Lu that he found Bai Yutang''s address.


    Zhen Guo knows the meaning of his wife''s face when she looks at him that way. And it will have scary impact for him if he didn''t immediately follow her words. As a smart husband, of course he threw away his own, and also his friend''s opinion. None of your opinions matter if that makes your wife unhappy.


    And that''s the story why Jian Kang Lu appeared in front of his kitten''s door on Sunday morning.

 Chapter 43 - Suspicious Man

    Jian Kang Lu staring at his mobile phone''s screen. Zhen Guo just sent his kitten''s address. He can''t believe Zhen Guo managed to get his address in one week, while he spent this two month in vain.


    If he looks back at how he lived in the last two month, he feels pathetic. He is still going to the hospital every morning. Doing his job and no one notices something different from him. Or maybe they notice, but they just didn''t show and keep silent.


    He still spent every Sunday with his family, gardening with her mother, teasing Xiao Ming for having a crush with his new friend, discussing financial matters with his brother, and accompanying his father playing golf.


    He also still sent messages to his kitten everyday. Just to make sure that his kitten''s number is still active. He didn''t call him everyday again. He''s afraid his kitten will hate him more for his disturbing behaviour..


    But he stopped watching movies in the theatre. He can''t go back watching movies alone like he used to.


    He feels so lonely. He used to spend two years alone. He knows he''s not happy, but it''s bearable. So how come after meeting and knowing his kitten after one year, without any romantic relationship, he turns into a happy man again and constantly hoping to spend time together with his kitten.


    And now when he suddenly had to feel those loneliness again, it''s a torture.


    Jian Kang Lu feels like a small sapling grasping the solid earth with his strong root, relaxed under the soft sun, listening to birds singing on his branch. Then suddenly something pulled him out from the soil, put him in a dark box. No longer have something to hold on, no longer have energy to nourish his young leaves, no longer have voices around to accompany him.


    It''s dark.


    It''s cold.


    It''s silent.


    And he withered.


    Jian Kang Lu feels pathetic. He thought he was mature enough, but turns out he couldn''t handle this kind of loneliness. His kitten is not even his lover. They''re just friends. Jian Kang Lu also doesn''t understand how he could feel suffering like this just because his kitten decided not to be his friend anymore.


    Jian Kang Lu feels resentful. Why did his kitten have to shut him out like that? Why did he also cut contact with his friends? Why does he hide a lot of things from his family too? He''s 21 years old, why can''t he think more mature? He''s not a kid anymore.


    Jian Kang Lu feels afraid. Does he do something out of his consciousness that makes his kitten angry? Or does he realise that Jian Kang Lu is a gay and have a feeling for him? Does he hate homosexual? Or does Jian Kang Lu offend him in any way?


    But most of all, Jian Kang Lu feels yearning.


    He remembers how his kitten looked at him with straight eyes when he talked to him.


    He remembers how his kitten looked at him with shy eyes and bowed his head if Jian Kang Lu praised him.


    He remembered how his kitten''s eyes squinted when he told some jokes.


    He remembers how his kitten''s eyes brightened every time they visited a well structured building.


    He remembers how his kitten miraculously soothing his bad mood, accompanied him in silence.


    He remembers how his kitten lively told him about his days, and also gently asked him about his days.


    He remembers how his kitten told him to take care, then said good night to him before they''re going to sleep.


    He remembered his kitten''s calming voice when calling his name, and said that he admired him.


    He missed him. So much.


    Jian Kang Lu also felt worried, he saw how devastated his kitten was when his father was sick, and then left him forever. His heart ached to see those tears and the desolate face of his kitten. But his heart ached more when he saw him hold all his tears in the funeral.


    With those mixed feelings, Jian Kang Lu held himself not to dashed out and find his kitten right now. He decides to wait until the morning comes to find him, and see with his own eyes that his kitten is doing fine.


    But he can''t sleep. He tossed in the bed all night, trying to close his eyes. Every time he closed his eyes, he saw his kitten. He didn''t get enough sleep this past two months. And tonight he can''t sleep at all.


    So at 4.30 in the morning, he decided to run in the park. Try to calm himself. After one hour running, he took a bath and then messaged his family that he has something to do today and maybe can''t join them in their family lunch.


    At 6 o''clock he went out driving and tried to find his kitten''s place. This area in the B city is a place he rarely visits. He can''t find the right place at first. After checking his GPS and asking around, he found out that the place was located in a small alley further inside. Cars can''t get through this area.


    So he drove around to find a place to park his car. After that, he walked to find his kitten''s hostel. Jian Kang Lu is not really good with direction, so he turns the GPS in his mobile phone all the time. He asked tons of people until finally he found the place. It''s already 8 o''clock in the morning.


    When he finally arrived, all he saw was a shabby hostel. That hollow space in his heart suddenly filled with rage.


    Does he not kind enough to make his kitten trust him? Is he not capable enough to make his kitten depend on him? Is he not strong enough to protect his kitten? Is he not important enough to make his kitten abandon him?


    This is the first time when someone doesn''t need him. Not even trying to ask for his help. With those boiling rage inside his heart and mind, Jian Kang Lu knocked the door outside the hostel. No one answered.


    He kept knocking and looked for someone around, until he saw a middle aged woman coming from the house next to this hostel. She was the landlady.


    Jian Kang Lu politely introduces himself, "Good morning, maam. My name is Jian Kang Lu. Can I ask whether you have a tenant named Bai Yutang who lives here?"


    The landlady looked at her with a suspicious face. "Why are you looking for someone named Bai Yutang here?"


    Jian Kang Lu speechless. Does he look like a loan shark or bad guy?


    "I was Bai Yutang''s relative."


    The landlady was still suspicious, then asked, "Why didn''t you call him? You could ask him to open the door if you''re really his relatives."


    Jian Kang Lu tried to hold his annoyance and politely said, "I tried, but he didn''t answer."


    At that time, a young man walked through them and opened the hostel door with his key. The landlady called that young man and told him to show Jian Kang Lu the Bai Yutang''s room. This young man also looked at him suspiciously. But he said nothing and just showed Jian Kang Lu the room where Bai Yutang stayed.


    Jian Kang Lu really can''t believe this is the place where his kitten lived. This place is not having good ventilation, he can smell the old furniture and dust inside when walking through the living room. The paint has some stains in the wall, and the sofa had holes in them. It looks dark and a little bit dirty.


    What happened to his kitten? What is going through his mind? Why does he need to stay at a place like this? Why doesn''t he ask for his help?


    Actually, the landlady and the store attendant guy are showing the appropriate reaction. They saw a handsome tall man, using fine clothes, standing in the narrow alley in front of their shabby hostel. This man looks out of the picture. His appearance didn''t match at all with this neighbourhood.


    They saw many fancy men before, but not here. This man really looks handsome and wealthy. Even ordinary wealthy men are rarely seen here, more over a very handsome guy like him. And this man said he was looking for someone in the hostel. None of them ever have a friend or a relative like this charming man.


    Have you ever heard a handsome and wealthy man want to visit his friend or relatives in a place like this? At 8 o''clock in the morning? All those fancy men will ask them to visit them outside, or flaunt their fancy house by asking them to visit. None of those wealthy men want to visit this shabby place.


    This place also did not allow a car to pass by. That means this man has to walk through these narrow alleys to reach their hostel. Have you ever heard a man like this willing to walk and dirtying their expensive shoes just to visit them?


    That''s never happened. At least until today.


    The store attendant guy is curious, who is this man? Is he really Bai Yutang''s relatives? Who is Bai Yutang? He looks as shabby as this hostel and lives frugally. He remembers Bai Yutang doesn''t even want to spend 25 yuan to cut his hair. If he has a relative like this, why does he never go out to visit him? They also didn''t look like relatives at all. This man is too handsome.


    So the store attendant went into the kitchen and back to the living room, peeking at this man knocking at Bai Yutang''s door. This man looks very cold. His expression shows he was angry. But this man didn''t look like a loan shark at all. If a loan shark has a face like this, they will be a host or entertainer instead of being a rough loan shark.


    After a while, Bai Yutang''s room opened, and the store attendant guy could hear a cold voice from this handsome man.


    "Are you done hiding?"

 Chapter 44 - I Found You Back

    Jian Kang Lu didn''t want to get mad with his kitten. But he can''t contain his rage. He already felt his heart ache when he saw this shabby hostel, and imagined his beloved kitten living here alone for two months.


    When the door opened, he saw his kitten wearing a dark green sweater, loosely hanging from his thin shoulder. His sweatpants look too big now for him. His shoulder bone protruding. His face sunken with a pale unhealthy colour. His hair disheveled with an uneven cut.


    Who the hell responsible for his kitten''s hair looks like this?


    Bai Yutang was stunned, he can''t believe Jian Kang Lu appeared in front of him like this. What will Jian Kang Lu think to see him like this? He also knows that his state right now is a mess. So he just hung his mouth open without knowing what to say.


    "Do you want to talk here?" Jian Kang Lu''s cold voice heard once again.


    Bai Yutang is also confused. He can''t let Jian Kang Lu talk here, standing in front of the door. He also can''t let Jian Kang Lu talk to him in the living room, afraid many people will hear them.


    But most of all, he was also ashamed if his neighbour saw a person like him talking with a person like Jian Kang Lu.


    Finally he said in a weak voice, "If Jian Ge doesn''t mind, please come inside."


    There''s only one chair in the room, that chair cramped in the corner with a small desk beside his bed. Bai Yutang wants to hide. He''s so ashamed to let Jian Kang Lu look at his pathetic hostel room.


    Jian Kang Lu looks around, and seems like he also doesn''t know where to sit. He finally sat in the only chair in this room, looked at Bai Yutang close to the door and stood there with his head low. Bai Yutang doesn''t have any presence to face Jian Kang Lu.


    "Sit."


    Bai Yutang still droops his head down and obediently sits on his bed. He didn''t hear Jian Kang Lu say anything for a while. He''s nervous, and starts fidgeting his own nail.


    "Why didn''t you answer my call, or reply to my messages?"


    Bai Yutang really didn''t know what to say. He feels guilty, ashamed, sad, afraid.


    But deep inside, he also felt a little bit happy and relieved that Jian Kang Lu showed up here and still wants to see him.


    "Why didn''t you tell me anything?"


    Bai Yutang''s head still dropped, he just sat in his bed like a statue.


    "Did you ask your friends and family to tell me nothing? Did I do something wrong, until you hate me and avoid me?"


    Bai Yutang instantly raised his head, looked at Jian Kang Lu and hurriedly said, "No. It''s not like that."


    "Then¡­? Like what?"


    Bai Yutang startled, and lowered his head again. He said in a small voice, "My family doesn''t know anything. Please don''t tell them. My friends also don''t know anything."


    Jian Kang Lu silently listens to those small weak voices. It seems his kitten didn''t lie. He also knows Bai Yutang''s friend worried and mad that Bai Yutang didn''t tell them anything. They also ask Jian Kang Lu to tell them if he heard any news about Bai Yutang.


    "Then, do you think this is how a proper adult should behave? Shut himself from his friends? Lied to his family?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head, but said nothing.


    Jian Kang Lu is really mad. This room is so small, without any window. He could hear the small bed creaking when Bai Yutang sat there. He could smell the air mixed with dust and mould.


    He cherishes his kitten and treasures him so much. But his kitten chose to live in this shabby place.


    The more he looked, the more he felt his chest lodged, constricted with his rage. But he saw his kitten in a sorry state. He also could not get angry with him. All he wants to do now is to hold him tight. Ask him not to abandon him like that again.


    Finally Jian Kang Lu can only say, "Pack up all your things. You''re moving out. I won''t allow you to stay in a place like this."


    Bai Yutang raised his head immediately and looked at him in disbelief. Actually Jian Kang Lu regretted saying those words. How if his kitten threw him out and told him who the hell is he to ask him moving out from this place.


    But Bai Yutang didn''t cast Jian Kang Lu out, he just stared and opened his mouth. He doesn''t know how to respond. Should he tell him that he can''t afford to stay anywhere else besides this place?


    "Why? You didn''t want to? Is there any reason that you have to stay in this place?"


    Bai Yutang dropped his head again. He''s so ashamed. He held to the last dignity he had.


    "You don''t want to explain anything to me?"


    Bai Yutang also knows he acts childish. And somehow it hurts his heart when he heard that last question from Jian Kang Lu. His voice sounds dejected, disappointed with him. Bai Yutang didn''t know whether it was only his imagination, but he also heard sadness from Jian Kang Lu''s tone.


    At least he owes Jian Kang Lu an explanation.


    He finally took a deep breath and explained without raising his head, "I need to save money, Jian Ge. I want to finish my study, but we don''t have enough money if i enrol this semester normally. That''s why I took a break this semester. I applied for a scholarship, so I can continue my study with the money left. I need to hang on with that money until i graduate and can support my family."


    Jian Kang Lu already heard from Zhen Guo last night. He knows his kitten is having financial problems. He just doesn''t really understand why. From what he has seen, his kitten''s father is doing well enough. Bai Yutang never said that his family had financial problems before.


    "So? You don''t want to leave this place because you don''t want to spend your money for a better one? Until when? Until you graduate? Do you realise how unhealthy this place is?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "No, Jian Ge. I planned to stay here until I start next semester if my scholarship is approved. Then i can stay in the dorm again."


    Jian Kang Lu stares at his kitten''s sorry state. He really can''t stand to let his precious kitten stay in this place even just for one more day.


    "If you don''t start to pack your things, I''ll pack for you. I''ve said it once, now I said it again. You''re moving out. I won''t allow you to stay in a place like this. And i won''t say it for the third time."


    Bai Yutang''s hand nervously fidgeting his nail tips. A moment later he said with a low voice, "But.. But where can I go? I really tried to look for a proper room, but this is the only place that offers a cheap rent with better condition compared to the other."


    Jian Kang Lu held his breath, then said with a stern voice.


    "You''ll stay with me. You know I have an extra room in my apartment. You''ll live there, and not move anywhere ever again without telling me. You said you want to save money. Staying in my place is free. You can save more money that way."


    Jian Kang Lu knows his words sound harsh. He was never a harsh person. He is always polite and chooses his words carefully. But he just feels so mad right now. Does his kitten think he can''t afford to support him and his family until he graduates? Why on earth his kitten doesn''t want to ask him to help?


    Bai Yutang didn''t raise his head, he just can say in a low voice, "I know Jian Ge means well, but i feel bad if i burden you. I can''t do that.."


    "In what way you''ll be a burden to me? Tell me. If you can explain well, then i won''t say anything again." Jian Kang Lu''s voice now raised a little with a hint of rage compared to the cold tone from before.


    Bai Yutang racked his brain, tried to find a reason. But somehow he can''t find any. Jian Kang Lu lived alone, his apartment had two bedrooms but he only used one room. He worked in the hospital from early in the morning until night. So most of the time, his apartment is empty.


    It''s Jian Kang Lu''s own apartment, so Bai Yutang didn''t need to pay anything. If the water and electricity bill is higher because Bai Yutang lives there, the split bill is still the same amount or even cheaper than renting a room in this hostel.


    Both of them keep silent for almost five minutes. Finally it was Jian Kang Lu who spoke first.


    "Can''t refute my words? Then what are you waiting for? Packed your things now."


    Bai Yutang really can''t find any reason. So he stood up and started to pack his things. He doesn''t have many things. Just clothes, his laptop and tablet, sketchbook and his pens.


    It doesn''t take more than 30 minutes to finish packing all his stuff. When he finishes, he only can say with a meek voice, "I''m done, Jian Ge.."


    Jian Kang Lu only sits and looks at his kitten pack his things. His heart ached, he wanted to help him pack. But he also needs to give a lesson to his kitten. Or else his kitten will run away and leave him again. He can''t afford to lose him like that.


    "Follow me."


    Bai Yutang dragged his luggage and backpack, following Jian Kang Lu. He saw the store attendant guy in the living room staring at both of them. He heard Jian Kang Lu greet the guy, "Thank you for your kind assistance before. We''re leaving now. I hope we can meet again someday in better condition. Thank you for taking care of our TangTang all this time."


    Bai Yutang saying goodbye to his neighbour, "I have to go now, Ge. Thank you for your help. I still haven''t paid your kindness for the last time."


    The store attendant looked at Jian Kang Lu then moved to Bai Yutang. So, is this Bai Yutang actually a young master running away from home? Who is this handsome man that picked him? His brother? But they didn''t look alike.


    He had many questions, but he can''t ask. The atmosphere between this handsome man and his shabby neighbour is too cold.


    He just nodded, and said "Your hair cut really looks ugly, told you I can''t cut hair. You better trim it again in an appropriate place."


    Now Jian Kang Lu knows who''s the one responsible for his kitten''s hair.


    Both of them also meet the landlady to explain that Jian Kang Lu will bring Bai Yutang back home. The landlady just looked at them, then staring at Bai Yutang. "No matter what problem you had in your family, you should never run away from home again."


    Bai Yutang wants to explain, but what can he say? So he just nodded his head and said thank you to the landlady.


    Bai Yutang follows Jian Kang Lu until they reach where Jian Kang Lu parked his car. He put his things inside the car, then sat obediently beside Jian Kang Lu. None of them say anything in the car when Jian Kang Lu drives the car.


    Jian Kang Lu can''t stay mad all the time. Once his wild runaway kitten turns into a docile one beside him, he doesn''t want to stay angry again. He just felt relieved, he finally found his kitten back.


    "Have you had your breakfast yet? Do you want to have breakfast outside or order some food from home?"


    This is the first time Bai Yutang heard that gentle tone again after a few months. All the cold and harsh tones from before disappeared. Just like mist evaporating from a rising sun warm touch. Bai Yutang suddenly felt all the feeling he locked inside his heart bursting out, clogging his throat, choke him.


    He can''t hold all those grieves buried inside, those grieves start flowing out from his locked up heart. The corner of his eyes started to sting, and warmed with a layer of mist. Those beads welled up at the edge of his eyes, and falling down. Once it starts, he can''t hold it back.


    He lowered his head down, the tears started to drip down, stained his sweatpants. Falling like a rain fall from the shattered sky. He didn''t make any sound. Then he feels a warm hand caress his head, over and over again.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t say anything. He drove with one hand, while his other hand patted his kitten''s messy hair and his back. His heart ached so much to see his kitten''s tears pouring down. He doesn''t want to see his kitten like this ever again. He promised himself to take care of this man. To treat him well, just like what he deserved.


    When they arrived in the apartment''s parking lot, Jian Kang Lu looked at his kitten''s eyes who was still wet from his tears. Those beads start to drip one by one, once again. His kitten''s knuckle whiten from gripping his own hand tight.


    Jian Kang Lu turns the engine off, and faces his kitten. He looked at his kitten''s side face, his kitten''s head dropped down. Those messy hair can''t cover his kitten''s red eyes. Jian Kang Lu feels his body move on its own. How he wants to protect his kitten so much, shield him from anything bad in this world. To never let him suffer like this again.


    He held his kitten tight, how he wished he could say that he will protect him forever. How he wished he could say that his kitten''s happiness is the most important thing for him right now. How he wished he could say that he cherished him so much.


    In the end, he could only slowly say what''s in his heart with his most gentle tone, "TangTang.. Everything''s gonna be okay."


    He stroked his kitten''s back while holding him. He could feel the dampness in his shoulder from his kitten''s eyes. "You''re not alone, you have me here. I''ll always accompany you. All the way, until the end. You''re never alone."


    Jian Kang Lu kept stroking Bai Yutang''s back. He can feel his kitten''s head movement. His kitten didn''t make any sound, but he can feel his kitten nod his head.


    Jian Kang Lu patted his kitten''s head, then cupped his face. He raised his kitten''s face to see his kitten''s red eyes clearly. Those red phoenix eyes are wet and swelled from those tears. The pearly beads droplet still trickle, making those beautiful eyelashes look like a wet butterfly wing. Jian Kang Lu stared at his kitten''s eyes, and let him stare back into his soul.


    "So I beg you, TangTang. Please trust me."

 Chapter 45 - Pay It Forward

    Bai Yutang didn''t know for how long he cried. Jian Ge just pat his head in silence, and sometimes repeat his words again gently.


    "Everything is going to be okay, trust me..."


    He just cried in silence. Letting all the grieves which stayed and gnawed his heart for the past two months to go, flowing out with his tears.


    Before, it sneaked up quietly and took Bai Yutang under its arms slowly. Change him into someone he doesn''t know. Bai Yutang felt like the old him vanished in thin air, gone with his father. He thought he would never feel safe again, never to feel secure again.


    Bai Yutang didn''t want to ask for help, because he didn''t know how. Bai Yutang is also afraid of rejection. Even if someone helps him now, he also doesn''t know how to pay it back. His father always taught him to protect, to give hands, and never owe anything to anyone. Paid back for all the kindness he received.


    His father didn''t teach him how to ask for help.


    That''s why he thought, he had to face all of this alone. If he always asks for someone else''s hand, he would never be strong. When that someone leaves him, he will lose again.


    Like when his father left him.


    But with one gentle word, all the walls he tried to build in the past two months crumbled down. Bare his naked heart to this person in front of him, who looks at him with those tender eyes.


    Bai Yutang just nodded his head, again and again. When Jian Kang Lu opened the car door, he told him to wait in the car. Jian Kang Lu took all Bai Yutang''s things from the luggage, and opened the passenger door. He held Bai Yutang''s hand and took him to his apartment.


    Bai Yutang just followed him in silence. Jian Kang Lu took him to sit in the living room, while he put Bai Yutang''s things in the guest room. He made hot chamomile tea, mixed some honey inside. He gave a cup of that hot tea to Bai Yutang.


    "Drink this first, i''ll order some food. Let''s have breakfast here, shall we? I''m hungry."


    Bai Yutang received the tea, and sipped it slowly. He nodded his head again. Some time later, when he already dried up all his tears, his voice hoarse when he said, "Thank you, Jian Ge.."


    Jian Kang Lu answered that with patting his head.


    After finishing his tea, Bai Yutang stared blankly to the table in front of him. Now when he let out all his grieves, what''s left is only shame. But what else could be done. He already shows his childish behaviour, crying like a baby. It''s too late to feel ashamed.


    So he excused himself, and washed his face with cold water in the bathroom. Then he unpack his things. The room still looks the same as when he stays here last year. Nothing changes here inside Jian Kang Lu''s space.


    When he almost finished unpacking his things, Jian Kang Lu called him to come out. The food has arrived. Bai Yutang already eats some buns. But of course he''s still hungry. This past two months, he never felt his stomach full even just for one day. Until this morning.


    After breakfast, Bai Yutang insists to wash the dishes. He said since he''ll live here for free, then at least he needs to do the house chores.


    Those sentences lead to Jian Kang Lu telling him they need to talk about living arrangements while he lives here. But Jian Kang Lu magnanimously let him wash the dishes first.


    After Bai Yutang is done, they sit together in the dining room, illuminated with the red gold autumn sun from the glass door outside. It''s been so long since Bai Yutang tasted the sun warmth like this. The warmth that brushes his skin, seeping into his bone, and sweltering his soul.


    Jian Kang Lu holds his tablet and starts talking. "Lets each submit the rules we''ll follow together. If you don''t agree with mine, please tell me your reason. I''ll also do the same. Now i''ll start first."


    Jian Kang Lu spoke his first rules while typing on his tablet, "Rule number one, Bai Yutang will stay here and doesn''t need to pay. But he needs to report to me where he wants to go, and will never hide again."


    Bai Yutang nodded his head. Jian Kang Lu looked at him with straight eyes. "You could think about it first, and refute it if you don''t agree. Once these rules are made, they need to be signed by both of us. You don''t have a chance to change it later. Remember, i hate it the most when someone can''t comply with their own words."


    Bai Yutang nodded. "I didn''t need to go anywhere¡­ This past two months I didn''t go out. Maybe later I just need to go to university. And I can tell you first if i want to go. If i stay here, of course i''ll follow your rules."


    Jian Kang Lu is still looking at Bai Yutang with straight looks. Inside, he was thinking ''does this child didn''t realise that i just shamelessly want to bind him here together with me?'' Jian Kang Lu sighed. One part of him regrets his own selfishness, but nine parts are delighted with Bai Yutang''s answer.


    Jian Kang Lu told Bai Yutang, "Now it''s your turn."


    Bai Yutang answered immediately, "I''ll do all the house chores."


    Jian Kang Lu pondering for a while. "I''ll refute that, I hired a cleaning company to clean this apartment twice a week. Why do I need to pay them if you clean the house? And the old lady from that cleaning company who often came here to clean the house needed the money, and I usually gave her tips. So if you clean the house, she won''t have extra income."


    Bai Yutang speechless. Why he felt that he can''t win this argument. But he still stubbornly said, "Then i''ll wash the dishes, and the laundry too!"


    Jian Kang Lu said "I''ll grant your wishes if you really want to do that. You could wash the dishes. About laundry, I always sent all my dirty clothes to the laundry downstairs. There''s a good and cheap laundry place in this apartment complex. And my delicate clothes have different laundry places. But you can do your own laundry if you don''t want to put it downstairs like me."


    Now Bai Yutang really feels at loss. But at least he could wash the dishes. "Okay then, rules number two. Bai Yutang will wash all the dishes, and do his own laundry, and help to put Jian Ge''s laundry downstairs or to the other laundry place."


    Jian Kang Lu raised one of his eyebrows while staring at Bai Yutang. But he silently typed that rule. He could compromise with this if his kitten really wanted to do that.


    "Now it''s my turn. Rule number three, I''ll give Bai Yutang monthly allowances to handle all the food matters in this apartment. It means i could order the food, or you could order, but you''re the one who has to pay and it can''t exceed the allowances i gave you each month."


    Bai Yutang tried to think is there something wrong with that sentences? He knows he can''t outsmart Jian Kang Lu. But he definitely feels something, this will only bring benefit to him. He just can''t pinpoint what is wrong with this rules. So he just ask, "How much is this monthly allowance?"


    Jian Kang Lu answered with a smile, "5000 yuan each month."


    Now Bai Yutang is really in doubt. That money seems a lot right now for him, but that was for two people. And Bai Yutang knows that Jian Kang Lu likes to order expensive food. He really tries to think and calculate, but he can''t find any reason to refute that. Finally he could only nod.


    Jian Kang Lu happily typing, "Now it''s your turn."


    Bai Yutang answered, "Rules number four, I''ll use those allowances to cook also."


    Jian Kang Lu now blissfully suggested, "That could merge into rules number three. Make another rule."


    Bai Yutang thought for a moment, but he could not find other things he could offer to Jian Kang Lu. What else could he do to help him? Jian Kang Lu has everything. "I don''t know what else i could offer to you, Jian Ge.. Maybe you could just make the rules and I''ll comply."


    Jian Kang Lu really thinks that he''s a genius. With these rules, he could tie his kitten by his side, at least until his kitten back into his dorm. "Okay, rule number four, Bai Yutang will accompany me to watching movies, shopping, or any occasion that i need to attend but i don''t want to attend it alone. That includes fetching me and taking me back home if I drank too much."


    Bai Yutang really didn''t think that the rules would bring him any loss. So he just agreed.


    Jian Kang Lu spoke again, "You could bring your friends here, you could also meet them outside. You need to call them and tell them that you''ll register next semester. They worried about you."


    Now Bai Yutang''s mind is at loss. He didn''t know how to talk to his friends. But he also knew that Jian Kang Lu was right. He owes them an explanation. Bai Yutang only could answer in a low voice, "Okay Jian Ge, i will."


    Jian Kang Lu put his tablet down. He looked at his kitten who hung his head down. "Now, let me ask you something and I need you to answer me honestly. Let me tell you, TangTang. Humans can''t live alone. We need to know when to ask for guidance and help from others. The final decision is in your hand, but you need to hear all the possible solutions for your problem before you decide on something."


    Bai Yutang was stunned. Now he feels silly. He thought he was already mature enough, but Jian Ge is right. He hasn''t asked for other people''s opinions. Why does he think that his own decision is the best?


    Jian Kang Lu spoke again, "How much money is left by your father? Why can''t you enrol this semester?"


    Bai Yutang answered slowly, "It''s 115,000 yuan, Jian Ge. My father paid 500,000 yuan to settle our house and my grandparents'' house this year. He also paid for my sister''s tuition before. After paying the hospital bill and funeral, only 115,000 yuan left. That''s why I can''t enrol, my tuition is almost 40,000 yuan per year."


    Jian Kang Lu doing a quick calculation in his brain. "So your father has two assets, your house and your grandparents house. Let''s assume your grandparent''s house can''t be touched. That''s okay. You actually have several ways out. Rent your house and let your mother stay with your grandparents. Or asking for a loan from the bank with your house as collateral. That way you could stall the expenses until you graduate."


    Bai Yutang already thought about the first option. He just doesn''t have the heart to tell his mother. But he never thought about the second option.


    Jian Kang Lu continued, "Or the third option, you could ask for some loan from me. You could pay it back slowly by working for me until later on you finally graduate and find a job for yourself."


    Now Bai Yutang is stunned. He answered hurriedly, "How could i ask that from you, Jian Ge. If I can''t pay you back? How if I run away without paying you back? I don''t want to leech on you. How could I pay for all your kindness when I know I can''t do anything for you?"


    Jian Kang Lu answered calmly, "First of all, i know that won''t happen. Second, you could use that house of yours as collateral even though I don''t want to. Third, let me teach you something."


    Jian Kang Lu sipped his tea, and continued, "When we help someone, never assume that the person will pay you back. That way, it will hurt you. There''s no use counting your own kindness. It was called insincere."


    Jian Kang Lu looked at his kitten who widened his eyes, and looked at him with a confused face. "I know you thought that every good deed you received, you need to pay it back. You don''t want to owe something from anyone. But TangTang. Once I read a book that changed my own thinking. This book is titled Pay It Forward by Catherine Ryan Hyde."


    His kitten still listening, Jian Kang Lu continued, "The book tells a story about a boy doing a school task. His teacher asks them to do something that will make a world into a better place. His friends do some charity or small things that a child could. But this boy created a project called Pay It Forward."


    "The purpose is to help a person. The recipient of a favour does not pay it to him, but does favour for three others. However, it needs to be a favour that the receiver can''t complete themselves. And so on. The moral story in this story is so many. But what makes it change my life forever is, you don''t need to pay a kindness you receive to the person who gave you some help. Instead, you could pay it to another person who needs your help."


    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten''s face brightened and listened attentively. He continued talking, "I''ll lend you the book, so you can read it for yourself. But the point is, It''s impossible to count all the kindness you receive, and never assume that you could pay it back. You could pay the favour you received by doing a favour to someone else."


    "For example, you receive guidance and knowledge from your teacher. You could pay it by studying diligently and using that knowledge to make this world into a better one. It doesn''t need to be a big one, but by making people around you happy is enough."


    Jian Kang Lu gently smiled at his kitten, "And I''ve told you many times, but maybe you don''t believe me. So i''ll say it again. You might think that when you receive my call or accompany me watching movies is a small act, but that''s the thing that makes me happy. Because you''re sincere, thus i''m happy. It will be different if you accompany me with a heavy heart because you have to instead of happily accompany me."


    Bai Yutang really felt foolish for his own decision before. He didn''t consider other people''s feelings, and only thought about his own grievances. Now he realised that he was selfish. Especially when he remembers Jian Kang Lu at that Korean restaurant, who looks so lonely.


    "Jian Ge, I''m sorry. I sincerely apologise for all my foolish actions before. I will also apologise to my friends later on." Bai Yutang looks straight into Jian Kang Lu''s eyes.


    Jian Kang Lu could see that his kitten''s eyes are clear, and there''s something changing in those eyes. He nodded, then continued his speech "I know you don''t want to make your mother worried, that''s why I propose the third option to you. That way, your mother doesn''t need to know. You don''t need to decide now. Like I said, you need to decide by yourself after listening to many opinions from other people. Remember, what''s right for one person didn''t mean it''s right for the others."


    Bai Yutang knew that, so he said "I will, Jian Ge. I''ll tell you my decision later on. Thank you, Jian Ge. I really appreciate all your advice." Bai Yutang feels all the gloomy clouds and shadows in his world start to disperse, and let the autumn sun brightly illuminate his world.


    He was never alone. And he doesn''t need to be alone.

 Chapter 46 - A Blissful Day

    Jian Kang Lu feels sleepy after breakfast and talks to his kitten. So he printed the rules, and asked Bai Yutang to sign it. Each of them have one copy.


    1. Bai Yutang didn''t need to pay while staying in Jian Kang Lu''s apartment.


    2. Bai Yutang needs to tell Jian Kang Lu in advance, when and where he wants to go, and will never leave without any words again.


    3. Bai Yutang will wash all the dishes.


    4. Bai Yutang will do his own laundry, and help to bring Jian Kang Lu''s laundry to the laundry place..


    5. Jian Kang Lu will give Bai Yutang 5000 yuan per month to handle all the food matters in this apartment. Bai Yutang can''t ask for more if the allowances are not enough.


    6. Bai Yutang will also cook with those allowances.


    7. Bai Yutang will accompany Jian Kang Lu watching movies or shopping.


    8. Bai Yutang will accompany Jian Kang Lu to any occasion needed.


    9. Bai Yutang will fetch Jian Kang Lu from anywhere and take Jian Kang Lu back home when needed.


    Jian Kang Lu happily holds the copy of the agreement between them. Actually he feels guilty, it''s like he took advantage of this pure kitten. He was ashamed of his own wickedness. But he''s happy, and he tried to bury his guilty feeling.


    Now after his stomach and his heart are full, he feels sleepy. So he told Bai Yutang that he wanted to take a nap. And Bai Yutang is free to do anything he wants. He told Bai Yutang that they will go shopping this afternoon. Bai Yutang only nodded his head.


    In the afternoon, Jian Kang Lu awakened with a fresh mind. He smiled, and took a bath. He felt like going on a date this afternoon with his kitten. After shower, he saw his brother''s call. He called him back.


    "Ah Se? I''m sorry I missed your call, I was in the shower before. Is there something wrong?"


    "Nothing, I''m just worried about you. You suddenly said you need to do something today. Is everything okay?" Actually Jian Kang Se was really worried, but once he heard his brother''s voice sounds so happy, he felt at ease.


    "Mmm, nothing wrong. I just need to meet a friend of mine this morning. But it settled already. I was tired after that and took a nap, so i can''t go there today. I''ll call mom later. Tell them not to worry."


    Jian Kang Se knew his brother won''t explain more, and he also didn''t need to know. The important thing was his brother is okay. "Okay Ge, i''ll tell mom and dad later. Take care."


    Jian Kang Lu then knocked on his kitten''s door, and heard his kitten''s voice from inside, "Wait a moment, Jian Ge."


    Jian Kang Lu saw that messy hair when his kitten''s head popped up from behind the door. He really really hates to see that.


    "Come, accompany me shopping. Is thirty minutes enough to prepare yourself?"


    Bai Yutang hurriedly answered, "Ten minutes is enough, Jian Ge. Wait for a moment."


    Jian Kang Lu is waiting in the living room, he turns on the television and watches the news. He smiled happily. After those dark and suffering times he had to go through these past two months, today feels like a dream for him.


    Bai Yutang panicked inside. No matter what he wears, he will still look indecent. He cursed his own appearances. He doesn''t care when he stays in the hostel. But he feels if he dresses like before, he will only bring shame to Jian Kang Lu. He already shaved before when Jian Kang Lu took a nap. But he still looked... He can''t even describe how pathetic he looks right now.


    So he finally just dressed as best as he could. If he wears something dark, he will look even more scrawny. So he wears his light blue long sleeve shirt, with dark blue turtle neck inside, and blue jeans for his pants. All his clothes are too big for him now, but nothing he could do. He thinks that maybe he lost 8 or 10 kg in the last three months. He doesn''t know for sure.


    When they walk in the shopping mall together, Bai Yutang knows people look at them with weird faces. Who the hell is this skinny and unkempt guy beside a dazzling handsome tall man? That''s what Bai Yutang thought when he noticed the way people looked at them.


    But Jian Kang Lu as usual, didn''t notice that. He happily walked around the shopping mall. He told Bai Yutang he wanted to buy some jackets, to prepare for winter. When he tried the jackets, he asked for Bai Yutang''s honest opinion.


    What can Bai Yutang say except, "It looks good on you, Jian Ge." Because honestly all the jackets Jian Kang Lu tried really looked good at him. His posture made all the jackets look like they popped up from a fashion magazine.


    Jian Kang Lu said with a straight face, "You''re not honest. How could from these five jackets, everything look good on me?"


    The store attendant defended Bai Yutang, "Customer, this young man is not lying. All this jacket really looks good on you. I can''t believe even this one will look good on anyone until I see you wear it."


    The store attendant really wants to sell these expensive jackets to this good looking man. He already saw several people notice this man and looking for the same jacket he tried. This man was really a good advertisement! Maybe he could break his sales record today.


    Bai Yutang nodded with a grateful face to that store attendant.


    Jian Kang Lu looks at both of them with a disbelief face. "Then I want you to choose two for me, TangTang."


    Bai Yutang is not a fashionable man. He only chose comfortable clothes and as long as it didn''t look weird, he didn''t care. His fashion sense is not zero, but certainly under everybody else''s standard. At least that''s what his sister and his friends used to say.


    So he was speechless, and tried really hard. He asks Jian Kang Lu to put these five jackets again, and finally picks two from them. One is a navy blue jacket with four pockets in the front, but the pocket is well hidden so the overall look is very clean. There''s buttons in each pocket, and also in the sleeves. The collar has a double line, the outside part lining with light brown furs and the inside could buttoned up until the neck.


    The other is a dark grey long coat made from cashmere with a simple cut but very luxurious. The long coat has an inner lining that keeps the person who wears it warm. He really likes it.


    Jian Kang Lu is satisfied with his kitten''s choices, and asks the store attendant to wrap these two at his size. Then he asks whether these two come with different colours. The store attendant skilfully summoned different colours instantly.


    Jian Kang Lu chose the first jacket in dark red colour, and the second with turquoise colour. "Please bring these two in his size."


    Bai Yutang''s eyes widened, "No Jian Ge, i don''t need these jackets." He hurriedly said, waving his hand frantically. These cashmere jackets are expensive! He looked at the price tag before. It was 3,000 yuan!!! The other is 1500 yuan. His most expensive jacket is only 1000 yuan.


    Jian Kang Lu looked at him with a straight face. "TangTang, do you really want to discuss this again? Here?" Then he continued, "Or you don''t want to wear the same model as me?" Jian Kang Lu put a sad and dejected face.


    Bai Yutang panicked and said, "No, no no no Jian Ge. It just.." He was speechless to see Jian Kang Lu''s dejected and pouting face. Why can''t he win a single argument with this man? So he finally just sighed and helplessly said, "Okay, Jian Ge.."


    Jian Kang Lu''s face instantly brightened. The store attendant who looks at these two incompatible pairs immediately summon three different sizes from nowhere and help Bai Yutang to try them one by one. Bai Yutang settled with bigger size because he strives to gain his weight again.


    Jian Kang Lu chose several other clothes for him and his kitten. He happily gave his cards to the store attendant who happily wrapped their purchased items. Bai Yutang insisted on taking the whole six bags by himself and not allowed Jian Kang Lu to take it with him. They finally settled to carry three bags each, but Bai Yutang carried the heavier one.


    Next they look at the winter boots, and the same scene above repeated again. Jian Kang Lu bought three pairs for him and settled with two pairs for his kitten. He reluctantly followed his kitten''s wish not to buy sneakers for him.


    Next Jian Kang Lu brought him to a barbershop. This time, Bai Yutang lowered his head down and didn''t say anything. He obediently sat inside and let the hairdresser who saw his hair in horror trying to fix his hair cut.


    They put their shopping bags in the car, and Bai Yutang followed Jian Kang Lu to the grocery store. Jian Kang Lu said, "You said you want to use the allowance to cook. I never cook, so i don''t know what to buy. So you''re free to choose what you need to cook. I won''t interfere."


    While they''re walking inside, Bai Yutang asks what Jian Kang Lu wants to eat. Jian Kang Lu just smiled and said, "Anything you cooked."


    That statement is not helpful at all for Bai Yutang, so he just chooses basic ingredients for him to cook. He also can''t make anything fancy. Jian Kang Lu reminds him to buy his basic necessity, and reminds him that basic necessity is not food, so it had to be excluded from the allowance.


    Bai Yutang now realizes his mistakes. Jian Kang Lu specifically mentioned that the allowance is only for the food ordered INSIDE the apartment or the things he cooked. It won''t count for anything else, and definitely also didn''t count when they''re eating outside.


    Bai Yutang had a bad premonition that Jian Kang Lu would ask him to eat outside everyday. He decided to cook everyday to prevent Jian Kang Lu from wasting more money on him. He is pondering by himself, it seems he needs to use his free time to learn cooking when Jian Kang Lu is going to work in the hospital.


    But today, definitely he''ll lose the first round. Because Jian Kang Lu wants to eat hotpot in their favourite hotpot restaurant. Bai Yutang could only admit his defeat and strive to achieve his target start from tomorrow morning.


    Jian Kang Lu enjoys his dinner with a pleasant face, this reminds him of his first date with his kitten. He''s so happy today, and decided to call Zhen Guo later at night to say thank you. Without Zhen Guo, he definitely will spend this day in darkness like before.


    When they were driving home, Bai Yutang asked him, "Jian Ge, I actually have wanted to ask this since the morning. I''m just curious, how do you know where I lived and showed up today in my hostel?"


    Jian Kang Lu smiles at him, "Mmm.. I''ll ask you questions first. What kind of job you''re doing in the past two months?"


    Bai Yutang answered him honestly, and told Jian Kang Lu all the jobs he''s taking this past month. It made Jian Kang Lu''s heart ached. This precious kitten even does a sketch job only for 50 yuan. Especially when Bai Yutang mentioned he had two clients that requested three times revision and didn''t want to pay because they weren''t satisfied with the results.


    But Bai Yutang told him that his last job is really good even though he still has not received the payment yet. He told him that he learns a lot from this job, all his seniors are good and give him a lot of pointers. He was sure he''ll get paid next week, and his professor said that his minimum fee is 2500 yuan.


    Jian Kang Lu is glad to hear that his kitten is happy with the last job. Even though Jian Kang Lu didn''t like to interfere with someone else''s work, he really doesn''t want to see his kitten suffer again.


    Jian Kang Lu told him, "Do you know who owns the firm that you work for these past two week?"


    Bai Yutang confused, "I know it was the firm where my professor belongs, the other is a big firm. But i didn''t really ask."


    Jian Kang Lu laughs, he really admires his kitten''s pristine mind. Luckily his kitten is so pure, he didn''t even check who he was working for. He was so glad he found him soon, or else his precious kitten will be swindled around by a bad guy.


    "It was Zhen Guo''s firm."


    Now Bai Yutang turns his head and leaves his mouth hanging wide open. He can''t believe it. The next thing that comes to his mind is, ''So it means Zhen Guo also knows about his condition right now?''


    Bai Yutang could not help to feel ashamed. He is still not accustomed to this situation. A situation where people had to see him as a pathetic poor man. He tried to brush away this inferior complex he had. There''s nothing wrong with working and earning money when you need it. So he tried to grip himself tight.


    But he still couldn''t help to ask, "But how Zhen Guo knows my address? I don''t remember the senior in my group ever mentioning his name?" Actually Bai Yutang could already guess it must be something to do with the call he received on Saturday noon from his senior, asking about an apartment to rent.


    Jian Kang Lu answered honestly, "I actually don''t know. I just received a call from him yesterday, and told me that you stay in that hostel. That''s why I checked that hostel this morning to see whether you really stayed there."


    Bai Yutang can''t help wondering, he only met Zhen Guo one time but why did Zhen Guo notice him and even look for his address to give to Jian Kang Lu? It''s kinda weird. He''s just an insignificant one, not special at all. Why does Zhen Guo even pay attention to him?


    Bai Yutang knows he can''t ask this question, and it doesn''t matter. He tried not to think much about that. He just nodded his head and pretended to understand.


    They put down all their shopping bags in the living room. They tactfully agreed that it was Bai Yutang''s responsibility to take care of the groceries, while Jian Kang Lu just happily looked at his kitten going back and forth changing his empty refrigerator into something more decent.


    Jian Kang Lu feels content. He''s happy. It''s like a dream comes true. To see his kitten stay together with him. He knows that this only will stay for a while. And he will suffer deeply later when his kitten moves out.


    But he will enjoy his happiness while it lasts. Cherish what he has for this moment. Gladly welcoming his future days with his kitten. And treasure his time together with his kitten.

 Chapter 47 - Ordinary Day

    Bai Yutang awoke with disoriented feeling. At first he thought he was dreaming. The bed and the pillow he usually awoke with is a creaking bed with a bad quality pillow. Don''t even mention the humidity inside his room and the coarse bedsheet scratching his cheek, along with the damp smell inside the cramped room.


    But why today he awoke with a fresh feeling? With a heavenly bed under him and a plump pillow made from memory foam material that perfectly supports his head and neck. The silk bed sheet felt so soft caressing his skin, and the air filled with lavender and lemongrass sage scent.


    After blinking his eyes several times, looking at the sun rays peeking shyly from behind the light grey curtain, now he remembers. He''s not staying in that shabby hostel anymore. He''s staying in Jian Kang Lu''s apartment.


    Bai Yutang turn his head and look at the clock in the wall. He abruptly awake and can''t believe his eyes. It''s 9 o''clock!!! He didn''t set the alarm because he always awoken before six in the morning in the hostel.. Now after he tastes this divine bed and pillow, his body tentatively rests longer as if screaming in protests after months of lacking sleep.


    Bai Yutang cursed himself, and hurriedly ran out from his room. He saw the empty living room, and there''s food prepared on the dining table. There''s a note there in Jian Kang Lu''s handwriting.


    [I''m going to the hospital. Eat properly, and rest some more. If you need anything, just text me. I''ll call you back as soon as possible when i''m free.]


    Bai Yutang really can''t believe this. He''s the one who should prepare and pay for breakfast. Yesterday Jian Kang Lu already gave him 2000 yuan for the food allowance until the rest of October.


    But now Jian Kang Lu has already left. He was staring at his breakfast. The food ordered by Jian Kang Lu is a lot, it''s enough for his lunch too.


    Bai Yutang speechless. He then walked to his room again and took his mobile phone. He sent a message to Jian Kang Lu.


    [I''m sorry, Jian Ge. I fell asleep. I''ll cook dinner later. What time will you come home today?]


    Jian Kang Lu just read that message 1 hour later. He smiled when he read those messages. If one year ago he delusionally thought that every time he goes out with his kitten is a date, now he raises his delusion into thinking that he had a little husband waiting for him at home. He replied to his little husband''s message.


    [I''ll try to reach home before 9 pm. Have you eaten?]


    Jian Kang Lu never felt at peace like this before. Happiness is simple. But sometimes that simplicity is hard to find.


    Maybe lots of people won''t believe if he said that it was difficult for him to find a life time partner. Or why doctors stay single and only manage to get married with their colleague or through the blind date arranged by their family or friends.


    Even a senior doctor like him who already has more free time, still working from 7 am to 9 pm almost everyday. Some of his colleagues work less, especially when they already have children. But most of them will have similar lifestyles.


    Jian Kang Lu will visit the ward patients from the morning until before lunch. A doctor''s duty is not only to check the patients. They also need to fill the medical resume, prescription, laboratory and radiology order, and others.


    Years ago, they still manually wrote in the papers. A lot of papers. From the patient''s symptoms, what they complain about, the patient''s vital sign, important physical examination findings, the diagnosis, the therapy and instructions, and so on.


    It''s actually not a mystery why a doctor''s handwriting is ugly. Not because they want to write in code so the patient could not read it, nor because they originally had bad handwriting. But because they need to write a lot. When you need to fill those patient''s records which pile up high like a never ending nightmare, who had time to write decently?


    But then time changed, doctors and nurses'' handwriting needed to be improved to prevent the misperception due to this heavenly style of handwriting. So hospitals start to computerise all the patient''s records. But still, either writing or typing took quite a lot of time.


    Jian Kang Lu is famous for his speed typing, so he could fill the records faster. Thus he could finish his ward visit before lunch. After lunch he spends his time doing his research, or attending resident''s cases and paper presentations. Doctors also need to attend meetings.


    Hospitals have a lot of meetings. Their nephrology division also has weekly meetings. Talking about the project, new regulation, some trouble occurred in the hospital, or in their own division. Sometimes he also needs to attend the meeting with the research foundation.


    In the afternoon he will have his practice schedule for the out patients. He has a practice schedule four times a week. He already limits his patients, maximum 20 patients each time. If he didn''t limit his patients, he would reach home at 12 o''clock. He learned from his lesson before.


    His last girlfriend said she could accept a doctor''s lifestyle. But then she starts to complain when she only can meet Jian Kang Lu once a week.


    Complaint why Jian Kang Lu just replys her messages in short sentences, and only 2-3 times a day. Complaint Jian Kang Lu didn''t pay attention to her problems. Complaint when Jian Kang Lu fell asleep when she was talking about her days. Complaint that Jian Kang Lu didn''t love her enough to prioritise her like she did. Complaint that they can''t arrange a holiday together. Complaint when Jian Kang Lu cancelled the date. And the list is still going on.


    That''s not because her girlfriend is too demanding. It''s quite understandable. Jian Kang Lu takes care of sick people everyday, but he can''t even accompany her when she is sick. Wu Shen also complained about the same things. At that time Jian Kang Lu was still so busy, he was still in his internship then later his residency.


    Jian Kang Lu understood, it was not fair for a doctor''s partner. They have to wait for the whole day long, and can''t complain much if their partner is busy taking care of other people. They also need to take care of house matters because their partner is too tired when they reach home.


    That''s why, this little simple happiness from his kitten''s messages made him smile all day long. He can''t wait to go home and eat dinner with his kitten. And it was his kitten''s home made food. No one ever cooked for him before.


    The nurses and the resident''s could feel this little change from Jian Kang Lu. Usually he smiles calmly and gently. But today, his smile is blinding. They didn''t say anything. It just occurred in their mind and they don''t need to ask.


    Bai Yutang looking at the internet, what to cook for dinner. He can''t experiment much, afraid he''ll waste the ingredients. So he decided he will just cook steamed rice, simple chicken and vegetable soup, and later he''ll make some omelette. He was guilt ridden, but tomorrow he''ll try to make something else.


    Near afternoon, Bai Yutang starts to sense something is not right. The group chat for his part time job is so silent. Just like the group chat with Yu Dong, Tang Yuxuan, and Liu Xiang. Hibernate¡­


    This is Monday, even if the workload is reduced, three days without any sketches order is weird. Bai Yutang was afraid he made some mistakes. Furthermore, he was afraid his payment reduced later because he didn''t work as much as he should.


    So he bravely typed, asking whether they had anything he had to sketch, or anything else.


    One of the architects from the professor''s firm told him he needed help to find references on the track for landscapes and the proportion in Chinese gardens. Bai Yutang was relieved, and said he will find it and will send the material as soon as possible.


    But the group from the lower and middle interior department is panicking. They actually desperately need some help. But is it wise??? The God himself even comes down this morning to their lowly nest and says thank you personally to their leader for discovering this young man''s address.


    Who is this student, who said that he has financial problems and working part time for them, but can make God Zhen Guo act like this? Why does he need to work part time doing minor sketches if God Zhen Guo is personally looking for his information.


    The most confusing thing is, even though this young man is working diligently and his sketch is fine, the design and his foundation is just average, doesn''t seem like a genius worthy of the God''s attention.


    After discussing between themselves, they agreed to give this young man some work to do because honestly they can not afford to finish all of these jobs by themselves if they still want to live like a human being instead of a zombie.


    So at night after dinner, these groups start to come back to life. Bai Yutang is relieved, it means this month''s income is still secure. He lists all the things needed to sketch and start to work. The references for the track and garden are already done and sent.


    Bai Yutang is quite hungry, but Jian Kang Lu is not yet coming back home. It''s still 8o''clock. He decides later on he needs to buy more fruits when they do groceries shopping. He made apple smoothies, and made two portions. The other is for Jian Kang Lu.


    Jian Kang Lu reaches home at 8.45 pm. He looked at his kitten sitting in the living room, sketching something in his drawing pad. Jian Kang Lu smiled, it seems his birthday gift is really useful. Another thing he owes Zhen Guo.


    Bai Yutang raised his head to hear Jian Kang Lu home. "Welcome home, Jian Ge. Do you want to have dinner first or take a bath first?"


    Jian Kang Lu has another illusion. Maybe if he has a husband, this is the everyday scene he will have. Someone warms his place, his heart, eases his hard day. To make him feel like he is finally coming home.


    "Do you mind if i take a bath first?"


    Bai Yutang nodded, "Mmm, it''s okay. We''ll have dinner after you finish." Bai Yutang absorbed in his sketch again. Jian Kang Lu looked at him with a content heart. He then went inside his own room and took a bath quickly.


    Bai Yutang suddenly remembered, he hadn''t made the omelette yet and prepared the plates. So he paused his work, and started to prepare the food on the dining table. Then he made the omelette.


    Bai Yutang whisk and pour the eggs into the frying pan, the butter and the egg smell really good. He added cheese and tomatoes too inside the omelette. Yesterday Jian Kang Lu suggested buying organic butter and red yolk egg. The smell is very enticing compared to the ordinary butter.


    While he cooked, suddenly Jian Kang Lu''s head pooped next to his own, and his breath tickled his ear while saying, "Mmm, you really can cook. It smelled really good."


    Bai Yutang could feel the heat in his face rising, and his heart suddenly beat faster. Maybe he was just shocked because he didn''t hear Jian Kang Lu coming out from his room.


    "I.. I can''t guarantee the taste, Jian Ge. I can only cook simple things." Bai Yutang tried to answer while calming his beating heart.


    "I can tell that this omelette must taste really good. No one ever cooked for me before except my mom and my sister in law."


    Bai Yutang''s heart was still wildly beating, and he felt weird. Maybe he was just happy, no one praised his cook before. His taste buds are also normal, so he also knows that his cooking tastes ordinary, but it was acceptable.


    So he just scoop the omelette and divide it into two plates. He brought the plate to the dining table, and filled the two bowls with rice from the cooker. He served that simple food, and Jian Kang Lu sat at the table.


    Bai Yutang still takes the smoothies from the refrigerator and puts them in front of Jian Kang Lu. Jian Kang Lu is smiling all the time. Bai Yutang thinking maybe today is a good day in the hospital for Jian Kang Lu.


    Jian Kang Lu praised Bai Yutang''s cooking ability each time he put the food that Bai Yutang cooked inside his mouth.


    "This rice is so fragrant."


    "This omelette is so good, melting in my mouth. You really cook it well."


    "This soup is so excellent. The taste is very clean, and the chicken is so tender. This is the most delicious chicken soup I ever taste."


    Bai Yutang was so embarrassed, he felt like a 7 year old child who praised because he can cook. With a red face he can only say, "Please stop it, Jian Ge. I know my cooking ability. There''s no way this tastes better compared to all the food you taste before."


    "But that''s true, i like it very much." Jian Kang Lu said these words with the food inside his mouth.


    Honestly, this is the first time Bai Yutang saw Jian Kang Lu eat like this. Like he truly loves this food and wants to devour the whole thing into his mouth. Bai Yutang feels a bit proud. Maybe Jian Kang Lu really likes it?


    Then he just involuntarily said, "If you really like it, then i can cook for breakfast too and pack the lunch for you tomorrow."


    He immediately regretted what he said, why he had to say that. It sounds like¡­ Gay? He sounds like a wife cooking for his husband. And what if Jian Ge only said he likes his food just because he doesn''t want to offend him?


    But Bai Yutang saw Jian Kang Lu''s face brightened and said excitedly, "Really? You would? I''d love to!"


    So Bai Yutang could only lower his head down, he couldn''t bear to look at those happy faces. He felt.. weird. He doesn''t know what this feeling he felt right now. He just said in a low voice, "I''ll set the alarm tomorrow so I won''t overslept. What time will you go to the hospital tomorrow, Jian Ge?"


    "Mmm.. Usually before 7 I am already going to work. But if that''s too early for you, it''s okay."


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "No, that''s not too early. I will prepare breakfast before 6.30 then."


    Then he raised his head, "By the way, how is your day, Jian Ge? Is there something good today? You look quite happy."


    Bai Yutang saw that tender face smiling gently, "Yes. A lot of good things happened today, and that makes me so happy."

 Chapter 48 - Legendary Lunch Box

    It''s rare to see Doctor Jian in the cafeteria. Even though the food in the cafeteria is following the highest standard of healthy food, it means less taste. Less sugar, less salt, less MSG. Where is the fun if no MSG is added in the food? Thus not many senior doctors will appear here.


    So when the residents and the nurses saw this dazzling Doctor Jian walking to the cafeteria holding a lunch box, they were really happy to find something new to gossip about on their lunch time. Hospital''s life is so boring, gossiping is the way for them to keep their sanity.


    It''s actually.. Not a lunch box? Just an ordinary food container? Why did Doctor Jian buy something from outside to eat here in the cafeteria?


    But Doctor Jian''s face looks so happy and carefully opens it. Is it some legendary super expensive ginseng soup inside that? But legendary ginseng soup won''t be placed inside a food container like that. The soup will spill out!


    Wait... Doctor Jian opens that food container. Person who sits next to Doctor Jian, please tell us what is inside? Is it really ginseng soup? Or rare monkey head mushrooms? Or bird''s nest?


    It''s¡­ Fried rice? What kind of rare fried rice needs to be carefully carried and opened like that?? Maybe that rare mushroom cooked together with the rice? But won''t the nutritional value go away? Rare mushrooms should be stewed or steamed!


    Zhuo Ying had surgery later, so he can''t eat outside the hospital. So he decided to eat at the cafeteria. He''s bored to death with the cafeteria menu. But he needs to eat. The knee replacement surgery needs a lot of energy, it took more than two hours of surgery time.


    When he walked inside, he saw Jian Kang Lu eat alone in the middle of the cafeteria. As usual, many hidden eyes tried to peek at this lucky bastard. As an orthopaedic, Zhuo Ying himself is not bad. It''s like a silent agreement between doctors. The pretty one will apply to dermatology and the handsome one to orthopaedic.


    Internists are usually very old fashioned, ordinary and humble. Just like a bookworm typical kind. But this lucky bastard ignored his invitation to apply for orthopaedic residency and chose internal medicine instead.


    Don''t know what makes this lucky bastard fall in love with internal medicine. It was so boring, and not cool at all. Just look at all medical movies, all of them involving a surgeon. Grey''s anatomy, Doctor Strange, even those local television dramas, all of them will put surgery as their theme. Not a single movie will make an internist as their main lead.


    As a common thing happens in residency, the internal medicine residence''s aura will dim, turning even the most handsome one will turn into an ordinary man. Just look around you, and show me a handsome internist. It''s rare.


    If this lucky bastard is a case journal, definitely it will win the international journal award. Because this lucky bastard''s aura is not dimmed, even with age he still looks dazzling. Zhou Ying looked at himself, and sighed. His body is still maintained well, but his posture will never beat this lucky bastard.


    Luckily this lucky bastard seems not to realise it, and didn''t really like to flaunt around with the cute young intern or fresh delicate female residence. If he does, Zhou Ying will lose his fans club member.


    Zhou Ying chooses his food and brings his tray to sit beside Jian Kang Lu.


    "Brother, it''s so rare to see you having your lunch here."


    Jian Kang Lu raised his head when he heard that familiar voice. Zhou Ying comes from F university, but they start their residency here at the same period. He''s quite close with him. He''s a good surgeon.


    "Mmm.. Do you have surgery later? You''ll only show up here if you have a schedule right after lunch time."


    Zhou Ying looks at the menu in the food container that Jian Kang Lu eats with a very content face.


    ''Fried rice? Why does this man eat fried rice in the food container?''


    "Yes, I have TKR (Total Knee Replacement) later on. I thought you''re eating something fancy. That''s why I sit here, I want to steal something from your lunch box. Is that fried rice really good? Where did you buy it?"


    Zhou Ying honestly thought that fried rice looked like ordinary fried rice. Even the fried rice here in the cafeteria looks more tempting compared to that fried rice. But why does this lucky bastard eat it like the most delicious fried rice in the world?


    After asking that, Zhou Ying was a little bit stunned to see Jian Kang Lu'' expression. This is the first time he saw a smug expression in this lucky bastard''s face. This man always smiles politely, sometimes joking with a teasing face, but never arrogant or presumptuous. Ever.


    At that time Chen Rong also sat beside Jian Kang Lu. He previously asked Jian Kang Lu to have lunch together in the cafe beside the hospital, but his best friend says that he brings his own lunch and wants to eat at the cafeteria. That''s why he eats here too. Chen Rong doesn''t really like to eat alone.


    He also saw this smug face of his best friend. Chen Rong swore even though he saw Jian Kang Lu''s smug face before, but this one definitely the most haughty expression he ever saw.


    "What is this, you bought fried rice from outside to eat it here?" Chen Rong is also clueless to see this ordinary fried rice. He regrets coming here late. He shot a question look at Zhou Ying, but Zhou Ying''s face was also blank.


    Jian Kang Lu said with an immodest tone, "Someone cook this fried rice for me."


    Zhou Ying and Chen Rong have different interpretations. So they comment on two different lines at the same time.


    "Did a pretty cute intern cook it for you?"


    "Did your patient cook it for you?"


    Jian Kang Lu''s expression is now even more snotty. "No, just someone."


    Now both of them are thinking about the same thing. This guy must be trapped in his own spring season.


    "Woah, so our lucky bastard is finally ready to tie a knot?" Zhou Ying said this with an audible voice. All the ears around them perked up high.


    "It''s not like that. It''s just a friend of mine." Now Jian Kang Lu''s tone sounds a bit modest. But Zhou Ying and Chen Rong didn''t believe it.


    "What kind of friend wants to cook for you? Is he a chef? Can I try it? Seems like you really like this fried rice." Chen Rong''s chopstick already moved to try this mysterious fried rice, but Jian Kang Lu hurriedly defended and protected his food container, preventing Chen Rong from tasting it.


    Now it is Chen Rong''s turn to be surprised. His best friend is not a stingy person. He always shares good things he had. How tasty is this fried rice to change his best friend into a cheap person like this. He just wants to taste it a little bit!


    "No, you can''t! This is mine. You have your own lunch, it''s not hygienic to put your chopstick into mine."


    Jian Kang Lu really doesn''t want to share this precious fried rice his kitten cooks for him. His kitten already finished cooking before 6.30 this morning. It means his kitten awake at 5.30 or maybe before that. How could he share his kitten''s hard effort with someone else?


    Chen Rong speechless and gave up. He doesn''t know how divine this fried rice''s taste is to turn his best friend into a petty man like this. "Okay okay, i won''t. But i''m really curious, is she a chef?"


    Jian Kang Lu just answers with ambiguous words while enjoying every grain of his precious fried rice.


    "No, just someone who was willing to cook for me."


    They still threw a bunch of questions during lunch, but Zhou Ying and Chen Rong didn''t manage to pry anything further from this clamped shell.


    Zhou Ying was still curious, so he asked "How about having lunch together again tomorrow? Let''s go to the Japanese restaurant in the next building."


    Jian Kang Lu shook his head, "I can''t promise you. If he cooks lunch for me again tomorrow, then i will decline."


    Zhou Ying and Chen Rong are determined to see what kind of food this mysterious person will cook tomorrow. Jian Kang Lu stated that this person is a he, a man. So maybe their assumption about Jian Kang Lu''s spring is wrong.


    Both of them are also now curious about the taste. They seriously start to wonder maybe this person is a famous chef? Because Jian Kang Lu''s expression when he enjoys this fried rice truly makes someone want to eat it also.


    The next day, both Zhou Ying and Chen Rong message Jian Kang Lu and receive the same answer. Jian Kang Lu will eat at the cafeteria again. Both of them hurriedly finished their morning routine and flew to the cafeteria. They wonder what kind of dishes this mysterious person cooked today.


    When they arrived, the first thing they saw was the food container from before had already changed into a decent lunch box. A stainless steel insulated lunch box. Accompanied with a stainless steel tumbler.


    They saw Jian Kang Lu with the same smug face as yesterday, eating his lunch like eating the most delicious food in the world. Even Chen Rong never saw this kind of expression from Jian Kang Lu no matter where they eat before. No matter how expensive.


    Chen Rong looked at the food inside, it was¡­


    Steamed white rice. Stir fried vegetables. Omelette. And.. What is that? Tofu? Is it supposed to be a stir-fry tofu? But why does it look so¡­. Messy. They can''t even recognise the tofu''s shape.


    Both of them are now just speechless. No matter how wild their imagination, these foods are impossible to buy from outside. No restaurant will approve this kind of stir fry tofu to sell on their menu. And these foods really look ordinary, a home made food, made by someone who definitely doesn''t have talent to be a chef.


    Chen Rong and Zhou Ying are even more confused, who is this man cooked for their friend? At least the menu''s variety improved from fried rice into several dishes. Inside the tumbler is hot honey ginger tea, also made by this mysterious person. That''s what Jian Kang Lu answers when they ask what is inside the tumbler.


    So three of them didn''t talk about this lunch menu again, and just discussed their patient and hospital life.


    That''s how Doctor Jian became famous to pop up everyday in the cafeteria, happily eating his lunch box that filled with ordinary looking food with poor variety. And this mysterious chef already rumoured as a divine chef that cooked rare Chinese delicacies into ordinary home made food.

 Chapter 49 - Birthday Cake

    Bai Yutang is seriously determined to learn how to cook next week. This week he is still busy with his job. But today he finished all his work, and his professor praised him today after he sent the revised presentation layout this morning.


    His professor said this Friday is the last day, and no more job for him. Both of the firms will calculate his total fee first and he will get paid next week. Bai Yutang conveyed his gratitude for his professor. He really learns a lot, equal to doing an internship in a professional firm.


    So this Friday noon he had nothing to do. He intends to learn how to cook from the internet. Maybe he could search for the menu variety for one month first. He''s so ashamed that he made fried rice five times this week.


    Although Jian Kang Lu still shows his happy face and never complains about the food, even when Bai Yutang suffocated with this repeated menu.. He regretted why he offered to cook. He was a bad cook! Instead of helping Jian Kang Lu, Bai Yutang feels like he torture him.


    He was afraid Jian Kang Lu was bored but just didn''t want to offend him. Once he messaged Jian Kang Lu.


    [Jian Ge, do you want to order food for dinner tonight, or you want me to cook?]


    Jian Kang Lu just answered briefly.


    [I''m fine with anything. If you''re tired, you don''t have to cook.]


    Somehow when Bai Yutang saw that message, he just felt that Jian Kang Lu pinpoint that he''s doing nothing the whole day at home. If he didn''t cook, then he''s just a lazy person doing nothing and dares to ask for leniency.


    So he cooked everyday. Breakfast, lunch, and dinner. He still remembers that messed up stir-fry tofu. He wants to eat it by himself and not let Jian Kang Lu taste it. But not only Jian Kang Lu insisted on taste it, he also asked for it to be packed into the lunch box.


    It tastes weird! But Jian Kang Lu always said everything he made tastes good and asks everything he cooked to put inside the lunch box too.


    Everything. No matter how weird it looks, no matter how weird the taste.


    Bai Yutang is seriously thinking maybe Jian Kang Lu has a childhood dream to eat home made food but his mother never cooks for him.


    Bai Yutang bought two lunch boxes and one tumbler from the store near apartment when he realised there were no lunch boxes in this house. That''s why at first he had to settle with the food container from the food delivery before. On Wednesday they do groceries shopping again. They didn''t watch movies because Jian Kang Lu said that groceries shopping is more important.


    After his professor hung up, Bai Yutang checked his phone, and noticed that he had calendar notice. What event he saved for today? He opened it and was stunned. Today is Jian Kang Lu''s birthday! How could he forget it?


    Bai Yutang cursed himself. Jian Kang Lu is the first person to say happy birthday to him this year, and took him to stroll around the night market. It was one of his memorable happy memories.


    And he forgot Jian Kang Lu''s birthday. After all his kindness, Bai Yutang could not be the first person to say happy birthday to him. They even live in the same house!


    Last night he was trying to finish the presentation layout and revise the sketches. He slept at 11 o''clock. He didn''t check the calendar notice this morning because he eagerly wants to finish his task earlier to make sure if there are any revisions, he still has time to finish it.


    Then he cooked.. And he didn''t check his phone again. Jian Kang Lu said nothing this morning, not even showing any different gesture. Was he disappointed with him? Is it too late to say happy birthday now? No matter how, Jian Kang Lu must notice that Bai Yutang forgot that today is his birthday.


    Bai Yutang flopped his body into the sofa in the living room. He really hates himself. He, with his mighty noble thinking that he must repay Jian Kang Lu''s kindness with everything he had, talked big about not wanting to owe anything, but he forgot Jian Kang Lu''s birthday.


    He''s mad with himself.


    He''s disappointed with himself.


    Bai Yutang knows he could not buy any decent birthday gift to Jian Kang Lu, but at least he could be the first person to say happy birthday.


    But he didn''t. Because he forgot.


    Bai Yutang closed his eyes, put both his hands into his eyes, and hated himself. He''s wondering, what can he do to make up for this mistake.


    Maybe.. He can make a birthday cake? Pretending that he only pretends to forget, and gives a surprise later when Jian Kang Lu comes home? Put out the lights, and shout "Happy birthday" while giving him the home made cake?


    Remembering this week, Jian Kang Lu''s face is always happy when he eats his cook, maybe this will make up for his mistake?


    But he never made a cake before¡­ Bai Yutang remembers that Jian Kang Lu is not a big fan of sweets, but still can enjoy the dessert. He could search on the internet, the simple cake that could be made but not too sweet.


    After searching so many recipes, Bai Yutang settled with Lemon Cheesecake. He tried to search for a no bake cake, and turns out there are so many recipes on the internet that allow you to make simple cakes without baking it.


    Bai Yutang bought the ingredients from the groceries store near the apartment. They don''t have a mixer, so Bai Yutang intends to stir it with hand power. He hoped the result was not bad. After many trial and error, he finally could make an edible one in the afternoon.


    He put the cake in the refrigerator, and he remembered he forgot to buy the birthday candles. He hurriedly went downstairs again to buy candles. He seriously thought whether he needed to buy balloons to decorate the apartment. But in the end he didn''t. He''s just too ashamed.


    Bai Yutang knows Jian Kang Lu usually goes home before 9 o''clock. Except Wednesday, from Monday to Friday Jian Kang Lu has an afternoon clinic schedule.


    While waiting, he cooked sausage stir fried with shrimp and baby corn that he learned from the internet today, and wonton soup. He actually bought the instant wonton today in the groceries and only added the water. But next week he''ll try to learn how to cook it properly.


    At 8.30 pm Bai Yutang turned out the lights in the living room and dining room, just letting the lights from outside to peek from the glass door. He waited nervously. The time feels like flowing in the slow motion mode. He already prepared his surprise birthday line. The cake was already put in the living room, the candles ready to light up when Jian Kang Lu arrived.


    He waited, and waited.. But Jian Kang Lu didn''t show up.


    Bai Yutang checks his mobile phone, it''s already 9 o''clock. No messages from Jian Kang Lu. Bai Yutang wanted to call to ask. Jian Kang Lu never comes home more than 9 o''clock. Last year, or this week, he always comes home before nine.


    Considering Jian Kang Lu''s personality, if he comes home late he must let Bai Yutang know. Message, or call. He won''t let Bai Yutang wait for him, because they will have dinner together.


    While Bai Yutang ponders, he suddenly realizes, ''Wait.. Why am I confidently thinking that Jian Ge must be telling me? Who am I? I''m just someone he kindly offered to stay here because I have no money. I have to wait for him, but he didn''t need to wait for me.''


    Bai Yutang is ashamed of his overconfidence. But he can''t help to feel disappointed.


    And sad.


    And even he doesn''t want to, but he also feel... Angry.


    It''s already 9.30 pm. Still no messages or calls. Bai Yutang finally calls Jian Kang Lu. Not because he''s hungry or because he needs to know where he is. But he started to worry. How if something bad happened to Jian Ge?


    He calls three times. And no answer. The call went through, but no one answered.


    ''Is he mad at me because I forgot his birthday?''


    ''Is he okay? How if something bad happened?''


    Bai Yutang now knows how Jian Kang Lu felt when he didn''t answer his calls when he disappeared for two months. He regrets it so bad.


    It''s only a few hours, but he already feels so restless. Worried. Sad. All those feelings mixed together. And the worst part is, Bai Yutang knows no one he could contact to ask whether Jian Kang Lu is okay.


    He doesn''t know anyone''s contact who can connect him with Jian Kang Lu.


    He finally tried to call the hospital. He searched for the hospital number from the internet. When connected, the operator said that the kidney clinic is closed already since 8 pm. He needs to register on Monday morning if he needs to go to the clinic.


    Bai Yutang doesn''t even realise he''s still waiting in the middle of darkness, only accompanied by the dim light from outside. He regrets he never asks for more information about Jian Kang Lu. He feel so helpless, and so stupid.


    Jian Kang Lu was always attentive to him, but he never did the same.


    Jian Kang Lu always protects him, but he never does the same.


    Jian Kang Lu always takes care of him, but he never does the same.


    Jian Kang Lu always knows what to do. While he always regrets the things he never did.


    It''s already 11.45 pm¡­ No messages. No calls. Nothing.


    Bai Yutang didn''t try to call Jian Kang Lu again. He thought, if Jian Kang Lu saw those tons of missed calls and the messages he sent, Jian Kang Lu would reply immediately if he could, or if he wanted.


    Bai Yutang thought maybe Jian Kang Lu was having a birthday party somewhere with his friends. But why didn''t he tell him anything.


    All his thought rounding back into the loop. Again and again in his mind.


    ''Is he mad at me because I forgot his birthday?''


    ''Is he okay? How if something bad happened?''


    This day will be over. There''s no meaning saying happy birthday again. The birthday is over. And he didn''t say it.


    Again.


    Just like last year, he missed Jian Kang Lu''s birthday.


    Bai Yutang didn''t realise his eyes welled up with tears. He feels helpless, he feels worried, he feels angry.


    But most of all.. This is the first time Jian Kang Lu makes him feel like he was nothing. He feels like he was an insignificant being. Exactly like he thought about himself.


    Before, no matter how low he thought about himself in the past two months, Jian Kang Lu always raised his pride again. Praise him again and again. Let him hold on to his scattered dignity.


    And now, he feels unwanted.


    Jian Kang Lu promised him that he''ll never be alone.


    But here right now in the darkness, Bai Yutang sits alone.


    No Jian Kang Lu here, who asked to put the trust in him.


    His eyes felt tired, he just realised he was crying. He laughs and mocks himself. Why did he cry? He was nothing. He was not important. Does crying make him turn into something important? Bai Yutang just realised that he depends on Jian Kang Lu so much.


    He wiped his tears. But he can''t stop it from welled up again, and flows silently from his eyes. He can''t even tell himself to stop crying.


    It''s already 1 o''clock.. He''s tired. He just slept for five hours last night. He woke up at 4 o''clock to make breakfast for Jian Kang Lu. Because yesterday''s morning menu is quite complicated for him to cook.


    He looked at the cake he made. It already warmed up. It should be served cold. The shape is ruined, because the cream he stirred today is not perfectly battered up. But he had no energy to put the cake back into the refrigerator. He just sits there, silently, in the dark, grip his mobile phone tight.


    He didn''t know when, but he fell asleep.


    He''s awoken with someone''s touch. Awoken by someone''s embrace. He knows this feeling, the feeling that always makes him feel safe. The warmth feeling that always makes him feel secure. The feeling that makes him feel.. Glad¡­


    Makes him feel like nothing will go wrong in this world as long as this person holds him.


    This someone holds him tight, and Bai Yutang feels like something warm and soft touches his hairline in his temples. With a hoarse gentle voice, with a hint of regret.


    "I''m sorry, TangTang, I''m sorry.. I''m sorry I made you wait for so long."


    "I''m sorry¡­"

 Chapter 50 - A Long Night

    Jian Kang Lu finished his practice 15 minutes before 8 pm. The nurses agreed to reduce today''s patient because they know today is Doctor Jian''s birthday. They bring a small cake and sing happy birthday to him.


    Jian Kang Lu eats so many cakes today. Luckily they all bought the small one, and only gave him small pieces to eat. Or else he can''t eat anything else today except birthday cake. The rest of the cake will be divided into themselves.


    The resident and ward nurses give him cake in the morning. The nephrology division gave him cake at noon, and now the clinic nurses also give him cake at night. As usual, he promised to take them all to have dinner next Friday. This year''s destination is a hotpot restaurant near the hospital.


    Today, he just wants to go home sooner.. He missed his kitten.


    After saying thank you and talking for a while with them, Jian Kang Lu''s phone rings. It was from the ER.


    Jian Kang Lu frowned, today is not his on call duty. Even if the person on duty didn''t answer, it should be his junior''s duty to answer. The ER doctors and residents know the rules.


    Jian Kang Lu answered the phone. He knows it must be something urgent and important if they call him when he''s not on duty.


    After he heard the anxious resident''s explanation, he understood. He excuse himself from the nurses. And run to the ER. He put his phone to his bag, and wear his coat again. He straightly go to the resuscitation room and examine the patient.


    The patient is a VVIP patient. Super VVIP. She was the daughter of someone who holds a high position in this country. Her husband is also a VVIP person. Having the whole family as an important person in this country, it was understandable they demand the best treatment.


    This patient is under Professor Kang Wen''s surveillance, his head of nephrology division. The patient was having a kidney transplantation four years ago. It was a success procedure, but her main disease is Lupus. An autoimmune disease with many manifestations and complications.


    This patient has her own medical team, because Lupus can affect her whole body. From the brain, skin, lungs, heart, kidney, blood vessel, everywhere. Until now, the modern medical knowledge still has no cure for autoimmune disease, especially this particular complicated disease.


    Some people have mild manifestations, some are heavy. Some are mild for years, then have flare suddenly. It usually affects young females, and heavily influences their physical and psychological state.


    When Jian Kang Lu arrived, the rheumatology and cardiology department leader was already there. The patient is having neuropsychiatric manifestations, and also the cardiac manifestations. Her heart is filled with excess fluid that needs to be drained. The problem is, the kidney function also shows rapid failure.


    They need to discuss which procedure needs to be done first, especially with the kidney failure again after transplantation. Jian Kang Lu understands why he needs to be summoned here. Time is important, and Professor Kang Wen could not be reached immediately.


    The patient''s moved into the ICU. All the procedures will be done there. They agreed they will delay the heart procedure, and treat the lupus flare first with IVIG (Intravenous Immunoglobulin) therapy and high dose immunosuppressant.


    The medication is already administered in ER, and later she will have CRRT (Continuous Renal Replacement Therapy) in the ICU. They also prepare the ventilator machine in case the patient starts to show respiratory failure signs.


    Jian Kang Lu already instructed and set the machine prepared. But they still need to wait until the IVIG and the immunosuppressant are finished. From the discussion they agreed to have CRRT start 6 hours after the medication.


    After finishing all the instructions and reporting it to Professor Kang Wen, Jian Kang Lu just realised his bag was still in the ER. He hasn''t told his kitten yet that he will be late today. It''s already 10.15 pm.


    Jian Kang Lu just hoped that his kitten didn''t wait for him and have his dinner first.


    While he walked back to the ER, he met Professor Zhang Wu walking to the ICU direction. His face is really anxious and looks so tired. Jian Kang Lu also saw Zhang Min''s wife. They were escorting a patient''s bed, pushed by the nurses into the ICU.


    Jian Kang Lu''s heart stopped for a second. He knows who this patient is.


    It was Zhang Min.


    Zhang Min must have another episode. He was admitted into ICU several times before. But years ago, usually Jian Kang Lu always accompanied him. Sending him into ICU with Professor Zhang Wu. Now it was Zhang Min''s wife duty. Not his anymore.


    Zhang Min had an arrhythmia condition, sometimes his heart would beat irregularly and very fast. Actually it was not life threatening, like several times told by the cardiologist to him and his family. But every time he has his episodes, his blood pressure will increase, he''ll puke, and faint.


    No father in this world will just leave his son in that condition. Who could guarantee that today''s episode is not life threatening. So every time Zhang Min has episodes, he is always admitted into ICU.


    Even though the cardiologist said it was not life threatening, the patient who had it really suffered. The heart felt like it would stop at any moment, their vision darkened, their whole body turned cold, and it was frightening.


    So because of that, Zhang Min''s anxiety emerged. He was sometimes afraid to do something that restrained his heart too much. He also starts having paranoia about all diseases related to his heart or blood vessel.


    The worst thing above all, Zhang Min is very smart. So he will analyse every disease that could have similar symptoms with him. Deep inside his heart, he could not accept that his disease is ''only a mild arrhythmia, it''s not life threatening.''


    People who are already envious with this golden boy, mock him more behind him.


    "Don''t think about it too much."


    "Don''t work too much, or later you will have another episode."


    "It must be because you haven''t married yet, why don''t you look for a wife. It will reduce your stress and your episode will decrease."


    "You''re already very lucky, why are you still stressed out?"


    "Your condition is only stress, why do you have to think too much about other diseases?"


    Zhang Min is a very smart and diligent person. Even with his heart condition, and those anxiety depression that haunted his daily life, he still managed to be one of the most promising oncologists like his father.


    His research got international recognition, his patients also love this gentle and funny doctor. Zhang Min always smiles and laughs a lot in front of his patients. After all, cancer patients are also depressed with their own disease, so he tried to amuse them and alleviate their suffering.


    That''s why Jian Kang Lu used to love this man so much. And do anything for Zhang Min''s happiness.


    But Zhang Min in the end gave up.


    Zhang Min loves his parents so much, he could not reject his father''s request to see him get married. He could not admit to his parents that he was gay. He was the only child. He doesn''t have any heart to let his father down.


    But he also can''t let Jian Kang Lu go. Zhang Min told him, the only thing who can let him get through his anxiety and depression is because Jian Kang Lu stayed by his side.


    Jian Kang Lu could not say no to him. So he was waiting in the apartment when Zhang Min went into his blind date. He was waiting in the apartment every Saturday night when Zhang Min regularly met this woman. He was waiting in the apartment when Zhang Min and his family proposed to this woman.


    Jian Kang Lu even attended their engagement four years ago.


    He gave Zhang Min an ultimatum since the first time Zhang Min told him that he decided to have a blind date. Jian Kang Lu clearly stating, he could not be a hidden guy who fuck him in the dark while Zhang Min have a wife waiting at home. It was not fair for Jian Kang Lu, and cruelly unfair for his wife to be.


    He could not agree with this, but he''ll stay with him until he gets married. As a best friend.


    Because deep inside, Jian Kang Lu still hopes that Zhang Min will choose him.


    Zhang Min married her three years ago. That''s when Jian Kang Lu resolutely not received his phone call again, nor replied to his messages, except patient''s related.


    He''s trying so hard. But Zhang Min still did not choose him in the end. So he gave up.


    They still talk to each other, appear like a best friend just like before. After all, Zhang Min told him that it was weird if best friends suddenly become cold after the other one gets married. Zhang Min was really afraid if someone knew that he was gay.


    But Jian Kang Lu draws a distinct line between real best friend and pretend to be best friend. They were not best friends after all, they were lovers who broke up. Just to have a chit chat in the hospital is fine. But Jian Kang Lu refused to meet him outside the hospital, or anything else not related to the hospital''s matter.


    When Professor Zhang Wu saw Jian Kang Lu, he called him immediately and held his hand. Jian Kang Lu, who used to be his student and received a lot of help from him, had to politely greet him and couldn''t refuse when Professor Zhang Wu dragged him back into the ICU.


    In the eyes of Zhang Wu, Jian Kang Lu is his son''s best friend. The one who had his son''s trust, and a very promising doctor. He likes his son''s best friend so much. Jian Kang Lu is always calm, and manages to get Zhang Min calm too, relieving his episodes faster.


    When his son''s episode is relieved faster, that will relieve his heavy heart faster also.


    So when he stressed out tonight because of his son''s episode, and his daughter in law kept crying and panicking, he saw Jian Kang Lu as an oasis. He needs someone to talk, to get his heavy heart lightened.


    And he always likes to talk with Jian Kang Lu. When this young man often comes to his house before to visit Zhang Min, they will talk about many things. It was very satisfying to talk with a person with wide knowledge.


    Why can''t Jian Kang Lu run away?


    First, he respects Professor Zhang Wu so much. Second, he knows Professor Zhang Wu is under a lot of pressure tonight, and needs someone to calm him down. Third, it was not polite to cut the conversation when your teacher is still talking to you.


    In the doctor''s circle, the most important three rules that a doctor has to hold is, attitude, attitude, and attitude.


    Skills could be trained to master. Knowledge could be taught to learn. But attitude is something you are born with and very hard to change. So it was a very basic thing to respect your superior, appreciate your colleague, and guide your junior.


    Thus Jian Kang Lu was trapped there, listening to Professor Zhang Wu for almost two hours. He even politely talks to Zhang Min''s wife and calms her down too.


    Zhang Min is conscious, and looks at him. But Zhang Min also didn''t let him go. Zhang Min even remembered what today means to him and said happy birthday to him, which led to an even longer conversation with Professor Zhang Wu and Zhang Min''s wife.


    Jian Kang Lu is very anxious, he only hopes his kitten just has his dinner and goes to bed early.


    When Zhang Min''s condition was stable, he finally released Jian Kang Lu, saying that it was very late and he needed to go home and rest.


    Jian Kang Lu relieved, he politely said goodbye to them and ran as fast as he could to fetch his bag. He also very tired. It''s already 30 minutes past midnight. He relieved his bag in the ER was still held by his resident there. He look at his mobile phone, it was run out of battery.


    Jian Kang Lu is just straight driving home. He''s exhausted physically and mentally. He just wants to go to sleep when he reaches home, so tomorrow he could spend his time with his kitten with a fresh face and mind.


    He reaches home at 1.15 in the morning. When he opened the door, he saw a dark living room. But the dimmed light from outside illuminates a shape in the sofa. He tried to adjust his vision in the dark and focus his tired eyes.


    He saw his kitten fall asleep on the sofa.


    He saw a.. cake? There''s something shaped like a cake upon the table.


    He saw things shaped like candles scattered around his kitten''s hand, and also his kitten''s mobile phone.


    Regret washed over him like the tidal wave on a stormy beach. Each wave was icy cold and sent shivers down to his spine. Remorseful. Guilty.


    His heart felt like it was stabbed by a rigged knife, and the pain formed felt even greater because he knew that it was his fault. He made his kitten wait for him.


    He, who asked his kitten to put his trust in him, made his kitten waiting in the dark. Alone.


    Jian Kang Lu walked in silent, collected the scattered candles and his kitten''s mobile phone and put it on the table. Then he held his kitten. He lamented his own recklessness, neglecting his precious kitten. He was so mad with himself, and distressed to hold his kitten skinny body.


    He could only say his regret, again and again. He could feel his kitten eyes a little bit swollen and damp. Seeing his kitten''s tears fall because of him, really made Jian Kang Lu hate himself.


    He just embraced his kitten, could only say "I''m sorry" all over again, and can''t hold himself to land his lips in his kitten''s temples. Near those salty skin tainted by his kitten''s tears. Tried to erase his own guilt, tried to erase his kitten''s sorrow.


    He wished he could turn back time.


    "I''m sorry, TangTang, I''m sorry.. I''m sorry I made you wait for so long."


    "I''m sorry¡­"

 Chapter 51 - Chang’e Goddess

    Last night felt like a dream for Bai Yutang. He could not differentiate which one is real and which one is his own illusion. All he could remember is he stupidly cried last night because he could not contact Jian Ge.


    It seems like Jian Ge held him and kissed his temples and his forehead last night? It seems that he also holds Jian Ge back? It seems that he cried again in Jian Ge''s shoulder? But how did he awoke in his own bed this morning?


    It was already 8 o''clock in the morning when he finally opened his eyes and still can''t decide which one is reality and which one is his dream. Bai Yutang knows he needs to make breakfast, but he is still dazed in his bed.


    If it was only a dream, why did he dream about holding Jian Ge tight like he doesn''t want to let him go?


    If it was not a dream, then what will Jian Ge think about him?


    This was the first time Bai Yutang felt something like this, and he was very confused. He doesn''t know what to do. After ten minutes silently dazed staring at the ceiling, he finally woke up and slowly opened the door.


    Whether it was just a dream or reality, he''s staying here for free and he already promised to prepare breakfast everyday..


    Bai Yutang didn''t see Jian Ge in the living room. Now he was confused, maybe it was only a dream, and Jian Ge didn''t go home last night. He checked Jian Ge''s shoes, and it was there.


    It means Jian Ge is still sleeping. It seems he really came home very late last night. He must be very tired.


    Bai Yutang decided to cook something light. He was thinking maybe Jian Ge had a birthday party last night and got drunk. So he made gingered lemon tea too.


    While he thought about maybe Jian Ge got drunk and had a party without him, he felt a dark feeling silently creeping inside his heart and turned his mood into sour. He knows he''s a bit weird lately. Maybe he will try to search on the internet. What kind of disease he has.


    Post Traumatic Stress Disorder? Maybe his father''s death had a bigger impact on his mental health more than he thought.


    While Bai Yutang boiled the egg, Jian Kang Lu already woke up and looked at him cooking. He still felt remorse inside his heart, regretting his irresponsible act last night.


    Bai Yutang felt like someone was watching his back, so he turned around. When he saw Jian Ge''s face, his heart beat faster again.


    He abruptly turned back, and lowered his head, tried to focus his eyes into the eggs instead. He really really really doesn''t understand. What the hell is happening with him??? He turned into a weird person.


    Then Bai Yutang felt his hand enveloped by a warm touch. Jian Ge holding his hand and looking at him. Bai Yutang could not raise his head to see Jian Ge, nor let go of his grip. Five parts are feeling shy, five parts of him also feel he doesn''t want to let his hands go.


    Bai Yutang felt his face is hot, he definitely won''t raise his head up or else Jian Ge will see his face blushing red like a monkey''s butt.


    "TangTang, can we talk?"


    This is the first time Bai Yutang heard Jian Ge''s regretful voice. His voice is low, and nervous.


    Bai Yutang could only nod his head. Then Jian Ge led him to sit in the chair in the dining room.


    Jian Ge slowly explained about last night. Why he didn''t call Bai Yutang, nor why he can''t answer the calls.


    "I''m sorry to make you worried, TangTang. It''s my fault. You have every right to be mad and disappointed with me. But I really hope you can forgive me. I could not promise things like this won''t happen again, but I''ll try my best not to repeat this irresponsible act of mine."


    Then Jian Ge said, "Can you forgive me?" with a pleading voice and anxious face.


    The whole time, Bai Yutang could not raise his face. Not because he''s mad. When he heard Jian Ge''s explanation, he even felt like he was very childish, foolish, and stupid. But he can''t help but be relieved, and glad to know Jian Ge didn''t intend to abandon him. He wasn''t mad at him. Didn''t forget him.


    Bai Yutang could not raise his face because he''s too ashamed, and his heart was still beating so fast. It won''t calm down at all!!! Especially when Jian Ge holds his hand all the time when he explains what happened last night, and sometimes Bai Yutang also feels those soft fingers caress his own.


    So he could only nod and hide his red face.


    Jian Kang Lu was relieved to see his kitten nod. Even though he could not see his kitten''s expression, at least his kitten didn''t seem mad with him. At least not as mad as he imagined. He''s really afraid his kitten left him because of his recklessness last night.


    "What can i do to make you feel better?" Jian Kang Lu asked.


    Suddenly Bai Yutang remembered the cake he made, and he didn''t say happy birthday at all! He abruptly raised his head.


    "Jian Ge, happy birthday. I didn''t intend to say it late, I thought I wanted to surprise you. But I''m sorry, I should say it early yesterday''s morning instead of delaying it."


    Bai Yutang shamelessly didn''t want to admit that he actually forgot. Anyway, Jian Ge made him wait last night, so it was break even.


    On the other hand, this is truly a big blow to Jian Kang Lu. He regretted last night even more. His kitten already spent so much effort to celebrate his birthday, but he let his kitten down. He even felt more guilty right now.


    "Yes¡­ It doesn''t matter. I''m sorry TangTang. Did you still allow me to taste the cake?"


    Bai Yutang nods, and takes the cake from the refrigerator. He actually didn''t know how this cake was placed inside the refrigerator again. Maybe Jian Ge put it here last night.


    He put the cake on the dining table, and remembered the candles. Where the hell is it?


    "I bought candles too, but I don''t remember where i put it last night." Bai Yutang honestly admits it, even though his face is burning from shame.


    Jian Kang Lu stood up and took the candles from the drawer in the living room. He gave it to Bai Yutang.


    Bai Yutang arranges and lights it. He said, "Happy Birthday, Jian Ge. I hope your wishes come true, and you''ll always be happy."


    Jian Kang Lu looked at his kitten. Inside, he was thinking.


    ''My wishes already come true, and you make me very happy. I do hope we can stay like this. Together. Until the end of time.''


    Then he blew the candles.


    Bai Yutang prepared the breakfast, and they ate the breakfast and the cake as dessert together. Bai Yutang''s mood already brightened, especially when Jian Ge praised his home made cake and told him no one ever made a birthday cake for him before.


    When his kitten asked him about the patient last night. Jian Kang Lu hides the fact that Zhang Min is actually his ex lover. He only said Zhang Min is his colleague and his father is one of the teachers he respected the most.


    Jian Kang Lu then said, this morning he still needs to go to the hospital. He is already a bit late, but it doesn''t really matter. Jian Kang Lu offered Bai Yutang to go with him, and later they can have lunch together outside, and go outside. Where ever Bai Yutang wants to go.


    Jian Kang Lu feels afraid that if he left his kitten alone again this morning, he will come back to an empty apartment again. Afraid his kitten will run away from him, disgusted with him.


    Bai Yutang was tempted, he remembered how devastated he felt last night because he could not contact anyone to ask Jian Ge''s whereabouts. But he feels uneasy. He didn''t feel confident enough with himself. Why does he have to feel confidence to go to Jian Kang Lu''s place of work? He also didn''t know.


    "Do you still have work to do? Or if you don''t want to go to the hospital with me, it''s fine. I''ll pick you later to have lunch outside."


    Bai Yutang hurriedly shook his head. He really feels weird today. What''s going on with him. He finally surrendered to his own desire. And as usual, following Jian Ge''s suggestion. He can''t let Jian Ge go back to the apartment just to pick him up.


    "Okay, Jian Ge. I''ll take a bath first."


    Bai Yutang was really glad that Jian Ge bought him clothes last week. At least he won''t look so shabby. He wears his new clothes and shoes. Even though the clothes are a bit loose hanging in his skinny body, it still raises his appearance from miserable into acceptable. He actually already gained a bit of weight from his regular meal during this time he stayed with Jian Ge, but it was still not significant enough.


    Jian Kang Lu drove happily to the hospital. This is the first time he''s going to work accompanied by someone he likes. He doesn''t know that just going to work with his kitten could make him so happy like this. He glanced multiple times to make sure that this is not his illusion.


    He feels like a true genius lately! He just suggested Bai Yutang to accompany him because he felt guilty leaving Bai Yutang alone yesterday, and afraid his kitten would run away from him. But who knows that this actually made him very happy instead.


    But why does his kitten look nervous?


    When they arrived at the hospital, Bai Yutang was confused, where should he wait? In the car?


    Jian Kang Lu answered him, "You could follow me and wait in the nurse''s station. Or you want to wait in the cafe inside the hospital?"


    "Is it okay for me following you, Jian Ge?" Bai Yutang is really nervous now.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, "Of course, why not? You won''t interfere with my visit, and it''s not like you want to steal patient''s information."


    Thus the residents who were already nervously waiting for their Living Buddha, who late for the first time ever in their Saturday morning round, saw this skinny young man who they never saw before following their Living Buddha.


    Doctor Jian never brought someone before. His brother? Cousin? Medical faculty''s student?"


    Jian Kang Lu straightly introduces them shortly. Introduces Bai Yutang to the nurses also, and politely asks them to accompany Bai Yutang while Jian Kang Lu does the morning round.


    Usually doctors never bring someone to their ward visit. Sometimes they bring their children if they can''t let the children alone at home. Very rare, they bring their spouse to introduce them to their working environment. But for doctors to bring their young friend, the nurses and residence never saw this happened before.


    The residents don''t care, as long as their Living Buddha came and prepared them for the hellish Monday round. Gossip can wait. Now they need to hold this Living Buddha thighs first. And not letting him run away before they squeezed everything.


    So Bai Yutang left there, answering the nurses wave of questions. Sometimes he peeks at Jian Kang Lu, and his admiration for this outstanding man just increases even more. He could see Jian Kang Lu is really smart. He''s also very good at explaining things, and all of them here look like they really admire him too.


    After thirty minutes, when Jian Kang Lu had already gone to visit the patients in the ward with his residents, one of the young nurses asked him, "Did you ever meet Doctor Jian''s girlfriend?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "All i know, Jian Ge is single. I never saw or heard he had a girlfriend."


    Somehow, he suddenly hates this nurse. He can see that this nurse looks at Jian Ge with a yearning look. And he also doesn''t like to hear Jian Ge have a girlfriend.


    "It''s weird, lately Doctor Jian seems to be dating a lot. His today''s outfit also looks like he''ll be going on another date later." Said the other young nurse.


    Now Bai Yutang hates both of them. "Mmm.. Never heard Jian Ge said he wanted to have a date before."


    "True true, I think it''s already been one year? Doctor Jian never reveals his Chang''e Goddess name or looks, but sometimes he says he wants to have a date with his Chang''e Goddess." The number one nurse Bai Yutang hates answering her friend.


    Now Bai Yutang is also curious, how come Jian Ge never mentioned he wanted to go on a date? He always said he was single and didn''t have anyone to accompany him. Did Jian Ge lie to him? Or Jian Ge lied to these girls? Bai Yutang can''t help but ask, "When is the last time Jian Ge said he went to date?"


    The nurses seemed to ponder and tried to remember, the other nurses said behind them, "I think it''s already months since Doctor Jian went on a date. Lately his face is not as bright as before. Maybe he already broke up?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t know why he felt sour and glad at the same time. He really didn''t like to hear a thing that he doesn''t know about Jian Ge. He thought Jian Ge was honest with him, but how if he really has a girlfriend?


    Even though he doesn''t know why, he is glad to hear that Jian Ge already broke up. But why did Jian Ge have to lie to him? In either way, he really doesn''t like to hear the words Jian Ge and girlfriend together in one sentence.


    The number two nurse Bai Yutang hate was said, "Yeah, I guess you''re right. Maybe almost half a year ago is the last time Doctor Jian wore his date outfit like today."


    "Mm.. I remember now. The last time Doctor Jian said he''s going with his Chang''e Goddess is months ago. I remember I asked whether he''s having another date and Doctor Jian said he will have dinner later at night with his Goddess in Korean restaurant. I remember because I tried that Korean restaurant Doctor Jian recommended with my boyfriend the next week. And it was really good!" The other nurse popped up from behind the desk.


    Bai Yutang was curious, and asked "What is the restaurant name?"


    "It was B restaurant in the T building." The nurse answered.


    Now Bai Yutang is stunned, so Jian Ge also takes this girlfriend to the restaurant they like? Bai Yutang remembers he treated Jian Ge there in May before he was having his final exam. But why does he feel something weird here?


    Bai Yutang asked again, "When is it? May?"


    "I took a photo there, wait let me check. The nurse said. Then she rummaged through her mobile phone, and said again, "I was going there in the first week of June, so yes Doctor Jian''s date is in May. How do you know? So tell us, is Doctor Jian still with his Chang''e Goddess or broke up already? Oh.. How i wish they could make it. Which girl doesn''t want to be Doctor Jian''s lover?"


    Now Bai Yutang is really speechless. Why he has a premonition that the Chang''e Goddess they talked about is¡­ Him???

 Chapter 52 - Reunion

    Jian Kang Lu''s happiness gradually turned into trepidation. His kitten''s eyes seemed unfocused, and his expression dazed away. He notices that since they have lunch together with his residents.


    Maybe his kitten is still angry with him, and even angrier now? Maybe his kitten feels neglected when he gives pointers to his residents? Or is there something bothering his kitten''s mind? But Jian Kang Lu was too afraid to ask.


    When Jian Kang Lu finished his round and his residents said goodbye to him and his kitten, his kitten just stared blankly and impolitely not returned their words. This is not his kitten''s habit at all.


    His kitten just startled, and hurriedly bowed to his residents with a flushed face after Jian Kang Lu nudged his hand to walk out from the restaurant. He didn''t seem to listen to all the words said to him before.


    His kitten also stared blankly and didn''t answer him when he asked where his kitten wanted to go to spend this Saturday afternoon. Jian Kang Lu feels at loss. He doesn''t know how to make his kitten alright again..


    And it''s very rare for him to feel at loss. His kitten is the only one who made him like a clueless person. So finally he just suggested they stroll to B park. They just walked for one hour, strolling in silence.


    But no matter what, even with this awkward mute surrounding them, he still delighted. At least he still can spend his time together with his kitten. Sometimes Jian Kang Lu peek at his kitten, just to make sure this is not his dream.


    Jian Kang Lu then asks his kitten, "TangTang, where do you want to go for dinner?"


    Five seconds passed without any response from his kitten. Jian Kang Lu repeated his questions in a louder voice. Maybe his kitten didn''t hear him clearly. Even though the park was not crowded, but still there''s birds chirping around them, and few people converse with louder voices.


    After a few times asking and still hearing no response from his kitten, Jian Kang Lu was worried. HIs hand moved instinctively and held his kitten''s hand to turn his attention to him. Or maybe Jian Kang Lu just wanted to hold his kitten''s hand, preventing his kitten from running away from him.


    His kitten jumped and answered him with a stammered speech.


    "A-a-anywhere!"


    Jian Kang Lu helplessly stares at his kitten. They''re back to the car, and Jian Kang Lu drives his car to the french restaurant in W hotel. He never took his kitten here before. Jian Kang Lu hoped to see his kitten''s eyes brightened like he used to every time they went to an intricate building.


    But for the whole dinner, his kitten didn''t want to look at him, and just stare at his plate. Nod sometimes, answered shortly. Jian Kang Lu just prayed silently that his kitten will forgive him soon.


    Jian Kang Lu tried to initiate conversation with his kitten, whatever comes to his mind, he will ask. Deep inside, maybe he wanted to remind his kitten that he was here, trying to make everything right again. Asking for forgiveness.


    "TangTang, do you want to come with me to my family lunch tomorrow?"


    His kitten stared at him with a blanked face, and shook his head.


    "Or maybe we can go out tomorrow, watch some movies? Or do you want to go somewhere else?"


    His kitten looked confused, "Don''t you have your family lunch tomorrow, Jian Ge?"


    "I don''t have to come, i can go with you tomorrow."


    His kitten reject firmly, even refuting him in an absolute manner when Jian Kang Lu said that.


    "No no, don''t cancel your family lunch, Jian Ge!"


    Jian Kang Lu was lost, what else should he say?


    "Then, what are you planning for tomorrow, alone in the apartment?"


    His kitten dazed for a moment, then said he wanted to contact his friend again, visit them in the dorm. Jian Kang Lu was surprised, but immediately said he would send his kitten to their dorm and pick him up again later in the night.


    After a back and forth argument, his kitten surrendered and finally complied. Honestly, Jian Kang Lu just wants to make sure he knows his kitten whereabout all the time. He truly traumatised with those two months he spent without his kitten''s presence.


    Even Jian Kang Lu didn''t know he could turn into a person like this.


    On the other hand, Bai Yutang can''t help thinking about what the nurses said. All his mind is muddled. He really doesn''t understand what he feels right now.


    Calculating the time, it should be him referred as the Chang''e Goddess by Jian Kang Lu and these nurses. He asked them several times and tried to match the timeline.


    Like the first time Jian Kang Lu said he had a date one year ago. The nurses said it was the only time Jian Kang Lu did Saturday round early in the morning and finished early, because he wanted to have a date with the Chang''e Goddess. Bai Yutang calculated, and it was similar to the time they went together for the first time.


    But it was only a stroll in the shopping mall to buy a gift for Jian Kang Lu colleague''s son, and then a lunch. It''s not a date!


    Inside his jumbled thoughts. There is one part shocked, three part glad, two part curious, three part uneasy, and one part¡­ Happy?


    Shocked because why Jian Kang Lu referred him as Chang''e Goddess to these nurses?


    Glad because.. Jian Kang Lu didn''t have a girlfriend. But why does he feel glad?


    Curious, whether his guess is right or turns out Jian Kang Lu really has a date with someone else?


    Uneasy. How if Jian Kang Lu really had a girlfriend out there?


    Happy. He also doesn''t know why he feels happy¡­


    Bai Yutang really thinks there''s something wrong with him.


    That''s why, when Jian Kang Lu offered to accompany him to his family Sunday lunch, Bai Yutang refused. He thinks he really needs to clear his mind, and the only one way to clear his mind is to retract himself from Jian Kang Lu.


    He also remembers, he hasn''t contacted his friends. He needed to apologize to them. So when he finished the dessert, Bai Yutang sent messages to his group chat.


    [Hello.. First this humble slave wants to apologise for my childish behaviour. If allowed, I want to meet you guys tomorrow. Do you guys want to forgive me?]


    Bai Yutang waited for their answers with a heavy feeling in his heart. What if they don''t want to forgive him? He sighed, and could only try to gain their trust back slowly.


    His friends replied, and the group chat soon filled with their curses. But between those curses, Bai Yutang smiled and was really glad to see his friends also worried with him. So they agreed to meet at the dorm tomorrow, at Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang''s room. Yu Dong now has a new room mate.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled to see his kitten''s soul seem to have drifted back to the earth after wandering around. Thus he concludes that today''s weird behaviour from his kitten is due to his guilt to his friends. Maybe his kitten was too anxious to apologise, not knowing whether his friend wanted to meet him or not.


    When Bai Yutang reaches home and takes a shower. He was still confused with himself. After bath, he laid back on his bed, staring at the city''s light outside, flickered like hundreds of lanterns floating in the blue darkness.


    The memory of his conversation with Mu Xiaoya sprang into his mind. Those memories mortified him.


    Why did those girls see him and Jian Ge as a couple?


    Why does Jian Ge refer to him as Chang''e Goddess?


    Why does he prefer the Chang''e Goddess to be him rather than someone else?


    And with those shameful thoughts, Bai Yutang shuddered when he realised he involuntarily imagined Jian Kang Lu''s face, and his heart beat faster when he pictured how Jian Kang Lu always looked at him gently with that sweet smile.


    He pressed his hand into his eyes. He wants to laugh.


    Is this because he admired Jian Kang Lu so much?


    Is this because Jian Kang Lu is the most important person in his life right now?


    Is this because he owes Jian Kang Lu for all his acts to help him stand back on his feet?


    Is this because he depends on Jian Kang Lu more than he should?


    Or.. Is it because he likes Jian Kang Lu?


    It never occurs in his mind that he will have this kind of unspeakable, disgraceful thought. He feels dirty.


    With so many things muddling his brain, Bai Yutang can''t sleep well. In the morning, he just silently makes breakfast, egg toast and banana juice. He didn''t have energy to make complicated breakfast.


    He also doesn''t want to see Jian Kang Lu. That''s why today he''s glad that his friend wants to meet him. He''s afraid, the more he sees Jian Kang Lu, the more this filthy seed in his mind will grow. And he was afraid that when Jian Kang Lu noticed his dirty mind, Jian Kang Lu would abandon him, disgusted with him.


    That''s why Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten is so lifeless this morning. Didn''t even raise his face even once to see him, and only answered his question with a short sentence. Jian Kang Lu tried to comfort himself, this is only because his kitten is nervous to see his friend.


    Jian Kang Lu hoped today went well, so his kitten could be back to his usual self. Silently, he sent messages to his kitten''s friends. Asking them to go easy with Bai Yutang and didn''t pestering him more than they should.


    Jian Kang Lu also privately said to Yu Dong, not to let Bai Yutang leave his sight until Jian Kang Lu picked Bai Yutang later at night. Jian Kang Lu is really afraid, his kitten will run away again.


    Yu Dong is the one who contacts him often. Sometimes Yu Dong asks him about relationship advice. This actually makes Jian Kang Lu want to laugh. He himself could not be in a relationship and pathetically imagine having his kitten live here as his little husband. How could he help someone''s love life?


    But luckily, his advice to Yu Dong works well on him and Mu Xiaoya. At least from his last messages, it seems Yu Dong will confess his feelings to her soon.


    Jian Kang Lu insists on sending Bai Yutang until they reach Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang''s dorm room. He doesn''t want to let his kitten leave his sights again. So when Liu Xiang opened the door, he saw Bai Yutang with head dropped down like a naughty kid sent by his parents to apologise to their neighbour.


    Tang Yuxuan''s head popped up behind Liu Xiang''s back. There''s an awkward atmosphere enveloped the four of them. Jian Kang Lu is the first to talk.


    "Hello Liu Xiang, Tang Yuxuan. I believe you guys are doing well. I''ll leave TangTang here, and will pick him up later at night. Please take care of him."


    Liu Xiang smiled, this man sometimes really treats TangTang like a toddler. "Okay Jian Ge, don''t worry. We''ll keep him here safe and sound. Take care!"


    Bai Yutang walked inside, and sat in the chair still with his head dropped. He didn''t even say goodbye to Jian Kang Lu. After Liu Xiang waved goodbye and closed the door, Bai Yutang started to talk in a soft voice. A bit anxious.


    First he sincerely apologised, and said he will answer their questions and explain why he''s gone missing. Liu Xiang said they need to wait for Yu Dong, who appeared in less than five minutes.


    Three of them scold him harshly, but they pat Bai Yutang''s head and shoulder while cursing him. They also said they won''t forgive him if he ever does things like this again.


    Bai Yutang was really touched, and glad he has great friends like these four. Liu Xiang promised to give him all his notes for this semester. Tang Yuxuan assured him that they will accompany him to have lunch in the cafeteria everyday when he starts his semester next year, and Yu Dong promised him to help him find a part time job if needed.


    They didn''t ask much about Bai Yutang''s explanation about how he struggled financially now. From Bai Yutang''s tone, they know this is a sensitive subject for him.


    So three of them start to talk about new things in the campus and what happened lately to them. Bai Yutang was surprised to hear Yu Dong already confessed yesterday to Mu Xiaoya, and she accepted him as her boyfriend.


    Bai Yutang could see the eyes of Yu Dong shining and his body extruding beaming lights that only belonged to a happy man that had a girlfriend for the first time in his life. Yu Dong praised Jian Kang Lu so high, said without Jian Kang Lu he will never get a girlfriend in this life.


    Bai Yutang suddenly soured, thinking how Jian Kang Lu is really popular with girls, and maybe this Chang''e Goddess exists somewhere out there. He tried to push this thought out of his mind, and drag his attention back to his friends.


    His friends ask how Jian Kang Lu found him. They threatened him, they would hang him upside down in the window if Bai Yutang contacted Jian Kang Lu but didn''t contact them. Thus Bai Yutang told them about his part time job in a firm that turns out to be Zhen Guo''s firm.


    Now Liu Xiang is really punching him with a pillow and shouting, "You lucky bastard!!! You''re doing a part time job in God Zhen Guo''s firm and you didn''t pull me in? I can''t believe you still dare to call me your friend!"


    In the midst of this warm chatter with his friends, the atmosphere between them didn''t feel like Bai Yutang gone missing at all. Bai Yutang was relieved, and grateful. He had to admit, what Jian Kang Lu said was right.


    He was never alone.

 Chapter 53 - The Peaceful Days

    Bai Yutang spent his days in peace. At least he tried to. He''s glad that Jian Kang Lu is so busy, or else he doesn''t know how to hide his dirty thoughts which grow each day.


    He tried to act casual. Still try to maintain a normal face when they talk every breakfast and dinner time. Still tried to reply to Jian Kang Lu''s messages as usual. Still pretend to be calm every time Jian Kang Lu gives him that dazzling smile.


    But he can''t help himself to learn cooking like he wants to cook for royalties. His cooking skill improved rapidly in these past months. He could not help not to feel elated every time Jian Kang Lu praised his cook.


    He also can''t help to be blushed like a girl every time Jian Kang Lu suddenly appears behind him. To feel his hot breath tickling his ear when Jian Kang Lu talks beside him.. Bai Yutang could sense that the scent which belonged to Jian Kang Lu became something very familiar to him. A scent that makes him yearn for more.


    He also can''t help but flustered every time Jian Kang Lu holds his hand on many occasions.


    Such as when he wanders lost in his mind and almost hit a glass door when they want to watch movies. Jian Kang Lu hurriedly grabbed his hand and pulled him back, making Bai Yutang''s back touch his broad chest, and feel that warmth emitted from Jian Kang Lu''s body. Embrace Bai Yutang in that familiar scent, and make Bai Yutang''s heart want to explode.


    Or when Jian Kang Lu insists on taking him into his birthday party with his friends. That was the first time Bai Yutang met these magnificent people. All of them are dazzling and successful. Even Bai Yutang who never read financial magazines knows about the Sun Group belongs to Sun Hongjia''s family. The Sun family must be listed as the top 200 richest families in this country, or maybe top 100.


    Jian Kang Lu put his hand on his shoulder when he introduced him to this group. Bai Yutang surely knows that these groups are surprised to see a skinny shabby young man with red face stuttering and sweating profusely come with someone as gorgeous as Jian Kang Lu.


    However, Bai Yutang also wonders why these groups look at him like looking at rare animals in the zoo. They are very interested in him. They asked bunch of questions to him and make Jian Kang Lu had to shield him and ask his friends not to torture this young student.


    But Bai Yutang started to enjoy himself and forget his nervousness when he saw these dazzling groups danced like a bunch of wild chicken, and sang confidently with a lousy voice. Now Bai Yutang knows what things he can do better than Jian Kang Lu.


    Singing.


    Even though Bai Yutang''s voice is standard, these people''s voices are below standard. He can''t help to grin widely when these groups praise his voice similar to a popular singer and ask him to come to every karaoke party they had. They say Bai Yutang''s voice saves their ear drums.


    One time, Bai Yutang accidentally touched the edge of the sizzling frying pan and burned his fingers. It was only minor burns, but Jian Kang Lu hurriedly held his hand tightly and pulled it under the cold water, then applied the burn ointment gently on his finger.


    That accident led to Jian Kang Lu forbid him to cook again, and anxiously told him to be careful when Bai Yutang insisted he wanted to cook. They finally agreed to let Bai Yutang cook again after his hands healed completely. It actually only took two days, but Jian Kang Lu insists to extend it until four days.


    There was also last week''s incident, when Jian Kang Lu asked him about his decision in the future. Jian Kang Lu told him that he could lend the tuition money for him and his sister, and would pay Bai Yutang 10,000 yuan per month if he kept cooking for Jian Kang Lu.


    Jian Kang Lu''s first offer is 20,000 yuan per month. He said, since Bai Yutang cooked for him, his quality of life improved and he saved that amount of money which Jian Kang Lu spent every month for his meal.


    Bai Yutang of course didn''t believe him. Impossible for this man to spend that amount of money just for his food cost. So after he rejects the offer and debates a lot, Jian Kang Lu just holds his hand, looks at him with a puppy face. Asking him with a pleading voice, told Bai Yutang just to stay here and cook for him until Bai Yutang graduates.


    Jian Kang Lu also said that the money Bai Yutang''s father left should be used for his mother''s expenses. With 10,000 yuan it should be enough for his family expenses. With that line, Bai Yutang silent for a long time, forgetting that Jian Kang Lu still held his hand all the time.


    Deep inside his heart, Bai Yutang''s filthy seed which grows into creepy vines penetrating each cell of his heart, also wants to stay here and taste the sweet drops of happiness each second he spends with Jian Kang Lu. To see that gentle smile, and tender eyes looking at him with delighted expression every time he ate the dishes that Bai Yutang made.


    But he is also afraid. He wants to leave this place as soon as possible to prevent this vines growing into terrified thousands of tendrils that stabbed him deep and confined him. By then it was too late for him to escape. Thus, maybe if he left this place and stayed in the dorm, he could forget and buried this seed deep, not to be exposed ever.


    But when Bai Yutang heard Jian Kang Lu said, "Can''t you please consider this? It will make me very happy if you are willing to do that" and saw that peach blossom eyes of him anxiously stared with his straight brow knitted tight, Bai Yutang knew he could not reject this man.


    So finally they settled with 10,000 yuan per month but that also included the 5000 monthly food allowance. Jian Kang Lu''s face seems not really happy with that arrangement, but he suddenly holds Bai Yutang and caresses his back, saying thank you in a delighted voice. Bai Yutang can sense gratitude in Jian Kang Lu''s voice.


    Bai Yutang spends every Sunday with his friends. Last Sunday they had lunch together in the usual cafe. Yu Dong also brought Mu Xiaoya. Suddenly Bai Yutang had an urge to talk with Mu Xiaoya about the confusing things bothering him this past month.


    He still can''t accept that he might be interested in a man. Maybe this is just an admiration which he mistook as liking. He doesn''t know who to talk to. So he was curious whether Mu Xiaoya could help him to straighten this tangled ardor of him.


    But Bai Yutang didn''t know how to talk to Mu Xiaoya about his feelings. He is also ashamed to remember he scolded Mu Xiaoya harshly back then, and repeatedly told her that he was a straight man.


    In the middle of November, Jian Kang Lu lowers his face down and asks him softly when they''re having dinner. "Do you remember rule number 8?"


    Bai Yutang remembered, thus he asked, "Yes I do, Jian Ge. Where do I need to accompany you?"


    Jian Kang Lu answered leisurely, "Boston, next month."


    Bai Yutang stunned and dropped the salty egg shrimp from his chopstick. "Boston? Is it a restaurant name? Or Boston in the USA?"


    "Boston in the USA. I need to attend a conference there next month, and i really hate to go there alone. So can you accompany me?" Jian Kang Lu answered him, but didn''t look at him.


    Bai Yutang stares at him, he doesn''t know what to say. He does have a passport, but going there means he needs to apply for a visa. And the tickets are also expensive. But he can''t find any reason to reject Jian Kang Lu.


    "I will be very happy if you can accompany me, it is really painful to go through that long hours of flight alone, and bore me to death." Jian Kang Lu shamelessly says this line. Jian Kang Lu doesn''t know why, but he noticed that every time he said "I will be very happy" every time he asked his kitten to do something for him, his kitten could not reject him.


    Bai Yutang sighed, he really can''t reject anything that Jian Kang Lu asked him to do. "It''s not that I don''t want to or I can''t. But the ticket is expensive¡­ I don''t know if it is wise for me to accept it."


    "Don''t worry about the ticket. If you agree, then i''ll contact my travel agent to help you with the visa requirement." Jian Kang Lu immediately answered with a happy tone, raised his head to show that happy face.


    Bai Yutang could only agree in the end, and they spent the rest of the dinner with beaming lights emitted from Jian Kang Lu for the rest of the night. He said Bai Yutang will definitely love the city, for it was famous for its historical buildings.


    Jian Kang Lu also asked Bai Yutang not to cook dinner on Wednesday, because he wanted to ask Bai Yutang to accompany him shopping, preparing for their Boston trip. Bai Yutang knew he could never win the argument, so he just silently agreed.


    The visa application is sent, and Bai Yutang needs to wait for the visa interview schedule. These few days Jian Kang Lu was really excited and asked Bai Yutang whether he wanted to visit another city, maybe watching a Broadway show in New York. Bai Yutang never saw it, and Jian Kang Lu assured him that watching Broadway is a must thing to do if they visit New York. That city is also famous for its architecture.


    Seeing Jian Kang Lu so excited and sometimes showing his childish side, made Bai Yutang defeated completely. They planned to visit New York after the conference in Boston just for three days before going back to B city.


    Bai Yutang never went abroad before, and it actually makes him excited too. But to imagine spending almost two weeks together with the man that keeps making his heart wildly thump like a wild rabbit, really torturing him.


    Especially when he realised they will stay in the same room the whole journey. Bai Yutang didn''t know how he could survive there.


    Bai Yutang decide that he need to meet Mu Xiaoya soon. He really needs to straighten his mind, and maybe Mu Xiaoya could help him to untangle these horrible vines in his heart.


    He really can''t imagine if Jian Kang Lu disgusted with him and abandoned him. He can''t manage to spend his days without Jian Kang Lu''s presence.


    This man is too precious for him.


    The most important existence in his life.

 Chapter 54 - The Swan

    On Wednesday, the third week of November, they''re going shopping. The weather outside is cold, the trees naked swaying their remaining leaves in the grey mist of incoming winter. The wind breezing, breathing the white display up to the air.


    Bai Yutang already gained his weight back, but still a bit skinnier than his original appearance before his father passed away. He tried to dress decently. With this seed growing everyday, he grasps the actual differences between him and the man he holds in his heart.


    He was ashamed of himself. How could someone as ordinary as him even have any hope to stand equal with someone like Jian Kang Lu. Bai Yutang chose the light green turtleneck sweater and topped it with his white long sleeve shirt to add more volume in his skinny figure.


    He''s glad Jian Kang Lu bought him the turquoise cashmere coat. At least that helps his appearance a lot. He saw today Jian Kang Lu also wear the same coat with a dark grey tone.. He wears the black long sleeve shirt under and black jeans.


    Bai Yutang sighed, no matter what he wore, he could never be compared to this handsome man.


    In the shopping mall, they didn''t buy a lot of things, Bai Yutang insisted and ignored that pair of puppy eyes pleading when Jian Kang Lu wanted to buy him many things under the pretence "It''s cold in Boston." Bai Yutang firmly stated he still have his winter clothes and Jian Kang Lu also bought him many clothes last time.


    So Jian Kang Lu reluctantly agreed just to buy a matched shawl and gloves for Bai Yutang and himself. Bai Yutang also rejected Jian Kang Lu''s offer to buy him new luggage. Even though his luggage is a bit shabby, the quality is good and he doesn''t need a new one.


    But Bai Yutang still couldn''t win the argument when Jian Kang Lu bought him a new backpack. His backpack was a bit torn when he dragged his backpack everywhere while he was looking for a place to stay months ago.


    When Jian Kang Lu excitedly dragged him into the Japanese restaurant in that shopping mall while talking about their trip, Bai Yutang heard a voice from behind them.


    "Jian Ge? Is that you?"


    That voice made Jian Kang Lu turn his head, and Bai Yutang noticed a slight change in Jian Kang Lu''s expression.


    "Wu Shen?"


    Bai Yutang also turned his head, and saw a very handsome man standing behind them. His soft black hair made his soft white skin jade look shining, with perfect phoenix eyes framed by very long eyelashes. His nose is prominent, and the sensual pink lips under are very enchanting.


    This is a type of face that only appears in magazines or television, that will attract both men and women. He''s also tall, as tall as Jian Kang Lu. With a slim muscular body, he looks very elegant with that white shirt and black wool long coat.


    "This must be fate, I want to contact you lately to discuss something. But I lost your contact. Do you want to eat in this restaurant? Do you mind if i join you?"


    This man named Wu Shen also has a voice that sounds very nice to the ear. Not a deep voice, but very pleasant and clear like a blue lake under the spring sun.


    Bai Yutang suddenly hates this man, and is glad that Jian Kang Lu still holds his hand all the time. Bai Yutang could see that Wu Shen''s eyes were also darting to look at their holding hands.


    Jian Kang Lu seems a bit distracted with this man. But he said, "Is it really important? If not, I''ll give you my contact. If it was important, then I have to ask my partner whether he minds it or not."


    Bai Yutang was instantly happy to hear that line, but he despised the idea of this man to contact and meet Jian Kang Lu without him. He doesn''t know why, but he just feels he doesn''t like it. So he said hurriedly, "I don''t mind, Jian Ge. Is this your friend, then why don''t we have dinner together?"


    Bai Yutang knows that this man is looking at him closely. Suddenly he hates his own appearance. He looks like an ugly duck if stand side by side with this swan. Even though he already tries to choose his clothes well today, he knows that he still looks very ordinary.


    The three of them walked into the restaurant. Bai Yutang notices that Jian Kang Lu is always attentive to him, as if afraid Bai Yutang will feel neglected. Jian Kang Lu also answers this man''s questions politely but in short sentences.


    Jian Kang Lu only introduced this man as his friends. But Bai Yutang can sense that they''re used to being very close, it could be heard from this man''s tone every time he calls Jian Kang Lu.


    This man just looks at Jian Kang Lu with an eyebrow raised when Jian Kang Lu introduces Bai Yutang to him as a friend. He then said in an amused tone, "A very young and cute friend. I can see that you changed a little bit, Jian Ge."


    Jian Kang Lu said with a warning tone, "It''s not like what you think, Wu Shen."


    This man chuckled and said an amused tone, "Okay okay, i won''t tease this cute little boy again. But you should calm down a bit, Jian Ge. This is really not your style."


    Jian Kang Lu only stared at him silently. Bai Yutang really didn''t like this man. And he also doesn''t know why, but when Jian Kang Lu asks him what he wants to eat, he answers Jian Kang Lu with a coquettish voice, "You know what i like, Jian Ge. So you can order for me."


    Bai Yutang could see this man raised his eyebrow again to look at Jian Kang Lu and him, and chuckled again


    After they ordered, this man said, "Jian Ge, I''ll move to England soon. That''s why I want to contact you. It''s about the store. I want to return it to you."


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t say anything for a while, but then he said, "It''s not necessary. You can do whatever you want with that store."


    Bai Yutang saw this man''s face become soft, and smiling gently while said in a low voice, "I met someone, Jian Ge. Someone who treats me very well. We''ll get married and I''ll move to London. I don''t need the store anymore. I''ll close it and open my own store in London."


    He paused for a bit, seeming like reminiscing bittersweet memories. Then he continued, "That store helps me so much. But it was not mine in the beginning. So I just want to return it to you. I think that''s the best way to leave my past and welcome my future."


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t say anything. The table is silent, no one says anything. Occupied with their own mind.


    The waiter came to serve the dishes. After saying thank you, Jian Kang Lu''s voice heard. It was a soft gentle tone, just like what Bai Yutang heard every time Jian Kang Lu talked to him. "I''m happy for you. If you think that was necessary, then you can proceed with that. Even though I don''t need it, I will appreciate your decision."


    Bai Yutang didn''t like to hear that soft gentle tone. He felt like a black tendrils clenching his heart, and wanted to beg Jian Kang Lu not to use that tone to this man. Bai Yutang just wanted to hear that tone used on him.


    Bai Yutang didn''t realise that he gripped his chopstick tightly and felt his nails hurt his own hands. He was surprised, and tried to straighten his crooked minds. Suddenly he heard this man''s voice again.


    "Thank you, Jian Ge. I still need your contact to proceed the deeds. Let''s use a realtor to take care of the process. You don''t need to do anything."


    Then this man turned his head to look at him, "You look so young, are you still studying? Medical faculty?"


    Bai Yutang startled, then answered, "Architecture."


    "Oh, where did you study?"


    "T university."


    This man seems amused, "Zhen Ge''s junior! You must be a really smart student, unlike me. I managed to squeeze into B university, but I took a looong time to graduate. Are you coming from B city also?"


    "No, I came from W city."


    And the conversation goes on. For the rest of the dinner, this man talked a lot to him, and didn''t talk much to Jian Kang Lu again. Just like Jian Kang Lu, this man is also very good at his conversation skill.


    Bai Yutang finally can relax a bit, drifting along to the conversation this man created. Just like Jian Kang Lu, this man is also very good at making people comfortable.


    Bai Yutang still hates this man, why all the people around Jian Kang Lu are so dazzling and exquisite. He felt that himself is the most insignificant being with the least talent among Jian Kang Lu''s circles.


    But Bai Yutang also can''t help but admire this handsome man who sits in front of him. He said he used to be a model, laugh at himself saying his acting is so bad that he can''t pursue his dream to be an actor, and told him about his business opening a fashion store and blog. It turns out this man is one of the most famous fashion bloggers nowadays in this country.


    The dinner ends well, and when this man bid his farewell. He said with a gentle tone to Bai Yutang, "You''re such a cute and handsome young man. I can see that your future will be very bright. I hope you can be happy in the future, and strong enough to pursue your own happiness. Just believe in yourself, and trust the people around you."


    Then he winked that beautiful phoenix eyes of him, "You''re really cute, make me want to pinch your cheek. But I guess Jian Ge will strangle me if i do that."


    Bai Yutang could feel Jian Kang Lu''s hand suddenly grip his shoulder and bring him close to his body, like wanting to enveloped and hide him from this beautiful mischievous swan.


    Wu Shen laughed and said, "I''ll let my realtor contact you, Jian Ge. And be careful. Don''t let precious things snatched away from you."


    Bai Yutang could feel Jian Kang Lu''s hand in his shoulder tighten. He''s a bit confused with that sentence and Jian Kang Lu''s act. When that man walked away, they turned around and walked to the car together. Jian Kang Lu still holds his shoulder tight.


    As if he was afraid Bai Yutang would run away.


    Bai Yutang could feel his face blushed again and his heart wildly beat faster, just like every time Jian Kang Lu touched him. He felt uneasy and wanted to run away from this man. But at the same time, he also wanted to bring himself closer to sniff this familiar scent, and felt the familiar warmth emitted from him.


    To be enveloped in this man''s embrace. The feeling that makes him feel comfortable yet thrilling at the same time.


    So in the end, he just lowers his head, hides the nasty feeling he feels inside, and walks beside Jian Kang Lu, not running away nor bringing himself closer.


    He wanted to ask, what is Jian Kang Lu''s relationship with that man. It doesn''t seem like an ordinary friend.


    But he couldn''t ask, and Jian Kang Lu also didn''t explain.


    Both of them walk in silence, and reach the car. Jian Kang Lu seems to have just noticed that he held Bai Yutang the whole time they walked from the restaurant into the car. He startled and released his grip. As usual, he opened the door for Bai Yutang first.


    In the car, Jian Kang Lu seems to want to say something. Like want to explain, who is that man. But in the end he said nothing, and just asked Bai Yutang whether he felt cold and needed the temperature to be adjusted.


    Bai Yutang silently nodded. Jian Kang Lu tried to talk about trivial matters, and Bai Yutang responded well. They reach home, and spend the rest of the night like usual.


    Inside his room, Bai Yutang still felt uneasy. He doesn''t know who he can talk to about the things in his heart. He doesn''t know what he needs to do to settle his feelings and calm his restless heart. But then he remembered what that swan said to him.


    ''Just believe in yourself, and trust the people around you.''


    Bai Yutang took a deep breath. No matter how dirty his thoughts are right now, no matter how uneasy he feels right now, no matter how confused he thinks right now, but he knows one thing.


    He was happy.


    He was happy spending his time with Jian Kang Lu, and it was enough if he could make Jian Kang Lu happy.


    That''s all that matters.

 Chapter 55 - Please Be Honest

    Bai Yutang''s trembling hand finally pressed the send button.


    Bai Yutang wholeheartedly despises the idea of asking about this shameful thought with a girl, moreover his junior. But he remembers the big mistake he made months ago because he decided to do everything in his own way.


    He remembered what Jian Kang Lu said.


    ''Humans can''t live alone. We need to know when to ask for guidance and help from others. The final decision is in your hand, but you need to hear all the possible solutions for your problem before you decide on something.''


    So Bai Yutang swallowed his dignity, and sent that message to Mu Xiaoya. He asked Mu Xiaoya to meet him and not to tell Yu Dong about this.


    Actually Bai Yutang feels guilty.. What if Yu Dong found out he asked Mu Xiaoya to meet him in secret? Will it make Yu Dong suspect him as someone who wants to snatch their own friend''s lover?


    But Bai Yutang really can''t let Yu Dong know what dirty thoughts he had. He''s afraid his friends will be afraid of him, looking at him with a disgusted face to see the monster inside him.


    He is already searching the internet for the things occupied in his mind lately.


    ''How to determine if you''re a gay?''


    ''Are you gay or straight?''


    ''What to do if you have a crush with same sex?''


    Bai Yutang even clicked the quiz titled, ''Does your crush like you'' and ''Does your straight friend seem to like you anyway?''


    All the quiz he filled either show him the result that he was bisexual or pansexual. How could he answer something related about sex? Even though he admit that his heart beat faster every time he imagine Jian Kang Lu''s tender smile, but Bai Yutang can''t imagine to have sex with him.


    It''s not like he never saw porn before. But it was only once, just a short 1 minute video and the picture is blurred. You really can''t expect much from the bookworm students in the best high school at his town.


    Even his spring dream is blurred.


    Sometimes, on rare occasions when he released himself, he took a long time because he can''t picture anybody. And he also can''t picture him to be with someone else. He once tried to imagine the girl he had a crush on, but his little brother didn''t show any different reaction when he imagined nothing.


    The internet said he had to tried imagine kissing and having sex with same sex if he wants to know whether he was gay or straight. So Bai Yutang bravely tried to imagine Jian Kang Lu in the bathroom. But he only can imagine the kissing part, he can''t imagine touching Jian Kang Lu''s lower body.


    And surprisingly, when he imagined kissing Jian Kang Lu, his heart was beating even faster. And.. His brother turned on.


    The internet said that he was not gay nor straight, it was called bisexual if he could imagine kissing and having sex with both gender. The problem is, he was sure he was interested in girls before, but now he can''t imagine any girl he wants to kiss.


    With more confused thoughts compared to before he took the quiz, he finally sent that message to Mu Xiaoya.


    Mu Xiaoya didn''t ask him many questions even though he knew that the messages he sent were suspicious. They agreed to meet this Friday in the cafe not so near the T university. Bai Yutang chose Friday because that day Jian Kang Lu is in the hospital. Besides, Yu Dong also has lectures after lunch time.


    On Friday, Bai Yutang told Jian Kang Lu when they had breakfast that he wanted to go outside this noon. Jian Kang Lu asked where he wanted to go, and Bai Yutang already prepared the answer, he said he wanted to meet a client of his.


    Bai Yutang still diligently took minor jobs this month. For the past three months he has saved almost 4,000 yuan. He also raised his sister''s allowance into 2,500 yuan per month. His mother only asks him around 2,000 - 3,000 yuan per month for her needs. It was much lower compared to what his father gave her before. So the money left by his father is still more than enough for them.


    Bai Yutang could see that Jian Kang Lu frowned. Jian Kang Lu asks him where to go, and suggests he meet this client in the cafe near the hospital so Jian Kang Lu can check this person.


    Bai Yutang sometimes doesn''t understand why Jian Kang Lu insists on sending him and picks him up every time he meets his friends. And also don''t understand why Jian Kang Lu really don''t like him to go alone. He was a twenty one year old man, he could take care of himself.


    So Bai Yutang told him the client is a P University student, they agreed to meet near P university. But Bai Yutang didn''t want to tell Jian Kang Lu the real cafe he wanted to meet with Mu Xiaoya. Somehow he was afraid if Jian Kang Lu really showed up there and wanted to check this client of his.


    Jian Kang Lu still frowned, and reluctantly said he needed to be careful with strangers.


    Bai Yutang is really speechless. So he just nodded his head.


    Bai Yutang reached the cafe earlier than the appointment time, waiting nervously while drinking his cafe latte. Being together with Jian Kang Lu all this time, spreading the habit of drinking non sugar coffee became Bai Yutang''s habit too. Though he still likes to drink cappuccino or latte compared to the black coffee Jian Kang Lu liked.


    When Mu Xiaoya arrived at the cafe, she saw Bai Yutang who seemed to get thinner since the last time they met months ago. Mu Xiaoya is also very nervous, she doesn''t know why her senior who''s gone missing suddenly asked her to meet him.


    Mu Xiaoya was also worried when Bai Yutang went missing. Yu Dong rattle on her several times about how worried he was with Bai Yutang. They talk a lot these past few months.


    Yu Dong is a really gentle and kind person. Mu Xiaoya really likes that side of Yu Dong. And he is always attentive to her. He is always polite, and asks about her opinion first before they decide to do something together. Yu Dong also appreciates her opinion every time they debate about something.


    When Mu Xiaoya could not decide on something, Yu Dong respond with a quick and sharp decision. Yu Dong also very smart, he help Mu Xiaoya with her project too. Mu Xiaoya really like him, thus she was very happy when Yu Dong ask her to be his girlfriend last month.


    Mu Xiaoya greeted Bai Yutang, "Senior, long time no see. How are you?"


    Bai Yutang startled and raised his head to see her, "H-Hello Xiaoya. I''m fine."


    There''s an awkward silence for a moment, then Bai Yutang jumped, "Please sit down. Umm.. I-I won''t take long."


    They sit together still in the awkward silence around them. Bai Yutang''s voice stammered, "H-how are you? I-I haven''t congratulated you with Yu Dong. I hope you guys will be happy together."


    Mu Xiaoya''s face tinted with a pink tinge, "Thank you senior. It was my luck for him to ask me to be his girlfriend."


    "No no no. You don''t know how happy he was when you say yes to him." Bai Yutang paused, "Do you know that he used to torture me all the time in the dorm, talking about you all day long. He fell in love with you at the first sight."


    Mu Xiaoya was surprised and her face blushed. When Bai Yutang said in the dorm, it means months ago. Yu Dong already told her that he likes her for a long time, but Mu Xiaoya didn''t really believe him. She knows she was not pretty, how could Yu Dong fall in love with her on the first sight.


    She only answers shyly, "I-I think seniors are only teasing me."


    They chatted for a bit, and the awkward silence finally dissipated. Mu Xiaoya finally asked him, "Is there something you want to ask me, senior?"


    Mu Xiaoya first thought maybe Bai Yutang wanted to scold her for accepting Yu Dong as a boyfriend. She still remembers how angry Bai Yutang was when he knew that she approached them for the first time to ship him and Jian Kang Lu.


    Mu Xiaoya also afraid if Bai Yutang told Yu Dong about her conduct. She was afraid if Yu Dong thinking that she accept him because of that. Mu Xiaoya really like Yu Dong, and don''t want Yu Dong to think that she was a despicable girl who approach Yu Dong with a hidden motif. Thus she agreed immediately to meet at this cafe and not to tell Yu Dong about this.


    Mu Xiaoya could see Bai Yutang''s face getting red like a monkey''s butt, then dropped his head. She thought she heard Bai Yutang say something. But his voice is so low and mumbled so she can''t hear it clearly.


    "I''m sorry senior, I can''t hear you clearly. Can you repeat your question?"


    Bai Yutang was really ashamed, he couldn''t even face Mu Xiaoya, so he closed his eyes and said, "W-why.. Why at that t-time.. You and y-your friends.. Thought.. Thought t-that.. Me and Jian Ge is c-couple?" The last sentences said with a veeery low voice.


    Mu Xiaoya even had to bring her head near to Bai Yutang and perk her ear high. And she was stunned. She looked at his senior''s head, who bowed his head down so low, and he could see his ear turned into crimson colour.


    ''Do I hear this right? Or my ear just deceived me?''


    Mu Xiaoya didn''t want to jump to the wrong conclusion again, so she said, "I''m sorry senior, I really can''t hear the last part of your sentence. Why at that time me and my friends.. I can''t hear the next. Could you repeat it one more time?"


    Bai Yutang really thinks that Mu Xiaoya just wants to take revenge on him. He''s angry, but he really can''t say it again. He already poured all his bravery to say that line to her. So he angrily raised his head and said, "You know, at that cafe. You and your friends! Why you girls thinking like that?"


    Mu Xiaoya confused and afraid, she thought it was over. Her fear turns into reality. This Bai Yutang who looks calm turns out to be a petty one who holds grudges.


    "I already apologised senior, and I also kept my promise. I won''t think that way again. It''s our mistakes. I also didn''t tell anyone. Could you forget about that and forgive us?" Mu Xiaoya pleaded with glossy eyes. She really didn''t want Yu Dong to think that she was a horrible woman that only used Yu Dong.


    Bai Yutang was frustrated. He put his palms covering his faces. He wants to pull his own hair. Does he really need to say this clearly to Mu Xiaoya? It seems this girl thought that he was still mad about that. He took a deep breath, counted until ten and released his breath. Then he looked at Mu Xiaoya.


    "I was asking, why do you and your friends think that me and Jian Ge are a couple?"


    Mu Xiaoya frantically said, "Yes! It was our fault, senior. It was just our imagination that went too far! Please forgive me, senior. I really won''t think like that again."


    ''Why this guy didn''t want to believe her? Did he really hold grudges or did he think that I was not worthy to be with Yu Dong?''


    Bai Yutang is really helpless. He gave up. "Xiaoya, i didn''t blame you. I.. I really just want to ask that. What makes you girls though is that me and Jian Ge are a couple. Do I look like.. Like.." Bai Yutang can''t say the last word. He can''t say that he wants to know what makes people think that he was a cut sleeve.


    Mu Xiaoya is not stupid. Hearing that sentence from that red face, she knew what was the last sentence unspoken. It seems she didn''t hear it wrong the first time. It was just her fear that made her think too far.


    But she was afraid to tell the truth. They drowned in an awkward silence again. But finally Mu Xiaoya doesn''t have the heart to look at Bai Yutang who nervously waits for her answer while fidgeting his nails.


    "Can I say what''s on my mind that time, senior?"


    Bai Yutang raised his head to look at Mu Xiaoya and pleaded with her, "Yes!! Please just answer honestly."

 Chapter 56 - Teacher Xiaoya

    "First, it was my sisters. My sisters and I are members of this group. You know fujoshi? Rotten girls? It''s us. We like to read those kinds of stories. You know what I mean with that kind of story. We also like to ship couples in our mind, whether it was a fictional character, or the actors in movies."


    Mu Xiaoya took a deep breath, then continued, "We rarely ship real people, because real people are not as grand as those characters or actors. But.. Jian Ge is really grand. You know, it was rare for us to see that kind of person in real life. Maybe that''s what makes us want to ship him with somebody."


    Bai Yutang could understand what she meant.. It was just a coincidence that the person being with Jian Kang Lu at that time was him. Maybe if it was someone else, they would ship Jian Kang Lu with that person.


    But then Bai Yutang heard Mu Xiaoya still speaking.


    "At first, i also didn''t believe my sisters. In my opinion, no real person is as handsome and as gentle as they are talking about. I thought that they just exaggerated this person and imagined all those gentle acts in their mind. Then.. Then I saw you and Jian Ge for real, senior. At Huxiang."


    Mu Xiaoya looked at Bai Yutang, looked at that red face that was still listening to her while bowing his head. She can''t look at his expression clearly.


    "Then I could see, they were talking the truth. I think it was a fact that Jian Ge is really charismatic. It''s not just about the handsome face. But if it was only a handsome and charismatic man, all of us won''t imagine that far, senior."


    Mu Xiaoya sipped her ice tea. She needs to wet her throat before saying this dangerous line.


    "All of us could see Jian Ge look at you like looking at his treasure. All of his gestures to you are like someone who cherishes his lover. It was truly like reading our favourite characters doing our favourite part in our favourite novel. All his small gestures truly show how much he cares about you."


    Now Bai Yutang stares stupidly at Mu Xiaoya, even forgetting to close his gasping mouth.


    "I still remember that scene perfectly. Jian Ge opens the door for you, and holds it until you pass through. He took the seat outside so you won''t disturbed by people walking through. He looks at you gently, and cooks all the hotpot stuff for you. He put the things he cooked there in your bowl. He always took a glance at you and smiled sweetly every time you spoke to him."


    Bai Yutang didn''t know how people notice him and Jian Kang Lu in details like that. And even can remember clearly the things that happened almost one year ago.


    Mu Xiaoya continued, "All my whole life, I never saw a man treat his friend or lover like that. Ever. Even when Yu Dong, Tang Yuxuan, and Liu Xiang came, he only looked at you, and only treated you that way. Clearly you''re very special to him."


    Mu Xiaoya sipped her tea again, because she will say an even more dangerous line. She''s glad so far Bai Yutang didn''t show any signs that he mind all the things she said.


    "And, we can see that you also do the same. You always look at Jian Ge gently, and smile sweetly to him. You also put the things Jian Ge likes in his bowl, pour him his drink when his glass is almost empty, and didn''t mind Jian Ge holding your shoulder when someone rushed to you and almost knocked you. We can see both of your smiles are.. Perfect. Like I told you, it was just like our favourite characters turn into reality."


    Mu Xiaoya ends her explanation with lines, "And that''s how the whole group came to the gathering that night became hard core fans of both of you."


    Bai Yutang didn''t even remember clearly whether all the things Mu Xiaoya said really happened or it was just their imagination.


    What Bai Yutang didn''t know, the fan art of that dinner is spreading wildly in that group, that''s why Mu Xiaoya remembers it clearly. She even still has that fan arts saved in her computer hidden folder.


    "Then.. Do we really look like.. I really look like¡­" Bai Yutang mumbling, he can''t believe that. If these girls could imagine that from one year ago, does that mean he already harboured this kind of horrible feelings to Jian Kang Lu for a long time ago?


    Mu Xiaoya hurriedly said, "It''s because we''re rotten girls, senior. If people like Yu Dong or your friends, they won''t think like that."


    She noticed Bai Yutang drowned in his own mind. Mu Xiaoya is a bit curious, why Bai Yutang suddenly asked these things. She already has some idea in her head. But she was afraid to ask.


    Once again, the awkward silence back enveloped both of them. Mu Xiaoya ice tea is finished. She stands up and asks Bai Yutang, "I want to order a drink again. Do you want to order something too, senior?"


    Bai Yutang''s soul still hasn''t returned to his body, thus Mu Xiaoya just walks to the counter and orders ice lychee tea. When she sits back at their table, Bai Yutang is still staring blankly.


    After sipping the refreshing tea, Mu Xiaoya can''t hold herself anymore. "May i ask, what''s bothering your mind, senior? Maybe i can help you."


    Bai Yutang really wanted to ask Mu Xiaoya, he didn''t know who else he could talk about these things. If these girls like to ship man and man relationships, it means that they''re open minded people, right?


    "I-I want to ask you something, b-but could you keep it between us?"


    Mu Xiaoya nodded and said, "Of course, senior. Both of us hold each other''s secret. The same thing i asked to you, for not telling Yu Dong why i approach you guys at the first time."


    Bai Yutang sipped his latte, and took a deep breath. "Lately.. Lately, I was having a scary thought. B-but i also didn''t understand, and didn''t know who, who to talk to. That''s why I ask to meet you here.."


    Mu Xiaoya waiting, but didn''t hear anything anymore, so she speaks what''s on her mind since few minutes ago. "Do you like Jian Ge, senior?"


    Bai Yutang abruptly raised his head and looked at Mu Xiaoya, is it that obvious?


    Mu Xiaoya secretly overjoyed in her heart. Her favourite CP that she had to buried deeply now emerged and back to life!!! If she didn''t take this chance, then she did not deserve to hold a fujoshi title!


    "Or are you still unsure what you feel? Because you never feel attracted to a man before?"


    Bai Yutang really surprised, how is this Mu Xiaoya knows what''s on his mind?? Can she read minds or just because it was written in his face clearly?


    Mu Xiaoya smiled gently, "Senior, I told you I read a lot lot lot of these kinds of stories. So of course i can guess what''s on your mind. Do you mind if we talk about this? Maybe i can help you. But i need to hear what is bothering you the most."


    Bai Yutang surrendered. He talks, "First, I didn''t notice. I thought that because Jian Ge is so dazzling, then I took him as my idol. I tried to do my best too, because i want to be like him. Then I just realise that I depend on him too much. You know when I was hiding from you guys, because I don''t want to feel that way. Too much depending on a person."


    He took a breath, and continued, "Second, I always feel my heart beat sometimes faster every time Jian Ge gets close to me. But I always thought it was like a fan getting close to his idol. So i didn''t really think much about that."


    Mu Xiaoya listens patiently. This gesture of her reassures Bai Yutang to talk about everything that keeps bothering him these past months.


    "Then one day, I felt so mad because he didn''t tell me when he came home late. That''s when I realised something is wrong with me. Why do I need to be mad and sad like that? And last.. Last.."


    Mu Xiaoya is still waiting patiently even though inside her heart she is already lighting fireworks and screaming so hard to ship this cute couple. Ah! Do these dreams come true? To really see her favourite ship finally sailing?


    Bai Yutang closed his face with his palms, and said, "Last, I don''t like when people ask me whether Jian Ge is having a girlfriend or not. Last time, we met his friend. A very handsome man who seems very close to him in the past. At that time I hated that handsome man so much, and.. And maybe i feel jealous¡­"


    Mu Xiaoya is waiting, and when it seems Bai Yutang won''t say anything anymore, she was asking, "Are you wondering about your own preferences? Like straight or.."


    Bai Yutang nodded his head.


    Mu Xiaoya said, "I don''t think it was necessary to think about that, senior. Sometimes we can''t choose the person we like. And maybe sometimes that person comes in the same gender. But it doesn''t matter. Why have to classify about your own preferences, what we need to know is how you feel about this person."


    This line actually borrowed from her favourite novel. Mu Xiaoya continued, "And I didn''t think anything was wrong about that. You only need to ask yourself, whether this person makes you happy, makes you comfortable, and you are willing to do the same to make this person happy and comfortable with you."


    Bai Yutang was stunned, why it sounds so simple now when he heard Mu Xiaoya said that. But he was still afraid, afraid of Jian Kang Lu abandoning him.


    Then he asked, "But isn''t it wrong? Man supposed to be with a woman. How if I mistook this admiration into liking? And how if Jian Ge hates me because he found that i''m disgusting? That I was just a low person with a dirty mind, took advantage of his kindness?"


    Mu Xiaoya pity the man in front of him. How could this man be so blind!


    "Lets analyse your feelings first, senior. Even though from your explanation I can guess the result already. First, do you feel happy every time you spend your time with Jian Ge?"


    Bai Yutang nodded.


    "Second, did you want to do anything to make Jian Ge happy?"


    Bai Yutang nodded.


    "Third, did you ever imagine Jian Ge''s face when you close your eyes?"


    Bai Yutang nodded.


    "Fourth, do you mind if Jian Ge holds your hand, or hug you, or kiss you?"


    Now Bai Yutang didn''t nod, because Jian Kang Lu never kissed him. But he nodded slowly, "Well I didn''t mind when he held my hand or hugged me. But we never kissed and I also can''t imagine that."


    "Never? Even once? Just imagine it now, senior. Imagine, and did you feel disgusted, or feel nothing, or feel happy?"


    Bai Yutang tried to imagine, but he really can''t. So he just said, "I feel nothing."


    Mu Xiaoya said inside her heart, ''Liar!'' She saw Bai Yutang closed his eyes and his face turn into boiled crab. Red as a crimson flower.


    She changed her tactic, "Well, if Jian Ge kissed you someday, would you mind? Or would you get mad?"


    Bai Yutang pondered, he could never be mad with Jian Kang Lu, and it seems.. He doesn''t mind?


    So he nodded, "I-I think.. I don''t mind."


    Mu Xiaoya smiled, "Then, congratulations, senior! We reach the conclusion. You really like Jian Ge. And don''t fret about preferences. Maybe you like him not because of his gender. But you don''t mind the gender, because it was Jian Ge."


    Bai Yutang feels like the dark clouds hanging in his brain lately start to disperse, and he can see the bright blue sky. What Mu Xiaoya said is right, maybe it was not because he liked men, but because it was Jian Ge.


    "Now let''s move to the second problem. Did you worried that Jian Ge had homophobic and will hate you if he found out you harbour feeling for him?"


    Bai Yutang frantically nods. He really thinks Mu Xiaoya is a genius. Yu Dong is so lucky to get her to be his girlfriend!


    "First, does Jian Ge ever conduct physical contact with you? Like hold your hand, or hug you, or touch your face? Or something like that?" Mu Xiaoya clearly knows the answer. But she still asks to open this blind man''s eyes.


    Bai Yutang nodded.


    Mu Xiaoya can''t help to selfishly ask to satisfy her curiosity, "Can you explain to me, what kind of physical contact he conducted?"


    Bai Yutang explained slowly, "He holds my hand to pull me if i wander around, he holds my shoulder to protect me from crowds or when his friend teases me, he pat my head to comfort me, he hugs me when i am sad.."


    The fireworks in Mu Xiaoya lit once again in her brain. "Then, did he call you or message you often?"


    Bai Yutang nodded, "He used to, but lately not so often."


    Mu Xiaoya''s fireworks suddenly stop. "Why???"


    Bai Yutang answered, "Because we stay in the same apartment now, Jian Ge offered me to stay there for free because I have financial problems lately."


    The fireworks light exploded even brighter now.


    "And.. And? Tell me what you guys do in the apartment?" Mu Xiaoya immediately forgets about her act pretending to be a pure junior giving his senior love advice.


    Bai Yutang frowned, "We didn''t do anything. Jian Ge works from morning until night. And we''re not in that kind of relationship!!"


    Mu Xiaoya did not give up easily. "So what are you doing there? I mean, did Jian Ge ask you to do something? Umm.. I mean, is he just asking you to stay with him because you need some help? I mean, what did he say exactly when you moved there?"


    Bai Yutang tried to digest the rambling question from her. So he told her how Jian Kang Lu caught him at the hostel and what Jian Kang Lu said to him at that time. Bai Yutang had bad premonition when he saw Mu Xiaoya''s docile face turn into fiery expression and twinkling eyes like she urged him to tell more and more.


    Mu Xiaoya really hopes she can tell this wonderful story to her sisters so they could make fan art of these scenes. Ahhh.. It''s really painful to keep something so good like this to your own soul sisters!


    "And then..? Please continue, I need to analyse every Jian Ge''s act to you."


    Bai Yutang feel suspicious, but he need Mu Xiaoya opinion too. So he told her how he moved there, and jumped when Mu Xiaoya screamed "STOP!". It''s when he told her about the arrangement they made about his stays there.


    "Senior, please tell me about these rules!"


    With doubtful eyes, Bai Yutang tells her about the rules. But he refused to show the copy even though Mu Xiaoya coaxed him several times. The copy is in the drawer at his room, and he also didn''t take pictures of these rules.


    Mu Xiaoya asked him to repeat these rules, for three times. While My Xiaoya analysed and thought deeply, Bai Yutang saw Mu Xiaoya look at him with pity eyes. Bai Yutang thought maybe Mu Xiaoya took pity on him because he can''t even afford to live in a decent apartment and had to leech on Jian Kang Lu.


    Actually, in Mu Xiaoya''s brain she was thinking, ''This Jian Ge looks like a very decent gentleman, but actually a sly one! Oh.. I really pity this blind guy. He really matched his name, pure and white like a blank paper. How could he not realise these rules made by this cunning snake to slowly trap him in his den.''


    Mu Xiaoya shook his head, she then asked Bai Yutang about rules number 5 and 6, why Jian Kang Lu made Bai Yutang cook for him.


    Bai Yutang answered honestly, because he doesn''t want to waste money on expensive food delivery every time, and he wants to help Jian Kang Lu save his money. After all, he stayed there for free. That''s the only thing he can do. Thus he''s the one who suggested that.


    Mu Xiaoya''s eyes even pitying this pure lamb even more. This pure lamb actually offers himself to the snake den!


    In the conclusion, Mu Xiaoya only told him, "It seems Jian Ge cares about you very much. I think he also likes you. So what are you gonna do next, senior?"


    Bai Yutang thinking. What he wants to do next? He doesn''t know. He''s happy right now. And he really doesn''t have confidence to be with Jian Kang Lu. He is also still confused with his own feelings. And he also feels he''s unworthy to confess his feelings. He''s not a match with Jian Kang Lu right now.


    So after the quiet, he slowly spoke, "I really don''t know. I think i won''t do anything. It''s already clear for me. But i didn''t want to risk my friendship with Jian Ge just to satisfy my selfish thinking."


    Now Mu Xiaoya wants to scream and shout, ''Just be together, ah!!! Why are you guys playing with our feelings like this? We want to see the ship sail!!!''


    But she only said coldly, "You said you were jealous when you heard people asking about Jian Ge''s girlfriend, and also jealous when you saw a very handsome man close with him. If you do nothing, then a person like Jian Ge surely will be snatched away. Can you handle yourself if you have to see Jian Ge together with someone else?"


    Bai Yutang was stunned. He tried to imagine Jian Kang Lu having a date with someone else, talking gently and smiling sweetly to that person. And the dark vines he tried to suppress creeping back strangulating his heart, penetrating his mind.


    He shook his head, cleared his mind and pushed back those dark vines back to the box inside his chest and locked it away. "I don''t like it.." He says slowly.


    Mu Xiaoya snapped both of her hands to the table, "Then don''t let someone steal Jian Ge away from you!"


    Bai Yutang could not look at Mu Xiaoya right now, afraid Mu Xiaoya will see how pathetic and disgusting he was right now. "But what can i do? Jian Ge has everything, I can only cook for him. I can''t do anything else. I also didn''t believe Jian Ge like me, i have nothing, not special at all¡­"


    Mu Xiaoya holds Bai Yutang''s hand, she really needs to teach this pure lamb everything she knows from those thousands of novels she diligently read before. This is for the future of her ship!


    "Senior, then let me teach you something. If you''re unsure, then you can try to do the same physical conduct Jian Ge does to you. You said he holds your hand, pat your head, hug you, and you don''t mind it. Then you can return it all back to him. See his response every time you do that, and report it all back to me!"

 Chapter 57 - Is It Good?

    Jian Kang Lu felt the last week of November hazy. He doesn''t know whether he is trapped in a dream or reality. If this was a dream, then he doesn''t want to wake up. He''s afraid if he wakes up, he will find he was alone again in this cold apartment.


    Jian Kang Lu sensed his kitten''s act towards him in the past week, is.. Intimate? Jian Kang Lu really doesn''t dare to flourish his illusion more than this. He already feels pathetic to pretend he had dated his kitten, or have a little husband who waited and cooked for him at home.


    Maybe this is also one of his illusions, to think that his kitten is willing to act intimate with him. It really makes him afraid.


    Afraid he can''t hold himself and just devour his kitten whole.


    This past week he already tried so hard to restrain himself not to turn into a beast and made his kitten run away again.


    At first he was surprised and delighted when his kitten asked him to try the shrimp and broccoli lo mein that his kitten made in the kitchen. He walks into the kitchen, and his kitten just feeds him the lo mein directly from the pan into his mouth.


    Usually he''s the one who shamelessly feeds himself directly from the spoon while his kitten wants to move the dishes to the plate.


    While he was stunned and found happiness sparked inside his heart, his kitten''s hand wiped the oil stain from the lo mien on his lips.


    Wiped. It. With. His. Kitten. Fingers.


    To feel that beautiful smooth hand he always admired, and sometimes dirtily imagine how he licked it one by one, touched the corner of his lips, snapped Jian Kang Lu''s rationality. The soft thumb wiping his lips, and the slender fingers resting on his chin.


    While Jian Kang Lu just stared like an idiot trying to hold on the last string of his sanity, his kitten smiled enchantingly, and asking him.


    "Is it good?"


    Jian Kang Lu can''t even think of what his kitten means with that question. The lo mien? Or those fingers sliding in his lips.


    Jian Kang Lu blankly nodded and said that it was good, then spent the dinner like walking in the cloud, burning by the sun shined bright in front of him. Roasting his brain, arouses his desire.


    He was so ashamed when he released himself in the bathroom after the dinner. While he touches himself, he imagines those soft feelings of his kitten''s finger to touch his member, caress it, imagine the soft pad of those beautiful thumbs touching the slit of his member, and rub it slowly while teasing his shaft.


    He just closed his eyes, and imagined those sweet smiles created by those seductive lips swallowed by him, to pry the damp nest behind it, and look for his kitten''s velvety tongue. Touch the tip, while holding his kitten''s hand not to stop caressing his member.


    And those beautiful fingers caress his shaft, rub it in circular motion, then up and down slowly. Wiping the pre-leak cum from his slit slowly, then bring it down to smoothing the motion.


    Jian Kang Lu heard himself gasp and panting wildly, just by imagining his kitten''s soft fingers caressing his member made all his rationality go away, gone into the air. And he felt the burning hot blood flowing, rushed into his low abdomen, that blissful surge, that ecstasy.


    Imagining his kitten look at him with that seductive smile while gasping for air when he peck it lightly before finding that slick tongue, and rubbing it wet with his own. Kissing, and tangling.


    And the pretty fingers of his kitten still rub his member slowly, then increase the speed, grab his member like he adores it, and don''t want to let it go. The burning he felt in his lower abdomen spreading like fire, numbing his brain and legs. Burn him whole, then exploding like a blast, leaving him into the dust.


    Jian Kang Lu released himself that night, in the bathroom, closed his eyes, and called his kitten names again and again.


    "TangTang.. TangTang.."


    Second time he just stunned and stood silly when his kitten welcomed him home, took his bag from his hand and put it on the table. Then his kitten held his hand, leading him to the dining table.


    While he sat there in the chair, trying to differentiate whether this is another illusion or reality, his kitten patted his shoulder and asked about his day. Jian Kang Lu doesn''t even remember what he answered, when his kitten just bent from his back and served him the dinner and the hot golden monkey tea. Several. Times.


    It leaves the air around Jian Kang Lu lingering with the vanilla and musk scent from his kitten''s body, and Jian Kang Lu can see his kitten''s nape clearly.


    Jian Kang Lu grip the chair tightly, and tried to grip the glass to drink tea tightly too. Luckily the glass is high quality, it didn''t break. Jian Kang Lu also can''t remember how he spent that night. He just remembers that pure white nape with the vanilla scent, and his kitten smiles when he asks.


    "Is it good?"


    That night, before Jian Kang Lu took a shower, he released himself again. Imagine that white vanilla nape, sniff and lick the skin there, from behind his kitten ear to his shoulder. Taste the sweet and suck it like he wants to eat his kitten whole.


    Mark him. Told everyone that this man belonged to him.


    Bite that neck from behind, hold his kitten tight, so he can''t run away again from him. Forever stay here with him.


    Jian Kang Lu closed his eyes and remembered that vanilla musk scent, and imagined he licked his kitten ear lobe, teasing that part of his kitten until he could only hear Jian Kang Lu lust for him. And him only.


    To suck that pretty ear lobe, and bite it lightly. Hug him tight from behind. He wants to touch the blossomed bud in his kitten''s chest, and pinch it to hear his kitten''s whimper. Play it until it swollen red, and his other hand will caress his kitten''s abdomen. Rolling around there, and then looking for his kitten''s member down under.


    Jian Kang Lu touches himself, as he imagines he touches his kitten''s. To tease it softly in the beginning, and just roughly press it and rub it until his kitten beg him to fuck him. Do him while he still tastes that white nape and suck it from behind. All. The. Time.


    Suck his nape, his back, his everything. Lick it, and not leave an inch of skin in his kitten''s back dry. He wants to bite it, to hear his kitten beg for him. Tasting that honeyed skin, sweet, let it sweat and he''ll just lick and suck it all.


    Caress his kitten''s member and play with it until his heart is content. To touch it from the tip until the round member below those shafts. Pinch it like he pinched his kitten''s bud. Until his kitten screamed, and begged him to make him cum.


    Feel the soft skin of his kitten''s member, to take control of his kitten. Trapped him in his hands, in his arms, in his body. Let his kitten taste the burning feeling he felt inside, make him mine. Mine, and mine only.


    And Jian Kang Lu closed his eyes again that night, repeating that name that he adored so much.


    "TangTang.. TangTang.."


    Third time happened tonight. His kitten''s visa was already approved. They will depart to Boston next week and will spend 10 days there. Jian Kang Lu already booked the ticket, they will depart in Saturday afternoon and reach Boston at Saturday evening.


    Jian Kang Lu collected his kitten passport and himself, the ticket, and every document needed in one bag. While he did that, his kitten asked about his day.


    Jian Kang Lu had a bad day, the patient that was supposed to undergo CAPD procedure today is cancelled because the new anaesthetist resident missed to report this patient to his superior. The surgeon in charge is furious so reschedules the procedure into tomorrow.


    Jian Kang Lu hates these kinds of minor errors that lead to bigger matters. He only knows about this when his resident reports it to him in the afternoon. If he knew earlier, he could try to appease the surgeon and the anaesthetist superior. It''s the power of a senior doctor talking to his colleague on par.


    And then there''s another patient who had kidney failure due to chemotherapy from another hospital. The oncologist there just throws this patient to their department and leaves all the explanation to him.


    Jian Kang Lu and his team had to face the patient''s family questions and complaints because the previous doctor didn''t explain that this is one of the chemotherapy effects.


    These kind of things happened often, to be a trash can from other incompetent doctor. And Jian Kang Lu hates to explain these things while still had to cover for this incompetent doctor. Not because Jian Kang Lu is too kind, but because he also knew that it was not that doctor''s fault in procedure, it was just lack of communication.


    So he rambles about his day, and his kitten listens to him patiently. Silently soothing his bad mood.


    Jian Kang Lu talked about their upcoming trip again while he wrapped all the documents. Jian Kang Lu asks what Bai Yutang wants to do while Jian Kang Lu attends the conference.


    The conference will be held in five day from 8 am until 4 pm everyday. On Friday, the last day of the conference, they will have a closing gala dinner.


    Jian Kang Lu asks Bai Yutang to attend the gala dinner too, if he doesn''t mind. Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten smile and said, "I don''t mind, Jian Ge."


    Then Jian Kang Lu asks him what he wants to do in the day time for those five days. Jian Kang Lu told him that he wants to arrange a private driver and tour guide for him there, so he won''t get lost and can take a look around the city better.


    Bai Yutang shook his head, and said he will decide what he wants to do when they arrive there. He assures Jian Kang Lu that he won''t get lost. When Jian Kang Lu wants to refute him, suddenly his kitten hugs him.


    Hug. Him. From. The. Front.


    And caress his back, near his lower waist.


    His kitten said, "Don''t think about this trip too much, Jian Ge. You are already being so good to me. I''m an adult, I can take care of myself. Don''t worry."


    Then his kitten said again while caressing his back, with his hot breath softly brushing his shoulder. Jian Kang Lu can still feel it even though separated by his shirt. Burning his shoulder, like wildfire, spreading all over.


    "You already had a bad day today. Don''t think too much."


    Jian Kang Lu just stood like a statue, didn''t dare to move. He''s afraid that if he moves his kitten will turn into fog, dispersing to the air, just like his illusion.


    Then his kitten held his hand, led him to the dining table, and served him the wonton soup he made.


    "Is it good?"

 Chapter 58 - The Precious One

    In reality, Jian Kang Lu was right. Part of it was only his illusion. The real scene was a bit different from what he imagined.


    At first, Bai Yutang just dazed the whole day, thinking about Mu Xiaoya''s advice to him. Return all the physical conduct Jian Kang Lu did to him previously.


    Mu Xiaoya logic is : Jian Kang Lu touches him ¡ª> He doesn''t mind ¡ª> He likes Jian Kang Lu.


    So, if Bai Yutang does the same, and Jian Kang Lu doesn''t mind, then Jian Kang Lu likes him too. Mu Xiaoya even screamed and grabbed his hand tight when she told that line for the fourth time, because Bai Yutang still resisted her idea.


    Bai Yutang is afraid. What if he did that and then Jian Kang Lu disgusted with him? How if Jian Kang Lu threw him away, and said that he despised him, for a man like Bai Yutang just took advantage of his kindness. What a filthy person..


    So both of them leave the cafe with a frustrated feeling. Mu Xiaoya glared at him, but in the end she coldly said that Bai Yutang needed to tell her everything, and to note every expression and action that Jian Kang Lu made towards him.


    That led to the incident on Sunday night, when Jian Kang Lu returned from his family lunch. Since Bai Yutang stayed in the apartment, Jian Kang Lu only spent lunch there until afternoon, and always came back home to have dinner together with Bai Yutang.


    Bai Yutang absentmindedly stirred the shrimp and broccoli lo mein. He can''t taste the lo mein right. He thought it was okay, but his mind is so messed up because of what Mu Xiaoya said two days ago. He already tasted the lo mein several times but still found it tasted weird.


    Thus he asked Jian Kang Lu to taste it. He was afraid that if he already served the lo mein, Jian Kang Lu would say that it was okay while in reality it tastes bad. Because Bai Yutang''s mind was still muddled, his body moved by his own instinct. He was not intending to feed Jian Kang Lu with his own hands.


    This involuntary movement includes wiping the oil stain in the corner of Jian Kang Lu''s mouth.


    His hand just moved by itself when he saw the oil stain. He was stunned when he realised what he had done. And he saw Jian Kang Lu was also in the same state with him.


    Bai Yutang''s fear immediately surged. What if Jian Kang Lu hates him because his act crossed the line between friends. No matter how you see it, no normal friend will wipe oil stains from his friend''s mouth.


    So he nervously said in a hurry, trying to act calm. Cover his fear and his wildly thumping heart.


    "Is it good?"


    Bai Yutang prayed Jian Kang Lu didn''t notice something was wrong with his act, even though it was definitely weird. Surprisingly, Jian Kang Lu said it was good, and they spent dinner like usual on the surface. In reality, Bai Yutang spent the whole dinner sweating and anxiously tried to hide his own face.


    He was so afraid.


    So he was very glad to manage keeping his calm on the surface, and act like everything is normal. Then he reported the incidence to Mu Xiaoya.


    She was praising him so high. And assure him that Jian Kang Lu didn''t mind that act. If Jian Kang Lu minds about that, he must already talk to Bai Yutang about it.


    Bai Yutang pondering, that seems correct. Every time they had some differences, Jian Kang Lu seemed to ask him for discussion. Just like when he ran away, or when Jian Kang Lu came home late on his birthday.


    Jian Kang Lu always patiently explains to him, and listens to his opinion too.


    So Mu Xiaoya suggests that if he is still awkward about physical conduct, he can start with holding Jian Kang Lu''s hand first. Jian Kang Lu likes to drag him around holding his hand, so why won''t Bai Yutang do the same?


    Thus, Bai Yutang brave himself, and tried to hold Jian Kang Lu''s hand when he came home from hospital on Tuesday night. He''s so nervous that he can''t do the initial act he planned in his mind.


    Instead of holding Jian Kang Lu''s hand, he grabbed his bag. When he also stunned and cursed himself, he just placed the bag upon the living room. When he turned around, he saw Jian Kang Lu still standing there staring at him.


    Bai Yutang then braved himself, ignoring his blushing face, tried not to see Jian Kang Lu''s face. And just drag his hand. Lead him to the dining table.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t let go of his hand. He just follows him silently, and sits in the chair obediently.


    Bai Yutang sweating profusely, thus he let go of his own sweating palm quickly, and tried to make himself busy to ease his nerves. That''s why he just served the dinner back and forth. The bowl. The dishes. The spoon. He forgot the rice, so he took the bowl again and put the rice inside, then served it again. The glass. Then the tea.


    Bai Yutang cursed himself, why he keeps forgetting to serve the dinner smoothly like he usually does. So when he finally finished the dinner preparation that took longer than usual because of his clumsiness, he could only sit down and saw Jian Kang Lu sipped the tea he served.


    To ease the awkward stillness around them, he forced himself to ask.


    "Is it good?"


    Bai Yutang can only say these lines every time he feels nervous because of this dazzling man he holds in his heart.


    Bai Yutang was relieved when he managed to spend the dinner act casually. And it seems Jian Kang Lu didn''t mind when he held his hand.


    Jian Kang Lu said nothing, even though the stillness around them is awkward, and Jian Kang Lu''s also looks like his mind wandering somewhere else the whole night.


    Bai Yutang diligently reported tonight''s matter to Mu Xiaoya. But he still can''t accept Mu Xiaoya opinion when Mu Xiaoya said it must be because Jian Kang Lu also likes him.


    Bai Yutang points out the fact that Jian Kang Lu didn''t look at his usual self. Maybe Jian Kang Lu doesn''t like touching his hand, but can''t afford to bring the conversation because Jian Kang Lu pity him.


    On the other side, Mu Xiaoya screams and wants to throw her phone away. How could this senior of hers be so blind!!! Blind blind blind!!! Poor Jian Ge..


    Mu Xiaoya is glad his Yu Dong is not as dense as this blind man. She took a deep breath, and tried to change her tactic again. Then she typed.


    [Maybe because Jian Ge had a bad day? Next time, why don''t you ask him whether he had a bad day when you see Jian Ge''s absentminded?]


    Bai Yutang was stunned. He always asks Jian Kang Lu about his day too, but usually as a response because Jian Kang Lu asks first. Bai Yutang feels ashamed. He was too absorbed by his own feelings and not attentive enough to Jian Kang Lu.


    So he promised himself that he will do the same to Jian Kang Lu.


    Jian Kang Lu always comforted him when he was having a bad day, tired, sad, or mad. He will try to do the same. He wants to make this man happy, as happy as this man made him.


    Thus, on Friday night, he told Jian Kang Lu that he already got his visa approval. When Jian Kang Lu took care of the documents, Bai Yutang saw he looked tired, then asked him about his day.


    Jian Kang Lu''s voice is gentle, a deep voice that soothes and draws people listening to every single word he said. Even when Jian Kang Lu complained about something, he still talked in a gentle and polite manner. Bai Yutang just listens to this gentle man talking about his day in a way that looks like he is just spending an ordinary day.


    But Bai Yutang knows this man well. Even if Jian Kang Lu didn''t show it, Bai Yutang could see that he was having a bad day. From his mild dissatisfied tone, from his slightly frowned brow, from that empty smile.


    Bai Yutang could only listen, because he honestly didn''t know what to respond to. Jian Kang Lu''s world is something he doesn''t understand. He can''t give suggestions, nor have any opinion. So he only can listen silently every time Jian Kang Lu tells him about his day.


    Then Jian Kang Lu changed the conversation. He talked about their Boston trip. Bai Yutang feels that this man really treats him well.


    Jian Kang Lu pulled him out from the abyss. He placed the lights back on Bai Yutang''s void world. He supports Bai Yutang with everything Bai Yutang needs.


    A place to stay, which he could call his second home.


    A protection, to shield him from his own fear of a bleak future.


    A shoulder he could lean on, when he was sad and didn''t know what to do.


    A happy and warm heart.


    Thus when Bai Yutang saw this man frown his brow again when Bai Yutang rejected his offer to provide him with a driver and tour guide, he just moved unconsciously. To hug this man who gave him everything he needed.


    "Don''t think about this trip too much, Jian Ge. You are already being so good to me. I''m an adult, I can take care of myself. Don''t worry."


    This is one part that Bai Yutang really doesn''t understand, why Jian Kang Lu is so nice to him. Too nice, until sometimes he treats him like a toddler.


    "You already had a bad day today. Don''t think too much."


    Bai Yutang only wants to assure this man, his precious one, that he will be okay.


    Jian Kang Lu gave him everything. All he needs, all he wants, all he desires.


    Bai Yutang hoped he could do the same.

 Chapter 59 - Boston

    The weather outside the airport is very cold. It was 3 degrees celsius. But the harsh wind blow brings the world''s temperature outside to below the freezing point.


    Bai Yutang was glad they didn''t need to wait outside. Jian Kang Lu was really worried about him and the cold weather. He reminded him multiple times not to be exposed with winter wind. Jian Kang Lu also reminded him about his illness last year if Bai Yutang opened his mouth to refute him.


    Jian Kang Lu even put the jacket and the shawl on him, tightening it personally in Bai Yutang''s neck. And just looked satisfied after he saw Bai Yutang wrapped tightly from head to toe.


    Bai Yutang is already accustomed with this habit of Jian Kang Lu, that always treats him like a 7 year old child. So he just stood there silently and let Jian Kang Lu do whatever he wanted to do.


    After that long hour flight, Bai Yutang''s body still tried to adjust himself with this time difference. They left the country in the afternoon, and they reached here at night. It should be morning in B city.


    The hotel sent the driver to pick them up. Bai Yutang looked around the scenery outside the car. It was dark, he can''t see clearly. But this town seems to have a lot of park, and rivers. It must be beautiful during the day time. Bai Yutang already looks at the internet, but to be here in person is kinda like a dream for him.


    Bai Yutang never went abroad before. This is the first time. This also the first time for him to sit in the business class flight. Even though it was comfortable, to be in the air for more than 16 hours is still tiring. Bai Yutang could not imagine how tired it would be to sit in the economic class.


    Bai Yutang also asked Jian Kang Lu why he didn''t see any of his colleagues. Since Jian Kang Lu said that this is an international conference, Bai Yutang assumed that Jian Kang Lu''s colleague must be going too.


    Jian Kang Lu said they took different flights, usually one day before. Jian Kang Lu may be the one that booked the last flight near the conference time. One of his reasons is to assure Bai Yutang got his visa approval. Luckily it was approved much earlier than he thought.


    It seems this year there will be more than 30 nephrologists from their country attending this conference. But Huang Yin was absent this time. From their hospital, only Jian Kang Lu and Zhao Yang attended this conference. This year Zhao Yang went alone without his wife.


    It was common to bring your family to the conference. Doctor didn''t have much free time leisurely going for holiday. So usually they will arrange a holiday when they attend conferences abroad.


    They checked in at the hotel, the same hotel the conferences will hold. It was already midnight when they finally could rest in the room. The room they stayed in was a standard room in a 4 star hotel, located in the heart of this city.


    Even though it was a 4 star hotel, the room looked even better than the 5 star hotel in W city or B city. The spacious 36 sqm located in the corner, with a large window occupied both of two walls, facing the city. When Bai Yutang opened the curtain to see the view outside, it was very soothing.


    The spacious room has an L shaped white sofa on one side of that windowed wall, with a purple square table in front of it. There''s a round table also next to the sofa. The non window walls have few framed pictures arranged in the abstract style, giving the modern nuisance to the room. On the other side of the windowed wall, there are two chairs and one round table. The 50 inch television hanging in the corner between the sofa and the chairs.


    Jian Kang Lu was stunned to see the room they were given is one king bed room, not a double bed like he told the sponsor before. Previously he won''t mind. Even maybe a little bit happy.


    But now with an illusion his kitten is doing intimate act, he shuddered to imagine the torture he had to face if he had to sleep on the same bed with his kitten.


    He didn''t trust himself.


    Jian Kang Lu is not a virgin, he knows the taste of sex. He knows the blissful feeling, the ecstasy of two bodies tangled together. And he definitely is not a saint.


    In his whole life, he was always a person who never faced difficulties to get the person he wanted. If his girlfriend was threatening to break up with him, he has no fear. Because he knows he treats them well. And he believed he could find a better woman that could treat him well too.


    When he finally knew that he was gay, he even treat his lover even better. Because he knew this kind of relationship is difficult for them to hold on. So he does everything he can to make his partner happy. It was not easy to find a man that he loves, and love him back.


    Though both of his relationships still failed in the end. It led him to more than three year abstinence. He despised to have sex with someone he doesn''t love.


    His lifestyle and working environment also restrained him to find a new love. Working from morning till night, busy all day, the same routine trapped him everyday, and he also tired.


    Tired of trying to know and learn the habits of other people. Tired to guess what''s on their mind. Tired of appeasing them. He was tired, thus he shut himself.


    Until his kitten appeared. At first he was the same person as before, trying his luck to bend this man. Who knows he will fall for him, like all those people he pursued before. But then he felt this blissful life, a piece of peaceful mind, that he never felt before.


    He thought, this platonic relationship suits him very well. He was so afraid to lose this man, afraid to lose the comfort and the happiness he felt every time his kitten soothe him.


    He was changed from a confident man into a coward. He don''t want to risk this happiness, and feared his kitten will runaway if he knew Jian Kang Lu is gay.


    Then his kitten disappeared. Jian Kang Lu never trapped in a situation like that before. Helpless, darkness, his whole world shut down. Even when Wu Shen and Zhang Min went from his life, he never felt that way.


    If his friends ask him, what makes him fall this hard for his kitten, he could not answer. He could list hundred things he likes from his kitten. He could list thousand things about his bright kitten. But he could not answer why he liked his kitten.


    If he said his kitten is cute, a lot of cute guys out there.


    If he said his kitten is young, a lot of young men out there.


    If he said his kitten is kind, a lot of kind people out there.


    If he said his kitten is smart, a lot of smart boys out there.


    But why Bai Yutang? Jian Kang Lu could not answer. Because he could not answer, he knows that his kitten is special. The one and only.


    There''s only one Bai Yutang in this world, no one out there could be the same.


    More than three years he maintained good and healthy sex life with his own hand. But he knows himself, and his limits. He can''t guarantee himself not to eat his kitten whole, if they have to sleep together in one bed.


    "It seems they gave us the wrong room. I asked for a double bed, not a single bed. Let me call the reception."


    His kitten standing next to the window, looking at the city lights flickering outside. His kitten turned around to look at him, but said nothing. His kitten just nodded, and waited for him on the sofa.


    The reception told Jian Kang Lu the reservation is correct, what they received is a reservation for a corner room. Every corner room in this hotel only has a single bed. Jian Kang Lu needs to change the reservation into the traditional or suite room. But the hotel right now is full due to the conference.


    Jian Kang Lu silently hung up the phone. He could feel his kitten staring at him, and then his kitten''s gentle voice heard.


    "It''s okay, Jian Ge. I don''t mind. Besides, it''s already midnight. Let''s just unpack our things and rest. Tomorrow morning you need to wake up early."


    That''s how Jian Kang Lu woke up in the morning feeling so tired. He still has jet lag, and he can''t rest well. All night he was just tossing around, trying to sleep as far as he could from his kitten.


    He could feel the warmth emitted from that body, lying under the same blanket. Jian Kang Lu grip his pillow tight not to let himself roll towards his kitten to hug him tight. To be one with him. To have him whole.


    When Jian Kang Lu shaved his face, he could see the dark circles under his eyes. He sighed, and released himself again. This two weeks he already released himself more than 6 times. All because he needs to hold himself and so afraid if one day he loses his sanity, turns into a beast and attacks his kitten.


    He doesn''t want that to happen.


    After he finished his shameful act and took a bath, he woke his kitten to have breakfast together. He saw that peaceful, beautiful face sleep soundly. Illuminated from the grey sun shone from the window.


    Time stopped. The whole world seems to stop spinning.


    He loves this man so much.


    Jian Kang Lu''s body just moved by his own, he kneel down beside the bed, and tried to burn the image of this blissful scenery in front of him into his mind. This is one of the best moments in his life.


    He caresses that soft cheeks, admiring how God could create such a perfect creature like him. And he is grateful, this beautiful creature is laying down in front of him. So peaceful. Then he saw those beautiful long eyelashes fluttering like a ripple of water. Those beautiful eyes opened, looking at him in a daze.


    "TangTang, do you want to have breakfast or you want to sleep for more?"


    Jian Kang Lu heard his own hoarse voice, spoke softly. Tried to grip himself, and wanted to retract his hand. He was afraid that beautiful eyes will turn into horrified eyes, then a despise eyes, disgusted with him.


    But then, he felt his kitten''s hand move from under the blanket, hold his own hand. Make his hand pressed that soft cheek even more. Burned from those smooth skin under.


    His kitten stares at his eyes, still unfocused, then closes again. Those cheeks snuggle under Jian Kang Lu''s hand. Rubbed him with a burning desire, and the friction left him breathless.


    Jian Kang Lu heard his kitten''s hoarse voice softly speaking, "I want to have breakfast together with you, Jian Ge."


    Jian Kang Lu doesn''t know how long he kneels on his knees, beside the bed. The time is not moving. So does he.


    He just absorbs every moment there. The look, the feel. Even his heart stopped.


    Then his kitten opened his eyes again, his hand still holding Jian Kang Lu. His kitten moved Jian Kang Lu''s hand, placed it on the pillow he slept with, and his kitten woke up.


    "Wait for a minute, Jian Ge. I''ll wash my face first."


    When Bai Yutang walked out from the bathroom, he saw Jian Kang Lu still silently kneel beside the bed. Not moving an inch at all. Just the same posture when Bai Yutang left him to wash his face.


    The sun shined from the window, with gold speckles and sparks every corner in this room with flickering soft lights. Surrounding Jian Kang Lu with a halo. Bai Yutang was stunned, and felt the time around him stop moving around.


    He loves this man so much.


    Then he involuntarily walked to this dazzling man, with a soft nudge, touch his hand that still left on the same position on the bed, beside his pillow.


    "Come, Jian Ge. Let''s have breakfast together."

 Chapter 60 - Gala Dinner

    Bai Yutang spent the days just walking around the hotel. Jian Kang Lu gives him some money and a credit card to use if Bai Yutang wants to have lunch or walk around.


    When Bai Yutang wanted to reject it, Jian Kang Lu just used his weapon, "I can''t rest assured inside the conference room if you didn''t take this. I''ll be very happy if you just take it, no matter if you use it or not."


    This hotel''s location is really good. It was connected by bridges to the shopping mall in the next block. A lot of fancy restaurants and high class stores around the hotel. Just 5 minutes walking and he could enter the Boston Public Library. The library is one of the important architecture sites in the city, designed by Charles Follen McKim.


    There''s a square next to the hotel and a beautiful church stood there. The Richardson''s Trinity Church.


    The Trinity Church was founded in 1733, but built and constructed from 1872 to 1877. The architect was Henry Hobson Richardson. The building''s plan is modified Greek Cross with four arms extending outwards from the central tower. Trinity church is the only church in the United States and the only building in Boston that has been honored as one of the "Ten Most Significant Buildings in the United States" by the American Institute of Architects.


    Before they came here, Bai Yutang already read and saw a lot of pictures of Trinity Church. He was surprised to see the church location is very near to their hotel. He just walked for 5 minutes and already reached there.


    Bai Yutang only spent his first day in Boston looking around and took a lot of pictures of these two buildings. He was so grateful. And all of this made him think about Jian Kang Lu again.


    Bai Yutang bought a sandwich and coffee as his lunch from the cafe at the connecting bridge from the hotel to the shopping mall. He can''t find simple restaurants around this area. All the restaurants look fancy and expensive.


    After lunch he was back to these two buildings and satisfied his thirst looking at these magnificent designs. He took a lot of pictures there. Jian Kang Lu was right, Bai Yutang definitely loves this city.


    In the afternoon he was back to the hotel, because the weather outside is really cold, especially when the sun starts to hide. He was very sleepy and tired. He could not imagine how it feels for Jian Kang Lu. In their home country, it should be dawn.


    Bai Yutang tried not to sleep, but when he sat on the sofa doing sketches from what he saw today, he fell asleep. He was awoken by Jian Kang Lu''s touch. When he opened his eyes, Bai Yutang saw Jian Kang Lu caress his head.


    Bai Yutang heard that gentle voice, "Do you want to have dinner with me, TangTang?"


    Bai Yutang blinked several times, and nodded. He washed his face, then followed Jian Kang Lu. Since both of them are tired, they just eat at the Japanese restaurant located on the connecting bridge also.


    The Japanese restaurant is a fusion restaurant, not an authentic one. But the nabe, or the japanese hot pot, is really good. The ingredients are fresh, especially those thin sliced wagyu beef. It''s quite expensive, but Bai Yutang feels the price here is similar to the restaurants Jian Kang Lu took him in the B city.


    Jian Kang Lu asked him what he did today, and he was glad to see his kitten''s eyes brighten, and excitedly told him about the buildings. Jian Kang Lu personally loves this city, the atmosphere, the scenery, the parks, all of it makes him feel so peaceful.


    Three years ago, he strolled through this city alone, soothing his empty soul. But now every empty and painful moment is replaced with blithe memories. He was coming back here with someone he loved so much.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled gently, staring at his kitten. He really loves those sparkling eyes. Even though that sparkling fused by those beautiful buildings instead of him, Jian Kang Lu could stare at it for hours, and never felt bored. He wished to see those sparkling eyes for the rest of his life.


    Jian Kang Lu also asked his kitten what he wants to do tomorrow. His kitten said he wanted to try Walking the Freedom Trail. It was a 2,5 miles red line route that leads to 16 historically significant sites in Boston. From the Boston Common Park, Massachusetts State House, Church, Granary Burying Ground, Old South Meeting House, until the Bunker Hill Monument.


    Jian Kang Lu frowned, asked him whether he took a tour guide or alone. Jian Kang Lu knows that Bai Yutang''s english skill is limited to reading and writing, but not so good in conversation.


    Bai Yutang assured him that he had already downloaded the information and brochure from the internet. Jian Kang Lu still felt uneasy, but Bai Yutang always managed to silence him when he held Jian Kang Lu''s hands and caressed it.


    "I''ll be okay, Jian Ge. I''m an adult. I won''t get lost."


    Sometimes Jian Kang Lu hallucinates and asks in his own mind. Is this all intimate gestures from his kitten is a sign that his kitten likes him back? But he was too afraid to confirm it.


    If it was the old Jian Kang Lu, definitely he would already make his next moves if he received this kind of signal.


    But his kitten is so young and pure. Jian Kang Lu is afraid that his kitten doesn''t know that all these intimate gestures ignite something that is not pure at all inside Jian Kang Lu''s mind.


    Because they''re so tired, Jian Kang Lu fell asleep after took a shower. Bai Yutang already slept for two hours before. So he just laying in the bed, looking at Jian Kang Lu sleeping beside him. Seeing that peaceful face lay here with him, for the first time in his life Bai Yutang realised what it means to have a blessed life.


    This was enough.


    Bai Yutang fell asleep when he stared at Jian Kang Lu''s face. The result is when Jian Kang Lu woke up in the morning, he saw that beautiful peaceful face sleeping next to him. The distance between them is an arm length distance. His kitten sleeps facing him.


    As a healthy man, Jian Kang Lu also had a condition when his brother awoke in the morning. Add this to the effect of seeing the man he loved as the first thing he saw when he opened his eyes, the result is devastated.


    Jian Kang Lu cursed loudly inside, and hurriedly went to the bathroom. He can''t believe he had to release himself two days in a row. He''s 37 years old this year. He already learned how to control his desire more than ten years ago. But why now he acts like an adolescent who can''t think straight.


    This happened for the next few days they spent together, until the last day of conference. Even though it was called a gala dinner, the doctor''s gala dinner is not like the gala dinner those rich people attend. Even if you wear a long sleeve shirt with a coat is fine. Some of the eccentric one is still wearing jeans and boots.


    Jian Kang Lu is a man with decent fashion sense, so he wears a normal dark blue suit, dark blue vest, and white shirt inside. But he doesn''t wear any tie. The suit has some patterns in the fabric, the kind that won''t be noticed unless you see closely. It was semi formal, and very classy.


    Bai Yutang only has a black suit, so he wears his suit with a blue shirt inside. He already gained his weight back, so the suits wrapped his body perfectly just like when he bought it two years ago. Because Jian Kang Lu didn''t wear any tie, he also didn''t wear any.


    When both of them comb their hair in the bathroom, Jian Kang Lu helps Bai Yutang to style his hair. His short hair from that nightmare haircut already grew and the hairdresser that saved his hairstyle truly has good skills. Now Bai Yutang''s hair already looks decent, and looks better day by day.


    To stand in the bathroom and feel the hands of the man he loved tidying his hair, really makes Bai Yutang''s heart pound wildly. Sometimes Bai Yutang is afraid if Jian Kang Lu could hear his heart thump so loud.


    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten shut his eyes, and saw his kitten''s ear tips tainted with a pink colour. Jian Kang Lu felt his heart skip a beat. He really wants to kiss his kitten''s smooth forehead, and the tip of his nose, that looks very inviting.


    Jian Kang Lu''s string of sanity broke a few times these past few weeks. He abruptly turned around and said, "It''s done, let''s go. Don''t forget your coat. Who knows we need to go outside."


    Jian Kang Lu walked straight out of this dangerous place. His dirty mind flashed with a lot of pictures of what he wanted to do there with his kitten. Bathrooms are dangerous.


    Jian Kang Lu introduced Bai Yutang to his colleague. Most of them bring their spouse. Some bring their children too. Bai Yutang sits next to a smart looking woman, she''s also a nephrologist from S city. Most of them talking by themselves, discussing about the hospital life.


    Bai Yutang didn''t understand ordinary medical terms, moreover the advanced one these people were talking about. So he just silently ate his food. The food is standard hotel food, but tasty enough.


    The woman sitting next to him already moved and talked to her colleague from some foreign country, Jian Kang Lu excused himself, joined the conversation there. Bai Yutang feels that nothing that Jian Kang Lu can''t do.


    It was clear for him that Jian Kang Lu speaks english much better compared to his colleague from the same country. He often acts as the interpreter for them. His pronunciation is very good, didn''t sound like a man who never studied abroad.


    When Bai Yutang looked at Jian Kang Lu in awe, a young boy came to sit by his side.


    "Boring, right?"


    This boy looks like a 14 or 15 year old. He looks bored to death.


    "So, whose child are you? How come i never saw you around?" That boy asked him again.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know what to say, he just could only answer honestly. "I''m not someone''s child here. I came with my friend."


    That boy looked at him curiously. "A friend, not your uncle?"


    Bai Yutang feels a little bit angry. Jian Kang Lu looks young, he doesn''t look like his uncle at all. "No, my friend."


    "Ah.. Usually we the youngsters refused to come to this occasion. But my father forced me to come or else he won''t buy me the new sneaker and bag I really want. When did you arrive?"


    Bai Yutang is a little bit annoyed, but he can see this boy truly bored. "Six days ago, right before the conference started."


    "What? Then what are you doing here? I just came here yesterday. It was boring to stroll here alone."


    Bai Yutang keeps answering each question from this boy. He was the son from one of the professors attending this conference. This boy said his father will take them to Los Angeles tomorrow. This boy was surprised to know that Bai Yutang is studying architecture at T university.


    "Usually all of us here attend medical faculty or will attend someday. My father already told me if i could not be accepted in P or T university, i have to throw all my game consoles away and won''t give me any allowances until i accepted there."


    Bai Yutang pity this boy. While they''re chatting, another young girl comes and joins the conversation. Soon the tables are full with these youngsters from 8 year old until 15 year old. Bai Yutang is the oldest, and he feels like a kindergarten teacher.


    These kids knew each other, they often met at the conference like this. Following their parents, because holiday for them means conference for their parents.


    Bai Yutang could see, their parents are the top doctors in the country. Bai Yutang hoped his sister would also have a happy life. Sometimes he regretted that he suggested Bai Yuren to take medical faculty. He saw that Jian Kang Lu is so busy, and didn''t have much free time. He imagines his sister will lead the same life, and it makes his heart ached.


    At 9 o''clock Bai Yutang is already tired and sleepy. These children are already going upstairs, back to their room. Jian Kang Lu noticed his kitten tried to hold his yawn. But he is still stuck here, talking about the project between their country and one of Europe''s countries. He planned to slip away, but Professor Wu successfully aborted his plan, gripped his hand tight, and won''t let him go.


    At 9.30 Jian Kang Lu finally can release himself from them and apologise to his kitten. He knew his kitten must be bored. But his kitten just smiled, and said that it was okay.


    They''re going back to the room after saying goodbye to few of Jian Kang Lu''s colleagues. Bai Yutang felt a bit cold. The weather outside is below freezing point. Even though the hotel inside has a heater, Bai Yutang is sensitive to cold weather.


    Bai Yutang washed his face, and instantly fell to sleep when his head touched the pillow. He''s really tired. And cold.


    But he enjoyed the dinner today. Those kids are funny, and Bai Yutang is glad to know a little bit more about Jian Kang Lu''s world.


    The world that seems so far away from him, now a little bit closer. And Bai Yutang felt that would bring him closer to his precious one.

 Chapter 61 - The Blissful Morning (NSFW)

    -- Warning, this chapter is NSFW. If you''re not comfortable with it, please skip it--


    The snow falling outside the window, in the wintry days of bluster and ice. The earth covered as white as any new page. The feathered crystal tumbled, and the city struggled from the murky cloud.


    Bai Yutang felt cold. So he snuggled in the blanket, trying to find more warmth. There''s something warm inside the blanket, so he unconsciously just moved his body toward the heat.


    When his freezing body found that heat source, it was glad. And tried to hold it tight. Bai Yutang hates the cold, and welcomes the heatwave. His body was glad to find something to hold on. Bai Yutang''s head instinctually pulls itself closer, and his freezing feet also rub that heat source..


    As a doctor, Jian Kang Lu is a versatile sleeper. Means he''s a light sleeper when he was on duty, and a heavy sleeper when he was at home without on call duty. Every doctor trained to sleep wherever and whenever they can. Every doctor also trained to wake up immediately if they were on duty.


    Now Jian Kang Lu was not on duty. But he can''t sleep well these past few days, due to his nervousness to stay under the same blanket with his kitten. He was quickly awoken by something warm moving closer to his body.


    Jian Kang Lu froze when he opened his eyes. His kitten''s body sticks to his own. His kitten''s head snuggled in his collar bone. His kitten''s hand is placed in his waist. And his kitten''s feet rubbed his feet.


    Jian Kang Lu''s little brother immediately turns into a big brother. He didn''t dare to move his body. One part is happy and wants to enjoy this longer. Eight parts are burning and want to hold his kitten back. One part is afraid this was only a dream.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t know how long he laid in bed like a wooden statue. He just looked at his kitten''s soft black hair, and the tip of that beautiful nose. The rest is hidden under the blanket. Creating a more wild illusion for him.


    Jian Kang Lu screams inside when his kitten snuggle more, and Jian Kang Lu can feel those soft lips brushing his neck, the sensitive part above his collar bone.


    His heart throbbing hard. Jian Kang Lu tried to hold himself. But he can''t look away from his kitten''s hair, and the tip of that ear. Jian Kang Lu right hands grip the bedsheet until it crumples under his palms.


    In those moment which feel like eternity for Jian Kang Lu, finally his kitten awake, before torture him more by holding his waist, and rub it a little. Leaving the skin under the T-shirt burning, and the desire flamed brightly in his whole body.


    Jian Kang Lu swore, if he doesn''t know that his kitten never had any relationship before, then this man must be a mischievous vixen trying to seduce him.


    But those movements snap every sanity left in Jian Kang Lu''s mind.


    When Bai Yutang awoke, he startled to see his own posture, who held Jian Kang Lu tight. He hurriedly let his hands go, and looked at Jian Kang Lu, hoping that Jian Kang Lu was still sleeping and didn''t realise what he had done.


    When he retracted his hand under the blanket, his hand brushed something hard down there. That hard thing is familiar to him, because he also has it on his own body.


    Bai Yutang was stunned to see Jian Kang Lu''s face. He never saw Jian Kang Lu''s face like that.


    Yearn. Desire. Lust.


    That''s what is inside Jian Kang Lu''s eyes. But Bai Yutang didn''t know that. The only thing he knows, Jian Kang Lu never saw him with that passionate eyes before.


    Both of them stare at each other. Bai Yutang didn''t know what to say, or do. He just thought that this was all over. Normal friends won''t do these kinds of things. And the most unforgivable thing is his hand touched that part. Even though it was an accident, it was still an accident that never happened to a normal friend.


    All rationality in Jian Kang Lu''s mind is already gone. Swept away by his burning desire from his kitten''s touch. Deep inside his brain, very deep, inside a very small part of his brain, he knew that it was an accident.


    But as a man that needs to be released everyday because sleeping under the same blanket with his loved one, to get this kind of stimulation is enough to make him forget everything.


    So when Jian Kang Lu stares at his kitten, and his kitten stares back at him, with pink tinge appearing from the ears spreading to his cheeks, without running away, Jian Kang Lu can''t hold himself anymore.


    Jian Kang Lu brings himself closer to his left, closer to his kitten, he can feel the heat burned from his kitten. Jian Kang Lu raised his right hand, touching his kitten''s hair. Caress that soft silky strand, and slightly touch the tip of that ear.


    His kitten is still not moving away. So Jian Kang Lu moved his left hand from beside his body, to scoop his kitten right cheek, and his thumb caressed it from under his eyes towards his ear. His right thumb moved slowly to caress that forehead, and his kitten''s left eyebrow, then moved back to his ear, and his other fingers caressed the hair on the back of his kitten''s head.


    His kitten''s eyes widened. Jian Kang Lu froze, and stared at those eyes. Tried to find whether it was filled with disgust and waiting for his kitten to slap him. But his kitten didn''t do anything. He neither ran away or moved.


    At that moment, Jian Kang Lu saw the lips of his kitten slightly opened, but no words uttered. Jian Kang Lu really can''t think anymore. To see those seductive lips, dried lips that need to be moistened, Jian Kang Lu brings himself closer. Slowly.


    Inch by inch.


    Jian Kang Lu right hand back to move, caressing his kitten. As if he wants to assure Bai Yutang that he doesn''t need to be afraid. At the same time, it wants to make sure Bai Yutang cannot run away again from him.


    Their noses almost touched each other now. Both of them can feel the other hot breath sweep their face. Even though Bai Yutang is a pure virgin who never kisses anyone, he knows what Jian Kang Lu wants to do. His primal instinct told him that this man, this man that he adored, wanted to kiss him.


    He doesn''t know what to do, and he can''t blink his eyes. Bai Yutang also wants to imprint this kind of face Jian Kang Lu made into his mind, branded his heart. In a split second, he remembered what Mu Xiaoya said.


    Jian Kang Lu also likes him.


    So Bai Yutang, with these words echoed in his mind, moved himself closer, and the tip of their nose touched each other.


    Jian Kang Lu pressed his lips into those lips he yearned for so long. Taste that velvety smooth feeling upon his own lips. Both of his hands cupped Bai Yutang both cheek, to prevent him from running away from him.


    Jian Kang Lu doesn''t care if his kitten is disgusted with him anymore. Even if he feels disgusted with him and wants to run away, Jian Kang Lu will find a way to bind him. To chained him. To keep him. So his kitten will stay forever with him. No matter what dirty way he had to do, he can''t afford to lose his kitten.


    Jian Kang Lu felt the whole world around him burn in fire. That flame that he tried to suppress for so long scorched him now. To feel these soft lips under his lips, this sweet taste, ignited his own beast.


    Bai Yutang can''t move. He felt like the world around him turned blank, into white. Just a white world, nothing else. He felt Jian Kang Lu''s lips touch his lips lightly, then started to move, from the light touch, repeated mild peck, then those damp velvet muscles inside Jian Kang Lu mouth lick his lips, play with his lips skilfully. Moistened his own dry lips.


    Bai Yutang could feel the hands caressing the back of his head, start to move and touch his neck. Then suddenly it tightened the grip around his neck. Push him forward to accept Jian Kang Lu. The velvety tongue that lightly licks his own lips, now starts to wildly invade his mouth, prying inside.


    Bai Yutang felt that white world had started to turn red. Gradually burn his world, his vision. Bai Yutang slightly opens his lips, and welcoming that wet muscle comes inside, devouring him.


    Jian Kang Lu felt that his kitten''s mouth accepted his invasion. And his desire burned him more. He didn''t kiss lightly anymore. He deepens the kiss, swallows him, sucks his kitten''s lower lips, plays with the tongue, touches the top of his kitten inside mouth, invading him deep. Make Bai Yutang grasping into the air.


    Those movements from Bai Yutang when he gasps for air, turn Jian Kang Lu crazy. To feel the wet sensation combined with the inhaling hot breath, make Jian Kang Lu hands gripped tighter.


    Jian Kang Lu sucks the lips, until Bai Yutang''s lips swollen red. His tongue playing with Bai Yutang''s tongue, teasing it from the tip, the side, rubbing, tangling. Both of them can hear that wet sounds filled the room. Very seductive.


    Bai Yutang tried to kiss him back. Even clumsily, but Bai Yutang tried his best to return that kiss. His hand also moved, trying to bring Jian Kang Lu closer to him. There''s something red burning inside him, filling him with an emotion he never knew before.


    Bai Yutang''s hand grip Jian Kang Lu''s waist, hold it tight, because he doesn''t know what to do. He only wants to be closer to this man, and become his. Bai Yutang''s mind filled with this red flame, wants to feel more.


    Jian Kang Lu gasped with that touch, and cursed inside. His left hand still on his kitten''s cheek, slid downwards into his kitten''s chin. His right hand pushed Bai Yutang to lay properly in the bed, then he moved himself on top of Bai Yutang''s body.


    Jian Kang Lu looked at that beautiful face staring at him. That face befuddled, with lips swollen red, and wet. Slightly opened, gasping for air. His kitten''s chest moved up and down, breathing rapidly from the lack of air.


    "TangTang, i really like you.."


    Then Jian Kang Lu kissed him again, releasing all the beast inside him. He just wants to devour his kitten. That wild fiery kiss left Bai Yutang''s mind blank. He could not think, he felt like falling, and needed to hold on something. So he held Jian Kang Lu''s waist tight.


    Jian Kang Lu''s left hand is still caressing the cheek, and the chin, and the neck. While his right hand already moved to slide under Bai Yutang''s shirt. Caressing the soft skin in his waist, rub him, press him, pinch him, then slide upwards, looking for those forbidden buds.


    When Jian Kang Lu found that buds, it already protruded, like inviting him to rub it and pinch it.


    "Ahh.."


    Bai Yutang already can''t think clearly when he felt those soft hands caressing his waist and his abdomen. So when he felt those soft hands moving and rubbing his nipple, the burning fire turned into scorching flame. He felt his nipples itchy, and burned, and those fires spreading whole over his body.


    Bai Yutang felt his blood rushed forward to his lower abdomen, magnified by that circular motion on his nipples. He doesn''t know how to release this fire, so he only can let his breath leave his mouth. Releasing a soft moan. A creation from Jian Kang Lu''s circular motion on his nipple.


    When Jian Kang Lu heard that soft moan, he couldn''t hold himself. Jian Kang Lu rubbed his own lower body over Bai Yutang. His right hands are still playing with the bud under the shirt. Jian Kang Lu rubbed, and rubbed, he already can feel his own pants damped from his own pre-leak cum.


    Bai Yutang felt itchy all over, he wanted to burn more. He wants Jian Kang Lu to do more. He wants to beg Jian Kang Lu just to give him more. So he held Jian Kang Lu waist tight, and moved under Jian Kang Lu''s shirt, trying to do the same. His right hand found similar small round things in Jian Kang Lu''s chest, and he tried to touch it too.


    "TangTang.."


    Jian Kang Lu mumbled and closed his eyes to feel that soft hand from his precious kitten touch his bud. He wants to become one with his kitten. So when he feels his kitten''s fingers run over his bud over and over, he just curses inside.


    Then Jian Kang Lu abruptly sat on top of Bai Yutang, and grabbed his kitten''s shirt, to drag it upward, exposing that smooth white skin underneath, with that swollen right nipple.


    "TangTang.. Baby.."


    Jian Kang Lu slid up that t-shirt and threw it away. He kissed Bai Yutang again, a little bit slower this time, then moved to his nape, and his collarbone. Lick every skin there, play with his tongue, suck it, bite, it, and Jian Kang Lu can hear Bai Yutang panting.


    Jian Kang Lu blows the left bud that was left behind for quite some time, then starts to touch it with the tip of his tongue. Touch it lightly, then press it with his tongue, and then lick it. Wet it with his own saliva, and suck it lightly.


    "Mmmh.. Ahh.."


    Bai Yutang could not handle this sensation, he could only moan softly.


    Jian Kang Lu played with it for a while, before sucking it hard. Bite it lightly, and suck it even deeper.


    "Ahhh.. Jian Ge.."


    Bai Yutang could only close his eyes, and feel that itch sensation turn into something electrified. It was lighting his whole body. Bai Yutang could feel his own member swollen hard, uncomfortable, and restless. It wants to be released.


    Jian Kang Lu plays with his kitten''s right bud too. Then his hands slid downwards, rubbing all over his kitten''s abdomen, and slid under, to find his kitten''s lower member. Jian Kang Lu smiles inside to find it also hard. As hard as his own.


    Jian Kang Lu touched the tip of his kitten''s member and found that it was wet, his mouth never leaving his kitten''s bud.


    "Ah.. Jian Ge.. Ahh¡­"


    Bai Yutang could let those soft moans escape his mouth, and grab Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder. He doesn''t know what to do. He was drowning in this wave of pleasure. Bring him up and down, swam in the sea of desire.


    "TangTang.. I like you so much, so much.."


    Jian Kang Lu mumbled those words into Bai Yutang''s ear, then he kissed Bai Yutang''s lips again. Slowly, suck it deep, then peck it lightly. Tease him. Jian Kang Lu could see Bai Yutang''s eye corner slightly wet and red.


    "TangTang.. I want you.."


    Bai Yutang hugged Jian Kang Lu tight, put his arms around Jian Kang Lu''s neck.


    "I want you.. I want you.. TangTang.."


    Jian Kang Lu released himself from Bai Yutang''s tight arms, then slowly slid into Bai Yutang''s shorts, Bai Yutang''s underwear, and brought it down.


    Under normal circumstances, Bai Yutang won''t let Jian Kang Lu do that. Because he was not confident with his own body. That skinny body with no muscles in his abdomen. But Bai Yutang''s mind was already muddled from all that touch, and his penis also very hard. Asking to be released from those fabrics that hurts it.


    Bai Yutang slightly raised his hips, to let Jian Kang Lu stripped him naked.


    Jian Kang Lu stares at this beautiful body under him. How many days he had imagined this body pressed under him? He doesn''t even know if this reality, or another dream. Whatever it is, he wants to taste his kitten''s body.


    Jian Kang Lu stripped himself too. He doesn''t know where he threw his T-Shirt and pants. He doesn''t care. He felt his kitten''s bare body under him. That pleasure, that desire, that ecstasy, all become one. Jian Kang Lu rubbed his body to his kitten''s skin. To feel his whole body.


    They kissed wildly, and Jian Kang Lu''s hands caressed Bai Yutang''s round butt, pinch it, squeeze it, then moved into the two round shape under his kitten''s shaft. His kitten''s moaning under his kiss.


    Jian Kang Lu''s finger ran into the shaft, teasing it, until it found the slit on top of his kitten''s head. The wetness from it really makes him happy. It means his kitten also lust for his touch. Jian Kang Lu brings that liquid down, spreading it from the slit into that round head, then starts to move it in regular motion.


    Up, and down, and up, and circular motion around the head. Slowly, and repeated.


    "Mmmhh.. Mm..hh"


    Bai Yutang can''t even let his moan out of his mouth, because his whole lips and tongue is being sucked. Jian Kang Lu ate him whole, not leaving any part of his mouth untouched by his tongue.


    Bai Yutang unknowingly moved his own hips. His member was already swollen hard. He never knew physical touch could feel like this. He never knew there''s a pleasure so blissful created by the touch on his member. He never felt like this when he released himself.


    The pleasure of someone you love touches it, brings multiple emotions inside him. He held Jian Kang Lu tight, and moved his hips, he felt so good. Then the white and red world around him starts to spark.


    Jian Kang Lu is still doing the same motion, he''s not even starting to move his hand faster, when his kitten''s body suddenly tensed and held him even tighter.


    Bai Yutang felt something hot from his lower abdomen wildly spreading to his spine, and all over his body. Numb his body, his mind, and the sparks explode wild. Like fireworks, left his world white again.


    His kitten released himself from his kiss, grabbed his back, scratched it, and just bit him in the shoulder. In a split second, Jian Kang Lu felt the hot liquid sprayed to his own skin, wetting his abdomen.


    As a pure virgin, Bai Yutang never tasted this kind of pleasure before, thus he reached climax in an instant. He felt numbed. His breath is still panting, and still biting Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder.


    Jian Kang Lu holds him tight. Jian Kang Lu knows, the moment after a climax is pure ecstasy. But for some people, it will wash them with shame afterwards.


    "TangTang, i love you.."


    Jian Kang Lu touched himself, and started to rub his own member, with the white liquid from his kitten''s load. He rubs it hard and fast.


    "TangTang.. TangTang.. TangTang... Ugh.."


    Jian Kang Lu released himself while still holding his kitten. The thick white liquid wet their chest and abdomen. Bai Yutang still held him tight, and didn''t leave his bite from Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder.


    Both of them panting hard. After Bai Yutang feels that Jian Kang Lu already released all his load, he released his teeth from Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder. He doesn''t know what to do, and after he was released he was embarrassed that he came so fast.


    Jian Kang Lu put both hands at Bai Yutang''s head, each on either side, as if he wanted to trap him so he could not run away. He looked at his kitten''s blushing face, its sexy lips still slightly opened, panting softly. His kitten''s chest rapidly moves up and down.


    Bai Yutang also stared at Jian Kang Lu. Looking at that lusting face gradually turns into the original gentle look.


    Then Jian Kang Lu kissed him softly, put his head next to Bai Yutang''s ear, and whispered.


    "TangTang.. I love you.."

 Chapter 62 - This Is Not A Dream

    Jian Kang Lu still can''t believe what just happened. He holds Bai Yutang tight, and repeats the same words over and over. As if afraid this was only a dream, only an illusion.


    "TangTang.. I love you.. TangTang.."


    And the thing he feared the most was, how if in reality his kitten maybe tried to run away but he forced his kitten to release his own animal instinct.


    So he tried to make Bai Yutang believe that he did all these impure things because he loves him, and maybe his kitten will forgive him. Jian Kang Lu says the things he hides for so long, pouring all the words he always wants to say, and holding his kitten tight.. Caress his hair, his neck, his back. Over and over again.


    "TangTang.. I love you.. I love you so much.. TangTang.."


    Bai Yutang still can''t believe what just happened. Is this just one of the spring dreams? But he never had a spring dream this real. So vivid. So intense.


    Now Bai Yutang knows, he really likes Jian Kang Lu as in romantic feelings, not just admiration. Because he doesn''t mind being kissed, he doesn''t mind being touched. He even welcomes it, and wants to give his own body. All of him.


    He could hear the man he loved saying the same words, caress him, over and over again.


    ''Is this real? Did Jian Ge really say that he loved him so much?''


    Bai Yutang raises his trembling hands. If this was a dream, then he''ll just want to get along with it. He also wanted to say all the things that had been buried inside his heart. The things he locked inside, the things that he thought were disgusting.


    "Jian Ge.. Gege.. I love you too.. Gege.."


    Bai Yutang could feel that the hands that caressed him stopped, and suddenly a pair of strong arms held him tighter, making him can''t breath. Bai Yutang could feel soft lips touch his forehead, and his top of head. Kiss it, gently.


    "TangTang.."


    Jian Kang Lu really doesn''t want to get up from this dream. A dream when his kitten said that he loves him back. He kissed his kitten again, and again.


    His smooth forehead, his beautiful curved eyebrow, his temples, his corner of the eye. Jian Kang Lu could feel those eyes slightly damped. He didn''t know whether it was coming from his kitten''s sweat on his temples, or his tears.


    "Is this real? Really? TangTang, do you really say that you love me too? Am i not dreaming?"


    Jian Kang Lu mumbling these words while kissing his kitten''s nose, and his beautiful lips. Those lips are swollen now, getting too many kisses and sucked. Make it look more seductive.


    Bai Yutang could not answer that, because his head muddled again from those kisses. So he just answers Jian Kang Lu by hugging him tight, and returns the kiss back.


    Jian Kang Lu stared at his kitten, with that seductive lips still slightly opened from his own invasion. Then his kitten moved, placing his own head into Jian Kang Lu''s collarbone. The soft arms that circled his waist grip tighter.


    "Gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu knows that he needs to wipe that wet liquid that turns sticky in their body. But he doesn''t want to let go of this body he holds tight. He is really afraid that if he lets this man go, all of this will disappear. Gone.


    Both of them were just laying there in the bed for the whole morning. Hug each other, kiss each other. It was not until Jian Kang Lu realised the sun already shined so bright outside. The snow has stopped falling, half a day has passed. His kitten must be hungry.


    "Baby, let''s take a bath."


    Jian Kang Lu stood up, looking for some tissues. Even though the sticky liquid in his kitten body almost dried, it was still sticky due to their own sweat and body heat. Jian Kang Lu wiped his kitten''s body.


    "Can we take a bath together?"


    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten nod with a blushing face. Jian Kang Lu kissed his forehead, then walked to the bathroom, preparing the hot water in the bathtub. He also wiped his own body with tissues.


    When Jian Kang Lu walking out from the bathroom wanted to call for his kitten, he saw his kitten clumsily try to collect all the clothes Jian Kang Lu throw away during their intimate act.


    Bai Yutang already wore his pants back, while Jian Kang Lu wrapped himself in a bathrobe. Jian Kang Lu cursed himself, why he didn''t take care of all of it and let his kitten do these things instead.


    Jian Kang Lu could see Bai Yutang''s face still red all the time. And his kitten doesn''t want to look at him. So Jian Kang Lu went back to the bathroom to take a bathrobe, then put it on his kitten''s shoulder. He also took the clothes that clutched on Bai Yutang''s hand.


    "Don''t do this, let me take care of these clothes. Wear this, it must be cold." Jian Kang Lu wrapped his kitten tight.


    Bai Yutang just nodded, he really didn''t know what to say or what to do. This is the first time for him.


    The first time someone hugged him.


    The first time someone kissed him.


    The first time someone touched him.


    The first time someone says "i love you" to him.


    The first time.. Having sex? It was count as having sex, right?


    Doing so much for the first time in one single moment, enough to snap Bai Yutang''s brain. This also the first time for him to be in a relationship.


    ''Well, Jian Ge says that he loves me too, so it means that i have a lover now? A boyfriend?''


    Bai Yutang just silently let Jian Kang Lu hold his hand, told him to sit on the sofa while Jian Kang Lu put their clothes into the laundry bag. Then Jian Kang Lu made him some hot tea while waiting for the water to fill the bathtub.


    "TangTang, drink this first."


    Bai Yutang took that cup, and sipped the hot tea. It is really refreshing. To be honest, his throat dried from all those kisses and moaning. Now he remembers again what they just did. Bai Yutang is really embarrassed, why is he moaning like that? He''s a man!!!


    But.. It felt so good..


    After sipping half of his hot tea, Jian Kang Lu took his hand and led him into the bathroom. He took off Bai Yutang''s robe, then slid the pants down.


    Bai Yutang just lowered his head down the whole time. He was really really really embarrassed with his own body. Ah, this is also the first time someone saw him naked except his mother and his father. Even the last time they saw him naked maybe more than 13 years ago.


    Jian Kang Lu led him to get inside the bathtub. Bai Yutang was surprised to see Jian Kang Lu take off his own bathrobe, but go to the shower instead of the bathtub with him. Bai Yutang said nothing, and washed his own body with the bath foam poured by Jian Kang Lu earlier.


    Jian Kang Lu showered really fast. Then he dried himself. Bai Yutang peek at that naked body. Even though Jian Kang Lu''s body is not a big muscular man, nor have a 8 packs abdominal muscle, his body still maintained well from that exercise.


    Bai Yutang knew Jian Kang Lu exercised 3 - 4 times a week. Sometimes in the morning, sometimes in the afternoon. He likes to jog in the apartment''s park. Sometimes Bai Yutang also runs together with him in the afternoon. But why does Jian Kang Lu''s body look better than his?


    And looking at those strong arms, and round butt, Bai Yutang could not believe he felt something surge into his lower abdomen, and realise he was.. Aroused?!? His little brother is not so little anymore.


    Jian Kang Lu asked him, "Is the water too hot?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head. And frantically refused and shook even wildly when Jian Kang Lu offered to massage him. He definitely won''t let Jian Kang Lu think that he was a horny dog that will stand up again this soon.


    "I-I''m fine! I''m fine, Jian Ge.. I can do this myself."


    Jian Kang Lu looked at his kitten''s face now as red as a ripped tomato. That''s why he thought that the water is too hot. Then it came to his mind that maybe his kitten was embarrassed. After all, this is the first time for his kitten.


    It''s good if his kitten is just embarrassed. But how if his kitten regrets all of this, and is afraid of him?


    So he just patted his kitten''s head, brushed his teeth, and shaved as fast as he could. Then he said, "I''ll wait for you outside, TangTang."


    Bai Yutang nodded, he could not look at this man. Or else he doesn''t know what to do. When Jian Kang Lu went, Bai Yutang hurriedly showered himself with cold water and tried to get rid of his own desire.


    After he finished bathing, he ran into the closet and put on his own clothes. No matter how embarrassed he feels right now, he still needs to face Jian Kang Lu.


    "Are you done, TangTang? Where do you want to eat?"


    Bai Yutang walking and sitting on the sofa, one meter away from Jian Kang Lu. "Anywhere is fine, Jian Ge."


    Jian Kang Lu knows his kitten only eats at the cafe in the connecting bridge. Because even though he urges his kitten to eat anywhere he wants during lunch time, his kitten said he doesn''t know where to eat.


    "How about the Italian restaurant in the shopping mall not so far from here? Above that Italian grocery store? The place is really good at lunch time. You''ll like the ambience."


    Seeing his kitten sit so far from him, Jian Kang Lu can''t help to move himself. Now that he knows that his kitten won''t run away from him, he just wants to be close with his kitten all the time.


    His kitten nodded. Jian Kang Lu can''t help to feel his heart is so full right now. Seeing that face he yearned every second didn''t reject him at all. He can''t help to move closer, and plant a kiss in that smooth forehead.


    "I love you, TangTang.."


    Then he looked at his kitten''s eyes, sparkled with million little stars. Floating around, shining bright.


    I love you, and I am grateful for you accepting my love.

 Chapter 63 - Dangerous Zone

    While they were walking to the shopping mall, Jian Kang Lu wanted to hold his kitten''s hand, but he was afraid his kitten wouldn''t feel comfortable with that. Thus he only asks Bai Yutang what he wants to do this day and tomorrow. Tomorrow is their last day in Boston, after that they will go to New York for three days.


    Bai Yutang said he wants to see Harvard university. As one of the oldest institutions in the world, it had many historical buildings. It was built more than 300 years ago. Bai Yutang already read about the Massachusetts Hall, Harvard Hall, Widener Library, Fogg Art Museum, and many more.


    Jian Kang Lu nodded, "How if we took a short tour? I know there''s a tour there, providing us with a tour guide from a current Harvard student itself, so we could enjoy their personal insight of their own campus. Who knows maybe the guide is also an architecture student?"


    Bai Yutang nodded his head. Like always, Jian Kang Lu''s suggestion is perfecting his own idea. Bai Yutang sometimes wonders, how could this man know so much.


    The Italian restaurant is truly nice. It was located on the rooftop, with a glass roof so they could see the weather outside clearly. A lot of plants are hanging inside the restaurant, from the ceiling into the partition between tables. The grey walls on one side, and the other had grey and sandy brick patterns.


    It was really warm. Really reflecting Italian''s personality. Warm and lively.


    The food is excellent. The pasta with egg yolk sauce is really wonderful. Creamy but not sticky, and it had a light taste. The bread they served as an appetizer went well with the pasta and the beef spaghetti they ordered. Jian Kang Lu also ordered oysters.


    "Oysters are a must have menu in Boston, they''re famous for their seafood. How about having seafood tonight as our dinner. I know a famous seafood restaurant here that I haven''t tried yet. Do you want to try it with me?"


    Bai Yutang nods, he really likes this oysters here. It was baked with special butter, the salty creamy feeling of oysters melting in his mouth. He loved it. This is the first time he tried oysters this way. Their own country didn''t produce good oysters, the taste is a bit bland.


    "Okay, I''ll reserve the place first. How about tomorrow night? Do you want to try another seafood restaurant or steak? There''s one good steak restaurant near our hotel here, but maybe a bit far if we walk." Jian Kang Lu opened the application in his phone to reserve the restaurant.


    All good restaurants in Boston need to be reserved on the weekend or they won''t get any seat. Jian Kang Lu learned from his mistakes years ago.


    Bai Yutang thinking. They''ll eat seafood tonight, so it will be better if they tried something else. "I think it''s better to go to a steak restaurant, Jian Ge."


    "Okay." Jian Kang Lu reserved the steak restaurant too in the app.


    They spent the afternoon strolling around the area. There''s a lot of stores here around the block. From high end stores, to the unique Boston''s specialties. Jian Kang Lu offered Bai Yutang to buy something for his friends and family. Because tomorrow they might not have time for shopping.


    Bai Yutang really wants to, but he knows if he buys something that means he will use Jian Kang Lu''s money. So he shook his head.


    They''re passing a pretty store that made custom handmade soap and baths. Jian Kang Lu offered to buy some for his mother and his sister. "I want to buy something for your mother and sister. These things can''t be bought somewhere else, why don''t you help me choose?"


    Thus Bai Yutang helped Jian Kang Lu choose a lot of cute soaps. Every soap with different fragrances and ingredients come with different shapes. There''s hundreds of them. Bai Yutang had to hold Jian Kang Lu''s hand to prevent him from putting everything in their shopping bag. If Bai Yutang lets this man choose, his sister and mother will have soap supply for ten years.


    Jian Kang Lu also bought facial masks suggested by the shopkeeper. She said it was their bestseller product. Because it was customised, the face mask also had a lot of varieties. Bai Yutang decided to just hold this man''s hand and not let him choose instead.


    They were coming out from the store with six big shopping bags. Bai Yutang feels helpless. But Jian Kang Lu said this also for his colleagues and family. So this actually not a lot, and will immediately gone once they reach home.


    Then they strolled around and found a chocolate store and cafe. They sell chocolate from every place in the world. There are more than 20 chocolate varieties. The store also has cakes sold there.


    Jian Kang Lu said he wanted to buy something here for his friends, including Yu Dong, Liu Xiang, and Tang Yuxuan. Jian Kang Lu told him that he likes this store''s cocoa drink.


    They order the hot dark Brazilian cocoa and eggnog, pistachio cake, and orange cake sold in the store. Bai Yutang had to admit, this cocoa drink is the best he ever tasted. Not too sweet, and the bitter taste is left after they drink it.


    Bai Yutang knows that Jian Kang Lu always looks at him with a gentle gaze. But today, he could see that face also beam with happiness. Those eyes that used to sparkle with little stars, now brightly lit like a sun shone behind those beautiful black beads.


    Bai Yutang still can''t believe this is all real. He doesn''t understand why Jian Kang Lu likes him. Is it just a pity? Or any reason behind it?


    If this is all real, then since when Jian Kang Lu liked him?


    They went back to the hotel, and took a bath. But this time they didn''t take a bath together. Bai Yutang didn''t want Jian Kang Lu to find out that he was easily aroused if he saw Jian Kang Lu''s naked body.


    After bathing, Jian Kang Lu ordered uber to go to the seafood restaurant located in the haymarket. As Jian Kang Lu guessed, there''s a line outside the restaurant waiting to be seated. The restaurant is lined with pressed tin, subway tiles and etched glass. The tiny space exudes an unmistakably retro charm. This restaurant offers a raw bar full of seafood varieties.


    The waiter offered their renowned lobster rolls, served hot with butter. The entrees are whole Rockport mackerel served Veracruz-style. Bai Yutang did not order anything heavy, he''s amazed with the raw bar. Sea urchin, crab claws, clams, mussels, and of course a lot of variety of oysters.


    Bai Yutang ate a lot of oysters that night. He loves the lobster so much, no wonder the waiter said that it was their restaurant''s pride. Jian Kang Lu also said this is one of the best lobsters he has ever tasted.


    Bai Yutang blushed when he heard what Jian Kang Lu said next.


    "But maybe because I eat this lobster here, together with you."


    Bai Yutang could only respond meekly, "M-Me too¡­"


    They spend the dinner quite fast, because many people still lined up outside the restaurant. So after they finished the dinner, they went out and back to the hotel. It was still 8 pm, so Jian Kang Lu asked him whether he wanted to stroll around to digest the dinner.


    They strolled around and went into one of the bars near the hotel. It was a restaurant and bar combined. But the restaurant had casual elegance American style, while the bar offered the classic American style. In the bar, they offer a wide variety of beer.


    Bai Yutang was not a big fan of beer. He didn''t really like the bitter taste. So he was doubtful. Jian Kang Lu ordered the American''s local beer, Maine Beer. When Jian Kang Lu asked him what he wanted to drink, Bai Yutang told him that he didn''t really like the bitter taste from beer. So Jian Kang Lu asked the waiter for a light beer. The waiter suggested Bai Yutang to taste their Allagash white beer.


    The beer is very light, with an orange peel and coriander aroma. It served the refreshing balance of citrus and spice. Bai Yutang liked it so much, he finished two big glasses of it. He felt a little bit tipsy after drinking those two glasses.


    When Bai Yutang sipped his third glass, he unconsciously giggled when he told Jian Kang Lu about the child and the youngsters that were pestering him at the gala dinner last night.


    Jian Kang Lu just listens to him with a smile plastering on his face. Jian Kang Lu told him he also knows some of those children. They meet every year on different occasions. But he didn''t talk much to them, because he was busy talking to their parents.


    But Jian Kang Lu then frowned when Bai Yutang told him that one of those boys thought that Jian Kang Lu was his uncle. This is one of the things that he feared. He felt that he was too old for Bai Yutang.


    No matter what, their age difference is 15 year apart. How if this kitten realizes it then wants to find someone similar his own age.


    Those fears won''t subside even though Bai Yutang told him that he felt angry when he heard that. "You don''t look that old, and we don''t look alike at all. You''re too handsome to be my uncle."


    "Is that true?" Jian Kang Lu smilingly asks him.


    Bai Yutang''s eyes start to have a glossy layer, and his cheek is red from the alcohol. "Of course, you''re the most handsome man i ever met in my life."


    "Mmm.. Really? Me and Tang Yuxuan, which one is more handsome?"


    "Of course it was you. All of us agreed that you have something inside you that makes us can''t take our eyes away from you."


    "Then, even though I''m an old man, you don''t mind it?"


    "You''re not old, no one will believe if you say that your age is over thirty." Bai Yutang waved his hands.


    "But still, i''m almost 40 years old. How if someday you met a more handsome man and younger than me? Then will you look away from me and look at them?"


    Bai Yutang squinting his eyes, he suddenly looked angry. "I still remember that handsome man we met last time. He''s really handsome. Is he really your friend?"


    Now Jian Kang Lu is stunned. It felt like he stepped into a dangerous zone. This is not even 24 hours passed since they were together. Well that reminds Jian Kang Lu that he hasn''t asked his kitten properly to have a relationship with him. But he shamelessly noted today as their first day together.


    December 15th.


    He won''t miss this date, ever. He even already planned what they will do next year for their first anniversary. Jian Kang Lu felt he had changed a lot since he met this kitten. Previously he wouldn''t think too much about these kinds of things.


    Jian Kang Lu can''t answer that question, he was so afraid to answer it.


    Looking at Jian Kang Lu who transformed into a stone statue, made Bai Yutang really angry. But he can''t say that he was jealous of that guy, or ask why Jian Kang Lu said that he likes him.


    Imagining that handsome face with perfect posture, and comparing it with himself, turn Bai Yutang anger into rage, and also frustration. Disappointed with himself, why he had to feel like this, instead of grateful that Jian Kang Lu said that he liked him.


    Looking at his kitten who keeps drinking his beer with a fiery face and then turning into a sad face, makes Jian Kang Lu''s heart ached. He really can''t handle Bai Yutang''s sad face.


    Jian Kang Lu reached out, put the glass that almost emptied back to the table, and held his kitten''s hand.


    "TangTang, baby.. Do you really want to know? I can tell you everything you want to know, but maybe not here. Let''s wait until we''re back in the hotel, shall we?"

 Chapter 64 - Please Give Me A Chance

    Under the alcohol influence, Bai Yutang''s rage and frustration still flamed like wildfire. He doesn''t want to nod this time. But he let Jian Kang Lu hold his hand the whole time. Until they walked back to the hotel.


    Once they''re inside the room, Jian Kang Lu led his kitten who still had an angry expression to sit in the bed. Then he kneels in front of Bai Yutang, and holds his hand tight.


    "What do you want to ask? I''ll answer all your questions."


    Bai Yutang looked at the man who was kneeling in front of him and staring at him with an anxious face. Deep inside his heart, he was happy to find this handsome face could show this expression because of him.


    But he also doesn''t know what to ask. He doesn''t want to make Jian Kang Lu hate him and think that he was a petty jealousy man..


    "I.. I.."


    Bai Yutang stutters, and his brain, which is muddled with alcohol, finally asks the things he really wants to know.


    "Do you really like me, Jian Ge?"


    Jian Kang Lu stares at the beautiful face who looks at him with an anxious expression, mixed with expectation.


    Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s hand. The beautiful hands he admired for a long time. With those hands still touching his lips, he looked at Bai Yutang''s eyes and said.


    "I like you. So much. I can''t even explain my feelings with words. I like you. I adore you. I love you. If you can''t believe me, then i can only ask for a chance to prove it to you."


    Jian Kang Lu kissed those hands again.


    "So, TangTang.. Can you give me a chance to prove my words? I really want to ask you to be my lover. To be together with me. But if you still have doubts, that''s okay. All I ask is for you to give me a chance."


    Bai Yutang looked into those eyes, filled with anticipation. So he nodded his head.


    "I-I.. I also like you, Jian Ge. But.."


    Jian Kang Lu grip that hand tighter, he could not face it if his kitten rejected him. His fear and anxiety rose up. He tried to wreck his brain to think every possible word and ways to tie his kitten with him. After tasting this pure blissful happiness, he really could not go back pretending to have a platonic relationship with his kitten.


    "But.. I can''t understand why you like me too.."


    Jian Kang Lu was relieved and confused to hear that statement. He knows he tried to hold himself to show his affection to his kitten. But can''t his kitten see that he really tried to do everything to make him happy.


    "TangTang, before I answer that, can you tell me which part of me makes you think like that?" Jian Kang Lu asked slowly. He doesn''t want to jump to the wrong conclusion.


    Bai Yutang lowered his head. He can''t look at Jian Kang Lu. He tried to find his own bravery. He knows, if he holds this kind of feeling inside him, it will rot and ruin him. And ruin the person he loves. He saw it on Tang Yuxuan and his girlfriend.


    Bai Yutang also learned from his father, that honesty is the best thing if you want to respect your partner and want your partner to respect you in return.


    "I-I.. Maybe you''ll think that i''m childish and foolish. But.. But i''m just an ordinary man. No one, no one ever liked me before."


    Looking at Jian Kang Lu who was still looking at him, and listening to him, Bai Yutang took a deep breath and continued to say all the things bothering his mind.


    "No one ever said those words to me before.."


    Bai Yutang lowered his head, and closed his eyes.


    "I''m not handsome, i''m not talented, i-i.. I''m poor and even need to accept your help.." Bai Yutang said that with a very weak voice, uttering the deepest secret he held in his heart.


    "I saw all your friends, they''re all s-so dazzling. I-I can''t even compare myself to any single person on your circle. A-and.. I s-saw that handsome man.. I know he must be your.. Your.."


    Bai Yutang could not say those words. He could only shut his eyes tight, and tried to hold his tears. He also cursed himself, why he felt like he wanted to cry. He was a man, for God''s sake!!


    "That''s why.. That''s why i d-don''t understand. Why.. Why someone like you, want to be with me¡­"


    Bai Yutang suddenly felt those hands that were holding his hands already moved, releasing itself from his fingers, and now a pair of strong arms hold him tight. Caressing his back, grip his arms. The warm air released from the man he loved brushed his ear.


    "TangTang.. I''m not good with my words. Like I said before, maybe you don''t believe me, thus I ask you for a chance. All i can say, how i wish for you to know how deep i fall for you. How much I love you. I can''t answer why I like you. So many good things I can say about you. But none of it matters."


    Jian Kang Lu released his grip from his kitten body, and cupped the face he adored with both of his hands. Looking into that deep eyes, and kissing his kitten lips softly.


    "I love you, so so much. I might sound cheap now. But I really never felt this way before with anyone else. I love you, because it was you. No one else made me feel like this before, no one else could make me feel this way."


    Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten softly again, and his cheek, his eyes, his forehead.


    "Could you give us a chance? I''ll prove it to you, and I hope I can spend a lifetime proving my words to you."


    Bai Yutang tried to hold back the tears, he hugged Jian Kang Lu back. And nod his head.


    After they changed their clothes and lay in the bed, Bai Yutang felt his head a little bit light. He knows that he was drunk. Alcohol and nervousness to stay under the same blanket with Jian Kang Lu makes him positioned himself on the edge of the bed. Facing the window.


    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten laid so far away from him, showing only his back to him. Is he still mad with him? Or afraid of him? Does he still feel uncomfortable being with a man?


    Jian Kang Lu also didn''t know why his kitten wanted to be with him. Is his kitten originally a gay? But he remembered his kitten told him with a sad tone that he failed twice to approach girls.


    "TangTang, can i hold you when we sleep? I promise just to hold you, I won''t do anything else."


    Bai Yutang froze, then he turned around, facing Jian Kang Lu.


    Jian Kang Lu opened his arms to welcome him. So Bai Yutang moved his body, and placed his body in Jian Kang Lu arms.


    To feel that warm body he wants to hold everyday finally be here in his arms, Jian Kang Lu''s heart felt so content. He caresses his kitten''s hair softly. Then murmuring.


    "Thank you TangTang.. Thank you for giving me a chance. I promised i''ll make you happy."


    Both of them sleep soundly that night. Hold each other until the morning comes. The winter weather outside showed the yellow grey sun rays peek from between the tall buildings. The white mist slowly dissipated under the sun, and the grey snow in the road melted into a pool of water. Today''s winter is sunny, and bright.


    Jian Kang Lu wants to ride uber to Harvard university, they will take the tour today. But Bai Yutang said he wanted to try the subway. He never rode a subway for the time he spent here. He is always walking, and with Jian Kang Lu they always ride uber.


    Jian Kang Lu can''t say no to his kitten. So both of them are riding the subway. Jian Kang Lu is just smiling to see his kitten''s eyes wandering everywhere. They reach the square where the tour points started.


    Too bad the tour guide is not an architecture student. It was a girl at the same age as Bai Yutang, she was studying literature. But she was very friendly, smiled a lot, and was very funny. She explained a lot about Harvard. With wide bright eyes, she excitedly told them about the historical and peculiar site in her campus.


    Bai Yutang could not understand all the things this girl said because she spoke so fast. Sometimes he nudged at Jian Kang Lu to translate it for him. Of all the magnificent buildings with their own long history, the one that stays in Bai Yutang''s mind is The Harry Elkins Widener Memorial Library.


    Harry Elkins Widener was a bibliophile who graduated from Harvard. He died with his father when the titanic ship they boarded sank, while her mother was rescued.


    When he was still alive, he told a friend, not long before he died, "I want to be remembered in connection with a great library, I do not see how it is going to be brought about."


    Because of that, her mother donated the library to Harvard as a memorial. Mrs. Widener didn''t give the money when she built the library, but decided her own architectural opinion to the firms that designed and built that library.


    The legends told that in order to prevent her son''s fate from repeating, Widener''s mother put a condition of her donation that every future Harvard graduate be required to learn to swim.


    One of the conditions Mrs. Widener put into the library also included that they can''t change the appearance of the building. Because of that, when Harvard wants to expand the library, they expand it underground and need to request grants several times from Widener''s descendants.


    Bai Yutang admired a person, who can change the world with their small words and action. A mother''s love could not be valued with money, but surely her mother made sure that the world would know about her beloved son, remember his love of books and knowledge, and his great plan to be connected with a great library so people could afford to widen their knowledge from the words written in the pages.


    And the world remembers Harry Elkins Widener until this day.


    Jian Kang Lu insists on buying Bai Yutang and his friends the sweater from Harvard''s souvenir shop. Jian Kang Lu told him that the store managed by the students and the sales will go to the student wages and operations. Thus Bai Yutang surrendered and chose four sweaters for him and his friends.


    Bai Yutang remembered Mu Xiaoya, he needed to say thank you to Mu Xiaoya for her advice. But he could not gift these clothes. Maybe girls will prefer soap, face masks, and the lotions they bought yesterday. Bai Yutang take a note in his mind to give this to Mu Xiaoya under the pretence of ''Boston''s gift''.


    They had lunch in the cafe near the university, then rode uber back to their hotel to pack their things. Tomorrow noon they will depart for New York. So they need to pack now, because they will depart from the hotel after breakfast tomorrow.


    After packing all these things, even Bai Yutang''s luggage is very full now. Jian Kang Lu rarely bought gifts, thus he also only brought one luggage.


    "Maybe we need to buy another luggage tomorrow in New York." Jian Kang Lu pondered when he tried to stuff everything they bought in the luggage.


    Bai Yutang speechless. It seems they really need to. These two luggage almost exploded.


    The steak restaurant they went for dinner is really nice. Bai Yutang tastes better in B city where Jian Kang Lu brought him. But the au gratin potatoes and their sushi-grade sesame seared tuna with gingered rice is really nice and unique.


    Bai Yutang secretly wanted to learn to cook this when they arrived home next week. It seems healthy and really delicious.


    When the night comes and they prepare to go to the bed, Jian Kang Lu sits in the bed and doesn''t say anything but open his arms wide. Bai Yutang knows what he means.


    So he walked towards the bed, put himself under the blanket, and rolled to that open arms. To the embrace of the man he loved, and this man loved him back.

 Chapter 65 - New York

    Bai Yutang really doesn''t like New York city. He was surprised to see the traffic jam here. Bai Yutang thought the traffic jam in B city is already bad, but New York is very similar to it.


    After Boston, Bai Yutang thought every city in this country won''t have traffic jams as bad as B city. But he was wrong.


    It took almost four hours from the airport to their hotel. As a result, they reach the hotel at 7 o''clock. Bai Yutang is tired and hungry. But he really likes the hotel Jian Kang Lu chose to stay here. Jian Kang Lu chose the hotel near Broadway, it''s very close to Times Square, the heart of New York City.


    The hotel is a luxury boutique hotel built in 1905 by architect Stanford White. The architect that also forms the McKim, Mead & White architectural firm.. One of the architects in that firm is the one that designed the Boston Public Library.


    Somehow Bai Yutang felt that Jian Kang Lu chose this hotel because he knew Bai Yutang loves buildings with architectural history.


    Last night, when they cuddled in the bed before they slept, Jian Kang Lu asked him while caressing his hair gently.


    "TangTang, I booked a double bed for our hotel in New York. Do you mind if I change it into a single bed?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head, tickling Jian Kang Lu''s chin.


    "I don''t mind, Jian Ge."


    Thus tonight Bai Yutang saw this beautiful room. Spacious room with large sofa, and balcony outside the glass door. They can see the view outside, the manhattan jungle of concrete.


    Jian Kang Lu told him it was too bad that they came here in winter, or else they can enjoy their breakfast in the balcony. Bai Yutang suggests they can try that tomorrow morning, but Jian Kang Lu refuses it with no room for discussion. He coldly reminded Bai Yutang about his illness last year.


    Bai Yutang had a bad premonition that his last year''s illness would prevent him from enjoying any winter activities for the rest of his life.


    "TangTang, do you want to eat outside or just order room service and eat here? There''s a lot of restaurants near this hotel though."


    Bai Yutang saw it from the car when they''re heading to this hotel. Thus he agreed to eat outside. They just left the luggage and straightly went out again. They can take shower later after dinner.


    New York is very crowded. Jian Kang Lu holds Bai Yutang''s hand all the time, then just switches into grabbing his shoulder. Bring Bai Yutang closer to him to prevent him being knocked by the other pedestrian.


    His kitten is so skinny! Jian Kang Lu is afraid his kitten will be injured if he is knocked down by these crowds.


    Bai Yutang missed Chinese food, thus when he saw a small Chinese restaurant while strolling around, he told Jian Kang Lu that he wanted to eat there.


    Even though the restaurant is small, it was crowded inside. Bai Yutang smells the aroma of the dishes, and he''s glad. The dishes here seem delicious!


    When Bai Yutang opened the menu, he was stunned. 40 dollars for one portion of fried rice! It was almost 250 yuan! That price does not even include the tax and tips. Bai Yutang regrets why he chose this place.


    But Jian Kang Lu was happy and didn''t mind at all. Inside Jian Kang Lu''s mind, it was rare for his kitten asking him for something. Even if the fried rice here cost him 4000 dollars he will gladly pay.


    Actually, it was an average price in New York city, especially in this area. The area they stayed could count as the most expensive place to stay. Most of the stores and restaurants here have higher prices.


    Bai Yutang ordered the Szechuan chicken and rice. He didn''t want to order that 40 dollars fried rice! This Szechuan chicken''s price is 50 dollars including rice. Bai Yutang sure was a better choice rather than a 40 dollars fried rice.


    The taste is acceptable, Bai Yutang tastes a lot better Szechuan chicken compared to this one, and a lot cheaper. But after days of eating western food, he was glad to eat familiar dishes.


    When they''re back to the hotel, they are already very tired. After bathing, Bai Yutang fell asleep soon after his head touched the pillow. When Jian Kang Lu walked out from the bathroom, he saw his kitten already sleep soundly.


    Thus he only rolls under the blanket, scoops his kitten body and places it on his own. Jian Kang Lu doesn''t know how he could sleep again in the future if his kitten is not around. Just two nights holding his kitten sleeping, but his body is already accustomed to have this warmth and comfort.


    Luckily he already secured Bai Yutang''s promise to stay in the apartment instead of moving to the dorm when he starts studying again in the next few months.


    In the morning, Jian Kang Lu wakes up from his kitten''s movement. These movements¡­


    Jian Kang Lu cursed inside, his little brother responded in an instant. His kitten''s snuggle under the blanket, rubbing his chest and shoulder, rubbing that small bud of Jian Kang Lu. His kitten''s arms that are circling Jian Kang Lu''s waist are moving around, and his legs are rubbing Jian Kang Lu''s legs.


    Jian Kang Lu still remembers the morning when they did it for the first time. And he really really wants to repeat that moment. But he tried to hold himself, because he needed to assure his kitten that he was not a beast!


    His kitten already told him that this is his first relationship. His kitten told him that no one liked him before. Though Jian Kang Lu doubted that, at least he was glad his kitten wanted to give him a chance.


    So, if he just pounced this pure kitten now, won''t it make his kitten runaway and hate him forever?


    Thus, the same moment from that morning repeated again. Jian Kang Lu lay still like a wooden statue, with his right hands gripping the bed sheet tight, trying to do mathematical calculation in his mind to drift this primal desire away.


    But his kitten didn''t help him at all! Those tiny movements keep repeating, and stir big movements inside Jian Kang Lu''s mind.


    Finally his kitten wakes up and looks at Jian Kang Lu. Seeing that Jian Kang Lu was already awake, Bai Yutang didn''t notice it at first but then he realised. That face, that expression, that eyes, similar with what he saw that morning.


    It was not because Bai Yutang didn''t want to. But he just didn''t know how to, and he was also not confident in his own skill. He knows Jian Kang Lu must have someone else before, and Bai Yutang sure that their skill must surpass him.


    Don''t even mention skill in bed, Bai Yutang doesn''t even have skill in relationship!


    So he was just rolling around and mumbling "Good morning, Jian Ge."


    Jian Kang Lu woke up, and made him some tea. Bai Yutang said thank you and sipped his tea. They discussed today''s plan. Today they will stroll around, then go to central park, and watch Broadway shows later at night.


    After discussing their plan, Bai Yutang still saw that expression from Jian Kang Lu didn''t falter. Not turning back into the usual gentle expression of him. Bai Yutang told him that he wanted to take a shower if Jian Kang Lu didn''t want to take a shower first.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t answer him, but then silently nodded.


    When Bai Yutang took his clothes from the closet and walked inside the bathroom, suddenly a hand halted the bathroom door. Bai Yutang saw Jian Kang Lu staring at him.


    "Mmm, do you want to take a shower first, Jian Ge?"


    Jian Kang Lu kept staring at him. Bai Yutang feels awkward.


    "TangTang, do you mind if we take shower together?"

 Chapter 66 - In The Bathroom (NSFW)

    -This chapter contains NSFW. If you''re not comfortable with it, please skip this chapter-


    Bai Yutang lowered his head down. Deep inside, he also has lust. After all, he''s a healthy young man with normal desire. So he just nodded his head.


    "Then, can you wait on the sofa first? I''ll prepare the water in the bathtub for you." Jian Kang Lu''s voice sounds hoarse and deeper than usual.


    Bai Yutang nervously waiting outside. Then he put on his coat and went outside to the balcony. This room is really beautiful, the scenery outside also breathtaking. Bai Yutang finally could calm down his thumping heart.


    Bai Yutang suddenly felt both arms of Jian Kang Lu circling his neck from behind, and planted a kiss on top of his head.


    "Baby, come.."


    Bai Yutang follows Jian Kang Lu to the bathroom, with Jian Kang Lu arms still circling his neck. He stood beside the bathtub, and let Jian Kang Lu strip him naked. His instinct made him want to cover his private part with his hands. No matter how much he loves this man, he still has not gotten used to this intimate act with Jian Kang Lu.


    Jian Kang Lu stripped himself too, and led Bai Yutang into the water. But Jian Kang Lu didn''t follow immediately, he put the clothes in the laundry bag first. Then he gets inside the bathtub.


    Bai Yutang was sitting in the middle of the bathtub, holding his own knees. Jian Kang Lu got inside, circled Bai Yutang from behind.


    When Jian Kang Lu stripped himself, Bai Yutang didn''t dare to see that naked body. He remembered himself aroused easily when he saw that sculptured body of his lover naked. So he only bowed his head down and hugged his knees, and tried to calm his heart that was wildly thumping again.


    But now, when this man got inside the bathtub and hugged him from behind, Bai Yutang could feel that hard member of Jian Kang Lu poke him from the back. That was enough to make the beat of his heart thumping wild and the blood rushed to his lower abdomen. Bai Yutang tried to bring his knees closer to his chest, covering his own erection.


    Jian Kang Lu kisses his kitten''s ear from behind. He already imagined these kinds of things hundreds of times before. Now when he finally has a chance to do it in reality, he can''t think clearly anymore.


    He kisses that ear tip, licks it slowly, then brings his tongue running around the tip, then to the ear lobe. Lick it slowly, to enjoy every second, every inch of his kitten''s lovely ear.


    Bai Yutang bit his own lips, why just a lick to his ear, and his body already responded like this. His member is instantly hard, his world gradually turns red, the ear that is touched by Jian Kang Lu''s tongue feels hot, and itchy.


    The wet and soft tongue that runs slowly there teases him. And when Jian Kang Lu bite that earlobe lightly, then sucks it, truly made Bai Yutang can''t handle the sensation. He grip his knees tight with his hands.


    Jian Kang Lu took his kitten''s hands, and held her palms with his own. The sensation of having nowhere to hide, with his front is wide open in the water, while something wet teases his earlobe from the back, enough to make Bai Yutang''s member throbbing from all the blood flow and that thumping heart.


    Then Jian Kang Lu''s tongue invading that cleave in Bai Yutang''s ear, skilfully playing with it, gives it the right pressure, alternately from light to hard, while his fingers running around his kitten palms.


    "Ngh.."


    Bai Yutang can''t hold that moan. Even though he already swore he won''t moan like a girl again, the sensation he felt right now made his body out of his control.


    Jian Kang Lu still plays with that ear, then moves to Bai Yutang''s neck. This time, Jian Kang Lu marked him. He already wanted to mark this man for a long time. He imagined that million times. Now, this man is his.


    Jian Kang Lu sucks that part of skin between the shoulder and the neck, right next to Bai Yutang''s artery. Jian Kang Lu could feel the pulsating beat. He licks it first, then presses it with his tongue.


    Then he sucks it for 15 seconds, releases it before he bite it lightly, and sucks it again for 5 seconds, then licks again lightly. He repeated that movement several times. Move to both of his kitten shoulder, his back, his nape, but always come back to that place.


    Marking is fun when you do that in different places, but don''t focus too much on making one mark prominent. Jiang Kang Lu sucks different parts of his kitten''s skin, to stimulate him in different ways. Every touch to every part of his kitten body gives him a different reaction.


    Jian Kang Lu looked for the place that aroused his kitten the most. And that skin between the neck and the shoulder is the one that makes his kitten''s hand grip tighter. So he diligently came back there after exploring another part.


    Jian Kang Lu''s right hand already moved. From caressing the palm, then move to his kitten''s arms, running it slowly and lightly. Just to tease that nerve in the surface. When he reached his kitten''s bud. He pinch it hard.


    The sensation of light touch in his skin, the sucking and licking from his neck, the sound of that wet tongue playing with his ear, and suddenly feel the hard pinch in his bud, almost make Bai Yutang scream.


    "Ah.. Gege.."


    Bai Yutang tried to grip the bathtub edge, and his left hand grip Jian Kang Lu''s hand. How he wanted to scream, for Jian Kang Lu to touch his member too. That hard rod throbbing, heated, asked to be touched, to be caressed, to be released.


    But Jian Kang Lu didn''t touch it yet. He enjoyed every moment he spent licking and playing with the upper part of his kitten''s body. He dreamed about this for a long time. He doesn''t want to hurry, he wants to enjoy every moment.


    Bai Yutang was tortured by this itch, that burning inside him, and really can''t hold his moan anymore when Jian Kang Lu kept playing with his two buds, and felt the hard member of Jian Kang Lu poke and rub his butt from behind.


    That hot sensation in his ear, that itch from his buds, that weird feeling from his butt, all swirling together, muddled Bai Yutang''s head.


    His hand started to move involuntarily, and tried to search Jian Kang Lu''s part. If Jian Kang Lu didn''t want to touch it, then he will touch Jian Kang Lu''s. Tried to give the cruel man behind him a signal that he wanted to be touched.


    When Bai Yutang''s right hand touched that hot and hard rod, Bai Yutang could hear Jian Kang Lu curse.


    "Fuck! Baby.. Stop it.. Ugh.. I can''t hold myself if you didn''t stop."


    Jian Kang Lu warned this kitten. He doesn''t have lubricants, and he definitely doesn''t want his kitten''s first experience to be a painful one. Besides, he wasn''t sure whether his kitten knows that sex between man is not limited to touch each other.


    Jian Kang Lu is really afraid if he can''t hold himself and ends up forcing his kitten.


    But this naughty kitten didn''t stop. That hand clumsily tried to look for Jian Kang Lu''s shaft behind. Just that tiny movement, that inexperience touch, that fingers touch his member''s tip several times under the water, snapped Jian Kang Lu''s sanity.


    "Fuck! Baby.. Sit on top of me. Now."


    Jian Kang Lu held his kitten waist, and put him on top of his abdomen. He put his own member between his kitten two round butt, and slid it until it touched his kitten round balls and the base of his shaft.


    "Clamp your feet, clamp. Ugh.. Thats.. Thats it.."


    Jian Kang Lu''s left arm supports himself in the bathtub, with the help of his feet. His right arms circling his kitten''s waist to prevent his kitten from slipping. His kitten''s hand just grip the edge of the bathtub.


    "Baby, you''re so hot. Ugh, put your arms around my neck.."


    Bai Yutang felt that sensation of something hard and big, hot, burning his lower part. That friction left him breathless. He doesn''t know that sensation of something foreign touching that part could be very seductive.


    He could only let soft moans escape his mouth several times. Even though his member didn''t get any touch at all, the new feeling of ecstasy he felt right now was even greater than what he expected.


    Bai Yutang obediently circled his right arms behind Jian Kang Lu''s neck. That way, Jian Kang Lu could hold him better and he wouldn''t slip away. Jian Kang Lu strongly moved Bai Yutang''s body up and down, rippling the water, splashed around them.


    "Ngh.. Ah.. Gege.. Ngh.."


    Bai Yutang being kissed, that wild kiss just invading his mouth without even starting with a light peck or soft lick like the first time they kissed. Jian Kang Lu just kisses him directly, prying his mouth open, sucking his tongue, and rubbing it wildly with Jian Kang Lu''s velvety wet tongue.


    The sound of wet tongue tangling. The sound of two body slapping. The sound of the water rippling.


    Bai Yutang doesn''t even know where he is right now. All he knows, the world turns red. There''s only him and Jian Kang Lu here, and he wants to be burned by this man.


    Bai Yutang instinctively moves his hips up and down too after Jian Kang Lu keeps moving his body up and down, rubbing that hot shaft of his man with his clamped thighs. Rub it with the cleave of his round butt.


    "Shit.. Baby.. Baby, you''re so hot.. So tight.. Ugh.."


    Jian Kang Lu touched the tip of Bai Yutang''s member.


    "Ah!!"


    Aroused for so long, add with that wild rubbed sensation from behind, make Bai Yutang''s front very sensitive. With that one single touch to his tip, enough to make him scream, electrified him with so much pleasure.


    Jian Kang Lu kissed him even deeper, and rub that pre-leak cum from his slit to his shaft, and rub his member. While still moving him up and down, rub his own penis to Bai Yutang''s thighs.


    "Ah.. Nghh.. Gege.. Gege.. Stop, Gege.."


    Bai Yutang really can''t handle this sensation, his whole body hot and numbed, burned him with this fiery feeling. He can''t see anything, just tiny sparks around him.


    "Mmh.. Why do I have to stop?"


    Jian Kang Lu whispers those words slowly with his hoarse deep voice in his kitten''s ear. He even rubs harder, fastens his speed. He grips his kitten''s member in a right pressure, while rubbing it faster and faster.


    Jian Kang Lu bite his kitten''s ear, his left hand pinches his kitten''s beautiful swollen bud, lets his kitten''s moan turn into hoarse panting, then screams.


    "Gege.. Gege stop.. I can''t.. Gege.. I.. Ahhh.. I''m cumming¡­"


    His kitten arched his back, put his whole weight into Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder while gripping his neck tight. Jian Kang Lu hurriedly kissed his neck, and sucked it again. Jian Kang Lu grip his kitten''s waist and rub his own member faster.


    If he didn''t release soon, he was afraid he''ll really rape his kitten. Looking at his kitten''s face like this.. His glossy eyes, his wet swollen lips, his beautiful body.. Jian Kang Lu is really going crazy.


    Having sex with his kitten is dangerous.


    "Baby, help me.. Clamp, ugh¡­ That''s right."


    Bai Yutang didn''t know after he released his load, he still could feel that burning sensation from behind, and add the sensitivity of that friction feeling. The sense of that hot shaft rubbing him over and over again, multiplied the pleasure of his ejaculation.


    "TangTang, baby.. I love you.."


    Bai Yutang moans from that rubbing sensation, and the kiss on his neck.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know for how many minutes they''re doing that. All he knows, when Jian Kang Lu touches him all over again, his members start to wake up again.


    Bai Yutang didn''t have any shame left. All he knows is that this ecstasy burns all the things within him. He returns the kiss to Jian Kang Lu, and his hand also returns the pinch on Jian Kang Lu''s buds.


    "Baby, did you wake up again?" Jian Kang Lu chuckled.


    Bai Yutang didn''t hear that chuckled, all he wants is just to become one with this man. He rubs, he kisses, he touches, he scratches.


    "Mmmhh.. Ahh.. Gege.. Touch me.."


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t need his kitten to command him for the second time. He skilfully played with his kitten''s member. Slowly search for his kitten''s sensitive spot. Observing his kitten''s favourite movement.


    Bai Yutang was already released, so the second time didn''t last for less than five minutes compared to the first cum. He enjoyed the sensation of Jian Kang Lu''s fingers running on his shaft.


    Jian Kang Lu also licks his nipple, leaving his moan even louder. Bai Yutang also wants to make this man feel good. So he clamp his thighs tighter, leaving Jian Kang Lu cursed louder.


    To know this man he adored feels good because of him, makes Bai Yutang aroused even more. He clamps it, then moves his body faster. His hips learn the movement fast.


    "Ugh.. Baby, you''re so good.. So tight.. Ugh.."


    Jian Kang Lu sucks his kitten''s nipple and rubs his kitten''s shaft faster. With this hips movement from this little vixen of his, Jian Kang Lu can''t hold himself any longer. He''s going to come soon.


    "AH.. Stop Gege.. I.. I''m cumming again.. Gege!"


    Bai Yutang wanted to scream, the fireworks in his mind exploded into a million bursts, numbed the whole cells in his body, sparked his world, and left him to ashes.


    "Ugh, cum baby, cum.. I''m cumming too.."


    Both of them released almost at the same time.


    "Ugh!!!"


    Jian Kang Lu can''t hold his own voice. The sensation is really great for him. At first he thought maybe because he haven''t had sex for more than three years, thus the feeling of having his kitten''s body really ignite his lust.


    But now, the sensation is even greater than last time. They haven''t even had a real sex yet. Jian Kang Lu didn''t know how it would feel when he finally could taste his kitten inside out.


    Jian Kang Lu holds his kitten tight, and kisses him again and again.


    He''s so lucky to meet this man. He was grateful he decided to talk to his kitten on the plane that time. Or else he will miss this one hell of perfect creation.


    But most of all, he knows he''s so lucky and grateful that his kitten gives him a chance not only to love him, but also to become one with him.


    "Mmh.. TangTang.. I love you, so much.. So much.."

 Chapter 67 - Where’s The Fun?

    Jian Kang Lu regret their bathroom activity. When he was controlled by his desire and lust, he didn''t notice anything. The only thing he feels is only the divine pleasure from his kitten''s body, his kitten''s moan, his kitten''s touch.


    After they released that primal sexual instinct, both of them panting wild. Their breath gradually turned to normal after some time. His kitten still laid upon him, hugged him, just like he hugged his kitten tight. Jian Kang Lu hold that tiny waist, caressing his kitten''s delicate abdomen down to his thighs that limp from the after sex state.


    When Jian Kang Lu''s breath turned to normal and his soul returned to earth, he just realised the water in the tub had already turned cold. He hurriedly propped his kitten''s body to the proper position and opened the plug. Then he turns the hot water to rinse his kitten''s body.


    He cursed inside. He knows his kitten is sensitive to cold weather, and now he''s the one that pushes his kitten to be exposed to cold water.. Jian Kang Lu rinsed both of them. His kitten''s face that was blushed before now turned pale. His kitten still looked at him in daze. Letting him wash his naked body.


    That face of his kitten.. Really enchanting.. Jian Kang Lu can''t hold himself to kiss his kitten again and again while he washed that captivating body. After he washed his kitten and himself clean, he dried his kitten''s body and put him in the bathrobe, then carried him to the bed. Tug him under the blanket.


    Jian Kang Lu just realised their bathing consumes almost an hour. No wonder the water was getting cold and his kitten''s face turned pale.


    "Baby, let''s just order room service for our breakfast. Or you want to go down?"


    His kitten''s look so cute with only his pair of eyes exposed. The rest of his body is under the blanket.


    "Let''s just eat here, gege.."


    That muffled voice, itch Jian Kang Lu''s heart. Like a feather tickling his core. He kissed his kitten''s forehead and brought him the hot tea.


    While waiting for their breakfast, Jian Kang Lu enrobe the clothes he picked from the closet to his kitten''s body. His kitten obediently raised his hand, put his legs on the pants. Let Jian Kang Lu treat him like a 7 year old toddler.


    After breakfast, Jian Kang Lu asks him whether his kitten wants to sleep again or stroll in central park like they planned. His kitten pondered.


    "Maybe we have to cancel our trip to the Statue of Liberty tomorrow, gege.. Today let''s stroll around here, and tomorrow go to Central park."


    Jian Kang Lu really regrets why he can''t hold his own lust. He knows his kitten wants to see that statue, and he also wants to show many things to his kitten. So he just hugged his kitten.


    "I''m sorry, TangTang.. Let''s come back here next year. Maybe in spring. I promised to show you many things¡­ But it seems I can''t fulfil my own words."


    His kitten just caresses his head, and kisses his cheeks. Jian Kang Lu really felt that he was in a dream. A long sweet dream that he won''t wake up.


    They stroll around the times square, looking at the crowd. December is really festive. Christmas and New Year are coming, so the town celebrates it grandly. Lots of people walking here, warm up the winter in the city that never sleep.


    They enjoy lunch in one of the beautiful restaurants located at one of the hotels in Times square. Jian Kang Lu chose the window seat so they could enjoy the relaxed vibe and electric energy from the crowds out there.


    The food is not something that exceptional, but their vegan options vary. Besides, they have a late breakfast so Bai Yutang wasn''t really hungry. They also drink some wine and the cocktail while enjoying the view.


    When they stroll back, looking at the high class store in fifth avenue, Jian Kang Lu offers his kitten several times to buy something he wants. Sometimes Jian Kang Lu really wishes his kitten could act like his ex. Most of them like shopping.


    But his beloved kitten never asks for anything, and always refuses his offer to buy him something.


    His kitten don''t want a backpack from branded store, his kitten don''t want limited edition shoes, his kitten don''t want to change his phone into the latest edition, his kitten also refuse Jian Kang Lu when he want to buy branded bags or cosmetics for his kitten''s mother and sister.


    "Our luggage is full, and don''t buy another luggage." His kitten warned him with his cute phoenix eyes.


    Jian Kang Lu can only nod. He could not say no to that face. Jian Kang Lu himself is not a person who likes to go shopping. All his things are good quality things, so they could be worn for a long time.


    In the end they didn''t buy anything. And just chatting while strolling around. At least, his kitten''s eyes are so bright and said he is really grateful for Jian Kang Lu brought him here. He loves this city, even though his kitten said he likes Boston more.


    Jian Kang Lu laughed when his kitten said that this city is really expensive. His kitten still can''t forget how expensive that fried rice in the Chinese restaurant was.


    They''re back to their hotel in the afternoon after spending five hours outside. They prepare themselves to go to Broadway. Jian Kang Lu chose to watch Hamilton. He himself has not yet watched that show, but the review said it was really good.


    It was a musical show about the American Founding Father, Alexander Hamilton. Both of them weren''t really familiar with this historical figure, so they search for the information first before they watch.


    The show itself really proved that it was worth being one of the best selling shows on Broadway. The song, the dance, the energy from the cast was really magnificent. Even though Bai Yutang''s english skill is limited, he really enjoys the show.


    Jian Kang Lu was really glad when his kitten was still lively chattering, talking about the show when they walked back to the hotel, tried to find something to eat.


    "Gege, I can''t imagine how tired it is for the actors. All of them could sing so well even though they danced and acted all the time."


    "Mmm.. True. Most of these people in this business are really good and very talented. These shows are a little bit different from the other famous Broadway shows. They showcased the modern style and lots of rap songs. Next time we come here, maybe we can spend more time watching more shows."


    "Yes gege, I really like it!"


    "Me myself loves the show from Andrew Lloyd Webber. That man is a genius. Next time let''s watch The Phantom of The Opera or Cats."


    The next day they spend the time strolling around the central park. This is one of Jian Kang Lu''s favourite places in New York City. A square shaped park surrounded by the concrete high rise building. This place also has lakes, and some street musicians play in the park.


    They have their lunch in the boat shaped restaurant beside the lake. The scenery in the restaurant is really breathtaking. Bai Yutang pointed to the menu when they ordered. "Look gege, these scallops and risotto only cost 36 dollars. How could that fried rice cost 40 dollars??"


    Jian Kang Lu laughed, "But that''s the only restaurant you ever ask from me. I think even if it costs a thousand more, I''ll gladly pay. Besides, the taste is really good compared to other Chinese restaurants here."


    Bai Yutang just pouted. "I could cook the same fried rice that costs much less than that."


    "Mmm.. My TangTang''s cooking is of course the best dishes in the world."


    Jian Kang Lu could see his kitten''s face blushed and said nothing more.


    The egg benedict and the seared sea scallops with risotto is delicious. The waiter also suggested that they try their jumbo lump crab. Bai Yutang ordered the sailboat pancake as their dessert.


    They stroll again in the park, and then go back to the hotel. Bai Yutang''s favourite place is the Bethesda Terrace and Fountain, also the Belvedere Castle. They took a lot of pictures there.


    Jian Kang Lu still remembers that once when his kitten was missing, he didn''t have a single photo of his kitten. So now he took a lot of pictures of his kitten while his kitten was busy taking pictures of the statue and monuments.


    Bai Yutang finally noticed, and asked what Jian Kang Lu was doing. Bai Yutang saw that gentle and reserved face turn a little bit red and panic. Bai Yutang looked at the handphone in Jian Kang Lu''s hand. Then he asked in a low voice.


    "Are you taking pictures of me, gege?"


    Jian Kang Lu is really panicking now. How if his kitten doesn''t like he took pictures of him without permission. He still doesn''t know whether his kitten is comfortable with their relationship.


    Jian Kang Lu had bad experiences about these kinds of things. Because Zhang Min is really afraid someone will know about their relationship, so Zhang Min despises body contact when they''re outside.


    Zhang Min also don''t want any pictures taken or anything that could be a proof that he was gay and have indecent relationship with Jian Kang Lu. For those four years they spent as lovers, the only pictures of them together is the picture that Jian Kang Lu took silently when Zhang Min was sleeping. And he put it in his hidden folder in his laptop.


    Bai Yutang sighed inside. Since they''re together, ever since that day when both of them admit their feelings, he saw many new expressions from this man. The faces he never knew.


    Jian Kang Lu that he knew is the man that is always gentle, reserved, knows everything he needs to do and how he should act. Sometimes, Bai Yutang also sees the lonely side of Jian Kang Lu, although it was very rare.


    But now, his lover seems to freeze several times if he asks something. Show him that regret and anxious expression, restless face, and a face that shows he doesn''t know what to do. Don''t know how to answer. Don''t know how to act.


    Bai Yutang reaches that frozen hand that still hold mobile phone with the camera facing toward him. He held those slender hands, and took the mobile phone from Jian Kang Lu''s hand. It was full of his photos.


    Bai Yutang raised his head, and saw Jian Kang Lu still frozen. Before this man''s voice coming out from that slightly opened lips, Bai Yutang raised the mobile phone, and changed it into the selfie mode.


    "Let''s take pictures together, gege. Where''s the fun of taking pictures of me alone?"

 Chapter 68 - Because Of You

    Jian Kang Lu looked at that solemn face that slept soundly in the seat next to him. The blanket covering his man slightly dropped. Jian Kang Lu tugged him back, to make sure his lover seeped warmly.


    They''re already in the plane, fly back to their country. To their original lives.


    Jian Kang Lu still can''t believe all the things that happened to them on this trip. ''How if all of this is just a dream?'' Those lines that haunted his brain over and over, repeated on his mind.


    How if this is just a whim for his kitten, just want to experience something new? Jian Kang Lu saw many things in his life. And he knew some men like to play around in their youth, just want to taste some new exciting moment.


    How if his kitten regrets it? The country they live in is not the country that would openly accept this kind of relationship. Their country still despises these indecent acts..


    Jian Kang Lu remembers how his kitten put his family as priority. How if, like Zhang Min, he finally chose to spend his life with a woman? His kitten also never experienced how it feels to be with a woman. How if someday he falls for a beautiful girl, and leaves him.


    How if his kitten someday found he was not interesting enough, and finally saw that Jian Kang Lu was just an old man?


    Jian Kang Lu touched the strand of hair falling to his kitten''s temples, and tugged it back behind his ear.


    ''I''ll do anything to tie you with me. To make you can''t live without me. Just like i feel right now.''


    These dark thoughts already creeped inside Jian Kang Lu''s mind several times, but he never acknowledged it. He''s the man who is always confident with himself. He is never jealous, never insecure, never afraid.


    Until this man came and invaded his life.


    Before, even with the platonic relationship with his kitten, Jian Kang Lu suffered so much when he couldn''t contact his kitten. Now, tasting five days of paradise with his kitten, Jian Kang Lu really can''t picture himself without this man.


    The one who gives him so much happiness, and gives him a glimpse of what it means to live your life.


    Jian Kang Lu is a 37 years old man. He sees many things, he hears many things. When his mother consoling his crying aunt. He knows that his uncle is cheating with a younger woman, and his aunt suffers so much.


    But his aunt didn''t leave his uncle. She can''t. Under the pretence of children and money. His aunt didn''t work, so she relied solely on him. Even now when the children are turned into adults and can live by themselves, when his uncle is caught for his debauchery act so many times, her aunt still stays in that marriage.


    Because of money.


    Jian Kang Lu also knew some of his colleagues cheating on their wives so many times. When he asked why his friend didn''t leave his wife and that hell of marriage, his friend answer him that they only try to found that sensation, that tension of first touch, first kiss, first sex with someone new.


    They still love their wife, the one who stays with them when they''re still poor residents. They can''t leave someone who already wasted their youth for them. So they always come back to their wife.


    Because of gratitude.


    Jian Kang Lu''s dark mind is determined to chain his kitten. If he can''t tie this man to stay by his side with love, then he''ll trap him with money and gratitude.


    Jian Kang Lu laughs at himself, he can''t believe he turned into a despicable character. To have these kinds of dirty things inside his mind. But he doesn''t care. Anything is fine, as long as his kitten beside him.


    As long as his kitten stays with him.


    Even if his kitten one day gets bored with him and loses his interest in him anymore, he''ll make sure this man can''t live without him.


    Just like Jian Kang Lu can''t live without him.


    When they finally arrived at the apartment, it''s already 6 pm. Both of them were very tired. Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten walking to his room. Does this man want to sleep separately with him?


    Jian Kang Lu grabbed him, and hugged his kitten from behind. He can feel his kitten startled, but then turn his head around. His kitten stayed in his place, and didn''t run away.


    "Gege?"


    Jian Kang Lu kisses that smooth temple, and tightens his hug.


    "Can you move to my room, TangTang? Our room?" Jian Kang Lu whispers his plea.


    Bai Yutang was exhausted, he just wanted to sleep. But to feel a warm embrace, with that hot breath in his ear, turn something inside him. He cursed inside. He can''t believe that he''s so easily aroused like this.


    With a wild beating heart, and trying to suppress his desire, he can only nod. Bai Yutang let Jian Kang Lu happily take their luggage and put it inside Jian Kang Lu''s room.


    Their room. Bai Yutang tried to remind himsel. And he can''t help but blush. He also still can''t believe this is all happening for real. But he tried to be honest with himself, and just accept this happiness.


    Jian Kang Lu also moved the rest of Bai Yutang''s things from his room to his own. No, it should be moving Bai Yutang''s things from the guest room to their room. Jian Kang Lu happily moved all Bai Yutang''s things as fast as he could. As if he was afraid if Bai Yutang suddenly changed his mind.


    Jian Kang Lu still took one day leave from hospital to recuperate and adjust himself with the time differences. So when he wakes up at 4 o''clock in the morning and realizes that his kitten is still laid in his arms, he''s so grateful and content. Watching that peaceful face, here in his arms.


    He won''t let this man leave him. Forever.


    Bai Yutang awoken at 7 am. He was startled. And look at Jian Kang Lu who hugged him tight while still sleeping.


    Since the day they''re together, this man is always sleeping and hugging him tight. Never let him move away even for an inch. This gesture is one of the things that make Bai Yutang see that this man really likes him.


    Even though Bai Yutang still doesn''t understand why.


    Bai Yutang is struggling to free himself from Jian Kang Lu''s tangling arms. He needs to cook breakfast. Bai Yutang now really thinks that cooking is the only thing he could do to Jian Kang Lu.


    And he is also happy to see Jian Kang Lu''s happy face every time he eats the food that he cooked.


    They spend the day just resting, and separate the things that need to be given to their friends and colleagues. Bai Yutang also wants to wash their dirty clothes. But Jian Kang Lu said he doesn''t need to do that. Just put everything in the laundry downstairs.


    When Bai Yutang wants to refute that and remind Jian Kang Lu about their rules, Jian Kang Lu stares at him.


    "Baby, I think we need to talk about those rules again. You''re my lover now, not a stranger."


    Bai Yutang really still can''t get used to hearing the word ''lover''. So he just mumbled. Jian Kang Lu heard that mumble but couldn''t hear it clearly. So he grabbed Bai Yutang''s waist and put him in his lap.


    "TangTang, baby, don''t say that you don''t want to be my lover. You agreed to give me a chance." Jian Kang Lu said with a pleading voice, mixed with a warning tone.


    "I do¡­" Bai Yutang answered softly.


    Jian Kang Lu grip his arms tighter around that waist, and smell the scent emerging from his kitten''s nape.


    "So.. We need to revise the rules. You don''t need to do anything. Just stay here with me, together with me. You''re my lover, not my housekeeper."


    Bai Yutang was a little bit angry to hear that. "So you don''t want me to cook for you again?"


    Jian Kang Lu stunned, why does he feel like stepping into a dangerous zone again?


    He hurriedly said, "You can do anything you want. If you still want to cook for me, of course i''ll be very happy. I told you, the food you cooked is the best in the world, the best I ever taste."


    To see his kitten back into a docile state, Jian Kang Lu was relieved.


    "Can we talk about these rules again, baby?"


    To see Bai Yutang nod obediently, Jian Kang Lu can''t help to kiss his kitten softly.


    "Of course i prefer you cook for me, you don''t know how happy i am to eat the dishes created by your hands. But i don''t want you to cook because you have to. If you''re tired, then we can just order. Okay?"


    Bai Yutang nodded, then said softly, "I am also happy when i see you eat the food i cooked, gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu kisses the tip of his kitten''s nose, and his beautiful lips.


    "Then next, about the allowances. Like i told you before, you''re my lover. So I want you to accept the card that i''ll give you. You can buy groceries and everything you need with that. No fixed allowance. Just use it."


    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten want to refute his words. So he added, "I think we need to talk about these matters. Hear me first, please?"


    Bai Yutang really wanted to refute that statement, but then he closed his mouth. He needs to listen to what this man wants to say first.


    "I already finished this apartment''s instalment right before I met you on the plane that time. That''s why I go for a holiday at that time, to celebrate my freedom from paying for this apartment''s instalment. When I think about that, I feel so lucky. I met you, and now I can hold you like this. Really the best decision I ever made in my life."


    Jian Kang Lu kisses his kitten''s lips again, and inhales his kitten''s scent more. It was so addictive. "So I have no debt. I earn enough money to support both of us, I can show you my bank statement. I can even give all my salary to you if you want to. The point is, my financial state is stable, and you don''t need to worry about these kinds of things."


    Jian Kang Lu caresses his kitten''s waist, and continued, "You know I rarely go out, I rarely buy anything. I also invest some money, you know my father and my brother are good at these things, right?"


    Bai Yutang nodded. He doesn''t really understand what Jian Kang Lu''s father and brother''s do, but he understands that they deal with money and investment.


    "My friends and my brother often said that I just stack my money without knowing where to spend it. That''s why I agreed to buy this apartment when Hongjia built this. But they''re right. I don''t know where to spend my money. So now when i have you, why can''t i spend it on you? On us?"


    Bai Yutang can see this man who looks so mature and reserved, turn into a spoiled one. This man snuggling at his neck, tickling him. Bai Yutang could feel that his own heart was filled with so many emotions.


    Happiness. Content. Relieved. Grateful. Loved.


    "So, could you just make me happy and receive what i gave to you. It was nothing compared to what you gave to me. Your cooking really is truly something i can''t value with money"


    Bai Yutang can''t believe this man could act coquettish like this. So he just helplessly nodded. No harm done with just receiving this man''s card. Bai Yutang decided just to spend it according to their first rules. 5000 yuan per month. He knows if he says it, this man will try to change his mind again. So it''s better to just silently agree with it. Save all the hassle.


    To see his docile kitten sit in his lap obediently, and smell this soft musk with a hint of cedar wood underneath from his kitten''s nape, aroused something inside Jian Kang Lu.


    This man is really dangerous.

 Chapter 69 - In The Living Room (NSFW)

    ¡ªThis chapter contain NSFW, if you''re not comfortable with it, please skip it¡ª


    Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s lips, those beautiful lips that obediently receive his kiss. Not running away from him. Welcoming his light peck, his light touch. His tip of lips can feel that dry lips slowly turn moist from his repeated peck and Jian Kang Lu brushed that lips with the tip of his tongue.


    They''re sitting in the living room, in the large black sofa with the grey fur rug under. The light from outside the glass door illuminates the room inside with speckled golden light inside this bright and warm space.


    Jian Kang Lu''s right hand that was caressing his kitten''s waist already moved, slip inside his kitten''s t-shirt. To feel the soft skin underneath, caress that thin waist lightly from his side waist, to his back, and go up.


    Jian Kang Lu''s tongue prying inside the damp nest of his kitten''s mouth. To search that velvety tongue of his man. His kitten responds to his kiss, opens his mouth slightly, and his lips tongue also tries to search Jian Kang Lu''s..


    His kitten''s kissing skill is very bad. Clumsy, reckless, but that''s what makes Jian Kang Lu''s lust ignited. Very fast his own fire that swayed slowly inside, turned brighter and burned his sanity.


    Every time he gets aroused with his kitten, he really can''t hold the beast inside him.


    Soon the voice of wet lips and tongue that tangled together filled the room. Pour the oil into the flame burning inside them. Jian Kang Lu''s hands never stop teasing his kitten''s waist, just touch it lightly. Brush it like feathers, tickling Bai Yutang''s sensitive skin.


    Bai Yutang''s hand that obediently laid on his own lap started to move on its own. He raised his left hand and caressed the back of Jian Kang Lu''s head. Bai Yutang remembers the feeling when Jian Kang Lu caress the back of his head. He loves it so much. So he wondered whether Jian Kang Lu would feel the same if he did that.


    Bai Yutang could feel Jian Kang Lu''s hand suddenly grip his waist tight, and deepen the kiss. The light touch of his tongue now wildly invades his own. Rushing inside, sucking his lips, lick it rough. Bai Yutang could feel Jian Kang Lu suck his tongue, suck it with a repetitive movement.


    They kissed wildly for a long time, that wet sound that filled the room also mixed with Bai Yutang''s panting and gasping for air. He hug Jian Kang Lu tight, caress his back too, and sometimes scratch it slowly when Bai Yutang''s can''t hold the itch inside him.


    Bai Yutang also felt that wet lips that suck him, suck his tongue with a familiar movement. A seductive movement, just like when Jian Kang Lu put his penis between his thighs and slid his member up and down.


    Remember that sensation, made Bai Yutang''s member that already hard become swollen. The lust inside him surged, burning his body all over, and once again the white world around him turned red.


    Bai Yutang''s memory from that morning moved his body, rubbed his hips to Jian Kang Lu''s laps. And he can feel that his side is touching the hard object between Jian Kang Lu''s thighs.


    To find that familiar object hard, burn Bai Yutang even more. He moved his hips into that object closer, to feel it, to press it with his own hips.


    Jian Kang Lu''s right hand already moved into Bai Yutang''s thighs. Slip inside, and caress the soft skin in that slender thighs, teasing Bai Yutang so badly. Bai Yutang tried to move his body, hoping Jian Kang Lu would touch his member.


    The swollen object that was tortured from that light caress, begged to be touched too.


    Bai Yutang clumsily moved his hand, and slipped under Jian Kang Lu''s t-shirt, trying to find the protruding buds of his lover. To find that hard small round object and touch it with his fingers, tried to make this man he loved so much feel the same pleasure he felt right now.


    Jian Kang Lu abruptly shoved him on the sofa, laid him down there, and kissed him wildly. Jian Kang Lu didn''t even give time for Bai Yutang to breathe, only left him muffled for air. Both of Bai Yutang''s hands were put on top of his head, trapped by Jian Kang Lu''s strong hand.


    The only sensation Bai Yutang allowed is just to taste that kiss that sucks all the air from his lungs. Muddled his head, letting his swollen member throbbing so hard. The sensation was too strong for him, and Bai Yutang didn''t know how to release the burning feeling inside him.


    He tried to move his hips, looking for something to touch his swollen member. But Jian Kang Lu trapped his body under, not giving him a chance to move.


    Suddenly Jian Kang Lu left his lips, kneeling above him. Bai Yutang saw that familiar expression from Jian Kang Lu. Now he knows what expression Jian Kang Lu shows.


    Lust.


    Jian Kang Lu slid Bai Yutang''s pants. But he didn''t release it all, just slid it until the middle of his thighs. Trapped Bai Yutang''s legs, but let his swollen member free.


    Bai Yutang relieved that fabrics that torture him is gone, but his legs trapped there. Exposed to the air. He can''t think clearly, just breath wildly and tries to grasp for air to clear his mind.


    Jian Kang Lu saw that chest rapidly moved up and down, and breathing rapidly. Jian Kang Lu started to caress that hard rod of his kitten. His kitten''s hand still raised and laid on top of the head.


    Jian Kang Lu holds both of that wrist with his left hand, his hand is strong enough to trap his kitten''s naughty hand. Prevent it from moving. Jian Kang Lu lightly kisses his kitten again, and his right hand starts to caress his kitten''s abdomen. Tease it.


    "Baby.. Do you want me to touch you?"


    To see his kitten''s eyes glossy, layered with lust, make Jian Kang Lu''s desire flaming wild.


    He wants to make his kitten lust for him. He wants his kitten to beg for him.


    And to see that flushed face tainted with pink tinge, stained from the lust, nod when he asks that lewd question, really drown Jian Kang Lu into the deep sea of pleasure.


    But Jian Kang Lu didn''t touch it. He just kisses his kitten''s neck, sucks it, and deepens the faded mark he left a few days ago. He needs to mark it again. Never let this mark fade away.


    His left hand still trapped his kitten, and his right hand rubbed the skin on his kitten''s lower abdomen, then moved to his kitten''s chest, looking for that blossomed bud.


    Jian Kang Lu tortured his kitten for a long time. Bai Yutang really can''t handle these waves of pleasure. He moved his hips several times. Beg for it to be caressed. That hot member of him was exposed to the air for a long time, but didn''t get any touch. It really torture him.


    "Ge.. Gege.. Please.."


    Jian Kang Lu''s mouth already left that lips a long time ago, and busy sucking the blossomed buds of his kitten. Both sides were already swollen red, bloomed from desire and repeated harsh treatment from Jian Kang Lu tongue and hand.


    Jian Kang Lu moved both of his hands, and kissed his kitten chest, his kitten''s abdomen, licked his navel. Licked down, and down, until he reached his kitten''s member.


    When Bai Yutang felt that soft touch from the soft lips touch the tips of his member, he screamed.


    "Gege!"


    Bai Yutang, this poor virgin, never even saw a picture or movie when a man''s dick being kissed or sucked by another person. He feels that he will taint Jian Kang Lu''s mouth with a dirty object. His hands tried to stop Jian Kang Lu.


    "TangTang, be good.. Just be obedient, and let me.."


    Jian Kang Lu trapped both of Bai Yutang''s hands on the side of Bai Yutang''s hips, and started to kiss that tip of that hard part of his kitten''s lower body. Kiss it slowly, then lick the opening. Taste that clear liquid that already leaked for quite some time ago.


    Jian Kang Lu lick it diligently, then enveloped the tip with his own mouth. Slowly wrapped it, until he felt the whole member of his kitten enveloped into his mouth. Then he started to play his tongue around the shaft.


    Left for so long, beg for so long, make his own member very sensitive. And to feel the warm mouth, wet and damp objects enveloped his own, giving Bai Yutang a pleasure so foreign, so divine.


    He could not move his hand, his mind blank, only filled with pleasure. Waves by waves, washed him away to the shore. Drown in the deep sea.. Flew away to the high clouds.


    "Gege.. Gege.. Ngh.."


    To feel that soft tongue lick his shaft, all over again. The tip, the slit, down to his two round objects, really make Bai Yutang lose the air around him. He is panting so wild, heaving so hard. Tried to breathe.


    The sparkles came to fill his world. Filling the red with white fireworks, numbed his spine, spread to his hand, his feet, his brain.


    "Gege.. Stop.. Gege, I.. I''m cumming.. Gege!"


    Bai Yutang screamed. The sensation of his member being licked and sucked is too big for him to handle. And he was surprised to realise that Jian Kang Lu''s mouth still enveloped his member. Let the liquid sprayed from it stay inside Jian Kang Lu''s mouth.


    "Gege!"


    Bai Yutang''s low hoarse voice sounds his own disbelief. How could this man swallow his own dirty sperm. But Jian Kang Lu really swallows it, not letting one drop to leave his mouth, and still suck his member softly. Like wanting to suck every drop of Bai Yutang''s fluid inside him.


    When Jian Kang Lu felt nothing more come, he abruptly pulled both his kitten''s feet. Roughly take off Bai Yutang''s pants and throw it away. He also strips his own pants, then holds his kitten''s ankle and lifts it. Directing his own hard member into his kitten''s hole.


    In a split second, Jian Kang Lu''s sanity came back, he cursed himself. How come he almost fuck his kitten without any preparation. Three and half years absent from this sexual activity make him never prepare anything in the apartment.


    And how come he let his kitten be afraid of him. He''s sure that this pure kitten doesn''t know what sex between both man means.


    With his sanity back to his mind, Jian Kang Lu just rubs his own pre leak into that hole, slid it up to touch his kitten''s round shape, then to his kitten''s shaft. Slip it between his kitten''s thighs just like last time.


    Even just like this, make Jian Kang Lu feel a pleasure tide so great. He started to move his own hips into that repeated movement. His kitten''s member was still wet from his own saliva, so it was slick enough to accept the friction he made.


    Jian Kang Lu put his kitten''s ankle on his own shoulder. He thrust his member rough and hard between those slender thighs, while looking at his kitten''s blushing face.


    "TangTang.. You''re so warm down here.. Ugh.."


    Bai Yutang can only stare at the lust expressed clearly on his lover''s face. His lover stared at him, with a burning desire. He could feel that Jian Kang Lu''s hard member rubbing his hole, then his balls, then rub his own shaft.


    The sensation from cumming before still does not leave him yet, but this different pleasure from Jian Kang Lu''s movement burning him again slowly. Jian Kang Lu thrust his hard member into him again and again, rubbing his shaft and his hole.


    Those white sparkles that blow before come back with red sparkle.


    "Gege.. Ahh.. Nghh.. Gege.."


    Bai Yutang lost in that abyss once more. When he felt his buds also rubbed and pinch by Jian Kang Lu''s right hand, turned his member hard again. Every inch of his body sparks with electricity from Jian Kang Lu''s touch.


    The sparks ignite from those rough movements in his buds.


    Jian Kang Lu really admired a youth''s energy when he saw his kitten getting hard once again. Being young has so many advantages of its own. And he was satisfied, happy to see his kitten still aroused with him.


    After thrusting for so many times, he teased his kitten member''s tips.


    "Mmm.. Do you want me to touch you here again, TangTang?"


    Bai Yutang could only answer that with moans. It just feels so good. He wants to feel more, wants to be touched, so bad.


    But after some time, the thrust still came, that friction that left him breathless, but his member''s tip just swayed alone, so hard and pitiful, begging for a caress.


    Bai Yutang already moved his hips too, begging to be touched. He doesn''t know how else he could release this itch. His toes already tensed and curled from this sensation. Finally he reached his ends.


    "Gege.. Please.. Please touch me.. Please.."


    Bai Yutang panting and begging softly, he could only beg and stare at Jian Kang Lu with a pleading voice.


    Jian Kang Lu saw that seductive face from his kitten, and almost cum too. This vixen is really dangerous!


    He cursed, then spread both of his kitten''s legs. Let him see all of his kitten''s beautiful parts.


    That hard straight rod, that soft round balls, and that seductive pink hole.


    Jian Kang Lu put both of their hard members together, and rub both of their slit to find some more slick liquid. Then he starts to rub both of it in skilful motion.


    He kissed his kitten lips wildly, panting, heaving, and felt both of their hard members rubbed together.


    Bai Yutang''s free hand already hugged Jian Kang Lu tight, and kissed him back. Left both of them breathless.


    "Baby.. You feel so good.."


    The red and white sparks in Bai Yutang''s world already lit bright, the numb familiar sensation comes back. Numbing his whole body.


    "Mmmh.. Ge.. I.."


    In a muffling sound, Bai Yutang could not say what he wanted to say. His brain already burned with the spark that will explode soon. Jian Kang Lu knows what his kitten means. So he just deepened the kiss, and rubbed even faster.


    When Jian Kang Lu felt that liquid sprayed on their body, he also started to release himself, rub it faster and harder. He could feel his kitten''s fingers scratch him and bite his lips.


    "Ughh!!!"


    Jian Kang Lu released his own load, sprayed onto their skin, reached his kitten''s chin and let their t-shirt stained with his cum.


    Jian Kang Lu panting hard, kissed his kitten''s damp forehead, full of sweats from their intense love. He kissed his kitten''s panting lips softly, and held him tight.


    He loved this man, so much...

 Chapter 70 - Another Christmas Eve

    Today is Christmas Eve. The city celebrates it in a festive way. Everything''s open. Churches, theatres, restaurants, shopping malls. It''s a winter wonderland of options for the citizens and travellers to enjoy Christmas in the Orient.


    Bai Yutang was in Tang Yu Xuan and Liu Xiang''s dorm. As usual, Jian Kang Lu will pick him up later at night. Actually Jian Kang Lu invited him to join his family Sunday lunch, but Bai Yutang somehow felt uncomfortable. He was not sure how Jian Kang Lu''s family would look at him.


    Bai Yutang also wants to give the souvenirs from their trip to his friends.


    "Husband, this wife really hurts. How come you didn''t take this wife with you? I never been abroad before.." Liu Xiang said that with a dejected face while being the first to grab the sweater. He chose the red one. The one that is being displayed in the advertisement of Harvard souvenirs shop.


    Yu Dong is already busy securing the chocolate, the T-Shirt, and the hats. The hats and T-Shirt have Boston''s trademark print on them, and also the T-Shirt and hats from NY Yankees official merchandise.


    Tang Yuxuan was the one that secured NY Knicks merchandise. Jian Kang Lu knows that Tang Yuxuan plays basketball, so he bought a lot of those things on their last day in New York.


    These things were the one that in the end left Bai Yutang speechless when they had to buy another luggage. Jian Kang Lu really bought a lot. But Bai Yutang is now relieved to see his friends really like these souvenirs.


    Liu Xiang grabbed one of the NY Knicks jerseys and hoodie from Tang Yuxuan''s hand. "You bastard! How come you grab all of this! TangTang already said we got one each!"


    "But Daddy is the one who likes NY Knicks! Why don''t you just take the Yankees, you can have daddy''s share." Tang Yuxuan still grip the hoodie. All of the hoodies have different colours. Blue, black, and the blue-orange. He can''t choose, he wants them all.


    Yu Dong left those two fighting with each other and happily secured all the chocolate drinks that Bai Yutang gave. He knows these cocoa powder is very good and unique. He needed to make sure those two didn''t realise he already hid these cocoa powder in his Boston T-Shirt and hats.


    He whispered to Bai Yutang, "Don''t remind them about these chocolates."


    Bai Yutang chuckled. At first he really minded that Jian Kang Lu bought so many and told him to share these with his friends. But to see his friend''s reaction right now he''s glad his lover bought these things.


    At least, it was giving him the feeling of sharing good things with his friends. It''s been so long for him to have these kinds of feelings.


    "Husband! Please tell Jian Ge that this bastard won''t share at all! Next time, don''t buy anything for him!"


    Tang Yuxuan still held all the hoodies, but failed to secure one of the jerseys and T-shirt from Liu Xiang. At least he managed to secure the rest. It means all the hoodies, few jerseys, pants, and hats.


    "I need to say thank you to Jian Ge later. Actually daddy wanted to ask you to buy these things when I heard you''ll go for a trip to New York, but you just told me one day before you go. Daddy can''t believe my baby remembers that I like NY Knicks and bought many of these beautiful things for daddy."


    Bai Yutang explained, "I didn''t. This was all Jian Ge''s gift to you all. You all know my situation, how could I buy these things for you guys."


    Yu Dong patted him while he looked at Bai Yutang''s trip pictures in his tablet, "I know. But i can''t console you right now. You''re the one who needs to console me. I really envy you.. Gosh, i really want to see this Trinity church with my own eyes."


    Liu Xiang still cursed Tang Yuxuan, and secured his own things. "At least Jian Ge didn''t forget to buy these things for this poor wife. By the way, TangTang, there are so many.. Must be expensive. Are you sure we didn''t need to give something back to Jian Ge? Christmas gift maybe?"


    Bai Yutang also thought about giving Christmas gifts to Jian Kang Lu. Moreover, they''re lovers now. But he didn''t know what to buy.


    "I also think about that, but i don''t know what to buy."


    Yu Dong answered his statement while still admiring the pictures in Bai Yutang''s tablet. "You''re the closest person to Jian Ge compared to us, don''t you know what he wants?"


    Bai Yutang blushed to hear that. Suddenly it reminded him of what Jian Kang Lu said to him that morning when they kissed for the first time.


    ''TangTang.. I want you...''


    Bai Yutang hurriedly drank some water to suppress the sudden urge inside him. He really thinks that he was so low and pathetic. Easily aroused by his lover. Even just thinking about Jian Kang Lu is enough to fluster him.


    Yesterday they''re doing that again.


    On Saturday morning, Jian Kang Lu, who already turned into the coquettish lover''s mode, asked him with that big puppy eyes to accompany him on his Saturday round.


    With that big eyes and expectant face looking at him, wiggling his tails and puppy ears, Bai Yutang could not say no. So he accompanied Jian Kang Lu to the hospital and spent the morning chatting with the nurses there.


    He also distributed the things that Jian Kang Lu bought for them, the soaps from Boston. The nurses really like it and ask him many questions about these soaps. Because each shape has a different ingredient and scent.


    After lunch, Jian Kang Lu asked him what he wanted to do in the afternoon and night. It''s been more than two weeks since they didn''t watch movies, so Bai Yutang suggested watching new movies. They have their dinner inside the theatre.


    When they''re driving home in the car, Bai Yutang didn''t know what triggered Jian Kang Lu, but he saw that expression again. The deep eyes staring at him, filled with the emotion that Bai Yutang is familiar now.


    This man lusting for him again.


    Saw that expression, aroused Bai Yutang too. He didn''t know why, but he really really felt so cheap and easy. Jian Kang Lu didn''t even touch him, just stared at him and his little brother already wiggled and wanted to be released from the uncomfortable pants trapping it inside.


    Not even one second after they walk inside the apartment, Jian Kang Lu already kissed him fiercely and groped him all over.


    The result is one wild night, a long wild night. In the morning Bai Yutang had to collect their clothes that scattered all around the apartment. From the living room until the bedroom. Bai Yutang even blushed when he saw his underwear under the kitchen table.


    He had no idea how his underwear could reach this area. It seems they didn''t go over there last night.


    Bai Yutang shook his head and tried to clear his mind. "I-I don''t know what he wants. From what I see, Jian Ge has everything he needs."


    Yu Dong nods, "It''s hard to choose a gift for someone like Jian Ge. By the way, can you all give me a comment about this gift? I plan to buy this for Xiaoya as a Christmas gift."


    Bai Yutang looked at the picture in Yu Dong''s phone. It was a silver bracelet with apple charm. Bai Yutang honestly doesn''t have any idea about gifts to girls. "Mmm.. It''s cute? I think girls will like these things."


    Liu Xiang also looked at the bracelet. "It''s cute. I guarantee your girlfriend will like it."


    "Daddy never thought that you turned out to be that one kind of romantic guy. Daddy approved." Tang Yuxuan commented.


    Yu Dong smiled, he really doesn''t have experience in these kinds of things. "Can you guys accompany me to buy it? I plan to give it to Xiaoya tonight."


    Thus four of them walk to the store accompanying Yu Dong to buy the gift, and have lunch in the cafe next to the store. They were all asking about Bai Yutang''s trip, and he was answering them in a bright mood, telling them about the historical buildings designed by the renowned architects there.


    "This wife really envies you, husband. Even when i graduate later and start to work, i don''t know whether i can visit Boston or New York someday." Liu Xiang is still sounding his envy.


    Tang Yuxuan nodded, "How about the visa? Is it difficult? The plane ticket? Maybe we can save money and plan the trip to go there someday after we graduate."


    Bai Yutang told them about the visa application and how he answered the interview.


    Liu Xiang responded with that conversation while he scrolled on his mobile phone, "But maybe we can choose the cheap hotel. I checked on the internet about the hotel you stay at, TangTang. It''s not cheap."


    Yu Dong nods, "Jian Ge really pampers you, but it''s good for you to accompany him. It must be lonely for Jian Ge if he had to take those trip alone."


    Liu Xiang clinches Yu Dong''s neck with his arm, "This wife is also gladly volunteering to be Jian Ge''s companion if he needs a friend to accompany him in the future."


    Bai Yutang knows that Liu Xiang only jokes, but suddenly he feels sour to hear that. He doesn''t want anyone else to accompany Jian Kang Lu. It''s better for Jian Kang Lu not to go at all rather than accompanied by someone else, even when it was his own friend.


    He just wants himself to be Jian Kang Lu''s companion. Him, and only him. No one else.


    When they''re having their lunch, Bai Yutang also told Yu Dong that he had souvenirs for Mu Xiaoya too. Bai Yutang said he will give it to Yu Dong later, to give it to Mu Xiaoya on their Christmas Eve date.


    "Why don''t you give it to her by yourself? I''ll meet Xiaoya in the afternoon, Jian Ge won''t pick you up yet." Yu Dong said while slurping his hot green tea latte.


    Bai Yutang is honestly afraid to meet Mu Xiaoya. Ever since he came back from the trip, he hasn''t answered Mu Xiaoya''s tons of messages, asking him about the progress of his relationship.


    Before he was going to Boston, Mu Xiaoya already sent him messages asking him to use the chance of being in one room with Jian Kang Lu to do physical conduct as much as he could.


    And now, they really did a lot, lots of physical conduct.


    He was embarrassed if he had to tell Mu Xiaoya that. He only planned to say thank you, told her that they''re together now. He definitely can''t tell a girl about what physical conduct he was doing with his lover lately.


    "Uuumm, i''ll just stay with these young lords. This humble slave doesn''t want to be a single dog eating dog food. Just pass these, and tell her that this is from Jian Ge." Bai Yutang tried to find a reasonable answer.


    Yu Dong nodded, "Okay. By the way, it''s been a few weeks since we''ve played together. Let''s do a co-op tomorrow. Jian Ge is also free tomorrow, right?"


    Bai Yutang nodded. They often play with Yu Dong and Mu Xiaoya before they go on their trip. Bai Yutang once asked Jian Kang Lu why his level stayed at his current level. Bai Yutang''s level was stagnant because he stopped playing to save his mobile phone data, and later was busy doing his part time job.


    That time Jian Kang Lu only answered that he had no time. But it was weird, why Jian Kang Lu had no time to play at all for a few months. Bai Yutang wants to ask, but sometimes he doesn''t know if it wise to ask.


    Deep inside, some part of him expected that Jian Kang Lu didn''t play because he was not around to play with Jian Kang Lu. But Bai Yutang was not confident enough to think that way.


    He decided to ask Jian Kang Lu tomorrow. He also wants to know a lot of things about Jian Kang Lu. It''s better to ask and get the answer rather than just thinking too much.


    He really really likes this man, he wants to know about this man better, and be a better person to him.

 Chapter 71 - Bedsheet

    On Christmas Day, they spent the whole morning rolling in the bed. Bai Yutang just awoken when the sun was already so high and his stomach rumbling. Actually he already woke up at 6 o''clock this morning. But his lover holds him tight, not allowing him to make breakfast.


    When Bai Yutang saw his lover''s face, he recognised the familiar look in his lover''s eyes. Then he collapsed and fell asleep again after Jian Kang Lu made him cumming for three times this morning.


    Sometimes Bai Yutang can''t help but wonder. Is this normal? To have sex this often, is this what everyone else doing when they''re in relationship? Bai Yutang tries to count, it seems they''re doing it 5 times in this 10 days since they''re together. It means, they''re doing it every two days.


    He could ask no one, none of his friend had sex before. Even Tang Yuxuan, the most expert among them, only managed to reach the kissing stage. No more.. And the internet is not reliable.


    There''s also one other thing that is bothering him. They have no bedsheet left soon.


    Jian Kang Lu only has four bedsheets and he already washed two of them. This current bedsheet that already has their liquid stained all over is the third. After this he needs to change and put the last bedsheet they have.


    Bai Yutang determined today he needed to iron the first two bed sheets he washed yesterday. And he needs to suggest Jian Kang Lu buy a new bed sheet today when they''re going out.


    "Are you hungry, baby?"


    Jian Kang Lu gently asked his kitten that just awoken in his arms. He heard that stomach rumbling. He felt a little bit hungry, so his kitten must be famished. Jian Kang Lu has already been awake since one hour ago. He also fell asleep again after that morning sex, but only for one hour.


    Jian Kang Lu knows he needs to order some food for his kitten when he awakens, but he just doesn''t want to leave this bed. Don''t want to leave his precious kitten that he adored so much. He spent all morning staring at his kitten, naked under the blanket, in his arms.


    His heart was so full. If his heart was a glass, the sight of his lover laid in his arms filled it with happiness until it was overwhelmed. His heart can''t contain this much amount of rapture.


    Today is Christmas, a holiday for him. It was rare for him to have a free day, when nothing he had to do. Jian Kang Lu''s family didn''t really celebrate Christmas, and the Christmas''s Eve dinner with his colleague was postponed until tomorrow since no one wants to attend Christmas''s Eve dinner on Sunday.


    Bai Yutang looked at this man who asked him gently. He really felt hungry, but somehow looking at that gentle gaze ease his hunger. He couldn''t help but raise his face, planted a soft kiss on his lover''s lips.


    "Mm.. A little bit." Bai Yutang answered softly, his voice a bit hoarse. This raspy voice resulted from moaning, panting, and heaving for this whole morning.


    This is what makes Jian Kang Lu really grateful to have his kitten as his lover. His kitten sometimes surprised him. Even though his kitten is so pure, sometimes his kitten initiates a little intimate gesture of his own. That''s what makes Jian Kang Lu''s fear and anxiety subside a bit.


    Even though he was still not sure about the intimacy in public. But it was enough if his kitten was comfortable to be intimate with him in private.


    Talking about that, Jian Kang Lu is also ashamed of himself. He was the one who always said to himself that he needed to hold himself, leash the beast, suppress his urge. He was 37 years old, for God''s sake!


    So how come he can''t hold himself? He can''t even manage to spend two days without groping his kitten. In the end, the beast inside him always managed to escape. Running wild, pouncing his kitten. He''s so lucky his kitten welcomes him, not disgusted with his degrading behaviour.


    "Let''s just order some food, or you want to eat outside?" Jian Kang Lu kisses his kitten''s forehead softly. He really really needs to cherish this man. Jian Kang Lu doesn''t know what he will do if his kitten leaves him.


    Bai Yutang snuggle, "Let''s eat outside, Gege.. Also.. I need to buy something.."


    Jian Kang Lu heard that last line uttered very softly. He almost couldn''t believe it when he heard that. Does his kitten want to buy something? Buy! He''ll definitely buy anything his kitten wants to buy!


    "En.. What do you want to eat? You can buy everything you need later after we eat."


    Bai Yutang snuggle again, he really likes Jian Kang Lu''s scent. It was really warm, he could never get enough of it. By the way, it reminds him that he once thought of trying to do the same thing Jian Kang Lu did to him.


    He wonders, how does it feel to lick your lover''s dick¡­ Bai Yutang felt so good when Jian Kang Lu did that, so he was sure that Jian Kang Lu would also like it if he licked and put Jian Kang Lu''s member on his mouth.


    But every time they tangled together, his mind so muddled and in the end he forgot to do that.


    Bai Yutang sighed inside. Disappointed with himself.


    "Since i need to buy something in the department store, let''s just eat there. Gege can choose the restaurant. I have nothing in mind."


    Jian Kang Lu kissed him again, and they took a bath together. Jian Kang Lu regretted it now that his bathroom didn''t have a bathtub. Maybe he''ll install one later. That memory when they do it in the bathtub is really vivid, and will be delightful to repeat.


    They''re having lunch in Thai restaurant. Bai Yutang ordered the Tom Kha Gai, Thai soup made with coconut milk and chicken, flavoured with lemongrass, galangal, and chilies. Jian Kang Lu ordered Thai grilled fish stuffed with lemongrass and kaffir lime leaves, and also Bai Yutang''s favourite, mango sticky rice.


    After lunch, Jian Kang Lu was a little bit confused when his kitten walked into the department store. What does his kitten want to buy? But his mind just went blank when he saw his cute kitten hold his jacket rim and said with a stammering soft voice.


    "I-I think we need t-to buy more bedsheets. B-but i don''t know which brand that you usually buy¡­"


    Jian Kang Lu needs to focus all his tympanic membrane to catch what his kitten said with that soft voice. Bedsheet? Why does his kitten need to buy a bedsheet?


    But does it need to be asked? If his kitten wants to buy, just buy! Don''t need to ask.


    "Umm.. I don''t have any preferences. Why don''t we search for it together? Try to feel each fabric, and choose what we like?"


    Bai Yutang nodded. Jian Kang Lu could see the tip of his kitten''s ear already tainted with tomato''s colour. A ripe one.


    The store attendant help them to choose from their several best option in the department store. Saw this tall handsome man dressed very well, the store attendant happily displayed several high quality bed sheets they have.


    From pima cotton, Egyptian cotton, tencel, bamboo fibers, silk, and percale. This store attendant is a sharp one. He looks at this tall handsome man who emitted a wealthy aura, keeps asking this skinny young man beside him. So it must be this young man that will decide which one to buy.


    Because of that, Bai Yutang was overwhelmed with the explanation from the store attendant. In the end he only asked which one was durable and easy to wash. Of course this store attendant said that all these are high quality material, so all of them are durable and very comfortable.


    Seeing his kitten a little bit difficult to choose, and looking at him with a pleading look, Jian Kang Lu just decided to buy them all. His kitten never asks him for anything. So why bother to choose?


    "Gegee.."


    Bai Yutang can''t help to hold this man''s hand, stopping him from buying every bedsheet with different material in the same colour. All of them in dark grey colour. Why dark grey? Because Bai Yutang mumbling that dark grey suits their apartment''s nuisance.


    It''s true that they need more bedsheets if their bedroom activity will continue at the same rate like these past ten days. But to buy ten bedsheets in the same colour, on the same day, it was just too much!


    Bai Yutang was really curious, how could this man change so much from the one he knew before. The Jian Kang Lu he used to know is not a frivolous one. He rarely buys anything from what he saw in the last one year.


    Finally Bai Yutang has to shatter this store attendant smile, and choose two bedsheets. But after debating and bargaining with his lover who looked at him with puppy eyes, finally they settled with four bedsheets. Two grey colours in silk and tencel material, one Egyptian cotton in ocean blue, and one bamboo sheet in soothing green.


    When they''re walking out from the store, bring those big bundles of bedsheets and bed cover in the same colour and material, Jian Kang Lu asks him why Bai Yutang doesn''t want to buy some more. If he wants to buy, just buy.


    Bai Yutang sighed. How could he say that he wanted to buy bed sheets because of THAT??? So he just shut himself and not talking. Ignore this lover of his who keeps pleading, and asking what else he wants to buy.


    Seriously, why is this man obsessed with pouring his money on him???


    Jian Kang Lu asks him whether he wants to have dinner outside, or he wants to eat at home. Bai Yutang was tired from this shopping activity, so he said he wanted to go home.


    "What kind of food do you want me to cook for our dinner, gege?"


    Jian Kang Lu smiled to hear that question. "Anything. I love everything you cooked."


    This man is really hopeless. Bai Yutang knew he couldn''t expect some decent answer from his lover every time he asked this question. So when Jian Kang Lu drives, Bai Yutang just searches the internet for some inspiration.


    Finally he decided just to cook Orange Beef Chop Stir-Fry and Shepherd''s Purse Tofu soup, with apple and strawberry smoothie as their dessert.


    When he wanted to put the bedsheet and the bedcover inside the storage room, Jian Kang Lu told him that he will do it. Heard that, Bai Yutang just left all their stuff in those shopping bags to his lover, and cooked their dinner. While he cooked, his lover came from behind. Kept kissing his cheek and hugged his waist.


    It''s already hard for Bai Yutang to cook with his lame skill, don''t mention this additional disturbance. Afraid he would overcook their dinner tonight because his own lust started to aroused, he sternly told Jian Kang Lu to stop.


    "Gege, please take a bath or watch the news if you have nothing to do. Stop bothering me cooking."


    With a dejected face, Jian Kang Lu took a bath. When he finished, his kitten also finished his cooking. They have dinner together.


    This is one of their habits lately. Jian Kang Lu just sits obediently in his chair, and Bai Yutang will serve him the food, even his drinks. And Jian Kang Lu also has a new habit these few days. Every time Bai Yutang serves him, he will peck his cheek lightly. Or sometimes took his kitten''s hand, and kissed that beautiful slender hand willing to provide this divine food for him.


    Every single time Jian Kang Lu did this, Bai Yutang''s cheek always turned pink and his heart beat wildly.


    He really.. Really happy..


    When they''re having dinner and Bai Yutang listens to that high praise from his lover, which always utters every time he cooks, he can''t help but ask.


    "Gege.. Since.. Since when did you notice me?"

 Chapter 72 - The Greatest Gift That God Ever Bestowed Upon Me

    Bai Yutang didn''t dare to look at his lover''s face. He was ashamed, and regretted once he uttered that question. But he really was curious.


    "Mmm.. Will you promise me that you won''t hate me, or run away from me if i answer that question?"


    Now Bai Yutang looks at Jian Kang Lu with his curiosity reaching its peak. Why did he want to hate this man, or want to run away?


    "I promise I won''t hate you, gege. Now you make me really curious."


    And he was stunned to hear Jian Kang Lu''s next answer. This man answered his question without any doubt, and he couldn''t believe it when he heard Jian Kang Lu''s words.


    "From the first time. When I saw you on the plane."


    "Why?"


    Bai Yutang immediately burst that question. Why on earth would a man like Jian Kang Lu notice a man like him from the first time they met?


    Jian Kang Lu looked at him with a loving gaze. "Because i felt something. I can''t explain it. But from the first time I saw you, I noticed you. And I want to know about you. Why do you think I kept asking you questions and tried to initiate conversation with you the whole time we were in the plane?"


    "But.."


    ''But i''m not handsome.. I''m not special.. What made you notice me since our first meeting?''


    Bai Yutang could not say those lines, because he already said it before, and Jian Kang Lu answered that he was special. The one and only. No one else but him.


    "You promised you won''t hate me.." Jian Kang Lu reminds him.


    Bai Yutang hurriedly answered, "No, no.. I''m not." Then Bai Yutang can''t help asking again.


    "What makes you afraid that I''ll hate you, gege?"


    Jian Kang Lu answers slowly, he doesn''t know whether he will step into the dangerous zone again. He already avoided the land mine by skipping the part explaining that he was always attracted to a person from the first meeting. If he said that, definitely his kitten will get mad and will ask about his past lover. Jian Kang Lu learned well from his past lesson.


    "Because i like you from the first time, it means i approach you with an impure mind.."


    Jian Kang Lu still feels that his answer will make his kitten misunderstand his intention, so he explains more.


    "But, I assure you that I really like you no matter whether you''ll return my feelings or not. All I know is that you make me so happy. And I want you to be happy too. It doesn''t matter if you love me back or not. The most important thing is, I could always be with you. Even if i could only stay by your side as your friend, that was enough for me."


    Bai Yutang was really astonished. He could not believe this man really fell for him since the first time they met. But then he remembered what Mu Xiaoya said, that she and her friends could see that from the first time.


    "Then.. Who is that Chang''e Goddess? Is it really me?"


    Now it''s Jian Kang Lu''s turn to be stupefied. How could his kitten know about Chang''e Goddess???


    "Umm.. How do you know about that?" Jian Kang Lu really needs to ask this question carefully. He didn''t want to step into another land mine.


    Bai Yutang answered slowly, "The nurses ask me.. Whether I know your girlfriend or not, the one that you call your Chang''e Goddess."


    Jian Kang Lu thought it was better to step into the land mine rather than his kitten thinking that he was playing around.


    "It.. It was.." Jian Kang Lu inhaled deeply before answering in a more appropriate manner. "It was when I asked you to accompany me to buy the gift for my colleague''s son. They''re teasing me whether I will go for a date because I dressed differently. I shamelessly think every time we go together as a date.."


    Then Jian Kang Lu added in a very soft voice, "So I just told them that I have a date. Because it was near the Mid-Autumn festival, thus they call you Chang''e Goddess."


    Bai Yutang already guessed, But when his wild guess turned to be true, he still dumbfounded.


    "Then.. You already like me, really like me, since the first time?"


    Jian Kang Lu look at his bewildered kitten, and just smile gently. "Yes. I really really like you from the first time. And the more i know you, the more i like you, and grew into loving you, until the point that i just want to stay by your side, even though only as your friend."


    Bai Yutang mumbling, "Is that why you always be kind to me, and always look at me gently?"


    Jian Kang Lu had to answer this honestly. "You know I always try to be kind to everyone that kind to me. But I had to admit, because you''re special, of course I treat you better than everyone else. On one hand, I hope you didn''t notice. But the other part of me of course wants you to recognise me, realise that you''re so special to me."


    "That''s why they saw us as a couple.." Bai Yutang blurted what''s on his mind. He clasped his mouth when he said that. He didn''t mean to say it out loud.


    But Jian Kang Lu already heard that. "Who?"


    Both of them staring at each other in silence for a few minutes. Bai Yutang finally gave up.


    "It was Mu Xiaoya and her friends.."


    Their dinner''s conversation tonight turned out to be something that surprised both of them.


    Of course Jian Kang Lu was really curious why Mu Xiaoya''s name popped up in this conversation. So Bai Yutang finally explained to him slowly. About how these groups of rotten girls start to notice them from the time they meet Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu in the fast food restaurant.


    Jian Kang Lu tried to find a hint from his kitten''s face. Whether he despise it when people thinking of him as a gay.


    "So, TangTang.. Can I ask you back, when did you start to notice me? Notice me as a man, not a friend?" Jian Kang Lu asked his kitten slowly.


    Bai Yutang''s face turned red.


    "Honestly, i don''t know. But it made me confused for a long time. Until.. Until.."


    Jian Kang Lu patiently waiting for his kitten''s answer. But he heard nothing else.


    "Until..?"


    Bai Yutang took a deep breath, and closed his eyes. "Until I get mad at you on your birthday. A-and, I also get jealous when I hear that.. That you have a date.. A date with Chang''e Goddess.."


    Jian Kang Lu really doesn''t know whether he had to regret he came home late on his birthday, or happy with it.


    Bai Yutang continued, "Previously, i already felt weird. Sometimes you make my heart beat faster, gege.. But when i realise that i get jealous.. I really think that something was wrong with me."


    Jian Kang Lu waiting for more explanation. But his kitten stopped once again.


    "And then..?" Jian Kang Lu gently said.


    Bai Yutang''s face really turned into a boiled crab right now. "Then.. I look for Mu Xiaoya''s opinion.. Since she was the person who thought of us as a couple.."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled. He really needs to thank this girl. Without her, maybe his kitten is still confused until now. He noted that he needed to contact her and give her a generous gift for giving the right answer for his kitten. It must be a right suggestion since now his kitten is willing to be with him.


    "And.. What Mu Xiaoya say to you?"


    Bai Yutang is really ashamed to admit that he needs to ask for a girl, a junior, as a love advisor.


    "She said that i should follow my heart. That nothing was wrong with me, and just be honest with myself."


    Jian Kang Lu''s smile widened. He is really really grateful that someone like Mu Xiaoya exists around his kitten. Or else.. He doesn''t know until when he will have a platonic relationship with this precious kitten.


    "I think i should say thank you to Mu Xiaoya. Without her, maybe i can''t be honest with myself too until now."


    Then Jian Kang Lu stared at his kitten''s eyes.


    "But most of all, i have to thank you, TangTang. For accepting me. You''re really the greatest gift that God ever bestowed upon me."


    Since they''re talking about this, Bai Yutang keeps asking what''s bothering his mind this whole time.


    "Then.. Is that why Zhen Ge and your friends notice me, and look at me like that when they met me?"


    Now Jian Kang Lu is really afraid. But he was also curious about his kitten''s response. So he answered slowly.


    "I never told them about you.. But.. They have known me for a long time. So they can guess¡­"


    Bai Yutang drowned in his own mind. Looking at his silenced kitten, Jian Kang Lu asked again cautiously.


    "Do you mind about that?"


    Bai Yutang tried to think about that carefully. Does he mind it? Does he mind when people see them as a couple. Does he mind if Jian Kang Lu''s friend knows him as this man''s lover?


    Jian Kang Lu knew he pushed his kitten too much. Thus he said again slowly.


    "If you mind, then let''s just keep this between ourselves. I don''t need people to know about us, as long as i can stay by your side. That''s enough for me."


    Bai Yutang was astounded to hear that line. Then he imagined himself. Whether he wants to face the reality of Jian Kang Lu hiding their relationship from their friends. Whether he could accept Jian Kang Lu said that he was single in front of other people.


    Can he keep his calm when he hears someone else say that they want to be this person''s lover? Just like Mu Xiaoya said, whether he could see another person covet his man?


    And Bai Yutang knew, he could not.


    He didn''t want this person, the precious existence in his heart, said that he was single in front of anyone else. This person belongs to him. And him only.


    His father taught him to be a man that respects and cherishes his lover, be faithful to his loved one. To have commitment, and return every love and affection they received, a hundred fold back.


    So Bai Yutang shook his head, and staring at that dimmed black bead, that lost their light. He knows this man is the same with him. And he was hurt.


    Pained, from Bai Yutang''s voiceless answer.


    Suffered, if Bai Yutang chose to shut himself out.


    Wounded, if Bai Yutang wants to hide him.


    Afraid. If Bai Yutang won''t acknowledge him.


    When this man already gave all of him.


    So Bai Yutang stared at that eyes, then said his answer with a clear and gentle voice. Try to bring the stars back into their original place, which belongs inside that pair of beautiful eyes.


    "Gege, I don''t mind. So, you don''t need to hide me. And I won''t hide you. I love you, and I was proud of our love."

 Chapter 73 - Lucky Number

    To hear the words that you always dreamed to hear, the acknowledgement of your love, uttered by the one you loved so much, sometimes frightened you.


    Jian Kang Lu knows that his kitten is so young, so pure, so kind. Sheltered by the loving family and good friends. He doesn''t know how cruel people can be in the real world out there.


    Humans always tend to think that they''re the righteous one. One could find many mistakes from others, but hard to admit their own mistakes.


    Just take a look at how much cruel gossip out there, all those bad words easily typed in the internet''s forum, slandering the people they thought as a humanity failure. Especially when humans shield behind anonymity.


    It''s easy to point your finger to someone else, but hard to accept if you''re the one that receives all that harsh and mean words. And it''s really hard to change people''s opinion about you, they don''t care about the truth.


    Jian Kang Lu saw many of those cases before. There''s one girl he knows in his residency. This girl has a boyfriend, not knowing that her boyfriend is a married man. The wife comes to the hospital and creates a ruckus there.


    People don''t want to know that this girl is actually a victim. They point their finger on this girl, accuse her to be a marriage wrecker. A cheap girl. No matter what she says, no matter how good she was, the stigma is attached.


    And stigma is a frightening thing.


    This girl finally resigned from the hospital. Jian Kang Lu heard that this girl finally found a good man and happily married years after, but people still talk about this girl until now. And she avoids the hospital''s circle because of that. Afraid of what people talk behind her. Afraid of that judgmental eyes.


    Jian Kang Lu also knows this one girl from Hongjia''s circle. Jian Kang Lu often met this girl when he was still with Wu Shen, attending the party that was filled with models and actors.


    This girl comes from a very rich family, even richer than Sun Hongjia. She''s a lesbian, and she was not hiding that fact. She even looks more handsome than a real man. Rich man is already hard to found the one that truly love them, don''t even mention a rich lesbian.


    People like to make fun of her, and sometimes Jian Kang Lu heard very despicable words said to this girl. Man laughed at her and said that why bother with a handsome face but don''t have a dick to please their woman. Woman said that they''re afraid if they are close to her, afraid that she will like them and said that she was disgusted.


    People also like to use her. Jian Kang Lu heard a lot of wicked girls out there try to get her attention, because she''s so generous with her money. Because they know she''s a lesbian, then they thought it was easy to seduce her for her money.


    This girl is very strong, rich, and smart. She finally learned to fight back, shut those cruel mouths. But she was changed, from a girl that believe in true love, into a woman that believe true love is coming from a satisfying sex. And sex is easy to buy.


    Jian Kang Lu also saw many men like him, who love men too. They are proud at first with their partner, and believe they finally found their true love. When it failed, either they shut themselves or changed into someone like this girl. Someone that doesn''t believe in love. Someone who believes they don''t deserve love. Because people told them so.


    Jian Kang Lu doesn''t want his kitten to turn into those kinds of people. He wished he could protect his kitten, but he knows that he can''t thoroughly protect him from this cruel world.


    So, even though he''s happy, he doesn''t want his kitten someday to regret the decision that he made today.


    Jian Kang Lu hugs his kitten, tightly.


    "TangTang.. I must be the luckiest man in the world. Maybe I saved a country in my past life, so God repay me by giving me a chance to meet you, to know you."


    Then Jian Kang Lu kisses his kitten softly, "But.. I know more about this world than you. I don''t want you to regret your choice one day, and hate me because of that."


    Jian Kang Lu cupped his kitten''s face and looked him in the eye, stare into that pure, vibrant innocent soul behind that shining black marble.


    "So, baby.. I don''t mind my friends to know about us, and I''m proud to introduce you as my lover to them. Because I know they''re wise and could be happy for us. But i don''t know if your friends, or your family, could accept me being with you."


    Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten again.


    "I love you TangTang.. And I never want to see you suffer because of me."


    Bai Yutang knew what Jian Kang Lu said. He himself doesn''t have confidence if he had to tell his mother that he had a relationship with a man.


    "So.. Could you give me a chance to slowly show them the best side of me first? So if one day they knew about us, they can accept me as someone that loves you so much. And if possible, the best person to stay by your side?"


    Bai Yutang nodded, and hugged his lover back. He understands what Jian Kang Lu wants to explain. Even Bai Yutang himself a few months ago was still so afraid if people knew that he liked Jian Kang Lu, so disgusted with himself for thinking about having impure thoughts with a man.


    "I understand what you mean, gege. And I also told you the truth that i don''t mind if your friends know about me and you.."


    Hearing those words with an unfinished tone, Jian Kang Lu asked his kitten while stroking his back. "But..? It seems you still want to say something."


    Bai Yutang hides his face in Jian Kang Lu''s embrace. "But.. But i don''t want you to say that you''re single anymore, or say that you will have a date with anyone else¡­"


    Jian Kang Lu was amused to hear that. "Mm.. My baby is jealous of Chang''e Goddess?"


    Bai Yutang bit that shoulder lightly. "I won''t get jealous with myself, but i really don''t like to see those faces that think that they still have a chance with you, because you''re single."


    Jian Kang Lu is really happy. He knew what his kitten meant.


    "Then.. You have to accompany me every Saturday, and told them that my Chang''e Goddess already put me on a leash. Told them that i could never see anyone else except my Chang''e Goddess."


    Bai Yutang bit that shoulder again. "Why Chang''e Goddess?? I''m a man!"


    Jian Kang Lu touched his kitten''s member down there. Tease him. "I know that my baby is a man.. This beautiful seductive thing here is the proof.."


    With a loving and warm atmosphere, it was no surprise that they spent the night tangling together again. Bai Yutang really doesn''t know why he gets aroused so easily. And the new bedsheets finally prove their usefulness.


    They spent their day in happiness. And January came. The winter wind still blew harshly, froze the world outside, and the grey mist lingering for the whole time from Christmas until new year passed. But in their world, spring embraces them with the warmth and the gentle air.


    Bai Yutang''s scholarship has already been approved since early November, and he prepared all the administration papers to enrol the next semester. Bai Yutang also prepared to go back home.


    Initially Bai Yutang wanted to buy a train ticket, since it was a bit cheaper compared to flying by plane in that season. But Jian Kang Lu don''t let him do that. With a pleading look, his lover asked him to buy the ticket on Sunday, one week after the winter break.


    "I''ll miss you so much¡­" Jian Kang Lu said those words with a suffering tone. Even though his kitten already agreed to delay his holiday break, he still can''t imagine how to spend one month without his beloved kitten.


    "Gege, my flight is still next week.." Bai Yutang was really helpless to hear those words for the millionth time since one week ago. And it seems he needs to hear those words in another week, and the whole time when he''s back to his hometown.


    Jian Kang Lu just responded with squirming in his kitten''s nape. He really can''t imagine sleeping alone again, without his kitten to hold on.


    "Then.. How if you visit me there? If you have free time?" Bai Yutang said softly while caressing his lover''s silky hair.


    Jian Kang Lu was stunned, and happiness spread inside his heart. He actually thought about that many times this week, but afraid that his kitten will reject him. So he was just planning to give him a surprise, say that he has something to do in W city when he shows up there.


    "Really? Can i?"


    Bai Yutang planted the kiss softly in Jian Kang Lu''s temples. This man really didn''t match the reserved and cool image he showed to everyone else. But Bai Yutang felt good, only he could see this side of Jian Kang Lu.


    "Yes, gege. Come and visit me." Bai Yutang just smiled when he felt his lover tickling his chin again with his hair, snuggling and sniffing his neck even more.


    "Baby, tomorrow I took half day leave. Can we have dinner outside? Let''s have dinner at Il Mare."


    Bai Yutang thought, maybe this man still feels uneasy about his one month absence. So Jian Kang Lu took leave to spend more time with him. Thus he agreed without thinking too much. Besides, he really likes that restaurant which belongs to his lover''s friend.


    Jian Kang Lu is already searching since last week, what he wants to give to his kitten on their one month anniversary. It doesn''t matter if his kitten remembers it or not, but Jian Kang Lu wants to remember the date and celebrate it every month for the rest of his life.


    15th.. A beautiful number for him, his lucky number. Because on that day, his kitten finally belonged to him.


    Jian Kang Lu thought to give him a ring, but maybe that too much. A wallet? Shoes? Clothes? All of that seems not right. He searched on the internet. And finally settled with one thing.


    On Monday, Jian Kang Lu already finished his work and went to the store to pick his order. He also asks the store to engrave that beautiful number, and his kitten initials.


    He didn''t put his name on it. Because he knows, even though he wished for his kitten to stay with him forever, but sometimes life is not giving you the things you want the most.


    So¡­ If one day his kitten leaves him, he still hopes his kitten will still wear the gift he gave, and still want to remember him once in a while.


    Bai Yutang knows Il Mare is very classy, thus he tries to dress as best as he could. Even though he lives together and spends every day with this man, the thought of having a date with his lover still makes his heart beat faster.


    He chose an ocean blue turtleneck cashmere sweater, and black blazer paired with black pants. It made him look a bit taller, and not too skinny.


    When Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten dressed so well, he couldn''t help to hug his kitten from behind and sniff his kitten''s scent on his nape.


    "Mmmh.. Why is my baby so handsome tonight?"


    Bai Yutang could never get used to hearing those words. In this whole world, only Jian Kang Lu said that he was handsome. Bai Yutang didn''t know whether those words were just said to make him happy, or whether Jian Kang Lu really had some trouble with his eyes.


    But then that sour feeling came back when he remembered that tall handsome man. It seems his lover''s eyes were doing just fine years ago.


    With that sour feeling, Bai Yutang pushed Jian Kang Lu to take a bath and prepare himself too.


    "Gege, take a bath! If you keep hugging me like this, I guarantee we won''t have a dinner date outside."


    Bai Yutang knows himself well, and knows his lover even better. When Jian Kang Lu hugged and sniffed his neck, he could feel that thing between his lover''s thighs harden and poke him from behind.


    And that makes his little brother down there hard too¡­


    Jian Kang Lu dejectedly takes a bath in a hurry. But he knows he wants to spend tonight celebrating their one month anniversary with his kitten. So he just took a cold shower, tried to put the beast back inside the cage.


    The dinner went well, Jian Kang Lu can''t take his eyes away from his kitten the whole time. His kitten truly looks so handsome tonight. His smooth forehead was exposed because his kitten styled his hair to the side. And it makes his beautiful phoenix eyes more prominent, shining bright with the purity and his warm soul.


    Bai Yutang noticed that, and sometimes he blushed. When they finished their dinner and chatted while drinking the wine, suddenly Jian Kang Lu said he needed to get something from the car.


    Bai Yutang thought Jian Kang Lu forgot his wallet, so he said, "I bring your card, gege. Why don''t we use it to pay first?"


    Jian Kang Lu shook his head. "TangTang, I bring my wallet, it''s something I forgot. Please wait for a while, okay?"


    So Bai Yutang just sipped his wine slowly, looking at the dazzling city under the winter outside. Not for long, suddenly he was surprised with a small black box placed in front of him.


    Looking at his cute kitten''s bewildered face, Jian Kang Lu really wants to kiss that soft cheek. But he can''t do that here.


    So he just sat back to his seat, and smiled. "This is for you, I hope you like it."


    Bai Yutang confused, this is not his birthday, or any special day. But he knows that it will hurt his lover if he rejects his gift. Moreover, the gift that was already bought and placed in front of him.


    So he just opened the box. Inside, there was a black box with a logo from an expensive watch brand. It was not the super luxurious watch brand, but still expensive.


    Inside, laid a dark grey titanium watch with deep black dial. The elegance looks balanced to look bold and contrast with striking orange colour flourishes in the dial markings, flange, and hands. The black dial features a concentrically engraved circular pattern.


    Bai Yutang was stunned. This watch looks so expensive. He knew this brand sold their cheapest watch at a minimum price of 6000 yuan. And this one definitely costs more than that.


    "Do you like it?" Jian Kang Lu asked him softly.


    Bai Yutang looked at that face full with expectation. He sighed inside. In truth, he really likes this watch. So he nodded, and was honest with himself.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, and put the watch into his kitten''s wrist. He knew it, his kitten would look good wearing anything. And this watch matches his young kitten''s energy.


    Bai Yutang looked at his lover''s slender hand that put the watch on his wrist, then he looked at that gentle smile, and smiled back too.


    "Thank you, gege. I love it, so much."

 Chapter 74 - Brother

    Bai Yutang is glad, his mother seems to be okay. Even though sometimes he caught his mother''s face blankly stared at their family portrait in the living room, but overall his mother acted normally.


    Bai Yutang decided to talk to Bai Yuren about their financial condition this weekend. Because Bai Yuren needed to apply for a scholarship too if she could.


    Jian Kang Lu already pointed out that they''re not strangers, and Bai Yutang''s family is his family too. So even though Bai Yuren''s scholarship is not approved, it doesn''t matter. Jian Kang Lu told him several times that he could support Bai Yutang and his family until all of them can stand on their own.


    But how could Bai Yutang agree with that? Even though he had to admit that having someone to take care of him and protect his family, it''s something that is really nice and assuring.


    So this Saturday, Bai Yutang told Bai Yuren that he will take her to stroll around in the mall. But he told her that they can''t buy anything. Just to have lunch outside..


    His mother waved her hand and said that she will visit his uncle and his grandparents, so her children could play outside without worrying about her. Deep inside, Lu Hua knows that her children are really worried about her, that''s why she pretends to be strong and happy.


    Even though her happy world is already gone, along with the man he loved.


    Bai Yutang stroll around and ask his sister, "Where do you want to eat?"


    Bai Yuren just walked slowly, and said she doesn''t have any preferences, so it''s up to Bai Yutang.


    Bai Yutang chose her favourite cafe. When they''re waiting for their food to be delivered, Bai Yutang looks at his sister. She looks a bit thinner compared to 6 months ago.


    "Is it hard? It must be hard. Jian Ge said that every medical student will hate books on their study."


    Bai Yuren nodded. "It''s harder than i imagine. But I think I can still maintain my grade, even though it is not as easy as high school. I thought gaokao preparation was already hard.."


    Bai Yutang stares at his sister, he doesn''t know what he has to say without making his sister worried and sad.


    "Meimei¡­"


    It''s very rare for her brother to call her that. Bai Yuren already can guess what they will talk about today. So she just lowered her head. Staring at her skirt.


    Looking at his sister, his skinny sister, with a sad expression, hurt Bai Yutang''s heart. He suddenly doesn''t have the heart to tell his sister that she needs to get a scholarship or else she has to stop studying.


    No brother that loves his younger sister could afford to say that.


    Bai Yutang remembered what Jian Kang Lu said, and he involuntarily touched the watch in his wrist. The watch that he just managed to find the engraving number and his initial behind it when he already back home.


    At first he was confused with that number. But then he remembered. It was the date when they kissed for the first time.


    He didn''t know Jian Kang Lu is a man that really took notice about small things like that. When he confirmed it with his lover, his lover just said, "It''s my lucky number since that day forward. So I hope when that number is engraved on the watch, it will bring you to good times, and good memories onward."


    Bai Yutang took a deep breath, trying to find the courage from his lover''s gift. "Meimei, i have to tell you honestly about our situation. Actually, our financial state is not very bad. But our father is not here anymore, and both of us are still studying. Don''t worry, for now the money is still intact. I managed to use my savings and the money from my job to pay our expenses in the last 6 month."


    Bai Yuren abruptly raised her face to look at her brother. She can''t believe what she heard. How much could her brother save before? And he said from his job? Her brother is also still studying, how could he manage to work to pay their expenses and still study?


    "Actually, I didn''t enrol last semester. I''m waiting for my scholarship application to be granted. So the money is still intact. I enrol for this semester, don''t worry."


    "Gege!" Bai Yuren can''t help shouting. How could her brother do that? She feels ashamed of herself. She knows that must be something wrong, or else her brother won''t give her only 2000 yuan per month, though raised into 2500 yuan these past few months.


    Even though she understands, it''s hard for her. As a girl that was pampered so much by her parents, Bai Yuren used to have a happy life. Eat what she wants to eat, buy what she wants to buy.


    2500 yuan per month is enough for daily life and her basic needs. More than enough. But can''t compare with the life she used to have, and sometimes she lamented about that.


    But to hear that her brother didn''t even enrol because waiting for scholarship, constricted her throat and choke her.


    "We still have more than 100,000 yuan, so don''t worry. But, i need to tell you. If possible, can you apply for a scholarship too? And I''m sorry meimei, but we really need to save as much as we can. I still need two more years until graduation, and you even just start your first year."


    Bai Yuren was stunned. She''s not stupid, she know 100,000 yuan barely enough for them to live, moreover to study in good university. If she can''t get a scholarship, it means she needs to stop studying.


    Thinking about that, she can''t stop her tears from swelling and flowing out. She has so many things she wants to do. Even though it was hard, she enjoyed her university life. And to imagine if she had to stop because they don''t have money¡­ It''s really hard for her.


    "Meimei.." Now Bai Yutang really regrets why he didn''t follow his lover''s advice. "Meimei.. Don''t worry. Like I told you, I still have ways. You won''t stop studying even if you didn''t manage to get a scholarship. Don''t worry."


    Bai Yuren reached for tissues and hurriedly wiped her tears. She also doesn''t want to cry in the cafe, seen by strangers. "But.. You also need to finish your study, gege. You only need two years more. If you stop because of me, it won''t be good for all of us."


    Bai Yuren can''t stop her tears. She regrets why they have to talk about this outside. At first they thought their mother would stay at home, so they went outside. If she knew her mother was also going out to their uncle''s, it''s better to talk at home.


    "Who said I''ll stop my study? Right now I have a job, my income enough for all of our expenses if we live like these past few months. My scholarship is granted, so the money left is enough for your tuition in the next two years. After that, i''ll start working. So, even without a scholarship, you don''t have to worry. I won''t let you stop studying."


    Bai Yuren really can''t stop her tears. Her calm brother, her skinny brother, her ordinary brother that she used to think was not special at all except for his academic achievement, had to work and study. For her and their mother.


    Even just studying is hard for a student in an elite university, and her brother also needs to work.


    "I-I''ll try, gege. I''ll apply for a scholarship. So, don''t worry, gege.." Bai Yuren sobbed and said those words. She knows she can''t let her brother carry this burden alone.


    The food came, with a weird look from the waiter. The waiter just thought maybe this couple is fighting. But why does this skinny man make his cute girlfriend cry? Ungrateful bastard!


    Bai Yuren already stopped crying and ate her spaghetti. She started to come back to her lively appearance when Bai Yutang kept asking her about her university life, and told her the jokes from Jian Kang Lu about the medical faculty student''s life.


    "Gege, i''m curious. What kind of job do you have right now? How could your income is better than YingYing''s brother?" Bai Yuren asks him with a prying face.


    She really curious. Part time jobs won''t pay that well, impossible to cover their expenses only with part time jobs. Hua Ying, her best friend, had a brother that just started working last year. His salary is only 4000 yuan per month. She remembers because YingYing''s brother complained about his salary that was smaller than his monthly allowance from his parents.


    Bai Yutang choked. He was in a dilemma, whether he had to answer that honestly, or lied. But then he remembered his own words, and Jian Kang Lu''s words. He needs to let his family know how good his lover treats him.


    So he took a deep breath, even though he was embarrassed, but he wanted to answer honestly.


    "I''m doing sketches, illustrations, and many things. A-and.. I also cook for Jian Ge. He paid me 5000 yuan per month."


    Bai Yuren''s fork fell from her grip. Her mouth wide open, she can''t believe what she heard. Her brother''s cooking is really standard, and sometimes tastes a bit weird. She only pesters her brother to cook because she wants to disturb and tease him. To imagine someone like Jian Kang Lu wanting to pay her brother 5000 yuan per month for his cooking is...


    Both of them silenced. Finally Bai Yuren is the first to speak.


    "So, if you had to cook for him, does it mean you stay at his house?" Bai Yuren almost blurted out asking whether his brother also has to work as a housekeeper. But she knew that it was really disgraceful to call his brother working as a housekeeper for Jian Kang Lu.


    His brother, the one that has to work to provide her monthly expenses.


    Bai Yutang nodded, "Jian Ge knows about our situation. So he offered me to stay there for free. Since I can''t do anything, I just cook for him. He said he likes my cooking. Then he offers 5000 yuan per month to cook for him everyday. But on Saturday and Sunday we usually eat outside."


    Bai Yuren really can''t believe what she heard. This Jian Ge is really weird. Does he have some fettish about ordinary food? Is he too tired to eat delicious and expensive food from the restaurant everyday, until he wants to pay his brother to cook for him?


    Bai Yuren then remembers the beautiful soaps and masks his brother gave her. He said it was a souvenir from Jian Kang Lu when he went to Boston last month.


    Not only soaps and masks, but also T-shirts, hoodies, and perfume too. Expensive perfume. Remembering how his brother answered her question about these souvenirs in detail, and Jian Kang Lu''s weird act, Bai Yuren can''t help to ask.


    "So, did you accompany him too when he went to Boston, gege?"


    Bai Yutang nods. "Yes, I''m sorry I didn''t tell you. I don''t want mom to know that I took leave this semester. I don''t want her to worry."


    Bai Yuren is childish, and pure. Unlike those rotten girls. So she didn''t think anything weird. She only thought that Jian Kang Lu had a weird taste in food, and envied her brother. Bai Yuren never went abroad before.


    "Ah, gege! Tell me about your trip! Did you take a lot of pictures too? Ahh.. I wish i had a friend as rich and as kind as Jian Ge to you. I envy you, gege!"


    They chat lively about the trip, and Bai Yutang is glad to see that Bai Yuren could accept the fact that they need to live frugally. He decided to follow Jian Kang Lu''s words. Even though he feels bad to ask and borrow money from his lover, he really can''t see his sister sad.


    When they finished their lunch, they strolled around although didn''t buy anything. Just chatting, and laughing. Like they used to when their father was still around.


    When they reached home, Bai Yutang held his sister''s hand.


    "Meimei, like i told you before. You don''t need to worry about anything. I''m sorry i could only give you 2500 yuan per month. It must be hard for you. But I believe we can pass all this, and you only need to study and enjoy your university life. Don''t worry about money or anything else. Even though our father is not here anymore, but you have me, and I won''t let my only sister down."


    Bai Yuren hugs her brother, laid her head on her brother''s shoulder. She can''t help but cry there, in her brother''s embrace.


    Her ordinary brother, that she used to compare with her friend''s brother. Her brother, that she thought was not handsome enough, not stylish enough, not funny enough, not talented enough, not dazzling enough.


    Her ordinary brother is the brother that protects her with all his might.


    Her ordinary brother is the best brother in the world.

 Chapter 75 - Education Is Important

    Bai Yutang''s bewildered, his eyes showed disbelief, and his face turned red. Really really red. And.. His little brother also gave a reaction down there.


    ''What the fuck, why girls like to read these things???''


    Bai Yutang could understand that the story was really good, well written with a great plot. The novel he read right now is about a demonic cultivator reborn into a gay man body. Not really reborn, possessed maybe? Anyway, the novel tells the flashback story too, how this good man turned into a demonic cultivator.


    The romance between two men here is very subtle. The novel emphasises on the adventure of this cultivator and his lover unravel the past and welcome their future.


    How Bai Yutang could read a yaoi1 novel? Of course this novel recommended by Mu Xiaoya, said that this novel is the hit novel and Bai Yutang will like it..


    At first he really enjoyed it, and understood why those girls like this kind of story. This is one kind of universal story that every gender will like, except maybe that subtle romance part between two guys.


    But, in the end of the novel, the writer wrote about the "bedtime" story too. And Bai Yutang''s world expanded once more. That vivid description of two men making love is.. Really vivid. Bai Yutang could understand if he aroused reading this scene, because he knew how it felt.


    At least, some parts.. Because, for the other part, he doesn''t even have any imagination about how two man really having sex neither Jian Kang Lu ever do that kind of things to him. This book really gives him some insight.


    What he doesn''t understand, why girls like to read about something that they will never experience? They don''t have that part!!!


    Mu Xiaoya insist that he have to read this novel. Actually Mu Xiaoya gave so many suggestions when she heard that Bai Yutang finally got together with Jian Kang Lu. But in the end she said that Bai Yutang needs to learn more, and emphasise on the word learn.


    So she suggested he read the novel about man and man relationship as a part of his learning. Among all the novels she suggests, she praises this one so much. And the theme is also what Bai Yutang likes to read. Heroes and cultivation world.


    When finally Bai Yutang decides to read this one, it''s because he doesn''t have anything to do. He doesn''t have any job to do at this moment, and the house chores task is divided between him and his sister.


    Bai Yutang stares at his tablet''s screen. Now he is curious about this other part written in this novel. Gong? Shou? He searched the internet. It seems that this gay world divided into two world. The man that took a role as top, and the partner will be the bottom.


    But from the internet, he found that actually there are also the third category. Versatile. It means that man could be the top, and enjoy being a bottom too.


    Bai Yutang wondering, which one Jian Kang Lu''s role? If Jian Kang Lu is the top, then he will be..


    Bai Yutang wants to scream. He can''t imagine that he could take the role as bottom, he''s a man! But, to imagine he become the top and fuck Jian Kang Lu.. It seems impossible for him. Even just wanting to try lick his lover''s private part back always failed because he was dazed and drowned in pleasure given by his lover.


    Bai Yutang is also wondering, why the hell these rotten girls already brand him as the bottom??? Bai Yutang sits in his bed, stands up and looks at himself in the mirror. Which part of him makes him look like a woman!?!?


    But in the novel he just finished, it seems those bottoms didn''t look feminine. He was a powerful and very strong man. So how do you differentiate your role as a top or a bottom?


    Bai Yutang sighed. He doesn''t know whether he has to thank Mu Xiaoya or curse her. Because right now his mind filled with that lewd imagination, and confused about the next step of having sex with his lover.


    He thought he already knew all about it. They do it in so many positions and variations, but never further. Bai Yutang, this pure virgin, thought it was already the limit of having sex between two man. And he really could not accept if that private part of him had to be intruded by a foreign object as part of the making love process.


    That part is¡­ Dirty.


    And, won''t it hurt? Bai Yutang shuddered, and the lust he felt before subside. Bai Yutang sure must be hurt. But if it hurts, why do so many men like to be a bottom? Deep inside, Bai Yutang knows the answer.


    Because they love their partner.


    And Bai Yutang also wants Jian Kang Lu to feel good. As good as Jian Kang Lu makes him. To see the face of someone he loved lost in ecstasy because of him, make Bai Yutang feel that he truly loved. Embraced. Accepted.


    Bai Yutang missed Jian Kang Lu so much. And he knows that his lover misses him too. Jian Kang Lu sent him messages from the time he opened his eyes. And Bai Yutang does the same.


    The message is always the same.


    [Good morning TangTang my love. I just woke up. How''s your sleep?]


    Then always followed by the same words.


    [I miss you so much, can''t sleep well without you. Wish you''re here in my arms, be the first things i saw when i wake up.]


    Jian Kang Lu always texts him and calls him whenever he has free time. As a student on his holiday, Bai Yutang has nothing to do, while Jian Kang Lu is still busy. So Bai Yutang never calls him, only texts him. He answered his lover''s call at the speed of light. Because the phone is always in Bai Yutang''s hand.


    At night, Jian Kang Lu will call him for hours. When Jian Kang Lu finishes his work, he will call Bai Yutang immediately. The call will stay online all the time. Bai Yutang accompanies this man walking to the car, driving home, having his dinner, even sometimes the call is still on speaker mode when his lover takes a bath.


    Then they sleep together, with the phone still on line. Until one of them hearing the sound of their lover fell asleep, and just ended because the phone ran out of battery. Sometimes still connected until morning came.


    It was very calming to hear that soft breath. Try to imagine their lover sleeping in their arms, like they used to. Feels like it shortens the distance between them. They often do video calls too. Saw your beloved faces on that small screen, appeasing their mind and their heart.


    Speaking about that phone call while bathing, sometimes Jian Kang Lu suddenly talks to him with a deep hoarse voice. Even though they''re separated hundreds miles away, it didn''t ease the burning passion between them. As if their heart and their mind never parted.


    That''s when Bai Yutang learn there''s something that called phone sex. Because of that, now he won''t underestimate the power of human imagination. Hearing his lover''s sexy and deep voice, with those lewd words.. Makes him feel like they''re doing it for real.


    "Kiss me baby.. Mm.. I really like your lips, it''s so soft."


    "I want to bite your neck.. I need to mark you again. It must be faded now."


    "I want to mark you, baby.. You''re mine.."


    "I''m so hard, TangTang.. You make me hard.. Did you feel it too?"


    "Say that you''re hard because of me."


    "TangTang, i want you.. Can you imagine i lick you now?"


    "I lick you from your tip, down to your shaft.. I really like your dick. It''s so sexy.."


    "You''re so sexy baby.. So hot.. Ugh.."


    "Baby, help me.. I want you¡­ Give me your legs.."


    "Can you feel it, baby? You''re so tight."


    "TangTang, i really want you."


    "TangTang.. Baby.."


    Even far away, they still do it every two or three day. Bai Yutang can even read the pattern now. Monday is a busy day for Jian Kang Lu, so when he comes home he will be too tired. But Wednesday, Saturday, and Sunday, is definitely the day that they will do it.


    And that''s how Bai Yutang spent his holiday. Read the education novel from Mu Xiaoya, studying his friend''s notes for his upcoming term, spend his time with his mother and sister, and talk to Jian Kang Lu by phone from the time he opened his eyes until the time he fell asleep.


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    Jian Kang Lu told Bai Yutang that he wanted to visit him this weekend. The first week in February. He''ll take an afternoon flight on Saturday and go back to B city on Sunday night. Even though it was less than 24 hour, he didn''t care. He really missed his kitten.


    He missed his kitten to the point he thinks that he''s going crazy. Afraid that the whole time they spend together is only a dream. He needed to meet his kitten, see him, touch him, to assure himself that he was not dreaming.


    Jian Kang Lu booked a hotel near Bai Yutang''s house. Since there are no 5 star hotels around, Jian Kang Lu had to book a 4 star hotel. But it doesn''t matter.


    He just wants to be as close as he can with his kitten.


    Last weekend he could not visit his kitten, because his kitten said he wanted to talk with his sister. So he could only visit now, and next week. After that he could not visit again, because it will be Chinese New Year. It''s family time.


    Luckily his kitten said that he will take the flight back to B city on February 20th. Two days before his classes begin. And his kitten already assured him that he will stay in the apartment instead of the dorm.


    Jian Kang Lu knew it was not fair for his kitten. His kitten will be tired spending extra effort and time going back and forth to his campus. Jian Kang Lu knew he was being selfish, but he really can''t handle this lonely bed. A cold bed without his kitten to warm him all night.


    He can''t wait for Saturday to come. Count the day until he meets his beloved one, and holds him in his arms once again.

 Chapter 76 - Future In Laws

    Right after the plane landed, Jian Kang Lu turned on his mobile phone and sent his kitten a message.


    [TangTang, my plane has landed. I''ll pick you up right away, please wait for me.]


    Jian Kang Lu already booked a car and the driver for today and tomorrow. The driver was already waiting for him at the arrival gate. He took Jian Kang Lu''s luggage then led him to the car. It was a similar black SUV with the one Jian Kang Lu used last time when he visited this city.


    That time, he attended the funeral of his kitten''s father. If Jian Kang Lu remembers his kitten''s face that day, his heart still ached. He could understand what his kitten felt at that time.


    Even though he understands, he doesn''t know how it feels.. Jian Kang Lu was lucky that both of his parents were still alive and well. That''s why he admired his kitten. His lover is a strong man.


    Maybe people can''t see his kitten the way he looks at him. His kitten looks calm and shy from the outside. A typical good kid from a good family, sheltered for his whole life.


    But Jian Kang Lu knew how strong his kitten was. How many young men could get through that kind of situation like his kitten did? His kitten is very tough, and also clear minded. He never surrenders, keeps doing his best for him and his loved one.


    That''s what makes Jian Kang Lu love his kitten even more. His kitten is very young, but he is definitely one of the people among the people Jian Kang Lu knew for his whole life, that is very consistent with his words and holds his view of life.


    And that tough man loved him back.


    In the car, his kitten already replied to his message.


    [I''ll wait for you, gege]


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t bring food from B city to his kitten''s mother and sister. He only brings bird nests for his kitten''s mother and jade earrings for his kitten''s sister. Earrings and necklaces are doctor''s favourite jewellery, because rings and bangles are not comfortable for them.


    When Jian Kang Lu arrived at his kitten''s house, his kitten was already waiting for him in front of the gate.


    To see his beloved one wearing a dark red coat, beige shirt and light blue jeans standing up in the middle of late winter holding his own arms, trying to warm his skinny body, waiting for him, makes Jian Kang Lu''s heart itched.


    How could he be so lucky, for this perfect man willing to be his lover.


    "Gege.."


    His kitten welcomed him when he got down from the car. How he wished he could hug his kitten right now, to erase his suffering from their 14 days separation. He really really missed his kitten so much.


    These 14 days he spent are so cold, and lonely. The world without his kitten is forever winter.


    Bai Yutang looked at this man that just stared at him, silently, with a loving and yearning gaze. He really misses his lover, but he knows he can''t hug him here, in front of his house. He really missed this man, the man that was always kind and gentle to him. That always protected him and loved him.


    So Bai Yutang took that slender hand, that beautiful hand that likes to caress him, hold him carefully, like protecting his most treasured thing.


    Bai Yutang took that hand, and led Jian Kang Lu into his house. He can feel the fingers inside his grip caressing his palm. Softly, and Bai Yutang felt like a feather tickling his heart.


    "Mom, Jian Ge is here."


    Lu Hua saw that handsome tall man wearing the black shirt and grey coat walking inside with her son holding his hand. It seems her son really likes this friend of his. Lu Hua herself also likes this man so much. Really a good example for a son that every mother wants to have.


    Polite, smart, successful, and very elegant. No wonder her son admired this man so much. Lu Hua still remembers how this man visited them on the days her husband laid in the ICU. Remember that, makes Lu Hua''s hollow heart tighten, and the dried gland that won''t shed tears anymore feels hurt.


    "Welcome, did you just arrive?" Lu Hua forced herself to display a smile.


    Jian Kang Lu replied politely and gave her the bird nest he brought. After that decent small talk, Bai Yutang told her mother that he will be going out with Jian Kang Lu for a while. At that time, Bai Yuren went down and greeted them.


    Jian Kang Lu gave her the jade earrings that made Bai Yuren''s eyes brightened. It''s been a while since someone gave her a fancy pretty thing. Since her father died, she never bought any accessories or jewellery anymore. Not even clothes or shoes.


    Jian Kang Lu is not a dense man. He really wants to be selfish and spend this precious time with his kitten alone. But when he saw that fake smile plastered on Lu Hua''s face, his future mother in law''s face, Jian Kang Lu felt uneasy.


    And now to see that bitter smile from Bai Yuren, and that melancholy voice when she told them to have fun, really stir his conscience. So finally Jian Kang Lu swallows his greed and says to these two women, "Auntie, Yuren, why don''t we all go together and have dinner with me? I will be very happy if you want to accompany me."


    Lu Hua hurriedly waved her hand, "No no, how could we bother you?"


    Bai Yutang was also stunned to hear that. Deep inside, he wanted to spend this time alone with his lover, he really really missed this man so much. Never occurred in his mind that separated from the one you loved will bring this much suffering.


    That makes him regret even more to remember the time that he left Jian Kang Lu in the dark and hiding away after his father''s death.


    Bai Yutang also knows that this man missed him so much too. So when he heard that, Bai Yutang knew how much this man sacrificed his own wishes to invite her mother and her sister.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, "It''s just a casual dinner and visit. I really don''t have anything important this afternoon. After all, I want to talk more with auntie and Bai Yuren. So if we could go together, it would be great."


    Bai Yuren said nothing, but Lu Hua and Bai Yutang could see that she really wanted to go. So Lu Hua surrendered. She also hates to be alone in this lonely house. A warm house that turns cold without Bai Haoran inside.


    The four of them are strolling in the shopping mall. Bai Yutang had to hold Jian Kang Lu''s hand again to prevent him from buying many things for his sister. But this round he loses, because he also doesn''t have the heart to see his sister''s eyes. The eyes that longing to buy pretty things just like when their father is still alive.


    Jian Kang Lu told him in a pleading whisper, "This is not expensive at all, can''t you just let me raise my value in front of my future sister in law?"


    Thus Bai Yutang surrendered, and let her sister happily try on some clothes. Bai Yuren is really sensible. She only bought one red flowery dress, and one cute shirt with cats printed in the back.


    Bai Yutang''s heart constricted when he heard Bai Yuren happily whisper to him. "Gege, i''ll use this dress on the new year."


    How could he forget that they haven''t prepared anything for Chinese New Year? Because of that, he let Jian Kang Lu buy his sister a pair of shoes and purse to match the dress.


    Lu Hua politely rejects the offer when Jian Kang Lu wants to buy her the similar purse. She really doesn''t want to celebrate Chinese New Year. The first new year she''ll spend without Bai Haoran.


    Bai Yutang could not win the argument when Bai Yuren and Jian Kang Lu formed a team to attack him. So finally he just let them choose a light pink shirt for him . Bai Yuren said that he should wear this on Chinese New Year. But he sternly refused to buy shoes. Jian Kang Lu already bought him so many shoes before.


    They have dinner at H cafe, located in one of the 5 star hotels in W city. They have many food varieties and the place is also very nice. The big glasses dome let them see the sky outside, with trees inside the restaurant. Giving an impression that they dine under the stars.


    Because it was buffet dinner, sometimes Jian Kang Lu stood so close to his kitten, just tried to feel the warmth emitted from his kitten body, and maybe he could be lucky to smell his kitten''s scent.


    These beast of him tried to struggle free from the cage, when Jian Kang Lu saw Bai Yutang standing up from his seat, and walked to the seafood section. He could see that round butt clearly in front of his eyes.


    Looking at that skinny waist, and round butts covered in jeans, make Jian Kang Lu want to strip his kitten naked. Grope, squeeze, knead.. Lick him from head to toe. And just eat his kitten whole.


    This makes Jian Kang Lu glued to his seat for the rest of the dinner. He could not stand up, afraid for his future mother and sister in law saw something indecent.


    Lu Hua asks him where he stays. When she heard that Jian Kang Lu stayed in the hotel near their house, Lu Hua told him that next time, just stay at their house rather than in the hotel. She even nags her son for being insensible.


    That makes Jian Kang Lu''s beast finally laid docile in the cage, and not make a ruckus anymore. Jian Kang Lu happily accepted the offer. He delightedly said that next week when he visits again, he will definitely stay at their house.


    Jian Kang Lu is also curious and wants to see his kitten''s room. The place where his kitten spent his youth. The time before Jian Kang Lu.


    They spent the dinner lively. Bai Yutang really holds his gratitude for his lover. It''s been too long for them not to spend their time like this anymore. He could see his sister very happy, and his mother could laugh several times. A real laugh, not the fake one.


    When they walk to the car, Bai Yutang''s hand holds Jian Kang Lu''s hand in the back, and caresses his palm. Then he whispers into Jian Kang Lu''s ear.


    "Gege.. Thank you so much for tonight."


    To suddenly hear that sweet voice whispering in his ear, a wisp of that musk and cedar wood scent, and light caress on his palm, woke the beast again. Jian Kang Lu really wants to hold his kitten. He missed him so much.


    So Jian Kang Lu whispers to him back.


    "Baby, could you spend tonight with me?"

 Chapter 77 - Take My Soul Away (NSFW)

    Bai Yutang rarely sleeps outside. He doesn''t have many friends that will invite him to sleep over. Besides, all of his friends are the good boy type, never going into clubs or partying all night long. As top students in one of the best high schools in the city, their night activities were limited to playing games all night long.


    So when Bai Yutang asked for permission from her mother to stay with Jian Kang Lu tonight, his mother granted his request immediately. She even nag Bai Yutang again for his insensible act, not to show Jian Kang Lu their hospitality by offering him to sleep over at their house. After all the things Jian Kang Lu did to their family, it was inappropriate to let Jian Kang Lu stay in the hotel.


    Bai Yutang just smiles helplessly and assures her mother that next week Jian Kang Lu will stay over at their house.


    Bai Yutang went upstairs and packed his clothes, and suddenly he was reminded with his own ambition. The not yet fulfilled wish. He determines that tonight he will make his wish come true. He will not be the one that dazed and lost tonight..


    He definitely will take control tonight.


    Bai Yutang knows what Jian Kang Lu wants by asking him to stay over. Looking at that gaze, it is impossible for that man to be satisfied just by sleeping and hugging Bai Yutang all night without doing anything else.


    Bai Yutang sniffed himself, it seems he still smells good. Tonight''s winter is not that cold, but it definitely preserves his fresh scent after bathing this afternoon. Even though they do it so many times, after 14 days without seeing each other, somehow the thought of being together with his lover again makes his heart beat faster.


    Just like a first date, full of anticipation for what will happen next.


    In the car, Jian Kang Lu can''t let go of his kitten''s hand. He has waited for so long. Even just to touch that small part of his kitten''s skin is enough to assure him that all of this is not his dream. To be certain that this perfect man sitting by his side is real, not just his wishful thinking.


    Jian Kang Lu standing impatiently in the reception desk, why the hell this woman took a very long time to register his ID and provide the room. He was already standing here for 10 minutes and this woman was still typing on her computer.


    Jian Kang Lu understands that this is already 10 pm. But the hotel''s receptionist was supposed to stand by 24 hours, no excuses.


    Usually Jian Kang Lu is a very patient man. But tonight he lost all his composure and his understanding. He just wants to go to his room and spend the night together with his kitten as soon as possible.


    He has already waited for so long, and this woman is still typing. Even to swipe his credit card for deposit took her a long time. Jian Kang Lu says thank you to this poor woman with a stern and cold voice.


    This cute and young receptionist is pretty. With her big eyes, and full lips, she was getting a lot of attention from the man coming to this hotel. She was striving to apply for a job in a 5 star hotel, but her english is not good, so she had to be satisfied with this 4 star hotel in the middle of nowhere.


    She hates night shift, tired and a lot of pervert men try to get her phone number. She knows that phone number is only an excuse to get her body. She hates those men, ugly and lowly.


    That''s why she was rejoicing at the first time to receive a very handsome and charming guest in the middle of the night, a very rare sight in this hotel. He also looks elegant and wealthy. But she was disappointed that his man didn''t notice her pretty makeup at all. When she hoped for a man asking her number, this man didn''t even smile once. What a waste!


    Jian Kang Lu held his kitten''s hand, and they left for the elevator, going to their room. The beast inside him starts to struggle to get loose. It''s been so long, too long for this beast to taste raw meat. The only meat this beast is willing to taste.


    Bai Yutang''s heart thumping so hard. Like a wild horse running inside and trampling his chest. He could see Jian Kang Lu''s expression and eyes changed from his gentle look into that look. Lust, desire, thirsty for their body entangled once more.


    Bai Yutang entered the room first, like usual. That was his lover''s habit since the first time he knew him. Always open and hold the door for him. Not even 5 seconds from his foot stepping into the room, Bai Yutang felt his waist hold by a strong hand, and that familiar scent embraced him from behind.


    "TangTang, I missed you so much."


    And that strong hand grip his waist so tight, along with kisses raining him, falling to his hair, his temples, his back side of left ear, and down to his nape.


    If Bai Yutang leaves this man to do what he wants, definitely he could not execute his plan. Even now his mind starts to get foggy, layered by the same desire. Bai Yutang holds that hand and tries to lose himself from this man''s embrace. But his lover won''t let him go, and grip him tighter.


    That skilful hand already groped his chest, trying to feel the small bud of him. He can''t lose again tonight! He also wants to make his lover feel as good as he felt. So Bai Yutang struggled, and when his effort failed he finally shouted.


    "Gege, don''t touch me!"


    Jian Kang Lu froze out. The beast that already got loose from the cage whimpering and back to sit in the corner. Afraid to hear that roar from his kitten. He wants to take his hand out of his kitten immediately, but he can''t.


    In that moment, Jian Kang Lu''s mind already messed up in an instant. Does he do something wrong? Has his kitten finally fed up with his indecent behaviour? Or does his kitten didn''t enjoy being with a man?


    Why did he have to follow his animal instinct? He regrets it so much now. Why can''t he take it slowly? Does his kitten think that he was only a pervert man with dirty mind that just want to have sex all the time?


    He knew he had to lose his hand and step back. His kitten shouts at him, despising his touch. But he can''t. He can''t.. He doesn''t want to lose his kitten, he just can''t. Does he need to kneel and ask for forgiveness? Beg his kitten to give him one more chance?


    Bai Yutang struggled and finally could get his body free from his lover''s arms. He turned around and was surprised to see Jian Kang Lu''s face. That lust and desire are all gone, replaced by a sad look and miserable face.


    Bai Yutang really can''t understand what''s running inside his lover''s mind. Once at night, when they hug each other in bed, he asks him why Jian Kang Lu''s face lately showed an anxious and troubled expression. That time his lover answered him that he was afraid Bai Yutang would hate him someday and leave him.


    Bai Yutang really doesn''t understand this man. If someone needs to be afraid, it was definitely him. Jian Kang Lu could get as many lovers as he wants, they all will line up if Jian Kang Lu ever opens a lover recruitment.


    Looking at that face, Bai Yutang knew this man must have some wild imagination again. So he held Jian Kang Lu''s hand, and led him to the bed. Ask him to sit in the bed.


    Jian Kang Lu sat, and raised his head to see his kitten''s face. He didn''t see any repugnance from those eyes. Those beautiful phoenix eyes still look at him gently. Then he was stunned when he saw that beautiful and pure face get closer towards him, kiss his cheek softly, then whisper in his ear.


    "Gege, tonight I want to be the one that touched you.."


    Jian Kang Lu''s brain malfunctioned at once. He could only stare at his kitten, and let his kitten kiss his lips softly. To feel that soft pale pink petals that he dreamed every day, and his kitten''s familiar scent filled his nostrils, it''s really delightful.


    After that shock moment, falling into the dark abyss, then suddenly lifted up by a pair of wings, flying straight into the light, turn Jian Kang Lu''s brain into a puddle of water. He can''t think at all.


    The next moment, he felt his kitten still kiss him with his clumsy lips, and that soft tongue lick his neck. The sensation brings the beast that was whimpering in the corner back into life, and wildly running around.


    His kitten''s soft hand down from cupping his cheek, into his collarbone, and unbuttoned his shirt one by one. His kitten''s movement is so clumsy, and the kiss weaker by every second his kitten struggles to strip him.


    Jian Kang Lu tried to help his kitten open his own shirt, but then his kitten bit his lips and said with a warning tone.


    "Gege, i told you i want to be the one that touched you tonight.."


    Never even appear in Jian Kang Lu''s dream or imagination, that his pure kitten will do something so destructive like this. His member that was hard before, turned limp when his kitten shouted and told him not to touch his kitten. But now as if injected with new spirit, it''s getting hard again, even harder than before.


    To be told he can''t touch his kitten at all in this moment, really torture him so much. So he grip his hand tight on the bed, and try with all his might not to pounce his kitten. He holds his sanity and grabs the beast inside him not to give this naughty kitten a lesson about never seducing a beast like him in this way.


    To feel his kitten kiss his neck, then down to his collarbone, when finally the shirt all opened. His kitten licks all his chest, and sometimes bite him lightly. He also could feel that beautiful mouth suck his skin, and his bud. Then suck the skin around it. It seems his kitten wants to try to mark him also.


    Unfortunately Bai Yutang''s skill is really lame. He doesn''t know how to make a mark properly. He thought he already imitated Jian Kang Lu''s mouth and tongue''s movement perfectly. But why after a long time sucking and licking, the mark is not as prominent as his own mark??


    "Baby.. Can''t you let me touch you too?" Jian Kang Lu whispered in a low hoarse voice. He really can''t hold himself looking at his sexy kitten this way.


    Bai Yutang straightens his body and tries to remember the scene from the novel he read. The education novel he got from Mu Xiaoya.


    "No. Tonight is my turn." Bai Yutang said that with a stern voice.


    Then he pushed Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder, until that man laid in the bed, with his legs still dangling in the edge. This position will make him easier to do the things he wants.


    Bai Yutang saw that broad chest, with a slim waist. That skin of his lover is so smooth and pearly white, unlike his own skin. The slim muscle is shaped in a very sexy tone. Not too muscular, but definitely had the right amount of masculine muscle. Unlike his muscles.


    To see his lover stare at him with a dazed expression, blanked, really satisfy Bai Yutang. Finally he could see this man from above. And Bai Yutang also could see that eyes filled with lust again.


    Bai Yutang is a smart student, so he remembers the scene well from the novel. Because he actually can''t really remember what Jian Kang Lu did to him. All he knew was that he felt so good and his brain stopped.


    So Bai Yutang kneel himself, and face that big lump in the middle of his lover''s thighs. He starts to open his lover''s belt, and also his pants.


    Jian Kang Lu is suddenly awake. It seems he knows what his kitten wants to do. Deep inside he also wants it, and his heart itches that his kitten wants to do this. But in other parts, can he let his kitten do this? He cherished his kitten so much. To let his kitten do this, it seems a little bit.. Too much..


    His kitten stared at him and frowned. Then that warning tone heard again.


    "Gege, be good. Please let me do what i want."


    To hear those words thrown back at him, really make Jian Kang Lu speechless. His kitten is really smart. Even in intimate activity, he learns so fast and turns it against him. So Jian Kang Lu said nothing, but propped himself with both of his elbows. He still half laid back, so he could see his kitten well.


    And the view in front of him was really¡­ Enchanting.


    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten open his pants slowly, then touch his member softly, caressing it with his kitten''s soft and slender hand. The beautiful fingers that Jian Kang Lu adores so much, touch his member from the tip and slowly down to his shaft. His kitten didn''t open all his pants. He just slid it downwards, it still stuck in Jian Kang Lu''s ankle. Trapped him there.


    His kitten''s hand still touches it slowly, while his member is already standing so hard. This sensation is really too much for Jian Kang Lu. His kitten stroked it slowly with his index finger, and propped his body on top of him, licking his left buds.


    "Baby.."


    Jian Kang Lu could only say those words with his deep hoarse voice. His kitten doesn''t know what his actions give such a huge impact to Jian Kang Lu. Jian Kang Lu hand tightens its grip on the bedsheet. Afraid he will just fuck his kitten right away. To make this naughty kitten beg for forgiveness for teasing him this way.


    While his kitten licked his right bud with his naughty clumsy tongue, his hand suddenly left. His member, who was already hard so much, left in the cold air again. Then Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten still lick his bud slowly, and raised his eyes to look at Jian Kang Lu.


    That''s the most sensual thing Jian Kang Lu ever saw in his whole life. Glossy phoenix eyes. A pink tongue licks him. Pale pink petals that brush his bud. Then his kitten starts unbuttoning his own shirt. While doing that, his kitten''s eyes never leave him. He stares at Jian Kang Lu all the time, leaving him breathless.


    That''s when Jian Kang Lu thought, his kitten is truly a vixen that sucks his soul away.


    But he will gladly give his soul to him, it was worth it to lose his soul if he could see something as bewitching as the scene in front of him right now.

 Chapter 78 - It’s Good To Make You Feel Good (NSFW)

    Bai Yutang opened his shirt slowly. He also wants to be touched. He didn''t imagine that seducing your lover will turn you into a very uncomfortable state. His members are getting hard without Jian Kang Lu doing anything to him.


    His member down there suffered, strained by his pants. And his body also remembers Jian Kang Lu''s every touch, every stroke, every light movement from his lover''s tongue.


    Doing all these things to Jian Kang Lu made Bai Yutang aroused so much, until his body felt burned from the fire inside. Bai Yutang adores this man so much, and Jian Kang Lu''s body gives him so much pleasure. He wants it.


    Bai Yutang tried to strip himself, to let his member also freed from the tight space down there. He was still on his knees, licking his lover beautiful buds. That right buds already turned red from his own mouth and tongue.. Then he moved to his lover''s right bud. He wants to be fair to both of them.


    When finally Bai Yutang could unbutton his shirt, he also unzipped his pants, and released his hard member free. He was relieved, and after a while he moved to lick his lover''s skin down from his chest to his abdomen. That hard muscle he licked aroused him even more.


    When he is finally close to his target, Bai Yutang remembers the things he wants to do. He already imagined and planned in what way he will start to do this thing.


    Thus Bai Yutang opened his mouth slightly, and blew the tip of Jian Kang Lu''s member. Looking at that hard things swayed in front of him, like begging him to lick it, waiting to be eaten by him. Bai Yutang didn''t know that seeing his lover''s member move this way would also burn him inside.


    Bai Yutang started to lick that slit opening that was already wet from his lover''s pre-leak cum. The taste, the smell, all make the fire inside him blazing, and burn him badly. He licks the slit slowly, trying to taste it in the softest way. He doesn''t want to hurt his lover.


    After he licked it for a few times, he could hear his lover groan. He raised his eyes while still licking his lover''s tip. What he saw was his lover''s stern face full of desire. That makes Bai Yutang really satisfied.


    To know a man as formidable, as magnificent, as dazzling as his lover, could make that face because of him, awaken something inside him.


    He wants to tease him more. He wants to make this man look at him this way, and only him, for a lifetime.


    Bai Yutang licks the tip, then brings his tongue down to lick the shaft. His hand holds the base of the shaft, and his tongue tries to do the circular motion around the shaft. Finally when he saw Jian Kang Lu''s throat stricken and his hand grip the bed sheet even tighter, Bai Yutang started to open his mouth and enveloped that hard member of his lover inside.


    Jian Kang Lu''s mind really turns into mud. He can''t think clearly, only could stare at his kitten. This view that he thought already bewitched him, now burns him even more. His kitten''s mouth can''t hold all his members at first. He only licks and sucks half of his member. And sometimes raise his eyes to look at him.


    Those feelings, turn all his blood flow rushed into his lower abdomen. The heat inside him burned. Jian Kang Lu started to feel his sweat coming from his pores. He feels the sensation, trying to hold the tension, saw those seductive eyes.. It''s really deadly.


    After a while being tortured by his kitten, burning him badly, finally his kitten found a way to put all his members into that tiny mouth. Jian Kang Lu can''t hold his groan. It just feels too good. To feel his tip touched his kitten''s palate, and the stroke from his kitten''s tongue, even that light brush of his kitten''s teeth, all bring Jian Kang Lu to drown in the sea of pleasure.


    His kitten suck, and start to move his mouth. Up and down, slowly, teasing him. Burning him. Torture him. Jian Kang Lu finally can''t hold himself anymore. He laid himself down, and put his hand into his kitten''s head.


    "Baby.. Ugh.. You''re so good. You make me feel so good."


    With that hand stroking his head, and hearing that hoarse voice, make Bai Yutang want to suck and move faster. He just wants to taste all of his lover''s member, make it into his. Mark this man''s member to be his. He sucks it, slowly, then strong, and moves his mouth faster.


    That movement makes his lover''s hand grip tighter. Then suddenly he felt that his lover''s hand pushed him, making him swallow his lover''s member even deeper.


    "Ugh.. That''s.. TangTang.. It''s so good."


    His lover started to shove his hips and push his member deeper into his mouth. The movement is fast, and strokes his palate a few times. Bai Yutang wasn''t ready, he almost choked. But he managed to still open his mouth and didn''t bite his lover''s dick.


    "Baby, relaxed your mouth.. Let me.. Ugh.."


    Bai Yutang just can open his mouth and sometimes his tongue impulsively wants to shove the hard thing that intrudes his mouth rough and fast. But that movement of his tongue only make his lover''s member fuck his mouth even faster.


    "Baby.. You''re so hot.. It''s so good.."


    Jian Kang Lu''s mind and sanity are already lost, he can''t think clearly anymore. He only want to fuck his kitten, punish him. Thrust his member into that warm mouth hard, and feel the velvety tongue brush his shaft over and over again.


    That sensation makes him choke at first, very uncomfortable for Bai Yutang. But somehow it gradually gives him a weird sensation. The lack of air just makes his member even harder, and screaming wants to be touched too.


    So Bai Yutang can''t hold himself anymore. With one hand grip on his lover''s thighs, his other hand started to touch himself. Stroke his own member, rub it, and let it finally feel the skin around to warm and give it pleasure too.


    Bai Yutang doesn''t know for how long they''re doing it, he could only hear Jian Kang Lu''s voice keep telling him that he felt so good. To hear that again and again, feeling a hard thing shoved into his mouth repeatedly, grasping for the lack of air, all stimulates Bai Yutang so much, then his red world finally shows some sparks.


    With that sensation that he knew well, Bai Yutang tried to stop himself. He doesn''t want to cum first again. But his lover didn''t show any sign that he''ll release soon. Even when Bai Yutang already left his member and his both hands just grasped his lover''s thigh tightly, the sparks didn''t fade away. The sensation even came greater, his member throbbing hard.


    After some time, Bai Yutang''s hand moved by itself. He can''t hold anymore. He stroke, and rubbed his own member fast. When finally that fireworks came, he sucked Jian Kang Lu''s member deeply, and almost bit it.


    To feel that sensation that gives him a mixed pleasure from pain and ecstasy, bring back Jian Kang Lu''s sanity for a little bit. He looked at his kitten and saw his kitten panting and gasping. His face all red, the colour spreading into his ear and his neck.


    Jian Kang Lu knew that his kitten also touched himself. That what makes him lost his mind even more before, and just fuck his kitten''s mouth fiercer. To see that expression, Jian Kang Lu knew his kitten just cum.


    The beast inside him running wild, trampled all his sanity, his mind just filled with lust. His heart burns, and his members just want more, and more of his kitten.


    Jian Kang Lu abruptly sat, and stood up. He strips his pants and throws them away. He still wears his shirt that is already open wide, and he didn''t care to strip it away. With his shirt opened and his legs naked, Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten still kneel down looking at him, and that white liquid scattered around his kitten''s legs.


    That view is enough to make the beast inside Jian Kang Lu roaring and jumping wild. His kitten''s jeans still wrapping his legs, his kitten only unzipped it to let his member freed from the pants. His beige shirt opened, and Jian Kang Lu saw a glimpse of that smooth skin inside.


    Jian Kang Lu threw his kitten in the bed, letting his kitten''s body bounce from touching the bed. But his butt and his legs are still facing Jian Kang Lu and tangling from the edge. With that position, Jian Kang Lu slid his kitten''s jeans roughly, just enough to show him that round butts.


    Even until now Jian Kang Lu didn''t buy lubricants. Because he really don''t want to fuck his kitten, afraid that his kitten will hurt and runaway from him. Jian Kang Lu stares at that butt, then touches it. Feeling that soft skin makes him grope and knead that butt harder, wish he could just stick his member into that pretty pink hole.


    His kitten''s body is truly divine.


    His member was still wet from his kitten''s saliva. Because Jian Kang Lu thrust his mouth roughly, made the saliva run all over Jian Kang Lu''s member. Even though Jian Kang Lu can''t fuck that hole, but he know that his kitten''s thighs also give him a blissful sensation.


    So with that position, Jian Kang Lu started to thrust his member between his kitten''s thighs. Because his kitten''s jeans only slid down slightly until the base of his butt, made it feel so tight and clamp Jian Kang Lu''s member hard.


    "Baby.. You''re so hot. I just want to fuck you all night."


    Bai Yutang already cum, but that familiar sensation of his butt stroked by a hard thing, brought the pleasure back and heightened his after cum sensation. His white world gradually turned red again to feel his member stroke from behind, and he was trapped in the bed.


    Jian Kang Lu pulled his kitten''s body towards him, and sucked his neck. He wanted to mark his kitten again since they separated, and now finally he had the chance. He sucked and licked, pulled his kitten shirt into half of his arm, trapped his kitten''s arms.


    Bai Yutang is really helpless. He can''t do anything. Just feel his body bend backwards, being thrust from the back, bouncing repeatedly, his member stroked, and his neck being kissed so many times.


    His lover holds his chest, playing with one bud. The other hand of his lover held his chin, turned it to the left to receive that wild tongue prying and devour him whole. Jian Kang Lu, who is always gentle today, seemed so rough. Trapped him, marked him, bit him, and thrust his hard member down there in between his thighs fiercely.


    "Gege.. Gege.."


    Bai Yutang is panting wild, and can only say this word after Jian Kang Lu left his mouth and sucked his neck again. His lungs gasping for air, but that only creates more seductive moans and groans from Bai Yutang.


    Jian Kang Lu almost cum now, from the heavenly feeling down there, and see his kitten dazed and calling his name again and again. He pulled his kitten upward so he was half standing now, with his knees still lean on the edge of the bed.


    Jian Kang Lu trapped his kitten''s skinny body so they laid back on his chest. He thrust his member even harder between that round butt, inside his kitten''s thighs.


    Jian Kang Lu''s right hand trapped his kitten''s body, and the other hand searched for his kitten''s member. He played the tip for a while, searching for that wetness from the pre leak. As he wildly guessed, his kitten''s member was already hard again.


    When Jian Kang Lu felt that it was slick enough, he started to rub and stroke his kitten''s member fast. His kitten kept moaning, his hand moved backward to find support from Jian Kang Lu''s low waist, holding it tight. It makes an illusion for Jian Kang Lu that his kitten asked him to thrust even faster, and harder.


    So he did it, and stroked his kitten''s member faster.


    "Ah.. Gege.. Ahh.. Stop.. Gege.."


    Bai Yutang only can hold that waist of Jian Kang Lu, then slipped away. But he didn''t fall because Jian Kang Lu''s right hand was still holding his chest. He tried to grip his lover''s body again, and find his lover''s naked butt. He holds it tight, and to feel that smooth skin, that sturdy hips, thrusting in him even faster.


    Bai Yutang''s front also stroked and rubbed hard, the sensation of his warm lover''s hand truly felt better compared to his own hand. All these electrified his nerves, the sparks even blinding his sights.


    "Gege.. Ahh.. Stop.."


    Bai Yutang laid his head back on his lover''s shoulder, panting hard. Begging with all his might. He really will come soon at this rate.


    Jian Kang Lu stroke even faster. "Cum baby.. I want to cum too.. You felt so good.."


    Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten all over again while he kept thrusting hard. He just wants to become one with this man. The man that gives him so much love, and so much pleasure. He has tasted the body of woman and man before, but nothing could compare with his kitten. He truly is the best thing he ever has in his life.


    "Ah.. I-i''m cumming.. Gege.. Ahh.."


    Jian Kang Lu could feel the tense in his kitten''s body, and in a split second his kitten''s member sprayed that hot white thick liquid from his tip. His kitten''s body limped and fell to the bed. Jian Kang Lu holds his kitten''s waist and just thrust deeper and deeper. Jian Kang Lu grip that round butt until the skin turned red, and just thrust his hips onto that sensual part of his kitten''s body.


    "Baby, i''m cumming.. Ugh"


    Both of them panting hard, then Jian Kang Lu threw himself on top of his kitten''s back. He kissed his kitten''s ear lightly, held the tip of his kitten''s chin, bringing that slightly opened mouth that was still gasping for air closer to him. Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten softly.


    After he released, the beast already laid docile in the cage, and his gentle self coming back. Hold his kitten tight, kiss him softly, and love him as much as he wants.


    "Baby.. Thank you.. You make me feel so good tonight."


    To hear those words, and receive that soft kiss raining on his mouth, his cheek, his eyes, his temples, his ear.. Make Bai Yutang''s soul back to his body. He slightly moved his body so they could hug each other tight. He kissed him back.


    It''s good if he could make this man feel good too. Because he loves him so much.

 Chapter 79 - Look, And See How You Make Me Crazy (NSFW)

    As if they won''t see each other ever again, his lover stuck to him and won''t let him go. His lover insisted on washing him when they cleaned their body. The wiping task that should only take less than five minutes turns into fifteen minutes because his lover keeps hugging and kissing him.


    When they''re preparing to sleep and hug each other, his lover won''t even let him roll to the other side. Even when this man is sleeping, his hand will automatically move and scoop him back to his arms.


    In the morning, Bai Yutang wakes up first while his lover is still sleeping. It was natural for his lover to sleep longer than him, he must be tired. Yesterday his lover visited the patients in the hospital first, then took a flight to W city. His lover was strolling in the mall with him and his family, and still doing their bed activity until midnight. Bai Yutang looked at this man the whole morning until his lover finally woke up.


    He was just mesmerised, looking at that straight eyebrow and his lover''s beautiful eyelashes. His lover''s prominent nose is sharp and straight.. Bai Yutang also charmed with his lover''s thin and sensual lips. The lips that kissed him for thousands of times since they were together, as if to show that the owner adores him so much.


    Even when they have breakfast, his lover asked him with his puppy eyes to eat their breakfast in the room, and happily fed Bai Yutang like he was a toddler who can''t eat by himself. And those lips of his lover rained him with hundreds of kisses once more.


    When Bai Yutang wanted to take a bath, his lover''s arms didn''t let him go. And once more, that gentle eyes of his lover were replaced with that familiar gaze. Layered with desire, and heated with lust.


    Bai Yutang can''t refuse this man at all, because he himself also desires the feeling of their body rubbed with each other. So he just returns those soft kisses, and opens his mouth to welcome the intruder.


    Jian Kang Lu''s tongue skilfully prying inside, and the tip of their tongue tangled together. Sucked each other, and let that lewd sound fill the bathroom. Too bad this hotel didn''t provide a bathtub in their bathroom. But Jian Kang Lu didn''t care. His hand already slipped inside his kitten''s t-shirt and stroked his kitten''s lower waist slowly.


    After last night the beast inside him went rampage and finally was satisfied, now that beast just roared wildly in his place without jumping around. He just wants to tease this naughty kitten.


    They still have four more hours until the time they check out from the hotel, after that he will have lunch with his kitten and send his kitten home. Jian Kang Lu needs to go to the airport in the afternoon if he wants to catch his flight at 7 pm.


    Jian Kang Lu wants to use the four hour they have left wisely. So he didn''t hurry, and just softly kissed those soft lips that gave him so much pleasure last night. Even though the technique was so bad and clumsy, the feeling can''t even compare with all his previous sexual experience.


    Jian Kang Lu also don''t understand why, but having sex with his kitten truly the best. As if their body is so compatible with each other, strengthening the sensation to his nerves and just drowning him away.


    He rarely loses control in bed. But with his kitten, he can''t hold the beast inside him. Jian Kang Lu just can''t get enough of this body which stimulate his intensely, and arouse his desire all the time.


    The kisses went for a long time, and Jian Kang Lu didn''t hurry to strip his kitten naked. He just ran his fingers and his palm inside that T-shirt without opening it. Sometimes he lightly brushes the back, sometimes he grips that slim waist, sometimes he kneads his kitten''s round butt, and follows with a little stroke from his own hard member to his kitten''s body.


    He strokes each part, as if to mark his kitten''s body with his own member. His kitten''s hips, his kitten''s thighs, his kitten''s hips, his kitten''s balls. Jian Kang Lu sometimes pressed his own body lightly, and sometimes hard.


    His kitten gasping for air, and his intermittent soft cute moans filled Jian Kang Lu''s ear. He really love his kitten''s moans. It was so sensual, soft but not high pitched like a woman, low but also not very deep. It was just right, and very lewd. That moans make him want to do more things to him, so his kitten will cried, call his name, beg him, screaming, and whimpering.


    When he released his own lips from his kitten''s swollen red lips, Jian Kang Lu saw that expression again from his kitten. A dazed, glossy eyes, muddled, and layered with the same desire. Drown in the pleasure he gave. This is exactly why the beast inside him was addicted and never could let his kitten go. His kitten was a perfect prey.


    Jian Kang Lu slid his kitten''s t-shirt up and threw it away. Then he starts to lick his kitten''s neck, and down to his collarbone, and to his right chest, mark him again. Their position yesterday didn''t let him mark his kitten''s front part. Jian Kang Lu is sensible, he marks his kitten on the right side, below the collarbone. That way, it won''t be seen by other people if his kitten is wearing a t-shirt or shirt.


    Bai Yutang tried to strip his lover too, but his hand was trapped by his lover''s hand. Their fingers intertwined with each other, and his lover grip their hands tight. Didn''t let him touch his lover. It was like a punishment from his act yesterday.


    He was tortured for a long time, his voice already hoarse, begging for Jian Kang Lu to let his hand go. When finally his lover''s hand touches his lower abdomen, near his hard member, Bai Yutang gasps so hard.


    "Ah.. Ah.. Gege.. Touch me.."


    His lover didn''t touch it, but he stripped him naked. Then suddenly his lover pulled himself away from him, and stared at him.


    "Baby, do you know how sexy you are?"


    Bai Yutang''s mind was always muddled when Jian Kang Lu kissed and teased him like this. So he just dazed and didn''t understand what Jian Kang Lu meant. He knows that his lover lust for him, but he never understands why his lover always says that he was sexy.


    Jian Kang Lu raised his kitten''s chin with his finger, and he whispered in his kitten''s ear.


    "You don''t believe me? I''ll show you."


    Jian Kang Lu abruptly turned Bai Yutang''s body away, and then pushed his neck so he was bending and holding the edge of the bathroom sink. Even though this hotel didn''t provide them with a bathtub, the vanity is wide, and made from smooth ceramic. They also put the long and wide mirror above.


    Both of them facing the mirror, with Bai Yutang already stripped naked but Jian Kang Lu still fully clothed. In the mirror, Bai Yutang could see himself, that pink blushed filled his cheek. That red swollen lips, slightly gaped from his own desire. Both of his buds reddened, swelled up from Jian Kang Lu''s wild act.


    But he can''t see their lower part. The mirror only shows their upper body. Then Bai Yutang saw his lover''s eye focused on his image in the mirror. That gentle eyes already lost in his own sexual desire.


    "Can you see yourself now?"


    His lover whispered those words in a low hoarse voice, itching his ear. His lover kisses his ear, licks it slowly, and his hand is already encircling his waist.


    "Can you see now, how you make me crazy?"


    His lover kept whispering in his ear, blowing that hot breath, and his right hand already touched his member. Bai Yutang can''t help but gasp when he feels the tip of his member stroked slowly, that soft finger play around his slit, making him secreting more and more clear liquid from it.


    "Look. Look at yourself. Look at how you seduce me with that face."


    Bai Yutang looked at himself, and he saw a face that already lost in desire. He also saw his lover kiss and licking his neck, but his eyes still stare at his image in the mirror.


    "Baby, you make me crazy.."


    Bai Yutang could feel his member already stroked and rubbed softly, then the intensity kept increasing, slowly and steady. His lover is really torturing him, his world turned red all over, and he can''t help his voice to slip away from his lips.


    "Agh.. Gege.."


    And all the time, his lover forced him to see that scene in the mirror. He could see his face blushed even more, and his mouth opened all the time, panting and gasping for air. He saw a man that lost himself, drowned in ecstasy, and kept moaning.


    Bai Yutang''s hand had to hold the vanity tight, because he felt his legs weaker along with sparks around his body that were ignited with his lover''s hand movement. That hand already strokes his member steady and keeps increasing the pace.


    "Ah.. Gege.. Ahh.."


    Bai Yutang can''t stop moaning. Those hands that rub and stroke his hard member felt so warm, heating his own part, spreading the sparks to all of his body. The pleasure from it rushed all the blood into his lower part, pooled inside his member.


    His lover''s left hand holds his chin, still forcing him to see his own image in the mirror. And all the time, his lover keeps staring at him too. His own eyes layered with mist, and the rim of his eyes turned pink from this kind of pleasure, overflowing sensation numbed all his limbs.


    "Mmh.. Ah.."


    To see himself in this state, stared by his lover, and touched this way, all stimulating Bai Yutang''s nerves so much, made all his body burned inside, and the sensation of looking at himself, made him feel he was naked. Entirely naked on the outside and inside. Bare all of him to this man.


    "Can you see now, baby? You''re so sexy."


    Jian Kang Lu fastens his movement and bite his kitten''s shoulder. He could feel his kitten''s body already tensed, his hard member throbbing from the tip.


    "Gege.. Stop.. Ahh.."


    Bai Yutang felt that electric shock come from his lower spine, spreading all over his body. The sparks explode, and just turn his world white. He still could see the fireworks even though he closed his eyes when he came.


    "Ahh!!"


    Bai Yutang fell into that vanity, his upper body touching the cold smooth ceramic. But then he felt his waist hold and his butt propped up. He knew what would come next. When he felt that hard member of his lover slipped inside his thighs, his lover bent his body to whisper in his ear.


    "Look, look at how you make me lose my mind."


    His lover abruptly raised his chin. And he saw his lover fiercely kiss his neck, bite his shoulder while thrusting hard. Even though each stroke was hard, his lover is not in a hurry. He steadily inserts his hard member between his thighs, deep and hard, but slowly.


    "Bai Yutang can''t even say anything. His mind blanked, and he could only let his moan escape. He saw his lover''s gentle expression gone completely. As if somebody else possessed his lover''s body.


    "You felt so good, baby.. Ugh.. You make me feel so good.."


    His lover kept whispering in his ear and pushed him. Bai Yutang could see his body swaying around from that thrust, and his palm had to press the bathroom wall below that mirror to hold himself steady.


    His world turns red once more.


    That morning, his lover made him cum for three times. Two times in the bathroom, after that Jian Kang Lu took him to the bed, and made him cum again while they kissed each other. This time his lover released himself, pouring his thick white liquid on his abdomen while they kissed each other. Just like their first time.


    Of course this whole tension drained both of them. So they fall asleep after that. Hold each other, naked. When Bai Yutang awoke by the sound of alarm, he was confused at first. Then he realised Jian Kang Lu put the alarm in his phone to remind them to check out from the hotel.


    They hurriedly tried to clean the liquid stains from Bai Yutang''s release in the bathroom, and then took a bath together.


    Before Bai Yutang wanted to open the door and walk out, he was embraced by a pair of strong arms from behind.


    "TangTang, i love you so much¡­"


    Bai Yutang knew that he was loved. And that makes Bai Yutang fall deeper for this man. This wonderful man that he admired so much, loved him whole.

 Chapter 80 - Home

    Another weekend comes, and this time Jian Kang Lu stays at his kitten''s house. Even though it had minus points where they can''t sleep together nor touch each other but he felt this way he''ll learn more about his kitten, and his family.


    Jian Kang Lu wanted to see his kitten when he was around his family, and also the picture of his young kitten. He must have been very cute when he was a child. Jian Kang Lu already prepared the words he needed to say to his kitten''s mother, so she was willing to share her treasure with him.


    When Jian Kang Lu arrived, the three of them were already waiting for him in the gate. Jian Kang Lu touched, no wonder his kitten is so pure and kind. His family is the one that shaped his kitten to be this way.


    After chatting for a while in the living room, Bai Yutang showed Jian Kang Lu his room and put his suitcase in the room. It was a 4 x 4 room with a big bed in the middle and wardrobe in the corner.


    "This room is usually used by my uncle and my aunt when they visit here.. Where do you want to put your suitcase, Gege?" Bai Yutang explained and wanted to bring the suitcase to the wardrobe.


    Jian Kang Lu closed the door, then hugged his kitten. He wanted to breathe that familiar scent that he missed so much. Another one week without his kitten is really cold for him. Cold and lonely.


    "Gege.." Bai Yutang turned around, and planted a soft kiss on his lover''s cheek. Then he hugged him back. This time he saw the gentle side of his lover. No lust, no desire. Only yearn for them to meet each other again.


    "TangTang, I missed you so much." Jian Kang Lu kisses his kitten''s forehead, then holds him tight.


    They just hug each other, silently embracing their lover in their arms. They both know they can''t do anything here. But this hug is more than enough for them to ease their suffering for a little bit.


    Jian Kang Lu kisses his kitten''s lips softly. Then he released his kitten from his embrace. "Can i see your room? I want to see the place where my baby spends the most of his time before me."


    Bai Yutang nodded, luckily he was a person that always kept his room clean and tidy. He loved cleanliness. That''s also reflected on his design. Clean, minimalist, neat, simple.


    Jian Kang Lu can already guess what his kitten room looks like. He was imprint it in his mind when they had a video call one year ago. But he can''t see all of it in detail. Thus he spent more than 30 minutes in his kitten room. Look at the pictures there, the books, and the computer inside his kitten''s room.


    His kitten''s room looks like his own room, they''re similar in that part. The differences only in their colour choice. His kitten''s like bright and warm colours, while Jian Kang Lu prefers the dark and cold tone.


    He wanted to hug his kitten again, but he knew it was not wise. No one could guarantee that his kitten''s mother or sister won''t suddenly come into the room. Jian Kang Lu doesn''t want his kitten to suffer because of his recklessness. Thus he held himself, and just asked questions to his kitten.


    When they''re going downstairs, Lu Hua already waits for them in the living room, and tells Jian Kang Lu that the dinner will be ready in fifteen minutes. They chat about the weather and the crowded airport. Chinese New Year coming soon, the time of family members back to their hometown. The time for them going back to the place they called home.


    Jian Kang Lu also prepared the excuse why he came to W city two week in a row and visited Bai Yutang here. But until they finished their dinner, Lu Hua didn''t ask him a single thing about that.


    Lu Hua insists for them to eat at home, even though the three of them are mediocre cooks. At least, their cooking skill is still acceptable. Lu Hua cooked her best dish, instant pot braised beef. That was her mother''s recipe, and Bai Haoran used to praise her so high every time she cooked this.


    After Bai Haoran left, she never cooked this dish again. Until today.


    The braised beef uses the shin bones part, the fat still attached when cooked so it will protect the lean meat during cooking, producing an extra tender result. The dark brown sauce is made from soybeans, ginger, garlic, sugar, and sesame seeds. The final result creates melt-in-your-mouth beef with a rich, well-rounded sauce that is very fragrant.


    Braised beef is well served with steamed jasmine rice and steamed vegetables. The steamed napa cabbage, daikon radish, cauliflower, baby bok choy, and broccoli, could be dipped into the beef sauce too. It gives balance taste.


    These last few weeks, Lu Hua already surprised to see her son turn into the best cook of them all. In the last six month she didn''t meet him, his cooking ability raised from a standard simple dish into a passable homemade dish. Today, her son also cooks chicken soup and fruit jelly as their dessert.


    Jian Kang Lu praised both mother and son for their hard work today. As someone who can only make toast and sandwiches, Jian Kang Lu really admires people who spent their time and effort to create dishes for their loved one.


    Just like his kitten did to him in these past few months. Jian Kang Lu could taste that this chicken soup and the jelly was made by his kitten. He missed these familiar tastes that he could not have for these last twenty one days. He really craves to eat his kitten''s homemade dishes once again.


    Chen Rong even asked him last week, why he looked so dejected every lunch and never ate at the cafeteria again. That question stung Jian Kang Lu''s heart. He already missed his kitten so much, and to be reminded by his friend like that really turned his mood bitter.


    It also brings his fear into the surface. If one day his kitten leaves him, this is the life he will have. No more having his kitten''s cook, no more good night sleep when they hold each other, no more soft and gentle peck from his kitten every time he went to work and every time he arrived at home.


    No more warmth, no more happiness, no more a place he could call home.


    Jian Kang Lu shook his head, and turned his focus back, answering Bai Yuren''s question. She was asking about the life she will have later on. Months ago, Jian Kang Lu already gave her studying tips and the important books that need to be read by the first semester medical student.


    As a first year medical student, they will learn the basics. And didn''t touch the disease nor the treatment yet. They will learn about human''s body and normal function, how it works, and the connection between each organ.


    Jian Kang Lu already told her that the most important thing to remember is the anatomy and the physiology of the human body. Without the basics, it will be hard for doctors to learn the next part well.


    Some of them had good memories, so they will just memorise. But if a medical student learns well about the basics, it will refine their understanding of the disease and treat their patient even better.


    Jian Kang Lu understands how those two are the basics and a must for a doctor. Lots of his residents didn''t master it well, and led them into difficulty when they treated the complicated patient. Thus he likes to point those two things to every medical student he knows. Also he likes to tell his residents to learn their physiology and anatomy book again, and watch the video about it.


    Jian Kang Lu told Bai Yuren, later in her third year he will send Bai Yuren the educational video link that will help her study even better.


    Bai Yutang was feeling envious towards his sister. She could connect and talk about Jian Kang Lu''s world. He listened to Jian Kang Lu all the time, but he could not get inside his world. That foreign land, and those alien words never could never be attached in his brain.


    But it was nice to see this dining table filled with four people like when his father was still around them. And to hear this lively conversation once again heard in this room. Lately when they eat, they rarely have a lively discussion like this. Usually it was only Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren who forced themselves to laugh and joke in front of their mother.


    After dinner, they all sat in the living room. Bai Yutang asks Jian Kang Lu whether he wants to see their garden outside, walking around to help them digest the food they ate. But Jian Kang Lu refused, and then smiled politely to his mother.


    "Auntie, usually when I stay at my friend''s house I am always curious and ask if the mother could share their treasure with me."


    Lu Hua confused, "Which treasure?"


    Jian Kang Lu grinned, "The photo album of the children that every mother will keep."


    Lu Hua laughed, "Oh, TangTang''s collection is not as many as Xiao Ren, but it had good quality. Wait here, i''ll go get it."


    Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren shouting at the same time, "Nooo!!!"


    How could Bai Yutang want to show his embarrassing moment and pose to his lover? While Bai Yuren doesn''t want to show her shameful picture to this man she admired so much.


    Bai Yuren could understand why his brother praised this man so much. This man is like every girl wants to have as their family, or as their lover. Bai Yuren didn''t think about Jian Kang Lu in a romantic way, but she felt like having two older brothers now.


    It was fine for her real brother to see her shameful pose, her brother had seen it all. But not this man! Bai Yuren already built her image as a calm and preserving girl, just like this man. So how could she be willing to let this man see her as a brat?


    But their mother didn''t listen to them, and came back with a few huge photo albums. Bai Yutang tried to save himself, but Jian Kang Lu and his mother tactfully guard the album and shove him away.


    Bai Yutang could feel his face heated, it must be as red as a tomato now, especially when his mother showed his lover the picture of him crying on the first day of his elementary school. For God''s sake, why does his mother show that taboo picture? He thought he already threw that picture away, but why was it still there???


    Jian Kang Lu chuckled to see his cute kitten, with short hair crying so hard, sitting in the chair, with a running nose and griping the chair tightly, as if he doesn''t want to part with the chair. His kitten bag was already thrown and the books scattered around the chair.


    "It.. It was because they said that new students are not allowed to see their parents again! I thought they said we could not see our parents again forever, that''s why when.. When I was back home I refused to go back to the school again!"


    Bai Yutang tried to explain it, but it was no use. His lover just chuckled and looked at that picture with his eyes laughing at him.


    Bai Yutang regretted why he never came to Jian Kang Lu''s family Sunday lunch. "Just you wait, Gege. I''ll take my revenge when we''re back to B city."


    Jian Kang Lu laughed, "Oh, you don''t need my mom to show them to you, i''ll show it to you by myself. Unfortunately they don''t have these kinds of masterpieces."


    At that moment, Jian Kang Lu also referred to his kitten''s pictures in the garden with his sister, they were doing a pose from the famous children show at that time. He was right, his kitten is so damn cute.


    From the naked baby pictures, the almost naked toddler playing in the pool, the crying picture, until the proud picture taken when Bai Yutang ranked first in the school. From elementary, junior high, and high school, his kitten consistently ranked in the top 10 for the entire school.


    Bai Yuren already screamed when her mother showed Jian Kang Lu the pictures when she and her brother were doing that pose. There''s a lot of pictures like that. She looked so silly there, and in that picture everyone could see that she looked like bullying her brother. There''s one picture when she strangled her brother!


    It''s over.. She had to say goodbye to her calm and preserving image.


    Looking at these happy memories constrict Lu Hua''s throat. All of this is her happy memory with her children, and her husband. She was happy. Bao Haoran always tries to make her happy.


    She felt the corner of her eyes stung, thus she hurriedly excused herself. She hurriedly went into the bathroom, and held her tears. She know, all the people around her already told her that this pain will go away. One day she could remember all those happy memory with smile, and grateful for the blissful days she once had.


    The happy memory created by that man, the love of his life. But now the pain is still there, stabbing her heart. Plant the sorrow, and the grieve inside. She was grateful she was surrounded by the people that loved her. If not, she has already followed Bai Haoran since the day he left her.


    The days without Bai Haoran are cold and empty days. Just like her hollow heart right now. Barren, empty, dark. Because her sun is gone, forever no more.


    Lu Hua washed her face with cold water, and then walked back to the living room. Tried to plaster the fake smile back to her face once again.


    There, she saw the warmth that went with Bai Haoran, once again filling back their house. She saw her son try to cover the photo album with her body, and Bai Yuren already ran with her own photo album, tried to hide it.


    That man, who laughed and tried to pull the photo album under her son''s body, turning this empty room filled with the familiar feeling once more.


    A warm feeling filled this place. A place that she called home.

 Chapter 81 - New Semester

    The temperature outside showed 10 degree celsius, but today''s wind was quite chilly. Most of the people that walked this morning to the subway were wearing their overcoats and hats to shield them from the harsh wind. Spring has not yet come.


    March in B city is always cold. But after the harsh winter, the faint spring sun welcomed by the people stays here. At least their hands could be free from that thick gloves and jacket. Earth starts to show signs they will be blooming soon.


    It''s been two weeks since Bai Yutang started his semester. Because he was absent last semester, most of his class is different from his friends. He took more subjects this term, and he is determined to catch up. But the consequences of his decision is he''s going to be very busy.


    Bai Yutang already talked to his lover about this, and his lover said that if he really wants to do it, then he can try.. People won''t know what they are capable of if they never try. If this semester is too hard, then next time he could take a standard portion that is reasonable for him.


    This two week Bai Yutang thinks that he still can handle it. But he knows that every semester''s beginning is just the introduction, and later he will be super busy when the project task begins to distribute and needs to be presented.


    Every morning he wakes up at 4 am, made breakfast for his lover. Then he will wake his lover to have breakfast together. After that he will kiss his lover goodbye and leave the apartment before 6.30 am. He learned from his past mistakes that if he left the apartment more than that hour, he would be late for the 8 am class.


    He had class from Monday to Friday. When he has free time on the subway or in the bus, he will read or listen to his lecture''s recording. He learned this technique from his lover. That way, he could spend more of his free time with his lover and didn''t disturb his study.


    When he was back from W city two weeks ago, his lover picked him up at the airport and gave him a new handphone as a gift. The phone is the latest edition from the expensive brand, with the highest storage. The phone also comes with a luxurious brown leather case, with his name and number 15 engraved.


    Bai Yutang was speechless when he received that phone in the car. He could only say, "Gege, do you plan to give me something every 15th each month?"


    His lover was just smiling at him. That smile is a clear answer. So Bai Yutang asked again, "Then why do I receive two gifts this month? Does that mean next month i''ll receive three gifts?"


    His lover laughed and said that both the handphone and the casing is the anniversary and valentine gift. That''s why he chose brown colour for the casing. He didn''t give any chocolate or flowers. He just gives something that will be useful for him.


    His lover said that he noticed Bai Yutang''s phone was the series released three years ago. New application will soon be too hard for his phone. And this new phone could be used as a recorder and e-book reader. So it will help his study too.


    Bai Yutang knew that deep inside he was happy to receive this gift. What his lover said is true. As any young man his age, they all love gadgets. He was also touched that his lover thought about his study and supported him with anything he needed.


    But.. Last month was an expensive watch. This month is an expensive phone and case. What will his lover give him next month???


    Thus he said, "Thank you, Gege.. I love this gift so much. But i don''t need to receive these kinds of things every month. If you really need to give me something, can you give me just a simple gift that is not expensive?"


    His lover just stroked his hair softly. "It''s good if you like it. Don''t worry, i''ll just give you something that you need."


    And Bai Yutang had to admit, this phone really became something that useful for him. His lover also set his ID in the phone as a family group with his lover ID. That way, every expense for application and anything else should be charged to his lover.


    When Bai Yutang wanted to refuse, his lover said, "But TangTang, this way is saving more. Lots of applications support family functions. So with just one payment, both of us could enjoy the same benefit."


    And that''s true. Music and movie applications support this family function, as well as some office applications. Bai Yutang really hated himself, why he could never win any argument with this man.


    What Bai Yutang didn''t know, with this family function, there''s an application to track and show the location for both of them. This way, Jian Kang Lu will always know wherever his kitten is. At least, wherever his handphone is located.


    Those two months without knowing where his kitten was really gave a deep trauma for Jian Kang Lu. But he also set that function in case anything happened to his kitten, or if his phone was stolen. The tracking app allows the phone to lock remotely and give an alarm voice.


    Jian Kang Lu keeps repeating those reasonable excuses in his mind, he refuses to admit that he was obsessed with his kitten to the point he wants to stalk his kitten through a phone application.


    Every morning when Bai Yutang arrives at his campus he texts his lover, told him that he has already arrived. At first he text because his lover asked. But lately it has become a habit for him. Today is Wednesday. His lover just replied shortly.


    [I''m already in the hospital, i''ll pick you up later.]


    Every Wednesday, his lover will pick him up. Because Bai Yutang refused to take a taxi every time he went out. His lover told him to ride a taxi rather than public transportation like a bus or subway. It was more comfortable, safer, and allowed him to rest well along the road.


    After debating for a while, his lover even said at the first time he wanted to buy another car and hire a driver for him. And his lover said that he already compromised with the taxi option. His lover said he was uneasy to think that Bai Yutang needs to take public transportation everyday.


    Bai Yutang sternly rejected that idea. He said that if it was raining or he was too tired, then he would take a taxi. Bai Yutang gave Jiang Kang Lu examples of how millions of students in this country safely took public transportation everyday.


    He ignored that puppy eyes and pleading voice. Bai Yutang really can''t understand this man. It''s okay to pamper him, but not this much.


    "Then, i will pick you up every Wednesday." His lover finally said in a weak voice, try to give him the last offer. Bai Yutang knows the only way for him to win arguments with this man is to settle with a more reasonable request, or else the consequences will be too great.


    Bai Yutang knows this man well. He was not joking when he said he wanted to buy another car and hire a driver. It''s just too much! He applied for a scholarship. Who on earth will apply for a scholarship then show up on campus with a car and private driver???


    And Bai Yutang knew if he said these lines to this man, his lover would nonchalantly reply, "Then don''t apply for scholarship, i can still pay for your tuition."


    That''s why Bai Yutang just kept that in his mind and just settled with that Wednesday pick up.


    Most of the lunch time will be spent with his friends in the cafeteria. Even though he missed having classes with them, to spend lunch time together is also good.


    "TangTang, I notice that your watch is really nice. Is that new?" Tang Yuxuan asked him when they lined up for the food.


    "Mmm.. It''s a gift." Bai Yutang answered. He didn''t want to wear this watch to campus, because it was too eye catching. But yesterday his lover asked him whether he didn''t like his gift because he never saw Bai Yutang wear it lately.


    Bai Yutang is afraid that if he answers this watch is too eye-catching or too expensive, his lover will give him a non eye catching watch with the same expensive price. Or even more expensive. That''s why he just surrendered and wore the watch.


    Liu Xiang showed up from behind and asked him, "From Jian Ge?"


    Bai Yutang can only respond shortly with an "En."


    Tang Yuxuan looked at him with disbelief. "Your new handphone was a gift from him, and this watch too?"


    Bai Yutang nods, and nudges Tang Yuxuan''s shoulder, "Hurry, the one in front of you has already walked away."


    Three of them sit at the table. Yu Dong, Mu Xiaoya, and Ling Yue already sit there. Lately their lunch that consisted of four people turned into six or seven people. Mu Xiaoya also has another best friend, but she often eats with her boyfriend too. So usually only Mu Xiaoya and Ling Yue join them to have lunch together.


    Tang Yuxuan still doesn''t give up, "I know this brand, it''s expensive. Even more expensive than your phone. Why did Jian Ge give all those things to you?"


    Bai Yutang''s a little bit embarrassed. With Mu Xiaoya here, he knows that the girl must be listening to this conversation with all her might.


    "This humble slave also doesn''t know why. But Jian Ge is rich. Jian Ge just said that these will be useful for me. And he was right." Bai Yutang answers Tang Yuxuang in the most casual tone.


    Liu Xiang elbowed Tang Yuxuan, "Daddy jealous? Want to ask Jian Ge to buy that watch for you too?"


    Tang Yuxuan elbowed him back, "Daddy not sour! Just asking!"


    Liu Xiang chuckled, and looked at Bai Yutang, "But this wife is jealous. If Jian Ge doesn''t know where to spend his money, just put my name on the list. This wife will happily receive all his kindness."


    Bai Yutang nods, "This humble slave will tell the master later."


    This is the reason why he doesn''t want to receive expensive things from his lover. It will raise too many questions. And it will make him look like he just used Jian Kang Lu because he was rich. And the other thing, he also doesn''t like when Liu Xiang jokes like that.


    Bai Yutang knows, if he said that Jian Kang Lu is his lover, all this joke and question won''t be raised. But, he was still not ready to tell his friends. He just wants to focus and finish his study as soon as possible. So he could be independent and one step to equally stand beside his lover.


    And also.. He didn''t think it was necessary to announce that he was having gay relationship to his friends. Because he was still not sure about himself. Bai Yutang knew his lover had relationships before, either with women or men.


    But Bai Yutang has never been interested in men before. Jian Kang Lu is the first. And he didn''t think he would fall for a man again beside Jian Kang Lu. Bai Yutang remember what Mu Xiaoya said, maybe he was not gay. But he can have same sex relationship if it was with Jian Kang Lu.


    Bai Yutang also remembered what Jian Kang Lu said, stigma is a frightening thing. We''ll never know what will happen in the future. So what if someday Jian Kang Lu left him and people already brand him as a gay?


    Bai Yutang didn''t mind if people around Jian Kang Lu knew about them. And if someday he was ready, maybe he will tell his friends. But.. Not now.


    Yu Dong noticed the watch that Tang Yuxuan talked about. "I know this brand. This really a good one, accurate and durable. And it was not that expensive for Jian Ge. Remember, he always took us to fancy and expensive restaurants."


    Liu Xiang raised his chopstick, "True! Ahh.. I missed having dinner with Jian Ge. Dinner with him is the best food this wife ever tasted. TangTang, did you eat those kinds of dinner everyday with Jian Ge?"


    All his friends know that he didn''t apply to stay in the dorm again and just leech on Jian Kang Lu, stay at his apartment for free. Bai Yutang shook his head, "Rarely. I usually cook for breakfast and dinner."


    All of them heard those sentences dumbfounded. Tang Yuxuan is the first one to respond, "Cook? You cook by yourself?"


    Bai Yutang nodded. Inside he was thinking, better to tell them about this. There''s nothing wrong with cooking for Jian Kang Lu. "I was there for free. I can''t do anything else, even for cleaning the apartment. Jian Ge hired a cleaning company. So rather than burden him more if we order food every time, or eat outside, I cooked."


    Liu Xiang looked at him with disbelief, "Husband, this wife has tasted your cooking before. It was not bad, but are you saying that Jian Ge is willing to eat your cooking everyday? Are you sure?"


    Bai Yutang defended himself, "This humble slave was doing nothing last semester. My skill improved so much. If you don''t believe me, this humble slave will bring some for young lords to taste tomorrow."


    Liu Xiang waved his chopstick again. "Then why have you never brought your cooking before in the past two weeks? Beside, no matter how your skill improves, this wife believes it won''t beat that Japanese restaurant we went to last time with Jian Ge."


    Actually Bai Yutang brought a lunch box on his first day, but that time he was busy and didn''t have time to eat with his friends. Then at night, his lover say to him that if he was busy or tired, he doesn''t need to cook too much in the morning.


    Bai Yutang was almost late for his first day. He knows he won''t have much time if he had to cook for breakfast and lunch. But to remember his lover always looks happy when he eats the dishes he made, his heart heavy if he doesn''t cook. That''s the only thing he thought he could do to show his love to the man he loved so much.


    Thus Bai Yutang said that just for simple breakfast, he still can do it. It''s just rice and egg, or fried rice, or egg toast. He also makes fruit and vegetable juice to balance the nutrition in that simple breakfast. Since then, Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang have never brought lunch boxes again.


    "I need time to prepare, and i don''t have much time in the morning. But if you guys don''t believe in this humble slave''s ability, I''ll try to make some for you tomorrow morning and bring it at lunch."


    Tang Yuxuan was still looking at him with a weird face. "Okay, let us taste your cook tomorrow."


    Mu Xiaoya looked at him and smiled with a bright eyes, "I really admire a man who can cook. No wonder Jian Ge gave you that watch. To have a T university student cooking for you is really something that can''t be valued with money."


    Ling Yue also nodded, and both of them chatted and told these guys about the charm of the man who can cook, or at least want to cook. Both of them also admit that as a girl, they can''t cook.


    These days, girls aren''t taught to cook. Their parents taught them to study smart so they can have a good job and can hire someone to cook for them. That''s why, to have someone want to cook for you, is really charming.


    Yu Dong looks at Bai Yutang in horror, his face looks like saying, ''Why do you have to say that in front of Xiaoya? I can''t cook at all!!!''


    Bai Yutang speechless with Yu Dong''s face. He knows what that bright eyes in Mu Xiaoya face means. It was not admiring a man who can cook. She just rejoiced to hear about the daily life of her favourite couple.

 Chapter 82 - Loved

    Because Bai Yutang promised his friend to taste his cooking, when Jian Kang Lu picked him up he told Jian Kang Lu that he wanted to go to the grocery store. On the way there, Bai Yutang told Jian Kang Lu about his day.


    Jian Kang Lu just listened to his kitten''s soft and clear voice that he adored so much chattering about his day. His kitten asked him about his day too. Jian Kang Lu answered and told him about his ordinary day. His day is monotone. Just work, and work.


    When they chat, Jian Kang Lu sometimes strokes his kitten''s hair, or kisses his kitten''s slender hand. Sometimes Jian Kang Lu also asks his kitten what he learned in the lecture today. That way, it helps his kitten to memorise and organise the lecture in his brain. But if his kitten looks too tired, he won''t ask.


    "If you make lunch for your friends tomorrow, will i get one too?"


    Bai Yutang can''t believe what he heard. That tone is a little bit different with his lover''s usual tone. It''s like.. Envy tone? Jealous tone?


    Bai Yutang wants to laugh, his lover sometimes really childish and needs a lot of pampering. So Bai Yutang gives a light peck to his lover''s cheek.


    "Of course. Do you miss bringing lunch I made to the hospital, Gege?"


    Bai Yutang only wanted to tease Jian Kang Lu, but he was surprised to hear his lover said, "En. Your cooking is truly the best. Even my friends say that he is really curious about how it tastes. He said I look like I didn''t enjoy my lunch lately because it was not the food that you made. He believed that you must be a chef, and even asked which restaurant you work for. He wants to go there and taste your cooking."


    Bai Yutang can''t help to give his lover a kiss on his cheek again. This man is just too adorable, and I love him so much to say that his cooking tastes better than restaurant made.


    After buying the things he needs in the grocery store, they just have simple dinner at the Chinese restaurant near their apartment. Bai Yutang notice that this apartment area is really nice. a lot of classy restaurant near here. A good kindergarten and private school, 30 to 40 minutes from hospital, clinics, pet shop, grocery store, even police station also near.


    When they have their dinner, Bai Yutang asks Jian Kang Lu, "This area is really good. I think I heard this apartment was built by Sun Ge. How much did you buy your apartment, gege?"


    From his lecture, Bai Yutang knows the specification to build residences is not only the design or landscape, but also the facility around them. Impossible to build a good residence without putting this factor inside the building plan.


    Jian Kang Lu nodded, "My family is good at financial investment. But if you want to ask about real estate, Hongjia is the master. Their family had a lot of buildings. I bought it since the apartment was not yet built, so it was quite cheap. Around 2 million. That''s why I can finish the instalment in 5 years. Now it''s worth two fold from the original price."


    Bai Yutang just wondered, for how many years he had to work if he wanted to buy an apartment like this. And his lover just needs 5 years to finish the payment.


    Actually, not many doctors had salaries as high as Jian Kang Lu''s. Only ten percent of doctors in this country can enjoy Jian Kang Lu''s salary. Some even had to struggle in their daily lives if they also have family. Jian Kang Lu has a high salary but has no one to spend his money on.


    There are some words that are always said in the doctor''s oath ceremony after they finish their study. A doctor could never be a rich man, but it is impossible for them to be unemployed or poor. It''s the only profession guaranteeing their graduates to have work immediately after they finish their study.


    Jian Kang Lu could never be as rich as Sun Hongjia or Luo Yan. But he earns enough to have a comfortable life.


    Bai Yutang decided to cook Egg Foo Young for tomorrow''s lunch. He prepared the meat and crab tonight, so he could save time tomorrow morning. He plans to add the scallions, bell pepper, carrot, peas, and water chestnut inside. The gravy is also easy to make, so it won''t take him a long time to cook tomorrow.


    Bai Yutang already tried a few different recipes from the internet. And from his experience, he knew the food taste would be better if the ingredients used were good. This simple dish will taste just like a restaurant made if he used good sesame oil, or even a high quality coconut oil. And the egg is also the key. Nowadays he only uses organic eggs, with that golden red yolk that is very tasty.


    They take a bath together, and Bai Yutang already knows since this is Wednesday, his lover must have that look on his gaze. A look that is full of passion, and sexual desire.


    This past two weeks they didn''t do it as often as before he started his semester again. Because in the morning Bai Yutang already woke up and needed to go to university. At night both of them are tired, and Bai Yutang sleeps early.


    Sometimes when Jian Kang Lu came back home, he found his kitten fell asleep on the sofa waiting for him. So they only do it twice a week now. Wednesday, and Saturday. It''s just like a fixed schedule.


    After that passionate session and both of them released, Bai Yutang lied weakly in his lover''s arms. They have done it so many times, but each time it always gives him a burst of pleasure, drowning him completely. He could never get bored, never get enough of his lover''s body. The sparks between them never ceased, it seems getting hotter and burning even brighter.


    Bai Yutang''s head is still muddled, and also foggy. He''ll fall asleep soon. Unconsciously he asked, "Gege, are you a top or a bottom?"


    Jian Kang Lu''s breath just back to normal, and his mind gradually cleared. He knows after this session his kitten fell asleep soon and he will need 20 until 30 minutes before finally following his kitten stranded into the land of dreams. So he was shocked to hear this question.


    Bai Yutang was sleepy, but when he heard no answer from his lover, he raised his face and looked at that shocked face. Bai Yutang back to his lover''s broad chest and snuggle there. He said with a soft voice, "I can guess.."


    Jian Kang Lu asked him with a low deep voice, "What do you think?"


    Bai Yutang''s voice sounds drowsy, a sign he will fell asleep soon. "You must be a top.. That means, I have to be a bottom¡­ Is that right?"


    Jian Kang Lu''s conscience is disturbed. Of course on one side he wants to eat his kitten whole. But, he doesn''t know whether his kitten is ready for that. From this conversation, he could see that his kitten disturbed by that.


    "Baby, you can do anything you want. We don''t have to do something that will make you uncomfortable. I already feel good and enjoy what we do so far. Just tell me what you want to do, and what you don''t want to do. Yes, I''m a top. But it didn''t mean you have to be a bottom. Even if someday you want me to be a bottom, then tell me. We can try that."


    Jian Kang Lu could feel his kitten nod, a sign that he heard his answer. Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s head, and sniffed that familiar scent that filled his heart with tranquility. He really says the truth. Even just this already brings him so much pleasure. It doesn''t matter if they never do the next step for the rest of their life.


    As long as his kitten stays by his side.


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    At lunch time, Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang eagerly waited. They really can''t believe this guy that can only cook omelette, fried rice, and fried noodles says that he cooks for a man like Jian Kang Lu.


    Tang Yuxuan was uncomfortable with that, he just felt weird with Jian Kang Lu from the beginning. That man is too nice to Bai Yutang. Even though Jian Kang Lu is nice to all of them, and he also likes Jian Kang Lu so much, he just felt something was not right.


    He was just afraid that his pure friend was doing something he doesn''t want to do just because his pure friend owes Jian Kang Lu so much. All this was the result of seeing his father suffer from that same reason.


    His father owes his friends so much. Since they''re young, this rich friend of his father gave him an opportunity to study well in a better environment, give him recommendation to work in a good place and allow his father to have a good salary, and even help his father''s family too.


    Actually this friend of his father never asked his father to pay him back, at least that''s what his father told him. But his father always said to them, without this man, their whole family won''t enjoy the life they have right now. So every time his father always tried to please this man, sometimes he neglected his wife and his children as the consequences.


    Tang Yuxuan didn''t want his friends to be like that. To be tied with someone that is too nice to them and can''t say no when this nice man asked them to do something that they don''t want. Tang Yuxuan knows Bai Yutang well, this pure guy definitely could not reject anything that Jian Kang Lu asked, because Jian Kang Lu was too nice to him.


    Becoming a nice man is a good thing, but being too nice sometimes brings more harm to the people surrounding them.


    Bai Yutang opens the lunch box, inside is the steamy white rice, fragrant with jasmine scent. This must be a high quality lunch box, since it can preserve the heat. On top of the rice, there''s an Egg Foo Young. The gravy is placed in a container next to the rice. The smells of rice, egg, pepper, and onion are really enticing. Just like a restaurant made dish.


    Liu Xiang is the first to try. The gravy originally served on top of the egg. But Bai Yutang feared it would make the egg and the rice mushy, thus it was separated from the rice and the Egg Foo Young.


    Liu Xiang dipped the egg into the gravy, then tasted it. His eyes widened, and he couldn''t help to sound his surprise. "Wow, husband! You really can cook! This is even better than what my mother usually made."


    Tang Yuxuan was curious, so he tried it. And Liu Xiang was right. This is really good, even better compared with the restaurant around the campus. He even can''t stop eating this Egg Foo Young. The gravy is a little bit different with the usual sour and sweet gravy. The sweet taste is just subtle, and a bit creamy. The sour taste also complements the crab taste well.


    Tang Yuxuan is still chewing excitedly when he says, "Wow, daddy likes this so much. You should cook often for us too! If daddy doesn''t know you well, daddy will think that this was bought from some restaurant and you just said you cook this one."


    All the ingredients Bai Yutang used are high quality ingredients, of course it can''t compare to the restaurant around their campus. 5000 yuan per month is just barely enough if both of them always eat outside according to Jian Kang Lu''s standard. But if he used it to cook by himself, 5000 yuan per month is more than plenty.


    Bai Yutang grinned, "So, do these young lords believe this humble slave now? Of course Jian Ge won''t let me cook for him if my cook was bad."


    Yu Dong and Mu Xiaoya come late, luckily each of them can still try one bite of this dish. Even Mu Xiaoya gave him a thumbs up and winked at him. Yu Dong''s face is a little bit pale and ask him, "Is it difficult to cook this? Can you give me the recipe? Maybe I can try to cook this one day?"


    Bai Yutang laughed, he knows what Yu Dong means. So he just nodded and said he will send the recipe to Yu Dong.


    But, to hear those praises, he was happy. It seems all his hard effort is paid. He wants to cook well for his lover, but he can''t expect an honest answer from his lover. No matter how weird the food tasted, or a little burnt, his lover always praised him high.


    Hearing all his friends say that they like it, made him relieved and motivated to try a new recipe this Sunday. He always wants to try cooking Ma Po Tofu and the Tea Egg he saw on the internet last time. He knows he can''t do great things to make his lover happy with what he has right now. So he could only focus on what he can do right now, simple things he can do.


    Bai Yutang smiled to remember what his lover said to him.


    ''You make me happy, and ease my hard day.''


    Bai Yutang never perceived this kind of happiness he felt right now. Be in love with how your loved one loves you. To see the sky and the clouds differently, to cherish the space and time differently, to hear the bustling city and voices differently, to understand the meaning of love will unite two different souls.


    His lover makes him happy. Entirely. Completely. Unconditionally.

 Chapter 83 - A Strange Girl

    This Thursday his lover told him that he will take a half day leave, and will pick him up later for dinner. Bai Yutang knows what makes his lover want to have dinner outside. Today is March 15th. It also marks their third month together. Last month they didn''t celebrate it because Chinese New Year, though his lover still gave him a gift.


    Bai Yutang already reminded his lover that he doesn''t want expensive things, and his lover assured him that won''t give anything expensive today. Even though he said that, he still touched that his lover wants to celebrate that date each month.


    Sometimes Bai Yutang wonders why they never have any fights like lovers usually do. He already heard Yu Dong have fights with Mu Xiaoya several times. It was clear when they had a fight. Yu Dong''s face will darken, silent, and not focus at all. Make Tang Yuxuan always tease him.


    Every time Yu Dong and Mu Xiaoya having a fight, the problem is very simple. Either because of game, or because Mu Xiaoya didn''t reply Yu Dong''s message. Even one time they''re fighting because of Yu Dong have different opinion about design principle when they talking about Mu Xiaoya''s lecture that day.


    The line that Yu Dong often said when he talked about his fight with Mu Xiaoya was "I don''t understand what''s on a girl''s mind." Or sometimes he said, "Why do I have to be the one that always apologizes?"


    But not even one day after he said that, he will run to apologise and they''re good again. Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang just look at him with pity, and will give him their best advice. "Girls are always right. Just said that you''re sorry, and it''s done. No matter you know what is your mistake or not. They don''t care."


    Bai Yutang can only nod and listen to them, he never has any experience with girls. And his relationship with Jian Kang Lu is very calm. No fighting because they''re playing games. No fighting because one of them didn''t reply messages, no fighting because of opinion differences.


    Liu Xiang said to Yu Dong, "Every time you have a fight with your girlfriend means you''ll get closer to her. You''ll learn what she doesn''t like. And she will also learn what you don''t like. If you can''t tolerate the differences, it means that you just are not compatible with each other."


    Bai Yutang didn''t know what his lover dislikes. Once, his lover only said that he didn''t like it when people didn''t keep their words. Or when people blame other people for their own incompetence. That''s it. Nothing more that he could learn from his lover.


    Bai Yutang thinks, maybe because both of them are men so it becomes very simple between them.


    Usually Bai Yutang will hang out in Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang''s dorm until his lover picks him up. But today he was waiting in the library. He will have his mid term test in 10 more days. He needs to cram all the lecture''s material in these 10 days. Luckily his lover likes to ask about his lectures. Somehow trying to explain what he learned that day helps him to memorise the material better.


    When he was reading in the library, someone called his name and sat next to him. When he raised his face, he saw a girl from his class. Fei Hong. This girl also in the same year with him, but didn''t take the class last semester. She was one of the prettiest girls in his year.


    Fei Hong sat next to him with another girl, but Bai Yutang didn''t recognise her friend.


    "Yutang, i rarely saw you in the library." That girl whispered those words.


    Bai Yutang also answers with a whispered voice, they''re in the library after all. "We''ll have exams in less than 2 weeks."


    The other girl smiled at him, "So diligent."


    Bai Yutang didn''t understand why these two girls sat next to him. And he also didn''t know what to respond to. So he just smiles back, and studies again.


    This girl saw the man in front of him didn''t give any response, so she said again, "What did you read? Looks very interesting."


    Bai Yutang raised the book so the girl could see the title. Then he heard that girl say again, "I''m Feng Mian, from the economic faculty."


    Bai Yutang didn''t know why this girl seemed very interesting to him. Did this girl also join the group that Mu Xiaoya mentioned last time? Suddenly he felt uncomfortable. So he only smiles stiffly, and plans to leave the library. Maybe he should just wait for his lover at Tang Yuxuan''s dorm like usual.


    "Fei Hong said that you''re coming from W city? My cousin also lived there. Are you studying at B high school?"


    Bai Yutang nodded. "Yes, how do you know?"


    This girl smiled sweetly, "That''s the best high school in W city. You must be very smart to study there."


    Bai Yutang didn''t know how to respond to these sentences. So he only smiled awkwardly and went back to read his book.


    "I rarely see the people in my class studying hard like you when we still have ten days before exams." This girl whispered, very near to Bai Yutang''s ear.


    Bai Yutang felt very uncomfortable now. So he just shifted a little bit and said, "I took more classes this semester, so a lot to learn before the exam."


    When he wanted to excuse himself from these two girls and leave the library, the phone next to him vibrated and Bai Yutang saw a message from his lover.


    [I''ll arrive in a few minutes. Usual place?]


    Bai Yutang replied and stood up, and then said to these two girls. "Fei Hong, i have to go home now. And nice to meet you, Feng Mian."


    Feng Mian suddenly stood up too, and followed him returning the book to the shelf. "I''m going out also, can we walk together?"


    Bai Yutang really doesn''t know what to respond to, so he just nods.


    "Bai Yutang, right? Fei Hong told me that your name is Bai Yutang."


    Bai Yutang nodded again.


    This girl kept talking to him, "You''re going back to the dorm? Are we disturbing you?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "No, i stay outside. My friend will pick me up, so I need to wait for him."


    "Oh, where will you wait for him?"


    "Near the 17th dorm gate."


    Feng Mian really has no idea why this man is so difficult to talk to. She knows that she was pretty, one of the prettiest in economic faculty. A lot of men want to know her, they line up and contact her often. But those men are not fun, she likes challenges more than something that easy to get.


    She saw Bai Yutang for the first time last week when she fetched Fei Hong in her class. This man was not handsome, but he looks elegant unlike other boys in their university. His clothes are simple, but suits him very well. All the things he wears are elegant and luxurious.


    She has a lot of men from wealthy families showering her with expensive gifts, so she knows when she sees one. But sometimes being rich doesn''t mean that you have a classy look. And all the gestures from this man show that he belongs to the classy one.


    Feng Mian became interested in him. So she asks Fei Hong about this guy. Then tried to show up every time Fei Hong had class together with Bai Yutang. But two times meeting him, this guy shows no response to her at all. The other guy in Fei Hong''s class already asks Fei Hong for her number.


    Today, she was just accompanying Fei Hong to the library, and saw this guy. If this guy didn''t notice her, maybe she had to make this guy notice her. Feng Mian also saw that handphone beside the book, and this man''s watch. All of it is very expensive.


    She was just guessing that Bai Yutang was studying in B high school, since her cousin didn''t manage to get through there last year. That school is the best in B city, and not cheap at all. It turned out that she was right.


    Feng Mian already shows her best shy smile to this man, and even swallows her pride to have a conversation with this man, but this man didn''t give her responses like she expected. Fei Hong said that this man is single, so why was he not interested in her?


    Feng Mian keeps trying to talk with this man. But Bai Yutang only responded to her politely, and didn''t ask about her at all. And it makes her even more curious about this man, and wants to know this man better. Maybe this man is only shy? Then she needs to take initiative.


    Bai Yutang really didn''t understand why this girl kept talking to him, and walking with him to the dorm gate. This girl is really pretty. With big eyes, wearing thin makeup to make her full pink lips with wet gloss gives a sensation of the pure girl but at the same time looks sensual. Her tight jeans show her perfect long legs.


    This is the kind of girl that usually hangs around Tang Yuxuan, not him. Bai Yutang thought maybe this girl wanted to know about Tang Yuxuan. But she can ask Fei Hong, why have to ask him?


    From her conversation, she also never mentioned Tang Yuxuan. Only asking about him. His high school, his hobby, until the apartment he lived in now. This girl also comes from B city, and with her big eyes said that she envy Bai Yutang could live in that apartment.


    Bai Yutang tried to explain, "It was my friend''s apartment, I just live there for free."


    It seems that she did not belong to Mu Xiaoya''s group¡­


    When they almost arrived at the dorm gate, Feng Mian suddenly stumbled and Bai Yutang caught her in reflex. "Are you alright?"


    Feng Mian cursed her thin heels. But at least, she made this guy pay attention to her. And, this guy hurriedly caught her, it shows that this guy is a gentleman. One time Feng Mian stumbled when wearing her 7cm heels, and the guy walking with her can''t even catch her, let her fall with no grace at all. She never replied to that guy''s message again.


    Feng Mian nodded, and shyly said, "Thank you, Yutang. Sorry, the road is uneven."


    Bai Yutang helped this girl to stand up properly. "Be careful."


    The handphone in his pocket is vibrating, it''s from Jian Kang Lu. Bai Yutang picked it up.


    "Hello."


    "TangTang, i''m here."


    Bai Yutang searched his perimeter, and saw that familiar car parked near the mini market across them.


    "Okay Gege, I''m coming."


    Bai Yutang said to this girl, "My friend is here, I have to go now. Nice to meet you."


    "Wait!"


    Bai Yutang was shocked to hear this girl shout at him, and then he saw her face blushed.


    "Can.. Can i have your WeChat ID?"


    Bai Yutang speechless. He really can''t understand girls. Yu Dong was right, man could never guess what''s inside a girl''s mind. He wants to reject, but he has no excuse. It seems cruel to reject her bluntly.


    "Sure." Then Bai Yutang gave her his ID.


    Then he said goodbye once again, and walked towards his lover''s car.


    When he was inside, he saw that his lover''s face was dark. It seems he had a bad day. But usually even his lover had a bad day and was very tired, he always smiled gently at him. But today his lover didn''t smile at all.


    After a few minutes his lover was still driving silently with that dark face. Bai Yutang asked, "Gege, how''s your day? It seems you had a bad day."


    Bai Yutang hoped he could ease this man''s bad mood and hard day. He doesn''t know what to do, unlike his lover that always seems to know what to do to make his bad and tired day turn into a beautiful one. But he hoped that with him here, it would lift his lover''s mood. Even just a little bit, he hoped what his lover said was true.


    That he made his lover happy, and he eased the hard day of his loved one.

 Chapter 84 - Jealousy

    Bai Yutang waited for his lover''s voice, but he heard none. He looked at his lover, and saw that phoenix eyes that usually curved with his warm smile, now just staring coldly at the road in front of them.


    His lover just silently drives, and after some time finally answers. "It''s okay, just another tired day."


    It''s rare for his lover to say that short sentences with cold eyes and aloof gestures. It seems he really had a bad day. Bai Yutang didn''t know what else he should say or do. Both of them drown in silence, it feels so awkward.


    Bai Yutang thought maybe after dinner, his lover will come back to his usual self. But until half of dinner time, his lover still has that dark aura. No matter what he asked, his lover only answered in short sentences.


    This should be their third month anniversary dinner, but the atmosphere is desolate. Even their breakfast this morning is more romantic than this dinner in this fancy restaurant. Bai Yutang notices that his lover also keeps emptying his glass of wine. It was rare for them to drink wine until it was almost empty before they finished their dinner.


    Bai Yutang touched that hand who wanted to raise his glass, asking the waiter to fill it again. He really can''t see this side of his lover. He just wants this man to tell him what is bothering his mind, and let his gentle lover back to him.


    "Gege.. Don''t drink too much. Can you just tell me what is bothering you today?"


    Jian Kang Lu wanted to ask his kitten many things, but he also knew that he was unreasonable. He knows that he acts childish, but he can''t stop himself. He wants to try smiling, trying to talk, like nothing happened.


    But he can''t.


    When Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten hold that girl.. All his logic and sense are gone.


    Deep inside, he knows that maybe that girl is only a friend. But even when he saw that scene from behind the glass, he could see that the girl''s gesture was showing that she was attracted to his kitten.


    Deep inside, he knows that maybe this is not his kitten''s fault, and it was unfair for him to act this way. This is supposed to be their anniversary dinner. And here he is, act childish and unwise.


    Humans are born greedy. If this was before he and his kitten together, he could act casual and tease him. But once they''re together, he can''t do the same. He wants his kitten to see only him, and hold only him.


    Jian Kang Lu mocked himself, to let him degrade his intelligence by acting like this. He wants to ask his kitten, but it is also hard to admit that he was a childish man who blindly burned his jealousy.


    He doesn''t want to be a person who represses his kitten''s freedom. His kitten should be a man that is free to hang out with anyone, do what he wants, and he is supposed to be his kitten''s best supporter.


    But¡­ It was one of his hardest moments in his life, to hear that Zhang Min decided to see that girl introduced by his father. His heart felt like sliced into thousand pieces to see Zhang Min dating a girl. It was very hard to see Zhang Min propose to that girl.


    To finally see Zhang Min married her, it was not that painful anymore. Because his heart dulled, tormented too many times before.


    That time he was just silent, try to understand, try to endure.


    He knows, he could never be a person like that again.


    That''s why he just answers his kitten with short sentences, afraid that he will burst up and tell his kitten that he doesn''t like to see his kitten hang out with girls that he doesn''t know. Especially girls that are attracted to his kitten.


    And Jian Kang Lu keep draining his wine, try to wash his own insecurity.


    That was until he heard his kitten''s pleading voice with that warm hand holding his own. Jian Kang Lu always wants to hold his kitten''s hand every time. But he restrained himself in public. And it was rare for his kitten to hold his hand in public like this.


    Jian Kang Lu knows, he needs to stop this act, and just be honest. He took a deep breath. But it was really hard for him to say those words. He is also afraid if his kitten really will leave him if his kitten knows he was this low, this possessive, this unreasonable.


    What kind of person would want a possessive man to be his lover?


    "Gege.. Please.."


    Jian Kang Lu looked into his kitten''s eyes. He took a deep breath once more, and looked at his half eaten pasta. Then he said in a low voice, ashamed with himself.


    "I''m sorry TangTang.. I know I was unreasonable. But I can''t help but feel jealous."


    Bai Yutang dumbfounded. Jealous? Did he hear it correctly? Maybe he needs to ask again so he won''t have the wrong impression.


    "Gege, I don''t understand. What do you mean by jealous?"


    Jian Kang Lu noticed his kitten''s hands still holding his own, and didn''t let him go. It gives some courage to him.


    "I''m sorry TangTang.. I just can''t help myself not to get jealous with that girl.."


    Actually Jian Kang Lu wanted to ask who that girl was. But he held himself. He needs to arrange his words properly, so he won''t sound like a crazy person out of his mind.


    "Girl? Are you saying that you are jealous? Can you explain to me, Gege? I really don''t understand."


    To hear his kitten''s tone filled with curiosity instead of disgust, braved Jian Kang Lu to explain what''s bothering his mind all night.


    "I saw you hold that girl. I know, maybe that was unintentional and you must have your reason. But I can''t help to feel jealous when you hold a girl that is clearly attracted to you."


    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten''s mouth wide open, with astonished phoenix eyes shown on his face. Then he added, "And that girl is also very pretty."


    Now it''s Bai Yutang''s turn to be sour. Why on earth did his lover praise that girl, saying that she was very pretty?


    "So, Gege thinks that she was very pretty?" Bai Yutang''s voice turned chilly.


    Jian Kang Lu suddenly sober, why does it seem he stepped into a dangerous zone again?


    "TangTang, no matter how pretty that girl is, you know I won''t have any interest with a girl."


    Before Jian Kang Lu could finish his sentences, his kitten already cut him out.


    "So, if I was with a handsome man, would you be interested in them?"


    Jian Kang Lu now really believes that he has already stepped into that dangerous zone.


    "No other person will be more handsome than you."


    Bai Yutang released his hand and just put it across his chest. He said coldly, "Liar. I know i''m not handsome."


    Now Jian Kang Lu really regrets why he has to be jealous. What should he say to ease his kitten''s anger?


    "TangTang, i''m sorry. Even if you don''t believe me, but you truly are the most handsome person in my eyes. And I''m sorry I was jealous of that girl. Can you forgive me? Please?"


    Bai Yutang lost his appetite. This was truly the worst dinner he ever had. He just sipped his wine. He doesn''t understand why his lover is jealous of that girl, but he understands that he doesn''t like that his lover says that girl is pretty. Very pretty.


    Jian Kang Lu wanted to reach that hand, but it was so far away. He wants and is willing to go over there and start to beg his kitten, but is his kitten willing to be seen like that in front of other people? Here?


    "TangTang.. Please, I know I was wrong. Just, don''t be mad."


    Bai Yutang still coldly answers, "Why can''t I be mad? Gege already shut me up this whole evening."


    Jian Kang Lu speechless. "TangTang.."


    Bai Yutang hates himself, and is also really mad at his lover right now. He was tired, his schedule packed today. Then he had to receive a cold attitude from his lover on their anniversary. It really annoyed him.


    "TangTang.. Please.."


    But Bai Yutang also can''t bear to look at his lover pleading like this. So he took a deep breath, and tried to ask for his lover''s explanation.


    "Then please tell me, Gege. Which part makes you jealous? I just met that girl today, and i didn''t even think that she was pretty. But it was obvious that you think the opposite."


    Jian Kang Lu now really regrets his childish act. So he just answered in a low voice, trying not to anger his furious kitten further.


    "I know I was wrong, it was just when I saw you hold that girl.. I can''t help myself not to feel jealous. And she also looks very interested in you."


    Bai Yutang''s voice was still very cold when he said, "I told you that I just met that girl today. She stumbled so I helped to catch her. That''s all. And which part makes you think she was interested in me?"


    "I just saw that you were walking together with her, seemed to be talking about something, then you held her. And TangTang, even from far away I could see that she was interested in you."


    "Gege, you''re so faraway. How could you see that she was interested in me? Like you told me, that girl is very pretty. Never in my life have I had a very pretty girl interested in me."


    Jian Kang Lu doesn''t know why his kitten always thinks that he was not handsome. "Then, can you tell me how you met this girl, and what she talked to you about?"


    Bai Yutang told him about Feng Mian, how he met her, and they just walked together to the dorm gate.


    "TangTang.. Don''t tell me you really didn''t know that this girl was interested in you? She starts the conversation first, keeps asking you about yourself, and walks together with you until the gate. You didn''t even know why she was heading there."


    Bai Yutang also felt that this girl is weird. But he never could think that way. After all, no girl ever pays attention to him.


    Jian Kang Lu sighed. He feels so stupid now. His kitten is so pure, how does his kitten know that this girl is really all out, trying to get Bai Yutang''s attention? Jian Kang Lu now felt grateful that he could be together with this perfect creature. He had to cherish this treasure so much, instead of acting like a child and throwing a tantrum.


    "TangTang, I guarantee that she was interested in you. Just watch, she will show up often in front of you, and ask for your number."


    Now Bai Yutang remembers Feng Mian asking for his WeChat ID. Is it really true?


    Looking at his kitten''s face suddenly changed, Jian Kang Lu was sure that this girl already asked for his kitten''s number. He was really afraid if his kitten someday will realise that he was attracted to a woman more than a man.


    "TangTang.. Can you promise me something?"


    Bai Yutang turned his focus back to the man in front of him. Then he asked, "What promise?"


    Bai Yutang saw a pale face, and filled with anxious lines, saying with a small voice.


    "Can you promise me, you won''t pay any attention to her? And.."


    Jian Kang Lu sighed, he wanted to say ''Please don''t leave me.'' But it did not sound right. So he just finally said, "I just love you so much, TangTang. I don''t want to lose you."


    Bai Yutang''s anger subsided after hearing those words. The words that remind him, that they love each other. He also doesn''t want to lose this man.


    Bai Yutang remembers Yu Dong and Mu Xiaoya, and their unimportant fights. He can''t help to feel silly with this whole situation. It seems, he and his lover also fight because of something that is very silly.


    Why on earth do they fight because of a girl that he doesn''t even know well?


    But maybe Liu Xiang was right, now he knows that his lover is the same as him. Easily jealous because of something insignificant. Now, he feels like he knows another side of Jian Kang Lu that never showed before.


    "So, Gege is jealous of that girl?"


    Jian Kang Lu nodded.


    "Gege was in a bad mood and gave me a cold shoulder because you''re jealous?"


    Jian Kang Lu weakly nods.


    "So gege has to apologise to me, because i really have nothing to do with her, and not interested at all with that girl."


    Jian Kang Lu hurriedly said, "I apologise, TangTang.. So, could you forgive me?"


    Bai Yutang put off his cold air, and smiled. "Then, where''s my gift for today?"

 Chapter 85 - More Than Enough (NSFW)

    The sound of two people entangling their tongue together filled the living room, wet and sticky, sensual and erotic. They kissed for a long time, not willing to give up to each other. Lick each other, bite each other, suck each other.


    The tip of Bai Yutang tongue is already accustomed to his lover''s movement. He received that tip of a soft tongue, brushed it with his own. Softly intruding into his lover''s damp nest, and feeling that silky wet lips. Their tongue dancing together in a hidden language of their soul. Spin their deepest desire, entwining their heart around another.


    After months together and exchanging thousands kisses between them, Bai Yutang''s skill improved rapidly. Now he''s not a clumsy kisser anymore. Even though still not on par with Jian Kang Lu, but definitely much better compared to his first time.


    And the kiss after that bad mood and unpleasant dinner, with unnecessary jealousy, definitely tastes sweeter.. The adrenaline from the anger is still rushing in their system, heightening their nerve''s. It sends the pleasures from their entangled lips and skins to their spines.


    Their lips never parted while they walked and stumbling towards the bedroom. Tomorrow is the schedule of the cleaning auntie to come, and it will be very embarrassing if she had to clean their mess. If this is Saturday, both of them didn''t mind doing it on the sofa or at the dining table.


    There are times they''re doing it at the dining table, because Jian Kang Lu can''t hold his lust for his kitten when they''re having a late night snack. And the other time because Bai Yutang can''t hold himself when his lover hugs him from the back, poking his butt with his erection.


    Jian Kang Lu pushed his kitten to the bed, and he threw himself on top of his kitten. He starts to open his kitten''s button at the speed of light, and his thighs can feel his kitten''s erection. He loved this part of his kitten. He always seems to get hard every time Jian Kang Lu kisses him.


    "Gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten wildly, burning him. He never gets enough with his kitten''s soft lips. To touch that soft lips, to hear that soft moan, to suck that fresh skin and meat underneath. Being young is a blessing. Even though Jian Kang Lu still looks young, his skin will never match his kitten''s young elastic smooth skin.


    Jian Kang Lu bit and sucked the skin under his kitten''s collar bone. Every time they make love, he always marks his kitten, never letting that mark fade away. As if to make sure his kitten belongs to him, and only him. No one else could touch that skin, nobody was allowed to hold his loved one.


    Jian Kang Lu''s shirt was also loosened by Bai Yutang''s finger. And those fingers lingered around that sturdy chest, rub that protruding bud lightly, moved to his lover''s back. He loves to put his hand there, run his fingers along his lover''s spine from his neck down to the end. Then slightly slither to the side, and squeeze his lover''s slim waist. It was like he wanted to blend his hand into his lover''s body.


    "TangTang.. I love you, so much."


    Jian Kang Lu whispered those words in his kitten''s ear, and nibbled that ear lobe. It was very sexy, to hear his kitten can''t hold his moan when Jian Kang Lu licks his kitten''s inner ear. It makes Jian Kang Lu always bite his kitten''s ear lobe lightly when he hears that seductive melody.


    Jian Kang Lu licks his kitten down to his neck, to his pink blooming buds. His hand started to unfasten his kitten''s belt and opened his kitten''s zip. Fondled that erection in his right hand lightly, just teased it first before he ran his fingers inside his kitten''s underwear.


    Bai Yutang closed his eyes, and felt that soft tongue trails down like water flowing downstream, slow at times and swift at others, a deadly combination. Always dancing away after the slightest touch and leaving behind but a trace of eroticism remained. The two nubs stood to quiet attention as did the member that erected hard now.


    The tongue tip stopped down below his navel and broke contact briefly. Bai Yutang opened his eyes, which were now swimming with lust, and saw his lover stared at him with a mix of loving gaze and passionate look.


    "TangTang, you are mine.."


    Bai Yutang raised his head for a kiss that was not deep. Their lips merely touched and slowly rubbed against one another.


    "I love you too, Gege.."


    Bai Yutang flipped Jian Kang Lu''s, and sat on top of his lover. He imitated his lover''s movement, but he was not stopped in his lover''s navel. He ran his tongue to Jian Kang Lu''s fully hardened member. Bai Yutang starts to lick it from the base up, carefully tracing the skin and vein in his lover''s erection, then lightly press his lover''s swollen head with the tip of his tongue. His technique now is immaculate and completely steady. That movement made Jian Kang Lu groan slowly.


    Bai Yutang pressed down on the tiny slit on top with his tip of tongue, then opened his mouth and enveloped that hot member inside his wet and warm mouth, and started to move his muscle inside his mouth to suck that hard thing up and down. He cleanly licked his lover''s transparent liquid flowed from that slit. He also smells his lover''s familiar scent from that liquid. A scent that aroused his own desire.


    Jian Kang Lu opened his eyes all the time, looking at his kitten''s sensual move. And his kitten''s eyes sometimes raised to look at him. Tonight, he felt burned. Hotter than ever.


    This man is mine, and mine only.


    "Baby, i want to lick you too. Come here, give me yours."


    At first Bai Yutang didn''t understand what Jian Kang Lu meant. He was lifted, and thrown in the centre of the bed. Then his lover stripped both of them naked. His lover positioned himself kneeling on top of his head, facing his own erection pointing to his lover.


    To look at that naked body with that hard thing pointing to him, is very enchanting. Bai Yutang raised his hand to touch Jian Kang Lu''s member. And then, he understands what his lover means by licking each other.


    His lover put his erection into his mouth, while positioning himself so Bai Yutang could also lick him. To feel that warm sensation in his lower member, and his lover stuffed that hard thing into his mouth, turn Bai Yutang''s brain mushy.


    This explicit sight before his eyes, and that tingling from his lover''s mouth down there, made his world turn very red. All his world is filled with lust. His thighs were open wide with both of his lover''s strong hands, and that hand moved to grab his round butt, kneading it fiercely.


    That strong suck combined with the stroke of soft tongue, sent Bai Yutang straight to heaven. His lover propped his hips up, and sometimes the tip of his lover''s fingers brush his opening. Its fingers are so smooth, and layered with wet saliva.


    Bai Yutang still does not feel comfortable thinking of that dirty hole touched by his lover. But he can''t do anything. The helpless feeling, trapped under his lover''s body. That rhythm formed by his lover''s hips movement thrusting the throbbing hard member into his mouth. That burning sensation from his lover''s mouth in his erection. All of it numbed Bai Yutang''s limb, fill it only with relish created by his lover.


    Bai Yutang was not a ''less than five minutes shooter'' anymore. But under this kind of torturing, he won''t last ten minutes. The flickering white light started to fill his vision, and he tried to push his lover. Giving him a sign that he is going to cum soon. Bai Yutang still wants to enjoy this feeling.


    For a man, the most pleasurable moment in sex is right when they want to ejaculate. Sometimes, his lover only let him come once in one night, but repeatedly teased him. Left him hanging and swaying in the sea of leisure when he wanted to cum. That time is torturing him like hell. The sensation when his lover finally lets him cum, is really one of the best climaxes he ever had with his lover.


    But this time, his lover didn''t listen to him, and just fastened his mouth movement on Bai Yutang''s member to send the sparks directly from that part spreading all over. Electrified, burned, bursting out. Bai Yutang arched his back, and almost bit Jian Kang Lu''s member. He even not suck or lick that thing again. For the last few minutes he only can open his mouth and let Jian Kang Lu thrusting in it. His saliva ran all over his neck, resulting from that fierce thrust.


    When Bai Yutang finally cum inside his lover''s mouth, that spark has not yet subsided when his lover moves to another position. His lover didn''t swallow his milky liquid this time, but spit it and rub it in his lover''s own erection. Make his lover''s hard member glistening with that sticky milky liquid. Then his lover lifted him up, and let him kneel while facing the headboard.


    Bai Yutang''s still limping from that after ejaculation state. He had to propped himself with both hands against the headboard. Then he felt his lover''s hard member intruding him in between his butt. All wet from the saliva and his own milky liquid.


    His lover holding his hips tightly, and just thrusting that member between his thighs hard and fast. Sometimes, Bai Yutang can feel that hard thing slide down his hole, over and over. His lover''s hand moving up, to knead his bud, and the other holding his chin. Force him to look over and receive that wild kiss. Bai Yutang can''t help moaning and gasping. Under this wave of stimulation, it didn''t take long for his own erection to start to stand high again. Asking for attention.


    Jian Kang Lu lifted his kitten again and laid him on the bed. He opens both of his kitten''s legs, and strokes that once soften after cum in his mouth, back to stand so proud. Screaming the youth of his kitten. It''s really nice to be young, you can become hard again in no time. Several times a night.


    Jian Kang Lu directed his own erection to that pretty pink hole, it was so sexy. He really wants to intrude and rampage that tiny hole, make his kitten truly his. His own member is already sticky from his kitten''s semen, so maybe he can do it now. But, Jian Kang Lu still holds on to his own senses. So he just rubs that swollen head into that hole. Just to let this thirsty poor thing kiss that forbidden hole.


    Bai Yutang gasping, "Gege!"


    Jian Kang Lu knows his kitten was not ready. So with a darkened eye, he put his kitten''s left leg to the side, clamping his member. And start trusting again. This position let his kitten clamp his member tighter, and he could see his kitten''s body well from above.


    Jian Kang Lu''s hand just teased his kitten''s member and buds. After sometimes he put his kitten''s legs to his own shoulder, and hugged that slender long legs, feel all his kitten, and bite his kitten''s calf several times.


    Bai Yutang turned and tossed for the whole night. When he almost reaches climax for the second time, he can''t even hold his loud moan and just scream.


    "Gege, faster.. Make me cum.. Ahh.."


    After that blinding fireworks, Bai Yutang is still recovering from his climax. He could also feel the stickiness around his entrance. He knows his lover sometimes gesturing that he wants to fuck that little hole. But Bai Yutang is really not comfortable with that idea.


    He felt sorry for his lover, and sometimes insecure. How if his lover one day tired with this and wants more. Bai Yutang sure that his lover must be doing all that with his lover before him. And they openly receive his lover''s member into their hole.


    Sometimes when Bai Yutang thinks about that, he feels disgusted. He doesn''t like the idea of this man he loved entering someone else''s hole. Even though it was in the past.


    When he was still dazed, his lover lied on his side, and rubbed his own member while kissing him. Not long after he sensed his lover tensed and bit his lower lips.


    "TangTang.. Baby.."


    That milky liquid sprayed from his lover''s member into his side, and then the kiss gradually turned from a wild fiery kiss into a soft loving one.


    Bai Yutang cupped his lover''s cheek, and released himself from that kiss. Staring into that eyes. Gently wipe that soft skin under his lover''s eyes.


    "Gege, is this enough for you?"


    Jian Kang Lu knows what his kitten means with that sentence. So he held his kitten tight, kissed his sweating forehead. A result from their long entangling tonight.


    "This is more than enough."


    Jian Kang Lu looked at his kitten in a loving gaze, adored this naked man in his arms, and kissed his lips softly.


    "Baby, you are more than enough for me."

 Chapter 86 - Will You Abandon Me?

    Bai Yutang is glad he managed to pass his mid term exams well. He needs to maintain a good grade for his scholarship. But he didn''t think he could manage to do it well if he took more subjects than this semester''s load. He calculates in his mind, at this rate he still needs 1,5 years to graduate. He can''t shorten his study like he expected.


    But he still wants to try, at least maybe he could take his last semester only for his final project and focus on it. His graduated senior said that an excellent final project will be his ultimate weapon when he wants to apply for a job later.


    Sometimes Bai Yutang cooks lunch for his friend, and also for his lover. Now he knows that his lover also easily gets jealous, he tried his best not to touch that sensitive part. Especially when Bai Yutang realised that his lover''s jealousy is reasonable.


    Bai Yutang didn''t understand why this Feng Mian was interested in him. Just like Jian Kang Lu predicted, this girl often sends him messages, talking about trivial things.. Bai Yutang also noticed every time he had the same classes with Fei Hong, Feng Mian also showed up to fetch her in the class, and always threw that shy smile at him. Then tried to ignite conversation with him.


    That action from Feng Mian invites several envious looks from the boy in their class. There''s a lot of guys in his class that look much better than him, but why does Feng Mian only talk to him? Bai Yutang really doesn''t understand why.


    Today, Bai Yutang brought lunch for his friends. He didn''t make full course lunch, only spring rolls and Jianbing, a Chinese pancake. He has been preparing the ingredients since last night and only needs to fry it this morning. It didn''t take a lot of time to make it.


    Jianbing is one of his lover''s favourites. He made his pancakes a savory crisp one. The organic eggs are poured over the organic wheat and mung bean flour. He also added green onion and white radish inside. Instead of sesame oil only, he added virgin coconut oil and it enhanced the enticing smell as a result.


    But, this Feng Mian today also followed him into the cafeteria and asked him whether both of them could join Bai Yutang to eat lunch together.


    Bai Yutang doesn''t have any experience in rejecting a girl''s request. He''s the one that is usually rejected. And since he knows how it feels, his heart feels heavy to reject his girl''s request with her big expecting eyes. So he just nodded. He could imagine his lover''s anger if Jian Kang Lu knows that he had lunch together with this girl.


    His friends raised their eyebrow to see these two pretty girls join them for lunch. The usual six person now turns into eight person lunch. Bai Yutang could see Mu Xiaoya''s face twisted, and shot him with a sharp eye.


    He felt like caught cheating.


    Bai Yutang introduced Feng Mian to his friends, he doesn''t need to introduce Fei Hong. Actually, he expects Fei Hong to introduce her friend. But Fei Hong said nothing and just looked at him calmly. Thus he took that role after an awkward moment between all of them.


    Liu Xiang whispered to him, "How do you know this economic Goddess, and manage to invite her here having lunch with us? Her fans club is even bigger than our daddy."


    How could Bai Yutang answer that? He also doesn''t know why, and really doesn''t understand.


    After all of them start to eat, Tang Yuxuan asks him, "I thought today you said you would bring us some snacks?"


    Bai Yutang silently reached his bag, and took his lunch box from inside, then opened it. Once it opened, the fragrant smell from that golden brown spring roll and Jianbing attacked their olfactory nerve.


    Yu Dong is the first to move his chopstick, he learns from his lesson that if he was late for one second, these two scoundrels will clean it in no time. He said while his mouth was full chewing that spring roll, "This one is really good, TangTang. You really can cook well now."


    Yu Dong moved his chopstick fast and also secured Mu Xiaoya and Ling Yue''s portion. Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang fought fiercely and secured their own, directly putting it on their plate. If they didn''t secure it in their own plate, the other will just take more than they should and definitely refuse to share. It always turns into a bloody battle every time Bai Yutang brings his home made dish for them.


    Liu Xiang also says with full mouth, "Now this wife really envies Jian Ge, he could taste these tasty snacks everyday."


    Bai Yutang knows that his cooking skill has improved compared to half a year ago when he started to cook for Jian Kang Lu. The actual victim is his lover, who had to be a guinea pig for his cooking experiment.


    That weird stir-fry tofu, that nasty watery congee, that foul braised beef, and that burnt Jianbing when he tried to make it for the first time. A lot of food that he failed to make, but Jian Kang Lu never allowed him to throw it away.


    Jian Kang Lu said, "I''m sure it was delicious, since you''re the one who cooks it with your own hands. But if you don''t believe me, then let me remind you that it''s still food, and edible. And it was not wise to throw out edible food when a lot of people out there could not afford to eat."


    With those words, how could Bai Yutang throw the food? Even if he wants to puke when he eats his own failed dishes. At that time, his lover said he doesn''t need to eat if he doesn''t like it, and just let Jian Kang Lu finish all the dishes. Bai Yutang could order food from outside or cook again.


    But how could Bai Yutang do that while he saw his lover happily eating his failure dishes? That''s what turned Bai Yutang into a better cook, and reached his level right now. He wants his lover to eat the best food that he made. It increased his own confidence when he saw his lover praise his cook and genuinely like it. That''s what makes him feel that he was different from other people. No one has cooked for his lover before.


    That six person just realised that the additional two members in that table did not have a chance to taste the snacks Bai Yutang cooked. And the three pigs that fight to secure the snacks into their own plates are embarrassed.


    Especially when they heard Feng Mian said with a regret and envious tone. "You cook all this by yourself, Yutang? Ah, i want to taste it also. Seems very delicious."


    These snacks already moved into their plate, none left in the lunch box. How could these three pigs offer these snacks to this girl? It''s really impolite and they''re also just meeting this girl today for the first time.


    Bai Yutang can only nod, and doesn''t know what else to say. His friend really turns gluttonous every time he brings his culinary creation.


    Then he can only nod again when Feng Mian said, "Can I try it next time? Please tell me if you bring it again. I really want to try it."


    Fei Hong also said, "It''s rare to see a man who can cook. You really surprised me. Is this one of your hobbies?"


    Can Bai Yutang answer that he likes to cook now because it was the only unique strait he had to make his lover happy? Or can he say that he cooks to get paid? He didn''t even know these two girls well. So he can only nod.


    Feng Mian looked at him with brightened eyes, "A man that can cook is really sexy."


    She was really happy. The more she knows this shy guy, the more her interest grows. This shy guy''s face is not bad, and can belong to the cute category if you look at him closely. This shy guy always looks elegant with his well cut and expensive clothes, this shy guy is also smart according to Fei Hong.


    Nice guy, cute, wealthy, smart, and can cook! What a catch! But why until now this shy guy didn''t give her responses to all her moves? She was frustrated with this slow development.


    Mu Xiaoya''s ear perked to hear that sentence, and she was glaring at Bai Yutang. But this dense man didn''t even notice her. She wants to remind this pure lamb that this girl has a hidden motive towards him. How could Bai Yutang didn''t know that? And how if her favourite CP breaks up because of this vixen? She could not let that happen!


    But this pure lamb just smiles awkwardly and tells this vixen that next time he cooks, he will let that vixen know and she can try it. Mu Xiaoya wants to scream and throw this vixen away to the trash can. She wants to scream and slap Bai Yutang, remind him that he had a very high quality gong that adores him so much.


    Mu Xiaoya still remembers the branded bag she got from Jian Kang Lu when their new semester began. It was wrapped under the excuse of Mu Xiaoya''s birthday gift.


    Who wants to give a birthday gift worth more than 5000 yuan to a girl that he barely knows? When Mu Xiaoya asked Bai Yutang about this overvalue birthday gift, Bai Yutang told her it was a token of gratitude from Jian Kang Lu, since Bai Yutang finally agreed to be his boyfriend due to her advice.


    She really pity Jian Kang Lu for having a boyfriend this dense and this pure. And the most frustrating thing was she can''t say it out loud. She understands that Bai Yutang didn''t announce his relationship with Jian Kang Lu to his friends. Even her boyfriend also didn''t know about it.


    She plan to text this dumb lamb later, and will teach him again how to avoid a snake, and how to reject a girl firmly. Or else, this vixen will make a brazen move and it will threaten her smooth sailing ship.


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    Last month''s anniversary gift was a branded brown leather belt. This month''s anniversary gift was a branded brown leather wallet. All of it engraved with number 15 and his initial. Bai Yutang really doesn''t know what he will receive for his birthday gift tomorrow.


    He was busy with his school project, and his lover agreed just to celebrate his birthday with a simple dinner. His lover already booked Il Mare for his birthday dinner. It was also one of Bai Yutang''s favourite restaurants.


    They spend his birthday in a romantic way. First his lover says happy birthday to him at midnight, and kisses him softly.


    "Happy birthday, my love. I thank you for this day when you were born into this world. Because you were born, thus i can experience what happiness truly means."


    His birthday gift was presented in the morning, it was a 3D printer. Bai Yutang can''t believe it. It was very expensive. But he''s so happy, he can imagine how he printed the things he designed into the 3D model and look at how it will build for real. He could also print many things he wanted, not only buildings.


    Bai Yutang was so touched. He planted a deep kiss on his lover''s soft lips, hugged him tight, and said his gratitude. This man really thinks about his needs. Know what he needs even if Bai Yutang doesn''t know that he needs it.


    Unlike him, who can only cook to make this man happy.


    His lover took a half day leave and picked him up on the campus. They were going home together to take a bath, and dress themselves up. Bai Yutang wore his only decent black suit, paired with a dark emerald turtleneck. His lover, as usual, was very handsome with a grey V-neck shirt and dark grey suit.


    And as happened many times before, his lover hugged him tight, kissed his cheek, and said, "You look so handsome. I was lucky for this handsome man willing to be my boyfriend."


    Bai Yutang could never get used to this word. So he just said, "Gege, you''re really blind." But his heated face blushed and betrayed those cold words, let his lover know he was happy inside to hear those praises.


    They have a wonderful dinner. The lobster is marvellous, the caviar and the scallop was excellent, the truffle pasta''s fragrant giving you an otherworldly scent, and the wine is excellent. The waiter and the manager also gave him tiramisu cakes with candles and sang happy birthday to him. The cake is really one of the best cake Bai Yutang ever tasted. They can''t finish it so the restaurant wrapped it and let them take it home.


    When they''re driving home, his lover asks him where he wants to celebrate his birthday with his friend. Jian Kang Lu told him that he could book the karaoke room they used to go with Jian Kang Lu''s friends. Last time they''re going there for Luo Yan''s birthday, and Bai Yutang was almost drunk because Song Lixia, Luo Yan''s wife, kept pestering him and sneakily mixed the tequila into his orange juice.


    "Gege, I know that you mean well. And I''m happy about that. But let me remind you, i don''t have money. I want to use my own money to treat my friend. Not yours. So I''ll just treat them with my cooking. That''s enough."


    His lover frowned to hear that, then sighed. "TangTang, let me ask you something. Let''s say one day I''m sick and can''t work anymore. I won''t have any income if I don''t work. At that time, will you support me? Or will you leave me?"


    Bai Yutang raised his eyebrow and said in an angry tone, "What do you mean? Of course i''ll support you if you can''t work, Gege. Who do you think I am? Do you think i will abandon you because you can''t work anymore?"


    "Then, why do you always refuse when I want to share my income with you? Or if that time comes, should I also be like you? Refuse your money and stubbornly want to use my own? Baby, can you understand how i feel right now?"


    Bai Yutang was stunned to hear that analogy. If that time really came, of course he will support his lover with his own money. He believes he will try to work harder in order to let his lover eat what he wants to eat, and buy what he wants to buy. And if his lover refuses, it will¡­ Hurt..


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t hear his kitten respond to his words. He sighed. "Don''t think about it, if you don''t want to, then don''t do it. I just give you a suggestion, an option. You don''t have to do it if you don''t want to. But cooking for your friends is also nice. How about this, you can cook at our apartment and invite them to come over?"


    Now Bai Yutang thought about it, and seems like it was a better idea. For the ingredients. he can share with Yu Dong and let him help him cook. Bai Yutang remembered Yu Dong said he wanted to cook for Mu Xiaoya too.


    Bai Yutang grinned, "That''s really a good idea, Gege. Let me talk to them about this tomorrow."


    His lover just tousled his hair lightly and smiled.


    "Gege, thank you.."


    Bai Yutang really felt that he was the luckiest man in this world, for having this man in his life. The man that takes care of him, and always understands him even more than he understands himself.


    The man that loved him most for who he really was.

 Chapter 87 - Tongue

    This Saturday Bai Yutang and Yu Dong will celebrate their birthday in Jian Kang Lu''s apartment. This is the first time for Bai Yutang''s friends visiting their love nest. Bai Yutang will pick them up downstairs.


    The people they invited were the same as last year''s birthday party. Tang Yuxuan, Liu Xiang, Mu Xiaoya, and Ling Yue. Yu Dong and Bai Yutang agreed to treat them for dinner. Since they need to cook, these people come early at noon after they have their lunch.


    In Jian Kang Lu''s apartment, he has this big flat screen smart TV with a nice stereo sound system. He also has the latest gaming console and wide variety of blu-ray movies.


    And don''t forget that bookshelves full with Jian Kang Lu''s collection. These are only a small part of his collection. His lover said most of his book is in his parent''s house.. They have their own small library, since all of his family members like to read.


    With all of these things, his friends can entertain themselves while Bai Yutang and Yu Dong prepare the dinner. Because games can only be played by two people, they choose to watch movies, while Liu Xiang admires Jian Kang Lu''s book collection. Even though Jian Kang Lu likes to buy e-book nowadays, if he finds a good book he likes, he will buy the hardcover version.


    Bai Yutang understands. Even though e-book is practice, somehow to see the physical things and touch it with your own hands, smelling that wood scent emitted from the paper, is a privilege that only book lovers will understand.


    Even though Bai Yutang''s cooking skill rapidly improved, he''s not a chef after all. He could only make simple dishes he mastered from the internet. So, for today he chose just to make something simple that his lover also liked to eat.


    Bai Yutang makes seaweed salad with sesame dressing for appetisers, along with the spring roll and pan fried vegetable dumplings. For the main menu he chose hong kong style shrimp chow mein noodles, steamed jasmine rice, salt and pepper fried chicken, beef brisket and radish in clear broth, and stir-fry vegetables. For dessert he only made fruit jelly and fruits with milk and cream soup.


    But these scoundrels cleaned up all the spring rolls and the dumplings every time Bai Yutang lifted them from the pan and put it on the plate. Not even five minutes when he wants to put the next batch into the plate, the previous batch is gone.


    "DongDong, you''re supposed to help me cook! Why do you join the battle with them and finish all these dumplings? I warn you, this is the last and you guys can''t touch this. Jian Ge has not yet come home and I can''t let you guys finish all of these without leaving some for Jian Ge."


    Yu Dong only says sorry with a weak voice and continues to chop the ingredients for the beef soup. Bai Yutang didn''t let him chop the beef, only the vegetables. And Yu Dong is really bad at this kitchen job.


    Yu Dong''s face brightened when Mu Xiaoya came to the kitchen and helped him chop the vegetables, while Ling Yue washed them and cut the beef. From her symmetrical cut, Bai Yutang could see Ling Yue is more familiar with the kitchen''s task compared to this pair of kitchen noobs. Yu Dong and Mu Xiaoya were destined to order food for the rest of their life if they married one day.


    Mu Xiaoya asked him, "Senior, did Jian Ge often help you cook also?"


    From her tone, Bai Yutang knows this girl already imagines a lot of things. Maybe she imagined the scene where both of them are in a romantic situation cooking together. Unfortunately, reality is far from novels or movies.


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "I didn''t let Jian Ge help me cook. Jian Ge already tired working the whole day, how could I let him help me cook? Usually I already finish cooking when he comes home."


    Bai Yutang never let Jian Kang Lu help him cook. First, Bai Yutang didn''t want to. He feels that it was his responsibility. Two, Jian Kang Lu is even worse than Yu Dong in the kitchen. And third, if his lover is standing next to him in the kitchen, for sure they will "cook" something else here and the real food will be burnt.


    Mu Xiaoya looks disappointed, but then brightens again, "So he just sits and watches you cook."


    Bai Yutang could only give her a straight face, and nod. He really didn''t want to know what''s on Mu Xiaoya''s head.


    Last week, she was already pestering him so much about Feng Mian.


    [Senior, i''m a girl, so i know exactly this Feng Mian wants to get close not to become your friend. But more than that. I don''t know why, but you really need to set boundaries.]


    That message still comes until the next few minutes, full of speech and lessons about how to reject a girl politely, and just cut her out by mentioning that Bai Yutang already has someone he liked.


    In that lesson, Mu Xiaoya reminded him how Jian Kang Lu treated him nicely.


    Bai Yutang is speechless, but also ashamed. He also knows that, and doesn''t want to disappoint his lover. He thought he already did his best not to pay attention to Feng Mian. And he really is not interested in her.


    But Bai Yutang didn''t know how to reject. Even when he admits that Mu Xiaoya is right.


    [I know, senior. It sounds ruthless, and harsh, telling you to reject a girl while you also don''t know she really wants to be your friend, or approach you to be your girlfriend. But senior, when we''re being too nice, sometimes it was crueller than bluntly rejected. Being too nice will hurt people around you, and also give false hope to a girl. Girls tend to have expectations and hope for more when a man they like treats them nice.]


    With that lesson from Mu Xiaoya, Bai Yutang stop responding to Feng Mian''s text. And planned to told her bluntly that he have someone he like. Maybe Feng Mian will laugh at him, mock him for being overconfident. But Bai Yutang also remembered what Mu Xiaoya said next.


    [It was better for a stranger to be mad at you, or laugh at you, rather than compromise the good things you have right now. Don''t forget, i''m Jian Ge and your number one fans.]


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    This is still 2 pm, usually Jian Kang Lu will wrap the Saturday round at this hour, and will come home right after he finishes. But since today his kitten is having a birthday dinner at home, he wants to buy some beer and light wine for those kids. And also some snacks and also birthday cake.


    He sent a message to his kitten, and he was right. They haven''t bought birthday cakes and didn''t have any wine at home. His kitten reminds him not to buy so much.


    Saturday round without his kitten is lonely. Since the nurses and residents already accustomed to seeing his kitten accompany him to the Saturday round, when they saw Jian Kang Lu alone today, they asked him.


    "Where is Yutang? Why didn''t he come today?"


    Jian Kang Lu smiled and said, "He invited his friends for birthday''s dinner today. He said he wanted to let his friends taste his cooking."


    The nurses, and the residents too, know that this Bai Yutang is living together with Jian Kang Lu. The nurses like to talk to his kitten. Even though his kitten didn''t say much and was not a talkative person, he was polite and nice.


    Sometimes Jian Kang Lu heard them talk and laugh in the nurse station. Jian Kang Lu didn''t know what they''re talking about, his kitten only said they talked about trivial things. This and that.


    The resident''s ear perked. ''Cook?''


    The senior nurse asked again, "Yutang can cook? I want to taste his cook too! Even my daughter can''t cook. She needs to learn from Yutang. I''ll tell her later at home that even a smart boy from T university like Yutang can cook, then why on earth she doesn''t want to learn."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, "TangTang is busy so he can''t cook often now. But you can ask him later if he finished his exams at the end of June."


    The young nurse gasped, "Why so long? It''s still two months! Yutang didn''t have class on Saturday. Please let him cook for us too, Doctor Jian."


    "TangTang is busy with his project, presentation, and studying for final exams. So his free time is really limited. Rather than that, why don''t I bring you the macaroon from the H store next week? It''s so good, not so sweet and lots of flavour. Is that okay?"


    With that promise, the nurses soon forgot about their plan to pester his kitten. Jian Kang Lu didn''t want his kitten too tired. He is already busy lately. Even his kitten sometimes yawns when they have breakfast in the morning, a sign of lack of sleep. Jian Kang Lu didn''t want his kitten to have to cook for someone else because he can''t refuse these nurses.


    His kitten cooking for his family or best friend is fine, but Jian Kang Lu really didn''t want his kitten''s cook tasted by someone who was not close to him.


    He really needs to restrain himself. Jian Kang Lu didn''t know what made him turn into a possessive man when talking about his kitten. He never acted like this before, and didn''t like to be someone like this.


    Sometimes Jian Kang Lu wants to say, "TangTang, don''t cook for anyone else. Just cook for me." But he knew it was too much.


    Even Jian Kang Lu will hate his partner if they say those words to him.


    After the Saturday round finished and Jian Kang Lu already walked away, the residents gossiped in low voice.


    "I bet Yutang is the one that used to cook lunch for Doctor Jian last year."


    "I think so. That legendary lunch box. But I have to say that having someone to cook for you is very nice."


    Both of them are single, a lonesome dog who not only didn''t have someone to cook for them. They even didn''t have someone to accompany them eating.


    And they''re not stupid. They never thought Doctor Jian didn''t marry until now because of that reason. But when they see those loving looks from their superior once in a while when they look at that young man, and that young man appears every week, they can''t help their brain to form an idea. That their superior and this young man is a couple.


    But it doesn''t matter. It was not their business, and they owe this Doctor Jian so much. They know that some people already gossiped about Doctor Jian and his young friend. A nasty gossip. But they always defend their superior and almost fight last time when they hear some people say those nasty words.


    So what if Doctor Jian is gay? He is nice, and an excellent doctor. Besides, they don''t know the truth. To have assumptions and then speak nasty about that without knowing the real truth, is the same with slandering.


    And the most annoying thing was, sometimes people who say those vicious words are the people that think they''re righteous, and religious. They forgot, slandering is one of the biggest sins among all. Better to hold your tongue when you want to speak bad about another person if you don''t know the truth behind that.


    A person''s self esteem is on the tongue.

 Chapter 88 - A Good Man

    Spring passed in colour, full of rainbow and crystal clear air. Summer following their sister closely. Bring the sweet-scented flowers and earthy green leaves swaying, rejoice in the basking sun. The sun strongly irradiates their love towards the soil and the trees, gives the strength they need to nourish the land.


    Bai Yutang doesn''t have time to admire the last breath of spring. He was drowned in his project. This is his fourth year, almost every subject required a project to pass. He has two design projects, and four presentations to make. The deadline is in another two weeks, until the end of May.


    Today is Saturday morning. His usual alarm will ring at 4 am daily, but on weekends he set it at 6 am. That soft buzz awoke both of them. Bai Yutang pressed the stop button and tried to gather his scattered soul..


    Every morning, he woke up in his lover''s arms. No matter where he rolls or moves his position, his lover will catch him and put him back. Encircle his whole body in the warmth. Thus the first thing he saw every morning was his lover''s frowned expression, from the alarm sound.


    Bai Yutang sometimes put his finger lightly on his lover''s forehead to smoothen that cease between eyebrows. Or sometimes he will cast a soft kiss.


    "Good morning, Gege."


    Bai Yutang will spend a few minutes cuddling in his lover''s arms. This is one of his favourite moments of his day. Breathe his lover''s natural scent, filled his lungs and embedded into his heart.


    After his soul is gathered, Bai Yutang will open his eyes and look at his lover''s face closely. Admiring his straight shaped eyebrows, those long fluttering lashes, or look at his prominent nose. Bai Yutang''s favourite part of his lover''s face is that thin sensual lips. That slightly parted pink lips not just always give him strength in words, but also pleasure in bed.


    Sometimes Bai Yutang will trace his lover''s face with his finger, trying to imprint it not only with his eyes, but also from his touch. The face that always gives him comfort, and the body that gives him protection.


    Many times Bai Yutang will sighed, he can''t believe the more he knows his lover, the more Bai Yutang opens his heart. The more they interact with each other, the more this love he feels inside grows. And it transfixes their root deep into his heart.


    Then he will kiss his lover softly in that beautiful lips he adored, snuggling one more time, and said, "I''ll make breakfast first. Go back to sleep, Gege."


    Jian Kang Lu will tighten his embrace to his kitten''s body, and kiss him back. After that, his kitten will wake up and slowly release himself from his arms, and kiss him once again. Only after that Jian Kang Lu will contentedly continue his sleep.


    Maybe because as residents, they all lack sleep. Thus every doctor will appreciate their sleeping time. Now he''s a senior doctor, he didn''t receive many on call duty in the middle of the night. Only two or four times a month. Every time he was on call, he would turn into a light sleeper and answer the phone quickly.


    Luckily his kitten was not a light sleeper and never disturbed with that call.


    Every morning, Bai Yutang will cook a simple breakfast. Or sometimes reheat the dinner. If Bai Yutang is busy, he will cook extra portions for dinner, and will just reheat it for their breakfast. That way, he doesn''t need to cook twice a day. Even though it was practical, Bai Yutang only did it if he was really busy and tired.


    His lover once said to him, "I used to classify food into two categories. Delicious, and very delicious. But now I have the third category. Taste like heaven."


    Bai Yutang didn''t need to ask what kind of food his lover put into the taste like heaven category. It was all the dishes he made with his own two hands.


    "Eh? Only the food that you cooked? No.. There''s another kind of food that belongs to that category." His lover grinned when Bai Yutang answered.


    Bai Yutang felt like splashed with cold water. Where did he get so cocky like this? His lover already tastes every kind of delicious and expensive food out there. Why only his cook will belong to this category?


    Seeing his kitten''s disappointed face, Jian Kang Lu chuckled.


    "The other food belonging to that category, is the food you feed me with your two hands. Or your mouth.." That last sentence said with a teasing passionate tone.


    It made Bai Yutang blushed, because he also remembered that moment. If they spend their time leisurely reading or watching movies on the sofa, sometimes Bai Yutang will feed his lover the fruits he sliced, or the snacks he made.


    And one time, because too many reading Mu Xiaoya''s novel recommendation, Bai Yutang has an idea to repay his lover for their fourth anniversary''s gift. It seems that his lover is the only one that gives him gifts. He can''t give any, but maybe he could try something he read in that novel.


    His lover is reading on the sofa. As usual Bai Yutang is also reading, laid in his lover''s arms. While he was feeding his lover a slice of golden pear, he put the pear in his mouth and directly fed his lover that way.


    The result is far wilder than he predicted. They have to clean the sofa thoroughly again afterwards.


    Saturday is always the day for Bai Yutang to cook breakfast, never reheat the dinner. Today he made simple egg toast. The wheat bread is coated with stirred egg, with a sprinkle of himalayan salt and organic ground black pepper. Then fried with a thin layer of coconut oil. It will be served with fresh salad and olive oil dressing. Bai Yutang also will make a hot Japanese green tea, or coffee if his lover has his on call duty last night.


    When he finishes, he will take a shower, then wake his lover up with a soft whisper to his lover''s ear.


    "Gege, wake up. The breakfast is ready."


    To smell that fresh scent after his kitten showered, will awake Jian Kang Lu in a very bright mood to start his day. He will hug his kitten tight and try to inhale that nice and fresh sensation to tickle his olfactory nerves.


    Jian Kang Lu opened his eyes, and pampered his optic nerve with his kitten image. The face he adored so much, and it was a blessing to see it as the first thing he saw when he opened his eyes.


    Jian Kang Lu will wake up and kiss his kitten softly in the forehead. Then they will have breakfast together.


    "This egg toast is really delicious. Did you change the bread?"


    Bai Yutang nods, "En, i''m using the wheat bread from the bakery near the bus station. It''s better, right?"


    Jian Kang Lu nodded and happily finished his toast. Then he kissed his kitten cheek when he came to fill his cup with steaming green liquid.


    "Why is my baby so good to me? I must be the luckiest man on earth."


    Bai Yutang''s soft gaze will emerge to hear those words, and he will return the kiss to his lover''s head.


    "Gege, today I''ll wait for you in the cafe. I need to do my project. No need to rush. Just take your time."


    Jian Kang Lu nodded to hear that, last week his kitten was also doing his project in the cafe inside the hospital. He knows maybe better for his kitten to do his project at home instead of following him to the hospital.


    But habit is a scary thing. Once you get used to the presence of your lover accompanying you, it will never be the same if he needs to do his Saturday round alone.


    Jian Kang Lu took a shower, and dressed up casually. A light green shirt and a black pants. He rolled his shirt to the elbow. Summer is coming and the weather is humid.


    Bai Yutang washed the dishes and cleaned up, then prepared his stuff also. This month''s gift is a new tablet with a similar leather case. Brown, engraved with number 15 and his initial. All his gadgets are synchronised nicely now, and it helps him a lot to do his project faster.


    They will chat in the car.


    "Gege, what will we bring to Xie Jie''s birthday tonight?"


    Sun Hongjia''s wife, Xie Lihua, will have a birthday party today. She invited them to her house. This is the first time for Bai Yutang to go to his lover''s friend''s house.


    Bai Yutang is like all his lover''s friends. They are all smart, highly educated, and always treat him good. Bai Yutang''s first impression of Xie Lihua is a very delicate and tender lady with serene nature. After all, Xie Lihua is the wife of Sun Hongjia, heir of Sun Group. They even smell like money.


    Until he saw Xie Lihua singing and dancing in the karaoke room. That horrible noise coming from those tiny cute lips, and the wild dancing with her husband carried with the same serene expression. Really a bad and hilarious combination, and Bai Yutang could only admire these crazy people. They were really a professional of displaying a calm and gentle image to the outsider, but know how to party hard with their closest one.


    Jian Kang Lu answered his kitten, "I already ordered an earring in T jewellery store, we need to pick it later after my round."


    "Is that the earrings you asked me last week?"


    "En, I order the one you choose. In terms of artistic sense, you''re much better than me."


    It was an asymmetrical earrings, with the right ear shaped like a bird''s wing enveloped the earlobe, and the left was a thin chain with a black pearl hanging.


    After Jian Kang Lu finished his round, he picked his kitten up in the cafe and had lunch together there. Today he didn''t take his resident for lunch. They still need to go to the shopping mall to pick the earrings.


    "How''s your project? Do you have any difficulty doing it? Need me to help?"


    "You already helped me with the presentation, Gege. It''s only the landscape project and urban development."


    Jian Kang Lu teases his kitten, "I can do well for landscapes. Just a simple call to Zhen Guo and it will be done."


    Bai Yutang laughed, "Gege!!"


    This is their joke since last month they met Zhen Guo for dinner. At that time, they were talking about his university project. Luo Jiao, Zhen Guo''s wife, said to Bai Yutang, "If you have any difficulties, contact me. My husband''s firm can do it for you, and we will send the invoice to him." Luo Jiao points her thumbs to Jian Kang Lu.


    Then Luo Jiao whispered to Bai Yutang, "Why take a hard route when you have an easy one? This poor guy also didn''t know how to spend his money. Better he paid my husband for your project, and I can buy new shoes this month with that money. You''re happy, Jian Ge happy, and I''m happy. You have to admit your Luo Jie is smart, right?"


    Jian Kang Lu and Zhen Guo nod, Bai Yutang flatters this peacock that flaunts her feathers, "Luo Jie, you''re really smart! That''s a good idea. Now I know why Gege and Zhen Ge always said that Luo Jie is always right. You''re really the smartest among us."


    Luo Jiao snorted and raised her nose, "Men''s intelligence could never defeat us, women''s. Our double X chromosome naturally will defeat your unstable Y chromosome."


    This is one of the reasons Luo Jiao likes Bai Yutang. This young man seems to be shy and not talk active. But his sense of humour is not bad, and the most important thing was he knows how to flatter a woman.


    Luo Jiao remembers a quote by Marcus Aurelius, a Roman Emperor and philosopher. ''Waste no more time arguing about what a good man should be. Be one.''


    Bai Yutang is a man without many words, but he is always polite and shows his respect to them as his older acquaintances. And occasionally, he also knows how to get along with jokes and didn''t hold his laugh when he heard one.


    A man that knows how to place himself. And that''s a sign of a good man.

 Chapter 89 - Now And Always

    Since tonight they need to attend Xie Lihua''s birthday dinner, they dressed nicely. Both of them were wearing a similar long sleeve shirt, it was made from very exclusive material. Bai Yutang was shocked when his lover bought this shirt for him. What kind of shirt costs 2500 yuan??? But he had to admit the material is really nice and people could see that it was very expensive.


    His lover kissed his forehead before they left the apartment, looked at him tenderly, and brushed his cheeks softly with those slender fingers.


    "My baby looks so handsome tonight."


    Those words have already been said for a millionth time, but always manage to make Bai Yutang blushed. He just lowered his head and held his lover''s hand. They leave the apartment with their hands clasped together.


    When they arrived at Sun Hongjia''s residence, Bai Yutang can see why his lover always said that he was just an average man with an average salary.


    The residence complex is really big. The distance from the gate to the house took 5 minutes by car. The road''s side is planted with big trees and even at night, the beautiful road lamp illuminates the surroundings so Bai Yutang can see flowers and bushes in patterns like a small park.


    This big land is the residence complex for Sun''s family. There are nine houses in this complex with the latest sophisticated security system installed starting from 50 meter outside the gates. His lover told him that some of this area has the hidden security system planted underground. Some also can detect body heat.


    This residence also has a housing complex for their staff. They have outer complex housing for their maids, chauffeur, chefs, gardener, and bodyguards. The inner complex is for the nine main houses connected with gardens. They even build big ponds nearly lake size with a pavilion by the lake.


    Jian Kang Lu told him that this complex also has a helipad, and each house has an emergency button connected directly to the nearest police station and the security system headquarter.


    Sun Hongjia chose to build his house in the ancient Chinese combined with modern minimalist design. It was also Zhen Guo''s masterpiece before he built his own firm. The big house only has two floors, with a basement for the garage. Their garage is even bigger than the mini market garage, full of expensive cars.


    Inside the house, Bai Yutang saw the painting and some antic vase. He wonders if he took one of these homes and sold it, maybe he won''t need to work for the whole of his life. Bai Yutang thought Jian Kang Lu was already rich, but truly can''t compare with this young master.


    From the entrance, the maids assist them and show the way to the garden. The birthday party was held in the garden near the lake. Bai Yutang can only look at the surroundings in awe. The granite floor seamlessly connected with the wooden tile, and the stone tile in the garden. The wide glass door gives the house a blending illusion with the garden outside. Not even mentioning all the expensive decor inside the house.


    In the garden, there are few guests already arriving and sitting on the sofa arranged in the middle of the garden to enjoy the orchestra''s performance. For his wife''s birthday party, Sun Hongjia invited a few famous singers to sing along with the orchestra, with a famous comedian as the MC.


    Bai Yutang now can see the differences between how ordinary people celebrate their birthday party with how the fuerdai did it. Sun Hongjia used the chefs and the waitresses from the Song Lixia''s restaurant. Song Lixia''s restaurant closed for tonight to serve this party.


    White flowers which Bai Yutang didn''t know it''s name filled this garden with their soft scent. The long tables are full of the beautiful appetisers and the waitress is ready to fill their glass with their preference drinks. Wine, champagne, mineral water and juices. They also build a bar in the corner for guests who prefer their cocktails mixed by the bartender.


    Bai Yutang followed his lover to greet the birthday girl, Xie Lihua, and her husband. Bai Yutang gives her their gift, and Xie Lihua directly opens the gift in front of them. She hugged Bai Yutang and said that she loved the earrings so much. She even calls her assistant and gives her the current earring she wears to replace it with their gift.


    "This earring will match all my outfits, i love it so much! Thank God you choose this year''s gift. He gave me a shopping card last year! Do you believe it???" Xie Lihua chatter while looking at her own face with that new earring in her mobile phone.


    Bai Yutang can''t believe his lover gave a girl a shopping card as a birthday gift. His lover seems like a sensible guy, and even always chooses the best gift for him. Bai Yutang followed his lover to sit on the sofa, waiting for other people to arrive.


    "Gege, did you really give Xie Jie a shopping card as a birthday gift?" Bai Yutang whispers to his lover.


    Jian Kang Lu laughs and nods. "I don''t know what else to give her, and those girls often said my taste is bad when choosing a gift. So I just gave her a shopping card."


    Song Lixia and Luo Yan sit on the sofa next to them. Luo Yan asked Bai Yutang about his project and ordinary college''s life. Luo Yan was interested in opening a cafe near T and P university. Luo Yan told Bai Yutang he wants to meet his friends and ask them about their preferences.


    Bai Yutang really admired this man''s talent in business when Luo Yan told him he was planning to make certain days offer a discount for certain majors. For example, every 1st day in the month will offer a 10% discount for architecture, the 2nd day for the business major, every last Saturday in the end of the month will offer a discount for the couple, and so on.


    Bai Yutang laughed when Luo Yan winked at him and said everyday his cafe will offer a discount specially for Bai Yutang.


    "I will remind you about today''s promise when you open your cafe, Luo Ge."


    Song Lixia sipped her wine and looked at her husband chatting with this young man. "Jian Ge, you look happy lately. I can see he''s good for you." She toast her last remaining wine in her tall glass to Jian Kang Lu.


    Song Lixia could see the long gone tender smile from her best friend and his doting tone while he looked at his little lover.


    "Yes, he brought back the happiness in my life."


    They chat for a while, and Song Lixia was glad her best friend seems truly to have a complete life now. But inside, Song Lixia still has doubts in her heart. Her best friend''s little lover is too young. And Song Lixia saw many things happen in life.


    Many couples with large age differences succeed in their love life. But even Song Lixia''s wide connection limited to the heterosexual couple. Young girls tend to like being pampered by their older lover. But¡­ In the same sex couple, even the one with the similar age tend to be failed in this country.


    Song Lixia is just worried, when her best friend''s little lover graduates and spreads his wings, he will want a different life. Leave her best friend high and dry. When that time comes, it will be very hard for her best friend.


    Song Lixia will never tell anyone about this. She believed in jinx. When you talk bad about something, it is like praying that bad things come true in life. She will only talk about the good things, and pray that good things will be the reality.


    Zhen Guo and Luo Jiao come and sit next to them. Zhen Guo chatted with Bai Yutang and Luo Yan. They talked about the cafe and Zhen Guo offered Luo Yan to design his cafe. Zhen Guo also offers Bai Yutang to work together with him if Luo Yan really will open a cafe there.


    Luo Jiao told Bai Yutang to ask for an internship in her husband''s firm. Bai Yutang really wanted to, but he felt that it was kinda cheating. He needs to apply for an internship this year and next year to broaden his horizon and fill his resume with working experience before he graduates.


    "What''s the use of having this guy as your friend if you can''t take advantage of him? He didn''t accept many students as interns in his firm. But if you are good to this beautiful JieJie1, then this JieJie will help you to make this wooden guy accept you." Luo Jiao told him with her snob tone.


    Bai Yutang laughed, and just joked with her that he will make sure he will be good to this beautiful and kind goddess to make sure her husband will accept him as an intern. Bai Yutang didn''t plan to really do it. He still thinks that it was cheating. Maybe next year, but this year he planned to apply for an internship in a small firm. He knows his own capability.


    The MC starts to open the main show, and the big screen shows the birthday girl''s glimpse of life. In that many pictures shown, lots of happy faces and emotion show the couples and their children. There is one picture when Xie Lihua is sweating in her hospital gown holding her newborn second child, and her husband kisses her forehead with their daughter holding her brother''s little finger.


    A lot of candid pictures taken by Sun Hongjia, shows how much he adores his wife. Xie Lihua might not be the prettiest girl in this party, but all the girls here certainly will envy her life. She has a husband that loves his wife so dearly, a rich and powerful man that protects and cherishes his family so much.


    The guests in the party know this couple in real life, so they know that these are not pictures shown in the media for the sake of a good image. This couple is one of the rare couples that truly love each other, and happily married.


    Xia Lihua already spent the third part of her life with this man, and will spend the rest of her life with him. Both of them will dedicate their time for each other, for the rest of their life.


    Bai Yutang saw a woman in the corner look at the slideshow with gazing eyes. She''s pretty and very elegant, with the dazzling gown and jewellery all over her body. But she looks so lonely, looking at the pictures of a woman with a happy life. A life that she didn''t have.


    Bai Yutang looked at his lover, who looked at him back. They look at each other for a moment. A short moment that feels like an eternity. A moment that fleeting in time, made their surrounding blurred in the background.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know the future. But he also wants to lead a happy life with this person beside him. A life together, in poor or rich, in health or sick, in hard moments, and in happiness, together.


    The MC closes the slide show with a toast, and invites the couple to dance together. The famous male and female singers sing the couple''s favourite song, I Will Always Love You by Whitney Houston. And followed by their wedding song, Marry Me Today by David Tao and Jolin Tsao.


    Bai Yutang felt his hand wrapped in warmth. A hand that felt familiar to him, a hand that held his hand thousands of times before. He looked at his lover, and saw his lover''s tender eyes looking back at him. His lover moved and whispered in his ear.


    "TangTang, I might not be someone that can give you a perfect happy life like you deserved. I can''t be your wife that will give you wonderful babies like Hongjia and Lihua have. I can''t be sure that I will be the best person to accompany you for a lifetime. But if you are willing to give me a chance, i will use my whole life to try my best to love you. Forever."


    Bai Yutang looked at Jian Kang Lu, and saw many emotions stir in his lover''s eyes. Bai Yutang tightens his grip on his lover''s hand. He didn''t say anything, he didn''t nod. He just looked at his lover''s eyes. Hoped that his lover could see and hear what''s inside his heart.


    ''Gege, you''re more than enough for me. I don''t know what tomorrow will bring to us. But I hoped we could always be this happy. Together, now and always.''

 Chapter 90 - End Of Term

    Bai Yutang was relieved he finally managed to pass the final exam. He lost 3kg during this last month. He only manages to sleep 4 to 5 hours everyday. His energy and soul drained during his last project and exams. He studied so hard because he needed to maintain his scholarship. This hard time for him led to a big fight once again between him and his lover.


    Bai Yutang knows that his lover means well. But he''s so stressed and tired, and just snapped when he heard his lover told him to sleep more and didn''t need to worry about scholarship. Bai Yutang knows his lover is more than capable of paying for his tuition, but he doesn''t want that.


    He wants to stand as equal with his lover. He''s a man. In Bai Yutang''s view, a man needs to be able to provide for himself and his loved ones. Just like his father did to his wife and family.. Money is a sensitive topic for Bai Yutang.


    Bai Yutang regretted when he let his emotion take control and told his lover to mind his own business. Bai Yutang could see his lover hurt, and silently read for the rest of the night. Bai Yutang wants his lover to understand that this is not about money.


    Bai Yutang hoped Jian Kang Lu could understand that he wanted to achieve something with his own capability.


    Maintaining his scholarship is one of his ways to prove his capability, to grow, and to hold on his last strand of dignity. It was hard for him to be the one who always received something from his lover. Not even mentioning right now he depends financially on Jian Kang Lu.


    Bai Yutang feels his lover can''t understand his position as someone who needs to ask for money. Because his lover was never in that position.


    Bai Yutang understands when his lover told him the analogy about money on his birthday. That''s why he accepts all the gifts from his lover, and never fusses about small things his lover sent to Bai Yuren and his mom. But still, scholarship is his bottom line.


    Bai Yutang just wants to sleep and rest today. He''s so tired. Thus he rejects his lover''s offer to celebrate it with dinner outside.


    [I just want to stay at home, Gege. How about we just order food tonight and eat at home?]


    His lover agreed with that, and told Bai Yutang just order whatever he wanted to order. Actually, Bai Yutang wants to cook. He didn''t cook for almost 3 weeks due to his final exams. But he was really tired, and decided just to cook starting from tomorrow.


    Next week, Bai Yutang will start his internship in B city. Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang also got internships in B city. Only Yu Dong applied for an internship in S city. They teased Yu Dong so hard last time. It was obvious why Yu Dong applied in S city. It was all because he wanted to be close to Mu Xiaoya this whole summer break.


    Tang Yuxuan is the one that teases Yu Dong the most, "Daddy can see that you''ll be a henpecked husband. Tsk tsk.. Daddy pity your dark marriage life in the future."


    That word made Tang Yuxuan had to dodge from Yu Dong''s ultimate move, the elbow spear.


    Even though three of them will have their internship in the same city, Liu Xiang didn''t go to the same firm with Bai Yutang and Tang Yuxuan. Surprisingly, Liu Xiang managed to get an internship in Zhen Guo''s firm. While Bai Yutang and Tang Yuxuan in their professor''s firm.


    Since his professor already knew their capability, he agreed immediately when Bai Yutang submitted his internship application.


    Bai Yutang knows that Liu Xiang asked his lover about the chance for internship in Zhen Guo''s firm. His lover told Liu Xiang just to submit his CV and application. His lover could help him to make sure he will have a chance for the interview, but Liu Xiang needs to pass the interview with his own capability.


    Liu Xiang truly deserved the title of Zhen Guo''s number one fans. His face just beams so bright and keeps repeating the same word over and over to everyone he met.


    "I can''t believe it, I really did manage to get an internship at Zhen Guo''s firm, the God himself!!!"


    Bai Yutang could hear a lot of comments with envious tones from their friends. All of them asked him how Liu Xiang managed to get there. Zhen Guo''s firm didn''t accept internships every year. For all they know, Zhen Guo''s firm didn''t accept any for last year. And this year, only two people accepted. Liu Xiang, and the other one is their senior in his last year.


    That senior was famous for being a prodigy in his year. His designs won the junior architect competition. He was also one of the Zhen Guo''s faithful followers, and was really disappointed when he couldn''t apply for the internship there last year. No wonder this year he was determined to accept there.


    No one will question this senior accepted in one of the best architecture firms in their country. But even though Liu Xiang is also one of the best in their year with his clean and distinctive beautiful designs, he still is not on par with this senior.


    Bai Yutang already warned Liu Xiang not to tell others that they know Zhen Guo from Jian Kang Lu. Bai Yutang believes Liu Xiang really accepted due to his own capability. But if others heard, they will think that was because they''re close to Jian Kang Lu. And Bai Yutang didn''t want many people pestering him to introduce them to Zhen Guo through his lover.


    Liu Xiang agreed, but still he couldn''t bury his excitement. Bai Yutang could understand, thus he just smiled and shook his head every time he heard Liu Xiang bragging about it to everyone.


    Bai Yutang is waiting in Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang''s dorm for his lover to pick him up tonight. Even though this is Friday, since this is the last day of their exam, Bai Yutang and his friends agreed to celebrate it by going to a nearby cafe for dinner. Bai Yutang didn''t order heavy food, only drinks and one basket of chicken wings. He wants to have dinner together later with his lover.


    Bai Yutang and his friends accidentally meet Fei Hong and Feng Mian in the cafe. It was kinda awkward at first when Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan invited both of them to sit together with them.


    Bai Yutang finally managed to tell Feng Mian last month that he already had someone he liked, and he doesn''t want the person he liked to misunderstood his relationship with Feng Mian if they keep meeting on campus and lunch together.


    Bai Yutang thought that Feng Mian would ridicule him for being overconfident. Surprisingly, Bai Yutang saw Feng Mian''s face pale, and then just nodded. Say that she understood, with a low voice. Bai Yutang even saw her eyes'' corner reddened. She just turned back, and walked away with an unsteady pace.


    This is the first time Bai Yutang met Feng Mian again after that. But after a few minutes, the awkward atmosphere eased and they talked about their exams and internship preparations. Mu Xiaoya and Ling Yue just finished their third year, thus they didn''t apply for scholarships like their seniors.


    "It must feel like a dream comes true for you. Ah, i also sent my CV and application to Zhen Guo''s firm. But I didn''t even manage to get an interview there." Fei Hong can''t hide her envy when Liu Xiang bragged for the hundred times that he will have an internship in Zhen Guo''s firm.


    Liu Xiang waved his hand and tried to sound modest, "It''s my luck. Maybe I already spent my whole lifetime''s luck to get an internship there." Even he tried, but somehow all of them still heard that bragging and smug tone from Liu Xiang.


    Feng Mian managed to act like nothing happened, and chat leisurely with Bai Yutang and Ling Yue. When Bai Yutang''s chicken wings were delivered to their table, she suddenly said, "Yutang, I still remember you promised me to try your cooking."


    Bai Yutang felt guilty with her, so he could only nod and said with a soft tone, "Okay, maybe next term. I will tell you if i cook again."


    Feng Mian also will have an internship in one of the big companies. When Bai Yutang heard the company''s name, Bai Yutang knew it was a company belonging to Sun''s group. But he said nothing and just listened to Feng Mian bragging that this company is famous for the difficulty and if they manage to work well in their internship, they will have a bigger chance to be accepted there when they graduate.


    "My senior said that the salary there starts at 6000 yuan1 with a lot of benefits. I really want to work there after i graduate." Feng Mian''s eyes brightened when she talked about that company.


    After seeing how rich Sun Hongjia is in real life, Bai Yutang wasn''t surprised that his family''s company offered a first grade salary for fresh graduates. The average salary for fresh graduates in B city is 4000 yuan.


    Bai Yutang was actually glad they could talk and laugh like nothing happened. As a man raised to treat women nicely, he really felt uncomfortable when he saw Feng Mian that time almost cried because of his words.


    They have a lively dinner, and promise to meet again when they already begin the internship. Then they walk back to their own dormitory, play games while waiting for Jian Kang Lu to pick Bai Yutang.


    When Bai Yutang left, Tang Yuxuan said, "I didn''t understand why Jian Ge always treated TangTang like a toddler. It was not necessary to pick him up every time Bai Yutang went back late from campus."


    Liu Xiang just shook his head, "Why? Maybe Jian Ge just worried that TangTang was too tired. And our campus is not really that far from Jian Ge''s hospital. I still can''t understand why TangTang didn''t apply in Zhen Guo''s firm. I''m sure that if he applied there, he would be accepted without any interview."


    Tang Yuxuan closed his game, and said, "TangTang said he wanted to work at Professor Lu''s firm because he was getting a lot of side jobs from Professor Lu. So he wants to work there because he is already familiar with a few architects there."


    Then he added, "Maybe TangTang just doesn''t want to use his connection with Jian Ge. If it were me, I also don''t want to stack my debt to one person. It will be hard to pay it later."


    Liu Xiang frowned, "I don''t think it counted as debt between friends. Friends help each other, why need to think that way?"


    Tang Yuxuan said nothing. He knew Liu Xiang wouldn''t understand. But he himself knows it better than anyone else, from his father''s attitude. Friends help each other, but sometimes, receiving too much will make you uncomfortable if you can''t provide equal treatment to your friends.


    That''s why, for Tang Yuxuan, the best friend is someone equal to you. Nothing will turn bad if your friends are equal to you. Someone that too high or too low, definitely will create a rift between them sometime in the future. And that rift, will destroy your friendship.

 Chapter 91 - Best Sister In The World

    "Gege, I will just order simple food. Fried chicken and stir-fry vegetables. Is that okay for you?"


    Jian Kang Lu just nodded. He really didn''t have any preferences for his meal. As a doctor, they trained to eat anything. When you''re still in the internship and residency, anything will taste great just to fill your stomach. That''s why Jian Kang Lu likes to eat good food at good restaurants, but also doesn''t mind eating anything anywhere.


    When they arrived at the apartment, his kitten took a bath first and then prepared dinner while Jian Kang Lu took a bath. It''s been almost three weeks since the last time they made love. Even though the beast inside him is hard to restrain, at least this beast knows how to act civilised. Disturbing a university student at their final exam is really an unforgiven and uncivilised act.


    Even though his kitten was tired, he still made apple juice for both of them.. Jian Kang Lu really feels his health and life standard has improved since his kitten lived with him. They live together for almost 10 months now. And each day filled with happiness for him.


    Jian Kang Lu is glad his kitten will spend his summer break with him here due to his internship. If he had to spend another 2 months without his kitten, Jian Kang Lu really feels that he will turn insane from the loneliness. He could not sleep well without his kitten in his arms.


    When they have their dinner, Jian Kang Lu asks his kitten, "How''s your day, TangTang?"


    He enjoyed his kitten''s soft and clear voice telling him how his exam went, and also his dinner with his friends. Listening to his kitten''s voice always manages to ease Jian Kang Lu''s tired and boring day.


    "TangTang, maybe you can''t meet your mom and your sister for this summer break. Don''t you miss them?" Jian Kang Lu asks while sipping his apple juice. He knew his kitten worried about his mom.


    Bai Yutang really wants to meet his mom. After his father was gone, he felt that he needed to spend more time with his mom and his sister. He still missed his father so much. A familiar face that now starts to fade away, since he can''t meet him again.


    Seeing his kitten just silent, Jian Kang Lu sighed. "TangTang, how if we invite your mom and your sister here? Your sister also has her summer break, and it will be nice for her to have holiday here with your mom. That way, you can also meet both of them."


    Bai Yutang was stunned. That''s really a great idea. And shows how much his lover cares for him and his family. But¡­ Once again, Bai Yutang felt that money was the problem.


    Looking at his kitten''s expression, Jian Kang Lu could guess what''s on his kitten''s mind. He already knew that money is a sensitive matter to his kitten. It was a very dangerous land to step on.


    Thus he says slowly, "You could use your own savings for their ticket. And for their accommodation, they could live here at the guest room. And they could cook here too. Why don''t you ask them first, and listen to their opinion about this matter?"


    Bai Yutang finished his apple juice while calculating. That way, they won''t spend much money. And his sister also will be happy to have vacation here. B city has so many tourist spots, and all those spots could be reached by bus. So it was cheap and won''t be an expensive holiday for them.


    Bai Yutang smiles, "Thank you Gege, I think they will be very happy. But I need to ask them if they mind staying here."


    Jian Kang Lu already finished his juice. He stood up and walked towards his kitten. He just kissed his kitten''s head softly, and tousled his hair. "I think your mom also will be relieved and feel safe if she could see where you live right now. And your sister will love this city in summer. I could arrange for her to meet some of my relatives here around her age, so she could have friends here and spend her holiday well."


    Bai Yutang nods and hugs his lover. They sleep early that night.


    Bai Yutang wakes up in the morning feeling refreshed after finally having slept for more than 7 hour. Unfortunately he had to cancel his plan to cook this morning. All due to his lover''s fault. Bai Yutang understands that they haven''t made love for 3 weeks. But rolling around and spending more than 1 hour in the bed will make them late for Jian Kang Lu''s Saturday round if Bai Yutang is still cooking.


    Bai Yutang had to admit, after 3 weeks and those tiring exams, to make love with your loved one really felt amazing. His lover was a little bit wild and cruel today. Knowing that after three weeks of abstinence turn Bai Yutang became really sensitive, his lover just teased him over and over, and didn''t let him to cum. Every time Bai Yutang feels like he wants to cum, his lover will stop touching his private part, and play with other parts of his body.


    The final result when he finally cum together with his lover under his lover''s hands, really sent Bai Yutang to heaven and he needed the whole 10 minutes to return his breath to normal and finally his soul back to the earth.


    They just take a bath together and go directly to the hospital. They have simple sandwiches and coffee as their breakfast. Bai Yutang greets the nurses that he hasn''t seen for weeks. He also distributes the coffee and snacks for them.


    After that, they have lunch with the residents. While his lover teaches his residents, Bai Yutang calls his mom. Few minutes were spent asking about his mother''s health and what she''s been doing lately. Then Bai Yutang finally asks.


    "Mom, do you want to come here and visit me? MeiMei also have her summer break, and both of you haven''t got any vacation lately."


    Bai Yutang could hear nothing. Until half a minute later, her mother''s voice finally heard.


    "I would like to, and it was also good for Xiao Ren. But.."


    Bai Yutang knows what is bothering her mother''s mind. Just like what was bothering him.


    "Train tickets are not that expensive. And.. Jian Ge offered both of you a stay at his apartment. You could see where I live now. I could sleep in Jian Ge''s room. You and MeiMei could sleep in my room. Jian Ge also said that you''re free to cook there."


    Bai Yutang clears his throat before continuing. "Jian Ge works from morning until night, so you won''t bother him. I''ll also work for my internship, so maybe I could not accompany you in the noon time. But it will be nice if we could spend time together even just to have breakfast and dinner together."


    His mom didn''t say anything, but finally she said, "If Xiao Ren agreed, then maybe we can go there. For how long?"


    Bai Yutang relieved, "Up to you mom, you could talk to Xiao Ren about this matter first. Just let me know later."


    At night, when they''re having dinner at their favourite Korean restaurant, his sister calls him.


    "Gege!!! I want to go there. I promised I won''t disturb you and Jian Ge. Can we stay there for one week?"


    Bai Yutang is glad he listens to his lover''s advice. To hear his sister''s excitement, he smiled and felt happy. He remembers, the last time they had vacation to B city was four years ago when Bai Yutang accepted into T university. They''re going to one of the hot spring resorts here, and visiting many tourist spots like the palace and the temple. Thus, his mother and his sister won''t get lost here.


    "Let''s just buy one way ticket. If you want to spend more time here, you can." Bai Yutang replied gently to his sister.


    Bai Yutang told his sister whether she needed Jian Kang Lu to introduce her to his relatives so she has friends here. But her sister rejected it.


    "I don''t think we could burden Jian Ge more than this, Gege.. Don''t worry, I have few friends from my university there. I could go with them to play together. I''ll bring mom too. So you and Jian Ge won''t be bothered with us."


    With that arrangement, his sister and his mom said they will come next month, mid of July. That way, Bai Yutang could familiarise himself with his internship and prepare for their arrival.


    Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang pick both of them in the train station in the midst of summer wave in mid July. B city in summer is hot and humid. Bai Yutang saw his sister wearing a red light dress and she ran to him, hugged him tight.


    "Thank you, Gege.." Her sister whispered. Bai Yuren thought she won''t have any vacation again, but here she is, in B city.


    It''s Saturday afternoon, the four of them are going to the shopping mall first and will have dinner later in the hotpot restaurant where Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu are having their first meal together. Bai Yuren was really happy when Jian Kang Lu bought many things for her in the shopping mall.


    "It''s really nice to have a little sister. My own brother is so cold and didn''t have any reaction when I bought him things." Jian Kang Lu defends himself when Bai Yutang reminds him not to spoil his sister.


    Then he whispered into his kitten''s ear, "Besides, i don''t think that i was wrong to spoil my future sister in law."


    Bai Yutang''s face turns red, and finally gives up. Letting his lover throw the money to please his sister.


    Bai Yuren really loves the food in the restaurant. Her face is red after trying the spicy soup and finished the tender Wagyu meat. "This is the best hotpot restaurant I ever taste, Jian Ge!"


    Jian Kang Lu smiled to see his kitten''s sister chat lively and didn''t hesitate to order for more. His kitten''s little sister is definitely more fun compared to a cold and calm brother of his own.


    "If you want to, on Wednesday I will be back home earlier. Why don''t we try my favourite Italian restaurant that day. You''ll love it."


    Bai Yuren nods frantically and they dominate the conversation. Bai Yutang saw his mother smile to see her daughter so happy. Just like when their father was still alive.


    His mother asked him about his internship. Because Bai Yutang often worked with that firm previously for his side job, he managed to fit in no time. Other than working over time, sometimes until 9 pm, he didn''t feel any differences with doing his project and side job.


    Bai Yutang still manages to cook a simple breakfast every morning for his lover. And that makes him happy. He once thought that he''ll be too tired once he starts his internship. But compared to his project and exam last time, he didn''t feel burdened. Maybe because he felt no pressure.


    Compared to him, Tang Yuxuan needed more time to adjust himself, since Tang Yuxuan never took a side job before. But these last few days, Tang Yuxuan is already accustomed and works faster.


    Liu Xiang on the other hand, living like zombies these days. The pressure is hard when you''re doing an internship with a prodigy in the best firm. Moreover, this prodigy graduated this month, and strives to apply in Zhen Guo''s firm after he finished his internship. Thus they seem like competing with each other to prove that they are worthy to work there.


    Bai Yuren also complimented the apartment where her brother lived. Bai Yuren really feels that her brother is so lucky to have a friend like Jian Kang Lu. Her favourite part is the small library in Jian Kang Lu''s apartment.


    "If you found any book that you like, you could just take it home. I finished reading all of that." Jian Kang Lu offered Bai Yuren when he saw Bai Yuren flipped through the book shelf.


    Bai Yuren happily received that offer. She finally spent two weeks in B city. His mom came back earlier one week before, and said that she wasn''t comfortable leaving their house for too long. But her mother told her that if she wanted to spend more time here, she could. Thus Bai Yuren spent another week without her mom.


    When their mom came back home, Bai Yuren proudly told his brother she managed to apply for a scholarship. So her brother doesn''t need to worry about her tuition this year. She already told Bai Yutang two months ago when her scholarship was approved. But to hear both of them praised her again, just make her feel good.


    As a reward for her scholarship acceptance, Jian Kang Lu gave her a new mobile phone as a gift. Bai Yuren is so happy, this is the latest model from one of the most expensive brands. She even hugged Jian Kang Lu and almost cried. Her phone is the model from three years ago. She was supposed to get a new phone last year from her father as a gift for her university admission. But.. Sometimes life goes into a different direction from what you expect.


    She likes it here in B city, in the apartment where her brother lives with Jian Kang Lu. She likes Jian Kang Lu so much. His knowledge is wide, and sometimes they talk and joke about the life of medical faculty students. This friend of his brother also pampered her so much. She could taste excellent food in the high class restaurant many times while she stayed here, and Jian Kang Lu also gave her pocket money.


    "Don''t tell your brother. Just take it to make me at ease if you''re going out with your friends later."


    But, no matter how pure and dense Bai Yuren is about the relationship between man and man, Bai Yuren could still notice that her brother''s relationship with Jian Kang Lu is not an ordinary friendship.


    Not only once did she see how Jian Kang Lu looked at his brother with eyes full of affection. Or how every small movement from him is intimate and always protects his brother with his gesture.


    Almost all the time she heard that gentle and doting tone from Jian Kang Lu, exclusively directed to his brother. And his brother answered in the same soft and doting tone.


    And most of all, she saw how her brother serve Jian Kang Lu for their breakfast attentively, and her brother always be the first to put things Jian Kang Lu liked to his plate, pouring the water or juice when his glass almost empty, and also took the plate and replace it with the dessert once Jian Kang Lu finished his meal. Never in Bai Yuren''s life saw her brother treat someone like that.


    Lastly, when they were having dinner in the French restaurant, she saw from the mirror behind his brother, how Jian Kang Lu brushed her brother''s hand lightly under the table when she was walking from the toilet.


    Inside her heart, she knows that something is happening between them. Surprisingly, she feels happy instead of sad nor disgusted. To see her brother''s face brightened, and that gentle smile curved from her brother''s lips, makes her happy too.


    Jian Kang Lu is a man that every girl wants to have as a husband. And most importantly, this man put her brother as his priority. Always listen to his brother, and also ask for his opinion.


    Bai Yuren didn''t know whether she guessed right about her brother and this man''s relationship. But if it was true, then she will support anything that makes her brother happy.


    Her brother is the best brother in the world, and Bai Yuren wants to be the best sister in the world for him.

 Chapter 92 - Ferocious Sister

    Bai Yutang is glad that the firm he worked at just started to be busy after Bai Yuren already went back to W city.


    Previously, his firm participated in one big tender for a school project that will be built next year. This tender involves three other firms competing with each other. The other firm competing in this tender is the firm where Fei Hong does her internship.


    The tender preparation finished last week, and the firm where Bai Yutang and Tang Yuxuan work won the bid. Now they''re busy starting to work on this project. For the senior architects working there, the hell is where they prepare for the tender and try to win the tender. But for the junior architects and the interns, the hell is when the project starts..


    There''s thousands of details, and long working hours. Lately they are always working from 8 am to 8 pm, sometimes even until 10 pm. Because of that, Jian Kang Lu nowadays always picks Bai Yutang from the firm and they have dinner together outside. Often Tang Yuxuan and Fei Hong join them for dinner.


    How could Fei Hong join them for dinner together? That''s because Fei Hong''s firm is located in the office building next to Bai Yutang''s firm. Thus they often meet together and lament about their hard time together. This resulted in both Tang Yuxuan and Fei Hong getting closer, because they went to the firm from the dorm and went back home together everyday.


    At first, Bai Yutang is speechless when his lover turns into a bad mood once again the first time they have dinner together with Fei Hong. The reason? The same reason for their fight because of Feng Mian. Jealousy.


    If someone needs to be jealous, definitely it has to be him. Almost all the female architects in his place, including Fei Hong herself, asked about Jian Kang Lu when they saw him pick Bai Yutang for the first time. Many of them thought Jian Kang Lu was his relative or his brother.


    This is because Jian Kang Lu once showed up in the firm when he picked him up and brought many snacks and drinks to them while politely saying, "Hello, i came to pick Bai Yutang. These all for your hard work and to accompany your over time. Thank you for taking care of our Bai Yutang all this time."


    The next morning, all of them surround him and rain him with thousands of questions.


    "Yutang, who was that handsome man who picked you up last night? Your brother? Your cousin?"


    "Why didn''t you guys look alike?"


    "Your friend? Where does he work?"


    "Is he single?"


    "Is he an architect too?"


    "A doctor? How come my doctor didn''t look like that? Where does he work?"


    Even some of them tease him by saying they won''t give Bai Yutang too much work if Bai Yutang gives Jian Kang Lu''s contact to them. And these cruel big sisters laugh so loud when Bai Yutang stammering said that he can''t give Jian Kang Lu''s contact to them.


    These girls look so serious when they work, but outside of the working part, they like to tease Bai Yutang so much. Bai Yutang didn''t understand. Tang Yuxuan is definitely more handsome than him, but why do these big sisters keep pestering him?


    One of them told him that it was very satisfying to see his red face every time they tease him. And also they prefer to see the handsome mature man like Jian Kang Lu compared to the handsome little brother like Tang Yuxuan. So they will follow him out and wave their hands to Jian Kang Lu if he picks Bai Yutang up in the office.


    Bai Yutang knows that some of these big sisters are not serious and just like to tease him, while refreshing their eyes by looking at a handsome man. But, some of them really look at his lover with a different kind of gaze in their eyes. Coveting his man.


    Every night, these girls will turn their zombie face in the day into a fairy at night.


    "How come we let your handsome big brother see our real face?" They said in unison when Bai Yutang and Tang Yuxuan were shocked to see them applying makeup for the first time.


    Even though Bai Yutang told them that Jian Kang Lu was not his friend, they still call Jian Kang Lu as his big brother.


    "Can you imagine, if that big brother of yours treats a little friend like you this way, then he must treat his girlfriend much better than this. Oh I''m so jealous of that woman. Wish my own boyfriend had the conscience to pick me up from work everyday."


    Because of Jian Kang Lu, Bai Yutang is now often surrounded with these big sisters and receive their order. That left Tang Yuxuan to receive the order from the senior male architects. They just look at Bai Yutang with pity in their eyes.


    After those first two days where Jian Kang Lu showed up and resulted with Bai Yutang pestered by these ferocious sisters, Bai Yutang told Jian Kang Lu to wait for him in the parking lot, and dare not show up in his office.


    But then one of this big sisters saw Jian Kang Lu in the parking lot, pick him up. This led to their loud chirps, pestering him more to let them see Jian Kang Lu again.


    This made Bai Yutang look at his lover resentfully every time his lover picked him up. His lover defended himself by saying, "I just thought you and your senior must be tired working over time almost everyday. When I was in my residency, if someone visited and brought us food and drinks, it will soothe our soul and brighten our night shifts. Thus I brought that for your colleague. Don''t be mad, TangTang..."


    Fei Hong also joined this fans club, including the senior female in her firm.


    "Yutang, I can''t believe you didn''t introduce Jian Ge to me before we applied for the internship. And why have you never told me that he introduced you guys to Zhen Guo before? I really want to meet Zhen Guo, that genius architect." Fei Hong looks at him with envy and regret once she knows that Zhen Guo is Jian Kang Lu''s friend.


    Bai Yutang blamed Tang Yuxuan for this. He thought that they already agreed not to tell anyone about how Jian Kang Lu introduced them to Zhen Guo. Tang Yuxuan just diverted his eyes and ran away from him when Bai Yutang asked for his explanation.


    With all of these girls looking at his man with those bright eyes, how could Jian Kang Lu be the one to turn into a sour mood when they have dinner together with Fei Hong for the first time? Bai Yutang is already tired from all the work, and his own mood is also sour from his female senior comments while eyeing his lover.


    This turned them into a cold war that whole night, and Bai Yutang punished Jian Kang Lu with three days of not cooking for breakfast. Even though his lover was already pleading and asking for forgiveness the next morning, Bai Yutang still punished him.


    "Gege, I can''t believe you. How on earth could you feel jealous with Fei Hong while she''s the one that keeps looking at you the whole dinner? I''m the one who should be jealous!"


    "I know i was wrong. Can you just forgive me, TangTang. Please don''t be mad at me anymore." Jian Kang Lu can only plead and look at his kitten with puppy eyes, hoping his kitten forgives his childish act soon.


    But even though his kitten gave him a cold shoulder for three days, Jian Kang Lu was glad that he still could hold his kitten the whole night they''re sleeping together. No matter what, he needs to hold his kitten in his arms every night just to make sure this man is not just his illusion.


    Time flies, Bai Yutang and Tang Yuxuan finally finish their internship for two months in that firm. Liu Xiang also comes back to life from that hellish pit. He lost 3 kg while working there in Zhen Guo''s firm. Their senior managed to be accepted in that firm as a junior architect with 3 months probation time. It was no surprise, since he really is a prodigy and hard working person.


    Jian Kang Lu invited all of them for dinner as a celebration for finishing their internship. Fei Hong also joined the dinner. Jian Kang Lu is just smiling and listening to these students talking lively about their experience.


    "Jian Ge, I want to badmouth one of the seniors there, please don''t tell Zhen Guo." Liu Xiang said before he rambled about this evil senior of him. It''s rare for Liu Xiang badmouthing people, unlike Tang Yuxuan. But Bai Yutang felt that Liu Xiang was reasonable to hate this senior.


    Liu Xiang''s seniors like to point out his faults and say "In this field, you can''t depend only on your face. You need real talent and capability." Those words repeated day by day.


    Fei Hong laughed when she heard that and said that Liu Xiang''s senior must be ugly.


    Liu Xiang smirked, "I used to see faces like Jian Ge here, of course all my seniors there look like toads compared to our Jian Ge."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled and said, "You don''t need to flatter me like that. I already said I will pay for dinner tonight. If you want to order some more, just order. No need to drag me into this."


    Liu Xiang hurriedly call for the waitress and order more expensive beer for them.


    At the end of dinner, Liu Xiang is already drunk and keeps hugging Jian Kang Lu saying thank you for letting him have the opportunity to fulfil one of his dreams. Working under Zhen Guo is one of unforgettable memories for Liu Xiang, and will add to his resume as an achievement. These words repeated over and over, make Fei Hong look at Liu Xiang with envy.


    "Jian Ge, please introduce me to Zhen Guo.. I really want to try to apply there again next year." Fei Hong already tipsy and says those things that occupied her mind lately with a begging tone.


    Jian Kang Lu speechless, and just nod. He warns Fei Hong that he can''t interfere with the process, but he can try to invite them one day to have dinner together with Zhen Guo. This resulted in Fei Hong almost crying and nodding her head frantically.


    "Even though i can''t work there someday, at least i want to meet Zhen Guo in person once in my life." Fei Hong choked when she said these lines.


    They separated there in the restaurant. Tang Yuxuan, Liu Xiang, and Fei Hong going back together to the dorm.


    On the way back home, Bai Yutang kissed his lover softly on his cheek. That made his lover surprised, and smiled gently while tousling his hair.


    "Gege, thank you. I know Liu Xiang could work there because of his own capability. But without you, maybe he can''t have that opportunity. Thank you.."


    Jian Kang Lu just smiled. He really didn''t do anything except accidentally introduce them. But he knows what his kitten means.


    Bai Yutang also tipsy from all those alcohol they drank that night. He put his head on his lover''s shoulder, smelling the familiar scent from his lover''s. He felt happy. It''s nice to have someone that not only takes care of you, but also kind and care about the people around you.


    Just like his lover did.

 Chapter 93 - Happy Birthday, Gege (NSFW)

    This year, Jian Kang Lu feels that he has the best birthday in his life ever. He turned 38 year this year. Two more years he will turn forty years, a new milestone in human life. An old man.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t understand why some of his colleagues that have younger mistresses like to be with someone young and said it will make them feel young too. Looking at his young kitten, Jian Kang Lu only feels older. As if reminding him that when his hair starts to turn grey, his kitten just will start to spread his wings.


    Jian Kang Lu remembers when he was 22 years old, he didn''t really know what he wanted. He learns about human''s betrayal in friendship and love life. He learned how it feels to struggle and just trying to walk the path he chose before as a doctor. But the future is vague, and he often changes his mind.


    That makes him insecure.. As a 38 year old man that saw almost everything, he already knew what he wanted and stick on to his decision. But his young kitten has not yet looked at many things, not yet experienced many things. Jian Kang Lu is the first lover his kitten had.


    Some people said that the first relationship was destined to fail. How many people in this world stick to the first lover they had? For Jian Kang Lu, he wants his kitten to be his last. But for his kitten, how does he know that he wants to stay with Jian Kang Lu for the rest of his life?


    Just like his life principal, Jian Kang Lu tried to brush his own insecurity. He knew that he just needed to do his best. If things didn''t work out, at least he had no regret. He treated his kitten as best as he could. Love and cherish this perfect man so he could be sure that Jian Kang Lu is the right man and deserved to be his first and last relationship.


    The moment when he turned 38 years old, his kitten woke him up at midnight and sang happy birthday to him, bringing a small cake with candles on top of it into their bedroom. Jian Kang Lu tried to blink his sleepy eyes several times, and saw his kitten smiling softly at him. Ask him to make a wish and blow out the candle.


    ''I wish we could always be this happy, for a long long time.''


    That simple wish popped up instantly in Jian Kang Lu''s mind, and he blew the candle. As tradition, he didn''t tell his kitten what he wished for. He smiled and hugged his kitten.


    "Thank you baby."


    Jian Kang Lu knew this cake must be made by his kitten himself. Just like last year. The soft orange mousse cake with crunchy nut biscuit melting in his mouth, and the portion is small. Just eight scoops of small spoons for both of them and it''s gone. Perfect for a light snack at the middle of the night.


    His kitten picks the empty plate and the spoon, and returns it to the kitchen. When his kitten laid back to his arms, Jian Kang Lu still could smell the orange scent from his kitten''s lips, and it still tasted sweet when he kissed it slowly. Those pale pink lips always welcome him and enchantingly inviting for more.


    The kiss deepened, and somehow both of them just understood what they wanted next. They didn''t worry about waking up late in the morning. This already Saturday, they can wake up a bit late.


    Jian Kang Lu saw how his kitten moved his body on top of him, and looked at him from above. That phoenix eyes squinting, tried to focus his sight in the dimmed room. Then he slowly lowered his head until both of their nose tips brushed lightly.


    "Happy birthday, Gege."


    That soft lingering voice soon drowned in the wet sound of their entangling lips and tongue, and the rustling sound of fabrics took off from their body. His kitten''s hands tried to support his own body, laid in the pillow next to Jian Kang Lu''s head. His kitten let Jian Kang Lu run his fingers freely on that soft milky skin. Jian Kang Lu brushes it lightly, teases his kitten, and tries to transmit his own desire.


    Jian Kang Lu loves to strip his kitten naked when they are in bed. He loves how his skin touches the texture of his kitten''s soft skin. From the head to the toe. To embrace the warmth emitted, and inhale the scent from his kitten''s body. His heart itched every time the naked skin touched each other, fluttering with raw emotion.


    Sometimes, he just wants to blend with his kitten, want to bite him, swallow him whole, and fuse their flame together. Unite two bodies into one.


    Jian Kang Lu also likes to open his eyes when they make love. He sometimes kept his eyes half open, looking at his kitten''s dazzling gaze, blushed from their kiss, lusted for his touch. He likes to see all his kitten''s expressions painted on his face, and his hands need to touch his kitten constantly, never leaving that smooth skin.


    As if Jian Kang Lu was afraid, that all of this was just his own imagination. He needs to see, to hear, to touch, to feel. To make sure that all of this is real.


    Heat rose from Jian Kang Lu''s heart to his lower abdomen and spread to all over his body. The orange scent with a hint of vanilla from his kitten''s nape filled his nostrils. Blinded him. They sleep together every night, they kiss many times each day. But still, every time they kissed, his kitten''s soft petals always managed to make his brain stop working. Set the sparks inside his brain.


    His kitten is so close to him. The one that he dreamed, he desired, was there, lay on top of him, tried to kiss his neck and bite his shoulder lightly. The wave of warmth from his kitten''s tongue brushing his collarbone made all Jian Kang Lu''s nerves react instinctively. Jian Kang Lu grabbed his naughty kitten''s waist, and slid his fingers to one of his kitten''s buds.


    Jian Kang Lu could feel his kitten''s hand grip the pillow tighter when he played with that bud, and his kitten''s tongue trailing down from his collarbone to his own bud. That wet velvety muscle tried to look for the small protrusion from Jian Kang Lu''s chest, and playfully circled over there, again and again.


    Jian Kang Lu brushed his kitten''s silky hair, and caressed his back. They make love countless times, both of them know that when his kitten is on his top, that''s when his kitten wants to take control. Jian Kang Lu let his kitten pinned his shoulder down, grip it tightly while his kitten trailing every corner of his body with small kisses raining all over.


    For Jian Kang Lu, making love with his kitten just like the meaning of the word itself. It was the language of their body, and spoke with each other about what they feel inside their heart. It was not just sex, not only their body moved together searching for pleasure. There are no words in this world that could depict how he feels about his kitten. And his honest body tried to express how much he adored his kitten.


    How much he needs him.


    Some people said best sex happened because their body is compatible with each other. But Jian Kang Lu knows that without love, no matter how great the sex, it won''t fill your heart. No matter how many people you slept with, how many times you do it, your heart will empty if you do it with someone you don''t love, nor love you back.


    His kitten whispers in his ear while stroking his member softly with his own erection.


    "Gege, let me serve you tonight.."


    Those words tickle his heart. Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s forehead softly. Under the soft light from their bedside, he could see the shadow soften his kitten''s figure, look at him with a soft gaze. How he loves this man so much. The man that gave him everything. Love, affection, trust, kindness.


    The man that gave him home. A place where he could come back to lay his tired heart.


    Jian Kang Lu can only groan when his kitten starts to envelop his member with that soft and warm mouth. His kitten''s skill now really improved and gave Jian Kang Lu so much pleasure. That tongue lightly struck his member, caressing it with utmost care. As if that was the most precious thing in the world. The waves, just like butterfly wings flapping in his heart, rush all the blood flow to his lower member.


    Jian Kang Lu looked at his kitten. Their eyes locked at each other. Lighting the sparks around them brighter. And it hypnotised Jian Kang Lu even more. The pleasure spreads slowly, burning him. Silenced his thoughts, and made him want this man even more.


    They make love intimately, warmly, and slowly that night. His kitten stroked their member together and kissed him passionately.


    "Gege, I want you to cum in my mouth."


    Those seductive words make the beast inside Jian Kang Lu that laid docile lately jumping wild inside and it burns him with desire. That night, for the first time since they''re together, Jian Kang Lu cum first.


    Somehow it made his kitten''s face brighten under the soft yellow light illuminating his pure handsome face. That phoenix eyes sparkling, beaming with happiness and satisfaction, looking at him while he receives Jian Kang Lu''s cum.


    Jian Kang Lu tried to make his kitten spit his own liquid, but his kitten swallowed it all. He didn''t look uncomfortable at all, and just hugged him from above, kissed his buds, and his neck, whispered in his ear.


    "It''s okay, Gege. I always want to try it."


    Then his kitten let Jian Kang Lu do what he wants, and cum so fast under Jian Kang Lu''s caress. Their breath is still heavy after the exploding sensation. Panting, Jian Kang Lu felt the slender fingers and slim arms enveloping his neck.


    "Gege, happy birthday. I love you so much."


    In the morning, his kitten cooks noodles with clear chicken broth for their breakfast.


    "May your life be smooth and long, just like this noodles, Gege." His kitten uttered those auspicious words while serving him.


    At the hospital, Jian Kang Lu received so many wishes and he smiled back, politely received the wishes and said thank you. The nurses and residents already know Bai Yutang so well.


    "What do you cook for your gege''s birthday today, Yutang?" The senior nurse asked him.


    His kitten answered he cooked longevity noodles, just like everyone will receive at their birthday. While Jian Kang Lu started his round, he could hear how the nurses and his kitten discussed the best and easiest way to cook the broth.


    At night, they have dinner at the new restaurant in town. It was created by a three star Michelin''s chef from French and offers 7 courses. With its sophisticated ambiance, five luxurious private dining rooms and separate lounge bar, the restaurant is the dining darling of B city most elite circles.


    They close the night with hugging each other, just like every other night. Jian Kang Lu looked at his kitten in his embrace, and felt that his heart was really full of happiness.


    "Gege, I''m sorry I could only give that pen for your birthday." His kitten''s soft voice whispered in his ear.


    Jian Kang Lu just smiled and tightened his arms around his kitten.


    "I like it so much. And it will accompany me during the day when you''re not around when I work. So every time I missed you, I could hold and look at the pen from you."


    His kitten snuggled in his arms, and said, "I hope it could make you think of me. Just like I always think of you everyday."


    His kitten rarely said romantic words to him. To hear it today, and remembering the day he spent with his kitten, it truly was the best birthday he ever had. To Jian Kang Lu who lived for 38 years, birthday is nothing special. It''s just a day where people say happy birthday to him.


    But today, his kitten turned his ordinary birthday to be a memorable day in his life. Every day, his kitten turns his ordinary day into a happy day.


    His kitten gives him happy moments, turning him to be a happy man.

 Chapter 94 - Boy Can’t Understand What’s On A Girl’s Mind

    Winter is coming soon, and this autumn closure is colder than last year. Mid November used to be the month where people start to use their coat outside but not yet wear their thick winter coat.


    Bai Yutang is sensitive to cold weather, and his lover is very fussy about that. Every morning his lover will remind him to wear a sweater and wrapping shawl around his neck. His lover also frowned when Bai Yutang rejected his suggestion to take a taxi to his campus.


    One week ago, his lover told him to take a taxi this morning while they grilled fish from last night''s dinner with jasmine rice porridge. Bai Yutang cooks the porridge with chicken broth sprinkled with green onion and chopped baby carrot. The rice he used was really fragrant and his lover loved it so much.


    Bai Yutang often cooks baby carrots lately, because his lover asks for them. His lover lately has been busy, editing his professor''s research and needs to look at the computer screen for hours these days.


    His lover originally had minor myopia and astigmatism, but he rarely used his glasses because it didn''t disturb his sight in daily life.. It''s only when his lover reads too much that his nearsightedness will worsen. Jian Kang Lu said if he eats many carrots, his sights will soon come back to normal.


    Thus Bai Yutang lately always adds carrot in their menu, and makes carrot juice everyday for his lover.


    "Baby, you''ll have your mid term exam today, why don''t you just take a taxi today?"


    Bai Yutang speechless with his lover''s creativity to ask him to ride a taxi instead of a bus. There are hundreds of reasons previously thrown and he rejects each of his lover''s unreasonable suggestions.


    "Baby, it''s so hot today, why don''t you just take a taxi today?"


    "Baby, the forecast said it will rain today, why don''t you just take a taxi today?"


    "Baby, you look tired after those jobs you took lately, why don''t you just take a taxi today?"


    "Baby, yesterday I read in the news that someone got robbed in the train station, why don''t you just take a taxi today?"


    "Baby, I want to have your cook for my lunch, why don''t you just take a taxi today?"


    What is the connection between asking for a lunch box and taxi? Bai Yutang sometimes can''t understand how his lover''s brain works.


    It wasn''t a big deal to ride a taxi, but Bai Yutang just didn''t want to change himself into a pampered man. He still holds his own principle not to use too much money.


    His trauma when his father suddenly left them with a tight financial situation still imprinted in his heart. He doesn''t want to get back to his old self that uses money without much worry and then thrown into harsh reality.


    If he is really tired, or the rain truly heavy, he doesn''t object to his lover''s suggestion to ride a taxi. Because a few times he nods his head for his lover''s suggestion, making his lover tend to say these taxi requests often lately.


    "Gege, we have already talked about this many times. There are thousands of students having exams and still riding the bus everyday. I''ll be fine." Bai Yutang answered while preparing hot coffee for his lover.


    "But TangTang, it''s cold outside." His lover is still pleading with puppy eyes. Bai Yutang is just wondering how this man that already turned 38 year old still looks fresh every morning even though he hasn''t slept much everyday lately.


    Bai Yutang sighed when he remembered his shabby appearance and dark eye bags this morning in the mirror. Result from staying awake due to preparing his mid term exams.


    Sometimes, God really is not fair in the creation process.


    His lover also stayed late, working at the research. Published research needs a lot of finishing touch for their data. Since his lover is the best in data processing and arranging words for published papers, all the professors prefer him to finalise their research paper instead of Jian Kang Lu''s other junior.


    His lover never told him that, but Bai Yutang heard the nurses and the resident speak about that. Bai Yutang could see the admiration in those resident''s eyes when they speak highly about his lover.


    "Gege, I will be fine. I''ll wear my coat and shawl, and bring hot tea too." Bai Yutang''s tone is still flat. He trained to reject his lover''s pleading with a flat face and tone. Somehow if he does that, his lover will retreat and accept his defeat.


    As usual, his lover tightens his shawl and kisses him before he opens the door, preparing to go to the campus.


    "Take care, and let me know once you reach your class." His lover stood in the door and watched him until Bai Yutang out of his sight, when the lift door closed. That was his lover''s habit since before they were lovers. Just like his habit to open and hold the door for Bai Yutang or take a heavier groceries bag from Bai Yutang''s hand.


    Bai Yutang put on his earphone every time he stepped out from the apartment complex, and memorised the material he recorded for today''s exam while waiting for the bus until he reached university.


    Zhen Guo once told him, those questions in their university exams seem like unimportant matters in real life. Many fresh graduate architects just pass their exams for the sake of grade. But if you pour those theories into your own designs, it will prove very useful.


    Those words make Bai Yutang never underestimate those theories, and try to carve those in his every project. For example, the theory about the characteristics of a ramp that is handicapped accessible. Or which materials have the highest shading coefficient.


    Being an architect was not only about designs. But how to combine every matter and shape your imagination into reality which fulfil the purpose of the building. Designs, material, purpose, comfort, price, environment, and many more.


    No wonder, in his university, architecture students need 5 years to graduate. But the result, their architecture faculty is the best in the country.


    After the exam finished today, Bai Yutang really famished and they plan to eat at their favourite cafe near their dorm. Four of them walked from the dorm to the cafe in the afternoon.


    Tang Yuxuan, Liu Xiang, and Yu Dong talking about the exam and future upcoming projects announced before the exam. Because of his absence last year, Bai Yutang can''t talk about the same exam with them since they took different classes.


    Suddenly Tang Yuxuan changed the topic.


    "What you guys think about Fei Hong?"


    Since their internship last time, Fei Hong often interacts with Tang Yuxuan and they still close after this semester begins. Bai Yutang can guess what Tang Yuxuan means with that question.


    "This wife thinks she''s nice, and pretty. She''s famous since our first year, but never heard she had a boyfriend before." Liu Xiang is the first to answer that question.


    Yu Dong also nodded, "She was not a picky eater, it means she''s a good girl."


    Liu Xiang looks at Yu Dong, and doesn''t understand what his criteria of a good girl means. And Liu Xiang speechless when he saw Bai Yutang also nod his head in response to Yu Dong''s comment. No wonder they were used to being excellent roommates.


    "Why do you guys put a good girlfriend criteria on someone who was not a picky eater?" Liu Xiang curiously asked.


    Bai Yutang and Yu Dong look at Liu Xiang with pity. But Bai Yutang answered, "Eating together is the most important part in a relationship. So when your partner is not a picky eater, it will guarantee you having a smoother relationship and could enjoy your time together better. Besides, someone who was not a picky eater also means she was not afraid of trying something new and tends to be more open with suggestions."


    Liu Xiang listened to this ramble with disbelief, "You are a single dog from birth, why did you speak like an expert on this part? This wife could understand if Yu Dong is the one who said that."


    Bai Yutang calmly answered, "I have a sister, remember? She''s not a picky eater, and she tends to be adventurous compared to my other relatives of the same age."


    Tang Yuxuan nudge Bai Yutang, "It reminds me. Fei Hong once asked about you. She was curious and asking me about the girl you liked. It makes daddy jealous with you at that time. But Fei Hong said you reject Feng Mian with that excuse. I am confused since daddy never heard you liking someone, nor being in a relationship until now. We also didn''t see you eyeing any girl until now. When I asked why she wanted to know about you, she said Feng Mian really likes you."


    Liu Xiang was surprised. "Why do I just hear about this now? This wife is jealous! Who are you eyeing, TangTang? You even reject the Economic Goddess for that person."


    Liu Xiang then shows his most serious face, "You need to be careful, her fans club is no joke. Remember that filthy rich business management student that she rejected last year? It blew up in the forum. Poor that guy, he confidently asked her in public with that gigantic roses bouquet and even prepared real diamond earrings to woe her. But she coldly turned him down, saying that she prefers rubies."


    Yu Dong nod, it was a really hot topic last year. That guy is well known for having many beautiful girlfriends, riding sports cars to the campus. His yellow Lamborghini was super famous on the campus. His face is also handsome. The typical perfect boyfriend material. Some said his family owns the shopping mall in B city.


    That incident led to girls in their campus using the idiom ''I prefer rubies rather than diamond'' to express something they despised.


    Bai Yutang also knew that this idiom was famous on campus when he started his semester this year, but he had no idea that the source was Feng Mian.


    "You guys must be kidding me. Who would believe that Feng Mian likes me? She''s not blind." Bai Yutang really didn''t believe that Feng Mian liked him even though he already saw Feng Mian almost cried that day. He just can''t understand why.


    Tang Yuxuan shook his head and looked at him, "No offence TangTang, but daddy also can''t believe that at the first time. Then Fei Hong told me that Feng Mian really likes your calm attitude. Quoting Fei Hong''s words, Feng Mian said you look very elegant and soothing."


    Yu Dong and Liu Xiang also turn their heads and look at Bai Yutang in silence, and Yu Dong''s word is the next to be heard. "No offence too, TangTang. I can''t see it. I think it was just us boys who can''t understand what''s on a girl''s mind. Especially a Goddess like her. This Feng Mian''s taste may be a little bit different compared to normal girls."


    Even Bai Yutang also thinks that way. Maybe people with superior genetics tend to have weird tastes? Just like his lover that always said that he was handsome. Maybe ordinary people with common genetic patterns could never understand what these superior species have on their mind.


    Four of them soon arrived at the cafe, and they sat down in the corner. This is the same cafe where Bai Yutang heard Mu Xiaoya and her sisters talking about him and Jian Kang Lu for the first time. The cafe where he scold them for thinking that he and Jian Kang Lu is gay couple.


    Who could predict that now it was turn to be true. They are a couple now. Bai Yutang wants to laugh if he remembers that.


    Nothing in this world is absolute. This world keeps moving, and humans will never know what the future will bring.

 Chapter 95 - Commitment

    Liu Xiang looked at the menu, and chose macchiato and sandwich. He always likes the smoked salmon sandwich in this cafe. The lettuce is fresh, and they use wheat bread that adds the crisp on top of the salmon fillet.


    He turns his head to look at Bai Yutang, still can''t understand what makes Feng Mian like this ordinary man. It''s true that his friend has a calm personality compared to his own roommate, and this past two years he saw the transformation of this calm man into an elegant one.


    No one will believe that this man is a scholarship student that lives frugally and very petty with spending money. Just looking at his appearance will make people think that he was a young master from a sheltered rich family. It was true though, when Bai Yutang''s father was still alive.


    But now, this man looks even finer though he always states that he was poor and needs to save every penny. Those words contradicted the things attached to his body. From his coat, his shawl, his phone, his watch, his clothes, even his shoes, none of it look cheap.


    Liu Xiang knows it was due to Jian Kang Lu. And Liu Xiang also knows that Bai Yutang tried to imitate that guy''s habit and posture. This all Bai Yutang himself confesses to them. He idolises Jian Kang Lu so much. Liu Xiang often heard Jian Kang Lu this and Jian Kang Lu that from Bai Yutang.


    "TangTang, so tell me, which girl have you eyeing lately?"


    Bai Yutang frowned, thinking hard how to avoid this topic. "I thought we want to talk about Tang Yuxuan''s matter here? Shouldn''t we try to support him to pursue Fei Hong?"


    Yu Dong waved his hand, "That''s already clear that he wants to pursue Fei Hong, and we already gave our opinion. It was left to his own act how he wanted to convey his feelings to her. But your matter is more interesting. I''m curious."


    Tang Yuxuan also nodded his head. "True. I want to start giving Fei Hong hints about my feelings starting tonight. No matter what''s the result, if you guys thought she''s good, then i want to give it a try. Daddy is also more curious about you, TangTang."


    Bai Yutang speechless. He needs to lie, but he doesn''t know how. "I.. I don''t have anyone I like. I just told her that since.. Since.." Bai Yutang can''t find anything to say. He really is a bad liar.


    Liu Xiang chuckle, he really like to tease this friend of him. Lately Yu Dong already have girlfriend, hard to tease him anymore. But this pure friend of him, really a bad liar, and stammering when he was nervous. It was fun to tease this man until his face tinted with rose colour.


    "Since.. What? Do you know that Feng Mian likes you? If you have no one that you like, why do you reject her?" Tang Yuxuan asked.


    Bai Yutang panicked. He can''t tell his friends that he already has a boyfriend. He was not ready to tell his friends. Not this way. "It was not that I had someone I liked. But I really don''t want to have any relationship right now." Bai Yutang started to get nervous.


    Liu Xiang chuckled again, clearly this guy is lying. At first Liu Xiang just wanted to tease him, but now he is really curious. Why is this guy lying to them?


    "If you don''t have someone you liked, why don''t you just open yourself to her? Honestly, a girl like Feng Mian is out of our league. Maybe this handsome daddy next to me could stand together with her, but not us." Liu Xiang said this with a serious face.


    Yu Dong nodded, "True. We stand next to Feng Mian and will be like a frog sitting next to a swan. Why don''t you just try, TangTang? I remember you kept saying you wanted to have a girlfriend before. And heartbroken last time when the girl you liked turned out to be eyeing Tang Yuxuan. Feng Mian is a hundred times prettier than her, so why don''t you want to try to get closer with her?"


    Bai Yutang gave up. His friends really want to dig into this matter. The more he runs away, the more they will pester him like a cat hunting his prey. "First of all, my condition right now is not to allow me to date someone. Honestly, this slave thinks that you are all just hallucinating. A girl like Feng Mian won''t like me."


    Tang Yuxuan cut his words. "Then, can I tell Fei Hong that you don''t mind being with Feng Mian? Can I tell her that you''re free?"


    "Can you let me finish my words, daddy? This slave really can''t afford to have a girlfriend. Just think, if we''re dating, can I tell her that I can only afford the food in the cafeteria? And we had to pay for the meal by ourselves since I don''t have extra money to treat her?" Bai Yutang felt he found a perfect lie. Since it was the fact.


    If his partner was not Jian Kang Lu, but a girl in similar age with him, he really wouldn''t want to date someone in his situation like this. He even struggled to live by himself, how could he afford to date? Dating is expensive.


    Yu Dong frowned, "Girls these days are very independent. They don''t need us to treat them. Me and Mu Xiaoya often split our bills, we never care about where we eat or who paid our meal."


    The waiter comes with their order, and Bai Yutang says thank you to the waiter. He picked his own hot lemon tea, and sipped it to moisten his throat. He looked at Yu Dong with a flat face. "DongDong, you are dating Xiaoya for one year. You want this slave to remind you how you pursued her for the first time?"


    Yu Dong''s face is a bit red. He remembers those times, and it was true that he always wanted to show Mu Xiaoya that he was a gentleman, so he insisted on pay every time they''re going out with Mu Xiaoya.


    Liu Xiang laughed, he remember how Yu Dong always be the first to stand up and want to pay. That was the time if they want to have free meal, just invite Mu Xiaoya to eat with them and Yu Dong automatically will turn into a young master that want to show off his money.


    Liu Xiang teased Bai Yutang again, "Feng Mian is quite rich, all her things are branded. She doesn''t need you to pay for her. If she wants to have a rich boyfriend, then why does she like you? Why does she reject that business management guy? I don''t think she''s a kind of girl that just blinded with money."


    Tang Yuxuan nodded, "True, Fei Hong told me that her friend actually is a really sweet girl. She just has so many people like her and gives her an image of a high maintenance kind of girl. But in reality, it was not like that."


    Tang Yuxuan really wants Bai Yutang to be together with Feng Mian. It will be great if they can be paired like that. "If you are really worried about that, why don''t we try to have a double date. And see her reaction if you said you don''t have money."


    Bai Yutang really doesn''t see a way out from this conversation. "This slave really doesn''t have any confidence. Why don''t you try matchmaking Liu Xiang instead of me? I really don''t want to have a girlfriend right now."


    Liu Xiang lifted his eyebrow, "Why dragged this wife? Feng Mian likes you, not me. Come on, just tell us who is this girl you liked to make you insist this way? Does she already have a boyfriend? That''s why you don''t want to tell us?"


    Bai Yutang freaked out. He still remembers Yu Dong once being jealous of him and afraid that Mu Xiaoya likes him. How if these words ignite Yu Dong and make him suspicious with Bai Yutang?


    "No no, I really don''t have anyone I like!"


    All of them could see that this guy is lying, and it made them even more curious. Bai Yutang is not a man with many words, but he rarely lies, and usually opens with them. And this moment just lets them see how terrible Bai Yutang is at covering something he doesn''t want to say.


    "Then, why don''t you just follow Daddy''s suggestion? Why do you solemnly despise the idea of a double date?" Tang Yuxuan still tried to lure Bai Yutang.


    "Or, is it Feng Mian not your taste? What is your criteria for a girl you want to be your girlfriend?" Liu Xiang asked with a playful tone, while chewing his sandwich.


    "Definitely a girl who was not a picky eater." Yu Dong tease Bai Yutang. It was refreshing to escape from their roasting question. This time he was safe, since he already had a girlfriend.


    "I can''t understand that you like that girl. You know, the girl who claimed to be best friends with Liu Xiang''s ex girlfriend? Daddy can''t even see her charm. Now Daddy can see Feng Mian''s charm, and you reject her. Truly ungrateful." Tang Yuxuan talking about the girl Bai Yutang liked last time.


    That girl is honestly a bit annoying. Always throw smiles and thousands of questions to him, suddenly show up in the basketball field, act like a close friend to them. He is already uncomfortable with that girl''s attitude, moreover when he knows that Bai Yutang likes this girl.


    He wants to stay away from that girl, but Bai Yutang often invites this girl to hang out with them. Tang Yuxuan was glad that Liu Xiang finally broke up with his girlfriend and let the truth about this girl be known to Bai Yutang. It is really awkward to have a girl that your best friend likes pursuing you, and you don''t know how to bring this matter to light by yourself.


    "It''s not like that. Because I know myself, so this slave didn''t dare to think that Feng Mian likes me." Bai Yutang said in a small voice.


    "Then just tried. It won''t give you any harm to have a double date with me. We can pay our bills separately." Tang Yuxuan is still pestering Bai Yutang.


    Yu Dong pity this man, so he tries to save him. "Is there something you don''t like about Feng Mian? Or she was not your ideal type?"


    Liu Xiang tried to look shocked, "Really? A Goddess like that is not your ideal type, TangTang? So which one is your type? Remembering your last crush, is it a girl that likes to pretend to be a white lotus?"


    All of them laughed, and Bai Yutang stammered, "It''s really not like that."


    "Then, which one is your type? A bookworm type? With glasses?"


    "Naaah, definitely not a bookworm type, nor sexy one. If he liked the sexy one, definitely he would fall for Feng Mian."


    "Ah, a mature type? Or a motherly type?"


    "Yes, tell us!"


    Being pushed like that, suddenly makes Bai Yutang remember his lover. And he blurted, "Someone that is very warm and kind."


    Liu Xiang laughed, and was satisfied to finally see his friend''s face start to blushed. Now who will believe that this guy has no one he liked.


    They pestered Bai Yutang until the end of their dinner. While they''re walking back to the dorm, Tang Yuxuan approaches Bai Yutang and puts his hand on Bai Yutang''s shoulder.


    "I''m serious about the double date. Why don''t you give it a try?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head. He knew his friend didn''t believe him about what he said in the cafe. They all believe Bai Yutang has someone he liked. Even though he could escape from his friend''s prying questions by following Tang Yuxuan''s request, he still held on to his own principle.


    He wants to respect his relationship with his lover. A commitment between them, a trust.


    So Bai Yutang firmly said, "I can''t go on a double date with you, Yuxuan. I really can''t."

 Chapter 96 - Freezing Christmas

    Since Tang Yuxuan officially started pursuing Fei Hong, their lunch has become lively nowadays. The original four young men with Mu Xiaoya now also have additional members on their lunch time. Fei Hong and Feng Mian join them at least twice a week in the cafeteria.


    All of them can clearly see that Tang Yuxuan and Fei Hong like each other, and it was only a matter of time when these two people will be a couple. Fei Hong is pretty, and Tang Yuxuan is handsome. Both of them are just like a match made in heaven.


    Fei Hong seems cold if people don''t know her well. But once they got closer to her, she was a very warm person and attentive listening to you. Besides being a good listener, she also calmly gave feedback to you. These make Bai Yutang and the others comfortable with these two girls.


    Tang Yuxuan''s fans club started to smell this movement and their hearts shattered soon. To see the partner is Fei Hong, they could only raise the white flag and admit their defeat..


    T university is one of the elite universities. Most of the students here are really smart, since it was difficult to be accepted here. They used to be the smartest student in their original high school. So if there are handsome or beautiful people studying here, they definitely have superior genetics printed in their DNA.


    Feng Mian is also one of them. Bai Yutang admires this girl inside his heart. If he doesn''t have Jian Kang Lu in his life, he feels that he definitely will admire Feng Mian. Admire doesn''t mean like, moreover love. And honestly, right now he can''t feel anything towards anyone.


    Except for feeling fear for Mu Xiaoya.


    Every time they have lunch together, Bai Yutang notices that Mu Xiaoya will shoot lasers from her sharp eyes, piercing him. Like warn him not to talk or do anything kind to Feng Mian.


    But it was not possible, since Feng Mian was not doing anything according to Bai Yutang, and his friends were also not helping at all. They keep stirring the conversation to bring him closer to Feng Mian.


    For Mu Xiaoya, she could see Feng Mian still had feelings for Bai Yutang, and maybe grew even more. She always sits beside Bai Yutang. Even if someone else sits there they will move away, and ask Feng Mian to sit next to Bai Yutang. Clearly tried to tell Feng Mian that they ship her with Bai Yutang.


    Feng Mian will just blushed and shyly smile like a flower blooming in spring. Honestly, without smiling, she already looks stunning. That beautiful oval white jade face with a rose pink small lips curving slightly, giving an image of a fairy. Add that pure image with a pair of peach blossom eyes sparkling with tiny stars, even Mu Xiaoya herself had to admit that this girl looks like a Goddess descending from the sky to sit with the mortals here in T university''s humble cafeteria.


    Mu Xiaoya was frustrated with Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan''s attitude. It can''t be more obvious to see that they tried to match this Goddess with Bai Yutang. She already warned Yu Dong not doing that. She was swallowing her pride when Yu Dong happily accepted her warning, thinking that Mu Xiaoya was jealous of Feng Mian.


    ''Hello, can''t you see that Feng Mian is out of your league? Why should I be jealous with someone that clearly outshine us both?''


    But Mu Xiaoya can''t tell Yu Dong that she doesn''t want her ship sinking, right? Better to let his silly boyfriend think that she was jealous.


    "This is the first time you are jealous with me. Don''t worry, I can only see you in my eyes. No other woman can beat you in my heart, Xiaoya."


    Mu Xiaoya just nods her head like a chicken pecking the grain in the floor, and silently receives that soothing and flowery words thrown by her boyfriend, assuring her that he was a faithful man and won''t cheat on her.


    Winter is very cold. T university looks gloomy with dark clouds hanging in the sky. Snow is not yet falling, but misty rain sends the shivering cold to their bones. The earth is freezing, openly receiving the icy rain pouring from the clouds above.


    They plan to have the Christmas dinner this year in the restaurant Jian Kang Lu suggests. As a Christmas gift to them, Jian Kang Lu decided to give dinner with Zhen Guo as his gift to these students. He promised to introduce Zhen Guo to Mu Xiaoya and Fei Hong before. But because Jian Kang Lu and Zhen Guo are busy, it''s kinda hard to arrange dinner together with them.


    Mu Xiaoya and Ling Yue was not a hardcore fans of Zhen Guo like Liu Xiang. But which architect and architect to be in this country who doesn''t know this architecture God?


    They''re very nervous to meet him. Mu Xiaoya looked at the mirror for the thousandth time this afternoon, to make sure her appearance was decent enough for this Christmas dinner.


    With an emerald green knee length skirt, paired with black wool thick stockings to deflect the cold weather, and black sweater on top, she looks a bit mature. With her chubby cheek, sometimes people thought she was still in high school. Mu Xiaoya definitely doesn''t want architecture God to see her as a little girl.


    Though she was not a hardcore fans, but who doesn''t want to work in Zhen Guo''s firm? Even the last prodigy in their university that graduated a few months ago boasted to everyone that now he works in Zhen Guo''s firm.


    Ling Yue is even more nervous. "Xiaoya, Jian Ge really will invite the God himself? Really? Oh my God, how''s my hair?"


    Mu Xiaoya can only look at her roommate with a flat face, and suddenly feel silly with herself too. Why both of them are so nervous and change their clothes for the millionth time already. Even when they''re having a date, they''re not like this.


    But.. This is not a date. This is meeting the God himself!!!!


    Even the sacred lipstick and mascara released from their holy pouch as a divine weapon to make themselves look like a proper female species. While carefully applying mascara with her clumsy hand, Mu Xiaoya can''t help but curse inside. This hand of hers is stable while drawing straight thin lines and beautifully drawing curves. But why now tremble and shake when she tries to curl her eyelashes.


    With technology so advanced, they could send the monkey to space. But why can''t humans create automatic makeup tools to beautify themselves? Mu Xiaoya will be the first to line up buying those if they create it one day.


    Both of them look at the mirror in frustration. Ling Yue sounded defeated when she said, "And all our effort is just useless. Fei Hong and Feng Mian will be there too. What''s the use we try so hard right now? They''ll shine so bright and we''ll be left in the shadow."


    Mu Xiaoya silently agreed. They gave up, and just tied their hair as a final touch. They will go with Yu Dong, while Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang will take a taxi with Fei Hong and Feng Mian.


    When they arrived there, Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang were already there. Jian Kang Lu wearing a grey sweater with black thin lines around the neck. And Bai Yutang is wearing a light blue fluffy sweater.


    At that time, Mu Xiaoya saw Jian Kang Lu smiling gently, and looking at Bai Yutang. His eyes only look at the man besides him, enveloped within their own world. Different dimensions others can''t enter. The sweet atmosphere between them was so obvious, telling everyone in this restaurant that they were a couple.


    Bai Yutang talked about something to the man beside him. His hands sometimes moving, looks like trying to depict the scene he was trying to convey to the man beside him. His face complexion was not as white as Jian Kang Lu, but somehow there''s some light within, illuminating his face.


    Jian Kang Lu nodded his head, his eyes still locked to the man beside him. It was like no one else existed in this world. It seems nothing is worth looking at except the precious person beside him.


    Mu Xiaoya can''t help but sighed. How she wished her sisters could see this, and captured this sweet moment so they could cherish it together. Yu Dong already walked to the table, and waved his hand, greeting Jian Kang Lu politely.


    Mu Xiaoya wants to curse her boyfriend. She wants to look at this lovely scene longer! Oh, it was so hard to be a devoted fan who could only support her favourite CP in the dark.


    Ling Yue also greets Jian Kang Lu politely, and seems more nervous than before. Not long after, when they were still looking at the menu trying to order something that was not too expensive, Tang Yuxuan and others also arrived.


    With their arrival, the warm temperature in this restaurant suddenly felt freezing like the outside. At least, that''s what Mu Xiaoya felt when Liu Xiang talked about Bai Yutang and Feng Mian.


    Feng Mian was so pretty today. With a light blue wool gown above her knee, and dark blue wool stocking, she looks like a pure water fairy with her shining hair framing her face delicately. As usual, these people let her sit next to Bai Yutang.


    The stupid Liu Xiang commenting, "You guys well suited today. Both of you are wearing blue. Did you guys arrange it beforehand?"


    Mu Xiaoya looked at her ship with fear it would crash because of Liu Xiang''s comment. Mu Xiaoya could see Bai Yutang''s light in his face was gone, replaced with a nervous look. He hurriedly said, "No, we didn''t. It was a coincidence."


    The imbecile Tang Yuxuan''s voice heard from the corner, "Then it must be fate. What a sweet coincidence, seems like your mind is working at the same frequency."


    Mu Xiaoya wants to scream and toss these two idiots to the trash bin outside. Scratch their face, and lock them in the basement. How could they say that? Their words are even worse than their usual comment at lunch time.


    Jian Kang Lu was smiling so bright, but his icy voice didn''t match his usual gentle tone. "I believe that this is Fei Hong''s friend. Am I right?"


    "Ah yes, let me introduce you, Jian Ge. This is Fei Hong''s friend, Feng Mian. She was studying in T university too, in economic faculty. Feng Mian, this is our Jian Ge, the handsome doctor that i told you." Tang Yuxuan stood up and politely introduced them. Previously when Jian Kang Lu invited them and told him to bring Fei Hong, he already asked permission from Jian Kang Lu to invite Feng Mian also.


    At first when Tang Yuxuan asked him whether he could bring Fei Hong''s best friend, Jian Kang Lu didn''t think much about it and just agreed. But he was stunned to see this girl walking from the entrance and sit next to his kitten. He remembers, this is the girl he saw last time in front of his kitten''s dorm gate. The one that was clearly interested in his kitten.


    Looking at these group gestures, and their teasing words, it seems that his kitten often hangs out with this girl. And they were clearly supported to be a couple by his kitten''s friend.


    Jian Kang Lu felt sour. Really really sour. He had to admit this girl is really pretty, and a very good match for his kitten. Everyone would agree with her if his kitten decided to be in relationship with Feng Mian.


    Unlike him. Who will support a 38 year old man like him to be with this dazzling young man? Jian Kang Lu sensed something from his left, and he looked at Mu Xiaoya. Her face is a bit nervous.


    "Me and Yu Dong didn''t wear the same colour, does it mean we were not suitable with each other? I do think colour from the same palette is boring. I liked the bold variations." Her voice sounds calm though her face is not, and nudges Yu Dong''s arm.


    Yu Dong looked so happy to hear that. And he brushed his girlfriend''s hand lightly. "Mm, i also think that way. But maybe TangTang and Feng Mian are exceptions. Both of you really look good together wearing blue."


    At that time, Yu Dong didn''t know that he was just an inch away to be a single dog again.

 Chapter 97 - Freezing Dinner

    The restaurant they attend right now is a French restaurant located on the seventh floor of one the biggest shopping malls in B city. The ambience is sophisticated with a distinctly Parisian manner. The restaurant''s floor-to-ceiling windows overlook one of B city most intensely urban scenes.


    They sit in the middle of the restaurant. There was a big blue sofa in round oval shape. The table''s arrangement encircles the sofa, paired with comfortable chairs in front of the sofa. The potted plants were placed on the top of the sofa head, and a big chandelier hung above them. The city''s night flickered with light from the skyscraper outside the window.


    It was so beautiful and homey at the same time. Unfortunately, for Bai Yutang he doesn''t feel comfortable at all at this moment.


    Bai Yutang really felt awkward with this situation. He firmly stated over and over to his friends that he was not interested in having a girlfriend.. He admitted that he did not clearly reject their action in front of Feng Mian. But he always drew a fine line between them, that they''re just friends.


    He was mad and anxious. Mad with his friend''s attitude, anxious with his lover''s response. He knew from his lover''s tone, his lover must be jealous and angry. If it was him in his lover position, he would also explode with rage.


    But how could he say that he was in a relationship with Jian Kang Lu here? In this restaurant? In front of Fei Hong and Feng Mian? He was not that close with them.


    In this situation, he could only pretend to be deaf and divert the conversation. "Have you guys decided what to order? DongDong? Xiaoya?"


    Mu Xiaoya understands what Bai Yutang means. That guy asked for her help. She hurriedly said, "I never been here. Do you have any recommendations, Jian Ge?"


    Jian Kang Lu tried to smile, and answer in a mild manner. "This restaurant is famous for their beef tenderloin served with foei gras. But i personally like their iceland halibut."


    Mu Xiaoya knew that the price here was still reasonable for a man like Jian Kang Lu, but she felt uncomfortable to order something too expensive.


    Jian Kang Lu could see that they were afraid to order something too expensive. Just like his kitten. He smiled inside, it was good to know that these kids were not the kind of people that like to take advantage of others. He then suggested, "Why don''t you order a different menu each, then you could share later. That way, you guys could try every menu here."


    Mu Xiaoya grinned. It was really a great idea, that way, they won''t worry who ordered the expensive menu, and also could try every dish the restaurant offered. She really admires this handsome man. With her admiration grew, she glared at the dumb lamb beside this handsome man.


    This dumb lamb is so lucky to have this high quality gong as his lover, why he doesn''t want to shout at the world, announcing that this high quality gong is belong to him?


    After they ordered, they chatted between themselves. Then Mu Xiaoya saw Liu Xiang being stiff and his face straightened. They all turn their heads, look at Liu Xiang''s eye direction.


    The God has arrived.


    Jian Kang Lu wants to laugh at this moment, and forget about his sour feeling for a moment. To see these kids abruptly stand up and their face turn nervous, is really funny. They look like his residents when doing the grand round. Looks like an ordinary citizen meets the leader of the country.


    Fei Hong even almost stumbled and knocked her glass all over the table. Luckily Tang Yuxuan''s reflex matched his reputation as one of the best basketball players in architecture faculty. He catches the glass, and the water just spills a few drops on the table and nothing spilled over to Fei Hong''s dress.


    These girls look so nervous, even Ling Yue brushes her hand to her skirt over and over. Only Feng Mian looks calm between them. Even so, Feng Mian also knows Zhen Guo. Who doesn''t know this man that often popped up in magazines because of his magnificent masterpiece. B City tallest skyscraper.


    Zhen Guo came with Luo Jiao. They greet this group, and Zhen Guo politely shakes their hands while Jian Kang Lu introduces themselves one by one. Luo Jiao smiled and hugged Bai Yutang.


    "TangTang, JieJie missed you! You still owe me your lemon chicken, and that mango mousse."


    Bai Yutang smiled and received a big hug from Luo Jiao. She always gives him a big hug every time they meet, and even tighter if she was drunk. Just like an octopus.


    "I will cook it for you next time we meet, Luo Jie. Did you cut your hair? You look younger with this hair style." Bai Yutang knew this big sister liked it so much when he praised her.


    "Ah, I wish my wooden husband was as attentive as you. He doesn''t even know that i have a hair cut. Maybe I should look for a younger husband, a cute one like you." Luo Jiao winked her cat''s eyes to Bai Yutang.


    Jian Kang Lu reflexively put his hand on his kitten''s shoulder. It was an instinct to protect the one that belonged to him.


    Luo Jiao laughed. She always loves to see this man''s reaction every time they tease his little lover. Jian Kang Lu was never a man this possessive. It was refreshing to see a side she didn''t know existed inside this gentle man before.


    After they eat the appetiser and drink the wine, the atmosphere gradually becomes warmer and these kids start to loosen their stiff attitude. They talk politely, but are very enthusiastic. Clearly these kids really admire Zhen Guo. Luo Jiao smirked, they don''t know how stiff this man is in real life. It was a miracle they happily married until now, considering their personality differences.


    Luo Jiao saw the beautiful girl sitting beside Bai Yutang. If she was not mistaken, they introduce her as an economic faculty student.


    "What''s your name again? You''re really pretty. Studying economics?"


    Feng Mian startled with that sudden question from Luo Jiao. She nodded her head and smiled. "Yes, JieJie."


    "What year?"


    "Almost graduated, JieJie. I will defend my thesis next month."


    "Congratulations! I hope it went well! What do you plan after you graduate?"


    "I was planning to apply for a position in S group. I had an internship there last summer."


    Luo Jiao turned her head to her husband and Jiang Kang Lu. "S Group, isn''t it belong to Sun Hongjia? Which group belongs to his brother?"


    Jian Kang Lu nodded, "En, that company was under him. His brother took the IC group and S group was taken by Hongjia."


    Feng Mian and the others were surprised to hear that. Do these people know the son of the Sun Group owner?


    Zhen Guo nodded, "Yes, I design his office there. It reminds me, Hongjia still waiting for your answer in the group chat. You better answer him soon, Kang Lu. If he knew we have Christmas dinner today without him, he''ll be sulky again."


    Feng Mian was suddenly nervous. Who are these people? They seem very close to Sun Hongjia.


    Luo Jiao looked at Bai Yutang, "Ah, it reminds me about Lihua''s complaint. She was mad at you, TangTang. She said she was the only one that didn''t taste your lemon chicken. She said why are you excluding her? You better appease her soon, she was very upset."


    Bai Yutang speechless. These big sisters could eat dishes one thousand times more delicious than his cooking. Xie Lihua and Sun Hongjia even have 3 chefs at their big house. What''s so special about his lemon chicken?


    "Then, I''ll cook it later and send it to Lihua Jie''s house, and to you JieJie." Bai Yutang can only answer obediently.


    Jian Kang Lu frowned, "TangTang will have his final exam soon, why are you girls pestering him to cook?"


    Luo Jiao sipped her wine, "You bastard, you could eat TangTang''s cooking everyday. Why being so petty? His lemon chicken is really divine. Even Song Lixia said that if Bai Yutang doesn''t want to be an architect, she will build a restaurant for him."


    Even Zhen Guo nodded his head. That lemon chicken is really tasty. The meat was so tender, and the lemon is not sour at all. As a husband who never eats a meal cooked at home, Zhen Guo really envies Jian Kang Lu.


    Luo Jiao looked at Feng Mian again, "If you want to apply there, I guarantee you''ll be accepted immediately, without interview, if you can cook the same lemon chicken like this guy made."


    Feng Mian smiled nervously, and softly said, "Then i''ll ask TangTang to teach me how to cook it." She wanted to ask Bai Yutang why he didn''t tell her that he knew the owner of S group, when she told him that she was having an internship there last time. But she can''t ask that here.


    Tang Yuxuan winked at Bai Yutang, and teased them. "You could teach her privately, TangTang." The way Tang Yuxuan said it clearly conveys his meaning to the people in this table. Feng Mian blushed to hear that.


    Bai Yutang just stiffly smiled and sipped his own wine. He doesn''t dare to say anything right now.


    Luo Jiao was stunned to see this scene. Moreover when she heard the other guy next to a stiff faced girl saying, "I bet Feng Mian is a better cook compared to me and Xiaoya. You guys could use the dorm''s kitchen to practice and we could be the tester."


    Luo Jiao is not stupid, she could see this beautiful girl besides Bai Yutang bashfully curving her small lips, and stealing glances to Bai Yutang. Luo Jiao and Zhen Guo look at Jian Kang Lu. Jealousy displayed in their friend''s face. It was very subtle, but they could guess what their friend felt inside.


    If Luo Jiao is in Jian Kang Lu''s position, she will feel disappointed. Sad. Angry. Humiliated.


    To have your lover, the person you put in the highest position in your heart, matched with someone else in front of you and your friends. To see the one that should belong to you, and only you, coveted by other people right in front of eyes. And you''re not even allowed to do anything about it.


    It hurts.


    Luo Jiao tried to conceal the pity she had inside for her friend, and they hurriedly diverted the conversation. Trying to divide these kids'' attention towards Feng Mian and Bai Yutang, preventing them from having a conversation together again. Hope these kids didn''t tease them again.


    Luo Jiao wants to let Jian Kang Lu have his dignity in front of her and her husband. She still talks to Feng Mian and the other girls sometimes, pretending they didn''t notice anything.


    This was what Luo Jiao feared. Her friend''s little lover is still so young. Clearly this girl likes him, and is supported by Bai Yutang''s friends. If someday this young man decides he wants to have a wife instead of a husband, then the whole heartbreaking scene will repeat once more. Just like when Jian Kang Lu was crushed from Zhang Min''s decision.


    Even Luo Jiao feels she can''t face it again, moreover Jian Kang Lu. Luo Jiao didn''t know what Jian Kang Lu would do when that happened. Maybe he will just shut his world, and let no one enter it once again.


    It hurt the most when you already opened yourself, laid your heart bare naked with hopes and wishes, only to find the one you trusted so much shattered it into million pieces.

 Chapter 98 - The Ugly Duck

    Feng Mian looked at the photos taken, and a radiant smile bloomed quietly over her lips. She was satisfied to see her face in those photos. As expected, her right side is the best angle when photographed.


    In that photo, she was sitting beside Bai Yutang. If a stranger saw these photos, they must have thought that they''re couple. A very harmonious couple, with a matched outfit. If she cropped the others, it was perfect for their very first couple photos.


    Well, he hasn''t said anything to her though. But Feng Mian doesn''t mind his shyness. She enjoys their interaction so far. And maybe one day, he will realise that she was really like him. Feng Mian hoped that day would not take too long. Even though she was not in a hurry, it would be better if they could be in a relationship sooner..


    She was heartbroken when Bai Yutang said he had someone he liked. She thought she didn''t have any chance anymore. She was trying to smile and act like a friend in front of him every time they met.


    She was curious, who is the girl Bai Yutang liked. She wants to know whether that girl is truly better than her. If not, then why Bai Yutang didn''t want to give her a chance?


    At first, Feng Mian thought that girl was Ling Yue. That''s why she always pays attention to her, and smiles bitterly everytime they have lunch together in the cafeteria. Feng Mian was confused, she didn''t think she was inferior to Ling Yue in any aspect.


    But, as time passed by, she never saw their interaction like a couple. She never saw Bai Yutang pay attention to Ling Yue like a man towards the woman he liked. Feng Mian also never saw any girl around Bai Yutang.


    She was confused, and glad at the same time. It means she still has a chance. She really likes this guy. He was cute and smart. Most importantly, he looks like a nice guy.


    Unlike her father.


    Feng Mian was born from a middle class family. Her father owned a few stores in the city, and her mother was an ordinary housewife. Her good look comes from her grandmother and her parents.


    Her grandmother was an extremely beautiful woman. Unfortunately, her rich husband was not satisfied with her face. Or maybe her grandfather was just an ungrateful man. Even with a woman as beautiful as her grandmother, Feng Mian''s grandfather has many mistresses, and children from his mistress.


    Feng Mian''s father was the youngest son from her grandmother. They dote on him too much. Luckily her grandfather is rich, so her father still can live leisurely and feed his children well even though he was a bad businessman.


    His father earned money from the stores given to him, but he never could expand the business. Unlike his other siblings. Well, at least he was not bankrupt like Feng Mian''s uncle. Thanks to these stores, Feng Mian still could live a decent life. Even though she did not live like her cousins who pampered like princesses.


    His grandfather''s debauchery seems to be a genetic inheritance, because his father also has many mistresses. Luckily his father is smart enough not to spread his seeds around. At least, Feng Mian never heard she had any stepbrothers or stepsisters from these mistresses.


    Her parents fought a lot every time her mother found that her father had another mistress. Those fights will last for weeks until his father breaks up with his mistress. Then they will have a calm period before the storm repeats once more.


    Sometimes Feng Mian wonder, why her father was so stupid to let her mother know about his infidelity. If he was smart enough, her mother will not know. Since her mother only stays at home and does her job as an excellent housewife, and a wonderful mother.


    Her mother usually cries to her, and can only talk about her broken heart to Feng Mian. It was too humiliating to talk about her unfaithful husband to her parents. Moreover to other people. Her mother didn''t have many friends.


    Since Feng Mian turned 10 years old, she already heard those miserable words from her mother''s lips, accompanied with her mother''s tears running like a waterfall to her pale cheeks.


    "Feng Mian my daughter, you have to be a smart woman and you have to graduate from university. Don''t let any man trample and ridicule you like your father did to me."


    "Feng Mian my darling, you have to work, and earn your own money. Don''t be like your mother, who needs to depend on your father."


    "Feng Mian, never find a handsome man as your husband. Better you find an ordinary man who loves you, who adores you, and be faithful to you."


    Feng Mian can only nod her head obediently to her mother''s words. She took her extra lesson diligently, and studied well. It''s a good thing that her brain was inherited from her mother.


    Her mother used to be a star in her school days. She always got first rank, and very smart. But one day, her brother who was studying in university, introduced his friend to her. This man is so handsome, and wealthy. He was the youngest son of Mr. Feng, the one who had many mini markets and stores in their city.


    Her mother only knows how to study, and never knows what it feels to be in love. This handsome man showering her with affection and gifts, blinding her. This gentleman picks her up from school everyday, making her friends envy her so much.


    As a young girl, she knew nothing. She was lost in love, and gave this man her most precious thing she should have kept until they married. It was no surprise that she got pregnant. She was still in her first semester at that time, and had to drop out from university.


    They were married, because her mother was pregnant with Feng Mian. Not because her father loves her mother and proposes to her.


    It was a good thing that his father was still responsible and wanted to marry her mother. Maybe it was because her grandmother pushed him. As a woman who had an unfaithful man as her husband, her grandmother could relate to her mother. Both of them are women after all.


    Her grandmother often said similar words like her mother.


    "Don''t marry a wealthy man, just look for an ordinary man who is kind and loves you. A wealthy man tends to cheat on their wives."


    When Feng Mian was still a young girl, no one thought she would be a pretty girl. Compared to her aunt and her cousin, she was the ugliest.


    She was tall, but very skinny.


    Her eyes are big, but too big for her small face.


    Her skin is smooth, but dark. A result from her martial arts lessons.


    Her mother wanted her to be strong, so she was not trampled by those ungrateful bastards out there.


    Her beautiful aunts and cousins sometimes laugh at her when they gather on Chinese New Year, or on any family occasion. Her clothes are not as good as them. She was once envious of them so much. She felt like an ugly duck among these swans. At first she looked at them in awe and used to follow their words, hoping she could be as pretty and as dazzling as they were.


    But then, she started to see their real personality. Shallow girls who only think about their appearance. She was glad that her mother always flaunted her achievement at school in front of them.


    Feng Mian holds her mother''s words in her heart. Even though she was not pretty, at least she was smart. She always ranked first at school. She was the smartest among her cousins. And she was proud of that.


    She starts to listen to her aunt and cousin with a blank face. Obediently nod her head like before, but no longer stupidly hung her mouth wide open in awe to hear their nonsense.


    "Feng Mian, why is your hair so coarse? I''ll give you the rose oil I used for my hair. It was very good, and not expensive."


    ''Yeah right, it was just your way to flaunt your wealth. That rose oil is more expensive than my monthly allowance.''


    "Feng Mian, you should treat your hands and nails better. Look at these, aren''t these very cute? Boys like girls with cute nails, you know?"


    ''I don''t think there''s anything wrong with my nails. And the teacher at school will chop my hands if I ever show up with those paints on my nails.''


    "Feng Mian, i was so confused. There''s four guys pursuing me. Oh i don''t know which one i had to choose."


    ''Oops, it''s time to run away. Before you start to talk about these four guys for three hours like last time we met.''


    When Feng Mian was in her high school, suddenly she was changed. Because she needed to prepare for Gaokao1, she stopped her martial arts lesson. Her dark skin gradually returned to her original shade. A milky white jade.


    Because she rarely goes out, her hair gradually smoothes and longer. Her breast also grows into a size that makes other girls envy her. Thanks to her martial arts lesson, her muscles are well defined and will turn every boy''s head every time they see her walk.


    Feng Mian was changed from an ugly duck, into the swan. Most of all, she also learned from the magazine how to dress, how to talk, how to smile. She learned how to apply thin makeup, and learn how to stand as a proud and confident woman.


    With that help from magazines, her big eyes start to mesmerise every person she looks at. Her clear voice start to enchant every boy she talked to. Her soft lips start to bewitch every one she smiled to.


    And still the things that make her proud was her brain, and her Gaokao score that definitely the highest among her cousins. So high until they were shut out and said nothing. Not even a single congratulatory word spoken from their mouth.


    She received much attention from boys. In her first year in high school, she was charmed with this handsome boy. He was introduced by her friends. Feng Mian was studying in one of the best high schools in B city. This handsome and wealthy boy was not as smart as her, studying in the third rate high school.


    He was very attentive to her. At that time, Feng Mian still feels like an ugly duck, not yet realizing her charm. She was drunk with his affection. This boy confessed his love to her, and she happily received that boy as her first lover. They were a couple for one month, before Feng Mian''s friend told her that this boy already had a girlfriend.


    Feng Mian was shocked, and tried to find the truth. Once she found out that this boy truly has a girlfriend before her, and still in relationship with her, she was raged. It means she was the other woman in their relationship.


    She was ashamed, and broke up immediately. Since then, she has become paranoid with handsome and wealthy guys. Just like her mother told her, better to find an ordinary person but kind enough.


    Someone that respects her as a woman, and loves her. Only her. For a lifetime.

 Chapter 99 - Infatuated

    Bai Yutang is the first man Feng Mian truly liked. At first, she was charmed by his elegant looks and his inattentive gaze. All the guys used to look at her with awe. Bai Yutang is the only man who never laid his eyes on her. He was very calm, and also cute.


    Unlike those stupid man who only can flaunt their parent''s money, Bai Yutang act very humble. Even though all his things are expensive, it was the branded things with the hidden logo, or a very subtle one. If people don''t know, they will think it was just ordinary clothes or shoes. Bai Yutang also never shows his money to them, instead he always says he needs to save his money.


    The more Feng Mian talks to him, and knows his personality, the deeper she falls. She never feels this way to anyone before. That''s why she was jolted in happiness from Fei Hong''s words that day.


    Fei Hong just came back from her ''date'' with Tang Yuxuan. Feng Mian already knew that Fei Hong liked this handsome man since they got closer from their internship time in summer. Fei Hong jumped to her bed and excitedly said, "Feng Mian, i have good news for you!"


    Feng Mian was reading her novels on her tablet, and surprised to hear that loud voice in her ear. Fei Hong rarely shouts. One of the reasons Feng Mian became best friends with her is because Fei Hong is a calm girl.


    "What? Tang Yuxuan asked you to be his girlfriend?"


    Fei Hong frowned to hear that, "No, I said good news for you. Not for me."


    "If you''re happy, then it was good news for me." Feng Mian teased Fei Hong, poke her cheeks.


    Fei Hong pinched Feng Mian''s cheek back. "No, silly girl! It''s about Bai Yutang, your white moonlight1."


    Feng Mian was confused, does her best friend just want to pour salt upon her bleeding heart? It was not like her. Feng Mian turned her eyes back to her novel, answering Fei Hong with a sulky voice.


    "What? I told you he had someone he liked."


    Fei Hong''s naughty smile, who was rare to be seen, bloomed, and her naughty tone was heard in Feng Mian''s ear. Whispered to her, like telling her a big secret.


    "Guess what? Tang Yuxuan told me that Bai Yutang didn''t have someone he liked. He was just too shy. And he was trying to focus on his study. Did you know that he took a scholarship for this year? Turns out since his father died, he needed to save every penny left by his father."


    Feng Mian who flipped the next page of her novel was stunned, immediately turning her eyes back to her best friend.


    "Really?"


    But then Feng Mian remembers the first rejection she ever experienced, and turns her eyes dejectedly back to her novel.


    "It doesn''t matter, he doesn''t like me."


    Fei Hong laughed, she could see clearly that her best friend was infatuated with this skinny man, though she still could not understand why her beautiful friend like her ordinary classmate.


    "Really? You don''t want to try again? Or because Bai Yutang is a scholarship student?"


    Feng Mian abruptly pinched her waist, "Do you think i was that shallow? It was better for me if he was a scholarship student. It means he was a hardworking person, and responsible. But for what? He doesn''t like me."


    Fei Hong grimaced, her best friend''s power sometimes didn''t match her gentle and shy appearance. Why her fingers are so strong when she pinched on her, or when she slapped her back.


    "Ouch! Stop it! Seriously, who could reject our Goddess, who is famous in the whole campus? Your fans club will kill chopped Bai Yutang into pieces if they ever know that you fancy him this much."


    Fei Hong smiled to see her best friend pouting her mouth and her childish voice lingered in this room when she said, "You''re my best friend, of course you will only say good things to me."


    Feng Mian was so cute and pretty. She was also smart, and very sweet. Fei Hong can''t understand why this ungrateful brat of Bai Yutang dares to reject her best friend.


    "So, do you want to try again? Tang Yuxuan said they will support you wholeheartedly if you want to. They said Bai Yutang is just a shy guy, and dare not to think that you really liked him."


    Feng Mian stared at her tablet, but she couldn''t read any words in it.


    ''Is it true?''


    ''Do i have a chance?''


    ''How if he said those words because he didn''t like me?''


    ''Will he reject me again?''


    Fei Hong looks at her best friend''s face, who shows many expressions. Clearly this girl likes Bai Yutang so much. Fei Hong even could sense Feng Mian''s hostility towards Ling Yue when she was rejected at that time.


    "It wasn''t like you. The Feng Mian I know is always confident, and always does her best. The Feng Mian I know is a girl who knows what she wants, and tried her best to get what she wants."


    Feng Mian hugged her best friend''s waist when she heard those words. It was her actual words when she introduced herself to Fei Hong when they became roommates four years ago. She snuggled on her best friend''s waist, and felt her best friend ruffling her hair.


    "Don''t act like a child, you know it won''t work on me."


    Feng Mian grinned, and looked at Fei Hong.


    "You''re right, it was not my style to admit my defeat before i tried. If Tang Yuxuan really said that Bai Yutang was just shy, then I have to be the one that makes him forget his shyness and pursue me back."


    With that promise from Tang Yuxuan, they start to hang out often with these boys. Most of the time they hang out in the cafeteria, have their lunch together. As promised, they always let her sit next to Bai Yutang. And most of the time, they tried to stir the conversation to show their support for her and Bai Yutang to be a couple.


    Only Mu Xiaoya who seems to throw her hostile looks to her and Bai Yutang every time they talked together. It really confused her, why Mu Xiaoya need to be that fierce to her? But Fei Hong assure her that it was because Mu Xiaoya was jealous with her.


    "Honestly, every girl will be jealous of you. Especially when you dress this well. You even wear contact lenses and these tight jeans every time you go out for lunch together with them." Fei Hong said nonchalantly when Feng Mian was lamenting that Mu Xiaoya was very scary.


    "Do you think so? Maybe I should try a different image, clearly Bai Yutang didn''t look at me at all with this outfit. Maybe he was into a shy and sweet girl? Then tomorrow i''ll wear my skirts."


    Fei Hong just waved her hand, a sign that she doesn''t care about Feng Mian''s outfit. It doesn''t matter what Feng Mian wears anyway, she always looks stunning and beautiful. Even that cheap sweater from the bazaar will look like a branded sweater when she wears it.


    Tonight, at Christmas dinner, when Feng Mian saw Bai Yutang wear a light blue sweater, she was rejoiced, and whispered to Fei Hong excitedly.


    "We''re wearing similar outfits! Just like a true couple! Oh, he looks so handsome tonight."


    Fei Hong smiled to hear that. Her best friend looks mature, people won''t believe that she was actually a very sweet girl that didn''t have much experience in a true relationship. Her best friend is an expert when she rejects the boy''s confession, very smooth and kind. Except when she rejected that asshole from business management that kept bothering them.


    But in real relationships between man and woman, Feng Mian is just a naive girl. For example, Fei Hong didn''t understand from which side Feng Mian could see Bai Yutang''s handsomeness? All Fei Hong could see is a skinny boy with an ordinary face, sitting over there.


    For the man beside him, that''s what you called a handsome man. Fei Hong asked Feng Mian about that.


    "Did you see the man beside your white moonlight? That face is what we called handsome. Don''t you think so? He''s a doctor. Can you believe it?"


    Feng Mian frowned, and whispered back to Fei Hong''s ear.


    "You''re so blind. That man is okay, I can see that you''re so charmed with him. But my TangTang is a thousand time more handsome than him."


    Fei Hong speechless. Love really has the capability of turning a perfect vision into blindness if it comes to the person who holds your heart.


    Fei Hong decided to relay Feng Mian''s words to Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang, that Feng Mian was happy that today she and Bai Yutang wore similar outfits. Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang didn''t disappoint Fei Hong at all, and acted swiftly to stir the conversation about Bai Yutang and Fei Hong''s matched outfit.


    When the God comes, Fei Hong forgets about her best friend, and just sweats profusely. She knew that she was asking Jian Kang Lu to let him introduce her to Zhen Guo. But she can''t believe that Jian Kang Lu really fulfills his promise. She was so happy, and felt all of these things happening tonight is unreal.


    Feng Mian is of course very happy. She tried to place a few foods on Bai Yutang''s plate, and he didn''t reject her. She also tries to make a light conversation with him, and ask him a few light questions about the Sun Group.


    She can''t believe that Bai Yutang really knows Sun Hongjia, the owner of S group. This only makes her admire this man even more. She knew that this is the thing she liked about Bai Yutang.


    Even though he knows Sun Hongjia, he doesn''t try to flaunt and tell everyone about that. If this was other people, they would brag that they know Sun Hongjia, even if it was just a brief meeting. But Bai Yutang didn''t say a word about that. Truly a humble man.


    When the dinner was almost over, they prepared to say goodbye. Feng Mian was surprised these groups didn''t intend to take pictures together. But remembering Bai Yutang''s empty moments in social media, Feng Mian could understand.


    "Excuse me, could i take pictures together with you? It was such a wonderful dinner. It would be my pleasure if I could have a memento about tonight in pictures together with all of you."


    These people look at Feng Mian''s smile. That smile is really bewitching. It looks so pure, with a hint of plead and hope. They will feel like a cruel person if they ever reject this kind of smile.


    "Sure!" Luo Jiao smiled and sat back to her seat. They call the waiter to take pictures of them together.


    Feng Mian tried to sit as close as she could to Bai Yutang. She could smell his scent this way. And she really likes this man''s scent. What is this scent? So gentle, soothes her nerves, but also masculine at the same time.


    This man really makes her want to be his. She was infatuated with him. Head over heels in love.

 Chapter 100 - Unacceptable

    "Yutang.."


    The delicate voice of Feng Mian echoed in the hall. It made several heads turn to see the Goddess that will graduate soon. After she graduates, they won''t have the chance to see her in this hall again.


    These people saw their Goddess running in a small step, wearing a knee length light pink dress made from wool. It had a wide sleeve, covering her whole neck. Give the sensation of a cute maiden, pure and vibrant. Her motions were all graceful, and greatly heightened by the expression of her countenance.


    All the people who familiarly acquainted with Feng Mian had to admit that no one who was equal to her in beauty of person, dignity of manners, elegance of dress, brilliant of intelligence, and in short all that is lovely and finished in the female person. Such as she was the economic Goddess.


    Even with so many freshmen in economic faculty these past few years, Feng Mian''s position as the economic Goddess is unrivalled. In T university, where the students are the chosen one, it''s very rare to see this deadly combination. The girls admire and imitate her style.


    There''s even a forum that specially photographed her from far and discussed her style. These people are really talented to become a paparazzi. Maybe the forum administrator is a broadcasting and mass communication faculty student.


    For the boys, it was not exaggerated to say that they put her as their white moonlight. Their Goddess, who they could admire but seems impossible to possess.


    And they looked at the skinny man enviously, when they saw their Goddess''s expression. Her milky white skin brightened, her captivating eyes sparkled, her alluring lips curved slightly.


    "Yutang, what a coincidence. What are you doing here?"


    Dozens of ears perked up high to listen to her.


    "I just visited the administration office for my scholarship''s documents."


    "Do you want to go to the cafeteria too? Can I come with you? Fei Hong said she was already there with Yuxuan."


    Who is this man? They never saw this goddess who always looked kind but unreachable, bashfully smiling and battering her eyelashes like a butterfly flapping her wings.


    All they can see is this insignificant skinny man, who wears a brown jacket over a black sweater, weirdly smiling and just nods his head with a stiff expression.


    It''s impossible for this man to be their Goddess''s chosen one, right? If this man is truly her chosen one, all of the boys here will bite their nails and pull their hair, regretting why they never took a step to approach the Goddess. If this kind of man can move her heart, all of them can too! They definitely look better compared to this ordinary man with a very ordinary face.


    Someone, please tell us who this man is? This is a perfect time for the broadcasting student to photograph this man and give them the information they needed. How could this kind of ordinary man walk beside their Goddess? Chat with her leisurely. Truly unacceptable!


    Even that rich bastard from the business management faculty was pitifully rejected. That bastard''s face is a hundred times better compared to this plain man. They thought, if that kind of man can''t conquer their Goddess, who else can? They thought none of these humble students here could achieve that.


    Their Goddess could only be matched with a handsome rich gentleman who dote on her like the most valuable treasure in the world. How could they accept if their Goddess chose this kind of man who could be picked in the streets everyday?


    Feng Mian happily walked beside her white moonlight. She was hoping to meet Bai Yutang in the cafeteria, but she was lucky today. It must be a fate between them, for when she walked out from the administration office she could meet this man she dreamed about.


    "Yutang, you promised me to teach me how to cook that lemon chicken. When can we start? Can you teach me after I defend my thesis?"


    "Umm.."


    Feng Mian looked at her white moonlight who shyly lowered his head and couldn''t answer her clearly. It''s okay, she doesn''t mind to be the one who keeps talking.


    "I''ll defend my thesis on January 4th. Can you come and cheer me on? And you can teach me how to cook after that."


    Bai Yutang really didn''t have the heart to reject her request bluntly. Somehow, every time he saw Feng Mian act like this, it reminded him of his own sister. But he also remembers his lover''s expression this past two days. Since Christmas Eve''s dinner last Saturday, his lover''s face ashen and didn''t respond to him like he used to. His lover gave him a cold shoulder.


    It actually angered him too. He was already trying to appease his lover''s bad mood, but his lover was still mad at him. It was not his fault that his friends tried to match him with Feng Mian. He already stated he doesn''t want to have any relationship, and he also rejected Feng Mian''s requests many times before. What else could he do? Announcing his relationship to Jian Kang Lu to the whole world? His lover himself told him a few months ago that it was not very wise.


    And Bai Yutang also read in the internet forum, the bad experience of the people who choose to come out from the closet in university life. They strongly advise not to announce it unless you really have a strong mentality and don''t mind people shouting bad words to you.


    One of unknown man in the forum write his story, how his professor failed him because he was gay, and how his class mate calling him fag every single day. Some even said very horrible things to him, which made Bai Yutang shudder. He can''t believe people could be this cruel.


    And this man also wrote, if he could turn back time, he wouldn''t publicly announce that he had a boyfriend. A few months after that, his boyfriend cheated on him and they broke up. In the end of his story, he wrote that it was the most impulsive thing he had ever done, and now he suffered the consequences. He doesn''t even have a friend anymore, since all the boys are afraid of him.


    Bai Yutang also read in the forum how people encourage them to come out of the closet. They shared their beautiful stories, about how it changed their life, and it was not as bad as you think it will be. Their friends could accept them, and their family also didn''t mind.


    But after reading so many stories in the forum, there''s one thing that made Bai Yutang really can''t say that he had a relationship with Jian Kang Lu. He was afraid, if people knew that he was a cutsleeve, his scholarship would be cancelled.


    Bai Yutang decided to announce their relationship to his friends once he graduated. When he doesn''t have any worries about his scholarship anymore.


    "So? Can you spare your time to teach me cooking?"


    Feng Mian''s voice dragged his wandering mind back to the hall. The bustling hall was full with the students, and Bai Yutang could sense these people staring at them with curiosity.


    He sighed, and answered with a neutral tone. "I''m really sorry, but I will have my final exams in the second week of January. And after that i will go back to my hometown. So I don''t think I can spare my time to teach you to cook that lemon chicken."


    Feng Mian''s dispirited face could be seen clearly after she heard that rejection. She tried to plaster her smile, and said, "It''s okay. I understand..."


    They walked in an awkward silence, but then Feng Mian asked him again. Her voice was full of hope, but it was very soft and trembling. As if she was afraid, Bai Yutang will reject her sincere request once more.


    "Can you teach me after you came back from your hometown?"


    Bai Yutang really feels that he''ll be a heartless person if he rejects her request this time. So he nodded with a heavy heart.


    ''It will do no harm just to teach her. I could also invite Mu Xiaoya and Yu Dong, so it won''t be just the two of us.''


    Bai Yutang was determined not to give any hope and chance to Feng Mian. But he doesn''t want to do it in a ruthless way. He knows how it hurts to be rejected so bluntly.


    "That''s great! I promised you, I''ll be your diligent student, even though I can''t cook well, but I''m not that bad."


    Feng Mian''s delighted voice filled with happiness when she saw Bai Yutang finally accept her request.


    "I tasted your stir-fried tofu before, it was really tasty. How do you learn to cook? From your mother?"


    Feng Mian kept asking him questions, just like before. She always tries to converse with him, and Bai Yutang answers her questions in short answers, like always.


    They arrived in the cafeteria, and their friends waved their hands to them. Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang grinned to see them walking together. And once again, they teased both of them, hoping this two person could be a couple soon. Hoping that Bai Yutang will stop being stubborn and accept her sincere feelings for him.

 Chapter 101 - The Shadow

    The cafeteria bustling with students walking around, bring their tray full of food to their designated tables. The green chairs contrasted with the black and brown jacket dominating the swarm of people inside.


    Feng Mian already stood out with her looks and her exceptional charisma, not to mention her light pink wool dress which made their group here stand out among the crowds. So many eyes silently peeking at their direction.


    "Yutang, can you join us tonight? Let''s have a real Christmas Eve''s dinner like we used to in our favourite cafe." Liu Xiang asked him.


    Bai Yutang helplessly smiled, "This humble slave can''t do that. This humble slave still needs to revise his presentation. My turn is the day after tomorrow."


    The people on this table know how many subjects Bai Yutang took this semester. Honestly, they admired this guy.. For their first year, Bai Yutang didn''t stand out at all. He was an average student here, drowned among the outstanding talents studying in the best architecture faculty in the country.


    But now, even though he is still not the prodigy among them, to manage those heavy subjects and pass with above average scores is really an admirable thing. Even to get through the standard amount of subjects here is already hard. Bai Yutang took more subjects compared to them.


    Not many students here could get through their depression in their first year. Especially the one that only knows how to study, and didn''t have many friends. Architects do not only rely on their brain. It needs skills to be sensitive to space, and being able to grasp the cultural and societal demands of a place, put it to use in rather interesting ways.


    They have one person in their year who dropped out because he can''t handle the pressure. They were doing the project in their second semesters of that year. Their professor frowned and critiqued just about everything about his project. All the hard work, time, and energy he had poured into the project only highlighted how incompetent he was. It hit him hard.


    As everyone in their class, he had worked extremely hard but failed to meet the expectations. He was having a breakdown, as he was the honoured student when he was in high school. Like all of them here.


    Yu Dong came and sat in front of him. "I thought you finished your presentation already?"


    "It was the hospital design for Professor Xing''s class. But I haven''t finished my presentation for the urban class." Bai Yutang answered while chewing his steamed fish.


    Bai Yutang chose hospital as the theme of his projects. Since he came to hospital every Saturday to accompany his lover, it was easier for him to finalise his project and perfected it. Talking about his hospital project, suddenly it hits him, and he misses his gentle lover.


    His gentle lover who always hugged him when he sleeps. His gentle lover who always kissed him in the morning before he went to campus. His gentle lover who always looks at him as if he was the only thing worth to be seen in the world.


    Bai Yutang suddenly feels his food lost all its taste. He doesn''t want his lover to give him a cold shoulder anymore. Bai Yutang feels like he needs to throw away his own pride, and maybe just beg for his lover not to drown in a bad mood anymore.


    Maybe he could cook his lover''s favourite dishes today, and then asked his lover what he could do to appease his anger.


    "I heard that your hospital design received a compliment from Professor Xing, is that true?" Yu Dong asked once again.


    Bai Yutang waved his hand, "It was acceptable, but still can''t beat Yu Ling''s design. Her library design is truly marvellous."


    Liu Xiang wanted to throw his chopstick to Bai Yutang. Is this a new way to flaunt his achievement? Professor Xing is the one that made their friend drop out on their first year. His words are harsh. It''s really a nightmare if you got his class and can''t change your class because you''re late coming to the administrator office to change your class''s lecturer. To get an ''acceptable'' comment from him is already one of their highest achievements in class.


    "Okay then, it means only six of us going for tonight''s Christmas Eve dinner. Do you want to join us, Feng Mian?" Liu Xiang asked the pretty girl who was stealing glances at the man besides her.


    Feng Mian was a little bit startled, and answered, "Um, if Fei Hong joins the dinner, I''ll come with her too."


    Tang Yuxuan grinned, "Even though TangTang didn''t join us, do you still want to grace us with your presence?"


    Bai Yutang frowned to hear Tang Yuxuan''s comment. But he didn''t say anything, and just finished his meal. He really needs to find a way to stop all his friend''s unnecessary comments. This is exactly what makes his lover mad at him.


    Bai Yutang finished his class for today, and saw many people selling apples in front of the university gate. In this country, even though they didn''t celebrate Christmas for real, the tradition of celebrating the day itself is really popular in recent years.


    The sounds of Christmas Eve in their language is similar to apple and peace. Thus it has become a tradition to give apples to their loved ones and colleagues on Christmas Eve. It was called peace apple.


    Bai Yutang looked at one of the stalls selling these peace apples, wrapped in many kinds of decorated boxes. Some had blue boxes with snowflakes printed upon them, some in pink boxes with tiny hearts around them.


    ''Maybe i could make an apple pie for Gege tonight as my apology.''


    Bai Yutang searched for the recipe when he rode his bus home. The ingredients were apples, lemon Jell-O, cinnamon, nutmeg, vanilla pudding, and cracker crusts. It seems he needs to buy the apples, Jell-O and pudding in the mini market first. For the other, he still has stocks at home.


    Once Bai Yutang reached home after buying the ingredients, he cooked the apple pie. For the first part he only needs to cook the apple, water, Jell-O, cinnamon and nutmeg until apples are tender. Then he added the pudding mix. After that, he only needs to cool it down in the refrigerator. The cracker crusts will need to be sprinkled later on when the pie is ready to serve.


    Bai Yutang looked at the skies beyond that glass door. The skies darkened, nights will fall soon. Today is Monday, his lover must be busy in the clinic now. Bai Yutang opened his WeChat, and texted his lover.


    [Gege, I''m home. What time will you come home today?]


    Bai Yutang sighed after seeing their chat log today. His lover only messaged him twice today.


    [Gege, I''m at campus already.]


    [Okay, take care. I am already here at the hospital.]


    [Have a nice day, gege.]


    [You too.]


    That''s it. Only four lines of messages. Usually his lover will remind him to have his lunch, ask him how''s his lunch, or question how he spent his day so far. This time, his lover was really mad at him.


    Bai Yutang felt his heart heavy. Yesterday he was still raging with his lover''s cold shoulder, and rejected his lover''s request to accompany him to his family dinner. Until now, after they spent one year as lovers, Bai Yutang never met his lover''s family. He doesn''t know why, but he really doesn''t have confidence to come and be introduced to his lover''s magnificent family.


    But, after two days passed, he really didn''t want to fight anymore. He just wants them to come back to their usual warm and loving atmosphere. What is the use of putting your pride high, if you suffer?


    After bathing, Bai Yutang''s phone shows that his message was replied by his lover.


    [TangTang, I have Christmas Eve''s dinner tonight with my colleagues. You could have your dinner first, don''t wait for me. I might be late.]


    Bai Yutang stared at his phone for a while, and didn''t know what he should reply. He already imagined what he wanted to say, what he wanted to do when his lover came home.


    First he''ll hug his lover.


    ''Gege, merry Christmas.''


    Then he''ll kiss his lover''s cheek.


    ''Can you not be mad at me anymore?''


    Then he''ll try to act pitiful and coquettish while serving the peace apple pie he cooked.


    ''Gege, I missed you.''


    Then maybe they could have a short intimate time in the bed.


    But all of it seems impossible to do now. Bai Yutang knew his lover would come home near midnight tonight, just like last year. He felt his hope crushed by this wave of disappointment. Wash his heart cold.


    He sighed. He decided to apologise today, so he''ll just wait for his lover to come home tonight, and still execute his plan. No matter what, they will close today with a peaceful night, not a cold hug when they slept together last night.


    Bai Yutang eats his dinner alone, and works on his urban project in his studio. The room he used to stay before, now served as his small studio, full of his stuff and equipment. He was listening to the songs in his earphone while finishing his project.


    The coffee in the table is getting cold, Bai Yutang stood up and added hot water into it, then sipped it a little bit, getting rid of his sleepiness. He looks at the clock, it''s almost midnight. He walked back to his studio, and texted his lover.


    [Gege, it''s almost midnight. Did you drink a lot? Are you drunk? Do you need me to fetch you?]


    Thirty minutes passed without replies. Bai Yutang felt his disappointment start to change its shape into resentment. But he tried to press his own emotion, and drown himself back to his project presentation. He doesn''t want to fight anymore.


    When the clock showed it was almost 1 o''clock, Bai Yutang heard the faint sound from the door. He put his headphones off, and tried to listen, whether it was his imagination or his lover truly coming home. He already checked several times before, and all of it was just his own imagination.


    Few minutes later, he heard the sound of their bedroom door opening and closing. Bai Yutang was relieved, it seems his lover was really back home. He turns his computer off, and tidies his table.


    When he opened the door, he saw a lamp in their balcony flickering. He notes in his mind, they need to change the lightbulb tomorrow. He opened their bedroom door, it was dimmed. Bai Yutang forgot to turn the lights on after he took a bath this afternoon. The lights only come from their window outside.


    When he saw the shadows in the bed, he felt his sleepiness swept away. Splashed by a cold water, freezing his mind, shattering his heart. His hands which were still holding the door knob were numbed, and cold. As cold as what he felt inside right now.


    He saw two shadows collide in the bed. He recognised his lover''s shadow, lying in the bed. Still wearing the shoes, and his coat was laid on the floor. There''s an unknown shadow on top of him.


    His world is crumbling down.

 Chapter 102 - Life Must Go On

    Bai Yutang dragged his luggage out of the apartment. His steps unsteady, a little bit hurried. He doesn''t want to spend even one more second here, in this apartment complex. The place he used to call home for this past year.


    The sun had not yet risen, only its rays peeked behind the earth. Gives the dusk its golden light, though its brilliance dimmed by the winter fogs. The skies were still painted with dark grey clouds, and the street lamp still shone the park encircling this apartment complex.


    Bai Yutang sped his step up, but his heavy luggage slowed him down. The freezing wind blew, scratching the patch of soft skin on his cheek. It hurts, but Bai Yutang could not feel anything right now. He grit his teeth and used all the energy left in his body to drag his luggage.


    His red eyes coldly staring at the empty street.. Only a few cars and motorcycles passed him in this cold dawn. Christmas in this country is not a public holiday, but people still holed up in their warm bed after the Christmas Eve''s gathering. Bai Yutang waiting for the bus to come and save him from this nightmare.


    He didn''t sleep at all last night. Busy packing his stuff. He only packs his clothes, laptop, and other important things necessary for him to pass the rest of this semester. He only needs to get through another four weeks for this semester to reach its end.


    His red eyes felt cold, and dried. It could not shed any tears, since his inside felt empty right now. All the intense rage and sadness mixed together, and created the void inside his heart. Numbed his feelings. It''s good. Better to feel nothing compared to feeling sorry for himself.


    The bus finally came, and Bai Yutang lifted his luggage to the back seat. He put his backpack to the empty seat next to him, and his other hand held the luggage, preventing it from rolling down when the bus moved.


    Bai Yutang''s empty eyes staring at the front, and his mind wandering to the scene a few hours ago. He didn''t want to remember it, but he can''t help to rewind that painful memory.


    After he opened the bedroom door and saw the shadow of his lover entangling with the other, his brain stopped working, and stood there like a fool. Truly a fool. He could not utter any words.


    That unknown shadow seemed to hear his movement, and abruptly stood up, separating itself from his lover''s shadow. It turns its head and looks at him, who was standing in the door. Frozen like a statue.


    That shadow stood up, and walked toward his direction. Bai Yutang abruptly closed the door, and ran to his studio. He locked the door, and leaned his trembling body against the door. His chest heaving, trying to gasp for air, for it seemed to be gone. For the first time in his life he felt this kind of feeling.


    Humiliated, just like a clown. An idiot.


    There''s a sharp pain stabbing his heart, took his breath away. He slammed his own chest with his fist. Try to get the pain inside which clogged and constrict his throat, to go away. He could hear a knock from the door behind him, an unfamiliar voice try to call him.


    "Hello, is someone there?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t answer. He doesn''t want to. Bai Yutang waiting until the person outside to walk away from this apartment. He waited until he heard the sound of the door outside opened and closed. When he didn''t hear any sound again, he unlocked the door, and peek outside. It seems that person is really gone.


    After he was sure that no one was there anymore, he opened the bedroom door slowly and peeked inside. His cold eyes tried to focus on what''s inside the bedroom. Prepare his heart. And after he was sure it was only Jian Kang Lu''s shadow laid in the bed, he came inside. He stood there in the door, staring at Jian Kang Lu.


    He felt like dying inside, never occurring in his mind he will see something like this tonight. Jian Kang Lu, the person he loved the most in the world, dared to bring someone else to their bedroom.


    Bai Yutang wants to laugh at himself. ''It was his bedroom'', he corrected himself. He was no one, just someone who lived here for free. Leeched on this man.


    Bai Yutang didn''t even want to turn the light on. He stood there and stared at Jian Kang Lu.


    The man he wants to apologise to tonight.


    The man who once filled his world with happiness.


    The man he hoped to come back to him as his gentle lover.


    But this man shattered his hope, trampled his trust, and destroyed his world.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know for how many hours he stood there. The pain stabbing his heart grew into agony, leaving him breathless. He doesn''t want to be here anymore, for he felt it would truly kill him if he had to face this man again.


    His body took control since his brain stopped working. He walked to the closet, and pulled his luggage, filling it with his clothes. After he finished with his clothes, he pulled his luggage and walked out. He took one more look at the man he thought will stay with him until the rest of his life. The sound of Jian Kang Lu''s breath softly filled the air, along with the smell of alcohol.


    Bai Yutang packed his laptop and his other things in the studio. He despised everything Jian Kang Lu gave him. But his laptop, tablet, phone, and all his personal stuff is the things he got from this man. His old personal stuff was already gone. For all the things Jian Kang Lu gave him that was not important for him right now, he doesn''t even want to touch it again and just leave it as it was.


    After he finished, he wanted to leave immediately. But he could not, since the dorm''s gate will only opened at 5 am. So he waited, locked himself in the studio until the clock showed him it was already 4 am.


    While sitting in the bed, his brain starts to work again.


    ''Who is that man? Why did Jian Kang Lu bring him back here? If Jian Kang Lu was too drunk, why didn''t he call to pick him up? Why could that man get inside this apartment? Why is that man so familiar with this apartment?''


    If that man is just a friend who brings Jian Kang Lu back home, he will just leave Jian Kang Lu at the sofa. He doesn''t need to bring Jian Kang Lu to his bedroom.


    If he was someone close with Jian Kang Lu, he should know that Jian Kang Lu lives together with him here. And he will call for Bai Yutang to help him bring Jian Kang Lu to the room.


    But that man didn''t do that. He comes inside the apartment, and straightly brings Jian Kang Lu to the bedroom in a short time. It means he was familiar with this apartment, for he knows immediately where Jian Kang Lu''s bedroom was.


    The apartment door is using a passcode, it didn''t need the key. If Jian Kang Lu sober for him to tell this man his passcode, why didn''t he even bother to call Bai Yutang when he was going back home. If Jian Kang Lu can''t do that, why does this man know the apartment passcode?


    And why, why Jian Kang Lu let this man to throw his coat away, and let this man to hug him on the bed. The bed they used to sleep together everyday.


    Bai Yutang wants to puke. He feels nauseous. For him to imagine the man he used to love touched by another person, it disgusted him. Even when he remembers Jian Kang Lu used to have intimate time with his ex-lover already a hard thing for him. And he can''t believe this man dares to let someone else touch him while they''re together.


    Is it because Jian Kang Lu is mad at him, for him doesn''t announce their relationship to his friends?


    Is it because Jian Kang Lu wasn''t satisfied with him, since he doesn''t let them move on to the next step of their sexual activity?


    Is it because Jian Kang Lu find another man tonight who more attractive compare to him?


    Is it because Jian Kang finally Lu realised he was just an ordinary man? Not worthy of someone like him?


    Is it because Jian Kang Lu finally got bored with him?


    No matter what, Jian Kang Lu should tell him straight in his face. No matter what, Jian Kang Lu should respect his feelings. No matter what, Jian Kang Lu should not bring someone to this apartment, and let that man hug him in front of Bai Yutang''s eyes.


    Bai Yutang wants to laugh to remember his foolishness. How pathetic. He even cooked that unfinished apple pie as a peaceful offer for that man. He even wants to throw his pride to beg for forgiveness. He even stayed late, waiting for that man, and hoped that man kissed him like he used to, make love to him like they used to.


    Love him, like Jian Kang Lu used to.


    The woman''s voice from the bus automatic announcement startled Bai Yutang. It announced that they will arrive at T university dorms soon. Bai Yutang hurriedly stood up, and prepared to go down. He doesn''t know where he could stay from now on. He planned to go to Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan''s dorm first.


    He didn''t know what excuse he would tell them once he arrived. But he doesn''t care. As long as he leaves that apartment, anywhere is fine. Maybe he could apply for a dorm room again, and while waiting for the dorm room he could stay in Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang''s room first. Or he could rent the apartment around here, he only needs one month. After that, he will go back home.


    The skies still painted with dark grey clouds, and his future seems vague. Cloudy and foggy. Just like this morning on Christmas day. The winter with freezing cold wind, hazy with grey fog.


    But he only needs one more year until he graduates. He can survive. No matter what, he has to survive.


    Life must go on, even without the man he used to love.

 Chapter 103 - Bad Wolf

    Bai Yutang knew that people would see him with a weird look in their eyes, especially this dorm''s security guard. Unfortunately, Bai Yutang was not close with this man, so he just sat awkwardly in the security post. Tried to warm himself near the heater, sheltering his freezing hand from the bone piercing cold weather out there.


    Bai Yutang was very tired, but he didn''t want to disturb his friend''s sleeping time. He already sent the message to both of them, patiently waiting until one of them replied to his message.


    "Do you want hot coffee?" The security guard offers this skinny boy with red eyes sitting near the heater in the corner. His body shivering, and his lips a bit bluish. It seems this young man spent some time out there in this cold weather.


    Working as a dorm''s security guard in this university, he didn''t see many shocking things. Usually he only reminds those foreigners not to hold parties in the dorm room, or reminding the students not to bring their friend to sleep over in their room.


    Not many crazy things to experience.. Sometimes he thinks that the students in this university are too behaved, unlike his own son. To see a young student dragging his luggage before he opened the dorm gate is a little bit unusual for him.


    "Thank you uncle, if you don''t mind then i''ll have one." Bai Yutang stands up and pour the instant coffee into the paper cup, pouring the hot water, and stirring his coffee with the plastic spoon. He sipped that hot coffee to warm his body. Even though his body is warmer, his heart is even colder now.


    The pain inside won''t subside, throbbing, tormenting.


    For the first time in his life he experienced this kind of feeling. The pain has an unpleasant vibe, sears through his abdomen like a branding iron. The pain isn''t sharp like a needle point or a knife, it burns around his innards like boiling water. But instead of burning, he froze inside. He still feels nauseous from it. His mind conceding to the torment, unable to bring a thought to completion.


    "Which faculty?"


    Bai Yutang turned his head when he heard that question. He answered softly, for he was afraid this uncle would hear him choked. His throat constricted from the pain. It''s already hard for him to breath, moreover to find air to generate his own voice.


    "Architecture, uncle."


    The security guard nodded his head. Ah, now he understands. A lot of architecture students knock on the dorm''s gate late at night, or early in the dawn, since they''re working in the campus''s studio for days. They often pull an all-nighter, especially in their last year.


    "Fifth year?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head.


    "Fourth year, uncle."


    Bai Yutang should be in his fifth year now if he didn''t take leave last year. Tang Yuxuan, Yu Dong, Liu Xiang, and Fei Hong are in their fifth year. Next semester they will have their final project. If everything goes well, all of them will graduate in the next seven month. Only Bai Yutang left behind.


    The security guard didn''t ask for more. He wants to ask why a fourth year architecture student with red eyes shows up early in the morning, with a big luggage and backpack. But it seems that question was inappropriate, since this skinny boy looks on the verge of tears as he stands there knocking on his door a few minutes ago.


    Bai Yutang already drank two cups of coffee, and the winter sun already spread its warmth to the earth, though it was not enough to unfreeze the icicles hanging in the trees like crystal balls. Reflecting the dimmed rays of sun, sparkling behind the fog.


    There''s a buzzed sound from his phone. Bai Yutang looked at his handphone, and saw Liu Xiang reply to his text.


    [This wife awakens from his beauty sleep. What''s the matter?]


    Bai Yutang stood up, and said thank you for the coffee to the security guard. Then he dragged his luggage to Liu Xiang''s dorm. He knocked on the door once he reached there. Few moments later the door opened, with Liu Xiang''s face looking annoyed. As if I want to shout who the hell is knocking at their door this early.


    Liu Xiang''s face couldn''t conceal his surprise to see Bai Yutang standing there. His eyes wander to Bai Yutang''s luggage and his backpack. His mouth opened, wanting to ask something. But in the end he asked nothing.


    "Come inside, TangTang."


    How could Liu Xiang have the heart to ask something, when he saw his skinny friend standing in front of the door with a haggard face? His face complexion is very pale, with bluish pale lips.


    Liu Xiang wants to ask, why Bai Yutang shows up here early in the morning? Why does he bring big luggage with him? Why does he look so tired? Why does he looks, so sad? How many hours did he spend outside on this winter night? What happened?


    But he just kept the question for himself. When Liu Xiang closed the door and turned his head, he saw Tang Yuxuan stretch his body under the blanket. He must be awakened from the knock. But Tang Yuxuan didn''t show any more movement. He was back to his sleep, holding his pillow tight.


    Liu Xiang was reminding himself to shut Tang Yuxuan from asking questions to Bai Yutang. Liu Xiang was afraid Bai Yutang would run away and shut himself again like last year, when Bai Yutang''s father passed away.


    "Can i use your bathroom?"


    Liu Xiang nodded, answered Bai Yutang, "You can use mine if you don''t bring yours." Liu Xiang referred to the toiletries Bai Yutang might need.


    Bai Yutang washed his face with warm water, and looked at his face''s complexion in the mirror. He laughed in his heart, mocking his own reflection in the mirror.


    ''No wonder Jian Ge is tired of you. What do you expect? For a man with no talent, a face as ugly as you, and you wished to have him as your faithful lover?''


    Bai Yutang really appreciates Liu Xiang for him asking nothing. It was really hard for him to say anything right now. Bai Yutang walked out from the bathroom, and he felt tired. He really needs to shut his eyes before morning class. Christmas in this country doesn''t mean you don''t have classes.


    "Can i borrow your bed for one hour? And take a bath here later? I have class at 8 am."


    Liu Xiang nodded, "I''ll wake you up later. Do you want something for breakfast?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head, and flopped his body to the bed. Laid his tired head on Liu Xiang''s pillow, and hid under the warm blanket. He really is not feeling hungry at all. He also was not sure he could sleep. He just wanted to shut his eyes, and used the blanket to hide from the outside world.


    Tang Yuxuan woke up a few minutes later, and was surprised to see Liu Xiang sit in the chair, with a lump beneath Liu Xiang''s blanket. His drowsy eyes widened immediately to see a big luggage and backpack in the corner of the room. Who was sleeping under Liu Xiang''s bed?


    Liu Xiang became aware of Tang Yuxuan''s movement, and brought his forefinger to his lips, a sign for Tang Yuxuan to keep silent. His eyes warn Tang Yuxuan to say nothing.


    Tang Yuxuan recognizes that backpack, it seems it belongs to Bai Yutang. He mouthed to Liu Xiang with no sound, ''TangTang?''


    Liu Xiang nodded, and texted something on his phone. Few seconds later Tang Yuxuan''s phone vibrated.


    [It''s TangTang, don''t ask anything. I also held my questions. Let him talk to us if he wants to, don''t push him.]


    Tang Yuxuan wanted to protest, it was not like he wanted to interrogate this poor man. It was just he worried about their pure skinny friend. But he also admits, sometimes he can''t hold his own questions, and could be a little bit annoying. With that, he surrenders to Liu Xiang''s sharp eyes who give him warning.


    His phone vibrated again.


    [You want to take a bath first? If not, I will. Let TangTang sleep until 7, don''t disturb him. You better buy some breakfast for us while i take a bath.]


    Tang Yuxuan replied to that question with his shoulder, indicating that he let Liu Xiang take a bath first. Then he grabbed his jacket, to buy bread and hot milk for them.


    At 7 am, Bai Yutang opened his eyes after Liu Xiang nudged his shoulder several times. He could feel the veins in his temples pulsating, for he only slept less than one hour. He silently sat on the bed.


    "TangTang, you can take a bath. Did you bring your towel? I have a clean towel if you don''t bring any."


    Bai Yutang was stunned after he heard Liu Xiang''s question, it seems he really didn''t bring any towel with him when he packed last night. With a low voice filled with regret, he answered, "It seems i didn''t bring any.."


    Liu Xiang nodded, and walked to his wardrobe. He gave Bai Yutang a clean towel, and a set of new toiletries for him to use.


    In the bathroom, Bai Yutang tried to clear his head. No matter what happened last night, today he still has to go to his class, wrap his slides and study for tomorrow''s presentation. But the pain is still inside. Along with his rage, and his sorrow.


    ''Gege, why are you doing this to me?''


    A question he doesn''t want to hear the answer.


    Tang Yuxuan gave him hot milk and bread for breakfast after he finished his bath. Bai Yutang adds some coffee powder inside his milk. He needed to stay awake, and hoped the coffee did its magic. Bai Yutang tried to smile, "Sorry to invade your room. This humble slave will try to find room later after today''s class."


    Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan each had their own guess, but they agreed to hold their tongue. Especially when they see that bitter smile from their friend.


    Tang Yuxuan was the first to respond, "Daddy will accompany you looking for the room today. Don''t worry, you can stay here until you find it."


    "Okay, please cover this humble slave so uncle security won''t throw me out after the curfew." Bai Yutang tried to joke with them. And it was reality, this dorm didn''t allow any guests to sleep overnight.


    Bai Yutang''s backpack gives a soft buzzing sound. It must be from Bai Yutang''s phone. Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang didn''t know who called Bai Yutang at 7.30 in the morning, but once again, they had some guesses in their mind. Bai Yutang took his phone from his backpack, and they could see their friend turn off his phone.


    "What class do you have this morning?"


    Liu Xiang tried to divert Bai Yutang''s attention. He was surprised to see his calm and gentle friend show a furious expression when he turned off his mobile phone. As if he despised the caller so much, hating the caller from his bone. Never in Liu Xiang''s life did he see that kind of expression shown in Bai Yutang''s face.


    Tang Yuxuan already opened his mouth, reflexively wanted to ask who was the one called Bai Yutang and make him turn off his phone. Is it Jian Ge? Does his prediction about this suspicious man come true? But before he could ask, Liu Xiang kicked his shin so hard until he suspected he would need X-Ray later to check his bone.


    With teary eyes, Tang Yuxuan could only glare at Liu Xiang, who gave him a fiercer glare back at him.


    Whatever, the most important thing is to help their pure friend now, and protect him from the bad wolf.

 Chapter 104 - Let Me Go

    Yu Dong looked at Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan with questions in his eyes. But they just shrugged their shoulders, and said nothing. His girlfriend who sits next to him also nudged his hand and she gave him the same question look. Yu Dong could only imitate his friend''s gesture, implicitly saying that he knew nothing.


    All of them could see Bai Yutang''s face very pale, and chew his lunch absentmindedly. To be precise, he kept chewing for more than two minutes. The spoon is just hanging above the food, and it seems Bai Yutang will only finish his lunch at dinner time if he keeps eating at this rate.


    Clearly this skinny man had something in his mind, but they could not ask anything. Who has the heart and guts to ask this man, who tries to eat his lunch with slightly red eyes.


    They have their lunch in awkward silence, and even slow their own eating pace. But after they spent more than 40 minutes in this cafeteria, Bai Yutang''s lunch still left more than half on his plate. He didn''t look like he wanted to finish his lunch.. The others say nothing about that. But they strive to feed this skinny man with delicious food for dinner. They still remember how Bai Yutang got sick and hospitalised two years ago from his imbalance diet and cold weather.


    "Do you still have class, TangTang?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t answer, his mind drifting somewhere else.


    "TangTang.." Tang Yuxuan nudged Bai Yutang''s shoulder. It made his skinny friend jump, look at him and answer in a startled voice.


    "Uh? I-I''m sorry, I didn''t hear your question."


    Tang Yuxuan tried to smile and repeat his question in his most gentle tone, "Do you still have class after this? I''ll accompany you looking for a place to stay if you don''t have any class."


    Liu Xiang hurriedly added that statement, afraid if Bai Yutang felt he was unwelcome in their dorm, "Don''t worry, just stay with us if you can''t find any room for today."


    Bai Yutang didn''t answer immediately, it seems he tried to focus his own mind. "Umm, I still have classes, finished at 3 o''clock. I''ll call you when I''m done."


    Tang Yuxuan nodded his head, he didn''t say anything else because Liu Xiang was busy stepping on his feet. Seriously, does his roommate was not satisfied with breaking his shinbone? Does he need to break his toes too?


    Bai Yutang excuses himself, his class will start soon. The others wave him goodbye with stiff smiles plastered on their face. Once Bai Yutang''s shadow was gone behind the cafeteria door, Yu Dong whispered to Liu Xiang.


    "What happened?"


    Liu Xiang helplessly smiled, "I also know nothing, he doesn''t say anything, and i can''t ask. Just give him some time."


    "What do you mean by looking for a place to stay?" Yu Dong whispered to Tang Yuxuan.


    Mu Xiaoya tried to blend herself with the shadows in this cafeteria, unnoticed. But she perks her ear high, trying to listen with all her might.


    "It seems he ran away from that wolf''s apartment. I told you, that Jian Ge is suspicious. He must be doing something to TangTang, to make him appear at our dorm this morning, dragging his big luggage."


    Liu Xiang frowned to hear Tang Yuxuan''s comment. "Don''t draw your own conclusion. Just give TangTang some time, and let him tell us if he was ready."


    Yu Dong''s mouth hanging wide, he really didn''t understand what happened. His ex-roommate is someone so gentle, and rarely mad at someone. What things could happen until he runs away from Jian Kang Lu? Unfortunately, Yu Dong''s imagination is limited to buildings and space. He can''t guess anything about human relationships.


    "Is it okay to let him like that? We don''t need to ask him? Offering our help?" Yu Dong really worried about Bai Yutang.


    Liu Xiang nodded, "Remember last year? When he''s gone missing? I think if we push him, he''ll just shut himself like last year. Better like this, at least we still can watch him nearby."


    Mu Xiaoya''s mind is chaotic. What happened to her favorite CP??? Will it sink????


    Bai Yutang doesn''t know how he spent this Christmas day. He keeps thinking about last night''s incident. And busy suppressing his own emotion. He doesn''t feel hungry, don''t feel sleepy, don''t feel anything.


    But sometimes, when he remembered some fragments of his memories, he had to spend great effort holding his tears. His eyes constantly stinging from the pain inside.


    Walking through the pavement outside this faculty building, he remembered how happy he was when he finished his class and walked in light steps, because Jian Kang Lu would fetch him that day.


    Eating the chicken and broccoli stir-fry this lunchtime was enough to remind him how they spent dinner together everyday. Once he cooked chicken and broccoli when he was still an amateur. The broccoli was so hard, and the chicken was too soft. It tastes really weird, too salty.


    But Jian Kang Lu gently told him when he was lamenting his own cook, "I really like this crunchy broccoli. And the chicken is so tender, it won''t tucked between my teeth. I like how it tastes. If you don''t like it, then let me finish it all."


    All those happy memories seem to be sharpest knives, stab his heart. It hurts.


    Bai Yutang tried to focus his mind, listen to the lecture, and take notes with his tablet. The tablet given to him as their monthly anniversary gift. He already removed the casing, planned to throw it away. Or just sent it back to the one who gave it. And it also drags his mind to their anniversary moments.


    Those happy moments, that he thoughts will last forever, shattered just in a blink of eye.


    ''Gege, why are you doing this to me?''


    That question repeated more than one thousand times in his mind.


    "Okay, let us wrap it for today. Wish you good luck for your final exam."


    Bai Yutang startled to hear his professor saying those words, and saw his friends stand up. The class finished. He didn''t even manage to listen to today''s lecture. He sighed, it seems he needed to borrow his friend''s note. Usually it was his friends who copied his notes.


    When Bai Yutang walks out of the class, he turns on his phone. He had turned it off this whole day, from the morning since he saw Jian Kang Lu called him.


    Once he turned it on, his phone vibrated non stop. His WeChat is busy popping the notifications. He checks those dozens of messages, most of it from Jian Kang Lu.


    [Baby, did you arrive at your campus? Why didn''t you wake me up?]


    [TangTang, where''s your luggage?]


    [TangTang, where are you?]


    [Baby, why did you turn off your phone?]


    [TangTang, we need to talk. Where are you? I''ll come over there.]


    [Baby, let''s talk. Don''t run away from me.]


    [Baby, please don''t be mad with me. Let''s talk first.]


    [TangTang, let me explain.]


    [Baby, you promise me, that you would not run away from me.]


    [Baby, i missed you. Please, just come back.]


    [TangTang, please forgive me. Please..]


    [TangTang¡­ Please¡­]


    Two parts inside him, he was happy to see this man flustered and begging for his forgiveness. Three parts are sadness, since he reminded once again of the things that happened last night. That two shadows entangled together. He thinks that those memories will haunt him for his lifetime.


    Five parts is anger, what''s the use of talking and asking for forgiveness? A broken jar could not be whole again, no matter how you fixed it. Jian Kang Lu should never have done that in the first place.


    Bai Yutang didn''t even finish checking his notification when his phone vibrated. Jian Kang Lu''s name showed up on the screen. Bai Yutang halted his step, and stared at his mobile phone.


    He used to be very happy every time he saw that name appear on his phone''s screen.


    Bai Yutang froze in his place, standing in the hall. Amidst the student''s walking around, filled the hall with their chatter. Talking about their project, their exams, their plan to spend new year''s day. Some talk about the game, or the new movie that became a blockbuster this week.


    But in Bai Yutang''s world, time stopped. The world stopped.


    The sound is gone. Silence, quiet, mute.


    The phone in his hand keeps vibrating, non stop. It already shows 10 missed calls from Jian Kang Lu. And Bai Yutang didn''t want to answer. He just waited until this man was tired of calling him. But after some time passed, and the missed call showing it reached 32 missed calls, it didn''t stop. It seems this man really wants to spend his time trying to call him.


    How could he call Tang Yuxuan in this state? Bai Yutang turns his phone off again, and decides to go to Tang Yuxuan''s room. Tried his luck, maybe they didn''t go anywhere this afternoon.


    When he almost reached the dorm building''s area, suddenly a hand grabbed his arms. Bai Yutang startled, for that hand grip his arms tight, hurting him, dragged him to the direction of that someone. He tried to balance himself from that sudden movement, but he didn''t manage to steady his body. Bai Yutang can''t avoid bumping his body to that someone.


    "TangTang, why didn''t you answer my call?"


    That familiar voice is trembling. Bai Yutang almost can''t believe his ear. Is this his hallucination? Why does Jian Kang Lu appear here in the afternoon, on his campus? He should be in the hospital. Today is Tuesday, he should work until night.


    "TangTang, why don''t you listen to my explanation first? Please?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t want to raise his head. He doesn''t want to see this man''s face ever again. Afraid he will just surrender and let this man fool him one more time.


    "Can we talk?"


    Bai Yutang tried to push the hands who gripped his arms tight. It hurts him.


    "Don''t run away. Do you want to talk here? Okay. It was not like you think. I''m sorry i was wasted last night, bu.."


    Before Jian Kang Lu could talk more, Bai Yutang just yanked that hand as hard as he could. But that hand won''t let him go. Bai Yutang sure it hurt Jian Kang Lu''s hand, he hit it hard. And he doesn''t care.


    "Let me go." Bai Yutang''s voice trembling, he could not conceal his rage. He really doesn''t want to talk to this man. He doesn''t want to hear this man''s voice again.


    "No. I don''t mind talking to you here, or hug you here if you don''t want to listen to me."


    In normal situations, Bai Yutang will care about what people will think when they see two men standing like this in the middle of the dorm''s yard. But now he doesn''t care if Jian Kang Lu threatens him this way.


    "Let me go. Now! I also don''t mind shouting here, asking for help."


    Both of them quiet for a while, and their heavy breath could be heard. Both of them tried to suppress many emotions they felt inside.


    "I don''t mind you shouting here. Try me."


    Jian Kang Lu''s voice is low, but very stern and a little bit cold. His pleading and pitiful tone from before almost gone.


    Bai Yutang tried to kick, and yanked that hand once again. But Jian Kang Lu''s power is surprisingly stronger than his. With adrenaline running in his veins, it is supposed to make him stronger. But he still can''t get this man to release him.


    "Let me go! I warn you. I don''t want to hear anything. Not now, ever!"


    "No!"


    Bai Yutang''s pain inside boiling like hot water, like a burning fire, scorching his rationality. All he knew was that he was hurt, he was sad, he was pained. Disappointed. And he wants to make this man feel the same pain as he does.


    "I don''t want to hear anything from you. It was useless. Let''s just break up."


    That hand gripped his arms tighter. Bai Yutang can''t help but flinch from the pain.


    "TangTang, the thing I hate the most is to hear the break up words. Don''t ever say that to me. Listen to me first. Talk. Like adults."


    "Then I''m not an adult. You''re free to find an adult that suits your taste."


    "TangTang!"


    "Let me go!"


    This time, Bai Yutang almost shouted. Both of their breaths are even heavier now. Their chest goes up and down rapidly, struggles to breath.


    Finally Bai Yutang could hear Jian Kang Lu sighed, and try to bring his gentle tone back.


    "Okay, I''ll give you time. Let me know once you are ready to talk. Please TangTang, I don''t want us to break up. Ever."

 Chapter 105 - I’ll Come Again

    That afternoon, Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan saw Bai Yutang knock on their dorm''s door with trembling hands. His eyes rims were red and slightly wet. They say nothing. Tang Yuxuan couldn''t say anything except "Ouch!" when Liu Xiang pinch his waist so hard. He had no idea why his roommate changed into a sadistic man.


    They accompany Bai Yutang to the dorm''s administrator. Once there, they look at their friend''s face, who is still miserable even though the administrator happily told him they have several empty rooms in this dorm''s building. The administrator also told him that four people are currently looking for a roommate.


    After looking for these people''s background, Bai Yutang said he wanted to contact this third year student from the Computer Science and Technology faculty. The other three were either first or second year students.


    "Let''s contact that man right now, who knows we could visit the room." Tang Yuxuan said with a light voice, hoping his friend''s bad mood slightly brightened if today''s mission to find a new dorm room was accomplished..


    Bai Yutang seems to want to say something, but he just hung his head low. Both Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan racked their brain to find something to say.


    "Can.. Can I borrow your phone to contact this man?"


    Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan immediately reach their pockets to give their phone to this skinny man who asks in a pitiful tone.


    ''What happened with TangTang''s phone? Is that bastard asking TangTang to return all the things he gave before?''


    Tang Yuxuan wants to ask, but once again his vicious roommate pinch his arms. This time surely it will be bruised. "Ouch! Why do you pinch my arms???" Tang Yuxuan can''t help shouting.


    Liu Xiang smiled sweetly, "This wife just wants to pinch Daddy''s arm. Here, TangTang, just use my phone."


    "Thank you.." Bai Yutang can only answer with a hoarse voice. He almost choked, because somehow he was grateful that his friends didn''t ask him anything. The man Bai Yutang called agreed to meet and let Bai Yutang visit the room tonight.


    When they walked back to the dorm, Liu Xiang asked Bai Yutang whether he wanted to have their dinner outside, or just buy and eat at the dorm. To see Bai Yutang''s state right now, Liu Xiang was sure that Bai Yutang would choose to eat at the dorm. But surprisingly, Bai Yutang chose to eat outside. At the small restaurant near their dorm.


    They invite Yu Dong to have dinner together. At the restaurant that night, three of them try to make Bai Yutang eat more. They order spicy fish and tofu soup, salty egg soft shell crab, and cashew chicken.


    This cashew chicken used to be Bai Yutang''s favourite every time they visit this restaurant. The tender chunks of chicken combined with the crispy roasted cashews and vegetables, tossed in a light sauce from garlic, soy sauce, and traditional hoisin sauce. It was really tasty since this restaurant used their secret recipe for their hoisin sauce. But today it looks like Bai Yutang had resentment towards that cashew chicken.


    Looking at Bai Yutang eating slowly, it seems like it will take forever for him to finish what they silently put on his plate. So they order some hot chocolate for him. They also order apple and banana juice as takeout. If their skinny friend can''t eat much, at least he needs to drink milk and juices.


    Bai Yutang slept with Liu Xiang that night. He tries to sleep since his eyes are really tired, dried from sleep insufficiency. But he can''t, he just stares at the wall before him. Finally he called Liu Xiang, checking whether he already slept or not.


    "Mm? Did you call me, TangTang?" Liu Xiang thought maybe his skinny friend finally wanted to tell him what happened with him last night. Tang Yuxuan''s ear also perks high up.


    "Can i sleep over that side? I want to study for tomorrow''s presentation. I can''t sleep thinking about it."


    "¡­."


    Why? Why does this man still want to study? Clearly he had a big problem bothering his mind, thus he can''t sleep. Why don''t just tell them what''s going on, so they won''t feel like walking through a thin glass? But instead of telling them, why did he choose to study? Why?


    Liu Xiang rolled his body, allowing Bai Yutang to wake up and study at his desk. Tang Yuxuan really can''t hold his curiosity anymore. But somehow before he could utter any words, his savage roommate threw a pillow at him. The pillow was soft, but Liu Xiang threw that pillow as if he was Babe Ruth1. Tang Yuxuan felt his nose crooked after receiving that pillow attack.


    "Ouch!" Why did you hit me again?"


    Liu Xiang walked towards Tang Yuxuan and laid beside him. "Because suddenly this wife is missing you, daddy. Let me sleep hugging you tonight."


    Liu Xiang really needs to guard this insensitive man. Tang Yuxuan is a really nice guy who likes to protect his friends. But sometimes, he was so dense and inflexible. Liu Xiang often jokes with him by telling him to stop being such a pigheaded boor.


    Bai Yutang studied until near midnight, when he finally yawned. He felt guilty to let Liu Xiang sleep with Tang Yuxuan. Clearly he is the one who is invading their room, he should sleep on the floor. But the floor is so cold, and they don''t have an extra bed nor blanket.


    Tonight they already meet his roommate to be, and he seems okay. His name is Xu Chenjie. He looks decent, and they agreed to become roommates after Bai Yutang saw the room was clean and tidy enough.


    Even though Bai Yutang found the room, he could only move there on January 2nd. He still needs to fill the paper and administration''s stuff tomorrow. After that, his roommate will go for New Year''s holiday starting Friday evening.


    It was not possible for him to move after he took care of the administration stuff, for the room will be empty. If he moves there with his roommate''s stuff inside while the person is on holiday, it will be hard to prove his innocence if something was missing and his roommate accuses him of stealing something.


    It happened before in this dorm, a few years ago. Since then, the dorm administrator strongly advised them to move in while their roommate was inside. To avoid any misunderstanding and accusation between students.


    When Bai Yutang closed his eyes, he could not help to think about Jian Kang Lu. For months his body became accustomed to Jian Kang Lu''s arms encircling his waist while he slept. Embrace him with his warmth, shield him with his affection.


    But now, all he could feel is the coldness growing within his body, wrapped him with wretchedness.


    It was only one night since he decided to leave that man. And he is already lonely.


    In the morning, Bai Yutang awoke first. No matter how tired he was, his body trained to wake up early in the morning. Preparing breakfast for Jian Kang Lu. Things he won''t do ever again for the rest of his life. Since he already woke up, he decided to take a shower and study his presentation again.


    Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan seemed surprised to see him already showered and sitting at the desk, studying at 6 am. They asked him to have breakfast in the cafeteria together, and he agreed. Bai Yutang tried to act like nothing happened, and tried his best to smile and laughed.


    What he doesn''t know, his acting ability truly sucks. Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan just look at his awkward smile, and they decide to keep their opinion for themselves. They need to appreciate their skinny friend''s effort.


    Bai Yutang was glad that he managed to get through another day, though his pain inside was still throbbing hard. He was sure that this pain would eventually subside. He only needs to hang on, manage to get through this pain day by day. Just like when his father passed away.


    But that time, his pain subsided along with Jian Kang Lu''s appearance at his hostel door. Once Bai Yutang remembers those memories, his pain will flare and gnaw his heart from inside. He hates himself for being sad every time he remembers all his happy memories with Jian Kang Lu.


    In the afternoon, after his class, once again Bai Yutang was surprised with Jian Kang Lu''s presence. That man waiting for him in front of his lecture building. Sit on the bench under the tree, with his eyes locked at him once he stepped out from the entrance door.


    ''This is Wednesday, no wonder he could be here at this hour. But how does he know I was in this building?''


    Today''s presentation is held in the different building Bai Yutang used to have classes. Bai Yutang suspects his friends, or Mu Xiaoya, as the culprit. But he also didn''t tell them that he will have a presentation in this building. Bai Yutang decides that he doesn''t need to know, and he doesn''t need to care about it.


    Once again he ignored Jian Kang Lu, and once again the scene from yesterday repeated.


    "TangTang, can we just talk? I missed you¡­"


    Bai Yutang steeled his heart while listening to that miserable tone. He could see Jian Kang Lu''s complexion was no better than him. He tried his best to dodge Jian Kang Lu''s hand, who tried to hold his hands again.


    "It was all a misunderstanding, TangTang. That night I..."


    Bai Yutang cut this man''s explanation. To hear his explanation from that night will only bring awful memories to him. Memories he wished to erase from his mind.


    "I told you, I don''t want to hear anything from you. I don''t even want to hear your voice again."


    Bai Yutang turns his body and walks away from this man he hates so much. This man keeps sending him messages and calls him non stop once he turns on his mobile phone. He can''t even turn on his mobile phone to check his other messages. Maybe he needs to block this man''s number and WeChat tonight.


    "TangTang, it''s okay if you''re still mad at me. But can we have dinner together tonight? I won''t talk if you don''t want to hear my voice."


    Bai Yutang just walked away and hastened his steps. He won''t be a fool the second time.


    He could hear Jian Kang Lu''s steps from behind, following him. Once they arrived at Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang''s dorm area, Bai Yutang said without turning his head.


    "I told you, we''re over. I don''t want to see you again. Save your effort to come here, and stop following me like this."


    Bai Yutang could hear Jian Kang Lu halt his step and sighed.


    "Please wear your shawl and your brown jacket. This blue one is thinner. The wind has been very cold lately, I don''t want you to get sick."


    Then Bai Yutang could hear the man used to love so much, say his next words with a longing tone, with a gentle voice.


    "I''ll come again tomorrow, TangTang..."

 Chapter 106 - Last Day Of The Year

    Architecture students will have their final exam in the next ten days. Looking at their faces, the exam''s pressures clearly can be felt. You can see the exam''s phenomenon everywhere. Panda eyes, unkempt hair, walking while mumbling in the hall. The atmosphere is heavy, and it could even be heard from their weird jokes.


    "Let''s light the fireworks. When everyone celebrates the new year, we celebrate finals!"


    "I feel like having a girlfriend when final exams come. It had too many questions which I couldn''t answer."


    "Name the nation people hate most! It was Exami-nation¡­"


    You could hear the forced laugh slip their throat, trying to ease their tensed nerves during this period since the joke was not really funny at all. They only need something to release their amassed stress once the final exam preparation time comes knocking at their door.


    Bai Yutang was feeling glad he managed to pass his last presentation in this semester, even with all the pain he felt inside. He was afraid he''ll make a lot of mistakes due to his chaotic mind. Luckily he mastered his project before all this nightmare happened.


    Last night he blocked Jian Kang Lu''s phone number and WeChat, so he could finally check his other messages from his friends, his sister, and his mother. He erased Jian Kang Lu''s number from his phone today, wishing it would erase his pain too. Hope it will release him from this suffering once he presses that button.


    But it didn''t work.


    The things he could not understand was why this man showed up in front of his lecture''s building again. Is this man not working? This is Thursday. He should be in the hospital at this time. Somehow, it makes Bai Yutang think that maybe Jian Kang Lu lied to him for this whole time. Maybe he was not that busy, and just said that he was in the hospital to visit his other lover.


    Bai Yutang knew he was not reasonable. But he can''t help to think that way, for his pain still clenches his heart, won''t let him go. The other part of his brain knew that maybe this man really didn''t want to lose him, thus he chose to wait for him here. Ignoring the cold freezing weather, sit under the tree, and wait for him. But his heart rejected that idea. If Jian Kang Lu doesn''t want to lose him, he should not do that kind of thing to him.


    The other students can''t help to look at Jian Kang Lu. It was rare for them seeing this kind of handsome face here. And it is even weirder to see this tall handsome man silently sitting under the tree in this kind of weather, staring at the entrance. Most people with intact sanity will wait inside, looking for a heat source to unfreeze their cold hands.


    A lot of master degree students have classes too in this building. Maybe this tall handsome man is one of them. But why is a master degree student sitting there on the bench like a statue? Is this another weird experiment from the psychology students? But why do they conduct the experiment in the architecture building instead of their own?


    Once Bai Yutang noticed Jian Kang Lu sitting over there, he turned his body and planned to leave the building through another door. Few moments later he could hear a running step behind, following him. Without looking back, he knew who it was. Or maybe it was just his imagination. Maybe deep inside his heart, he still hoped this man would follow him even though he avoided him.


    That step slows its pace and follows him closely from behind. Once they walked out from the back door of this building, Bai Yutang felt his arms once again held by this man. He tried so hard to yank that hand he despised. This time, Jian Kang Lu let him go.


    "TangTang, have you eaten? Can we have dinner together tonight?"


    Bai Yutang just ignored this man, and walked steadily to the dorm''s building. Bai Yutang really hates this man, for all the people around look at the both of them with curiosity. He knew this man was just too eye catching. And he hates it more, for it reminds him that he clearly is not the one who could equally stand by this man.


    For he was a man with no talent, and just an ordinary face.


    "TangTang, how''s your day? Your exam is coming soon?"


    To hear those words, suddenly enraged Bai Yutang. ''Why do you care? You could just pay your attention to that man!'' He almost shouted the words that filled his mind since that night. But he didn''t manage to do that, since it would just hurt his pride more.


    "You know I have exams coming soon, and you''re still bothering me like this."


    Bai Yutang could hear the steps behind him halted, and then run towards him.


    "I''m so happy to hear your voice."


    They almost reach the dorm building. In the middle of his anger, this 10 minutes walking from the lecture''s building spent in the blink of an eye. Bai Yutang once again felt his arms brushed softly from the man behind him.


    He really can''t take this anymore, so he turns around.


    "I told you i don''t want to hear anything from you, nor to be disturbed like this. Just go away, leave me alone!"


    Without waiting for a response from this man, Bai Yutang abruptly turned his body again and almost ran to the dorm building. His safe haven.


    That man was not following him anymore. Bai Yutang thought maybe Jian Kang Lu would finally give up.


    But the next day, on Friday afternoon, once again this man popped up outside his lecture''s building. He truly doesn''t understand why this man always knows which building he attends his lectures.


    The same scene from yesterday repeated once more.


    "TangTang, i missed you so much¡­"


    Bai Yutang could hear softly spoken words filled with longing, and it almost tickled his heart once again. He gritted his teeth, and hated himself to easily sway like this. He refuses to be a fool once more.


    Bai Yutang was a man who believed a relationship is sacred, it has to be a mutual trust between two people. Trust. Once it was betrayed, it could never be back to the previous state. For the trust is gone.


    "TangTang.. Can we just have dinner together tonight? Please¡­ I really missed spending my time with you.."


    Bai Yutang felt if he kept hearing this man speaking, he would eventually give up. He needs to cut this man here, now. Forever gone from his world.


    "I told you, we''re over. Stop it. I have exams coming soon, and you are really bothering me. Will you be satisfied if I fail my exams because of you? Are you happy that way?"


    Bai Yutang regretted that he could not say those words with his original intention, trying to sound stern and harsh. It''s good if he could hurt this man more. But his voice trembled when he said those words, unable to hide his anger, and mostly his sorrow.


    Bai Yutang could sense the man behind him didn''t expect him to speak. But that man didn''t stop following him even though he finally could shut this man up. Jian Kang Lu said nothing until they arrived in the dorm''s building.


    "TangTang, i won''t bother you. Good luck on your exam. Please eat your meal regularly, and take care of yourself."


    One part of his soul was relieved to hear those words. Finally this man understand he doesn''t want to see him again. But the other part felt miserable. Is this man easily give up on him?


    Bai Yutang almost laughs when he realizes he thinks that way. Why on earth does he feel sad because Jian Kang Lu gave up on him? Jian Kang Lu already trampled his pride by taking that man to their apartment. Jian Kang Lu already gave up on their relationship once he let that man come inside.


    On Saturday and Sunday, he didn''t see Jian Kang Lu again. No wonder, since Bai Yutang also didn''t step out from the dorm''s room. The four of them decide to study this weekend. Bai Yutang needs to study hard to maintain his scholarship, and the others are having their last final exams. For next semester they will defend their thesis.


    Yu Dong and Liu Xiang discuss their final project. They have already started their project since last month, while Tang Yuxuan is still discussing with his supervisor about his project. Yu Dong chose to design a game company''s building. As expected from a gamer who dedicates his life only for games and his girlfriend.


    But Liu Xiang truly amazing, it seems his internship days really bring a lot of progress for him as an architect. He chose to design a legislative assembly. He even thinks about the details and the meaning of it. From the overall designs, until the minor details such as stairs and walls, all was integrated into his thesis''s title. The Three Principles of the People.


    It was an ambitious project, and it makes Bai Yutang envy Liu Xiang a little bit. He knows maybe he could never be like Liu Xiang. But he will try his best, and just passed the exams right in front of him first. His priority is to maintain his scholarship for his final year.


    With them busy studying, Bai Yutang felt a little bit relieved, at least he could bury his grief and resentment. Channeling his rage into memorising the exam''s material. It surprisingly worked after a few days his brain couldn''t concentrate at all.


    Bai Yutang was really grateful for his friends being here, asking him nothing. They treat him like nothing happened, don''t even mention a word about Jian Kang Lu. He''s so lucky to have them as his friends.


    Even though at noon he could suppress his misery, laughing with his friends, enjoying their lunch and dinner provided by Mu Xiaoya, but at night he still felt lonely. Sometimes he hugged his pillow tight, like the way he hugged Jian Kang Lu. At those times, his eyes will painfully throbbing from the corner, trying hard to hold back his tears.


    At noon on Monday, they have lunch together with Fei Hong and Feng Mian. Somehow, these two didn''t join any of their lunch last week, and Bai Yutang is grateful for that. But today it seems Tang Yuxuan can''t hold himself anymore, asking Fei Hong to have lunch together.


    Bai Yutang could see that Feng Mian was surprised to see his current state. He tried his best not to show his miserable gloomy mood in front of them. And he''s glad they seem not to pry for more.


    "Let''s have new year''s eve dinner together!" Tang Yuxuan excitedly invited all of them to spend the last day of this year in their usual cafe. He said he would book the place if they all agreed.


    Looking at Tang Yuxuan''s face, clearly he wants to spend more time with Fei Hong before they have their winter holiday and spend Chinese New Year with their family in their hometown.


    Bai Yutang didn''t have any reason to reject, thus he agreed. He can''t feel anything for that whole night. It seems his inside is hollow. He just smiling and talking along with the flow.


    Mu Xiaoya looking at him with concerned several times, but Bai Yutang avoid her. He doesn''t want to tell her anything, nor he want to hear her suggestion anymore about Jian Kang Lu. He know Mu Xiaoya will defend Jian Kang Lu, asking him to listen to Jian Kang Lu''s explanation.


    Bai Yutang didn''t want to hear that man''s voice ever again. For he knew he could surrender once more, and let that man fooled him once more. He refuses to be a foolish man. Better to cut it here now, rather than suffering more in the future.


    When they walked back to the dorm, Feng Mian kept talking to him even though he just answered halfheartedly. Bai Yutang feels guilty, but he really doesn''t have energy to accommodate Feng Mian with this conversation.


    "TangTang.."


    Bai Yutang and the others were surprised to hear that voice behind. They all turned back and saw Jian Kang Lu standing behind them. He looked cold, and his usual gentle self was gone. His black coat just adds the dark aura to this man. His handsome face who usually painted with curving lips, smiling gently, now didn''t show any emotion. His complexion was no better than Bai Yutang. Looking at his windblown hair, it seems he spent some time outside exposed to the winter wind.


    It was really awkward. In normal situations, they will greet Jian Kang Lu, smile, laugh, and joke with him. But this winter temperature which was already below freezing, even felt colder for them right now with Jian Kang Lu''s appearance.


    They tactfully just turn their body away and walk towards the dorm building like nothing happened. All have questions in their mind, all have guesses in their heart. But none of them could say anything.

 Chapter 107 - I Missed You So Much

    Bai Yutang wants to walk away too, but it will be very awkward since he will still stay in Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan''s dorm room. He can''t help to hate this man even more. What he wants to achieve by disturbing him in front of his friends like this? And does he not have anything to do on new year''s eve? Shouldn''t he spend it with that man?


    Bai Yutang wanted to run away, but his feet were stuck in the ground. He waited for this man behind him say what he want to say. But even after few minutes passed, this man say nothing. And it just flame his rage furthermore.


    "What do you want?"


    Bai Yutang wants to get back to the dorm as soon as possible, this winter night wind is his nemesis. If he spends too much time in the below zero weather like tonight, he easily catches a cold. And a student who will have his final exam in one more week doesn''t have any privilege to get sick.


    Most of all, he doesn''t want to spend his time with this man. This is the first time he has felt this kind of feeling.. Mad, sad, but also wants to move his body closer to this man he hates so much. Longing for his embrace.


    Bai Yutang is really afraid he''ll give up with Jian Kang Lu pursuing him like this. Make him once more felt that he was wanted, loved, adored.


    "Why¡­?"


    Bai Yutang thought he had misheard Jian Kang Lu. ''Why? Why did this man ask him why? It should be him who asked why?'' Since he doesn''t understand, Bai Yutang didn''t answer. Once again the silence wrapped them with its darkness.


    Bai Yutang really thinks they will spend the whole night like this. So he decided just to walk away. For each moment he spends more time with this man, the more his heart throbs from pain. Ache from yearning.


    Suddenly the man behind him hugged him from behind. His warm breath brushing his ear with a dark tone. A tone Bai Yutang never heard before.


    "Why? WHY??? At least tell me the reason in front of my face. Do you¡­"


    Before Jian Kang Lu finished his sentence, Bai Yutang already shoved him hard. What is this man thinking? Hugged him like this in the street? Does he want to shout to everyone that Bai Yutang was the man he used to sleep with? That Bai Yutang is a cut sleeve? A stupid cut sleeve he could toyed with? Why does he want to do that when he plays around with someone else? Why does this man want to make him suffer more?


    "I told you, we''re over. What the hell are you thinking? Hugged me like that? Which part of my words that you don''t understand? Stop bothering me!"


    Bai Yutang felt his body, accustomed to Jian Kang Lu''s embrace, responded with that hug. As if a drug addict who suffered from withdrawal symptoms got to taste that forbidden substance once more. As if frozen ice sheathed his heart melted with that just one touch.


    If he doesn''t release himself, he''s afraid he''ll just hug Jian Kang Lu back, and ask him to love him back like they used to. And it was impossible, since he''ll just suffer from those haunting memories. Trust Jian Kang Lu no more.


    And it will just hurt them both, hurt him more.


    Bai Yutang didn''t even want to see this man''s face when he shoved him hard. He abruptly turns back and just walks away. He could hear this man behind him following him, so Bai Yutang just ran. Run away.


    He was already in the dorm''s yard, which was empty for the students who were either out to celebrate new year''s eve, going back to their hometown, or holed up in their warm room studying for exams.


    Suddenly the man behind him just grabbed him hard, and brutally kissed him. In the middle of this dark yard. The lights from the lamp post flickering under the winter fog. And the wind blew, formed the icicle enveloping tree branches, piercing the frozen earth.


    Bai Yutang punched the man who pushed his lips towards his own, but this man didn''t budge even an inch. He kicked, but no use. His breath even stopped, for this man just devoured his lips in the way he never done before.


    Bai Yutang''s instinct to return that unfamiliar kiss almost surged, for he missed this man''s lips too. But he felt the pain inside his heart stung once more, for the shadows he saw that night once more flashed through his eyes.


    Bai Yutang bite those lips who are roughly prying inside his mouth. And he punched harder. And it worked. Jian Kang Lu released him, and wiped the blood from his own lips, while staring at him. Bai Yutang truly wanted to shout at this man, his rage welled up, his eyes stung. It hurts, so much.


    His tears started to swell up in the corner of his eyes. For he loved this man too much, the pain he felt even greater than he could handle. In the end, he can''t shout. Since he felt he really will cry here in front of this despicable man. And it will hurt his pride even more.


    "I hate you."


    Bai Yutang utters every syllable with his hatred. Then he walked away, and ran to the entrance.


    Once he arrived outside the dorm''s room door, his breath was still heavy. His chest rapidly moved up and down. He tried to calm himself, for the last thing he wanted was for his friends to see him crying because of that jerk.


    He was just standing there. Lost in time, since his feelings won''t calmed down at all. He jumped in surprised when he felt a hand tapped his shoulder. Afraid it was that jerk who followed him here.


    But it was Liu Xiang''s hand. He thought Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang were already inside the room. Why are they outside? But he really can''t utter any words, since his throat choked, trying to hold his tears back.


    "Why are you not coming inside? It''s very cold." Liu Xiang''s tone is cheerful, like nothing happened tonight. Like Jian Kang Lu never showed up. Like he didn''t see anything weird tonight.


    Bai Yutang nodded, and followed both of them inside. He took a hot shower, and said to them he wanted to sleep early. Didn''t want to wait for the celebration welcoming the new year ahead.


    He couldn''t sleep, but he didn''t move his body, and just wrapped himself with the warm blanket. Try to hide himself from all this agony.


    And that''s how he spent every night following after that in his new room, with his new room mate. Pretending to sleep every night, or just studying for his final exams. Luckily his new room mate was not a man with many words. He also needs to study for his exams. Both of them getting along in a short time.


    Jian Kang Lu never showed up again until Bai Yutang finished his exams and prepared to go back to his hometown.


    Did he call? Did he send him a message? Bai Yutang will never know, since he blocked Jian Kang Lu. He walked from his dorm, ready to go to the train station. After all the stress from his exams lifted, he felt something weird sprouting inside his mind.


    Why there''s small part of him, hoping Jian Kang Lu will appear in front of him once again? Wish Jian Kang Lu knows that he has already finished his exam and will be going back to his hometown. Expecting that man will apologise to him once more, and take him back to his happy place.


    Bai Yutang know he was stupid for thinking that way. But even though he scolds himself several times for his foolishness, his eyes can''t help wandering around. Yearned for Jian Kang Lu''s appearance in the corner of his sight.


    Bai Yutang could only stare at the street sight in the taxi. Stare to the scenery outside his window in the train. Stare at the W city''s bustling street when he took a taxi back to his childhood house. All those familiar sights seem bizarre right now. He felt his pain inside was slowly replaced with a hollow.


    Bai Yutang tried his best to spend his holiday as usual. Talk to his mom, talk to his sister, help them to prepare the Chinese New Year. Act like nothing happened. He spent his days in emptiness.


    Bai Yutang tried to numb his feelings, telling himself so many times that all of this misery will be over someday. Gone. And he could spend his days in happiness once more. Though he doesn''t know when.


    "I''m sorry, MeiMei. I need to prepare myself for my final year. I can''t work. So i need to reduce your monthly allowance."


    His sister just nodded her head, smiled at him and told him not to worry. She could survive with 1500 yuan per month, it''s not a big deal. Bai Yutang feels bad for his sister, but they really need to get through this year with their tight budget.


    Since he won''t receive any help from Jian Kang Lu again.


    The hardest part for him is cooking for his mother and his sister. Every time he cooked, he always thought about Jian Kang Lu.


    How Jian Kang Lu will do grocery shopping with him, and randomly stuffed many things inside their shopping cart. "Let''s try this brand. Oh, they have fresh Chinook salmons. Can my baby cook the salmon steak like last week? I love it so much."


    How Jian Kang Lu will stare at him when he serves their dinner. "I''m so lucky to have a man as handsome as you, and very kind, to be my lover."


    How Jian Kang Lu will clean everything he cooked, and tease him with his sparkling eyes. "Mmmh, today''s soup is very tasty! Did you learn a new recipe? But all the things you cooked are always the best. Is it because you cook it with love?"


    How Jian Kang Lu tied his monthly anniversary gift, an apron, to his neck. That slender hand brushed his neck softly, and his warm breath whispered with a deep voice. "As your request, this month''s anniversary gift is under 100 yuan." They spend a long night after that, with that new apron.


    Because of that, he makes many mistakes with his cooking. His sister teased him in the beginning. "Woah, are you sure you''re not working because of your final year? Or is it because Jian Ge fired you as his cook? This chicken soup tastes weird, Gege."


    Bai Yuren laughed when she said that. Bai Yutang only tried to smile and laugh along with his sister. But his hollow heart bleed once more when he heard the word ''Jian Ge fired you.''


    Surprisingly, his sister never made any comment afterwards about his cooking''s taste, no matter how peculiar it tastes. Even weirder when his sister wants to cook instead of pestering Bai Yutang, not allowing him to touch the kitchen anymore once February comes.


    "Gege, I want to learn how to cook too. I''m a woman, eventually I''ll need to cook for my husband." That''s what Bai Yuren said to him. So Bai Yutang helped his sister who used to despise the kitchen, learn cooking. She almost burned down their house on her first attempt. But slowly she could replace Bai Yutang''s role as the main chef of their house.


    At first, on his first week back to the house, his mother and his sister asked him how Jian Kang Lu was doing. Whether that man will visit them again like last year? And that many small questions were thrown, just pricked his hollow heart every day.


    "Jian Ge is very busy lately, he won''t visit us this year."


    ''He won''t visit us again. Ever.''


    But those questions only last for one week. After that, he never heard his sister nor his mother asking about Jian Kang Lu ever again. They only talk about trivial things, and also spend their time staying over at Bai Yutang''s grandparent''s house.


    One night before he was going back to B city for his new semester, Bai Yutang stared at his phone. He can''t sleep, stares at that screen.


    Blocked Contacts


    Previously, the pain came from his hurting heart. From his shattered trust. But now, his pain comes from his longing. For he missed to hear that voice once more. For he missed to see that face once more.


    But he deleted all their messages. He deleted all their pictures.


    ''Gege¡­ I missed you so much¡­''

 Chapter 108 - Dead Trunk

    December 25th


    Jian Kang Lu woke up with a pain throbbing inside his head, hammered from inside. He raised his hand and massaged his forehead. He tried to open his eyes, focusing his sight to the things surrounding him. He saw his own bedroom, the sun rays peeked from behind the curtain.


    His memory was hazy, but he still remembers. No matter how drunk Jian Kang Lu was, he was not a person that would forget what he did when he was drunk. He remembers, but sometimes can''t control what he does. And he remembered he could not even walk after the dinner party. Slumped like a dead trunk.


    Last night they had Christmas Eve''s dinner, and also celebrated their colleague Lai Chin Ping promoted from associate to full professor. The bad news is, Professor Lin Hsing Hun also attended the dinner.


    It was rare for Prof Lin coming to Christmas Eve''s dinner. He''s a real prodigy in the medical field. Prof Lin was number one in his class, also being number one when he took nephrology specialist qualification. His research is massive, acknowledged in the whole world. He was also the last living person who attended the first successful kidney transplantation in their country.


    The problem with this 71 year old Prof Lin is his weird hobby. It''s so famous that all the doctors will try to run away once they see his figure at the dinner party. Every genius has their own unique trait and habit that normal people won''t understand. And Prof Lin''s hobby is to make people drink.


    Drink until wasted.


    The rumours said that the hospital deliberately halt every dinner party invitation to Prof Lin, preventing their doctors absent in the next day because the victim could not get up from Prof Lin''s torture in the night before.


    So who is the culprit that leaked the information to Prof Lin this year???


    The resident and the junior doctors''s forehead were sweating profusely. They hurriedly shoved the most junior members to stand in front of them. These juniors are idiot lambs who only know Prof Lin''s achievement. So they stand proudly, staring at awe towards Prof Lin. For them, meeting Prof Lin the living legend is such an honour.


    Yes it was an honour, but not when you meet him at the dinner party.


    "Chin Ping! Congratulations! You''re such a promising young star. How old are you now? Remind this old man."


    This poor Lai Chin Ping is a charismatic and wise nephrologist. It was not even necessary to list his achievement. Such a rare thing to see a man below 50 year old become a full professor. He also has this kind of aura that makes people like to listen to him.


    But in front of Prof Lin, there''s no trace of his authority left. In front of Prof Lin, all of them are just shitty little brat. Even Prof Kang Wen, their department''s head, slickly slipped away and saved himself in no time. This is what they called veteran.


    Prof Kang Wen was a two timed victim, dead just from four glasses of beer. Because of his lame drinking ability, he was mocked by Prof Lin every time they met. There''s no way he allowed himself to become a victim for the third time.


    Lai Chin Ping desperately needed to save himself. With him becoming the center of attention, it''s easy to predict he will become this year''s victim. His eyes glared, shot the sign for his junior preparing the sacrificial lamb, replace him to become Prof Lin''s victim. His juniors react swiftly, shoving their most junior resident who stares at Prof Lin still with awe and sweating. Nervous to see their idol.


    Zhao Yang as the junior member in the nephrology department introduces their newest member, and also their residents to Prof Lin. Prof Lin looked at them with sparkling eyes, and questioned them one by one.


    "What is your name? Where do you graduate from? Why did you choose internal medicine? Oh you''re interested in nephrology, why?"


    It was simple questions which they answered when they interviewed to become residents. So they answer honestly, politely.


    "Drink, drink! We as doctors didn''t drink often. Bad for your health. But we as humans need to enjoy our life. And alcohol will bring out your natural instinct. Can you explain to me what happens to your brain when you are drunk?"


    These sacrificial lambs were not neurologist residents, they didn''t quite remember which part of the brain and which neurotransmitter affected. One of them bravely answered.


    "It will release dopamine and increase the effect of inhibitory transmitter GABA. It also has the effect on the excitatory NMDA and non-NMDA channels, as well as the subtype of serotonin receptors."


    Prof Lin nodded his head, "You''re not wrong. Your answer is better compared to this stiff man next to you." Prof Lin pointed his finger to Zhao Yang, who tried to stand as far as he could from Prof Lin. He was shuddered, remembering the year when he became the sacrificial lamb.


    "But what I admire from the alcohol effect on our brain is how it affects our frontal lobe. In short, they will make you more honest with your natural instinct. Very interesting."


    Oh God, this is why all of the senior doctors are already runaway. They can''t leave the room, in fear if Prof Lin decides to remember their name and calls them. But they definitely will stay out of Prof Lin''s sight.


    Prof Lin grinned, "Who is the most annoying consultant here, in your opinion?"


    Who dares to answer that question. They hurriedly answered that they love all their superior, and how lucky for them that they could study under these marvellous doctors in the best kidney hospital in the country.


    Prof Lin nodded his head, "Yes yes, i can see your frontal lobe still intact. Come, drink again."


    Thirty minutes later, these sacrificial lambs start to get tipsy. Their faces start to redden from the blood vessels vasodilatation in their skin.


    "Chin Ping, why do you stand so far away? You''re the star of this party, not me. Come here, sit next to me. Come come, don''t be shy. Drink for me."


    Lai Chin Ping sweating, but he could not say no. So he dragged Jian Kang Lu with him. This man is the social butterfly of their nephrology department. Jian Kang Lu was a two time victim already. But this man can hold his liquor much better compared to them, who already tipsy from three glasses of beer. When Jian Kang Lu drinks, prof Lin will focus on him to make him drink more. That way, Jian Kang Lu could save more members of their department from devastated death.


    Jian Kang Lu was also sweating, he just wants to go home early, and hug his kitten. He admits that he was mad, and still sad from that awful Christmas dinner last Saturday. But when he arrived at this hotel for the dinner party, he saw Zhang Min in the entrance, and remembered that he needed to cherish what he has right now.


    If he keeps acting like a jerk, then maybe his kitten will truly leave him. Suffocated with his jealousy. Jian Kang Lu doesn''t want to fight anymore with his kitten. He just wanted to go home, hug his kitten, and said that he loved him more than anything in the world. He doesn''t want to lose his kitten.


    Last time he became the victim was four years ago. It was also the last time Prof Lin attended a dinner party. But at that time Jian Kang Lu was also in a sad state and didn''t mind drinking until he was wasted.


    "Oh, Kang Lu! My favourite boy. Come come, this old man missed you so much. How''s life? Still haven''t found the right one?"


    "Hello Prof Lin. I''m good as always. But I have to say you looked even younger compared to the last time we met two months ago at the conference."


    "Naughty boy, just say that you don''t want to answer my annoying questions. Come, drink for me then if you don''t want to answer."


    For Jian Kang Lu, Prof Lin doesn''t want to waste the beer. He straightly asked for Baijiu. This sorghum based liquor contains alcohol greater than 30%. After a few glasses, Prof Lin suddenly looked at the sacrificial lambs in front of him.


    "Come, you guys also drink."


    Ten minutes later these lambs eyes are unfocused from the baijiu''s effect. Prof Lin''s evil grin was visibly shown on his face.


    "I guess my previous question was not polite. Then let me ask you a different question, and you have to answer honestly. Who is your favourite consultant?"


    These pure lambs who are already drunk, try so hard to sober their minds. It''s even hard to stand properly. They answered in slurred speech.


    "Doctor Jian."


    Prof Lin smiled to hear them answered in unison. They all mention the same name. No wonder, he himself also liked this bright and diligent man. Too bad he doesn''t have greater ambition. If he had and asked for his help, Jian Kang Lu surely could become a full professor quicker compared to this Lai Chin Ping.


    Jian Kang Lu never felt that he wanted to strangle all his juniors like he desired right now. Why on earth they said that in this unfortunate time. He sighed. It was not their fault, this is the first time for them to taste Prof Lin''s ultimate ''kindness''. Well, start from tomorrow they''ll know.


    "Well well well, I can see now you start being honest to this old man. You guys make me so happy. Kang Lu, drink more. Maybe we need a yearly award and let these young people honestly vote for the best consultant in our department. Eh, why only drink half, let me pour again for you. I want to see you finish it this time. Can you do that to entertain this poor old man?"


    How could Jian Kang Lu run away in this situation? Lai Chin Ping wiped his sweat, it seems he was saved. Previously he was already texting his wife, preparing for a devastating death that will fall upon him. He slipped away to the corner, not letting Prof Lin to remember that tonight they celebrate his promotion. He looked at Jian Kang Lu from faraway with pity. He will treat Jian Kang Lu tomorrow and promote him to be one of the main speakers in the next conference.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t even remember how many glasses he drank. But he remembers Prof Lin still asking him about his research to check his consciousness state. And he remembered he slipped his tongue, saying that he already has a lover now when Prof Lin wants to introduce him to his 29 year old niece.


    He remembered he can''t even stand again, sits like a statue in his chair. Try to focus his gaze and fight the urge to throw up.


    He remembered how he could not hold up, and ran with his jelly legs to the bathroom.


    He remembered he tried to wash his face with cold water, but no use.


    He remembered his colleague saved him in the bathroom, wants to send him home.


    He remembered, his colleague summoned Zhang Min and asked him to send Jian Kang Lu home. Since all of them know that they were best friends. Inseparable, before Zhang Min finally tied the knot.


    Jian Kang Lu wants to refuse, better for his resident to bring him home. He doesn''t want his kitten to see Zhang Min bring him home in this state. But no words could be heard, for every time he opened his mouth, he puked again.


    And he remembered Zhang Min''s voice lingered in the air when he said, "Don''t worry, I''ll take this dead trunk home safely. Just make sure you guys take care of his car."

 Chapter 109 - The Nightmare

    Jian Kang Lu didn''t blanked out no matter how wasted he was. But still his memory can''t be as clear as the blue sky after the rain. How could a wasted man remember clearly what happened when he knocked out? Last night he could only close his eyes and held his puke back to his throat.


    Jian Kang Lu tried to sit on his bed and took a deep breath. Even now he still wants to puke. His surroundings spinning around him like planets circling around its sun. He tried to get his neuron synaptic in his brain working, transmitting his cloudy memory from last night back.


    Jian Kang Lu remembered Zhang Min bringing him into his car, and driving him home. His own car will be delivered to his home by his resident. He remembered Zhang Min tried to ask him whether he wanted to throw up again.


    But Jian Kang Lu was so wasted he could not lift any finger. He could not say anything.. His mind was blurred. His head throbbing, spinning around. He wants to puke, but none can come out anymore.


    He remembered Zhang Min opened the apartment door. In his hazy memories, he wants to call his kitten''s name. Want to hug him and say that he loved him so much. And he wants to say to his kitten, for him to stay forever with him. Never leave him.


    He remembered Zhang Min dragged him to the bedroom, and took his coat off. Some parts of it stained when he threw every last piece of his dinner. He remembered Zhang Min, who was skinnier than him, stumbled when Jian Kang Lu fell into the bed. He remembered Zhang Min left him in his bed. Maybe he was going home.


    But he doesn''t remember he saw his kitten when he came home. He should be sleeping in their bed in that hour. Does he fall asleep in the studio again like last time he pulled an all nighter?


    Jian Kang Lu wants to puke again once his misty memories come back. Then he tried really hard to control his breath. Try to gather his consciousness. After a few deep breaths, he saw no trace of his kitten.


    Maybe his kitten was still mad at him, and even more furious after seeing he came home wasted like that. Jian Kang Lu sighed, he needed to apologise properly today.


    He called his kitten, just wanted to say he missed him so much. And he wants to apologise as soon as possible. He knows his own acts are despicable. Jian Kang Lu was afraid his kitten would hate him. But his call didn''t get through. After a few times ringing, it was off. And when he called again, it was told that his kitten''s phone was off.


    Is his kitten still on the bus? Or something''s up? Jian Kang Lu wants to throw up again. Maybe he needs to clean himself first.


    Jian Kang Lu took a hot shower. He reminded himself to drink a lot of water today, flushed the alcohol out of his system as soon as possible. He''s going to be late today, and maybe will only finish his patient visit in the afternoon. It''s okay though, this is Christmas. They don''t have a meeting schedule nor a presentation today.


    He texted his kitten after shower. It was already 8.30 in the morning. Should he apologise through the text? But it doesn''t seem right.


    [Baby, did you arrive at your campus? Why didn''t you wake me up?]


    Jian Kang Lu knows that his kitten won''t answer immediately, since he must have his class. So Jian Kang Lu didn''t wait, and dressed himself. He felt something was weird when he got dressed. But his stomach was still burning from the alcohol, from his own gastric acid when he puked for dozens of times last night.


    When he made himself a hot tea, he noticed his kitten didn''t even prepare breakfast. It never happened before. And it seems his kitten didn''t even have his own breakfast, since there''s no trace of it. Jian Kang Lu frowned. Why does he have a bad feeling? This ominous feeling has been disturbing him since he woke up.


    ''No, no, no.. It can''t be¡­''


    Jian Kang Lu hurriedly ran to his bedroom and checked the dressing room. He was right. He doesn''t see his kitten''s clothes and luggage. Previously he was too nauseous from the hangover. But now all the uncomfortable nauseous feeling in his stomach came from his fear.


    He hurriedly texted his kitten.


    [TangTang, where''s your luggage?]


    Jian Kang Lu was just staring at his phone. His hands felt cold. He tried not to think about his fear, afraid his worst nightmare will come true once he thinks about it. His hands trembled, and tried to call his kitten. But his kitten''s phone is off.


    [TangTang, where are you?]


    All the memories from his kitten''s disappearance last summer emerged, and even worse now. After he finally felt what it feels to be truly happy, living in a dream, how could he go back to his old desolate life?


    [Baby, why did you turn off your phone?]


    Jian Kang Lu opened his tracking application. It seems his kitten''s last position is in his campus, in his friend''s dorm. It must be Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan''s dorm. He was relieved for a moment. He forgot temporarily that his kitten won''t abandon his studies. His kitten was not a person like that.


    [TangTang, we need to talk. Where are you? I''ll come over there.]


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t know where his car key. So he called a taxi and went to the hospital. He needed to finish his patient visit as soon as he could, and then cancelled his practice this afternoon.


    [Baby, let''s talk. Don''t run away from me.]


    Once he arrived in the hospital, he texted his kitten again before he started his VIP ward visit. He doesn''t mind begging for his kitten''s forgiveness.


    [Baby, please don''t be mad with me. Let''s talk first.]


    All the nurses asked if he''s okay. They say he looked pale. Jian Kang Lu thanked them when they gave him another hot tea. They even look worried when Jian Kang Lu asks for some sugar inside his tea. All of them knew that Jian Kang Lu almost never drinks something sweet unless it was fruit juice. After he finished the VIP ward, he walked to the regular ward and texted his kitten again at the lift.


    [TangTang, let me explain.]


    He felt so miserable. He needed to know what exactly makes his kitten mad at him so he could apologise properly. Because his jealousy? Because he got home so late last night? Because he was wasted?


    [Baby, you promise me, that you would not run away from me.]


    After his regular ward visit and once again answering the nurses concern about his pale face. His residents gave him his car key. They apologised they didn''t take him home because Prof Lai already asked Doctor Zhang.


    Jian Kang Lu suddenly straightened his back. ''Is it because Zhang Min?'' Jian Kang Lu immediately called Zhang Min when he walked away from the hospital.


    "Hello." Zhang Min''s voice sounded tired when answering the phone.


    "Did you take me home last night?"


    "Yes I do. Your colleagues asked me last night. Something''s wrong?"


    "Did you meet my boyfriend? Did you tell him that we were ex-lover?"


    There''s some pauses before Zhang Min answered. "I think someone opened the door when I put you in the bed. I tried to check, but I saw none. I also asked if there was someone else in your apartment, but no one answered. So i thought it was my imagination."


    Jian Kang Lu''s mind is already a mess right now. He tried to imagine what''s on his kitten''s mind when he saw a man take him home. But if his kitten didn''t know that Zhang Min was his ex-lover, he shouldn''t be this mad. It''s normal for colleagues to bring their comrade back home after being defeated in the dinner party.


    "Does your boyfriend live together with you?" Zhang Min''s voice dragged him back to reality.


    "Yes. We''re living together. And it seems he''s mad at me today. That''s why I asked you whether you met him, and what did you guys talk about last night, before I could properly apologize to him."


    "I didn''t know you have a boyfriend. I''m sorry, i shouldn''t take you home."


    Jian Kang Lu sighed. "That''s okay. I''m the one who should thank you for troubling you. Thanks. But maybe next time you should reject it if this thing ever happened again."


    Jian Kang Lu called the taxi, and texted his kitten again. He hasn''t eaten this whole day. But he doesn''t feel anything. He was too anxious. ''Please, please.. Please don''t leave me, TangTang.''


    [Baby, i missed you. Please, just come back.]


    He arrived at the T university. He knew where the architecture faculty located, so he straightly went over there. Without his kitten knowing, Jian Kang Lu took a picture of his classes schedule. He was so glad he did it before, or else he''ll be blind today didn''t know which building his kitten went. While waiting in front of the building until his kitten finished his class, he kept calling, and texting.


    [TangTang, please forgive me. Please..]


    [TangTang¡­ Please¡­]


    Jian Kang Lu almost jumped when finally his kitten''s phone turned on. But his kitten didn''t answer. Jian Kang Lu doesn''t care, he just keeps calling. He needs to see his kitten, apologise, do everything he could so his kitten comes back to him. Never leave him.


    But his kitten turned his phone off again. Jian Kang Lu opened the application once again. It seems he was in the right building, but he didn''t see his kitten. Should he just ask these students? But what if his kitten already walked away from here? He should just wait in Liu Xiang''s dorm. His kitten must stay with them temporarily, or will meet them today. Should he call them?


    WIth all the mess in his mind, finally he saw his kitten walk to the dorm''s yard. He didn''t even realise he was running to the man he loved the most and just grabbed his kitten''s arms. He needs to make sure that this man can''t run from him again.


    "TangTang, why didn''t you answer my call?"


    Jian Kang Lu''s voice is trembling. How he wished he could just hug his kitten, begging for apologise here, and take him back. But even in this cold winter, there are still many students walking around them. He doesn''t want to make his kitten even more angry with him.


    "TangTang, why don''t you listen to my explanation first? Please?"


    Jian Kang Lu can''t even see his kitten''s face. His kitten just lowered his head.


    "Can we talk?"


    His kitten tried to push his hands. But Jian Kang Lu won''t let this man run again. How could he let his kitten slip away from him?


    "Don''t run away. Do you want to talk here? Okay. It was not like you think. I''m sorry I wasted last night, bu.."


    Before he could explain, his kitten just yanked his hand as hard as he could. But Jian Kang Lu gripped even tighter. He can''t let this man go.


    "Let me go." His kitten''s voice trembled. Jian Kang Lu''s really can''t think straight. He doesn''t want to.. He can''t.. He just wants his kitten back to him. No matter what, his kitten needs to come back to him.


    "No. I don''t mind talking to you here, or hug you here if you don''t want to listen to me."


    In normal situations, Jian Kang Lu will care about what people will think when they see two men standing like this in the middle of the dorm''s yard. He doesn''t want his kitten to get hurt from those malicious comments. But now he doesn''t care. He''ll use every way to get this man listened to his explanation, and come back to him.


    "Let me go. Now! I also don''t mind shouting here, asking for help."


    Jian Kang Lu was quiet for a while, he couldn''t even breathe properly. His cold hands numbed, all his fear emerged. And that tiny part of him that he doesn''t want to acknowledge came into existence.


    If people know his kitten is his lover, and his kitten is getting hurt because of that, maybe that''s a good thing. Because that means only Jian Kang Lu who could comfort him, protect him, since his kitten will have no one else to lean on.


    "I don''t mind you shouting here. Try me."


    His kitten tried to kick him, yanked his hand. It was no use, Jian Kang Lu won''t allow this man to leave him.


    "Let me go! I warn you. I don''t want to hear anything. Not now, ever!"


    His kitten''s voice trembles, and it seems his kitten truly hates him. He doesn''t care. Even if his kitten hates him, it doesn''t matter, as long as he comes back to him.


    "I don''t want to hear anything from you. It was useless. Let''s just break up."


    Once Jian Kang Lu heard that, he didn''t even realise he just gripped his kitten''s arms tighter and hurt his kitten''s arms. He was so afraid until his own rage erupted like a volcano. Does his kitten really want him to do that despicable thing? Does he really need to push his kitten that way?


    "TangTang, the thing i hate the most is to hear the break up words. Don''t ever say that to me. Listen to me first. Talk. Like adults."


    "Then I''m not an adult. You''re free to find an adult that suits your taste."


    "TangTang!"


    "Let me go!"


    This time, his kitten almost shouted. Jian Kang Lu almost wanted to hug him here, dragged him and locked him in his apartment. So he never could run away from him ever again.


    Then he saw his kitten''s eyes. It was red.


    Jian Kang Lu felt his volcano immediately frozen. What the hell he was doing now? He never wanted to hurt his kitten. How could he change into a man like this? Jian Kang Lu sighed, tried to bring his gentle tone back. He needs to give his kitten some time. He could come again. He could spend the rest of his life pursuing his kitten back if that''s what it takes to make his kitten forgive him, and come back to him.


    "Okay, I''ll give you time. Let me know once you are ready to talk. Please TangTang, I don''t want us to break up. Ever."

 Chapter 110 - Existence Of My Beating Heart

    December 26th


    Jian Kang Lu opened his eyes with an empty gaze. He stared at the empty space on his left. It used to be a space occupied by his kitten. Laid in his arms. Right next to his beating heart.


    Without his kitten, his heart ceased from beating. Gave up. Since the existence responsible to its beating is gone.


    Without his kitten, his bed was so lonely. Cold. Just like the weather outside. Forever winter..


    Jian Kang Lu closed his eyes, since opening it was too painful. But when he closed his eyes he still saw his kitten, sleeping soundly in his arms. His soft black satin hair was messed up from Jian Kang Lu arms and kisses. And that beautiful nape of him, extended to his round shoulder. How he wished that this is just a nightmare. And he would wake up with his kitten''s soft whisper.


    ''Gege, wake up. Breakfast is ready.''


    But this is not a dream. And it''s even worse than a nightmare.


    Jian Kang Lu opened his eyes again. It seems closing his eyes just pained him even more. He doesn''t know how long it will take to bring his kitten back to his arms again. That''s why he needs to submit his urgent leave immediately. Contact his junior to handle his patients until new year.


    Jian Kang Lu hoped his kitten would forgive him and come back to him as soon as possible. But he knew it''s going to take a few days, judging from his kitten''s face yesterday.


    Rage, betrayed, disappointed, and sorrow.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t want to get up, but he had to. He needed to visit his patient first for today since he didn''t notify his junior yesterday. He also didn''t like if someone else suddenly dumped the responsibility without early notice, unless it''s an emergency.


    And in this world, it''s not an emergency when your partner leaves you.


    Jian Kang Lu spent his day like usual. Eat his breakfast because he has to. He doesn''t have any appetite. But if he got sick, it means he won''t have energy to pursue his kitten. And he could not allow that.


    He smiled in front of the nurses and his patients, doing what he had to do. This job doesn''t allow you to make mistakes just because you have a bad day, for it will affect human''s life.


    Sometimes, he was grateful for that. Since when he examines his patient, his brain doesn''t allow anything else to be there. He only needs to focus on the human in front of him. What symptoms they had, which anomaly he needed to unravel.


    From one patient to another. Shift the attention.


    Jian Kang Lu still messages his kitten with monotone text, calls his kitten whenever he moves to another ward. But his kitten didn''t answer.


    [TangTang, I missed you.]


    [TangTang, please forgive me.]


    [TangTang, come back to me.]


    [TangTang, i need you..]


    Jian Kang Lu also checked his kitten''s position from time to time. That way, at least he still has something to hold on. At least he still knows where to reach his kitten.


    After he finishes his ward visit, he goes to the T university again. Waiting for his kitten to finish his class. Jian Kang Lu felt cold, but this winter is warmer than his frozen world. The world without his kitten.


    This is the different building from his kitten''s schedule. But the application shows this building is where his kitten''s position was last seen. Jian Kang Lu refreshed the app every five minutes. He could only look at the entrance. Imagining his kitten walk through there and smile, run towards him, hug him, come back to him.


    Jian Kang Lu called his kitten from time to time. But his kitten still ignored him.


    Snow fell this morning, leaving some of it''s trace in the ground. The white grey ice freezes the earth. Enveloped the leaves and the trees with its icy texture. The bench he was sitting on now also freezed. But no other place is better for him to wait for his kitten. The world is covered with grey and white mist, monochromatic. The world will only be back to flourish their beauty once his kitten comes back to him.


    Jian Kang Lu finally saw his kitten, his smile unknowingly rise to the surface. Even just to see his kitten is enough to bring the light back to his monochromatic world. He knew he promised to give his kitten some time, but he can''t hold himself. He almost ran toward his kitten. How he wished he could touch his kitten once again, hold him once again in his arms.


    "TangTang, can we just talk? I missed you¡­"


    His kitten avoided him. Jian Kang Lu felt a slight pain in his heart when he saw his kitten''s still didn''t want to listen to him. Honestly, he didn''t think he made a grave mistake, if only his kitten wanted to listen to him.


    "It was all a misunderstanding, TangTang. That night I¡­"


    "I told you, I don''t want to hear anything from you. I don''t even want to hear your voice again."


    Before Jian Kang Lu even could finish his sentences, his kitten already cut him, and turned away from him. Jian Kang Lu sighed, followed his kitten. But his kitten''s face was not looking good. Pale, and he seems thinner in just one day. Jian Kang Lu worried his kitten might get sick.


    "TangTang, it''s okay if you''re still mad at me. But can we have dinner together tonight? I won''t talk if you don''t want to hear my voice."


    This is okay, even though he could only see his kitten''s back, following him behind like this is also good. As long as he could unfroze his world with his kitten''s presence.


    "I told you, we''re over. I don''t want to see you again. Save your effort to come here, and stop following me like this."


    Jian Kang Lu halted his step. He really hates to hear that line come out from his kitten''s lips. Jian Kang Lu hates on and off relationships the most. When you could easily say break up, then get back together again, it means in the future it was also easy to separate again. There''s no respect for the commitment between them. And a relationship without commitment is the worst.


    He sighed, it seems today was not the day his kitten came back to him.


    "Please wear your shawl and your brown jacket. This blue one is thinner. The wind has been very cold lately, I don''t want you to get sick."


    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten slow his step, but then continue to move further away from him. Out of his reach.


    "I''ll come again tomorrow, TangTang¡­"


    Jian Kang Lu spent his time sitting on the bench near the dorm area. He was just staring at the window where Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan lived. Where his kitten stays now. He only gets up once it shows 10 pm.


    Jian Kang Lu has his dinner in the living room. A sandwich from lunch time. He just reheat it in the microwave. After shower he only laid in his bed. Try to close his eyes. He already torture himself today, looking at his kitten''s picture. He knew if he keeps doing that, it will only make him lose his sanity, and he might do something that will make his kitten hate him forever.


    ''TangTang.. I missed you¡­''


    December 27th


    Jian Kang Lu opened his eyes with the same expression. Stare blankly to his left side, to that empty pillow. It seems his worst nightmare still continued today.


    He woke up several times in his sleep. It always happens when he sleeps alone without his kitten. But it got even worse once his kitten uttered those despicable words.


    Separation.


    Jian Kang Lu ordered porridge and silently finished his breakfast. He finally has five days leave. He already managed everything yesterday. His colleagues show their concern, suggesting he get some check up too. They said his face looks pale after that dinner party.


    "Are you sure it was not alcohol intoxication? At least go check your liver function."


    Jian Kang Lu felt guilty to make Prof Kang think like that. But he could not say that how he wished this is just an intoxication from alcohol. Separated from his kitten felt a million times worse compared to a simple intoxication.


    Jian Kang Lu really thinks he''s going crazy, since he wandered at T university in this weather, just hoping he could see his kitten''s glimpse. His messages and his calls were not getting through anymore. More or less he could guess what his kitten did.


    Blocked him.


    Luckily, the application was still going through. At least he could stare at that tiny dot in his screen, showing him the last connection he still had with his kitten.


    Jian Kang Lu diligently has his meal like he''s having medication. He even put a reminder for him to eat. He once went through a time like this. And he learned that letting your body sick was not a wise thing to do. Every hour he will also warm himself with hot tea. He didn''t need to drink coffee anymore these days. It will just worsen his insomnia.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled once again when he saw his kitten''s from far. But when he approached him, his kitten walked in a different direction. Jian Kang Lu just follows him silently. He sighed, why his kitten looked paler and lost weight in just a few days. This is all his fault. He thinks he really could not forgive himself if his kitten got sick.


    "TangTang, have you eaten? Can we have dinner together tonight?"


    His kitten ignored him. Just like yesterday. Jian Kang Lu really doesn''t know what else he could say, or do, to make everything''s right again. Maybe he could start from small conversation again, just like when he approached his kitten for the first time.


    "TangTang, how''s your day? Your exam is coming soon?"


    "You know I have exams coming soon, and you''re still bothering me like this."


    Okay, this is worse. But at least his kitten''s tone today is just cold, not filled with rage and misery like yesterday. It seems maybe he needs to take it slowly.


    "I''m so happy to hear your voice."


    Just walking together following his kitten silently from behind is also good. At least he could see him. Compared to those two months he spent without his kitten''s presence, it seems this time still better.


    Who he tried to fool? This is the worst thing he ever experienced in his whole life. It was like you''re rising to heaven from the desolate earth, just to be banished to the coldest hell.


    "I told you i don''t want to hear anything from you, nor to be disturbed like this. Just go away, leave me alone!"


    Jian Kang Lu sighed. He really wants to run and grab his kitten. But he needs to be patient. Nothing will come right if he just follows his own selfish desire. He could try again tomorrow, and pray for his kitten to forgive him soon.


    Unfreeze his world soon.

 Chapter 111 - Thinned Ice

    December 28th


    Jian Kang Lu really thinks he will catch a cold if he wanders in T university again like yesterday. But tomorrow is the weekend. His kitten doesn''t have classes. How could he see his kitten when he doesn''t have any class?


    Jian Kang Lu hopes today his kitten''s rage is already toned down, and at least wants to listen to him first.


    While he was wandering in architecture faculty, his alarm reminded him to have his lunch. He walked to the nearest mini market and bought a sandwich again. Nothing wrong with a sandwich. It has carbohydrate and protein from the meat, it also still has some fibers from the lettuce.


    "Jian Ge?"


    Jian Kang Lu turned his head, that voice seemed familiar. He saw a girl staring at him with a lot of concern..


    Mu Xiaoya was first surprised to see him. She was coming here with her friends to buy some snacks and milk. Luckily Yu Dong was not with her right now. Her friends previously told her that they saw a handsome man linger around this mini market yesterday, and giggling whispering to her that today they saw that handsome man once again eat his sandwich in the corner.


    Inside Mu Xiaoya''s head at that time was snorted and wanted to brag to her friends that she knew a really handsome man in real life. That''s why she almost can''t close her mouth when she sees that handsome man they talked about is the same handsome man she wanted to boast.


    But why Jian Kang Lu was lingering here, at this time? Her ship!!!! Oh my God, please don''t let it sink, please please please!!!


    Mu Xiaoya saw Jian Kang Lu''s complexion is no better than that stupid lamb. Why these people torture themselves? Why they have to torture her like this too, ah?


    "Hello, Xiaoya."


    Mu Xiaoya could see Jian Kang Lu''s forced smile. She knew it would be very awkward for both of them. Her friends looked at both of them with some weird expression. But Mu Xiaoya''s biggest concern is looking at this man silently eating his sandwich in the corner. She sighed.


    "Have you had your lunch, Jian Ge? Want me to accompany you?"


    Jian Kang Lu honestly doesn''t want to eat. But he remembered what Mu Xiaoya did to his kitten, how she could persuade his kitten to accept him. Maybe she could help him this time.


    "That''s great. Where do you want to have lunch?"


    Mu Xiaoya said goodbye to her friends, and brought Jian Kang Lu to the cafe near the mini market. To see this man so silent, and looked miserable, somehow ached Mu Xiaoya''s heart too. It''s so awkward, and silent. Mu Xiaoya also didn''t know what to say.


    "Thank you for accompanying me, hope I didn''t disturb you."


    This man was as polite as he always was. Mu Xiaoya slowly asked, "Have you talked to my senior, Jian Ge?"


    Jian Kang Lu helplessly smiled, "I tried. But he was still mad at me, and didn''t want to listen to me at all."


    ''That''s why you wander around our faculty like this?'' Mu Xiaoya silently thought. She then asked what''s bothering her since Christmas day.


    "My senior didn''t say anything to us at all. But it seems he is truly mad at you. If you don''t mind, can you tell me what happened? See if I could bring this matter to him once he cools down."


    "I was jealous, and childishly mad at him. Then on Christmas eve I had a dinner party with my colleagues, and I was wasted. I didn''t even remember clearly what happened. But maybe TangTang misunderstood something when he saw my colleague bring me home that night."


    Mu Xiaoya didn''t understand. Is this a really big matter? She thought their relationship was beyond something stupid like this. Why don''t they talk? Isn''t it stupid just to torture themselves like this?


    Jian Kang Lu could see Mu Xiaoya''s expression. He can guess what''s on her mind. No matter what, this is his fault, not his kitten. He could not let his kitten''s friends think anything bad about him. It was all his mistakes after all.


    "You need to imagine. Yu Dong was mad at you, he was jealous for no reason. I think that matter alone already sucks, right? None of us likes our partner overly jealous about something that has not happened at all."


    Mu Xiaoya nodded her head. She could understand that part, but she wanted to say that Jian Kang Lu was jealous for a reason. She will also be jealous if her lover''s friends tried to match her lover with a random girl in front of her eyes. Before she could say anything to defend Jian Kang Lu, he already said other things.


    "That''s my fault. I know TangTang didn''t pay attention to her, and it will only put him in a difficult situation if he needs to say that he has a relationship with me. But even so, I''m still mad at him for no reason. That''s first."


    The waiter delivered their order, Jian Kang Lu politely smiled at the waiter and said his thanks. Mu Xiaoya sipped her hot lemongrass tea.


    "Then imagine. Yu Dong comes home late at night, smells like alcohol, wasted, and brought back home with his female colleague."


    "Did your female colleague bring you home, Jian Ge?"


    "Of course not, it was my friend. A male."


    Mu Xiaoya really can''t think there''s something major here. It was common for a colleague of the same gender to bring their wasted comrade back home. In Mu Xiaoya''s case, of course she will kill Yu Dong if he is ever brought home wasted by his female colleague.


    "The point is, TangTang is someone so gentle. He won''t be mad at me like this if it was not something awful. Maybe I said something or did something that night, which made him like this. I tried to explain, and apologise. But he''s still mad at me."


    "So you wander around here, try to meet my senior?"


    "Yes." Jian Kang Lu smiled bitterly.


    Mu Xiaoya smiled back at him. She knew it was not her place to pry on their relationship. "I hope my senior will forgive you soon, Jian Ge. I cheer for you. If you need someone to accompany you waiting for him, just call me."


    "Thank you, Xiaoya. Please put good words for me if you guys talk about me."


    Mu Xiaoya laughed, "I will, Jian Ge. Don''t worry. I''m your number one fan!"


    They finished their lunch, and Jian Kang Lu returned to waiting for his kitten to finish his class. Waiting in front of his kitten''s class building. Now when his kitten blocked him, he could monitor every movement of his kitten all the time.


    Once he saw his kitten walk out from the building, he just smiled, and once again followed his kitten.


    "TangTang, i missed you so much¡­"


    After meeting Mu Xiaoya, Jian Kang Lu feels he may just need to beg first instead of trying to explain what happened that night.


    "TangTang.. Can we just have dinner together tonight? Please¡­ I really missed spending my time with you.."


    "I told you, we''re over. Stop it. I have exams coming soon, and you are really bothering me. Will you be satisfied if I fail my exams because of you? Are you happy that way?"


    Jian Kang Lu was surprised to hear his kitten''s words. He didn''t think that way. It seems he is really selfish to disturb his kitten like this. And he forgot, every student will have a breakdown near their final exam. He once liked that too. But he couldn''t stop following his kitten until they reached the dorm.


    "TangTang, i won''t bother you. Good luck on your exam. Please eat your meal regularly, and take care of yourself."


    Jian Kang Lu once again waits until the night falls, embracing him with darkness. Once the time shows him it is already midnight. With heavy steps he walked back to his apartment. He used to be very happy every time he came back to his apartment.


    A place he called home, because his kitten was there. Warming his apartment with his existence. But now, this place back to the cold desolate place he used only to sleep.


    December 29th and 30th.


    Jian Kang Lu really wants to laugh. How come he came back here again, like a stalker. Keep checking his kitten''s position every few minutes, and linger around his dorm. Hoping maybe he could see a glimpse of his kitten again.


    Even he wears gloves, but sitting here for four hours surely was not a wise decision. The cold seeps into his gloves, numbing his fingers until they stiffened and rigid. He stands up and walks away. He took his lunch in the nearest restaurant, drank some vitamins and supplements too. No matter what, he still needs to cherish his own body.


    Looking at his kitten''s picture again and again. It was the only consolation for him, and a torture in the same time. He just missed his kitten so much. Never in his life did he imagine something like this happening. And it was all his fault.


    He already tried so hard to cherish his kitten. But maybe spending this last year blissfully made him forget and did the things he should not. It hurts him more to know that he hurt his kitten too, even though he never meant it.


    Until night fell, and snow fell down from the sky covering the stars above, his kitten''s position was not changed. He is still inside his dorm. Jian Kang Lu looked at the sky, at those black skies with tiny white flakes falling upon him. He felt like standing in the thinnest ice, awaiting for the gentle touch of the sun. The air bares only the coldness.


    Did his kitten eat regularly? He hoped his kitten didn''t get sick. It truly makes him regret all that happened if his kitten was sick at this time. And he also thinks about what his kitten told him yesterday. How if his kitten failed his exam because of this?


    Jian Kang Lu hoped his kitten would calm down after the exams and go back to him, making him happy once again. Saved him once again. Filled his frozen world with sparks of warmth once again.


    Loved him, once again.

 Chapter 112 - Disgusting

    December 31st


    Today Jian Kang Lu was wandering around the architecture faculty again. He saw his kitten walking towards the cafeteria with his friends. How Jian Kang Lu wished he could go there and talk to his kitten, to hear his kitten''s voice again. That soft voice who always makes his heart fluttering from the first time he heard him in the airplane.


    But he doesn''t know if it is a wise step to pop up in front of his kitten with his friends around. He doesn''t mind it at all. But what if it makes his kitten angrier with him? He only has one day left to apologise properly. He could not request for more leave from the hospital. It was unprofessional to run away from your duty because of personal matters.


    Once again, he had his sandwich in the mini market. Jian Kang Lu could feel the young cashier look at him in a weird way. He tried his best to look like a normal human being.. Shaving every morning, combing his hair, and wearing his best clothes. His kitten once told him that he was handsome, who knows his kitten will forgive him if he still looks okay even though he was old.


    Wait, maybe he approached this in the wrong way. Is his kitten still mad at him because he looks okay? Maybe his kitten''s heart will move if he saw how miserable Jian Kang Lu was when his kitten left. Today he wears his black coat. Is it enough to make him look thinner and miserable? Maybe tomorrow he doesn''t need to shave and looks as miserable as he could.


    But Jian Kang Lu hopes he doesn''t need until tomorrow to make his kitten forgive him, and comes back to him.


    In the afternoon it seems his kitten didn''t have any class, since he was staying in the dorm. Jian Kang Lu doesn''t know how many times in the last few days he bought hot drinks from the mini market. No wonder the cashier looks at him like he was a suspicious person.


    When the night came, from his spot under the tree near the dorm''s yard, he saw his kitten walking with his friends. It seems they will have dinner outside. Maybe they want to celebrate new year''s eve in that cafe that they usually go to.


    Jian Kang Lu sighed, it seems that today he had to be satisfied by looking at his kitten''s figure from far away. He really wanted to laugh when he had the urge to come inside the cafe and have his dinner there, just for the sake of satisfying his desire to look at his kitten longer.


    But when Jian Kang Lu follows his kitten from far, he notices the way is different with the cafe direction. His kitten and his friends waited in the girl''s dorm area. Then he saw Fei Hong and Feng Mian coming from the building.


    No matter what, Jian Kang Lu is still jealous of Feng Mian. And that dark creepy thought he tried to lock inside escaping its prison.


    One of Jian Kang Lu''s most painful memories was when Zhang Min decided to go on that blind date with a woman. And finally married her. He could not forget no matter how good and how patient he was with Zhang Min, in the end Zhang Min chose a woman. To live as a normal person.


    Those painful memories are numbed and dull even before he met his kitten, and those pain was gone every moment he spent time with his kitten. But now, he even could not describe what he feels right now. This feeling he felt right now was a million times worse than what he experienced with Zhang Min.


    His rationality was gone. He just stared at those couples, and followed them towards the cafe.


    Now he really looks like a suspicious person. A crazy man. Jian Kang Lu laughed while he was standing across the cafe, under the trees. He would not be surprised if the security guard or police came here and asked what he was doing here. Even himself will throw questions if he sees a man wearing a dark coat, standing in the shadows.


    He doesn''t know for how many hours he was standing there. He only stared at the cafe''s door, waiting for his kitten walk out from there. Too bad his kitten and his friends didn''t sit near the window. He could not see them at all. But he could imagine they''re having a good time inside.


    While he was frozen here.


    The night was late when he finally saw them walk out from the cafe. How nice, four couples walk together. Four men, four women. Normal people, not an anomaly like him. These couples walk to their dorm, and once again his kitten walks beside Feng Mian.


    Jian Kang Lu saw how his kitten talked to Feng Mian, smiled at her, and laughed at her. While his kitten didn''t even spare his time to listen to his explanation.


    Jian Kang Lu doesn''t mind begging for his kitten''s forgiveness. But he refuses to be a fool. Just like when he was waiting for Zhang Min. He won''t be a stupid person torturing himself like that anymore.


    "TangTang.."


    Jian Kang Lu doesn''t care what his kitten''s friends will think of him. In fact, Jian Kang Lu doesn''t care about everything now. He just wanted to confirm this dark thought he had. He could sense his kitten''s friend look at him awkwardly and leave them alone. His kitten was standing over there. His beautiful smile which he shows to Feng Mian is gone. Is this truly what his kitten feels about him?


    That he was nothing for his kitten. Not even worthy of his smile anymore.


    "What do you want?"


    Even his voice was back to that cold voice. The soft voice he adored, that used to get his heart beating again, is now so cold and stabs his bleeding heart even more. Did he ever mean something to his kitten? Why could he talk so gently to Feng Mian but so cold toward him?


    "Why¡­?"


    Jian Kang Lu really felt his world had gone dark. Why? At least Zhang Min told him before he was going with that woman. But his kitten just kept silent. Didn''t even want to speak with him anymore.


    Is this truly what his kitten feels about him? Maybe his kitten left him not because he was going home wasted, but just because Jian Kang Lu was nothing to him. Maybe his kitten realised that Feng Mian was a better option compared to an old man like him.


    Jian Kang Lu can''t even think straight when his kitten turns his body around and walks away from him. He hugged his kitten from behind. He just wants confirmation, at least he deserves an explanation from his kitten.


    "Why? WHY??? At least tell me the reason in front of my face. Do you¡­"


    Before Jian Kang Lu finished his sentence, his kitten shoved him hard. And his furious face was pale when he was trembling saying those words to him.


    "I told you, we''re over. What the hell are you thinking? Hugged me like that? Which part of my words that you don''t understand? Stop bothering me!"


    His kitten abruptly turns back and just walks away. So this is what it needs to make his kitten speak to him again? When he wanted to reach for his kitten, he already ran away from him. Go ahead and run, no matter what he needs his kitten''s explanation tonight.


    If it was a hug needed to make this man speak to him, then maybe he needed something more to make this man explained to him. Say in front of him that he was nothing for Bai Yutang. That no matter how he tried to love him, it was all nothing.


    Once Jian Kang Lu grabbed his kitten, he just brutally pressed his lips against the lips he used to adore so much. He loved him so much. And it was hurting, so much. He felt his kitten push him, punch him, and kick him.


    ''Say it, say that i was nothing to you.''


    Jian Kang Lu just stopped when his kitten bit his lips hard. He wiped the blood from his lips, and wanted to ask his kitten again. ''Do i ever mean something to you?'' But then what he saw brought his rationality back.


    His kitten staring at him, tears swelling up in those beautiful phoenix eyes.


    "I hate you."


    Those words uttered with hatred. Then his kitten walked away, ran to the dorm''s entrance. Escaped from him.


    What has he done? Why can''t he stop being jealous for once? He used to mock the people who were overly jealous with their partner, but now he was the same with those kind of insecure people.


    Jian Kang Lu sighed, now everything just got worse. Does he even have a chance to bring his kitten back? He wasn''t sure. And maybe it was right for his kitten to leave him. Since he also will hate someone like him.


    January 1st


    Jian Kang Lu really laughed when he wandered around his kitten''s dorm again today. His foot automatically brings him here. Waiting for his kitten once more.


    He hoped what he did last night didn''t bring anything bad to his kitten. He just wants to apologise now. No matter if his kitten still wants to give him a chance or not, he needs to apologise.


    Who does he want to fool? He just wants to see his kitten once again. Last night he could not sleep properly. He missed his kitten so much to the point he always saw his kitten''s shadow everywhere.


    It seems his kitten didn''t go outside today. Jian Kang Lu''s mind is really a mess at this moment. Tomorrow he needs to go to the hospital, working again, and he won''t have this much time to grab a chance to see his kitten once more.


    The sun starts to hide its rays slowly, leaving the grey sky turning cloudy red and gradually turns black. The earth''s colour becomes grey, and dark. When night comes and the lights are gone, with the cold wind blowing its freezing air, Jian Kang Lu stands up and turns around. Walk away from this place.


    Maybe tonight he needs to take some sleeping pills, otherwise he could not sleep properly. He needs a proper rest, he doesn''t want to visit his patient with a tired mind tomorrow.


    Suddenly a shadow comes toward him. When that shadow showed its face, it was giving Jian Kang Lu a cold glare, eyes filled with hatred. Jian Kang Lu coldly stares back at the person approaching him. It was Tang Yuxuan.


    "Why did you come here again? Maybe I need to tell the security guard in the gate to ban you from coming inside this yard."


    "It was none of your business."


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t want to argue with this boy. It was not worthy to argue with someone much younger than you. And he knew Tang Yuxuan sometimes looked at him with hostility.


    Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang saw what happened last night. They were just walking from Fei Hong and Feng Mian''s dorm, and from the dark corner they saw Jian Kang Lu forcing himself on his skinny friend. Luckily his friend could release himself fast, and run to the entrance.


    He really wanted to punch this man when he saw that, but Liu Xiang held him. "Stop it. Don''t make a ruckus. And don''t let TangTang know that we''re here, I think it''s the best. Never talk about this to TangTang unless he chooses to talk to us."


    Tang Yuxuan understands, who wants to admit that they, as a man, were molested by another man? That''s why he held himself. But tonight he saw this man sitting in the dark corner, looking at the dorm''s entrance. Clearly he was waiting for his skinny friend.


    Is this what makes his poor friend run away from this wolf? He hoped this man didn''t violate Bai Yutang more than a kiss. He shuddered to imagine what his pure friend had to go through with this wolf.


    He never imagined this bastard would treat his poor friend with all that overly kindness, just to molest him. He always thought Jian Kang Lu suspicious, but he never thought that this man just a crazy cutsleeve who wants to devour his poor friend.


    "Should I call the police then? I wanted to call the police last night, but it will harm TangTang more than you. And he didn''t deserve that. You''re just a jerk using his weakness so he needs to follow all your commands."


    Jian Kang Lu stunned. It doesn''t matter with the police part, but what if this makes his kitten have to face the hard consequences because of his selfish jealousy. He really regrets what he did last night. What could he explain to this boy? He couldn''t say to Tang Yuxuan that he used to be lovers with Bai Yutang. And what the hell Tang Yuxuan means by him using his kitten''s weakness?


    "Stop harassing him. Stop bothering him. TangTang told us everything. You''re really disgusting."


    Before Tang Yuxuan walked away, he said once again.


    "I''ll call the police if we ever meet you around here again."

 Chapter 113 - Gege

    Jian Kang Lu didn''t know how he came back to the apartment that night. He took his sleeping pill and closed his eyes. He laid down in his cold bed, while Tang Yuxuan''s words repeated in his mind.


    ''Stop harassing him. Stop bothering him. TangTang told us everything. You''re really disgusting.''


    ''TangTang told us everything. You''re really disgusting.''


    ''You''re really disgusting.''


    ''Disgusting..''


    ''Disgusting.''


    ''Disgusting.''


    Jian Kang Lu smiled. How stupid he was. He laughed when he remembered all his acts in the last one week. Abandon his duty in the hospital. Drown in sorrow. Following Bai Yutang the whole day. Stalking is the exact word. He''s so stupid. Stupid and pathetic.


    No, no. The exact word is disgusting.


    He can''t even refute Tang Yuxuan''s accusation because it was all true. He was harassing Bai Yutang. Why the hell did he do that? Kiss someone without concern? In the public area. No wonder Bai Yutang told his friends that he was disgusting.


    In the deepest part of his heart, he felt something so painful he never felt before. What did Bai Yutang tell his friend about them until his friends hated him so? Does Bai Yutang ever love him? Truly love him? Did all those loving acts Bai Yutang showed to him were all lies? It was just because he was using Bai Yutang''s weakness?


    Even he can''t deny that. Because he knew the dark part of him truly wanted to tie Bai Yutang with money and gratitude. No matter if he wanted to defend himself by saying it was because of love, but if the other person didn''t love him back, then it was called using Bai Yutang''s weakness to get what he wants.


    ''TangTang, did you ever love me? For real?''


    ''TangTang, did you really think I was harassing you?''


    ''TangTang, did you really think I was disgusting?''


    ''TangTang, did you ever feel happy because of me?''


    ''TangTang, is it all just a lie?''


    ''TangTang, maybe you''re right. Let''s stop¡­''


    ¡ª ¡ª ¡ª


    "Morning Doctor Jian. How''s your vacation?"


    Jian Kang Lu softly smiled, "Morning, it was good. I believe my patient is not a lot today. How''s your new year?"


    The nurse grinned, "You have five patients and six consultation patients. We were watching the fireworks on new year''s eve here on the hospital roof. It was marvellous."


    "What? I just came back from vacation, why so many?"


    The nurse laughed, "Once they know you''ll be back to work today, all the consultation last night was directed to you."


    Jian Kang Lu helplessly smiled, "From which department?"


    "Three from the cardiology department, one from orthopaedic, one from the digestive, and one from oncology."


    Jian Kang Lu studied the patient''s chart, and then visited the patients. These 11 patients are new patients for him. So he needs to carefully re-examine them, decide the initial treatment and examination. He spent more than one hour in this VIP ward.


    The two nurses attend to him and write the instruction Jian Kang Lu gave to them. They like to attend Jian Kang Lu. He joked with them, and didn''t treat them like his subordinates. The way Jian Kang Lu talks and gives instruction just like talking to his doctor''s colleague. Respect them. No wonder he got many patients.


    This actually happened every time Doctor Jian finished his vacation. For VIP wards, he was the doctor who got most patient consultation from other departments. Because he was famous for visiting patients in the morning, and visiting them almost everyday. So if the doctor in charge can''t visit them that day, at least Doctor Jian already visited the patient and will treat them accordingly.


    Jian Kang Lu moved to another ward, and greeted the nurses there with a smile.


    "Doctor Jian, you look a bit thinner after vacation. Where did you go?"


    "Really? My diet works then. I didn''t go anywhere, just want to use my leave or else it will expire again."


    The nurses laughed, "Why do you need to diet Doctor Jian? You''ll look more handsome if you gain a bit of weight."


    "Do you want me to become like Doctor Yang? Is that what young girls like nowadays?"


    The nurses laughed again, since Yang Haoyu is famous for his big belly. "Yes please! We want to see Doctor Jian with a big belly. We''re getting bored to see your flat stomach!"


    At noon, the nephrology department had a presentation from his resident. A case report about bilateral ureteral stenosis with hydronephrosis as the first manifestation of Wegener''s granulomatosis. Jian Kang Lu gave the resident presenting the case few input and critics before praising him for his good work.


    In the afternoon he was in the clinic. It''s been more than one week since he closed his practice. Today he opened his patient''s limit more than usual. He needs something to dull his own feelings.


    "Doctor Jian, why do you look thinner after your vacation?" Nurse Yu asked him after they finished at 8.40 pm.


    "Emm? Maybe my diet works. By the way, I''m sorry to make you girls going home late at night today."


    "That''s okay, Doctor Jian. But please don''t go on a diet, you already look okay."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, "But my belly lately lost its shape. Even if i told that the trend now is a belly like Yang Haoyu, i still don''t want to buy new pants because of my belly."


    Nurse Yu laughed, "Nooo, don''t believe those wicked trends. Your belly is just okay. My belly is the problem here."


    That''s how Jian Kang Lu spent his days. Back to work, work, and work. He doesn''t know he needs to feel remorse about his previous decision to bring Bai Yutang to his Saturday round, or to cherish it as part of his happy memories. The nurses asked him, and he told them that Bai Yutang needed to prepare for his final year.


    His apartment felt like hell for him now. A frozen hell. He saw Bai Yutang everywhere. He tried to put all Bai Yutang''s belongings inside the boxes and hide them in the guest room.


    At first he wanted to send it to Bai Yutang back, but then he noticed all of it was the things he bought for him. Watch, belt, tie, clothes, shoes, suit, even the apron and the 3D printer also left behind. It was no use to send it to Bai Yutang. These things didn''t mean anything for him.


    Jian Kang Lu also put their matched plates, mug, cups. Even he put away all the cooking utensils in his apartment. It was really painful, because he keeps seeing Bai Yutang''s image in the kitchen. Cooking for him, serving him food. Kissed him there.


    He smells Bai Yutang''s everywhere. He changed all the bedsheets, even his soap and shampoo. But those soft musk with a hint of cedar wood underneath was enveloping him once he stepped his foot inside his apartment.


    He can''t stop himself to torture himself every night. Looking at Bai Yutang''s picture. Their picture. They looked so happy there. This can''t be a lie, right? And then he had the urge to call Bai Yutang. But then he remembered that he was blocked.


    Besides, he needs to stop himself. Stop ruining himself, and stop bothering Bai Yutang. Jian Kang Lu already erased the tracking application. He doesn''t want to be a disgusting stalker.


    At first, Jian Kang Lu thought if he torture himself, the pain will numbed along the time passing by. Just like years ago. But years ago, he didn''t have this hallucination bothering him. And after one month passed depending on the sleeping pills, he knew this is not healthy for his mental state.


    In the middle of February, his hallucination is getting worse. He kept seeing Bai Yutang greet him home.


    ''Gege, you''re home. Why so late today? A lot of patients?''


    He kept seeing Bai Yutang sit in the living room.


    ''Gege, come. Let''s watch this together. I made some snacks for you. I try a new recipe today. How does it taste? Good?''


    He kept seeing Bai Yutang cooking in the kitchen.


    ''Gege, just wait for a moment. Why don''t you take a shower first? I still need to fry this eggplant.''


    He kept seeing Bai Yutang in the bedroom.


    ''Gege, i love you so much.''


    He notice that he drinks every Saturday night. Last week he met his friends on Song Lixia''s birthday. Their friends didn''t ask him anything when he answered their question about Bai Yutang''s whereabouts with a smile.


    He could not say that they broke up. He also didn''t know why. Maybe there''s a tiny part of himself that hopes they''ll get back together again. At the party he drank a lot, but he didn''t get drunk.


    His friend notices that he exceeds his usual tolerance but still looks fine. Sun Hongjia tapped his shoulder. "Brother, did you drink every week again?"


    Looking at Jian Kang Lu''s smile, Sun Hongjia toast him. "Invite me next week, it was no fun drinking alone at home."


    "Sure. Let''s go to M lounge. I enjoy their piano over there."


    Sun Hongjia nodded to hear Jian Kang Lu. "Don''t drink alone. You have brothers here that gladly spend their weekend without children. You know you''re our best reason to escape."


    Jian Kang Lu knows he needs to stop. He never thought, for Bai Yutang''s sake he reached the point he felt he was going insane. So he bravely came to consult about his hallucination to his psychiatric friend in another hospital.


    His friend suggested he change his environment. Jian Kang Lu already analysed himself, but he needs a second opinion. So once his friend suggested the same thing with what''s on his mind, he agreed.


    In the end of February, Jian Kang Lu moved out from his apartment. He rents a studio apartment near the hospital. It didn''t help his insomnia, he still needs sleeping pills. But at least he stopped hallucinating. Even though the pain is still there, it was better.


    Months passed. Bai Yutang''s birthday also passed, he should turn 23 years old now. Jian Kang Lu smiled to look at their picture taken on Bai Yutang''s birthday last year. He wished Bai Yutang for happiness.


    He would be a liar if he said he didn''t feel resentment at all. But he tried to push those malicious thoughts. Those won''t help him at all. The person he should resent is himself. For hurting Bai Yutang. And for being a stupid person who push that man. Using his kindness, and his weakness. Bai Yutang deserves a normal life. He deserves to have his birthday with smiles, with his friends, or maybe with a new girlfriend.


    On Friday, April 26th, Jian Kang Lu was in his practice room when Nurse Li announced that this will be his last patient. The clock shows 8.35 pm. When Jian Kang Lu looked at the patient''s chart, he froze. It was a familiar name to him. A name he adored so much, even until now.


    When the patient came inside, Jian Kang Lu almost dropped the chart. He stared at that skinny young man come inside his practice room. Look at those familiar soft and silky hair, that pair of phoenix eyes, that white jade face. The face he stares everyday in his phone. The face that haunted his dream. The face he hallucinated everyday before he moved out from his apartment.


    "Gege¡­"

 Chapter 114 - My Treasure

    Bai Yutang sat on the bench with his bent posture, looking at the bright blue sky above him. The weather is nice today. Green leaves fluttering above him. Bai Yutang looked down and stared at the flowers blooming in the park besides him. The earth beneath emitting spring''s radiance, with colours sprouting here and there. Gracious and beauty combined.


    Even this finesse of nature still can''t bring his heart back to life. Inside him, the world is still monochromatic. No colours painted his world anymore. The more time he spent dealing with loneliness, the more he felt something inside him truly dead and can''t be revived.


    He thought, time will heal all the pain. He could never guess that he would be so wrong in his life. The pain was numbed, dulled, but could not subside.. It was there. And always be there. Tormenting him.


    Some people went back to this university last month with anticipation, it''s the new semester. It''s the beginning of spring. It was the sprout of new life. Bai Yutang was also one of them.


    He hoped with his busy schedules, and as time flows by, he will forget his sorrowful yearn for Jian Kang Lu. He hoped he could learn how to move on. Learn how to deal with the consequences of his own decision. But instead of learning how to cope with his despair, he learned what sadness is. He learned what regret truly means.


    Bai Yutang never got any message nor call from Jian Kang Lu again since the beginning of this year. It was so easy to count how many days he didn''t see any trace of Jian Kang Lu. Because the last time they met was on December 31st. By today, it means he spent 90 days without any news from Jian Kang Lu.


    Bai Yutang closed his eyes, smiling wistfully. He was the one who asked for breaking up, but why he felt like he was the one who dumped. He can''t count on how many times he opened the chat window in his phone, wanting to type something to the man he yearned for.


    ''Gege, how are you?''


    ''Gege, how''s your day?''


    ''Gege, are you mad with me?''


    ''Gege, I missed you so much.''


    But none of those words he typed was sent. He doesn''t have any courage. The words he wanted to say the most were so laughable. He dare not typed.


    Every 15th each month, he suffered so much. It was like a cursed day for him. The day which reminded him that he used to be very happy, but because he was foolish and stubborn, he threw away his own happiness.


    On March 15th, more than two weeks ago, Bai Yutang asked his roommate.


    "Chenjie, can i ask you something?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t have anyone he could ask about this. He asked his roommate because he seems like a very logical person, as expected from Computer Science students.


    Xu Chenjie turned his chair, looking at Bai Yutang who sat in his bed. His eyes showed that he was not busy and willing to talk to him.


    "I have a friend. He.. He has a lover. Then they broke up. Now he wants to ask his ex-lover to go back together again. Do you think his ex-lover wants to accept him back?"


    Xu Chenjie looked at him, then he asked back, "Why did they break up?"


    Bai Yutang thought about it a million times before. Why do they break up? Why was he so emotional at that moment?


    "My friend thought that his ex-lover was cheating on him. So he wants to break up."


    "Does she cheat on him?"


    Ah, since Bai Yutang is a man, Xu Chenjie must have thought that his friend was a man, and the ex-lover is a woman.


    "I.. I also didn''t know exactly what happened. I-I.. I didn''t ask him the details. His ex-lover wanted to explain to him, but he didn''t want to listen and just ask for a break up."


    Xu Chenjie staring at Bai Yutang, both of them didn''t say anything for a while. At last Xu Chenjie slowly asked.


    "I assume your friend still likes his ex-girlfriend, that''s why he wants to go back with her. But why at that time he doesn''t want to listen to her?"


    Bai Yutang also wants to ask that. Why did he stubbornly refuse to hear Jian Kang Lu''s explanation? So he just spoke softly.


    "I don''t know. But do you think his ex-lover wants to give him a chance?"


    Xu Chenjie tried to give his opinion. "When people broke up, it was hard to mend the broken relationship back. Moreover, he once suspected her of cheating on him. It means he doesn''t trust her enough. He doesn''t even want to listen to her. I don''t think it''s wise to ask her to go back with him. It will only become a devil''s circle."


    Xu Chenjie looked at Bai Yutang who lost in his own thought. "He should never have asked for a break up without listening to her explanation. I''m sorry, but it will be very selfish for a man to treat his girlfriend like that. Broke up when he was mad, and then asked for reconciliation when he missed her."


    Bai Yutang nodded. He also felt that he was selfish, and foolish. That''s what always stops his fingers from sending those words he wants to say the most to Jian Kang Lu.


    ''Gege, please forgive me.''


    Sometimes, Bai Yutang will dream about Jian Kang Lu. In the morning, he will find his eyes were wet. His hollow heart will back to the previous burning pain, like something inside his heart was throbbing, constricting his throat, clenching his heart.


    In mornings like those, he will wash his face with cold water, and can only blame himself for what happened. How he wished he could go back to the days when Jian Kang Lu came to him.


    Why can''t he listen to Jian Kang Lu''s explanation? Why he was so stupid, and refuse to listen to Jian Kang Lu? Why can''t he realise that Jian Kang Lu truly loved him, and cherish him so much?


    Or he wished to go back on that Christmas eve, and slapped the past himself.


    Why didn''t he confront the man who brought Jian Kang Lu back home that time? Why didn''t he yell at that man, who dared to hug and kissed his drunk lover? Why can''t he bravely step up and claim the man he loved the most?


    But the thing Bai Yutang wants to repeat the most is, when he can''t proudly tell his friends that he was Jian Kang Lu''s lover. If he told them, his lover doesn''t need to get jealous with Feng Mian, and none of this will happen.


    Bai Yutang sighed, and walked to his own dorm. He doesn''t have any class anymore after lunch. He put his backpack down, and slumped his tired body to the bed. He was tired, and lonely. No matter how hard his busy friends tried to cheer him up, he could not feel any joy.


    He can''t taste the food, he can''t enjoy the games, he forces himself to laugh at their jokes, and his sleep quality is awful. He lost 5 kg, and his face sunken with unhealthy paleness. His clothes start to loosen hanging in his thin shoulder, and he doesn''t care about that.


    He even lost the urge to feel happy again. He doesn''t deserve it. Just like Xu Chenjie said, he was just a stupid selfish man.


    There''s the sound of the door unlocked, and then opened. Xu Chenjie also went back from his lunch. It seems he also doesn''t have class this afternoon.


    "You''re back?"


    Bai Yutang saw Xu Chenjie nodded. His face looked miserable. What''s going on with him? But Bai Yutang knew their relationship as roommates is excellent because they rarely talk about anything private.


    Few moments later, after the awkward look from Xu Chenjie''s face who kept stealing glances at Bai Yutang, he finally spoke.


    "Senior, have you heard the rumor about you?"


    Bai Yutang lay still in the bed, he just turned his head to the man who sat on the chair.


    "What rumour?"


    Xu Chenjie seems uneasy. "Your friends didn''t tell you?"


    Bai Yutang was numbed to all feelings lately, so he just shook his head. In normal situations, he should be curious about what Xu Chenjie says to him. But now, he really can''t feel anything.


    Except regret.


    "Mmm.. I just think that you need to know, there''s this rumor, and they even post the picture in the forum. The rumor already circulated for months I guess, even we in the different faculty heard about you."


    Bai Yutang didn''t even change his tone when he asked, "What rumour?"


    Xu Chenjie didn''t answer. He just typed in his mobile phone, and finally sent the link to Bai Yutang''s phone. Bai Yutang took his mobile phone laid beside him, and opened the link.


    In that forum, someone posted a dark picture taken from a far. There''s two shadows, clearly it was two man, kissing each other. Bai Yutang''s posture can be clearly seen from the side, because the lights from the dorm''s lights fell to him. But their faces were blurred from the shadow and were not very clearly seen.


    Bai Yutang''s eyes widened to see that picture. He didn''t even care to see what they wrote in that forum. He just stared at Jian Kang Lu''s shadow.


    Xu Chenjie was a little bit worried when he saw his roommate just smiling looking at the link he sent. He was prepared for the emotional defensive words from his calm and quiet roommate. But why now he looked so.. Happy???


    Bai Yutang wants to laugh. He once imagined what kind of feeling he''ll feel once his relationship with Jian Kang Lu was exposed. He imagined he''ll be angry with those people who throw malicious comments at him. Or maybe he''ll be sad because people don''t want to understand that they are just two normal people who loved each other.


    But now when he was exposed in the forum like this, when people he doesn''t know write so many speculative theories about him, he didn''t feel anything except joy. He was happy to see Jian Kang Lu again, even though the picture is blurry and dark.


    Bai Yutang saved that picture. It was the only picture of Jian Kang Lu that he has now. He will treasure this, and never delete this picture again.

 Chapter 115 - Im So Lucky

    This cafe near the engineering dorm always has customers even though it was pricey and the taste of the food was also average. The key of this customer keeps coming to this cafe laid on the big tables with soft cushions. It was perfect for the students gathering, working on their group assignment.


    Bai Yutang sits alone in the cafe, waiting for the others to arrive. Each group consists of five students working on a large scale urban project. They almost finished the tasks, only needing to wrap up the presentation. Their turn is next week, right before the midterm exam.


    Bai Yutang looked at the menu and ordered the cheapest coffee. He really could not afford to buy anything else here. He looked at the big window, at the green leaves out there. It should be green, bathing with the golden lights. But all he saw was a dull grey world. The colours have left his world..


    One of the main reasons he doesn''t have any courage to contact Jian Kang Lu is because of this group project. When he was starting his new semester, he really couldn''t hold his feelings anymore, thinking to abandon his pride and maybe he should just beg for forgiveness. Plead for Jian Kang Lu to accept him back.


    At that time, their professor gave them this group project. His teammates were fifth year like himself and also fourth year students.


    "I was hoping to be assigned with a cute female junior. It was really a sign of bad luck to have an all male group with you guys."


    The juniors laugh and greet their seniors. "We''re also cute, seniors. Please take care of us."


    "Shameless."


    Bai Yutang just smiled and they started to discuss the project, divide the task among them. They spent more than three hours in this same cafe. At the end of their discussion, the phone of one of his juniors keeps vibrating, and finally his junior with an annoyed face turns off the phone.


    "Who is it?"


    "Oh.. Ahaha.."


    "That''s from his ex-girlfriend senior. She has been bothering Yansong since last week."


    "Oh, I smell gossip here. Let''s just talk about that. My brain needs gossip to revive from this burning discussion. Why is she bothering you?"


    "Uh.."


    "His ex-girlfriend asked him to come back to her, senior. No wonder, our Yansong here is the most handsome man in our class."


    "Yeah, but i bet your face can''t beat my charm."


    Bai Yutang didn''t really like to gossip about someone else''s love life. But he can''t help to ask his junior about this, because he was almost texting Jian Kang Lu this morning. He just missed him so much.


    "And..? Will you give her a chance?"


    This fourth year Ma Yansong was surprised to hear his quiet senior asking him the question. He doesn''t look like someone who took interest with anyone else except his study.


    "Umm.."


    "I told him it will be very stupid of him to accept her back. She was the one who lost her temper and wanted to break up with him. Now she said she regretted it, and bothering Yansong with those disturbing messages and calls."


    "Is she pretty? Must be pretty if she dares to break up with the most handsome man in fourth year. Which faculty?"


    "That''s why we said he must be very stupid. That girl is not even pretty. Her face is just so-so. Don''t know why this guy agreed to become her boyfriend in the first place."


    "Don''t talk about Huiyin like that. She was sweet and kind. It just.. Maybe we''re not just meant to be."


    "So why did she ask you to break up?"


    "She was mad because i was going out with my friends on Christmas eve and didn''t want her to tag along. She said that i was ashamed of her."


    "See senior? What a ridiculous reason. Good that she asks you to break up. She didn''t deserve you."


    "Ah, if that girl is not pretty, don''t bother to accept her back ah. With your face, you could get many girls who appreciate you. Why bother with someone like that. Just block her number."


    Bai Yutang''s hand at that time was instantly cold, and the shame washed over him. Who was he, dare asking for forgiveness from Jian Kang Lu. An ordinary man like him. Ordinary face with nasty temper.


    His junior was right. There''s a lot of better people out there compared to him who wants to be Jian Kang Lu''s lover. And he stupidly wasted his fortune. It''s all his fault.


    He took Jian Kang Lu''s kindness for granted.


    Bai Yutang can''t bear to imagine what kind of tone Jian Kang Lu will use to mock him if he contacts Jian Kang Lu again. And somehow, Bai Yutang really didn''t want to hear Jian Kang Lu''s rejection. Jian Kang Lu was the one who accepted him for who he was, never rejecting him. And he doesn''t want to hear the first rejection from that man now.


    He can''t bear to receive pain more than what he feels right now.


    "Hello seniors, have you been waiting for a long time? Sorry, i need to get my laptop first."


    His junior''s voice dragged his focus back to the present time. Bai Yutang turned his head and smiled. They talk about their presentation while waiting for the others. After the other members arrived, they hurriedly wrapped their presentation.


    Bai Yutang slowly walked, going back to his dorm. He skipped his lunch today, it means he needs to have his dinner. He texts his friends in group chat. Unfortunately his friends can''t spare time to have dinner with him. They are still stuck in the studio for their final project.


    The shops and cafes lined in this street were packed with people. There are groups of girls laughing. There are couples walking hand in hand. There are also people like him, walking slowly enjoying the spring breeze. Unfortunately he can''t find the beauty within the swaying leaves, fluttering in the wind of spring.


    At night, Xu Chenjie asked him to have dinner together. This is the first time in their four months being dorm mates to have dinner together. Bai Yutang agreed. Xu Chenjie is the first person beside Mu Xiaoya whom he told about his relationship with Jian Kang Lu.


    Last night, after Xu Chenjie sent him the link, he could perceive that Xu Chenjie was peeking at him several times. Bai Yutang smiled, and asked him. "Are you curious, whether the person in this picture is truly me?"


    Xu Chenjie just gave silence as his response to Bai Yutang''s question. Bai Yutang smiled and continued.


    "This is me. And this is my boyfriend."


    Bai Yutang can deny it. Bai Yutang can give excuses. But somehow, his blank mind and his hollow heart lead his mouth to tell those shameless lies.


    ''My boyfriend.''


    Bai Yutang doesn''t know why, but he could not say that this man he longs for, is the man who is no longer his boyfriend. He could not say that this man is his ex-boyfriend. Because he was an idiot to let this man go.


    No, the exact words is, he arrogantly pushed this man away from him. And now he lost him.


    Bai Yutang could hear awkward laughs from Xu Chenjie, and they spent that night with awkward stillness lingering around them. Bai Yutang doesn''t care. He also spent no effort to read malicious comments on that forum. He only stared at that picture. How he wishes to come back to those happy moments before this nightmare he created trapped him in this desolate world.


    Bai Yutang thought maybe Xu Chenje will avoid him, or despise him to be a cutsleeve. Bai Yutang was even expecting Xu Chenjie to move out and look for another roommate. But surprisingly today they have dinner together.


    While they were eating the fried rice in this small food stall, Xu Chenjie asked him.


    "Senior, i''m sorry if my question is bothering you. But I was curious, whether your boyfriend is also studying here?"


    Bai Yutang smiled, and asked lightly. "Why do you want to know?"


    Xu Chenjie''s face is a bit red. "I don''t know whether you read those forum''s discussion, senior. But they speculate that your boyfriend took a master degree here. I-I.. I was just curious."


    Bai Yutang chuckled, and he answered. "No, he''s not."


    "Is he an architect too?"


    "No.. He''s a doctor."


    Xu Chenjie doesn''t know whether it was just his imagination or reality. But he can sense a longing tone, and sorrow, from Bai Yutang''s answer.


    "Wow, how did you meet each other?"


    Bai Yutang smiled, "Why do you want to know? I thought you''d be afraid of me."


    Xu Chenjie hurriedly waved his hand. "No no no. I have a cousin, he was very close with me and my sister. He''s a cutsleeve too. But you look so different with him. I''m just surprised, and also curious."


    "And why are you curious?"


    "Um.. Because you look so happy last night. I thought you''ll be mad or sad. It took me one week before finally I decided to ask you last night. I kinda guess no one talk to you about it. These kinds of things usually make people only talk behind you, but not dare to ask you. And I think you have the right to know."


    "You''re right, and i''m grateful. Thank you, for telling me. And not afraid of me."


    "Oh, i still remember how hard it was for my cousin when he finally told us that he was a cutsleeve. He''s having a hard time from his parents and his friends too. He''s such a kind man, and I feel sorry for him to receive that unfair treatment."


    Bai Yutang smiled, "I don''t have courage like your cousin. You''re the second person I told about this. Not even my friends know. But maybe they know about it now."


    "Don''t worry, senior. Lots of good people who can truly see your kindness instead of your preferences."


    "Yes, I know. And I am grateful for that. You belong to that good people. But why are you curious about my boyfriend?"


    "Umm.. Like I told you, because you look happy last night. You should see my cousin and my sister every time they get drunk together. They will start to curse man as an ungrateful beast. They''re lamenting about how hard to find a decent man out there. But looking at your face last night, I think your boyfriend treated you well."


    Bai Yutang''s heart felt like a thousand needles pricked his heart when he heard those words from Xu Chenjie. He stared at his half eaten fried rice which he can''t taste. Since Jian Kang Lu was not in his life, the food lost its taste. His tongue no longer has the ability to taste.


    "Yes, he treats me very well. I''m so lucky to have him."

 Chapter 116 - The Unforgettable Night

    Yu Dong felt like he''s ageing so fast in the last two months. Getting through midterm exams while doing your final project is surely one thing he doesn''t want to repeat ever again. But then Yu Dong remember they still have the final exam, and he shuddered to imagine it.


    The three of them feel the pressure of doing their final project. They start to spend more and more time in the studio compared to their own dorm. Yu Dong planned to buy a sleeping bag like many of the seniors here. Living in the studio seems like a better option compared to wasting time going back to their dorm.


    "Yu Dong, your girlfriend looking for you."


    Yu Dong turned his heavy head, and saw Mu Xiaoya waving her hand from the entrance.


    "Xiaoyaaaa¡­"


    Now every time Yu Dong looked at Mu Xiaoya, he could see the wings and halo above her head.. Especially when he saw Mu Xiaoya bring lunch for him and those two ungrateful bastards. He already told his angelic girlfriend not to bring a lunch box or dinner for them, but his girlfriend is just too kind.


    "Mmm, come gege. Please have your lunch first. I just brought fried chicken and rice today, is that okay for you?"


    "Um, anything is fine." Yu Dong put his pitiful face upfront, it was good to be pampered by your girlfriend.


    Those two ungrateful bastards did not even need to be summoned. They seem to have ''Xiaoya radar'' on their nose. Every time his girlfriend appears, they will instantly show up and voraciously eat the meal prepared by his girlfriend.


    Yu Dong was eating his lunch solemnly, he needed to appreciate every grain of rice. The rice was brought by his angelic girlfriend. He was so lucky to have a girlfriend like Mu Xiaoya.


    Then he remembered last night they turned off Bai Yutang''s request to have dinner with them for the nth time.


    "I don''t feel good because we couldn''t accompany TangTang yesterday. Should we have dinner with him today? What if he skips his lunch again?"


    Liu Xiang chewed his chicken with rage, "And today another bastard asked me whether the rumour is true. I told them that it was not TangTang in that picture, but they just won''t listen."


    Tang Yuxuan was the least person among them being asked with that question, because he''ll violently answer with his fist or vicious bark. He didn''t even try to hide the rage within his voice. "This is all because that bastard wolf!"


    Mu Xiaoya listened to this kind of conversation for almost two months. Surprisingly the rumour didn''t go down fast like she expected. She feels bad listening to those malicious comments about her gentle senior. But she could only deny it.


    And she also felt bad every time Tang Yuxuan badmouthed Jian Kang Lu. The worst thing is she knows the truth and she can''t say anything to defend those two. It seems her ship already sunk deep on the bottom of the Mariana trench1. No hope at all.


    "But it seems TangTang hasn''t heard about the rumour."


    "I''ll punch the one who dares to ask TangTang about that. He was the¡­ Ouch!!!"


    Tang Yuxuan swore every inch of his arms now filled with bruises from Liu Xiang''s pinches. He knew Liu Xiang always bullied him every time he almost ran his tongue loose about what happened that day. They already agreed to pretend that the man in that picture was not Bai Yutang. As if that disgusting thing never happened.


    "Um, I''m glad if they didn''t ask TangTang about that. I worried about him. Since that last Christmas he was never coming back to his usual self. He seems.. I don''t know. Empty?"


    Liu Xiang nodded his head, agreed with Yu Dong''s comment. Yu Dong honestly worried about his ex-roommate. How he wished they could be roommates again, so maybe he could help Bai Yutang this time. But even though they became roommates again, he could not help Bai Yutang much, since he was also busy with his final project.


    Yu Dong will never forget, it was Bai Yutang who stays on his side when he almost has a mental breakdown in their first year. It was Bai Yutang who covered for his sketches task even though Bai Yutang himself also drowned in their first year projects. Without Bai Yutang, he might choose to drop out.


    "What if we gather on TangTang''s birthday this Wednesday, and let''s have a small party. We can sneak some beers to our room, and you bring some cake." Liu Xiang threw his suggestion to Yu Dong. They agreed immediately, and texting Bai Yutang in their group.


    "Yeah, and let TangTang know that he still has us here. No need to be sad, especially no need to think about that stinky wolf done to him."


    When those two ungrateful bastards finished their lunch and left them alone, Mu Xiaoya suddenly said to him. "I didn''t agree with Tang Ge''s opinion. I didn''t think Jian Ge was that bad, he didn''t deserve all that tongue-lashing."


    Yu Dong ruffling his girlfriend''s soft hair. She was so cute when she pouted her mouth. "I know. I don''t know what happened between them. I believe it was some kind of misunderstanding. But honestly, I''m so curious about what happened. It was very unusual to see TangTang mad at someone to this degree."


    Mu Xiaoya stared at the empty lunchbox. Yeah, she was also curious.


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    "Happy birthday TangTang!!!"


    Three of them popped the confetti gun when their skinny friend appeared. Yu Dong was relieved to see his friend''s pale face tinted with some colours. It has been a long time since he saw his friend''s face flushed like this.


    "Come TangTang, blew the candle! Make a wish!"


    Bai Yutang laughed, his voice finally had some excitement after being flat for these few months. "Thank you. This humble slave was really touched. You guys really prepare a lot."


    Yu Dong didn''t know what Bai Yutang wished. It must be something he really desired, since his face was filled with aspiration, yet sorrowful at the same time.


    "Come TangTang, let''s eat the cake." Tang Yuxuan presents their hidden treasure from under the bed, whispering. "And we also will drink until wasted tonight. Let''s just forget those damn final projects for tonight!"


    "This humble slave knows that daddy didn''t bring these beers for me, it actually for yourself."


    They laughed, and drank so much that night. Yu Dong was not a heavy drinker, he sipped his beer slowly. He could only drink two cans of beer. More than that, he''ll get drunk. He noticed Bai Yutang didn''t eat much. He sighed inside his heart, his skinny friend was hollow-cheeked now.


    It''s almost 10 o''clock when Yu Dong realise Bai Yutang keep drinking and drinking. He was feeling uneasy. His skinny friend was not someone that enjoy being drunk. So why tonight he drink like this? He could see Bai Yutang''s eyes unfocused and glossy.


    Suddenly his heart jumped when he heard Bai Yutang talk.


    "Why didn''t you guys tell me about that post in the forum? Why didn''t you ask?"


    Yu Dong was seriously sweating, he was never someone who was good with his words. He looked at Liu Xiang, the best speaker among them.


    Liu Xiang held Tang Yuxuan, preventing him from speaking. "We just know that it was not true. Why need to think about something unnecessary like that. Come TangTang, don''t mind those gossips."


    Yu Dong felt goosebumps when he heard Bai Yutang laugh. Has his friend finally had a mental breakdown?? Why did he laugh? Yu Dong could hear his own voice shaking while he spoke.


    "Yeah, d-don''t mind about that TangTang. Tho-those gossip doesn''t matter."


    Bai Yutang laughed even louder. Yu Dong almost jumped when Bai Yutang was laughing until he almost knocked his head to the bedstead.


    "Ah.. Ah.. So funny. I haven''t laughed like this for months."


    Yu Dong is really concerned about Bai Yutang more than ever. What happened to his gentle friend?


    Yu Dong could see his skinny friend still laughing, and drink his beer again. Yu Dong raises his hand, wanting to prevent this man from drinking more. He was already drunk now, and Yu Dong never saw Bai Yutang drunk like this.


    "You didn''t even ask me what the funny thing was. I guess you already know. What they wrote in that forum was true. It was me."


    Tang Yuxuan snapped. "That was not true! Daddy knows the truth. I was there that time, when that bastard forced you! We won''t blame you, he was the rotten one. Disgusting! Why do you have to be like this because of that bastard? You''re innocent!"


    Yu Dong doesn''t know what kind of expression he showed right now. What? What did he just hear? He could see Bai Yutang''s face flustered.


    "So you guys saw? And you didn''t ask me anything?"


    "Why should we? We didn''t want to force you. We could not imagine what kind of horror you went through because of that bastard. So please TangTang, don''t be like this."


    Liu Xiang held Tang Yuxuan back. He could see Bai Yutang''s expression was not right.


    "Yeah, this is all my fault. I was the stupid one here." Bai Yutang''s voice trembling, not matched with his smiling face. As if he mocked himself with sorrow and regret.


    "TangTang!" Tang Yuxuan shouted.


    "I guess i had to make myself clear. What I meant with my words before was not only about the picture. But what they wrote in that forum. It was true. I like man. And Jian Ge was my boyfriend."


    Yu Dong almost can''t believe what he heard. And when he saw Tang Yuxuan''s face, he bet it must be worse than him right now.


    "He was my boyfriend. I love him so much. But i was so stupid, and now i lost him."


    Yu Dong lost for words. He saw tears running from Bai Yutang''s eyes. His skinny friend''s expression hurts him. That smile plastered in his friend''s face was so pitiful. That was a face from a heartbroken man.


    "I lost him. I.. I lost him. And now he''ll never come back to me. Because i''m so stupid. Worthless and stupid."


    Yu Dong raised his arms and hugged those skinny shoulders who were shaking violently. He could feel his own shirt damped from Bai Yutang''s tears. "Shh.. Shh.. TangTang, it''s okay. Don''t cry."


    "What.. What? Wait, he didn''t force himself to you? I-I.. I thought, he forced himself on you.." Tang Yuxuan''s voice was also shaking.


    "No. He didn''t force me. He never forced me. He.. He was the best lover someone could have. How could you think that Jian Ge is capable of forcing someone? He was so kind. And I love him so much. So much.. But because I''m selfish, he got tired of me. That night was the last time I met him.. And i told him that i hate him.. And.. Now I lost him.. And I missed him so much."


    "Shh.. TangTang.." Yu Dong''s heart wrenched to hear his friend''s gentle voice hoarsely saying those words over and over again, with tears which can''t be stopped, falling like waterfall, endlessly, from his skinny friend''s eyes.


    They could only hear the sound from Bai Yutang''s tears filling the room. Then after some time passed, Tang Yuxuan spoke with a shaking voice. It was low, but they can hear him clearly.


    "I.. I''m sorry TangTang.. I don''t know. I really don''t know. I thought he was forcing himself on you, stalking you. I.. I.. I met him after that day. He.. He was waiting for you in front of our dorm. I.. I extrude him. I told him I will call the police if he was dare to come here again looking for you."


    Yu Dong really thinks that today was a very surprising night for him. He felt he could never forget this night for the rest of his life. He could feel Bai Yutang suddenly stop crying.


    "What? What did you say to him? You threaten Jian Ge?" Looking at Tang Yuxuan nodded his head, Bai Yutang''s voice was full of disbelief. "What else did you say to him?"


    "I.. I lied to him. I just want to scare him, to make him stop coming here. I thought he was stalking on you. I said that you told us that he forced himself to you. And.. And I told him that..that he was disgusting. I''m so sorry TangTang, I truly am. I didn''t know."

 Chapter 117 - He Deserves It

    Bai Yutang massages his temples. His head is still throbbing hard. He could still taste iron in his tongue. Bitter and acidic. This is the first time he experiences what it feels to have a hangover.


    Last night he was so mad with Tang Yuxuan, and also with himself. He wanted to shout and punch Tang Yuxuan. How could Tang Yuxuan say those things to Jian Kang Lu? But he can''t release his anger to him. Because no matter what, it was all his own fault not telling them in the first place. So he just left.


    Yu Dong was running after him, and brought his phone which he left in Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan''s room. Yu Dong also escorts his drunken self to his room. Yu Dong texted him that night, ask him to have lunch with him today.. That''s why now he waited for Yu Dong in the small restaurant near the studio.


    While waiting, Bai Yutang just stared at his phone, looking at Jian Kang Lu''s number. He felt awful. He already felt so many unpleasant emotions when he heard Tang Yuxuan''s confession, how does it feel for Jian Kang Lu when he heard that?


    "Hey, how''s your head?"


    Bai Yutang looked at Yu Dong who casually talked to him like last night''s event never happened at all.


    "It''s awful."


    "Serves you right. Who told you to drink that many yesterday? I''m starving, let''s order first."


    They both order their lunch. Bai Yutang knows Yu Dong want to talk with him about last night. So he just waited for Yu Dong''s questions.


    "You know, I almost got a heart attack last night."


    Bai Yutang smiled, he could imagine what Yu Dong felt. "So, what do you want to ask?"


    Yu Dong took a deep breath. "A lot. But for a start, I just want you to forgive Tang Yuxuan. He really feels miserable right now, afraid you won''t forgive him. We all know he was like that, but he never meant you any harm."


    Bai Yutang nodded, "I know. I will be a liar if I say I wasn''t mad. But I know this is not entirely his fault. This is my own fault. If I should blame someone, it should be me."


    "No. This is no one''s fault. Don''t blame yourself too. Tang Yuxuan wants to call Jian Ge and apologise, but we prevent him. I think we should ask you first. What do you want to do?"


    Bai Yutang pondered, Yu Dong was right. What did he want to do? Last night he just wanted to run to Jian Kang Lu''s apartment, but he was too drunk to walk straight.


    "I''m thinking about that myself. All I want to do is just go back to the time when all of this never happened. When I was still together with him."


    Yu Dong waited, but Bai Yutang didn''t speak anymore. That eyes of his skinny friend back to the empty stares. The emptiness he saw in the last few months. Only last night he saw emotions back into that pair of eyes.


    Yu Dong sighed, "Have you contacted Jian Ge?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head. Then Yu Dong said again, "Why?"


    "I''m afraid¡­"


    The waiter came to deliver their order. Yu Dong looked at his friend who only ordered one bowl of wonton soup. He sighed again.


    "TangTang, do you know why I always apologise first to Xiaoya?"


    Bai Yutang smiled, "Because you''re a henpecked boyfriend?"


    Yu Dong laughed, "Yes, and i''m proud of it. But there''s another reason. It was because Jian Ge."


    Yu Dong could see a fickle of emotion flickered in the pair of his friend''s eyes. He continued.


    "You know that I always ask Jian Ge about girl''s problems, right? He''s like a big brother I never had. That one time I was lamenting on Jian Ge, why should i apologise first? Jian Ge asked me, is it hard to apologise when I didn''t even feel guilty. I said yes. Then Jian Ge said, now imagine Xiaoya''s feeling. Lovers are two different individuals. Naturally each one of us will think that we''re the right one, and demand our partner to understand us. But it won''t work that way. Jian Ge said, if it is already hard for me, then it should be harder for Xiaoya. Moreover, i''m a man and Xiaoya is my woman."


    Yu Dong sipped his ice coffee. "Jian Ge told me, if I truly like Xiaoya, can I bear for her to endure the hardship just to satisfy my ego? I can''t. So that''s why I didn''t mind being called a henpecked boyfriend. Xiaoya is worth it."


    Yu Dong was surprised to see the pair of his eyes''s friend filled with tears. "Hey, I didn''t talk about Jian Ge to make you cry."


    Bai Yutang accepted the tissue Yu Dong gave him. How could he do all of this to someone like Jian Kang Lu?


    "I.. I want to apologise to him many times before. But I was just too afraid he wouldn''t accept it. And after last night I heard from Yuxuan about what truly happened, i don''t think he will forgive me."


    Yu Dong sighed. "I never asked you what happened to you all these times, because i''m waiting for you to tell me yourself. I don''t want to poke on your private life if you don''t like it. But honestly, TangTang, I also deserve an apology from you. How come you never tell me about you and Jian Ge? You know I''m slow to catch things like this. How i suppose to know if you never say it?"


    "I know.. I''m sorry, DongDong. I was plan to told you guys when i graduate. I never thought all of these things would happen. I was afraid you guys will despise me, and it will be hard if we still meet often on campus."


    "So? You think I will judge you differently just because of that? I am your friend. And I thought I am your best friend. Because for me, you are my best buddy. You should trust me more."


    "I know, i''m sorry DongDong."


    Yu Dong smiled. "See? It''s not that hard to apologise. And i forgive you for doing these stupid things."


    Bai Yutang smiled, his tears still welled up in the corner of his eyes. "This humble slave is truly lucky to have a friend like you, young master."


    "Yes you are. And honestly TangTang, no matter if Jian Ge accepts your apologies or not, he deserves to hear it from you. So no need to be afraid. If he rejects your apologies, you still have us. And we won''t ditch you. Brothers for life, remember?"


    Bai Yutang nodded. "What do you think i should do? I was thinking it was not appropriate to apologise through calls or messages."


    Yu Dong starts to chew his chicken rice. He was famished. "Mmm.. Agreed. The best way is to meet him. That way, you could show your sincerity. Let Yuxuan apologise to Jian Ge separately. I think both you and Jian Ge need to settle your matters first."


    Bai Yutang also started to eat his soup. He had no appetite, his stomach still felt nauseous from alcohol last night. But he knows he needs to eat, he already skipped his breakfast.


    "By the way, TangTang. Like I told you, I have many questions. Why did you break up with Jian Ge in the first place? If you don''t want to tell me, that''s fine."


    Bai Yutang shook his head. "No, it''s fine."


    Yu Dong listened to Bai Yutang''s explanation. He took a deep breath after that long story. "TangTang, I might be your best friend, your brother. But I should say that you were wrong in this matter. Why don''t you listen to his explanation first? If I didn''t know Jian Ge, I would say that he was a bastard that cheated on you. But I know him, and I saw how he treated you all these times. Ah, I always thought that it was a little bit weird to see him treat you that well. Even our birthday presents were so different like heaven and earth."


    Bai Yutang laughed even though he felt bitter, for he hurt the one who treated him so kind, who loved him that much. "Yes, how could a birthday present for me and you be the same? I was his boyfriend."


    They finished their lunch. Then Yu Dong slowly asked him. "I also want to ask you, did you read that forum''s comments?"


    Bai Yutang nodded, "Yes. I read it. But I didn''t read them all. It was surprising to see them fight between themselves about me."


    Yu Dong sighed. It was awful to remember what was written on that forum.


    [A friend of mine sent this picture to me. A pair of cutsleeves dare to kiss in the dorm''s yard!]


    [Oh my God, it''s disgusting. Why do they do it in public places?]


    [They dare to do it on campus? Wow.]


    [Oh get a room please.]


    [What? This is gross! How dare they kiss in the dorm? Do they want to infect us with gay virus?]


    [This man is familiar. It looks like an architecture student.]


    [My friend told me his name is Bai Yutang. True, he is from architecture. Fifth year.]


    [What a disgrace for us, architecture students!!!]


    [Why does a man want to play with another stick and that dirty asshole? There are still a lot of beautiful girls out there. Gross!!!]


    [Maybe that is his sugar daddy, make money while selling his ass.]


    [Ewww, gross!]


    [Hey, why are you guys so sickening? Can''t believe i read this in the university forum. This is a violation of human rights.]


    [Oh shut up, are you a cutsleeve also?]


    [Gay are not human. They are pigs.]


    [People so nasty like you guys must be single and ugly.]


    [People who wrote nasty comments like this must be flung their grade. Idiots.]


    [Ah, they all deserve to be single for their whole life. I just felt sorry for their future girlfriend to have a partner with this kind of attitude.]


    [Yeah, at least this man has a partner that wants to kiss him. Unlike all the unpleasant posters here who didn''t even have someone who wanted to kiss them.]


    [Who wants to kiss a mouth who utters this kind of vile words?]


    [Shut up, you fags are not allowed in this earth. Just be gone.]


    Bai Yutang smiled when Yu Dong looked at him with concern. "I''m okay. Really. I thought I was going to be sad or angry if this kind of thing happened to me. And I used to be afraid my scholarship would be cancelled because of this. But nothing happened, and no one said anything to my face. Honestly, I can''t feel anything since I broke up with Jian Ge. All I want is just to come back to him, if he allows me. Those nasty comments mean nothing to me compared to the pain of losing him."


    Yu Dong pat Bai Yutang''s shoulder. "Yeah. Just ignore them. And just punch anyone who dared to insult you directly."


    Bai Yutang decided to meet Jian Kang Lu after he finished his class. He told his friends that he could not have dinner with them not because he was angry, but because he wanted to apologise first.


    [TangTang, can i come with you? I need to apologise too.]


    [No need, i''m the one who should apologise first. Later, I''ll tell you later whether Jian Ge wants to forgive us or not.]


    Bai Yutang rode the bus he used to ride everyday when he was still living with Jian Kang Lu. His heart beat so fast. This is the first time after many months his heart seems to come back to life. Fear, anticipation, hope, yearn. All of those thousands of feelings swirl inside him. His hand sweating.


    He doesn''t want to imagine what will happen. Yu Dong was right, even if Jian Kang Lu doesn''t want to forgive him, but he deserves a thousand apologies from him. He always thought he was an adult, and he thought he always treated Jian Kang Lu as best as he could.


    But he was wrong. He''s still a little boy repeating his mistakes again and again. Hide himself because he was afraid of getting hurt, didn''t realise that he was hurting people who care about him in that way.


    He needs to learn the consequences of his act. He needs to learn how to be a proper adult. Learn how to apologise and not make the same mistakes again. Learn and grow up.


    Bai Yutang was glad he didn''t throw the apartment card Jian Kang Lu gave him. He wanted to throw it away, but he was afraid it could be used by someone else for crime, so he kept it in his wallet.


    The sun had not yet gone down when he opened the apartment door. The passcode is still the same. He didn''t know whether it was wise to wait for an ex-boyfriend like this. But he can''t bring himself to call Jian Kang Lu and get refused.


    At least, he still could see Jian Kang Lu for the last time this way.


    Bai Yutang couldn''t help himself to be numbed and cold when he saw the apartment. It was so empty. Many things were gone. And he even more astounded when he saw the empty kitchen. Nothing was there. Not even a kitchen knife.


    All was shut down, the refrigerator, the stove, everything. He felt uneasy, why it feels like an abandoned apartment to him. He didn''t dare to come inside the bedroom, but he came inside the room that used to be his studio. All the stuff was there, piled inside the boxes.


    It hurts him more to see this. What has he done? Bai Yutang wait, and wait. Until the sun goes down. Until the lights from the city bustling outside could be seen from those glass doors he liked so much.


    He waits, and waits, until the clock shows him it was already 10 o''clock. He decided to wait for another 30 minutes. But Jian Kang Lu didn''t show up. Did something bad happen to him?


    Bai Yutang finally walked out from the apartment. His mind is chaotic. He couldn''t bring himself to call Jian Kang Lu, so he called the hospital. The operator told him that Doctor Jian''s schedule is like usual, nothing changed. Thus Bai Yutang registered himself as a patient.


    This is the last way he could think of letting him meet Jian Kang Lu one more time.

 Chapter 118 - Forgiveness

    All the neurons in Jian Kang Lu''s brain stop working. He didn''t know whether this is another hallucination or reality. But never in his dream he imagined Bai Yutang showed up here, in his practice room. So he just stared at Bai Yutang, looking at the face he dreamed every night, the face that he yearned for.


    The common procedure when a new patient comes is to ask the patient to sit down, and he will ask the patient about their general information first. Then he will chat about their symptoms, following with the physical examination. The attending nurse was always there to help the doctor do their job.


    Nurse Li was not surprised when this young patient came with nervous looks in his face. Some young patients were nervous about their diseases and were not comfortable with consulting the doctor. Though this is the first time she saw a patient didn''t sit down immediately. This young man was just standing there playing with his own hands. She wondered what symptoms he had to make a young man like him become this nervous.


    But she found it weird when Doctor Jian kept silent. Usually Doctor Jian will flash his warm smile and invite the patient to sit down. Right when she wanted to tell the patient that it was okay to sit down and be comfortable, she heard that young patient speaking with a low and trembling voice.


    "Gege¡­"


    Hearing that voice triggered Jian Kang Lu''s brain back to work. His mind is a mess, but he tried to be professional. And somehow he is also worried, does Bai Yutang come here because he was sick?


    "Please sit down, TangTang."


    Jian Kang Lu''s heart ached to see how skinny Bai Yutang now. He looks pale. Now it is spring and the weather was good. Bai Yutang only wears a light short sleeve shirt with a light jacket on top. It could not hide the weight he''s been losing for the last few months. Does he didn''t eat regularly? Is it the financial matter again that prompts him from eating healthy meals?


    Jian Kang Lu could see that Bai Yutang was really anxious and looked uncomfortable. He could not hold himself worried about him.


    "Are you okay? Are you feeling sick?"


    Jian Kang Lu sees Bai Yutang shake his head, but says nothing. Just then he realised that Nurse Li is still here. It''s mandatory for having a third person besides doctor and patient, to avoid something bad happening inside the practice room.


    "Nurse Li, could you leave us for a moment. I know this patient personally."


    Nurse Li knows that this is not the normal patient''s consultation. "Okay Doctor Jian, I''ll wait outside."


    Once Nurse Li closed the door. Jian Kang Lu looked at the patient''s chart. Usually the nurses outside will do simple examinations first, such as blood pressure, heart beat, temperature, and the main complaint which makes the patient come to see a doctor.


    In the chart it was written that Bai Yutang''s main complaint was headache and loss of appetite.


    "You felt a headache? Since when? Is it everyday or intermittent? Throbbing or spinning? And loss of appetite? Did you vomit? Nauseous? Did your stomach hurt?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head again. He is really nervous right now. It was a right decision to come to Jian Kang Lu''s practice. In this practice room, Jian Kang Lu shows him his concern. His voice was as gentle as ever. No hostility he imagined would be thrown at him once Jian Kang Lu saw his face.


    In this practice room, Jian Kang Lu will treat him as a patient. And Bai Yutang knows that Jian Kang Lu was always kind and gentle to his patients.


    He knows he needs to apologise, but he could not push his throat to produce the sound, utter the words he already prepared. He just sat there, silent like a statue.


    Jian Kang Lu was not a fool. At first he was truly concerned whether Bai Yutang was really sick. But no patient will come to him as the senior nephrologist here, with complaints as mild as headache without any other disease.


    Jian Kang Lu knows, if one visits their ex-lovers with nervous looks, it only means two things. Either Bai Yutang needs his help, or¡­ For the other reason, he doesn''t even want to think about it. He doesn''t want to get his hopes high, for it will hurt him even more just to get his hopes crushed.


    "You didn''t come here to get consultation from me as a doctor, right?"


    Jian Kang Lu could only see the head of Bai Yutang hanging low and nodded slowly. How he wished that the man in front of him could raise his head, so Jian Kang Lu could see that white jade face he longs for. To see that unkempt hair, that fingers anxiously fidgeting above Bai Yutang''s knees, only makes Jian Kang Lu''s heart stung once again.


    "Have you had your dinner? I haven''t. Can you accompany me? That if you''re not busy."


    Jian Kang Lu felt his passive heart beating once more to see the man he loved nodded his head and that soft voice answering him.


    "I''m not busy.."


    "Then, wait for me here. Let''s go together, okay?"


    Bai Yutang nodded. He tried his best to hold his tears. Why this man is always kind and gentle, even though he did not deserve to be treated this way. He was so rude, and selfish, and hurt this man so much.


    So Bai Yutang only sat there quietly, waiting for Jian Kang Lu typing in his computer and closed his record. Once Jian Kang Lu finished, he stood up and approached him.


    "Come, TangTang."


    Bai Yutang following Jian Kang Lu walking out from the room. He could hear Jian Kang Lu tell the nurses outside that he already closed the tab and also introduce him.


    "This is my friend, Bai Yutang. I''d close his record with FOC and no prescription. So no need to settle the bills and you could go home. TangTang, this is Nurse Li and Nurse Yu."


    Bai Yutang greeted them. Once they say goodbye to the nurses, he follows Jian Kang Lu to the parking lot. He felt awkward, so he said nothing. Once he got inside the car, Jian Kang Lu asked him again.


    "What do you want to eat?"


    "Up to you, Gege.. I''ll follow you."


    "Hmmm, let''s eat at the Japanese restaurant near the corner. I remember you like the ootoro and the uni there. Is that okay for you?"


    Bai Yutang nodded his head and once again his heart stinging. It was painful and also made him happy at the same time, to know that Jian Kang Lu still remembered what he liked to eat.


    Once they arrived and ordered the food, Bai Yutang opened his mouth, he wanted to apologise. But once again, he could not say anything. Why was it so hard for him to speak? Why was he so afraid? He felt that if he said nothing, then he could stay longer with Jian Kang Lu.


    Jian Kang Lu saw that beautiful lips he adored opened several times with no words sounded. His heart already ached from looking at his skinny kitten, and ached even more to see his kitten''s shoulder dropped, anxiously playing with his fingers.


    "How''s your mother? And RenRen? And how are you? Did you skip your meals again? You look like you''re losing weight."


    "I''m okay. My mother and RenRen are also okay. Just being busy with midterm exams. I didn''t skip my meals, Gege." Bai Yutang lied.


    He didn''t want Jian Kang Lu mad with him because of skipping meals. One of the things Jian Kang Lu nagged him so much is when he skipped his meals.


    "Then eat a lot tonight, you need to gain your weight back. Your complexion did not look good."


    They just talked about trivial things until they finished their dinner. It was like there''s nothing bad happening between them. It was not like they were ex-lovers who didn''t meet each other for four months. And for the first time this year, Bai Yutang''s tongue finally could taste food again. He finished all the things he ordered, and also finished everything that Jian Kang Lu put in his plate.


    Just like the old time.


    Once they finished, they were back in the car. Once inside, Jian Kang Lu still saw his kitten''s head still hanging low. Tonight, he felt happy. He could see that enchanting pair of phoenix eyes clearly when they had their dinner, and also could stare at those beautiful slender hands using the chopsticks to pick the ootoro and other things he put in his kitten''s plate.


    But inside his car, he could not see his kitten''s face clearly. The light was dimmed, and his kitten didn''t want to raise his head. Jian Kang Lu only started the engine, but didn''t drive yet.


    "Let me drive you back to the dorm, this is already late. You stay in the dorm, right? Or you stay somewhere else?"


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t get any response from his kitten, so he waited. But a few moments passed and Bai Yutang said nothing. He took a deep breath, maybe it''s time to stop playing dumb.


    "TangTang, what''s going on? Is there something you want to say to me? Is there something I could help?"


    Jian Kang Lu was surprised once he saw tears start to drop in his kitten''s cheek. How could he stand to see those tears running from his beloved kitten''s eyes? His body just moved by himself, without thinking much of the consequences.


    He wiped those sparkling beads, looking at the pair of those beautiful black eyes which lost its light. Jian Kang Lu''s fingers ran through his kitten''s cheek, and cupped that face he adored so he could see them clearly. Then he hugged his skinny kitten.


    It''s been so long, and his heart felt like it wanted to explode by this amount of happiness from holding his kitten once again in his arms. Something he thought would never happen again in his life. And he even gripped tighter when he felt Bai Yutang hugged him back.


    "Gege, why are you so kind to me? I.. I come here to apologise to you, for all my stupid and foolish doings. I.. I was so childish, and I want to apologise. But I was so afraid, and could not say anything to you this whole night. I''m sorry, Gege.. I''m sorry.. Could you forgive me?"


    Jian Kang Lu embraces his kitten whole. He was so happy. Is this another dream? But lately he has never had a dream as sweet as this. His heart stopped beating when he lost his kitten. But today it is pounding so hard from this overwhelming emotion. Since the existence of his beating heart was back, and now laid in his arms.


    "What to forgive? You''ve done nothing wrong."


    He kissed his kitten''s eyes, that wet cheek, and that pale forehead.


    "Don''t cry, TangTang. It hurts me to see you cry."


    But his kitten didn''t stop crying, and just hugged him tight. He keeps repeating the same words over and over again.


    "I''m sorry, gege. I was wrong. Please forgive me.."

 Chapter 119 - Unconditional

    The clock shows it was almost 11 o''clock. Jian Kang Lu felt tonight he was just like walking in the soft cloud with rainbows and flowers bloom everywhere in his world. Just with this man''s presence around him is enough to melt his frozen world. To let the paralyzed time tick once more.


    Once when he embraced this man''s soft figure was enough to let him breathe again. To let his hands caress his kitten''s smooth silky hair once again, and his other hands held that narrow waist tightly, is just like a dream felt so real. It scared him.


    His kitten only wears a thin shirt under that jacket. And he could feel his kitten''s warmth seeping from his hands, carried by his veins back to his heart. For once after the coldest winter, he could truly feel the spring come to his life once more. Greets his skins as butterfly wings greet the air. Revealing their soft hearts within.


    How he wished for the time stopped again. To stay in this moment for eternity. Just both of them, together.


    Jian Kang Lu knows he needs to ask his kitten whether he got another chance to be with him once more. Does his kitten allow him to show his love once more? Does his kitten want to stay with him tonight? But he was just too afraid.


    How if his kitten said he wanted to go back to his dorm? Jian Kang Lu can''t bear to be separated once more. Jian Kang Lu just wants to hold his kitten, and never let him go again.


    So they stayed stillt, in the quiet dark car, in the corner of the desolate parking lot.


    When the clock showed it was fifteen minutes past eleven, his kitten finally spoke. His voice was low, hoarse, muffled. Jian Kang Lu could feel his kitten''s warm breath in his neck when he spoke.


    "Gege, can i stay with you tonight?"


    Jian Kang Lu never imagined he could feel this happy once more. He can''t even describe what he feels inside. With this amount of happiness, he can''t believe that this is not a dream. How awful his morning is if he wakes up and realizes that this is just a cruel dream.


    "I hope that this is not another dream, TangTang.."


    Jian Kang Lu kisses his kitten''s smooth forehead once more, and drives to his rented apartment.


    Bai Yutang didn''t pay attention at first, since his heart barely managed to survive the rollercoaster of emotions. From anxiety, fear, sorrow, misery, then happiness and gratitude. All of it was enough to blind his senses from his surroundings.


    Not until he saw Jian Kang Lu entering the different parking lot from his apartment then he realised something was wrong. But he said nothing. He follows Jian Kang Lu''s steps, walking inside the apartment building.


    He looked at the hands holding his own, gripping tight, never letting his hands. Those warm hands who always protect him. Comfort him.


    Once they were inside this studio apartment, Bai Yutang looked at his surroundings. This small studio apartment only consists of one bed, one small living room and small kitchen. Nothing else here, just like a temporary room. Not even a glass or plates lying in the kitchen. It''s so empty, so cold. So lonely.


    "I''m sorry TangTang, it''s a bit cramped. Let us sleep here just for tonight and go back to the apartment tomorrow. Please wait here, and let me take a bath first."


    Bai Yutang nodded and sat on the sofa. He takes a look for this beige wallpaper with a huge mirror in front of him. This is not Jian Kang Lu''s style. Why did he take him here? And looking at those books laid on the shelves, also Jian Kang Lu''s tablet upon the tablet, it seems he really stays here. But why? Since when?


    "TangTang, umm, sorry.. Can you get me some clothes? And underwear too?"


    Jian Kang Lu can''t believe he just went straight for shower in the bathroom, forget to get all his clothes. Lucky for him, at least the towel was inside the bathroom. Even though he was naked in front of his kitten hundreds of times before, somehow tonight he was embarrassed. He doesn''t know why he felt this shy, he was not even a virgin for God''s sake.


    Bai Yutang looked at the closet. He stood up and opened it. Jian Kang Lu''s clothes were inside. Bai Yutang knew well what Jiang Kang Lu liked to wear to sleep. He took the clothes and the underwear from the drawer.


    Is this why the apartment was empty when he visited yesterday? Because Jian Kang Lu moved out from his apartment to this one? But why?


    "Gege, your clothes."


    Jian Kang Lu just opened the bathroom door for 10 cm, enough for his hands slipped and grabbed his clothes, then he closed it again. He scolded himself while he put on his T-Shirt. Why on earth did he feel like this?


    He opened the bathroom door, trying to calm his pounding heart. "Do you want to take a bath, TangTang? Or just change your clothes and wash your face then go to sleep. I bet you felt very tired."


    Bai Yutang nodded, "Can I borrow your clothes, gege?" His voice was so small. For some reason, after crying like a baby now the surge of embarrassment washed all over him. Why does he always show his tears to this man? It feels like asking for Jian Kang Lu to pity him. But it''s okay, if it means he could spend tonight with the man he loved so much.


    Not until he lost Jian Kang Lu then he just realised how much someone''s soul could be ripped into pieces when lost the other half.


    "Mmm, want me to choose the clothes for you?"


    Bai Yutang nodded. He washed his face and brushed his teeth, then he opened the bathroom door. Walking slowly until he stands in front of Jian Kang Lu who sat in the bed. He wants to feel pampered once again. Adored once again. Loved once again.


    "Gege.. Could you change my clothes.."


    Jian Kang Lu felt this dream was too much for him. He felt if tomorrow he wakes up alone again, he will visit his psychiatric friend the first time he opened his eyes. Complaining about his latest sleeping pill medication for giving him a torturing dream like this.


    His kitten standing in front of him, asking him to change his clothes. Even though Jian Kang Lu''s brain stopped working, his body reacted on his own. He did this hundreds of times before. But usually he was the one who shamelessly pleaded. This is the first time for his kitten asking for it first.


    He unbuttoned his kitten''s shirt. His hands tremble like a naive youth who has never done this before. To see that beautiful milky skin under the shirt is enough to fry his brain. Then he tried steadying his hands to take that shirt off. Even just seeing the glimpse of soft skin is shaking his world, not to mention those pink buds naked in front of him. Inviting. Enchanting.


    For some reason, Jian Kang Lu doesn''t want to let the beast within him run wild. He just wants to make sure his kitten stays here with him. Stay beside him. And not using his kitten as a sexual object.


    For men, it was their way to show their love. That''s the distinctive of their XY chromosome. Affection is equal with physical contact. And it was their way to make sure that they were loved back.


    But not tonight.


    Jian Kang Lu tried his best to chained the beast who was already roaring high, ramming his head to its cage. He was trembling when he put the T-shirt to his obedient kitten. And the hardest part is when he had to unzip his kitten''s pants. He could only swallow his saliva and try to calculate the eGFR1 from his today''s patient using different formulas.


    Once his kitten is properly wrapped in clothes, he hugs his kitten''s waist. Try to step on the beast''s head who is begging him to be released.


    "TangTang.. TangTang.. Don''t leave me ever again.."


    It hurts Bai Yutang to hear those words uttered in such a way, how could he hurt this man like this? Jian Kang Lu wasn''t even mad at him. He always welcomed him with open arms, never rejecting him even once.


    He could only stroke his lover''s soft hair. Over and over again. "I won''t, gege.. Thank you, for accepting my apology. And.. And I hope you are willing to give me a chance. To atone for my mistakes."


    Both of them laid in the bed. Jian Kang Lu holds his kitten even tighter than usual, and just inhales that familiar scent who haunted him for months. Caress his kitten over and over again.


    "Gege, can i ask you something?"


    "Mmm?"


    "Why did you move here?"


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t know what to answer. Does he have to lie? But he knows, nothing comes good from it. He doesn''t want his kitten to leave him again if he lied. So he took a deep breath before he answered.


    "I can''t stay there. It was so cold without you."


    Bai Yutang''s hand caressing his lover''s back was halted once he heard that. He just realised how cruel he treated this man. His eyes warmed once again. Even though he already felt like dying inside without Jian Kang Lu in his world, he can''t imagine what his lover will feel to stay there, in a place full of their memories.


    "But I didn''t sell it TangTang. Let me contact the cleaning auntie to clean it, and tomorrow I''ll move there again. The password and the key are still the same. All of your belongings are still there."


    "I know.. I''m sorry, gege. I went there last night, waiting for you.."


    "What?" Jian Kang Lu was surprised, and regretted why he didn''t stay at the apartment last night. If he knew, he could meet his kitten sooner. And he was glad he didn''t lie.


    His kitten hugged him tight.


    "I''m sorry.. I''m so sorry.. Please forgive me, gege. Give me one more chance. I love you so much, and I never want to lose you ever again. I''m sorry.."


    Jian Kang Lu sealed those pale lips who kept repeating those words. He kissed those lips softly, to feel the soft petal under his own lips. The most beautiful things in the world.


    He doesn''t want those beautiful lips he adored to repeating those words. He doesn''t need it. It was enough to have his kitten back to him. He doesn''t want his kitten to feel guilty over it. He was the lucky one for granted this one more chance.


    To have the one with that warm soft voice, with smiles who sent his mind into an uncontrolled spiral, branded his soul with a simple mark. Love. Unconditional. The spark of hope between him and I.

 Chapter 120 - The First Kiss (NSFW)

    Morning comes like usual. Earth still keeps spinning on the constant speed, circling the sun as the centre of attention. Fresh sunlights illuminates perfect shape of the one he loved the most. He was back to him. Back to his arms. Breathing softly.


    Jian Kang Lu looking at his kitten that is still soundly asleep. This is not a dream. When he opened his eyes, he was so glad that his kitten was the first thing he saw when morning awoke him.


    Jian Kang Lu touched the soft strands of his kitten''s hair, slowly tucked it back to his kitten''s ear. He wants to hug his kitten tight, but he doesn''t want to wake his kitten up. He must be very tired after shedding those endless tears last night.


    Jian Kang Lu could feel the sharp bone protruding from his kitten''s shoulder. He frowned, and promised inside that he would fatten his kitten back. His kitten must have skipped his meals again. Maybe he also needs to take his kitten to get a medical check up. He doesn''t want his kitten to get sick again.


    Under the morning sun, he could see how his kitten''s cheek sunken deep now. Even though he is still the most handsome man on earth, his complexion is completely unhealthy. What has his kitten gotten through these past few months to look like this?


    His kitten''s brow was crumpled, and Jian Kang Lu hurriedly straightened it softly.


    "Mmmhh.."


    It seems his kitten will awake soon. Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s forehead softly. He could smell his kitten''s scent. How he missed him so much. How he needs his kitten to be in his life for him to feel truly alive.


    "Gege.."


    "Ssshh¡­ Go back to sleep, TangTang. It''s still 6 o''clock."


    His kitten snuggled in his arms, and his warm breath softly brushed his neck. Jian Kang Lu already tried to hold the beast''s leash tight last night. But this morning, to see that beautiful face laid docile in his arms, with his warm body rubbing his own, it makes the beast ramming his head to the cage again.


    ''TangTang please don''t move.'' Jian Kang Lu silently prayed.


    Once his kitten stayed silent resting his head on Jian Kang Lu''s chest, Jian Kang Lu was relieved. He slowly stroked his kitten''s hair again and again. He can''t say how grateful he is for this man willing to come back to him.


    But Jian Kang Lu can''t stay serene for a long time, since his kitten starts to snuggle again, breathing on his neck, and pressing his lips to Jian Kang Lu''s skin. Jian Kang Lu really tried so hard, but after a few movements from his kitten, he truly can''t hold his beast to stay in his cage anymore. His eyes grew a degree darker.


    Jian Kang Lu reached for his kitten''s chin, and softly pressed his lips against his kitten''s. After kissing many parts of his kitten''s face repeatedly, it awakened his kitten.


    "Mmhh.. Gege.. I haven''t brushed my teeth.."


    They make love countless times, but somehow this morning Bai Yutang is uncomfortable with his breath. They haven''t met for a few months, and looking at Jian Kang Lu''s handsome face last night truly makes Bai Yutang realise how lucky he is for this man willing to kiss him again.


    He knows his own face, his own looks, his appearance was so shabby and ugly. Skinny, bones and skin. And it seems to be degrading Jian Kang Lu''s lips if he tainted it with his morning breath.


    "You smell good. You always smell good, TangTang. I love your breath.."


    Jian Kang Lu lightly sucked on his kitten''s lips to loosen his tense muscles, then used his tongue to deepen the kiss. He brushed his tongue against his kitten''s gums and pulled away while maintaining eye contact with his kitten. He wanted to see the phoenix eyes of his kitten drowsy look.


    "Gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu felt his kitten''s hand tighten his grip on his own chest. Jian Kang Lu started kissing his kitten once more. His mouth stimulated him in a sweet and gentle way. To show how much he missed him, how much he adored him.


    "You smell so good.."


    Bai Yutang knew it was impossible for him to smell good. He took a bath more than 12 hours ago, and he was sweating a lot due to his nervousness last night. He only washed his face and brushed his teeth last night. And no human will have a good breath in the morning.


    If only he knew what Jian Kang Lu feels. For Jian Kang Lu, his kitten always smells good. He was even once curious what Bai Yutang ate when he was a child, since his kitten constantly released his natural scents, a soft musk. Sometimes with milky scent, sometimes with cedar wood notes underneath.


    Jian Kang Lu held his kitten and laid him beneath his own body. He embraced his kitten''s hips and cuddled him. His hand gently slid down his back. He had climbed on top of his kitten, but all his kitten did was stare back with a tint of rosy colour spreading out from his cheek to his ears. Jian Kang Lu couldn''t help but chuckle. Why does it seem his kitten is shy with their intimacy? They already did so much more compare to this gentle peck.


    "I''m dying to be with you again, TangTang. To feel you again. To touch you again."


    His kitten''s face flushed scarlet.


    "Can I?" Jian Kang Lu whispered in his kitten''s ear.


    Bai Yutang can''t calm his heart down. It keeps pounding hard, just like a naive man who gets kissed for the first time. He can''t even look at Jian Kang Lu''s face. Why does this man have to be this handsome? Even more charming with that messy hair, giving him a wild masculine look. And those dark eyes clearly showed that this man wanted him.


    So he just closed his eyes, and embraced Jian Kang Lu. Pulled him closer, and kissed him back. The kiss began gently and soft, but soon turned into a passionate one. Their tongue intertwined, hungry for each other. His lower half, that was throbbing with heat, slid closer to his lover''s.


    With their lower half rubbed against each other, Jian Kang Lu''s breath becomes heavier. Then he released himself from that kiss, stared at his kitten''s face. His kitten''s lips swollen red, and his chest rapidly moved, gasping for air.


    Bai Yutang didn''t have room to feel embarrassed anymore. All he knows is that his own body is also hungry for this intimate moment. He looked down to his lover''s lower half. His lover hadn''t taken off his pants yet, and a giant mound about to explode out could be seen.


    The way Jian Kang Lu quickly threw off his clothes to the floor displayed his urgency. He undressed his kitten without hesitation, revealing his kitten''s smooth white skin. That was not the exact image in his imagination that had continuously kept him up at night. His kitten''s neckline and delicate collar bone protruding, his silky and sweet chest with that pink buds that tastes like whipped cream now looked flat. His kitten really lost a lot of weight.


    But even though his kitten''s body now lost their muscles, Jian Kang Lu still admires his body from head to toe, while his kitten also does the same. Jian Kang Lu had broad shoulders and chest, and slim muscular arms that were not seen clearly when he wore his clothes. Bai Yutang couldn''t pick out a single flaw, Jian Kang Lu looked even better without his clothes on. Bai Yutang was glad he was the only one who was allowed to see Jian Kang Lu naked.


    Jian Kang Lu laid his hands on his kitten''s abdomen and slowly slid them up to his chest, trailing slowly until he touched the pink buds that were already protruding high. He just touches it lightly, then pinch gently. He squeezed it with his fingers and let go as if he was expertly rubbing them.


    The way Jian Kang Lu fingers moved made Bai Yutang''s body feel strange, sending a tingling sensation up his spine. Jian Kang Lu''s member that was pressed against him kept twitching, as if showing off its presence. Bai Yutang gasped while twisting his body. Jian Kang Lu lowered his head and licked Bai Yutang''s right bud.


    "Ah!"


    The slight pain when Jian Kang Lu sucked and licked around his nipple sent a pleasant feeling through his body, so Bai Yutang closed her eyes. Jian Kang Lu licks it wet, but he can''t hold himself and bite it lightly. At that moment, Bai Yutang let out a heavy sigh.


    "It doesn''t hurt¡­ does it?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head, and just stroked his lover''s head softly. "It''s good, so good.. Gege, I missed you.."


    Jian Kang Lu sucks the skin near his kitten''s bud. Mark him again. He trailed every inch of his kitten''s skin, leaving his mark in several places. He wants to mark this man forever. This man belongs to him. Only him.


    Jian Kang Lu feels his kitten''s fingers running through his chest, looking for his own buds. Jian Kang Lu held his kitten''s fingers. He looked at those phoenix eyes, stare deeply. Then he started to lick his kitten''s fingers. One by one. Slowly, licked each and every one, sucked it gently.


    He could see Bai Yutang''s shuddered, and those phoenix eyes layered with misty lust. His kitten''s face now all red, and his breath was heavy. He could feel his kitten''s member down there bulging hard, and restless, begging to be touched.


    "Baby, you want me to touch you?"


    His kitten nodded his head. Jian Kang Lu chuckled, and slid his hand down to the pitifully hard member below. His kitten gasped, and start to make those soft moan. God, how much he missed those moans. The small moans so innocent like a kitten, but so lewd like a succubus.


    "Hold your legs TangTang.. Yes, that way.."


    Jian Kang Lu uplifts his kitten''s legs, and his kitten''s hand holding both his thighs up high. This position allows Jian Kang Lu to put his own member between his kitten''s thighs, and his member will rub his kitten''s lower member at the same time when he moved it back and forth. Jian Kang Lu wet his member with his own saliva to let it slip easily.


    He slid in slightly with a slow motion. Bai Yutang could only let his moan escape his mouth. To feel his lover''s rubbing inside of his thighs, and those hard rod of his lover rubbing his own member with stickiness, make the ends of his fingertips jolted, while his body felt like it was sinking in. Jian Kang Lu continued to repeat his movement of pulling out and sliding in a little deeper, until his length seemed to enveloped his own member with burning pleasure.


    "Ah.. Gege.. I.."


    Jian Kang Lu touched the tips of his kitten''s member, and rubbed the clear liquid flowing from it''s tips in circular motion. He was happy to see how wet his kitten''s tips. It shows how much his kitten aroused with him. Just like he does.


    Bai Yutang can''t help to feel his white world turned red, and the sparks start coming to him like fireworks. He doesn''t want to cum this soon. He wants to feel more.


    "Gege.. Stop.. I''m going to cum.."


    "You felt so good, baby. Ah.. You''re going to make me cum too.."


    Jian Kang Lu thrust faster, while playing with his kitten''s tips even more. He gave the light touch and squeeze it lightly. He lowered his body and kissed his kitten''s soft lips. Bite it lightly, drown in pleasure.


    They only make love for less than fifteen minutes, but their honest body has been missing each other for so long. Craving for each other. Lusting for each other. It''s been so long for them. In the times when they were separated, both of them didn''t release themselves. No wonder it only took a short time for them to reach the peak from this divine pleasure of their body entangling once more.


    "Gege, I''m cumming.. Ah.. Ahhh.."


    Jian Kang Lu could feel his kitten''s body beneath him tensed, and in a split second his kitten sprayed his milky liquid, sprayed into their skins. Jian Kang Lu thrusts faster, and releases himself too.


    Both of them sweating, and panting hard. Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s forehead gently. Then down to his eyes, his nose tip, and his beautiful lips.


    "Baby, i love you so much.. Don''t ever leave me again. Don''t ever leave me alone again.."

 Chapter 121 - Never Let Me Go

    "Yutang, we missed you so much. How come you never visit us again? You still owe me those scallion pancakes!"


    "Yes, and that Spring rolls. Do you know that Doctor Jian was lonely without you?"


    "How are you lately? Why do you look so skinny? Ask for Doctor Jian to feed you a lot today, ah."


    The nurses chirped their welcome to Bai Yutang who shyly smiled. "I''m sorry, JieJie. I promised that I will bring you all the snacks I owe you next week."


    "It''s a promise. Someone record his statement please, before he runs away again!"


    Jian Kang Lu smiled to see his kitten surrounded by the nurses. He looked at his residents, and started questioning them. He wants to finish his Saturday round as soon as possible, and spend the precious time with his kitten alone.


    The residents peeked at Bai Yutang. So they''re already made up, huh? It could not be more obvious that this pair of mandarin ducks were spending the night together. Bai Yutang wears an oversize shirt. They dare to bet their whole salary that it was their superior''s T-Shirt. Is it some naughty game they play? Wearing the boyfriend''s shirt?


    Not to mention that blinding smile from their superior. Please stop it Doctor Jian. Even when you were smiling gloomily in these past few months still didn''t reduce your handsomeness and just add the melancholy charm to that well sculpted face. Please have mercy on us these single dogs. When you''re smiling so bright like this besides us, what hope that we could have? No wonder we''re still single until now.


    But they''re glad Bai Yutang was here. Their superior just looked past all their mistakes, and slowly corrected their treatment, giving a lot of pointer for the patients today. Yes, on a day like this, it was impossible for their superior to scold them even if they made fatal mistakes.


    Jian Kang Lu truly feels that everything today looks so bright and colourful. All around him looked sparkling, beautiful. Especially the man who wears that oversized light blue shirt. Dazzling, stunning, breathtaking. How come just with his kitten''s presence could change all the things surrounding him? How come his kitten still looks so handsome even when his cheek is pale and hollow?


    "I''m done after this ward, TangTang. What do you want for lunch?"


    "Let''s eat something near, Gege. We need to pack your stuff after this."


    "Mmm. You''ll help me pack, right?"


    Bai Yutang smiled. They separated for so long, but he knows what expression Jian Kang Lu shows now. Anxious. Hoped.


    "I will, gege. I won''t go anywhere."


    Jian Kang Lu wrapped his Saturday round high spirited. He felt this was the best Saturday round he ever had. Maybe if they could finish packing his stuff quickly, he could take his kitten to the shopping mall and buy clothes for him. He felt reluctant to send his kitten to his dorm to pick his clothes, afraid his kitten will choose to stay at his dorm instead of staying in the apartment with him.


    He could not bear to sleep alone at that apartment ever again.


    They finally ate at the Chinese restaurant which Bai Yutang liked so much. The restaurant specialises in B city cuisine and a favourite among the locals. It was famous for its immaculate and thoughtful presentation. The crispy-skinned peking duck comes inscribed with a character you choose, and the special fried rice is in the form of honeycomb coal and lit on the table. The decor is suitably old B city and reflects the food authenticity.


    "Gege, don''t order so much food." Bai Yutang holds his lover''s hand, preventing him from ordering everything the restaurant offers on their menu. He skilfully reduced their order, shattering the waitress''s hope.


    Jian Kang Lu frowned. He wants his kitten to eat a lot and gain his healthy look again. But of course he could not say no to his kitten. So he just silently let his kitten reduce 75% of his original order.


    How could he say no to his kitten when his kitten holds his hand like this. His kitten holds his hand several times in public, but never for too long. And now even after the waitress left, his kitten was still holding his hand. Didn''t let it go.


    "Gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu snapped from his reverie. "Mm, what is it TangTang?" He could see his kitten lowered his head again, and the tip of that beautiful ears turned red again.


    "C-Can I moved back with you?"


    For a moment, Jian Kang Lu was lost for words. He was so happy, and disappointed with himself at the same time. Did he forget to ask his kitten to move back with him? He can''t think straight since his kitten showed up in his life again. He thought he already made himself clear with his intention.


    "I''m sorry, TangTang. I''m the one who should ask you. Would you live together with me again?"


    His kitten just nodded his head, and his slender hand was still there. Hold his hands. Jian Kang Lu clasp those warm hands tighter. To feel the warmth emitted from each finger, to caress that soft skin on his palms.


    "How about your things in your dorm? Should we fetch it today?"


    His kitten pondered, and shook his head. "Maybe tomorrow. You''ll have your family lunch tomorrow, right? I could pack my things and move tomorrow."


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t answer, he tried so hard to press his strong urge for kissing each fingertips of his kitten. How could someone as cute as his kitten be willing to be with him?


    "Then let me drive you to the dorm tomorrow, and pick you after I finish my Sunday lunch."


    His kitten nodded. They only let their hands go when the waitress came with their food. Jian Kang Lu smiling constantly to see his kitten obediently finishing everything he put in his plate. He can''t take his eyes away from his kitten. Even the way he chews this peking duck is so cute.


    They drove back to the rented apartment and packed Jian Kang Lu''s stuff. His kitten didn''t ask him anything about this apartment again. His kitten didn''t talk much, and Jian Kang Lu did the same.


    Somehow he was afraid to ask how Bai Yutang was doing for these past few months without him. He could not acknowledge there are times in his kitten''s life which spent without him.


    It took less than two hours to pack all his stuff. Nothing much anyway. Only clothes and books. Most of his stuff is still in the apartment. They left the apartment and drove back to their original apartment. To their home. Then Jian Kang Lu remembered he wanted to buy the things his kitten might need for today.


    "TangTang, do you need to buy anything? We could stop by in the shopping mall first, and have our dinner there."


    Bai Yutang nodded. "Yes, i need to buy clothes for tomorrow. Let''s buy groceries too, gege. What do you want to eat for breakfast tomorrow?"


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t know how his day kept getting better and better each moment passed with his kitten besides him. How he missed to have his kitten cook for him again. Something he dreamed for, and now it seems will turn into reality.


    "You know that I loved everything you cooked."


    His kitten chuckled, "And after all these times, you''re still not helping me, gege. Okay, then i''ll cook that omelette rice you liked. You want it with carrots too?"


    Jian Kang Lu just reached for his kitten''s hand, and kissed it softly.


    They arrived at the shopping mall, and Jian Kang Lu chuckled when his kitten stuttered with red ears saying that he needed to buy underwear too. Jian Kang Lu knows exactly whose underwear Bai Yutang is wearing now.


    When they picked some clothes too, his kitten held his hands again when he wanted to go inside the branded store he liked. His kitten deserves the best material for his clothes. But Jian Kang Lu could not say anything and just follow his kitten like a cow dragged to plow the fields. His kitten chose a simple cheap store and picked a simple pair of trousers and T-shirts.


    Jian Kang Lu just felt that flowers bloom everywhere, with soft winds pushing against the unmown grass. The late spring sun brings a welcoming warmth that coats him as good as caramel over a harvest apple. His kitten didn''t let his hands go even when he picked the clothes.


    His kitten only lets his hands go when they reach the cashier and want to pay. Jian Kang Lu snapped from his daydream once again and hurriedly reached for his own wallet. How come he let his kitten pay for his clothes. He didn''t even want his kitten to spend his own money ever again.


    But the birds are chirping again and the rainbows seem to fill this shopping mall when his kitten holds his hands again after he paid. They walk hand in hand, even when they pick the basic necessities and their groceries.


    Even in his dreams, Jian Kang Lu never imagined his kitten showing his bold affection in public like this. It made him feel happy. Acknowledge. Owned.


    Bai Yutang aware people looked at them with curiosity. Jian Kang Lu''s face alone is enough to attract people''s attention. Dozens of pairs of eyes coveting his man, and also looking at their holding hands with some weird look in their eyes.


    But as long as his lover didn''t mind, he was more than happy to hold his lover''s hand. Never to let it go again. For his world could never be the same without Jian Kang Lu in his life.


    They have their dinner in the luxurious steak restaurant in that shopping mall. Bai Yutang smiled to see Jian Kang Lu cut the steak into small pieces for him. This is what his lover always does. Pampered him like a toddler. How he missed to have these small affections again from his lover, and his heart stung once more to remember how foolish he was to hurt this man.


    When they finished, Jian Kang Lu driving back home still with a smile plastered permanently on his face. Suddenly his kitten laid his head on his shoulder, put his hands around his waist. It made Jian Kang Lu''s heart pounding crazy. Is it just his own imagination or his kitten becoming even more affectionate with him?


    "Gege.."


    "Mmm?" Jian Kang Lu gently stroked his kitten''s hands that laid on his waist.


    "Yuxuan wants to apologise to you too¡­"

 Chapter 122 - I Want To Bathe You (NSFW)

    [Do you guys free tomorrow night? This humble slave wants to convey Jian Ge''s invitation for dinner tomorrow, if you guys could spare your time other than holed up in the studio.]


    Bai Yutang smiled to see his friends answered that they''re free and will be there at Il Mare tomorrow at 7 o''clock. Bai Yutang told Yu Dong to bring Mu Xiaoya also. His lover told him to invite Xiaoya too.


    "Gege, can I invite my soon to be ex-roommate?"


    "Yes you can. Is he an architecture student too?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "No. He was from computer science. Thank you, gege." Bai Yutang planted his soft lips on Jian Kang Lu''s cheek. He can''t help to do that. Even after all the horrible things he did, his lover is still the same gentle and kind man who always provides him with comfort.. He can''t help to feel that he was the luckiest person on earth.


    And he regrets for the times he hesitated about his own fear. If only.. But it was no use to cry over spilled milk. He just can atone for his sin with showering this man with all his love.


    Jian Kang Lu can''t help questioning himself, whether this is reality or he is still trapped in the dream. If this is what needed to make his kitten kiss him over and over again, he was more than happy to invite the whole dorm to have dinner at Il Mare tomorrow.


    They arrived at the apartment. With all their things, they can''t bring the whole things in the car baggage in one trip.


    "Baby, why don''t you take care of the groceries, and let me take care of the others. Auntie Mo already cleaned everything, but maybe you need to check the kitchen again."


    Bai Yutang nodded his head. He knows that the kitchen was empty, so he needs to unpack the things inside the boxes at the guest room. When he does that, he can''t help to wipe his tears which start flowing once again.


    What did his lover feel when he got rid of all these things and put it inside the box? It was easier to throw them away. But his lover didn''t do that. Bai Yutang could see from the way these things were carefully packed and stored, how Jian Kang Lu still cherished all of these things which contain their memories.


    He slowly touched those things, carefully unwrapped them, and put them back to where they belong. Just like he wanted to carefully mend their relationship back.


    It was almost 10 o''clock when both of them finished their task. Jian Kang Lu felt sweaty after unpack his luggage and put all the things back to where they belong. He walked out from his bedroom and saw his kitten still busy with the kitchen''s stuff.


    Bai Yutang was arranging the groceries they bought inside the refrigerator when he startled to feel the pair of strong arms who enveloped his slim waist.


    "Gege..?"


    They were standing there in front of the refrigerator. Without words spoken. Just want to embrace each other. Feel each other''s presence. Touch each other, imbue their love to their beloved.


    "I''m sorry, I must be smelling bad now from all those sweat. I''ll take a bath first. Don''t overdo yourself, we can still unpack all those things tomorrow." Jian Kang Lu slowly spoke in his kitten''s ear.


    Bai Yutang nodded, and just stroked his lover''s arms softly. He can''t help to raise his chin, plant the soft kiss on his lover''s cheek again. Breathe his skin, inhale his scent.


    Jian Kang Lu walked back to his bedroom, and went inside his bathroom. He undresses himself, and turns the shower on. He was still closing his eyes and felt the warm water trickling, washing his sweat away, when suddenly he heard the bathroom door opened.


    He saw his kitten walk inside the bathroom. He can''t help to widen his eyes when he saw his kitten slowly undress himself. Unzipped his pants, revealing those white soft skin on his thighs when that pants loosened and fell on the bathroom floor. Unbuttoning his own shirt one by one, with his kitten''s eyes locked to him, stared at his own wet naked body.


    He could see that his kitten''s lower member slowly awakened and hard. He didn''t realise that his own member was already hard from the moment he saw his kitten unzipped his pants. He can''t take his eyes away from this vixen who slowly walks to him, standing together under the warm water pouring like a gentle spring rain.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t even realise the water prickling his wet hair, trailing down to his eyelashes, to his cheek, to his slightly opened lips, when his kitten pressed his fingers to his lips, gently caressing, wiped the water away.


    Jian Kang Lu welcomed his kitten, closed his teeth around his kitten''s index finger and lapped at the tip. Bai Yutang gently pried open the teeth and slid his middle finger in as well to mingle with the pink muscle inside. He let Jian Kang Lu play with his fingers, lick it, and suck it slowly in a motion that made Bai Yutang feel as though Jian Kang Lu was not sucking on fingers but something else.


    Jian Kang Lu could see his kitten''s cheek start to tinted with pink colour. He doesn''t know whether that colour arises from their lust, or from this warm water. He grabbed Bai Yutang''s slim waist and bit his kitten''s fingertips lightly.


    "I love you."


    Bai Yutang took his hand back, and softly touched Jian Kang Lu''s cheek. Trailing those soft skin down to his sharp jawline, down to his neck and feel the beat from the artery there. He is still trailing his fingers down on Jian Kang Lu''s chest when he felt his lover''s hand gripped his waist tight. How he missed this man so much. Hunger for his embrace.


    "Let me bathe you, gege."


    Jian Kang Lu''s hand still on his kitten''s waist, froze when he heard those words. He tried so hard not listening to the beast inside him who whispered to him, to fuck his kitten whole now. They have slippery bath foam as the lube replacement. And his kitten was the one who seduced him right now. Who can resist this kind of temptation?


    But Jian Kang Lu didn''t want to hurt his kitten. So he just silently stood there, trying so hard to fight with his inner beast. Letting his kitten wash his wet body with that soft foam. He flinched when his kitten''s soft hand struck his back. In this position, it was like both of them hugged each other. He could feel his kitten little bud pressing his lower ribs, and his kitten''s hard lower member stroke his own.


    This is too much for him to handle.


    After what seemed like eternity, Bai Yutang''s lips moved to his lips, kissing him while pouring the bath gel onto Jian Kang Lu''s body. He then moved and rubbed his naked body to Jian Kang Lu''s slippery body, cleaning himself with the foam created from their friction. All the while he rubbed his palm to Jian Kang Lu''s back and neck.


    Jian Kang Lu can''t help to reach the bath gel and clean his kitten''s back too, and his kitten''s supple butt. He almost surrendered to the beast within him, wanting to touch that seductive hole down there. Maybe just rubbing the entrance is enough. But right when he almost lost his sanity, his kitten slowly went down on him.


    To see his kitten kneel in front of him, and those slender hands he adored rubbed the bath gel into slippery foam at his own member was a heavenly view Jian Kang Lu can''t even imagine. His kitten thoroughly cleans his body. Never in his life has Jian Kang Lu been treated like this. A man whom he loved so much, kneel in front of him and wash his body like serving his king. His kitten even washed his thighs, down to his calf, and his feet.


    His kitten took the shower, and washed the foam away from his body. Not letting him move his fingers. Then his kitten showed him that enchanting smile, softly whispered.


    "I should have done this a long time ago. I hope I could bathe you everyday, gege."


    Jian Kang Lu can''t hold himself again and just wildly kissed his kitten. Devouring the soft lips that uttered those devastating words. His kitten welcomed him with the same passion. Jian Kang Lu can''t even hear the sound of the shower''s head falling from his kitten''s hand to the bathroom''s floor.


    Luckily that shower''s head and the bathroom''s floor was made from the best material, or else it will break. The sound of water flowing from the shower mixed with the sound of their tongue entangling together.


    Jian Kang Lu instinctively reached for the bath gel again and rubbed it into his kitten''s back while he kissed his kitten''s neck, down to his kitten''s chest. Mark him. Suck him. He played with his kitten''s little nub until it swelled under his teeth. He lightly clamped down on it, gently grinding and pulling.


    The sharp pain, and even more so the implicit pleasure, blended together making Bai Yutang arch and push his chest forward. His other nipple stood to attention without any stimulation, and because of the lack thereof, it felt a bit sore.


    His lover didn''t move to the unattended nipple, but slowly kneeled down, and his naughty tongue trail down towards his stomach. When they reached the navel, his tongue swirled around the depression and quickly dipped in, licking everything several times before changing to a thrusting motion that reached the deepest crevice. All the while Jian Kang Lu''s hand rubbed his butt with that slippery foam, and down to his thighs, washed him.


    The slippery foam on his back, and the clean washed front body licked clean by his lover''s tongue, muddled Bai Yutang''s mind. He felt as though there was a tendon linking his belly button to his groin, and every poke on one end sent a tingly tush to the other end. His soft erection seemed to be under the command of the tip of his lover''s tongue. Hardening with every thrust.


    Bai Yutang felt it was a miracle he could still stand here. He put his hand to his lover''s hair, resisting his urge to grab the soft strands between his fingers. His lips can''t help but slightly opened, releasing his soft moan, and repeating his previous words.


    "Ahh.. Gege.. I love you.. So much.."


    Jian Kang Lu truly want to fuck this man here, now. But his sanity came back when his hands felt his kitten''s body start cooling down without the warm water pouring on top of them. His kitten is sensitive to cold, he doesn''t want his kitten to get sick from his irresponsible act of lust.


    He took the shower''s head and cleaned the foam on his kitten''s body as soon as possible. His kitten obediently raised his arms, and let Jian Kang Lu thoroughly clean every part of his body.


    Jian Kang Lu hurriedly wiped his kitten''s body dry. He wants to throw his kitten''s divine body as soon as possible to the bed, and continue his debauchery there.


    Bai Yutang laid on the bed, completely naked. His hair and body still damped from the water. He looked at Jian Kang Lu who was standing in front of him, staring at his naked body. He knew his own body was far from Jian Kang Lu''s own body. His lover is clearly much older than him, but his body is well sculpted. Showing the right amount of muscles in the right places. His lover''s body was not pale even though it was a degree lighter than his own body. A feast for his eyes, and he felt drunk just by looking at this man standing in front of him showing his naked body.


    He still doesn''t understand how his skinny body could ignite this man''s lust. But he knows exactly what''s in Jian Kang Lu''s eyes now. And he also felt the same.


    "TangTang, do you know how your body arouses me so much?"


    Jian Kang Lu''s voice was hoarse, layered by his peaked lust. He slowly reached a hand forward and laid a finger on his kitten''s alert member, sliding down from the head down to the length. Tease it slowly until he saw that clear liquid formed in his kitten''s tip.


    "And this honest part of your body, makes me want to swallow you whole.."


    He kneeled in front of his kitten and started to lick that slit. How he missed his kitten so much. He slowly licks, carefully sucks, and plays it with his tongue. It was so satisfying to feel his kitten''s body tensed and those soft moans filled their bedroom.


    "Gege.. I love you.."


    The sensations become more and more pleasurable for Bai Yutang. He knows his red worlds will soon be filled with the sparkling white lights.


    "Gege.. Kiss me.. I want.. Ahh.. I want to cum when you kiss me."


    Jian Kang Lu placed his body on top of his beloved kitten, kissed him wildly, and his hands continued what he had done previously with his tongue. His kitten hugs him tight, as if wanting to blend himself within him.


    Bai Yutang felt all the blood in his body seemed to rush to that one spot. His mind jumbled from that stroke repeatedly enveloped his lower member. His lover''s hand skillfully sent him flying high up to the clouds above. Melting his body under his warm touch.


    "Mmhh.. Mffh¡­"


    Jian Kang Lu knew his kitten was very close, so he stroked the shaft faster a few times before it quivered and shot out thick white cum like a fountain. He could hear his kitten panting under his kiss, bite his lips, and his kitten''s fingers scratch his back.


    "TangTang, i love you so much."

 Chapter 123 - Hand In Hand

    "I''ll call you when I finish. Don''t forget your lunch, TangTang."


    Bai Yutang nodded, and kissed his lover''s cheek before he got out of the car. He smiled to see the flustered face of Jian Kang Lu and waved goodbye. He was reluctant to separate from his lover even just for a few hours, but he knew he needed to pack his stuff. Moved back to the place they called home.


    He hasn''t told Xu Chenjie that he will move out. He only texted him last night to invite him for dinner tonight. He was not surprised to see his soon to be ex-roommate sit on his chair, playing games on his PC on this Sunday noon. Xu Chenjie was even more addictive to games compared to Yu Dong. Or maybe because Yu Dong have a girlfriend now and Xu Chenjie was still single.


    "You''re back?" Xu Chenjie asked him without even turning his head.. His eyes glued on the screen, it seems he and his team are in the middle of war.


    "Yes. I have something to tell you, but later when you finished your rank war."


    Twenty minutes later Bai Yutang told him that he will move out from the dorm. Xu Chenjie''s face clearly showed a mix of surprise and concern.


    "Where will you live? Is it because of that?" Xu Chenjie can''t help to feel guilty if Bai Yutang moved out because of the malicious comments on the forum. He was the one who told Bai Yutang about that.


    Bai Yutang chuckled, "No, it''s not. I just want to move back with my boyfriend."


    "Wow, so your relationship with your boyfriend escalated that way?"


    Bai Yutang smiled when he continued to pack his own stuff. "I used to live with him. I just feel more comfortable to live together again compared to staying in the dorm."


    Xu Chenjie helped Bai Yutang pack his stuff, and they had their lunch together. When they were waiting for their fried chicken to be delivered, he could not help to ask again. "This is really not because of that, right?"


    Bai Yutang really wants to laugh. He could explain, but somehow he doesn''t want to tell Xu Chenjie that he once broke up with Jian Kang Lu. "No, it isn''t. Really. Oh that reminds me, please don''t say anything regarding this matter in front of my boyfriend. I didn''t tell him, and I don''t want him to know."


    Xu Chenjie nodded. He thought maybe Bai Yutang was afraid his boyfriend would get mad if their relationship exposed. That''s what his cousin liked to complain about his boyfriend. But in the afternoon he couldn''t help but bawl his eyes out when he saw a very handsome man show up in front of their door and introduce himself.


    "Hello, nice to meet you. Xu Chenjie, right? My name is Jian Kang Lu. I''m sorry for taking TangTang away from you."


    And he even can''t help to leave his mouth hanging wide like an idiot when he heard his soon to be ex-roommate''s voice.


    "This is my boyfriend, Chenjie. We''ll call you later and wait for you downstairs, we can go together to Il Mare."


    Xu Chenjie could see this handsome man''s face was surprised like himself when he heard Bai Yutang''s statement. He felt awkward if they started to fight here in front of him. But then this handsome man''s face showed him a blinding smile and ruffling his soon to be ex-roommate''s hair.


    "Let me carry this, TangTang."


    It seems his soon to be ex-roommate''s boyfriend didn''t mind when Bai Yutang introduced him as his partner. So why Bai Yutang didn''t want his boyfriend to know about the forum matter? He truly thought Bai Yutang moved out because felt uncomfortable with those stares and whispers.


    After helping Bai Yutang put all his luggage and his things inside the car, Xu Chenjie is told that Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu want to go to Liu Xiang and Tang Yuxuan''s room first. Xu Chenjie took a bath and wore a striped green shirt with black pants. He was warned by Bai Yutang that the restaurant they will visit was not accepting any T-Shirt or slippers.


    When he saw Jian Kang Lu this afternoon, he could see that this man is wealthy. Even in his wildest imagination he didn''t expect Bai Yutang''s boyfriend to look like this. This man is clearly one of the most charming and handsome men he ever saw in his life. Not to mention his class only consists of geeks population like him.


    The picture posted in the forum can''t capture this man''s handsome face clearly. He wondered what makes a man like that choose Bai Yutang to be his companion.


    Xu Chenjie can''t help thinking about his cousin. His cousin''s look clearly a hundred times better compared to Bai Yutang, but even he never got a man like Jian Kang Lu as a boyfriend.


    Liu Yijun was 6 years older than him. They lived in the same area. Xu Chenjie''s parents are not as wealthy as Liu Yijun. They both work from morning till night to support Xu Chenjie and his sister. So after school, both of them will go back to their uncle''s house before being picked up at night by their parents. That''s why the three of them were very close to each other.


    Liu Yijun was the one who practically raised him as a big brother, and also took care of him. He was the one who took care of him and his sister when they''re sick. He is also the one who helps him with their homework.


    Liu Yijun is also the one who pampered him. He bought him comic books and snacks using his own allowance, since Xu Chenjie''s parents didn''t give him and his sister enough allowance to buy those kinds of things.


    When Xu Chenjie was still in elementary school, sometimes Liu Yijun would take them to eat outside with his friend. At that time he thought that the man Liu Yijun brought was his best friend since they''re so close to each other. Later on he knew that the man was Yijun''s boyfriend at that time. It didn''t end well.


    When Liu Yijun studied art in C academy, he moved to the dorm. At that time Xu Chenjie was already a junior high school''s student, and his sister in high school. They don''t need to go to their uncle''s house after school anymore. They''re big enough to take care of themselves.


    Their relationship didn''t grow apart. It''s like a reversal, his cousin liked to stay over to their place on the weekend. Xu Chenjie was happy every time his cousin visited them, because it means he will have additional comic books or new games. And the food would be much better if Liu Yijun came.


    When Xu Chenjie was in high school, he already knew his cousin''s sexual preference. He will sit obediently to accompany his sister and his cousin chatter about those handsome actors and singers. Maybe because they were very close to his cousin, they didn''t see it as something bad.


    "Look, this is my new boyfriend. He''s so handsome, right?" Then usually his sister will mock Yijun''s taste in men. Xu Chenjie had to admit his cousin is handsome, but his taste in boyfriends sucks. Yijun''s boyfriend was a handsome man with a bad attitude.


    He and his sister can''t help but feel bad every time Yijun cries because of his jerk boyfriend. Their relationship went on and off, leaving Yijun hanging dry.


    "It''s the time you moved on, why do you even want to accept that scumbag again? I won''t acknowledge you as my cousin if you dare to accept that scumbag again!" His sister often yelled at Yijun and drank her liquor until both of them wasted in Xu Chenjie''s room.


    They finally broke up for good when Yijun''s boyfriend was caught red handed cheating on him. Truly a joke, since Yijun''s boyfriend often used that as the reason they broke up. Yijun once boasted his boyfriend was super jealous because he loved Yijun so much. But turns out that was not that the case. He was just a bastard who like to torture his gentle cousin.


    One year ago, his cousin told his parents that he was a cutsleeve and would never have a girlfriend when his parents wanted to match him with their friend''s daughter. It created a big ruckus, and Yijun kicked out from the house.


    Three of them still like to hang out together once in a while. But the place moved from Xu Chenjie''s room into Yijun''s apartment. Last month, they gathered together to celebrate Yijun''s successful contract. He was an illustrator, a very good one.


    "Liu Ge, my roommate rumoured to be a cutsleeve in the university''s forum. It seems he doesn''t know about it. Do you think I should tell him?"


    "Eh, can''t believe elite university students like yours like to gossip too. I thought all of you were just robots who didn''t care about 3D humans. Show me the gossip."


    Xu Chenjie''s sister and Yijun were busy trashing the people who wrote the malicious comments when they saw it. "Poor this lamb.." Yijun said that while telling Xu Chenjie about his own struggle when he was in his university days.


    "Just tell this lamb about this forum, and you''re free to tell him about me too. I will gladly guide this lamb not to fall for the dark side, and how to choose his partner wisely. Clearly his partner is bad if he let your friend be trashed like this."


    That''s what Xu Chenjie had on his mind when he sent the link to Bai Yutang that night. He was afraid to listened Yujin''s story about how he once consider suicide when he felt people around him didn''t accept his sexual preferences.


    "You know, i was so lucky to have both of you. Without you standing by my side all these years, i really can''t continue to live anymore."


    Xu Chenjie was prepared, but turns out the reality was far from what he imagined. Not only did Bai Yutang admit it flatly, he even introduced his boyfriend and they were in the car together right now. Along the way, Jian Kang Lu joked with him, comfortably leading their conversation.


    Xu Chenjie was surprised to learn Jian Kang Lu''s age. He didn''t look that old. And even more in awe when they reached the restaurant. This is one of the high class restaurants he never stepped his foot into. Not to mention he almost choked himself when he saw the price in the menu.


    He felt awkward when Jian Kang Lu asked what he wanted to order, and was saved by Bai Yutang who told him that he too didn''t know what to order at the first time. He let Bai Yutang order for him.


    He questioned himself if this was the right choice to come to this dinner when he saw Bai Yutang''s friends arrive. But he didn''t feel awkward for too long, since he saw that Bai Yutang''s friend seems to know about Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu''s relationship. It''s hard for Xu Chenjie not to notice when Jian Kang Lu keeps looking at Bai Yutang with his expression clearly showing that he adored his ex-roommate so much.


    He could see that Bai Yutang''s handsome friend called Tang Yuxuan seems awkward too and a little bit gloomy. But when they almost finished the dinner, the atmosphere turned warm and cozy. Tang Yuxuan already laughed and joked, and didn''t look as gloomy as the first time he came to this restaurant. Xu Chenjie didn''t feel like an outsider. These people treat him very well and always engage conversation with him too, didn''t leave him out.


    He always felt pity for his cousin, and even questioned why his cousin chose to be open about sexual preferences though it was hard and destined to be doomed. But tonight, he saw that man and man relationship not always like he thought. He could see this couple clearly loved each other, and how this handsome man treated his ex-roommate with utmost care.


    In the deepest of his heart, he felt happy for Bai Yutang. But there''s a tiny bit inside him that regret why this handsome man didn''t meet his cousin before. His cousin also deserves to get a man like this, who pampered him and wasn''t afraid to be open with their relationship. Didn''t hide his cousin like he was a plaque disease. Didn''t hurt his cousin''s heart over and over again.


    When they finished the dinner, he said thank you to Jian Kang Lu and said he will go back to the dorm with the others, refusing Jian Kang Lu''s offer to send them back to the dorm. Before they parted, he could hear Jian Kang Lu''s voice.


    "I appreciate all your support for TangTang. Please continue to support him. Let''s have dinner again sometime. Just contact me if you guys are free."


    Then he saw the couple walk away hand in hand in steady steps. Lift their head high up. Believe in each other. Proud of each other. Love each other.

 Chapter 124 - One Night When We’re Apart

    May in B city was a transition between short spring and long summer. It was very nice to be outside, bathed in the warm sunlights and gentle breeze. Bai Yutang loved it so much. Perfect weather to spend outdoors.


    He sat on the terrace on their new chair. That was this month''s anniversary gift from his lover. His lover still took 15th as their anniversary day. On that day, his lover sent him a nice terrace chair with the sunshade on top. He didn''t know that his lover noticed that he liked to stay here on the terrace while studying or typing his proposal.


    Next semester is his final semester. Starting from this month he has already consulted his professor about his final project. He planned to choose hospital as his final project''s theme.


    Hospital is the place where his lover spends the most of his time. Hospitals are also the place where people put their hope. A place where people gather with various reasons but one goal. A place to heal. A place to take care of people.


    He hasn''t started his research much, drowned in his other projects too. But he was glad he took many subjects in these last three semesters. That way, in his final semester he won''t have many things that burden him. He could see it was very stressful to his friends, especially nearing their time to present their project and defend their thesis. Their turn is next week.


    Yu Dong once asked him whether he will go back to the dorm again when he starts to work on his final project in the studio.


    "It will be hard, you know. Even us living in the dorm already find it hard to spare time to sleep in the dorm. Maybe you should rent the dorm or apartment near the university later on. I''m sure Jian Ge will understand."


    Bai Yutang didn''t want to think about that. He could decide later on once he got through it. For now, he just wants to spend his time as much as he can with his lover. Bai Yutang heard his mobile phone ringing. He took it and smiled to see the caller.


    "Gege."


    It was a video call, and he can see Jian Kang Lu sit in the bed.


    "TangTang, what are you doing?"


    "Type my proposal, gege. Is the conference already over?"


    "Mmm, have you eaten baby?"


    Bai Yutang nodded, and showed Jian Kang Lu he also had snacks with him. He knows his lover is very concerned about him losing weight when they separated, so he also struggles to gain his weight back.


    They continued the video chat for the next ten minutes then switched to phone call, letting Bai Yutang typed his proposal again. Jian Kang Lu went to the conference in G city for four days. He will come back tomorrow night.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know how much Jian Kang Lu regretted accepting so many offers to speak in the conferences this year. Until the end of this year, Jian Kang Lu needs to speak in the other four more conferences as speaker. He could not cancel it. And one of them will be held in Spain in September. Even thinking about it gives him a headache, since it means he will spend one full week without his kitten.


    He listened his kitten quietly when he told him about his final project. A hospital with futuristic touch. Bai Yutang was inspired how the ICU and the surgery room was designed to have minimal contact with skin. To prevent bacterial spreading from human''s skin to the instruments, a lot of parts of the hospital are installed with no touch sensor nowadays.


    Jian Kang Lu gave his opinion when Bai Yutang asked him what kind of hospital Jian Kang Lu wished to work for. The environment, the atmosphere, the interaction between people who work there and their patients.


    "So, you say that you wish to see a hospital that have outdoor''s part? Like a recreational park inside? And the artificial pond or lake?"


    "Yes. I think modern hospitals nowadays are lifeless. Sometimes I think my patients don''t get any fresh air and it will be great if they could walk in the park or something like that inside the hospital. By the way TangTang, you don''t have anything to do today? Not going out?"


    "Nope, i''m going to visit those lifeless creatures in the studio tomorrow. They are already pestering me asking for food. Oh, what time your flight landed tomorrow, gege?"


    "I''ll show you my ticket later on WeChat."


    They chat the whole day. Sometimes it was just silence enveloped them, listening to the sounds produced by the typing and mouse scrolling. Jian Kang Lu himself is studying his presentation for tomorrow.


    The phone call ended only when Jian Kang Lu needed to have the meeting at night. Just like any other meeting he had with these nephrologists, it was going for hours. The seniors kept giving their opinion and the juniors were too excited to sound out their ideas. Jian Kang Lu felt bored, and typed on his phone.


    [They keep talking roundabout, make me sleepy to hear them. Wish they could just talk to the point and we all could wrap this meeting quickly. I want to go back to my room quickly. Missed to hear your voice.]


    Jian Kang Lu almost dropped his phone when he saw what Bai Yutang replied to him. It''s a picture of Bai Yutang and his dinner. His kitten took the selfie when he blew the hot noodle. His cute pouting mouth made it look like his kitten wanted to kiss him.


    [I''ll give you my picture so you won''t get sleepy, gege.]


    Jian Kang Lu honestly didn''t know what his kitten ate lately for him to become cuter and adorable like this.


    After their separation, they already talked about what happened that night. Jian Kang Lu told his kitten what happened at the party, and how he had to go home on that condition. But he was really surprised to hear his kitten''s explanation.


    Jian Kang Lu wanted to ask Zhang Min again what happened that night, but he didn''t. He decided just to bury it. The important thing is his kitten was back to him. He didn''t know what truly happened that night until his kitten thought that he would deliberately take a man home.


    He wanted to say that it was impossible for him to do that just because he wanted to show his kitten that he could take another man, hug him, and kissed him inside their bedroom. But before he could say that he would never look for another person except his kitten, his kitten already hugged him.


    "I know now, gege. I know that I was wrong to think like that. And I really regret my own foolishness. It''s not that I didn''t trust you, gege. I guess i didn''t trust myself back then. I could never believe that someone like me really deserves you. My lack of confidence makes me shut myself and run away from you."


    And his kitten repeated his apology again and again. Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten every time he started to say "I''m sorry" for the millionth time. One time he teased his kitten.


    "I think my baby keeps saying i''m sorry because you want to get a kiss from me?"


    His kitten turned his head and threw himself at him, kissed him back. His kitten paid his teasing words with a long deep kiss.


    "I won''t need to say I''m sorry to get a kiss from you, gege. If I want to kiss you, I''ll just kiss you directly like this. "


    The result of his teasing words was backfire at him, since he was the one left speechless and hanging dry. If only he teased his kitten in the house, he could do many things to punish his kitten. Unfortunately that time they were in the car. To be precise, in the car parked in the parking lot, and prepared to go out from it. They went to attend Sun Hongjia''s dinner invitation.


    For the whole dinner Jian Kang Lu felt like he was sitting on fire, wrecking his brain looking for a reason to get home earlier. But why on time like this, his friends didn''t help him at all and kept Bai Yutang as their hostage.


    He can''t even calm his not so little brother for the whole evening until finally the beast inside him got what he wanted later that night once they reached home. It was a very satisfying evening.


    Jian Kang Lu secretly noted in his heart, maybe he needed to print a big picture of Bai Yutang and framed it, put it everywhere in the apartment. Just to clearly show who was the most important person living there. But he didn''t know whether his kitten liked the idea or despised it.


    Jian Kang Lu secretly texting his kitten throughout the meeting, and couldn''t help to breathe a sigh of relief when the chairman officially announced that the meeting was over. He hurriedly ran to his room, avoiding his colleague''s invitation to go to the lounge for small talk.


    It was already 11 o''clock. Jian Kang Lu knows his kitten usually sleeps before 11 because his kitten''s habit is to wake up early in the morning. And he knows his kitten purposely stays awake just to wait for him. Jian Kang Lu can''t even wait to call his kitten and just presses his kitten''s number once he walks out from the elevator.


    "Baby, are you sleeping?"


    "Mmmh.. I''m still awake, waiting for you. Your meeting is over, gege?"


    Jian Kang Lu could hear his kitten''s voice drowsy. It seems he will fall asleep any moment. "Yes. Can we do video call for a moment? I missed you."


    "Okay, gege."


    Jian Kang Lu reached for his hotel key card and opened the door. "Wait for me to change my clothes first, will you? Just 5 minutes."


    When Jian Kang Lu washed his face and brushed his teeth, his logic tried to bury his desire to install CCTV inside their apartment just for the sake of looking his kitten anytime and anywhere he wanted while he was away. Even he knows that his desire is creepy and violates his kitten''s privacy. But sometimes, he really can''t help to feel insecure if he could not see his kitten every time.


    Jian Kang Lu pressed the video call button, and it was delightful to see his kitten laying in the bed in his pajama. They talked for a little bit and his kitten''s eyes closed several times.


    "You can sleep, TangTang. I''ll just call you."


    "No. Wait.. I''ll put my phone like this, gege. So we can still see each other."


    His kitten put the phone propped up beside his pillow. His kitten''s eyes showed he was really sleepy. The screen in his hands shows his kitten''s eyelid slowly closed. His breath turned steady and soft. Jian Kang Lu smiled, and just stared at that phone. Looking at the peaceful face who warmed his heart. And he slowly closed his eyes too.


    Dreaming of his kitten laid beside him, forever in his arms.

 Chapter 125 - Wisdom Teeth

    Jian Kang Lu noticed his kitten changes a lot after they got back together again in the past one month.


    First, his kitten boldly shows his affection even in public. For example, when they do groceries shopping or when they watch movies together, his kitten holds his hands a lot. Many times, over and over again. Jian Kang Lu can''t even be happier with that.


    At first, he thought it won''t last long, because he knew his kitten was not an extrovert like him. But until today, his kitten is still doing that, and even increasing the frequency. Is this Mu Xiaoya''s magic again? He silently vows to give Mu Xiaoya a generous gift for this.


    Another example is when his kitten gives him delightful surprises such as pick him up in the airport. He never imagined his kitten asked his flight schedule to pick him up. When he asked why his kitten picked him up, his kitten answered softly.


    "I want to see you as soon as possible, gege. I missed you."


    Second, his kitten boldly seduces him in bed. Okay, maybe boldly was not the best term to describe his kitten''s movement. Even his kitten didn''t do anything enough to ignite Jian Kang Lu''s inner beast sometimes. Don''t mention with this additional seductive and flirty moves from his kitten.


    For example, bathe him. Since that day, his kitten often bathes together with him. There was one time when his kitten rubbed his lower member with the slippery bath gel, then brought his own sexy thing down there to join the movement. His kitten cupped both of their lower members and stroked it gently with the bath gel, then faster until both of them cum.


    Jian Kang Lu felt really proud with himself to still hold his sanity intact and didn''t fuck his kitten''s supple butt right there at that moment. He felt like a saint to be able to deny his desire not to punish his deadly flirtatious kitten.


    Third, his kitten often sends his selfie pictures and explains what he does, and where he goes. It was not Jian Kang Lu''s intention to be a freak who wants to control his kitten. But he can''t deny that he was happy to receive all those beautiful pictures and messages.


    He felt safe, for he knows where his kitten was. He felt secure, for he knows his kitten prioritises him. He felt blissful, for he could see his kitten when he missed him so much. And he felt happy, because it shows how his kitten truly thinks about him all the time.


    And last, his kitten didn''t mind using his money. Like today, his kitten asked his permission to use his card to buy gifts for his friends. Liu Xiang, Yu Dong, and Tang Yuxuan finished their final project and also their thesis. They invite Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu for a celebration dinner. Unfortunately, Jian Kang Lu needs to attend the yearly nephrologist meeting and can''t join them.


    "You can use the cards, and buy something nice for them. Let''s have dinner together another time. Ask them whether they''re free next weekend. Or maybe after your final exam?"


    His kitten nodded, "I plan to buy wallets for them. Is it okay if I spend 3000 yuan for their gift, gege?"


    Jian Kang Lu just ruffled his kitten''s hair who poured the coffee for him. "Just use the card. It''s okay."


    Who cares how much his kitten wants to spend. He could spend all Jian Kang Lu''s salary if he wanted to.


    "I''m sorry i can''t accompany you to the shopping mall. Are you going alone?"


    His kitten blew the hot porridge, and answered his question while doing that. "Nope, i''m going with Xiaoya. She also wants to buy the gifts for them."


    "Then please have your lunch somewhere nice with her. Just use the card." Jian Kang Lu secretly hoped Mu Xiaoya would give more magical advice to his kitten.


    Jian Kang Lu notices all the food they have for this morning breakfast is something that is easy to chew and soft. He also noticed his kitten eat his food slowly.


    "Are you sick, TangTang?" He put his hand to his kitten''s forehead and neck. It seems his kitten is a little bit warmer than usual.


    Jian Kang Lu could see that his kitten was lying when he said nothing wrong. "My patients could give me a better lie compared to you, baby. What''s wrong? Where do you feel sick?"


    His kitten just lowered his head and answered slowly. "I''m having a headache and it seems to be coming from my teeth."


    "Finish your breakfast first, and let me take a look." Jian Kang Lu is really worried. His kitten didn''t get sick often except for his stomach problem and cold. But the problem is his kitten often lied about it.


    After breakfast, Bai Yutang obediently opened his mouth and let his lover examine his mouth.


    "Your gum is a little bit swollen. Why don''t we go to the dentist? I think you need to take a panoramic to see your wisdom teeth position. I guess it was impacted." Jian Kang Lu truly worried about his kitten. He knows how painful for impacted wisdom teeth could be. He himself had all his wisdom teeth extracted when he was still in his second year. It was a nightmare.


    "And drink some painkiller first. Let me get some for you." Jian Kang Lu rummaged their medicine cabinet to look for the strong painkiller. He remembered when he was having his wisdom teeth, the pain was like splitting his head and his jaw.


    "I''m okay, gege. If tomorrow I still have this tooth ache then I''ll go to the dentist."


    Jian Kang Lu''s worries proved to be real. At night, his kitten awoken with his eyes layered in mist. He finally admitted that the pain was increased and throbbing hard. Jian Kang Lu sighed, then fetched warm water and a painkiller with some sedative to help his kitten sleep.


    "Drink this first, and let''s go to the dentist tomorrow morning. Let''s eat breakfast outside tomorrow. No need to cook."


    Jian Kang Lu held his kitten tight that whole night, while changing the cold compress several times to his kitten''s jaw to help alleviate the pain. He stroked his kitten''s hair, and kissed his kitten''s forehead several times. It must be really painful, until his kitten admitted that he needed to take medicine.


    In the morning his kitten wants to wake up early. But Jian Kang Lu put him back to sleep.


    "Just sleep more, baby. This is Sunday. I''ll wake you up at 7."


    Jian Kang Lu made some peppermint tea for his kitten, and asked his friend which dental clinic opened on Sunday morning. Too bad there are no decent dental clinics open on Sunday morning, but he secured the appointment at 4 pm in the dental clinic recommended by Huang Yin.


    Jian Kang Lu also called his parents and told them that today he can''t join the Sunday lunch. He wants to accompany his kitten to the dentist.


    "Gege, I can go alone. No need to cancel your Sunday lunch for me." His kitten softly told him when he heard that Jian Kang Lu didn''t go to his parent''s house.


    "But i want to accompany you. I want to see how cute your wisdom tooth is to cause you pain like this."


    His kitten didn''t say anything, but it was satisfying for Jian Kang Lu when he saw his kitten''s ear tip turn red.


    In the dentist, Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten a little bit pale. "Baby, you''re not afraid of the dentist, right?"


    His kitten just pouted his mouth, "I''m not a 7 year old toddler. I used to visit my dentist regularly for scaling."


    How Jian Kang Lu wished they''re at home so he could kiss that cute cheek pouting at him. When the nurse calls Bai Yutang inside, Jian Kang Lu stays still in his chair. He was startled when Bai Yutang held his hand and dragged him inside the dentist''s room.


    "Why did you sit there? I thought gege said that you want to see my cute wisdom tooth?"


    Jian Kang Lu noted that this is another major change from his kitten. Cuteness overload. He truly can''t handle this.


    The dentist took the panoramic picture, and his initial guess was right. His kitten''s wisdom teeth were impacted in the lower right and the upper left. The dentist gave the option to remove four of them with minor surgery, or just took the problematic one right now. The lower right tooth.


    "What do you think, gege?"


    "In my case, I removed four of them in one single surgery. I didn''t want to get that painful experience again later on when they decide to popped up one by one and torture me slowly. But up to you, TangTang."


    His kitten finally decided to follow his step. Removed the four of them. The dentist told them she could do the surgery today, but on the last appointment. They agreed and just waited for the dental clinic to call them later on.


    "Let''s just wait in the car, or you want to go to the shopping mall while waiting?" Jian Kang Lu asked his kitten, since the clinic was quite far from their apartment.


    "Let''s just play games in the car, gege. I already went to the shopping mall for hours yesterday with Xiaoya. I can''t handle another tour there."


    After the surgery, his kitten''s face looks pale and Jian Kang Lu''s heart ache to see it. He knows how painful it is. He worriedly stroked his kitten''s swollen cheek. "Why don''t you stay at home tomorrow? Or maybe I''ll take my leave too."


    His kitten''s eyes squinted with a warning look. "No need gege, this is nothing. I also need to see my counselor tomorrow regarding my final project''s proposal."


    Jian Kang Lu knows that when his kitten gives him that look, it was wiser to keep his mouth shut. "Okay, but let''s order food for the next three days until you get better. Please?"


    And that was their routine for the next five days until Bai Yutang''s swollen cheek returned to normal. Jian Kang Lu will assure his kitten everyday that he still looks handsome even though his cheek bulges like a squirrel holding the nuts inside their cheek. Jian Kang Lu also put cold compress to his kitten''s cheek and jaw several times a day while massaging his head. Their morning tea changed into cold peppermint tea. And the food ordered was always clear soup and porridge.


    "Gege, I''m sorry.."


    Jian Kang Lu turned his head and looked at his kitten who was rolling his body towards him, hugged his waist while he read his resident''s case for tomorrow''s presentation. He stroked his kitten''s soft hair.


    "Why do you say sorry again?"


    His kitten''s voice muffled when he said, "I troubled you with my tooth ache for the past few days."


    Jian Kang Lu put his tablet on the table beside their bed. He holds his kitten and kisses his kitten softly.


    "It''s good to have a doctor as your boyfriend, right?"


    Bai Yutang smiled and laughed a little to hear his lover saying those shameless words.


    "Yes it is. Please don''t charge me for this treatment, Doctor Jian."

 Chapter 126 - PES

    Jian Kang Lu looked at his poor breakfast, two slices of egg coated bread and a few slices of papaya. Although the egg coated bread tasted very good, as expected from his kitten''s cook, it was still far from the usual breakfast menu. This kind of menu means that he had to prepare welcoming the days of his kitten''s period.


    Jian Kang Lu looked at the calendar, and he guessed right. Luckily his kitten only will have this phase several times four times a year, unlike the heterosexual couple that had to deal with it on monthly basis. Sometimes Jian Kang Lu thought that he chose men rather than women because men don''t have PMS.


    Well, for his kitten''s case Jian Kang Lu called it PES, abbreviation from Pre Exam Syndrome. In these times, his kitten will turn into a sensitive kitten, a moody kitten. No wonder, since his kitten will have sleep deprivation and all the tension from his study and projects.


    Jian Kang Lu carefully looked at his kitten who was still preparing their coffee. In days like this, he had to choose his words wisely, and can''t grope his kitten excessively. He knew well how severe the consequences of his unwise act were..


    "Baby, the coffee smells good. Different beans?"


    "Um, i bought the Excelso house blend. Try it, gege. I like the aroma."


    Jian Kang Lu inhales the scent of coffee in front of him. When he tasted it, he could feel a hint of spicy, floral, and tantalizing dried fruit in harmony. Simply enjoyable. It''s a refreshing change from their usual bold italian roast coffee.


    "I like it."


    Jian Kang Lu truly likes it. He likes when his kitten buys various things for him to try. Jian Kang Lu himself has been living on his own for more than 10 years. He was busy, so he stuck to the things he used to buy. Once he likes something, he will keep buying the same things without changing it for years. Too lazy to try something else that he might not enjoy.


    His kitten smiled, and gave him a kiss on the cheek. Jian Kang Lu almost returns the kiss and wants to hug his kitten''s tiny waist, but he manages to halt his desire. He can''t risk his docile kitten turning fiery in an instant because he can''t hold his hand to touch his kitten. He once suffered from it.


    "I''m sorry, gege. Today''s breakfast is simple. But tomorrow i''ll cook something more."


    "It''s okay, or we can order more food at night for breakfast the next day. I know you have a lot of projects and exams coming soon."


    His kitten looked at him with an unreadable expression. Jian Kang Lu tries to think whether he chose his words wrong and prepares for the bomb. But his kitten wasn''t mad. He only nodded his head.


    "Okay, how about salty egg tofu for dinner tonight? And some vegetable soup? We can order from Jade."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, and felt safe to spend one peaceful morning in this period. But he knows that this is only the beginning. He still has to spend another three weeks walking in an egg shell.


    Today Chen Rong asked him to have lunch together, so they went to the Japanese restaurant near the hospital for their lunch. Zhou Ying shamelessly invited himself and joined them also.


    "You don''t have surgery today?" Jian Kang Lu asked Zhou Ying when he just jumped into his car, followed them for lunch.


    Zhou Ying answered leisurely. "Nope. Only small pins removal this morning. Tomorrow i had two knee surgeries though."


    "Thought you will hook with the new interns like usual. Why do you suddenly want to hang out with us old men today?" Zhou Ying put on his safety belt.


    Zhou Ying''s voice clearly sounds disappointed. "I can''t believe that all interns this year don''t even have a single cute one. They looked so serious and clearly bookworms only. Not fun at all."


    Jian Kang Lu chuckled, "Be careful, you''re lucky that your wife didn''t really care about what you do outside."


    "She knew exactly that I have no guts to do more than teasing and admiring the beauty of youth. That''s why we''re happily married."


    Three of them ordered one of these Japanese restaurant specialties. Their udon is really worth the title as the best udon in B city. The tongue-twister of a dish consists of slippery noodles topped with lightly flavoured pieces of chicken tempura, plus grated daikon, sesame seeds, nori seaweed, and green onion. It makes for a satisfyingly hearty one bowl meal.


    The conversation was moved on how they handled the wives at home. Chen Rong is a henpecked husband, so his ultimate and the only weapon is to admit his defeat as early as possible.


    Zhou Ying laughed like a maniac and almost toppled his mentaiko when they recall the scene when Chen Rong''s wife caught Chen Rong told one cute intern that he was single. At that time, both of them were residents and not yet married.


    Chen Rong''s wife suddenly appeared behind them and told the intern that Chen Rong was once caught having STD (Sexual Transmitted Disease), that''s why he stayed single because no one wanted to be his girlfriend after that.


    "Ahaha.. I still remember that intern''s face when she told her that you''re having syphilis. That was gold. I was wondering what makes her want to marry you after that incident." Zhou Ying wiped his tears from laughing too much.


    "You won''t believe how many times i have to kneel and beg for her. I even told her that she has to take responsibility for me since i caught that syphilis from her." Chen Rong solemnly said.


    "This guy is lucky, didn''t have to deal with wife at home." Zhou Ying pointed at Jian Kang Lu.


    "True, i''m so lucky." Jian Kang Lu added inside his heart that he was lucky to have a cute boyfriend at home. He then remembered that he was in the dangerous period now. He can''t help himself to ask these two veteran.


    "By the way, how do you guys deal with your wives when they''re on their monthly period?"


    Both of them suddenly silenced and looked at him with a fiery gaze. Their eyes squinted, clearly shown hostility.


    "Why do you have to bring that now? Ughh, it reminds me that the hellish period will fall upon me next week." Zhou Ying resentfully scolded him.


    "I''m on that period now." Chen Rong''s voice sounds devastated. Zhou Ying looked at him pitifully.


    Jian Kang Lu almost blurted that he was on the same period with Chen Rong now. Luckily he managed to keep his mouth shut. "So, what do you guys do? Come on, share some tips and tricks."


    "Why the hell do you need it? You''re so single like an amoeba." Zhou Ying slurped his chawan mushi.


    Chen Rong sighed, "For me, It''s better to keep my mouth shut all the time. Work extra time. Better stay outside rather than fail to pay attention for any single details. For example, once I didn''t notice she had a new haircut. She accused me of being a selfish pig who only could think about myself and didn''t care about her at all."


    Zhou Ying nodded, "True true. I once almost got kicked out from the house when I told her that she better not wear her pink dress because it makes her tummy stand out. I already got along with her opinion and she told me that I am ashamed of her because she''s getting fat. Until now I truly can''t understand what''s on her mind at that time."


    Listening to both of them rambling about their experience makes Jian Kang Lu relieved. At least he was not alone. He almost wants to share his story when his kitten furiously almost throws their dinner away because he groped his kitten''s waist when he fried the vegetables in the kitchen.


    The three of them finished their lunch. Before they got out of the car, Zhou Ying tapped Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder. "The best way to get through a hellish period safely is to give them all your cards. Told them they could use it as much as they want. It works all the time."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled. He feels a little bit jealous of Zhou Ying. Even to make his kitten receive his gifts is already a headache. If he dares to follow Zhou Ying''s advice, for sure he will be kicked out of the house. Or worse, his kitten will run away from him again.


    Once he came home that day, his kitten holed up in his studio. Jian Kang Lu opened the door and looked at his kitten''s serious face in front of the computer. His hair is getting longer and falls on his forehead, framing his delicate face like a watercolour painting. So beautiful. Calm his heart. Ease his tired old bones.


    His kitten noticed him, and turned his head. "Gege, you''re home? Let''s eat first, i''m hungry."


    Jian Kang Lu felt guilty that his kitten always had his dinner late because he was waiting for him. More than dozens of times Jian Kang Lu told his kitten to have his dinner first, but his kitten refused. Deep inside, he felt happy with it. He was so busy, so most of their time together was the time when they had breakfast and dinner, and also the time in bed.


    "Thank you for waiting for me, TangTang."


    His kitten hugged him, and kissed his cheek. "I missed you. How''s your day, gege?"


    For the next three week his kitten didn''t blow up even just once. Jian Kang Lu''s worries turn out for nothing. He didn''t know whether it was because he could handle his kitten''s period expertly, or his kitten truly changed.


    He hoped it was for the first reason. Because he could sense after that storm, his kitten tried to please him as much as he could. Jian Kang Lu can''t complain about that, but he''s afraid that his kitten just bottled up his feelings, and one day it could backfire on him.


    It was better for him to have his kitten snapped like those wives, rather than suddenly one day his kitten said he could not live with him again. Jian Kang Lu is more than willing to receive a million harsh words and treatment from his kitten if that means his kitten will forever stay with him.

 Chapter 127 - Looking Back At That Time

    "I''m home."


    Bai Yuren could hear her brother''s voice from the kitchen. She was standing there, sweating, and cursed inside. She was in a life and death battle with these damn shrimps. Why on earth she decided to be a good sister, told her brother that she will cook his favourite dishes as their dinner for welcoming him home.


    The only good things about preparing shrimps are they are easy to defrost. Just took 10 minutes for them to be soaked in cold water and it defrosted already. She hates the process of removing these damn shells. Sometimes it pricks her fingers.


    She hates deveining them. Dig under the vein with her knife and and pull it up and out. Sometimes it breaks as she pulls, makes her just keep digging and pulling until it''s removed.. Some people choose to leave the vein, but her brother always removes them. Because after all, it''s animal waste. And most of all, she hated the smell of her fingers after she cleaned it, stinky fish fingers.


    "Gege, i''m in the kitchen." Bai Yuren shouting. Her voice let her desperation leak out. She knows her brother must be tired from the journey. But she can''t help to hope her gentle brother will take over this battle and let her be free. She chose to prepare the vegetables and the chicken.


    "I thought it was only your sweet talking when you said you''ll cook my favourite dishes, but i guess i was wrong." Bai Yutang can''t help but chuckled to see her sister''s face.


    Bai Yuren peeked at her brother, hoping her brother would tell her to leave these shrimps alone, like he used to. But her brother was just standing there, leaning on the kitchen''s door. Watch her with an amused face. Clearly he wants to tease her, waiting for her to beg him. She held her dignity for five minutes before she finally shouted.


    "Gege, what kind of brother are you, letting me struggle alone here!"


    "What? It''s only two minutes and you already give up? Beg me first, then I''ll handle those shrimps."


    Bai Yuren was a little bit surprised to hear her brother tease her. His face is not sunken pale like last time. It now shows his genuine smile. A pure smile like his brother used to have. It seems his gloomy and sad mood from the previous holiday was gone. He looked happy again. She decides to lower her pride, and observe her brother more.


    "My handsome gege, my almighty gege, please please please.. Let me prepare the vegetables. So can you lend me your magical fingers to handle these shrimps?"


    Bai Yutang chuckled, and walked towards the kitchen counter. He washed his hands, and took over the shrimps from his sister. "Where''s mom?"


    "Mom is still at Auntie Lau." Bai Yuren washed the broccoli and dipped them in the salt water. Then she moved to wash and peeled the carrots. She starts to chop the carrots and the bell pepper before she hears her brother ask her again.


    "Does mom really need to work over there? I''m not comfortable with it."


    Bai Yuren also didn''t feel comfortable with it. To have your mom at her age working in that small restaurant makes her worried. She could also sense that her brother was the one who felt miserable with their mom''s choice. But she can''t shake her mom''s decision.


    "I''m not working for money. You all realise that i''m alone here, right? Can you imagine how bored I am here everyday in this empty house?" Her mom refuted their protests even more when Bai Yuren said that she will move out from the dorm to live with her again.


    "If you move out from the dorm, then you really will hurt me. I just want to work there, talk with people my age, can''t you understand that?" With these statements, how could Bai Yuren say anything more? And she knew her brother was useless when talking to their mom. He will just surrender even when the war has not yet started.


    Just like their father.


    "Mom said that she felt lonely in this house. Just let her be. I know Auntie Lau won''t overwork her. It was a miracle actually that Auntie Lau wanted to hire her in the kitchen."


    Bai Yuren finished chopping all the vegetables and started to work with the chicken. She didn''t hear any response from her brother. She knew what''s on her brother''s mind.


    "This is not because you didn''t give her enough allowance. I know that for sure. She just needed something to do. Don''t think about that too much."


    "I know. But still, it would be better if she didn''t need to work and just spend her days like she used to." Bai Yuren still could hear regrets from her brother''s voice. She wanted to say that it was impossible. Their father is gone. The lights of her mother''s life. It would never be the same. But she closed her mouth and just chopped the chicken into cubes shapes.


    "So you''ll only spend one week here?" Bai Yuren tried to change the conversation.


    "Yes, i still have to do research for my final project. I want my final project to be done as soon as possible. That way I could start to search for a job next year. How''s your study?"


    Bai Yuren will start her third year. In these past two years she worked hard. She never studied as hard as she did now. She needs to maintain her scholarship for her not to burden her brother more. "It''s okay. I can maintain my grade. Don''t worry." Bai Yuren said lightly.


    They finished cooking while talking about random things. Bai Yutang said he wanted to take a shower first while waiting for their mother to come home. When her mother came home, Bai Yuren went upstairs to call her brother.


    One of her habits is that she rarely knocks on her brother''s room. So she just opened the door and found her brother lying in the bed, smiling while talking on the phone.


    "Don''t get too drunk, gege."


    That''s the words she heard from her brother. She could guess who was the person on the other side.


    "Hey, why can''t you get rid of your habit? Knock the door, ah." Her brother flustered to find her standing in the door.


    "Why don''t you lock the door? It was not like you''re naked or watching porn. Why the fuss?" Bai Yuren grinned. "Mom is back." She told Bai Yutang.


    "Gege, i''ll call you later. My mom is back. Yes. Yes, I''ll send your regard to them." Bai Yuren could hear Bai Yutang say those words in a low voice. It''s no use, she could still hear him clearly.


    Bai Yuren smiled. So they''re already made up, huh? No wonder her brother back to his usual self. Even brighter and smiled a lot. She already guessed this much when her brother raised her allowance again.


    Looking back at that time when her brother filled their house with gloomy and dark clouds for the whole last holiday, she thought that her brother''s relationship was over. Bai Yuren can''t tell her brother that it was one of the reasons which made her mother work in Auntie Lau''s restaurant. Her mother worried about Bai Yutang stressed out because of their financial situation, and even blamed herself for not becoming a good mother for him.


    That last holiday was the first time for Bai Yuren to see what her brother looked like when he was brokenhearted. She even hates Jian Kang Lu for a moment. How could that man hurt her brother like this. She texted Jian Kang Lu in fury, wanting to bury the man who hurt her brother with her vicious curse. But she couldn''t send that message, since she didn''t know for sure whether those two were in a relationship or it was all just her imagination.


    Her fury and rage calmed down when she called YingYing, her best friend.


    "YingYing! I''m so mad right now!!"


    "What what? Are you talking about Princess Ling''s latest chapter? Yeah, it makes me mad too. That stupid king is really a scumbag."


    "Nooo, I didn''t talk about comics. It''s about my stupid brother!"


    "What else did he do this time that makes you mad? You know that it was probably your fault, right?"


    "No!! I told you that he probably had a lover, right? Now it seems he broke up, and ruining our meal. All of the dishes he cooked is awful now. I already imagine to eat his oxtail soup and those chicken shrimp stir fry. But now everything he cooked tastes like my cook, and he kept putting his sad and miserable face this whole week. I swear i almost saw he cried when i talk about his lover last time."


    "Tsk tsk.. Do i need to remind you how ugly you are with your snots running through your nose when Ling Xiao had a girlfriend. You act like the world is ending even though he might be not knowing your name until now."


    "No one in our school who didn''t know my name." Bai Yuren shamelessly answered. She knew that was the truth, since she held the first rank in the entire school three years in a row.


    "Anyway, I thought your relationship with your brother improved lately. Why don''t you just ask him? Or maybe you just need to learn how to cook."


    Bai Yuren was stunned. It seems YingYing was right. She guesses what makes her brother''s cooking skill reduced to kindergarten level because maybe it was hurt for her brother to cook. She knew that her brother used to cook for Jian Kang Lu everyday. Maybe that will ease her brother''s pain for a little bit if he took over the cooking task.


    That''s when she started to take over the kitchen from her brother. And there was also one time she texting Jian Kang Lu out of curiosity. She just wanted to test whether her brother''s sadness truly originated from that handsome man.


    [Jian Ge, how are you? My brother told me you can''t visit us this holiday. Are you so busy?]


    Jian Kang Lu replied to her with short sentences.


    [Yes, I''m sorry. How are you, RenRen?]


    [I''m fine, Jian Ge. Visit us if you can spare your time.]


    [Yes, I will. Send my regard to your mom.]


    That message ends. Few days later she received money from him, said to be her ''holiday allowance''. She didn''t text Jian Kang Lu for money. And she was torn between using that money or throwing it back. But of course YingYing gives her the most logical answer.


    "You stupid girl. Money is money. Doesn''t matter if it was from your brother''s lover or ex-lover. She sends you the money means she still wants to be together with your brother. By the way, how could your brother get a rich girlfriend that was so in love with him? I never thought your brother could charm a girl at this level. My stupid brother was the one who always spend his money on his stupid girlfriend."


    Bai Yuren can''t say that the person is not a woman. So they just spend the money to eat until their heart content. Buy clothes, cosmetics, and comics. Just like any smart girls will do, they spend all the money.


    "Hey, if this person truly hurt your brother, why don''t we extort the money from her as payment for being a rude girl." YingYing even shamelessly advises her. Bai Yuren rejected that idea wholeheartedly.


    But looking at her stupid brother''s face that now back to smiling widely like he was the happiest person in the world, showing his blushing face like a maiden which Bai Yuren herself never did, she laughed inside her heart. Maybe she and YingYing could got their ''holiday allowance'' again from her brother''s stupid lover.


    Just like YingYing said, "If she was rich and didn''t hesitate to spend her money on your brother, it means she will not hesitate to give you also. She needs you to be on her side as her future sister in law, right?"


    If that man wants to kidnap her brother for this holiday, she could allow it. Her brother''s happiness is the most important thing. But of course, it will do no harm to test Jian Kang Lu more to decide whether he was the right person for her brother.


    Bai Yuren smirked, she knew exactly what she would text Jian Kang Lu tonight. She was sure she could sell her brother''s picture for a high price. It seems her holiday will be great this time.

 Chapter 128 - Your Dream

    Airport was always packed with people. Especially at this hour, when most of the airplanes safely land their passengers on B city''s soil. The afternoon summer sun glimmering pass through the glass windows, and the sound of shoes clacking against the floor echoing through this arrival''s gate.


    Some people who are also waiting for their beloved ones can''t help to turn their head looking at the handsome man standing leaning on the wall. This man''s hair was short revealing that smooth forehead, with his eyes glued to his mobile phone. It seems he was playing games. His green shirt rolled to his elbow, and his long legs leisurely propped in the wall.


    This man''s eyes sometimes look at the information board hung up above the gate. The board informs them which flight has landed. Some women can''t help but steal glances at this tall man. It was satisfying to see a handsome man while waiting in the airport.


    When finally this man''s eyes lit up, they were curious, who will this man pick up to brighten his face like that.. His wife? His child? Or his parents? When they finally saw the person who this man approached, they were quite confused. Does picking up your nephew could give you so much fun until your smile is widely stretched across your lips?


    Jian Kang Lu almost hugged his kitten and kissed his cute kitten right here at this moment when he saw his kitten walk out from the gate. He missed his kitten so much. It was only one week, but still it was so hard to spend his days alone without him.


    Jian Kang Lu clenched his fist and tried to control his emotion. He waved his hand, since his kitten''s eyes seemed wandering, looking for him.


    "TangTang!" Jian Kang Lu called his kitten.


    His kitten turns his head. Once their eyes met, his kitten smiled at him back, fastened his steps, almost running towards him. Jian Kang Lu felt his surroundings just blurred, immersed by his kitten''s presence. And he couldn''t believe it when his kitten approached him and hugged him first.


    He can''t help to smile, "TangTang, how''s your flight?" His hands raised and hugged his kitten back, ruffling the soft strands of his kitten''s hair.


    His kitten''s face felt so warm against his chest, and his voice muffled when he answered him. "It''s good, no turbulence at all."


    They walk hand in hand, approaching Jian Kang Lu''s car in the parking lot.


    "How''s RenRen? And your mother?" Jian Kang Lu already saw his kitten''s baggage multiplied from one small baggage into two baggage. It seems his other baggage contains the food and other things.


    "They send their regards. Gege already saw this extra baggage. Mom insists I have to bring all of this for you."


    "You don''t want to invite them again for this summer''s vacation here?" Jian Kang Lu felt a little bit guilty kidnapping his kitten for this holiday. It''s true he didn''t ask for it since it was his kitten''s own decision to work on his project earlier, so he stayed here in B city for his long summer vacation. But it was also true that his kitten''s decision made him so happy.


    His kitten shook his head, "No. My mom didn''t want to burden Auntie Lau if she took leave. And I already offered RenRen, but she said she wants to play with YingYing this whole summer. It actually bothered me when she said they wanna go to the lake and YingYing will pay for the whole trip."


    Jian Kang Lu only soothes his kitten, "It''s okay. Girls need to have vacation on their own. And if RenRen''s friend didn''t mind, that''s fine."


    Jian Kang Lu can''t tell his kitten that he was the one that sponsored those girl''s trip in exchange for Bai Yutang''s pictures. He senses that Bai Yuren might know that Jian Kang Lu has a relationship with her brother.


    If she didn''t know, she wouldn''t be texting Jian Kang Lu offering Bai Yutang''s daily picture. And Jian Kang Lu didn''t mind giving what Bai Yuren asked in exchange. He was very satisfied with Bai Yuren sending him almost 50 candid pictures per day.


    On the other hand, he was glad if Bai Yuren showed her support to him. It means one obstacle is safely passed for him to openly court Bai Yutang in the future. Thus he even said to Bai Yuren that he will give her monthly allowance too.


    They have their dinner first in the Y restaurant. This restaurant offered seven private dining chambers and a tea bar attended to by a tea master as a complement to a delicious dinner. This restaurant is located in one of the best hotels in B city. They offer delectable Chinese cuisine, and their dimsum is delicate.


    Jian Kang Lu is so happy to see his kitten''s eyes widened, "Gege, I want to order Boston''s lobster! It reminds me when we''re there."


    How could Jian Kang Lu forget that. That city gives him so many wonderful moments and memories. The place where he kissed his kitten for the first time. It aches him to remember that they haven''t got any vacation together again since then.


    His kitten continued to order, and suddenly he said, "Ah, it reminded me. Tang Yuxuan, Liu Xiang, and Yu Dong invite us to go together to the beach next month. We haven''t had real vacation together these past few years."


    Jian Kang Lu nodded his head, "That sounds fine. I can clear my schedule. Just tell me when. But maybe I could only take three days leave."


    "Okay, i''ll tell them and let''s see which days could accommodate all of us."


    Tomorrow is Monday, thus Jian Kang Lu can''t eat his kitten to his heart''s content. They just passionately roll in the bed after bathing together for one hour. How he loved his kitten''s flushing face after he reached his climax. His kitten''s breath is still heavy and panting under him. He knew he was a bit cruel to tease his kitten, and didn''t allow his kitten to cum until his kitten begged him.


    He stroked his kitten''s chest, filled with his mark everywhere. Sometimes he can''t control his lust and just suck his kitten everywhere, even though he manages to avoid marking his kitten in exposed places. His kitten slowly stroked his shoulder too.


    "I''m sorry gege for biting you again. Is it hurt?" His kitten''s voice was a little bit hoarse after their sensual entanglement.


    Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s lips. "You know I love your teeth marks there." He can''t help to tease his kitten. More than once his kitten complained that he only can leave teeth marks in Jian Kang Lu''s body since he can''t make a proper love mark.


    "Let me clean your body, TangTang. Let''s sleep naked, can we? I want to hug you naked."


    Jian Kang Lu''s smile rose when he saw his kitten''s face blushing even more and just nodded his head shyly. His kitten used to reject him sleeping naked, except when his kitten knocked out from cumming again and again. But lately his kitten gracefully granted his request every time he wanted to embrace his kitten''s bare skin.


    Jian Kang Lu knows his kitten is tired, so after he cleans his kitten''s body he just lays beside his kitten and hugs him tight. His kitten often laid his back against Jian Kang Lu''s chest, avoiding him to suffocate under this summer''s night.


    This is one of his favorite moments, hugging his kitten''s tiny waist, stroking his kitten''s delicate hand. He could feel his kitten''s fingers running through his arms, soothe him, assure him, loved him.


    Jian Kang Lu could sense his kitten''s thoughts wandering. "What are you thinking, baby? Not sleepy yet? Want me to make you sleepy?"


    His kitten chuckled, "I know what you''ll do to knock me out, gege. Don''t be naughty, you need to wake up early tomorrow. I''m just thinking about my project."


    Jian Kang Lu bite his kitten''s ear lobe lightly, nibbles it lightly, just to feel that soft meat under his mouth. "Is there something wrong with your project?"


    "Gege, I''ve done my research for the final project. But I still feel something is lacking. I want to build a hospital, because it was a place important for you. But yesterday I read the book Zhen Ge suggested to me, and maybe I approached it in a wrong way. I never asked you, what do you want to build if you''re an architect?"


    His kitten turned his head to face Jian Kang Lu, his finger softly touched Jian Kang Lu''s cheek. "Gege, what do you want to build the most if you have unlimited resources?"


    Jian Kang Lu stared at his kitten''s eyes. That warm phoenix eyes stared back at him, softly stroking his heart.


    "I always thought it was nice to build a retirement house. You know, it''s a place for the elderly lived. Just like an apartment, but with special facilities to cater their needs. I once visited the luxurious retirement house in Europe and America. It was very nice. Elderly have opportunities to have people attend them all the time. This country still put filial duty on top of everything. Sometimes people will accuse you of being an unfilial child if you put your parents there. But some of them are really nice, and also very expensive. If your parents or your relatives have chronic illness, like stroke or severe heart failure, or even Alzheimer and dementia, I think it''s the best to put them in a retirement house if you can''t take care of them 24/7. Especially if you also have children."


    Bai Yutang listened patiently to his lover. This is what bothered his mind last night. He wants to make his final project as a special token for both of them. He chose the hospital because he thought that was special for his lover. But based on the book he read last night, an architect was not building something based on their own assumption. They build something to shape their client''s dreams into reality.


    In his case, his lover has to be the client. When he chose the hospital, it was based on his own assumption, he didn''t ask Jian Kang Lu. It turns out to be true, his lover didn''t want to build a hospital.


    "Why retirement house, gege?" He softly asked, and stroked his lover''s chin. His lover kissed his forehead, snuggled there when he answered in a low voice.


    "I always thought I''d spend my life alone before i met you. I can''t let my brother or my nephew take care of me when the times I can''t take care of myself come. I don''t want to be a burden. I prefer to stay in a retirement house rather than letting them take care of me. And I also saw many elderly abandoned because their child was too busy working, taking care of their own children. It hurts me when my patients hospitalised just because they were too late to be brought to the hospital."


    Bai Yutang was stunned to hear his lover''s answer. He tightened his arms around his lover''s body. Infuse his warmth to those bare skin under his arms, embrace his lover whole. "You have me now, gege. I''ll take care of you when that time comes."


    Jian Kang Lu closed his eyes. His kitten''s love is a quiet emotion that in time becomes part of the air he needs to breathe. Those eyes that filled with the bright stars just like a door to his soul, touched him with gentle waves. Immune and oblivious to darkness.


    A deep gratitude, reborn in its most perfect form. For his kitten''s words seems to be a pledge of eternity they will spend in living. Together in mind, body, and soul.

 Chapter 129 - Baby Chick

    "Woah, look at the ocean!" Yu Dong''s voice can''t cover his excitement. The ocean covered in blue, sparkling beneath the sun. The sky was clear, with white fluffy clouds hanging like fluffy cotton candy waited to be picked. They could smell the salt breeze when Yu Dong opened the door to the balcony.


    Bai Yutang himself can''t hold his own enthusiasm even when he was still on the plane. When he suggested his lover go to the beach for this holiday with his friends, he didn''t mean to ask his lover to cover for their hotel expenses. Four of them planned to stay in some cheap BnB hotel since the travel cost itself was already expensive for them.


    But he didn''t even have any chance to say his opinion to his lover, since his lover directly arranged the room for them. Once he heard which hotel his lover booked for them, he searched it immediately on his mobile phone. He knows that this hotel is expensive, but worth every penny.


    He remembers what his lover said when he protested Jian Kang Lu for making the reservation. "It''s our holiday too.. Can''t I spend my holiday with my baby in some nice places?"


    The four hour flight from B city to this beach didn''t even exhaust them, since they''re so excited for their holiday. More over for his friends who just released from hellish schedules and hectic life from their final year and graduation.


    Liu Xian hugged Bai Yutang from behind, "This wife loves you so much. Thank you for having a rich boyfriend who pampered us too."


    Bai Yutang laughed and tried to get rid of Liu Xiang''s head rubbing his shoulder. Tang Yuxuan was still on the door dragging his big luggage and frowned to see both of them cuddling.


    "Be careful Xiang. Daddy will take your photograph molesting TangTang and send it to Jian Ge if you still don''t want to get rid of your luggage." Tang Yuxuan almost kicked Liu Xiang''s luggage which he abandoned in the hallway.


    Yu Dong was busy taking pictures with his mobile phone, admiring the scenery from the balcony. Their room was a twin bed room with an ocean view which they could admire from the balcony. The room is designed with walls facing the ocean made with all glass windows. There are big sofas on the balcony for them to enjoy the scenery to the fullest.


    "Jian Ge will come tomorrow? We don''t need to pick him up in the airport?" Yu Dong asked Bai Yutang.


    "DongDong! Unpack your luggage first, or i''ll kick your luggage out from here!" Tang Yuxuan angrily shouting from the closet.


    Bai Yutang didn''t unpack all his luggage, since he''ll move to his lover''s room tomorrow. He opened his luggage just to take some clothes out. "Yes, gege said we don''t need to pick him up. The hotel will pick him up. He''ll arrive at night I guess, and we''ll have dinner together once he arrived."


    At first, his lover wanted to book two rooms for all of them, but Yu Dong protested it. "One room is enough for all of us. We''ll spend most of our time together, why need to spend more money? Don''t tell me Jian Ge will get jealous if i sleep with you in one bed." Thus for today, four of them will spend the night here together.


    "Let''s just go down, we can unpack all of these later." Liu Xiang rambled while he fought with Liu Xiang to put his clothes in the closet.


    Yu Dong excitedly agreed. "I''m hungry too. Let''s just eat downstairs, I saw their outdoor bar and lounge on the internet and it was amazing!"


    Bai Yutang had to agree with Yu Dong. Four of them are architects, it was truly a feast to their senses to see beautiful buildings with magnificent beaches spread before them like this. They go down to the 13th floor, where the stellar poolside bar is one of the coolest perches on this island. There are panoramic sea views, sunken lounge, and a spectacular 360-foot-long infinity pool.


    Yu Dong can''t stop taking pictures, forget about his hunger. Bai Yutang can''t help but smile to see his friend''s excitement and order snacks for them. His lover already told him to treat his friends. He was once reluctant to spend his lover''s money, but now he is learning to do that. This is one of his lover''s ways to show his friends that he was a person that loved Bai Yutang, and take care of him.


    For Bai Yutang himself, he wants to clear all misunderstandings between his friends and his lover. He was glad his lover never spoke anything against Tang Yuxuan, and Tang Yuxuan also tried his best not to act awkward toward them. He knows it was not easy for both of them.


    "TangTang, is it okay to order many things?" Liu Xiang nudged him. He felt uneasy to see how expensive all these food costs in this hotel.


    Bai Yutang grinned, "It''s okay. My boyfriend is rich."


    Liu Xiang laughed, that is one statement he can''t refute. He was glad to see Bai Yutang come back to his lively personality once he made up with Jian Kang Lu. He can''t deny that he was surprised and uneasy when he first heard from Bai Yutang that he had a romantic relationship with Jian Kang Lu. He had his own suspicion, but still it was not easy to learn that your best friend for five years having a same sex relationship.


    But that uneasiness only lasted short, for he didn''t see any differences. And the most important thing is that his friend seems happy. He could see Bai Yutang''s effort to show them that Jian Kang Lu treated him very well.


    "Is it true that this hotel is owned by Jian Ge''s friend?" Yu Dong sat beside Bai Yutang once their food arrived.


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "Not owned, but Wang Ge is one of the major shareholders here."


    Bai Yutang himself can''t remember clearly which one is Wang Xian Jian. He didn''t come to every party Jian Kang Lu invited. Most of them are rich and powerful people. His lover told him that they met Wang Xian Jian last month at one of the weddings they were invited to. Usually when he attends those parties with Jian Kang Lu, he tries his best to stay low profile.


    But since Bai Yutang got back together with Jian Kang Lu, he swallows his inferiority and stands as proud as he can beside his lover. He knows his lover proudly showing him to his friends and like when Bai Yutang holds his hands all the time.


    Four of them go back to the room to take shower, and rest for a little bit before going down again and enjoying the sunset on the beach. The warm wind on this tropical island blew his hair. The sun set in the sky as fresh colours brushed upon God''s canvas, as if those rays were destined to capture simple moments in the soul.


    He smiled while looking at his lover''s message. It was a reply to his message, a selfie of him with the warm orange sunset in the background.


    [I can''t wait to see the sunset tomorrow with you. But I think you look more dazzling compared to the beautiful sunset behind you.]


    His lover could be very cheesy sometimes. But he likes it.


    "So, what are you planning after this?" Bai Yutang asked Tang Yuxuan. Both of them sit on the bench while looking at Liu Xiang who is busy taking pictures in acrobatic position.


    Tang Yuxuan''s eyes glued to the horizon, admiring the blurred golden line between the sea and sky. "I was planning to look for a job in B city. You know, for two years experience before we applied for the license."


    Bai Yutang knows that Tang Yuxuan still wants to be in B city because Feng Mian hasn''t finished her final project. In actuality, only half of his class could graduate on time like Tang Yuxuan. Feng Mian herself decided to take another semester since she needed to retake some classes.


    Yu Dong came to them, sitting leisurely with one of his hands texting his girlfriend. "Wish Xiaoya could join us. Maybe next year i''ll come back here with her after her graduation."


    Bai Yutang asked Tang Yuxuan again, "Where do you want to apply?"


    Tang Yuxuan shrugged his shoulders, "Anywhere, I guess. Fresh graduates can''t be picky. But I want to apply at least for the middle class firm, like F concept or Aegis."


    "And you, DongDong?" Bai Yutang asked Yu Dong.


    "I don''t know. What do you guys think?" Yu Dong himself still has no idea where he wants to work. All of them know that Liu Xiang wants to apply in Zhen Guo''s firm. He himself still didn''t know whether he''ll go back to his hometown or search for a job in B city.


    "I guess you should discuss this with Xiaoya. Why don''t you search for a job here, Xiaoya also still needs one or one and half years to graduate." Bai Yutang gave his honest opinion.


    Yu Dong''s eyes squinted, "Yeah, Xiaoya also told us better for us to search for a job here first before settling down after we got our license."


    Liu Xiang ran towards them, and snatched the beer from Tang Yuxuan''s hand. "Are you planning to marry Xiaoya after she graduates or after you get your license?"


    Yu Dong smiled, "I think after i got my license. I also need to save for the wedding."


    Tang Yuxuan snatched the beed back, "Woah, look at this henpecked husband. Daddy pray that Xiaoya still wants to accept your proposal when the time comes."


    "Look at yourself. Are you serious with MianMian?" Liu Xiang waved his hand to order more beer. Sunset and beer are the best pair to enjoy your holiday.


    Tang Yuxuan himself didn''t know how to answer. He is always serious when having relationships. But marriage still feels faraway, for him it was not his priority right now. Getting a job and his license is his first priority.


    "I don''t know. I guess marriage is not my priority right now, but I''m serious with MianMian. You know i never took my relationship as a joke"


    Three of them are baby chick who are just hatching. The future is full of uncertainty, and lots of responsibility comes when you become an adult. Bai Yutang himself feels lucky that he only needs to think about his final project, and how he wants to revise his whole project.


    "How about you, TangTang? Once you graduate, are you staying in B city?" Yu Dong asked him.


    Bai Yutang smiled, he knows none of his friends will ever ask him about marriage like a normal young man his age. "Yes, i decided to stay there."


    Bai Yutang knows he can''t ask his lover to move with him back to W city. And he was sure neither he or his lover could live separately. His future might seem vague if they talk about jobs, but one thing he knows for sure is that he wants to live the rest of his life with his lover. Never separated again.

 Chapter 130 - The Things He Want To Buy

    Bai Yutang has been circling in this shopping mall for three hours and he still can''t muster his courage to get his hands on the things he strives to buy. That thing was clearly hanging in the drug store and in the supermarket. Dangling, waiting for people to buy it.


    Those things were displayed openly, and people also looked at it as if those things were just a common thing. Nothing special. He also used to think like that, no shame or embarrassment whatsoever when he saw it for thousands of times. It was a common item.


    But now when he truly wants to buy it, he can''t help but feel the shame rushing in his veins. He can''t help to imagine what kind of faces the cashier will make when they register the items. He already planned to buy many things and just slipped those things among many that he will buy. That''s the plan, but he can''t execute it.


    Bai Yutang finally just went inside a coffee shop and tried to calm himself with a good cup of coffee.. He liked the coffee here, and it seems today this coffee shop used a different mixed of beans. The earthy aroma of brown black coffee stimulated his nerves through his nostrils, and it calmed him a little bit.


    His mind wander to the conversation he and his friends had on their holiday. It was the night before his lover came. After they had their dinner at the restaurant downstairs, they went to the lounge and relaxed themselves under the summer wind, inhaling the salty air from the ocean, bathe themselves under the moonlight.


    They talk about many things. Their upcoming job hunting, lamenting the torture from their final project, sharing about their family expectation, revealing their hopes and dreams. They drank, and when they got tipsy they moved back to their room. They order for some more alcohol after they spent the alcohol inside their room.


    "Your boyfriend is rich, he won''t even blink to see our bill later on." Liu Xiang shamelessly hugged Bai Yutang''s shoulder when Bai Yutang said they have to pay for this alcoholic bill on their own.


    "No, let''s settle this bill now. I won''t let gege pay for this unreasonable alcohol habit of yours."


    Bai Yutang was tipsy, but he still asked for Yu Dong and Tang Yuxuan for the money before their beers and whisky came. Yu Dong and Tang Yuxuan guard their wallet like guarding their lowly life. He didn''t notice Liu Xiang making a phone call before he heard his voice.


    "Jian Geeee¡­ We want to order alcohol, but your stingy boyfriend said we had to pay by ourselves. I remember you promised that you will treat us on this holidaaay¡­"


    Bai Yutang startled to hear Liu Xiang''s slurred speech. He hurriedly wanted to grab the phone in Liu Xiang''s hand. But Liu Xiang dodged and turned the phone into speaker mode. He could hear his lover''s amusing voice from it.


    "I am. Just order it, no need to pay. I''ll settle the bill when we check out. Just remember you promised me to take care of my boyfriend, and did not let any flies come near him."


    Bai Yutang could feel his face heated when he heard those maniacal laughs his friends tried to suppress. Their faces were red with their hands on their mouth, trying to make no sound for Jian Kang Lu to hear. What on earth they promised his lover, and why he felt that they sold him to Jian Kang Lu.


    "Thank you, Jian Geee¡­ We will. Don''t worry, not even a single mosquito or ant will approach him when he was with us."


    Bai Yutang sure his face was now as red as a monkey''s butt when he heard Jian Kang Lu''s voice from the phone.


    "Yes, my TangTang is too handsome. Just make sure no bugs will get near him while you''re having fun there. I''ll treat you guys for dinner tomorrow."


    What the hell. What on earth they talked about behind his back. He could hear the maniacal laugh from three of them released like thunder when Liu Xiang ended his call.


    "Ahahaha.. Ah.. Ah.. Did you hear it for yourself? Your boyfriend is the one who wants to pay for it. So don''t try to rob our money. We''re poor unemployed boys that still have to save our money for the apartment''s rent and food before we get any job." Liu Xiang wiped his tears that formed on his eyes because he laughed too much.


    "Seriously TangTang, I think I need to learn from you. How on earth you could make Jian Ge fall for you to this degree." Yu Dong said those words after he drank a glass of water. He was choked from his own laughter before.


    Tang Yuxuan didn''t say anything, but his laugh was the loudest of them all. Bai Yutang really wants to hit all of them.


    "What on earth are you guys talking behind my back? Why do you threaten Jian Ge like that?" Bai Yutang''s voice turned into a dangerous high pitch, but his friends didn''t seem to get that he was mad.


    Three of them laugh even louder until they are rolling on their bed. "What threat? It was Jian Ge himself that told us to take care of you, and offer to treat us for the whole holiday. Ahahaha.."


    Yu Dong was still laughing when he said after Liu Xiang, "Ah.. Ahahaha.. You don''t know how I tried to calm my face in front of my parents when I saw his message. Jian Ge surely has a weird taste. I promised him and only joked when I said that, but he replied that you''re so cute that many people will try to snatch you away from him if he didn''t guard you well. Ah.. Ahaha.."


    Tang Yuxuan''s turn choked now after he laughed like crazy, he also drank a glass of water before he said, "You''re my brother, but I still can''t understand Jian Ge''s taste. It makes me apologise to him again after I saw his message. Ah, I still feel so guilty to him. He really adores you, TangTang."


    The bell door was ringing, a sign that their order was delivered. Bai Yutang can''t refute their words, especially after Liu Xiang patted his shoulders before he opened the door. "Just let Jian Ge pamper us. It''s his way to let us know that he loves you so much."


    And like that, they slipped their way to order some more food. After laughing so much that night, they were hungry again. And somehow their talk was diverted from the latest anime, donghua, games, and comics they missed because of their busy schedule, into a conversation every man will have when they hang out and drunk together.


    It was Liu Xiang who started it. "DongDong, just spill it. I know that you kissed Xiaoya many times. Have you done it?"


    Yu Dong''s face was red from the alcohol, "Just the first base. We don''t have a chance to do second base even if we want to. I don''t want to bring Xiaoya into a hotel just because i want it. I want to wait for her graduate."


    "Wow, daddy can''t believe DongDong is a beast under that innocence''s face." Tang Yuxuan poured another glass of whisky mixed with his coke. He sipped it lightly.


    "This young master believes that you have much more experience than me." Yu Dong threw the pillow at Tang Yuxuan.


    "It''s so hard to control myself given the fact that my MianMian was so pretty. But unfortunately just like you said, it''s hard to find the chance. My nasty roommate won''t leave us alone."


    Liu Xiang hit Tang Yuxuan on his back. It was surely painful given the loud smack echoed in their room. "It was already sour to see you guys openly hugging and kissing in front of me, don''t you pity this wife being single among all of you lovers birds. I can only hug my pillow."


    Yu Dong was nudging Bai Yutang''s waist when he teased him, "We all were nothing compared to this one. Spill it out TangTang, how many times per week you did it with Jian Ge?"


    Bai Yutang was also tipsy. In normal circumstances he won''t let his mouth uncover their bed activity. But somehow tonight he can''t control his own words. "We did it three or four times a week."


    "Wow, look at this master. So when did you and Jian Ge did it for the first time? I should note it for my reference if later i have chance to do it with MianMian." Tang Yuxuan''s elbow landed on Bai Yutang''s shoulder.


    Yu Dong also tickled Bai Yutang who refused to answer it, "True, I want to make it special with Xiaoya. I can''t ask Jian Ge about this, so just spill it out for me."


    Bai Yutang tried to dodge them all, "Why don''t you wait until your wedding day if you guys want to make it special?"


    Three of them were silenced for a few seconds before they were bursting in laughter. Tang Yuxuan even almost stumbled from the bed. "You yourself didn''t wait, how could you expect us as healthy men to reserve ourselves until married?"


    Yu Dong wiped his tears, "Ahhaha.. If it were up to me, i''ll marry Xiaoya now. But still have many things to do and save before it. And look at yourself, the one who did it four times a week."


    "Me and Jian Ge did it many times, but only first base." Bai Yutang stuttered.


    Now the three of them really showed their foolish faces and stared at him with a weird look. Liu Xiang drank all the whisky on his glass before he said, "I think I misheard you. Only first base? Didn''t you live together? Sleep in the same bed? Don''t tell me you live in a separate room for this whole time."


    "We sleep together, but we never go to second base." Bai Yutang''s voice was low and he couldn''t help to let the embarrassment wash all over him.


    Tang Yuxuan also drank the whole whisky coke he had on his glass. "This makes me want to apologise once again to Jian Ge. Woah, i admire him so much. How could he manage to handle it? Sleeping together with you all these times but never goes into the second base."


    Yu Dong was already drunk, so he just sipped his water. "I''m sure I can''t hold myself if I live together with Xiaoya, and sleep with her everyday."


    Liu Xiang almost choked from his laugh, "Don''t tell me you didn''t want to go for second base because you wait until both of you got married. I can''t believe you guard your chastity even tighter than the whole maiden out there."


    Just like that, three of them teased him until they collapsed and awoke the next day with a headache. When his lover came and they spent their steamy time together that night, Bai Yutang knew exactly what his friend''s meant. He himself also wants to go for their second base. But he knows why Jian Kang Lu never does that.


    He knows exactly that his lover is waiting for his permission to do it. His gentle lover may take his time to pleasure both of them every time they do it, and he also knows that his lover sometimes shows the gesture that he wants to go to their second base badly.


    How could he not know it when his lover''s hard member pokes his hole every time they do it. But his lover always manages to calm himself and only use Bai Yutang''s hand, mouth, or thighs to please him.


    They have been together for one and half years. And after their drunk conversation that night, Bai Yutang can''t get rid of his friend''s words. He knew that his lover truly had magnificent self control, patiently waiting for him.


    That''s what led him to go to the shopping mall alone today. He wanted to buy something, to show his lover that he was ready for second base. Today is August 15th, their anniversary day. And today, he will give his lover those things for their anniversary gift. He only needed courage to grab those things, which he didn''t imagine to be this difficult.


    Bai Yutang tried to calm himself, and looked at his phone. His lover''s texting to let him know that today his lovers will finish his practice faster since they will have their dinner outside to celebrate. He smiled to see his lover''s profile picture. It was a kidney shaped keychain, modified to look like a heart. Bai Yutang gifted that for their last month''s anniversary. Bai Yutang designed it himself, and printed it on his 3D printer.


    After Bai Yutang finished his coffee, he bravely walked to the supermarket, bought their daily needs, and steeled his heart to walk over the shelves displaying the things he wanted to buy. He tried to maintain his face and calm his heart when he finally grab them and put it inside his cart.


    No matter what, he wants to go to their second base tonight. He knew his face was red when the cashier registered those things. He could only calm himself by imagining his lover''s face when he received these things as his anniversary gift. He hoped his lover would be happy to receive it.

 Chapter 131 - The Unfamiliar Nakedness (NSFW)

    Jian Kang Lu can''t help smiling all the way when he drives to the restaurant. He wanted to pick his kitten up, but his kitten refused and told him they should meet at the restaurant to save time.


    His lips curved even wider when he saw his kitten already sit in the corner, sipped his water. He looked so handsome today with his hair combed to the left, let the flickering city lights from the window outside shone over his face. His kitten wears a light blue T-shirt with black sleek suit casually worn on top of it. He knew it was the one that he bought for his kitten last month before their beach trip.


    His kitten''s thin figure with his white jade face makes him look like a fairy descended from the sky, blessing him with his appearance. When Jian Kang Lu looks at his kitten''s gentle expression, it always makes his heart throbbing. Itches from the feathers tickle it lightly. Slowly burn him inside.


    How he wants to land his lips on that smooth cheek right now. Jian Kang Lu just took several seconds to appreciate this fairy who sat obediently there, waiting for him.. He was dragged back to reality when the waitress called him for the second time and showed him the way to their seat, to his kitten.


    "Did you wait for long, TangTang?"


    His kitten turned his head and gracefully smiled at him. That pure gentle smile is always bewitching. Sent him to his happy world, showering him with a rainbow painted on his sky every time he saw it. The smile that comes from his kitten''s heart. Curved lightly, with his warm phoenix eyes trapped him with the purity.


    "I just came, gege. I haven''t ordered anything, let''s choose together."


    Jian Kang Lu gave his kitten the box he held when the waitress walked away from them to process their order.


    "Happy anniversary, baby. Thank you for being with me."


    Jian Kang Lu is content with his kitten''s smile when he opens his gift. It''s a 3D puzzle. Both of them have similar hobbies. Last month he gave Bai Yutang a new game console since his kitten might be bored to spend his days in the apartment. It was his kitten''s request to give him something both of them could use together after he gave his kitten the latest handphone released this year. As a man who loves gadgets, Jian Kang Lu always uses the latest handphone, and he wants his kitten to have the best.


    They spent the dinner well. When they reach home, his kitten holds his hands before they take off their shoes. His voice is soft, with the tip of his cute ears turning red. Why his kitten was always shy even though they''ve been together for this long?


    "I also have a gift for you, gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu loves the gifts his kitten presents him. Most of it was simple things, but sometimes his kitten gave him unique things. Things that were created solely for him, only one kind in this world. It makes him feel so special. No one ever gave him things like this before. Jian Kang Lu felt that he envied all those artists who could create this for their beloved ones, since Jian Kang Lu himself couldn''t make it.


    "Really, where is my gift?"


    They took off their shoes and Jian Kang Lu let his kitten drag him to their bedroom.


    "I''ll give you the gift after I bathe you, gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t know how his kitten could maintain that pure gentle face while saying those devastating seductive words. They showered together, but his kitten refused his touch. This is the first time his kitten refuses his fingers stroke his kitten''s half hard member down there when they bathe together.


    Jian Kang Lu himself tried to do calculation on his mind to calm the beast struggling inside. He knew they just did it last night, but he badly wanted to touch his kitten badly today. Right from when he saw his kitten''s handsome face tonight on their dinner. He just wants to devour that small lips, with the pale pink tinted all over that soft petal. The soft lips that melted under his own, and the soft pink muscle inside who aroused him with that small movement under his wet saliva.


    His kitten dried their hair and still refused Jian Kang Lu''s hand to grope him all over. Jian Kang Lu started questioning himself whether his kitten has side job projects, or did he do something wrong today.


    "Stop it, gege.. I''ll let you touch me later."


    Jian Kang Lu relieved, and obediently sat down to let his kitten ruffling his hair. Feel the warm air from the hairdryer vaporising the water on his hair. Once both of their hair dried properly, his kitten walked through the closet and gave him the dark blue box.


    "This is my anniversary gift for you, gege. I hope you like it."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, and opened the box. He was hoping for some handmade things like his kitten gifted last month. And after that, he could kiss his kitten and they could spend some steamy night. His beast inside was already jumping wild, can''t wait to eat his kitten.


    But when he saw the things laid inside the box, his brain freezed. He couldn''t ever hear the sound of the box''s cover fall from hand, landed on their bedroom''s floor. Does his eyes trick him from the desires he tried to suppress this whole time?


    He can''t think, and just stare at the two things laid there. Is it real? Not his imagination again? He only dragged back to reality when his kitten''s encircling his neck with his slender hands.


    "Happy anniversary, gege¡­ Do you like my gift?"


    Jian Kang Lu felt his cheek burn when his kitten landed his lips on it. His ears already burned from his kitten''s words before. From his warm breath, tickling his ear, sending the desire to wrap him whole.


    "Do you know what is this, TangTang?"


    Jian Kang Lu could only say those vague words. He wanted to ask his kitten whether he was sure he could do it? He wanted to ask his kitten whether he could eat him whole like he dreamed of? He want to ask his kitten whether he know that if his kitten just gift these things to rubbed themselves together but didn''t let him to have him whole, means a very hard torture for him. He didn''t think he could hold himself today once he touched those things inside the box.


    His kitten kissed his lips softly. "I know, gege. I want to do it with you.. I want you, inside me..." Those words were spoken so soft, low, almost unheard. But it was more than enough to arouse Jian Kang Lu to the highest level.


    Jian Kang Lu''s beast inside was crushing the cage which trapped him, running wild once his kitten said those words. He really doesn''t care the consequences if later turn out that this is not what his kitten means.


    He grabbed the lube and condoms inside the box, put it in the bed and threw the box. Those things laid on their bed, and Jian Kang Lu abruptly standing, held his kitten tight and ate his kitten''s soft lips that cruelly bewitched him. It''s his kitten''s fault, to seduce him like this.


    He didn''t even kiss his kitten gently. He straightly prying inside that damped mouth to search for his kitten warm tongue inside. Suck it, and play it with his own tongue. His kitten seemed a little surprised, but immediately ceased his resistance and instead sucked on the tip of the invading tongue. That pink muscle inside welcoming his dance. Jian Kang Lu placed his hands behind his kitten''s head, pushing him to accept him whole.


    The kiss went wild, as if they were on a race. Jian Kang Lu didn''t let his kitten think or breathe. His kitten tried to gasp some air, but Jian Kang Lu didn''t let him. He wants to hear his kitten''s moans under his lips, release his hot breath while he nibble those naughty lips. To feel that soft texture under his lips, the wetness inside. Jian Kang Lu''s tongue didn''t even leave his kitten''s tongue, just keep rubbing it, teasing it from light touch to the fiery swirl inside it.


    Jian Kang Lu''s palms kneaded his kitten''s slightly uplifted chest muscles, rubbing back and forth. Due to the stimulation, his kitten''s nipples could not help but stand up, and it also triggered his body into a shiver.


    Bai Yutang''s mind already muddled from his lover''s touch, as always. He decided that his body was not the only body that would be handled, so he reached his hand up to his lover''s chest. He always felt that from the chest to the abdomen, Jian Kang Lu''s muscles felt very good. They were smooth and firm, unlike his own body.


    He slowly followed the lines of muscle further down until he heard Jian Kang Lu make a gasping sound. He knew that he had almost touched his lover''s member down there, and he could not help but be upset when his lover pressed his body toward him, preventing him from touching it.


    Jian Kang Lu held his kitten''s waist, then dragged him to their bed. He almost threw Bai Yutang there. He was standing, looking down at his naughty kitten''s swollen red lips, a result from his repetitive sucking and biting. His kitten''s pale chest moving up and down, and that pale pink buds revealed under his robe. Standing hard from Jian Kang Lu''s touch, as if inviting it to be bitten and sucked.


    Jian Kang Lu opened his kitten''s robe, letting his eyes feasting on his kitten''s naked body.


    "I don''t think i can control myself tonight, TangTang¡­ Don''t blame me."


    Bai Yutang was naked a thousand times before in front of Jian Kang Lu. He got used to it. But somehow today when he was lying here with his robe open wide to show his chest and his lower member to his lover, he felt something inside his body that felt different. The unfamiliar nakedness.


    His lover standing in front of him, watching his naked body like a hunter eyeing his prey. Strip him with his gaze, and Bai Yutang never felt this naked before. It''s like presenting the whole of your body and mind to this person in front of him.


    Bai Yutang felt shame, embarrassment. But at the same time, he also felt a desire burning inside. It was good to know this person he loved aroused with his naked body. It made him want to do more. To be touched all over, adored with pleasure.


    Bai Yutang has done his research, he knows what will happen to him today. He also knows what he read might be different with reality. From what he read, he needs to clean himself thoroughly before they do it, and loosened himself to avoid his muscles down there ripped from the first time intrusion.


    He was even ashamed from buying those things, so he couldn''t bring himself to let Jian Kan Lu prepare him nor clean himself down there. To clean it by himself somehow was not easy since this is his first time, but he think manage to do it properly. However, he doesn''t know how to prepare the muscle down there.


    So Bai Yutang just let Jian Kang Lu stripped him naked with his hungry gaze. He stares at his lover''s disheveled robe, a result from their wild kiss and rubbing his own body to his lover''s. His lover''s lower member was already standing hard, poking out from the robe.


    Bai Yutang touched it, felt the soft skin on his lover''s tip. Caress it slowly, and he felt his lover twitch under his touch. He closed his eyes when he opened his legs slowly. His heated face felt hot, a huge contrast to the cold wind from their air conditioner blowing the breeze to cooling down their room.


    "I''ve cleaned myself for you, gege¡­"

 Chapter 132 - Lustful Hole (NSFW)

    Jian Kang Lu staring at his kitten who laid docile in the bed, showing his naked smooth skin. His legs open wide, reveal his manhood and that pretty pink hole below. It''s such a heavenly view. He saw it several times before, but tonight it was totally captivating him. Make him crazy.


    He knew he had to take it slowly, so he won''t hurt his kitten. He never wants to hurt his kitten, and also he needs to make sure he pleased his kitten. Tonight is his opportunity to make his kitten feel good with penetration. He doesn''t want his kitten traumatised for the first time and later refuses to let him do it again.


    Jian Kang Lu stripped his robe from his body, letting him stand naked in front of his kitten. He leaned down slowly, let his lips touch his kitten''s lips softly. As if feathers brushing the petals. He could feel their naked skin rubbing each other, transmitting the warm temperature of their body to each other, burn their soul deeply..


    His right hand slowly searched for the lube he threw in the bed, laying next to his kitten. The lube is the common brand lube sold in the market. It was not the lube Jian Kang Lu usually used. But it was okay, as long as it served its purpose.


    He opened the cap with his fingers, while his lips and his tongue were busy dancing with his kitten''s. He could feel the warm breath of his kitten form a soft moan from his throat. He could also feel his kitten''s hard lower member rub his own, searching for his. It makes his blood rush down below, enlarging his own erection.


    Jian Kang Lu propped his body a little bit, creating the space between his kitten''s body and himself. He doesn''t want to be separated with his kitten, but he needs to pour the lube. He squeezed the lube to his kitten lower member, and he threw the lube next to his kitten. His right hand grabbed that slippery lube along with his kitten''s hard erection, and he rubbed it slowly.


    He could hear his kitten whimpering from between their kiss, and his kitten body instinctively moving under him. As if begging him to stroke it faster. But Jiang Kang Lu didn''t do it, he slowly moved his palm from his kitten''s shaft, down to his kitten''s balls. His fingers all slippery from the lube, and he slowly rubbed the pretty pink hole down there. He needed to make sure the lube was more than enough to lubricate.


    Bai Yutang knew what would happen, but still deep inside he felt a little bit comfortable with the idea that his small hole down there will receive a thing as big as his lover''s erection. Jian Kang Lu might not be a man with gigantic dick, but still it was above average. It was bigger than his own.


    His lover always knew how to muddle his mind with his kiss, or how he played with his hard erection down there. His lower member always craved his lover''s attention, and begged for more. Touched, rubbed, stroked. It was helping him to forget about his own fear of penetration.


    Today is the first time he experienced how it tastes if his member down there rubbed in lube. It feels good. The slippery feeling just softened his lover''s hand down there, gliding smoothly. Then he felt his lover''s finger rubbing his entrance erotically. Just rubbed it softly, and it was enough to make him flinched.


    The mixed feeling between anticipation and agitation is uncomfortable. Even with his lover''s gentle kiss, it still left him some overwhelming sensation. Bai Yutang could only cling his arms around his lover''s back. Try to find some comfort from it. He could feel his lover''s finger slowly rubbed the entrance until finally he felt his lover''s fingers slowly push inside.


    To be honest, because there was only half a finger inside, there was no feeling of pain, but there was a strong sense of discomfort. Bai Yutang''s body also seemed to resist such a violation of nature, and contracted in an attempt to expel his lover''s finger, but the other side''s attitude was quite persistent.


    His lover didn''t push all his finger inside, but slowly retracted to push another amount of lube outside his hole, rubbed it a little, before pushing inside again. The slippery feeling is foreign for him. Bai Yutang could only bite his lover''s lip slightly and scratch his lover''s back.


    Jian Kang Lu tried to move as slow as he could. He only uses one finger to explore the area, letting his kitten adapt to it. He almost lost his sanity to feel how warm and how tight his kitten down there. But because it was so tight, he knew that he needed to loosened the muscle more. Prevent the muscle from trauma.


    As a doctor, he knew exactly what his kitten would suffer if he didn''t take it slowly. Luckily, as a doctor, he also knew very well which spot he needed to search for his kitten to quickly adapt.


    He removed his lips from his kitten, and kissed his kitten''s neck. Lick it slowly before he bite it and sucks it properly. He needs to divert his kitten''s attention.


    "I love you, TangTang.. I love you so much.."


    He peeked at his kitten''s reaction and slowly bent his finger that was inside towards the front of his body. His palm remained in the area between the scrotum and the hole and and his thumb kneaded it in a circular manner.


    "Uhn..."


    His kitten can''t help but moan while his body shuddered like he had received an electric shock. Jian Kang Lu knew he touched the right spot. He took this opportunity to push in a second finger. At this time, his kitten''s discomfort was not as obvious as the last time.


    Bai Yutang never felt like this before. He didn''t know what his lover was doing down there, but the uncomfortable feeling slowly replaced with something that he could not describe. It felt like his body electrified from inside, sending all the signal to all his body. He could not even think. His lover''s fingers skilfully play inside his hole below, and repeatedly send the sparkling signal all over his body. Burning him whole.


    His lover moved his lips down to his nipple, and such it wildly. He knew when his lover sucked his nipple like this, it would get swollen the next day. But the sensation from it greatly enhanced the electric feeling from his lover''s fingers. His lover''s mouth didn''t stop there, but trailing down to his navel, and finally enveloping his hard erection down there with his warm mouth.


    "Ahh.. Nghh.. Gege.. Gege.. Stop.."


    To feel the tip of his sensitive member lick slowly, getting swallowed whole with that repetitive movement from his lover''s mouth, sending all his blood down there to his lower member. His erection throbbing hard, and the electric feeling from inside itched his body for reaching climax. Bai Yutang truly can''t handle it. He begged his lover to stop. He didn''t want to cum this fast, but he can''t help it.


    "Gege.. I''m cumming.."


    And his lover cruelly stopped immediately. He only played with his hole down there. Bai Yutang didn''t know that Jian Kang Lu was already inserting three fingers inside. While the two fingers tried to relax the muscle, the other one kept stroking Bai Yutang''s spot. Bai Yutang scratches his lover''s shoulder. The feeling of standing on the edge of ejaculation drives him crazy. He didn''t know which one he needed to beg, make him cum, or make him feel good longer.


    "Do you want me to make you cum, baby?"


    Jian Kang Lu whispering in a seductive tone. He almost can''t handle himself. To feel his kitten''s warm inner walls down there is really something much better than what he imagined. He could feel his kitten''s muscle contracted several times, massaging his fingers. Even just inserting his fingers already felt so good. His own erection was painful down there, eager to penetrate this lustful hole.


    "Nghh.. Ahh.. Gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu was kneeling above his kitten. Watching for every expression his kitten made. That knitted brow, that slightly opened lips, that heaving chest, that red ear, it was a feast to his eyes.


    He could hear his kitten''s small moans, and the wet sound from his finger''s movement inside his kitten''s warm hole. It was a melody to his ears.


    He felt his kitten''s warm temperature, and his inner walls, burning his skin. Sending him the erotic sensation from the tip of his fingers to all of his body. It was a silky sensation to his skin.


    And his kitten always smells good. Especially with him sweating under him, laid on the bed. Tickling his nose, makes him want to inhale more and more. Brand the scent to his brain, mark his heart.


    "Beg me, TangTang.. Like I beg for your love.."


    Bai Yutang constantly wants to cum. He felt like he almost burst but he could''t. The throbbing from his hard erection down there was too strong. He shed tears from the corner of his eyes. He can''t even think.


    "Please gege.. Make me cum.. Ngh.."


    Jian Kang Lu slowly releases his fingers. He grabbed a condom and tore open the package. He rubbed his eager dick a few times, and then finally put the condom on. He poured a generous amount of lube to his own dick.


    "Can I, TangTang?"


    His kitten''s face already changed from his angelic appearance to the face that will ignite lust. That phoenix''s eyes were slightly red, and his face was painted with pink blushed all over. He could see his kitten nodded his head with misty and blurred eyes.


    Jian Kang Lu pressed the head of his shaft against the entrance, lowered his body and slowly pushed himself in. Bai Yutang felt it was strange to have something rubbing inside of him. The ends of his fingertips jolted, while her body felt like it was sinking in. Jian Kang Lu continued to repeat his movement of pulling out and sliding in a little deeper, until his length seemed to be swallowed whole by Bai Yutang''s hole.


    "Ahh.. Nghh.. Gege.."


    Bai Yutang can''t even remember he used to think his first time would be painful. Yes, there is slight discomfort, and a little sting from his muscle down there forced to receive the size of his lover''s erection. But it was not painful at all. Gradually he felt good when his lover slowly moved. He could only scratch his lover''s chest, his toes curling from this shivering sensation.


    "Ugh, baby. You''re so tight¡­ It''s so good, but please.. Please relax a little.. I don''t want you to get hurt."


    Bai Yutang grabbed his lover''s neck, and kissed him wildly. He needs to divert this tremendous feeling so foreign for him. He grabbed his lover''s neck while crying from the overwhelming pleasure. His lover didn''t stop, slowly thrusting inside. It made him feel so good while fearful at the same time.


    When his lover increased the speed a little bit, Bai Yutang could feel his erection below rubbed by his lover''s abdomen. The tip of his sensitive part repeatedly stroked. His red world soon filled with that sparkle once more. And he could also feel his lover''s penis repeatedly stroke something inside his hole and it sent the sparks in his world bursting out.


    "Ahhh!!!"


    Bai Yutang never felt this good before. He couldn''t think, he couldn''t control his body. Jian Kang Lu didn''t even realise his kitten bit his shoulder hard. He almost cursed when his kitten''s body tensed below and his tight warm hole constricted even more, almost choked his member.


    Jian Kang Lu was surprised to feel the hot liquid sprayed from his kitten''s erection. Does his kitten cum just now? Now Jian Kang Lu was sure that his kitten was an incubus incarnate. He heard some men could cum from anal penetration, but he never experience it.


    Jian Kang Lu laughed, while looking at his kitten''s misty eyes. How he loved his kitten. Not only did his kitten give him his unconditional love, treat him so well, but also pleased him in a way he never even could imagine.


    "It''s your fault, baby. I''m sorry, I think I can''t control myself tonight. You just felt so good."

 Chapter 133 - The Joy Of Unity (NSFW)

    Jian Kang Lu abruptly straightened his upper body. He grabbed both of his kitten''s thighs, opening his kitten''s leg wide. He was trying hard to control his movement, slowly trying to make his kitten''s lustful hole accepting his member. But now after he saw his kitten cum just because he fuck him, he can''t control himself. He brings his hips moving forward at a steady speed. Penetrating inside and out, rubbing his penis to that twitching lustful hole.


    At the same time, Bai Yutang felt his body should be relaxed, constantly felt on the brink of climax even after ejaculation. It was distressing, but at the same time it felt sweet. As his body continued to swallow his lover''s penis, he noticed how much his body was enjoying this moment. When he heard his lover''s breath start to become raspy, his member throbbed hard again.


    Bai Yutang tried to focus his eyes, bringing back his sanity, looking at his lover''s face. His lover''s bare skin glistened from the sweat, emphasising his well toned muscles beyond sexy. His lover''s eyes grew even darker from his lust.. Bai Yutang felt so good, and even better once he knew that his lover also felt good because of him.


    Jian Kang Lu moved his body closer, panted roughly as if growling in his kitten''s ears. He was feeling the same as Bai Yutang, and it caused his body to burn up. His kitten''s body answered back to his, as his insides convulsed and squeezed again.


    His kitten''s insides squeezed him tightly, as if they didn''t want him to slip out. Jian Kang Lu clenched his teeth as he pounded into his kitten. Every time his kitten squeezed around him, he felt a wave of desire growing thicker. Jian Kang Lu felt he would also will cum soon. But he had to hold back, it wasn''t the right time. He wanted to thrust deeper. He wants to connect with his kitten longer. He doesn''t know whether his kitten will let him do this again in the future.


    Jian Kang Lu was not a virgin, and definitely not a saint. But even then, he had never lost his rationality. After all the sexual experience he had before, only his kitten had caused him to heat up so much like right now.


    "Ah! Gege! Wait¡­ Gege¡­"


    Bai Yutang was already cum, and now he felt as if someone had taken a hold of his brain and was massaging it. That distant and strange feeling was fearsome to him, so he scratched onto his lover''s chest with his two hands, trying to push his lover away, to make him slow his movement.


    Jian Kang Lu just takes a hold of his kitten''s naughty hands and pins him down while eagerly thrusting into him. Every time he thrust, a slippery wet sound resounded crazily. Their raspy breaths and his kitten''s moaning voice were alluring, constantly changing from small moans into deep panting. Trying to grasp some air with each of his thrust.


    Bai Yutang never imagined that a true sex will felt like this. To feel their body connected down there, it was a sensation on a whole different level compared to all the things they did before. In his mushy brain who can''t even think straight anymore, it slipped a little thought. An admiration to his lover who patiently waited for him. If he knew that this kind of sex was not as painful as he imagined, he will surrender his whole body to his lover from the first time they slept together.


    "Ngghhh.. Ahh.. Gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu propped his upper body straight again, and he took his kitten right legs, put it upon his shoulder. In this position, he could hit different spots on his kitten''s inner walls. With this position he forced his kitten''s lustful open wider, preventing it from choking his member over and over again.


    How on earth his kitten''s walls keep squeezing and twitching under him? Jian Kang Lu bite his kitten''s calf while looking at his kitten''s body swaying with each of his thrust. His kitten''s gaze was already in trance, unfocused.


    "Do you feel good, baby? Tell me if you hurt.."


    "It''s.. Ah.. Good.. Agh!!"


    Jian Kang Lu thrust deeper. He slows down his movement, but deepens the thrust. As if he wanted to pound and punish his kitten''s naughty hole who kept twitching. He hit the deep spot inside Bai Yutang.


    "You''re so tight, baby. Ugh, fuck! Don''t squeeze me, TangTang.. I might cum soon if you keep doing that."


    With each word, Jian Kang Lu pounces his kitten''s hard and deep. Doing his kitten from this position makes his kitten''s member swaying with each thrust. Jian Kang Lu keeps licking and biting his kitten''s smooth calf. His kitten''s arms wailing, trying to reach him.


    "Ahh.. Gege.. Wait.. Ahh.. Agh! I felt weird.."


    Jian Kang Lu pulled his member out, and looked at his kitten''s pink hole. It was still twitching, as if begging him to be fucked more. Jian Kang Lu laid beside his kitten, facing his kitten''s back. He pulled the lube and squeezed more of the lube to his erection which was still standing hard. He hugged his kitten from the back, and directed his proudly stood penis to his kitten''s twitching hole. He put it inside slowly before pouncing Bai Yutang like an animal in heat.


    "Ah.. Gege! I.. Ah.. I felt weird.."


    Bai Yutang is constantly electrified with his lover''s thrust. In this position where his lover pouncing him from the back, his lover''s tip directly hits the same spot over and over again. The spot responsible for sending those electric sparks to lighten his red world once again.


    "Did you feel like you want to cum again, baby?"


    Bai Yutang can''t help but let his tears slide from his eyes to his cheek. This was beyond his capability to describe what he felt right now. He could only moan again and again until his throat raspy from screaming over and over again every time his lover mercilessly hit the spot. He could only bite his lover''s arms over and over again to channel the overwhelming sensation."


    "Gege, ahh.. I''m cumming.."


    Bai Yutang didn''t even have a chance to think when Jian Kang Lu hand touched his erection and stroke it fast. Even with the sensation from behind he almost cum, and now with double sensation from his penis and his back, he felt a flood of euphoria rush down his body as he climaxed. It was mind-blowingly good.


    "Arghh!!!"


    Bai Yutang twisted while mewling. His pupils dilated and his mouth gaped open, and he couldn''t stop his voice from moaning. His hands were grabbing Jian Kang Lu''s hand and neck behind him tight. The feeling was indescribable. It was as if his brain and lower half of his body melted into one being and let out a flood of sensual sweetness.


    Bai Yutang was out of breath and his body trembled. He felt fear like he was falling into some place, but at the same time, he felt like his body was bursting with the fireworks in his world. He wanted to escape, but at the same time, he didn''t want the feeling within his body to leave him.


    And the whole time, Jian Kang Lu kept pouncing his kitten harder, and faster. This is his limit. No man could handle to prevent his ejaculation if being squeezed by this sweet lustful hole of his kitten. His kitten might be an angel, but his body was surely lewd and dragged him between heaven and hell. He never felt this good before.


    Jian Kang Lu kept thrusting harder before he reached his climax.


    "TangTang.. It feels so good, TangTang.. Ugh!"


    It was as if a strong wave of euphoria had passed through his entire body. He relaxed his grip on his kitten''s body, and he had his head dug into his kitten''s neck while breathing roughly.


    "I love you, TangTang.."


    Jian Kang Lu thought he was going to die. His kitten''s insides squeezed and sucked him in such a way he could only gasp. Up until now, he had never had a moment where he didn''t have control over his own body like that.


    It was like his kitten''s body was engulfing him. Drowning him in an abyss of pleasure. He could only tremble as his whole body convulsed with ecstasy. He suddenly grew to understand how a person could undergo coition death.


    This time he finally be together with his kitten, uniting their bodies. Connected by their core members. Even when they only stroke together on the outside, he already felt it was the best sex he ever had. He can''t count how many times he imagines what it feels like to be inside his kitten. But this is millions of times better compared to his lewd imagination. This is beyond heaven.


    It was the first time he felt this way. The first time of someone''s body give him this amount of pleasure.


    Jian Kang Lu used his arm to straighten up and looked down at his kitten. His kitten''s handsome figure looked completely disheveled as he breathed roughly. His desire for the man lying below him grew exponentially. Both of them were sweating from the love-making, and he couldn''t help but kiss his forehead. He kissed his kitten''s tear filled eyes, his nose, his chin, his neck, and his soft lips who dried from all the panting.


    Bai Yutang''s hazy senses gradually sharpened. His body was cooling down after climaxing, and he couldn''t gather the strength to even move a finger. His lover''s light kisses continued without rest.


    "Thank you, baby.. I love you so much.."


    His lover''s gentle kisses convey his gratitude for Bai Yutang''s gift. Bai Yutang regretted not giving it sooner to his lover. However, now he knows that this is the natural thing between lovers, and it feels so damn good.


    Bai Yutang was a bit embarrassed but joyful at the same time. He kissed his lover back. Felt the love from his lover''s gentle stroke on his naked body. One of his lover''s legs had squeezed itself between him and it was as if he was sitting on his lap while laying down. Additionally, his lover''s once again aroused and firm member was resting against his buttocks.


    "TangTang.. Can we do it one more time?"


    Bai Yutang was so tired from cumming twice, but with his lover pitifully pleading him like this, it felt unfair to reject him. And he feel guilty for letting his lover patiently waiting for him this whole time. Bai Yutang forced his tired body turning to face his lover, and kiss him while his lips softly whisper.


    "I''m all yours, gege.."

 Chapter 134 - Gratitude

    "TangTang.. Baby.. Wake up.."


    Bai Yutang tried to open his heavy eyes. His lover''s soft voice heard so close. He also felt his left ear tickled, like a warm feather lightly brushed his ear lobe. His lover''s voice calling him out from his dream, like summer wind swaying the gentle green grass.


    The sound of soft blanket rustling with his movement. Bai Yutang''s eyes catch the sun shining through their window, his lover already opens the curtain. Judging from the light intensity, Bai Yutang knew that he could not prepare breakfast for his lover this morning..


    "TangTang.. Still sleepy? I''m sorry.. Have your breakfast first, okay? You can sleep again later."


    Bai Yutang felt his eyes did not belong to his body. He really felt tired and sluggish. He let his lover propped his body to sit comfortably in his bed. He wanted to reach his phone, checking why his alarm didn''t work this morning, but his hands were heavy. Just like his eyes, all of his body felt like a heavy shell captured him inside.


    "Drink this first, slowly.."


    His lover steadily held a cup of warm honey chamomile tea, making sure Bai Yutang could sipped it slowly. It felt good, moist his dry throat. The sweetness washed his body, giving him a little bit of energy back to nourish his body. He noticed he was still naked, but he didn''t have energy to wake up and put some clothes on.


    "Gege.." Bai Yutang felt weird, why was his voice so raspy and hoarse? Dry like a fluttering leaves wither in autumn.


    "Mmm.. Eat a little, okay? After this I have to go to the hospital. You can sleep again later."


    Bai Yutang''s eyes slightly opened, focusing his gaze on the man beside him. His lover sits on the edge of the bed, and takes a bowl from the bedside table. He blew the spoon, brought it to Bai Yutang''s mouth. Bai Yutang could only obediently let his mouth slightly open and let his lover feed him. It was a warm chicken porridge.


    "Mmm, good. Here''s the egg. Can you chew it?"


    His lover cut the egg into small pieces, and fed him slowly. The chicken in the porridge also cooked until soft and melted in his mouth. Bai Yutang slowly recognised it, this must be ordered from the restaurant near the corner two blocks from their apartment. They offer a large variety of porridge and delicious.


    "I''m sorry i haven''t cooked for breakfast, gege.." Bai Yutang felt guilty. He was still on his holiday and didn''t have anything to do except researching his final project. His lover already dressed for work while he overslept, and now had to feed him.


    "I can eat by myself, gege.. Aren''t you late for work?"


    Bai Yutang saw his lover smiling bitterly, and kissed him on his forehead. His voice was soft and contained an amount of regret when feeding him another spoon of porridge.


    "I''m the one who should apologise. Do you feel any pain anywhere? Let me massage you a little bit later."


    Jian Kang Lu was really disappointed with himself. Why he can''t control himself last night? He just realised how he acted like an animal when his kitten collapsed and fell asleep under him. He only noticed it when he didn''t hear any moans from his kitten even though he was thrusting hard into that heavenly hole. Satisfying his own animal instinct.


    And what makes Jian Kang Lu disgusted with himself was when he jerked himself upon his sleeping kitten. The shame and the regret washed him like the ocean''s wave in stormy wind when he saw his white liquid glistening upon his kitten''s skinny back, mixed with their sweat.


    His kitten didn''t awaken even when Jian Kang Lu wiped his body clean with warm water. He even felt angry with himself when he saw his kitten pink hole a little bit swollen from his shameful lust. Jian Kang Lu hasn''t done this for years. He didn''t have any soothing cream he usually gave to his ex-lover to soothe their private part after a wild night.


    Jian Kang Lu could only sleep for a few hours with guilt weighing his heart while hugging his kitten tight. He was awoken early this morning from his kitten soft alarm buzzing. His kitten usually awakens immediately, but this morning his kitten didn''t even budge.


    And now his kitten even apologises to him because he didn''t make breakfast. Jian Kang Lu felt like he was a scumbag. He was the one who made his kitten like this. Just because his kitten tastes so good, he forgot to control himself. He was determined not to repeat his irresponsible act. But deep inside, he was not sure he could hold himself. His kitten was just like a succubus who sent him straight to heaven, awaken the beast inside him.


    He just tastes so good, beyond words to describe.


    His kitten shakes his head. "I didn''t feel any pain, just sleepy.." His kitten obediently finishes his porridge slowly. Jian Kang Lu didn''t hurry. He gave his kitten a glass of water after his kitten finished his porridge.


    "Are you sure? Want me to massage your waist? Please tell me if you feel any pain." Jian Kang Lu massages his kitten''s thighs lightly. His kitten needs to sit upright for at least 30 minutes before he goes back to sleep. He didn''t want his kitten to have indigestion.


    "Gege, I''m okay. You can go to the hospital. Are you not late?"


    Jian Kang Lu sat beside his kitten, he didn''t care if his shirt got wrinkled. He put his arms around his kitten''s shoulder, let his kitten lean on him. His right arm is still kneading his kitten''s thighs lightly.


    "It''s okay, you know that i didn''t have to be there on time."


    His kitten''s breath slowly steady and heavy, it seems his kitten fell asleep in his arms. Jian Kang Lu waited until 30 minutes passed. He slowly put his kitten back to sleep, and whispered in his kitten''s ear.


    "I''m going first, TangTang.. I love you."


    He closed the curtain to let his kitten sleep without disturbance. He looked at his kitten once again before he closed the door. He can''t describe how much he loved the man who slept soundly under the blanket.


    He was his world. His everything.


    Bai Yutang awoken again with a lighter feeling. He blinked his eyes several times before his scattered soul went back to his body. He still feels heavy, but much better. He tried to remember whether this morning he truly had breakfast or just his dream.


    His phone was charged at the bedside table. It seems his lover was the one who charged it. The clock shows it was already 11 am. Bai Yutang is still disoriented, why is the room still a little bit dark if it is already noon? He then noticed the curtain was closed.


    Bai Yutang saw his phone and saw a message from his lover.


    [I order porridge for your lunch too. I put it inside the microwave for you to reheat. You can order something else if you don''t want to eat it. Let me know if you are already awake. Love you so much.]


    Bai Yutang replied to his lover''s message. Bai Yutang knows that his lover must feel uneasy if he doesn''t reply soon.


    His legs felt like jelly when he tried to walk. Bai Yutang could imagine he must have looked like a jellyfish trying to squirm on the shore. Luckily his lover was not around to see him almost stumbling from the bed.


    He didn''t even remember how many times he cum last night. It seems he just passed out last night due to tiredness. His butt felt a little bit sore, and his waist too. He felt ashamed. He was much younger than his lover, but why his lover freshly awoke this morning while he was knocked out. He didn''t even remember whether his lover reached climax for the second time last night.


    Bai Yutang felt a little bit better after taking a bath. He went into the living room and searched for his project''s material again. His phone was ringing, and he saw his lover''s name on the screen.


    "Gege."


    "Have you awakened, TangTang? I''m sorry I just saw your message. Did you feel any pain?"


    "I''m not, gege. Stop worrying. What do you have for your lunch, gege?"


    "We''re going to eat beef braised noodles. You don''t have anything to do today, right?"


    "Mmm.. I just stayed at home today. Why?"


    "I''ll go back for a while later before my afternoon practice."


    "Why, gege? You don''t have anything to do? Or something you left here? Need me to bring it to you?"


    "No. I just miss you."


    Bai Yutang didn''t know how to answer. His lips slightly curved to hear his lover''s soft voice, filled with affection.


    "Okay, gege. I''ll wait for you."


    Bai Yutang opened his lecture material again after the call ended. He knew he needed to schedule his time to go to the retirement house around the city to see it for real, and compare it to the theory. Retirement house basically was a residential area. His lecture material from his third year about healthcare facilities needs to be merged with it, since he wants to make his final project to be something more sophisticated than the regular retirement house.


    His lover was back around 3 o''clock. Bai Yutang could feel the heat rise upon his face when he found that his lover was going back to the apartment not only because his lover missed him, but also to take care of his swollen butt.


    "I can apply it on my own, gege."


    How could Bai Yutang let his lover strip his pants to look into his dirty hole. It was different when they''re having sex. Reminded of what happened last night, Bai Yutang became even more ashamed when he felt his lower member slowly reacted. How come he felt aroused and ashamed at the same time?


    "No, please let me do it. Mmm.. Mmm? Please?"


    How could Bai Yutang reject his lover''s puppy eyes? Pitifully begging for him showing his hole. Bai Yutang surrendered, let his lover stripped his pants and left his face buried in the pillow, not letting his lover see his reddened cheek.


    He could feel his lover slowly rubbing the cold ointment at it. Bai Yutang had to admit that the ointment felt so good, soothing his overworked hole. He startled when he felt his lover''s lips kiss his upper butt.


    "Gege!!!"


    "I''m sorry. Your butt just too cute and squishy. I can''t help it."


    His lover only spent 15 minutes in the apartment, he needed to go back to the hospital again. Bai Yutang was a little bit sad to wave him goodbye. He can''t deny that his lover''s attentiveness made him so happy today. It''s good to be taken care of. To be pampered.


    His lover looked at him, showing him those open and loving eyes. Touch him with gentle hands, in his love there is deep gratitude. And more joy than there are moments to savour it.


    "I love you, baby. Thank you for being patient with me."

 Chapter 135 - Doctors

    The cafe in this hospital seems to change some of their potted plants. The green leaves of the philodendron in the cubicle pot reflecting the sunlights fall upon them. Bai Yutang frequently visited this cafe. Sometimes he asked about the plants to the owner. The owner of this cafe was a middle aged woman who loves gardening.


    This time the owner told him about the magic of philodendron. Its heart-shaped leaves and trailing vines not only looked good to put as decoration, but also had the ability to purify the indoor air. It emits oxygen, humidity, and negative ions which remove dust, mold, and bacteria from the air. Bai Yutang made a note to himself that he wanted to buy some to put it inside their apartment.


    Bai Yutang was not only waiting for his lover''s Saturday round to be done, but also waiting for the two residents which agreed to give him some insight about geriatric needs and care. Last night when he and his lover had dinner together, he asked about it to his lover.


    "I think you''ll get better information from the geriatrics.. I''ll contact the residents in the geriatric division to help you. It will also help them with their study."


    Bai Yutang blushed to remember how his lover groped his waist and butt while saying those words. It was funny how contrast to compare his lover''s gentle tone with his mischievous hands.


    But his lover didn''t go all the way, saying that he doesn''t want to hurt him. They just rubbed each other just like they used to until they reached climaxes. After tasting how it feels to have his lover''s member shoved in his tiny hole, somehow Bai Yutang felt something missing from just rubbing each other. He admired his lover''s strong will to reject his offer to fuck him, because he himself a little bit frustrated to feel that pleasure again. It''s embarrassing to realise that he was such a pervert.


    "Hello.. Bai Yutang, right?"


    Bai Yutang startled awoken from his lewd daydreaming. How come he was thinking about that in the middle of the day? The voice came from a skinny man standing in front of him. The man was wearing a blue shirt with the white doctor''s coat on top of it.


    Bai Yutang abruptly stands and greets the man. "Yes I am. Doctor Xu, right? I''m sorry to bother you, and thank you for your time."


    The man nodded and shook his hand. "Yes, i''m Xu Liang. It''s my pleasure if I could help you. Wen Yang is still on his way, he''ll join us later."


    "What do you want to drink, Doctor Xu? Let me order it for you." Bai Yutang gave the menu to the man who took a seat in front of him. After he ordered a cup of hot americano for Xu Liang, Bai Yutang took his tablet out and look at the list of his questions.


    Not so long after that, Wen Yang joined them. Wen Yang is one year above Xu Liang, both of them are junior residents in the geriatric division. They receive the order to help this young man, a relative of Doctor Jian, just this morning. The order comes from their senior, which was ordered by their consultant. Even though they just managed to sleep four hours yesterday, they won''t dare not show up this noon nor showing a grumpy face.


    They basically don''t know what this young man needs. They were surprised when Bai Yutang asked questions and questions about geriatric needs and quality of life. At first they thought that this young man was a fresh graduate doctor who wanted to apply for internal medicine residency here.


    "I''m sorry, Yutang. Why do you ask these questions? Maybe we could concentrate our explanations to cater your needs." Wen Yang can''t help to ask.


    "Oh I''m sorry. My fault for not explaining the purpose of these questions. I''m an architecture student. I plan to design a retirement house for my final project. This will serve as a merge of health facilities and residential, thus I need to put the medical perspective. I asked Doctor Jian, and he referred me to asking these questions to you."


    Wen Yang suddenly remembered the gossip circulated around the hospital lately. Some said that the handsome Doctor Jian was gay, that''s why he didn''t married nor have girlfriend. Is this the legendary Saturday boyfriend of Doctor Jian? Wen Yang shook his head. This young man must be Doctor Jian''s nephew or cousin. A man as handsome as Doctor Jian won''t choose a man as plain as the young man in front of him as his boyfriend.


    "Okay, i understand now. Then I may give you some pointers for geriatric daily life. First, the medical facility doesn''t need to be advanced. It would only need two small rooms approximately 3x4 meter. Since we talk about geriatric, we need to be mobile when checking on them, so the room for examination was not really necessary. I suggest the housing needs to be built near the hospital."


    Bai Yutang hurriedly made some notes. Wen Yang explanation was direct to the point, easy to understand. Bai Yutang likes this man''s way of speaking. It was in firm tone, with clear intonation. It seems this man''s way of giving explanations was similar with his lover.


    Bai Yutang learned from Wen Yang that geriatric or old people were sensitive to changes around them, so it was better if the room and housing design was a flexible standard design to mimic their old environment. He also learned that the bathroom and kitchen also need modification to minimise the accident. Geriatric tend to fall, and most of the bone fractures lead to disability in geriatric due to fall in the bathroom and kitchen.


    Bai Yutang also learned about the need for big spaces of park and recreational area for the family visit. One of the prominent causes of depression in geriatric are lack of family visit, or the reduced time to spend with their friends. Along with age, friends with similar age were reduced by nature. Death will call their friends and families one by one.


    Bai Yutang suddenly remembers his own grandparents which he rarely visits. It made him want to visit them again before his term started. At least he wanted to call them this afternoon. The last time he called their grandparents was one week ago.


    The interview lasted for 40 minutes. Bai Yutang thanked both of these two young doctors again and again. He knew that these two residents must be sparing their precious time for him. He wanted to pay for their lunch, but was rejected. He only managed to pay when he said that this is Jian Kang Lu''s request.


    When these two young doctors walked away from him, Bai Yutang noticed that both of them had dark circles under their eyes. He then reminded his sister who will walk the same path as the doctors here.


    Medical faculty is one faculty that is so different with others. They need to go for 5 years of study including one to two year of internship. Interns are not allowed to take care of patients, they will only follow the residents or consultants when examining the patients.


    They will also do administration tasks to help them familiarize themselves with the medical terms and how to work in clinics or hospitals. Interns only allowed to ask questions and do physical examinations to the patients under the residents or consultants''s supervision.


    After that they will graduate as doctors, and can choose whether they will work as doctors in the basic health facilities or going through residency. Some of them choose to work in pharmaceutical companies, or even as medical assessor in companies.


    Some doctors who had opportunities to take specialties will apply in big hospitals and do two until four more years for residency. As for top doctors like his lover, they still need to take subspecialty again for two or three more years. During residency, they will work and study at the same time. It was a tough path, and never ending studying. The resident''s salary is low, and the work is tough. His lover only become nephrologist after more than 10 years of studying.


    For architects, they only need to do five years of studying, finish their final project and thesis, then graduate. They only need two years of working experience to get their architect license. Then they can choose whether they want to take a master degree or not, it doesn''t really matter. It matters if they want to step up the game in their field of work.


    But doctors need to renew their license every few years and it needs many requirements. Before doctors can open their private clinic, they need five years of experience. These varied in each country, unlike other jobs. That''s why it was difficult for doctors to work outside their countries, since other countries will have different requirements for allowing doctors to tend their patients.


    Bai Yutang was just grateful that his sister never complained too much about her studies. He sure that it must be hard. And it will only get harder and harder in the next few years. Bai Yutang suddenly wants to call his sister.


    "Hello, gege?"


    "RenRen, what are you doing?"


    "I''m at home, ah. But I will have a group discussion with my study group later on. Why do you call me, gege?"


    "I just miss my little sister. Can''t i call without something to discuss?"


    "Woah, are you sick? Why suddenly you cling to me? Have no friends to play with?"


    Sometimes Bai Yutang really thinks his sister is the devil''s incarnation. She will pester him if she wants to buy something, but act so cocky if she doesn''t need money.


    "You little brat. How''s mom? I might visit home again next month before my classes begin. Let''s visit grandpas and grandma too."


    "Mom is okay, she is still at the restaurant. Jian Ge allows you to come here? He won''t deduct your salaries?"


    "I haven''t told him. But i don''t see why i can''t come to visit my ugly sister, and he won''t deduct my salaries."


    "Why don''t you come here with Jian Ge? If you come alone, you won''t bring me anything. Dragged Jian Ge here, ah. Mom missed him too."


    Bai Yutang is thinking about that, and it seems like a good idea. Later he needed to talk with his lover about that. He talked with his sister and listened to his sister talking about her last anatomy class last semester.


    This is also one thing he admired from doctors. Last time his sister and his lover met they were also talking about anatomy classes. Bai Yutang can''t imagine how it feels to look and dissect a human''s dead body. The medical students call it cadavers, and call them their teacher.


    Bai Yutang thought his sister would be afraid, just like regular people, just like himself. But all this doctors complaints is how their nose and eyes sting and hurt from the formalin. His sister worshipped his lover when Jian Kang Lu bought her the lavender aromatherapy oil mix with menthol. His lover suggested smearing it on the mask for Bai Yuren to wear during the anatomy practical class.


    Sometimes Bai Yutang still feels inferior with himself, that''s why he still refuses his lover''s invitation to go with him to his lover''s Sunday family lunch. Even coming along to the parties and gathering with his lover is enough to give him an unfamiliar and uncomfortable feeling.


    Among his lover''s circle, only him who is still studying and not working. Not mentioning when he came to the occasion filled with doctors, he can''t follow their conversation, and he felt like some stupid person with no qualification. He knows he doesn''t need to feel that way, but he just can''t help it. He felt like an outsider.


    Bai Yutang was still staring and arranging his interview results with the two young doctors when he felt a hand tapping his shoulder, and a familiar voice called him.


    "TangTang.."


    His lover''s voice dragged him back to reality. Bai Yutang curved his lips, put on a smile when he saw his lover''s face. That handsome face looked a bit tired, and his temples glistening from the thin layer of sweat, a result from the hot summer weather.


    "Have you finished, gege?"


    "Mm, let''s have lunch outside, shall we? Have you done your research?"


    "Yes, Doctor Xu and Doctor Wen really give me excellent material for my research. They also give me some notes and files on geriatric quality of life to read later on. I can''t thank them enough."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled to see his kitten''s brightened face. The face who wipes his tired mind and refreshes his energy. The face that filled his day with a lovely tone, painted his world with soft colours of affection. He made a note to himself to personally thank both of those junior residents.

 Chapter 136 - Bravery

    "Ah¡­ Gege.. No more.. Please.."


    Bai Yutang could feel his lower part was sore and dried. Soon he felt the hard and thick object filling his hole slowly pulled out, as if it was reluctant to leave his hole. Bai Yutang had no energy left to move. His legs were still wide open when Jian Kang Lu kneeled above him and finished himself. Bai Yutang was still breathing heavily when he felt that thick white liquid sprayed all over his chest.


    He felt sorry for his lover to cum this way again, but he really can''t. He already cum for three times today, like he always did every Sunday. In ordinary days he still could follow his lover''s illogical stamina. But on weekend, his lover will fuck him from Saturday morning, in the afternoon, in the night, and it will following to Sunday morning, afternoon, and night.


    He''ll have his first class of this semester tomorrow, and he was afraid he could not wake up in the morning. Bai Yutang didn''t know whether he should be thankful for Jian Kang Lu didn''t fuck his hole everyday, or curse it because he had to pay the price on weekend.


    It was like a fixed schedule. His lover will eat him whole on Wednesday, Saturday, and Sunday. Other days will only be filled with rubbing their members together, or playing with their tongue.


    Luckily his lover always stopped when he said please, and will take care of his hard erection by himself. Usually it will involve staring at Bai Yutang''s wide open legs, displaying his bare pink hole down there, while Jian Kang Lu stroked his hard erection until he cum. At that time, he will hear his lover''s lips forming his name again and again.


    At this moment, he felt lucky at least his lover always clean him after they had sex. He really doesn''t have energy left. On Saturday he still could clean himself after, but on Sunday he will be drained. His lover had squeezed all water he had inside from two days of non stopping love making process.


    Since the first time Bai Yutang let his lover have him whole, Jian Kang Lu had been excessively unleashing his beast. He''ll grope Bai Yutang everyday, and stop only because it was not the day. Bai Yutang knew Jian Kang Lu was trying to restrain himself because he didn''t want to hurt him. To be fucked everyday means his hole will be swollen like the first time they do it. And it was uncomfortable for him.


    Bai Yutang curious whether all couple had sex as often as them? They''ve been together for more than one and half years, but instead of decreasing their activity, it has increased. Bai Yutang didn''t complain though, instead he was glad. His lover just felt so good.


    When his lover penetrates him slowly, letting him to be slowly filled, feel that hard erection rubbing his inner wall, it will burn his own desire. He also never feels enough, craving to feel it again and again.


    Sometimes they even talk during the process. Bai Yutang will stare at his lover''s face above him, while his lover asks him about his last vacation to his hometown. They talk like usual, exchanging their story when they were not together, while their lower member connected to each other, and his lover will only move slowly.


    Pulled it a little bit, then pushed it inside until his hole swallowed it whole, then slowly rubbed his sensitive spot. The process repeated with each word they exchange.


    It drove him crazy.


    It was like training him to be a man who always longs for his lover''s member to fill him. As if he was not complete without it inside. It has not even been two months since the first time they do it.


    "TangTang.. I love you so much.."


    Bai Yutang''s mouth dried, he could only give his lover a light kiss to respond. His lover''s eyes still dark from the lust, and not yet completely back to his gentle state.


    "Wait for a minute before I clean you up. Why you look so handsome, TangTang.. You drive me crazy.."


    "I love you too.." His raspy voice sounds like dried leaves. Rustling from the autumn wind blown. Bai Yutang decides to ignore his lover''s delusion which worsen as they spend their days together. He just hopes his lover''s delusion will not fade with time, and he will always be the handsome man his lover saw.


    His lover''s eyes finally return to normal, before he stands and takes warm water from the bathroom to clean him up.


    "Did i hurt you today, baby? Let me check."


    Bai Yutang didn''t even have energy to feel ashamed when his lover inspected his hole. This is the routine after sex activity, though he found it was still hard to get used to it.


    "No, it''s okay gege. I feel fine. Just tired." Bai Yutang lied.


    His lover always cleaned him properly, and put the soothing gel to his hole after they did it. He was grateful for that. He felt the pair of strong arms enveloped him from behind, and stroke his hair softly. The same words slowly whispered to his ear, repeated over and over again. Until he fell to the deep slumber, resting in the warm embrace.


    "I love you, TangTang.. I love you so much."


    Bai Yutang awoke by his alarm, and tried to open his eyes. The soft buzz from his phone ceased when he pressed the button. Today is the first day of the new semester. He hoped this was his last semester and he will graduate next year.


    Bai Yutang just makes simple breakfast. He felt too tired to cook. After showering, he wakes his lover to have their breakfast together.


    At the dining table his lover''s eyes keep looking at him. It was his lover''s habit, but somehow this morning Bai Yutang felt his lover want to ask him something.


    "Do you have something to say, gege?"


    His lover sipped his water before he took the peeled boiled egg and sprinkled it with pepper.


    "How about meeting my family in this Mid-Autumn festival, TangTang?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t answer immediately. He knew he refused to meet his lover''s family hundreds of times before.


    "Let me think about it, gege. I''ll give you my answer tonight."


    "It''s okay if you want to go home to B city, or stay at home. I was just asking." Jian Kang Lu hurriedly said.


    Bai Yutang tried to put on his best smile to assure his lover that he understood what his lover wanted to say. He knew his lover didn''t want him to feel pressured.


    Luckily for this week all the classes mostly are introductory classes. His consultation with his counselor regarding his final project is also not yet scheduled until next week after the Mid-Autumn festival, so he could spend his day thinking about his lover''s invitation.


    His original plan was meeting Jian Kang Lu''s family when he was already graduate and working. He wanted to stand proud when his lover''s family asked him what he was doing. He also didn''t want to be awkward when he was introduced. Isn''t it weird to be introduced as students? Why would a student like him befriend a man like Jian Kang Lu?


    And the weirdest part is, how he''ll answer if Jian Kang Lu''s parents asked him why he leeched on Jian Kang Lu? Stay for free in the apartment? He could not say that he was Jian Kang Lu''s boyfriend, right?


    What he was afraid most was to receive a cold shoulder and rejection from his lover''s family. Bai Yutang felt like it was too much for him to handle, and he could not bear it. The worst part is what if his lover''s parents suspected him and then asked Jian Kang Lu to leave him? It was the part he feared the most.


    Bai Yutang exhaled his tired breath, and looked at the yellowish green leaves above him when he walked home. He knows his lover''s family won''t be cruel in front of him, after all they raised a man like Jian Kang Lu as their son.


    Tonight he cooked clear chicken soup with vegetables, paired with soft steamed baby potatoes. He steamed the salted potatoes for 25 minutes. He''ll fry the potatoes with olive oil and minced garlic when his lover reaches home later on. The fragrant from the garlic will paired well with the green onion and parsley sprinkled on top of it later on.


    The downside part of having full penetration sex is he could not eat anything too spicy, and it was better for him to eat high fibres and soft food after weekend. His lover always felt sorry for him every Monday, even though he always said that it was okay for him.


    Bai Yutang was preparing the plate and bowl in the dining room when he heard the soft sound of the front door opening, and his lover''s voice filled the living room.


    "TangTang, i''m home."


    Bai Yutang hurriedly ran to the front door and hugged his lover tight. Sometimes he could not understand how he still missed his lover even though they stayed together everyday.


    His lover hugged him back, placing his head around his neck. "Mmm, smells good. Let''s eat first before I take a bath."


    "I steamed the baby potatoes you liked last time, gege. Luckily today they restock it. I bought a lot today."


    His lover kisses his neck and bite it lightly. "This is the one who smells good, my handsome boyfriend."


    "Let''s eat the potatoes first before you eat me, gege."


    Bai Yutang knew very well that if he said those kinds of words, his lover would obey him like a trained puppy, expecting rewards for behaving himself.


    Bai Yutang didn''t wait until they finished dinner when he casually told Jian Kang Lu his decision.


    "If you don''t mind, i''ll happily come with you and meet your family on Mid-Autumns, gege."


    He could hear his lover''s pause for a moment before his lover carefully said, "It will make me very happy. Thank you, baby."


    Bai Yutang only smiled, and said no more. His smile was serene, as if trying to convince himself that everything was going to be alright. Trying to cover his heart which is still thumping hard, bury his uneasiness deep down. He only needed his lover to be happy, and he was willing to be brave for it.

 Chapter 137 - Butterfly In My Stomach

    Jian Kang Lu had finished dressing himself and sat on the bed, enjoying the show in front of him. His kitten''s nervousness was clearly displayed from his anxious face to his small movements. His kitten had changed clothes three times already but didn''t ask for his opinion. So Jian Kang Lu just sat obediently waiting for his kitten, letting his eyes pampered with his kitten strip show in front of him.


    Doesn''t matter what clothes his kitten wears today, he is still the most handsome man in the world. Jian Kang Lu''s family was a family that always dressed well and appreciated people who dress themselves well. But it doesn''t mean they will despise someone who dresses sloppily. And his kitten never looked sloppy.


    His kitten finally settled with the light blue sweater Jian Kang Lu bought for him last year, paired with the dark blue jacket. Personally his kitten looked better in warm colour unlike him, maybe because his kitten''s personality was warm. But blue also matched his kitten''s complexion well.


    "Come gege, I''m done.." His kitten standing in front of him, raised his hands to grab Jian Kang Lu''s hand. That hand felt cold.


    Jian Kang Lu pulled his kitten to get closer to him. "Can my handsome boyfriend give me a kiss first? I felt too lazy to stand up without a kiss."


    His kitten''s smile is stiff, but nonetheless the kiss was graciously given to him. They walk together to the car with their hands still clasped together.


    In the car, his kitten still looked nervous. His hands didn''t hold Jian Kang Lu''s hand like usual, and those beautiful fingers were tapping his own knees in a distracting rhythm. Jian Kang Lu can only ruffle his kitten''s soft hair slowly every time he has chances, to soothe his kitten''s nerve.


    "Gege¡­ What if your parents asked me where I lived? Is it not strange if i say i live with you?"


    Jian Kang Lu knew very well what his kitten was afraid about. Jian Kang Lu thought about it several times. His family might sense something when he introduces Bai Yutang to them. Even though he won''t introduce Bai Yutang as his parent''s future son in law at this moment, he needs to get his family to meet the one he loves the most. He needed to slowly prepare his parents.


    He never introduced Wu Shen to his parents. In Zhang Min''s case, he was easily disguised as a regular hospital colleague. But Bai Yutang will be a whole different case. A young man with a wide age gap, living together with him. Jian Kang Lu knew that his parents were no fools.


    "No, it won''t. I''ll answer for you. No need to be afraid, my family won''t bite you."


    Jian Kang Lu leaned to his kitten and kissed that soft cheek. "The only one who likes to bite in my family is my handsome baby here next to me."


    Bai Yutang was too nervous to respond with his lover''s joke. Yesterday he wanted to ask his lover whether they need to bring something. But again, he thought it would be just too weird and might lead to his lover''s parents to suspect him even more.


    Bai Yutang knew that his lover''s family was well off. He believes it won''t be like Sun Hongjia''s house, but still it makes him nervous when the car enters this luxurious residential area. The big gate in the entrance opened automatically when Jian Kang Lu''s car slowly drove near. It recognised the RFID planted inside the car.


    This residential area had their own clubhouse, with their own golf course and swimming pool. Bai Yutang really admires the architect who built this residential area. The jogging course encircling the area was filled with big trees and bicycle lanes.


    Soon the car drove and stopped in front of the white painted house with a big gate before the gate opened automatically, and then parked in front of the garage. Jian Kang Lu didn''t get off the car immediately when he parked the car. He held his kitten''s cold and damp hands.


    "Baby, it''ll be okay. I guarantee my parents will love you, like I do. You''re just so lovable. Don''t be afraid, and i can''t thank you enough for accompanying me here."


    Bai Yutang can''t even find his voice. He just nodded his head and tried to smile. He let go of his lover''s hand, then got out of the car. He knew his hands were sweaty, he tried to grip his jacket, hoping that his hands were dried when he needed to shake his lover''s parents hand.


    They walk across the garden and approach the beige coated wooden door. A bunch of big potted plants arranged in front of the house. Jian Kang Lu didn''t knock, he just opened the unlocked door.


    "Mom, Dad, I''m here."


    Jian Kang Lu had notified his parents that he brought his friend to celebrate this Mid-Autumn festival. His mom only said that she was happy, the more the merrier. She didn''t even ask which friend Jian Kang Lu brought home.


    He didn''t see his nephew, it seems his brother and his sister in law haven''t arrived yet. But he didn''t recognise the black luxurious car parked in front of his parent''s house.


    "Kang Lu?"


    Jian Kang Lu was hanging his kitten''s coat when he saw Auntie Zhou walking towards them from the kitchen. Auntie Zhou was his mother''s best friend since they were in high school. Both of them come from wealthy families, attend the same elite girl''s boarding school and have been best friends for more than 40 years.


    "Hello Auntie Zhou. How are you? Where''s uncle?" Jian Kang Lu gives his aunt a big hug like he used to.


    "I''m fine. I haven''t seen you in ages. Why never visit me, you little brat? Your uncle is in the back with your father."


    "That new hair cut suits you well, Auntie. You looked 10 years younger." Jian Kang Lu turned his head and placed his hands on Bai Yutang''s shoulder. He didn''t know that Auntie Zhou will be here today. This is out of his expectation.


    "This is my friend, auntie. His name Bai Yutang." Jian Kang Lu introduced his kitten. He knows that his kitten is getting even more nervous now. "And this is my mother''s best friend, Zhou Qunfei."


    Bai Yutang felt it was useless to wipe the sweat in his palm earlier because now he felt sweating all over again. He tried to curve his lips upwards and give the best smile he could. His voice a little bit cracked when he said his greetings.


    "Hello Mrs. Zhou."


    Bai Yutang felt a little bit awkward when Zhou Qunfei didn''t shake his hands immediately, and staring at him as if she was inspecting the fish in the market, trying to judge whether the fish was fresh enough or rotten already.


    Bai Yutang felt his eardrum could hear his own heartbeat which loudly thumped inside his chest. Giving the rumbling vibration felt so unfamiliar. The thump thump sound was louder echoing in his ear until he felt his hanging hand finally grabbed by that smooth small hand.


    "Hello, you can call me Auntie Zhou. Can i call you Yutang?"


    Her voice was stern and giving a sense of authority. Bai Yutang can''t find his own voice under this pressure, he could only nod his head. He was glad his lover''s hand didn''t leave his shoulder. At least it was giving him a little bit of familiarity, giving him courage.


    "Where''s mom, auntie?" Jian Kang Lu tried to divert Zhou Qunfei''s attention from Bai Yutang. He sensed that his kitten was very tense and nervous.


    "Your mom is in the kitchen with JunJun."


    "Come TangTang, I''ll introduce you with my mom." Jian Kang Lu put his feet in his house slipper and gave a pair of slippers to his kitten to wear. He instinctively holds his kitten''s hand and walks toward the kitchen.


    Bai Yutang still felt Zhou Qunfei''s eyes inspecting them, it really makes him uncomfortable. He could not even notice his surroundings. Everything seems blurry. If he was not so nervous, definitely Bai Yutang would notice the big open space living room with paintings and beautiful vases inside.


    Bai Yutang slowly released himself from Jian Kang Lu''s hands. He knows it will be awkward if his lover''s family saw them holding hands together. This is the first time for him meeting his lover''s family, he doesn''t want to give them the wrong impression.


    "Mom, i''m here. What did you cook this year?" Jian Kang Lu greeted his mom who was standing in the kitchen''s corner. In the kitchen also standing two other women. One is their cook who has already worked in their house for 30 years, and the other is Wu Yajun.


    His mother smiles and walks towards them, giving Jian Kang Lu a big hug before turning her head to look at Bai Yutang.


    "Since Qunfei and JunJun was here, Auntie Ming decided to bless us with cooking Osmanthus duck."


    Bai Yutang felt awkward since his lover''s mother''s eyes also gave him the same inspecting gaze as Auntie Zhou. His feet felt cold and his fingers unknowingly started twitching due to the tension. He doesn''t even dare to look at his lover''s mother''s face. All he could see was a beautiful lady in elegant posture wearing a dark green dress standing in front of him.


    "Mom, this is my friend that I told you over the phone, Bai Yutang. TangTang, this is my mother. You can call her Auntie Lin." Jian Kang Lu''s voice sounds so calm, didn''t affected by this weird tension in the kitchen.


    "Hello Yutang, nice to meet you. You can call me Auntie Lin."


    "Hello Auntie, thank you for having me here today." Bai Yutang tried his best to smile, and gladly because his lover''s mother raised her hand and shook his hand immediately, unlike Auntie Zhou.


    "And that is Auntie Ming. Blessed her for cooking all those delicious foods since I was little kid. Thanks to her I could grow up well. My mom and kitchen were not destined to be together."


    Bai Yutang could see the woman with white hair standing on the kitchen counter and give him a warm smile. Bai Yutang nodded his head deeply. He remembers that Auntie Ming is the cook in the house. He was once determined to ask her about his lover''s preferences in food if Bai Yutang met her one day. But today once he met Auntie Ming in person, the cat got his tongue.


    "And this one is Wu Yajun, Auntie Zhou''s daughter. Hello JunJun, long time no see."


    "Hello Jian Ge, I missed you so much. I was hurt when you forgot my birthday last week. You didn''t even call. I expect big compensation today."


    Wu Yajun already stands besides Lin Caihong, Jian Kang Lu''s mom. She was tall, as tall as Bai Yutang. Her slim figure was wrapped in a dark purple wool dress, revealing the perfect figures with right curves in right places. Her dark red mahogany hair flipped to the side, showing the smooth white milky skin and perfectly painted red lips. A long jade silver earring hanging in her delicate ear lobe.


    Bai Yutang already felt nauseous with his anxiety, but it was nothing compared to the butterfly inside his stomach now when he saw this beautiful woman greet his lover with a hug and kiss his lover''s cheek.


    Bai Yutang could only stand like an ice statue, looking at the beautiful face turn towards him. That perfect peach blossoms eyes and the plump red lips slightly curved, giving him a peculiar smile.


    "Hello. Bai Yutang, right? Can I call you TangTang too? Just like Jian Ge calls you."

 Chapter 138 - Interrogation

    Bai Yutang felt like he was someone who did not belong here. He tried to calm himself, but the thousands of butterflies in his stomach kept stirring his nerves. Bai Yutang felt like the soft cushion he sat right now was like a thousand needles pricking his skin, as if he was not sitting upon a big soft leather sofa.


    He knew his lover was handsome, exceptional. He already expected that his lover''s family was also giving the same vibe. Even among his lover''s friend, no one looked ordinary.


    He expects that much when he decides to brave himself and show up here, introduced to his lover''s family. But he didn''t expect that all of them looked like they popped up from a television drama. He was already pressured by Auntie Zhou''s aura when he first stepped foot in this house. Not mentioning the others'' appearance that was out of his expectation.


    Bai Yutang saw his lover''s mother, which looked exactly like his lover. They exude the same warm hearted yet aloof aura.. It was like looking at the royalty. Make people want to get closer to them, but also feel a distinct line separating them from the ordinary commoners around them. He was glad at least his lover''s mom didn''t pressure him with the strong aura like auntie Zhou.


    But then he felt like a young child among adults when he saw Wu Yajun, followed by his lover''s brother and sister in law. They arrived not long after and went inside the kitchen too right after Wu Yajun shook his hand.


    Bai Yutang startled when he heard a cheerful tone from his back, coming from a small delicate lady wearing a dark red dress. Her dark brown short hair framing her small face. Her features belong to the cute category, but somehow she gave the same strong aura. Bai Yutang could not understand how every woman in this room looked like someone who held high authority in daily life.


    "Jian Ge, you already here? Hello Yajun."


    Jian Kang Lu introduces his brother and sister in law to Bai Yutang, who is standing there. Jian Kang Lu''s brother was different from what Bai Yutang imagined. He looked distant and cold, unlike his warm lover. This only made Bai Yutang getting nervous and tense. He felt those pairs of cold eyes of his lover''s brother looking at him with a disdainful look.


    Jian Kang Lu''s mother took all of them out from the kitchen to let Auntie Ming work in peace. She told all of them to sit on the big sofa in the living room while calling for her husband from the backside yard.


    "Uncle Jiaann.." A chubby little boy ran towards Jian Kang Lu and jumped into his lap immediately. Bai Yutang could see how Jian Kang Lu dotted this little boy from the gaze in his eyes.


    Bai Yutang was glad that Jian Kang Lu put him in this two seater sofa and sat beside him, along with his nephew who also stared at Bai Yutang. He didn''t think he could still expanding his lung to breathe if he had to sit beside someone else in this living room.


    "Uncle Jian, who is this?"


    "This is my friend, Ah Ming. You can call him uncle Bai."


    "Hello uncle Bai. Are you a doctor too like uncle Jian?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t know that his interrogation started with this little bun''s question. He tried his best to answer. "Hello Ah Ming. I''m not a doctor. I''m still studying."


    "Ah, like me? Why are you still studying? How old are you? Aren''t you too old to study?"


    Jian Kang Lu could see that his kitten was not exactly a person who could be at ease in this situation. He pretended not to notice, but he knew his whole family was staring at his nervous kitten. He pinched Jian Ming''s round cheek to divert this little devil''s attention.


    "Why does Ah Ming want to know? Don''t you know that you have introduced yourselves first before asking? It was not polite."


    "Ouch, i''ll pinch you back, uncle Jian! Don''t pinch me, i''m not a little kid anymore!"


    "Jian Ge, why are you so cruel to our little bun? By the way i could see TangTang still studying from his cute face. How old are you? 20? 24? What do you study, TangTang?"


    The voice of Wu Yajun coming from the left. She was sitting on the long sofa along with her mother and Jian Kang Lu''s mother. Her posture shows that she was very comfortable being here, shown that she was part of this family too.


    Bai Yutang could feel his shirt damped from his sweat. But he knew he could not avoid these questions from Wu Yajun. He could see all pairs of eyes in this living room was focused on him. He tried to answer firmly.


    "I''m 23 years old. I''m still studying architecture in T university, Ms. Wu."


    Bai Yutang didn''t know which part of his answer sounded funny, since all the women in this living room were chuckling and softly laughing. He really wants to ask his lover to send him home. It seems coming here today was a bad idea.


    "You can call me Wu Jie. I''m way older than you."


    "Call me Fan Jie too. So you''re Zhen Ge''s junior ah? Where do you come from TangTang? I can call you TangTang too, right?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t know what he could answer. He could only nod his head towards Jian Kang Lu''s sister in law. Both of these women looked still young. The only thing that given their mature age is their strong aura. If based on their looks alone, they will still pass as university students. Bai Yutang felt the people around Jian Kang Lu blessed with their good look and young appearance.


    "Don''t tease him so much, you cruel girls." Bai Yutang heard his lover''s voice back to save him while chatting with his nephew.


    "Are you from B city too? Where do you live, Yutang?"


    Bai Yutang knew he had to answer this politely, since this time it was Jian Kang Lu''s mother who was asking him. But his lover answered before him. He was glad, since he was sure that his voice would shake if he answered that.


    "TangTang comes from W city, mom. He stays with me right now. He didn''t have time to go back to W city, that''s why i invited him to spend mid-autumn festival with us together."


    "Is that so? Ah, where is my manner? What do you want to drink, TangTang? I''ll get some for you. Hot tea? Coffee?"


    How could Bai Yutang let his future mother in law serve drinks for him? He hurriedly answered, "No need, auntie. I''m not thirsty."


    Bai Yutang wanted to kill himself when he heard his own voice crack and squeaked like a squirrel. He could hear the soft laughter coming from these women once again. He saw Jian Kang Lu''s sister in law standing and spoke to him.


    "I''ll get you some chamomile tea, is that okay? I also need to help auntie Ming cook. Do you have any allergies, TangTang?"


    "TangTang didn''t have allergies. Could you make some for me too?" Jian Kang Lu answered his sister in law''s question. His sister in law nodded and walked towards the kitchen.


    Bai Yutang felt that he really needed to embrace this situation, not letting his lover''s family think that he was an embarrassment for Jian Kang Lu. He abruptly stood, "Let me help you, Fan Jie."


    Bai Yutang followed Fan Mingle to the kitchen. He was the youngest person here before Jian Kang Lu''s nephew. Even though he was a guest here, how could he let his future in laws serve him?


    "Ah, let me help auntie Ming too!" Bai Yutang could hear the light steps from Wu Yajun''s small feet behind him.


    Once in the kitchen, Bai Yutang politely asked, "Where is the tea pot and cups, Fan Jie? Let me brew it for you."


    Fan Mingle smiled and showed him where to get the tea pot, cups, and the tea. She also asked auntie Ming what to help.


    "Can you make it, TangTang? You are the guest here, no need to be shy. It''s our duty to serve the guest."


    Somehow Bai Yutang felt those polite sentences prick him. He doesn''t want to be a guest in this house. He wants to be acknowledged as a part of the family in the future.


    "It''s okay, Fan Jie. I often brew it for Jian Ge."


    Bai Yutang almost jumped when he heard Wu Yajun''s voice, very near to his ear. He didn''t realise she was leaning in the kitchen counter right next to him. Somehow he felt intimidated by this tall woman who looked at him with an intense gaze. Disturbed to see that red lips slightly curved when she talked to him.


    "Ah, is that so? How long have you stayed with Jian Ge? Where do you meet each other?"


    "I-I.. I have some financial problems. Jian Ge was just being kind, offering me a place to stay, Wu Jie. I-I stayed with Jian Ge for almost two years now."


    Fan Mingle was helping auntie Ming cooking the lotus root. "Wow, two years? Why you never come to our Sunday lunch? Next time please come too. Or are you too busy?"


    Wu Yajun was just standing beside Bai Yutang, looking at him brewing the tea. "Architecture students must be busy, right?"


    "How does it feel to live with Jian Ge? He was so busy, right? Don''t you get bored being alone in the apartment?"


    "Aye, Jian ge didn''t even have time to play with us. So, what are you doing in your free time, TangTang?"


    "23 years old. So young. Is this your last semester? When will you graduate?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t know how to answer these questions thrown at him. He could only stutter and try to answer each question. He didn''t even remember what he answered if his lover asked him what they talked about in the kitchen.


    "I-I''m done with the t-tea, Fan Jie. I''ll bring it to the living room."


    Bai Yutang tried not to stumble when he brought the tea out. He makes two pots of tea and brings multiple cups to serve the elders too. When he arranged and poured the tea into the cups, he almost choked when he heard Jian Kang Lu''s mother asking him.


    "I heard you''re the one responsible to fatten my son. Did you really cook for him?"


    What on earth his lover told his mother about him? Bai Yutang wants to give death glare to his lover. But he could only lower his head, not showing his embarrassing face in front of the elders.


    "I-I can only cook simple dishes, auntie. Nothing fancy."


    Bai Yutang almost got a heart attack when Jian Kang Lu''s mother grabbed his hand. "Then let me watch your ability in the kitchen. Come, let us help auntie Ming. You can learn how to cook Osmanthus duck, too. Ah Lu loves it so much."


    "Mom.." Jian Kang Lu tried to save Bai Yutang. But he stopped and didn''t say anything more when he saw his kitten give him a warning look. He could only sit on the sofa with Jian Ming when he saw his kitten obediently standing and following his mother''s step.


    "Yes auntie. P-please let me help. I-I''d love to learn how to cook it."

 Chapter 139 - You Are My World

    "TangTang, how''s the duck? Does it not suit your taste?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "No auntie. This is the best osmanthus duck I ever taste. Very delicious. I will try to make it next time."


    "Then eat more. You''re so skinny. Here, finish this one."


    Bai Yutang now knows where his lover''s habit of putting food in his plate comes from. It was definitely from his lover''s mother. Bai Yutang could only smile stiffly and tried to eat the duck slower. He really felt full, but he could not reject each small plate that kept coming to his direction.


    Previously he already ate cucumber salad given by Jian Kang Lu''s sister in law, which is a light and refreshing appetizer. The crisp cucumber is mixed with plenty of garlic, drizzled with an appetizing blend of soy sauce, vinegar and sugar, then finished with a few drops of sesame oil. The sauce is light, yet it has a distinct sour flavour with a hint of sweetness, enhanced by the strong aroma of garlic.


    Then he was given a plate of delicious fresh spring rolls by Wu Yajun, which are a light and healthy dish. The recipe said comes from Auntie Zhou''s family, including shrimp and ground meat. It comes with two sauces, a nutty sesame sauce and a sour spicy sauce.


    Next Auntie Zhou gave him a small plate of steamed hairy crab. Bai Yutang knew hairy crab is expensive, prized for its subtle sweet taste, and for its cooling effect on the body. The crabs are steamed on top of a perilla leaf and along with ginger which are both warming foods to help neutralize the cooling nature of the crab.


    Then his lover''s mother gave him not only one plate of this osmanthus duck, but two. The duck is braised using a moist-heat cooking technique to make the meat succulent and leave the skin taut, then pickled for a few hours and hung out to dry, before being simmered in a broth of ginger, onion and star anise. The result is a plain-looking dish packed with flavor. The dish goes by the name Osmanthus Duck due to the availability of sweet osmanthus, which is often added to the cooking broth.


    All of it was very delicious, but this is too much. Not mentioning his lover''s sister in law already pointing out why Bai Yutang hasn''t tried the lotus root she cooked, and also the chicken wing fried until shown its crispy golden colour. Bai Yutang felt he fell in love with his lover again when Jian Kang Lu secretly took some of the duck meat from his plate and helped him to finish it.


    From the lively conversation in the dining room, Bai Yutang now understood why all the women in this room have a menacing aura.


    Auntie Zhou and her husband manage not only one company, but three. One of them was the cleaning company hired by big offices and companies in big cities. Their company branches spread in more than 20 big cities all over the country. That company was managed by Wu Yajun in the past five years, and expanded fast under her hands.


    Bai Yutang knew that his lover''s sister in law was working in the human resources department at one of the biggest banks in their country. But what his lover didn''t mention is this small delicate lady was the HR manager in the head office. She was managing more than one thousand workers under her care.


    Bai Yutang felt so small when he answered his lover''s brother''s question about his final project. His project seems so insignificant compared to the financial market and economic talking in this table.


    "Too bad you''re still studying. But you''ll graduate soon, right? After you graduate you could help me redecorate my office."


    Somehow when Bai Yutang heard auntie Zhou''s voice, it was like a command he could not reject. So he just nodded his head and tried to make his voice sound cheerful when he agreed to her request.


    "You will do well in your project. You must be smart to be accepted into T university, so I believe you''ll excel your project."


    Bai Yutang didn''t hear his lover''s father talk too much. But once he talks, Bai Yutang understands where his lover''s gentle tone comes from. He almost choked when he said thank you to those kind words.


    "He''s not only smart, uncle. But cute too. It''s been so long I haven''t seen a cute young man like him." Wu Yajun''s playful tone tickled Bai Yutang''s ear and it made him lose his words. Bai Yutang was uncomfortable to hear those cute words, he was a man. How come a woman told him that he was cute. And why on earth his future mother in law agreed with that?


    "Yes, it''s been too long since I last saw a cute young man like TangTang. My own son stopped being cute 20 years ago. Ah.."


    Bai Yutang didn''t know how all the people in this room were now calling him TangTang. It was like a silent agreement between them. He felt when they called him that way, it was like showing that he was still a young immature man.


    "You''re still lucky. My ungrateful son has never been cute since i gave birth to him." Auntie Zhou waving his chopstick like she regrets she ever gave birth to his son.


    Jian Kang Lu chuckled to hear that. "True, even my beloved cold Ah Se still counts as a cute boy compared to your Yaxing, auntie."


    "I''m the cutest here! My mom told me i''m the cutest in the world."


    All of the adults in the table laugh to hear Jian Ming shouting. Jian Kang Lu teases him, "Does your girlfriend say that to you too? If your girlfriend didn''t say that you''re cute, then you''re not. Don''t believe your mother, Ah Ming."


    Bai Yutang felt he almost died from eating too much after lunch. They all moved to the garden on the back yard and enjoyed the mooncakes while looking at the lantern hung in the garden.


    Bai Yutang had to admit even though he almost died from excessive eating, this mooncakes was on a whole different level from what he tasted before. The traditional mooncakes he tastes are made with less sugar and hence are a healthier alternative. Flavours include baked pure white lotus paste with double yolk, baked white lotus paste with assorted nuts and more.


    He also likes the traditional yam pastry mooncake. Freshly prepared in the kitchen upon order, the silky and mildly sweet yam paste harmonises beautifully with the luscious salted egg yolk and pine nuts, resulting in a satisfying texture and well-rounded flavour.


    And then Auntie Zhou gave him the mooncake she bought from Paradise bake and pastry shop. The handcrafted fruity liqueur snow skin mooncakes is filled with silky smooth white lotus seed paste and a crunchy chocolate truffle core infused with different liqueurs. Encasing the soft centre is a thin layer of crunchy chocolate shell made using premium, natural chocolate from Valrhona.


    "Do you like it, TangTang? We can order some and you can share it with your friends later." Jian Kang Lu whispered to him. Bai Yutang nod, it seems great if he could share the delicacies of B city famous mooncake with his friends.


    Bai Yutang felt the combination of a full stomach and the breezing autumn wind softly brush his face was deadly. He tried his best to stay alert and answered each question from his lover''s family. He felt ashamed to realise his sleepy state was similar to Jian Ming right now.


    Bai Yutang could feel his face heated when Jian Kang Se nudged his lover and told him to get Bai Yutang some rest.


    "Gege, I think your friend could get some rest inside. He must be tired, pestered by mother and auntie in the kitchen before."


    Bai Yutang wanted to grab his lover''s arm and told him not to dare bring him to sleep inside even though his eyes were very heavy right now.


    "TangTang, let me show you my room and our library. You said that you want to see our book collection before." Jian Kang Lu can see that his kitten was very sleepy right now. His kitten''s handsome face looked docile and serene, a sign he will fall asleep any moment. He tried his best to make some excuses.


    "No, gege. Let me just stay here." Bai Yutang wanted to bury himself when he heard Wu Yajun chuckled from his back. Since when she was sitting on his back? Bai Yutang can smell the rose scent from her body when she leans to whisper in Bai Yutang''s ear.


    "Ah, our cute little boy looked even cuter when he was sleepy. It makes me want to pinch your cheek."


    "Yajun, I can see you still have your nasty habit." Jian Kang Lu nudged her shoulder to get her away from his kitten.


    "Auntie Zhou, why don''t you get her married soon? She will devour every cute man in your company at this rate and never get married." Jian Kang Lu sipped his tea while bringing Bai Yutang closer to him.


    "Jian Ge, please. Look at yourself. Expired old uncle. I''m still cute as ever. No one could guess i was over 30 years old."


    "That''s the magic of plastic surgery for you."


    "Ah yes, that''s why we girls need to make money as much as possible. To spend it on our doctors."


    Auntie Zhou only waved her hands, "No need to pester my daughter to get married, Ah Lu. Why don''t you set the example first for her?"


    Wu Yajun gave the devilish smile Bai Yutang hates when she answered, "Or i can just marry you, Jian Ge. We are such a perfect couple. Expired old uncle and the plastic fairy."


    "Oh please. I still want to live a happy long life. Marrying you is the same like signing a slavery contract."


    Bai Yutang didn''t like this conversation. He lost all his sleepiness, and he wanted to hide his lover from this mischievous pretty devil.


    "Then how if i just marry you, TangTang. I envy your skin, it''s so smooth and soft. I''ll treat you well." Bai Yutang almost jumped when he felt that long perfect manicured pink nails caressing his cheek while Wu Yajun brought her body closer to him again. The smile on Wu Yajun''s face now even looks like a smile of a cruel devil queen who wants to torture her slave.


    "Don''t tease TangTang. You''ll corrupt him like you corrupt my sweet sister in law." Bai Yutang now almost had a heart attack when he felt his shoulder grabbed hard by his lover, snatching him away from this devil queen.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know what to say. He could hear his lover''s brother and sister on law laughing from his side. He doesn''t know what that laughter means.


    "Ah Jian Ge, why have you never brought TangTang before? You secretly kept him for yourself for two years. Sneaky old uncle." Wu Yajun smiling and bashing her long eyelashes perfectly framed her delicate peach blossom eyes.


    "Agreed. You should bring him on our next family lunch, Jian Ge. TangTang already promised to cook us his lemon chicken. Right, TangTang?"


    Bai Yutang could only nod his head when Jian Kang Lu''s sister in law asked him with that wide grin plastered all over her face. He didn''t reject his lover''s offer again when Jian Kang Lu told him that he wanted to show his room to Bai Yutang. He just wants to run away from this beautiful garden that turns into living hell.


    Bai Yutang felt sleepy again once he laid on the big bed. This room felt like his lover''s, but also unfamiliar at the same time. It was like looking at the imitation of his lover''s image. A place that sculpted Jian Kang Lu, but no longer depicts him.


    "Gege, you seem very close with Wu Jie." Bai Yutang doesn''t want to be jealous, but he can''t help it.


    His lover just chuckled to hear him. "Yes we''re very close. Want to see her when she was young?"


    Bai Yutang lay in bed when his lover showed him his photo album. The photos show Bai Yutang the newborn baby of Jian Kang Lu until he graduates. His lover was already handsome from when he was coming to this world until now. But he almost choked when he saw the young Wu Yajun.


    "Is this really her?" In that photo, the beautiful cute little girl was wearing a swordsman costume with her front teeth missing, smiling widely.


    Jian Kang Lu laughed, "Yes. She also once broke her arms here when we played the heroes and thief. She fell when she jumped from the sofa. Me and Ah Se grounded for one week, for not taking care of her well. Her brother got it worse, he was grounded for one month."


    Bai Yutang looked at his lover''s eyes, which were staring at him. Giving him that familiar gentle expression. Those eyes speak for his lover''s affection and he felt grateful for it.


    "So, no need to be jealous of me and her. She was like a devilish little sister for me. And you know that I''m already taken. My boyfriend was so handsome and smart, no one could compare to him in this world."


    Bai Yutang closed his eyes when he felt the soft lips of his lover touch his forehead softly.


    "TangTang, you are my world."

 Chapter 140 - What Should I Buy For My Boyfriend

    "Thank you for having me, auntie, uncle.."


    "Please come to our family lunch too. I''ll be very happy if you could come."


    Bai Yutang could only lower his head hearing Jian Kang Lu''s mother''s words, and say that he will attend the family lunch next time.


    Family lunch.


    To hear those words makes Bai Yutang happy. He hoped he was doing well today, hoped he could be accepted here in his lover''s family. Bai Yutang knew that his lover''s parents might say those words because they thought Bai Yutang was only a young man Jian Kang Lu took pity and took care of.


    Bai Yutang also knew that his lover''s parents might hate and despise him once they knew that Bai Yutang was the man their son was having a relationship with.. In this country, which parents could happily accept a man as their son''s partner? Especially a son as exceptional as Jian Kang Lu.


    Will they feel Bai Yutang betrayed them if they knew someday? Will they regret they took care and fed him today? Will they shout at him and curse him? Bai Yutang could only hope he gained more and more points to let his lover''s family accept him one day.


    The night was late, and the stars were hiding in the city''s light. The artificial neon lights outshine the stars separated by light years away. Sometimes humans only need the things convenient for them, even though it means hiding the beauty within.


    "Are you tired, baby? Why don''t you get some sleep?"


    Bai Yutang saw the lights from the street lamp outside gave the constant changing shadows in his lover''s prominent nose. His eyes still as gentle as ever though he concentrated on the road ahead, driving the car back home.


    "I''m fine, gege. Did I do well today? I want your family to like me too.."


    Bai Yutang could feel the hand of his lover caressing his cheek, and his soft voice filled his ear.


    "They love you. I told you that you''re adorable, but you never believe me."


    "Like you said to Ah Ming, your opinion is biased. I can''t trust your words, gege."


    Even though Bai Yutang said that, Jian Kang Lu smiled when he felt his hands wrapped in his kitten''s hand, and felt the soft lips of his kitten fall upon his palm.


    "One day you''ll believe me. Thank you, TangTang, for coming with me. I love you more and more, my handsome man."


    Bai Yutang closed his eyes, he''s tired. But his lips curved to form a smile comes from his happiness.


    ''You''re blind, gege. But I hope your eyes never recovered, and love me more. Just like I fell in love with you more and more each day.''


    Since then, Bai Yutang often comes to his lover''s family lunch. He was not good at handling children, but he mingled well with Ah Ming. He felt he was doing exercise worth running 40 laps of the track field when he played with that energetic jumping little ball. Now he knew why his lover''s body was sculpted well. His lover seems to have extra energy handling Ah Ming, running around playing basketball or football with him.


    Fan Mingle, Jian Kang Lu''s sister in law laughing to see Jian Kang Lu play the airplane with Ah Ming. She and Bai Yutang walk back to the kitchen, continuing cooking for lunch. Bai Yutang was responsible for finishing cooking the oxtail soup prepared by auntie Ming before in the kitchen.


    "This is why i diligently attend Sunday lunch, i could throw Ah Ming at Jian Ge and i''ll be freed for one day."


    "Ah, I missed the time when you lived here when Ah Ming was just born." Jian Kang Lu''s mother was entering and sitting in the kitchen''s corner, watching them.


    Fan Mingle only smiled to hear her mother in law. "Yes, thank you for taking care of me, mother. Maybe I''ll burden you again when we have Ah Ming''s little brother or sister."


    Bai Yutang is stirring the soup, and he can''t help to ask, "Do you plan for a second child, Fan Jie?"


    Fan Mingle was helping auntie Ming frying the salted egg shrimp. "Yes we do, maybe next year or next two year. How about you, TangTang? Do you have any girlfriend?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t know what to answer. Should he answer he had a girlfriend to avoid the suspicion of his lover''s family? Or should he say that he was single?


    "Of course a man as handsome and as smart as TangTang must have a girlfriend. Is she an architect too?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t dare to look at Jian Kang Lu''s mother when he finally answered. "I don''t have a girlfriend, auntie.."


    Jian Kang Lu''s mother clicked her tongue and her voice sounded concerned to reply to him. "You should try to look for a girlfriend from now on. Later if you''re too busy working like Ah Lu, you won''t have time to look for a girlfriend again, and you''ll be single like Ah Lu."


    The kitchen was filled with the sound of fire burning the pan and pots, the sizzling sounds from the oil met the shrimps and eggs. Bai Yutang''s heart was heavy from the guilt. He felt like a con artist scamming his lover''s family.


    The silence was cracked with Fan Mingle''s voice. "Well, if TangTang stayed single until he was old, maybe he could accompany Jian Ge and become a pair of single men together."


    The tone of Fan Mingle''s voice was the usual cheerful tone she used to tease him. Bai Yutang could only let dry laughter slip from his throat.


    "Yes it is, I think that was not a bad idea." Jian Kang Lu''s mother responded to Fan Mingle''s words.


    Bai Yutang wanted to wrap this oxtail soup as fast as he could and wanted to run away from the kitchen. His lover''s mother uses a light tone, as if she is amused by the idea. But Bai Yutang felt something was not right from both of their tones.


    "How''s your school, TangTang?"


    Bai Yutang glad Fan Mingle diverted the topic. "It''s fine, Fan Jie. I almost finished with the proposal and soon will start working in the studio."


    "How long will it take to finish your project?"


    "Mmm.. After the proposal is accepted, I need to finish it within 3 to 4 months in the studio. I try to secure my place in the studio first. Many students are fighting for the spot there. Luckily for me, the final project was prioritised to book a spot in the studio."


    "I want to see your design once you work on it. I hope you won''t be too busy to come here often. I felt Sunday lunch now was missing something if you didn''t come."


    Bai Yutang laughed, "You only need me to help you babysit Ah Ming and cooking, Fan Jie."


    "Smart boy! I like young men like you who fast to catch."


    Bai Yutang turned off the fire and poured the oxtail soup to the bowl. He was startled by Jian Kang Lu''s mother who walked and stood next to him.


    "Architects could do interior design too, right? A friend of mine was redecorating her shop. I told her about you and she wanted to ask for your opinion. Can you help her, TangTang? It was not urgent, your study still comes first."


    "Yes auntie, but my design and ability was just average. If your friend doesn''t mind my suggestion, i''d love to help."


    Jian Kang Lu''s mother gave him a smile, a smile who was not as warm as his lover, but still gave the sense of familiarity to him.


    "Then can auntie have your phone number?"


    Bai Yutang still input his phone number to Jian Kang Lu''s mother phone when Fan Mingle finished her cooking, and helped auntie Ming with the steamed haukau. The glistening transparent skin of the shrimp dumpling looked marvellous and perfect to enjoy as appetizers or snacks between the meal.


    "By the way, Jian Ge''s birthday was in another three week. Do you have any idea what to give him, TangTang?"


    Bai Yutang felt his headache was back once he heard Fan Mingle''s question. He was already thinking hard about what to gift since one month ago. He had his savings, and was thinking of giving his lover a new belt. But last week his lover bought a matching belt for them when they went to the mall for their monthly grocery shopping.


    "Mmm.. I am also confused, Fan Jie.. I was thinking of buying a gunpla or belt.. But Jian Ge''s collection of gunpla was out of my budget. And Jian Ge also bought a new belt already. I was thinking of seeking advice from you."


    "I was the one who wanted to ask you. You live with him, don''t you have any idea what he wants? What he needs lately? Kang Se used to give him concert tickets or travelling vouchers. But we already gave him that for more than 5 years. I was thinking of giving him something different this year."


    Bai Yutang felt his stomach ulcer coming back right at this moment. He already has sharp pain in his stomach lately, the result of wrapping his proposal as soon as he could, and also busy investigating what his lover wants to have this year.


    Unfortunately his lover was not helping him at all. All his lover ever told him that his lover wants him. Especially when his lover suddenly groping him in the middle of the night and begging him to have a quick love making session.


    Bai Yutang sighed. What should he buy for a perfect boyfriend who seems to have it all?

 Chapter 141 - Birthday Card

    Jian Kang Lu missed his kitten so much. His kitten had started doing his final project in the studio for the past one week. His kitten just comes back home before him, sometimes even Jian Kang Lu reaches home first. Last Wednesday Jian Kang Lu even waited for his kitten in the campus for more than three hours to pick him up and have dinner together.


    Jian Kang Lu missed his kitten''s cooking. Since his kitten is busy, they only have simple breakfast. Dinner now always eats outside or delivered to their apartment. Jian Kang Lu prefers his kitten to eat on time, but he can''t help to be selfish and let his kitten eat his dinner late, adjusting Jian Kang Lu''s dinner time.


    Jian Kang Lu has been thinking, at this rate his kitten will just tire himself out. He needs to think about something to reduce his kitten''s burden. He also worries that his kitten took public transportation late at night.


    His kitten was gaining his weight back, but only one week in the studio and Jian Kang Lu could see his kitten start to lose his weight again. His kitten also started to stay late, lock himself in the guest bedroom which turned into his kitten''s personal studio again.


    Tonight is Friday night, and his kitten savored the hot beef la mien noodle broth in a very cute manner. Jian Kang Lu still locked his eyes looking at his kitten slurping the soup before his kitten stared at him back.


    "Your noodles will get saggy if you keep looking at me, gege. Does the noodle not suit your taste?"


    The noodle is okay though, even if this noodle stall was small and just a regular stall in the street near T university. Jian Kang Lu starts to eat his noodles again.


    "You know I like everything when I eat with you. Why don''t you order for some more beef and egg? Did you not eat well, TangTang? I see you lost your weight again."


    "I eat, gege. This is enough, no need to order again. By the way, can we have a date tomorrow?"


    Jian Kang Lu felt his heart sink for a moment. This is one thing he felt guilty for his kitten. Unlike regular couples, they actually didn''t have many dates outside. Their date only consists of watching movies on Wednesday night, and having dinner outside on Saturday night.


    Jian Kang Lu is sometimes afraid of his kitten getting bored with him. Just like many doctor''s partners out there, most of their complaints were that the partner was the one who needed to adjust their schedule.


    "Yes of course. I''ll finish my Saturday round by lunchtime. Do you want to go somewhere?"


    His kitten chewed the noodle, with his pale pink lips shining from the noodle soup. Sometimes Jian Kang Lu felt ashamed of himself. Why he always thinks his kitten is a sexy enchantress who keeps bewitching him and his brother down there.


    "I want to go to the ginkgo road. After that we could have dinner. Can we, gege?"


    Jian Kang Lu knows ginkgo road. They agreed and went there on Saturday afternoon. Lots of young couples are enjoying the scenery over there. The gingko road beauty captured many photography enthusiasts as well as art lovers looking for inspiration, for their next creation.


    There are tall ginkgo trees planting over the path. In autumn, the leaves become golden garden trees. Winds, leaves the fireflies as a small fan, scratched into the whereabouts. At this point the perspective of the vision looked like a long path, as if into autumn paradise.


    This beautiful simple scenery makes a good spot for Jian Kang Lu to take pictures of his kitten. He can''t express his happiness when his kitten took the phone and took a lot of their selfies here. His kitten didn''t mind holding his hands, did not care about other''s eyes looking at them.


    They enjoy the yellow leaves that paved the road while talking about random things. The neat two rows of gingko trees become the highlight of autumn in the B city. The crowds are crowded, but not too disturbing for them enjoying the afternoon breeze.


    There''s a guesthouse here which has 800 years of history. The emperor of the Jin dynasty built a pavilion for fishing here. This ancient royal retreat was then selected as the venue for garden style state guesthouse.


    Nowadays not only the state''s VIP guests could stay here, but regular people also could make their bookings here, to select from 20 villas spread conveniently all over the place. Each villa is surrounded by lakes, bridges, beautiful gardens and waterfalls. Jian Kang Lu felt that they should just stay here for the night, but his kitten rejected his idea.


    "Maybe next time, gege. Let''s come here again and spend the night, but not today."


    They have their dinner at the famous restaurant near the gingko road. It was a traditional style restaurant packed with people. Jian Kang Lu held his kitten''s thin shoulder to prevent people from bumping into his lovely kitten.


    The dinner itself was not a romantic dinner style, but the food is marvellous. Jian Kang Lu has only eaten here twice before, and his kitten never tried this restaurant. The taste of authentic B city fried noodles and the eight treasures rice was warmly filled their stomach. This restaurant also had their famous authentic local snacks.


    "You like the noodles, TangTang? I remember my father used to say this place offered the best noodles in B city."


    From his kitten''s expression, Jian Kang Lu knows that his kitten loved it. Today is an ordinary date just like a regular couple does it. Jian Kang Lu is happy. He hoped after his kitten finished his study, maybe he could take some leave and go for holiday with his kitten in a tropical country. Beaches are good, mountains too. Everywhere is good to go with his kitten.


    They reach home at 9 o''clock. Jian Kang Lu felt even more guilty when he groped his kitten butt and was rejected by his kitten. He just realised they did not have a proper Saturday date since his kitten gave him his whole body. All he did was just groping and pouncing on his kitten the whole day on Saturday and Sunday night.


    Jian Kang Lu tried to calm himself and get his brother down there to silently shrink itself. His kitten cruelly rejected him but still bathed him. This is not helping him at all. Jiang Kang Lu thought to himself.


    ''Let''s just sleep, and don''t you dare to think of ravaging TangTang right now.''


    Jian Kang Lu looking at his kitten who sleep soundly in his arms. His kitten''s eyelashes may not be long beautiful eyelashes that frame those phoenix eyes properly. But nevertheless, it still stirred many emotions inside him. Jian Kang Lu was drowsy and fell asleep before he awoken by a soft buzz vibration from his kitten''s phone.


    At first he thought it was a phone call to his kitten. Jian Kang Lu grabbed the phone to check. Calls come at this hour usually relay bad news to the owner of the phone. But then Jian Kang Lu awoke and smiled to see his kitten''s phone.


    ''Gege''s birthday''


    Jian Kang Lu remembers that today is his birthday, and he is also looking forward to midnight cake like last year. His kitten was still asleep in his arms. It seems he is truly tired. Jian Kang Lu was torn between waking his kitten up or letting his kitten sleep for more.


    But he chose to wake his kitten up, since he himself will also regret and hate himself if he fell asleep on his kitten''s birthday.


    "TangTang, baby.. Wake up.. Your phone''s alarm was ringing.. Don''t you want to say happy birthday to me?"


    Jian Kang Lu woke his kitten up by kissing him all over his face. His kitten slowly awakened and looked at him with drowsy eyes. Jian Kang Lu swears no man on earth could be this cute when they just awoke in the middle of the night.


    "Mmm.. Why, gege?"


    "Your alarm.. It said my birthday here.."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled to see his kitten startled and abruptly stood himself. His drowsy eyes were changed into an embarrassed and disappointed look.


    "Happy birthday, gege.. Ahh.. Why did you wake up first before me? Wait here.."


    Jian Kang Lu sat in the bed, propped himself up. He smiled to see his kitten''s clumsy feet running to the kitchen and came back with a small cake with one tiny candle lit up above it. His kitten''s voice was still hoarse from his sleepy state, but still managed to softly sing happy birthday to him.


    Jian Kang Lu uttered his wish before he blew the candle. Just like last year, his wish is simple, and he hoped he could spend every birthday in the future like this. With his kitten, together.


    His kitten gave him a light peck on the lips before he presented his birthday gift.


    "I don''t know what to give you, gege. But i hope you like this.."


    Jian Kang Lu looked at the small rectangular box wrapped in blue and golden colour. He carefully unwrapped it and almost choked to see what is inside.


    "Wow.. TangTang, do you know what''s inside this? Where did my naughty boyfriend have ideas to give me this marvellous birthday present?"


    Their bedroom was set to have a warm dimmed light. Jian Kang Lu chuckled to see his kitten''s face blushed and stuttering.


    "I looked on the internet and bought it online. It said this is good to know your partner better."


    "Mmm.. True, I think I could explore you better with these cards. Let''s open and play it."


    Jian Kang Lu opened the red pack with tiny gold hearts in the corner of the pack, and took the deck of cards before shuffling it. He took one and his lips formed a wide grin to read of what was written on the card.


    "TangTang, I have to say this is the best birthday gift i ever receive. Since this is my birthday, and this is your present, I assume you won''t reject whatever is written on this card, right?"


    Bai Yutang was confused, why his lover saw him like a predator looking at his prey. His birthday gift was cards with questions between lovers. The online shop who sold it claimed that this was the best way to know your partner better. It should contain questions like childhood best memories, or favourite singer when you''re in high school, or illegal activities they did in their youth. Questions that let you and your partner open their hidden secrets.


    "I''ll answer it truthfully, gege. What is it?"


    Jian Kang Lu wanted to laugh, looking at his kitten''s confused looks, it seems his kitten didn''t know what this card meant. He shows the card to his kitten while reading it slowly.


    "I drew the show time card. This is my birthday, so you have to do it for me. Here it says give your partner one sexy show and striptease for 5 minutes."

 Chapter 142 - The Art Of Seduction (NSFW)

    Jian Kang Lu tried his best to put on a calm expression, and pull his famous doctor''s smile when he saw his kitten panicking. His kitten even ran to look at his online shopping history in his computer, trying to see which part was mistaken to send this heavenly birthday gift.


    "How could I click the wrong item? It was supposed to be this one, gege." His kitten shows him the relationship cards which are supposed to be his original birthday gift.


    "Mmm? But i like this gift better.. Are you saying that you want to retract this gift? On my birthday?"


    Jian Kang Lu really tried his best to put his dejected face and laughed inside to see his flustered kitten. It was fun to tease his kitten who panicked over the wrong ordered gift. At first Jian Kang Lu was shocked to see the cards, but then as predicted, it was a wrong order by his kitten. If it was the right gift, Jian Kang Lu wanted to worship whoever gave this corrupt idea to his pure kitten.


    Right when Jian Kang Lu took pity over his poor kitten and wanted to say that it was okay to keep the card, his kitten came over him with head lowered and his soft low voice barely audible, shaking Jian Kang Lu''s world..


    "T-Then.. D-Dont laugh at me while i do that.."


    Jian Kang Lu''s smiling face was frozen and his mouth slightly opened, he couldn''t believe what he heard.


    "It''s.. It''s only 5 minutes, right? C-Can I study it first? I-I never even saw a s-striptease show, gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu could imagine what kind of expression his kitten is wearing right now. An embarrassed face, but still he can''t believe his kitten agreed to do this. If he was a truly good guy, he would hold his kitten right now and told him that having his kitten right now is already the best birthday gift he ever had.


    But unfortunately, he was not that good. How could the beast inside him could leave this golden opportunity slipped from his grip?


    Jian Kang Lu loves any kind of arts. Once he spent two days full looking at the paintings in the Louvre museum. He also loves music, concerts, and dancing shows also. He likes watching ballet and Broadway shows too.


    Striptease can be considered as one of the arts. If you''ve ever been to a strip club, you''ll know the difference between striptease as art and striptease as naked jiggling around. Striptease as an arts works on their teasing and seductive ways of using their body to express their confidence. The thrill is in the anticipation, not the action.


    Jian Kang Lu visited a luxurious strip club with his friends in his youth, and he enjoyed it even though he was not aroused. It was fun and nice to look at those beauties taunting their confidence and looking down at those horny dogs who craved over them, or appreciation from the art lover such as himself. The luxurious strip club didn''t allow the audience to touch their dancer, unless the dancer herself came to them.


    But now, only to imagine how his kitten will grant him the best birthday gift he ever had, Jian Kang Lu''s inner beast is already roaring in the anticipation. He can''t even respond well to his kitten''s words, nor could prevent his kitten running away from their bedroom in the name of trying to search for striptease shows as references.


    Jian Kang Lu finally stands up and walks out from the bedroom, trying to find his kitten when it''s already 10 minutes since his kitten ran away from him. Jian Kang Lu had managed to tame the beast inside him, and he decided to be a gentleman. If his kitten was not comfortable with his request, then it was not necessary.


    Jian Kang Lu wanted to laugh and was also scared at the same time when he found the studio or guest room was locked inside. He knocked the door lightly.


    "TangTang.. Baby.. Come out.. I''m sorry. You don''t have to do it if it is not comfortable for you. Let''s just sleep, okay? I''m happy to spend my birthday with you, and that was enough."


    A moment later his kitten opened the door. His face was red and some beads of sweat formed in his temples. His kitten lowered his face and not letting Jian Kang Lu see his face.


    "No, it''s my gift.. If you don''t mind, gege.. I-I.. I can do it. P-Please wait in the room. And please c-close your eyes until I say you c-can o-open it."


    Jian Kang Lu walked back to the bedroom and obediently closed his eyes. In the dark, he didn''t know how many minutes passed before he heard the bedroom door opened. From his kitten''s steps, he predicted his kitten walking to the closet and doing something there.


    Honestly, Jian Kang Lu''s little brother is not little anymore right now. His dirty mind flies around to imagine the show he will enjoy soon. He heard the sound of the chair moving, and then a melody filled their warm bedroom. It seems his kitten took the bluetooth speaker from his studio and used it to play a song.


    It''s a song from Michael Buble, Feeling Good. The soft and husky voice of the world class singer filled the room, painting a sensual tone in the atmosphere.


    "You c-can open y-your eyes, gege¡­"


    The lid of Jian Kang Lu''s eyes opened, and he choked to see what''s laid in front of him. His kitten wearing the suit tailored perfectly to his body, a gift from Jian Kang Lu last year. The black suit paired with white suit and a dark red tie. Jian Kang Lu knows that tie, it was his. To imagine something belonging to him wrapped his kitten''s neck was giving a different sensation tickling his inner desire.


    His kitten was definitely not a dancer, and might not be talented at it. But he tried his best to move his body even though his face looked embarrassed and wanted to cry. Other strippers will show a lustful face, try to seduce their audience. But his kitten''s face makes Jian Kang Lu''s beast have another idea.


    It never occurred to him that looking at his poor kitten looking trampled and humiliated was a very highly effective aphrodisiac to him. How it gives illusion to Jian Kang Lu to tie him up and torture his kitten with pleasure until those phoenix eyes filled with tears, begging for him.


    His kitten slowly moved, circling the chair. He danced with an unsynchronised move, flapping his arms and legs, but Jian Kang Lu can''t take his eyes away from him.


    Should it be another person watching this show, definitely they will laugh rolling at the floor to see this amateur dancer do his best to move his hips in a very stiff movement. His kitten took off the suit and threw it to Jian Kang Lu''s lap.


    Jian Kang Lu even forgot to close his wide opened mouth. Not even in his wildest dream he could ever imagine this kind of thing could happen to him. He is grateful he is still alive until this moment, to finally know what it means to be happy beyond heaven and earth.


    Jian Kang Lu''s eyes not even blinked when he saw his kitten loosened the tie, but not yet took it off. His kitten''s slender finger slowly moved and unbuttoned the shirt one by one. Jian Kang Lu could only swallow his saliva to realise that his kitten was wearing his shirt. The oversized shirt was hanging loose in his kitten''s body, and revealed his white soft skin underneath.


    His kitten only unbuttoned the top three buttons, and left the others attached to his body. That way, Jian Kang Lu could only see his kitten''s nipples in a brief moment, when his kitten swayed his body. It is enough to fry his brain, dismantle his mind''s functionality. Not mentioning when his kitten sat in the chair, showing his back and supple butts swaying in the chair, teasing Jian Kang Lu''s freezed neurons.


    His kitten moved to the table, leaning on them. He slowly unzipped his pants, and let the pants loosened. It was dropped to his feet, revealing the slim white thighs and legs Jian Kang Lu loved so much. Jian Kang Lu can''t count how many times he bit and sucked those thighs and calf when they made love.


    The whole time his kitten dances, he never looks at Jian Kang Lu. Right when the song passed the 2nd verse, his kitten walked slowly towards him. Jian Kang Lu sat still like a statue on the edge of their bed for the whole show. His hands automatically raised to grab that slim waist of his naughty kitten once his kitten was standing in front of him. Groping the slim waist who looked easily bent under his arms.


    "You''re not allowed to touch the dancer, gege.. Please remove your hands."


    His kitten''s soft voice was not stuttering, but still it contained a hint of shame his kitten felt. Jian Kang Lu didn''t know where his kitten got that naughty line, but he obediently removed his hand, put it on his side, propped his body to lean on the bed a little bit. His eyes staring hungrily at those white smooth chest swaying in a slow movement in front of him.


    The view is enough to send all the blood flow rushed into his lower abdomen. He could feel his lower member heated and twitching, can''t wait to pounce this seductive kitten.


    His kitten turned his back, and slowly pulled off his underwear in front of his eyes. Jian Kang Lu could only stare hard at those naked butts which he could only imagine, since the oversized shirt of him covering his kitten''s bare skin.


    This position shows him a tiny glimpse of his kitten''s butts and lower member. He could see his kitten was in full embarrassment and didn''t arouse to dance in front of him. From that short moment he could see his kitten''s lower member still laid docile and swaying, following his kitten''s hips movement.


    How Jian Kang Lu wants to grab his kitten, and swallow his kitten''s little shaft. Lick it from the tip to the base, suck it slowly. It will be very sensual to feel those limp dicks grow inside his wet and warm mouth, dancing under his tongue''s command.


    The song will soon end, his kitten turning his back again. He naughtily unbuttoned the rest of the shirt''s button, which still covered his bare stomach. Once the shirt is fully unbuttoned, it reveals his kitten''s smooth body, along with his kitten''s most private part displayed right in front of Jian Kang Lu''s eyes.


    The red tie is still loosely hanging there, covering some of his kitten''s bare skin. It gives Jian Kang Lu a seductive sensation. He wanted to grab that tie and fucked his kitten hard. His kitten slowly raised his right knee to the bed. The hands of his kitten use Jian Kang Lu''s stiff shoulder to let him kneel above Jian Kang Lu.


    Jian Kang Lu wishes his kitten knew how hard he tried to hold his hands, not to ravage his kitten right now. He hoped his kitten will admire his strong will to let his kitten torture him like this.


    Once his kitten kneel on top of him, Jian Kang Lu could feel his kitten limp dick slowly grow and touch Jian Kang Lu''s chest. Too bad there''s still a T-Shirt Jian Kang Lu wearing right now, preventing his skin from feeling his kitten''s soft tip. It makes Jian Kang Lu want to strip himself.


    His kitten slowly slid his white oversized shirt over his shoulder, pulled it off, and threw it on the floor. Right now, the only thing covering his kitten''s smooth naked body was only the red tie which loosened, hanging on his kitten''s slender beautiful neck.


    The song came to an end, and his kitten wrapped his arms around Jian Kang Lu''s neck.


    "Are you satisfied with your birthday gift, gege?"

 Chapter 143 - Please, Don’t Squeezed Me (NSFW)

    Is Jian Kang Lu satisfied? His kitten will never know how big turbulence inside Jian Kang Lu''s mind right now, a result of that destructive seductive dance of his kitten.


    Okay, Jian Kang Lu had to admit even if his kitten only breathed it already aroused him. Not mentioning his kitten lively moved his body around him like this. And most of all, his kitten has never done this kind of thing before. Not even think about it. His kitten only does this and endure his embarrassment just for his sake.


    That thought alone makes Jian Kang Lu fall deeper for the alluring man kneeling above him. How Jian Kang Lu wants to unleash the beast inside him, and just pull his kitten body down. Put his long hard shaft inside that tight hole. Fuck him until both of them can''t move anymore.


    "Thank you, baby. This is the best birthday I ever had for my whole life.. Thank you."


    Jian Kang Lu cupped his kitten''s cheek and pressed their lips together, letting the sparks fly and wake his previous totally blank mind. Regain his composure after being bewitched for the last 5 minutes from his kitten''s dance.


    Jian Kang Lu kissed those moist, somewhat cold lips. The touch was breathtaking, don''t care how many times he kissed this beautiful soft lips, it was always bringing him to the abyss of pleasure. His hands caressed the smooth firm skin of his kitten back, feeling his kitten''s body turn tensed under his touch.


    Jian Kang Lu licked his kitten''s earlobe, hand not remaining idle either. His hands skilfully kneaded the soft muscle of his kitten''s tiny waist. He could feel his kitten trembling slightly. Jian Kang Lu caresses the contour of his kitten''s toned body. It was really good to be young. His kitten was so smooth, soft like silk under his touch.


    Bai Yutang could not stand the stimulation of hot and wet muscles on his ears, his body tensed, and his hands clenched into fists. He can''t help to let his voice softly form an alluring sound. He could feel his lover''s hands rubbing the back of his neck, caught his ears, and rubbed against the soft skin behind it. Bai Yutang is trembling under it.


    Jian Kang Lu could hear his kitten''s heavy breath softly tickling his shoulder. There''s something hard down there poking his abdomen. Jian Kang Lu took his time, letting his hands just slightly touch the skin of his kitten, teasing it like gliding a feather all over his kitten''s body.


    The suppressed eagerness was finally overflowing for Bai Yutang. As if a boiling water was hotter and bubbling, the water about to burn out, vaporising and tormenting him.


    Jian Kang Lu moved his body further from his kitten, his hands moved and held onto his kitten''s tiny wrist. His kitten was skinny, thus his wrist looked like a branch of young trees. It felt so hot under his touch, as if the water was going to evaporate soon.


    He slowly put his kitten into the bed. Looking at the man he loved the most lying under him, with the pink blossomed all over his cheek, lovingly gaze at him.


    Jian Kang Lu moved his body closer, and lightly touched his kitten''s soft lips. He pecked it lightly to convey how he cared about him. As if handling a fragile porcelain easy to shattered with just a careless touch. The gentleness then gradually changed when his tongue opened that slightly parted lips, kissing it again carefully.


    The sound of the melody still playing, filled their room with a seductive melody, bringing what''s lingering from his kitten''s art of seduction.


    Fish in the sea


    You know how I feel


    River running free


    You know how I feel


    Blossom on a tree


    You know how I feel


    Bai Yutang tried to control his breath, but it was no avail. Under the caress of his lover''s kiss, the rise and fall of his chest gradually become more rapid. He was smaller compared to his lover''s well built posture. His lover could easily trap him, cover him. The man held him in his hot arms, kissed him lightly before asking for more.


    It''s a new dawn


    It''s a new day


    It''s a new life


    For me


    And I''m feeling good


    Bai Yutang raised his hands and didn''t want to let him be the only one who felt good. He caressed his lover''s body, carefully touching it even though he knew his trembling hands could not do the job properly. He was already naked, only the red tie still left on his bare skin.


    Jian Kang Lu released himself from his kitten. He took the lube and condoms from the drawer beside their bed. He stared at his trembling prey under him. He took off his shirt and threw it somewhere. Then he brings himself down, kissing his kitten''s neck, his clavicle, letting his lips wander around before sucking his kitten''s chest. Brand him again. Felt that humid and hot skin under his tongue, taste that soft salty velvety texture.


    He kissed him, rubbed him, for a long time. His sleepiness had already gone away. Jian Kang Lu could not contain his fierce passion, his scalp numbed, blood gushed in his brain.


    "TangTang.. I love you.. So much.."


    Bai Yutang could only grab his lover''s hair, and flinched every time his lover''s wet tongue touched his sensitive spot. His head was dizzy. He could feel his lover took his trembling hands, clasped with his ten fingers. Felt his lover''s burning and vigorous breath sprayed on his bare skin.


    "You''re so sexy.. I want to eat you.."


    Bai Yutang''s burning desire was teased for a long time. He could feel his lower body was so swollen and hot. He felt as if he was in tormenting pain, wanting to make himself feel even better under his lover''s body.


    His lover moved slower, but finally he got what he wanted. It was so ecstatic to feel his tormented hard standing member wrapped in the warm mouth of his beloved one, and sucked lightly. His lover''s teeth were carefully folded.


    Bai Yutang could hear himself breathe and gasp. He looked at his lover down there. His lover raised his eyes, looked at him gently and even indulgently.


    "Ah.. Gege.. It felt so good.."


    His lover deeply sucked, deepthroating him. The stimulation was so great for Bai Yutang. He could only lie in the bed, opening his legs and hardly breathing. His eyes scattered, gradually losing focus.


    His lover sucked him, went back and forth several times, withdrew, with his lips hung with a silk of lust. His lips lightly touched Bai Yutang''s sensitive part, his tips and the skin under the head. His lover teasing him with a mastery move of tongue dancing.


    "Baby, i know you like it here.."


    Jian Kang lu licked his kitten''s plump and round stem. The tip of his tongue was clever and rough, rubbed through the place his kitten''s was most vulnerable. He could hear his kitten rusty breath leaking out. He sucked him again, imitated the rhythm of pull back and forth to please his kitten.


    His hands slowly reached for the lube and skilfully squeezed the inside onto his fingers, bringing it to moisten his kitten''s tiny hole. He could feel his kitten''s slender fingers submerged in the back of his head, running through his hair.


    "Gege.. I.. Ahh.. Don''t.. I haven''t cleaned myself.."


    "I love you.. Everywhere I touch, it''s the best. And you''re not dirty.."


    Jian Kang Lu said that before buried his head and continued to lick, suck his kitten''s trembling shaft. His fingers slowly thrust into that tiny hole, smearing the sticky lube all over it, and felt the hot inside his kitten''s tight hole. Jian Kang Lu took his time to loosened his kitten.


    Bai Yutang''s world soon filled with spark. He grabbed his lover, he didn''t want to cum this soon.


    "Gege.. Ah.. Stop.. Gege.."


    His lover granted him what he wished. His lover slid his hot tongue upwards, back to suck his nipples, bite it lightly and let Bai Yutang''s body tremble from the electrified feeling every time his lover''s fingers run through his sensitive spot inside his hole.


    He wants it. He wants it so bad. Bai Yutang''s trembling hands try to undress his lover. How unfair, his lover is still wearing pants while he is already naked since he gifted his lover with that embarrassing dance. Only God knows why his lover''s still aroused with him even though he was sure that his dance was a total failure.


    Finally his lover looked like he couldn''t hold himself anymore. Bai Yutang looked at those dark eyes, full with lust, and knew exactly what his lover would do. His lover''s pants were thrown somewhere, and he propped himself upon him. His lover''s swollen member looked angrily standing and ready to pounce him. His lover tore the condoms and put it hastily on his own hard member.


    "You look so sexy, baby.. I want to tore you apart.."


    Not even waiting until his word fully said, Bai Yutang felt his hole intruded by that round head of penis. His lover stuffed himself into him slowly, feeling its length hardening and growing bigger.


    Propping one of his kitten''s legs over his shoulder, Jian Kang Lu kissed his damp leg and started moving his hips. He could see his kitten''s eyes grew wide and when they made eye contact, his cheeks glowed red. Jian Kang Lu lowered his gaze down and he could see his kitten''s body tightly squeeze his.


    He had spilled a generous amount of lube into his kitten but his insides were still very tight, making his own member choked and squeezed. His kitten''s hole is really dangerous for him. Even though it was still very tight, his kitten did his best to take in most of his length into his body this time.


    Jian Kang Lu slid out only slightly, then continued to push himself into his kitten. The space insides felt hot and moist. Every time their skin rubbed against each other, he enjoyed the pleasurable sensations.


    "Argh¡­ Gege¡­ Aah¡­."


    Weak moans slipped out of Bai Yutang''s lips. He was frowned when he felt the familiar slight pain when he was intruded at first. But the pain was subtle, it was kind of pleasurable. The way his lover''s firm member rammed into his hole had every intention of sending his senses to the heavens. The gradually rising ecstasy was amazing. Whenever his lover thrust himself completely into him, Bai Yutang''s body would shiver from head to toe.


    "Ah.. Don''t stop.. Gege.. Please.."


    It was like his body was sinking in deep. He felt weak but filled by something. He had almost climaxed already, so his body was very sensitive. Every time he rubbed against his sensitive spot inside, a jolting sensation shot through his whole body. He could only curl his toes under this sea of pleasure.


    "God, TangTang.. Please stop squeezing.. You''ll break me.."


    His kitten didn''t have any techniques, but his taste was just too good. Jian Kang Lu''s body heated up seeing his hazy tearful eyes. His kitten''s body movements were minimal. Even so, he wasn''t merely acting, but responding truly based on how he was feeling. Jian Kang Lu could feel his sweat rolling down to his back.


    "Fuck, It''s so hot inside you, baby.. Ughh.."

 Chapter 144 - Unquenched Thirst (NSFW)

    Jian Kang Lu didn''t want to pull out from the heated cave he was pounding inside his kitten. At the same time, he wanted to slide out and thrust in with all the bubbling desire he suppressed since he saw his kitten''s lewd hips swaying in front of his eyes while undressing himself slowly.


    Jian Kang Lu tried to hold this contradictive hunger and moved his hips into a circle to stimulate his kitten furthermore, where his kitten responded as if by reflex. His kitten''s insides tightened while sucking him in and massaging his member.


    Jian Kang Lu took deep breaths, doing his best to prevent himself from climaxing. His kitten was truly a deadly succubus incarnation. His kitten''s lips were slightly parted and Jian Kang Lu could see the tip of his tongue. He craved to taste that wet pink muscle peeked shyly under those soft petals. Those seductive lips uttering his name, and moaning under each thrust. He wrapped his arms around his kitten''s shoulders and waist then lifted his body up.


    "Ngh... Ah.. Gege.. Akh.."


    Jian Kang Lu pulled his kitten closer so that they were face to face while he softly supported the back of his kitten''s head, and kissed his soft lips while sucking on his wet tongue. His kitten flexible tongue seemed docile and not responded to him well, only opened to let Jian Kang Lu prying wildly inside and rubbing it surface rudely. However, Jian Kang Lu continued to dance with it while pressing and lightly nibbling on it.


    His kitten''s hazy eyes were unfocused, but he tried to return the dance well. While Jian Kang Lu continued to chase after his kitten''s tongue, he enjoyed the game of conquering his kitten''s tiny mouth. This whole time, he was squeezing his kitten''s soft and supple buttocks as he kept moving his hips, pounding into his tight hole.


    Their salivas mixed and he enjoyed exploring every little corner of his kitten''s mouth. It tasted sweet, and he never got bored of it. Jian Kang Lu only parted his lips from his kitten''s mouth when his kitten pressed his hands against his chest.


    "Hhaa¡­ Hhaa¡­"


    His kitten''s lips seemed a bit swollen as he gasped for breath. Jian Kang Lu lightly kissed the top of his beloved kitten''s lips, his nose tip, his smooth cheek, and down to bite his kitten''s neck. It was damp, salty with his kitten''s sweat rolling down from their intimate struggling.


    "I love your smell, baby.. Why do you smell so good?"


    His kitten dropped his gaze down. Their naked bodies were twisted together and the moment he became conscious of their state, he got incredibly embarrassed. This is the first time he was on top of Jian Kang Lu while pounding at this unsteady pace. He wanted to move his hips as his instinct told him too, but his body and his mind were too muddled to move.


    Bai Yutang even more embarrassed and aroused in this position, he could feel his lover''s hard member filled him full, to the deepest part of his body. He could only let his hands circling on his lover''s neck and letting him slowly thrusting inside him, he was sitting on top of Jian Kang Lu, letting his lover suck his neck. He could feel the hotness and slight pleasurable pain from the place his lover marked him.


    Jian Kang Lu''s right hands moved to play with the pink bud of his kitten. It was already protruding high and a little bit swollen from his previous bite and suck. He enjoys every movement of his hands touching these lewd nipples makes his kitten moan under his touch.


    "Angh.. Gege.. Stop.."


    His kitten''s body reacted in such a lewd way that it seemed like he wouldn''t be able to survive without Jian Kang Lu''s touch. With more sexual entangling, he found his kitten''s nipples getting more and more sensitive under his caress. In this whole world, only Jian Kang Lu knew of his kitten''s lewd nature. For some reason, Jian Kang Lu was very satisfied with that fact. He can''t bear the imagination of someone else who could see how inviting his kitten''s state in the bedroom.


    Jian Kang Lu let his kitten lie down once more, and turn his kitten''s body. This time, instead of face to face, he laid his kitten so his kitten''s chest laid on the bed with his hips raised high. Jian Kang Lu put some more lube on his hardened member and rub it on his kitten''s twitching hole.


    "You felt so good, baby.. I felt this is must be my best birthday if i can just fuck you whole night like this."


    Jian Kang Lu grabbed those supple butts and kneaded it roughly before entering his kitten''s hole in one quick and deep thrust.


    "Akh¡­ Gege!"


    His kitten''s scream was muffled under their bed, his hands were grabbing the quilt like his life depended on it. Jian Kang Lu watched how his kitten ragged breath hardened under each thrust he did. He holds his kitten''s hips and adjusts his kitten''s body so he won''t slip out from his beastly thrust. Jian Kang Lu felt hot, his sweat rolling under his back. Burning from his kitten''s lewd tight hole.


    Jian Kang Lu stimulated a different place with each thrust he aimed in a different direction. He sometimes only thrust a little, and other times he thrust in deeply. Letting his kitten drown in pleasure. He felt his kitten''s body tensed under him.


    "Gege.. Ah.. Ahh.. I.. I''m cumming.. Stop.. Akh!"


    Jian Kang Lu stroked his kitten''s hardened member. He know his kitten could come just from anal penetration, and it will exhaust his kitten if he stimulate both way. Even though he wants to fuck his kitten more, but this is already past midnight, and his kitten was tired.


    He rubbed those hard hot shafts and stimulated the wet tips of his kitten. His kitten scream muffled on the pillow he was laid upon, and his knuckle whitened from gripping the quilt too tight. Soon he felt his kitten sprayed those thick liquid under his arms.


    Jian Kang Lu rolled his kitten over. He needs to finish himself, and he wants to see his kitten while he does that. Look at him, kiss him, when he reaches his climax. He rubbed his own member hard, he also almost at his limit. He pulled the condom out and rubbed it even faster while plundering his kitten''s wet mouth.


    "Mmm.. TangTang.. TangTang.. Ugh!!!"


    Jian Kang Lu let his body fall upon his kitten, feeling their sticky body enveloped with those musky scent comes from both of their liquid. He kisses his kitten over and over again.


    "I love you.. I love you so much, baby.."


    ¡ª¡ª¡ª


    When Bai Yutang''s consciousness returned to him, he wasn''t sure whether he had woken up from a dream or whether he had woken up after fainting. His head was numb and his body sluggish. When his dull senses sharpened, he could hear soft breaths in his ear.


    Bai Yutang could feel his lover''s firm chest against his back. His lover was hugging him tightly from behind, just like everyday he does. One hand wrapped his hips, while his other hand was grasping his chest. His lover''s every breath tickled his neck.


    One of his lover''s legs had laid on top of his own thighs and it was as if his lover wanted to fused Bai Yutang''s body inside him. Additionally, his lover''s aroused and firm member was resting against his buttocks. Bai Yutang didn''t know how his lover''s member could be half aroused like this while he was still sleeping soundly.


    Sunshine was spilling in from between the curtains and it seemed that some time had passed already. Bai Yutang guessed it was already past 6 am. He had always woken up early in the morning, and he knows it''s time to make breakfast for both of them.


    Bai Yutang thought he could make light seaweed and tofu soup, and white rice today. He always wants to cook noodles for his lover''s birthday, but since this is Sunday, his lover will have his longevity noodles at his parent''s house today.


    When he carefully tried to slip out of his lover''s hold, he felt his lover''s arm tighten and pull him back into his embrace. He felt his lover''s moist lips lightly kiss his nape.


    "Gege.."


    "Mmmhh.."


    Bai Yutang could feel his lover''s lips not only lightly kiss, but start to run his tongue and teeth, biting his neck from behind. Moved to his earlobe, nibbling it lightly.


    "Gege.. Please.. I need to cook our breakfast."


    Bai Yutang felt his ears were damp and hot, and his little brother down there slowly hardened along with each brushed from his lover''s tongue. At this rate, they will have sex as their breakfast. He could hear his lover''s sulky voice was raspy, whispering in his ear.


    "I don''t want to."


    His lover''s lips continued to kiss his ear, his nape and his shoulders. His kisses moved slowly, but they were deep. They stung a little, causing his own desire to rise and swelled under each bite. His lower member now hardened too, and he unconsciously released seductive moans filled Jian Kang Lu''s eardrum.


    "Ahh.. Gege.. Bre-Breakfast.. Ahh.."


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t pay any heed to Bai Yutang''s plea, and fondled his kitten''s chest. He rubbed his rigid member against his kitten''s buttock, enjoying his trembling from the stimulation. He wanted to continue teasing and touching his kitten. As if he was thrusting into him, Jian Kang Lu moved his hips up and down against him.


    "Nghhh.. Ahh.."


    Those small muffled moans from his kitten''s tiny lips while huffing. Jian Kang Lu smiled, he sucked his kitten back then decided to rise up. He reached for the lube beside their bed, and squeezed a generous amount to his kitten''s hole. Holding onto his kitten''s tiny waist, Jian Kang Lu pressed his firm member against his butt, while gradually sliding his member into his swollen, slippery, and sensitive entrance.


    "Angh! Ge-Gege.."


    His kitten''s fingers tightly grasped the bed sheets. Jian Kang Lu''s member slowly entered and slid out fast, then pounded back into him. Whenever he thrusted in and out, his kitten''s warm inner wall will contract and tighten around his member.


    "TangTang.. Hushh.. Baby.. Relax.."


    They looked like two animals copulating, while wet slurping sounds continued to shamelessly grow louder. Bai Yutang felt his lover mercilessly hit his sensitive spot inside while playing with his own member. Not mentioning his other lover''s hand was circling around his swollen nipple.


    Soon, Bai Yutang could feel a sense of pleasure and wash over his whole body. The sparks filled his red world with each of these multiple sensations his lover induced in him.


    "Gege.. Stop.. Please.. Ahh.. I..I.."


    Bai Yutang''s body went limp once he reached the intense climax. He can''t believe he almost screams over this unbelievable bursting excitement. He could feel his lover lightly bit his soft cheeks, pecked his lips, and sucked on his neck.


    Jian Kang Lu wasn''t satisfied at all. He wanted to taste his kitten again and again, but no matter how many times he did it with his kitten, his thirst for him continued to grow endlessly. He wanted to bite down onto his neck and eat him whole. It felt like only then, his thirst would be quenched.


    "TangTang.. You drove me crazy.."


    He dug his nose into his kitten''s neck and enjoyed the natural scent of his kitten''s body. This man''s body was a deadly drug for him. No, even a drug couldn''t feel as sweet as this. Jian Kang Lu embraced his kitten''s trembling body tightly while thinking he had truly gone insane.


    He fell deeper and deeper for his kitten, down to this seductive and blissful abyss. Jian Kang Lu knows he could never get out of this abyss without his kitten again. A world without his kitten means he was no longer alive.


    "TangTang.. I love you.. TangTang.. Don''t ever leave me.."

 Chapter 145 - Warm Autumn Night

    In the end Bai Yutang can''t cook a decent breakfast for his lover''s birthday. He didn''t know whether he had to smile or angry when his lover told him that their morning entanglement is the best breakfast for his lover''s birthday.


    But it was so good, Bai Yutang can''t complain about it.


    He finally settled with making a simple fried egg and eating it with milky bread. They didn''t rush to eat their simple breakfast. It was not enough, but they will have another big lunch today, so this simple breakfast is at least adequate to hold their hunger until later.


    "Let''s play another card game tonight. I have to admit your birthday gift was the best ever, baby." His lover teases him with an expression clearly hoping Bai Yutang will play for real instead of teasing him.


    "Card game is supposed to be played by two of us. Why was I the only one who had to follow the card?" Bai Yutang was not a naive boy who got tricked by his lover again..


    "Today is still my birthday, so I have full rights to utilise it to the max." His lover shamelessly said that with a gaze clearly hoping to see another round of his humiliation.


    Well, if it makes his lover happy, then so be it. Bai Yutang didn''t have anything except his body to be gifted to Jian Kang Lu anyway. So he could count that as an effort to make memorable moments with his lover. But just wait, tomorrow and the day after when it was not his lover''s birthday anymore, definitely Bai Yutang also wants to see his lover doing shameful and amusing things in front of him.


    "Let''s take a bath, gege. What time will we have Sunday lunch? I still need to wrap the main building''s blueprint by today." Bai Yutang tried to calculate whether he could finish it by today. Tomorrow he hoped to present it to his counselor.


    Both of them took a bath together and Jian Kang Lu let his kitten holed up in his studio room again before it was time for them to go. His kitten didn''t attend Sunday lunch every week since he was busy, but today is his birthday, thus his kitten insisted on accompanying him the whole day.


    And he can''t be more happy with that.


    Once they arrived, his brother and sister in law were already there. He received hugs and kisses from his family. His parents haven''t given him any birthday gift since years ago. But his brother gave him a smartwatch. He received their greetings and blessings with a wide smile.


    The food displayed on the table was somehow a bit extravagant even though it was his birthday. He himself only brought two bottles of expensive wine to treat his family this year.


    "Wow, is this a new tradition for birthdays? Since when have we had this kind of bird nest soup and abalone for lunch?"


    His mother was preparing the food with his kitten''s help. She was smiling at his kitten before answering Jian Kang Lu. "Later you''ll hear where this comes from."


    His kitten still looked awkward and clumsy near his mother, but Jian Kang Lu was happy that his parents didn''t seem to be asking much about him even though it was definitely suspicious for both of them.


    To his surprise, not even his brother asked about Bai Yutang to him. He was already prepared to point out all Bai Yutang''s good points and advantages if his family asked him. And slowly he will point out that Bai Yutang was the most important person he held in his heart. He believes his family won''t oppose him.


    What else could his family do to prevent him spending the rest of his life with his kitten? He had a stable job, could support himself, and a respectable position in the hospital. He could only hope that his family won''t hate and mistreat his beloved kitten. He thinks he really can''t stand to see his kitten sad because of these things.


    They spend the lunch well. But there''s some slightly uncomfortable mood when his father asks Bai Yutang about his family.


    "Yutang, what are your parents doing? They lived in W city, right?"


    Bai Yutang was a little startled to hear Jian Kang Lu''s father''s question. His lover''s father seldom talked to him.


    "My father used to be a contractor, and my mother now works in the restaurant, uncle." Bai Yutang answered slowly. It was not embarrassing to state his mother working in the restaurant, but somehow he buried an inferiority inside his heart which rose due to the question.


    "Used to? What is your father doing now?"


    "My father passed away two years ago, uncle."


    There''s a silence who almost killed the lunch mood at the table. Jian Kang Lu''s mother then took over the conversation.


    "My condolences, TangTang. It must be hard for your mother."


    Bai Yutang tried to smile even though the deep sorrow buried within was cracked open again. "Yes it was. My father pampered my mother so much, so it was really hard for her to accept it. But she was okay now."


    Fan Mingle tried to cheer up the situation. "No wonder your cooking skill surpasses mine, TangTang. It must be inherited from your mother. She worked at the restaurant, right? As a chef?"


    Bai Yutang calmly tried to swallow his bird nest soup. "My mother''s cooking skill is even worse than you, Fan Jie. She was working in the small restaurant near our house, just to help in the kitchen."


    Now the mood was even worse. Jian Kang Lu tried to save this gloomy mood. "TangTang and his sister are really smart. Both of them receive full scholarships for their education. His sister is studying medical too."


    Jian Kang Lu''s mother hurriedly brightened her tone, "Oh really? Your parents must be proud of both of you. Where did your sister study? Is there any doctor in your family too?"


    Bai Yutang smiled, and thanked his lover. Bai Yutang knew the only things he could proudly present to his lover''s family is that he was sensible and smart. Though it doesn''t mean much to brag about that to them, since his lover and his future brother in law are also unfairly smart and good looking, with respectable and successful careers.


    "No one become doctor in our family, auntie. My sister will be the first. She is currently studying in W university. Honestly, she became a doctor because of Jian Ge."


    "Oh really? How so?" Fan Mingle asked him.


    Bai Yutang told them about her sister, then Jian Kang Lu steered the conversation away from his kitten.


    "So, what about this extravagant lunch? Don''t tell me this is just for my birthday? I can''t believe it."


    Jian Kang Se chuckled, "Right, this is my treat. You need to congratulate me, gege. I was promoted to be head of treasury."


    "Woah, congratulation Ah Se! Luckily i brought the good wine instead of the cheap one. Perfect to toasting."


    "How could you bring cheap wine to this house? Not afraid of our great father''s famous four hour course?"


    Both of them chuckled, since their father was famous to be picky about wine. Jian Shen was never picky with his food nor his clothes, but didn''t ever give him a cheap low quality wine. If someone dares to make him taste a low quality wine, he definitely will lecturing that person with his profound knowledge of wine tasting.


    Bai Yutang congratulated his future brother in law. He might not really understand what the treasury is doing in the bank, but more or less he knew his future brother in law was dealing with managing the bank''s internal assets.


    After that the little bun next to Bai Yutang is also busy asking questions to him, and also pestering him to teach him drawing again. Since the last time Bai Yutang drew a lot of robots, Jian Ming kept asking him to draw and draw more. In this family, it turns out none of them have artistic talent.


    Before the sky darkens, Jian Kang Lu excuses himself and goes home with his kitten. His kitten felt guilty about it, but his lover just gently smiled and told him that he needed to save some energy for the card''s game tonight.


    Bai Yutang gave up his intention to finish his blueprints. He could make it up by working harder tomorrow. Two day absent won''t make him behind the schedule. But he could not help but feel wronged when he drew the card and saw what was written on it.


    ''One-way 69. Just like ordinary 69, but your partner does nothing. You are on top, and give pleasure for 10 minutes.''


    Will every card be like this? Bai Yutang shuddered to imagine how he managed to do all the things written in these cards? There are 60 cards there¡­


    Doing this position means he has to expose his everything while doing that, and his lover demands to enjoy his bare butt and hole displayed without anything while he does his best to caress and love his lover''s hardened member.


    Luckily his lover didn''t torment him for a long time in the bed. Maybe his lover took pity at his hole, and also to save his energy for another busy day tomorrow. In the middle of his muddled brain after climax, his lover cleans up his body. Bai Yutang was too tired to wash himself and let his lover wipe his body like he was a helpless baby.


    Once finished, his lover hugged him. Bai Yutang was already half asleep, but he still could hear his lover whispering in his ear.


    "Baby, how about we renovate our bathroom? I think it will be fun if we have a bathtub inside."


    Bai Yutang chuckled, he knew exactly what his lover meant with fun.


    "Up to you, gege. But won''t it take some time? We still could take a bath in the guest bathroom, but who will supervise the renovation?"


    Jian Kang Lu slowly stroked his kitten''s arms. "I was thinking we could move temporarily while being renovated. How about if we moved to somewhere near your campus until it was done?"


    Bai Yutang was stunned. He understood what his lover meant with this. He can''t help to turn his body and hug his lover tight. Renovation was only a pretence. His lover just doesn''t want him to get too tired with his final project, and afraid about him going back late at night using public transportation.


    "I think that will be great, gege.." Bai Yutang said softly. He won''t reject his lover''s good intention. It was also better if his lover doesn''t have to worry about him. "I''ll look for some apartment nearby, and will let you know for you to choose."


    Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s head, softly inhaling his kitten''s scent. "Just choose which is the most comfortable for you and show me. I''ll take care about everything else."


    Bai Yutang closed his eyes. His body is warm, as warm as his heart right now. He didn''t need to say thank you, but he can''t even describe what kind of gratitude he felt toward his lover right now.


    Sometimes, gratitude did not need to be said. But Bai Yutang hoped his lover could feel it with his everyday little act, and wish his lover knew what he feels right now in this warm autumn night, in his lover''s embrace.

 Chapter 146 - Foul Mouth

    Mid November came with the winter wind prickling bones inside. Bai Yutang starts to bundle himself with thick clothes and his winter jacket. If he didn''t bundle himself properly, his lover will nag him again.


    People might see Jian Kang Lu as an easy going man who converse well. But actually at home his lover didn''t talk much, except when he nagged. His lover will monitor his weight every month, and will nag him if he loses some weight. What kind of lover treats their boyfriend like kindergarten kids?


    Yesterday they moved to the apartment near T university. Bai Yutang used to search for an apartment here 2 years ago when his father passed away, so it didn''t take long for him to narrow his options. His lover only told him to get a comfortable and fully furnished apartment so they only need to bring their clothes and basic necessities.


    From the apartment to his university he only needs 40 minutes walking, and 20 minutes if he rides a bicycle. Bai Yutang was speechless when he saw this bicycle with his initial engraved along with number 15 as the monthly anniversary gift. Nevertheless, he was grateful for that.. It really saved his time to concentrate on finishing his final project. He only has another 1 month to wrap up then prepare the finishing thesis and presentation.


    Bai Yutang was parking his bicycle and went into the studio. He met Fei Hong there. She finished her studio project last week and is now cleaning her desk, so it could be used by the next student in line. Fei Hong will defend her thesis in another three weeks. Her haggard face clearly showed that she was tired and stressful.


    "Do you need my help?" Bai Yutang was asking her, ready to lend some hands.


    "Yes, please. Could you help me bring some of these to my dorm? And unplug all the cables there."


    "Have you had your breakfast yet? I brought some sandwiches if you haven''t. You could eat first, i''ll take care of this." Bai Yutang took out his lunch box containing sandwiches and some fried wonton from last night snacks.


    "Thank you, i really am hungry.." Fei Hong sat down and gratefully received the lunchbox from Bai Yutang. She had been fed by this man and had gotten rid of her dignity a long time ago. She knew this should be Bai Yutang''s lunch, but she was also hungry and didn''t have time and energy to get breakfast in the cafeteria. Besides, what Bai Yutang fed her used to taste much better than the food sold there.


    Fei Hong also didn''t shy when she took the tumbler containing hot green tea from Bai Yutang''s backpack. She poured it into the paper cup and felt refreshed after taking a sip.


    "By the way, you should be careful with Zhong Wan. He gossips about you when you''re not around. He told everyone that you admit the gossip, and your lover was an old man. I almost puked when I heard that from Yu Nian." Fei Hong was in a bad mood, and really sour when she heard that.


    Bai Yutang smiled, "Don''t be in the bad mood, you better just focus on your thesis. Do you need help with your 3D? I could help, but later you had to help me when you finished defending your thesis."


    It would be a lie if Bai Yutang wasn''t mad or disappointed when he heard that. Zhong Wan was in the same year with all of them, and he was always cheerful. He was a type of man who was easy to talk to, and popular with his joke. Bai Yutang had decided not to hide the fact that he had a boyfriend instead of girlfriend, so he answered honestly when they had lunch together last week.


    "Yutang, don''t mind about what the senior calling you just now." Zhong Wan told him with concern displayed on his eyes. They had lunch together in the studio, eating fried rice. That morning, one of the senior who need to redo his project was in the bad mood after reprimanded by his conselour calling Bai Yutang fag after Bai Yutang accidentally bumping to him.


    "It''s okay. I get used to it." Bai Yutang smiles bitterly. This senior had been bullying him since he started his studio and refused to help this senior to fix his sketch. He never called Bai Yutang with his name, and used those words to call him ever since. Bai Yutang refused this senior because he is famous for throwing his tasks and keep bothering you if you ever helped him once.


    "Why don''t you report him?" Zhong Wan said.


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "No need, i just want to spend my time in the studio peacefully. If I report him, I also need to waste my time with questions from our professors. It was not worth it."


    There was silence before Zhong Wan asked him, "Why didn''t you deny that rumour? It was wildly spreading because you never clarify, you know."


    Zhong Wan was the first person to ask him about this since this new semester began. No one asked him previously because Tang Yuxuan shielded him. Bai Yutang was clenching his teeth and his hands gripped his chopstick tight. He had decided not to hide his lover anymore, but still it was a little bit uncomfortable to admit it to people he was not really close with.


    "Because it was the truth. It was me who they posted in the picture."


    Bai Yutang''s heart was beating fast that time, he tried to put a calm expression and eat his fried rice which he swallowed hard. But he was glad when Zhong Wan finally responded.


    "Oh.. Ahhaha.. Okay then. So, it was your boyfriend who was with you in the picture?"


    Bai Yutang nodded, "Yes." He didn''t say anything else.


    "So, is it true that your boyfriend is studying here too? Master degree student?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head, but he didn''t explain more.


    "How old is he? Architect too?"


    Bai Yutang doesn''t want to answer this. So he just answered neutrally, "He just turned 39 last week, and not an architect."


    Zhong Wan understood that Bai Yutang didn''t want to give anymore information regarding his boyfriend, so he switched the conversation to their thesis.


    Bai Yutang didn''t regret telling Zhong Wan about that even though Zhong Wan talked about him behind his back. But he still felt a little bit disappointed when he remembered how he helped Zhong Wan with his sketches, and also lent him his notebook for their mid term exam.


    He just recited what his lover told him to get rid of this uncomfortable feeling weighing his heart. That''s why he laughed a little to hear Fei Hong rumbling and pointed out that Zhong Wan is a bastard who forgot that Bai Yutang helped him a lot regarding his final project.


    Bai Yutang smiled and told Fei Hong. "It''s okay. Jian Ge told me not to count what you do to help other people. Don''t expect that person will help you back if you help him. If you demand they return your kindness, then it was not sincere."


    Fei Hong silent for a moment. "Jian Ge was truly a kind person. But I bet he will punch Zhong Wan if he hears what that sneaky bastard is telling about you on your back."


    Bai Yutang abruptly looked at Fei Hong. "Don''t. I don''t want Jian Ge to know anything about this. And don''t tell Yuxuan too."


    Fei Hong pouted her mouth, but she said no more. "I know i shouldn''t tell Yuxuan about this. I bet Yuxuan will punch that sneaky bastard if he heard this." Fei Hong knows her boyfriend''s temper well.


    "I heard he was stressed enough with his new job. This end of month I should ask him to treat me with his first salary." Bai Yutang diverted the conversation.


    Liu Xiang and Yu Dong got a job last month, while Tang Yuxuan just started working this month. Three of them were accepted in different firms in B city. Liu Xiang was the one who managed to be hired in one of the leading architecture firms, while Yu Dong and Tang Yuxuan landed in middle class firms.


    Once Bai Yutang finished helping Fei Hong and came back to the studio, he became immersed in his work and didn''t really pay attention to his surroundings. His phone vibrated when he revised the details of the parking lot. He saw the screen, and smiled to see who was calling him.


    "Gege."


    "Hello baby, have you eaten? Did you bring something to eat? Want me to order food delivery for you today?"


    Bai Yutang felt his mood was better to hear his lover''s gentle voice. His lover often sent him food delivery to the studio. There''s several restaurants near architecture faculty who often send food there to these architecture students. His lover always sends a large amount of food. These foods he often shares to the other studio users here.


    Since he was in a foul mood previously, Bai Yutang decided to be pampered this noon. "Yes gege. I want dim sum and chicken noodles from Da Yuan."


    Da Yuan was not really close to the university, but they serve very delicious Chinese food and are famous for it''s beautiful classic ambience. Bai Yutang really loved their dim sum, and it was not quite pricey.


    "Da Yuan? I''ll order it for you right now. If you need to work until night, I''ll pick you up later and we could have dinner together before we go home. Think about where you want to have your dinner later, okay?"


    "What about my bicycle, gege?" Bai Yutang chuckled. This bicycle is often left in the campus since his lover will definitely pick him up if he hasn''t gone back home when his lover finished from hospital.


    Bai Yutang converse for the next 10 minutes before his lover ended the call. 30 minutes later he received more than 10 kinds of dim sum, each in triple portions, and 1 portion of chicken noodles. As usual, he told his studio comrades here who already looked at him with hunger eyes to eat this dim sum together with him. It didn''t take 5 minutes for them to secure their own portion and enjoy this delicious dim sum together with him.


    Suddenly a sinister voice coming from his back.


    "Ah, what a disgrace to our faculty. I can''t believe a scholarship student like you shamelessly being a cheap fag. Da Yuan is expensive, so why do you still snatch scholarships from other students who need it? Just tell your sugar daddy to pay for your tuition if you can''t pay. Don''t tell me you still have any dignity left."

 Chapter 147 - Priceless

    Bai Yutang freezed. In a second his hands turned cold, and his heart beat fast. Like a war drum pounded, it reached his eardrums. He turned his head to see the person talk to him. He actually recognised the voice, and he was right. It was the senior who keep calling him fag.


    "You''re so gross. I heard your sugar daddy was an old man. Disgusting. Can''t find someone in your age who want to fuck you? And why can''t you keep that dirty little secret of yours? Why need to drag us the innocent one here in this faculty? I wonder why they didn''t expel you yet?"


    Cheng Jiao was the one of the oldest students here. If he can''t graduate this year, he need to dropped out. He still need to retake another 5 subjects this semester and finish his final project. At this rate, it seems he can''t finish his project this semester.. His damn counselor keeps finding faults with his project. He blamed his bad luck to get this damn old man who fussy about the details and even dare to ask him redo all his design and blueprints.


    He already got help from one of those stupid bookworms with the design and the blueprints. Cheng Jiao suspected those little sneaky bookworms were sabotaging his final project, resulting in him having to redo all these damn projects.


    Cheng Jiao was lucky to be accepted into this university. His grades in high school were not bad. But his bad luck started since he accepted here. He hates those students who come from outside B city. They''re arrogant and looking down at him. So what if he comes from B city? It''s true that B city students only need lower points to be accepted here, it''s their privilege. But does he make those rules? Who told them to apply here? They could apply to their own native city.


    His parents were not wealthy, they needed to work their bones dry to pay his tuition. And he hates those rich boys here who could have the latest gadget and expensive tools to help them. No wonder the professors keep failing him, he doesn''t have enough gadgets and tools to make up for his designs.


    Then he also hates those dumb girls who only looking at handsome and wealthy boys. He once really liked this cute junior of him, and he did everything to pursue her. But this girl keeps avoiding him to the extent she has several boys of her class accompany her every time they have class together. He was disappointed with this cheap girl who can''t appreciate his sincere feelings. He hopes this cheap girl will get married to an ugly and bad husband since she dares to reject a good guy like him.


    Failing in his study makes him realise he needs to vent his stress. He played games with his friends until late night. He found these people he found online give him the respect he deserves. They didn''t look at him like he was a failure, they didn''t mock him like these stupid people in this university.


    These hypocrites in this university were all pretending to be someone kind and almighty while the truth is they are just cruel people who stepped on ordinary people like him. He hates that. Cheng Jiao then think he was smart when he found he actually could use these stupid bookworms to do the stupid job for him.


    He didn''t see what''s the importance of doing all these stupid projects. When he graduates, he still has to follow what the clients or his superior''s instructions. What is the use of fusing his idea and social impact? No one understands that. People will only praise beautiful designs.


    Then he heard about this stupid fag who can''t even keep his dirty little secret by himself. But maybe all the stinks and evil things was tend to revealed in the end. Cheng Jiao really hate this stupid cunt. He deceive everyone. He looked like a good guy, and even his counselor used his sketch as an example for him when he was lectured. His counselor said his sketch was messy and all proportions were wrong, then actually shown this little fag''s sketches comparing to his own.


    He already give lenient with this fag and ask him to re sketch his project, but this little cunt dare to reject him. Sure, he must be looking down at him, just like those students from outside B city.


    How come he needed to redo his project and this dirty little bitch was enjoying his life? He hated it even more when he heard this little bitch was scholarship students for two years in a row. It was better if the scholarship was given to him rather than to a dirty human like him. Homosexual is a disease.


    His friends also agree with him. And all these little fucker here also talking about this little bitch, but they were all coward who only talk behind his back, even shamelessly received the foods brought by this little fag.


    That''s the most unfair thing Cheng Jiao can''t accept. It''s not enough this little fag wriggling his dirty tail and infected good people like him with his homosexual disease, but also dare to get scholarship while he proudly using his sugar daddy money to bribe all these little fucker here. And Cheng Jiao heard that this little fag''s sugar daddy is old. No wonder, with face uglier than Cheng Jiao, only old man who want to sleep with this dirty fag.


    Cheng Jiao satisfied to look at this little fag terrified face. He can''t even say anything to him, he doesn''t even dare to look at him. After this fag turn his head to look at him, he cowardly sit back to his chair and pretend not hearing him.


    If only this little fucker wants to help him with the sketches, he will at least only lecture him and try to bring him to the right way. Why on earth does this little fucker want to be with a man? There''s still a lot of women in this world. Well, maybe this little fucker can''t get any girlfriend with that face. Or maybe he just needs easy money.


    What a cheap person. Even though Cheng Jiao also lacks money, he will never sell himself to an old man.


    "Really disgusting. You better pray you won''t be expelled because of your indecent act, bring shame to all of us. Fag!"


    Cheng Jiao was satisfied, his bad mood brightened after he lectured this little fag. He know this little fag will thankful to him someday once he realised Cheng Jiao words was right and wisely lecturing him about going back to the right path.


    He walked toward his own seat. Look at all these cowards in this room, they all silently agree with him. Maybe this little fag will expelled for real. He will laugh and told this little fag better to back to normal. Don''t strand away from nature. Men are supposed to be with women.


    Bai Yutang''s hand trembled when he pointed the cursor on his Revit1. He was angry and really wanted to shout back, but he didn''t want to waste his energy and time. He was behind his schedule already, and he just wanted to finish his project as soon as possible, not seeing this bully anymore.


    He really thinks that this is just a really bad day for him. And his mood even worse to remember how his lover once received this kind of treatment from Tang Yuxuan. Bai Yutang wants to wrap his target for today as soon as possible, and then back to his lover''s arms.


    Bai Yutang''s face was hot, his blood still boiling and won''t calm down even when night comes. He could feel dozens of eyes in this room still looking at him silently. Maybe all of them judged him like this bully did. He already knew, and didn''t expect them to speak up for him. But once this happened, he can''t help to feel sour and his disappointment surged.


    He missed his best friends.


    His lover picks him up at night, and they have a warm dinner at a restaurant near the campus. It''s only a simple dinner. Bai Yutang knew lots of T university students eat here too. Maybe one of them recognise him and talk behind him too right now. But he doesn''t care about it again. They can all say anything they want. He just hoped he didn''t inflict any of these bad things to his kind lover.


    Once, he was really afraid that these kinds of things would be an obstacle for him one day. Expelled, or maybe he can''t get a decent job. Just like all those scary stories he read in the forum. But once he lost his lover, Bai Yutang didn''t care anymore. Nothing worse than losing the man who smiled in front of him.


    His smile enveloped him with the warm embrace, shielding him from the cold weather and judgements. Bai Yutang doesn''t care about all these things that happened to him, as long as the man in front of him loves him. That''s enough.


    Once they reached the apartment, he hugged his lover from behind. "I love you so much, gege.." His voice muffled on his lover''s back. Bai Yutang could feel his lover a little bit surprised, and he felt right now his lover was smiling.


    He was right, his lover turned around and hugged him back. Smiling gently at him.


    "What happened with my handsome baby today?" His lover''s hands who embrace him turn naughty and sliding down behind his shirt, touching his bare skin on his back, stroke him with feather touch. "Is this a signal of allowing me to serve you in the bed tonight?" His lover naughtily whispered in his ear.


    Bai Yutang grinned and caught those naughty hands. "Take a bath first, gege. Both of us are sweaty and smelly."


    His lover kisses his forehead, his eyes, his cheek, down to his neck.


    "Mmm.. Really? Let me check. No, you smell good. Maybe I need to check your down parts, whether it is really smelly or not."


    Bai Yutang giggled and shoved his naughty lover back. "Stop gege. Come, take a bath first."


    Bai Yutang was tired, but having a 30 minutes steamy exercise turned out to be the best way to get rid of his bad mood and boiling rage. He was still breathing heavily and felt drowsiness soon will take him to dream land.


    His lover hugged him from behind and asked him with a soft voice. "Are you having a bad day? Want to share with me?"


    Bai Yutang was sleepy, his breath gradually turned back to normal. "Mmm.. Just tired, gege. I''m still behind my schedule, but I hope I can catch it this week."


    Jian Kang Lu stroked his kitten''s arms lightly. His kitten''s speech was slurred, it seems he will fall asleep soon. He could understand his kitten was stressed and one of the reasons his kitten behind his schedule was because his birthday.


    Jian Kang Lu treats his friends on karaoke nights again two weeks ago, just like their tradition, after his kitten midterm exam. His kitten of course accompanied him. And also his kitten wasted two days when he had actual birthday, followed by his kitten''s mid term exam. Jian Kang Lu regrets that he was not an architect so he can''t help his kitten with anything. He could only order food from the apps and send it to his kitten''s studio.


    "You can.. I won''t disturb you, and I know you''ll finish your project ahead of your schedule. I know you can, and I''m proud of my handsome smart boyfriend." Jian Kang Lu softly whispered in his kitten''s ear.


    He could feel the soft vibrating from his kitten''s chest, breathing. His kitten is asleep already. Jian Kang Lu smiled, and grateful tonight he still could spend his day with his kitten, sleeping with him curling in his arms. The love his kitten gave to him was free, and that makes it priceless.

 Chapter 148 - Old, Bald, And Fat

    Bai Yutang was speechless when reading his lover''s message the next day.


    [TangTang, I ordered something for your lunch. I hope your mood is better today.]


    And he was even more speechless to find that his lover sent him a set of cookies and pastries from the famous patisserie besides the fragrant duck from W restaurant, one of the best Chinese restaurants in town, owned by Song Lixia''s parents.


    Bai Yutang knew fragrant duck needed to be ordered one day before since it would take hours to prepare the duck. And it came with one whole duck per portion. Bai Yutang smiling to see this whole fat fragrant duck he can''t possibly finish by himself, then he texted Mu Xiaoya.


    If yesterday''s event did not happen, right at this moment he will notice pairs of hungry eyes in this studio pointed at him, just like days before when he received food delivered by his lover. Then he will smile and offer his comrades to enjoy these foods with him. But starting from today, Bai Yutang doesn''t want to share anything again with them.


    Bai Yutang might have a mild temperament, and avoid conflicts. But his fingers still trembled with rage if he recalled what happened yesterday. He also remembers none of his comrades here actually being nice to him regarding his lover. This all was bought using his lover''s money. The money his lover earned by working hard every day, from morning till night. Bai Yutang felt no need to feed his comrades who chose to be silent yesterday.


    Mu Xiaoya popped her head 30 minutes after she received Bai Yutang''s text. She knows the studio well from her lunch deliveries to Yu Dong last semester. She was gasping in delight to see all the delicious foods and snacks in front of her.


    "Senior, is this really for me? This is a lot." Though she said that, her fingers excitedly shove that fragrant pastries filled with a layer of chocolate and dusted with cocoa powder. This is famous and called dirty bun due to their appearance, but the abundant sweetness and caramelised almond slices sprinkled on top was giving the tongue a heavenly dance of sensation.


    Bai Yutang smiled and ate his share. "You know how Jian Ge likes to order things in bulk quantity. Please just take these and share it with your friends. I''ve cut the duck also for my lunch. I can''t possibly finish the whole duck by myself."


    Bai Yutang was quite glad the senior bullying him yesterday was not around. He didn''t like the idea of this person keep bullying him every time Bai Yutang received food delivered to him in the future.


    Mu Xiaoya happily took the duck and the pastries. She then realised that the atmosphere in this studio was not like she remembered. "Why don''t you share it with your studio comrades, senior?" She remembers when she delivered food to Yu Dong last semester, his comrades used to drool over the foods she brought even though it was only cheap food from the cafeteria. Mu Xiaoya was sure Bai Yutang''s comrades would enjoy this delicacies more than her.


    Bai Yutang smiled, "No need, Jian Ge will be happier if i share it with you. You can share this with Ling Yue also."


    Like this, Mu Xiaoya was often called by her gentle senior to clean up these foods delivered by Jian Kang Lu. She swore she could almost see tears rolling from Ling Yue''s eyes when she chomped on the red velvet flavoured rolls from B bakery who makes its own mark with pieces of orange and cream cheese. Mu Xiaoya''s favorite was the matcha rolls which fell heavily on the bitter and smoky side. The filling was smooth and added a dose of local flavor, featuring red beans for texture.


    Not mentioning the fragrant seafood fried rice, or delicate golden fried chicken wings from W restaurant who lived up to its name as the best Chinese restaurant in town. Mu Xiaoya and Ling Yue felt the danger of not being satisfied with their meals in the cafeteria again after tasting these delicacies for days.


    She felt weird at first, why her gentle senior didn''t share this food with his studio comrades.  Not until one week after she heard what happened in the studio that day. She asked Bai Yutang about it the next time she picked the food Bai Yutang once again offered her to finish.


    "Senior.." She anxiously considers not to ask, but she needs confirmation from her gentle senior. "I heard what happened. Are you truly admitting to them that you are with Jian Ge?" Mu Xiaoya almost snapped when she heard that, but she can''t say anything to reveal Bai Yutang''s private matter.


    Bai Yutang didn''t show any uneasiness in his face. He just smiled and nodded his head. "Mmm.. That''s all true anyway. Rather than denying it, I admit it since that was the truth. I am Jian Ge''s boyfriend."


    "But.." Mu Xiaoya didn''t have the heart to tell Bai Yutang what the others gossiped about him out there.


    Bai Yutang chuckled. "I''m okay, it didn''t bother me. I guess you heard what happened last week. I almost wrapped my projects, and will only be here for the next two weeks. It truly didn''t bother me. I''m really okay."


    Mu Xiaoya could only swallow her anger and pity to see Bai Yutang''s face. She then realised why Bai Yutang shared all these foods with her. Her senior might be gentle and looked okay on the surface, but who wasn''t angry to receive all those treatments. Mu Xiaoya then understood she didn''t need to pity Bai Yutang. This man was loved by the ultimate gong who was even better than her novel''s gong.


    She then just decided to enjoy the food and not think much about it. She just channeled her anger to her boyfriend who was now busy and could only meet her on weekends. Yu Dong sounds worried about Bai Yutang.


    Gossips traveled fast, it didn''t take long until all the students in architecture lightly shared that the 5th year senior named Bai Yutang was the cutsleeve caught redhanded kissing a man who blew the forum last semester, and his boyfriend is a bald fat 40 years old sugar daddy.


    Mu Xiaoya was almost blown with anger and she angrily defended Bai Yutang when her friends asked her at the end of their class.


    "Xiaoya, is this really true? I didn''t believe it. I saw our senior Bai with your boyfriend several times. He didn''t look coquettish like other cutsleeve, and also didn''t look like someone who has sugar daddy."


    "What the hell!! Let me tell you, it might be true that senior Bai have a boyfriend instead of girlfriend, but so what? Is it a crime to be cutsleeve? I''ve met Jian Ge, senior''s boyfriend, he was really handsome and you all will salivating over him."


    Mu Xiaoya then remembered the girl beside her who was listening to these conversations, was the one who told her that there''s a handsome guy who kept showing up in the mini market last year when Jian Ge and her gentle senior had a fight last year.


    "Chunhua, you met him last year, and drooled over Jian Ge too."


    Yu Chunhua who was listening to them was startled, why did she dragged to this fiery discussion? "When?" She could only ask blankly asked.


    "Last year! Mini market guy!"


    Yu Chunhua really doesn''t understand what Mu Xiaoya means. She was still blankly staring at her.


    "The tall handsome guy who kept showing at the mini market to buy his lunch last year! The one who makes you dragged me to the mini market every lunch time hoping to see him again! The one who looks like the actor from G drama!"


    Yu Chunhua''s brain tries to process this input and then remembers about it.


    "Ah!!! That one? The one who then kidnaps you for lunch?"


    "Yes! The one who then makes you pester me to introduce you and you keep asking about him but i refuse to answer. That one is senior Bai''s boyfriend."


    Yu Chunhua was kinda confused, "Then he showed up there last year to meet senior Bai?"


    Mu Xiaoya snorted, "Let me tell you. So what if senior Bai was having a boyfriend? His boyfriend was better compared to all your boyfriend combined. Last year senior Bai was angry with him, and he was showing up here every day placating senior Bai not to be angry with him anymore. Does your boyfriends ever do that?"


    Yu Chunhua is still in daze, then she remembers Bai Yutang appearances. "Oh wow.. Yes I can understand if senior Bai chose that guy over girls. He is really handsome, ah."


    The other girls are now curious, how handsome this guy looked? "So it was a lie that senior Bai''s boyfriend was old?"


    Mu Xiaoya showed a cold face. "It might be true Jian Ge was almost 40, but that didn''t change the fact that he was handsome."


    Yu Chunhua choked, "Is that true? He doesn''t look 40 at all!!!"


    Mu Xiaoya really wanted to tell others about how magnificent Jian Kang Lu was, and it was only natural if Bai Yutang was drawn to him. She then opened her mobile phone and tried to find the picture from last year''s Christmas dinner.


    "Here! Now I ask you, who dares to say that Jian Ge was old, bald, and fat!!!"


    The first thing these girls saw was not the handsome Jian Ge who stood next to Bai Yutang, but the famous architectural God who sat in the middle.


    "Oh! My! God! Xiaoya!!!! Is this Zhen Guo??? This really looked like him!"


    Mu Xiaoya then realised this photo was taken with Zhen Guo and his wife. She started to regret why she was too hasty. Is this really wise for her to do.


    "Mmm.. That one.."

 Chapter 149 - One Week Before

    Mu Xiaoya stuttered, she racked her brains on how to avoid this uncomfortable situation. She knows very well that it won''t bring her any good if people know that you once ate dinner with someone like Zhen Guo, moreover it was a close dinner like between friends and not only a coincidence.


    Some people might like to brag if they knew someone famous, but it won''t bring you any good. For example, if you''re a friend or family of a country''s famous idol, will you reveal it to your not so close friends?


    No, you won''t. Because then they will ask you never ending questions about that famous person, or shamelessly ask you to introduce them. When you reject their unreasonable request, they will brand you as a stingy and petty person.


    Wait, that''s not really true. For these girls, if you said that you''re friends with this country''s famous idol it might not mean much to them. But this one is Zhen Guo. Which architect in this country doesn''t know him? And which architectural students who don''t want to work under him?


    What could she say now to avoid these uncomfortable questions? How could she save herself? She knew Bai Yutang didn''t like to reveal that Jian Ge was best friends with Zhen Guo.


    Mu Xiaoya hurriedly zoomed in on the part which showed Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu. She pointed at Jian Kang Lu''s hand which held Bai Yutang''s shoulder, clearly wanting to separate his boyfriend from Feng Mian.


    "Look look! Open your eyes and watch it clearly. This is senior Bai''s boyfriend. Now which scroundel dares to spread rumours that senior Bai''s boyfriend is an old man, bald and fat???"


    Mu Xiaoya heaved a sigh of relief when these girls distracted and bawled their eyes to see Jian Kang Lu''s charming smile in that  picture.


    "Oh My God!"


    "What the fuck! Why did senior Bai''s boyfriend look much better than a bunch of radishes here?"


    "If i was a man, i might turn into gay also if this kind of male God want to be my boyfriend."


    "Is he an architect too, Xiaoya? He looked even better than senior Tang."


    "Oh yes, I think like that oo. Maybe because he looked more mature? Mature man is always sexy."


    "But this one didn''t look 40 years old, Xiaoya. Is he really 40 years old?"


    Mu Xiaoya snorted, "Jian Ge was not 40 yet. Don''t add someone else''s age, ah. Handsome right? He is even better in reality."


    The one who once met Jian Kang Lu in the mini market nodded, "Uhm.. I remember he was tall and well built also. Ah, so handsome.."


    "Woah, how come senior Bai could secure this kind of man to be his boyfriend?" This girl secretly thought that it was too bad this kind of man was a cutsleeve. He''ll be perfect husband material. But she was afraid of saying that in front of Mu Xiaoya. This fierce girl looked like she wanted to yank her hair and scratch her cheek if she dared to sound her opinion out loud.


    Mu Xiaoya closes her phone. "That''s senior Bai''s charm. Remember the macaroons and the chocolate cookies you all ate yesterday? It was given to me by senior Bai. His Jian Ge always bought him a lot of food since he was skinny. He can''t finish it alone, so he shares it with me."


    They prepare to switch classes, so this group of girls continue chattering while walking to the next building for their next classes. Along the way Mu Xiaoya reminds them to cut off this bullshit spreading in the campus, talking about how Jian Ge turned into an old, bald, and fat.


    Some of the girls want to ask Mu Xiaoya again about Zhen Guo, but they could see Mu Xiaoya didn''t want to talk about that again. They secretly sworn to get to the good side of Mu Xiaoya and prying her to reveal her secret one day.


    No matter what Mu Xiaoya did to clear this reputation of Jian Kang Lu, but in reality people like to talk about bad things rather than good things. That was human nature. Just look at the news around you. Gossips and scandals always sell better compared to a news where a 9 year old prodigy won an international violin contest. A story where a girl pregnant before marriage is always spread faster than a girl helping her neighbour who lost their house from fire.


    In journalism, there''s a paradigm that says that bad news is a good news.


    Thus even with Xiaoya''s effort, there''s still a lot of people who believe that Bai Yutang was a shameless man who preferred to sleep with a 40 year old bald man to scrap some money just for the sake of maintaining his high class lifestyle after his father passed away.


    Bai Yutang just turned deaf every time his senior bullied him. Some of the other seniors also start to laugh at him every time he receives the food sent by his lover. They also didn''t hide their nasty look and comments when they saw him.


    But Bai Yutang tries not to pay attention to them. He also never rejects his lover''s offer and good intention of sending him food. He could always share it with Fei Hong and Mu Xiaoya. When he finished his studio''s works faster than his target, he almost wanted to thank these bullies. Without their bullying, Bai Yutang won''t burn with desire to finish his work as soon as possible just for the sake of getting away from them.


    Is he angry? Yes he is. His hands are still trembling with anger every time they say those nasty things to him. His ears ringing from the blood rushed, and he used all his will to stand strong and walk straight. Not letting them see he withered from rage.


    Is he sad? Yes of course. Sometimes when the day is bad, he wants to crawl back to the apartment and lock himself there, the safe and comfort place for him, in his lover''s scent. Forget about all the cruel things said to him.


    Is he depressed? It would be a lie if he said he doesn''t. His appetite was getting low and lower each day in the studio. He tries to make it up by eating breakfast and dinner in a bigger portion compared to his usual. His lover rejoiced to see him stuffed his mouth. Bai Yutang doesn''t want his lover to notice something was wrong with him if his weight decreased.


    Bai Yutang just came to the studio every day and tried to finish his work as fast as he could. He spent no time talking with his comrades unless it related to their final project. He doesn''t want to chat with his comrades since he felt they look at him with mixed feelings portrayed in their eyes.


    The truth is not everyone cares about the story about him. But Bai Yutang was bullied again and again so it was understandable if he looked at those people who won''t stand with him as people who opposed him. He can''t get rid of his suspicion of everyone talking behind his back.


    Bai Yutang only missed his close friends who graduated already as people who stand with him, and also their girlfriends who accompany him eating lunch sometimes. When he''s tired, he will open their group chat and smile to see all of them rant about the hard life of a new architect in a new working place.


    His counselor praised him for his final project finished sooner than expected. It leaves them room to improve the thesis''s foundation and theory, as well as the 3D model and presentation. Bai Yutang knew his final project was not an exceptional project compared to some of his peers. But he knew from his counselor''s praises that it was at least passable, and he was proud of it.


    Soon winter came, encasing the city with the windy and chill temperature. Darken the sky, hiding the sun. Leaves in trees are gone, and winter starts to show the crystal ball hanging on their thin branches. Bai Yutang wrapped himself even more and more with layered clothes. He doesn''t want to get sick this year in these crucial moments.


    His lover often bought nutritional food and supplements to support his immune system. The Sunday lunch he attends with his lover always consists of rare nutritional delicacies also.


    "So, when will you defend your thesis, TangTang?" Jian Kang Se asked him when they enjoyed the ginger tea on Sunday afternoon. The living room was bright and warm, Jian Ming was playing piano with his lover and his lover''s mother on the other side of this big living room.


    "Next week, Jian Ge. Just before Christmas."


    Fan Mingle sat beside him. She elegantly smoothen her wool skirt while she sat. "Then why don''t you practice your presentation in front of us tomorrow? I could give you pointers on how to present your material. I remember I practiced with my parents and it helped me to ease my nerves when I defended my thesis. And now I saw a lot of people do presentations in front of me, so i definitely could give you input."


    Bai Yutang felt he would be more nervous to present his thesis in front of his lover''s family compared to his professors.


    "Yes, I remember Ah Lu and Ah Se also practiced with me back then. I remember telling Ah Lu to smile more, his face was so stoic and cold. If i was his professor, I would deduct points for his unlikeable face." Jian Shen suddenly gave his opinion while staring at Bai Yutang with sharp eyes behind those glasses.


    Jian Kang Se scoffed, "Lucky that you''re not a teacher, dad. I could only light a candle for your students."


    When Jian Shen, the big boss in this house speaks, what Bai Yutang could say? He could only meekly agree to bring his material and present his thesis on their Sunday lunch next week, two days before his actual thesis was defended.


    He could only blame his luck for his lover not sitting here next to him. If his lover here, he might give Bai Yutang a way and excuses to run away from his family''s horrific idea. Bai Yutang thought he should fix his presentation and study more to prevent him from humiliating himself next week.


    So this poor Jian Kang Lu who didn''t have a slightest idea about what happened, could only sighed and sang the national anthem over and over again to calm his restless little brother every time his kitten rejected his hands who unconsciously groped his kitten''s butt. He felt he already repeated the national anthem for a thousand times this week alone.


    It really a torture week for him, since his kitten''s slender hands still cruelly bathing him sometimes. He could only see, but he can''t touch. What kind of punishment is this? But Jian Kang Lu dare not to reject his kitten''s good intention of bathing him. Who knows if he rejects his kitten once then his kitten will get hurt then decide not to bathe him again in the future?


    Or even worse, in this PES of his kitten, how if he explodes and decides to send Jian Kang Lu back to their original apartment which just finished its bathtub installation? Jian Kang Lu shuddered to imagine this. This is the dangerous period for Jian Kang Lu, he can''t afford to say wrong things or else his stressed kitten will lash out on him.


    He also apologised to his friends that he can''t attend their annual winter dinner. Jian Kang Lu doesn''t want to leave his kitten alone at home working hard on his thesis while studying for the final exam too. Although his kitten often left him alone in the bedroom, studying and working in the living room, Jian Kang Lu felt it was not right if he went back home with alcohol topping up his original scent while his kitten worked hard. He knows his kitten won''t mind, but he decides to accompany his kitten. Luckily his friends understand.


    [Ah.. Thesis defending.. I remember how it was. Though it was so mortifying back then, not knowing real life was much worse than that.] Sun Hongjia lamented on the group chat.


    [I remember I can''t eat and throw up one day before defending my thesis. Send my regards to TangTang, and make sure he eats well.] Song Lixia truly worried. She already thought of Bai Yutang as her younger brother. A cute and gentle brother who needs to be protected from all the bad things in this world.


    Jian Kang Lu often plays games alone or reads his books in the bedroom when his kitten is studying. It was familiar for him, he often did this when he was single two years ago. But even though now he is reading his book alone in his bed, he still knows that his other half working hard in the living room, just a few meters away from him, reassured his heart.


    He was not alone, and he won''t leave his kitten alone.

 Chapter 150 - Eye Contact

    Bai Yutang silently swallowed the fish soup which he found so heavy in his throat today. He helped auntie Ming cook this fish soup today, and it should be delicious. The bass groper fish was fresh and thoroughly cleaned. The pickled mustard greens were crunchy, perfectly infused with the broth. Ginger and spring onion sprinkled fried with the fish before boiled, completely rid the fishy smell.


    It is incredibly aromatic, gently simmered until a rich savouriness perfumes the broth. Not only that, but it''s filled with melt-in-your-mouth bites of the most tender fish. But right now Bai Yutang found it was hard to swallowed.


    Bai Yutang can''t even memorise what ingredient used to recreate this fish soup for his lover. His brain was busy memorising parts of his presentation which he will rehearse today in front of his lover''s family.


    Bai Yutang stiffly smiled when his lover''s mother scooped him another bowl of the soup, said this was good for him once his lover casually told her that Bai Yutang was easy to get sick in winter.


    After lunch, as usual all of them moved to the living room for leisure chat. Bai Yutang was nervous. His lover''s brother and sister in law look like they didn''t remember that they told him to rehearse his presentation today. He was torn, whether he will stick to the original plan or just use this chance to silently spend this day without humiliating himself.


    It was tempting, but in the end Bai Yutang braced himself and spoke. He had promised last week, and he won''t break his promise.


    "Uhm uhmm.. Jian Ge, Fan Jie, as m-mentioned last week, it will be my honour if y-you could give me pointers about my final project''s presentation."


    Bai Yutang really can''t understand why he still can''t speak confidently in front of his lover''s family? He knew them for months.


    Fan Mingle raised his eyebrows, and her red lips slowly curved. Jian Kang Se stood up from his seat and told Bai Yutang that he will take the projector out.


    "Did you bring your laptop? Otherwise let''s use father''s laptop to connect to the LCD." Fan Mingle asked.


    Jian Kang Lu confused, what is this? His kitten never told him that he will present his project here in front of his family. This is not fair. Even his kitten never does this for him, and he dares not to ask. How could his brother and sister in law tell his kitten to do this? Jian Kang Lu worried, but mostly he was afraid his kitten would be in a bad mood and lash out at him after this.


    "TangTang.." Before Jian Kang Lu finished his words softly spoken on his kitten''s ear, his kitten already gave him that scariest smile. Jian Kang Lu knows very well what that smile means. He keeps his mouth shut and decides he will just help his kitten when his family slay him.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t mean to look down on his kitten, but he knew very well his father and his brother''s capability of making other people feel so low and crushed their pride in an instant. Jian Kang Lu prayed his family remember to restrain themselves.


    "I bring my own laptop, Fan Jie. Let me take it from the car." His kitten turns his head and looks at him, seemingly wanting to ask for the car key from Jian Kang Lu. Jian Kang Lu pat his kitten''s shoulder lightly, afraid of fuming his kitten''s nervousness.


    "Let me get it for you, TangTang." Jian Kang Lu hurriedly ran out and prayed his kitten won''t be in a bad mood after this.


    "Ooohh.. It''s been so long since i haven''t seen this kind of show." Lin Caihong clapped her hands. Her eyes brightened. Bai Yutang was having a bad premonition when he saw his future mother in law being so lively. This infected Jian Ming who jumped around in the living room and said he want to to presentation also.


    Pair of Jian brothers setting up the laptop and the LCD projector. Bai Yutang wanted to help, but he was told to sit in comfort until all settled. Bai Yutang silently wants to wipe his sweat, rolling down from his temples to his ear. This is winter, but he was sweating.


    Once the LCD was up, Bai Yutang walked to the laptop and opened his presentation. His lover gave him the remote to control the slide. The audience chose their own seat and looked at him with expectation. Bai Yutang gulped and his cold hand almost numb. He clears his throat several times before he stands next to the screen and faces the audience.


    "Good afternoon honourable teacher and professors. Today I will be defending my undergraduate architectural thesis entitled ''Post Retirement Living''. In this presentation I will give an overview of the work I have done during the last five years, but before I begin I will explain the title of the thesis."


    Bai Yutang''s trembling hand pressed the next button in this small pen shaped remote. The screen was changed from the title slide into the introduction. He tried to remember what''s next in his presentation, and he almost wanted to cry to hear his own voice squeaked, clearly showing his tense nerve.


    "Spaces that can transform human performances and take care of their well being. The design goal was to enhance the quality of life for seniors by creating an environment that stimulates both mind and body. A world to explore, a vibrant community to come home to. Freedom from the chores of daily maintenance. It''s time to enjoy retirement the way it''s meant to be."


    Out of his expectation, the more he talked the more he was confident with himself. He loved his project, this is his baby. He poured all the attention, doing extensive research, and he wanted people to appreciate his baby as it was the result of his long hours of work, in tears and blood. He knows his project well, and he studies a lot about it. He also spent many hours discussing it with his counselor.


    In the last 4 slides of his presentation, his voice was clear and not trembling like the first time he opened his presentation. He saw the audience all silently watch him, while Jian Ming was dragged to another room by auntie Ming''s daughter to prevent him jumping around and disturbing the presentation.


    "Finally, assisted living centres are extremely valuable for the elderly population because they provide a sense of dignity and independence while still providing the level of care needed. They utilize personalized care that is carefully shaped to the needs and desires of the elderly on an individual basis. Assisted living centres will be valuable for future generations provided the predicted trends continue"


    Bai Yutang closes his presentation with thank you and bow to the audience. He was hearing clapping sounds and saw his lover smiling at him with pride expressed on his face. But Bai Yutang''s heart sank when he saw only the ladies in this room clapping their hand along with his lover.


    Bai Yutang heard auntie Lin''s asking in a thrilled voice, "So, who will talk first? Can I?"


    Jian Shen raised his hand to cut his wife, "I will. You can talk after me."


    His wife pouted and told Bai Yutang to drink first before listening to the long rant from her husband. "It will take a long time and not funny at all, trust me."


    Bai Yutang felt his hands were numb again and he was really really nervous.


    "First, i will comment about your body language. This thesis also counts as your practice when you do your presentation to your future clients. You need to have confidence about what you sell, and your body language will be a focus on how you keep your audience entertained. On thesis defense, the audience understood well and might not need your explanation further. But in future, your clients won''t understand, and better to elaborate in simple yet easy to digest. You need to maintain their interest, make your body language interesting, and don''t forget eye contact."


    This whole long rant was noted by Bai Yutang who started to scramble his notes on his tablet. His future father in law didn''t take notes at all but he remembered all the presentations Bai Yutang just did. He points out which slides need to elaborate, he criticises Bai Yutang''s over explanation, he also emphasises on reducing the slide''s number to prevent Bai Yutang''s over explanation.


    After the whole 20 minutes lectured, Bai Yutang felt his brain already fried from this overload of information. When Jian Shen finished, Lin Caihong abruptly cut her son and told him that as a mother, she was the 2nd highest position in this room. Then she starts questioning Bai Yutang, and demands Bai Yutang to answer her questions in body language Jian Shen told him.


    This consumes 10 minutes for Bai Yutang to answer the same question again and again. Jian Kang Lu stood up and helped his kitten to fix his body language. He showed Bai Yutang the body language these people want to see. He was trained to do hundreds of presentations before, so his confident body language was clearly on a whole different level with Bai Yutang.


    After another 15 minutes, Lin Caihong nodded and was satisfied with Bai Yutang''s answer and body language. Then it was Jian Kang Se turn. His voice was icy and monotone, his questions and marks made Bai Yutang wonder whether this man was studying architecture before. His knowledge was wide and pointed weak points in Bai Yutang''s presentation.


    Last is Fan Mingle, who focused on the social impact. She was not overbearing like her husband, but still Bai Yutang found it was not easy to answer her detailed questions. After she finished, all of them looked at Jian Kang Lu.


    "You don''t have anything to point out or ask, gege?" Jian Kang Se was the one who spoke first among them.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, then he rambled his praise to his kitten. Once he finished, all of them still stared at him.


    "That''s it? I still remember you coldly and ruthlessly commenting on my thesis defence rehearsal." Jian Kang Se''s tone is still monotone.


    "You guys are already torturing TangTang for more than 100 minutes. I''m hungry again listening to all your comments. And honestly, I think his professors were not as demanding as you guys." Jian Kang Lu took the avocado egg rolls on the tables and started to eat. He truly famished from his nervousness listening to his family slaughtering his little kitten.


    He is truly afraid of the consequences later when they reach home. He prayed his praise ease his kitten''s mood, even though he only saw his kitten''s face focused and dedicated to answer all these questions as best as he could. But then their eyes met each other, and Jian Kang Lu returned to the space where only both of them existed. It only lasted one second, but then he saw.


    Looking at that white jade face layered with sweat, those phoenix eyes squinted focus on answering each question, and those pale pink lips didn''t forget to smile, showing the whole determined expression of conquering his presentation, grew a different bud inside Jian Kang Lu''s heart.


    It was admiration. It takes strength to hold the best part of yourself, keeping that real, yet pushing onward as his kitten does. It takes courage to stand in front of strangers and bear your weakness, gracefully embrace the critique and use it to enhance your strength. It takes more than love for his kitten to do these kinds of things right now.


    His kitten loves his project. He could see it, as clear as the spring lake on a fine day.

 Chapter 151 - Judgement Day

    Bai Yutang still in daze, his hands moved unknowingly packed the laptop and notes laid in the tables. He knows some of his friends waiting outside, to congratulate him wrapping up his final project. It''s a tradition where comrades show their support to the person who finishes their judgement day, or console them if the result was devastating.


    He slowly walked outside, met those faces with hope and anxiety asking him about what happened inside the room. Bai Yutang smiled, and later he couldn''t hold his grin and laugh.


    They all still have their final exam coming next week, but Bai Yutang felt a heavy weight lifted from his shoulder. He wanted to scream, jump, and just announce to the world that he just needed one more step before he graduated.


    He recalled what just happened inside, and he kept laughing. Seeing his silly radiant face, his friends know that it was a success. They shake his hands and congratulate him. Mu Xiaoya and Fei Hong already text him before, apologise they can''t come to his thesis defence because they had class.


    Bai Yutang reminds himself to text his lover, and needs to thank his lover''s family too. Because yesterday he was undergoing such training with high tension, today his nerves were calm. He didn''t feel too much pressure when he presented his project. His counselor asked him the things he already predicted, and he only needed minor revision for his imperfect answers.


    What makes him even more delighted was when professor Shu spent 5 minutes to praise him, and praise his project. She said that if she had an unlimited amount in her bank account, she would contact Bai Yutang to build this project. It was not over designed, and could be implemented in reality. She also praises Bai Yutang''s meticulous design.


    It''s a tradition to treat their friends after judgement day, but Bai Yutang didn''t do it. He doesn''t want to spend his lover''s money to treat friends he only met casually. It was different with his close friends. His lover already told him to invite them after his final exam.


    Bai Yutang opened his WeChat and replied to his lover''s message. Previously his lover already texted him auspicious words to encourage him.


    [Gege, I just finished. I made it! Thank you so much, gege. This all because of you.]


    He still chats with his friends walking out from the building, discussing the questions inside and also giving some pointers to the people who still have not presented their project yet. His phone then vibrates and he looks at the caller. He smiled and answered the phone.


    "Gege.."


    "Congratulations, baby. I''m so proud of you!"


    "Thank you, gege. Without you, i can''t make it."


    "Can you talk now? If you''re busy i''ll call you later."


    "Yeah, i''m still walking out. Later I''ll call you, gege."


    Bai Yutang put his phone back in his pocket, and continued the conversation. On this beautiful day, he decided not to think and looked at those eyes staring at him when he answered the phone.


    Bai Yutang still has 1 class today, thus he eats his lunch with his friends in the cafeteria in a hurry. While he attended his class, he texted his lover, inviting his lover to have dinner outside today. He wants to cook something special, but today he won''t have enough time to do that. And he also wants to celebrate his own achievement.


    It might be a small achievement, but for university students, this is one of their pinnacle in their academic life. An essence of years studying and working hard. Bai Yutang looked back, and sometimes regretted that he didn''t study more in his early year. At least he made up when he poured everything in these last 2 years.


    His lover texted him back, asking him to choose the place and later will pick Bai Yutang at home. But Bai Yutang replied quickly, he already decided where he wanted to eat tonight, and suggested his lover meet there after his lover finished from hospital.


    Bai Yutang chose Huxiang. This winter is really cold, snow started pouring down from the grey sky last week. It enveloped the city with icy wind and it''s cold white cotton slowly floating down. Eating hotpot in this season is truly a blessing for body and soul. Bai Yutang reminds himself to book Huxiang or else he is afraid they won''t get a seat.


    Actually they guaranteed to have a seat there. People rarely eat hotpot at 9 o''clock. But Bai Yutang doesn''t want to gambling. Christmas will come in another two days, and people start to have their Christmas dinner with their friends and colleagues.


    [Huxiang? Are you sure? You won''t go somewhere fancy to celebrate?]


    Bai Yutang only smiled to see his lover''s reply.


    He met Mu Xiaoya, Fei Hong and Ling Yue after class. It might be a little awkward to be the only guy among these girls. But they were the next best friend he had after Yu Dong, Tang Yuxuan, and Liu Xiang. They went to their favourite cafe and Bai Yutang ordered hot cappuccino to brighten his eyes.


    These past weeks he didn''t sleep enough. After his tension lifted today, his relaxed nerves made him yawn several times in the class today. The smell of earthy brown beans mixed with mild milky scent sooth his nerves, lifted his mood.


    "Congratulations senior! I heard you nailed it!"


    Bai Yutang laughed, he didn''t restrain himself in front of these girls. He really needed to pour his happy mood, and also felt safe to brag in front of them. They will understand and won''t judge him for being arrogant.


    Once in a while, we need to feel proud and brag about our little achievement to someone else. It was good, and a way to appreciate our own hard work.


    The sky darkens, and Bai Yutang remembers something before going back home.


    "Luo Ge will open his new cafe around here next year. I''ll ask him for a discount card for you, Xiaoya."


    "Me too! Don''t forget me! Senior Bai always favours Xiaoya rather than me." Ling Yue pouted her mouth and bawled her eyes, protesting Bai Yutang.


    "Of course! I''m his number 1 fans! A cute fan!" Mu Xiaoya tosses her hair with a smug face.


    Fei Hong chuckled, "Your confidence in par with MianMian. I don''t know whether it was wise or not telling you this, Yutang. But a few months ago MianMian asked me about you and Jian Ge. I honestly didn''t know what to answer. But since you didn''t hide it anymore, last month when she asked about you again, I told her that you''re in a relationship with Jian Ge. Guess what she told me?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t mind Fei Hong telling Feng Mian about him and his lover. He should have told her long ago. "What?"


    "She said, no wonder you reject her. And she tossed her hair in the same way Xiaoya does right now, saying no single straight guy would resist her charm. That''s why she failed to make you hers, because you''re a married man already. if not, you''ll fall completely in her grip right now."


    Bai Yutang laughed, he could imagine Feng Mian''s face. "Send my regard to her, and please invite her too next month. Jian Ge wants to treat you all."


    They looked at each other and smiled. Bai Yutang paid for the coffee and cakes, and then he rode his bike home. He tightened his scarf around his neck before he rode it. He rides it slowly, enjoying the cold wind brushing his cheek. His day was good.


    While waiting for his lover to finish, Bai Yutang starts working on his project revision at home. They will move from this apartment before the new year. The apartment rent lasted only until this month. Bai Yutang missed his lover''s apartment. Somehow he didn''t really feel at home here.


    He also replied to congratulatory messages from his friends in the group chat. They also apologised that they could not come today, since they were still in probation time. It was not polite for probation employees to take a day off just to attend their friend''s thesis defence.


    Bai Yutang also calls his mother and grandparents. His grandparents congratulate him and wish they could see him soon next month. They also asked whether Bai Yutang will come back to W city after graduation for good. When Bai Yutang told his grandparents he plans to look for a job in B city, they sounded surprised. His grandpas didn''t say much, but his grandma advised him to go back to W city.


    "W city is also good, the city''s economy flourished in these past few years. A lot of new buildings and constructions around here. Why don''t you come back here? Don''t you feel sorry for your mother? She was alone in that big house."


    Bai Yutang felt his happy and bright mood dimmed a little bit. He forced his smile while assuring his grandma that he will rethink his decision once again.


    Previously when he called his mother, she didn''t say anything about where he wanted to work after graduation. She only congratulated him, then sobbed in a soft voice. Her voice was hoarse and soft, almost unheard.


    "I wished Haoran could hear this and see you on your graduation day. He always says he wants to see you graduate. His beloved and proud son graduated, that was his dream. To send his children graduate from a good university. If only he was still here with us.." Bai Yutang was silent when he heard that. His throat was hot, he felt something from his stomach going up and choked him.


    He too. Bai Yutang also wants to see his father looking at him, proud of him, then brag about his son''s achievement to his colleague. His big mountain who then will ruffle his hair softly while murmuring that even though he didn''t graduate from college, he still can send both of his kids to better education.


    He hoped his big mountain could see him from above, and still be proud of him.


    ''I almost graduated, dad. I study hard, and work hard. The money you left for us is still enough for Bai Yuren later on, and I''ll work to support your beloved wife. I''ll try my best to pamper her in your place. And.. And I hope you could see how good gege treats me. Please give your blessing to us. I hope you always take care of me, RenRen, and your beloved wife from above. I hope.. I make you proud..''

 Chapter 152 - I Just Miss You So Much

    As time passed by, soon new year passed, and also the final exam of Bai Yutang''s last semester. The hall was bustling with cheers and joyful sounds from the students who finally had their exam burden lifted from their shoulder. Most of them happily chatter with holiday plans and things they suppressed to do since they had to study hard.


    Bai Yutang absentmindedly walking through the corridor. There''s a lingering feeling he wants to savour now. This is the last exam he takes for the years of his life as an undergraduate study in this university. He hoped nothing bad happened with his project and exams.


    Somehow Bai Yutang never feels at ease for feeling satisfied with his life before the final result comes out, written in black over white. Life caught him unprepared when his father left. Since then he always prepares for the worst thing that could fall upon him before expecting for the best.


    That''s what makes him take the worst decision in his life. Deciding to leave his lover before demand for his explanation before he fought for it.. Turns out, the worst things happened when you didn''t fight for what you wanted. So he changed a little bit. But still, the uneasiness still stuck deep inside his mind and heart, always preparing for the worst for him. He refused to be caught unprepared in another turbulence of his life.


    But he was now closer to the first goal he wanted to achieve in his life. Graduation. He submitted his final project''s revision and it was approved already. Now what''s left only waiting for his final exam''s result, and then submitting all the documents needed for graduation. Getting his diploma.


    Bai Yutang reaches home at 3 o''clock. He decided to ride his bicycle for exercise this noon before the chilly wind got colder when the sun went down. Bai Yutang didn''t forget his coat and his shawl when he exercised. January''s winter is still cold to the bone.


    Bai Yutang decided to exercise more, since now he will have a lot of free time. He felt ashamed with his flabby belly. Since he was skinny, there''s not much fat accumulated there, but still far far far away from his lover''s tight abs. Bai Yutang envies his lover''s genetic cheating. His lover''s whole family is the body type who easily gains muscle and loses fat.


    Life is unfair.


    Since his jacket was thick enough, Bai Yutang soon felt his body sticky with sweat. Today is Friday, his lover won''t come home until 9. Bai Yutang parks his bicycle and rides the lift back to their apartment. He wants to take a bath and then cook dinner. He already planned to cook cashew chicken with ginger and shrimp lettuce wraps tonight.


    There are lots of recipes for cashew chicken, but this one recipe he got from auntie Ming. Bai Yutang wants his lover to praise his cooking skill recreating the childhood dishes in his lover''s memory.


    His lover love the flavor from the fresh ginger and the crunch of the crunch of the cashews. Bai Yutang glad since this dishes was easy to made. Bai Yutang modified the recipe a little since he added toasted sesame oil when he sauteed the chicken and the veggies. He also avoids red pepper flakes from auntie Ming''s original recipe.


    Tomorrow is Saturday. Bai Yutang prepares for another long exercise in the bed with his lover. He admitted he was kinda hoping it happened. They haven''t made love properly in this last month. Bai Yutang felt ashamed for his lewd expectation. He was a young man in his prime age. It was natural for him to have an abundance of sexual desire.


    The food didn''t take long for him to prepare. After he finished, he felt empty. He wants to play games and read his book which he abandoned since he was busy this semester. But suddenly he felt the urge to see his lover as soon as possible.


    Bai Yutang looked at the clock hanging on the wall. It was almost 7 o''clock. He grabbed his coat and shawl, running to catch the taxi. He didn''t ride the bus, since he was afraid to miss his lover on his way.


    Bai Yutang looked at B city citizens walking by and cars who stuck in the traffic jam. B city was lively, the city who lived up to its reputation as this country''s capital. From ancient walled capital to showpiece megacity in barely a century, B city spins breathless of triumph, endurance and innovation.


    He had lived in this city for more than 5 years. He planned to live the rest of his life here. But his grandparent''s words were disturbing his conscience. Bai Yuren is busy, and will be more busy in the future. Should he neglect his mother to pursue his happiness with the man he loved the most?


    The taxi driver asked him a few questions, engaging conversation with him. Probably the taxi driver was sleepy, or bored. Bai Yutang politely answers the questions and gives a light response to converse back.


    Taxi driver is a boring job. Sitting inside the car for hours, drive across the sea of vehicles every day on this long and never ending road. Different passengers everyday, but same old routine. Bai Yutang used to hate people talking to him when he wanted to enjoy the calm moments. But now he tried to respect every person, all thanks to his lover''s teaching.


    Bai Yutang politely smiled and relayed his gratitude for the taxi driver when he safely arrived at his lover''s hospital at 8''clock. He walked inside the hospital which was full with people passing by at this time. This is the prime time for them visiting hospital. Whether it was for visiting their friends or family, or went to see the doctor to seek wellness for themselves.


    Bai Yutang knows where the kidney clinic is located. He was there as a patient months ago when he pleaded for forgiveness and one more chance. Bai Yutang was too nervous last time and didn''t pay attention to his surroundings.


    Now he sat there with the people who were still waiting for their turn, or waiting for their family to fetch their medicine in the pharmacy. The people who sat with him here varied. Young, old, male, female, thin, fat, all of types mixed together with a solemn face. Some were talking with their relatives who sent them here, some were just closing their eyes with pale faces.


    These are faces that his lover''s must face everyday. This is the situation his lover had to encounter everyday. Each one of them has an expectation for his lover to get them back safe and sound just like before.


    Bai Yutang waited and waited, until his lover finally emerged from the examination room. His lover smiled and talked a little bit with the nurses on the station in front. Bai Yutang didn''t know what his lover was wearing today, since he left earlier today before his lover took a bath.


    At this moment he saw the tall and handsome man who occupied every inch of his heart still wearing his white doctor coat over the grey shirt and dark grey wool pants. His lover often dresses in monotone color, but instead of dull it just adds an elegance charm to his overall appearance. The trace of time starts to show in his lover''s face. But as life was unfair to some people, the time was gentle to Jian Kang Lu. He looked even more attractive with his age.


    Bai Yutang stood up, but he didn''t call for his lover. When his lover turned and walked away, his lover halted his step when he saw Bai Yutang. That smile who was still plastered from his face changed. Bai Yutang could recognise it, a different smile, who only showed at him. A warm smile, with his black pupils sparking under the incandescent light.


    "TangTang." His lover''s voice and face clearly show his surprise and delight. Bai Yutang smiled to see it.


    "Why don''t you tell me? This is just a surprise for me, right? Not because something happened to you?" His lover''s gentle voice gradually changed from excitement into concern.


    Bai Yutang just smiled, "Just want to surprise you, gege."


    "How many hours are you waiting here? Why don''t you tell me? You can wait inside next to my examination room rather than waiting outside. Are you riding a bus or taxi?"


    "If i told you, it won''t be a surprise anymore. I ride a taxi, gege. Don''t worry." Bai Yutang walked together with his lover out of the outpatient hall, and when they near the car, he suddenly whispered in his lover''s ear.


    "I just miss you so much, and want to meet you sooner."


    Jian Kang Lu stunned. How he wished to kiss his lovely kitten right now. He hurriedly grabbed his kitten''s hand and put him inside the car. Once they drive outside the hospital''s parking lot Jian Kang Lu peck his kitten''s cheek lightly.


    "I miss you more, baby. I should say this is a wonderful surprise. Suddenly i''m not tired anymore." He holds his kitten''s slender hand and kisses its fingers one by one, infatuated in its tenderness.


    They have their dinner first, and Jian Kang Lu told his kitten the dishes today taste just like Auntie Ming''s cook, but even better. Bai Yutang smiled, and teased his lover by saying that if he was not destined to be a successful architect then maybe he could learn under Luo Yan and Song Lixia to open his own restaurant.


    His lover looked at him, a hint of pride written in his smile. "I''m sure you''ll gain achievement in whatever you do, baby. No matter what, i''ll support every decision you make."


    After bathing his lover, turns out his lover also had the same expectation with him, and Bai Yutang glad he didn''t add the red pepper flakes on the cashew chicken. He was still asleep after passed out last night before his lover woke him up this morning. To be precise, wake his little brother down there before the sensation wakes Bai Yutang up too.


    With rigorous activity like tonight and this morning, his little hole down there will suffer if he eats spicy food.


    Jian Kang Lu held his kitten tight, savouring the heat his kitten emitted from his body after Jian Kang Lu turned and tossed his kitten around for nearly one hour this morning. He already restrained and fasted like a dedicated monk for one month. Only eat vegetables since the meat was forbidden.


    The risk of touching the meat for last month was too big for Jian Kang Lu to handle. So right when the meat was free for him to taste, his inner beast was roaring, wanting to eat it until his heart content.


    This is not enough. But Jian Kang Lu still has many days ahead, no more fasting, no more restriction, no more vegetables to chew. Now this tasty tender meat was available for him to chew and swallow. He was smiling and imagined bright days ahead of him.

 Chapter 153 - It Was Not Fair

    Bai Yutang can''t help to curve his lips upward when he remembers his lover''s sulky face. The stewardess''s voice reaches his ear, and he turns his head, politely says thank you and receives the snacks and drinks provided by this airline to their passenger.


    Bai Yutang turned his head again to look at the window. The sea of white clouds spread all over the horizon, floating like bundles of soft cotton who could disappear any moment.


    His lover truly behaves like children from time to time. He didn''t restrain himself and forgot about his age when he pleaded with Bai Yutang not to take the train for his transportation choice. Bai Yutang insisted that the train ticket would be wasted if he bought another flight ticket.


    After those bickering, coaxing, placating, finally Bai Yutang gave up when his lover used his weakness in bed. When he was sent to heaven on their bed time which had been ridiculously increased in these past two weeks after his exam, Bai Yutang''s brain was usually muddled and filled with water. He can''t say no to his lover''s request.


    Using that weak mumbling agreement from Bai Yutang, his wicked lover directly buys the flight ticket from his phone.. What Bai Yutang couldn''t understand was how come his lover did that while he was still thrusting his long rod into Bai Yutang''s little hole, and Bai Yutang didn''t even realise it. He just noticed it when his lover showed him his e-ticket while Bai Yutang was still moaning and biting the pillow under him.


    Truly wicked.


    As usual, no one picked him up at the airport. He doesn''t want his sister nor his mother wasting time to pick him up. Besides, airport in this time is truly packed. People around the world will celebrate Chinese New Year in two days. W city airport bustling with people who rushing home to their family, celebrate this auspicious time together. Bai Yutang will stay in his hometown for the next three weeks.


    Bai Yutang had already taken care of all his required documents for getting his diploma and graduation. After Chinese New Year his diploma will be issued and he could start hunting for a job. So basically this is the last leisure holiday without the burden he will have before another battle begins.


    Once he gets his diploma, one of the burdens on his mind will be relieved. He once was so paranoid about being expelled due to having a boyfriend instead of a girlfriend. He knows that it was not stated in the university rules nor the law, but nevertheless he was still anxious about that.


    His lover promised to visit him in W city every week after Chinese New Year, and they could come back to B city together at the end of Bai Yutang''s holiday here. His wicked lover also secured the ticket at that time he took advantage from Bai Yutang.


    Bai Yutang had already promised his sister and his mother to go to the shopping mall together once he arrived home. He will let them celebrate New Year in the way they used to have when Bai Haoran was still alive.


    Previously Bai Yutang was too stingy to spend the money in their savings, afraid that they can''t survive. But now he has almost graduated from university, his sister still secured his scholarship, his mother didn''t ask for money since she was working in the restaurant, so the money in their savings actually grew a little bit in the past few months. Not much, only several thousand yuan, but still.


    His mother and his mischievous sister joyfully stride across the sea of people in the shopping mall, carefully choosing their new red dresses for New Year. Bai Yuren didn''t even look at the price tag and try the dress among those mountains of piles of clothes she picked. His mother whispered softly, warning his sister to wisely choose and be careful about the price.


    "Relax mom. Gege had promised me, I can choose whatever I want." Bai Yuren picks another red cheongsam and looks at herself in the mirror with the cheongsam upon her.


    His mother looked at him with concern. Bai Yutang smiled, "It''s okay mom. You choose too, don''t let RenRen spend all the money for herself. You haven''t bought clothes for a long time. We have the money, it''s okay."


    Lu Hua sighs and wanders around. "Then you choose too. Why didn''t you choose anything and just follow us?"


    Bai Yutang guarded her mom from this pack of people here and left his sister who drowned in her own world. "I have bought my clothes for this new year in B city. Don''t worry about me."


    Three of them walked out from the department store, Bai Yuren''s step was like bouncing in the air. She didn''t worry a little bit about spending money today. She knew her brother must be supported by Jian Ge. Why need to worry about spending her future brother in law''s money?


    Three of them having dinner in the luxurious Restaurant which Bai Haoran used to take them to eat. His mother didn''t say anything, and just smiled when sometimes they reminisced about the old times.


    It was only 3 years ago. Why does the memory seem so fresh like yesterday, yet so dimmed like ancient history? Beautiful and warm her heart, yet also painful like a sharp needle slowly piercing to her bones?


    After the satisfying dinner, three of them went home and went to their own room, get some rest and a nice sleep. Tomorrow they need to prepare the Chinese New Year''s dishes. For this year, Bai Yutang''s grandparents and his uncle''s family will come here, just like when Bai Haoran is still alive. The last 2 New Years were spent in Lu Hua''s parents house. The house was gifted by Bai Haoran.


    In the morning, Bai Yutang was still talking on the phone with his lover when he heard the door softly knocked. Bai Yuren never knocked on his door, so it must be his mother.


    "Gege, seems my mother is looking for me. Can i call you again later?"


    "Mm.. Send my regard to your mother."


    "I already told her yesterday."


    "Then tell her again today."


    Bai Yutang chuckled when he recognised that familiar sulky voice, "Okay okay, i''ll tell her again today. Please finish your breakfast, don''t eat too fast. I love you."


    Bai Yutang could hear his lover send virtual kisses from hundreds of miles away, "Mmuah, i love you more. Call me again later, okay?"


    "Okay, gege. Have a nice day."


    Bai Yutang hurriedly ran to the door and opened it. He found his mother standing there with a soft expression. He noticed his mother''s expression was kinda gloomy from yesterday. He thought yesterday was because Bai Yuren lavishly spent money, but why today he still saw the cloudy expression hanging on his mother''s face?


    "Please come in, mom? Is there something bothering you?"


    Lu Hua walked in and sat in her son''s chair near his studying table. The white wooden chair starts to show yellow stain, but is still sparkling clean and shiny. She just polish it last week, welcoming his son home.


    Bai Yutang was waiting, but his mother still muted. "It''s okay mom, please tell me."


    Lu Hua sighed. It''s really hard for her to say this matter, but she needs to ask her son. "It''s about your cousin.." Bai Yutang patiently waited. He didn''t disrupt her mother. From her face, clearly this matter weighing her heart.


    "You know your cousin will finish his high school this year. Your uncle.. Your uncle discussed that matter with me, and I need to ask your opinion. It would be different if Haoran was still here with us. But.."


    Bai Yutang more or less could guess where this conversation was heading to. At first he was scared his mother would talk about his plan in the future, and asked him to stay here in W city with her. He hasn''t prepared his answer, and he really can''t decide if his mother will ask him to choose. He was glad his mother didn''t ask about this matter, at least not now.


    "Uncle want our help? For Jiang''s college tuition?"


    Lu Hua knows her son is smart. Is he smart, or is it obvious her little brother only asks for more money from her family? If this was Bai Haoran, Lu Hua won''t feel this heavy. But this is her son. A son who she birthed, risked her life for him. A son who was not even 24 years old. Does he really need to be burdened with this?


    The money Bai Haoran left was for her son and her daughter. How could she take away what''s to be their right just for the sake of her nephew''s college?


    But she can''t forsake her little brother''s heavy face when he said those words to her. Her little brother was trembling, and his voice was clearly ashamed. Ashamed for his own incompetence providing his own family.


    Bai Haoran used to send money every month to her little brother. They were saving that money, and also Bai Haoran once helped her little brother to open a small shop. That was enough for their daily life, including their parent''s. But college tuition is on another level. His little brother also has a 2 years old baby who still needs a lot of money in the future.


    Bai Yutang sighed. This is truly a headache. He know his cousin was not stupid. In reality, his cousin was an ordinary average student. Not belong to the smart students like him nor his sister, but also have potential to go to college for striving for a better future. If his cousin could go to college and get a decent job, he could support his parents in the future.


    His mother was right. If his father was still alive, this wouldn''t need any discussion. Bai Haoran will definitely support his cousin. But now, if Bai Yutang agrees to support his cousin''s tuition, that will be extremely unfair for his sister who needs to struggle with her scholarship, while they paid for another person''s study.


    It was not fair for him too.


    Bai Yutang predicted the tuition money won''t be as expensive as his and his sister''s, since his cousin might not be accepted in elite university. But still¡­ He can''t expect his cousin to get a scholarship with his ability.


    Bai Yutang took a deep breath. "We still have more than 80,000 yuan in our savings. And we also still have the car which uncle used now. We have several options. Let me think about it first, and later i''ll tell you about it. Okay, mom?"

 Chapter 154 - The Power Of A Thousand Sun

    Bai Yutang lists their assets. He needs to ask for his lover''s opinion about this. This clearly was not a simple matter he could solve alone. He rubbed his temples which had been throbbing hard with pulsating veins.


    Can he just say no? Their family was not in the proper position to offer any help, even themselves already struggling hard to earn money. Bai Yutang sighed. He knew exactly his mother had a soft spot for his uncle. Bai Yutang himself can''t blame her mother. If Bai Yuren someday asks him to help him pay tuition for his nephew, he might have the same concern with his mother right now.


    [Gege, can i talk to you when you''re not busy?]


    Jian Kang Lu read that message 3 hours later. He was smiling when he saw a message from his kitten, but then his straight eyebrow frowned to see the content. He called his kitten directly..


    "Baby, what''s the matter? Sorry i just read your message."


    "Gege.. I need your advice. Are you still busy? If you are, we can talk again later."


    Is Jian Kang Lu busy? Yes he is. But his kitten is his priority. It was rare for his kitten to ask him like this during his working hour.


    "No, I''m not. I have ear to listen to you."


    Bai Yutang took a deep breath, and explained what''s weighing his mind. He excluded his personal feelings. Deep inside he wants to complain to his lover, saying that he feels unfair if they have to share the burden of his cousin''s tuition. Bai Yutang still remembers he needed to take 1 semester off, eat only buns and fried rice everyday, live in that shabby hostel before his lover caught him and took him.


    But he was afraid to act like a child in front of his mature and wise lover. So he just cut the explanation short.


    Jian Kang Lu listens to his kitten''s explanation, and he can hear his kitten''s voice has a hint of miserable feeling. If based on his personal feelings, he wants to scold his kitten''s uncle. But he said nothing, it was his kitten''s family. He doesn''t have the right to reprimand the unreasonable uncle of his kitten.


    Jian Kang Lu was sitting in his office. The nephrology division''s office containing desks of his colleagues, with the administration''s worker of nephrology division sit in the room next to this office. The paper stacked in their desks, books and research, messy and disorder. Only Jian Kang Lu''s desk looked clean without papers. He prefers to keep everything online on his computer and tablet.


    He was silent and typed something in his tablet. Then he doesn''t hear his kitten say anything more.


    "Gege, so? What do you think?"


    Jian Kang Lu asked slowly, "First of all, what do you think, TangTang?"


    Bai Yutang stares blankly at the family photo on his desk. "If my father is still here, he will definitely help my uncle. Personally, I don''t know, gege.. That''s why I asked you. It was just.. I don''t want to see my mother sad or stressed out because of this."


    Jian Kang Lu understood, then he quickly explained several things his kitten could suggest to his mother. After that long explanation, he then said in a soft voice, "No matter what, you have my full support. So don''t think too much."


    Bai Yutang felt his eyes a little bit warm to hear those assuring words. "Thank you, and i''m sorry gege.."


    ''I''m sorry that I always burden you.''


    Bai Yutang ends the phone, and he goes downstairs. His mother has already started to work in the kitchen while Bai Yuren is still not seen yet.


    "Mom.."


    His mother raised her face, and Bai Yutang ached to see his mother''s face who used to be radiant and lively, now seems ageing fast. There''s no light within.


    "Mom, I have been thinking about that. Let''s talk while preparing tomorrow''s dish."


    Bai Yutang starts to help his mother clean the shrimps and wash the vegetables. His slender hands skilfully peel the shrimp naked.


    "First, we can sell the car. Two, we can rent out this house, or seek loans with this house as collateral. Three, seeking loans with D district house as collateral. Four, borrow money from Jian Ge. No matter what option, we can only help with the tuition. For other costs, uncle has to provide it by himself." D district house is the house of his uncle and his grandparents living now.


    Lu Hua didn''t want to cry, but she felt so guilty to burden her son like this. Her voice was hoarse, "If we''re seeking loan or borrow money, who will pay for that?"


    Bai Yutang sighed, "I will. I will start looking for a job next month. Don''t worry about that." His hands automatically peel those shrimps without much emotion.


    Lu Hua saw his son''s back. His skinny son sat and peel the shrimps. His shoulder looked so thin and frail, but who can guess that this tiny shoulder has to be strong enough to bear all of this responsibility. She can''t hold her tears, "I''m sorry TangTang.. I''m sorry for being such a useless mother."


    Bai Yutang''s hand stopped. He turned his body to face her mom. "Don''t cry mom. My hands were fishy, I can''t hold you. Don''t cry, or dad will show up in my dream and scold me for making you cry."


    Lu Hua sobbed even harder, but she tried to smile hearing that. She still remembers her husband reprimanding their children the most if they make her cry. "I won''t, I won''t. I''ll tell him that this is tears of joy."


    "We need to talk about this to uncle and auntie tomorrow. But don''t let RenRen know about this.."


    His mother nodded. Not long after Bai Yuren joined them in the kitchen, all of them worked until afternoon.


    The next morning, Bai Yutang had dressed and knocked on his sister''s room. If he doesn''t wake her up, she will wake up at 10 like yesterday. When the holidays come, his sister will play and read until late at night. Bai Yutang didn''t blame her. She can''t play much when her semester begins again.


    Bai Yutang''s uncle''s family and grandparents come near lunch time. This time, his grandparents and auntie didn''t need to help in the kitchen, because Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren had cooked all the lunch dishes.


    After lunch, Bai Yutang calls his mom and his uncle to his room, and talks about his cousin''s matter straight to the point. Bai Yutang could see his uncle''s face was reddened with shame. He pretended didn''t see his mother''s finger fidgeting, playing with her skirt. He calmly explained all these options and his condition to his uncle.


    "Uncle and mom had to choose which option you want to take. The car can''t solve the problem until Jiang graduates, but at least it will give us some time to save until next tuition payment."


    His uncle can''t look him in the eye. With his head hung down, he asks, "I will try my best to pay for other than tuition money. But if it works that way, i don''t think i can pay for the loan. And if you borrow money from your friend, how can I pay it back? The instalment? The interest?"


    "Borrowing money is the last option, uncle. I personally prefer we sell the car or loan the house. About the loan, I''ll pay for it until Jiang graduates. After that, it had to be Jiang and your responsibility."


    There''s a light knock at the door, Bai Yutang stands up and opens the door. He saw his grandpa, Bai Haoran''s father, standing there.


    "Grandpa, what''s the matter?"


    Bai Haoyu looked at three people inside the room. He walked in and sat in Bai Yutang''s bed. "I want to talk to you about Jiang''s tuition."


    Three of them can''t hide the surprise in their face hearing that sentences coming out from Bai Haoyu.


    "I heard about this matter from old Lu. We talked about this, and I heard that three of you are discussing this too. Now listen to me. I''m old, my wife and my son already leave me. My small house might not sell much, but it will help Jiang''s tuition."


    Lu Hua hurriedly stood up, "Father! You can''t!"


    Bai Haoyu waved his hand, "Sit down, Hua. You know how much my son loved you. And in my old age, if not because old Lu and Jiang accompany my days, I don''t think I can spend my days in peace after Haoran left me."


    Bai Haoyu looked at Bai Yutang, "But of course, I can only sell my house if TangTang agreed. No matter what, if I died, that house should belong to my grandson. If TangTang doesn''t agree, i won''t sell the house." Bai Haoyu looked at Lu Hua''s little brother, "You need to look for the tuition money by yourself."


    Lu Hua is still standing, "Father, even though TangTang agreed, where do you want to live if you sell the house?"


    "I can live with old Lu, or with you here."


    Bai Yutang knew this might be the best solution for all of them, so he stepped up. "I don''t mind, grandpa. You can live wherever you are comfortable. But D district''s house didn''t have a spare room for you.."


    Lu Hua hurriedly said, "I don''t mind you staying here, father. But please think about it again." Burdening his son already weighs Lu Hua''s mind. But if her father in law sells his house for her nephew''s tuition, she thinks she can''t face her husband in the afterlife.


    Bai Haoyu nodded his head, "Then if TangTang doesn''t mind, let''s sell the house as soon as possible. It was not easy to sell a house these days. I''m afraid it won''t sell until Lu Jiang graduated later."


    With his grandpa''s resolute decision, this matter comes to an end. Bai Yutang''s uncle repeatedly says his thanks to this old man who looked so thin and pale, as if he was ready to wither at any moment. The trace of time decorate his face, who has been working hard all of his life.


    Bai Haoyu felt he had lived too long. He felt lonely without his wife and his son. He knows his daughter in law family is good. Originally, old Lu''s financial condition was better than his, but they still received his rough son with open arms, treated him well even though Bai Haoran was poor at first.


    Good in laws, delicate daughter in law, filial son, extraordinary and adorable grandchildren, Bai Haoyu felt he already spent his life good. He was satisfied with his life, and he had no regret in it. He had loved them with the power of a thousand sun, with his all.

 Chapter 155 - Do You Miss Me As Much As I Miss You? (NSFW)

    Bai Yutang standing in the middle of the crowd at the arrival gate. The airport was packed with people who were searching for their guests or their beloved one appeared from the automatic gate. Bai Yutang arrived 30 minutes earlier than the estimated time of his lover''s flight arrival, but his heart was already racing fast from his expectation.


    After taking care of his grandpa''s decision, busy with listing the house to sell and discuss the selling price, Bai Yutang really needs his dose of cuddling with his lover. Somehow he felt that he belonged in his lover''s apartment more and more compared to his parent''s house where he spent his childhood and teenage life. No, it was not the apartment that gave him such a strong attachment. It was his lover. He sighed and tried to calm his heart from missing this man too much.


    ''Wherever you are, that''s where I belong.''


    When you''re anxiously waiting for something, when the expectation is bigger, the longer time stretches and seems like forever. Bai Yutang restlessly leans on the wall, imagining every tall man coming out from that gate is his lover.


    Once he saw that tall and handsome man with a dark blue coat and dark blue jeans walking from the gate, he almost couldn''t control his feet from running and bouncing toward that man.


    "Gege!" He almost shouts, waving his hand in desperation for his lover to recognise him among the sea of people swarming in this airport.


    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten''s flushed face running toward him. In a moment he forgot about maintaining a proper image in public, he fastened his step and hugged his cute kitten who almost flew in his embrace. Immediately he could inhale his kitten''s scent, mixed with his sweat scent. And somehow it aroused him. His kitten''s scent when he was sweating under him was the best scent in the world.


    "Baby, I missed you so much."


    Bai Yutang had already forgotten a long time ago how to maintain a proper image in public. He often held his lover''s hand when they stroll together outside, and now after 10 days separated, he is really happy to be in this man''s embrace, feeling the heat omitted from his lover, with his broad shoulder sheltering him.


    "Have you waited long for me? Wait, I''ll call the driver first." Jian Kang Lu took the phone from his pocket and dialled the number while walking with his kitten toward their appointed pick up location. All the way, his hand still laid in his kitten''s shoulder.


    "I didn''t wait for long, are you hungry, gege?" Bai Yutang asked once Jian Kang Lu ended his phone call.


    They were standing there waiting for Jian Kang Lu''s driver to come. Jian Kang Lu looks at his kitten''s eyes who look at him, but then starts to divert his eyes to the crowd. How come after 10 days his kitten just looks more charming. Those pairs of bright phoenix eyes, his pale pink lips, his sexy collarbone, he wanted to taste it.


    "Mmm, i''m hungry. Very hungry." Jian Kang Lu then leaned toward his kitten, closer to this beautiful man. "Can i eat you first, baby?" Jian Kang Lu whispered to his kitten''s ear.


    Bai Yutang could sense the hot breath from his lover brushing his ear, tickling his desire. It roused from his abdomen and just spread to his lower part. To be honest, he also prefers to be eaten first compared to having early dinner. So he just nodded his head, but still avoided looking at his lover''s face. He was afraid he was fully aroused if he took another look at that handsome face, and would make people stare at his bulging pants down there.


    This time Jian Kang Lu stayed at the 5 star hotel in the centre of W city. He planned to invite his kitten''s mother and sister to have dinner here later together. His kitten already brought his backpack to stay with him tonight. Lu Hua was the one who urged Bai Yutang to accompany Jian Kang Lu. Jiang Kang Lu felt so grateful to his future mother in law.


    The check in process didn''t take a long time, and in a short time they already went inside the room. The luxurious room had a big sofa and office tables in each corner. The office tables paired with a big leather chair. Clearly this is to accommodate those businessmen who stay in this hotel.


    Bai Yutang''s phone needed to be charged, so he walked to the table to find the electric socket after he put his backpack on the sofa. In his mind, he wants to take a bath first with his lover, and enjoy their time together until dinner time. But suddenly he felt his body trapped under his lover''s arm who hugged him from behind. He felt his lover''s moist lips kiss the back of his neck, and some wet muscle trailing his skin to his side of the collarbone.


    Those naughty hands not only embrace him, but also directly knead his chest muscle, those palm rubs his buds. He felt his nipple start to erect, sending all the familiar signal to his nerves. Everywhere his lover touched him, he felt the skin under was burning and increased the blood flow all over. It was tickling yet electrifying at the same time.


    "Gege.. Why.. Ngh!" Bai Yutang can''t finish his sentences, since his lover suddenly bite his shoulder while rubbing his erect member to Bai Yutang''s butt.


    "Wait.. I''m sweating.. Ngh.. Gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu doesn''t care. He just wants to eat his kitten now. "What sweat? Let me lick you clean, then you don''t feel sweaty anymore."


    Jian Kang Lu just edged closer to his kitten and earnestly looked. He looked at his kitten''s red earlobes, exposed neck, and slightly protruding nipples, not to mention the erect penis that was hidden under his clothes. He unconsciously shifted his waist and turned his head to look at his kitten''s expression. He smiled to see his kitten trying to suppress his desire by biting his lower lips.


    Bai Yutang could feel those naughty fingers pinch his nipples several times. His lover''s left hand also slid down to his pants, and rubbed his lower member lightly.


    Jian Kang Lu was still licking his kitten''s earlobe, nibbling and biting it lightly, then he smiled, "Why need to take a bath, yours is already this hard."


    Bai Yutang doesn''t know what happened with his lover today. He seems so eager to eat Bai Yutang clean. Well, this is not the first time though. Sometimes his lover stared at him with those lusty eyes and then just pounced on him in the next minute without warning.


    His lover''s hand was large. It easily wrapped around the swollen hard member and massaged it lightly. The fingertips expertly rubbed against it, unzipped it, and let the restless hardened member to be free.


    His lover then turns his body, and presses him upon the table. His lover''s still rubbing his penis, and searching for his pre leak and smear it around. He even used his other hand to slide down, both of his hands now massaging Bai Yutang''s private part. Bai Yutang could only suppress his moans by kissing his lover fiercely. His hands were gripping the table to prevent his jelly legs from betraying him.


    Jian Kang Lu happily receives the fierce attack from his kitten and skilfully uses his tongue to receive his kitten''s soft and firm lips. But then he thought that the wet reply at the tip of his kitten''s penis was very cute. He stooped over, then kneel and gently took it in his mouth. He licked his stem from top to bottom. As he licked, he spoke and the pale penis went in and out of his mouth. It was an incredibly erotic scene.


    "Mmm.. I miss this cute thing so much. Do you miss me too, baby?" Jian Kang Lu enthusiastically swallowed his kitten''s member which seemed to grow bigger under his tongue command.


    Bai Yutang grabbed his lover''s hair and gasped erratically. He wasn''t sure whether to push his lover away or just open his legs here. Between his chaotic mind, it seems only enhanced his own desire and his world soon sparkled. He didn''t release himself when he was away from his lover. And to receive a sudden attack like this, his pitiful member could not survive under his lover''s warm mouth.


    "Gege, slower.. Ngh.. Don''t.. I''ll come soon¡­"


    Jian Kang Lu chuckled and just increased his pace. He sucked the swollen member in his mouth with all his strength, and then he felt his kitten''s tense, grabbed his hair and almost screamed. When it finally sprayed it''s nectar, Jian Kang Lu just swallowed all of it.


    "Wait here.." Jian Kang Lu laughed and kissed his kitten. He then took the lubricant from his bag and walked back to his kitten who was still standing there, leaning over the desk with his clothes still fully attached, only his lower member who exposed to the outer world, inviting him to bully his kitten again.


    Bai Yutang could only obediently let his lover put him to sit over the desk. His lover quickly stripped his pants and threw it away somewhere. His lover unzipped his own pants and put out his own penis which fully awakened while his other hand skilfully smeared the lubricant over his hole and stretched it slowly with his finger. All of it while his lover stared hungrily at Bai Yutang who could only lay down and stare back, bite his lips to suppress his moan.


    "You''re so sexy, baby." Jian Kang Lu also smeared the lubricant to his own member. Both of his hands were busy working preparing both of them to entangle and connect into one. When he felt his kitten''s hole relaxed, he directed his own member which can''t wait to invade this tight pink hole.


    Bai Yutang lifted his waist so his lover could penetrate his hole more smoothly. His lover always uses a generous amount of lube, and he is embarrassed to realise the little hole sucked in the invading foreign object at once. Why does he become a lusty man who can''t wait to be fucked?


    "Ahh.." Jian Kang Lu couldn''t hold the sensation and inserted his dick all in one go. He pushed so far that Bai Yutang went soft at the knees and had to clench his teeth so as not to call out.


    Jian Kang Lu''s beast has been hungry. He was just so aroused and full of vigor. He recklessly grinded his hips in every direction. It felt so good that he wanted to moan with pleasure too. He held his kitten''s thin waist and stuck to his back. He rocked his sturdy waist and continuously pounded. He lightly sighed in appreciation, "Baby, you''re too tight. It''s squeezing me so much. This way you''ll make me quickly be brought to the peak."


    Bai Yutang was fucked so hard that he couldn''t speak. He could only hold to his lover''s body to prevent him rolling over from this desk. His eyes was unfocused, his lover mercilessly hit different spot and just fuck his hard from the beginning. An obscene atmosphere spread throughout the bedroom.


    Jian Kang Lu holds his kitten''s waist tight and pumped upwards. He saw his kitten start to struggle hard. In the end, he pushed to the apex and directed the powerful strokes to hit his kitten''s sweetest spot.


    Bai Yutang thighs went limp. He couldn''t hold back and moaned out loud.


    "Do you like it, baby? Do you miss me as much as I miss you?"


    Receiving moans as the answer, Jian Kang Lu started poking around inside his kitten''s tight hole again. His kitten scratched him even though it was useless, Jian Kang Lu was still wearing his clothes. His desire burned even more to see his kitten endured the endless pleasure from being fucking in his back hole and used all of his might to speak properly.


    "Ngh.. I.. Gege.. Sl-slow down.."


    "Do you miss me?" Jian Kang Lu mercilessly increases his speed, though he knows that way just prevents his kitten from answering him clearly.


    "I.. I.. Ngh!!"


    How could Bai Yutang answer it? He was drifting in between these waves after waves of pleasure. His legs unconsciously wrapped itself around his lover''s waist, encouraging his lover to penetrate him deeper. He could feel that hot thick stuff down there penetrating him over and over, and his little hole answered those love making by contracting it walls around his lover''s.


    "You don''t miss me? While I miss you like crazy? Ugh.. TangTang.. I miss you so much, and miss your little hole down here too.." Jian Kang Lu He violently stuffed his cock into his kitten''s endlessly constricting hole until his kitten''s body tensed under him. His kitten''s whole body shivered as he climaxed, spraying his white thick liquid all over. It stained the desk, their shirt, even some near Jian Kang Lu''s ear


    "Ugh TangTang! You taste so fucking good!" Jian Kang Lu just kept thrusting hard and deep, enjoyed the twitching and suction of the hole which quickly brought him to ecstasy. He used even more force until finally he reached his peak and shot strand after strand of cum inside his kitten.


    Bai Yutang grabbed his lover''s chest and gasped from this intense love making session. He slightly opened his mouth. He loved to see his lover''s face when he cum inside him. His lover seems to understand what he wants. He bent his body, and kissed Bai Yutang. The kiss was not gentle, it was still fierce and burning with their unresolved desire. His lover''s member is still buried inside him, it seems reluctant to separate with that warm wet hole down there.

 Chapter 156 - Ode Of Yearning (NSFW)

    The kiss gradually slower and gentler. Bai Yutang holds his lover''s back, and caresses it with his fingers. He loved his lover''s back, though he loved his lover''s broad chest the most.


    The sun has been emitting the golden orange to red rays shone from the big window. Bai Yutang hasn''t called his sister to tell them that the driver has been sent to them, picking them up so they could have dinner together here.


    "Gege.."


    "Mmmh.."


    Jian Kang Lu rubbing his chin to Bai Yutang''s lips and nose. The chin is smooth, tickling his skin.. Bai Yutang laughs and tries to push his lover. His lover still laid on top of him. His back also started to stiffen due to the hard surface under him.


    "Gege, I need to call my sister."


    "Call then.. Here." Jian Kang Lu gave Bai Yutang''s phone which was still recharged beside him.


    Bai Yutang received the phone, and felt ticklish from his lover''s soft hair rubbing his cheek and ear.


    "Gege, I want to call."


    "I gave you your phone, you can call RenRen. What''s holding you back?"


    Bai Yutang stared in disbelief. What''s holding him back? Clearly his lover didn''t think a 80 kg adult man who was laying on top of him and still stuck his dick to my part down there was holding him back to make a phone call.


    "Gege¡­ Pull that out, ah. How can I call her this way?"


    Jian Kang Lu grabbed the phone and dialled Bai Yuren''s number. He put it on speaker phone and put it beside his naughty kitten. He missed him so much, but his cruel kitten doesn''t seem to miss him.


    Bai Yutang can''t believe this man''s petty and childish act. He heard the ring tone and a girl''s voice answering that call. His sister delightedly asked him, "Gege, what time will you pick us up? I already took a bath and do my make-up now!"


    Bai Yutang forced himself to answer in a neutral tone, as if he was not pinched down upon a table with this lewd position. "RenRen, you''ll be picked up by Mr. Son. He was Jian Ge''s driver here in the city. I''ll give you his number. He should arrive soon."


    "Okay!" His sister''s tone was cheerful.


    Bai Yutang ends the call and glares at his lover. "You still don''t want to pull it out? We haven''t taken a bath." Bai Yutang can''t believe his lover answered him by opening his shirt and moved slowly down there. He could feel his lover''s member already hardened and fill his hole again. Stretching it. It gives an unbearable itch.


    "Don''t want to. If possible, i just want to stay like this forever."


    His lover hungrily bit his shoulder and marked his chest again before licking it, swept his tongue all over his skin, and trailed the line of muscles under his skin.


    "Ngh.. Gege.. T-Take a ba.." Bai Yutang can''t finish his words since his mouth invaded again. As if his lover doesn''t want to receive any rejection from him. His lover''s hand also starts caressing his member, spare no effort to awaken his lust again.


    "Ge..ge.. Ngh,. The number.." Bai Yutang struggled to say those two words out of his mouth. He was afraid his sister would call him while he was thrusted hard and couldn''t suppress his moans.


    Jian Kang Lu knows his phone laying down there with his pants. He hasn''t even stripped his pants completely. It was half hanging in his knees. He felt his kitten''s inner walls were really lewd, kept contracting and massaged his member. No wonder he was hardened again this soon. He answered his kitten''s plea with thrusting hard and slammed his all to that lewd naughty little hole. Then he reluctantly pulled his dick out from his kitten.


    He stripped himself from those pants while taking his phone from the pocket. After that he looked at his kitten who already slid down from the table, but still leaned on it with his hands tightly gripping the edge.


    Jian Kang Lu put his phone on the table, and turned his kitten''s body around. He marked his kitten''s front chest. Now it''s the time to mark those smooth white skin on his kitten''s back. Jian Kang Lu didn''t have this kind of habit with his previous lover. His kitten just awoken his primal beast instinct on marking their prey.


    "Gege!"


    "Ssshh.. TangTang.. Be good."


    Jian Kang Lu kneaded those supple buttocks and stretched it to see that pink hole twitching with the red lines inside peeking from it. His liquid was flowing out slowly from it.


    ''It belongs to me.''


    With satisfaction, Jian Kang Lu slid his dick against it, and slowly entered his kitten once again. He thrust it slowly, enjoying the sensation of each stroke. Then he reached his phone to send the driver''s number to his kitten''s sister. "Done, baby. I''ve sent the number to your sister." Jian Kang Lu leaned forward to bite that sexy earlobe while trapping his kitten''s arm beneath him. "Now it''s time to make sure you missed me too."


    "Akh! Gege.." His lover moved slowly and trapped him under. Bai Yutang''s own member was already hard and leaking the pre-cum since the first time it was teased around. Gradually those itches from his hole down there were unbearable for Bai Yutang. He knew his lover was cruel and waiting for him to beg. "Gege.. Please.. Faster.."


    "Do you miss me, baby?"


    Bai Yutang grit his teeth, he didn''t notice he was moving his hips to ease the itch down below since a long time ago. Why is this man like to torture him like this?


    "I miss you.."


    "But i don''t think you miss me much. Only me and my little brother here missed you so much."


    "I.. Akh!" Suddenly his lover slammed him hard, but then moved slowly again. "I miss you, so much. P-plea.. Akh! Ge-Gege.. Just move faster, please!"


    With his naughty kitten crying and begging him like this, how could Jian Kang Lu not give what his kitten wants. He held his kitten up and positioned his kitten''s back leaned against his chest. He holds his kitten''s waist and pinches his kitten''s hardened nipple while thrust up with much ease and power. He smiled to hear his kitten yelped and gasped much louder.


    "Ngh.. Ah. Gege, akh!.. Akh, don''t stop."


    When Jian Kang Lu heard those unconscious lewd requests slip from his kitten''s lips, he bit her ear lobe and started to suck on them.


    "More.. Please.. Gege.. Akh!"


    "TangTang.. Do you miss me to fuck you like this?"


    Jian Kang Lu gripped onto his kitten''s chest while supporting his tiny waist, kneading his waist, the upper part of his kitten''s supple butt. He also marks several places in his kitten''s back and shoulder. His kitten started to scream from sensual pleasure along with his gradual increase movement.


    "I¡ªI miss.. Nghhh! You.. AKh.. More.. Akh.. Faster, please gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu''s tongue smoothly licked on the sore spot of his kitten''s neck. He deliberately pulled his member out from his kitten''s hole. When his kitten turned his head to look at him, he thrusted into him again without any warning.


    He pummeled into his kitten from behind as if a wild beast running wild to satisfy his animal lust. Jian Kang Lu unbuttoned his shirt and threw it away. He hugged his kitten''s body while satisfying his primal instinct. Whenever their sweaty skin made contact it reverberated with a lewd wet sound.


    Bai Yutang was laid down again with his body pressed against the smooth hard wooden table under him. He gripped onto the edge of the table and tightly closed his eyes, feeling his insides moving by instinct every time his lover thrusted into him. His head, which rested sideways, rubbed against the not so cold wooden surface beneath him as his lover pounded into him.


    "TangTang.. TangTang.."


    "Ngh.. Jian.. Gege.. Akh!"


    It was unusual for his kitten to call him with that coquettish and sweet tone. Jian Kang Lu might not be able to differentiate sweet or lewd at this kind of moment, since his kitten only calls him this way when they are making love.


    Whenever he called his name, rather than his lower half, it felt like his heart was being squeezed and hard to breath. This kind of pleasure overtook his body and he closed his eyes. He held onto his kitten''s arm to steady his body while he continued to thrust inside of this tight little hole.


    The thrusting motion from behind hit deeper. It was straining for Bai Yutang because his lover didn''t give him a moment to rest. They only change position once. Regardless of her fatigue of continuing slammed against the desk, his body continued to burn with pleasure.


    "Angh.. Hh..Ngh"


    Pleasure flooded into Bai Yutang. A strong wave of orgasmic pleasure spasmed across his whole body while his insides squeezed and sucked in his lover''s thrusting member. His lower member throbbing hard, uneasy and uncomfortable.


    "Gege.. Ngh.. Please.."


    "You want to cum, baby?"


    "Yes.. Please.." Bai Yutang''s hand was moving from the surface to hold his own member. It was really uncomfortable, since he was standing on the edge. He cum once, so it was easier to cum if his member was handled too.


    Jian Kang Lu momentarily paused his movement, then caught that naughty hand. "TangTang.." He whispered in his kitten''s ear. "Baby, be good.. I still miss you so much. I want to taste your tight hole down here longer.."


    Jian Kang Lu could feel the body beneath him wriggling and struggling to release the unbearable itch. He chuckled, but still trapped his kitten''s hand to prevent it stroking his own member.


    Jian Kang Lu pulled out his member and grabbed his kitten''s limp body to the bed. He knows his kitten must feel uncomfortable on that desk for so long. He stared at the beautiful body laid on the white bed, glistened with the sweat all over. The spring dusk was giving a brown red gold spark to his kitten''s body, and his face was so red. His lips slightly parted with a gasping sound. He plunged to that inviting lips and ravaging him. His body rode on top of Bai Yutang''s and entered into him at once.


    "Nghh!!"


    "TangTang.. TangTang.. Baby.."


    His kitten''s insides had teased for so long, it was very sensitive and his body spasmed. Jian Kang Lu still smashed his lips against his kitten''s. He massaged the inside of his kitten''s mouth while tangling together with his tongue. The short but deep kiss ended and he moved his hips in a circular motion, prodding into various places while feeling his lewd kitten''s hole gladly slurped in his member with great joy.


    He could hear his kitten moaning non stop, his hands still trying to move to his lower member, trying to release himself.


    "Please.. Please.. Ngg.. Gege.. Jian gege.. I, angh! I want to cum.."


    Jian Kang Lu brushed back his kitten''s hair that was stuck on his sweaty forehead. He licked his kitten''s flushed cheeks tasting the slightly salty and sweet taste of her body. He loved every part of his kitten.


    "Your hair is getting longer, baby.."


    As if Jian Kang Lu was slowly paddling a boat, he spun his hips with steady breaths. Bai Yutang''s lips were swollen red and parted slightly, protesting this slow movement. Jian Kang Lu kisses him to shut this impatient kitten of him. If he released his kitten now while he still wants to enjoy his kitten whole, later his kitten will mad at him when he made his kitten cum for three times, for he was not sure his kitten could stay awake on dinner time.


    Bai Yutang was protesting, pleading, but he also took the initiative to tightly wrap his legs around his lover''s hips while moving his own hips along with his lover''s movements, hoping it will release him from this sweet torture. He really wants to cum.


    Ignoring this naughty kitten, Jian Kang Lu moved in the slowest possible way. He could feel his kitten''s insides had become hypersensitive and the slightest movements caused his kitten''s body to throb. Bai Yutang''s breath grew raspy as he gazed toward him.


    Jian Kang Lu''s eyes were slightly warped in meeting her gaze. He grasped his kitten''s swollen nipples. He enjoyed making Bai Yutang''s body jerk and tremble. Right when the dusk started to lose it''s glow, Jian Kang Lu knew it was time for them to finish it. They need to take a bath first before welcoming his kitten''s family.


    Jian Kang Lu increased his speed and thrusted up smoothly making his kitten lose his breath. He gazed deeply toward his kitten while propping both his legs on top of his shoulders. He started to slam on that little hole, listening to the uninterrupted moans and slapped sound from his thighs to his kitten''s butt.


    "Gege.. I''m.. Akh.." Bai Yutang already half conscious from this torture when finally his pitiful hard throbbing member felt the sensation of his lover''s soft hand caressing it. Start from small and light caress, then tightly grabbed, before finally his lover grace him with that steady and fast stroke.


    His lover also hit his sweet spot inside with fast movement, again and again. Push Bai Yutang higher and higher. His toes curling from this unbearable pleasure. His body was electrified each time his lover thrusted into him.


    "I''m.. Cu.. AKh!!"


    Bai Yutang could only scream and close his eyes tight when the waves of pleasure reached its peaks. He also felt his lover increasing his movement when his hole tightened and contracted from his climax. He could only bite his lover''s shoulder when this high sensation just heightened every time his lover fuck him after he cum like this.


    "TangTang, you felt so good.. Ugh!"


    In a split second when Bai Yutang almost threw into the abyss from the repeated stroke to his sweet spot after climaxing, he felt the sensation of his stomach filled by something warm. He knew his lover had cum. Mark his cave under with his scent. They are both sweating and panting, filling the room with their musky scent.


    The scent of their body speaking the language of belonging, and the ode of yearning.

 Chapter 157 - Thousand Year Old Vinegar

    Bai Yutang looked at the calendar and felt his headache coming. His mom asked him and his sister to accompany her to stay at their grandparents house this Friday. The problem is his lover will come again on Saturday and it means Bai Yutang only stays in his grandparents house only for one day.


    Bai Yutang himself felt uncomfortable. His lover had bought the ticket and planned this visit even before Bai Yutang stepped foot into W city soil this year. On the other side, Bai Yutang hasn''t stayed in his grandparent''s house this holiday, since his mother now works at the restaurant.


    Next week his lover will come again, but Bai Yutang will come back to B city with him. He has no other time rather than this weekend. Of course Bai Yutang can stay in his grandparents house on the weekdays, but his mom will be alone at their house.


    He called his lover, asking for his opinion. Bai Yutang wants to meet his lover, but he also wants to spend his time with his grandparents. After all, he will be going back to B city in less than 2 weeks..


    "Mmm.. Then, can I have a free meal at your grandparents house?" His lover''s voice didn''t sound mad at all for this sudden plan change. Bai Yutang smiled and felt relieved.


    "Yes you can, gege. I''ll ask grandma to cook her sun flower tofu. You''ll like it. But.. I can''t stay out with you, gege. I''m sorry." Bai Yutang laid his back to the bed and hugged his pillow. He felt bad for his lover. If not because his grandparents'' house don''t have extra room, he will gladly ask his lover to stay with him.


    "It doesn''t matter, baby. By the way, are you sure i can come?" Jian Kang Lu was happy with all circumstances as long as he could meet his kitten. But what will his kitten''s big family think of him? An old guy who comes out of nowhere and leeches for dinner on them. He was happy his kitten didn''t mind introducing him, but he was also afraid if his kitten''s big family noticed something wrong about them and demand Bai Yutang to leave him.


    "Um, i''m sure. Just come, gege."


    And so like that, Friday has arrived. His lover had booked another hotel near his grandparents house. When he told his mother and his sister before they arrived in their grandparents house, his mother just conveyed her worries that Jian Kang Lu might find the house was too crowded and small, while his sister excitedly listed all the things she hoped Jian Kang Lu would bring from B city.


    His lover told him to buy something for his big family, and Bai Yutang bought Steamed Wuchang Fish for their dinner before they arrived in his grandparents house. This fish was steamed with mushrooms, bamboo shoots, ham, ginger, and chicken soup. The soup colour was red orange clear soup with fresh fish and the taste was light. It was one of the top dishes in this city.


    His grandpa was overjoyed with this dish, and Bai Yutang gave him a bigger portion, reducing his own portion, saying that he liked his aunt pork ribs soup and lotus root more. While they enjoyed the dinner, suddenly his grandma asked him.


    "TangTang, have you decided where you want to work? Are you really looking for a job in B city?"


    Bai Yutang swallows his lotus root with difficulty before he calmly answers, "Yes, grandma. All my friends also got a job there. It was easier for us to look for a job there with recommendation from our teachers." Bai Yutang thought this question would pop up on New Year''s, but turned out this question was halted until now.


    "But working here is also good, and you can accompany your mother. Don''t you feel pity for her?"


    Before he answered, his mother''s voice was heard from the other side. "It doesn''t matter, mom. TangTang knows the best. It was me who told him to look for a better job. If he could find a better job there, so be it."


    Bai Yutang was surprised to hear his mom defend him. They never talk about this, and surely his mother will prefer her only son to live near her. But her mother stands with him. He felt his eyes warm.


    Just like that, his grandparents ganged to attack his mother, but she stood for her son. Lu Hua might be a simple woman who was sheltered by her husband for half of her life. But what''s more important in her life is for her son to freely choose what he wants. It would be a lie if she said she was okay with her son working in a faraway city. But she can''t deny she felt helpless and regretted that her skinny son shielded her, even to the point her son agreed with her unreasonable request for paying her nephew''s tuition.


    For her relief, her little brother and her sister in law were silent and didn''t attack her son. If they stand with her parents, she will smack his head and point at the car in front of this house which should belong to her son but now used by her little brother''s family.


    When Jian Kang Lu arrived at Bai Yutang''s grandparents house the next day, the sun was already down. This house was not small, but of course as a house filled with four adults, one teenager, one baby, along with his kitten''s family, will be crowded.


    Jian Kang Lu brings so many things from B city to his kitten''s big family. He was confident with his ability to charm his kitten''s grandparents and uncle, but he was still worried about what they thought of him.


    He got mixed feelings when his kitten''s family introduced him as their benefactor, especially when he heard his future mother in law introduce him to her big family.


    "This is Doctor Jian, he is our benefactor. He helped TangTang so much. He also helped RenRen and inspired her to become a doctor, and also helped us when Haoran hospitalised."


    Jian Kang Lu felt happy to regard that high, but also felt guilty because he knew he lusted for her son, and also sad because he was not a woman who can be openly introduced as someone who loved her son the most in this world.


    Jian Kang Lu politely smiled and answered every question. He also avoids to look at his kitten, afraid if they will notice he missed his kitten so much. He praised the sun flower tofu cooked by his kitten''s grandmother. It was mainly made of Chinese tofu but shaped like a sunflower. The dishes contain egg, ham, sunflower seeds, prawns and green vegetables. The taste of the dish is very light and he enjoys the soft texture and the fresh taste.


    His kitten also told his grandfather and his uncle, that Jian Kang Lu was the one who got him the realtor who will sell his grandparents house. With a realtor, it will make their job easier and make sure the legal transfer is smooth.


    His kitten''s uncle and aunt didn''t say much to him. Only one time he had to think about what he had to answer when his kitten''s uncle asked him whether Bai Yutang stay in his apartment for free.


    "Yes, since I lived alone and spent more than 12 hours in the hospital, my apartment is basically empty. So I am grateful when TangTang stays there with me and helps me a lot."


    Jian Kang Lu can''t guess why his kitten''s uncle asked him that, but then he heard his kitten''s grandma asked him.


    "I heard TangTang will stay and work in B city. I told him to come back here, for he didn''t burden you anymore. If he stays here, I am afraid he will just bother you further more. We feel bad for it."


    Jian Kang Lu felt chilled running to his spine. He knew his kitten planned to look for a job in B city and he was overjoyed when he heard that. But now, it seems his kitten''s family prefers him to go back. How if his kitten really agreed with that? Can he go back to live alone in his apartment? Met his kitten only for 2 times per month?


    "I don''t mind, auntie. If TangTang lives in B city, it will save him some money if he lives with me. I also save money since he helps me to take care of my apartment. But I respect all his decisions."


    "I heard you live alone, without a wife. Why haven''t you married yet? My son is only 4 years older than you but his son is almost going to college now."


    Bai Yutang is upset to see his lover attacked like this. He knows even his lover''s family never talk like this to him.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, he heard this question million times before. "Yes, I guess I was unlucky. I almost got married once but it was not working out. I was busy and then forgot about it. But I got used to it. So it doesn''t matter for me, auntie."


    Now Bai Yutang was the one who was surprised. His lover almost got married? When? With who? Why his lover never told him that.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t realise his kitten''s face turned ashen and looked at him resentfully. He kept talking to his kitten''s grandparents and skilfully turned the conversation about health and business opportunities for Bai Yutang''s uncle.


    Bai Yuren was also surprised to hear Jian Kang Lu''s statement, and amused to see his brother''s face. This fool can''t even mask his feelings and show a jealous wife''s expression toward her future brother in law.


    She nudged her brother''s arms and whispered in an innocent tone, "Why does your face look like you almost swallowed a thousand needle? Something''s wrong?"


    Bai Yutang startled and tried to manage his mood. "No, I''m okay. Just feel a little bloated."


    Bai Yuren decided to save her future brother in law and asked him a lot about medical terms and problems to solve in medical school. She will spend one more semester for basic medical and next autumn-winter semester she will start her clinical medical lectures and practice before internship.


    With that, time flew and Jian Kang Lu excused himself when the time showed it was 10 minutes past 9. He thanked his kitten''s big family for the hospitality and invited them for lunch before he went back to B city tomorrow.


    When he was in the car, he was amused to see his kitten''s message.


    [Gege, why didn''t I know that you''re almost married once.]


    Even from the text, he could smell vinegar from his kitten. He chuckled to see his jealous kitten.


    [I didn''t. It was just smooth talking. Are you jealous, baby?]


    Bai Yutang even felt more resentful to read this message. He decided not to answer any more messages from his lover. Why did his lover have to lie like that? His lover could lie with a flat face, making him believe. What if his lover lied to him before about many things? He will never know.


    When Jian Kang Lu checked into this small hotel and didn''t receive any more messages from his kitten, he started to feel afraid.


    [Are you angry, baby? I just checked in. Let me take a bath first. Can i call you later?]


    Until he finished his shower, his kitten didn''t reply to his message.

 Chapter 158 - Midnight Snack

    Jian Kang Lu felt today''s excitement and happiness vanished into the air like a steam from boiled water in the middle of a winter storm. His kitten has been docile and domesticated for the past year they spent together after they reconciled. He almost never gets mad at Jian Kang Lu.


    Jian Kang Lu could only scold himself who had been complacent with the peaceful situation so far. He forgot his kitten was not a jealous man, but once he drank his vinegar, the result was devastating. Last time his kitten was jealous, he even didn''t give Jian Kang Lu a chance to explain himself.


    Jian Kang Lu called his kitten 5 times but his kitten didn''t answer. He stared at his phone, and then dialled a number he hoped could help him.


    "Hello." A crisp sound from a young lady was heard from the phone.


    "Hello, RenRen.. I hope i didn''t bother you." Jian Kang Lu might sound polite and casual, but his eyes were empty and full of anxiety.


    "Not at all. What''s up, Jian Ge?"


    Jian Kang Lu slowly asked, "Is your brother already sleeping?"


    Bai Yuren smirked, and calculated what she could extort from her future brother in law for this time. "Let me check, Jian Ge. Wait for a moment. Do you want to hang up and i''ll call you later?" She innocently asked, put up her ''i''m a good girl who will help you unconditionally'' tone.


    "Um, no need to hang up. I could wait here."


    So Jian Kang Lu could only pray his kitten was sleeping as an explanation of why he didn''t reply to his messages. That way, he knew his kitten was not angry with him. He could hear Bai Yuren step out from the room and walk toward their cousin''s room where Bai Yutang stayed. He could hear Bai Yuren lightly knock on the door and asked whether both of them were sleeping or still awake.


    Jian Kang Lu felt his heart tighten when he faintly heard his kitten''s voice answering Bai Yuren''s call.


    "Are you still awake, gege?" Bai Yuren asked after the sound of the door opened. Jian Kang Lu could imagine his kitten was the one who opened the door.


    "Yeah, we''re playing storm rider. What''s up?" From his kitten''s tone, Jian Kang Lu could not detect any rage or displeasure toward Bai Yuren.


    "Nothing. Mom is sleeping and i still want to watch some videos. I''m just afraid i will bother her. I want to stay here until i''m sleepy."


    Jian Kang Lu was glad his future sister in law was very smart. He ends the call and messages Bai Yuren to convey his thanks. After that he frantically messages Bai Yutang, pleading and begging for forgiveness, and pitifully requests Bai Yutang to answer his call. Thirty minutes later he still got nothing.


    Jian Kang Lu looked at the time. It was almost 11 o''clock. How could he sleep in this state? He stares at empty air, his mind is chaotic. If this was the old Jian Kang Lu before his kitten, he will just sleep and don''t bother with the other''s childish acts. After one good night''s sleep, usually all the rage and emotional feeling will subside, let the logic take over.


    But.. This is his kitten. His one and only. How could he assure that his kitten won''t leave him again like last time? Jian Kang Lu chilled and felt his bone frozen. In actuality, his kitten was the one who was being tolerant with him. Even though he didn''t have much time to accompany his kitten, his kitten never complained nor demanded him to change for Bai Yutang.


    It was rare to find someone who didn''t ask you to change for them. The one who accepts all your bad and good, all your habits, all your lifestyle, all the differences between and just went along with it. Bai Yutang was the one who had to adjust with his lifestyle. Jian Kang Lu didn''t have to change the way he eats, the way he spends his time, the way he sleeps, the way he dresses.


    His kitten was the only one, the only person he ever had a relationship with, who came and infused himself into Jian Kang Lu''s life silently. He didn''t change anything, yet he changed everything. Just like a flower silently blooming in the midst of an abandoned garden. Nothing changed, but the butterflies and the birds rejoiced from it.


    Jian Kang Lu abruptly stands up, changes his pants, and runs downstairs. He asked the concierge to call a cab for him while he texting Bai Yuren to send him the location of her grandparent''s house. For the address, Jian Kang Lu had it already.


    [Are you coming here, Jian Ge?]


    [Yes.. TangTang is not yet sleeping, right?]


    [Nope. If you''re here and my silly brother still ignores you, I''ll tell him to drag his ass out meeting you. Don''t worry.]


    At this moment, Jian Kang Lu is 99% convinced that Bai Yuren knows about him and her brother. He was grateful that she didn''t oppose them, and gave her blessing to Jian Kang Lu.


    The hotel where Jian Kang Lu stayed was near and the road was deserted because it was almost midnight. It only took 15 minutes for him to reach his kitten''s house.


    His kitten''s grandparent''s house was located in a suburban area. The lights from the houses can''t beat the night''s darkness, and the street was almost empty. Two motorcycles passed by. The sky was dark blue. The moon was half hidden. The sound of empty night filled the air.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t bring any coat due to his rash decision, but he didn''t notice the chilled wind blowing his damp hair. He looked at his phone, still no reply for his message telling his kitten that he was waiting in front of this house.


    Jian Kang Lu called his kitten and still no answer. He then draws his trump card, sending a message to Bai Yuren, and hopes his future sister in law does her magic.


    Jian Kang Lu really wanted to worship Bai Yuren and gave her his credit card to spend till the max when he saw his kitten walk out from the gate. Judging from his face, his mistakes were not grave and still can be spared.


    "TangTang.. Don''t be mad at me.." Jian Kang Lu tried hard to make his 39 year old face look innocent and pitiful. "Please.."


    Bai Yutang was not in a good mood, that''s why he ignored his lover''s message before. He played games with his cousin and didn''t want to pay attention to his phone. He knows if he keeps talking to his lover previously, he will only spew out his vinegar, and afraid he will hurt his lover with his poisonous tongue. He just needed time to calm himself down, since he didn''t want to repeat his mistake.


    But who could predict his lover was getting anxious and come here again at this time just for pleading mercy. Looking at his lover who only wore a thin T-Shirt and jeans on this cold spring night, Bai Yutang didn''t have any heart to preserve his anger.


    He sighed. "I''m not angry, gege. Why didn''t you wear any coat?"


    "I hurried and forgot to bring my coat. Please don''t be mad at me. And please answer the phone when i call you."


    Looking at that peach blossom eyes under that burrowed straight brows, the full lips stretch to a straight line in anxiety, who could have energy to be mad anymore for a silly reason.


    "I will.."


    Both of them stand there near the gate, under the trees who stretch its branch upon them. They are reluctant to separate themselves.


    Jian Kang Lu still missed his kitten so much, and now after the tension, he didn''t want to come back to his hotel and sleep alone in this mood. "Well, i''m not sleepy anymore. Do you want to grab some late night snacks?"


    Bai Yutang smiled, and nodded. His lover then told him to ask his sister and his cousin too. Bai Yutang rarely goes out late at night, but his sister is exactly the type of ''play hard work hard'' kind of person. Not even mention his cousin who was originally an easy going person but now trapped in the house and had to study everyday preparing for his Gaokao this year. Both of them were delighted and ran to their parent''s asking for permission.


    Both of them went out with a bright face to embrace their midnight adventures. Bai Yutang was walking out and casually gave Jian Kang Lu his uncle''s coat, since his own coat definitely could not fit his lover''s broad shoulder. "Please wear it, gege. Don''t get sick from this chilly weather." He whispered.


    Jian Kang Lu beamed with happiness. Now he was assured his kitten was not angry with him. He asked Bai Yuren and Lu Jiang where they wanted to go. He smiled to hear those two bickering in the taxi to decide.


    His kitten was sitting in the middle, while his cousin sat on the front. Jian Kang Lu was happy, he could hold his kitten''s hand under the coat and felt the warmth from his beloved kitten. He didn''t even flinch when his kitten ruthlessly pinched his finger when he caressed his kitten''s finger and palm. His kitten''s finger was soft, but had some calluses from cooking and drawing. He loved to caress those callous and the soft meat on his kitten''s palm.


    He leaned toward his kitten''s ear and whispered, "Do you want to go somewhere, baby?" His kitten shook his head.


    Bai Yuren won the argument and they went into the area near the universities in W city. There are 2,3 km streets selling all kinds of snacks, desserts and also proper restaurants famous for their seafood and some provide korean food too. Since this is the weekend, some of the restaurants and stalls opened until 2 am. It was filled with local delicacies and snacks capable of satisfying any late night craving. At the end of the road it was filled with bars and pubs too.


    Since Lu Jiang came with them, they can''t go inside the pub like Bai Yuren''s wish. She kicked the small stone in the road while looking at her cousin, "Because this baby i can''t visit a pub. I always want to visit one here, but none of my friends on campus want to go with me. And my brother is useless."


    Bai Yutang frowned, "Why do you want to go to the pub? It was not that fun, and some really smell like ashtrays. Besides, not all pubs were safe for young girls like you."


    Bai Yuren snarled to hear that. "What do you know? You are never going out. I bet you have never gone to a good pub before. It was good to listen to the music and enjoy times with your friends." Bai Yuren really pity her timid brother who can''t enjoy life.


    Jian Kang Lu knows this is the time for him to repay Bai Yuren''s kindness. "How about this, you can visit B city any time and i''ll take you to the best bars and pubs there. I think it will be safer if you''re going with me and your brother."


    Bai Yuren looked at Jian Kang Lu with satisfaction. Indeed, her brother in law is a smart guy who is quick in mind and sharp in act. Except when he deal with her stupid brother.

 Chapter 159 - A Perfect Life

    Jian Kang Lu finished his patient visit for today. He doesn''t have any meeting or resident''s presentation today but in 3 hours he will start his clinic schedule, thus it was not efficient for him to go home.


    He wished he could have more time in between his visit and clinic schedule, so he could go home and cuddle with his kitten before the afternoon clinic started. With 3 hours, he decided to spend 1 hour in the gym first. From the hospital to the gym only took 30 minutes walking. While running, Jian Kang Lu looked at the window outside and decided to call his kitten.


    "Baby, what are you doing?"


    Hearing some panting and faint sound of the machine, Bai Yutang knew his lover was in the gym. He felt resentful for his lover when he looked at his own flabby tummy.


    "I''m at home, gege. Just finish preparing today''s dinner. Are you running on a treadmill?"


    "Mm.. I have a little bit of free time, but not enough to come home. You''re not planning to go out today?"


    "I''ll exercise too! Wait, i''ll change my pants."


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t know why his kitten sounds not happy, but then they exercise together even not physically side by side. His kitten decided to ride his bicycle in the park. They talk about games and today''s news while exercising.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, again and again he felt grateful meeting someone as great as his kitten. He experienced a relationship where his partner complained why he went to the gym instead of spending more time with his partner. His kitten never complained about that.


    Spring has come, his kitten got his diploma already and is entering job hunting mode. Jian Kang Lu had offered his kitten to help him connect with Zhen Guo. Jian Kang Lu was sure his kitten was capable of snatching a job there. But his kitten refused him.


    "I want to try looking for a job by myself, gege." His kitten told him that with resolute eyes. How could Jian Kang Lu push him? Basically, it doesn''t matter to him whether his kitten works or not, but Jian Kang Lu knows his kitten will not be satisfied just to stay at home and do nothing.


    It''s not easy for architects to get a decent job in an architect firm lately. His kitten had told him he won''t be picky and will work anywhere to get experience and fill his resume. He saw how his kitten opened the job searching application and sent his resume to many places. After three weeks without feedback, his kitten started to send his resume to non architect companies.


    Once Jian Kang Lu asked him why his kitten sent his resume to a non architect company too. Does his kitten didn''t dream to be an architect? His kitten smiled, and answered in a flat tone.


    "As long as I can get a job, no matter where, i will work."


    Bai Yutang didn''t tell his lover that he wished he could get a job before his birthday. April has come along with flowers blooming and leaves lavishly grew celebrating the cycle of life. Bai Yutang told his grandparents he wants to work here in B city. So if he could not get a job as soon as possible, how could he answer them?


    He diligently scans everyday for job opportunities in his class group chat, as well as sending messages to his friends, hoping they could give him good news about job opportunities in their firm. But until now he got nothing. Fei Hong, who got her diploma 2 week earlier than him, had given up and decided to work in an interior design company. She will start next week.


    Bai Yutang knows the easiest way for him to get a job is accept his lover''s offer to contact Zhen Guo. His friends also told him there''s nothing wrong with using connections to get a job. Who doesn''t do it nowadays? It was not like him had no skills nor capability.


    But Bai Yutang just doesn''t want to. Maybe, maybe if he still can''t find a job in the next two months, then he will give up. But not now.


    Bai Yutang meets his friends once or two times a week. At first he felt happy to hang out with them. But the more he spent time with them, the more he felt restless to get a job immediately. Listening to them lamenting about working over time, and comparing with himself who idle at home, raises a seed full of envy in his heart.


    Bai Yutang rarely goes out, he only goes out under his lover''s concerned eyes. His lover always told him to go out and have fun. When he finished bathing after exercise and continued to cook, he thought it might be nice to have lunch together with his lover tomorrow.


    Just when Jian Kang Lu thought his life and happiness was at its peak, he could never be more wrong. His kitten suddenly asked him at dinner time, whether it was comfortable for Jian Kang Lu spending lunch together with his kitten. Of course he nodded frantically after stupefaction for some moments.


    On Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday, he only spends his time with his kitten for 2 - 3 hours per day. But now, he spends an extra hour when they have lunch together.


    The nurses and nephrologists in the hospital now found Doctor Jian always finish his patient''s visit before 1 pm and gone in a flash. Doctor Jian also smiles more often and is always in a good mood. His residents hurriedly finish their paper so the good mood Doctor Jian will give them better grades.


    His kitten''s birthday is just in the next two weeks. Jian Kang Lu had prepared his gift. It''s a new limited edition leather backpack and 3 days vacation to Z city. Rising from the subtropical and temperate forests, Z city has a concentration of quartzite-sandstone formation found nowhere else in the world. With 234 peaks and more than 3000 pinnacles and spires dominate the scenery. It caught the right light when the early morning mountain mist rolled in around them. Jian Kang Lu has been there, the effect is otherworldly.


    Jian Kang Lu is a typical man who don''t have creative idea when choosing gift to other people, including his partner. He only thought about the practical things they will need and gave gifts accordingly.


    "Gege, I have good news." His kitten sounds excited when they have lunch together in this Italian restaurant near the hospital.


    Jian Kang Lu wants to guess that the good news is his kitten finally received feedback from those hundreds of resumes he sent, but Jian Kang Lu was afraid it would trigger his kitten''s bad mood. After his kitten''s fury two months ago, Jian Kang Lu now chooses his words carefully.


    "What is that, baby?" He asked innocently.


    "The F firm sent me an email telling me to come next Tuesday for an interview!"


    Jian Kang Lu is truly happy for his kitten. He congratulated him and listened to his kitten chattering about F firm. Turns out it was a mediocre firm, but not a small firm. His kitten told him that it has a good reputation. From his kitten''s reaction, Jian Kang Lu can guess that what his kitten told him before about him will be okay if he getting a job other than architect was a lie.


    "I also have news. Let''s spend your birthday in Z city. I took 2 days leave. We''ll go early on Friday morning, and come back on Sunday. How is that?"


    Right now Bai Yutang is happy beyond words. He knew, this is only an interview opportunity, but he won''t waste it. Add that with a short vacation with his lover to one of the beautiful places in this country, he was over the moon.


    Their vacation went well. Bai Yutang truly felt his life was blessed. He had a lover who loved him like he was the best human in the world. They have been together for 2 year, and the relationship grew even better day by day. His lover''s family was good to him, his family also lived well.


    He graduated this year, and the best birthday gift is right when he turned 24, he got notification from an F firm that he managed to get a job there and expected to start working on Monday, just right after their vacation finished.


    "I feel so lucky, gege! Just one interview and I managed to get the job."


    Jian Kang Lu stroked his kitten''s hair softly when they walked to see the famous glass bridge. Here, they could walk intimately. No one knows them here, and he doesn''t care if some people stare at them with questions. He even holds his kitten''s waist tightly when they walk through the bridge. Luckily none of them have acrophobia.


    Actually, it was only natural for Bai Yutang to pass his interview smoothly. He has good grades, graduated from the best architecture in the country, decent looks, and most of all, Bai Yutang was trained how to answer the questions in his interview by Fan Mingle, the iron lady in the HR department from one of the best banks in the country.


    Bai Yutang spent 2 hours in the Sunday lunch before his Tuesday interview, watched by the whole family of his lover, just like when he rehearsed his thesis presentation. He felt grateful that his lover''s family were really kind people who supported him well.


    On the other side, Jian Kang Lu was not really happy with that, but he also can''t do much when his kitten was the one who surrender himself to this kind of torture. Deep inside his heart, Jian Kang Lu ached to see how his kitten''s sweating and answering the same question over and over again.


    Jian Kang Lu always thought his sister in law was a cheerful and calm lady, but now he could see how ruthless his sister in law was when he interviewed her subordinates. Luckily in her position now, she didn''t interview many people anymore.


    Jian Kang Lu remembers his sister in law smacking her lips to find his kitten''s english skills was below her standard. She told his kitten that she always does interviews in English and it would be a red mark if the applicant could not respond well. Jian Kang Lu hurriedly defended his kitten, but was attacked by his brother and father.


    Jian Kang Lu can''t believe his stoic brother attacked him with his own words years ago. "Gege, don''t you remember what you told me when my english proficient test was lower than you?" Jian Kang Lu admits his defeat instantly to his little brother, preventing him from repeating those words in front of his kitten.


    At that time, he was mocking his little brother with a smug face. "Ah Se, tsk tsk tsk.. How could you get a decent job with that english of yours? It was even worse than me when i was in high school. I bet you will only embarrass yourself later. You better study again, take extra courses, study harder to improve yourself." All the while Jian Kang Lu was saying that, he was waving his proficient level test which scored almost perfect in front of his brother''s face.

 Chapter 160 - Newcomer

    Zhong Fan had heard that today their division will have a new comrade thrown into this hellish pit. He can''t be more happy waiting for this person. They had worked for the past 3 weeks like zombies and can''t wait for additional manpower to suffer together. He heard from his colleague that this person graduated from T university. He can''t wait to see for himself the capability of these elite troops.


    F firm was a mediocre firm in this country. But mediocre among hundreds of firms in this big country means they''re still in the top 100 firms. They only lack experience doing foreign projects.


    In this firm, they hired more than 40 architects with a total employee count of more than 100. The firm was divided into big 3 divisions. Zhong Fan belonged to the third division, handling residences from individual residences to big resorts. First division specialise in offices, and second division exists for traditional design and public spaces.


    Zhong Fan was looking at the clock in the wall, his hands pressing the coffee machine''s button to squeeze the bean into an elixir to get rid of his lethargy. Yesterday he slept the whole day long but still can''t get rid of his fatigue from 5 days overtime.


    The new person should be introduced any minutes. He heard the newcomer had come but still held by their leader. Third division had 1 leader and 4 sub-leader. Just like when he joined this firm for the first time 6 months ago, newcomers were held by the sub-leader first, introduced to the leader, then paraded to the whole office.


    Zhong Fan heard a rumor that this newcomer will fill the empty slot in his sub-division, so it means he who joined the latest was the one who had to take this person tour around the office, and also teach him how to integrate to the working system here.


    Zhong Fan hurriedly running back to his desk, working on his blue print while waiting for this newcomer. If he doesn''t work fast, he needs to overwork again this week since he will have a double job, mentoring the new chick. He just hoped this person was really worthy to be a T uni graduate.


    In their firm, there are several architects from T uni, and these people were famous. Their division leader also graduated from T uni.


    Zhong Fan working and chatting with Yan Qiuyue who sat next to him. She randomly talks about the cafe downstairs who reopen after renovation. Even though they''re busy, they still chatter with each other, exciting to see the newcomer. They''re trained to separate their hands, their brains, and their mouths. Without talking randomly, they feel they''ll go crazy.


    Suddenly he felt people in the cubicle next to him stopped talking and secretly stole glances to a specific direction. Zhong Fan''s hands who clicked and moved the mouse along the pad stopped, and he also looked in that direction.


    He saw their sub-division leader, Yao Mingyu, walking with a plain skinny youth wearing a blue long sleeve shirt with black trousers. This youth is wearing a backpack and follows Yao Mingyu with a calm face. Even though he looked calm, his fingers were nervously fidgeting in front.


    Zhong Fan directed his concentration back to the screen in front of him. At least he needed to finish this one before Mr. Yao asked him to introduce this newcomer around. He was right. Not even 30 minutes passed when Mr. Yao walked toward his cubicle and introduced this man.


    "This is Bai Yutang, he will help your division from today. Who will show him around?"


    Zhong Fan raised his hand. Clearly the seat next to him was empty, for him to mentor this newcomer. "It''s me, Mr. Yao."


    Yao Mingyu nodded his head, "I''ll leave it to you."


    There are 3 people in this cubicle, Bai Yutang will be the fourth. Three of them stretch a smile to appeared on their tired face, trying not to scare this newcomer. If this newcomer is scared and runs away before his probation time is over, it will be their loss.


    Zhong Fan clicks save on his screen and stands up. "Hello, my name is Zhong Fan. I''ll be your mentor here until you are familiar with your job. Don''t hesitate to ask me if you find difficulties. You can introduce yourself first."


    This youth bow his head and speak. "Hello seniors. My name is Bai Yutang. Please forgive me for troubling you. I will try my best to accustom myself soon." His voice was calm and soft.


    Zhong Fan knows his task including interviewing this newcomer a little bit for their team. "How old are you? Which uni you graduate? Which faculty? Where do you come from?" Zhong Fan asked these basic questions for their group to be familiar with each other first. The newcomer answered his questions one by one.


    After that Zhong Fan spent 1 hour to take Bai Yutang introduce himself to the whole office. He explained about the three divisions and subdivisions along with their respectable tasks. After that he still spent another 1 hour to teach Bai Yutang how to use the coffee machine in the pantry, photocopy and scanned machine, and also teach Bai Yutang how to use his computer.


    "Are you familiar with Rhino?" Zhong Fan asked this youth and was not surprised to see this youth shook his head.


    "I need to familiarise myself again with that program, but i will try my best."


    Yan Qiuyue heard that and smiled. Most fresh graduates were not really familiar with it. "Which program did you use? You can use that too while learning for other programs here."


    Now it was their surprise to know that Bai Yutang was actually familiar with a lot of software. She secretly joy from imagining next week their task will reduce in a significant amount.


    Soon it was already time for lunch. Three of them ask Bai Yutang to have lunch together with them. Usually, they order lunch and eat in a flash in the pantry to save time in this busy season. But since there are newcomers, they need to get this young man feel accepted as soon as possible. And also, newcomers always spark curiosity between colleagues.


    Soon they learn this man might not look as simple as he looked. For starters, having newcomers from T uni already lights some excitement within the office. Then when they eat this cheap noodles in the cafeteria, they learn that this man actually lives in the elite apartment in the middle of this city. As architects, they knew exactly this apartment designed by Architect God''s firm and expensive.


    After chatting and paying more attention to this plain looking youth, they also note his phone, his backpack, his watch, all were expensive. Is this a young master who works just for looking experience? Soon they feel afraid that this young man will not work earnestly and give up soon once he knows how inhumane they work in this busy season. If only he joined in a leisure season¡­


    In the meantime, Jian Kang Lu, who had to experience withdrawal symptoms from forced back to his old lifestyle for having lunch without his kitten, was anxious. Since his kitten messaged him that he already arrived in his new office this morning, his kitten had not sent him any news again. He did not even reply to Jian Kang Lu''s message, asking whether his kitten already ate or not.


    Jian Kang Lu frowned, and held his finger as best as he could not to give his kitten a call. He knows maybe his kitten is busy adapting in a new environment. But somehow he felt neglected.


    He smiled and scolded himself. It seems his kitten had pampered him so much until he could not feel safe without knowing how his kitten was doing. Somehow, his today''s lunch taste plain and he doesn''t have an appetite. He forced himself to finish his lunch since he doesn''t like to waste food.


    After lunch, Bai Yutang starts to get familiar with his task. Zhong Fan gives this newcomer a simple task to add details on the blueprints. Zhong Fan told him he could use other software.


    To his surprise, this young man was really worthy of being an elite troops from T uni. Only with simple explanation, this young man already does his job well. At this rate, Zhong Fan didn''t feel he was teaching a newbie. Sure, this young man still learns and can''t do independent tasks. After all, this project was halfway done. This newcomer is really useful for them to finish their own task.


    Soon Yan Qiuyue also gave this newcomer some task for 3D build once she heard Bai Yutang well versed with 3D software. Zhu Meng, the quietest member among them, also gave Bai Yutang some tasks to do.


    Bai Yutang does all the tasks given to him earnestly. This is not so different when he is doing part time jobs. He is anxious because he needs to ask over and over again to make sure what he does is aligned with the initial design. He was afraid his seniors would be annoyed with his questions. But they answer him earnestly.


    It was already 7 o''clock when Yan Qiuyue decided all of them should go home. She was afraid this newcomer felt overwhelmed on his first day. Yan Qiuyue was the most senior member among these four after all.


    While they walk out from the office, she praises Bai Yutang for his excellent job on his first day. This actually makes Bai Yutang ashamed. He didn''t do much actually. He still grasped his scope of work, not familiar with the project they do thus reduce his efficiency.


    Actually for his colleagues, they were surprised to see the level of Bai Yutang. Most newbies coming to the office weren''t even familiar with the software in the office except AutoCad. But Bai Yutang could use all the software in the office except Rhino. This saves their time a lot.


    Bai Yutang was waiting for his bus together with his colleagues. He didn''t know why his colleagues seemed surprised to see him riding a bus just like them. He shook his head to tell his new colleague that he doesn''t have a car.


    He rode a different bus with his colleagues. Once he rode his bus, he messaged his lover to tell him he was on the bus and can''t cook dinner today. After that Bai Yutang thought hard about what he would order tonight.


    This whole day he had been busy and only messaged his lover twice. Once after he had his lunch, second is in the afternoon telling his lover he might come home late. Both of the messages were sent using the time when he was going to the toilet.


    Luckily his lover''s apartment is located in the middle of the city. It only took 40 minutes for him to reach home in the middle of B city''s cruel traffic jam. Right when he swipe the apartment card, he directly flopped his tired body to the sofa. He then remembers he hasn''t ordered dinner yet. His lover will reach home soon.


    He was tired, but he knows he will get used to this. He used to work hard too, working over time was no big deal for him. He was grateful he could have this job with a salary of 5000 yuan per month. It was the final result after tax and other benefits. After probation in three months, his salary will increase to 8000 yuan per month. He will get a bonus too if the firm lands on a big project. This is a mediocre salary for a fresh graduate like him.


    He was tired so he decided to just sit here on the sofa waiting for the food to arrive. He wants to laugh to remember his lover gave him 5000 yuan per month just for him to cook. Thinking back, it truly was a scam. His lover just wanted to give him pocket money. Now it seems he has to talk with his lover about this cooking job which he sure he can''t keep anymore.

 Chapter 161 - Mr. Yao

    Jian Kang Lu now could see human is a really strange creature. Human is one kind of animal who constantly changing, evolving, depend on their current situation. He remember theoretical physicist Michio Kaku said, "The human brain has 100 billion neurons, each neuron connected to 10,000 other neurons. Sitting on your shoulders is the most complicated object in the known universe."


    Human often didn''t know what they want in life. This could be proven why arranged marriage sometimes work better rather than marriage in the name of love. Human''s love based on their feeling, is constantly change. Because human is destined to adapt to its surrounding.


    When he was 19 years old, he was happy to accepted in a prestigious colleague. He can''t wait to study and work, earn money by himself. He thought he will be happy when he could show the world that he was talented and could be rich by his own. He thought life will be complete if he have career, money, and beautiful lady as his partner.


    When he was 29, after all those up and downs in his life, when he grasp the prestige and money he used to dream, he wasn''t happy. He then thought because he was into man that''s why his dream to be happy was not fulfilled. So at 29, he thought he will be happy once he got a handsome and smart man to be his partner.


    At 29, he thought he will be happy if he could be with a handsome, sexy, smart, and talented man.


    At 39, he got the man he want. For sure his partner who makes him happy right now was far from what he predict. But in his eyes, this man was perfect.


    His kitten was not handsome, but he could never get enough looking at those white jade face.


    His kitten was not sexy, but he could never get enough tasting that divine body. The pleasure created by the entangling of their body was mind blowing.


    He thought, just to be with his kitten is enough. But turn out human is greedy and keep wanting for more.


    Since his kitten start to work, Jian Kang Lu feels lonely. Now he could understand those dumb and narrow minded man who asks their wife to stay at home. Jian Kang Lu can''t describe how he feels when he was coming back home and felt his tired swept away with his kitten''s smile and warm dinner they eat together.


    Jian Kang Lu know he should be grateful his kitten was still cooking breakfast. His kitten''s cooking truly the best in this world. However, he start to feel enmity with his kitten''s new job. How could these people held his kitten until late at night each day??? Including Saturday!


    His kitten not even working for one month, and Jian Kang Lu felt he will evolve into a tyrant scumbag who want to prison his kitten at home every time he heard word ''late'', ''overtime'', and ''Mr. Yao''.


    Today is Wednesday, Jian Kang Lu had finished his work at 5 pm. He didn''t go home, instead he going to his kitten''s office, decide to wait his kitten finished his job and they could have romantic dinner together tonight. It''s been 16 days since their vacation to Z city, and they only make love two times in this 16 days.


    2 times!!! And the last session of them, his kitten fallen asleep after he reach climax while Jian Kang Lu not even start yet. The beast within him had eaten best meat for the last 2 years, how could he going back to eat vegetables???


    He also grit his teeth when his kitten can''t accompany him on Saturday round. And his last patience was snapped when last Saturday this ''Mr. Yao'' was teaching his kitten again in the office until 5 o''clock.


    Yes, Jian Kang Lu still have dinner together with his kitten. But their dinner ruined by this ''Mr. Yao this Mr. Yao that'' which keep uttered from the pale pink petals he adored. Jian Kang Lu really can''t stand those petals showering praises for other man.


    Jian Kang Lu really want to see what kind of man his kitten adored this much. Only God knows how much he try to stretch his smile, form a smile, every time he had to listen his kitten talking about this Mr. Yao.


    His kitten say this Mr. Yao is his boss, and a very talented architect. A 31 year old man graduated from P university, very kind, always brief him short but highly effective, and most of all, this man willing to teach Bai Yutang to use Rhino every weekend.


    Jian Kang Lu remember the Friday dinner before his kitten spend his Saturday with Mr. Yao for the first time. "Oh, is this Mr. Yao not spending time with his family?" He try to keep his tone warm and attentive, hide his own vinegar.


    His pure kitten of course didn''t realise Jian Kang Lu already sour, "No, he said he still single."


    "Oh.. How kind of him. I thought you mention you should be mentored by your senior, baby. Whose his name again? I forgot." Jian Kang Lu didn''t forgot, his kitten''s senior name is Zhong Fan. He just want to remind his kitten not to bother this magnificent boss of his, better to bother his senior who already have fiancee.


    "Zhong Fan. Gege, why you always forgot his name? He was preparing his wedding in next three months. All of us working over time this week, and will be like this until this project finished. It will take another 1 to 2 months. He need to free himself on Saturday. How could i bother him, gege. Mr. Yao told me it''s better for him to teach me since he was the one who still single in our sub-division."


    Then Jian Kang Lu forced to listen another 5 minutes of his kitten song of praise for this talented Mr. Yao before he cut his kitten abruptly, asking about Bai Yuren''s birthday gift even though his future sister in law''s birthday were still in another 2 months.


    As normal human, how could Jian Kang Lu stand to listen his pearl he treasured so much praising another human in front of him? And forced to spend 2 Saturday round in a row alone? Jian Kang Lu offer his kitten to took short course for Rhino, but his kitten told him he already manage to grasp the software, only need to practice.


    This Mr. Yao is really raise Jian Kang Lu''s guard, even though his kitten told him that Mr. Yao also teach Zhong Fan when he was still newbie. If the one who swim around his kitten is a girl, Jian Kang Lu can''t even compete, that''s why he was so jealous but can''t do anything when Feng Mian pursue his kitten.


    But this one is a man! Even though Jian Kang Lu is old, but he was confident to crush this Mr. Yao is every aspect, except he could not teach his kitten Rhino. He know he could ask Zhen Guo to teach his kitten, but his kitten will reject his offer for sure.


    That''s why on this Wednesday afternoon, Jian Kang Lu sit in the coffee shop below his kitten''s office, reading and drinking his coffee, waiting for his kitten, while regretting why he become a doctor and didn''t take architecture as his major. He choose this coffee shop so his kitten easy to spot him. Who knows he could see also see a glimpse of this legendary Mr. Yao.


    He already message his kitten, telling that he pick his kitten up and waiting for him in this coffee shop. As usual, his kitten haven''t see his message yet.


    Previously his kitten often busy, but at least his kitten was busy at home. When his kitten was doing his final project, Jian Kang Lu comfort himself saying that his kitten won''t be busy for long time. Now it''s different. Jian Kang Lu knows very well that architect often busy, just like doctors.


    And of course, when his kitten busy previously, there is no Mr. Yao.


    Jian Kang Lu had finished one coffee when his kitten replied, telling him to wait for him, also apologise he had to work over time again today. Jian Kang Lu sipped his 2nd glass of tea, two hours later, when his kitten finally call him.


    "Gege, i''m going down stairs. Wait for me!"


    Jian Kang Lu smiles and forgot his sour mood. Hearing his kitten''s cute voice always elating his mood. "I''m in the corner. Should i wait outside, baby?"


    "Okay!"


    Jian Kang Lu finished his tea and stand up, slip his tablet inside his bag. He was standing in front of the coffee shop, and finally spotting his kitten walking toward him. He spot there''s one woman and one man walking with his kitten. Looking at that man, if this is the legendary Mr. Yao, Jian Kang Lu was sure he was the winner in every aspect.


    His kitten waved to him, "Gege!" He then introduce these man and woman to him. "This is my colleagues, gege." His kitten point toward the woman, "This is Yan Qiuyue." He then point toward the man, "And this is Zhu Meng." His kitten then point at him, "And this is  my room mate, Jian Kang Lu."


    Three of them politely say their introduction words. No matter how much Jian Kang Lu want to spend tonight with his kitten with romantic dinner, he know he must be polite and show his good side towards his kitten''s colleagues. He need to show his superiority compare to Mr. Yao!


    "I''m going to have dinner with TangTang. If you guys don''t mind, please join us."


    "Is it okay if both os us join you?" The woman named Yan Qiuyue asked.


    "Sure!" Jian Kang Lu flashed his best doctor''s smile.


    That way, the romantic dinner turn into a 4 person dinner. Jian Kang Lu gave several option of restaurant near this area to them. He done his homework, he know every recommended restaurant near this area. Several he tried and quite good. But his kitten colleagues pick the ordinary one.


    Jian Kang Lu just smile and answer each questions politely, and asked his kitten colleague back to create lively conversations. His kitten and his colleague talk mostly about their project, which Jian Kang Lu just listen attentively.


    He was glad for once, his dinner with his kitten was free from ''Mr. Yao'' word.

 Chapter 162 - Can I Be On Top

    Bai Yutang''s lips curved when he saw his bank account''s statement. This is not the first money he earned from his hard work, but surely to have a monthly salary is nice. It was like a guarantee keeping him safely guarding his mother and his sister financially.


    He directly transfers 50% of his salary to his mother and his sister. He called his mother after he transferred the money. His mother asked him with concern, "TangTang, i still have money. Why send money again? Just use it for yourself."


    "Mom, I have enough. You can use the money to eat something nice with RenRen, grandpa, grandma, or buy something for yourself." Bai Yutang actually feels sad since he can''t give enough money to his mom. 25% of his salary was nothing compared with what his father gave his mother.


    "But..." Lu Hua halted her words. She swallows her grief and sadness, then tries to smile. "Okay then, just make sure you have enough money to eat properly. Don''t forget to treat Ah Lu and your friends too."


    "I will. Okay, I need to go back to work, mom. Talk to you later, and take care." Bai Yutang ended the call.


    As a tradition which is common in every work place, Bai Yutang treats his colleagues for lunch. His colleagues were tolerant since they chose a simple restaurant for their lunch. This Chinese restaurant was cheap but tasty.


    "Please order what you want, seniors." Bai Yutang politely gave the menus to Zhong Fan, Yan Qiuyue, Zhu Meng, and his boss, Yao Mingyu.


    "Are you sure? I can order anything?" Yan Qiuyue teased him. Bai Yutang replied with a smile, then grinned, "Yes, but please keep your order under 50 yuan."


    "Stingy boy!" Yan Qiuyue scoffed, but her eyes were laughing.


    All of them ordered simple food which didn''t drain Bai Yutang''s first salary. After all, Bai Yutang also needs to treat his friends just like his friends treat him when they receive their first salary.


    "So how''s the progress with the material for the first floor?" Yao Mingyu asked Zhu Meng. The quiet man groaned, "Boss, can we not talk about work when we eat?"


    Yan Qiuyue snorted, "This is why they said don''t eat lunch with your boss. This is your fault, Yutang!"


    Zhong Fan adds the oil to the fire, "No wonder you''re still single, boss. All you can think of is work, work, and work."


    "Woah, look at who''s talking. Qiuyue and Yutang are also single." Yao Mingyu pointed at them.


    "On my wedding day, FangFang''s single friends are also coming. Qiuyue and Yutang definitely have to come. I''ll introduce you to good people." Zhong Fan sincerely boasted about her future wife''s circle.


    "What about me?" Yao Mingyu asked.


    "I don''t dare." Zhong Fan waved his hand. "How if you''re not satisfied, or worse, rejected. Then i''m sure i won''t got bonus this year."


    They laughed and then bickering about how good FangFang''s friends look. Zhong Fan''s fiance was working in the video streaming industry. A lot of minor internet celebrity work with her.


    Even though Yao Mingyu is their boss, their relationship was pretty good. Yao Mingyu is the type who is strict about work, but does not really care about seniority like other bosses. They could discuss and present their ideas to him, and he will decide whether your personal opinion is worth presenting.


    Bai Yutang originally is a quiet person too, so he didn''t say anything, only smile and laugh along with his colleague.


    The food is coming, and they start eating. Even though they said they don''t want to talk about work at lunch, they still answer and discuss the project''s progress. If Bai Yutang had lunch with Zhong Fan and Yan Qiuyue without their boss, sometimes his seniors also trash the vendors and the clients who ask for revision all of sudden. But with Yao Mingyu, they still have sensible not to cross that line.


    "Yutang, how do you feel after 1 month working here?" Yao Mingyu asked him.


    "I thank my seniors who help me to adapt, Mr. Yao. And i also thank you for your guidance."


    "Did you find difficulties? You can ask and discuss with us if you are stuck." Yao Mingyu actually pleased with this new guy. He works fast and efficiently, somehow the other''s progress also faster since this guy joined them.


    "Yes, Mr. Yao, I will."


    Zhong Fan''s chopsticks were busy picking the steamed duck when he commented, "Luckily Yutang had many experiences before, so he adapted faster."


    Yao Mingyu raised his eyebrow, "Oh, I thought you''re a fresh graduate. Where have you worked before?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "It''s only part time jobs, Mr. Yao. It was when I was still studying."


    "Part time? Where? Can you do a part time job in T uni? Why?"


    Bai Yutang then mentioned the project he did for a few firms. "I need the money, Mr. Yao. The part time job was not that difficult, and I only took it when I didn''t have tests or projects."


    It was not polite to ask why someone needs money desperately, all of them know if someone was not desperate they wouldn''t take part time jobs, especially architecture students. Simple part time job might work, but the project and firms Bai Yutang mentioned were not simple at all.


    Yao Mingyu now could see why this young man adapted so fast. He gave some suggestions for the current project. What the architect designed and planned sometimes needed adjustment when the material did not suit their requirement. Revision and compromise were necessary.


    What Yao Mingyu didn''t understand was, this plain Bai Yutang was clearly using expensive attire. His handphone alone costs more than his monthly salary. And he remembered Bai Yutang also lived in an elite apartment. Why does this man need to do a part time job?


    "I remember you say that you lived in the Sun 8 apartment. Is it rented or..?" He decided to ask.


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "I live with my friend. He was very kind to let me stay there for free." After his last experience with bullying, Bai Yutang was very careful to leak his private information to other people he was not close with. It was really just like what his lover used to warn him.


    Being honest is not a sin, but we didn''t have to bare ourselves naked in front of strangers. That''s why he says he didn''t have a girlfriend, and didn''t deny when his colleagues thought he was single because of that statement.


    "Doctor Jian did not even extort money for water and electricity from you?" Yan Qiuyue asked him. She noticed this last two weeks, Doctor Jian always picks Bai Yutang every Wednesday and politely invites them for dinner. Last Wednesday it was her again and Zhong Fan''s turn.


    Who doesn''t like to have free dinner paid by a handsome man? Yan Qiuyue was very aware of her own appearance and did not have any other intention. But still, she enjoys having a pleasant view, pampering her own eyes without feeling guilty, since Doctor Jian is single.


    Bai Yutang shook his head again, "No. Jian Ge is really kind."


    "Woah, you stay there for free? Is he your relative?" Zhu Meng didn''t interact much with Bai Yutang personally, so he didn''t know about this fact. Thinking about his rented apartment which cost him 25% of his monthly salary, he feels sour. It will be very nice to have wealthy relatives who want to help you unconditionally. His own relatives were not that rich, and definitely not that kind.


    "No, he was my good friend. Jian Ge is basically very kind to everyone." Bai Yutang pointed out.


    "True, he also treated me two times. Is he coming again this Wednesday?" Yan Qiuyue unknowingly raises her hope.


    "I don''t know. If he didn''t have anything to do, maybe he will come again." Bai Yutang didn''t mind his lover treating his colleagues. But after one month busy and neglecting his lover, he also missed having a date with his lover. He doesn''t really want to spend every Wednesday having dinner with his colleagues when his lover picks him up.


    In this one month, he tried his best to adapt and do his work well for passing his probation period. He always works over time like his colleagues, and also works on Saturday to catch the steady work pace in the future. Now he works as fast as his other colleagues even though his work portion is still less compared to the three of them.


    He already decided this morning to treat his lover for a date this Wednesday, celebrating his first salary. They haven''t seen movies in the cinema for this one month. He missed it.


    He also plans to play that devil card game again after their date. He could sense his lover always stare at him hungrily every day, just like a wolf staring at his rabbit prey Bai Yutang almost sees his lover''s drool over his own naked body when they shower together last night.


    Bai Yutang felt guilty, sometimes he gave his lover hand job and blow job to ease his lover''s hunger. He still feels heavy when he remembers he fell asleep two times in the middle of their love making session since he was really tired. Bai Yutang didn''t understand why his lover''s stamina was not depleted after working in the hospital, while he was coming home limp and wasted every day.


    Maybe he should try topped his lover one day. Maybe being on top was not as exhausting as being in the bottom. He decided to ask his lover this Wednesday. Bai Yutang has never been on top for his whole life, he is also curious how it feels.


    That''s why this happy Doctor Jian who spend a proper date this Wednesday with his kitten, who wantonly devour his kitten''s soft lips, who skilfully unbuckle his kitten''s belt, who groping his kitten''s supple butt, who slipped his hands under his kitten''s pants, were frozen when his kitten softly speaking in the middle of his panting breath of their fiery kiss in the living room.


    "Gege.. Can i try being on top?"

 Chapter 163 - Im All Yours (NSFW)

    Jian Kang Lu''s brain tries to process this information. On top.. It could mean his kitten just wants to adjust the position to be on top. But.. The words and the behaviour of his kitten was not right.


    Is it¡­ Is it what he thinks it is?


    His kitten had shoved his rigid body to the sofa. Jian Kang Lu was still processing his words when his kitten climbed the sofa with one knee bent over him. His kitten''s face got close and his lips pressed Jian Kang Lu''s lips. It was a domineering kiss.


    Oh... It seems like his kitten wants to take control like usual. Maybe it was just the regular on top position.


    With that in mind, Jian Kang Lu''s hands start to move by his own, groping his kitten''s lovely butt. His kitten might be skinny, but the meat on his butt surely tasty. It was supple, inviting people to squish it and fuck it till it was red from the bump of thrusting and slamming. He had bitten those sexy butts several times, leading to his kitten yell and bite his arm back.


    His kitten''s tongue is nimble and flexible. No matter the technique, as long as one''e heart is connected with each other, the kiss will turn into something precious. The movement of the pink muscle of his kitten always arouses his desire, burning his senses. It was prying inside, then pulled back a little bit, inviting him to devour that small naughty mouth back. Teach his naughty kitten not to provoke him.


    Jian Kang Lu''s own tongue was catching that naughty tongue of his kitten, sliding to the tip and wrapping it to the side, brushing his kitten''s gum and pearly teeth, before his kitten retracted his own wet tongue. Silver strand was connecting their tongue due to that slow movement of their gaping mouth.


    His kitten pressed his chest, rubbing Jian Kang Lu''s nipple over his shirt. The weather started to welcome the humid summer, so his shirt was thin and he shivered under his kitten''s caress. It sends electrics to his spine, trickling his skin.


    "Can I.. I want to try, gege.. Hmm..?" His kitten whispered in a seductive tone. It tickles Jian Kang Lu''s ear, like a soft claw of his kitten scratching his heart.


    Never in his life Jian Kang Lu being a bottom, neither he wants or dreams about it. He was basically a dominant man who enjoyed his man moaning under him. But he loved his kitten so much. He could give his kitten everything he wants. Only one thing he could not give to his kitten. That was if his kitten asked to leave him. That''s his bottom line.


    Now his kitten asked him to be a bottom? So what? If his kitten wants it, he can endure it.


    "You want to fuck me, baby?" Jian Kang Lu pressed his palm to his kitten''s soft waist, his thumb slowly moved under his kitten''s shirt.


    His kitten had kneeled over him. His hands were encircling Jian Kang Lu''s neck. His face was flushed with lust and painted his skin. He nodded and brushed his soft lips to Jian Kang Lu''s nose tip, then sliding down to his lips again. His body was moving in slow movement, rubbing his erection to Jian Kang Lu''s abdomen.


    "Mmm.. I want to.."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled and devoured those naughty lips. He held his kitten''s head and pushed inside that warm wet small mouth.


    He will let his kitten fuck him. Maybe this way, his kitten found he didn''t need a woman after all, and will stay with Jian Kang Lu until death do them part.


    "Okay."


    Jian Kang Lu holds his kitten and stands up. His kitten was startled with this sudden movement, but they do this several times already. His kitten''s legs were trained to wrap itself tight to Jian Kang Lu''s waist, he clung tight on his shoulder. His teeth bite Jian Kang Lu''s lips lightly, then lick it after.


    Jian Kang Lu carried his kitten to their bedroom, their lips never separated all the way. He put his kitten on the bed, his hands sliding to open his kitten''s shirt, unbutton them at the speed of light. He traced his fingers to the soft skin under, lightly pinching those erected buds. Admiring the beauty of this sexy body under him.


    His kitten did the same, soon both of them were bare chest, their shirts crumpled somewhere.


    "Let me bathe you first, gege.. I''ll prep you." His naughty kitten slid his toe and teased Jian Kang Lu''s erection while bulging under his pants, sliding down between his thighs, and rubbing his crotch with those white skinny ankles.


    Jian Kang Lu groaned and stripped his kitten naked. After licking and sucking his kitten''s sensitive skin and satisfied to see the marks branded his love to his kitten''s body, he brought his kitten to the bathroom. This will be his first time, he also wants to be clean. Both of them liked to be clean.


    They bathe fast. His kitten meticulously rubs every corner of his body. Make sure both of them lick a smooth baby skin after this bath.


    After the bath and dried themselves, they still kissed from the bathroom to the bed. Bai Yutang threw in the bed and soon felt the weight of his naked lover pressing him down.


    Jian Kang Lu had been a monk this past month, so with all this burning provocation from his kitten, the beast inside him taking control. For a moment he forgot that he promised his kitten to let him fucked him. His knees opening his kitten''s knees, force this beautiful man under him to open his legs, and let Jian Kang Lu''s erection rubbing the enchanting entrance of his kitten.


    His kitten caught him and then pulled him, rolling to the side to let him be on top of Jian Kang Lu.


    "Naughty gege.. Just stay like this, and let me do you." His kitten sat on top of him, looking down at him with that seductive smile. His eyes were hazy, glossed with lust and desire.


    Jian Kang Lu opened his arms. "I''m all yours, baby. Do what you want."


    Bai Yutang smiled, knowing that the man under him will always give him what he wants. He opens the drawer and grabs their love lube. He bent his body down, trailed his lover''s bare damp skin with his tongue and lips. Serve the man under him who surrenders his body.


    From each stroke of his kitten''s wet tongue, Jian Kang Lu felt his blood vessels throbbing, sending the surge wave by wave to his lower abdomen. His own erection hurts for it''s been standing for quite a long time without relief. He wants to rub it to his kitten''s body, and wants to enter that warm hole. But he holds it, lets his kitten do what he wants.


    This is the first time for Bai Yutang doing this. His first time entered by Jian Kang Lu was very pleased and didn''t hurt much. He knows the part down there needs to be stretched. He already prepared Jian Kang Lu in the bathroom. So he straightened his body up and squeezed the lube into his fingers.


    Bai Yutang didn''t notice Jian Kang Lu''s expression when he prepped him in the bathroom. Bai Yutang tried to be gentle, but still Jian Kang Lu felt a little bit of pain. Jian Kang Lu knew his kitten was inexperienced, and this will be hurt. But he tried to put on his smile, focused on stroking the cute erection of his kitten.


    He wants to let this be a good experience for his kitten. So he braced himself and not letting his kitten see his unease expression when he felt the cold sticky lube in his kitten''s fingers smeared on his rear.


    Once he felt his kitten''s finger enter him and prying inside, Jian Kang Lu pulled his kitten''s neck and kissed him fiercely. He felt uncomfortable, and the only way to relieve it is by devouring these pale pink petals he adores so much. He sucked on his kitten''s tongue like a madman. The sound of their wet kiss lingering in the air, heightened their lust.


    Bai Yutang himself was immersed in the sensation on his fingers. It was warm inside his lover. It was spreading from his fingers to his arm, and surging to his own erection, throbbing hard. Never did he know that doing this also aroused him so much. His finger happily sliding inside that smooth lining, soft inner wall of his lover''s hole. No wonder his lover loved to do this on him. The sensation is burning him.


    Soon he put his second fingers. He was doing it by instinct, since his lover had done it to him hundreds of times before. His body learns it without his brain processing it. The sound of his lover''s fiery kiss, the squelch of his sticky lube covering fingers push and pull inside his lover''s hole, burn his ears and snooze his brain.


    "Mmmh.. " Bai Yutang can''t hold his moan slipped out from his mouth.


    His own erection played under his lover''s caress, so does his own hole. Both of them fingering the holes of their partner, and Bai Yutang''s hips moved by his own. He almost whispered and beg his lover to fuck him. His own hole accustomed to his lover''s caress, and it was itched for his lover''s dick entering him.


    Bai Yutang''s lips withdrew, and slid to his lover''s neck, biting it lightly. He needed to be snapped out of his lover''s devil hand.


    "No, gege.. Tonight is my turn."


    His lover withdrew his hands, and just slid up to his chest. Playing with his buds, pinch it lightly and Bai Yutang''s mouth slipped out the soft moans.


    "Mmm.. Yes, my TangTang can do anything he wants to me."


    Bai Yutang knows he can''t let this man under him play some more or else he was the one who surrendered to his own lust and later being fucked till he was passed out again. He then grips his lover''s hand, trying to awaken from his mushy state of brain.


    Bai Yutang grabbed the lube again, smeared the sticky liquid to his own standing erection, then propped his body, directing the angry hard rod to his lover''s hole.


    "Gege, open your legs."


    Jian Kang Lu looked at the youth on top of him. His face was tinted with pink colour spreading to his chest. His words are domineering, but his lusted youth face looked like he asked to be bullied and trampled until he cried under him. Little did this youth know his stern face just looked like a small cute kitten trying, angrily meowing to ask for food.


    It was embarrassing for Jian Kang Lu, an old man, to open his legs for this youth. But he can''t help but smile looking at this lusting kitten in front of him. He decided to let his kitten do all the way and relaxed himself when he opened his legs for his kitten. He even grabbed his kitten''s slippery cock and directed it to his own hole.


    Bai Yutang''s heart is pounding hard. His body was hot. It was a mixed emotion between lust and nervous to do this for the first time. He pressed the tip of his erection to that hole''s entrance while his lover''s hand grabbed his shaft and taught him how to direct it. He pushed a little bit, and entered his lover. He could hear his lover''s words ringing in his ear.


    "I love you, baby.. I love you to death."

 Chapter 164 - Do You Still Want More? (NSFW)

    "Ngh.."


    Bai Yutang''s lips were slightly opened, gasping for air. The sensation from his lower part enveloped by that warm wet hole were beyond words to describe. It was different with how his lover''s hand handle him, and it was different when it was sucked by his lover''s mouth.


    It was so tight until Bai Yutang also felt pained, crushed with the contraction of the muscles beneath those warm walls. He can''t even push all of his shaft into the hole. He stopped his movement to let himself breathe before slowly moving forward bit by bit, breaching that virgin hole deeper.


    Bai Yutang''s focus was on the part of his cock connected with his lover''s body. It was a different sensation of looking at himself swallowing his lover''s erection. He was fascinated by it and didn''t see Jian Kang Lu''s brow crumpled with pain and discomfort.


    Jian Kang Lu himself felt like he was torn apart from this clumsy virgin youth who tried to penetrate for the first time. He tried to relax himself as far as he could, and focused himself on stroking his kitten''s buds. He wants to kiss his naughty kitten again to divert his attention and discomfort, but his kitten too concentrates on entering him.


    Jian Kan Lu takes a deep breath and just looks at his kitten''s handsome face. Bit by bit, he saw his kitten''s expression changing with every movement of his kitten pushing into him.


    Bai Yutang himself finally sighed when he managed to push all his erection inside. He could feel every pulsating from his lover''s warm wall, massaging his own dick. It felt so good. He tries to move, pull himself a little bit, and pushes it again slowly.


    Jian Kang Lu can''t handle his kitten''s clumsy slow movement, he just grabbed his kitten''s neck and kissed him fiercely. Jian Kang Lu''s eyes fixed on him as their lips meld intimately together once again. His large hand traces along Bai Yutang''s chest before his tongue pushing in past Bai Yutang''s lips without giving him any time to think. This fierce kiss halted Bai Yutang''s movement for a moment.


    Bai Yutang can''t even describe this feeling. It''s his first time being like this, red faced, he tries to move his hips, pull and push his erection towards Jian Kang Lu, and he groans from the sensation.


    Both of them sweating from this small movement. They could smell the light scent of sex around, the musky scent of virility, palatable and enticing. Jian Kang Lu resumed the kiss. He kissed Bai Yutang heatedly, frenziedly, kissed the breath right out of him while he swallowed, helpless.


    Bai Yutang''s mouth is wet with saliva when they parted again. His face bright and red. His instinct took control and he tried to get away from Jian Kang Lu''s intoxicating kiss. He moved his hips and pushed again. He saw his lover under him, looking at the sweat layering his lover''s temple. His lover''s mouth slightly opened, trying to breathe. His lover''s broad chest glistened from the sweat. His tight abdomen formed that sexy waist.


    "Gege, you''re so sexy.."


    Bai Yutang kept moving, only the sound of their body connection was heard in this room. His lover was so silent. Only the squelch sound from every movement and their heavy breath lingered in the air.


    Jian Kang Lu felt the pain throbbing in his lower part gradually mixed with pleasure. Every time his kitten pushed into him, he felt a tingling sensation spreading from his prostate to his own erection, push and pull, wave by wave.


    It was not that he hated it, but as everyone had their own preferences, this kind of pleasure was not his cup of tea. He preferred to feel the warmth from his kitten''s hole rather than this kind of pleasure. The only thing to ease and maintain his own erection standing hard while leaking the transparent liquid from it''s slit was looking at his cute kitten''s brow furrowed each time he moved. His kitten bite his own lips while groaning once in a while.


    "It''s so good, gege.. No wonder you like to fuck me.." Bai Yutang sped up his movement. His erection was burning hot from the friction, rubbing the walls within. The pulsating wet walls keep teasing his cock. He wants more, and he keeps moving. He almost ran out of breath.. This is so good, but why did he feel so tired?


    Jian Kang Lu tries to relax and just enjoys the view in front of him. The youth above him sweating so much when moving non stop. He hoped he gave his kitten a wonderful first time experience. His kitten''s hair gradually damp from the sweat, and some of it dropped to Jian Kang Lu''s chest.


    Jian Kang Lu encircled his legs to Bai Yutang''s waist and tried to move his hips also. If this could satisfy his kitten, he doesn''t mind doing this. The pleasure was not his preference, but at least he didn''t hate it. Entangling with his kitten was his biggest pleasure.


    With this movement, the walls contracted and choked Bai Yutang''s cock. Bai Yutang groaned and fastened his movement along with his lover''s hips who moved up and down. He ran out of breath and was so tired. His world gradually sparks, sending the chill and numbing his body. In a split second, along with Jian Kang Lu''s increasing speed, he released his cum inside his lover''s hole.


    Bai Yutang almost screamed. But he managed to hold and only groaned, panting hard. "Argh!" Bai Yutang tries to recollect his scattered soul. He was so tired, and dropped himself on top of his lover''s body.


    "Do you like it, baby?" Jian Kang Lu stroked his kitten''s hair. His kitten could not answer, only his ragged breath vibrating on his chest. Jian Kang Lu stroked his kitten''s neck and back lightly, then he hugged his kitten tight.


    Jian Kang Lu waiting for his kitten to slowly calm his breath. He felt his kitten''s lower part gradually soften and limped below him. He pulled his kitten a little bit and let his kitten''s erection apart with him. Warm liquids were dropped down from his hole.


    "I love you so much, TangTang.." Jian Kang Lu whispered to Bai Yutang''s ear. He then rolled to the side, and pushed Bai Yutang''s limp body under him. He kisses those red lips who are still gasping for air, down to his sexy neckline, suck his chest, mark him once again, and then he bite his kitten''s nipple.


    "Akh!" His kitten frowned from the pain. Jian Kang Lu propped himself up and smiled.


    "Now it''s my turn, baby. And don''t you dare to fall asleep again this time."


    Jian Kang Lu grabbed the lube and squeezed it to his fingers. He pins Bai Yutang down, his slippery fingers trailing down his kitten''s sticky limp cock, then down to his crotch, looking for that enticing pretty hole. The fingers breach Bai Yutang''s body and push all the way inside to that cluster of nerves deep within Bai Yutang, bearing down on his sweet spot, stroking and rubbing.


    Bai Yutang''s entire soul goes weak with pleasure. His body powerless to resist, he then kissed once again until he didn''t even know who he was. Few prods from his lover''s fingers, and the base of his limp cock slowly pulsating and hard again. Few minutes later it was already throbbing unbearably like he''s about to lose control of his bladder. A moan comes out unbidden as the muscles of his stomach tighten.


    Jian Kang Lu chuckled in the middle of biting his kitten''s ear. He pulls his fingers out.


    "Don''t cum again, baby. I haven''t even started. And you definitely are not allowed to pass out this time." Jian Kang Lu took the lube, smeared it over his cock, and leaned down. His hard long throbbing erection is pressing relentlessly in, fluids slicking the way.


    "Ngh! Gege!"


    Jian Kang Lu pinned Bai Yutang down as he ruthlessly fuck Bai Yutang hard, as if he want to make sure the man beneath him don''t have chance to pass out. He pulls out, then fucks back in. His angry cock pushes all the way in, impaling Bai Yutang on its length.


    "Akh! Ge..ge.. Sl-Slower!" Bai Yutang welled with tears. Each hard thrust wringing strangled sobs from his throat. He feels like he''s going to retch. Then Jian Kang Lu pulls out completely, rounded head pressing lightly against his still open hole, prodding gently, teasing it while Jian Kang Lu sucks his nipple hard.


    Bai Yutang tried to breathe, and then his lover moved the tongue upward to his mouth. Peck it gently, then he looked at Bai Yutang with a mixed expression between a lusting beast and a doting lover.


    "I love you, TangTang.." Then Jian Kang Lu pecks his kitten''s cheek lightly, before pressing his erection slowly back into the most pleasurable hole.


    Bai Yutang''s trembling, his lips searching for his lover, sucking on the tongue against his own. He could feel his lover''s angry rod inside him, opening and pushing all the way into the deepest part of him. His lover now moved gently, the slow pressure sending a faint ripple through his body.


    Jian kang Lu draws his legs up and nudges Bai Yutang''s legs further apart with his knee, moving his hips, fucking into him. Bai Yutang moaning as pleasure comes with every thrust. The movement gradually increased until Bai Yutang''s cries broke as he clings desperately on his lover''s shoulder.


    The sensation overflowed, and Bai Yutang''s eyes filled with tears. Jian Kang Lu softly kisses the tears away. The kiss was gentle, but his movement gets fiercer.


    "Don''t sleep, don''t pass out on me." With each word, the thrust was deep and hard.


    "Ahh.. Ngh.. Akhh.. Gege.. Ah.." Bai Yutang''s voice started to get hoarse. His own erection kept leaking the liquid. He was desperately in the brink of cum, but his lover didn''t stroke his cock at all. He tries to rub the itch on his tip, to release the burning fire within him.


    Jian Kang Lu want to fuck his kitten more. But he knows his kitten still needs to work tomorrow. He sighed, and decided to ask his kitten not to work on Saturday. He thinks he deserves to have a few rounds more.


    "You want to cum, baby?" Jian Kang Lu slows his movement while teasing his kitten''s round wet tip. Play with it, pinch the soft smooth skin of his cute kitten''s erection.


    Bai Yutang could only let his tears roll down while he nodded. His voice was soft and hoarse when he begged. "Please, please let me cum, gege.." Begging is the fastest way to let his evil lover release him from this torture.


    Jian kang Lu thrust hard and picked up his pace. Massive length thrusting in and out. This merciless stimulation makes the muscles in Bai Yutang''s abdomen tense up. Jian Kang Lu grabbed his kitten''s erection and gave it a light fast stroke from the tip to the base.


    Bai Yutang quivering, he forgets to breathe for a moment before he comes undone with a cry.


    "Ah.. Ah..! Aaah..!!!"


    The pleasure spills over and Jian Kang Lu fucks him through it. Bai Yutang''s erection twitching as spurts of cum sprayed to his lover''s abdomen. Jian Kang Lu thrusting faster and harder, left Bai Yutang''s soul hanging down until finally he felt his lover''s erection twitch inside himself and his lover''s groan from the pleasure, the warm liquid sprayed inside him, covering his walls with his lover''s seed.


    Both of them panting hard, hugged each other tight. Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s soft cheek then slumped his head next to his kitten''s ear.


    "Do you still want to fuck me, baby?"

 Chapter 165 - I Need To Talk To You Privately

    Days go by faster within a blink of an eye when you''re busy. Summer sun was so bright, scorching the earth and blinding the eyes of people walking on it. Bai Yutang starts to adapt with his workplace, and earn trust from his colleagues.


    Next month is August, the wedding of Zhong Fan. The project they handled right now is almost finished, but there''s two projects on the bidding process right now. After this one is done, Bai Yutang''s team will start to help the bidding process of this new two project.


    In fact, Bai Yutang already helped. The other team was overloaded so their boss, Mr. Yao, divided some of their jobs to Bai Yutang''s team. Since Zhong Fan was busy handling his marriage, he often asked Bai Yutang to take over his part.


    "Yutang, let''s have lunch." Yan Qiuyue appeared beside him.. Bai Yutang didn''t turn his head and only answered while his hand was still busy sketching the pillar''s details for the bidding project.


    "Okay Yan Jie. 5 minutes?" His hands were dancing in the pad while his eyes fixed on the screen.


    "Okay!"


    Fifteen minutes later three of them walk to the restaurant across the street. Zhong Fan didn''t join them, saying that his fiancee will come to have lunch together while discussing their last minute wedding preparation.


    While waiting for their lunch to be delivered, Yan Qiuyue ranted. "How come team 2 split their job to us? No wonder I''m still single until now, worked to death! Mr. Yao was unfair!" She yelled while fanning herself with her hands. The summer was humid and hot.


    Zhu Meng nodded, "Don''t mention it. I even almost forgot my daughter''s birthday next week. My wife almost locked me out last night."


    "Poor Zhong Fan, he is still busy with his wedding too. I heard him yell and fight with his fiancee yesterday on the phone. I''m glad they have lunch together today." Yan Qiuyue gladly sipped her ice tea which was delivered to their table.


    "Don''t even mention it. Every wedding is a nightmare. Suddenly you won''t recognise your partner and your parents again. And don''t get me started with the in-laws." Zhu Meng reminisced about his own experience.


    "True, i still remember my brother''s wedding. My mom almost told him to cancel the wedding. It was chaotic. Hope my own future wedding won''t be like that. Yutang, later when you have a girlfriend and plan to get married, you need to help her and don''t let her stress out by herself." Yan Qiuyue suddenly wave her chopstick in front of Bai Yutang''s face.


    "I will, Yan Jie." Bai Yutang''s short and obedient answer always satisfies Yan Qiuyue. She smiled and advised Bai Yutans some more about the future girlfriend she thought Bai Yutang planned to have. Little did she know what Bai Yutang was thinking about right now.


    Zhu Meng listening to this single Yan Qiuyue lecturing this poor young man, then he added after a while, "But i admire Zhong Fan still manage to finish his work fast. Maybe working under pressure gives him extra energy."


    Bai Yutang didn''t tell them that he was working extra for Zhong Fan''s part too. Basically all the jobs for the bidding project that fell on Zhong Fan were done by him. Bai Yutang did it to help him, and he didn''t feel he needed to clarify it. In his university days, he was taught that architects are team work.


    He often helped his friends, and his friends helped him too. Even on his final project he was helped by Fei Hong, Mu Xiaoya, and several of his classmates too. He also lent his 3D printers to his classmates for their final projects.


    "Do you think we could win the bid?" Yan Qiuyue''s slender hands pick the food from the plate and bite the fried tofu after she blows it, cooling it down.


    Bai Yutang silently bit his fish when he realised it was a question thrown at him. "I don''t know, Yan Jie. I never came to the bidding process, and didn''t know which firm would compete with us."


    Zhu Meng nods, "I think for the villa project we''re superior compared to the competitor. But for the employee housing project, I also have no idea who will be our competitor. It was still on the early bid, and might take another three rounds until it was decided."


    Bai Yutang never came to the bidding process. It was always Mr. Yao and the team responsible for the new bidding project come to fight on the bidding presentation. Their team was responsible for the new bid if there is another new project. Bai Yutang hoped he could come attend the bidding process someday. It will be a new experience for him.


    "I hope this is not another price shoppers." Yan Qiuyue said after finishing her lunch. Price shoppers are clients who are just looking for the cheapest price after bidding, and stole some of the ideas from the bidders to implement on the winning firm.


    Zhu Meng finished his ice water. "Better price shoppers compare with ceaseless demander." These sentences followed by Yan Qiuyue laugh. "Yeah, right. That one is a nightmare."


    Ceaseless demander was their term to describe clients who never ever satisfied, leading to thousands revisions. Then when the prices were over their budget, they asked for another revision, and so on, and the worst is the fee payment sometimes delayed on their own basis that the architects were not satisfying.


    The architecture firm basically already stated on their contract regarding how many times they could revise the design from the initial design which agreed upon the bidding. But often the revision exceeds the number stated in the contract. This due to their line of business was often based on good relationships, establishing the firm''s name and reputation in the process.


    As the lowest part in this architect firm''s chain, Bai Yutang only holed in the office, doing numerous tasks assigned to him. But later when he climbed the ladder, he needed to attend the bidding. Meet the clients and the contractor. They need to maintain good relationships with both parties, often leading to dinner and alcohol talking after the meeting.


    Three of them finish their lunch fast and after a while, they walk back to the office. Bai Yutang was back to his seat and replied to his lover''s message before going back immersed in his sketch.


    His lover was asking him to pick a birthday gift for his future mother in law together today. This is Wednesday, but Bai Yutang didn''t dare to promise his lover since he predicted he will work over time again today. This sketch needs to be done by tomorrow. Bai Yutang already apologised and even sent a lot of heart emojis to his lover, promising they will pick a birthday gift together on Saturday.


    Lin Caihong, his future mother in law, will turn 60 in the next two week. Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu agreed to pick some jewellery together for her birthday. Jian Kang Lu''s father planned to have an afternoon garden party on the next two Sunday to celebrate his wife''s birthday. There will be a lot of Jian Kang Lu''s family attending the party.


    Bai Yutang knows the party not only invites his lover''s family, but also his future father in law acquittances. A lot of them are figures in the marketing and financial leader. Since his lover''s family''s garden is not big enough to hold a party consisting of more than 100 people, the party will be held in one of the biggest resorts in this city.


    Luckily his lover''s family are not people who like to overwork themselves. The party is basically handled by the party organiser, they only need to choose and make decisions. Bai Yutang often held every Sunday until late to meet this party planner and give his opinion.


    Quoting Lin Caihong, "My sons are useless in this. The colours they know are only black and white. So what do you think about this, TangTang? Mint or Moss?"


    Her words were true. All Jian Kang Lu and Jian Kang Se could see are the colour of green, they could not even point out which one is mint and which one is moss. Bai Yutang is different, because his job is to differentiate a lot of different palettes of colour.


    He didn''t mind helping his future mother in law. The only thing that makes him suffer is the fact that Zhou Qunfei and Wu Yajun also often come and pull him to discuss the birthday party together. Luckily his lover firmly rejects their idea of kidnapping Bai Yutang to meet the party planner.


    "No. If you need his advice, invite the party planner to come here. There''s no need for you girls going there and torture TangTang for hours." His lover calmly rejected his own mother, resulting in Lin Caihong accusing Jian Kang Lu as an unfilial son who deserved to be single because he didn''t understand the woman''s heart.


    How could Jian Kang Lu let his kitten be taken away from him? He rarely spends quality time with his kitten since his kitten is working. And this rascal Wu Yajun kept putting her hands on his kitten''s shoulder, even sometimes pinching and poking his kitten''s cheek. He even once roughly sat between them when he saw this little devil queen keep whispering something in his kitten''s ear.


    "Woah, this area is restricted for single humans below thirty five. Old uncle was not allowed to be here!" Wu Yajun stood up and tried to shove herself in between Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang again. Her rash movement almost kicked Bai Yutang out from the sofa.


    "Don''t you think i can''t see your dirty trick? I know you must teach TangTang something illegal or even worse, something lewd." Jian Kang Lu pulled his kitten and prevented this devil queen from hugging his kitten.


    "Oh, how do you know? Let me think. Mmm.. It must be because you''re the one who teaches those things to me." Wu Yajun plaster her innocent smile which they all know behind those smiles was an intention which was not innocent at all.


    Bai Yutang silently retreated and sat next to his future mother in law. This is the safest place. He let his lover bicker with Wu Yajun. This way, he is also safe from Wu Yajun''s pester. This is how he spent his three last Sunday lunch with his lover''s family.


    Bai Yutang''s mind goes back to the computer screen. He already finished Zhong Fan''s task, and now moved to finish his own. The sketch was sent to Zhong Fan''s email. Bai Yutang looked at the time, it was 6 o''clock. He decided to work another 1 hour before going down. His lover was already downstairs to pick him up again.


    While he concentrates to finish his own task, his phone rings. Bai Yutang looked at his phone and was surprised to see the name of the caller. It was from his future mother in law. He hurriedly picked up.


    "Hello, Auntie Lin."


    "Hello TangTang, did i disturb you?"


    "No auntie, not at all. Is there something I can help you with?"


    "No no no.. I just want to talk with you"


    Bai Yutang was quite confused. He thought his future mother in law needed some advice regarding the party again. But it seems she didn''t want to talk about that. He have no idea what his future mother in law need to talk to him.


    "Yes auntie, i''m listening."


    "Not by phone. Can i talk to you face to face?"


    Right when Bai Yutang still digests this sudden information, Lin Caihong''s stern voice comes again in his ear.


    "I need to talk to you privately. Can you spare your time for me this Friday? And I expect you not to tell my son about this."

 Chapter 166 - Straight To The Point

    Bai Yutang frowned, he got bad premonition. His hands numb and cold right away. He tried to suppress the discomfort he felt inside and politely answered. "Yes auntie Lin."


    "Good. Then let''s meet at 6 o''clock at S hotel lounge. Is that okay?"


    S hotel was not that far from his office, but the traffic jam was no joke. Bai Yutang needs to leave office at 5 if he wants to make it. He softly answered, "Yes auntie Lin. 6 o''clock at S hotel lounge. I''ll be there."


    "Okay.. Thank you, TangTang." Lin Caihong''s voice was cold and stern until the end.


    Bai Yutang stared at his mobile phone, thinking about what just happened. Lin Caihong is usually always warm to him. But the conversation just now was only polite but so cold. Not a trace of her warmth could be heard. Bai Yutang suddenly didn''t have any mood left to continue working. He decided to leave early.


    "Senior, I''ll be going first." He stood up and excused himself after turning off the computer.


    Yan Qiuyue raises her eyebrow when she turns her head looking at him. "So early? Your roommate picked you up again? Or you have a date?"


    Bai Yutang tried to lift his lips, put a smile upon his gloomy mood. "I feel a little bit unwell. Just want to sleep early."


    Zhu Meng frowned, "Don''t get sick. Take your medicine if needed. Only fools catch cold in summer."


    Bai Yutang only smiles and reaches for his backpack. He repeatedly says goodbye to his other senior in the other team while he walks out from the office. Usually he only left the office when few people left here. Today is a rare day for him left while the office is still full of people doing overtime.


    He calls his lover when he is waiting for the elevator. "Hello gege, I''ve finished my work."


    Jian Kang Lu was surprised but happy at the same time. It was so rare for his workaholic kitten to finish his work in this hour. Usually Jian Kang Lu needs to wait until 7.30 or 8 o''clock which equals two cups of coffee and two cups of tea until his kitten bestows him with his arrival. He did not even finish reviewing his resident''s paper today.


    "So fast?"


    "Umm, I''m hungry and want to sleep earlier. Get stuck, better to work again tomorrow." Bai Yutang can''t use sickness as an excuse to his lover or else he will be sent for a full body medical check up to his lover''s hospital. To his lover, better using stuck as the excuse.


    Architects are just every artist out there. They can''t work well without a fresh mind and their inspiration is dimmed with a tired body and brain. For his current task, actually Bai Yutang didn''t need inspiration. The project their team handled was the finishing project which didn''t need much creativity, only following the original design and outline.


    However, it was a completely different matter with the bidding project. A lot of Zhong Fan''s work which he handled was purely his artistic creativity and calculation. So far, he hasn''t gotten any feedback nor revision for his work there. Maybe Zhong Fan modified his design again, or maybe team 2 fixed it to fit their own arrangement, Bai Yutang had no idea.


    Jian Kang Lu detected a different tone used by his kitten. It seems his kitten didn''t have a good day. Jian Kang Lu was familiar with it. Every time his kitten stuck, he would be like this. It seems today he has to watch his mouth and needs to say goodbye for bedtime exercise tonight. When his kitten is stuck or in a bad mood, he rarely responds to Jian Kang Lu''s invitation.


    They eat Korean barbecue near their apartment. The restaurant was owned by a pair of Korean couples which serve the meat from a small organic farm which they also owned in the small hills in S prefecture. The vegetables are also from their farm, all organic. It was really fresh and tasty.


    Bai Yutang''s favorite is their chadol baegi. It''s thinly shaved beef brisket. The meat is not marinated whatsoever, so the better quality of the meat, the tastier it will become. Cook it briefly upon the charcoal grills, dipped it in a sesame oil sauce mixed with himalayan salt and pepper, then use the organic fresh crispy green lettuce to wrap it before savouring the tender-melted in your mouth-meat.


    Bai Yutang''s mood improved several degrees higher after finishing the whole two plates of chadol baegi. The mood even better after his lover ordered makgeolli, a milky off white light sparkling korean wine. The taste is slightly sweet, tangy, bitter, astringent, yet refreshing.


    Bai Yutang shoved his bad feeling from his future mother in law''s call to the back of his head. He smiled to listen to his lover''s story and joke from the hospital. It was like a mutual understanding between them.


    If both of their moods are good, the dinner is usually dominated by Bai Yutang''s daily rambling. If Jian Kang Lu''s mood is bad, both of them fell silent with only a little bit of conversation by Bai Yutang, accompanied with a lot of touch, hug, and kisses. If Bai Yutang''s mood was bad, it was Jian Kang Lu''s turn to talk.


    Today''s story was Jian Kang Lu''s patient complaining about one of his resident''s body odours. This is summer, it was understandable if a person stinky from their sweat. Especially if the person hung their life on coffee, unhealthy fast food, lack of sleep, and maybe stressed also.


    Actually this resident was not that stinky, but he examined the patient in close range. The patient complained that her oxygen saturation decreased not because her lungs filled with fluids from her kidney failure, but due to she had to hold her breath.


    This led to Jian Kang Lu apologising to the patient. He then teased her with questions which person you choose to be son in law, a handsome doctor but sinky, or an ugly unemployee but fragrance. Jian Kang Lu then bought cheap but decent perfume online to distribute to all of his residents today. Bai Yutang automatically sniffed his own armpit in the restaurant under the makgeolli light alcohol effect.


    Jian Kang Lu can''t hold his laugh to look at his wide eyed kitten look at him hazily and crumple his brows while asking him in a pleading tone, "Am i stinky, gege? I also haven''t taken a bath. I heard people can''t recognise themselves if they were stinky. You have to tell me if I''m stinky. Don''t let people talk behind my back if I am stinky. Maybe we had to reduce our coffee and garlic consumption?"


    Jian Kang Lu could only tease his kitten, "I don''t know. I haven''t sniffed you today. Let me sniff you properly and i''ll tell you later whether you''re stinky or not today."


    This is what you call dropping the stone on your own feet. Jian Kang Lu''s brain was snapped when his kitten leaned on him after his teasing words. His kitten revealed his sexy white collarbone slightly while softly whispered, "Then sniff me now.. Tell me.. Am i stinky?"


    With this provocation, of course Jian Kang Lu paid the bill at the speed of light and abducted his kitten immediately back home. After one hour sniffing, tossing and turning his kitten around until his kitten pleads no more cum, Jian Kang Lu solemnly declares that his kitten is not stinky. They took a bath happily and went to bed early that night.


    Even though Bai Yutang ended that Wednesday in a happy and bright mood, he spent his Thursday and Friday in distress. He needs to double his speed since he leaves work earlier on Wednesday, and will leave earlier too on Friday. He didn''t even go out for lunch, only order some food delivery to eat at his desk while concentrating on his own task.


    Friday noon he was in dilemma to reject or to accept Zhong Fan''s request again. Zhong Fan was told to design the toilet for the team 2 bidding project, and he directly forward the email with instruction to Bai Yutang.


    After many times dumping his task to Bai Yutang, Zhong Fan didn''t even beg him again, as if he would agree immediately. Finally he only asked, "When is the deadline? I''m sorry senior, I need to go home early today."


    Zhong Fan turned his head to receive this half rejection for the first time. "Can you send it to me on Saturday afternoon?"


    Bai Yutang sighed. Saturday he already promised his lover to pick a birthday gift for his future mother in law. "Sunday afternoon? I''m really sorry senior, I haven''t finished the column calculation for team 1 also."


    Zhong Fan agreed immediately. Thus Bai Yutang feels even worse since he will spend another weekend working again.


    Time really went fast if you didn''t want to face the reality. Soon it was already 5 o''clock. Luckily Bai Yutang had finished all of his tasks for this week, only Zhong Fan''s toilet design he hasn''t touched at all. He hurriedly wrapped up his things and ran to catch a taxi. Taxi at this hour on Friday afternoon, needs a combination of fierceness and a bunch of luck to grab one.


    He sent a message to Lin Caihong notifying him that he was already on the way but still stuck in a traffic jam, afraid that his future mother in law was disappointed in him when he was late. Bai Yutang didn''t tell his lover, he only told him that he will work over time again and will come back home late.


    [When you arrive, just tell them that you have an appointment with me.]


    Bai Yutang replied to that message shortly. It was 15 minutes past six when he arrived at the lounge. S hotel is a luxurious 5 star hotel in this city. Many socialites with their flashy dress and exquisite make up walk around, also executives who attend some business meeting extending their conversation here to a simple dinner with alcohol companions.


    Bai Yutang looked at his surroundings and felt a little bit out of place when he looked at those men with expensive suits walking past him. Two women with 9 cm high heels and tight dresses sit near the window across from him, enjoying their afternoon tea cakes. Bai Yutang already stated to this young beautiful lady wearing black spaghetti dress and long silver earrings who attended this lounge that he was here for appointment with Mrs. Lin Caihong.


    The lady checked her tablet and took him to the private room. She then opened the door, politely gesturing to Bai Yutang to come in. The private room had a partition from thin paper to block the view from the door to the people who sat inside. Bai Yutang stepped in and softly announced himself.


    "Afternoon, Auntie Lin. This is Yutang. I''m sorry I was late, the traffic today is so bad."


    "Come in." The voice inside belongs to Lin Caihong.


    Bai Yutang pushed himself, clenched his fist to avoid his nervousness rising to the surface. When he looked behind the partition, there was a round table with 4 soft sofa chairs. In the corner there are some fresh flowers in the small vase, and in the middle of the wall there are exquisite blue and white porcelain decorate this private room.


    In the room, there are three women sitting. They were Lin Caihong, Zhou Qunfei and Wu Yajun. Lin Caihong pointed for Bai Yutang to sit on the empty sofa chair. Bai Yutang secretly thought while he sat, that maybe this is only another meeting for Lin Caihong''s birthday party. But why are all of their faces cold and stern? As if they didn''t know him before, as if they disdain him.


    Bai Yutang is really nervous now, he didn''t even have any voice left in his throat. He just sits there silently, waiting for these women to reveal their intentions. The silent hang in the air, it was suffocating. Three of them fixed their gaze on him.


    Finally, Lin Caihong leaned to the table. Her perfectly manicured nails clasped and put upon the table. Her gaze was cold and sharp, stabbing what''s left from Bai Yutang''s guts.


    "I will talk straight to the point. Yutang, are you in relationship with my son?"

 Chapter 167 - I Love Him

    It would be a biggest lie if Bai Yutang said he didn''t guess this happened. His future mother in law''s attitude, accompanied with a cold breeze emitted from auntie Zhou, it is terrifying. But it would also be a biggest lie if Bai Yutang said he is preparing for this.


    Lin Caihong is still beautiful even though she is almost 60 years old. A kind of beautiful lady who clearly never tasted hardship in her life, yet so strong and dignified. Stared by her is enough to make commoners like Bai Yutang sweat out of fear and inferiority.


    What could he answer? He didn''t know if his lover wanted to introduce him as his partner, as his boyfriend. This kind of thing should be discussed first, face it with preparation. What if he answers it wrong? Should he be honest? Or should he lie? Bai Yutang didn''t know.


    Because he didn''t know, and was too nervous, he lost his voice. He didn''t look away from his future mother in law. Half of it because he thought it was impolite, the other half because he was petrified and can''t look away from the intense gaze of his future mother in law..


    The silence in this room is suffocating. Lin Caihong studied Bai Yutang''s expression. It makes Bai Yutang''s scalp numb. Then she leaned back, with her legs crossed on top of each other, she looked elegant yet overbearing.


    "What? Can''t answer? Cat got your tongue?" These words softly uttered, but each syllable was clear and the tone was mocking Bai Yutang''s cowardice.


    The silence spread once again. Bai Yutang felt his body turn into stone. Heavy. Cold. Unmoved. How he wished he could call his lover right now.


    "How rude. Auntie Lin asked you two times yet you didn''t answer. Do you want to make auntie ask for the third time? Is this how you treat your elder?" Wu Yajun, who usually smiled mischievously at him, teased him, now looking at him with disdain. Her beautiful face is cold like ice, her red lips and the asymmetric long earring on her right ear lobe creating an image of royal concubine scold her unworthy maid.


    Bai Yutang startled and turned his head to look at Wu Yajun. No matter what, he wants to treat his future mother in law with utmost respect. "No.. No Wu Jie. I apologised."


    "Auntie didn''t need your worthless apology. You talk sweet yet you still haven''t answered her yet. What a hypocrite."


    Bai Yutang drew his eyes back from Wu Yajun back to his future mother in law. Lin Caihong stares at him, unblinking.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know how to answer this. But one thing he learned from his mistakes, honesty is still better than lying. He straightened his back, trying to answer without spilling his stormy emotion.


    "Yes, auntie. I am.." No matter how brave Bai Yutang was, facing three ladies staring at him like snakes want to swallow the mouse, his voice is shrill and soft, even though the trace of calm and acceptance could be heard.


    Lin Caihong didn''t give any reaction to Bai Yutang''s confession. Her icy face and her elegant posture still maintained without a single emotion rippled on the surface hearing Bai Yutang''s answer.


    Wu Yajun snorted, "Shameless."


    Zhou Qunfei picked the tea cup from the table, she sipped it slowly before she said, "Lin Caihong is like my sister. She welcomes you in her house, treats you like her own son, and yet you lure her son in a wicked way. Is this how your parents taught you?"


    Bai Yutang''s bottom line is his pride, and his family. So he abruptly raised his head to look at Zhou Qunfei. He was angered, and really sad right now. What right did they have to scold his parents like that?


    No matter what, he could not raise his voice to the elders. He suppressed his boiling rage, "No auntie. My parents taught me to respect my elders, protect my beloved ones, and be honest to myself."


    Wu Yajun laughed softly, "What a disgrace. In what way do you think you could hug Jian Ge''s thigh? Do you think you deserve to stand by him? Little slut. Can''t resist Jian Ge''s charm? Or do you want his money desperately?"


    Bai Yutang shocked, angered, and disappointed. Wu Yajun''s words stabbing him like a sharp knife repeatedly shove into his heart. He clenched his fist. Yet the most disappointing things were her words are true. He doesn''t have any qualification right now to equally stand by Jian Kang Lu.


    "Silent again? Do you want to cry to Jian Ge right now? Do you want to create a rift between Jian Ge and his family?" Wu Yajun''s red lips keep shooting painful words to slice Bai Yutang.


    Zhou Qunfei put her tea cup back. She patted her daughter''s hand. "This ungrateful child is not worthy of your emotion." Then she turns her body to face Bai Yutang again. "Even my daughter never dreams to hug Ah Lu''s thighs. She was more qualified than you. Yet you dare to seduce Ah Lu?"


    Bai Yutang wants to say that he never thinks that way. It was Jian Kang Lu who fell for him first. But he can''t say it. His knuckles clenched until it was white and pained him. He didn''t want to be trampled like this. He didn''t want his love to step on like a dirty rag unworthy of their eyes. "No auntie. I know I was not qualified. But I will try harder to be someone worthy for him."


    "Leave my son. You don''t have any right nor qualification. You can''t give me grandchildren. No matter how hard you tried, you can''t, and you don''t deserve my son." Lin Caihong cut Bai Yutang. She was calm, yet her voice trembling, hiding her rage.


    Bai Yutang''s face was already pale, but now it was completely drained of colour. His lips trembled. In this life, all he fears the most is his lover leaving him. He can''t, he won''t. He didn''t want to spend a single second separated from his lover''s love.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know what to say to make these people believe him. His body moved by himself, pulled himself out of the sofa, kneeled in front of Lin Caihong.


    "Auntie.. Please.. Don''t.." His eyes were warm, he tried to hold his tears back. He is a man, and he doesn''t want to cry in front of them. But he really can''t afford to lose his lover.


    "Please.. Please give me a chance to prove myself auntie.. Please.."


    "You''re still young. You can find another person. Do you seduce my son for his money? I have more money than him. How much do you want? I can support you for a lifetime. But leave my son alone." Lin Caihong didn''t even look at him. Zhou Qunfei poured the tea for her and patted her hand lightly.


    "No.. No, please.." Bai Yutang''s mind is blank. The pearly tears welled up and started to fall to his cheek. Wetting his lashes. Stained his pants. He still kneeled there. "I love him auntie. I love him.. Please don''t make him leave me."


    The speech of Bai Yutang starts to turn from trembling into uncontrollably sob. "Please.. I just love him, so much. Please don''t make him leave me. I can''t auntie. I''m sorry, but i can''t. Please.. Please give me a chance.."


    Bai Yutang''s tears fell like a waterfall, and he was sobbing so hard. Pouring all the grief. He didn''t know what he could do to make these people believe him except begging on his knees. He forgot his dignity, all he wanted is just to turn back time, and never agreed to come here in this room.


    Suddenly he was embraced. He doesn''t know when or why, but Lin Caihong already kneeled in front of him, pulling him to her embrace. She hugged him tight, her hand pats Bai Yutang''s back.


    "Oh God, I''m sorry TangTang. Shh.. Don''t cry, don''t cry."


    Wu Yajun already left her seat and kneeled by his side too. She wiped Bai Yutang''s tears with tissue. "Told you auntie, not to play this drama with him. Told you he will cry."


    Zhou Qunfei was the only one who still sat on her seat. She snorted, "You''re the one who excitedly wrote the script and practiced it in your room. Tch, apologised to TangTang. Ah Lu will kill you once he knows you make his pearl crying like this."


    Wu Yajun''s hand halted, "Mom, are you really my mom? Just tell me which orphanage you took me thirty years ago."


    Bai Yutang is really confused right now, but his tears and sobbing can''t stop. He was too shocked and shaken from the previous nightmare.


    Lin Caihong still hugged him, patting his back. "Shh.. Shh.. Don''t cry. Please forgive auntie, okay?" Don''t cry.."


    It took Bai Yutang a full 5 minutes to stop his tears. His whole face is red from crying out loud, and his eyes were red like a bullied rabbit crawling in the corner. He was taken by Wu Yajun to sit back on the sofa chair. Wu Yajun also poured him a cup of tea and urged him to drink it, to calm himself.


    He was confused. Is his method of begging work out?


    Lin Caihong sighed. She dragged her chair next to Bai Yutang, and held his hand, caressing it softly. The way she caresses it reveals how much Jian Kang Lu''s habits were inherited from her.


    "Don''t cry, okay. Auntie is wrong. It was just a joke."


    Bai Yutang really can''t process this thought. A joke?


    Zhou Qunfei snorted, "Your sense of humor is still bad as ever, HongHong. Told you this is too cruel to prank your son in law like this."


    Lin Caihong glared at her best friend, "You know i always want to try being that evil mother in law, just like in the drama. And I don''t remember you stopping me from planning this. I don''t have the chance with Ah Se. He suddenly introduces Mingle and announces he wants to marry her. With Ah Lu, this is the first time Ah Lu brings someone to introduce to us. If i didn''t act now, when will i have a chance in the future to demonstrate my acting skill? You got your chance already with Ah Shen, and I remember you asking me to help you too back then!"


    Wu Shen is Zhou Qunfei''s eldest son, Wu Yajun''s older brother. Suddenly Bai Yutang want to know Wu Shen''s wife, and compare their painful torture experience under these lunatic mother in laws.


    Lin Caihong back to pat Bai Yutang''s back. "Okay okay, forgive auntie, mmh? Please? Auntie just upset. I will turn 60 soon, but my son still won''t opened with me. When he brought you home for the first time, I thought I would receive his confession and openly introduce you as my future son in law. But didn''t think my son is timid like mouse. Never taught him like that. I always raise him to be brave. I thought maybe because you''re not ready. After all, you''re so young. I''m waiting and waiting, but both of you still clamped on your shells. Tell me, do you not intend to reveal your relationship until i die, TangTang?"


    Bai Yutang abruptly held his future mother in law''s hand hearing those unlucky words. "Auntie! Please don''t say that! I.. I.." Bai Yutang didn''t know what to say. It was not him who held his lover not to reveal their relationship. In fact, Bai Yutang was ready for it. Not 100%, but he could try to face it together with his lover.


    Lin Caihong patted his hand lightly, "I know, I know. That''s why I approach you like this. I know you''re the only one who could persuade my cowardly son to step up and open with his parents. No matter what we will do, or what we will say, we have rights to know who the person he loved, and how he wants to spend the rest of his life after we''re not around. We''re his parents. We loved him. It was just given for him to be honest with us."

 Chapter 168 - Mother In Law

    Lin Caihong was born in a wealthy and powerful family. Her grandfather was a high military officer. A kind of family that was not as rich as the Sun family but wealthy enough to not let her raise her fingers for the rest of her life. She was studying in the girl''s boarding school filled with daughters from similar backgrounds. That''s where she met Zhou Qunfei and they have been best friends for more than 40 years.


    Studying in the best girls boarding school back then was different with current education. Back then her school days filled with etiquette lessons, arts, language, and little bit science. Her hobbies are watching plays and movies, and also reading romance stories. From cheap third rate romance novels to high literature such as Jane Eyre, Pride and Prejudice, even Romeo and Juliet.


    Her parents then matchmade her with the third son of the Jian family, a wealthy merchant. The business was run by the first and second son, while Jian Shen decided to work in financial business. He secured the highest position in the company until he retired. Jian Shen earns more than enough to let her wife idle all day long.


    That''s why her days are filled with reading too many cheap romance stories and watching soap operas on television. In her school days, she loved to act in the theatre. But with their background, none of the students there will be allowed to be an actress for the rest of their life. Thus she can only channel her hidden dream in front of her family and best friends.


    Jian Shen, Jian Kang Lu, and Jian Kang Se, all were accustomed to her hobby and sudden play she created. But later along with her age, she didn''t play and teased her family much again, because they were just so boring. It was like punching air, there''s no satisfaction in there.


    One of her dreams is trying to act like an evil mother in law. Once her daughter in law learns the truth, it will create a strong bond between them. It will be a beautiful bond and will make her friends who like to criticise their daughter in law envy her.


    She always wanted a daughter, but what she got is two sons. Then she can only comfort herself saying she could enjoy all the things she dreamed with her future daughter in law. She already dreams of bringing her daughter in law each time they go together, lunch together, shopping together, just like her friends did with their daughter and daughter in law.


    But who can guess that her first son was single for so long until she felt the corner of her dream grew mushroom already yet she didn''t see any sign of her future daughter in law. Then her cold stone second son brings her the daughter in law she dreamed of.


    But once again her dreams shattered one she learned that her daughter in law was so excellent in her job resulting in her being so busy in the office? Fan Mingle didn''t have time to leisurely enjoy afternoon tea or strolling in the boutique to make their matched dress with Lin Caihong.


    Why can''t her sons give her the docile unemployed daughter in law she was once imagining? In her meetings with her friends, she could only grit her teeth when they flashed their docile daughter in law. That''s why she always scolds her friends who like to say bad things about their daughter in law.


    "You said your daughter in law''s cooking is so bad until you can''t even eat another spoon? You should be grateful your daughter in law cooks for you. Look at me? I can''t even see my daughter in law''s shadow until now!" That''s what she told them when both of her sons were single until she turned 50 year old.


    Then after she got Fan Mingle as her daughter in law, her scold changed into "You said your daughter in law didn''t want to work and spending your son''s money? Look at me! My daughter in law was so busy until I couldn''t see her shadow except on our Sunday lunch even though I wanted to spend my money on her!"


    Lin Caihong''s social circle is wide. She knows there''s a lot of hidden same sex relationship out there. She also read much. She didn''t have any prejudice against them. Although as parents, of course she prefers her sons marry good women and give her a lot of grandchildren.


    But she saw too much family drama, and saw so many unhappiness around her. She can count herself lucky when her parents matched him with Jian Shen. Even though Jian Shen worked in the company instead of owning his own business, and cold as stone, he was a good husband, good father, a good man.


    When Jian Kang Se ties a knot and Jian Kang Lu is still single, she already guessed about her oldest son''s sexual preference. There is no normal man with a face and career like her son who can''t get a woman he wants.


    She once asked her husband about that, and they reached the same conclusion. No matter woman or man, as long as they were good and loved their son, it doesn''t matter. As parents, their job is to love and protect their children.


    They make enough money to live a good life without their sons needing to help them. In this life, if their sons can live happily with their choices, that was good enough. That''s why they never meddle with their son''s choices in career, and in love.


    Even if her son chooses to be alone for the rest of his life, as long as he was happy, it doesn''t matter for her. Happiness for each person is different. You can''t push your own views on other people. Just like an almond is a healthy food, but could kill someone who is allergic to it.


    That''s why when Jian Kang Lu brought Bai Yutang to her house for the first time, she was convinced about her son''s preference, and she was happy to welcome her future son in law. She waited, and waited, but her son didn''t say anything to them.


    Lin Caihong thought maybe because her son''s partner is too young. A student! That''s why she and her husband waited until their future son in law graduated. They even helped him to practice his thesis presentation, but still no shadow of her future son in law officially introduced!


    Then she thought maybe because her future son in law was still looking for a job. They waited again, but then after Bai Yutang worked, Lin Caihong still didn''t get what she imagined to happen.


    She imagines her son holding Bai Yutang''s hand kneeling before them, trembling and sweating, asking for their blessing. Then she will act to scold them at first before they agree to accept him and Bai Yutang being together.


    But those beautiful scripts she wrote in her brain never saw the light. She scolds her timid and cowardly son in her heart. She will be 60 year old soon!


    No matter how peculiar Lin Caihong is, there''s another reason why she loves to play pranks like this other than her hobby. It was to see the other party reaction to her rejection. To see their true colour behind those smiles.


    She saw too many fake smiles in her life. Luckily her cold husband never fake anything. Their relationship started not from love, but from filial duty to their parents, and mutual respect to each other.


    But who knows her little test makes her gentle future son in law crying like this? She only ever saw someone cry like this in the drama. It aches her heart. Maybe she went too far this time. She could only apologise and pat her future son in law''s back. While patting she frowned. Why was her future son in law so skinny? Does her son didn''t feed him well???


    "Let''s eat dinner first, okay? We can talk while eating together." Lin Caihong coaxed her future son in law who was still having his eyelashes wet from the tears he shed.


    Bai Yutang usually avoids dinner with anyone because he wants to enjoy it with his lover. But he can''t reject his future mother in law. Thus he can only nod his head. Wu Yajun pressed the bell and 1 minute later the waitress came to take their order.


    They enjoy the signature date-wood roast duck. Wu Yajun ordered the typhoon shelter-style fried crabs have firm flesh and rich roe, served with mildly hot chilli and earthy garlic to heighten their sweetness. She told Bai Yutang that was her favourite dish in this restaurant. It definitely pampers your sense, but Bai Yutang''s taste buds are not working yet. His mind was still buzzing from this overload of information.


    "So, where do you meet Ah Lu for the first time?" Lin Caihong put the sliced duck on Bai Yutang''s plate.


    Bai Yutang answered truthfully. These three ladies asked him about his romance story, and teased him until his face was as red as the fried crabs with rich roe. Especially when they asked who was the one who declared their love first. How could Bai Yutang tell them that they were kissing in the bed in Boston before they confessed to each other???


    Wu Yajun teasing him with her original devilish smile, "So, is this your first relationship?"


    Bai Yutang just nodded his head. He didn''t want to ask how Wu Yajun could guess that. She laughed and turned her head to her mom. "Transfer me the money. Told you, a cute guy like him must be a pure virgin deflowered by Jian Ge."


    Bai Yutang knows even though he wants to deny Wu Yajun''s statement, his face right now clearly betrays him. He decided just to shut his mouth. How could these women talk about that? And her future mother in law even didn''t help him at all. She only laughs and teases Bai Yutang even more.


    "Ah, so Ah Lu has to take responsibility. Don''t worry, TangTang. If Ah Lu bullied you, tell auntie immediately. I''ll smack his butt for you."


    "Tch! TangTang, do you know you just made me lose 100.000 yuan? Your son is really a wolf in a sheep cloth, HongHong." Zhou Qunfei''s face is still cold. I


    At this moment Bai Yutang suspects her face was originally like that, not because she despises Bai Yutang. But maybe she really hated Bai Yutang right now for that 100.000 yuan. Who on earth bet that much for that kind of matter???


    The dinner went until near 8 pm. Bai Yutang was restless from fear will reach home later than his lover. He also hasn''t ordered dinner yet for them. Even though he is full now, eating together with his lover was one of his happiness.


    These three ladies, sensible enough to see Bai Yutang keep looking at the classic wall clock at the corner. Wu Yajun washed her mouth with the oolong tea. "Let me drive you home, TangTang."


    Bai Yutang awkwardly stands up following Wu Yajun''s gesture. He bowed a little bit to say goodbye to Lin Caihong and Zhou Qunfei. "Then i will take my leave, aunties. Thank you for today''s dinner."


    Suddenly Lin Caihong stood up and hugged him tight. She patted his back again. Her voice is soft but clear. "With all the things you have been going through, not only Ah Lu needs to take care of you right now. Our family also has the responsibility to take good care of you. From now on, don''t call me auntie anymore. Call me mother."

 Chapter 169 - The Reason

    Bai Yutang felt his body stiff from listening to Lin Caihong''s words. It was a mixed feeling between embarrassed and happy at the same time. Happy for his lover''s family accepting him in their family, and embarrassed for the responsibility part.


    What kind of responsibility? He''s a man! It was not like he could be pregnant. And most of all, he was truly embarrassed for Lin Caihong knowing about how far he and Jian Kang Lu were in their bed. Even though he didn''t admit it, he also can''t deny it.


    Lin Caihong looked at Bai Yutang''s face who was frozen yet blushing red. Ahh.. She was glad at last she had someone in her family with a face that was pleasing to tease. Even his daughter in law didn''t get easily blushed like this.


    She put her concern yet soft and understanding face then teased him some more.. "You don''t want to call me mother?"


    Bai Yutang hurriedly placate her, "No! No.. It just.."


    Lin Caihong flashes her best dignified yet expectant face, "Then.. Try to call me now. Mother."


    Bai Yutang opened his mouth and forcefully pushed his voice to utter that single word. "Mo-Mother.."


    "Mmm.." Lin Caihong satisfied and nodded her head slightly. Her soft gazing eyes clearly showed her doting on Bai Yutang, so different when she pranked Bai Yutang this afternoon. "Mom will go home first. Let JunJun take you home, and let me know once you get there. And remember, do your homework well."


    Bai Yutang puzzled, what homework? Is there any promise he unknowingly agreed when he was absentminded at the dinner?


    Zhou Qunfei''s face is indeed permanently cold and stiff. People who don''t know her well will hate her, or fear her. She softly answered Bai Yutang''s inner question while passing him. "Do some pillow talking to Ah Lu, tell him to introduce you properly to the family."


    These sentences truly make Bai Yutang''s face redder some more. Zhou Qunfei is jealous of Lin Caihong. How does she get an adorable bunny like this for her son in law? Looking at that plain honest naive face makes her want to bully Bai Yutang more and more. It was really satisfying to see him embarrassed like this. Not many people could blush easily when they were shy, and this cute little guy truly had thin skin.


    "Okay okay, let''s start to walk or else Jian Ge will skin me alive if i deliver him late." Wu Yajun''s heels tick toeing the marble floor while she dragged Bai Yutang''s arm along with her.


    Four of them walk together to the lobby and chat some more while waiting for the driver. Zhou Qunfei''s car came first and both ladies hugged him before they went inside the car. Behind it there''s a black luxury car stopped, and the driver opened the car door for Wu Yajun.


    "Get inside." She gestured to Bai Yutang to sit next to her. This solved Bai Yutang''s inner question about his seat placement. Wu Yajun didn''t tell her driver where to go, but it seems the driver has instructed previously.


    "Don''t be angry with us." Her voice is low but clear.


    "No, I''m not angry, Wu Jie."


    Wu Yajun smiled bitterly, "I know we''re cruel to you today. I apologise. I just hoped you understand why we do that."


    Before Bai Yutang stated he understood, Wu Yajun already raised her hand. "I''ve seen many relationships like this, and lots of it didn''t end well. Lucky for you that your partner is Jian Ge."


    "I understand Wu Jie."


    "No, you don''t." Wu Yajun looked at him. The car was dimmed inside, only the lights from the car and city outside created a shadow in their faces. "Tell me, why do you think auntie Lin does these kinds of things to you today?"


    Bai Yutang cleared his throat. "Auntie just wants to confirm her suspicion. And maybe she also just wants to test me whether i really like Jian Ge, or just after his money." Money is still his biggest inferiority complex toward his lover.


    Wu Yajun red lips smiled bitterly. It creates a thin line on her beautiful face. "No, you''re wrong. If only that, why would she bring us?"


    Bai Yutang truly does not suspect anything weird with Lin Caihong bringing these two ladies. After all, Zhou Qunfei was truly close with Lin Caihong.


    "Auntie wants to see your stand. If your relationship is exposed, you''ll receive many harsh words and slander, humiliated, persecuted. Auntie wants you to know that those things will happen. Before you face it in real life, auntie wants to see whether you can stand those things and still love her son, or you will back away and leave her son. She just doesn''t want to see her son pained from you leaving him because of those things. Auntie also wants to see whether you really want to be with her son, or will change your mind in the future, looking for a wife and family of your own." Wu Yajun speaks calmly.


    Wu Yajun and Jian Kang Se took their MBA in the US together. There are gay couple from their country in the class. They openly loved each other when they''re studying. But when all of them graduated and back to their own country, they both covered their relationship and last year one of them married a woman. The other was married this year.


    They both submit and admit their defeat to the society, dare not to oppose the norm and public eye. So it was very reasonable for Lin Caihong to fear her son choosing to walk the thorny path or broken hearted because her son might feel that their family won''t accept them. Or worse, left alone because his partner didn''t dare to hold his hand and walk together.


    Bai Yutang didn''t think that far. His heart was warm once again, spreading to his eyes. Once again the tears welled in the corner of his eyes. Wu Yajun was right. He was lucky that his partner was Jian Kang Lu, who was dazzling. But the luckiest part was his lover''s family also as dazzling as his lover.


    Wu Yajun''s words remind him of his experience being bullied in his last year of university life. He was tempted to tell his hardship to Wu Yajun. But he stopped himself before he slipped his tongue. This matter needs not to be exposed. He doesn''t want his lover to ever know that he once experienced those horrible things.


    "Thank you, Wu Jie." He was choked when he conveyed his gratitude.


    Wu Yajun ruffling his hair. "Told you that you''re part of the family. You''re my little brother, so tell JieJie if there''s someone who dares to bully you. I''ll make them pay back thousand fold if they dare."


    Bai Yutang said nothing for a while, rearranging the dismay heart and mind after this turbulent night. There''s still some things left bothering him.


    "Wu Jie.." He said softly. "Does auntie and uncle really didn''t mind the other people saying things about me?"


    Wu Yajun snorted, "Auntie? Thought Auntie made her clear you should call her mother."


    Bai Yutang speechless. Facing this devil queen, he learns that the fastest way to get an answer is rearrange his question to satisfy her.


    Wu Yajun ruffling his hair again. "Auntie told you, she and uncle are old now. They don''t depend on anyone else to make money. Their money now is even more than enough to live comfortably for the rest of their life. They don''t need to please everyone else. In fact, many people need to please them. Don''t worry about that. Once you hear auntie scold people she don''t like, you''ll understand."


    Somehow when Bai Yutang sees Wu Yajun''s expression when she answers him, he had bad premonition again, yet he doesn''t know why. They chat a bit more. About Bai Yutang''s work and friends. Bai Yutang also asked about her work. He remembered the last time Wu Yajun said she would be busy expanding her business.


    Most of Wu''s family business is related to outsourcing. Her company now provides cleaning service, while her father and her brother manage driver and customer service for major companies. Last time Wu Yajun and her brother planned to expand the business, providing security and bodyguards for those companies.


    Bai Yutang had to admire her reason for eagerly building this new company. It was no other than wanting to see those young men and women trained their muscles and abs, sweating under the sun. Because of this, they have an argument with their father, since their father wants to expand it into providing waiters for restaurants.


    The car stopped in the apartment''s lobby, the time already showed 9 o''clock. Jian Kang Lu usually reaches home at this hour too. Bai Yutang gets out of the car and waves goodbye to Wu Yajun.


    Before the car left, Wu Yajun reminded him to cook his lemon chicken on Sunday''s lunch. Bai Yutang nodded in agreement. Bai Yutang truly didn''t know why these rich and powerful ladies were fascinated with his lemon chicken.


    Bai Yutang called his lover once the car left. He is almost running to the elevator, wanting to reach home first before him.


    "Gege, I just reached the apartment. I''m sorry, I haven''t ordered dinner yet. What do you want to eat?"


    Jian Kang Lu was still driving and surprised to hear his kitten hurriedly speaking. He could hear the bell of the elevator rang in the background.


    "Baby, are you still in the elevator? Why don''t we eat outside today? Just wait for me in the lobby, I''ll reach there soon."


    Bai Yutang was still stepping one of his feet to the elevator before he retracted it. He smiled and went back to the lobby, waiting for his lover. They didn''t end the call and were still talking until his lover''s car arrived in the lobby.


    Bai Yutang almost ran once he saw his lover''s car. Jian Kang Lu being with his kitten everyday, smitten by him everyday. But tonight, he saw this young skinny man running towards him with his smile wide upon his handsome face, making Jian Kang Lu''s heart skip a beat again.


    It was the smile that made him fall over and over again. A smile that is pure and vibrant, but now painted with love and happiness within it. A smile which brands his heart, in that is all the love he''ll ever need.

 Chapter 170 - SuanMeiTang

    Jian Kang Lu raised his eyebrow to see her mother hugged his kitten tight once she saw them walking to the living room. He then frowned when his kitten stammered, calling her ''mother''.


    He didn''t get the meaning of her mother''s expression when she stared at him. Why does he feel there is something between his kitten and his mother? Something that he doesn''t know.


    He didn''t deny that he''s happy to see this warming scene, but he was also restless when he realised his mother kept throwing that look at him. An expression like she was waiting for something from him.


    Auntie Zhou''s family soon arrived. This led to Jian Kang Lu guarding his kitten again from the devil queen. He really can''t let this Wu Yajun to be together in one room with his kitten. How could he stand to look at this woman keep whispering something to his kitten while they were standing together in the kitchen.


    "Jian Ge, just get out from here.. Why do you stick your ass in the kitchen? Do you realise this kitchen is cramped with your presence here?" Wu Yajun harshly threw chicken bone to him.


    Jian Kang Lu dodge swiftly, "And what are you doing here? I know you just want to harass TangTang. You just want to take advantage of him when his hands are busy cooking."


    "I help him cook! I''m a woman, and the kitchen is my place. You, get out." Wu Yajun threw another bone.


    Jian Kang Lu sneer, "Oh please. At least I can still make sandwiches and boil water for instant noodles. Do I have to mention how you broke Auntie Zhou pot so many times just from boiling noodles?"


    Auntie Ming as the queen and sole ruler of the kitchen really can''t stand these two useless tall people bickering in the kitchen. She turns her body around to stare at these two useless adults. Bai Yutang could feel auntie Ming was not happy, so he opened his mouth.


    "Why don''t both of you wait outside. Here, me and auntie Ming are enough. I''ll fry this and deliver you snacks in a moment."


    Both of them didn''t say anything but also didn''t move out from the kitchen. Bai Yutang sighed, at least he can drive one of them away from here.


    "Gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu is still trying to stick to himself here, "Why do you only drive me out? Mom also doing nothing here in the kitchen? Are you girls gossiping about me, that''s why I can''t be here?"


    Lin Caihong is still buffering her nails and satisfied to look at those shiny healthy nails of her. "I''m the one who pays Auntie Ming''s salary, pays for the food, and pays for this kitchen. Of course I have the right to be here. And don''t think of yourself too high. Why would we gossip about you?"


    Bai Yutang turned his body and looked at Jian Kang Lu. Under that gaze, Jian Kang Lu raised his white flag, but he didn''t forget to drag Wu Yajun out from there also.


    Bai Yutang skilfully fry the dumplings for the snacks. Lin Caihong''s voice drifted from the table. "So, have you done your homework?"


    Bai Yutang''s hand was still doing his job although his mind was frozen for a moment. "I haven''t mom.. Sorry.. I didn''t know how to talk about this to Jian Ge.."


    "It''s okay. He''s not that dumb. He should ask you later when you guys are going back home."


    Bai Yutang looked at Auntie Ming from the corner of his eyes. He didn''t know what this woman thought. As a cook in this house who works here since his lover''s still a little kid, won''t she think their relationship is bad? Why does his mother in law openly talk like this, as if this is only a natural thing for them? Not a single trace of shame from Lin Caihong''s tone to him.


    At first, Bai Yutang thought Lin Caihong didn''t mind them opening up in front of the family. But maybe as someone who had been together with them for so long, Auntie Ming could be considered as a family member. After all, if Lin Caihong and Jian Shen agree with Bai Yutang together with her son, no other person could oppose them in this family.


    When Bai Yutang delivered the snacks to the living room, he saw Wu Yajun talking with Jian Kang Se and Fan Mingle, while his lover played outside with Jian Ming. He put the tray and asked them whether they wanted to have suanmeitang or sour plum drink.


    Suanmeitang is a traditional Chinese drink made from smoked Chinese plums. The recipe developed in the Qing dynasty. At that time, the drink was only served in the Imperial courts. Nowadays, it become one of the most popular summer drink in the communities. It was packed with intensely sweet and sour flavours, plus a tint of salty and smoky aftertastes. It soothes the throat, relieves the heat, and also improves appetite and digestion.


    The three of them nod their head vigorously. Bai Yutang smiled and wanted to walk back to the kitchen. Fan Mingle grabbed his hand and asked him, "Are you sure you can help auntie Ming alone in the kitchen? Need me to help?"


    How could Bai Yutang have the heart to tell Fan Mingle that Auntie Ming told him that except him, the other will only hinder her and didn''t really make progress when helping her in the kitchen? The most these ladies could do is only chop the vegetables or rinse the meat.


    So he just nodded his head, "It''s okay, Fan Jie. But this will be my first time making Suanmeitang, please don''t criticise me if the taste is different from what Auntie Ming usually makes."


    "Are you sure? You don''t need to help in the kitchen if you''re tired. You''re part of our family, you don''t need to always stay in the kitchen every time you come here." Fan Mingle hands still wrap Bai Yutang''s wrist.


    From her words, it seems only his lover who still has no idea what happened two days ago. Bai Yutang sighed inside, it seems he can''t delay this matter anymore. He needs to tell his lover tonight.


    He smiled and put his hand on top of Fan Mingle hand, "It''s really okay. I like to see my family enjoy what I make with my hands."


    Jian Kang Se who rarely talks suddenly snorts, "Don''t let my gege bully you. Don''t pamper him too much."


    Wu Yajun sneered at him, "Are you jealous with your gege having a young and virtuous wife?"


    "Don''t you say you need your loan approved this month for your security business to start next month?" Jian Kang Se retorted back. It seems Wu Yajun applied for the loan in the bank Jian Kang Se worked on.


    "If your bank didn''t approve it this month, I''ll just apply the loan in Mingle''s bank." Wu Yajun took one of the fried dumplings and threw her smug face back at Jian Kang Se.


    With these two starting the argument again, Fan Mingle released her hands and let Bai Yutang go back to the kitchen. She is actually happy there are younger daughters in law in this family. She didn''t need to help in the kitchen anymore since Auntie Ming declared that Bai Yutang alone was enough to help her.


    Bai Yutang actually didn''t like to be called ''wife''. He is clearly a man, better to be called husband.. But it was no use to protests regarding this small matter. It doesn''t matter for him as long as these people are willing to accept him being together with Jian Kang Lu.


    When he prepared the ingredients for the suanmeitang, Lin Caihong asked him about his work. When she heard that Bai Yutang already adapted well and didn''t need to work on Saturday anymore with the project he handled now near to wrapped up, she suddenly walked and stood near Bai Yutang.


    "I receive this invitation on Saturday, two weeks from now. I hate to come alone, Qunfei and JunJun can''t make time. Can you accompany me?" She points at her handphone screen showing the invitation.


    Bai Yutang peeked at the invitation on the screen. It seems he didn''t have anything to do on that day. So he nodded and promised he could accompany her. "Do you need Jian Ge to come also, mother?"


    Lin Caihong shook her head. "No need, just leave that brat at home. He didn''t really like this kind of event. Remember i brought him one day, thought he enjoyed it but later told me he was bored to death and said to never invite him again for this kind of event."


    Bai Yutang could only nod and soothe his mother in law, promising her he would accompany her. "Do i need to pick you up, mother? But i can''t drive.." At this moment Bai Yutang really considers taking driving lessons again. He once got his driver license years ago. But because he never drove for so long, he was not sure with his skills.


    "No need, I''ll pick you up." Lin Caihong patted his back again. Bai Yutang knew that his lover''s family had two drivers in this house. One for Jian Shen, and one for Lin Caihong. The only one who didn''t have a driver in this house is only his lover and Fan Mingle. Jian Kang Se drives himself in his private life, but for work, the bank provides him with a company car and driver.


    The Sunday dinner went well, and his lover even praised him for the suanmeitang he made. It was actually not hard to make. Only put ingredients to the pressure cook, then after filter the ingredient he only needs to boil it again with the brown sugar, then chilled in the fridge. The recipe is using auntie Ming''s recipe, it was using orange peel, osmanthus and hibiscus flower on top of the initial ingredient.


    When they drove home, his lover still didn''t ask him about him calling his lover''s parents with ''mother'' and ''father''. Once they reach the apartment and want to take a bath, Bai Yutang holds his lover''s hand and brings him to the bed.


    "Gege, i need to talk to you.."

 Chapter 171 - One Thing For Sure

    Jian Kang Lu sat in the bed, enjoying the scenery in front of him. His handsome kitten running back and forth tidying himself up, thinking his shirt is not straight enough, his hair is not slick enough, his pants are not fit enough, and goes on.


    Today is his mother''s birthday party. The original birthday was 3 days ago, and they congratulate her through the phone. While looking at his handsome kitten, Jian Kang Lu can''t help to rewind what his kitten told him one week ago. In fact, this whole week he keeps repeating the scene over and over again in his mind.


    If 5 years ago someone told him that he would live happily with a perfect man by his side, he might have told someone that they were insane. He was lonely to the point he didn''t care whether he had to live alone for the rest of his life. Life is not only about looking for your other half. Happiness is not about being with someone by your side.


    But to have it all, it truly a pinnacle of life. It will be something he holds on for the rest of his life, for he remembers he once was blessed to be this happy..


    At that time, his kitten''s face was serious and anxious, took his hand with his gentle touch, spoke to him with that soft lingering voice penetrating his heart.


    "Gege, i need to talk to you.."


    Jian Kang Lu just raised his eyebrow. He sensed what his kitten wanted to tell him. He intends to ask his kitten later when they lay in bed, ready to sleep. Talk to him while holding him in his arms, make sure his man is protected, safe and sound, and never fear anything with him by his side. But as always, his kitten surprised him again and again.


    His kitten took a deep breath, and told him about how his mother asked to meet with his kitten and asked about their relationship. Once Jian Kang Lu heard this, he tightened his grip unconsciously. He relaxed his grip at once when his kitten grimaced, pained from it.


    "Sorry TangTang.. Come here." Jian Kang Lu grabbed his kitten''s waist and scooped him, making him sit on his lap. His kitten laid his head on his shoulder and continued his story.


    Jian Kang Lu knows his family is not stupid, but he waited for them ask him. He miscalculated that his mother would be looking for confirmation from his kitten. This is not what he expects from his parent''s personality.


    Looking at how his kitten called them mother and father, the result should not be bad. But he still can''t calm himself until he listens to the whole story.


    Bai Yutang skipped the part about how those three women scolded him until he kneeled and cried. He only told  his lover that Lin Caihong was looking for him, asked him, and he answered truthfully. He also told his lover that they expect his lover to tell them by himself.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t suspect anything from Bai Yutang''s white lie. The only thing that was missed from his plan is his mother looking for his kitten alone. No matter what, he felt that he failed to protect his kitten. How if his kitten was frightened at that time and told his parents that they were nothing but friends? It will be the biggest flaw of his plan to integrate his kitten to his family.


    But the biggest surprise that made his heart beating faster was to know his kitten didn''t deny their relationship in front of his mother. For the first time in his life, Jian Kang Lu who always becomes someone who protects, knows how it feels to be protected. Shielded. Supported. He can''t describe how it feels.


    It''s like a person holding an umbrella on a cold rainy night, lights a candle in the darkest room, and finds a road path when lost in the woods.


    "Thank you, baby.. Thank you.." Jian Kang Lu brings the slender hands he still holds at the moment, caresses those beautiful fingers and raises it to his lips. Kissed it with utmost faith softly.


    ''Thank you for being brave. Thank you for acknowledging me. Thank you for trusting me. Thank you for standing with me. Thank you, for giving me a chance to be with you.''


    All those gratitude flow from the deepest of his heart, unstoppable. He didn''t say it out loud, but he knows his kitten knows what he thanks him the most.


    ''Thank you, for loving me.''


    They make love for the rest of that night. Not many words said in the process. It was like their body just spoke for themselves. For them to show their love to Jian Kang Lu''s family, it was like one hard step passed easily. Just like you found the hidden way on the way to conquer the hard level of the game. It was a cheat, but it was a lovely cheat.


    The sound of their entwined body, the slick of sweat and body fluid all over them, the interrupted moans and groans, the humid of summer night, the heat of their movement, all of it stroke their five senses. Heightened the pleasure. Bring them to the climax over and over again, until they can''t continue furthermore.


    It was not only lust. It was celebration, liberation.


    Waves of pleasure drifting them in the sea. Jian Kang Lu didn''t plan to stop, neither did his kitten ask him to stop. Only until they couldn''t shoot no more and Bai Yutang fell asleep below him, then Jian Kang Lu stopped. This day is one of the days he won''t forget for the rest of his life.


    "Gege, come. No matter what I wear, I still look the same." His kitten tugged his sleeve and brought him back to the present.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, he stood and kissed that smooth forehead. "I told you, you look handsome no matter what you wear."


    "You''re the only one that blind. The other is not." His kitten pouted and dragged him out of this bedroom. They will be late if they don''t go out soon.


    "Do you need to be handsome in front of anyone else?" Jian Kang Lu embraced his kitten from the back, took a deep breath and faintly smelled the light perfume his kitten sprayed on the shirt.


    "Yes. And stop doing that! You''ll wrinkle my suit.." Bai Yutang really wanted to stomp at his lover''s feet. He steamed this suit over and over again to make sure it was perfect. He knows he will meet his lover''s big family today. Even though he was not handsome and definitely did not belong to the match from heaven category with his lover, at least he wanted to look proper and never give a chance for someone to look down on him.


    And what is this? He could feel his lover''s shaft in his butt! It was grinding on his butt, pressing it tightly as if it wanted to tore his pants and get inside. He wriggles his way out from this shameful act of his lover and turns his head. He was helpless to see his lover didn''t even shamed from this indecent act.


    "Gege! Put it down! How can we walk outside with that thing bulging from your pants!"


    "Only you who can put it down."


    "We''re going to be late!" Bai Yutang really can''t believe this handsome and elegant man could be this shameless. It is true what they say, the more people look like gentlemen, the more vicious they are inside. His lover is truly a perfect example of a wolf disguised in a sheep skin.


    "Then we''ll go like this. I don''t mind people seeing it. By today they will know who makes me hard all day long."


    Bai Yutang gnash his teeth and carefully put off his suit in the chair. "Sit down. I don''t want to crumple my shirt. And you better cum soon!"


    "It depends on your sincerity, and your skill." Jian Kang Lu sat down on the dining chair and smiled at his kitten who started to kneel and put his hardened cock in that lovely mouth. That unwilling face, combined with a hint of anger, truly magnificence. That pair of beautiful phoenix eyes glare at him resentfully.


    Jian Kang Lu raised his hand to grab his kitten''s head, making him go faster. But his kitten slapped his hand. "Don''t touch my hair!" The words are not clearly pronounced since his kitten''s mouth is fully filled with his cock.


    Bai Yutang cursed inside and prayed for his lover cumming soon. His lover usually makes his jaw numbed first before shooting from his blowjob.


    "Looking at your attitude right now, it means you''ll swallow all of my sperm. Right, baby?"


    Bai Yutang knows this is his lover''s grudge for him rejecting his lover''s naughty hand last night. He was dragged out to the birthday venue last night and so tired when he came home. Bai Yutang didn''t answer and just increased his speed while sucking at his lover''s sensitive spot. His tongue skilfully pressed and glided on the hard shaft.


    He felt if he didn''t finish this soon, then he will be the one who is fully aroused. If that happened, he won''t be able to control his desire and surrender to let his lover fuck him all the way like he wants. By then, they surely will be late and his clothes he carefully steamed will be ruined.


    Jian Kang Lu amused, between the increased pleasure and seeing his kitten''s ear reddened. He decide not to torture his kitten anymore. He just grabbed his kitten''s shoulder and thrust his member faster to that warm mouth. After dozens of powerful thrusts, he shot his cum inside his kitten''s mouth. He was satisfied to see his kitten tightened his lips around it, preventing his cum from flowing out. It seems his kitten truly appreciates this suit he gifted to his kitten for their anniversary.


    "Good boy.. I''m so lucky to have an understanding and handsome boyfriend like you, baby." Jian Kang lu rubbed his kitten''s smooth chin and cheek.


    Bai Yutang glare and swallow the musky thick liquid. Not until he was sure that not even a drop spilled out then he slowly released his lover''s cock from his mouth.


    It seems what people say was true. Even if you have been with someone for a long time, even if you are already married and have dozens of children, sometimes you will never be sure and understand what your partner''s true colour is.


    At least, there''s one thing for sure. They both deeply love each other.

 Chapter 172 - Thank You For The Blessing

    Bai Yutang anxiously looked at the road ahead. This is Sunday noon, the traffic in B city is not as bad as working days. But still there are some spots in the road that hinder their smooth ride.


    The hotel where Lin Caihong''s 60th birthday was held was a resort located on the edge of the city, with a wide garden and clean air. That''s why it will take them one to two hour reach there. Bai Yutang wanted to be there earlier to check the party preparation. Even though they use a party planner and organiser, it will be good if they still check it first.


    Jian Kang Lu and Jian Kang Se are too busy to be involved, they only know how to split payment for the party fund. Fan Mingle is also busy, not mentioning she was a successful career woman with one son who will start his second year of elementary school. Jian Shen is hopeless to help, and it will be rude to expect the birthday girl taking care of her own party. Thus Bai Yutang felt it was his responsibility, whether his lover''s family acknowledged him or not, as a youngest adult in this circle, he should take care the most of this party.


    "Gege... We''ll be late." Bai Yutang blankly stares at the packed road ahead. He planned to reach there before 3.30 o''clock, and was already 3.00. He didn''t think that they would reach there soon.


    Jian Kang Lu felt guilty though he didn''t understand why his kitten wanted to reach there sooner. The invitation was 4.30, they still had plenty of time. But it seems his kitten will scratch him now if he dares to say that.


    "I''m sorry, baby. I''ll try to drive faster, okay?"


    Bai Yutang wanted to sneer, how could his lover drive faster with this kind of traffic. But he says nothing, trying to keep his calm demeanour. It was useless to start arguing about it, there''s nothing he can do.


    Finally they reach the resort at 3.45. Bai Yutang hurriedly ran to the venue. He already called the organizer before they reached the resort. Once there he hurriedly checks all the preparation and matches it with their previous demand.


    Looking at his kitten busy running back and forth, Jian Kang Lu really wants to grab him and tell him they only need to relax. In Jian family, their rules are we''ll pay but we demand our money worth it. So it doesn''t matter if it was a little bit expensive, but the result needs to match the expectation.


    In Jian family rules, once they state their needs and pay, if the result was not satisfying then they will talk about that later. Either cut the payment, or won''t use their service ever again. In Jian Kang Lu and Jian Kang Se''s mind, why do they use a party planner if they still need to take care of it?


    But Jian Kang Lu held his tongue, it seems his kitten will kick him out of their bedroom if he dare to say that to him. If his kitten wants to do this, then let him be. He won''t dwell too much on his kitten''s matter.


    Some of Jian Kang Lu''s family have stayed in this resort since yesterday, including his parents and Jian Kang Se. Jian Kang Lu chose not to stay to avoid his big family bothering his kitten. Even though his parents stated they will accept his kitten, not everyone in his big family will say the same. Better to minimise the contact or else his kitten will be hurt.


    Jian Kang Lu called his father to let them know that they were here. "Dad, i''m here. Which room do you stay in? I need to talk to you for a second."


    Jian Shen told him their room number. Jian Kang Lu watched his kitten for a moment, let him run for a while before he approached him.


    Bai Yutang was still talking to the party planner about the light and dinner sequence when he felt a familiar arms circling his waist.


    "Baby, let''s go to my parent''s room for a while."


    Bai Yutang startled, his ear reddened. The party planner is professional, her face and gesture didn''t show any changes from his lover''s act. "I''ll talk to you later Ms. Xu." He hid his embarrassment. Is it necessary for his lover to do this kind of thing?


    On the other hand, Jian Kang Lu is truly happy. This is the first day he could openly show that this man belongs to him. Who knows what these people dare to think when they see his handsome kitten? Especially this single young Ms.Xu who often meet with his kitten lately.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t retract his hand from his kitten''s waist all the way until they reached his parent''s room. Jian Shen was the one who opened the room for them. Inside the luxurious room with garden view and beautiful balcony, Lin Caihong was sitting in the sofa chair. There are 3 other people inside, do her make up and her hair.


    "Dad, mom, thank you." Jian Kang Lu''s hand still on his kitten''s waist. Bai Yutang already tried to escape from his lover''s clutch since Jian Shen opened the door, but his lover tightened his grip and won''t let him slip away.


    Bai Yutang was speechless. Is this his lover''s way to tell his parents that they were a couple? No words? Only do public display affection like this? Even the normal couple was not this shameless in front of their parents. Bai Yutang could feel his face heated from his embarrassment.


    Lin Caihong still closed her eyes, letting the makeup artist sweep the colour powder to her lid. She peeked a little bit, and saw his son pestering his future son in law.


    "You rascal, let TangTang sit here. Don''t torture him."


    "Ah, I haven''t introduced him yet you already took him as your son in law, forgetting your own son." Jian Kang Lu brought his kitten to sit on the sofa near his mother.


    Bai Yutang was speechless. He noticed the face of the girl who did his mother in law''s hair was changing slightly. She can''t help but peek at both of him and his lover. His lover''s choice of words are¡­


    Jian Kang Lu sits next to his kitten, "Why are you rushing TangTang mom? Why don''t you ask me? I''ll answer if you ask me. No need to pester you son in law."


    Lin Caihong snorted, "Why should i ask you? You''re the one who should tell us. Why don''t you say it the first time you bring TangTang to our house? Scared?"


    "I admit that was my mistake. I just want you and TangTang to know each other first. I want you to know how great he is before I ask for your blessing."


    Lin Caihong wanted to open her lips again, but the makeup artist cut her, since she was applying the eyeliner and her lashes. If she keeps talking, the line will crooked.


    Jian Shen offers Bai Yutang a drink which he gladly accepts. This tension in this room makes him sweat.


    Jian Shen''s majestic voice replaced his wife''s opinion, "We know TangTang for more than half a year yet you still say nothing. We don''t remember raising you to be a coward. I remember I always taught you about the higher risk, higher achievement, and the guts to place your bet." As a person who plays with stocks and financial matters everyday, Jian Shen always taught his sons about the risk and benefit.


    "Yes I know, I guess I''m just not ready if you reject our relationship and have to lose TangTang as a result. You''re the one who taught me not to blindly place my bet based on hunch. Observe, analyse, execute, that''s what you taught me. I apologise, and I thank you dad, for your understanding." Jian Kang Lu calmly answered his father.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know if it was wise to talk about this in front of these make up artists. He was nervous now, his hands sweating. But the people involved didn''t mind at all to speak openly like this. He tries to calm himself.


    Lin Caihong snorted, it made her makeup artist want to scream since the lines she carefully drew were crooked a bit and she needed to revise it.


    "Our analysis is better. The fastest way to reach better benefits is to approach TangTang directly. Look, you come to us immediately."


    "Yes, I admit it. That''s why I became a doctor and not jump on trading matters following dad''s step. Thank you, mom." Jian Kang Lu shamelessly took his kitten''s bottle and drank the water inside.


    "TangTang, remember to tell me if this rascal bully you. Don''t always indulge him, he''s not deserve to get pampered too much." Lin Caihong once again makes the make up artist scream internally.


    "Gege is always good to me, mom. I also thank you.. Thank you.." Bai Yutang can''t continue his words. In the middle of his indescribable mood from this conversation, he knows exactly what his lover''s parents do for them.


    It was not easy to accept your son love another man. In this country, men still need sons to ensure the family line. Maybe because Jian Kang Se has Jian Ming already thus they don''t mind. But no matter what, they provide protection and unconditional love to Jian Kang Lu and him.


    "You''re not thanking me?" Jian Shen didn''t smile, but Bai Yutang knew it was not a malicious question. He stood up. He bowed to Jian Shen, then to Lin Caihong, "I thank you both, father, mother. I will treat and love you as my own parent. I will never forget this kindness you gave to me until the day I die. And i will do my best to take care of your son."


    This is the line Bai Yutang prepared one week ago. Before, he was prepared for the worst, he feared for his lover''s parent rejection. He once steeled his nerves, prepared to fight for their love for a long time. But who can predict that not only they accept him, they even held their hands out to him first. It was the greatest act of kindness he ever receive from Jian Kang Lu''s parent.


    The three people in this room were stunned. Jian Kang Lu stood up after recovering from his shock. His kitten always surprised him again and again. He put his hands in his kitten''s shoulder. "It was me who should convey my gratitude properly. I can only ask for your blessing, father, mother. And I will assure you that I will be responsible for all my decisions."


    Lin Caihong snorted again, the make up artist had given up and just fixed whatever she could fix, "TangTang is so young, yet much more sensible than you. Because of him, I give my blessing. Don''t bully him all the time."


    Bai Yutang felt his eyes warmed and he held his tears back. It was good to be loved. It was good to be acknowledged. And it was so good to be protected, embraced in open arms, for his lover''s family accepted him for who he was. Unconditionally.

 Chapter 173 - This Is My Boyfriend

    Jian Kang Lu walked out from his parent''s room with his kitten in his arms. His kitten wants to be at the venue just to make sure everything is smooth when the guests start to come. Suddenly his kitten stopped walking. His face looks furious when Jian Kang Lu turns his head, confused why his kitten suddenly stops.


    "Gege, stop it!"


    Jian Kang Lu raised his eyebrow. What did he do wrong this time?


    "Stop stroking my waist and my butt." Bai Yutang whispered and hissed. His ear was already red from his lover''s indecent hand. He was already embarrassed with his lover''s hand kept in his waist, and now his lover''s thumb started to move repeatedly stroking his waist and going down to his butt. Lucky this aisle is empty now. But who could guarantee someone was not behind them?


    Jian Kang Lu felt wronged.. He swears he didn''t do that! At least not consciously. Reluctantly he just withdrew his hands from that slim waist, and had to be satisfied with holding his kitten''s hands only.


    Jian Kang Lu''s happy and elated mood deflated a little bit when he walked to the resort''s garden. He took a deep breath. It''s okay, he still has many years ahead to raise his shy kitten into a thick skin one. At that time, he will reap the fruit from his hard work. Step by step. At least his kitten now didn''t mind walking hand in hand in a crowd.


    Some of the guests arrived in the venue when they went upstairs. They were Jian Kang Lu''s relatives who stay in this resort too. The children aged 3 to 10 were running in the yard while the parents stayed under the shade, enjoying the summer wind with green grass ahead. Scent of flowers decorating this yard softly trickling their nose. The weather is perfect to have a garden party.


    Jian Kang Lu rarely attends his big family gathering due to his hectic and busy life in medical school and hospital. He knows these people are his distant relatives from his mother''s family, but he didn''t remember their names.


    "Ah Lu!" One of the uncles who sat at the round table waved his hand, call for him.


    Jian Kang Lu put on one of his polite smiles, walking to the table. He noticed his kitten''s warm hand turn sticky. It seems his kitten is really nervous. He tightens his grip to assure his kitten that everything''s going to be alright.


    "Uncle Lin. How are you?" Jian Kang Lu politely greet. He didn''t remember this uncle''s name, but his surname must be Lin, just like his mother. This uncle Lin sat with his wife. His daughter, Jian Kang Lu''s cousin, also sat there with her husband. If Jian Kang Lu''s memory is correct, this Uncle Lin must be his mother''s cousin.


    "Good good. Last time I saw you was on New Year''s. How are you?" Actually, the only time all families will definitely meet Jian Kang Lu is on new year.


    Bai Yutang could feel all the eyes in this table stare at him and at his hands, which were tightly wrapped by his lover''s big hand. He knew he had prepared himself for this. But the actual tense is still different from what he imagined.


    After a few words politely thrown for the sake of courtesy, finally someone can''t hold their curiosity anymore. Jian Kang Lu''s cousin asked with a smile, "Jian Ge, who is this? I never saw him before."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled back, "Ah yes, my bad. Let me introduce you, this is Bai Yutang, my boyfriend."


    The shock in their faces truly marvellous if the videographer comes to this table right now to document this birthday party. The sound of a spoon in Jian Kang Lu''s cousin fell to the plate and broke the silence.


    Bai Yutang loses his hand from his lover''s grip and introduces himself politely to this poor first family who receive a big blow in this lovely afternoon.


    The reason why Jian Kang Lu didn''t introduce his kitten at the first time he came here was simply because he didn''t remember their actual name. This way, they will be forced to state their name to his kitten by themselves.


    Uncle Lin''s family was still in shock. What can they say at this moment? Even to put a facade of polite chit chat is impossible. Boyfriend? Boyfriend??? So is this the reason why this eldest son of Lin Caihong has not married yet until now? This boyfriend of his looks so young. Does Lin Caihong know that his son is a cutsleeve?


    Jian Kang Lu spare the torture and politely excuse themselves, let his kitten running to that young Miss Xu again. He felt safe because he had already marked his kitten previously. At least that will guard his kitten against whatever these young single ladies will think of him. Prevent them from making moves to his kitten like that pretty Feng Mian.


    Jian Kang Lu could feel his family drill their gaze on his back. They must gossip about him right now. Soon the other guests come too. When Jian Kang Lu saw Lin Caiwei, her mother''s younger sister, he dragged his kitten to greet her.


    "Hello Auntie, how are you?"


    "Ah Lu! Great great. The traffic is not that bad today." Lin Caiwei is still pretty in her age. Even though she was always pretty at any age, it didn''t prevent her husband from looking for younger mistresses. Today she came with her son and daughter in law. Jian Kang Lu didn''t see his uncle. They might have come separately, like usual.


    "Yes, we left early so the traffic was still okay. Auntie, let me introduce you to my boyfriend. This is Bai Yutang. TangTang, this is my mother''s sister, Lin Caiwei." Jian Kang Lu also introduced his kitten to his cousin and his wife. Their face also shows they were not ready for this news, but compared to Uncle Lin''s family, they adapt faster.


    Bai Yutang politely introduced himself. Lin Caiwei didn''t show a pleasant face, but she also didn''t show hostility toward him.


    "Your boyfriend? Does your mom know?" Lin Caiwei asked, she didn''t look at Bai Yutang anymore. Instead, her sharp eyes looked at Jian Kang Lu.


    "Of course. How could i introduce him to you before asking for my mom''s blessing, auntie?"


    There''s a moment of silence after Jian Kang Lu answers that. His cousin recovered faster, he smiled and asked Bai Yutang. "How old are you? You looked so young."


    Bai Yutang answered before his lover answered him. Even though Jian Kang Lu''s cousin is smiling, his tone is not friendly. "I''m 24 years old, Mr. Huang."


    "Where do you work? Or still studying?"


    "I''m lucky I managed to get a job recently at one of the architecture firm in this city, Mr. Huang." Bai Yutang deliberately didn''t mention the firm''s name.


    Jian Kang Lu was unhappy to see his kitten drilled by these questions. He put his hand on his kitten''s shoulder. "Renjun, how''s your business? If I didn''t mistaken, last time I heard you wanted to supply stationery to Hongjia''s company. Does my introductory last time work for you?"


    Jian Kang Lu could see the slight change in Huang Renjun and Lin Caiwei''s eyes. Huang Renjun still smiled, but his face was stiff and didn''t question Bai Yutang anymore. Huang Renjun''s wife tries to save this tense atmosphere. She knows Sun Hongjia will listen to Jian Kang Lu. They just manage to secure the contract for one year. If Jian Kang Lu says bad things about them to Sun Hongjia, their contract for next year might not be prolonged.


    "Bai Yutang, right? You''re the first person Jian Ge introduced to us. Where do you come from? B city?" She smiled sweetly.


    "I came from W city, Mrs. Hong. But I am studying here and living here now."


    "Oh, I came from S city. Where are you studying? Which faculty?"


    "I graduate from T university, architecture."


    They all know T university is prestigious, Jian Kang Lu''s alma mater too. As expected, it''s impossible for this family to openly accept this young man as Jian Kang Lu''s partner if he is just a simple young man. Maybe his family background is also big, not someone they could offend.


    Lin Caiwei''s husband is also a rich, successful businessman. Their money is on par with Jian Shen''s family. In business, they know how to tactfully retreat. Better be safe rather than offend someone you can''t offend. The consequences will be bad if this young man turns to be a wealthy heir of a big group.


    Jian Kang Lu excuses himself to greet other guests. One by one, he introduced his kitten to this crowd. He could sense all of them looking at his kitten, probably talking on his back. It''s been a long time since he felt this kind of thing. It''s a mixed feeling of happiness and discomfort. He knows his kitten must feel the same.


    Jian Kang Lu brings his kitten to sit at their table, the table designed for the main family member of the birthday girl. He called the waiter to order mild wine. He poured half a glass to his kitten. "Drink a bit, baby. Your face looked tired and a bit red."


    "Gege, is this okay for you?" His kitten whispered in a soft tone after he sipped the wine. It''s still the same soft voice he adored since the first time he met his kitten. Cotton soft, clear like a summer blue sky.


    "It''s me who should ask you, are you comfortable? I''m sorry if i put you in this bizarre spotlight." Jian Kang Lu raised his hand to tidying his kitten''s hair who fell to his white temples. He could feel slight damp skin from his kitten''s sweat.


    Bai Yutang''s lips curved upwards, forming a gentle smile. "I''m okay, gege. Thank you."


    ''Thank you for being with me. Thank you for being proud of me. Thank you for standing by me.''

 Chapter 174 - Poor Little Lamb

    Jian Kang Se''s mouth twitched to see this massive public display affection done by his older brother. When he walked to their table, planned to sit there first to drink some wine before going to the battle to greet their relatives, what he saw was his older brother smiling so bright, his smile stretched from ear to ear. His brother''s hand touched and caressed Bai Yutang''s hair and cheek with a look of a man drunk in love. In his brother''s age, it was embarrassing to show this kind of intimate act in public.


    His wife, Fan Mingle, chuckled to see what he saw. She seems to understand what''s on his mind. Her slender hands pat his back. "Try to understand your Ge. This is the first time he has someone in his life."


    Jian Kang Se looked at his wife, "You''re not there when he had so many girlfriends. This clearly is not his first time in a relationship."


    Fan Mingle smiles, her eyes bright and warm.. "Yes, but not a serious and mutual relationship. The one who gives and takes equally." Her soft and gentle voice soothes Jian Kang Se. But he still humped and snorted, "He didn''t even see Yutang''s face clearly stressed out."


    Jian Kang Se walks and sits next to Bai Yutang. "Stop bothering him, Ge. Look around you, everybody looking at you."


    Bai Yutang is really ashamed. He knew everyone seemed to be looking at him, a big possibility they talked about him too. He shifted slightly to avoid his lover''s hand who seemed to have a magnetic pole to his body.


    Jian Kang Lu frowned, "Of course they are looking at us. I just introduced my boyfriend to all our relatives here. Now they must be talking about how lucky i am to have a young and handsome boyfriend at my age."


    Jian Kang Se could only facepalm his brother. He took the wine and poured it to his own glass. It is better to give his brother silent treatment. He knew exactly how poisonous and how shameless his brother''s true colour behind that elegant and gentle facade.


    Fan Mingle chuckled, "So finally you properly introduce him? But I didn''t remember you introducing TangTang as your boyfriend to me yet, gege. How come you give other people that privilege before us?"


    "In seniority, TangTang should be your senior, sister in law. So don''t pretend you didn''t know about us."


    Jian Kang Se cut his older brother, "But you''re not married yet. And still we need proper introduction."


    Bai Yutang holds his lover''s hand, preventing his lover from bullying this couple. He glared to shut his lover''s mouth. He then turned and stood up, slightly bowing to his future brother in law. "It was my bad, Ge. I haven''t introduced myself properly, and I apologised for that. I hope you could forgive me."


    Jian Kang Se''s hand pulled Bai Yutang back to sit. "Why do you need to apologise? This should be my brother''s fault. Don''t pamper him too much, and don''t let him bully you. Tell us if he bullies you."


    Fan Mingle laughed, this is not the first time he saw his brother in law who always has arguments to shut his husband, being silent and docile after Bai Yutang glared at him. "This is exactly your fault, TangTang. You haven''t educated my brother in law well."


    Bai Yutang''s face is red, he doesn''t want his lover''s family to think he was too overbearing or controlling his lover. "T-this.. I should be the one who is educated by him. Please teach me too, Fan Jie."


    "Don''t bully my TangTang." Jian Kang Lu wrapped his hand around his kitten''s body, and put his chin on Bai Yutang''s shoulder.


    Jian Kang Se snorted and was happy to see Bai Yutang firmly grasp his older brother''s hand and shove his body away. He could hear Bai Yutang softly whisper with an angry tone to his shameless brother.


    "Be careful, Ge. Behave, or else you will lose your boyfriend on the first day you properly introduce him to us."


    Jian Kang Lu abruptly throws the napkins to Jian Kang Se, "Do you curse me?? Never talk that way to us."


    Bai Yutang could see his lover''s mood suddenly down. He feels guilty since they once break up because of his selfishness. He holds his lover''s hand and tries to divert his lover''s attention back to him. His hand also caresses his lover''s thighs. It always works. His lover''s face back to the usual gentle face.


    "Sorry, just too excited. I thank you both for receiving us with open arms. I think I just got too sensitive if someone told me that TangTang will leave me." Jian Kang Lu knew he was losing his manner.


    Jian Kang Se never saw his brother being in a serious relationship before, so he was taken aback at first. Even though his face didn''t show any changes at all, he sensed his brother really over sensitive regarding this matter. "Then treat him well, don''t always bully him."


    Bai Yutang is a little bit confused. Why does his lover''s family always think that his lover is bullying him? Does his attitude display a bullied one because he cooks for his lover? Bai Yutang thinks he needs to be straight about this matter.


    "Jian Ge never bullies me, he always takes care of me."


    Fan Mingle laughed to see this pure little lamb. She could understand why Jian Kang Lu loves this man so much.


    Jian Kang Se also looked at Bai Yutang with pity. He then looked at his older brother again, and at Bai Yutang again. Maybe because this little lamb was so young, he didn''t even realise he was bullied by his older brother.


    All his life, Jian Kang Se knew very well how annoying it was to have a brother like Jian Kang Lu. Only in university he didn''t live under Jian Kang Lu''s shadow. And what makes him upset is that teachers and adults, except his parents, always think Jian Kang Lu is a very gentle and kind man.


    It was true his brother is kind, but his brother also has skills to turn every argument favor him. It was a blessing to humanity that this man didn''t choose to be a lawyer or businessman, and choose to be a doctor instead. His older brother always wins arguments against anyone, and it sucks. The worst part is, most of his argument is right, that''s why it was indisputable.


    And this pure little lamb even didn''t realise his older brother was bullying him. For example the scene just now. His older brother doesn''t have to drop the bomb now, it could wait until next new year. Slowly prepare their relatives.


    Now nott only his older brother dropped the bomb, but also when everyone stared at them, his older brother should behave and sit properly. Not too close yet polite. But what does his older brother do? He hugs and caresses Bai Yutang in front of everyone. What is this called if not bullying?


    But Jian Kang Se was too lazy to refute his brother again. He always loses in argument with him. If someone had to be responsible for shaping Jian Kang Se''s personality into a stoic man, Jian Kang Se will immediately point his finger to Jian Kang Lu.


    They talk some more and disperse themselves to talk to the guests. Jian Kang Se''s headache a little bit to be bombarded with questions from their relatives regarding his older brother.


    "Ah Se, is this true?"


    "Ah Se, does your mother know about this?"


    "Ah Se, can''t you talk to your brother?"


    "Ah Se, how could your brother do this to your parents? Oh.. Poor Lin Caihong."


    "Ah Se, so did your brother intend not to get married at all?"


    "Ah Se, how about children? Does your brother plan to adopt or surrogate?"


    All these questions keep going. He only tries to lift his mouth a little bit, but his words are too few. Fan Mingle was the one who kept answering these questions. As the head of HR, her tongue is more eloquent than him. In his job, he didn''t need to say much. Only playing with numbers and showing the results.


    Lin Caihong and Jian Shen already arrived and were bombarded with the same questions. She answers them one by one with smiles and laughter. She didn''t mind these people forgetting to say happy birthday or congratulate her. They prepare for this.


    "Yes this is true."


    "Yes, Ah Lu told us and asked for our blessing."


    "No, it doesn''t matter. As long as Ah Lu is happy, we''re happy too."


    "Married? I didn''t know. It''s all in their hands. If they want to get married, I''ll make sure you''re invited."


    "Children? It''s up to them. But TangTang is still too young."


    "TangTang is a good child, we love him. That''s why we gave our blessing."


    Jian Kang Lu''s friend also comes, along with Jian Shen''s golf and business partners. They congratulate the birthday girls. They sense the atmosphere was quite tense. Is it because the summer weather is too hot this afternoon? But they feel the weather is perfect.


    Jian Kang Lu''s friend notices what''s different and what might make this atmosphere quite strange. They saw Jian Kang Lu''s hand keep molesting Bai Yutang all the time.


    "Quit molesting my TangTang, Jian Ge. Please behave yourself." Luo Jiao gives Jian Kang Lu a disapproving face. Zhen Guo, who stood beside her, gave Jian Kang Lu a glass of wine and let his wife separate this mandarin duck. Luo Jiao dragged Bai Yutang to the others, preventing Jian Kang Lu monopolising Bai Yutang.


    "So, you''re coming out to your family?" Sun Hongjia appeared behind Jian Kang Lu. Luo Yan also walked towards them. It was the question they all wanted to hear the answer from their friend who showed a smug face, like someone who just won a 1 billion dollar lottery.

 Chapter 175 - What Is Your Plan For The Future

    Jian Kang Lu looked at his kitten''s back who was surrounded by those women. Wu Yajun also joined them. For once Jian Kang Lu felt magnanimous and let Wu Yajun tidying his kitten''s hair. He smiled to see his kitten''s face flustered from these ladies teasing, and happy to see his kitten''s laugh at Song Lixia''s comment, though he doesn''t know what they talk about.


    "Yes, I introduced TangTang to my whole family today." Jian Kang Lu responded to Sun Hongjia''s comment. His hand leisurely held the wine while the other slipped in his pocket. His eyes still glued to Bai Yutang, before his smile changed into that friendly smile, facing his friends.


    At this moment, those three men felt this friend of them is really extreme if it involved Bai Yutang. Jian Kang Lu drunk''s style was different when he drank because of Bai Yutang. Jian Kang Lu who used to be the object of jealousy now can''t even hold his dignity and keep checking on Bai Yutang. And now, instead of introducing Bai Yutang slowly to his family like every normal person does, he chose today to introduce Bai Yutang to his whole big family.


    Luo Yan''s mouth twitch, looking at the living proof that someone really could turn into an idiot when they fall in love. "You''re lucky your partner is Bai Yutang. If it was someone else, they would run away, scared of you." Even Luo Yan and Song Lixia as heterosexual couple take the steps slowly.


    Jian Kang Lu toast the wine in Luo Yan''s hand. "Because he''s Bai Yutang, thus i dare to introduce him to my whole family."


    Sun Hongjia waved his hand to the waiter, asking for more wine."Yeah, i think he is too kind for you. I almost never saw he''s angry or upset. Let''s have karaoke together next week, it''s been two months since we last gathered together."


    Bai Yutang managed to run away from those women''s pestering. His face is red from Wu Yajun and Xie Lihua''s pinching. He slipped under the pretence of signalling the party planner to start the event.


    The band who play soft jazz change the tune, then the MC gets into the stage. After a few minutes of introduction and jokes, the dancer comes in. Lin Caihong likes art, thus on her birthday there will be performances from traditional dance, martial art dance, modern dance, and mini opera. The birthday girl herself sits at the main family table.


    The food starts to flow seamlessly, delivered by the waiter using a light green apron as their uniform. The apron had Lin Caihong''s name in the corner, differentiate them with the hotel''s waiter. The main dishes will be served after the toast, but the appetiser won''t fail the guest''s expectation.


    The spring rolls, the seaweed salad, the abalone soup, the endless variety of mini dimsum filled the tables. Bai Yutang focused on the waiter''s movement and he was satisfied. They had planned for the waiter movement to also synchronise with the songs played on stage. In result, the whole dinner itself will also be the future.


    After the martial art dance, the MC invites the family to be on stage, giving some speeches from each member to celebrate the most important woman in the family, while the white screen behind them shows the glimpse of Lin Caihong''s life for 60 years.


    First person to speak is Jian Kang Lu as the eldest. "Mom, happy birthday. It will be cliche if i say that you''re the best mother a man could have, but it''s the fact. Even though you often starve us when Auntie Ming goes on vacation, you never neglect our feelings, our choices, let us live our own life. You believe in us, never push us in one direction, but pull us back when we are led astray. You''re the general in this family, our queen, our goddess. You turn 60 year old this year. Lots of your wisdom that I still learn to cultivate, and I still regard you as my idol. I know you''re the best mother in this world, and I''m sorry I still can''t be the best son. I even feel sorry for you, on your birthday you give me the best gift in my life instead of me giving you. Thank you mom for loving us, and hope you are still satisfied with having me as your son."


    Jian Kang Lu hugged and kissed his mother. The audience''s clapping hands even though Lin Caihong''s big family face showing mixed emotion. They could guess what Jian Kang Lu talking about is connected with the fact that this eldest son of Lin Caihong is a cutsleeve.


    Next is Jian Kang Se''s turn. He just raises his glass, invite the audience to toast for his mother. "For my mother''s health and wealth. May she always get the happiness she deserved, and the prosperity from the hard work of the men in the family."


    Lin Caihong laughed and toasted to the audience after kissing his son. The MC then gave the microphone to Fan Mingle, who said her memorised line of auspicious words. She also raised another glass to Lin Caihong.


    The MC then gave the microphone to Jian Shen. Jian Shen didn''t talk, he gave the microphone to Bai Yutang instead. Bai Yutang is in the middle of thinking how to get his lover''s hand to leave his waist. They''re standing on the stage, lots of people looking at them.


    When Jian Shen gave the microphone to him, it was too late for Bai Yutang to do anything. Despite his intention to stay low key, now all the eyes are staring at him, with Jian Kang Lu sticking to him like an octopus.


    He didn''t prepare any speech. This is out of the plan. He was not supposed to be on stage. Bai Yutang was never a person who used to get attention. Even to do a presentation in a closed space in front of a few people, he was already nervous. Not to mention now in front of hundreds of people now up on the stage.


    He could feel his hand trembling. Bai Yutang knows he can''t see the sea of people in front of him or he will lose his voice and humiliate himself here on the stage. But with his standing right now, how could he didn''t see all of them looking at him?


    Bai Yutang was overwhelmed. On the other hand, he is also happy. In front of these people, his future in law acknowledged him as the part of this family. All of this contradiction''s emotion swirling inside him.


    His lover suddenly released his waist. Contrary to Bai Yutang''s expectation before, once his lover''s hand leaves his body, he feels the cold lingering in his spine, leaving him anxious and empty. Then he felt the familiar arms circling his shoulder, the familiar hands grasp his shoulder.


    Bai Yutang looked at his lover, and saw that warm smile. His lover''s eyes always look at him gently. The black orbs inside that peach blossom eyes sparkling with tiny little stars.


    Jian Kang Lu then put his lips next to Bai Yutang''s ears. "It''s okay baby, just say happy birthday."


    Bai Yutang hates the fact he can''t be like other members of this family. Why does he always feel like a loser who didn''t have any courage? He then decided just to focus his eyes on the birthday girl. He clears his throat first before he starts speaking. He could hear some people laugh softly. He himself could guess what kind of face he was making right now.


    "Uhm.. Happy birthday, mother. I only hope you find me good enough. I know very well I lack in everything, but you help me to see what kind of person I want to be. I want to be a person who makes you happy, makes you proud, and worthy of your trust. Wish you well in the future and please watch me grow up."


    Bai Yutang is never good with his words. He only hopes his words are clear enough. At least, he really means what he is talking about.


    Lin Caihong took the initiative to hug and kiss Bai Yutang. Last is Jian Shen''s turn. He took the microphone given by the MC. He looked at his wife whom he knew and married for more than 40 years. They have passed the hard time together, and enjoy the fruit of their hard work together.


    "As everyone knows, my wife is the leader of my family. Her words are finals, and can''t be refute." The audience, especially Jian Shen''s colleagues, laughed when they heard that statement. It was true, since Jian Shen rarely goes out for late night occasions except the important one. His reason was always using Lin Caihong''s name even though Lin Caihong herself never forbade him from going out to drink with his colleagues.


    "We were married as strangers, fulfilling our filial duty to our parents. And never in my life do I regret my choice to follow my parent''s words. They know the best for me, and give me the best woman to accompany my life day by day. Now she''s passed 6 decades of her life, and I wish her to spend many decades of her life with me."


    Jian Shen looked at his dear wife, his gentle eyes clearly showing how much he appreciated this woman in front of him. "For a woman named Lin Caihong. My wife, the mother of my sons, the best woman I ever knew in this world."


    The audience toast for her, and Lin Caihong laughed when she was kissed on her cheek. The audience can''t hear what they say to each other on the stage, but their faces show how much they rely on each other in these years. It was the face of a couple who stayed strong in their marriage life.


    Jian Ming jumped to his grandparents and hugged his grandmother. His loud voice shouting how he wants to say happy birthday to his grandma too. The MC laughed and gave Jian Ming the microphone he was eyeing for.


    "Grandma, happy birthday! I love grandma, so don''t forget to give me the robot set you promised me!" Jian Ming''s latest affection is the mecha and robot set, resulting from Bai Yutang''s art lesson. Fan Mingle dragged his son and the audience laughed to see the pair of mother and son quarrelling.


    They are all going down to their table. Lin Caihong signalled Bai Yutang to sit next to her. "Yutang, i want to talk to you about your graduation."


    Bai Yutang forgot about his graduation day will be held next week and she promised Lin Caihong to accompany her to the fashion dinner invitation two weeks ago. He already called Lin Caihong last week and told her he can''t accompany her due to his graduation day.


    "Your family will come within this week, right?" Lin Caihong asked.


    Bai Yutang nodded, his mother and the whole family will come this Thursday for the graduation which will be held on Saturday morning.


    "We want to come to your graduation day too, if you are comfortable with that." Lin Caihong told Bai Yutang straight to the point. Her face is calm, without any expectation, and that makes Bai Yutang''s heart tighten from guilt.

 Chapter 176 - Count My Blessing

    Bai Yutang took half day leave to pick his mother, his grandparents, his uncle, and Bai Yuren. Jian Kang Lu told Bai Yutang this is a once in a lifetime moment, so no need to think about the money.


    His aunt stayed at home with her baby and his son. Lu Jiang will have his gaokao in less than 2 week, so he can''t be bothered with anything.


    Bai Yutang rented three rooms in a hotel near T university for them. They will be going back to W city on Sunday. Only Bai Yuren will stay for two weeks, spending her holiday here. Bai Yutang asked his mom whether she wanted to spend time here with Bai Yuren also, but his mother refused, saying she wanted to go back to W city with the family.


    When Bai Yutang was waiting for his family to land at the airport, his mind went back to the conversation last Sunday with Lin Caihong. At that time, Lin Caihong calmly asked his permission to come to his graduation day. Her implicit question was clear, whether Bai Yutang wanted to tell his family about Jian Kang Lu.


    At that time, Bai Yutang could only take a deep breath and tell Lin Caihong honestly. "It would be my honour if mother and father could come to my graduation day. I just haven''t told my family about my relationship with Jian Ge yet. My sister seems to know about it, but i still need some time to make my mother accept it." Bai Yutang can''t look at Lin Caihong when he said that, he was afraid Lin Caihong would be disappointed.


    But he was surprised to feel Lin Caihong''s hand pat his back, "We understand. We just want to come, and also imprint a good impression on our future in law. We don''t want to pressured you, just want to meet your mother and spend some time with her."


    She looks at Bai Yutang''s eyes, and gently pats his back again. "Take it slow, we understand not every parent will be like us." Her eyes are warm, and shows her compassion.


    Bai Yutang really feels grateful to know Jian Kang Lu and his family. How many people are as lucky as him? When everyone else broken hearted and live a hard life, even the heterosexual couple, his life seems so smooth. Just like his lover told him, never count your misery and only count your blessing. It seems, the more he counted his blessing, the more he received.


    Under Lin Caihong''s invitation, all of them will have graduation lunch in S hotel after the ceremony. Bai Yutang felt guilty for making Lin Caihong cancel her attendance at that fashion dinner event. But then Lin Caihong only laughed and said that kind of invitation is not important, there''s many invitations in the future that Bai Yutang needs to accompany her.


    Not long after he was waiting in the airport, Bai Yutang saw his family walking out from the arrival gate. They hugged each other, Bai Yutang felt grateful his grandparents were still healthy enough for this journey. Even though his father can''t see him in the graduation ceremony, at least his family can see it.


    Bai Yutang paid for the plane and the hotel, but Jian Kang Lu insisted on renting a car for them to use in these four days. In case his mother and his grandparents want to go out enjoying B city, they could do it leisurely with this trusted driver. Jian Kang Lu himself felt apologetic he can''t pick his future in laws and accompany them. He could only close his practice on Friday afternoon to have dinner with them, and also delegate his Saturday round to his junior.


    Bai Yutang himself is grateful for his lover''s decision. He has not yet passed his three months probation, it was not wise to take too many leaves. So he only took a half day leave today.


    "Gege, this car is ours to use, right?" Bai Yuren''s chirping voice asked him straight once she sat down in the car. Bai Yutang smiled helplessly and nodded. "It''s all yours. Just tell Mr. Zhong where you guys want to go tomorrow. Just remember that we have dinner at W restaurant, so don''t be late tomorrow."


    Jian Kang Lu had reserved the private room in the W restaurant. It was the best luxurious Chinese restaurant in the city owned by Song Lixia''s parents. They already prepare their signature and limited delicacies of W restaurant on behalf of Jian Kang Lu''s reservation.


    "Great! I''ll take grandpa and grandma to the palace tomorrow and stroll around by car. Is that okay?" Bai Yuren didn''t want his grandparents too tired from walking so much, thus she planned to only let them look at the palace for a while, then let them look at B city in the car to prevent them from getting tired out.


    Once they arrived at the hotel, his mother dragged him and whispered, "Is this hotel not expensive, TangTang? We can just rent two room instead of three."


    Bai Yutang forces himself to smile to assure his mother. He felt this is his fault for making his mother who once never thought about money when his father alive changed into a woman who was always afraid to spend a little bit of money. "No, it''s okay mom. We have money, I have money too from my salary."


    Lu Hua knows the car was sponsored by Jian Kang Lu, so she finally silent and said nothing when his son paid for the three rooms. They go upstairs, Bai Yutang entertains his uncle and his grandparents well. For tonight, they will have dinner in Huxiang, the hotpot restaurant near T university. Bai Yutang smiled to reminiscence the time when he and Jian Kang Lu ate there for the first time, their second date.


    The next day, Bai Yutang concentrates on his work with utmost focus since he needs to wrap up his work as soon as possible. Luckily the project also came close soon and he didn''t need to do much. Bai Yuren sent him the pictures from his family vacation strolling around in B city. Bai Yutang already gave Bai Yuren money for his mother and his family spending, including their lunch.


    Bai Yuren sent the pictures when they had lunch in the famous B city peking duck restaurant. Bai Yutang calculates in his brain, whether the money is enough or not. He doesn''t know that Bai Yuren was holding Jian Kang Lu''s card.


    Bai Yuren specifically drops in at the hospital first before they go out for a stroll around. When Lu Hua asked Bai Yuren what she intended to do when they were waiting in the hospital lobby, Bai Yuren only told her mother that she wanted to see where Jian Kang Lu work, for maybe she will take her residency here.


    This led to 30 minutes of heated discussion among her grandparents and her mother. Her grandparents think if Bai Yutang already makes up his mind and seems to want to move to B city, it will be hard for Lu Hua if Bai Yuren also moved here.


    Bai Yuren is different from Bai Yutang, she didn''t take her grandparents'' words seriously. She lightly said if she wants to be a doctor, for sure she wants to work in a good hospital. And Jian Kang Lu''s hospital is one of the best in the country. Many people can''t even get an appointment here even though they had to wait for months. Jian Kang Lu himself is famous in the doctor''s circle.


    At night, Bai Yutang comes to pick his family and then goes to the restaurant to meet Jian Kang Lu. This was the second time his uncle and his grandparents met Jian Kang Lu. Bai Yutang tried his best to show not an over intimate attitude with Jian Kang Lu, but his lover seems to be in a mood of showing his love everywhere. Luckily after two sharp glares and one pinch on his lover''s thighs, his lover seems to finally realise and behave himself.


    Bai Yuren shows her value as the best sister in law for Jian Kang Lu. She occupied the conversation with Jian Kang Lu, talking about her pharmacology and physiology class. The others who didn''t understand, were forced to talk between themselves.


    Bai Yutang indulges himself by listening to his mother''s story about her life working in the kitchen, as well as his grandparents'' lectures about filial duty to accompany his mother. This led to Lu Hua''s strong argument with her mother regarding letting Bai Yutang do what he wants, work anywhere he wants.


    "Okay okay, calm down mom, grandma. You need to wake up early tomorrow. Try this abalone soup mom, and this bird nest soup for you grandma." Bai Yutang skilfully scoop the soup and place it in front of his mother and grandmother.


    Bai Yutang''s grandpa''s house sold last month, and he lives in the house occupied by his grandparents from his mother, along with his uncle and his family. Lu Hua changed the conversation and asked Bai Haoran''s father to live together with her. Lu Hua knows that her father in law felt more comfortable to live in the same environment he lived for more than 30 years, but still a house with three adults, one teenager, and one baby, is not the best place for a 70 year old man cramped into.


    Lu Hua and Bai Yutang could only sigh when his grandparents stick together and said it was best for them to live together instead of Bail Haoran''s father moving to Lu Hua''s house.


    Bai Yuren suddenly joined the conversation, "Then how about all of you grandpa and grandma, moved to our house? Our house is big. If grandma is afraid mom will be lonely, then why not live together?"


    It was Lu Hua''s parents turn to argue with Bai Yuren. Bai Yutang wants to laugh to see the chaotic moments in front of him.


    Count your blessing instead of your misery. Rather than questioning why his grandparents seemed to be urging him to move back to B city, rather than feeling helpless to try to explain why he wanted to stay here in B city, it was better to look at the warm scene in front of him.


    His grandmother is healthy enough to argue with his mother and his sister. His grandparents are healthy enough to travel here and watch him graduate tomorrow. His family loves him and spends their time having dinner together with him and his lover.


    He was grateful for the lucky encounter, and he will always be grateful for God giving him the beautiful moment he cherished with his loved ones. He just prays someday, they will accept him and his lover with open arms, just like his lover''s family did the same to him.

 Chapter 177 - Graduation Day

    Jian Kang Lu looked at the young man standing in front of him, he helped him fix his graduation robe and cap. The young man''s eyes are calm, far from nervous. He looked excited and full of hope.


    Jian Kang Lu sighed inside. His own graduation day was years ago. As a nephrologist, he has already gone through graduation day twice in his life. He will have another graduation day if he takes his PhD, which he still hesitates to start. PhD is only useful if he wants to pursue his professor title.


    "Gege, am I good enough?" His kitten asked. Jian Kang Lu smiles and pat his shoulder. "Yes, you''re the most handsome graduate today. Go, i''ll pick your mom and sister."


    Jian Kang Lu offered to pick Bai Yutang''s family. After all, as a T uni alumnus, he is familiar with this campus and the graduation hall. His own parents know the place for them to attend Jian Kang Lu''s graduation twice. They will meet there.


    The big family can''t come inside the hall, they will wait outside in the big space in front of the hall with a big screen for the family could see their family member who graduated inside. For Bai Yutang, it will be only Lu Hua and Jian Kang Lu who went inside. Originally it was preserved only for parents.


    Bai Yutang himself conflicted about who will go inside. If he wants to play safe, it will be his mother and Bai Yuren. Lu Hua suggested inviting his grandpa, Bai Haoran''s father, to come inside as the representative of his father. But in the end, Bai Yutang chose to be selfish for once in his life. He wants his most precious person to see him achieve this first small milestone in his life.


    Without Jian Kang Lu, he might never graduate. Bai Yutang will never forget that. Lu Hua didn''t say anything when his son told her softly that he will invite Jian Kang Lu. She also feels their family owes this man so much. So she shielded her son from her parent''s criticism once again.


    When Jian Kang Lu picked Bai Yutang''s family, he could feel his kitten''s grandparents'' dissatisfaction directed at him. They didn''t say anything rude, but Jian Kang Lu''s perception is good. He pretends not to notice it, just politely arrange the seat for them.


    Bai Yuren and Lu Hua will be in Jian Kang Lu''s car, while the grandparents and Bai Yutang''s uncle will be in the rental car. Jian Kang Lu himself used his mother''s driver for today. It will create a headache if he drives himself and has to park the car himself.


    "Jian Ge, you have to come on my graduation day too!" Bai Yuren happily chatted with him. Jian Kang Lu smiled and assured Bai Yuren he will definitely attend.


    Once there, Jian Kang Lu led this group to the hall. He called his parents while walking and found his parents already near the hall. He picks them up and introduces his parents.


    "Auntie, Uncle, this is my parents. They also want to come to see TangTang''s graduation day." Jian Kang Lu kept the introduction short since they could talk later in their respective seats. Standing here in the crowd is not suitable for polite chit chat.


    Jian Shen and Lin Caihong only state their name and follow their son walking to the architecture''s graduate spot. The big tent was laid on the roof near the hall to prevent the scorching summer sun from burning the families.


    The big tent with a lot of flower plates congratulating the graduates filled the yard. The soft grass and the concrete tiles filled with a sea of people. These people have happy and excitement expressed in their faces. It was crowded and noisy. Laugher and shouting filled their eardrums. Soon they found their seat and Jian Kang Lu politely re introduced his parents.


    As people who attend social parties and business meetings on a daily basis for years, Lin Caihong and Jian Shen didn''t need their son to speak much.


    Lin Caihong''s smile is very similar to Jian Kang Lu. A kind of smile who makes people drawn yet reluctant to be over intimate. Jian Shen himself also smiled. But as a person who held high position most of his life, his smile is a little bit intimidating.


    "I''m sorry to intrude on your family occasion, but Bai Yutang just like my own son. He helped me a lot, so I thickened my face to come here. I hope we don''t disturb this important family occasion." Lin Caihong fluently continues Jian Kang Lu''s short introduction.


    Bai Yutang''s grandparents are simple people. They waved there. hands. "No no, we don''t mind. The more the merrier. Thank you for coming here."


    They don''t know how much Lin Caihong''s dress and earring''s cost, so they didn''t feel too intimidated. If they know how much Jian Shen''s watch cost, they might shocked and shake their head, for they will think it was stupid to spend money equal to one house just for the sake one simple watch.


    Lu Hua herself once lived in luxury due to Bai Haoran''s hard work. Although she was not on par with Lin Caihong, she knew very well that this lady in front of her is not as simple as she looked. She was suddenly cautious about her own dress. This is the best dress she had, yet it can''t compare with Lin Caihong''s dress.


    Some of the family around them can''t help to look at this group and wonder which person this family belongs to. Jian Kang Lu''s family is too dazzling while Bai Yutang''s family looked similar to them. The contrast is too high, so they thought this family had different people graduate.


    Lu Hua''s parents are more fluent with words compared to Bai Haoran''s father or Bai Yutang''s uncle. They do the most talk. Jian Shen accommodates them, while Bai Yuren keeps staring at Lin Caihong. Lu Hua nudged her daughter''s, signalling her that it was impolite to stare at people like that.


    Lin Caihong herself seems to be aware. "You must be Yutang''s sister. Bai Yuren, right?" She smiled and looked at this young girl who kept staring at her.


    Bai Yuren wasn''t embarrassed, she bluntly asked, "Your dress and your earring is so pretty, auntie."


    Lu Hua frowned, but Lin Caihong laughed and seems don''t mind. "I heard from Yutang that you will stay here for your holiday, right? If you like, accompany auntie to this brand''s lunch party next week."


    Bai Yuren''s eyes lightened and nodded vigorously. She never comes to this kind of event and she is curious. "What brand is your dress, auntie. It must be expensive." Lu Hua herself is embarrassed to hear her daughter''s impolite comment, but she can''t scold her daughter in front of these people.


    "C brand. Come with me next week. I usually go alone since there''s no one in my family who wants to accompany me. It''s good to have a beautiful young lady accompany me."


    All of them knew the C brand was expensive, but they didn''t know how expensive it was. Bai Yuren still remembers at this moment she was so naive to think that she wanted to ask her brother to get this dress for her birthday next month. How could she guess a simple dress like this equal with her two years tuition fee.


    Jian Kang Lu then reminds Lu Hua to come inside the hall. Their invitation is in Jian Kang Lu''s hand. They said goodbye to the group and went inside.


    When they sit together, Jian Kang Lu politely chats to his future mother in law. It was kinda ironic to remember that his age gap with his kitten is even wider compared to his age gap with Lu Hua. He should call Lu Hua Jie Jie if remember their age gap is only 9 years apart.


    Soon the lights in the hall dimmed and the opening procession started. The opening ceremony is short, because the main event''s purpose of calling the graduate name one by one to the stage to receive their diploma while their biodata and parent''s photo is displayed on the big screen, will take hours to finish.


    It took two hours for them to listen to the name one by one until it was Bai Yutang''s turn. Jian Kang Lu felt his heart tightened to see his kitten walk steadily with a thin smile plastered on his face. His kitten''s white jade face is calm, his phoenix eyes squinted a bit when he looks at both of them and his smile widened before he climbs the stage.


    Jian Kang Lu heard Lu Hua sobbed on his side. This is an event that specifically makes every parent touched. Jian Kang Lu understood that part well. Even himself feels so many emotions swirling inside now.


    Happiness, for his kitten finally achieved one of his dreams.


    Proud, for his kitten''s struggle yet finally managed to pass with flying colors.


    Regret, for his father in law didn''t have an opportunity to watch his son in his proudest day.


    Jian Kang Lu reached his handkerchief and gently handed it over to Lu Hua. She thanked him, yet her tears can''t stop falling in her cheek. The fine lines in her face deepened when she cried.


    Bai Yutang smiled at them once again before he left the stage. Soon he was replaced with the next graduate.


    Lu Hua''s voice was breaking apart. "I wish for my husband to be here.." She can''t help to say it, let her grieve out of her chest.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t know what he should do, in the end he patted Lu Hua''s hand gently. "I''m sure he watched TangTang from above."


    Lu Hua still sobbed, her voice soft and hoarse. "My TangTang is so pitiful. I''m such a useless mother. I should take care of him in his father''s place. But I''m not capable, and I let my son work hard, burdened with me."


    She knew she was not supposed to say this to Jian Kang Lu, embarrassed herself like this in front of this younger man. "Thank you, for taking care of my TangTang. I know you help to support him. Thank you.. I can''t repay your kindness. I just hope that we could help you also someday if you need our help."


    Jian Kang Lu is uncomfortable, for he didn''t know whether Lu Hua would still say thank you once she knew that he slept with her son. His heart conflicted, thus he said nothing, it was just his hands that kept moving in small movements, patting that once delicate hand who was now aging fast due to working in the kitchen.


    Only Jian Kang Lu knows how much he wants to assure his future mother in law that he did that because he cared about his son, and Lu Hua shouldn''t feel burdened with that. But he can''t find his voice nor the right words. He only prays that his future mother in law won''t hate him, nor be sad because of him one day.

 Chapter 178 - Summer Sun

    Outside, Bai Yutang''s grandparents pointed at their grandson''s face displayed on the big screen. More or less they know that Jian Kang Lu was the one who supported their grandson financially. They feel conflicted when they want to boast about their grandson''s achievement in front of Lin Caihong and Jian Shen.


    Bai Yuren was the one who didn''t care about these kinds of things. She shouted, "Ah, can''t believe my brother finally graduated. And from a prestigious university! I envy him.. I failed to be accepted here." Her tone is up and down, from exciting into regretting.


    Lin Caihong is like this young girl. She was different from Bai Yutang who was calm and didn''t say much in front of them. It''s refreshing to talk to an active young girl. "Yes, Yutang is so smart.. You all must be proud of him. Even i feel proud of him even though he was not my birth son."


    Bai Yutang''s uncle was curious, he was a simple man but he knew doctors are one of the hardest faculty to study. "But your own son is a doctor, and graduated from here too. He must be smarter than Yutang." He blurted.


    Lin Caihong laughed, "Ah Lu is smart, but sometimes it''s not good to have a son that smart. If i talk to him about something, he will argue with me to defend his own opinion and never lose his argument. That little brat, don''t be fooled with his appearance. If i had to compare, i prefer an obedient son like Yutang. I envy Yutang''s parents."


    They all know Bai Yutang truly an obedient child since he was little. He is also calm and takes care of the younger generation well. Never have they heard Bai Yutang being naughty or giving a headache to his parents. Truly a model filial son. Lin Caihong''s comment burst the pride inside these people''s hearts.


    Jian Shen helped his wife, "Yutang is very smart, not losing a bit with my own son. It was not because my son is a doctor means he was smarter than Yutang. It was Yutang''s choice to become an architect, right?"


    Pairs of eyes look at Jian Shen. Bai Yuren was also curious, she thought Lin Caihong only talked politely since she knew Lin Caihong would be her brother''s future in law. "How to compare the intellectual level between doctor and architect?"


    Jian Shen speaking instead of his wife. "We have tradition in the family to oversee their thesis presentation rehearsal. Yutang''s rehearsal with us is more pleasant. Ah Lu is a bit stubborn."


    Lin Caihong laughed, "Yes. It gives me a headache every time Ah Lu starts to state his reasons. I also didn''t understand medical terms clearly. It was not fun at all. I prefer Yutang. It was clear to us that Yutang loves his project, he pour so much effort on his project. Ah Lu wasn''t like that, his only target to pass with good grades, but he lacked effort. That''s why I told you sometimes to have a smart son like that is not good."


    Mr. and Mrs. Lu asked this pair of husband and wife, "How about your second son, is he a doctor too? Or work in your company?"


    Lu Hua''s parents are simple minded people. When Jian Shen stated what he used to do before he retired, they only heard the CEO part. In their mind, the CEO is the same with owning the company. They didn''t know that a CEO is a person hired by a company and shareholder to run the company. So they thought Jian Shen owned that company.


    "My second son works as head of treasury in C bank." Jian Shen answered.


    Bai Yutang''s family didn''t know what treasury does, but the word ''head of'' and the name of C bank is enough to make them guess that this couple''s second son is also a successful person.


    "You must be happy that you manage to raise two wonderful and successful sons. What a wonderful parent to manage to do that." Mrs. Lu praised Lin Caihong. In this country, a son is preferred compared to a daughter. In this country, the standard of becoming a successful parent is when your son turns out to be smart and successful. Lin Caihong not only has one, but two bright sons. This is enough to make half of mothers in this country envy her.


    "That was their own achievement. We as parents are only responsible for giving them a roof and education. The credit all belongs to them. We don''t dare to claim that." Lin Caihong modestly answered.


    In this term, Lin Caihong and Jian Shen have similar points of view. The achievement of their sons truly belongs to them, not to the parents. No matter how good the parents educate their children, if the child itself is not strong nor willing to work hard, then it is destined to fail.


    The more these people talk to this pair, the more they admire this couple. They didn''t flaunt their wealth and achievement, were very modest and down to earth, they also knew a lot of things.


    These people rarely visit B city. This was even the first time for Mr. Bai to visit B city. So when this couple talk a lot about W city, they feel like meeting the same people from their town.


    When immersed with these harmonious conversations, the ceremony is over. The hall''s big door opened and the graduates walked out from the hall with their parents. Bai Yutang still took pictures inside with his friend. Jian Kang Lu walks out first with Lu Hua, guarding her from this crowd, wanting to deliver her to the family waiting outside.


    "Jian Ge!!" A crisp sound of a young female heard from far. Mu Xiaoya ran across the sea of people, waving her hand frantically. Jian Kang Lu smiles and halts his step, waiting for Mu Xiaoya to approach them.


    "Hello auntie." Mu Xiaoya greets Lu Hua.


    Lu Hua is a little bit confused. Jian Kang Lu could see Lu Hua was not familiar with Mu Xiaoya. He hurriedly introduced Mu Xiaoya to Lu Hua before his future mother in law thinking that Mu Xiaoya is Bai Yutang''s girlfriend. "Auntie, this is Mu Xiaoya, TangTang''s junior. She is Yu Dong''s girlfriend."


    "Ah, hello." Lu Hua was very familiar with Yu Dong, so she greeted this young lady with a polite smile.


    They chat and walk together to the family waiting, and these people clearly confuse an additional young lady walking with them. Jian Kang Lu once again introduced Mu Xiaoya to these people, including his parents.


    Mu Xiaoya looks at Jian Shen and Lin Caihong, then looks at Jian Kang Lu. She really wants to raise her four thumbs to Jian Kang Lu. As expected from her favourite CP and favourite gong. ''Smooth, very smooth Jian Ge! This is what I call a real man!'' Mu Xiaoya screamed inside. Parents meeting, is this a step toward a dream wedding of her favourite CP???


    Bai Yuren at first looked at Mu Xiaoya with hostility. Who is this girl who talks leisurely and looks at her brother in law with adoration in her eyes? Don''t she know that Jian Kang Lu belongs to her brother. But after Jian Kang Lu introduces Mu Xiaoya, her hostility completely vaporize to the air.


    Ten minutes later they saw Bai Yutang walking toward them. His temple was glistening with a thin layer of sweat. His eyes sparkling, and his lips curved, form a permanent bright smile on this happy day.


    Jian Kang Lu felt his suit tugged down. He turned his head, and looked at his mother who pulled his suit. Lin Caihong brought her lips to her son''s ear and whispered, "Control your eyes, do you want everyone here to know that you fall head over heels over their precious pearl?"


    Jian Kang Lu smiled to hear his mother''s warning. He knows she means well. He whispered back, "Don''t you think your son in law is so handsome today? I can''t help myself, but thank you for your warning, my dear beautiful mother."


    Mu Xiaoya congratulated Bai Yutang and apologized for Ling Yue and the other can''t come. Mu Xiaoya and Ling Yue have internships in B city, but different offices. Only Mu Xiaoya managed to skip her work today for a few hours since she did an internship in Yu Dong''s office and Yu Dong will cover her.


    After a polite chit chat, Mu Xiaoya offered to become the photographer for these people. After 5 minutes posing, Mu Xiaoya suggested to Bai Yutang to take the picture near their faculty. She dragged Jian Kang Lu together, while the others waited in their spot. It was not wise for the elder to walk under the scorching summer sun.


    Jian Kang Lu is really grateful Mu Xiaoya is here today. Without her, he won''t have a chance to take pictures just both of them. He really wants to have a picture with just both of them, while his kitten is wearing his graduation robe.


    Jian Kang Lu wants to hold his kitten''s shoulder in the picture, but he holds himself, afraid that his kitten''s friends will have nasty idea in their mind. After a few pictures taken with that stiff pose, suddenly his kitten''s hands circling his arms. Jian Kang Lu was stunned, and he looked at his kitten.


    He saw that handsome bright face smiling at him. His pearly white teeth peeked shyly from behind those beautiful lips. His eyes curved, mesmerising.


    Mu Xiaoya didn''t waste this opportunity, she quickly clicked the camera shutter in Jian Kang Lu''s mobile phone. She was satisfied with the result. She then shouts at them to take another pose with that intimate posture.


    Jian Kang Lu''s heart is still beating wildly. He tries to calm himself thinking with the wide age gap with his kitten, maybe these students around him who are taking pictures in their graduation robe will think that he was just a relative of his kitten.


    Jian Kang Lu tries to be calm, but his face can''t deny his happy mood. His handsomeness increased several levels. It was dazzling, even Mu Xiaoya sighed inside. She now can see how a couple in love will look much better. But maybe that only applied to this couple, since her face and Yu Dong still look the same.


    Once Mu Xiaoya is satisfied, she shows this couple her amazing work. Most of the architecture students could take photographs well, including her. She proudly showed her favourite picture. It was a picture of Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang looking at each other with eyes full of love, when Bai Yutang circling his arms toward Jian Kang Lu''s arms.


    Their faces illuminated with yellow rays from the sun above. Bai Yutang hugged Jian Kang Lu''s arms, and Jian Kang Lu''s face clearly showed his adoration to the man beside him. Jian Kang Lu''s smile is so gentle, while Bai Yutang''s smile is so charming. Green bushes flustered behind them with mosaics of bricks from the architecture building as the background.


    It''s a splendid picture. Just like the radiant summer sun steps forth from the springtime, wrapping them in her warm and brilliant rays.

 Chapter 179 - Graduation Lunch

    "Gege." Bai Yuren swiftly shoved a small box of tissue in her hand to her brother. Wearing a double layer of graduation robe on top of a long sleeve shirt under this summer sun is enough to dehydrate someone''s body. Bai Yutang''s temples glistened from the sweat, some strands of wet hair fell on his forehead.


    Bai Yutang took the tissue and wiped his sweat while they walked and waited for the car to pick them up. The families around them still chatting noisily, the graduates shouting and running. Compared to other universities, T university students are still counted as a civilised member of society.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled to see this bunch of young people laughing and running. He looked at his calm kitten, somehow he questioned himself why his kitten didn''t mingle with these young people around them. He knows his kitten doesn''t have many close friends, but to graduate and didn''t talk much with your peers, this is a little bit different with what he had on his mind.


    When Jian Kang Lu graduates, the bunch of nerd doctors tend to be calm. No one was running and laughing like these architecture students.. But still, Jian Kang Lu remembers he spent almost one hour taking pictures with his friends.


    Jian Kang Lu wants to ask his kitten, but he doesn''t know how to ask. He noticed since the first time he met his kitten until now, his kitten didn''t have many friends to talk with. Of course he was happy to have his kitten all to himself, but sometimes he can''t help to worry about his kitten''s social life.


    The cars arrived and these people got inside. Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren help their grandparents into their car first before they embark to Jian Kang Lu''s cars. The drivers already know their next destination is S hotel.


    Bai Yutang''s family know after this they will have lunch together with Jian Kang Lu''s parents. Bai Yutang''s grandparents already told Bai Yutang yesterday, implicitly hint that they were not comfortable having someone else pay for the lunch celebration for their family member''s graduation.


    Bai Yutang could only slowly explain that he planned to take them for a simple lunch celebration, but then Lin Caihong insisted on inviting all of them to the S hotel. Even Jian Shen and Jian Kang Lu could not say anything if Lin Caihong already gave instruction, what else Bai Yutang could say.


    Once Bai Yutang told Jian Kang Lu about his worries when they lay on the bed, hugging each other to prepare for sleep, "Gege, can''t we pay for my graduation lunch? I didn''t feel good if mother Lin wanted to pay for it..."


    Jian Kang Lu was stroking his kitten''s hair, whose head laid in his arms. He already closed his eyes, inhaled the fresh after bath scent of his kitten, bringing his state of mind to drowsiness. He lazily answered, "It''s her happiness, let her do what she wants. It''s her way of showing her love and respect to your family."


    Bai Yutang said nothing after that. He also knows what Lin Caihong and Jian Shen mean with this act. They paved the way for their son getting approval from Bai Yutang''s family. In these terms, Bai Yutang could see the way his lover''s thinking is shaped by his parents. Slowly carved the good image and reception for Bai Yutang''s family approved their relationship someday.


    In the three different cars heading to the S hotel, different conversations were held inside. In Jian Kang Lu''s car, Bai Yuren actively speaks to her mother and Jian Kang Lu, Bai Yutang only adds a bit of comments here and there. The majority of their conversation is Bai Yuren''s plan to fill her vacation in the next 10 days.


    In the car Jian Kang Lu rented for Bai Yutang''s family, Bai Yutang''s grandparents and uncle talking about Jian Shen and Lin Caihong.


    "I thought people from B city are cold and snobbish, but Doctor Jian''s parents are really different from what I imagine. They clearly look rich and successful, but so humble." Bai Haoran''s father commented.


    "Yes, and now they took us for celebrating our grandson''s graduation. It seems they really like Yutang. Well, our grandson is a good kid, I can understand why they adore our Yutang." Bai Yutang''s grandmother boasted about her eldest grandson. She can''t wait to share these stories to the neighbours and the old ladies which she used to play mahjong with. After all, only her grandson who managed to get accepted in the prestigious university and now graduated.


    Bai Yutang''s uncle silently listens to his parent''s words who keep flattering Bai Yutang. He wants to say, isn''t it weird for people like Jian Shen and Lin Caihong to do this kind of thing to Bai Yutang? If this couple didn''t have sons, it would be understandable. But this couple had not only one dazzling son, but two! What Bai Yutang has to make them regard him as their own son?


    Their son also graduated from T university, and a doctor! Their son also looks better, and clearly has a good career. In all logic, Bai Yutang is clearly below their own son, so what makes this couple do this kind of thing? Bai Yutang''s uncle wants to tell his parents that Jian Shen and Lin Caihong must have ulterior motives, but he can''t say anything.


    He doesn''t want these people to accuse him as a jealous uncle who can''t stand their family achievement. He once saw Bai Haoran ruthlessly step down on his own cousin who criticised Bai Yutang.


    At that time when Bai Haoran already achieve a spot as the most successful person in these two families, the new year lunch dinner always held on Bai Haoran''s new big house. Both of Bai Haoran and Lu Hua''s parents will come there too, and all the big families member will visit them. Bai Haoran also very generous when giving red envelope to them.


    In this kind of event, it will be family tradition for people gossiping about each other, boasting their achievements to each other, and all the things family used to do. Scream, talk, laugh, whispered, mocking, envy.


    Bai Haoran never boasted about his wealth, these people already see how big his house is compared to their small house. How shiny his new car is, when some of them didn''t even have a car. How thick the red envelope Bai Haoran gives to their kids, when their own red envelope sometimes only consists of 20 yuan each.


    The only thing Bai Haoran boasts about is his children''s achievement in school. Their grade is really out of what these people could imagine in their life. As people who grow in poverty, they didn''t have privilege to think much about grades. Bai Haoran himself is famous for his bad grade in all his education life.


    So it was understandable when his own cousin mock Bai Yutang for being not man enough since he was skinny and didn''t do any sport in school, Bai Haoran ruthlessly smacked him until all the other families separated them before the verbal argument changed into fist fighting.


    Bai Yutang''s uncle himself always feels inferior compared to his brother in law, his son also not as smart as Bai Haoran''s children. What else he could say now in front of his parents, more so when his son''s tuition fee will be paid by Bai Haoran''s father in the cost of selling his house.


    In Jian Shen''s car, these couples talk to their driver who has already worked for more than 25 years. "Old Ming, did you see our future son in law?" Lin Caihong asked.


    "Yes, Mrs. Lin. He looks so handsome, and so young! I finally saw eldest young master''s partner after all these years." This old driver didn''t secure his place as the main driver in this family for nothing. He flatters Bai Yutang to the sky, leading Lin Caihong to laugh and keep boasting about her future son in law who is handsome, smart, and can cook!


    This old driver already heard from the gossip spreading among the workers in Jian Shen''s house that the eldest young master who was single for 38 years finally revealed he didn''t like women, and had a boyfriend instead! The cook, the housekeeper, and the other driver feel sorry yet glad at the same time.


    Who in this world can keep calm to hear their beloved young master who is handsome, smart, and kind, cut his family line and choose to become an open cutsleeve? No wonder, they already questioned why the eldest young master never brought a girl home. With that face, that family background, who can resist their young master''s charm? Turns out¡­


    Ah, too bad, they lamented inside their heart. But if their own master didn''t mind that, they also could say nothing bad about it. They have seen Jian Kang Lu since he was a little boy. They all loved this boy, and watched him grow.


    Compared to other workers who dedicate their life to other rich families, working with Jian Shen''s family is truly blessed. Old Ming often envied by his fellow driver. Old Ming''s son now works as a teacher, his whole tuition''s fee is paid by Jian Shen. Jian Kang Lu often taught his son too when he took his Gaokao test. Without Jian Shen''s family, Old Ming would not dare to dream of watching his son graduate from university.


    So what if the eldest young master is a cutsleeve? Old Ming was sure, a man like Jian Kang Lu also won''t pick someone who was bad to become his partner. Even though this Bai Yutang is very young, even younger than Old Ming''s son, but he must be someone great for him could charm Jian Kang Lu and his family to this extent.


    The traffic is not as bad as working days, but as always, B city road was packed with cars. These three cars slowly rode until they reached their destination. The drivers stop the car in the lobby, letting the passengers go down.


    Bai Yutang already took off his robe and put his suit on. He stood there waiting for his grandparents while Jian Kang Lu escorted Lu Hua and Bai Yuren inside. Bai Yutang knew the restaurant was the same where Lin Caihong pranked him last time. Lin Caihong booked the private room there under her name.


    The car who took his grandparents arrived at the same time with Jian Shen''s car. Bai Yutang helped his grandparents while Jian Shen and Lin Caihong went out from their black Bentley. They walk inside together.


    While walking, Bai Yutang''s hands were grabbed tight by his grandmother. She whispered, "I have never been to this kind of expensive hotel, Yutang. How if we embarrassed you inside? We never eat in this kind of hotel." She was afraid since she almost never eats western food.


    Bai Yutang patted his grandmother''s hand. That small hand was rough from years of hard work, taking care of her children and the house. He smiled and whispered, "It''s okay grandma. Don''t think too much. These people won''t mind. I just hope you enjoy the food, and don''t pay attention to other things."


    His grandmother only nodded her head and followed Bai Yutang''s lead. When they arrived in the restaurant and walk to the private room, Bai Yutang whispered once again, "This is my graduation, and you are my honoured guest, grandma. I hope i make you proud today."

 Chapter 180 - Thank You

    Bai Yutang understands well what his grandmother worried for. He once felt this kind of feeling too when he went for dinner at Il Mare with Jian Kang Lu for the first time. But at that time, it was only both of them, and Bai Yutang himself in a position of having financial protection from his father.


    This time, it was different for his grandparents. Bai Yutang wrote a note for himself to order something easy to eat for his grandparents. He remembered this restaurant''s specialty is suitable for their palate, not too western, and did not require table manners.


    But when they sit down in the chair, Bai Yutang clearly underestimates Lin Caihong''s ability as one of the prominent socialites in this capital. The food has been ordered before since their Jujube roasted peking duck need to be reserved before to ensure their availability. For today''s event, the main chef who created this signature peking duck which was awarded best peking duck in the whole city for three years in a row, cooked the duck by himself.


    The only thing not yet ordered was only the beverages. The waiter and waitress attend to note their choices. Their suggestion for beverage is their famous oolong tea.. The tea was infused with lychee, mint, lemon, and came with a separate small bowl of honey for people who like sweetened tea.


    Lin Caihong told these people what she ordered for lunch, asking whether they want to order some more. These people shook their heads. Bai Yutang was surprised to see the line of the ordered menu. They were all traditional Chinese menus, easy to eat, suitable for elderly, and most of them were the food his grandparents liked to eat.


    What Bai Yutang didn''t know, Lin Caihong already asked Jian Kang Lu about Bai Yutang''s family preference food. Their food allergies, their dislikes, etc. Jian Kang Lu didn''t ask his kitten, but asked Bai Yuren directly. That was the fastest way to get the most honest answer. Bai Yuren happily listed all their favourite menu items.


    Some of the menu Bai Yuren listed is not in the menu, but Lin Caihong asked the chef to cook it for her, such as the beer braised duck and the eight season steamed fish.


    When the dimsum comes as the appetiser, Bai Yuren keeps appraising them as the best dimsum she ever tasted. No wonder, the chef responsible for the dimsum is famous for his traditional yet exquisite dimsum. The classic steamed dumpling is filled with a big chunk of sweet prawn, while the authentic prawn Har Gow is wrapped in translucent dough revealing the beautiful pink of the meat.


    Lu Hua agreed, this peking duck delivered to her plate was the best peking duck she ever tasted. The restaurant in this hotel uses a 148 year old traditional brick oven roasting method fired with hardwood from jujube trees. The meticulously air dried and skilfully prepared duck is artfully roasted to perfection. When the sweet hoisin sauce spreads over the steamed pancake, the crunchy and appealing duck skin rolled inside with cucumber and spring onion will melted in the mouth with a great firm texture contrast.


    Lin Caihong ordered the nutritious soup called Buddha Jumps over the Wall. The name comes from the story that exaggerated the delicious taste of this soup which made the vegetarian Buddha jump over the wall to try it. It contains abalone, dried scallop, sea cucumber, fish maw, and shiitake mushrooms. The flavour is rich and exotic, boosting health level and strengthening body systems.


    What made Lu Hua and his mother stunned was when they tasted the instant pot braised beef tasted similar to what they usually made. The difference is just there is some red wine scent that comes from the beef, and they are paired with mashed potato instead of rice.


    Bai Yutang is also curious, even though this braised beef was so tender and very fragrant, but he could taste this is not the menu provided in this restaurant.


    Jian Kang Lu tasted it, and he seriously said to Lu Hua, "Auntie, yours is still the best."


    Lu Hua looked at Jian Kang Lu with a question. Bai Yuren tasted it too, and she followed Jian Kang Lu, "I think this is better than my mom''s."


    Lin Caihong smiled and she told Lu Hua, "Ah Lu told me that your instant pot braised beef is very delicious. It will be difficult for me to taste it, so I shamelessly ask my son to request Yutang for your braised beef''s recipe. I can''t cook, so I made the chef cook for me. I''m sure Ah Lu said correctly, this braised beef must be inferior compared to yours. I hope someday we can visit your hometown and taste the original instant pot braised beef of yours."


    Lu Hua and her mother were taken aback. These Jian families, why does it seem that they want to be close to them? This level of treatment is not a regular treatment of acquittances. They know their Yutang is exceptional, but what of him makes these Jian family treat them like they''re honoured guest. Honestly, for Lu Hua, she admits this braised beef tastes better compared to her own cooking.


    "Thank you for your compliment, but I have to admit my braised beef was no better compared to this one. I''m worried you will be disappointed if you taste it someday." Lu Hua said with a polite smile.


    "No no, I trust my son''s taste buds. We plan to visit W city this year. I hope we can meet your family again over there, and hope to taste your famous braised beef." Lin Caihong replied swiftly.


    "Please contact us if you come to W city, I''ll make sure to become a proper host that time. I can''t even repay your kindness to my son with that."


    Bai Yutang only watches this courtesy conversation in silence. He admires his future in law''s effort paving the way for him and his lover''s relationship. His heart was warm, determined to be the best son in law for them.


    He remembers his work mates telling horrible stories about their in-laws. When other in laws kept fighting and said negative things behind their back, his in laws were excellent.


    The lunch extends for for more than 100 minutes, and when the dessert came, they leisurely chat with each other.


    Bai Yutang''s grandmother suddenly lamented, "I thought all B city native is looking down on us from rural areas, but knowing all of you changes my mind. I was worried our Yutang can''t live well here, far from his family. But now I can let my mind in peace, for Yutang is treated very well here."


    Lin Caihong smiled, "Rest assured, auntie. I regard Yutang as my own son, it''s our luck to know him. We''ll visit you often too. It''s our pleasure if you could regard us as your family too."


    The women chat about Bai Yutang''s childhood, leaving the main star of this event turned red from his embarrassment. His lover didn''t help him at all, he kept asking Lu Hua and his grandmother about Bai Yutang''s achievement and his mild demeanour when he was a little boy.


    Lin Caihong compares him to the naughty Jian Kang Lu when he was a child, and they laugh at each other for the embarrassing story of Jian Kang Lu''s story when he was in junior high school.


    At that time, Jian Kang Lu was still the top student, but always brought headaches to the teachers. He read comics in the class, he caught playing cards with his friends, leading the teacher to call the parents for fear these students would learn gambling from card games.


    Jian Kang Lu defended himself, "It was only the teacher''s narrow mind for him not knowing about the bridge. Even this kind of card game was competed in international sports events."


    Lin Caihong raised both of her hands, "Can you understand what i said previously? Sometimes it was not good to have this kind of son? I still remember I had to bow my head repeatedly because my son refused to acknowledge his fault. He even wants to teach the teacher how to play bridge and list the names of famous bridge''s player."


    Jian Kang Lu still does not give up, "If only the teacher wants to read international news. Bridge and chess are the only two mind sports recognised in the world."


    None of these people are familiar with the bridge card game, so they can''t say much and only can see these pairs of son and mother bickering about that game. And somehow, these people could see Lin Caihong''s suffering. It was hard to educate a son who was smarter than you.


    Jian Shen experienced letting his son argue with his mother. He didn''t want to dive in this difficult to win conversation. He turns and talks about trading and business to Bai Yutang''s uncle. It turns out Bai Yutang''s uncle was interested in trading but didn''t know where to learn about it. Jian Shen told him that he knows several people in W city who open a short course of trading principal, and offer Bai Yutang''s uncle to learn there if he wants.


    "Trading is something we all can learn. It was true not everyone could play with it, but at least it could be our foundation for choosing a wise investment." Jian Shen told Bai Yutang''s uncle.


    Bai Yutang''s uncle was really interested in it, he had heard stories about people who become rich after learning it. Even though he didn''t have capital to buy stocks, nevertheless, everyone with his economic condition always dreamt of a way to become rich with small effort from home.


    In actual life, it was very risky for people to play with the stock market. But Jian Shen is willing to help Bai Yutang''s family if they really want to learn trading. After all, this is his strong point to earn money, and he was very good at it.


    It was almost 3 o''clock when they finally finished lunch. Jian Kang Lu and his family opened bottles of mild liquor and toast for Bai Yutang''s graduation.


    "For Bai Yutang, and his bright future ahead!" Lin Caihong toasted, followed by the others. They already chat and laugh for this whole day, the lunch is great, and the liquor is even greater. More than 30 minutes later they had already finished the 5 liquor bottles and prepared to go home with a happy mood.


    Bai Yutang''s family will be going back home tomorrow morning, so they want to get some rest today before packing their luggage. Bai Yutang and his family keep saying their gratitude when they walk to the lobby before saying goodbye.


    In the car, Jian Kang Lu chats with Bai Yuren. When they arrived at the hotel, Bai Yutang also went down. He already told his lover that he wants to spend his time with his family today. Jian Kang Lu has agreed and he will have dinner later on with Bai Yutang''s family, and later will go back together with his kitten.


    Lu Hua standing in the hotel''s lobby watching his son and Jian Kang Lu talk in whispers for a while. She was glad that his son had a chance to become a pampered young man, since in their family, Bai Yutang was the one who had to shoulder all their affairs. The one who had to work and pay for their needs, and always shield her and Bai Yuren from all the grieves and suffer.


    So it was Jian Kang Lu''s turn to be surprised when suddenly Lu Hua held his hand. Her face slightly pale and her eyes rims a little bit red. "Thank you for today."


    Jian Kang Lu only smiled and patted her hand, "It was my pleasure, auntie. See you later at night."


    Lu Hua didn''t say anything. She was not sure Jian Kang Lu heard the meaning of her words. She just hopes Jian Kang Lu someday knows what she wants to say.


    ''Thank you, for letting us know that my son is appreciated. Thank you, for letting my son know how it feels to have someone care about him. Thank you, for replacing my husband''s role today as my son''s protector. Thank you, for all you''ve done to help my son.''

 Chapter 181 - Good Girl (NSFW)

    Jian Kang Lu picked his kitten and had dinner together with Bai Yutang''s family at Da Yuan, the Chinese restaurant near T university. It was the place where Jian Kang Lu liked to order the food delivered to Bai Yutang in his studio days.


    Da Yuan is a courtyard garden restaurant set around a large pond, rich in history and well-preserved architecture. Walking down the red lantern lit entrance, you know it is likely going to be a bizarre experience, the grounds inside have traditional buildings and the staff are all in traditional dresses.


    A really colourful place.The entire restaurant staff were dressed in colourful traditional Qing-dynasty dresses and garments known. They bow slightly and say ''May you have good fortune'' and welcome you to this grand courtyard house, which uniquely named the Bai family mansion, the same surname as Bai Yutang.


    The table setting is glorious. Ancient dishes are served in quick successions on stunning round tables. The decor is lovely with yellow tablecloth, pretty yellow and blue pattern China and embroidered yellow fabric covered chairs. There is a main hall and many smaller private rooms all set in authentic Qing dynasty style.


    The Peking Duck, Lobster and Deer are some of the top menu picks. Other recommended dishes include the Kung Pao Shrimp, Beef/Carrot Dumplings, and Ya Fang. But even though they also serve delicacies like Bird''s-nest soup, Braised Sea Cucumber, Abalone, and authentic B city''s snacks, the taste is still below the restaurant they went for lunch.


    Because of that, Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang didn''t order the expensive food, but ordered this restaurant''s best taste according to them, the dimsum and Fried Tomatoes with Egg.


    "Woah, I feel like I''m on a movie set." Said Bai Yuren when she saw the staff who walked them to their seats. The outdoor garden adds to the relaxing atmosphere with its large fountain and rustic Chinese d¨¦cor, resulting in their dinner feeling warm and full of laughter.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t talk much, and mostly listened to Bai Yutang''s grandparents reminiscing about their eldest grandson''s childhood.


    "Too bad you don''t want to try looking for a job in our home town. I bet you can get a similar job with what you work right now." Bai Yutang''s grandmother suddenly lamented again. Old people tend to repeat the same phrase over and over, especially if what they desire was not obediently followed by their descendant.


    Jian Kang Lu felt his kitten''s tenses to hear that words repeated over and over again. He smiled and caressed his kitten''s tensed palm under the table to soothe his kitten. Even though he also doesn''t want his kitten separated from him, but to lose your patience over your grandparents won''t bring anything good. Especially on a happy day like this.


    "Let him work here, mom. Let him do what he wants. He grew up this big and knows the best about his work compared to us." Lu Hua once again defended her son.


    "He is already this big, but until now I never saw him bring his girlfriend. He graduated and already has a job, isn''t it a good time to plan having a family of his own and giving me a great grandson? If he just keeps working in a far city, how could we help him to look for a good girl to marry into our family?"


    Jian Kang Lu was sipping his tea leisurely and almost choked when he heard Bai Yutang''s grandmother speak. Bai Yutang himself also dropped his chopstick to the floor.


    "Grandma.. Please, i''m not looking for a girlfriend right now." Bai Yutang hurriedly speaking. He was sad and anxious. While he smoothly accepted into his lover''s family, his own family still knew nothing.


    This time, Lu Hua didn''t know whether she had to stand with her son or her mom.


    "TangTang, what your grandmother said is showing her concern. It just.." Bai Yutang''s grandfather supports his wife.


    Lu Hua sighed, and then cut her father''s words, "It just, if you found a good girl, don''t hesitate to introduce her to us. We won''t have high qualifications nor make it difficult. If you think she was good enough, we will accept her with our whole heart."


    Bai Yuren looks at her brother''s back which is stiff and rigid, and almost spurts her tea when she looks at the ''good girl'' as tall as 182 cm sitting anxiously next to her brother.


    ''Yeah mom, this ''girl'' definitely treats my brother very well.''


    She took pity on this pair of mandarin ducks and helped her brother, "I think Gege is smart and wise. He definitely will choose the best person to be his partner. No need to worry mom, grandma. Don''t rush Gege, or else he will pick the wrong person in a hurry. Oh right, YingYing will come next week to spend the holiday together with me here. She said her parents will send a few things as their gratitude to our house."


    Lu Hua frowned and looked at Jian Kang Lu with an apologetic smile. She whispered to her daughter, "Where will YingYing stay? At Doctor Jian''s apartment? Did you ask permission from him?" She didn''t feel good about it. Nevertheless, her daughter and YingYing are grown up women. It didn''t feel right for them to stay with two single men in one apartment.


    "It''s okay, Gege and Jian Ge agreed. They also come home very late at night and both of us are also busy travelling around the city. No worries." Bai Yuren successfully diverted the family dinner''s criticism to herself.


    The rest of the dinner went fine and they went back to the hotel while Bai Yutang went home with Jian Kang Lu. Tomorrow they will send the family to the airport together.


    "Gege, I''m sorry.." Bai Yutang''s head hangs low when they drive home. Jian Kang Lu knows what his kitten meant with that apologies. He smiled and just ruffled his kitten''s soft hair.


    "It''s okay, baby. No rush." His calm voice tried to soothe his kitten''s turbulent mood. As long as his kitten is willing to be with him, he is also willing to walk slowly. Their path is not easy, but he was sure as long as both of them loved each other, nothing is impossible in this world. He finally found his other half, he won''t give up easily, nor letting things as small as this to be thorn in their relationship.


    Once they reached home, Bai Yutang followed his lover''s steps and went inside their dark apartment. When he reached the wall searching for the button to turn on the lights, suddenly he was pressed into the wall.


    His lover''s hand crawling in his waist and his scalding hot breath were lingering in his ear. "I really want to fuck you in your graduation robe this noon." The hands which kneaded his waist slipped under his shirt and touched his soft abdomen skin. Everywhere his lover''s hand came into contact with his body felt hot and sent sparks all over his body.


    Jian Kang Lu knew once his future sister in law stays here tomorrow and the next two weeks, it will be difficult for him to eat his kitten to his content. He is determined to enjoy his kitten''s body tonight. He was excited and hugged his kitten''s tiny waist, trembled from his own lust.


    Jian Kan Lu pressed Bai Yutang to the wall, bent over and reached his kitten''s chin to gag his kitten mouth. He won''t let this man reject him tonight.


    Bai Yutang was still in a low mood when suddenly attacked. He didn''t have time to protest nor speak. His body honestly reacts with Jian Kang Lu''s touch. A body which Jian Kang Lu trains to be sensitive with his caress. All Bai Yutang''s sensed were used to feel Jian Kang Lu''s hot kiss and erotic stroke.


    Jian Kang Lu pried his kitten''s teeth vigorously, and his wet tongue turned into his mouth as much as he could. Bai Yutang moaned slightly in his throat, a bit dizzy by the warm kiss.


    He could feel Jian Kang Lu''s hand move to his buttocks and kneaded it back and forth.


    Jian Kang Lu''s kiss went down to his chin, and his ear, nibbling the soft ear lobe lightly between his teeth.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know when or how, but his pants suddenly opened and slid down to his feet. He was still pressed to the wall with his hands trying to steady himself. A soft moan slipped from between his lips when Jian Kang Lu''s hand played around the edge of his underwear and grabbed his slightly hardened penis.


    Under the soft caress, which alternates with hard kneading, Bai Yutang''s penis not taking too long before it fully hardened and the tip peek from his underwear.


    Jian Kang Lu smirked and played with the tip until he felt a wet drop leaking from his kitten''s tip. He abruptly turned his kitten''s body and pushed him to lean on the wall. Jian Kang Lu kisses his kitten again, playing with the soft tongue of Bai Yutang until their breath turns fast and heavy.


    Jian Kang Lu then kneel in front of his kitten, push the underwear down a little and put the hardened penis of his kitten directly into his mouth. He slowly licks the mid shaft while sucking the tip.  Jian Kang Lu''s dexterous tongue licked it in circles on Bai Yutang''s penis. His lips could clearly feel the hot shaft in his mouth twitching.


    Bai Yutang shuddered, and his legs were weak. Jian Kang Lu holds his waist to support his weight while stimulating Bai Yutang''s desire with his tongue and teeth. His right hands slip from the waist to the lovely hole in the back with his slender finger.


    Bai Yutang was already stimulated from the front, and now his back hole which is getting used to Jian Kang Lu''s finger, also twitching, eager and welcoming the intrusion. Their bodies are very honest, and already know each other very well.


    The hot mouth and tongue kept stimulating him, letting Bai Yutang''s desire flamed to the peak. His hands caress his lover''s head, feel the soft short hair between his fingers.


    "Gege.. It feels so good.."

 Chapter 182 - Wet Night (NSFW)

    When Bai Yutang felt that dishonest finger of his lover try to push itself to his entrance, Bai Yutang grip Jian Kang Lu''s wrist and beg him between his raspy breath, "Gege.. No.."


    Jian Kang Lu knows what his kitten means with that rejection. It was not because his kitten doesn''t want to, but because he was uncomfortable if he didn''t clean himself. As a doctor, Jian Kang Lu also know the best way to enjoy sex is not only succumb to their lust, but also put the hygiene as priority.


    Thus Jian Kang Lu just satisfied himself with kneading those supple butts, sucked his kitten shaft harder and moved his mouth faster before he finally stood up and held his kitten''s butt, pulled up the man he loved the most and walked to their bedroom.


    All the way to the bedroom, they didn''t stop kissing each other. Bai Yutang''s lust pushed to the peak of desire. Their agile tongue dancing with each other, writing and imbuing their mark to each other''s soul.


    The wet sound from their fiery kiss echoed from the living room to the bedroom. Jian Kang Lu didn''t stop walking, and went straight to the bathroom. Bai Yutang''s hand was already stuck to his neck, the legs wrapping Jian Kang Lu''s waist like an octopus to prevent himself from slipping down.


    Can''t be denied, when a man burned with desire, his inner strength is no joke. Bai Yutang''s weight is 58 kg, but Jian Kang Lu didn''t feel the weight at all, as if he just held a pack of cotton instead of a grown up man.


    Once in the bathroom, Bai Yutang slipped down and laid his back to the cold tiles. His legs are already bare naked. He suddenly remembered his pants still left in the living room, near the door. But who cares about those pants at this moment.


    Jian Kang Lu let his kitten''s hand strip him naked while he unbutton his kitten''s shirt. Soon both of them were standing naked. The kiss still goes on, as if their tongue can''t bear to leave those wet caves of their soulmate.


    Jian Kang Lu threw their clothes away and turned on the warm water, washed both of them clean. He does it at lightning speed, including washing his kitten''s hole clean. At first, his kitten always rejects Jian Kang Lu to clean his hole, preferring to do it by himself. But along the way, his kitten didn''t reject him again.


    Just like old couples who threw away their dignity, such as farting at each other without shame anymore, his kitten is also accustomed to Jian Kang Lu cleaning his hole before they make love.


    His kitten''s hand still hugged his neck, his head laid on Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder. His soft moan from Jian Kang Lu''s finger which probes into that hole is like a song of incubus to Jian Kang Lu''s ear.


    Inviting him to invade those tight holes soon. Ravage it, plunder it, conquer it.


    Once Jian Kang Lu finishes with his preparation, he pushes his legs in between his kitten''s legs. He took one of his kitten''s legs, put his hand on the back of Bai Yutang''s one knees, and prepared his own penis who erect proudly to probe into that seductive hole.


    Both of them do their routine medical check up. Both of them also didn''t sleep around, so lately they never use condoms anymore. Jian Kang Lu spit his own saliva to his hand, and smear it to his own penis, using it as a natural lubricant.


    They made love two days ago, so Bai Yutang''s hole ready to accept it without much lubricant. But saliva was not as slippery as the oil lubricant they usually used, so Jian Kang Lu took a deep breath when his kitten''s tight hole clamped the tip of his penis.


    "Baby, please relax it, don''t squeeze me so tight."


    Bai Yutang''s head still laid on Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder, and he took a deep breath, trying to relax his hole as much as he could. His body trembled when Jian Kang Lu  moved to push his penis inside, bit by bit.


    He can''t help not to bite Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder when his lover can''t take it anymore and decide just to thrust it until all his penis buried inside.


    "Ugh, why are you still so tight, baby? Can I move?" Jian Kang Lu whispered in Bai Yutang''s ear.


    Without waiting for an answer, Jian Kang Lu moved, and not slowly. He started to thrust fiercely. It was so warm and tight, as if Bai Yutang''s hole created for his penis. It twitched and massaged Jian Kang Lu''s penis so hard. So lewd.


    In this position, the tip of Jian Kang Lu''s penis constantly rubbed Bai Yutang''s prostate, and he can''t help but moan so hard. It burned his nerve, the scalding heat from the friction of the movement left Bai Yutang''s soul flamed up like a moth to the fire. Bai Yutang brought his lips, pressed on his lover''s lips, kissed him fiercely.


    The kiss left both of them breathless. The sound of flesh impact echoed in the bathroom and aroused them even more.


    "Ungh.. Gege.. Don''t stop.." It just felt too good. His breath irregularly tries to catch the air. His brain muddled from the burning sensation. His hands had already lost their strength.


    Bai Yutang''s hip can''t move since he is just standing on one leg, while the other leg is still held by Jian Kang Lu. His hand can only circling his lover''s neck tight to prevent himself from slipping down, since his standing legs already melted like soft jelly from the repeated thrust.


    Jian Kang Lu''s penis kept moving back and forth, scratching his inner wall, pushing him to feel the spark. His own penis rubbed between their abdomen, and soon he can''t bear it anymore. The helpless sensation of half hanging here in the bathroom, their wet body makes the skin feel hot and cold at the same time.


    Bai Yutang''s body trembled more and more. "Gege.. Ngh.. Stop.. Stop.. Don''t make me cum yet.." Bai Yutang can''t help but pull Jian Kang Lu''s hair and try to push his head away.


    As if Jian Kang Lu was suddenly deaf, he kept moving faster and faster, his other hand grabbed his kitten''s waist and didn''t step back even an inch. Bai Yutang can''t control it, his body trembled and the hot body fluid sprayed thin in the middle of their abdomen.


    "Ahhh!"


    Jian Kang Lu''s hand moved to hold Bai Yutang''s chin, fiercely plundering his breath. Bai Yutang''s eyes already lost focus and hazy from the ejaculation period. He could only open his mouth and let Jian Kang Lu invade his mouth roughly, accepting this excessive kiss.


    Jian Kang Lu stopped kissing his kitten, he pulled Bai Yutang up with his penis still buried inside. Then he moved slowly and walked to their bedroom. He didn''t even dry their body. This is summer, the weather is still warm and humid, the air conditioner in their room has not yet turned on. He didn''t need to worry his kitten would catch a cold.


    When he walks in this position, naturally his penis will bounce and thrust Bai Yutang''s hole with every step.


    "No.. Gege.. I just.. Ah! I just cum.." Bai Yutang can''t help to bite his lover''s shoulder again. The sensation is overwhelming. All his nerves were still so sensitive, yet his lover didn''t stop at all. Hanging in the air like this makes the hard rod of his lover penetrate him deep, again and again.


    "Sshh.. Don''t blame me. Who told you to be this sexy?" Jian Kang Lu nibbling Bai Yutang''s soft ear lobe once again when he whispered.


    Even when Jian Kang Lu put Bai Yutang on the bed, his penis still attached to the hole, didn''t want to separate even for one second.


    "Gege.. Please pull it out first.." Bai Yutang knows he still can do the second round, but he needs at least a few minutes break.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled softly, even though he didn''t want to, but he still pulled his penis slowly out from that warm wet hole.


    "Then rubbed me, use your saliva." Jian Kang Lu commanded his kitten, put his erection near his kitten''s face.


    Bai Yutang''s face already flushed red from the love making, and now even redder to hear his lover''s shameless request. Even though he felt his lover getting more and more shameless in bed, he still followed his lover''s command.


    He smeared his saliva to his palm, and started to rub his lover''s shaft which didn''t soften at all, even getting harder under his caress.


    Bai Yutang''s skill on hand job is still below Jian Kang Lu, but still improving day by day. He was already accustomed to his lover''s sensitive spot. The tip, the base, and the area below it''s head. He rubbed it in a steady motion.


    Jian Kang Lu looked down, watching his kitten''s breath which was still heavy, his red face, unfocus eyes, but still earnestly doing hand job for him. 3 minutes later Jian Kang Lu smiled and moved away.


    "I guess your hole already resting enough." He broke his kitten''s limb to spread it apart, squeezed between his legs, and spit to his kitten''s hole. He gently rubbed the slightly red hole, watching it twitching, an exciting visual to any man.


    Jian Kang Lu held one of Bai Yutang''s thighs and put them on his shoulder. He pressed his slender waist and slowly inserted his hard penis into Bai Yutang''s twitching hole.


    Bai Yutang''s body tense in an instant. This is the first night for them to continuously fuck without any oil lubricant. His wet eyes looked at Jian Kang Lu through the crack in his arms, his eyes moist and his mouth slightly opened.


    "Ngh.. Gege.."

 Chapter 183 - A Long Long Night (NSFW)

    -- Warning, this chapter is NSFW. If you''re not comfortable with it, please skip it¡ª


    "Baby.. Relax for a bit.." Jian Kang Lu can''t understand how his kitten''s hole today was tighter than before. Maybe because they didn''t use oil lubricant like usual. He pulled his erected penis out and massaged the open entrance once again, smeared his saliva once again, and then inserted his hot erection once again.


    Bai Yutang leaned his neck back and bit his lips tightly, trying to adapt to the flesh blade squeezed into his body little by little. He just reached his ejaculation not even 10 minutes ago, so the wide spread hole back to it''s constricted muscle, full of sensitivity from outside stimulation. It didn''t hurt, but slightly uncomfortable.


    Jian Kang Lu saw a drop of water fall from his temples to his kitten''s chest.. Their body is still wet, a mixture of water and body sweat, and a little bit of his kitten''s milky liquid. He kisses his kitten''s rosy bud, mumbling. "I just fuck you few minutes ago, why are you still so tight? Are you uncomfortable? Please relax a bit, don''t be so tight. I want to go in.."


    Bai Yutang''s red face was so enchanting for Jian Kang Lu. Once he nibbled his kitten''s rosy bud, he could hear his kitten''s soft moan escaping from that swollen lips. His breath grew heavier, warm breath sprayed thin to Jian Kang Lu''s forehead.


    Jian Kang Lu seemed to be greatly encouraged hearing those moans. He pulled the pillow under Bai Yutang''s waist, raised his buttocks, and moved his waist to penetrate into Bai Yutang''s thin body.


    "Ngh!" Bai Yutang moaned at a loss and stretched out his hand, grabbed the sheets tightly. He could feel his lover''s erection poke inside, reached so deep.


    Jian Kang Lu suppressed the desire to twitch, slowly went deep and shallowly, pulled out and thrust inside, trying to completely open this tight passage once again.


    Bai Yutang''s intermittent moan kept escaping from his throat. The voice was between intense pleasure and discomfort. In Jian Kang Lu''s ears, every sound seemed to be the strongest aphrodisiac in this world.


    He looked at his kitten''s eyes. Those hazy dark orbs framed by the shaped of phoenix eyes, stare back at him. The eyes filled with the same desire, and rippled with affection. The greatest sensation of this animal instinct between humans is when love enveloped the two separate bodies united into one.


    Jian Kang Lu''s head full of sweat, he grasped Bai Yutang''s buttocks and left a red five finger mark on it. The beast inside him roaring hard.


    ''This man is his. His and his alone. Completely, from head to toe, from outside to inside. All belong to him.''


    Jian Kang Lu held Bai Yutang;s waist and pulled up impatiently. The narrow passage is tight and hot. Every time Jian Kang Lu entered he could sense the pleasure of being squeezed tightly but the warm and moist meat wall. Jian Kang Lu can''t help to growl, let the animal inside him celebrate this invasion.


    He has longed for this person for so long, he has loved this person for so long, yet every time they make love, it always gives him new sensation. Ordinary person will get bored and tired with repeated routine lives. But with his kitten, Jian Kang Lu never felt like that. The more he tastes his kitten, the more he thirsts for him.


    It can''t be denied that his kitten''s body is truly divine, or maybe their sexual compatibility is so high. The great physical pleasure can be ignored, but the psychological satisfaction alone is enough to submerge him.


    This is the man he loved, and loved him back. The man and the only thing in this world that truly belongs to him. He finally regained what he always wanted, someone who was willing to be with him until the end of time. Someone who wants to fight together with him no matter what difficulties they will face in the future.


    The disappointment and frustration he had experienced is nothing compared to the happiness of this moment. It was worth everything he had in the past.


    Jian Kang Lu could feel the heat spreading from the place they unite, burning his whole body. He was so excited, as if his whole body was a container full of colourful emotions. Through these movements of slow thrusting, he wanted to ignite the same flame and passed the same feelings to his kitten.


    Jian Kang Lu separated Bai Yutang''s legs to the maximum, and quickly pulled it out with his waist.


    The hot and thick rod is like a red hot soldering iron. The process of entering and leaving Bai Yutang''s hole also lit his whole body.


    Jian Kang Lu moved faster once he felt the meat wall ready to fully accept his penis. Maybe because they only use saliva, the tight passage always squeezed him tight every time he thrust inside. Twitching like mad.


    Jian Kang Lu can''t help to hit Bai Yutang''s buttocks one after a time, and each time it is accompanied with soft cries from his kitten''s mouth. The whole room soon involved in this erotic whirlpool.


    Bai Yutang''s rim of eyes turned red. The sensation is overwhelming. Each time Jian Kang Lu hit his buttocks, it was like sending a n electric shockwave. "Gege.. Slow.. Slow down, akh.. Slow..w.. Plea..se.. Gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu seemed to ignore his kitten''s plea, he thrusted even faster, kept ravaging Bai Yutang''s body forward, then pulled back by Jian Kang Lu grasping the tiny waist back to him and entered the body even deeper.


    The slapping of two meat hit each other made people''s ears numb. Bai Yutang''s body was made into a pool of mud by this fierce of sex, even his arms which once lingered on Jian Kang Lu naked chest and strong arm was finally slipped down and can''t be lifted. The pair of Bai Yutang''s arms just flail weakly on his side, following every wave of fierce movement of his lover.


    Jian Kang Lu escaped from his thick gasp in between, his chin was raised high as perfect as a sharp knife. The orb of sweat slid down his neck all the way to his strong chest. His whole body was stained with carnal desire.


    Bai Yutang''s moan was smashed by head, and finally he couldn''t even form a perfect sentence of mercy. His words already mumbled with the broken moans.


    Jian Kang Lu turned Bai Yutang over, made him kneel on the bed, and poke his big hot meat rod from behind.


    Bai Yutang''s face was already full of sweat, mixed a bit with a small amount of tears. He buried his face in the bed and wailed in a low voice. With the impact of the deep thrust from his lover, the desire of his lower body scratched on the sheets and tickled his desire to another high wave of pleasure.


    Jian Kang Lu hugged the thin waist of his kitten and forced him to raise his buttocks up. Even though his kitten is skinny, the amount of meat in the buttocks is just right. Supple yet not soft like a woman''s buttock. It was full of masculinity, hard but yet lovely to knead.


    The pretty pink hole in the middle of those hills was close to be seen in front of Jian Kang Lu. It was a bit red from the rampage of thrusting. He held Bai Yutang''s waist, pushed him deep at a time, then gently withdrew and pushed it again to the end.


    Bai Yutang''s throat has been hoarse, he can''t even think clearly. Any man''s mind will be erased and reseted into the basic function of the brain, only follow the instinct, overruled by the body''s command.


    Even though Bai Yutang want to plead for mercy, yet his hips moving along with Jian Kang Lu movement, as if seducing him to fuck him more and more.


    Jian Kang Lu is completely occupied by desire. While slapping the snow white buttocks until it turned red, he fiercely attacked that heavenly hole that brought him infinite pleasure.


    Jian Kang Lu raised one of his knees up, putting his legs on the side of Bai Yutang''s flailing body. This allowed him to have a bigger momentum when he entered his kitten''s hole. Pulled out, and pushed in. The movement repeated for how long, he didn''t even know.


    "Gege.. Gege.. Ah.. Please.."


    Jian Kang Lu could feel his kitten''s body twirling, begging him to touch his abandoned penis. He moved his legs back to kneel, then he raised his kitten''s left leg up, letting it rest on his left arm.


    Bai Yutang yelped and almost stumbled if Jian Kang Lu didn''t hold him tight. Bai Yutang will be ashamed if he realizes his position right now is no different with a dog peeing. Jian Kang Lu''s left thighs keep touching his flailing penis every time he thrusts deep into Bai Yutang''s hole.


    The movement of his lover seems to tease his prostate, fast and slow, then fast again. Jian Kang Lu''s breath is also heavy and sweat rolling all over his body.


    "I won''t touch your penis, I want you to cum without it. Just feel my dick fuck you deep inside."


    It was rare for his lover to be this cruel. Bai Yutang could only wail and moan, wishing so badly for his lover to touch it. He is already on the verge of peak desire. Just like a glass filled with water so full until it almost spilled out.


    The sensation of poking deep again and again finally breaks his mind. It''s almost there.. This is the first time for him to be fucked without being touched at all. Every time his hands tremble and want to move down there, his lover will fiercely hit his buttock.


    The sparks start slow, like a small firecracker. Then it grew and grew with each thrust.


    "Gege, faster.. I.. Akh!.. Please, faster.."


    Jian Kang Lu''s eyes were already layered with a red mist of desire. "Call me Lao Gong1, then i''ll let you cum."


    With this intense love making, Bai Yutang''s brain and dignity are already reduced to ash. He mumbled in between his moans, "Lao.. Lao Gong.. Please.. Faster.. Let.. Ungh, let me cum, ahh.. Lao Gong.."


    Once Jian Kang Lu heard that, as if he was injected with strong medicine, he moved faster like crazy and pumped Bai Yutang''s hole so deep and fast. He heard his kitten repeat that endearment over and over again, poking his heart with unknown satisfying happiness. This is the first time someone called him that way.


    "Gege.. I..Cum.. Akh!" Bai Yutang screamed when the fireworks in his brain exploded. His body trembling, the thick liquid sprayed and dropped into the bed sheet. Drop by drop splattered around, following his dick flailing movement from his lover''s fierce thrust. At the same time he also heard his lover''s growling low and called his name over and over again.


    "TangTang.. TangTang.. Baby.. You are mine.. TangTang.. Ugh!!!"


    Jian Kang Lu''s fast thrust suddenly stopped once he planted that hot iron rod deep inside. The scorching body fluids were spilled inside Bai Yutang''s body. The meat wall inside him felt hot and moist.


    Bai Yutang knows his lover is just cum inside him so deep. Then his lover moved a little bit, and hit him deep again, and again. As if his lover wants his hole to squeeze every drop of those thick milky liquid from his penis.


    Jian Kang Lu breathing hard, he already put his kitten''s trembling legs back to the bed. He hugged Bai Yutang from behind, licked his ears and touched Bai Yutang''s chest with both hands.


    "I love you so much baby.. So so much.."


    Bai Yutang couldn''t even say a word. His whole body, like being fished out of water, slowly collapsed under Jian Kang Lu''s arms.


    Jian Kang Lu also tired from this savage sex tonight. He completely lost his self control, almost exhausted his physical strength at one time. But somehow he also felt so energetic, and didn''t want this night to end.


    He kissed his kitten''s neck and back, leaving a string of crimson marks on his kitten''s bare skin. His hands were not idle. His fingertips pinch the small bud on Bai Yutang''s chest


    His other hands slid down and teased the soon to be soft sexual organ of his kitten. His own penis not yet left his kitten''s body. It tickled Bai Yutang''s sensitive nerve after he reached his peak, and he tried to run away from this naughty hand of his lover. In the middle of his struggle, a bit of Jian Kang Lu''s seed that planted inside Bai Yutang''s hole flowed out a bit.


    "Gege.. Out.." Bai Yutang wanted to shout but he didn''t even have any energy left.


    "Baby.." Jian Kang Lu licked and nibbled the soft earlobe, "Let me stay inside longer. I want to do it again. If I pull it out, your hole will tighten again and i can''t get inside anymore."


    Bai Yutang wants to scream and can''t believe this shameless man behind him is the gentle and loving lover he used to be. "Out.." Bai Yutang could only let this low pleading since he doesn''t have energy to slap his lover.


    Instead of going out, Jian Kang Lu twisted his waist. Even though his own penis already softened and not as lethal as before, the back hole of Bai Yutang was just being brutally ravaged, and it was still too sensitive from his second ejaculation. Bai Yutang''s waist bowed down immediately.


    Jian Kang Lu laughed and hugged his kitten body, then with his penis still planted inside, he laid down in the bed, hugging his kitten from the back. One of his hands is still fondling Bai Yutang''s soft meat between his legs.


    Bai Yutang already let his tears pinched out from his eyes, this is too much! "Gege.. Please stop.. Uh uh.."


    His lover is still ignoring him. Bai Yutang then begged him, "Lao Gong.. Please.."


    Jian Kang Lu instantly stopped his naughty hand and finally pulled out his half softened penis. He hugged his kitten tight and kissed his soft damp hair. The lingering love words stay whispered to Bai Yutang''s ear.


    Bai Yutang can''t believe when he is almost half asleep due to tiredness, his lover''s hardened penis once again pokes his butt from behind. His brain no longer works, his body also weak. He could only let his lover do him, come again at him vigorously.


    It was indeed a long night for both of them.

 Chapter 184 - Night Club

    It was past lunch time, Jian Kang Lu just finished his ward visit. Lately he tried to reduce his patient amount, delegate it to his junior. But for VIP ward, it was the patient''s right to choose their main physician. There''s nothing he can do.


    The ward at lunch time was not as crowded as dinner time. People usually visit their relatives treated here at night, after they go home from work. But nevertheless, the ward corridor is still filled with the patient''s caretaker who stays with the patient and now try to find their own lunch if they didn''t order the lunch to be taken inside the patient''s room.


    Jian Kang Lu say goodbye to the nurses and walked out, he had lunch appointment with Zhao Yang, his junior and fellow nephrologist. Zhao Yang seemed to want to beseech his advice for registering his research to international journal society.


    So many international journal societies, but their prestige is different. Some of the journals that have the highest point for research is the journal indexed by Scopus. Zhao Yang is paving his way to get his professor title, which needs a lot of international journal publication..


    Jian Kang Lu was famous for helping his professor''s research to be smoothly accepted in Scopus indexed journals, even though he himself didn''t submit much research. A lot of his juniors also ask for his favour if they are stuck in some stage of submitting their research.


    While walking to the cafe in the hospital, where Jian Kang Lu will meet Zhao Yang there, he looked at his phone, smiling to see his kitten''s message. He replied to that message:


    [Baby, I just finished my ward visit. What do you have for your lunch? I''ll have mine with Zhao Yang in a cafe here in hospital.]


    Once Jian Kang Lu reached the cafe, his phone vibrated. Once he sat, he looked at his phone. His sparkling eyes showed he expected his kitten to reply to his message. Too bad what he saw is notification from his bank, automatic notification that his card was used on a restaurant in a shopping mall.


    Jian Kang Lu knew it was Bai Yuren. Jian Kang Lu gave her the credit card for her usage with YingYing on their vacation here. Just like her brother, Bai Yuren didn''t use much even though he already stated it was free to use even if Bai Yuren wanted to go shopping.


    Actually, from Bai Yuren''s point of view, she already abused Jian Kang Lu''s credit card. She bought a summer dress, bag, shoes, books, cute earrings, ate at nice restaurants, and a few of little things girls like to buy.


    But of course, the monetary abuse level of a university student with 1000 yuan monthly allowance is different from a famous doctor with total income almost 100.000 yuan per month.


    Even when Jian Kang Lu wants to buy a car for his kitten''s usage, his kitten rejects it under pretence that he can''t drive. He also absolutely rejected Jian Kang Lu''s offer to hire a driver for him.


    Why was it so difficult to let him pamper his kitten? But Jian Kang Lu can''t deny that this is one of his kitten''s charms. Jian Kang Lu knows very well that it was so difficult to reject someone''s pampering. He himself indulged in his kitten''s way of pampering him.


    Every morning he wakes up with a freshly made breakfast made by his kitten. Their apartment is always clean due to both of them hate dirty things. If he was very tired but still needed to review his resident''s project, his kitten will pat his back softly in the bed and silently encourage him to finish his duty.


    When Jian Kang Lu sat down and ordered his lunch, he called Zhao Yang. "Zhao Yang, i''m already at the cafe. What do you want for your lunch? I''ll order it along with mine."


    Zhao Yang knows Jian Kang Lu didn''t really put seniority between them, but still he rushed and packed his laptop while answering, "Sorry senior, i''m going there now. Can you order chicken steak for me? And cucumber juice. Thank you."


    Jian Kang Lu placed his order and his phone vibrating again. It was from Bai Yuren.


    "Hello, RenRen. What''s the matter?"


    Bai Yuren''s crisp voice was heard along with a bustling sound as the background. "Jian Ge, can I buy another dress for our clubbing this Saturday? And for YingYing too?"


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, "I told you the card is free for you to use. Heard your academic report this semester is very good, you girls deserve to have fun."


    "Thank you Jian Ge! You''re the best!"


    The call is not even 1 minute long. Jian Kang Lu smiled, it''s been so long he didn''t pamper someone like this, since his own kitten won''t let him do that.


    Following his promise on New Year, Jian Kang Lu agreed to take Bai Yuren and YingYing for clubbing this Saturday night. He told his kitten to invite his friends also.


    On Jian Kang Lu''s side, it''s been years since last visited a nightclub. The best night club in his last visit, which was more than 7 years ago, is now already closed. Night club''s trend always shift every few years, since people always search for the new hip place to go.


    Jian Kang Lu also contacts his friend and asks them to go together, for he doesn''t want to be the only old uncle among these bunch of youngsters. Sun Hongjia and Luo Yuan agreed to go, along with Song Lixia, Luo Yan''s wife.


    Sun Hongjia suggested they go to V club. It was established 6 years ago, owned by Sun Hongjia''s nephew from his maternal uncle.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t doubt Sun Hongjia''s suggestion, since three of them like to do bar hopping back in those days.


    Soon the days went by, and Saturday came around. Jian Kang Lu told the girls that they will go out at 8 pm since they will have dinner first at the steak restaurant, then they will go to the club around 9.30 pm.


    Back in his wild days, Jian Kang Lu and his friends were going out at 11 pm and going back at 3 in the morning. But considering his kitten''s sleeping time, and the crowd today is not a party animal, 9.30 pm is a safe choice.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled to see his handsome kitten dressed meticulously in front of their big mirror at the dressing room. His kitten wears his black long sleeve shirt with dark blue lines around the neck and back. His sleeves rolled to his elbow, and he used his new watch. An exclusive titanium thin watch, a gift for their monthly anniversary as well as his graduation gift.


    He wrapped his arms around his kitten''s tiny waist. "Whose boyfriend is this? So handsome.." He put his lips in his kitten''s white nape and licked the sensitive area below his kitten''s earlobe.


    Bai Yutang turned his head and kissed the man back. "Yours, all yours. When will your blindness be cured?" Bai Yutang can''t help but curse inside. No matter how handsome he dressed, he couldn''t be compared to his lover.


    "I''m not blind. If i blind, then my whole family is also blind." Jian Kang Lu can''t help rub his head to his kitten''s neck. It may be an animal instinct within, to wrap his scent to his kitten. Mark this man as his property.


    Both of them kissed softly for a minute, before they went out and called for Bai Yuren and YingYing. Four of them go out together and have a lovely dinner in a cozy restaurant.


    Once they reached the club, Bai Yuren was already busy whispering with YingYing and satisfied her eyes with looking at the hip crowd in front of the club.


    She already looked on the internet, and this club is one of the most famous and certainly one of the best clubs in B city. V club located in the B city main nightlife areas. The best club indeed will have their guests dressed very well. The girls are wearing sexy summer mini dresses, revealing their soft white skin yet not vulgar at all. The men are handsome. Their age looked varied, from teenager to mature.


    Many people there but not crowded yet, since the peak hour will be at midnight. The four people standing in front of the club, waiting for Bai Yutang''s friends. Yu Dong and Mu Xiaoya, Tang Yuxuan and Fei Hong, Liu Xiang, and also Feng Mian came along. They gather together also to celebrate Bai Yutang''s graduation.


    Once the crowd gathered, they went inside. Sun Hongjia and others have not yet arrived. When Jian Kang Lu wants to pay for the entrance fee, suddenly a young man in early thirties approaches them.


    "Jian Ge, i''ve been waiting for you. Why didn''t you call me?"


    Jian Kang Lu recognised this man, this is the owner of V club, Sun Hongjia''s relatives. "Xiao Zhan, I almost didn''t recognise you. Are you going to the gym lately? You look well. No need to bother you, I just bring these teenagers to visit your club. Your Ge is still on the way, not yet here."


    Hui Yi Zhan smiled and waved his hand, "Inspired by you, Jian Ge. How come your body still looked the same as years ago? Come, my Ge told me to prepare the private room on the second floor for you." He skilfully rejected the payment from Jian Kang Lu.


    Jian Kang Lu followed him and smiled back, "Thank you, Xiao Zhan. But I will definitely pay for drink we order, don''t look down on my credit card limit."


    Hui Yi Zhan once again waved his hand, "Don''t make me ashamed, Jian Ge. I still remember you won''t accept payment also when my uncle hospitalised in your hospital."


    The youngsters following Jian Kang Lu and Hui Yi Zhan like a duckling follow their mother. Bai Yuren looked at her left and right. The club is recognized by many as the best venue for dance/house music in B city and is overall one of the most crowded mega clubs of the capital.


    The club is divided into two parts, the main floor is a big dance floor surrounded by tables and sofas, also a big circular bar circling the floor like a crescent moon. The main stage is occupied by the DJ with a big screen on the back. The laser light plays according to the music''s beat, filled with energetic ambience.


    The second floor also has bars with lighter ambience. They followed Hui Yi Zhan into the second floor, then went inside one of the private rooms guarded by big muscular men. The private area is not easily seen by the public. The second floor has 6 private rooms.


    When they went inside, there was a karaoke set in the room. One of the walls is one side see through glass. People inside the room can see the dance floor easily down there, while the people down there can''t see them.


    The waiter and waitress stand by inside the room, waiting with some drinks already spread in the big table.


    Bai Yuren''s eyes widened when she saw the room, she quickly peeked at the glass wall and looked at the beautiful people down there moving their body along with the music. The dance floor is not yet heated and crowded, but the tables with the sofa are already fully occupied with the crowd as pretty as multi color butterflies showing off their glittering wings.

 Chapter 185 - Girls Talk

    The girls quickly form a group on the sofa near the glass wall. Bai Yutang didn''t know what they were talking about, but their laugh was certainly loud, thoroughly defeating the music which transmitted from outside to inside the room through the installed high tech sound system.


    People used to say that men were the creatures more shameless and attracted to beauty through the visual. But that may be an old assumption made by the restrained culture where women are told to stay at home and be obedient.


    Women in the modern era are equal with men. They have the same right and duty. No such thing as women have to take care of children at home and men are the only one need to work, earn money.


    If you look closely, women now work to earn money for their family, and still take care of the family at home. Together with the men, they have the same responsibility. Men also weren''t ashamed to wash laundry, feed the children, or clean the house.


    Women and men are now equal..


    Bai Yutang really learned it the hard way. Even in lust, women and men are now equal. Bai Yutang can''t believe when his ear catches his sister''s voice talking about how she wants to touch the pectoral muscle of the blue shirt boy down there.


    At first Bai Yutang and the others really can''t catch what the ladies talk about. Bai Yutang and his friend engage in a conversation, congratulating him for his graduation. It''s been more than one month since the four of them gathered together last time. There''s much to talk and certainly a lot of swearing needed to vent about their job.


    With who else they can vent how shitty their unreasonable client nor how cruel their boss is when they need to do overtime. Sleep deprivation. Long hour in front of the screen. Heated argument with the vendor. And most of all, the lazy and annoying partner in their own team.


    All of these they can''t talk to their friends at work. Not that they don''t have close friends at work, but talking about your boss or your teammate to another person at the same working place is unreasonable. Who can guarantee the person you talk to won''t twist your words and spread it into malicious comment.


    That''s what they learned from Zhen Guo and Jian Kang Lu when they gave them tips and tricks in the working place when they graduated, and also what they learned when they saw how Bai Yutang was slandered in his last year of university. It was the best to vent to your trusted person. A person you know for years, and you trust their judgement too.


    Bai Yutang was still listening to Liu Xiang''s swear vocabulary, cursing eight generations of his workmate. At that time, his lover who sat next to him suddenly circled his waist and brought Bai Yutang closer to him.


    "Sorry Liu Xiang, I borrowed TangTang for a while." Jian Kang Lu raises his voice volume to defeat the music, cutting Liu Xiang''s lamentation.


    Jian Kang Lu brings Bai Yutang and introduces him properly to Hui Yi Zhan. "TangTang, this is Hui Yi Zhan, Sun Hongjia''s relative. He owns this club."


    Bai Yutang politely nods and raises his hand before Hui Yi Zhan does. It was the right courtesy as a younger person to lower yourself in front of the older person.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t let Bai Yutang continue his own introduction, and just tightened his arms around Bai Yutang''s waist. "Xiao Zhan, this is my boyfriend, Bai Yutang. These youngsters are his friend and his sister. Please take care of them if they ever visit your club again."


    Hui Yi Zhan''s face didn''t show any changes after hearing Jian Kang Lu''s introduction. He even teased Jian Kang Lu, "No wonder you still look the same as the last time we met, Jian Ge. Having a young and handsome boyfriend indeed the most effective ageless elixir."


    Jian Kang Lu laughed, "I know I''m old, no need to remind me of that. How about you? Married yet?"


    Hui Yi Zhan waved his hand, "Not yet Jian Ge. Please introduce me to beautiful and kind sisters. And how about your boyfriend and his friend applied for our membership card? No need to pay for the first year. My treat."


    Bai Yutang hurriedly rejected it, he could imagine how expensive the yearly fee of this exclusive club was. "No need, Mr. Hui. We rarely come to clubs like this."


    Hui Yi Zhan stared at Bai Yutang for a while, then he chuckled. "That''s good then. I still gain profit if you come here with your friend one day. And if you have my club''s membership, you''ll come here next time instead of coming to another club."


    No wonder this man could hook Jian Kang Lu, Hui Yi Zhan thought. Ordinary men usually can''t stand to reject an offer like this, Some even hug their golden thighs tight, looking for more and more benefits they could squeeze.


    At first looking at this ordinary young man, Hui Yi Zhan is just sceptical, and thinks that Bai Yutang is the same like a million young men who latch themselves tightly to men like Jian Kang Lu, like him, like Sun Hongjia.


    But it seems he was wrong. A man like Jian Kang Lu won''t be blind and dating a shallow young man.


    With that reasonable feedback, how could Bai Yutang with his limited experience could refute? This level of conversation is only suitable for Jian Kang Lu and his friends who were veteran on refused offers from various people.


    The waiter and waitress stand by waiting for instruction. They will leave on instruction also. For now they skilfully came and asked these young masters and young ladies, which drink they want to drink first, or they prefer cocktail mix. These waiters also had some skill in mixing cocktails.


    Bai Yutang was afraid his sister would go wild and drink anything these waiters offer, thus he excused himself and stood up approaching his sister. He walks there to remind his sister not to drink so much and take it slowly. Bai Yutang still remembers the time when he drank and wasted on his last year''s birthday, when he separated from his lover.


    That''s when he found that girls are scarier than boys.


    "Look at the table at 2 o''clock. Oh God.. Boys from the capital surely have different levels." YingYing grabbed Bai Yuren''s hair.


    "Ouch! Leave my ponytail alone! It took me almost 15 minutes to make this slick ponytail!"


    Feng Mian sits and shakes her head, "You''re wrong. Boys from the capital are still like radishes compared to those male Gods. Maybe they are some models or trainees."


    "How about the boys in T university, JieJie?" Ying Ying asked.


    Mu Xiaoya snorted, "Look at the boys at your left. Those are boys from T university."


    "But Tang Ge and Liu Ge are handsome. Jian Ge is also very handsome." Bai Yuren said.


    Fei Hong and Feng Mian answered at the same time, "They are exceptions, especially Jian Ge."


    Mu Xiaoya nodded, "Indeed. Jian Ge is an anomaly. Look at my boyfriend, that''s the majority of male population in T university."


    Feng Mian swipes her hand to the table down there filled with handsome guys. "Those guys down there, my little juniors, are rare specimens you won''t find in T university."


    Bai Yuren starred with her drool dangerously almost dripping out, "Look at the guy with the blue shirt. Wish i could touch his pectoral muscle. Even from above I could see his muscle well sculpted."


    Ying Ying waves her index finger and points to one of the men, "You''re blind. Look at the guy with white shirt, his muscular arms looked so sexy. Imagine he hugs you from behind with those arms."


    Fei Hong nodded, "Agreed with YingYing. The white shirt guy is much better. His face from above shows he has a very good nose. I wonder what his lips look like from the front."


    "Fei Jie, your tastes are truly top notch! I could imagine him dancing like that while hugging me from behind. Oh My God, definitely so sexy."


    "Hug so tight while he put his chin on our shoulder, and dance slowly." Fei Hong replied to YingYing.


    "You''re so tall, Fei Jie. If it was me, his chin would be placed on the top of my head." YingYing said.


    "You already have a boyfriend, Fei Hong! Restrained your eyes! I prefer the black shirt guy, he looked calm and mature." Feng Mian elbowed her best friend.


    "Black shirt? Skinny guy? Are you sure you talk about the guy down there, not talking about Bai Yutang?" Fei Hong cruelly pokes her best friend''s sour point.


    Mu Xiaoya laughed, "Fei Jie! You''re so savage! Over kill!"


    Both Bai Yuren and YingYing looked at Feng Mian. They try to make sure their hearing is okay. A girl this pretty can''t be someone who notices a guy like his brother.


    The lights in the room a little bit dimmed. If the light were sufficient, they would definitely see Feng Mian''s face blushed from embarrassment. "Hey! At least my taste is good. It''s just the contender is too strong. I can''t win the competition. How could an apple compare to an orange?"


    Bai Yuren more or less understands what happened. Her mouth widely opened. How come a person as plain as her brother could attract a man like Jian Kang Lu and a woman like Feng Mian. It seems something is wrong with their brain and their eyes.


    Hearing this conversation, how could Bai Yutang come and risk his life to be butchered with these girls. So he came back and whispered to Yu Dong, asking him to remind his sister and the girls who start to drink and chat with the waitress. They laughed and pointed at the people down there again. Only God knows what else they talk about.


    Jian Kang Lu looked at his kitten whose face flushed with pink colour spreading from his cheek to his ear. "You''re not drinking yet but already blushing. Is this a new way of seducing me?" He whispered in his kitten''s ear. His hands were wandering on Bai Yutang''s back, caressing the sensitive spot on his kitten''s tail bone.


    Bai Yutang only pinches his lover''s naughty hand, and engages conversation with his friends again. How has his lover lately become more and more shameless in the public. Okay, this private room can''t be counted as a public area, but still!!


    Hui Yi Zhan suddenly stood up, "My Ge is already near. I''ll pick him up down there. Excuse me for a minute, Jian Ge."


    Jian Kang Lu nodded and sipped his tequila. Most men like to drink whiskey or cognac. But when clubbing, Jian Kang Lu enjoys tequila the most.


    Soon Sun Hong Jia arrived, followed by Luo Yan and Song Lixia. These people enjoy the conversation without turning on the karaoke system. None of them could sing well anyway.


    The dance floor down there is not crowded, but people start to fill it when their favourite song is played. Bai Yuren already drank one glass of dry martini. She grabbed YingYing''s hand. "Let''s go down there, and observe these prime specimens closely!"

 Chapter 186 - Dark History

    The clock shows it almost 11 o''clock, 1 hour before midnight. The club is crowded now. The alcohol also kicked up Bai Yuren''s brain. She rarely goes clubbing, but she liked it. The energy emitted from the people dance along the beat, the adrenaline rush enhanced with the playful lights, she loves the energy within.


    She also liked the beautiful dressed fairies around. It was so different with her dull environment in medical faculty. When the sun came up, she had to study hard to maintain her grade for scholarship.


    Only in few occasion she released all the pressure she had at days, watching the glittering life of night at the fullest. As if she didn''t have anything to think of. Merge her soul and body to the surroundings'' energy.


    She remembers the first time she tasted alcohol.. YingYing paid for the beer, and they enjoy the overpriced beer at the club in W city. She likes how the alcohol lightens her body, flapping her invisible wings.


    She can''t dance well, but who cares. No one will look at them. They are young girls, but not that attractive.


    But now, her future brother in law brings them to another level of this glittering world. The luxurious decor, the quality of music and the best sound system, the alcohol taste, all is very different from what she experienced before.


    Inside her body, adrenaline and serotonin mixed into a whirlpool, dragged her to the highest expectation and experience.


    Both of them excitedly stand up and walk toward Bai Yutang. She was not that drunk to leave alone without telling his brother.


    "Gege, i''ll go downstairs with YingYing." Bai Yuren half shouted.


    Bai Yutang frowned. Fei Hong and Feng Mian laughed, and they also walked to Bai Yutang''s side. "We''ll go with them, don''t worry."


    Tang Yuxuan stood up, "Let me go with you also." He grabbed Fei Hong''s hand.


    Bai Yutang and the other already know how possessive Tang Yuxuan can be. Bai Yutang sighed, "Okay, make sure you didn''t separate from your JieJie." He only can let Bai Yuren go. It was unreasonable if he forbade her.


    "Do you want to follow them, baby?" Jian Kang Lu whispered on Bai Yutang''s ear. He could see his kitten keep looking at Bai Yuren even when Bai Yuren already disappear, walk out the door.


    Bai Yutang shook his head, "No. I''m not comfortable with the loud music down there."


    Song Lixia scoots herself and sits next to Bai Yutang. "Ah, so different from Jian Ge. He used to be the devil on the dance floor."


    "Please don''t spread an unreliable rumor. My TangTang is so pure, he will believe anything you say, even though it was a big fat lie. I''m such an innocent young man corrupted by your husband." Jian Kang Lu curved his lips and poured the tequila for Song Lixia.


    "Shameless." Luo Yan waved his hand calling for the waiter, asking for them to mix another ice for his whiskey.


    Liu Xiang, Yu Dong and Mu Xiaoya, didn''t follow the crowd going downstairs. They are also the type of people who enjoy music but not the crowd. Without Zhen Guo, Liu Xiang''s unrestrained nature popped up.


    "Mrs. Song, please tell us the tale of Jian Ge''s glorious days back then." Liu Xiang said mischievously.


    "If you want to know his darkest era, I know the best." Sun Hongjia proudly presents himself. "Back then we could go bar hopping every week on holiday. No matter where we go, the bartender will remember Ah Lu''s face and name immediately, and will warmly welcome him if he ever comes back to the same bar."


    The youngsters widened their eyes and perked their ears high. This is like listening to bedtime stories, except they were not in bed right now.


    "Why?" Mu Xiaoya asked excitedly.


    Jian Kang Lu frowned, "Do you guys really need to slander me this way? Just because your wife is not here, you think you''re safe?"


    "You''re the one who sold my darkest days'' history to Lihua first. Now it''s my time to pay you back." Sun Hongjia leans his body towards the youngsters and continues his story. "Every time Jian Kang Lu appears, we''ll buy alcohol. But that''s not why the bartender loves Jian Kang Lu. It was because he was like a flower attracting butterflies. All the guys sitting near to us will engage in conversation with us and keep drinking. He had the talent to talk with anyone. All the girls will sit near him and flirt with him. Most of the guys around us then will flaunt their wealth and treat the girls. That way, we are at the centre of alcohol''s waves of order. The bartender which attended Jian Kang Lu happily achieved his target that night."


    Bai Yutang''s face is a little bit cold now. "Oh, flirting with girls.. I see.." His voice is soft, only Jian Kang Lu heard it. It triggered Jian Kang Lu''s panic.


    Song Lixia and Sun Hongjia laugh and don''t care about his code to stop this conversation. They cruelly continue. "He also likes to dance on the dance floor. He could dance well, but most of the time if he is not really drunk, he will create weird dances and make us follow his style. He named the dance with weird names such as ''washing in the river'' or ''monkey pick the banana'', and the girls who try to do their best with shaking their hips eventually even follow his moves. It was so chaotic. If you see him dance well along the music, it''s a sign he''s already drunk."


    Bai Yutang''s eyes now freeze and stare at his lover. Jian Kang Lu could only put his hands on his kitten''s ear, sheltering his eardrum from this dark history, "Enough, i never flirt with the girls." He tries to maintain his dignity.


    "Oh yeah? Then why do I remember you didn''t hesitate to exchange your phone number with them back then?" Luo Yan and Song Lixia blurt in unison. They laugh so loud to see Jian Kang Lu''s face.


    This is the first time, and their only chance for revenge on this devil. Previously Jian Kang Lu never cared about his image in front of his exes, or his bunch of admirers. Bai Yutang truly is the Achilles heel for their beloved friend.


    Jian Kang Lu himself now experienced what he called karma. He used to be the main speaker of his friend''s dark history revealer. Never occurred in his mind that one day he will experience the same thing.


    "I''m not like that, TangTang.." He cautiously coaxes his kitten.


    Liu Xiang laughed. Even though his best friend has a boyfriend instead of a girlfriend, it was good to see that his best friend at least treated properly. "TangTang, at least Jian Ge was the one who desperately asked for your number, instead of you pursuing Jian Ge." He teased Bai Yutang in a loud voice.


    "Yes! Besides, I''m old now. Who wants my number nowadays. It was you who I needed to guard well. My boyfriend is so handsome, so many insects will come to you if I don''t keep you well." Jian Kang Lu silently said his thanks to Liu Xiang.


    "Then, Jian Ge thought Feng Mian was also an insect?" Mu Xiaoya blinked innocently.


    Jian Kang Lu speechless. Why did he become the roasting object tonight? "Why don''t we look downstairs, did your sister do well? Come." He tried to divert his kitten''s attention and brought him to sit next to the glass wall.


    "Henpecked!" Sun Hongjia shouted and laughed with Luo Yan.


    Jian Kang lu calmly replied, "As fellow henpecked, we should not berate each other."


    Bai Yutang knew it was in the past. But he can''t help to regret why he didn''t born sooner and met Jian Kang Lu in his youth.


    "Baby, don''t be angry.. It was just their joke.." Jian Kang Lu whispered while kneading his palm. Bai Yutang resentfully whispered back, "I know, but i wish i was there so you never meet all those beautiful girls." Then he added, "And guys." He still remembers the dazzling Wu Shen, Jian Kang Lu''s ex boyfriend.


    Jian Kang Lu touched, but then he remembered, when he was having those wild days, his kitten not yet even in elementary school. If he meets his kitten sooner, then he will be a paedophilia for sure. He can''t help to shiver and his cold sweat dropped on his back.


    They drink and chat while looking at the crowd down there, trying to see where Bai Yuren and the others stand. One hour later, a few minutes after midnight, Bai Yutang''s phone vibrated. It was a phone call from Bai Yuren.


    "Gege, please come down here." Her voice a bit panicked.


    Bai Yutang abruptly stands up and half runs towards the door. Jian Kang Lu of course noticed his pale face and followed his kitten. He held his hand and calmed his kitten. "Is it a call from RenRen? Let''s go down together."


    Both of them ran downstairs, and didn''t even leave an explanation for the people inside the room. The club is so crowded, but Bai Yuren, still on the line, anxiously told them that they stood near the bar on the left stage.


    Once Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu reached there, they saw Tang Yuxuan and Fei Hong fiercely shouting to a group of men and women around their twenties. They looked like university students or fresh graduates. The same age group with Tang Yuxuan and others.


    Jian Kang Lu still holds his kitten''s hand and moves forward, "What''s going on, RenRen?"

 Chapter 187 - One Dance

    Bai Yuren looked panicked. YingYing anxiously stands next to her, while Feng Mian guarding her and shouting to a girl wearing a golden miniskirt who pointed her finger at YingYing.


    "Jian Ge, YingYing accidentally knocked at that girl, she claimed YingYing ruined her dress and even pulled YingYing''s hair. YingYing already apologised but they told her to pay for the ruined dress. Tang Ge and Fei Jie then shove the guy next to that girl who wants to pull YingYing and now they''re fighting."


    Jian Kang Lu moved forward between Tang Yuxuan and the crowd. He could see the girl stand in the middle wearing white see through dress which was now stained with blue colour. This happened often in the club, but he rarely saw people who make a fuss over this kind of thing.


    The girl and her crowd win in a number of people. It was 8 of them circling Bai Yuren and the others. They dress well, but a bit vulgar. Bai Yutang''s ears catch them mocking her sister..


    "How come this club receives this kind of people? Clumsily dance like villagers. Do they know how much this dress cost? Can they afford to buy??"


    "Look at their dress, and that plain ugly face, of course they don''t know Lian Jie''s dress price. They will have a heart attack once they know."


    Jian Kang Lu is too lazy to get involved in this kind of thing. He raised his hand and raised his voice. "How much? We''ll pay."


    The others who are still shouting silently look at Jian Kang Lu. Who is this man who suddenly muddled to their matter? Clearly this man is much older, but he was so handsome!


    "Tell him, Hong Lian. They should pay for your ruined dress." The snob guy who almost exchanged fist with Tang Yuxuan shouted.


    Tang Yuxuan and Fei Hong refused and tried to make Jian Kang Lu not pay these rude crowds. But Jian Kang Lu raised his palm and shut them up.


    "How much. Don''t just shout, just tell me how much." Jian Kang Lu calmly said.


    "4000 yuan." The girl said. She looked so soft, people won''t believe this kind of girl was the one who initiated the brawl in the bar like this.


    Jian Kang Lu reached for his phone. "Give me your account. I''ll transfer it right now."


    "Jian Ge.." Bai Yutang placed his hand on his lover''s arms. He doesn''t want Jian Kang Lu to pay, no matter what they look at this bunch of rude crowd, clearly seen that they just want to look for trouble.


    "It''s only 4000 yuan. No big deal." Jian Kang Lu calms his kitten. He stared back at the girl. "Give me the account now, we don''t want to deal with you longer."


    The girl slowly walks and tells Jian Kang Lu her bank account. Jian Kang Lu already opened his mobile banking and input the girl''s bank account number rapidly, then transfer 4000 yuan directly without saying any other words.


    "Is there any problem?" Sun Hongjia''s voice came from the back, piercing the loud music lingering in the club. Few people who sit on the sofa near there are staring at them, eager to watch the drama unfold.


    Sun Hongjia''s eyebrow is knotted, clearly he could see something is not right when he saw the young duckling''s face circling around Jian Kang Lu, and a bunch of kids standing in front of his best friend.


    Before the youngsters answered him, Hui Yi Zhan also came and frowned. He raised his hand slightly and two waiters came to him. He muttered some words and the waiters whispered some sentences.


    Hui Yi Zhan didn''t expect this kind of thing to happen in his club. Of course things like this are unavoidable, but he didn''t expect this to happen to his guests. Moreover, to Sun Hongjia''s guest.


    Jian Kang Lu finished the transfer in less than two minutes. He coldly said, "Done." Then he turned his head slightly, speaking to Sun Hongjia who was already standing next to him. "Kids, small matter."


    He then turned around and gestured to all the people standing here to walk out, "Come, it''s over." Then he walked to YingYing and Bai Yuren, "I''m sorry to let you girls experience this kind of thing. If you still want to be here, let me open one table here for you girls, so it is safer for you, don''t let this kind of crowd bother you."


    Bai Yuren and YingYing felt so bad, their mood already down. They want to go back to the room upstairs. But suddenly Feng Mian cut them, "It''s better to stay here and accept Jian Ge''s advice. Let''s show them the differences between us and them." While saying that, her eyes stare with full hostility to the girl wearing the electric blue dress who pulled YingYing''s hair previously.


    "Jian Ge.." Bai Yutang once again felt bad and uneasiness rose from his heart. He didn''t like this kind of confrontation.


    "MianMian is right. Why do we have to retreat because of them? We still haven''t enjoyed the crowd." Fei Hong encourages these two young girls.


    YingYing keeps silent, her eyes still red from the tears she shed previously. Bai Yuren looked at her, and she bravely said, "Okay Jian Ge, please find us the table. YingYing, let''s just stay here for another one hour, okay?"


    Jian Kang Lu turned his head to Hui Yi Zhan, "Xiao Zhan, I need to bother you once again."


    Hui Yi Zhan waved his hands, "I''m the one who needs to apologise, Jian Ge. Come.."


    They all then walk to the other side of the stage, where the empty sofa circling wide table with a reserved sign placed upon it. Hui Yi Zhan then politely gestured for them to sit there.


    The waiters magically appeared with some snacks, drinks and ice buckets, politely asking the crowd which drink they preferred.


    All this movement was truly a live action drama to some people in the club who have been watching them. The club is crowded, so not everyone notices this drama. But for those who notice, it was very interesting.


    The bunch of kids who were just looking for trouble with them were also stunned, and left hanging. Their emotion is still high, but the matter is done in a flash.


    Who are these people? At first they just look like a mediocre crowd who just come to the club then unfortunately meet mishap and get involved in a small quarrel with the other party. But then these men come and usher them to sit at the sofa table with utmost respect.


    Bai Yuren and the others didn''t notice, but the people with sharp eyes could see that suddenly few men in black clothes stand near the sofa table, guarding the ones who sit there.


    As one of the richest families in this country, Sun Hongjia used to go with his bodyguards. Don''t mention the bodyguards from Hui Yi Zhan''s side too. They trained to follow and guard the masters from a safe distance, but not too obvious.


    What they don''t know, Hui Yi Zhan already gives instructions to his people. They needed to record the faces of these hooligans and banned them from ever visiting his club again. He didn''t recognise them, so they must be small fry which he didn''t need to consider.


    Jian Kang Lu sat next to Bai Yuren, and Bai Yutang sat next to him. "Come, RenRen, drink some juice first. Are you still scared? Don''t be. It''s okay. Let YingYing drink some too."


    Bai Yuren receives the glass and passes it to YingYing before she takes another one. She then accepted Jian Kang Lu''s toast, three of them drank the juice slowly.


    The laser lights played energetically according to the beat, the song played is one of the popular songs lately in the club. The DJ shouted to the crowd to get down on the floor. Green and blue streak of lights flashed, the big screen behind the DJ also shows the silhouette of dancers.


    "Do you want to go there? Dance with me?" Jian Kang Lu asked Bai Yuren, held his hand out to her.


    Bai Yuren still has some trauma, but they came here for fun, and YingYing also needs to forget the bad things that just happened to her. "Okay!" She smiled, held Jian Kang Lu''s hand and stood up. She then grabbed YingYing''s hand and followed Jian Kang Lu''s lead.


    Three of them dance near the table, followed by Feng Mian and Fei Hong. It really looks like an emperor dancing with his concubines.


    Sun Hongjia scoot his butt and sit next to Bai Yutang, teasing him. "Are you satisfied with sitting still here? Are you not afraid these bunch of concubines steal your emperor, my mighty empress?"


    Bai Yutang was still in a tense mood, but he couldn''t help but laugh when he heard Sun Hongjia''s comment. "I''m the gracious emperor. Just let my mighty empress play with my concubines."


    Sun Hongjia laughs. He knew Bai Yutang looked calm and did not talk much, but sometimes his comment is witty.


    Even though Bai Yutang said those words, he can''t help to imagine Jian Kang Lu in his youth, bar hopping and dancing with the pretty girls swarming around him, wishing to be the lucky butterfly hop on that enchanting flower. His mood is mixed with sour taste.


    One song later, Tang Yuxuan joined them. Their stiff faces now already smiled and laughed freely. Bai Yutang could see Jian Kang Lu talk to Bai Yuren and YingYing''s ear from time to time, and the girls now looked like they had never encountered misfortune before. Their faces are bright, they also follow Jian Kang Lu''s weird dance and laugh freely.


    Four songs later, Jian Kang Lu approached him, held his hand out to Bai Yutang. "My dear TangTang, may i have the honour to dance with you?"

 Chapter 188 - Art And Culture

    Bai Yutang has never ever danced in public before, not even to mention that his lover asked him to dance on the dance floor, along with the sea of colorful butterflies and bees. The only dance he ever performed was when he gave his lover the birthday gift, the incredibly ugly striptease.


    If this is someone else than his lover asking him, he will absolutely refuse. But Bai Yutang saw his lover, with a flustered face after doing some kind of piggy dance with his sister and the girls.


    Jian Kang Lu''s face is not red, but the thin sweat layering his skin glistening like crystal in a dark cave. The green laser light occasionally passed by, biased by the beads of water on his temples, brightened the sparkling stars inside the peach blossom eyes of him.


    His lips slightly opened, pursued for more oxygen, illuminated with intermittent light, it was pink tinted with the dilated blood vessel from the night exercise.


    Jian Kang Lu slightly bowed in front of Bai Yutang, his top two button was opened, slightly revealing his strong collarbone. A masculine aura emitted from his whole body, enveloped Bai Yutang with warmth and expectation.


    How could Bai Yutang reject this man? Even though reluctantly, he still grabbed those slender hands that used to carefully examine patients everyday.. Without words, he stands up and follows his lover to the dance floor.


    Sun Hongjia shouted, "The mighty emperor!!!"


    Jian Kang Lu raised his eyebrow once he heard that, not knowing that his naughty kitten just mentioned him as the mighty empress.


    The DJ is now playing Like I Do from David Guetta, a very popular song in the club. Unfortunately Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu weren''t familiar with it, but the tune is easy to follow.


    Bai Yuren hopping to her brother''s side, and soon the girls circling around them. Her face is red and sweat drops from her temples to her cheek. Bai Yutang could only stand and follow his lover''s lead.


    Sometimes Sun Hongjia who sat like a king on the sofa will throw peanuts at them, and Jian Kang Lu sometimes even opens his mouth to try to catch the peanut. This leads the girls to laugh out loud and clap their hands if Jian Kang Lu manages to catch one.


    Bai Yutang could feel the energy circled around him. He really admired his lover. Jian Kang Lu knows when he needs to be a reserved gentleman, strict mature man, respectable teacher, and also a clown to entertain the crowd.


    The people near their table looking at these crowds who didn''t really stand out for their appearance, yet clearly now shining out from the others with their fun energy. Some people came to the club to try to be someone popular and stand out among these beautiful butterflies and bees. Yet the most stood out is this humble dressed person.


    If someone looks clearly, they will also notice the big muscled men with black suits and black shirts standing unnoticeably few steps from this fun hopping danced people, guarding them, making sure no one makes funny movements and disturbing these young masters and ladies.


    The song changed into another one, and they noticed Luo Yan and Song Lixia walking towards them, join the fun.


    "Long time didn''t see you sweep the dance floor, Jian Ge!" Song Lixia shouted to them.


    The DJ next played Calvin Harris''s song, One Kiss. The beat is a bit sexy. This lead Song Lixia shows her glory days moves on the dance floor with her husband.


    Jian Kang Lu shouted back, "Come TangTang, shows these two expired uncle and auntie how to dance!"


    While the pair of husband and wife do a sexy dance with Song Lixia''s hips wrapped tightly on Luo Yan''s arms, Jian Kang Lu holds Bai Yutang''s hand and does the silly tango style dance. Bai Yutang who didn''t even know how to tango clumsily just walk to the left and front, following Jian Kang Lu''s steps.


    Their dance is so silly yet Bai Yuren and YingYing soon follow them. Feng Mian and Fei Hong do the three people tango dance with Tang Yuxuan. They laughed yet didn''t stop their steps.


    The result of this unsynchronised dance with the music led to the chaotic movement. Even though it''s ugly, people who saw it clearly felt their happiness. Unrestrained wave from pure ecstasy.


    They danced for the next five songs, and then Jian Kang Lu said he wanted to go back upstairs. "This uncle is already old, can''t dance anymore." He waved his hand to the girls.


    The girls are also tired even though they are still energetically hopping. YingYing softly said to Bai Yuren, "Let''s go back upstairs too, RenRen."


    These bunch of people then walk upstairs and gulping glass after glass of iced mineral water. Jian Kang Lu topped up his alcohol, and offered his kitten to drink some.


    Bai Yuren and the others also raised their glass and toast. Next they used the karaoke facility in the private room and showed their ungifted voice. Surprisingly, the only people with acceptable voices are only Bai Yutang, Bai Yuren, and Liu Xiang.


    Bai Yutang can''t help but cover his face yet laughter slipped from his lips when he heard Jian Kang Lu and Sun Hongjia sang an old song from Guang Liang titled Tong Hua (Fairy Tale). Even Bai Yutang knows this very popular ballad song, with sad lyrics and flowing melody which guaranteed your tears flowing when you hear it at your lowest moment.


    I started to panic


    Have I done something wrong?


    You said to me with full of tears, told me that all fairy tales are just illusion


    I will never be your prince


    Perhaps you won''t understand


    Ever since you said you love me


    The stars in my sky has lightened up


    I''m willing to become an angel


    Of the fairy tale that you love


    The song is sad, yet these two men sing it with their screeching voice and out of tune, their gesture also comedic, completed with Sun Hongjia flapping his hands everytime the word angel shows up. The ballad song turns into parody, even Bai Yuren almost cries hearing them.


    The song should make people shed tears from sad emotion, yet the people in this room shed their tears due to laughing too much.


    Song Lixia then grabbed the microphone from these two old men who didn''t act according to their age. She said with a solemn face, "Let me educate the youngsters here with an eternal song from our fairy, Miss Teng Li Chun."


    Teng Li Chun or known as Teresa Teng is a legendary singer. Song Lixia chose I Only Care About You. She sang it together with her husband. The crowd soon raised their hands and waved along to the music, singing together.


    Who doesn''t know this song? Their parents and their grandfathers will often sing this song in the New Year or in the wedding party. An eternal song depicted the eternal love between lovers. The lyrics are so beautiful, simply an adoration to their partner.


    Mu Xiaoya then grabbed Yu Dong, "Don''t let them beat us. Let us show them our vast knowledge in art and culture!" Both of them sing Jay Chou, Love Confession.


    Yu Dong can''t sing, but he can''t refuse. His life is on the verge of danger if he ever refuses Mu Xiaoya in this kind of circumstances.


    They sing until it shows 10 minutes past 2 in the morning. They are all exhausted and then going home. Tang Yuxuan and Liu Xiang politely refuse Sun Hongjia''s offer to send them home. No matter what, it was overkill to have the business prince of this country to send them home.


    Bai Yuren and YingYing politely say thank you to these bunch of people who came to accompany them, then they go home together with Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang.


    Once they reached home, Jian Kang Lu told the girls to wash their face and went to bed.


    Once they were inside the room, Bai Yutang stretched his arm, circling Jian Kang Lu''s waist from behind. "Gege.. Thank you very much.."


    Jian Kang Lu turned his head, planted a soft kiss to his kitten''s soft damp hair. "I''m the one who should thank you. I had so much fun today."


    Inside the next room, YingYing already washed her face and changed her clothes. Jian Kang Lu told them not to take shower at this hour, and better go to sleep early.


    "RenRen.. I feel bad for Jian Ge tonight.. It''s my fault.." Her voice muffled from the pillow she hugged.


    Bai Yuren turns her head and smacks her best friend''s butt. "Silly girl. Let''s talk with Jian Ge tomorrow. And it''s not your fault, remember that."


    "By the way.." YingYing didn''t continue her words.


    "Hmm? What?" Bai Yuren looks at YingYing with a puzzling face. Her best friend seems to want to say something but seems too afraid. Bai Yuren thought YingYing still felt uneasy and uncomfortable for Jian Kang Lu taking care of them tonight.


    The cost of their drink and private room itself must be very expensive. Bai Yuren sneaks to see the prices of the alcoholic drink they have tonight, and the price surely out of her imagination. Each bottle is more expensive than her monthly allowance.


    In reality, that''s not what YingYing wants to say. She wants to ask about Bai Yutang''s extreme closeness with Jian Kang Lu, but she doesn''t know how to bring this topic to her best friend.


    Girls are okay to be seen hugging each other, or even kissing each other. But not the same with boys. Moreover, YingYing saw how Jian Kang Lu hugged Bai Yutang from behind when they danced, even though it was very brief.


    Their face at that time clearly showed it was not the intimacy between brothers, but the gentle sparks between lovers. A soft wave of amorous look and gentle understanding between two souls bind with the red strings of fate.

 Chapter 189 - How To Solve A Problem

    Bai Yutang was awakened by the soft alarm from his phone. As usual, the alarm rang at 6 o''clock in the morning.


    He clapped his hands to look for the phone. His eyes squinted, and his slender finger pressed the stop button on his phone. His lover seems to have heard the alarm too, and felt Bai Yutang''s body squirming around.


    Bai Yutang felt the hand of his lover scoop his head back to lean on Jian Kang Lu''s chest. Since Bai Yuren and YingYing stay at their apartment, they never sleep naked or half naked together like usual.


    Who knows what kind of emergency situation arises at night which will lead them to catch red handed sleep naked together. Even if Bai Yuren knows about them, it still be a very humiliating situation.


    Bai Yutang is still very sleepy since they only sleep less than 3 hours. He didn''t have energy to resist and laid his head back to the broad chest of his lover..


    He could hear his lover''s hoarse voice murmured on his ear, "Sleep again for some more, baby. Let''s just order breakfast later. No need to cook."


    Bai Yutang closed his eyes again, his hands wrapped around Jian Kang Lu''s waist. They sleep again peacefully until 8 o''clock.


    Even though they didn''t sleep much and still tired, they used to wake up in the morning. Bai Yutang slowly rose up and looked at Jian Kang Lu''s face. The light from the morning summer sun outside shines shyly from the light gray curtain.


    Bai Yutang looked at that straight nose, the beautiful curve of his lover''s lips. He leaned down and kissed that lips softly. Just like a pair of dragonfly wings touch the surface of a calm blue lake. Resonate his adoration to the man which still hugged him lightly in his arms.


    "Gege, wake up.." He called Jian Kang Lu softly. He saw his lover''s eyebrow quivered. He knows his lover has already woken up but is still too lazy to open his eyes.


    "Gege, wake up.. Let''s take a bath together." He whispered softly, adding a bit of seductive tone.


    Jian Kang Lu immediately opened his eyes, and kissed the naughty kitten fiercely. He even bit Bai Yutang''s lower lip lightly.


    "Naughty boyfriend." Jian Kang Lu, satisfied with his kitten''s struggling, laughed, and felt his kitten''s hand try to pushed his chest back.


    "Stop stop, come, let''s take a bath together and order breakfast. We need to wake those lazy girls also." Bai Yutang still laughs softly, he knew the fastest way to wake his lover is by taking a bath together.


    It''s been one week since the last time they made love. It was unavoidable for them to have this wooden hard lower member in the morning. Add that with the morning hot kiss, lead them to satisfy each other in the bathroom.


    It was a nice quick release. They didn''t go all the way, just rubbed each other until they reached the peak. Bai Yutang is still panting and hugging his lover tight after he came, while Jian Kang Lu keeps kissing him lightly.


    This time, Bai Yutang didn''t do his task to bathe his lover as usual, and just let his lover rub his body all over in pretence of washing him clean.


    They dress themselves and go out from the room when the clock shows it was already 9 o''clock. They still haven''t heard any movement from the girls.


    Jian Kang Lu ordered breakfast while Bai Yutang knocked on the door patiently for almost 10 minutes until Bai Yuren opened the door.


    "We wake up, wake up. Stop knocking at the door, gege." Her face still looked tired and yawned, but she diligently came to the bathroom to wash herself. 15 minutes later it was YingYing''s turn to take a bath, while Bai Yuren came and sat in the dining room with Jian Kang Lu and her brother.


    Bai Yutang already makes coffee for his lover and himself. "What do you want to drink, RenRen?"


    "Tea please.." Her voice sounded a little bit hoarse, a result from too much shouting and laughing last night.


    "How''s your sleep, RenRen? Are you dizzy?" Jian Kang Lu worried Bai Yuren might have a minor hangover. She drank quite a lot last night.


    "I"m okay, Jian Ge. Just a little bit tired." She took the cup of tea offered by his brother and sipped it slowly. If she drank an ordinary alcoholic beverage last night, it was guaranteed she will have a headache this morning. But last night alcohol quality was top notch, so she didn''t feel anything bad.


    "Drink a lot of water today." Bai Yutang answered. He was busy in the kitchen washing and cut some lemon and cucumber, along with some strawberries. He made the infused water for all of them. If only he and Jian Kang Lu, usually he will only use apples. But since Bai Yuren likes strawberry, he used it for as long as Bai Yuren stayed here.


    Once YingYing finished bathing, Bai Yutang also made a cup of hot tea for her. YingYing at first was shy to be served by Bai Yutang. But after one week here, she already felt familiar.


    This also one of the things aroused her suspicion about Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu. When she saw Bai Yutang whole heartedly serving Jian Kang Lu at the dining table, it really piqued her curiosity.


    "So, both of you don''t have anything to do today, right? Why don''t you come with me to my parent''s house? We usually have lunch together every Sunday. It won''t take long. Later we could go to the shopping mall and have dinner there." Jian Kang Lu said.


    Bai Yuren and YingYing will only stay for another 4 days, last week both of them already strolled around the city. "Okay, Jian Ge!" Bai Yuren agreed without hesitation. YingYing also follows her.


    After breakfast, they rest back to their own room, get two hour resting before they go out again. At 12 o''clock, they went out together to Jian Kang Lu''s parents house.


    At the car, YingYing timidly said, "Jian Ge, last night it is my fault to involve you all. I already told my parents, and we want to pay you back."


    She was too scared last night, but she still heard the white dressed girl stated her dress cost 4000 yuan and Jian Kang Lu was the one who paid for it. She actually didn''t tell her parents, but she still has her own savings.


    YingYing came from the same background as Bai Yuren when Bai Haoran was still alive. She didn''t lack money even though it was not the same level with Jian Kang lu''s parents wealth. Nevertheless, she has more than 8000 yuan in her savings.


    Jian Kang Lu was driving, and he chuckled to hear that. "How come I extort money from you. Just use the money for your holiday here. No need to pay me back."


    "But that''s my fault.." YingYing''s voice is soft, with a hint of stubbornness.


    Jian Kang Lu took a deep breath. "Let me tell you, it was not your fault last night. There are several ways to deal with that bunch of rude kids last night, and I chose to pay them because it was the best way in my opinion, to suit our circumstances."


    He didn''t hear anyone refute his words, then he continued, "If it were me or TangTang who was in that situation last night, i''ll report them to the police for the physical and emotional discomfort they caused us. I''ll ask the club for a CCTV record, and let the law deal with them. One because we already apologised yet they insist on looking for trouble, second to educate them to be a civilised and law abide citizen."


    "Do you girls know why i didn''t do that last night?" Jian Kang Lu asked.


    Bai Yuren was the one who answered, "No, why?" She thought it was because Jian Kang Lu adored her brother and in an overbearing president mode, just like the romance book she read about.


    "Because we lived here, it doesn''t matter if i go to the police to report them. Police reports and lawsuits will cost time and energy. But you girls stay here for a short time. If i go that way, wasn''t it just wasting time and energy? The purpose of your holiday here is to have fun, not to educate a bunch of rude kids about how to behave in society." Jian Kang Lu explained.


    "Another way to solve the matter is to humbly apologise and call the manager of the club to be intermediary, and offer to pay for the laundry fee. No need to waste the money, time and energy on the police. But still it will take a while until it settles. It will be a waste of time if we go that way. That''s why I choose to settle it in the fastest way. Because it was my decision, so no need to pay the money back. It will hurt my pride." Jian Kang Lu tries to make his tone as light as possible.


    "No need to brawl and shout back to them, it will just lower our pride and IQ to their level. Why need to bother with those kinds of people? One other thing why i choose to pay that amount, it was also my own selfishness. I don''t like my younger sisters to be bullied that way. A dress cost only 4000 yuan and they already think it was expensive? What a laugh." Jian Kang Lu tried to joke and used a merry tone. He didn''t want these two girls to think about that bad experience again.


    Bai Yuren and YingYing can''t say anything. A mature man''s mind really outshine their way of thinking. Bai Yuren could sense Jian Kang Lu trying to educate them also. There''s a lot of ways to solve a quarrel or a misunderstanding. But no one should use violence to solve it.


    And another thing Bai Yuren learned today, one problem has several ways to solve. We need to choose the best and fastest way according to the situation rather than put your emotion ahead of your logic.

 Chapter 190 - As Long As My Brother Is Happy

    Bai Yuren already met Jian Kang Lu''s parents on Bai Yutang''s graduation day. Her cheerful personality also makes her easier to mingle with Jian Ming, Jiang Kang Lu''s nephew. Soon she blended well on Jian Kang Lu''s Sunday Lunch.


    YingYing''s personality is almost the same as Bai Yuren, but this is her first time meeting Jian Kang Lu''s parents, thus she didn''t say much. She just answered if she was asked, mostly she just observed.


    From her observation towards this family, she felt more and more suspicious.


    First, Bai Yutang called Jian Kang Lu''s parents with mother and father..


    Second, Bai Yutang goes directly to the kitchen and cooks together with an old woman. Both of them look like the kitchen ruler, while the others just come and go to snatch some snacks or ask for more cucumber melon ice. YingYing can''t help but notice Jian Kang Lu sometimes put his hand on Bai Yutang''s waist and whispered something to his ear.


    Third, when they sit together and have lunch, Jian Kang Lu''s mother scolds Jian Kang Lu as a pampered young master or tyrant when Bai Yutang serves him food, leading to Jian Kang Lu''s face looking like he was wronged to death.


    Last.. YingYing''s ear perked high when Jian Kang Lu''s mother called Bai Yutang with son in law.


    Bai Yuren herself forgot that her best friend didn''t know about her brother and Jian Kang Lu''s relationship. She also acted like this situation was the most natural thing on earth.


    At night, Ying Ying was sit on the bed, waiting for Bai Yuren finished her bath. She then walked to the window, then she put her new shoes over her luggage, contemplating whether she needed to ask or not, to satisfy her curiosity.


    Both of them are a little bit tired after they go home from dinner and bring some shopping bags, the result of Jian Kang Lu''s indulgence to Bai Yuren, YingYing can''t hold anymore, and decide she just needs to ask.


    Bai Yuren comes in with half dried hair and throws herself on the bed. "Agh.. I''m so tired and sleepy. Look at my stomach, like a 5 months pregnant woman."


    Ying Ying walks and sits on the bed also, "RenRen.."


    "Mmh?" Bai Yuren''s voice muffled from her face which lay downward to the pillow.


    "I want to ask you something, but don''t be mad at me. I just want to ask.." YingYing slowly asked.


    "What?"


    "It''s about your brother.."


    Bai Yuren somehow remembers today''s lunch. She could guess what her best friend wanted to ask. "My brother and Jian Ge?"


    YingYing silenced. She was not surprised that Bai Yuren could guess what she wanted to ask. They have been best friends since junior high school. Sometimes their minds work at the same frequency.


    Hearing nothing from YingYing, Bai Yuren knew she hit the bull''s eye. "Do you want to ask about their relationship?"


    YingYing took a deep breath, "Yes.. Are they.."


    Bai Yuren decides that it was so obvious and useless to hide this from her best friend. "Uh huh.. They''re lovers. Jian Ge is my brother''s boyfriend. They never told me, but i think it was so obvious."


    YingYing somehow didn''t know what to say. If this is a situation where they gossiped about someone else, she will excitedly shout "I know it!! I guess it''s right!"


    But this is her best friend''s brother, which she is also familiar with. Bai Yutang felt like her brother also. She still remembers the days where Bai Yutang became their bodyguard when they went to the shopping mall, and sometimes also cooked for them if YingYing slept at Bai Yuren''s house and they had nothing to eat.


    "I know you won''t look at my brother differently because of that, are you?" Bai Yuren asked.


    "No, I won''t!" YingYing hurriedly said, she doesn''t want Bai Yuren misunderstood her intention. "It was just.. Does your mother know?"


    "No, i don''t think my mom knows."


    "Then.. Does Jian Ge''s parents know?"


    Bai Yuren didn''t answer immediately, "I don''t know. I never asked, and my brother never told me. But looking at their attitude toward my brother, I think they already know. I haven''t told you that they come to my brother''s graduation day and invite us to celebrate it with a luxurious lunch. They keep praising my brother, so i think maybe they know, and also didn''t mind with my brother being with their son. I even think they love my brother too."


    YingYing nodded her head, "Agreed. I saw how they pampered your brother today. Woah, i envy your brother a little bit. I hope my future in laws treat me like they treat your brother today."


    Bai Yuren chuckled, "Yes, I think they set the in-laws standard a bit too high, don''t they?"


    YingYing plops her head next to Bai Yuren, "Jian Ge also set the boyfriend standard too high. Maybe your brother saved the nation in his previous life. How come he has a boyfriend like Jian Ge, and blessed with in-laws like them?"


    Bai Yuren flipped her body and facing YingYing, "I know, right?? Even me as her sister can''t understand why Jian Ge loved my brother so much. I think they have already been lovers for more than two years now. At this rate, I have to brace myself to prepare for their wedding in several years ahead."


    "Two years?? So, the rich girlfriend you mentioned before is Jian Ge?"


    "I never said my brother had a girlfriend, don''t I? Jian Ge is the only lover my brother ever had."


    "Woah.. Is he.. Is he born that way? I never expect that.."


    Bai Yuren chuckled, "Me too. I don''t know whether my brother''s orientation was always that way, or he was bent because Jian Ge."


    "If I were a guy and a man like Jian He pursued me, I don''t think I could stay straight also." YingYing sighed. "Why do most of those handsome guys prefer to be with another guy? No one left for us."


    Both Bai Yuren and YingYing unisonly concluded that Jian Kang Lu must be the one who pursues Bai Yutang, since both of them know Bai Yutang''s personality well. A timid and docile man like Bai Yutang won''t dare to pursue a man like Jian Kang Lu first.


    Bai Yuren laughed, "At least that handsome man became my brother in law. It''s good to see my brother pampered."


    "And Jian ge pampered us too!" YingYing just realised why Jian Kang Lu was so generous with them.


    "Of course, if he doesn''t pamper us, he will lose his biggest supporter to marry my brother."


    Both of them still talk for the next 30 minutes until they yawn and go to sleep. They lack sleep last night, and need to rest early.


    In the other room, another conversation held seriously. The content is serious, but Bai Yutang can''t help but scream inside when Jian Kang Lu''s hand keeps trying to sneak and fondle his private member.


    "I just want to touch it, play with it, i didn''t ask for more.." Jian Kang Lu felt wronged when his kitten slapped his hand. He truly just wants to touch and play with that cute soft meat between his kitten''s legs.


    "I''m sleepy, and we still talk.."


    "Then talk, i''m listening.." Jian Kang Lu tries to sneak inside once again.


    Bai Yutang gave up, "Then just put your hand there, don''t move it around.. It''s itchy, gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu happily put his hand there, and felt the cute soft meat under his hand. It was warm, and fit his hand perfectly.


    "Gege, so do you think it was safe for us to tell my sister about us?" Bai Yutang tried to ignore the big hands wrapping his docile member down there.


    "Mmm.. I think your sister already knows about us. I remember my mother slipped her tongue this afternoon and called you as her son in law."


    Bai Yutang''s mind wandered, he knew what his lover said was right. "Then.. When should we tell her?"


    Jian Kang Lu moved his hand slowly, tried to fondle and play with the soft tip of his kitten''s penis. "Tomorrow. After we come home, let''s call RenRen to our room and explain to her slowly. I was the one who needed to be there with you, ask her for her blessing."


    Bai Yutang''s head laid on Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder, listening to his steady strong heart beat. He hummed lowly, agreeing with his lover''s suggestion.


    The night fell and wrapped them in the warm summer night, like a soft blanket covering their tired bones. The four people inside the apartment slowly go to slumber, sleep peacefully with different things on their mind.


    The next day, Bai Yutang wakes up and cooks for a simple breakfast. Bai Yuren and YingYing usually have their breakfast after Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu, since they are still on holiday and want to sleep more.


    Later at night, Bai Yutang reaches home earlier than his lover. He is welcomed by Bai Yuren and YingYing who play games in the living room.


    "Have you girls eaten your dinner?" Bai Yutang asked while he put his bag on the shelves.


    "Yes, we have dinner at the restaurant at the corner." Bai Yuren answered with her eyes glued on the screen.


    "RenRen, later I need to talk with you for a few minutes." Bai Yutang said.


    "Okay!" Bai Yuren answered without thinking. Her hands still moved swiftly and she screamed when YingYing beat her.


    Jian Kang Lu reached home at 9 o''clock. He directly eats his dinner with his kitten without taking a bath. He knows his kitten won''t eat without him. After dinner, Bai Yutang called his sister again, "RenRen.. Can you come with us for a minute?"


    Bai Yuren and YingYing pause their game. "Okay." She followed Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu to their room.


    Looking at his brother''s anxious face, and Jian Kang Lu''s calm expression, she knows she won''t be scolded. She has several guesses in her mind.


    "RenRen, sit here. I need to talk to you about something." Jian Kang Lu dragged the chair near their bed. Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu sit on the bed while Bai Yuren sits on the chair.


    "RenRen.. I think you already know, but i still want to tell you. What do you think if I said that I love your brother, and want to be with him for the rest of my life?" Jian Kang Lu said with a calm tone and serious face.


    Both Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren were stunned. This line sounds like a proposal. Jian Kang Lu often said this line to Bai Yutang, but to hear his lover say that to his sister, it was a mixed feeling between touched and embarrassed.


    And.. Which part of this conversation depicts his lover''s statement yesterday? Explain slowly? This is like dropping the bomb directly to his sister''s brain.


    Bai Yuren recovered fast, she smiled. "It''s okay, as long as you make my brother happy." Her lips curved, a warm smile bloomed for the bottom of her heart.


    ''As long as my precious brother is happy, I will give you my full support and blessing. For him is my only brother, and the one who will always shield me from bad things in this world.''


    ''As long as my precious brother is happy, I don''t care who he spends the rest of his life with.''


    ''So, please don''t ever treat my brother bad, ever¡­''

 Chapter 191 - Two Major Occasions

    Bai Yuren and YingYing went back to W city, and time went by smoothly. Soon the autumn will arrive at the door once again.


    Bai Yutang''s team at the office got another new project. Previously Bai Yutang was joined in the middle of the project, now he had a chance to fully participate in a project. From the bidding until the client announced they won the project.


    After Bai Yuren went back to W city, Bai Yutang was busy involved in this project. Usually Bai Yutang reaches home earlier, but until August is almost over, when the summer''s weather gradually fades like a softly sung hymn welcoming the autumn sister to come, he often stays late in the office.


    At this time, Jian Kang Lu often picked his kitten after his practice finished. They will go home together, have their dinner in a simple restaurant or nearby food stall. Bai Yutang felt bad about it, but Jian Kang Lu insisted on picking him up.


    For Jian Kang Lu, even though he knows his kitten is a man who is not as vulnerable as a delicate young girl, he can''t ease his mind if he thinks his kitten needs to ride a bus or taxi alone at 10 pm at night..


    Who knows someone crazy will harass his kitten, or worse, robbed and kidnapped his precious kitten. This is why Jian Kang Lu thought hard day and night, how to make his kitten accept him to buy another car for his kitten and hired a driver.


    He asked his friends in the group.


    Jian Kang Lu : [How to make your wife accept a car as a gift, driver included?]


    Sun Hongjia : [My wife already has a car and driver before we married. After marriage, she only needs to choose which car she wants to use.]


    Jian Kang Lu looked at his phone, too lazy to reply. Sun Hongjia has 8 cars. This is already a humble and low key number for a man like him. Jian Kang Lu decided to wait for another normal answer.


    Zhen Guo : [Brother, the question is supposed to be "Which car colour you need to buy to avoid third world war in your bedroom."]


    Jian Kang Lu silently recalled a few years ago, Zhen Guo lamented that his wife gave him silent treatment because he bought the wrong car. It''s a simple black Lexus, while Luo Jiao claimed she already gave a thousand hints that she wanted a white car.


    Luo Yan : [My answer is the same with Hongjia. The only difference was that my wife held all our accounts, so it was precisely up to her which car she wanted to buy. No need to declare world war in the bedroom.]


    Zhen Guo cursed when he saw Luo Yan''s answer. He still remembers Luo Yan sprinkled the salt over his wound when he depressed on coaxing Luo Jiao to accept that black Lexus. The incident that time was wrapped with him selling his own car, using the black lexus for himself, while the money from his old car used to buy a white BMW.


    Sun Hongjia : [Is this for TangTang?]


    The other three people silently look at their phone. They sometimes wonder how Sun Hongjia''s brain works. Clearly he was a very good businessman who worthy the name of Sun family, but why he need to ask this stupid question.


    Jian Kang Lu : [Do i have another wife?]


    Sun Hongjia : [You don''t have a wife at all. You have a boyfriend. You''re not married yet.]


    Sun Hongjia : [Finger wrapped with wedding ring.JPG]


    Jian Kang Lu decided to ignore this bastard and went to ask his peers. It''s useless to ask his friends. "Yang Haoyu, my brother wants to give a car to his wife, but his wife rejects it. How to make the wife accept?"


    Yang Haoyu surprised, "Is there any wife who rejects her husband''s gift? Is the car too shabby? Just give her a better car, or ask which car she wants. Gifting the wrong car could lead to a third world war in your bedroom."


    Zhao Yang just came and sat in his chair, he couldn''t help to join the conversation. "Yes, that''s right. If the car is too shabby, your wife will definitely raise the war flag. It couldn''t be a cheap car or else she will be ashamed to use it in front of the other ladies."


    Majority of the top doctors in the country are still dominated by men. The wives of internists built an organisation. This organisation consists of the wives of nephrologist, endocrinologist, rheumatologist, oncologist, and many more. Internists are divided into 11 subspecialties in this country.


    Some of their wives are also specialists, which rarely join the organisation. But for the non specialist wife, they usually need to join, which allows them to mingle and pave the career of their husband also.


    Some of them will be ashamed if they didn''t present themselves well, which could be seen as their husband is not successful enough, or not loving them enough. Unless you''re the wives of the department''s head, or professor''s wife, you need to represent the best of your whole appearance from head to toe on their bi monthly meeting.


    Hearing his colleagues now keep talking about their incidence of buying the wrong car, Jian Kang Lu now believes that this topic was included in the top 10 of major third world war causes.


    He gave up. None of the people in his circle could give proper advice. So in the end he just diligently picks up his kitten every day if his kitten is still in the office once Jian Kang Lu finishes his practice.


    In the middle of busy life in the office, Bai Yutang went for two major occasions this month. One is Zhong Fan''s wedding in early August. He initially wanted to go with his lover, but unfortunately on that day Jian Kang Lu needed to attend a two days conference as a speaker.


    The wedding''s reception is held at noon, which made Jian Kang Lu reluctantly send his kitten alone, to go with his colleague and that damn Mr. Yao. If the reception was held at night, Jian Kang Lu definitely could attend the wedding.


    There''s a lot of architects there, from their office and Zhong Fan''s colleague mates. They all come in hoping to find beautiful fairy sisters, who knows love can bloom in this wedding reception?


    Zhong Fan''s newly wed wife is working in the video streaming industry. Unfortunately, her working mate is just ordinary humans, unlike those beautiful sisters who work as the streaming host.


    Some of the hosts who had a closer relationship with her really came, but they just came to give their red envelope, take a picture, and left. They need to stream everyday, it was too tiring to spend their free time on wedding events.


    Not to mention the people who came are not as shining as their own host peers.


    Bai Yutang at that time only came and talked with his office mate. None of the architects who came here were known by him. He doesn''t know this event is one turning point in his life in the future.


    Second major occasion is the long forgotten promise to his future mother in law. Lin Caihong invited him to accompany her to some occasion on Saturday afternoon. This event was held at the end of August.


    Bai Yutang was still busy at that time, but he couldn''t reject his future mother in law. After all the things Lin Caihong did to him, how come he rejected it once again? This led to Bai Yutang work harder three days prior, and Jian Kang Lu waved him goodbye with a sad and dejected face when Lin Caihong picked Bai Yutang at the apartment.


    Bai Yutang helplessly looked at his lover and stepped inside the car.


    "Stop looking like I abducted your precious pearl. I only borrow him for a few hours." Lin Caihong said with cold eyes. She still sat inside the car, not even stepping out from it when the car picked Bai Yutang at the apartment''s lobby.


    "Why don''t you allow me to come? Are you ashamed of your own son?" Jian Kang Lu even tried to dress himself when he sent Bai Yutang downstairs, hoping his mother would change her mind.


    "You''ll only ruin the mood by criticising the event silently. Don''t you tell me last time you''re bored to death and ask me not to ever invite you again to this kind of event?"


    After saying that, Lin Caihong ruthlessly told Old Qin, her driver, to close the car window and drive away.


    Jian Kang Lu forgot that women are easy to forgive but never forget.


    Bai Yutang felt pitiful to look at his lover''s figure getting smaller and smaller, alone and lonely. Suddenly he felt grateful he could accompany his lover for this whole time. He realised how lonely his lover''s life would be if he was not there to accompany him.


    And he is also grateful that his lover chose him. How dull is his life without his lover beside him.


    Lin Caihong brought him to the high fashion brand event. It''s a small event customised to appreciate their loyal customers. An afternoon tea party, with a famous Guqin master performed in the middle of pagoda above the lake.


    This is the C brand which Bai Yuren asked Lin Caihong on Bai Yutang''s graduation day. The brand presented their autumn collection in this luxurious private tea house. Tall and skinny dazzling models walking around them, flattering their beautiful wings.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know the price of these clothes. He just admired how this kind of luxurious event was held just to entertain around 200 guests. The invitation is only sent to 100 people, each could bring one companion.


    Bai Yutang''s face blushed when Lin Caihong directly introduced him as her son in law. He could see these ladies'' faces shocked and looked at him with curiosity. His voice was so soft when he answered the questions thrown by these ladies.


    The hard questions that hit him hard are when these ladies around Lin Caihong ask him, "Which family you came from?" and "Which business you owned?"


    He answered it by himself, not letting his mother in law shield him again. He knows he can''t compare with these people''s wealth. But he had a job, and he was proud of his job.


    Surprisingly, none of them look down at him. When Bai Yutang told them he works as a junior architect assistant at F firm, they told him that they will definitely contact that firm if they need an architect.


    This event is not only attended by ladies, but men also. Some of them are a bit feminine, yet so handsome and stylish. Bai Yutang will cry inside if he knew the shocked face these ladies come from is not only when they realise Lin Caihong''s son is a cutsleeve, but also because Bai Yutang''s appearance and demeanour is very different from these cutsleeves in the fashion''s circle.


    Lin Caihong directly ordered two autumn coats, one pair of dark blue tweed jacket and skirt, and one bag.


    The sales attendant who took her order tried to increase her sales record, "Mrs. Lin, you don''t want to order this jacket for your son in law? His appearance is so clean and gentle, very handsome. And he looked so young, very fresh! Your son really knows how to choose his partner. This grey checkered tweed jacket perfectly suits him! Low key, yet so warm for autumn weather, and very stylish. I heard he works as an architect, right? This is suitable for him to wear to the office and for semi-formal occasions. This also perfectly matched our new black shoes with white stripes. Look at this." The sales attendant summoned two male models out of nowhere to show the two items he just talked about.


    Bai Yutang now knows the differences between a sales attendant in an ordinary clothing store and one from a high fashion brand. They suddenly know all about him, from his name to which place he worked and which town he comes from.


    Lin Caihong softly laughed at the sales attendant, a young handsome man. "Ah Wei, you really were born with a silver tongue. Okay then, I believe in your taste. This one grey jacket and one shoes."


    "How about the working bag? Black one is the perfect pair for the shoes!"


    Bai Yutang hurriedly rejected this one, "No need mother. Gege just bought me a new working bag this month."


    Even though the sales attendant was a bit disappointed, it didn''t show at all. His perfect smile still plastered when he scheduled the appointment for Lin Caihong and Bai Yutang to fit their ordered clothes.


    A few weeks later when Bai Yutang comes with Lin Caihong for fitting, he almost vomits blood when he knows the price for his jacket is more than 35.000 yuan. In this regard, he finally knows where his lover''s habit of giving him gifts comes from, and is really grateful that his lover is not as extreme as his mother in law.

 Chapter 192 - Evil Laugh

    Bai Yutang''s eyes glued to the computer''s screen, his slender hands moved in small movements, manipulated the mouse and keyboard. He built the 3D for the living room.


    The project they bid and won is a small cluster of luxurious housing. They will only build 12 customised houses. This rumoured to be the housing of Dragon''s agency, the biggest entertainment star''s agency in this country.


    Big entertainment agencies will provide a house for their biggest artists, for them to be shielded properly from the press and also easier to control them. The agency used to rent the house, but now they decide to purchase this land in the middle of the city and build 12 houses for their  most valuable star.


    That''s why the design had two outer layers of park and small lake, while the house was inside the second layer. The security design is also one of the best.


    Their firm won because they use a fluid design, allow the house to change appearance with minor changes, to accommodate the next star who was lucky to get this housing as their residence.


    The agency liked the idea so much, because big artists are famous for being picky. After all, this housing needs to be used at least for the next 20 years as their investment. In 20 years, only God knows how many stars will use the house.


    The main design was supposed to be Yan Qiuyue and Zhong Fan while Zhu Meng was responsible for the garden and outer layer design. As the most junior member, Bai Yutang''s role is to fill anything they need. Research material, go to the site to measure the land and properties, edit the layout, and million other small yet important things.


    Unfortunately, Zhong Fan was still busy with his wedding and honeymoon. Based on previous experience, Zhong Fan delegated his job to Bai Yutang. Since Bai Yutang''s design is neat and ready to use even though not exceptional, Zhong Fan rarely checks it, and once approved he also asks Bai Yutang to revise his own work.


    At first, Bai Yutang genuinely helped him because Zhong Fan is his senior, and it''s important to have good team work in this kind of job. But then Zhong Fan didn''t even use the word please to ask for his help. Sometimes he even uses the word "I need this as soon as possible" and urges him to do a double job.


    Bai Yutang didn''t really mind since he thought Zhong Fan was busy with his wedding. It''s a once in a lifetime event, so Bai Yutang just works harder and faster.


    But now, they already won the project, and it is also one month after his wedding, yet Zhong Fan still delegates some of his tasks to Bai Yutang. The problem is, Bai Yutang didn''t know which one was his responsibility and which one is Zhong Fan''s. There''s a blur thin line since he is the most junior member.


    This afternoon they will have another meeting with the client and he needs to finish this 3D for the meeting.


    Bai Yutang didn''t even have time to step out from the office for lunch. He grit his teeth and make a bowl of instant noodles to fill his stomach. Luckily he also still brought egg fried rice from their breakfast this morning, so he was not too hungry. He ate at his table while waiting for the 3D rendered.


    He sighed and glad his lover never criticized him for whatever he cooked. Since the first time he lives together and cooks for Jian Kang Lu, his lover never once protests about the menu.


    Whatever he cooked, his lover always told him that it was delicious. Every single time he serves his cook.


    Bai Yutang never had a relationship with anyone before, so he didn''t know many people forgot to say thank you for their partner''s effort. Most people will gradually get used to it, then will think it was their partner''s duty.


    A lot of relationships cracked and failed to mend because of these kinds of simple things. Lack of respect, lack of gratitude.


    Bai Yutang felt a little guilty when he lied to his lover, telling Jian Kang Lu that he had rice and chicken katsu for his lunch. His lover didn''t like him eating instant noodles too often. Bai Yutang is afraid that if he tells his lover he eats instant noodles then he will receive food delivery for the next few days. It happened before.


    Afternoon comes, four of them go to the client''s office with Yao Mingyu, and the two hours meeting is wrapped up.


    "I''m looking forward to the development start next two weeks, Mr. Yao. Especially to see the living room in real life." The client closes the meeting with a smile.


    Yao Mingyu smiled back, stood up and shook the client''s hand. His team wrapped up their laptop and papers and walked out from the office.


    At the elevator, Yao Mingyu pat Zhong Fan''s shoulder. "Good job with the living room, Zhong Fan. I see that your design has grown up."


    Zhong Fan smiled, "Thank you, Mr. Yao."


    Bai Yutang heard that, and suddenly he felt a pain gnaw the corner of his heart. The living room is purely done by him, all of it. From the initial design until the 3D final result. He was also the one who had been contacting the contractor and choosing the material.


    And now all the credit was claimed by Zhong Fan. Not even once he mentioned Bai Yutang''s name nor thanked him.


    Days went by, Bai Yutang still had this uncomfortable feeling inside his heart. Now everytime he does the task from Zhong Fan, he doesn''t know whether this is truly his task, or Zhong Fan''s task which was delegated to him.


    Helping your teammate is okay, but it was understandable for Bai Yutang to want to be praised for his hard work. He dejectedly accepted all the tasks thrown at him, and felt the joy of working reduced by half.


    In fact, Bai Yutang didn''t know if only Zhong Fan or his other seniors also did the same. He only knew Zhong Fan did that because he saw with his own eyes when Zhong Fan got praise while he got nothing at all.


    In this silent and bad mood, Bai Yutang still works as usual. Just getting more and more silent. His usual habit and appearance is someone who didn''t stand out, so no one noticed except his lover.


    Bai Yutang only told his lover that he was tired due to this project just started. Jian Kang Lu could only silently soothe his kitten''s mood and didn''t ask for more. He learns that if his kitten didn''t want to tell him, he will explode if Jian Kang Lu keeps probing him.


    Because of this, Bai Yutang didn''t realise some of his workmates look and treat him differently lately.


    One afternoon in September, Bai Yutang, Zhong Fan and Zhu Meng have a meeting with the contractor at the site, and they have lunch together. While talking, one of the contractors congratulates Zhong Fan for his wedding once they know Zhong Fan just became a married man one months ago.


    "Congratulations brother! Welcome to the sweet hell!"


    "Toast! This needs to be celebrated!"


    "Oh, Mr. Zhu already has one daughter. How about you, Mr. Bai?"


    "What? You''re still single? Do you want me to introduce you to my niece? She is still in her 2nd year of university. A calm girl and quite lovely, I think she will suit you well."


    The contractor who said that was a 45 year old big man who reminded Bai Yutang of his own father. Bai Yutang smiled, he wanted to refuse politely. But before he even managed to utter one word, Zhong Fan answered for him.


    "I''m not sure Mr. Bai wants to date a girl, Mr. Qiu."


    Zhu Meng laughed a bit to hear that. Somehow Bai Yutang felt their words and laugh contain evil meaning underneath. His smile froze.


    "Ah, why? You''re already graduated and have a steady job. Let me tell you, if you didn''t hurriedly look for a girlfriend and get married, later you will be too old when your first child is born."


    Both Zhong Fan and Zhu Meng laugh louder. Bai Yutang didn''t like their laugh, nor their gaze at him. He politely answered the contractor, "I''m still struggling financially, Mr. Qiu. I don''t think it was fair for my wife to be if i can''t give her a good date nor future. Maybe later if I already settled."


    This is the fastest way to shut people who want to be a matchmaker for him. Bai Yutang felt he told the truth, since his salary was used for his mother and Bai Yuren''s living while his own living mostly used his lover''s money.


    But he didn''t know these people just politely agreed with him while sneering behind. How could they believe this young man struggling financially while all the things he used clearly look good. His handphone alone was very expensive.


    Since that day, Bai Yutang realised his workmate''s treatment of him was a little bit different. Their gaze, their words, sometimes contain hidden meaning he doesn''t understand. It bothering him, but since he don''t understand, he tried to brush it away.


    Including when he met some of the other team''s members in the pantry while making a cup of coffee.


    "Bai Yutang, i like your watch. It looked good, what brand was it?"


    Bai Yutang wearing the first watch given to him as his anniversary gift. He always wears that one to the office, since the new one looks even more expensive. "This one? It was from T brand Mr. Li."


    "How much did you buy this?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t like when people asked this kind of thing. It was actually a common question, but for Bai Yutang, this kind of question is only suitable for close friends. "Mm.. I didn''t know how much it. I got it as a gift, Mr. Li."


    "Woah, a gift? From who?"


    "From my friend, Mr. Li." Bai Yutang hurriedly answered, and then wanted to excuse himself.


    "What a good friend!" Mr. Li and the others laugh while looking at him. Bai Yutang didn''t like it at all.


    "I also want to have that kind of friend. None of my friends want to give me a 10.000 yuan watch. Not even my father. Wish i had that kind of friend." The others commented and followed with another comment.


    "Are you sure you want to have that kind of friend?" The other one teased.


    "How about your handphone? Don''t tell me it was also a gift from the same friend?" The others laugh again hearing that comment.


    Bai Yutang was stiff, he felt their laugh was the same as Zhong Fan and Zhu Meng''s evil laugh the other day. He tried to lift his corner of lips, giving a smile and nod, then hurriedly walked out from the pantry.


    Why do they look at him like that? Why did they comment at him like that? He honestly answered his own team mate when they saw his new handphone, and told them that it was a gift.


    At that time they asked why Bai Yutang still rides the bus everyday while he can buy a handphone priced almost 10.000 yuan, equal with their two months salary. Then Bai Yutang told them that it was a gift, though he didn''t tell them it was a gift from Jian Kang Lu.


    Bai Yutang walked absentmindedly to his table, plopped his body, and closed his eyes for a little bit.


    Why he felt their gaze is similar to his university mate''s gaze at his last year in university. A look that judged him as a lowly person. A mocking gaze, as if he was someone who was not worthy. As if he was justified for being ridiculed.

 Chapter 193 - Moon And Stars

    Days went by. Sometimes it''s peaceful, sometimes it isn''t. Here and there, Bai Yutang receives the same evil look and laugh thrown at him. The words were ambiguous, which made Bai Yutang can''t pinpoint the wrong of them.


    Bai Yutang met his friends at least once a month. There, he heard many things happened in other offices. It seems his case with Zhong Fan happened everywhere. Yu Dong also went through it.


    "You better mention some of the things you designed to your superior. Give him hints here and there about your own design. Pretend to ask him for advice." Yu Dong told him.


    "But my work is divided by my teammates, because I''m the most junior member. My boss basically just divides the work into three of them, and they will assign the tasks to me. So even though i want to ask, i need to ask them, not my boss." Bai Yutang said in a low voice. He plays with his noodles, and has no appetite to eat.


    "What a bad system. It allows them to bully you." Liu Xiang shook his head.


    Lucky for Liu Xian who works in Zhen Guo''s office, the tasks are distributed by their superior directly, thus he didn''t go through this kind of thing. But he still has problems with the senior who seem to envy his looks. Keep saying that he depends on his looks to cheer the client up. Especially female clients.


    For Tang Yuxuan, the problem lay with his temper. He didn''t like it when the client was fussy and said harsh things to him. If this happens, he is supposed to smile and apologise, then try to cater to the client''s need, revise the design to suit their taste.


    But Tang Yuxuan''s pride didn''t allow him to put on a fake smile. He was not wrong, his design is better compare to what the client''s want, but those attitude won''t work in real life. Even big architect like Zhen Guo still need to cater what the client''s need.


    Because architects didn''t build something for themselves, they built something for their client. Make their client''s dream come true, not their own dream.


    It needs an advanced ability to socialize to be a good architect. In this term, Bai Yutang, who was not great with talking but has a massive amount of patience, is having no trouble either with pacifying the clients or persuading the vendors and contractors to give them cheaper price and better materials.


    Liu Xiang is the winner above all in this matter. "Daddy, you just need to imagine delicious food you want to eat later when you pacify your client. Don''t be sour and just imagine how tasty the wagyu meat Jian Ge treated us last time. The tender and savory meat, the smell, and the beer! TangTang, when will Jian Ge treat us at that steak restaurant again?" He said that with sparkling eyes like a boy missed his maiden fairy.


    Even though all of them are already working and have their own salary, living in B city is expensive, and they still need to save their money for future needs. Especially Tang Yuxuan and Yu Dong, who planned to get married next year.


    Bai Yutang felt his bad mood alleviated and laughed, "You can ask gege by yourselves." He said to Liu Xiang.


    Yu Dong, the most gluttonous among them, said in high spirit. "Next week? Can Mu Xiaoya join too?"


    "Shameless! Using Jian Ge''s money to date your girlfriend!" Tang Yuxuan shouted.


    Yu Dong laughed, "TangTang didn''t mind, why do you mind?"


    Most of the time Bai Yutang meets his friends, Jian Kang Lu will pick him up after his practice, and he will pay for their dinner if these groups haven''t paid yet. Today was no exception.


    Bai Yutang felt his ribs jabbed by Yu Dong and he saw Jian Kang Lu walk into the restaurant. He smiled once he noticed Bai Yutang looking at him.


    The light grey shirt fit his body perfectly, with the black stripe on his collar and sleeves emphasizing his white skin. His short hair frames his temple and shows the long slender neck. Somehow, even though his neck is slender, it didn''t look feminine at all. The long black pants made his legs look longer, and his smile bloomed like a bright sun on a perfect day.


    No matter how many times Bai Yutang looked at this man, he always felt God is not fair. The other people in the restaurant also notice his man, and some can''t help to stare a little bit more.


    "It''s a mystery why Jian Ge''s body is still so good at his age, look at my tummy." Liu Xiang jabbed his own stomach. Since he started to work, he rarely plays basketball and his six pack abs now start to lose the lines.


    Jian Kang Lu walks while locking his sight to his kitten. He sat next to his kitten and greeted the others.


    How he wished he could put his hand on his kitten''s shoulder then kiss his kitten''s soft cheek, just like any other man out there when they meet their beloved girlfriend. But he still minds the manner in the public, even though he unrestrained his manner when they went with his own parents and friends.


    He even proudly smiled when they accused him of bullying his kitten, and told him that he changed into a clingy uncle.


    "I can''t help it. My young boyfriend is so cute and handsome." He shamelessly replied.


    But in front of public eyes, at least the most he can do is just hold his kitten''s hand. He is satisfied with that for now, and dare not dream bigger.


    "Jian Geeee.." Liu Xiang coquettishly blinked his big eyes.


    Jian Kang Lu raised one of his eyebrows, then threw a questioned face to his kitten.


    Bai Yutang laughed and called for the waiter, "Order some food first, gege. Why didn''t you call me? I could order first before you came."


    "I forgot, hurriedly come here to meet you sooner." Jian Kang Lu calmly replied.


    Yu Dong rolled his eyes, "Please Jian Ge. Don''t abuse us!"


    "I''m okay with that, Jian Ge. Abuse me more, please." Liu Xiang said.


    Jian Kang Lu laughed, "Okay, which restaurant do you want me to treat you to, Liu Xiang?"


    Liu Xiang''s eyes brightened and listed a few restaurants he wanted to visit. Next week is the end of month, a perfect time to mooch a free meal.


    They were busy chatting to decide which restaurant they wanted to go to next week. "I will treat you wherever you want, but you need to take care of my TangTang when I go abroad next week." Jian Kang Lu said.


    He needed to go to Italy for one week, and he was afraid his kitten would be lonely and didn''t eat well. He planned to get at least one of them to stay at the apartment to accompany his kitten.


    "Where do you want to go, Jian Ge? Next week? Then should we postpone the dinner?" Yu Dong asked.


    "Venice. I''ll go next Sunday, so we can have dinner on Friday. Yu Dong, how about you stay at my apartment with TangTang?" Jian Kang Lu tried his luck with Yu Dong since he was his kitten''s ex roommate.


    "Okay, but don''t forget to bring me some things from Venice." Yu Dong said.


    Bai Yutang tried to get used to his lover treating him like a toddler. Most of the time, he didn''t mind. But some of it, like now, it embarrassed him. His wicked lover directly asked Yu Dong in front of him, and his friend also agreed without thinking. This makes him can''t refute his lover.


    It doesn''t mean he didn''t like Yu Dong to stay with him. And honestly, he also felt his mood sinking last week when he learned that his lover will go to Venice for one week. Going back home to an empty apartment at this time when he is also suppressed at work, is really a bad situation for him.


    Everyday he manages to go through the uncomfortable atmosphere at work because he could see his lover everyday.


    Bai Yutang didn''t realise this is what made Jian Kang Lu ask someone to accompany his kitten. He could see his kitten was losing weight in this last week. He was worried about his kitten being alone. His kitten is not someone who rattled about his hardship, instead what his kitten often told him is the good story.


    Jian Kang Lu hates it the most if someone keeps complaining about their work. It seems once he told his kitten about this, years ago when he still pursued his kitten. In Jian Kang Lu''s mind, complaining about your work once in a while is okay. But if they keep complaining, it only shows their incompetence.


    Rather than complaining, why don''t they use the energy to change the things they aren''t comfortable with? Every work has it''s negative side. Ask everyone, did they always have bright sunny days at work? No. That''s why we get paid.


    But.. This is his beloved kitten. He wants to hear the good and bad things about him and his life, a life which Jian Kang Lu can''t see.


    It was different with Wu Shen, since he kept rattling about him being rejected again and again when casted for movies and drama. Wu Shen also worried about his work being reduced since he started getting old. This led to Jian Kang Lu buying the store, which Wu Shen returned to him almost three years ago.


    With Zhang Min, they worked in the same hospital. Good or bad things, he could hear and sometimes see it directly.


    But it was a whole different thing with his kitten. How Jian Kang Lu wished he could go back and didn''t tell his kitten honestly about what he likes and doesn''t like. Although Jian Kang Lu can guess it won''t change anything. Just like when his kitten hid from all of them three years ago, his kitten was a type of person who didn''t want to show his weakness, nor his misery.


    Jian Kang Lu sighed inside. It was good to have this kind of lover. But.. But.. But he wants to know everything about his kitten! And.. He wished his kitten could depend more on him. Even though he could not present the moon and stars to his kitten, he wished his kitten would ask for it, and he could try harder to make his precious kitten love him even more.


    For this bright young handsome man he loved the most, won''t be able to leave him forever in this life.

 Chapter 194 - The Reason Behind

    October comes, and soon Bai Yutang faces another crisis in his life. Choosing a birthday present for his lover.


    First birthday he doesn''t know and missed it. Second birthday he forgot, and his lover came home late so he didn''t manage to say happy birthday. Third birthday was successful yet not memorable, since he managed to say it but could only give a pen as a birthday gift. Fourth birthday could be counted as successful, though he gave the wrong gift, but his lover really liked his gift. They often play the card to spice up their bedroom activities.


    The only thing written in the card but not yet tried is bondage play, blindfold play, spanking and kinky things like that. Not because they didn''t want to, but since they draw it randomly, somehow their hands never drew that kinky stuff.


    Bai Yutang didn''t want to give sexual activities as a birthday gift. Their love making is something bound to be natural. If he gave it as a gift, it seems to taint his original intention..


    This year, his lover will turn 40. Bai Yutang knows his lover sometimes felt uncomfortable about their wide age gap. Jian Kang Lu often teases him in bed, saying Bai Yutang is not allowed to find someone else just because his lover is old.


    Bai Yutang knows one of his favorite hobbies is travelling. Thus he planned to take two days leave, and have a short vacation with his lover. Unfortunately the construction of their project is still in the early phase. If not, he planned to take four days leave to go somewhere nice. His lover always said he wanted to take Bai Yutang to Japan.


    With only two days, he planned to ask his lover where he wanted to go, since if Bai Yutang depended on his own financial ability, he could only spend the holiday at his lover''s apartment.


    Today Bai Yutang submitted his leave to Mr. Yao as his direct superior. When he filled out the online form and asked Mr. Yao to approve it, Mr. Yao asked him, "What''s the occasion? Why do you need two days leave? You know this is a busy time for us, right?"


    This is the first time he has submitted his leave, and his other teammates as well as the other people he observed, have never been asked like this. As a full time employee, he allowed for 12 days leave a year. Since he joined in May, he only got 8 days leave for this year, and he never even used it at all.


    Bai Yutang wasn''t ready to answer that question. He could not answer that he wanted to take two days leave because he wanted to celebrate his lover''s birthday. In the end he only answered with short sentences.


    "It was a personal reason, Mr. Yao.."


    Yao Mingyu didn''t say anything and only looked at this skinny man in front of him. He finally took a deep breath, "I could only approve it for one day."


    Bai Yutang felt something heavy suddenly pull the corner of his heart. He was disappointed. All of his team mates have never been asked like this, nor been rejected for asking their right. He could only nod his head and say thank you in a low voice.


    Bai Yutang went back to his seat, revised his online leave form, and then closed his eyes. He felt more and more uncomfortable in this office. Mr. Yao used to be very nice, like a big warm senior, guide him, direct him.


    But just like the other people in this office who look at him with mocking in their eyes, Mr. Yao lately often criticises his work, and never talks to him in a warm tone again. He doesn''t know where he went wrong.


    Even though the joy of his work reduced, since he criticised, Bai Yutang tried harder and never slacked around. The funny thing is, all the things he did for his other teammates were praised, while the things he personally did were criticized.


    Bai Yutang could be a little bit dense. But after one month receiving this kind of treatment, he knew something was amiss.


    Bai Yutang finishes his work at the office as soon as possible, then he goes to the vendor''s shop to choose the wood tile. He prefers to work outside now rather than spending his time in the office.


    Today is Wednesday, and his lover called him to say he wanted to pick Bai Yutang at the office.


    "I''m going outside, gege. To the vendor."


    "What time you''ll be finished, baby? And where do you go?"


    "About two hour? I''m going to S area."


    "Do you have to go back to the office?"


    "No, I''m going back home straight after I meet the vendor."


    "Then wait for me there, i''ll pick you up. Send me your address and location once you reach there. Let''s have a date tonight."


    Bai Yutang smiled, "Okay, gege."


    "I miss you, and love you so much."


    Bai Yutang looked around, then whispered, "I love you too."


    Everyday, his lover always say i love you. Bai Yutang got used to it, until he felt something was wrong with his day if his lover didn''t say it.


    Bai Yutang tried to brush off his bad mood and get his work done faster. He learns from his lover''s attitude, and receiving criticism means we have room to grow. The best way to get over it is to work harder and show them that we are worthy, and want to learn to be better.


    It was no use if he whined and complained. It will just show the people who look down upon him that he was worthy of their critics. Bai Yutang doesn''t want to satisfy them by slacking himself. The more he receives those judging eyes, the more he works hard.


    The only bad thing is, he didn''t feel any joy at all. No satisfaction.


    It''s a good thing his lover always praises him for every single little thing he does. Even helping his lover packing his luggage last time his lover went to Venice, earned him a full day of flowery words.


    Bai Yutang smiled to remember his lover called him once he arrived at the hotel. "Why am i so lucky to have a boyfriend like you? I didn''t remember to put my electric shaver on, but here I found it packed with my toiletries. Thank you, baby."


    Soon Bai Yutang finishes his work and goes to the vendor. He was going with Zhong Fan since the wood tile used will need to match the living room design. Zhong Fan claimed it to be his, so Bai Yutang couldn''t say anything when Mr. Yao asked Zhong Fan to supervise the material selection.


    They spent the journey in the taxi in silence. Bai Yutang lately getting more and more silent, he didn''t talk if not asked.


    Once they arrived, Zhong Fan told him, "I''ll let you choose some and just call me later once you are done. I''ll supervise you later and choose the final tile." Once he said that, Zhong Fan went inside the building and said no more.


    Bai Yutang has been here a few times before, so he didn''t need Zhong Fan to introduce him to the vendor. He didn''t answer Zhong Fan, but still did the task given to him. He chose three types of wood tile and negotiated the price, pressing it lower. He knows Zhong Fan only wants the final result.


    He also sent the address and the location to his lover. Once he was done, he reported his choice to Zhong Fan.


    "Hmm.. Which one do you think is the best option?"


    Bai Yutang explained the reason he chose these three types of tiles, their strength and their negative point. Then he chose the first tile. A beige brown tile with soft texture. "I think the best option is this woodville natural wood plank, Mr. Zhong. The soft colour will match the overall looks, and expand the visual."


    Bai Yutang treats Zhong Fan just like a client. At least this way he won''t feel bullied, but learn how to convince his future client.


    "Okay then, have you negotiated the price?" Zhong Fan said with a lazy tone.


    Bai Yutang told him the price. Then Zhong Fan asked about the glass they will use as walls in the back, facing the garden. Bai Yutang already chose some also, including the folding glass doors.


    In the end, it was all using the things Bai Yutang chose. Zhong Fan only asked, let Bai Yutang talk, and then get along with his choice.


    Bai Yutang knows this will count as Zhong Fan''s choices. He won''t mention Bai Yutang''s effort at all.


    Bai Yutang told himself over and over again, this is what he gets paid for. To work, give the best result to their client. It doesn''t matter about the achievement.


    Someday, maybe someday, they will see his hard work today. This won''t be a useless experience for him.


    Bai Yutang was still grilled by Zhong Fan when Jian Kang Lu arrived. The vendor''s store is a big shop. They sold a lot of material for building here. Jian Kang Lu tried to look for some cafe nearby, but he didn''t find any. At last he only waited in the car, playing some games on his mobile phone.


    For this business matter, the office gave them taxi vouchers or will reimburse their gas cost if they use their own car. Zhong Fan didn''t have a car, so they brought two taxi vouchers. One for going, and one for back.


    "I''m sorry, Mr. Zhang. I''ll go back straight home after this."


    "There is only one voucher." Zhong Fan said.


    "Yes, i''m going back by myself, Mr. Zhong." Bai Yutang knows Zhong Fan won''t be that kind to give the voucher to him.


    "Okay then." Zhong Fan then called the taxi company, and ordered one taxi to his place.


    Bai Yutang already noticed his lover''s car. He could see his lover was inside. From where they stand, they couldn''t see who''s the person inside, since they saw from the back.


    Bai Yutang wanted to wait until Zhong Fan went away, but he also felt uncomfortable to stand here in silence.


    "You don''t call for a taxi? You know the bus didn''t pass this street." Zhong Fan looked at him after 5 minutes standing.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know what to answer. At the same time, his phone rang. It was from his lover.


    Answer or not? Going now or wait? Bai Yutang didn''t know. In the end, he answered it. It was not fair for his lover.


    "Hello.."


    "Baby, I can see you. Are you done? Or do you still need to do something?"


    Bai Yutang gave up, it seems he could only walk there to his lover''s car. His lover was already tired from work, how could he ask him to wait for some more just because of Zhong Fan?


    "No, I''ll walk there, gege.."


    Bai Yutang excused himself, "Mr. Zhong, my friend picked me up. If you don''t mind, i''ll leave first."


    "Yes, just go. You don''t need to wait for me here." Zhong Fan said.


    Then Zhong Fan saw Bai Yutang walk toward the car which was parked a few meters from them. Zhong Fan knows the car is already there since the first time they walk out from the store. He smirked when he saw Bai Yutang go inside the passenger side of the car.


    It seems the rumours are really true. We truly couldn''t judge a person from his looks. Who would have thought that this skinny calm man is a cutsleeve with a bald and old sugar daddy? If his friends didn''t tell him, he won''t guess any of this at all.

 Chapter 195 - Inside And Out

    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten''s mood being low lately, that''s why he proposed for a date today. He starts to drive when Bai Yutang comes inside the car. While driving sometimes he steals a glance at his kitten.


    "Are you done, baby? Tired?" Jian Kang Lu worriedly asked.


    In a bright mood, his kitten will chatter and ramble without he need to ask. But now that beautiful face only gave him a slight curve on those pale pink lips. The eyes which shone bright now were a bit dimmed.


    "Mm.. Done. Have you been waiting for a long time, gege?" His kitten''s soft voice finally emerged.


    Jian Kang Lu slipped his hand towards his kitten palm and kneaded it a bit. "Rest, i''ll wake you up once we arrive."


    "Where do we go, gege?"


    Jian Kang Lu was not a creative man to visit dating sites. Besides, he''s old already. He is only comfortable going to the cinema, to the lounge to listen to some piano play and good liquor, and sometimes to the mall for shopping.


    Jian Kang Lu often felt guilty with his kitten. They rarely go out for a proper date. Even his plan to bring his kitten for vacation abroad was denied by his kitten. Busy with school, busy with work.


    Sometimes Jian Kang Lu guiltily cursed why his kitten got his job so soon. At that time, they should take a two weeks tour to Europe and have a short honeymoon there once his kitten graduates.


    For today''s date, Jian Kang Lu specifically asked the young interns, where do they like to date nowadays. Jian Kang Lu thickened his face when the interns teased him loudly.


    "Aw, Doctor Jian wants to go dating? Who''s the lucky girl?"


    "Take us too, Doctor Jian! We could help you throw rose petals and make your night unforgettable! We are cheap, only need a good plate of steak!"


    "Or a B+ for our presentation!"


    The residents who saw and heard these youngsters teasing their superior like that could only wipe their sweat and light candles silently for them. Don''t they know Doctor Jian is one of the appraisal members for new doctors who want to apply residency here?


    Jian Kang Lu saw these young interns who were at the same age with his kitten, saw their naive and lively face, and compared it with his own gloomy kitten. He could only sighed and even felt more guilty.


    The thing that scares Jian Kang Lu the most is if his kitten doesn''t feel happy with him anymore.


    Because of this, Jian Kang Lu magnanimously forgives this impolite manner and listens to their advice seriously. One of the places they recommend is The Place.


    It was well known because of the Sky Screen. It was a 250 meters long and 30 meters wide LED screen placed above as the canopy. The brilliantly colourful LED makes The Place the brightest star in the area.


    They visited The Place already, but at that time they didn''t stroll around to admire the scene. They usually go there to dine or go shopping.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t answer his kitten and only smiled. Actually he felt it was cheap to bring his kitten there. What he had in mind for a date is dine in a good private restaurant. Maybe even hired a pianist to accompany their dinner.


    But.. That''s an old man dating style. Today, he wants to try a youngsters dating style.


    "Go to sleep if you are tired, the road is packed today." Jian Kang Lu softly patted his kitten''s head, rubbed his soft hair.


    "Mmm.." Bai Yutang has been really tired lately. Then he remembered his lover''s birthday. "Ah, I took 1 day leave on your birthday, gege. Do you want to go somewhere to celebrate?"


    "Really?" Jian Kang Lu abruptly turned his head to look at his kitten. He saw his kitten''s face brightened to see his surprised face and chuckled.


    "It is true, gege. Why should I lie? I''m all yours 24 hours on your birthday."


    Now Jian Kang Lu''s brain works fast. It''s only 24 hours. If they go somewhere far, they will waste time on the plane. This means the place is limited inside the city. In a short 5 minutes Jian Kang Lu already listed places they could go. They could spend one night outside and enjoy different scenery other than their apartment.


    "How about we go to Y lake? We could book a room there for one day." Jian Kang Lu excitedly said to his kitten.


    Bai Yutang was tired, his day was bad, but to see his lover''s face right now, he felt all his fatigue gone without a trace.


    "Yes, gege. Let''s stay there. I''ll book the hotel." He smiled.


    "No no no, let me. You only need to come along as my birthday gift."


    "Do I need to wrap myself with a big red ribbon as your walking birthday gift?" Bai Yutang teased Jian Kang Lu. He could imagine this big person beside him wiggling his tail just like a big oversized puppy, too excited just because Bai Yutang took one day leave.


    Sometimes Bai Yutang thinks whether both of them are truly cheap? Easily satisfied with small things?


    Jian Kang Lu''s brain was too excited, and once he heard his kitten say that, he could imagine his kitten''s white jade skin, naked, only covered with big red ribbon on his private part, waiting to be opened..


    He truly felt he almost had a massive nosebleed at this moment.


    "I''m waiting for my living birthday gift then.."


    Now it is Bai Yutang''s turn to foolishly look at his lover''s serious face. It seems he shot his own feet again. Why, why does he need to give this kind of suggestion to his lover?


    Once they arrived at The Place, Bai Yutang immediately knew what Jian Kang Lu means by dating today. Even though he never went to this place for a proper date before, it doesn''t mean he never heard the girls in his class excitedly share their dating story over there.


    Some people say they often met men who proposed to their beloved over there.


    Bai Yutang chuckled when he stepped out from the car. "Is this what i was thinking, gege?"


    Jian Kang Lu observed his kitten''s face. They never have a proper date in this place because at that time, he didn''t dare to walk hand in hand with his kitten. He could only walk side by side.


    "You can choose.. We could spend the time here, or watch movies, or go shopping, or just go to have our dinner." He carefully said.


    Bai Yutang smiled, and took his lover''s hand. "Let''s walk and enjoy the show first, then we can have our dinner later."


    Jian Kang Lu looked at those slender fingers who wrapped his own hand, foolishly following his kitten''s step. Even though he knows his kitten didn''t mind showing intimate movement in public, Jian Kang Lu rarely does that.


    If it was not his kitten who took the first move, he wouldn''t do that. Except if it was in front of his own family or friends.


    "Okay.." He could only respond a few minutes later.


    They slowly walked and waited for the show to start. The show on the gigantic screen will replay every 30 minutes.


    They talk about small things while walking under the bright colourful LED canopy. Jian Kang Lu tried his luck and slowly released his hand from his kitten''s finger, then raised and put it on his kitten''s shoulder. Wrapped his kitten''s tiny shoulder into his own territory.


    By all means, Bai Yutang''s shoulder is not really tiny. He''s a healthy young man after all. But in Jian Kang Lu''s eyes, everything about his kitten is all handsome, cute, and fragile.


    Bai Yutang smiled and just walked a little bit closer to his lover. Felt the familiar warmth and scent belonging to his lover to embrace him. They walk slowly without saying many words. Spend every minute in serenity, care not for other''s eyes placed at them.


    Honestly, for Jian Kang Lu, he didn''t really understand why these youngsters like this kind of date. But walking with his kitten, anywhere, is still a dazzling experience for him.


    250 meters is short. In the end, Bai Yutang took pity for his lover''s confused face. Clearly this man might have gotten this idea from the internet, or his nurse, or his residents, but didn''t really understand how to date here.


    "Gege, let''s go there, drink some coffee?" Bai Yutang pointed at the stylish coffee place.


    "Okay!"


    Bai Yutang smiled inside to see his lover''s face seemed relieved.


    Once they reached the cafe and placed their order, Jian Kang Lu slowly placed his hand upon his kitten''s hands again. No matter if they meet everyday, kissed everyday, touched his soft skin everyday, it was never enough.


    "Baby, can you tell me what disturb you lately? Can i do something to help you?" He asked softly, carefully observing his kitten''s face.


    The smile of his kitten is a bit flat, "It''s okay, gege. Just tired from work. It is still manageable. I''ll tell you if i need your help, don''t worry."


    Jian Kang Lu caresses his kitten''s palm softly. Carefully, like touching a 1000 years porcelain vase. Afraid he will break it if he puts a slight force on it.


    "At times like this, I hate that I was not Zhen Guo. I can''t help you with anything."


    Bai Yutang raised his other hand, touch his lover''s cheek. He caresses it slowly, looking at the eyes of his lover. The black orb within the peach blossom eyes. The eyes which brightly lit only for him.


    "You help me, gege. A lot. Just like now. Doctor Jian spared me his precious time and took me to a romantic date. Whose boyfriend is this? So thoughtful." He smiled and teased his lover.


    Jian Kang Lu locked his eyes to stare at the man who gave him the perfect love he never knew existed. He raised his hand, kissed the slender fingers he held lightly. "Your boyfriend. Your man. Your husband.. This man is yours only.. From head to toe, inside and out."

 Chapter 196 - Red Ribbons

    Jian Kang Lu drove happily to his apartment to pick their luggage. Then he happily drove to his kitten''s office, waiting for his kitten to finish his work.


    They will go to Y lake tonight, and spend one night at one of the most luxurious hotels there for his birthday. The lake will be reached within 1,5 hours, perfect time to have dinner there after they checked in.


    As usual, Jian Kang Lu bought a cup of coffee and waited for his beloved kitten in the coffee shop below the office. He happily plays his games over there. Once in a while the hospital called him or messaged him, reporting new patients, or gravely ill patient''s condition he requested them to monitor.


    Unless he took leave for more than three days, a doctor''s life will still be full of patient''s reports, 24/7. Holiday on the calendar only means he could choose not to visit the patient directly. That''s why a doctor always brings his charger everywhere. Sometimes they even have two phones. One for private life, and the other for hospital''s report..


    Jian Kang Lu as an internist could receive 50 to 100 reports per day, since one critically ill patient could be reported hourly when their condition worsened. Doctors who wield knives, such as surgeons or obgyn, must be prepared to be summoned at any hour to the hospital in emergency condition even though they rarely receive patient reports.


    That''s why they say the four major branches in medicine are internist, pediatric, surgeon, and obsgyn. That''s because these four specialties was the hardest compare to others.


    At 6 o''clock, he saw a glimpse of his kitten''s shadow. Jian Kang Lu happily finished his coffee, stood up and took his bag.


    "Gegee.. Sorry, I can''t finish my work earlier. Have you been waiting for long?"


    Jian Kang Lu could see his kitten''s breath a little bit heavy. It seems his kitten rushed to walk here. "No worries, baby. Do you want to buy some drinks before we go?"


    Bai Yutang shook his head. He just wants to go and reach the hotel sooner.


    Jian Kang Lu told his kitten to rest his eyes. He knows his kitten always awoke earlier than him since he cooked for breakfast. His kitten refused at first, but then fell asleep once Jian Kang Lu played the soothing classical music. They reach the hotel at 8 o''clock.


    The hotel is located on Y Island, and is surrounded by magnificent views of Y Mountain, and the M Great Wall. The hotel is designed and inspired by the hotel''s surrounding landscape, exudes the richness of diverse Chinese culture gathering in one harmonious place.


    From a side angle, the hotel building is shaped like a scallop which represents ''Fortune'' in the Chinese culture. From the front, it was shaped like the sun.


    The exterior glass surface is covered by more than 10,000 glass panels. The panels are angled so that the top portion of the building reflects the color of the sky, the middle reflects nearby Yanshan Mountain and the bottom section reflects the lake.


    It truly is a feast for an architect''s eyes. Bai Yutang instantly awoke and took pictures with his mobile phone.


    After checking in, Jian Kang Lu asked the hotel to send their luggage to their room, while he took his kitten to have dinner at the restaurant. They enjoyed a light dinner and didn''t finish their one bottle of wine. Jian Kang Lu leisurely takes his kitten''s hand and the bottle of wine upstairs.


    It''s almost 10 o''clock. They took a bath together in the bathtub. Jian Kang Lu already had so much imagination in his brain about what he wanted to do in the bathtub even before he reached their room. But unfortunately his kitten slapped his paw which unconsciously traveled to his kitten''s butt.


    "Gege, don''t! Let''s just go to sleep after this."


    Jian Kang Lu felt wronged. Even though he gladly fulfills his duty as a virtuous husband if his kitten allows him to, but just now he truly just wants to knead that white round buttock.


    Bai Yutang was speechless to see his soon to be 40 years old lover pouting his mouth like a 5 year old toddler who wasn''t allowed to have candy before they go to bed. Bai Yutang already knew later on at 12 o''clock he could not wake up if he let his lover do what he wanted.


    So he urged Jian Kang Lu to finish the wine before bed and hurriedly go to sleep, preventing his lover from ruining his plan.


    Bai Yutang pretends to sleep, while fighting his own sleepy state. He was truly tired, and usually he was already asleep before 11 o''clock.


    Bai Yutang silently listened to his lover''s breath. Waiting for his lover''s breath turned steady. His eyes locked at the clock upon the table, beside their bed. His lover''s breath is warm, and tickles his ear.


    Bai Yutang really tried his best to give his lover a surprise this year. He thickened his face when he ordered that thing. He truly wants to die when he presses order. He didn''t even open the package which just delivered three days ago.


    Out of eyes, out of mind. He decided not to open the package until the time arrived.


    Ten minutes before midnight, Bai Yutang slowly moved his body, replacing his body with a pillow to prevent his lover from awakening.


    He stealthily opened his luggage and took out the package then went inside the bathroom. When he opened it, it left him speechless. He really wanted to run away and just throw the package. It took him a full five minutes to silently stare at the package before he got rid of his dignity and finally go along with his plan.


    "This is only once in a lifetime. Gege only turns 40 once in this lifetime." He repeats those words like a broken record in his brain.


    Jian Kang Lu awoke by soft touch and a familiar voice whispered in his ear, "Gege.. Gege.. Happy Birthday.."


    Jian Kang Lu slowly blinked his eyes and realised the one in his arms is a pillow, not his kitten''s body. No wonder it felt cold.


    He saw his kitten looming above him. The room dimmed but still had adequate lighting. Jian Kang Lu''s instinct brings his face closer to that handsome face and kisses the pale pink lips while saying happy birthday over and over. He pecked it lightly.


    "Mmm.. Thank you, baby.."


    Several blink later, he realised his kitten was wearing a bathrobe, walked to the refrigerator and took out a small cake from inside. Jian Kang Lu didn''t realise there''s a cake inside, or where his kitten hid those candles.


    He sat up and smiled to see his kitten walking over, singing happy birthday to him. But.. Why is his kitten wearing a bathrobe? It seems they sleep with short and light T-shirts before. Is this.. Is this what he hoped for? Maybe his kitten was naked under the bathrobe, and allow him to eat his kitten cleanly tonight?


    He blew the candles, silently uttered the same wish year by year, then kissed his red faced kitten. It seems his kitten is truly naked under it, or else why is his face already red just because of one simple kiss?


    "Wait gege, i''ll bring my gift." His kitten then ran to the bathroom.


    Jian Kang Lu took a deep breath, trying to calm his not so little brother down there. "Be patient, don''t be like an animal in heat." He scolded his little brother.


    His kitten brought out a small box.. With the same white bathrobe, but Jian Kang Lu''s eyes locked to a different view in front of him. Previously it was a handsome man bundled with a white robe.


    Now.. It was still the same white robe, but he could see a small red bow tied on his kitten neck, and his kitten was wearing red socks.


    "Baby.. I saw something that really piqued my interest." Jian Kang Lu stares at his kitten. Stare at that red ribbon, to be exact.


    His kitten''s face really turns red. "Open my gift first.." His kitten softly said while giving the small box to him.


    Jian Kang Lu never unwrapped a gift as fast as now. He could even compete in an international contest for unwrapping a gift. Inside the box, laid a dark red stethoscope. His name is engraved on it, with a small Libra sign attached on it. Libra is his sign, looking at the design, it must be something his kitten designed on his own.


    "Thank you baby. How do you know I need a new stethoscope?" Jian Kang Lu said.


    "I notice the residents talk about it last month.." His kitten seems restless, he looked like he wanted to run away. He didn''t even sit on the bed, and kept standing there like a naughty boy who needed to be punished.


    "So, can i now unwrap my other gift?" Jian Kang Lu scooted over and stood up in front of his kitten.


    Bai Yutang''s face is really red. He was afraid his lover would laugh at him. He didn''t feel confident about this. He calms his mind by thinking, even if his lover laughs at him, at least it will amuse his lover.


    He told himself over and again not to be sad or offended if his lover mock him.


    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten slowly nod his head. After getting his kitten''s approval, he raised his hand and wanted to open that tight knotted bath robe. But his kitten suddenly stopped his paw.


    "Let me.. Let me open it by myself, gege."


    That slender hand slowly untied the bathrobe. White thick bathrobe soon dropped to the floor.


    A handsome man standing with a red face, slightly dropped his head due to his embarrassment. A small red bow tied on his neck. Red ribbons decorate that perfect body, with two fingers wide, it slides across his kitten''s shoulder and chest, covering the pink buds, wrapping his kitten''s chest and abdomen in a H shape.


    The slender legs wrapped in thin red socks up to his thighs, with thin black ribbon slid on the right thigh. It''s a contrast to his kitten milky white jade skin. His kitten wears thin and small underwear..


    Is it.. Is it a red thong? Jian Kang Lu can only stare foolishly and almost let himself drool like a starving dog.

 Chapter 197 - Dirty Talk (NSFW)

    Bai Yutang is still standing. He truly thought all the most embarrassing moments in his life all happened on his lover''s birthday. Last year''s striptease comparable with today''s event. Honestly, he didn''t know what encouraged him to really fulfil his promise about presenting himself as an additional birthday gift to his lover.


    Time seems to flow slowly, just like a high viscosity liquid runs around this room, heavy, suffocating.


    Bai Yutang didn''t dare to look at his lover''s face. He was afraid to be disappointed if he saw his lover laugh at him. He saw his own reflection in the bathroom, it was far from sexy.


    The model who posed for this lingerie has 8 six pack abs and a sexy mermaid line, while all he had was just a flat body. Truly flat from collarbone to his little brother down there. This lingerie is better used on his lover''s body.


    Wait.. Maybe someday he could ask his lover to use lingerie also on his birthday. The black leather lingerie he saw on the same web page when he searched for this red ribbon lingerie will suit his lover''s body perfectly.


    Bai Yutang''s mind is still busy with his own insecurity and imagination when he realizes his lover didn''t say anything at all. He raised the corner of his eyes to peek at his lover.


    "Gege.." He called softly.


    "Is this your way to reduce my lifespan, baby?" Jian Kang Lu''s voice was low, like a beast growling from the heat. "Turn around. Show me your back.."


    Bai Yutang peeked, and he had mixed feelings when saw his lover''s eyes. It was full of lust, but on a different whole level. Like he wants to strip Bai Yutang with his gaze.


    Bai Yutang slowly turned his body, show his back to Jian Kang Lu.


    Jian Kang Lu sat still like a statue, but his heart beat already increased just like a runner doing his training course.


    The smooth slender white neck was decorated with black ribbon. The lustrous white back strapped with red ribbons, gave an illusion for it begged Jian Kang Lu to taint those smooth backs with his mark all over.


    The soft supple white buttock only had thin black string strapped across the thin waist, and gone in between those hills. Asked the person who saw it to trace the line and pull it roughly.


    Bai Yutang felt weird.. It was not the first time he showed his naked body to his lover, but never he felt so naked like this. The unfamiliar nakedness he once felt, now is back, crawling beneath his skin.


    His lover didn''t touch him at all, but he could feel his lover''s gaze trace every inch of his naked skin. The small area of his uncovered skin felt like it was burned. No one touched him, but he sensed something pull the nerve beneath the ribbon. Itched. Burned. Stretched.


    "Your skin, truly smooth baby, makes me want to paint it with my own mark. Don''t you ever show your skin in front of others."


    Bai Yutang could sense his lover domineering voice from behind. Rarely does his lover command him like this. He tensed, but tried to ease it with some jokes, "Then, I can''t swim again, Gege?"


    "Use the scuba diver''s suit, or swim only with me in a private pool. Should we buy another house and build our own pool?"


    Bai Yutang felt chilled. He could sense his lover didn''t joke at all. He wanted to turn around and saw his lover''s face. He was uncomfortable standing and talking without seeing his lover''s face.


    "Don''t turn around. I still want to enjoy my living birthday gift." Jian Kang Lu commanded him. He stands up, approaching his kitten, and brings his face down nearing his kitten''s nape. He didn''t touch the skin, stopped right above the shoulder. "I can smell your scent, very sweet.."


    Bai Yutang''s sensitivity heightened when he couldn''t see his lover. He could sense his lover stand behind him, and his hot breath swept his naked shoulder.


    "Gege.."


    "I wish you could use this everyday as our new pyjamas. What do you think?" Jian Kang Lu asked his kitten, whispering in his ear.


    Bai Yutang shuddered and trembled. He wasn''t used to this kind of teasing.


    "I want to lick you all over, from head to toe. Let your skin be dampened and wet from my mouth, I want you to smell like me." Jian Kang Lu once again whispered, then slowly licked his kitten''s ear. From the top, play his tongue nimbly through all until he played around with that soft earlobe.


    Bai Yutang felt his chest was heavy and his breath was getting heavy.


    "You turn me on, baby.. Why are you so sexy? Do I also turn you on?" Jian Kang Lu didn''t touch his kitten at all, he just let his tongue be the only part of his body that touched Bai Yutang.


    Bai Yutang slowly nodded, and involuntary moans slipped out when Jian Kang Lu bit his neck, right above the black ribbon. The mild pain sends different kinds of pleasure to his brain.


    "I can see you getting hard down there.. I loved to lick your cute baby there, feel it trembling in my mouth. Do you also feel good when i lick your cute baby there?" Jian Kang Lu slowly said while he let his tongue trace his kitten''s neck and lick his other ear.


    "Ungh.. Gege.." Bai Yutang raised his hand, wanting to touch his lover''s head.


    "Drop your hand, baby. Don''t move without my permission."


    Bai Yutang''s hand halted, then he put it down. He could only anxiously clenched his fist several times to release the itch that ran through his whole body. His body turns hot and his limbs grow harder and harder with each stroke of his lover''s dancing tongue.


    "Good TangTang.. My TangTang is always obedient to me. Remember that I''m the only one who is allowed to please your body. Me, only me.. Don''t you dare to let someone else touch your cute baby there.. Do you hear me?"


    "Gege.. Ngh.."


    "Obey me.." Jian Kang Lu drew himself away from his kitten. He walked and faced his kitten, licking those soft lips slowly, burning Bai Yutang with desire.


    He commanded his kitten. "Kneel on the bed."


    Bai Yutang slowly turned around and climbed in the bed, putting both of his knees on it.


    "Place your hand on the bed, raise your buttock."


    Bai Yutang once again can''t see his lover''s face. Only his hoarse voice echoed in his ears. He does what his lover told him to do.


    "Put your hand and spread your buttock. I want to see whether your thong covered your naughty hole or it was opened for me."


    Bai Yutang turned his head to look at his lover. His lover never told him to do this kind of humiliating thing. "Gege.."


    "Do I allow you to turn your head?"


    "Gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten''s face was all red with lust and embarrassment, clearly his kitten wasn''t comfortable with what he requested. The beast inside him already trampled his sanity. His kitten''s face right now truly makes every man who saw it want to bully him even more. He wanted to see that handsome red flustered face painted with tears from pleasure.


    "I thought this was my birthday. You supposed to obey all my words today, don''t you think so, baby?"


    Bai Yutang could only bury his head on the bed. His upper chest supported his body, while his buttock raised high. He then slowly put his hand and spread his own buttock. Never before has he placed himself in this humiliating pose.


    "Why is your hole so sexy, baby? Pink and tight.. Perfectly wrapped my own when i fuck you. Your hole always makes me feel so good, baby.. My dick loves him so much. Does it love mine also? Mmhh? Do you also feel good when my dick goes inside?" Jian Kang Lu approaches his kitten and slowly caresses the black string which perfectly covers that tiny pink hole.


    Bai Yutang should burn from anger, humiliation, and discomfort. But to imagine his lover''s infatuated face every time he fucked him, almost begging him to let that sneaky snake of his lover slide inside, his anger replaced with lust.


    "Do you?" Jian Kang Lu''s voice was very heavy, as if he wanted to destroy Bai Yutang, fucked him to death if his kitten didn''t answer him.


    "I do.." Bai Yutang''s voice muffled since he faced down.


    "Do you want me to fuck your hole?" Jian Kang Lu still caresses the string covering that lusty hole while his own mouth tracing his kitten''s naked skin. From his neck, down to his spine, mark him here and there, then down to his waist.


    "Ngh.. Ah.." Bai Yutang''s soft moan slipped out.


    "Spread your ass wider, pull your string a little bit, and show me your hole." Jian Kang Lu commanded his lover while he licked his kitten''s waist, and lightly bit his soft snowy buttock.


    Bai Yutang slowly moved his finger and slightly pulled the string to the side. His lover didn''t touch him at all. Just letting his tongue and mouth trace his naked skin. Every part his lover licked left him burned, some tingling sensation burned his chest and his abdomen.


    In this position, all the blood rushed to his head, left him hot and fogging his mind. The blood also tried to rush back to his own erection. Making his heart beat faster and faster. Pumping hard.


    Thump.. Thump.. Thump..


    Bai Yutang almost went crazy from this sweet slow torture. He desperately wants his lover to embrace him, touch him, hug him, make him feel safe again.


    Then Bai Yutang felt soft and wet muscle slowly touch his hole, wetting it, lightly swept it with sweet electrified sensation, then rushed prying inside. Ravaging his naked hole. The wet slouching sound from those impacts left him breathless when he realised what his lover did.


    "Angh! Gege!!"

 Chapter 198 - Madness (NSFW)

    Jian Kang Lu did not answer, but continued to lick Bai Yutang''s hole. Slowly walk his agile muscle with no bone inside to trace the tiny little wrinkle around it. His kitten always cleaned himself everyday, obsessed with getting it to be always ready for Jian Kang Lu to pounce on him.


    How could Jian Kang Lu didn''t love and lust toward his understanding kitten?


    Bai Yutang never was this ashamed in his whole life. His hole is pried open, the dirtiest part of his body is being licked and teased by his lover''s tongue. The pleasure made Bai Yutang both humiliated and terrified. He continues to struggle but his body is responding in the way he has not felt before. He also involuntarily let out a moan.


    He wants to run away, wriggling his butt out of this man''s reach. But the other person kept pursuing his butt, biting it hard.


    "Ouch!" Bai Yutang screamed..


    "I told you not to move without my order. Why are you being disobedient?" Jian Kang Lu had a sudden urge to slap that white soft buttock, taint it until it was red and swollen.


    "Gege.. Why are you.. Don''t be like this, please..." Bai Yutang keeps on begging. He dared not to move his butt again, and finally trembled while maintaining his position, letting his crazy lover lick his hole once again.


    "My baby is already wet." Jian Kang Lu was satisfied to see that glistening tiny little hole twitching under his tongue. Every time he caresses it, the little petals around the hole bloomed before retracting once more into a small bud once more.


    Bai Yutang bite the bedsheet under him, carefully keeping his broken moans slipped once more. Every time his muffled voice echoed in the room, his crazy lover would put the agile wet velvety muscle inside his hole, wash him with shame again and again.


    Jian Kang Lu slowly inserted his finger in that tight hole and whispered, "Beautiful.."


    He played with the hole for some time, before he stood up and whispered to his kitten, "Stay like this, baby. Keep your butt sticking out. I want to fuck you raw, but later i can''t fuck you again tomorrow. I will fuck you for the whole day until we checked out. Let me prepare you nicely tonight, so be obedient, uhm?"


    Bai Yutang wants to cry. He never met this kind of Jian Kang Lu in bed before. He felt all the gentle and patience Jian Kang Lu showed him in their early years was just a bait to trick him. Now he finally realizes why his lover''s family and friends always told him not to let Jian Kang Lu bully him.


    Bai Yutang was a little bit scared, and petrified. This satisfied Jian Kang Lu when he walked to the bed with the oil lubricant on his hand, saw his kitten still kneeling on the bed with his butt sticking out and his head buried in the blanket.


    Jian Kang Lu marked and painted his mark all over his kitten''s soft and smooth back while he slowly put his slippery finger inside and out, felt the warm meat wall surrounding and sucking his fingers.


    "Ngh.." Bai Yutang unconsciously moaned each time Jian Kang Lu pressed and played with a certain spot inside that tight hot meat wall.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled and continued to press his fingers. "Baby, have i told you that sexy moan, and the way your body is reacting makes my desire more intense?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t answer, wondering where he went wrong today. He swore he will throw this lingerie away once his lover finish his torture tonight.


    Jian Kang Lu opened his kitten''s hole wider with two of his fingers, then kissed her already slippery hole, then smiled. "TangTang, my baby, how can you be so cute?"


    As he was speaking, Jian Kang Lu pulled his hardened shaft from his boxer and let the hungry beast kiss his beloved hole softly. Letting his precum mixed with his saliva and the lubricant before he places it on the entrance.


    "Can you feel it, baby? My dick all wet because of you. Hungry for you." Jian Kang Lu pushed it slowly. Closed his eyes when he felt the familiar warmth embrace his burning shaft, welcoming him to intrude and ravaging inside.


    Jian Kang Lu released his breath when he slowly pulled the tip of his dick out, then pushed it further again, slowly opening the narrow path of desire. Only God knows how he wanted to thrust it hard and slammed his dick inside. But later his kitten''s hole will get a little bit swollen like last time they crazily make love on his kitten''s graduation day.


    Bai Yutang took a deep breath and let his tight hole open once again, relaxing and adapting with his lover''s thickness.


    "Are you okay, baby?"


    This is the first normal sentence from his lover since midnight came. Bai Yutang muted out his answer, "Ungh.. Slowly, gege.."


    Once Jian Kang Lu finally buried his whole dick inside, he kissed his kitten''s neck, and placed his naughty paw into his kitten''s bud. Play with it slowly, pinch it, while he moves his hips slowly. Just like his kitten asked him to do.


    "Is this good?" Jian Kang Lu devotedly kissed the beautiful butterfly bone of his kitten.


    "Ah.. Good.. Ungh.."


    Just after Bai Yutang answered it and thought his lover''s sanity was finally back, he screamed and swayed to the front when his lover fucked his hole violently. His chest and waist embraced tightly by those two big hands, keeping him in place, preventing his body to fall upon. Not letting his hole to run away from the hungry beast.


    "No, gege.." Before Bai Yutang could plead, his lover''s thick shaft slammed into his hole all the way in once again. Pulled it before slammed hard. It was done slowly, but the impact was so rough. As if the man behind him wants to merge inside his body.


    "TangTang, you''re so tight.. Why is your hole always this tight? It keeps sucking and biting my dick." Jian Kang Lu continuously murmurs, sometimes he bite his kitten''s neck. The place which is covered with that black ribbon.


    The black line contrasting the white skin, somehow made an illusion of this man whom he loved so much, voluntarily chained himself to be his exclusive property.


    Jian Kang Lu raised his hand which previously held his kitten''s waist. He didn''t stop thrusting his kitten''s hole. Keep aiming to ram his kitten''s sweet spot hard while he hugged his kitten''s chest tight. Because of the heavy impact, Bai Yutang completely laid down in Jian Kang Lu''s arms.


    Luckily Jian Kang Lu always trains his arm muscles well since he is sexually active once more. He propped both of their bodies with his elbow and knees only. His hands moved upward and reached his kitten''s mouth.


    "Don''t bite the blanket. Look, it all wet from your saliva." With a domineering tone, Jian Kang Lu pried open his kitten''s mouth, and played with the wet muscle inside. Felt the velvety texture run across his finger''s sensitive nerve.


    "Ugh!" Jian Kang Lu growling from the stimulation. No wonder some people have finger fetish and could reach orgasm just with their fingers stimulated properly.


    "Suck it, baby." Jian Kang Lu brings his kitten''s body to be propped into a proper doggie style. Jian Kang Lu straightened his back while pulling his kitten''s body toward his own. His left hand still held his kitten''s waist tightly while his right hand pulled his kitten''s head toward him, still placed inside his kitten''s mouth, not allowing those pretty lips to shut up.


    "Open your mouth, lick my fingers. Don''t close your mouth. Yes.. That''s good.. I love how you lick me. You make me feel so good, baby.."


    Jian Kang Lu''s hand placed on Bai Yutang''s groin, near his hard shaft which was pitifully alone, without any touch and love tonight.


    Bai Yutang''s moans keep coming from his back of throat. His saliva drips around his chin, resulting from his lover''s cruel fingers. The discomfort of being dominated mixed with intense pleasure from his back bloomed into something dark yet enchanting. In his helplessness, there was something inside him craving for more.


    Especially when his lover told him how he makes his lover feel good. His hole unconsciously clenched tight, sucking his lover''s shaft to penetrate him deeper and deeper.


    "Do i make you feel good, TangTang?" Jian Kang Lu bite his kitten''s earlobe.


    Receiving no answer, only soft moans, left Jian Kang Lu unhappy. He pulled his shaft slowly until it almost left the entrance, before grinding the entrance slowly. Keep doing shallow poke here and there. Steady slow shallow movement, repeated over and over again.


    Bai Yutang breathed, finally he could get his mind clearer after those brutal invasions. But his hole felt empty. He wants his lover to fill him to his deepest part. His hips moved back, searching for his lover''s shaft. He wants his lover to poke his spot, bring him to the highest peak. Filled his world with sparks.


    Jian Kang Lu chuckled, "Naughty.. Does my TangTang looking for my dick to fuck you deep? Mmh? Do you want me to? Tell me, do I make you feel good?"


    "Good.. Angh.. Gege.."


    Bai Yutang''s hips keep moving, searching for the pleasure to fill him up. He was like a boat swaying in the ocean. Searching for the steady sunny land.


    Jian Kang Lu pounced his kitten hard. Slammed his kitten''s ass until there is no gap seen between both of their bodies. He started to thrust it fast and hard once again. They speak no more for a while.


    Soft moans. Low growl. Panting. Heavy breath. Sound of two flesh slammed to each other hard and fast. Sound of damped sweat skin slapped around. Sound of fingers forcefully pushes the other''s tongue to keep licking and sucking. Whimpering.


    The sound of heavy lust filled the whole room. Drown the two people into an abyss of pleasure.


    Jian Kang Lu grabbed his kitten''s naughty paw who had already moved to stroke his lonely shaft. He doesn''t want to let his kitten cum from the front. Tonight, only his dick was allowed to let his kitten cum.


    "Do you want to come, baby?" His voice is already hoarse and low from this intense love making. He let his kitten''s cute erection be freed from the thong, but he didn''t touch it after it was released.


    His kitten only answered him with cries and his head turned slightly. The reddened eyes with glistened tears could be seen from above.


    "Beg me to fuck you until you come, baby."


    "Pweashee.." Bai Yutang''s voice can''t clearly heard since Jian Kang Lu''s fingers still prying inside his mouth. Once he plead, his lover changed the movement.


    They have been together for so long. Their bodies know each other so well. Jian Kang Lu has been an expert at making his kitten cum from his hole. The ultimate non failed way is to grind his kitten''s spot with the right amount of pressure and speed. Not too slow and not too fast, with a certain speed changing of fast and hard thrust in between.


    Jian Kang Lu could feel his kitten''s mouth suck his fingers, then bite it with a cry. The thick milky liquid splattered around the bed. Shot after shot released from his kitten''s erection. Jian Kang Lu felt his dick was squeezed tight, choking him.


    "Bear with me, baby.. Make me cum.." Jian Kang Lu letting his kitten go. His kitten dropped down to the bed, with his butt raised up, supported by Jian Kang Lu''s hands.


    Jian Kang Lu pounced fast and hard. The sweat rolling down on his naked chest, his back, to his thighs, absorbed into his boxer. His low growl mixed with his pants, rammed the tight hole of his kitten again and again. Rise his desire to burn hotter and hotter, fly him higher and higher.


    "TangTang.. My love.. TangTang.. Ugh.. Fuck!"


    The hot thick liquid spurted inside the tight hole. Bai Yutang screams from his over sensitive hole after his own ejaculation and the intense ramming of his lover.


    Both of them laid down with their breath running with each other. Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s shoulder, up to his cheek, then to his soft lips. He still moved his hips slightly and slammed it hard several times, squeezed all his seed to be planted inside his kitten''s hole.


    "I love you, baby.. I love you.." The sound of his lover''s voice lingering at Bai Yutang''s ear. The voice that once again turned back into his gentle lover. As if his madness before was just one crazy illusion.


    Bai Yutang closed his eyes. Just felt his lover''s lips kissed him all over. The soft kiss. The intense love. The burning desire slowly dimmed out, left his his whole body relaxed.


    "I love you so much, my handsome TangTang.."


    Soon the darkness came to pick him into the land of dreams. With a warm embrace of his lover''s musky scent enveloped his body and consciousness.


    "I love you.. More.. Gege.."

 Chapter 199 - Stardust

    Bai Yutang awoke from the soft touch on his temples, trailing down to the corner of his eyes. He could feel something soft brushing against his eyelashes.


    "Awake? Sleep some more, baby.. I know you''re still sleepy.."


    The words are gentle, the kisses are tender. Yet Bai Yutang couldn''t appreciate his lover''s good intention, for his lover''s hand denied those kind words he just whispered.


    The hand is busy trailing his skin, from his shoulder, neck, chest, abdomen, everywhere. While his lover''s other hand is busy groping his half hard member down there lightly.


    Bai Yutang tried to hit the naughty paws, getting rid of it.. He was still annoyed by his lover''s attitude last night. Since he fell asleep last night, he doesn''t even have time to reprimand his lover.


    If only Bai Yutang knows what he did only awaken Jian Kang Lu''s beast from a docile state of loving and adoring his kitten into lusting his kitten''s body and wanting to taste it once more.


    How could Jian Kang Lu hold his lust? This is their holiday, his kitten is still wearing sexy lingerie with a red bow on his slender neck, and his half awakened kitten frowned then lightly hit his hands. Just like a small kitten making a ruckus because they disturbed from their nap.


    Once again Bai Yutang is convinced that this lingerie he wears is the source of evil. Need to be thrown away immediately, never let this lingerie see the world again. Or maybe he needs to burn it. Since his lover ignored his plea and just pounced on him again like a madman.


    Bai Yutang fell asleep once more after Jian Kang Lu ate him cleanly. Once he truly awakens, the sun is already high, illuminating their room with soft light. He was awoken in Jian Kang Lu''s embrace. Kissed and sniffed, again and again.


    "My handsome baby awake? Are you hungry? Want to have breakfast here?"


    Bai Yutang struggled to release himself from this devil wearing his lover''s gentle face. "I want to take a bath.."


    Bai Yutang truly wanted to punch his lover. He could feel his ass sticky from his lover''s cum. Usually his lover will clean his body after they make love if he is too tired to clean himself. On working days, his lover was considerate to wear condoms and didn''t shoot inside.


    But today.. His lover was still naked and latched his body all over him. Bai Yutang''s face turns red to realise his lover''s seed flow out from his body when he kneels, crawling down from bed.


    He turned his head to look at his lover with resentment. His lover scoop his waist, hug him and then carry him away.


    "I''m sorry, baby. I just want you to smell like me all day long." Jian Kang Lu kissed the man he carried in his arms.


    Bai Yutang decided to give this man silent treatment. He doesn''t like his lover''s madness. He doesn''t like to awaken with sticky semen all over his body. He doesn''t like his lover to hold him in princess carry.


    Jian Kang Lu knows his kitten is truly mad if he doesn''t say anything. Thus in the bathroom, when they soaking in a nice hot bath in the bathtub, Jian Kang Lu had to cross the bathtub sex from his birthday''s list. He spent the whole 30 minutes coaxing his kitten into a better mood.


    Finally his kitten opened his lips when Jian Kang Lu dried his hair in a devoted motion.


    "I''ll burn this lingerie." His kitten''s voice is so cold, as if the lingerie is the biggest villain in this whole world.


    "Don''t be mad anymore.. I was just too happy. No one ever does this to me. You''re the first to wear this sexy and handsome lingerie just for me. No one celebrate my birthday like you did. You''re truly the biggest gift ever given to me. How did you make me love you more and more each day? Mmmhh?" Jian Kang Lu rained his kitten with soft small kisses all over.


    Bai Yutang''s soft spot is when Jian Kang Lu told him that he makes his lover happy. The other spot is when Jian Kang Lu told him that he was the first.


    He was the first to cook for Jian Kang Lu. He was the first to give his lover a striptease dance. And now his lover told him he was the first to wear sexy lingerie. This gave Bai Yutang some sense of security, since he was always afraid he could never beat Jian Kang Lu''s ex lover. He was afraid that what he gave to his lover would never be as good as what his lover had before.


    "Please.. I love you so much.. Don''t be mad anymore, please.. Forgive me.. Mmmhh?" Jian Kang Lu left arms still hugging his kitten tight, while his right hand held the hairdryer. His kitten''s hair almost dried.


    Bai Yutang looked at his lover''s pitiful face reflected on the bathroom mirror. "Okay.. But you also have to wear lingerie on my birthday, gege.."


    "Okay!" Jian Kang Lu agreed in 0.000001 second. The most important thing is to appease his kitten first. Later he could slowly educate and coax his kitten to wear different kinds of lingerie.


    Previously he never told his kitten to wear it since he was afraid his kitten wouldn''t want to. But now, since his kitten wears it by himself, he doesn''t want to let this golden chance slip out of his hand. He already imagined his kitten wearing white cat''s ears, soft white paw gloves, white fluffy socks, and white cute furry tails plugged on his kitten''s cute butt.


    Jian Kang Lu held his nose, preventing the blood from running out, a result of his excessive imagination. He couldn''t believe that he finally had a chance to make his imagination come true in this lifetime.


    "What are you doing gege? Your nose hurt?" Bai Yutang looked at his lover with a worried face. Why did his lover suddenly raise his head and held his nose? Did he unconsciously hit his lover in the middle of his rage?


    "No, I''m fine.. There, your hair dried. Let''s eat, shall we?" Jian Kang Lu tried to get rid of his imagination and put his gentle smile back, shoved the beast inside back to his cage.


    Bai Yutang didn''t have time to admire their room and the hotel they stayed at this time due to their arrival last night was quite late.


    The room design is minimal and contemporary yet relaxed. Hints of soft blues conjure a peaceful ambience, with wallpapered panels softening the overall space while printed fabric selections for accent pillows suggest the hotel''s resort location. Honey golden wood in the flooring brightens up the space while providing a sense of warmth.


    Contemporary furniture pieces in dark and golden brown zebrano are accented with metal and mirrored details adding sleekness to the room''s decor. The monolithic and large scaled zebrano wood frame around the bed suggest the ''framing'' concept being carried throughout the hotel''s design and brings it into the guest room interior architectural design.


    A subtle hint to Chinese influence in the modern interpretation of an antique Chinese wood-carved chair repurposed as a desk chair accompanies the work desk along the wall beside the inset television. Smoked glass encases the split bathroom facilities. The bathtub they just used looked out into the room, integrating the bathroom with the living space and allowing for natural light to subtly spill into the space.


    They go down to the restaurant to have their late breakfast. Jian Kang Lu prefers to have their breakfast in their room and cuddling with his kitten, but he is still in the middle of coaxing his kitten. He knows the best way to switch his kitten''s attention from the lingerie is to show his kitten the good architectural design. Lucky for him to choose this hotel.


    They enjoy breakfast with Y lake view clearly seen from the whole glass wall in the restaurant. His kitten is busy taking pictures and rambling about the chief architect who designed this hotel. It turns out the architect is very famous, on par with Zhen Guo.


    Jian Kang Lu nodded, mumbling, agreeing with every word spilled from his kitten''s lovely mouth, while feeding his kitten. Lately his kitten didn''t protest being fed in public. Jian Kang Lu loved that bulging cheek of his kitten so much. Very cute.


    In times like this, once again he felt like an arrow shot his heart, choked him with overflow emotion spilled all over.


    "I love you so much, TangTang.."


    Bai Yutang was still rambling about Cheng Hai Ao, the architect who designed this hotel, when his lover suddenly said those words.


    As long as someone has eyes on their face, they could clearly see an infatuated face of Jian Kang Lu solely smitten for his kitten.


    Bai Yutang silenced for a few seconds. His head blanked.


    "I love you too, gege.." He softly whispered and lowered his head. Is it possible for an old couple like them to act this coquettish like a newlywed couple? He hoped his lover''s love would never fade with time, since he himself could never imagine how he could live without his lover ever again.


    They spend almost one hour enjoying their breakfast. Once they went back to their room, his lover once again kissed and groped him all over. This time Bai Yutang responded with the same degree of desire.


    How could he didn''t wish for the same when he saw his lover''s face when Jian Kang Lu uttered the love words before? The gentle face who bare all his feelings entirely for him to see. The pure affection Jian Kang Lu poured for Bai Yutang.


    As if he was the only one worth seeing in this world.


    Jian Kang Lu embraced his kitten tightly, gently, intensely. He was sweating all over, slowly entering his kitten once again after his kitten reached his first ejaculation. He watched his kitten''s face painted with lust.


    How he loved this man so much.


    Jian Kang Lu held his kitten''s hand while they were making love. These soft hands were his medication, his heart-song and his light, for that is love. Love compact the senses, and as when stardust is so compacted in the universe, the star is born with its own gravity and radiant light.


    This man is the centre of his whole world.

 Chapter 200 - Resignation

    Bai Yutang stepped down from the bus, then walked to the tall building where he had worked for more than one year. The familiar 150 meter from the bus station to the building brings him a lot of memories. The trees lined on an asymmetrical patch, the brick road pathway, the office workers walk in their battlesuit armor.


    Bai Yutang took his time and leisurely walked. The morning summer sun was so warm, accompanying each of his steps. He walked past the familiar large lobby, then queued to the familiar lift to the 9th floor where he worked.


    It''s been five seasons he has worked in this firm. He learns a lot. About working, and other things too. Bai Yutang didn''t regret every single second he spent here. His heart felt light and warm. He didn''t understand why he needed to stress himself out with so many negative emotions before he reached this stage.


    Today, he submitted his resignation letter to his superior and to the HR department.


    His superior, Yao Mingyu, didn''t flinch. He just says one simple sentence when Bai Yutang reaches the door to walk out from his office room.


    "Good luck with your next job."


    Bai Yutang turned his body slightly bowed. "Thank you, Mr. Yao."


    Yao Mingyu didn''t even ask him where he was going to work next. Those words may just be thrown out of courtesy. Or maybe a slight pity? But Bai Yutang is sure there''s no regret or guilt in that sentence.


    The HR department who received his resignation letter called him to her office, asked about the standard issue and other things that need to be wrapped. Bai Yutang needs to work for another one month until his resignation is effective. But he won''t be allowed to touch anything related to clients or vendors anymore.


    Bai Yutang answered he still had no new job nor applied for it. The HR looked at him with a look of disbelief in her face. Who didn''t know the first rule to resign is looking for a new job before you lose the old one. But then she remembered the rumor about this skinny man. Maybe this man truly didn''t need money since he had a big backup behind him. No differences made whether he has a job or not.


    Bai Yutang immediately went back to the first state where he worked here, doing small things needed for his senior teammate. All the work related to clients and vendors directly transfer to his junior.


    Yes, five months ago a new junior joined their team, replacing Yan Qiuyue who got a new job at another firm.


    It was Yan Qiuyue who told him about the rumor that circulated in the office. Bai Yutang wants to laugh, yet he can''t say anything. No one asked him to clarify this matter. And Bai Yutang also learned from his university years, that nothing he said could be heard.


    At that time, even Yan Qiuyue didn''t ask him. Bai Yutang still remembers Yan Qiuyue''s farewell dinner in December, followed by karaoke night. Yan Qiuyue was already drunk and circled by her colleagues.


    The room was loud, full of laughter. Yet Bai Yutang only sits in the corner. Typing on his phone, chatting with his lover. This is a common sight for everyone in the F firm. Only a few people will talk to Bai Yutang and joke with him. These few people usually come from the first division.


    Since Bai Yutang often accompanied his mother in law, lots of these rich ladies who knew him worked at F firm. Some of them told their employees to contact the F firm to renovate their office buildings.


    These ladies only need to see the name of Lin Caihong, Xie Lihua as Mrs. Sun Hongjia, Yang Huiyan as the old Madam Sun, and Zhou Qunfei. With the list of these women who often meet each other at the socialite party, they know this cute little guy must be really good at his work. If he was a mediocre architect, how come even old Madam Sun who was known as a difficult lady to handle, always dragged Bai Yutang everywhere each time she saw him in the party. This usually followed with Lin Caihong quarreling with old Madam Sun for kidnapping his son in law.


    "You old fox, go get your own son in law! Don''t always drag mine everywhere!"


    Yang Huiyan just calmly played her old lady card while asking Bai Yutang to hold her hand and carry her back to her seat. "All my sons married women, I don''t have a chance to let them find a cute young man like him to be my son in law anymore. Oh, my knees are hurting so much, come TangTang, help this old lady to sit."


    Lin Caihong hates this old fox who even tried to imitate a rheumatic old lady walking with unstable gait. How come his son in law was so naive to be tricked with these cheap dirty moves? If only Bai Yutang could see this old fox still wear her red 7 cm high heels to destroy her board of directors in the annual shareholder meeting.


    But once again, if her son in law was not a naive guy, how come his own son tricked him to be his boyfriend for all these years.


    Lin Caihong could only grit her teeth and ask for another glass of white wine when Bai Yutang helplessly massage Yang Huiyan''s shoulder.


    Xie Lihua was very happy each time she met Bai Yutang when she accompanied her own mother in law. She was freed.


    Yang Huiyan was also very happy. Her sons are all grown up, her grandchildren are not old enough, and she can''t ask her own daughter in law to serve her in the public or else these old foxes will accuse her of being an evil mother in law.


    With these powerful fierce ladies on his back, Bai Yutang became a new icon in these socialite parties.


    At first, Bai Yutang didn''t know several ladies she knew hired F firm to be their architect. These ladies were on the top, the one who contacted the firm was their employee. He only knew when they met at the D brand afternoon party and they told Bai Yutang what they want and what they expect from F firm.


    With this knowledge, Bai Yutang contacted the people from the first division and told them this insight. This led to their project running smoothly and even receiving compliments.


    That''s why the people from the first division are the only people who treat him warmly. Bai Yutang didn''t know, and didn''t care, whether they treat him differently because they feel thankful, or they are afraid to offend the big names behind him. After all, he brought three big clients indirectly to the first division.


    That night, when Yan Qiuyue drank, she saw the skinny silent man who sat in the dark corner, didn''t even raising his head from his phone.


    As his senior, Yan Qiuyue felt she needed to give this skinny man a little advice to live better. She knew Bai Yutang''s capability, and pity him for burying his talent just because he chose to be a male mistress.


    So she walked to Bai Yutang and sat by his side. "Yutang, you know that you have a lot of potential. Don''t bury your talent and be blinded with money. You''re still young, you still have a chance to look for a nice young woman and bury your past. It was not good to ruin someone else''s marriage. Don''t you feel ashamed of Doctor Jian? He took you to live with him, but you did all those kinds of things behind his back. Let me tell you, those things look good now. Easy money is always tempting. But later you will regret it, trust me. When you grow old and your sugar daddy looks for another young man, you will look back and regret why you didn''t live your life in a proper way."


    Bai Yutang couldn''t believe what he heard, didn''t understand half of Yan Qiuyue''s absurd statement, and those words were just like a horrible plot in a cheap novel. He still can''t fully digest this load of information spewed by Yan Qiuyue, when she pat his shoulder. "Listen to me, just take me as your jiejie. You can do it, just focus on your work. Someday you could also buy anything you want without your sugar daddy''s support."


    Before Bai Yutang could ask anything, Yan Qiuyue already walked away and talked to her other colleague. Reminiscing of their old times, and they wished her good luck in her new place.


    Bai Yutang''s hand trembled, and asked his lover to pick him up. Previously he wanted to go home by himself and reject his lover''s offer to pick him up. But after learning why those people laugh at him, and look at him as if he was a despicable trash, he needs to be by his lover''s side.


    Seek for comfort. Seek for a safe place.


    Once his lover called to tell him he was already outside, Bai Yutang hurriedly mumbling his goodbye to his superiors in the karaoke room, said farewell to Yan Qiuyue and hurriedly ran out.


    He can''t breath. After all this time, these rumors never went away, even grew more and more evil. Architect''s circles in this city were not big. It seems he could never wash away this rumor, unless he works in another city.


    Because of this, Jian Kang Lu walks on thin ice for months, since his kitten''s mood fluctuates like an atrial flutter''s1 patient electrocardiogram.


    One day, when he held his kitten on his lap while both of them were playing games, suddenly his kitten asked, "Gege, do you mind if I tell people that you''re my boyfriend?"


    Jian Kang Lu almost thinks that this is his kitten''s evil tactic to distract him and ruthlessly kills his character in the game. But then he realised his kitten''s eyes were dimmed and empty. He doesn''t care about the game anymore and embraces his kitten.


    "That will only make me happy, baby. Very happy..." He kissed his kitten in adoration. "I''m only afraid you''ll get bullied. But rest assured, you have me here. We have each other. If you are comfortable with it, i will be honoured to be known as Mr. Bai Yutang''s husband."


    Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten again, and again. "And let me know if someone dares to bully you. We could always sue them."


    Bai Yutang laughed, "Please don''t waste the money to pay an attorney." He kissed his lover back. "Thank you, gege.."


    Bai Yutang felt a heavy stone lifted from his chest, but nevertheless, he never had a chance to clear the rumor about himself. And somehow, he doesn''t even want to explain to these people. What for?


    He endured working in this unfair environment. Not all days are bad, most are ordinary, and some even good. But still he found it hard to breathe and can''t stay calm when his bonus is less compared to the newcomer. His work was never acknowledged, most of the credit even fell to other people.


    His friends tried to cheer him up, and told him to at least stay for two years, until he could get his architect license. He tried, until one day Mr. Yao praised his junior for Bai Yutang''s original design in front of the client.


    This is not a new thing for him, Bai Yutang swallows it. But he couldn''t hold his emotion when his lover took him for a short surprise date later at night. His lover took him to drink in a piano lounge. Listening to the calm melody of piano, and his lover intimately kissing his cheek while feeding him the angel hair pasta with clams, he suddenly blurted, "Gege, what if i become jobless?"


    His lover didn''t even hesitate to answer while tenderly wiping the oil stain on his lips, "So what? Your husband here is still capable of pampering and fulfilling all your needs."


    His lover then gave him a glass of white wine and held his hands, looking straightly to his eyes. "You''re my everything. Just do what you want to do, and let me take care of the rest. I''ll be very happy if you learn how to depend on me a little bit."

 Chapter 201 - Jobless

    Life is balanced. There''s always a negative and positive side in life, yin and yang, rough and soft.


    Just like his kitten''s resignation. Jian Kang Lu is very curious why his kitten suddenly resigned from his job. After his kitten asked him for his opinion if his kitten became jobless, one week later his kitten told him that he already submitted his resignation letter and will be jobless at the end of this month.


    His kitten told him in a light tone, half joking, that he could only give his body for Jian Kang Lu''s birthday in the next two months if he couldn''t get a job until that time.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t mind at all if his kitten became an unemployed man, but he knows his kitten too well. Why does his beloved kitten need to resign immediately? He was worried, but his kitten only told him that he wasn''t satisfied with his current work, and wanted to change his environment. Looking for a new challenge.


    What a template answer for a job seeker when being interviewed.


    Jian Kang Lu knew he couldn''t get the direct answer from his kitten, so he asked Yu Dong and Liu Xiang. But they both are even surprised since his kitten hasn''t told them yet. Yu Dong is a bad liar, so Jian Kang Lu could guess that both of them know the reason, just that they don''t expect his kitten to resign this soon without securing a new job yet.


    The positive side is when his kitten is still on his one month grace period for resignation, his kitten doesn''t work late anymore. Jian Kang Lu''s breakfast quality improved, he even often blessed with his kitten packing some lunch for him too.


    The other positive side is his kitten often goes to the hospital to pick him up on his afternoon practice''s day. His kitten will wait for him to finish in the cafe, and later they will have dinner together.


    It was a very pleasant feeling to know your beloved one is there in one building with you, waiting for you to finish your work.


    The other positive side is his kitten''s mood now is stable, and looked like he was truly happy to leave his working place soon. Jian Kang Lu noticed that something must be wrong there. He asked Zhen Guo, but even Zhen Guo said the F firm director didn''t notice something was wrong with their working environment.


    Of course, the F firm director rarely goes down to Bai Yutang''s level. He only knows the report and result from these young architect''s superiors.


    Thus Zhen Guo calmed Jian Kang Lu by offering Bai Yutang to work on his firm, and told this neurotic friend of his that this is a common thing to happen in a non medical field. It was not a strange thing for architects to change their job and working place, in pursuit for something better.


    Unlike doctors, usually they are bound to the same hospitals they pick at the first time they finished their education. Even though doctors change hospitals, usually because they already become consultants and offered to fill the position in the other hospitals.


    Besides his unfulfilled curiosity, Jian Kang Lu didn''t find the negative side yet. Until his kitten becomes a full unemployed man.


    With so much free time, besides submitting his resume to many firms, Bai Yutang didn''t have anything to do. He was back to looking for part time jobs to fill his time. Even though he was jobless, Bai Yutang still refused to submit his resume to Zhen Guo''s firm.


    At first, Jian Kang Lu was very very very happy. His lunch, breakfast and dinner much improved. His kitten is back to experimenting with a new recipe in the kitchen, and Jian Kang Lu is always looking forward to what his kitten will cook for him.


    Then, their bedroom activities also improved. Jian Kang Lu could have his meal every time he wants to. Even his kitten often initiates their hot sweat induced activities without him needed to coax his kitten first. Jian Kang Lu was really thankful for his kitten''s youthful energy because his kitten didn''t mind getting entangled with him everyday.


    Until.. His kitten remembers that one night he was on top. Being too idle, let his kitten''s creativity bloomed to the max and demand to let him be on top again. Literally topping him.


    "Gege, you said that you''re okay with that.. Come on.. You''re so sexy, gege.. I want it.."


    It''s really not fair, saying those seductive words, with a very seductive face.. How could Jian Kang Lu reject?


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t mind, but of course he demanded a payment upfront. Previously, he already ordered a lot of lingerie for his kitten, but hid it well since his kitten still refused to wear those lace lingerie or the cat tail butt plug.


    "Of course I''m okay with it, but I also want you to wear the cat''s tail I bought last time. Please.."


    Bai Yutang already searched for evil things in their wardrobe but he never found it. He squinted his eyes to think how could this man keep a secret from him. His lover even locked him in the bathroom when his lover was digging those hidden evil things from his secret place.


    In the end it was a tie, Jian Kang Lu let his kitten top him if his kitten wore the lingerie of his dreams. Each time his kitten topped him, Jian Kang Lu would pull each one of his hidden collections.


    Jian Kang Lu really didn''t mind. In the end, it was always his kitten who surrendered in his own lust and let Jian Kang Lu do as he pleased after his kitten reached his first ejaculation when he topped him.


    And his young kitten is still inexperienced to hold his ejaculation when he becomes the one who penetrates, so the duration of his kitten topped him every time almost never exceeding 10 minutes.


    A very cheap price in exchange to see the handsome face of his kitten flushed on top of him, with a cute white cat''s ear, and he could also play with the cat tail butt plug. His kitten once cum two times in a row when Jian Kang Lu moved his hips to grind his kitten''s hot erection that buried inside him while his hands moving the butt plug inside and out.


    Every man always has pride if they can satisfy their partner in the bed. In this term, Jian Kang Lu felt secure, even though he''s old but he still could serve his kitten well.


    For Bai Yutang, it felt secure for him to felt even though he was not handsome and didn''t have anything special on him, but his handsome lover with those 6 packs abs always lusting his body and enjoy to have sex with him.


    Everyday having sex, it secure both of their mind that neither of their partner will try to look for another person. A typical mind of male homo sapiens species.


    In the midst of their honeymoon sexual period, Bai Yutang actually starts to feel uneasy since he can''t find a new job even until the Mid-Autumn festival comes. This is one of the reasons he indulges in their bed activities. Good sex always relax his mind, let his brain emptied from all negative things creep inside.


    Bai Yutang felt that the only partner and future in-laws in this world who was happy to know that their soon to be son in law became unemployed is only his lover and his future in-laws. The frequency of Lin Caihong kidnaping him to go to her social activities increased.


    Now Bai Yutang could say he was very familiar with these very expensive fashion brands. He also now could tell which one is the ultra limited edition H bag, things he never paid attention to before. He was also being numb to hear the prices of these bags.


    Jian Shen also didn''t want to lose from his wife and often kidnap Bai Yutang to play golf with him. In only two months, all of Jian Shen''s friends who very very rarely meet Jian Kang Lu now might recognise Bai Yutang in the mall or in other public spaces if they meet each other, and won''t even recognise Jian Kang Lu as the original son of Jian Shen.


    His lover''s another birthday passed, Bai Yutang could only give him a sketch painting he drew by himself. It''s a sketch of the scenery near the hotel they kissed for the first time in Boston.


    Bai Yutang didn''t know how precious his birthday gift was for Jian Kang Lu. Bai Yutang might never know, since his lover always shows very happy every time Bai Yutang gives him something.


    On his lover''s birthday party, they went for another dinner party followed by karaoke night. Like last year, his friends were also invited. It was very chaotic yet much fun.


    In the middle of laughter and shouting, Zhen Guo approaches Bai Yutang. "Have you found a new job, Yutang?"


    Bai Yutang was embarrassed, but he shook his head and answered politely, "Not yet, Zhen Ge."


    Zhen Guo, truly a dense man. He couldn''t understand why Bai Yutang didn''t want to work with him. Luckily Luo Jiao, his wife, is not that dense. Luo Jiao told him that Bai Yutang must feel implicated if he worked with his lover''s friend. Even though Zhen Guo didn''t really understand even if his wife already used 10,000 words to explain to him, he was never a pushover man and didn''t ask Bai Yutang.


    "I heard from my friend that a C company is looking for architects. You could try to apply there if you are interested. Just contact me if you want and I''ll give you my friend''s contact information." Zhen Guo said.


    Bai Yutang never heard the C company name, so he searched for it immediately from his mobile phone. From the name, it was clearly a foreign company. It was a real estate firm, a very big one. They have offices in 70 countries and manage properties such as real estate, offices, warehouses, and lots of other things.


    Bai Yutang only took 5 minutes to search and read the information. Even though he didn''t really understand what he will do in that company, for now he needs a job.


    "Zhen Ge, i''m interested. If you don''t mind, i''ll need your help." Bai Yutang told Zhen Guo.


    Zhen Guo immediately sent his friend''s contact information. He also contacted his friend and recommended Bai Yutang for this job.


    "Thank you, Zhen Ge." Bai Yutang poured the whiskey into Zhen Guo''s glass and received Zhen Guo''s toast.


    "I can''t guarantee you got the job, but i know you''ll do well. Good luck, Yutang." Zhen Guo said sincerely.

 Chapter 202 - New Dawn

    Jian Kang Lu was awakened by his kitten''s soft voice whispering in his ear. His kitten''s soft lips touch his temples, brush the soft hair near his ear.


    "I''m awake, baby.." Jian Kang Lu still closed his eyes, but his hands raised and accurately hugged his kitten''s tiny waist and snuggle on his kitten''s hips for a while before he finally opened his eyes.


    Soft kiss landed on his kitten''s lips, and Jian Kang Lu sat on the bed. "I won''t get down from this bed if you didn''t kiss me back."


    Bai Yutang obediently coaxed this childish wolf hiding behind a gentle facade. He will have a job interview at C company later at 9.30, so he really couldn''t avoid getting there late. Bai Yutang wants to arrive there at least at 9 o''clock. It was really rude to be late at your job interview..


    Jian Kang Lu could smell the butter scent filling their kitchen. Hot white egg coated bread already served in his plate, along with a cup of bircher muesli. Lately his kitten is obsessed with making a healthy non greasy food for them. Last month''s obsession was traditional Chinese food.


    No matter what his kitten served him, it was truly delicious. Even though his kitten often told him that his taste buds couldn''t be trusted, yet all his family admit that his kitten''s cooking is truly delicious, and his kitten is definitely too good to be his boyfriend.


    "Thank you, baby. Where will you have your interview today? I''ll drive you there." Jian Kang Lu received the hot tea his kitten gave him.


    His kitten mentioned the building''s name. It was in the CBD area, near Jian Kang Se''s office building. Jian Kang Lu checked the map, indeed, the building was laid in one area with his brother''s office.


    Bai Yutang didn''t refuse his lover''s offer. It was better that he arrived late. He also knew his lover didn''t need to arrive in the hospital at a specific time.


    Jian Kang Lu dropped him down in the lobby, and kissed his kitten''s hand softly before his kitten went down. "Good luck, baby. Let''s watch movies later in the afternoon, okay?"


    "Thank you, gege." Bai Yutang smiled and left the car.


    Bai Yutang walked to the receptionist and stated his purpose: to receive his visitor card and ride the elevator to the 15th floor. He then walks inside the C company''s office and reports his arrival to the pretty young receptionist.


    The 24 year old receptionist told Bai Yutang to wait on the sofa while she contacted the HR. Even though Bai Yutang arrived earlier than his appointment, the HR responsible for today''s interview was free. She greeted Bai Yutang and they went inside the small meeting room.


    The HR was a young chubby lady with curly hair, very friendly. Bai Yutang relaxed for a while before the HR switch to interview him in English. Bai Yutang''s english was not at the same level as Jian Kang Lu, but since their visit to Boston last time, Bai Yutang often practiced his English to improve his own capability.


    How could he face his lover''s family if he didn''t study well? All of them could speak English fluently, even Jian Kang Se and Fang Ming Le could speak a little bit Japanese and French.


    Nevertheless, Bai Yutang was not really confident, but he tried to answer each question well. He was not in a hurry, and tried to deliver his answer in a clear English pronunciation even though his accent was still very far from his lover''s family.


    After 30 minutes, the HR told him that she will give him news maximum in the next 5 days, to tell him whether he passed the first interview or not.


    To ensure fairness in the job interview process, C companies conduct minimal 2 stages of interview. First by the HR to assess basic personality and abilities of new hires. The next is the user''s (direct superior) turn to interview the new hire. Rarely they conduct a third interview, if the HR and the user were in conflict to decide which applicant is the best to hire.


    Bai Yutang spent the next 3 days anxiously looking at his phone, before he got an email from the C company, telling him that he passed the first interview.


    Actually Bai Yutang already had two interviews before this in two different firms. But the firm is small and they only offer Bai Yutang to be a contract worker with less than 5000 yuan salary. His friends told him to not accept it, it was beneath his standard.


    His previous salary in the F firm was already 8000 yuan per month. With bonuses, Bai Yutang actually has an 11.000 yuan salary per month on average.


    When Bai Yutang scheduled his second stage interview, the user told him that they have free time in the afternoon, Bai Yutang immediately agreed, and rode a taxi to the C company once again.


    Bai Yutang once again waits on the sofa in the C company lobby before two people approach him.


    "Bai Yutang?"


    Bai Yutang stood up and raised his hands to accept the handshake offered by these two people. They are one woman and one man.


    The woman is wearing tight black jeans and loose grey sweater, long earrings hanging in her ear, her brown hair is shoulder length, and her lips are bright red. The man was as tall as Bai Yutang, wearing a dark grey long sleeve shirt with a black semi formal jacket with small silver buttons on the sleeves. Both of them were very attractive.


    Three of them went inside the same small meeting room, and the two users threw casual questions to Bai Yutang. Just like the first interview, once the situation is relaxed, the questions gradually change into serious questions and are asked in English.


    Bai Yutang already searched for this company''s information so he answered word by word when the woman asked him, does he know what company this is? They were chuckled to realise Bai Yutang''s answer comes from the company profile in their website.


    The interview lasted for almost 40 minutes. One of the questions thrown is how much Bai Yutang expects to be paid. Bai Yutang remembered the tips and tricks from Fan Mingle, and told them he expected to receive a take home pay salary of 20.000 yuan per month.


    The users didn''t answer nor bargain his expected salary. Bai Yutang was actually anxious, how if they crossed his name because he demanded a high salary? But Fan Mingle said there was a high possibility they would bargain if his price was too high. And Fan Mingle told him to believe in his own capability, not to sell his labour at a cheap price.


    During the conversation, Bai Yutang really liked the way these two people talked. They were clearly very intelligent and also looked very warm. When the users signalling that their interview is almost over, Bai Yutang suddenly has an urge to speak.


    He remembers how the situation in the F firm turned into hell for him. He remembers how the kind teammate trash talked him behind his back. He also remembers his deep disappointment with how Mr. Yao, who once taught him with a warm attitude, changed into an unfair superior.


    He doesn''t want to receive that kind of treatment ever again. But he also can''t stop people from talking behind his back. Even though he works in this C company which was not a pure architect firm, he still can''t be sure he can avoid the same situation to arise once again.


    "Mr. Gu, Ms. Zhu, can I speak about myself a little bit before I leave?"


    Gu Jianyu and Zhu Ying raised their head and looked at Bai Yutang. "Please." Gu Jianyu said.


    Bai Yutang took a deep breath. "I want to clarify that i''m gay. I assure you it won''t interfere with my work, and I will work very hard to meet your expectation if you give me a chance to work here." Bai Yutang looked calm on the outside.


    Inside, he was very nervous, but he thinks he needs to clear cut about himself in the beginning. He doesn''t want to hide, or being paranoid about whether his colleague laughed and gossiped behind his back once again.


    Both of the users are stunned and stare at him. Bai Yutang''s hand was sweating. He sighed inside. If he doesn''t get this job, he will search again for others. He believes what his lover said is right. Keep working hard and never give up, in the end all will work well if he keeps doing his best.


    Half minutes went in silence before Zhu Ying smiled, "Did you have a boyfriend?"


    Bai Yutang slowly nodded. "Yes.."


    "Aww too bad!" Zhu Ying slapped the table. "Is he an architect too?" She asked again.


    "No, he is a doctor." Bai Yutang answered.


    "A doctor? Aaaah.. Too bad Jianyu!! You don''t have a chance. Ahahaha!" Zhu Ying laughed.


    Gu Jianyu looked at Zhu Ying helplessly. "Don''t mind her, Mr. Bai. And don''t worry, this company won''t look at your sexuality. I''m a gay too. Your sexuality won''t affect our assessment, nor will this company make it hard for you."


    It''s Bai Yutang''s turn to be surprised. Aside from his lover''s ex boyfriend they met by chance a few years ago, or the feminine guys he met at parties with Lin Caihong, he never met the same comrade. All the people around him are pure straight guys.


    He was happy to hear it, and went home with expectation. Now he really wants to work at that place. A company which won''t differentiate people just because they were gay. And looking at Gu Jianyu who could manage to become senior architect in that company, he believed he could thrive there as well.


    Bai Yutang didn''t tell his lover about this, but his lover seems to sense his perkiness.


    "Is the company that great? Are you sure you like it even though it was not an architect firm?" Jian Kang Lu asked him.


    Bai Yutang was sitting beside his lover, they''re in the middle of playing games on Sunday night. "Yes, gege. The office is big, and really good. I searched for the architect who designed it. They''re a collaboration of a big Japanese firm with C company in S city. No wonder."


    "No worries, you''ll definitely nail it, baby." Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s temples.


    On Monday, Bai Yutang received notification that he was called for the third interview. Once again Bai Yutang went to C company, now in high spirits. It was Gu Jianyu who received him with another middle aged man. The middle aged man is the head HR.


    They made it short and told Bai Yutang that they interested tol hire Bai Yutang, but their offered salary is 18.500 yuan per month with three months probation period. Once he is acknowledged as a full time employee, he will have full benefit and also a raise on his salary based on his performance.


    Bai Yutang didn''t believe what he heard. He agreed immediately. 18.500 yuan per month already exceeded his expectations. The head HR gave him the contract immediately, and asked Bai Yutang to review his contract carefully.


    Bai Yutang spent 15 minutes reading it carefully, asking for an explanation if he found the part he didn''t understand. He wants to make sure he won''t be treated unfair again like last time. Once he finished, he signed the contract.


    The head HR and Gu Jianyu smiled, told Bai Yutang they expect him to start working on December 1st.


    Bai Yutang shook their hands, and then Gu Jianyu sent him to the door. "Welcome to C company, Bai Yutang. We look forward to working with you."

 Chapter 203 - Dubai

    [Gege, i got the job!]


    Jian Kang Lu read the message from his kitten and he smiled. It was sent 30 minutes ago. This morning he remembered how his kitten looked anxious with a glint of high hope. He prayed for his kitten to get this job, and he was glad it all turned out well. He typed back.


    [I''m happy for you, baby. Let''s celebrate tonight. Dinner at Il Mare?]


    Jian Kang Lu is still listening to his resident''s explanation about the relationship between cerebral blood flow and cognitive function in hemodialysis patients. Jian Kang Lu himself was prone to do his research on CAPD patients rather than hemodialysis, thus he prepared to ask the resident about the mechanism differences of declining cognitive function on hemodialysis and CAPD patients.


    Even though they''re nephrologists, they still have to know other division''s knowledge. After all, human''s body doesn''t work with just one organ.. Each and every organ will be linked together. Jian Kang Lu felt his phone vibrated again.


    [Okay! I''ll pick you up at the hospital, gege.]


    Jian Kang Lu then remembered he hadn''t managed to get his kitten on holiday. He typed again.


    [When will you start working?]


    His kitten replied fast. It seems his kitten is already at home.


    [December 1st, gege. What are you doing now? Journal reading?]


    Jian Kang Lu frowned, December 1st is less than two week. Once his kitten starts working, it will be difficult for him to have holidays with his kitten. It seems he can''t take his kitten to Japan or Europe, they didn''t have time to apply for a visa.


    [Let''s have a holiday before you start working. Where do you want to go?]


    His kitten didn''t reply immediately, it took 5 minutes before his phone vibrated.


    [Up to you, gege. Anywhere is fine as long as with you.]


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, then asked Yang Haoyu who sat next to him. "Do you remember which country we can go without a visa?"


    Yang Haoyu thought for a while, "Are you planning to go for holiday, Doctor Jian?"


    Jian Kang Lu nods, which makes Yang Haoyu want to wipe his sweat. Jian Kang Lu wanting to go on holiday means his work will increase two fold.


    Doctors actually didn''t have a fixed amount of leave days, unlike the white collar workers. They could manage their leaves as long as their duty is cleared, that''s why before they submit their leave, they need to find a substitute to handle their duty. Vice versa, even though you haven''t used your leave at all, but if no substitute, means you can''t go.


    It''s good if their substitute is in need of money. Replacing their superior means their income also increased. But now Yang Haoyu didn''t lack money. They also had a new junior come last year in their division, but usually Jian Kang Lu will ask Zhao Yang to substitute him, while Zhao Yang will divide the work with him. Zhao Yang himself didn''t want to involve the new doctor since Jian Kang Lu''s patients are usually very demanding.


    Zhao Yang answered for Jian Kang Lu, "I remember two years ago going to a conference in Dubai and I didn''t have to apply for a visa."


    Jian Kang Lu questioned Zhao Yang about the hotels. Last time he went to Dubai was 8 years ago. Yang Haoyu also gave him suggestions.


    The resident who is still giving a presentation and answering questions from his peers peek at the consultants who seem to whisper at each other. He is suddenly sweating, is he giving the wrong answer? Is his explanation not deep enough? He admits he didn''t prepare for his journal since he had a hellish shift this month.


    Browsing with his phone, Jian Kang Lu felt satisfied. Dubai was famous for its architecture, perfect for his kitten. He told his kitten and asked for which hotel he wanted to stay over there, then booked for the flight and tour directly through his travel agent. He planned for a five days holiday.


    In a high spirit, Jian Kang Lu submitted his leave to the nephrology department''s secretary. He smiled to hear their tease and promised them he will bring gifts from Dubai.


    The process is very quick, they will go to Dubai this Saturday. This leaves Bai Yutang speechless. Luckily Dubai doesn''t have winter. He didn''t have to pack much and just bring his summer clothes.


    Bai Yutang was very happy. He got a job. His new working place seems very nice. And now his lover wants to bring him for a holiday in a city full of architecture''s miracle and top notch buildings.


    Later when they had their dinner, he asked his lover where they would stay. When his lover asked him, he answered that he didn''t have preferences.


    "Since you said it''s up to me, then it''s a surprise." Jian Kang Lu teases his kitten.


    Bai Yutang smiled, he believed his lover wouldn''t treat him badly. They talked about the city for a quiet time. Both of them are happy and in turn into a holiday mood until the time of their departure.


    Once arrived there, Bai Yutang instantly thanked his lover who told him to bring his sunglasses. The weather was similar compared with the summer in B city, but with a hint of harsh desert wind.


    Even though he was tired after the long flight, his eyes lit up instantly to see the city. In times like this, he admired human beings as a species who could change desert into a beautiful city like this.


    When they arrived at the hotel, he almost couldn''t believe it. As an architect, how could he not know about this hotel. When this hotel was built, it was known worldwide as the only 7 star hotel.


    One of the most iconic buildings on the Dubai landscape, with the unusual shape to mimic the sail of a ship. They have a helipad near the roof, standing above the ocean on an artificial island.


    Bai Yutang remembered in one of his classes, the professor explained how the architect and the contractors needed to find a way to avoid flooding and reduce the ocean''s wave impact.


    One of the interior designers is an architect from China, commissioned to design the interior based on the four elements of the ancient world. Water, Fire, Wind and earth. Water is present throughout the hotel in aquariums and fountains, while fire is included in an entrance fountain, together with the steam representing the air. Earth is symbolised by ten thousands square of marble and precious stones used throughout the hotel, as well as 2000 meter square of gold foil.


    Bai Yutang instantly floated into a trance of pleasure. This kind of feeling is like a foodie surrounded by delicious rare food, or a car lover in the midst of car exhibition.


    He took photos and shared them with the group. B city is four hours ahead of Dubai. His friends were already sleeping at that time.


    Jian Kang Lu finished their check in process and smiled to see his energetic kitten busy taking pictures. This hotel is very expensive. For this holiday, Jian Kang Lu spent more than one month of his salary.


    They didn''t make love that night, since both of them were tired and just went for late dinner then slept in their spacious room.


    When Bai Yutang wakes up in the morning, his lover is busy kissing all over his body.


    "If we''re heterosexual couple, we need to present our marriage certificate to stay in the same room, baby..". Jian Kang Lu noticed his kitten awoke and whispered seductively in his ear.


    No need to say what they do in the next one hour. Bai Yutang tossed around in the bed, and later again in the bathtub. When they had their breakfast in the luxurious restaurant in this hotel, Bai Yutang saw his group chat was full of protests.


    Tang Yuxuan : [Is it..? Is it what i think of?]


    Yu Dong : [Bastard! I''ll block you for the next five days!]


    Liu Xiang : [Where can I find one Jian Ge for myself? This wife envied you so much!]


    Bai Yutang laughed and kept taking photos and sending them to the group. He enjoyed the desert safari arranged by his lover, riding the camel, snorkelling around the hotel, and also leisurely strolling around the city to see more iconic buildings.


    Five days went so fast. Even Bai Yutang felt reluctant to go home. He almost vomited blood again when Liu Xiang told him the price of one night staying in this hotel. Even though he wanted to change hotels, it was already too late. How could he forget his lover always pampering him like this? He knows exactly how his lover took him to this hotel not because of the price, but because his lover knows how much he loved a magnificent architectural building.


    On their last night, he hugged his lover tight. "Thank you, gege. This is a wonderful holiday. I love it so much."


    Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s hair as an answer.


    "But maybe.. In our next holiday, we don''t need to stay at this kind of expensive hotel, gege.." Bai Yutang still can''t get over the price Liu Xiang told him. He also checked on the internet, and really pained to see the price.


    "Why?" Jian Kang Lu asked his kitten. "We didn''t go for holiday often. Why do I need to work hard everyday if I can''t have beautiful memories with my beloved? Money could be searched, but memories are priceless." Jian Kang Lu stroked his kitten''s back.


    "But.." Bai Yutang still wants to look for words to refute his lover.


    "Tell me, how should i use my money? Buy a car for you? Buy a new house for us?" Jian Kang Lu teases his kitten. Who knows his kitten will agree to get him a new car.


    Looking at his kitten''s brow crumpled, clearly thinking how to debate with him, Jian Kang Lu continued. "You don''t want to use my money, even save it by cooking for us. I love it so much, but then how should i use my hard working salary for us if not for holiday?"


    Bai Yutang wants to say investment, but he knows Jian Kang Lu have another apartment and small store he rented out. Jian Kang Lu also has several investments. Bai Yutang also knows that his lover spent 5% of his salary to various non profit organisations, majority to the disease foundation, also to orphanages.


    He then remembered what his mother in law always said, sometimes it was really hateful when arguing with his lover. They can''t win at all.

 Chapter 204 - Too Bad He Already Have A Boyfriend

    Jian Kang Lu finished his tofu soup. His mug on the side of the plate still releases a thin fog steam from his black coffee. He had not taken a bath yet as usual, and his kitten had already finished his water, took the empty plate and glasses to wash it in the sink.


    "Baby, just leave it there, i''ll wash it later." Jian Kang Lu understands his kitten''s nervousness on his first day at work.


    "It didn''t even take 5 minutes, gege. It''s okay." Bai Yutang was not in a hurry. The new office was not far away from their apartment, but because of the traffic jam it will take around 1 hour to reach there by bus.


    Once Bai Yutang finished, he took his wool coat and his lover put the shawl on his neck. Wrapped it tightly like a rice dumpling. With a light peck on his lips and his forehead, his lover sent him to go..


    Bai Yutang still refuses his lover''s persistent offer to buy a new car for him. The latest trick was that his lover said he wanted to buy a new car since his car is already 6 years old.


    "But I feel reluctant to sell this car, it has so many memories about us. How about you use this car and i''ll use the new one?" His lover casually said.


    Bai Yutang might easily be bullied by Jian Kang Lu, but his stubbornness is really on a whole different level. Bai Yutang already compromised and let his lover buy many small things for him, but car and house is his bottom line. He wants to buy it with his own money. So he still rejects his lover''s offer.


    Luckily male clothing is not as flashy as female clothing. Even though the majority of Bai Yutang''s clothes were from expensive brands, it didn''t stand out even though he rode the bus. Most of all, it only increases his attractiveness one or two levels. But of course Bai Yutang doesn''t have guts to wear the clothes his mother in law bought for him.


    He was not that crazy to wear clothes worth 100.000 yuan from head to toe and riding the bus. Who could guarantee that someone won''t spill their drinks in the bus?


    Bai Yutang got down from the bus, this morning it only took 30 minutes from their apartment. Now it is still 20 minutes before 8 o''clock, and the bus station is only a few meters from the office building.


    Bai Yutang reached the 15th floor 10 minutes before 8 o''clock. He is still using the guest card and walks to the C company receptionist. The young lady working there greeted him with a smile.


    "Bai Yutang, right? Welcome to C company! I think Ms. Fei is not here yet, neither Mr. Gu Jianyu or Mrs. Zhu Ying. You can sit over there first."


    Bai Yutang returned the warm greeting and sat on the sofa. Patiently waiting for the HR to take care of him. He didn''t wait for long, only around 10 minutes and Fei Liu fetched him.


    Just like his first day at the F firm, the HR took him to her desk, gave him his ID card and computer ID, as well as a temporary password. She took 15 minutes to explain their user interface, where Bai Yutang could see his scanned contract, employee''s benefit and other things there. All of it in English.


    Since C companies are foreign based companies, their rules all over the world are similar, and all written in English. That''s why they conduct their interview in Chinese and English. They also will handle foreign clients, and also report to their regional director, as well as to the headquarter.


    Fei Liu showed him to his cubicle and his computer, and also introduced him to his team mate. There are 25 people in his team, varying from architect to client manager. Bai Yutang is the 26th. There are two teams in the B city, with overall employees around 150 people. C companies also have other branches in several big cities in China, such as S city and C city.


    Bai Yutang was overwhelmed to see this many people, he won''t remember all of their names on this first day. They look at him with a warm attitude, and Bai Yutang anxiously waits for Gu Jianyu and Zhu Ying to take care of him.


    Around 8.30 Gu Jianyu arrived and saw Bai Yutang already in his cubicle. As his direct superior, Gu Jianyu put his bag on his office and fetched Bai Yutang.


    "Bai Yutang? Let me introduce you directly to the team. You will take care of the main architecture design with Tan Yiming, Qi Xiuyuan, Huang Shi, and Xiang Cai. They will explain it later to you. Xiang Cai will take you around the office after this, come to my office first."


    Bai Yutang stood up and followed Gu Jianyu to his office.


    "I expect you to familiarise yourself within the first week. My team is responsible for offices and warehouses, while the other team is responsible for residential and apartment. Right now we''re in the middle of renovating two offices, so you will also need to listen to Zhu Ying also. She is responsible for the interior design. After one week, I''ll assign you to handle the E building with Huang Shi and Xiang Cai. You also need to work later with the client manager, and we also hired two architecture firms to work with us on this project."


    Bai Yutang tried to cram all this information into his brain. He only listens to Gu Jianyu and nods his head several times.


    Once finished, Gu Jianyu asked, "Do you have any questions?"


    "Not at this time, Mr. Gu. Thank you for trusting me, I hope I can meet your expectation." Bai Yutang said.


    Gu Jianyu didn''t waste his time and sent him to Xiang Cai. He has a meeting at 10 o''clock and he still needs to do the last preparations to go.


    Xiang Cai is a 26 year old chubby man, the same age as Bai Yutang. He was a little bit short, wearing glasses, but very stylish. He wears a light yellow shirt and dark blue sweater on top of it. His smile was wide, and looked like your usual class clown.


    Xiang Cai comes from B city and graduated from B university. After introducing himself, Xiang Cai asked the usual question to  Bai Yutang. Name, alma mater, age, the same routine. Bai Yutang still has trauma regarding Zhong Fan''s case, but he tried to smile and answer all questions with sincerity.


    ''Not everyone is the same. This is a new place, not F firm.'' Bai Yutang silently told himself.


    Just like his first day in the F firm, Xiang Cai as the most junior member in architect team take him around and introduce him.


    "26 years old? Why did he look younger than you, Xiang Cai?" The girls in the finance department teased Xiang Cai.


    "I know what you wicked girls are thinking about. Don''t be fooled by them, Bai Yutang. They are the girls who only look at the number at your bank account." Xiang Cai retorted back.


    "Of course we look at the number in the bank account. If not, how do you think you get your salary each month? Or you want us to miss your bank account number this month?" The girls fiercely strike back.


    "Oh beautiful Ling Jie! Is that new earrings? So pretty!" Xiang Cai shamelessly lowered himself and flattered these girls.


    Once they walked out from the finance office, Xiang Cai whispered, "Be careful with them. Really, the fiercest girls are those who work in finance. Don''t be fooled with their flashy makeup and tight mini skirt!"


    Bai Yutang smiled and followed Xiang Cai around. He also listened to Xiang Cai''s explanation on how they will work in this office, including the project they handled. Bai Yutang, as usual, recorded it on his handphone.


    Bai Yutang explained before Xiang Cai suspected him, "This is my habit. Later I''ll list the important notes and ask you again if I find something I don''t understand."


    Xiang Cai laughed, "I thought you like my voice that much."


    At noon, Huang Shi and Xiang Cai took him to have lunch together at the Japanese restaurant near the office. After all, the three of them will work together, while Tan Yiming and Qi Xiuyuan will have after lunch meeting.


    "So, I didn''t see the ring on your finger. Still single?" Huang Shi asked him. Huang Shi is a short skinny 31 year old woman with one son. She had worked in the C company for 4 years. She came from S city, and stayed in B city to follow her husband.


    "I have a boyfriend, Mrs. Huang." Bai Yutang answered. He thought about it, and still thought the best way to beat all those rumors is to come clean at first. No matter what the aftermath, at most it will be similar to what he experienced in F firm.


    The chopstick on Xiang Cai''s hand fell to the floor, while Huang Shi foolishly opened her mouth and stared at Bai Yutang.


    When she gained her soul back and made sure she didn''t hear it wrong, she said, "Well, at least you''re not single like Xiang Cai."


    "Sister Huang! Rather than you bully me, better you introduce me to beautiful fairies so I could shake my single status off." Xiang Cai picked the chopstick from the floor and called for the waiter to give him a new chopstick.


    "Your boyfriend is an architect too?" Huang Shi asked. Just like doctors, many architects married their peers. Maybe because they spent too many times doing their tasks at the dorm and university, not having much free time to flirt with other department''s students.


    "No, he''s a doctor." Bai Yutang said calmly.


    "Ahahaha, Mr. Gu didn''t have a chance to shake his single status either. Are you sure you''re not interested with Mr. Gu?" Xiang Cai laughed.


    Bai Yutang looked at Xiang Cai. It seems, everyone also knows that Gu Jianyu is cutsleeve. Deep down, Bai Yutang was relieved. It seems this office really won''t look down on people like them.


    "Xiang Cai, you''re being rude! Besides, our office has a policy not to date your colleagues." Even though Huang Shi said that, she also laughed together with Xiang Cai.


    She then held her laugh and told Bai Yutang, "Ah, sorry, no offence. Gu Jianyu is handsome. A lot of our clients and vendors are interested in him, but since he''s a cutsleeve, the market is narrowed down. He always asks us to introduce him to a nice man to shake off his single status. I''ve been here for 4 years and he is still single until now."


    Bai Yutang smiled politely. As usual, in times like this, he didn''t give any comment.


    "We have a bet, who will get a partner first. That''s why I was surprised to hear you have a boyfriend. If your boyfriend is inferior than Mr. Gu, then I might lose the bet. But he''s a doctor, not bad not bad." Xiang Cai laughed happily.


    "Don''t listen to this crazy guy." Huang Shi said. She looked at this young man again, and sighed inside.


    Honestly, it was not a bad idea to matchmaking these two people. But.. This young man stated he already has a boyfriend. Too bad...

 Chapter 205 - New Horizon

    Bai Yutang spent the rest of his first day working in C company familiarizing himself with his computer, and also the interface their company used. All the logs in their daily task needed to be submitted via the interface.


    Submit your leave, submit your reimbursement cost, check your employee benefit, even there''s online courses to improve employee''s capability in their company interface program.


    The appraisal of their work will use their daily log beside monitoring the project''s progress. This to ensure transparency and easier for the C company headquarter to manage their branches.


    Bai Yutang admired the company policy stating they support diversities in their work, and even the C company had a LGBTQ employee forum. C companies around the world had more than 10.000 employees, some of the employees could be transferred overseas if needed.


    Being racist, sexual harassment, or treat your colleague differently because of differences, could suffer harsh penalty from the management. C companies also held the law and highlighted in their policies about bribes carefully. There''s a limit of how much you could treat your client in the restaurant, and also how much a gift could be received from the vendors..


    These kinds of things never stated clearly on the F firm. Surely this company is not a pure architect firm. C company business is real estate. Apartments, houses, office buildings, warehouses, even lands.


    Bai Yutang really glad Zhen Guo introduced this kind of job to him. He felt he widened his horizon even with only one day working here.


    Bai Yutang politely requests jobs from Xiang Cai, but Xiang Cai told him to familiarise himself first with his environment and start to do his job slowly this week.


    When Jian Kang Lu reaches home that night, Bai Yutang is already at home and cooks his signature Lemon Chicken for their dinner. The luscious, tangy stir-fry chicken with carrot and broccoli was really tasty, no wonder those ladies loved to kidnap his kitten and asked for his lemon chicken.


    Jian Kang Lu enjoyed his dinner with light heart, he was happy to see his kitten excitedly tell him about his first day at work. Jian Kang Lu felt if he had children, maybe this is the same feeling he would have to hear his children tell him about their first day at school.


    Once they finished their dinner, took a bath, and got in bed prepared to sleep, his kitten snuggled in his embrace and hugged him tight.


    "Gege.. I have something to tell you." His kitten looked at him with a mild frown.


    "Mmm?" Jian Kang Lu stroked his kitten''s back softly.


    "I.. I told my colleague today that I have a boyfriend."


    Jian Kang Lu''s hand stopped for a few seconds, then he hugged his kitten back. "Are you okay? Does your colleague bully you?" Jian Kang Lu wanted to ask the reason why his kitten came out to his colleague on his first day. Is this related to his resignation from F firm? But Jian Kang Lu didn''t have the heart to ask. He felt he only needed to show his support rather than drilling his kitten.


    "No, they won''t. The company stated they support diversities. They even have LGBTQ forum in our interface." His kitten''s voice sounded excited.


    Jian Kang Lu wants to tell his kitten that what they show in front of you might be different from what they say or do behind your back. At least, that is what he felt in the medical circle.


    Jian Kang Lu knows people talking behind his back about his sexuality. But since his position is not low, and his patients also don''t need to know about their doctor''s sexuality, there''s not much they could do to disturb his work.


    "That''s good, baby. I think your new working place sounds really great." Jian Kang Lu uses his mildest tone, trying to support his kitten''s mood.


    "Yes! And.. If they ask about you, can I tell them?" His kitten sounds anxious.


    Jian Kang Lu chuckled, "Why not? I told you that it doesn''t matter to me. My mother already told all her friends about us, right? I think 10% of the B city population knows about us from her, and my father."


    They talked again for a little bit before they finally went to sleep.


    Bai Yutang spent the first week slowly understanding his job and integrating it into the E building project.


    Xiang Cai and Huang Shi were really satisfied with Bai Yutang''s progress, and told him that they will take him to see the clients and vendors next week. They predict Bai Yutang could really work by himself by the third week at this rate. Usually, the newcomer needs one month to settle, but Bai Yutang is really smart and knows how to work. He also didn''t mind working late.


    "Woah, T university graduates are really different from us mortals." Xiang Cai teased him with these statements when Bai Yutang finished his work earlier than Xiang Cai expected. At this company, only three architects graduate from T uni, and two of them work in the other team.


    Bai Yutang just sent the parking lot layout to Xiang Cai. He made a lot of revisions. Bai Yutang was a little bit confused as to why he only needed to revise. Then Xiang Cai explained, "We hired two architecture firms to do this. We only need to give them the basic design, then supervise and revise it."


    Bai Yutang then understood why these companies didn''t have many architects. In this term, it felt like he had many underlings. He didn''t need to render the 3D layout, he also didn''t need to draw the draft layout, unless for the beginning of their project, when they need to win the tender.


    It doesn''t matter if they didn''t have a brilliant architect, since they could always hire a good firm if needed.


    But the amount of work needed to revise and handle the client is also not easy. After all, half of these buildings did not belong to C company, but the third party who used C company services to rent out their land or buildings. That''s why they have a lot of client managers to handle them.


    At the end of the week, as usual Bai Yutang goes to Sunday lunch with his lover. Lin Caihong told Auntie Ming to cook the Osmanthus duck to celebrate his new job. Bai Yutang also cooks wonton soup for them.


    "Ahh.. Now I can only take you out on weekends. But I''m happy you got a new job, TangTang." Lin Caihong gave him another piece of duck.


    Bai Yutang slowly eats the duck or else his mother in law will give him another slice. "Thank you, Mother."


    "C company is very near to my office. Let''s have lunch together next Tuesday, TangTang." Jian Kang Se told him.


    "Okay, I''ll contact you if I don''t need to go out on Tuesday, gege." Bai Yutang answered.


    "That''s not far from my office too! I also want to have lunch with TangTang." Fan Mingle said. Her office is only 5 km away from Bai Yutang''s office.


    "Then I also want to have lunch with TangTang. How about Friday?" Lin Caihong said.


    Jian Kang Lu really soured. He also wants to have lunch with his kitten! But.. His hospital is far away from his office, and he can''t leave the hospital to be there at lunch hour.


    Because of that, the next day Bai Yutang asked Xiang Cai and Huang Shi whether they have a meeting with the vendor or client on Tuesday.


    "Yes." Xiang Cai told him. "I want to introduce you to Vendor A on Tuesday."


    "What time, Xiang Cai?" Bai Yutang asked.


    "Around 3 o''clock." Xiang Cai looked at Bai Yutang''s relieved face. "Why?" he asked.


    "My boyfriend''s brother wants to have lunch with me. I guess we could have lunch near here. I''ll make sure i''ll be back before 1.30." Bai Yutang said.


    "Does your boyfriend''s brother know about you?"


    This question actually might be rude, but Xiang Cai''s expression and gesture is lively, shows no malice in his question.


    "Yes.. My boyfriend''s family know about us." Bai Yutang answered. Both of them talking with their eyes glued to their own computers. Bai Yutang already got used to Xiang Cai''s working style. He likes to converse when working in the morning and has a chronic dependence with his black coffee.


    "You guys must be really close. Why does he want to have lunch with you on Tuesday? Have something to do around here?"


    "He works at C bank, the next building." Bai Yutang answered while opening the email containing the finished layout draft of the parking lot. He makes sure the size of the column and the width of the ramp is just like he revised last week.


    "Oh, no wonder. So close."


    This is the daily conversation he had with Xiang Cai. More or less, Bai Yutang liked him. Xiang Cai is funny and patiently teaches him about his new job. He likes to talk about trivial things, just like Liu Xiang.


    Bai Yutang also likes the other people from his team. They''re so lively, a bit different from his previous team mate in F firm. Maybe because they come from various backgrounds, not only architects. And maybe because in this line of work, they need their tongue skills to smoothly communicate with other parties.


    On Tuesday noon, 8 of his teammates went down together to have lunch in various places. They''re not necessarily having lunch in the same places with the same person. It depends on what they want to eat that day. Xiang Cai and Huang Shi also went down together in the same lift. They want to have noodles in a restaurant at the back of their office.


    At the lobby, Bai Yutang saw Jian Kang Se and Fan Mingle already standing there. To accommodate Bai Yutang''s meeting at 3 o''clock, they agreed to have lunch in Italian restaurant at Bai Yutang''s office lobby floor.


    "Gege, JieJie.." Bai Yutang hurriedly ran to them. He thought they hadn''t arrived and wanted to go to the restaurant first to order.


    Huang Shi saw this skinny young man who just joined their company running to a pair of handsome and beautiful couples. Looking at their apparences, she guesses they''re at the executive level.


    The beautiful lady was wearing black blazers with black pants and grey cashmere coat, while the tall handsome man was wearing dark grey suits and pants with black coats. They smiled to see Bai Yutang run to them, and the lady ruffled Bai Yutang''s hair with affection.


    Then the three of them walked towards the restaurant. All the way, the lady kept her hands on Bai Yutang''s arms and talked to him. With her high heels, her height is almost the same as Bai Yutang.


    Xiang Cai nudged Huang Shi''s arms, "Why stop, Huang Jie? Looking at Bai Yutang? That''s his brother in law, I guess."


    Huang Shi looked at Xiang Cai and she walked again together with Xiang Cai and two other people who wanted to have lunch together at the noodle restaurant.


    "His brother in law is much more handsome compared to my in-laws. That woman might be his sister in law, then? They look very close to each other." Huang Shi said.


    "That makes me want to see his boyfriend. If Bai Yutang''s boyfriend is also handsome, it is really too bad for us single ladies. All handsome men are snatched away from us." The other lady in their group said.


    "Poor our Gu Jianyu, he really has no chance." The other said and they laughed together.


    The poor Gu Jianyu didn''t know until today that his subordinates kept lamenting about his single status on his back and how they felt sorry for him because Bai Yutang was not available in the market anymore.

 Chapter 206 - Honey Trap

    Fan Mingle already reserved this restaurant, but they have not yet chosen the menu. The waiter patiently waited for them to choose the menu.


    Jian Kang Se has eaten in this restaurant many times before, it only took 2 minutes for him to choose. Fan Mingle only ordered one tuna salad and one dessert. She tries to limit the calories intake on her daily diet. After she turns 30, she easily gains weight.


    Jian Kang Se never comments about her appearance, but it feels good to stay in shape, and also with aging, a lot of age related diseases will surface. Her parents have a diabetes and hypertension history.


    Bai Yutang never ate here before, it took quite a while to scan the menu until he decided to order fettuccini beef carbonara.


    "Where do you have your meeting later, TangTang?" Fan Mingle asked while waiting for their lunch. Usually it will take around 15 minutes to deliver their order..


    "At H area, Fan Jie. Not far from here. "


    They chatted for a while, the majority of which was between Bai Yutang and Fan Mingle. Jian Kang Se was never a man with many words.


    Suddenly, there''s a voice behind them. "Jian Kang Se?"


    There''s three middle aged men with suits standing near them, clearly on the way to their own table when one of them recognizes Jian Kang Se.


    "Director Li. Are you having lunch here too?" Jian Kang Se stood up and greeted them. Both Fan Mingle and Bai Yutang stand up also.


    Fan Mingle knows this man, he''s the finance director of Jian Kang Se''s bank. The executives in C bank often joke that they once almost had a heart attack to see their competitor HR having lunch with their precious treasury employee. Their hearts only feel at ease once they know Jian Kang Se dating this HR, and it was not a trick of their competitor to steal their treasure.


    "Fan Mingle, you''re here too? Romantic lunch?" Director Li knows Fan Mingle is Jian Kang Se''s wife. "And this is?" He looked at Bai Yutang.


    "Ah, this is Bai Yutang, my brother in law. He worked at this building. TangTang, this is Director Li, C bank finance director." Jian Kang Se also introduced the other two men. The finance manager and an insurance director.


    Director Li didn''t hold them too long. After small talks, they left Jian Kang Se to have their own lunch.


    When Jian Kang Se and the others sat down, Fan Mingle held Bai Yutang''s hand. "We forgot to ask, is that okay to introduce you as our brother in law?"


    Fan Mingle, as someone who deals with human''s matter everyday, knows exactly that not many people choose to come out from their closet. Her wooden husband didn''t think about that and blurted that fact. Who guaranteed Director Li didn''t remember that Jian Kang Se only had one brother.


    "That''s okay Fan Jie." Bai Yutang laughed. "In my job interview I also stated that I have a boyfriend instead of a girlfriend. Gege also didn''t mind."


    Fan Mingle nodded, "That''s good. It''s okay, foreign based companies tend to be loose in this matter. No worries." Even though Fan Mingle said this, she still prayed that Bai Yutang didn''t find any difficulties because he was different from other people.


    Their lunch was fun, and Bai Yutang felt he was closer to his lover''s family. This is the first time he met Fan Mingle and Jian Kang Se alone without his lover. Fan Mingle almost never comes together to Lin Caihong''s socialite party.


    The dessert came after they finished the main course. Only Jian Kang Se who didn''t order the dessert.


    The soft souffl¨¦ was covered with smooth frosting. Bai Yutang''s portion was matcha flavoured with chocolate chips on top of the snow like frosting.


    The light taste with the inclusion of the matcha''s slight bitterness mixed with the chocolate''s silky texture, all three elements combined to create an amazing delicious dessert. After two or three mouthfuls, if the richness was overwhelming, there were fruits left to the side as palate cleansers. Once the souffl¨¦ re-enters the mouth, it changes into another sensation.


    Fan Mingle''s portion was strawberry flavoured. The entire souffl¨¦ was coloured in pink and some strawberry pulp could be seen at a glance. The top was covered with a thick pink coloured lava cream cap. The cream ran down to the edge of the cake like a waterfall, but much gentler than the flow one.


    Fan Mingle can''t hold her desire to order the dessert, since this restaurant was very famous with their souffl¨¦. Very warm and soft, light, yet the taste is rich. Suitable for autumn and winter season choice of dessert.


    "Do you know, Ah Se and I rarely have lunch together. It seems we already forgot how nice it is to have lunch together in the middle of our busy hours. How about we have lunch together once a week?" Fan Mingle happily savoured each high calorie spoonful of souffl¨¦ she sent to her mouth.


    "Okay Fan Jie. Both of you are busier than me, just tell me when and let me adjust my schedule." Bai Yutang said.


    Fan Mingle smiled. She knew it was easier for them to adjust their schedule for Bai Yutang. At her and Jian Kang Se''s level, people will adjust their schedule for both of them, unless it was an important meeting with their boss, which only happened once in two or three months.


    After lunch, Bai Yutang sent both of them to the lobby. Jian Kang Se''s driver was already waiting near the lobby and soon fetched them.


    When Bai Yutang went back to his cubicle, Huang Shi and Xiang Cai were already there. One hour later three of them prepared for their vendor meeting.


    In the taxi, Xiang Cai asked him. "Your brother in law is handsome! Is your boyfriend also handsome?"


    Bai Yutang was a bit shy to answer. "Yes.." It seems he is flattering himself. Usually, guys will show off their pretty girlfriend. Bai Yutang also has the same urge to show off his handsome boyfriend.


    But, is it appropriate? And.. He was also afraid if people would talk behind his back, how he was not worthy of Jian Kang Lu.


    "I want to see your boyfriend, ah. Your brother in law is truly handsome and cool. What did he do at C bank?" Xiang Cai asked again.


    For some people who guard their privacy, people like Xiang Cai may be despised because he asked too much. Huang Shi reminded him, "Why are you so nosy? You don''t have to answer it if you don''t want to, Yutang." Huang Shi misunderstood Bai Yutang shyness into an unwillingness.


    "He works as head of treasury. Fan Jie, his wife, works as HR director in another bank." Bai Yutang answered. He didn''t mind to answer once he knew his lover''s family wasn''t embarrassed with him, even acknowledged him.


    "Woah, elites. By the way, we always held dinner party to welcome our new member. I think yours will be held together with our Christmas dinner." Xiang Cai said.


    "Ah, I know you just want to remind me why I haven''t asked in the group where you guys want to have Christmas dinner." Huang Shi took her handphone and 30 seconds later Bai Yutang and Xiang Cai''s handphone rang the group message''s notification.


    "We could give suggestions and later we will vote." Xiang Cai explained.


    "Any restaurant? Bai Yutang asked. "What if people suggested an expensive restaurant?"


    "That''s okay if the majority vote for it. If it exceeds the company budget, the rest will be paid by our directors." Xiang Cai typed his restaurant''s choices.


    Bai Yutang didn''t type his suggestion since he was a newcomer. He thought it was better for him to vote for Xiang Cai and Huang Shi. "I''ll just vote for you and Huang Jie''s suggestion." Bai Yutang said.


    "No, this is our chance to eat at a luxurious restaurant and empty our bosses'' card limit. It was only 3 to 5 times a year. Don''t be shy!" Xiang Cai urged him. "Don''t you have a restaurant you like, or you want to try but out of your budget?"


    Xiang Cai then mentioned several restaurants he wanted to try. In the group, Xiang Cai wrote the French fusion restaurant, while Huang Shi wrote the upscale Japanese restaurant.


    "If you''re shy, then vote for H restaurant. I want to try their foie gras. I heard it''s the best in this city." Xiang Cai happily argues in the group about H restaurant''s unique features and their delicious food.


    How do Bai Yutang answer that he often eats at those expensive restaurants with his lover? He wanted to say to Xiang Cai that H restaurant''s menu sometimes changed according to the season and ingredients. But he decided to say nothing and just nodded his head listening to Xiang Cai''s explanation.


    "Don''t vote for Huang Jie. I''m getting bored of eating Chinese and Japanese food at every company''s dinner." Xiang Cai grunted.


    "You said you were bored, but you always order three portions for yourself." Said Huang Shi.


    "My life motto is never say no to free things." Xiang Cai is still typing to urge their team in the group chat to vote for H restaurant.


    The next day, the result was out. It was the hotpot restaurant where Bai Yutang and his lover had their first ''date''. Xiang Cai furiously protested the other. The hotpot restaurant is not cheap, but he still can''t accept that only he and Bai Yutang who vote for H restaurant.


    "Give up, Xiang Cai! This is Christmas dinner! Winter! Winter means hotpot!".


    Bai Yutang smiled to see their lively group chat early in the morning. He also smiled to remember the first time he ate there with his lover. Those are times when he is still naively thinking Jian Kang Lu kindly treats university students like him for giving advice to choose a gift.


    Thinking back, Bai Yutang should realise from the beginning that his lover was never a lamb. He has always been a wolf in disguise. Wickedly put him in the honey trap until Bai Yutang could never get out from his sticky sweetness.

 Chapter 207 - Company Dinner

    The Christmas dinner will be held on Christmas eve. When Bai Yutang arrived in the morning, he was surprised to see some people who arrived earlier than him dressed very well. He himself always dresses in a humble manner even though his clothes were never cheap, a credit of his lover''s habit to flaunt showering him with money.


    "Morning Huang Jie." Bai Yutang greeted her. He always arrived earlier than Huang Shi, and was surprised to see her wearing a one piece emerald green dress with black stockings and black coat. She also wears ankle length boots with pointy heels.


    "Morning." Huang Shi put her bag and walked to the pantry after turning her computer on.


    Ten minutes later, Bai Yutang realized something was wrong with today. He saw Xiang Cai arrive wearing a dark green shirt with black suit on top of it. He even used cufflink today.. Never in Bai Yutang''s life wore a cufflink to the office.


    At lunch time they have lunch together with two ladies from the finance department. For once in this cold winter, Bai Yutang saw the mini skirt Xiang Cai mentioned on his first day working here.


    Bai Yutang admired these ladies who could wear mini skirts on top of their black leggings in this weather. It was true once they got inside the building, it didn''t matter anymore. This building''s heater functions very properly.


    They have lunch at the cafeteria in this building. The two finance ladies shared one portion of chicken butter. They eat the chicken with a gesture as if the chicken is a magical food bestowed by the high priest. Slowly savour it.


    "Ah.. The heavy price we have to pay when wearing this skirt." The lady said in a sad face. The other patted her tummy and mumbled repeated mantras. "I''m full I''m full I''m full.."


    Huang Shi was either blessed or cursed with her skinny features. On one hand, she was lucky she didn''t get fat. On the other hand, her features lack of feminine aura emitted by the curvy hips and full breast. She calmly said to the girls, "Why don''t you drink more? Mrs. Zhu always drinks three glasses of water before she orders something to eat. She said it helped her stomach to feel full before stuffing food to her mouth."


    The two girls immediately stand up and order four more glasses of hot tea.


    "Why does everyone dress so well today?" Bai Yutang asked. Finally he can''t help but to ask, to satisfy his curiosity.


    "This is a Christmas Eve party. After dinner, we''ll go to some karaoke or bar, depending on our director''s mood." Xiang Cai said.


    "Ah.." Bai Yutang''s mind jumbled in a mixed mood. He already told his lover he will finish the company dinner at 9 o''clock. He really didn''t know there''s an after party after the dinner.


    "What? You didn''t realise from the group chat?" Huang Shi asked.


    "I thought it was just an individual''s decision.." Bai Yutang answered.


    "You already have some plans for tonight?" One of the finance ladies asked him while drinking her hot tea slowly.


    Bai Yutang slowly nodded.


    "With your boyfriend?" The other lady asked. Bai Yutang knows maybe the whole office knows that he was a cutsleeve. So he nodded again.


    "It''s okay. I''ll call him later to tell him I''ll be going back late tonight." Bai Yutang said.


    "Do you live together?"


    Bai Yutang nodded again.


    "Where do you live?"


    Bai Yutang mentioned their address.


    "Woah. Do you rent the apartment there, or own it?" Xiang Cai asked because he looked for a good apartment to rent. His apartment rent will end next month. The apartment he stays in now is a little bit old and gives him some trouble sometimes with the water or electricity.


    "My boyfriend owned it." Bai Yutang said.


    "Do you know the apartment owner there who wants to rent their apartment out? I like that apartment, but saw the advertisement from the property management and the price is a little bit high." Xiang Cai''s eyes sparkled. If he could rent from the owner directly, the price would be lower.


    "I''ll try to look out for you. One or two bedrooms?" Bai Yutang promised him.


    Huang Shi snorted, "That apartment is really out of your budget, Xiang Cai. Better to look for a cheaper one. You still need to save for your future girlfriend and marriage."


    "Let our Xiang Cai indulge himself in luxury. He is destined to stay single for life, Huang Jie! Better to pamper himself rather than saving for the dream girl who will never come true." The finance ladies laughed.


    "You girls could laugh at me when you already tie the knot with your boyfriends. You''ll never know who will have the last laugh. Don''t show up in the office with puffy eyes if you break up." Xiang Cai cruelly returned their teasing.


    "Damn it! Are you cursing us, Xiang Cai? This is definitely the reason why you stay single!"


    "It is called facing reality, not cursing, ladies. Don''t you know the old saying? Never flaunt your fortune or else the Gods will envy and take it away from you."


    Bai Yutang didn''t understand why the finance girls always argued with Xiang Cai but also had lunch with him the most compared to the other people on their team.


    Xiang Cai then turned his head to Bai Yutang, "One bedroom please. I actually want to have a roommate, but nowadays it''s hard to trust strangers and live together. So I prefer to live alone rather than compromise my safety."


    Bai Yutang silently thought. Yu Dong will resign after Chinese new year while looking for a job in S city. He will marry Mu Xiaoya in April and live in S city, Mu Xiaoya''s birth city. Mu Xiaoya herself already graduated and settled in S city this year. Bai Yutang''s ear almost fell off from Yu Dong''s self pity every time they met. Yu Dong said long distance relationship is torture him to the verge of having early baldness.


    Tang Yuxuan surprisingly will become the first who might lose his bachelor status between them. His wedding to Fei Hong was planned for March. Tang Yuxuan who was the one said he didn''t think about early marriage when they graduate.


    With these marriages coming, Liu Xiang will soon become a single fighter and lose his roommates. Once Liu Xiang even shamelessly asked Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu whether he could rent their free room in the apartment.


    This idea of course was rejected by Jian Kang Lu even though Liu Xiang earnestly promised he would turn on his earphone noise cancellation if Jian Kang Lu wanted to "do" Bai Yutang in the living room.


    But before he proposed this idea of Liu Xiang and Xiang Cai to become roommates, he needed to ask Liu Xiang first. After all, Bai Yutang only know Xiang Cai less than one month.


    When the clock shows 6 o''clock, they go to the first destination, the hotpot restaurant which has been booked for 50 people. Not everyone could go to this event. Bai Yutang as the new employee of course can''t exempt himself.


    Jian Kang Lu is really sour and bitter to hear his kitten will extend the dinner. But he understands his kitten needs to do it. He was also the one who worried about his kitten social life.


    Humans are a funny species. Jian Kang Lu wants his kitten to have other friends but when his wish comes true, he feels uneasy and wants to kidnap Bai Yutang back to himself.


    Jian Kang Lu has his dinner alone. A simple salad and pasta in Italian restaurant near his hospital. Then he drove home to meet the lonely cold apartment without his kitten''s presence.


    It''s just one night he spent his time alone among hundreds of nights he came home in a warm apartment with his kitten''s cook. But this one snowy night was truly cold and hard to bear.


    Jian Kang Lu sighed to realise how much he depends on his kitten''s love.


    Honestly speaking, it was Bai Yutang who usually comes home first then meets this cold apartment. It was also Bai Yutang who had to spend his time alone in times when Jian Kang Lu needed to go to conferences or other hospital''s celebration.


    This makes Jian Kang Lu''s attachment and his love grow even more. Filled his heart, etched to his bone. A devotion to his kitten''s patience and tolerance to him.


    When Jian Kang Lu took a bath alone, Bai Yutang and some of their team had already arrived in the bar. The number of people who choose to go to the club decreased from 50 to around 40 people.


    Surprisingly, they went to the V club. The club was owned by Hui Yi Zhan, Sun Hongjia''s relatives. If it was not because he''s a new employee who hasn''t passed through his probation period, Bai Yutang will choose to go home, back to his lover''s embrace.


    Bai Yutang rode on Xiang Cai''s car with the finance ladies. Their group is one of the earliest groups to arrive. At the entrance, a person from the HR team who seemed to handle tonight''s reservation was shouting, "Who had the membership? Ask your team in the group chat."


    Bai Yutang didn''t really know the benefit of having this membership card. He has one due to the Hui Yi Zhan''s urge last year when they came here. He doesn''t know whether the membership card is still active or expired, since it exceeds one year from the first and last time he came here with his lover and his sister.


    Still he comes forward. If it is still active, maybe they could get a discount. "I have, but I don''t know whether the card is still active or not." Bai Yutang then fished the card out from his wallet and gave it to the attendant.


    The attendant immediately called someone. Then a tall handsome man comes forward.


    "Hello Mr. Bai. My name is Yu Linshi. Do you prefer me or another person to be your assistant for tonight? And which room do you prefer?"


    Bai Yutang had no idea and told this man that the leader is the other person. The handsome man then talked to this person. Bai Yutang didn''t know what they were talking about, but the person from HR looked at him, then excitedly made a phone call before talking a little bit more with the handsome man.


    There already 12 people arrived, waiting for the others. The one from HR then clapped his hand, "Let''s go inside first. Tell the other to go to Mr. Bai''s room when they arrive."


    Bai Yutang was really embarrassed to hear that. When he follows the others inside, he is quite confused why the other person is saying they need to go to the room under his name. Then again he thinks maybe this is part of the new employee welcome party.


    He prays the room under his name doesn''t mean he needs to pay for their drinks tonight.


    And later even after this long night ended, when the directors bleed their hearts to swipe their credit card settling the payment, he still has no idea.

 Chapter 208 - So Hateful!

    Jian Kang Lu heard his phone ringing and took it from the table beside their bed. He hoped it was from his kitten, but turns out it was the call from the hospital. His face showed a disappointed look.


    It''s already 11 o''clock. Two  hours ago his kitten informed him they had already finished dinner and will go to the bar. After Jian Kang Lu finished his bath, his kitten messaged him, telling him that he had already arrived at V club.


    Jian Kang Lu asked his kitten whether he needed him to pick him up at the club, but his kitten said he would be going home by taxi.


    They chat a little bit. Last chat was thirty minutes ago, when he told his kitten to have fun and don''t get drunk.


    Jian Kang Lu reading a book. If someone else looks at him right now, they will see a handsome man in his mid thirty wearing dark blue pajamas, calmly reading, illuminated by the soft light from his tablet, like a perfect picture.


    Thirty minutes ago after their last chat, Bai Yutang sat with the crowd and thickened his face, singing the song as the others shouting, "Let us hear the new boy''s voice! Come singing! Don''t just sit in the corner!"


    Bai Yutang put his phone in his bag, and then picked the song. After one song, they scream and praise his voice. Gu Jianyu also clapped. He sat beside the finance director and the HR director, as well as the other team leader.


    Gu Jianyu poured the drink to the tipsy HR director, a woman in her forties. She is a cheerful lady who likes to party. "Come, the new boy had to drink also!"


    Gu Jianyu frowned, he saw that Bai Yutang didn''t drink any alcohol tonight. "Don''t be naughty Lin Jie. Don''t corrupt my new boy."


    The other team leader laughed, "Don''t shield him. Let him learn how to party in this company!"


    "Can you drink?" The HR director asked Bai Yutang who was still standing. The room is designed to fit thirty people. Now forty people are cramped in here. True that some already hit the dance floor downstairs, so it was not as cramped as before when they just arrived.


    "Of course he can! He has the black membership card! Damn.. I didn''t even manage to get one. Said it was limited." The project manager said.


    Right at that moment, the girls from finance and a guy singing a dance korean song. Thus Bai Yutang didn''t hear the project manager''s words clearly. He answered the HR director''s question. "I can drink a little."


    "Hear hear! Come, drink this one." The HR director gave him a blue colored drink. Bai Yutang always drinks beer and wine with his lover. Other types of liquor are too bitter for him, and he rarely drinks it. Few times he drank tequila or whiskey with his lover, but never the cocktails.


    It tastes sweet and a little bit sour. It seems the bartender added some lime in here. Bai Yutang sipped it a little bit, but the HR director urged him to finish it while talking with him.


    "Are you an old member of this club?" The project manager asked Bai Yutang.


    "No. This is my second visit here." Bai Yutang answered.


    The project manager asked him, "How did you have a membership card if you rarely come here?"


    "This club is owned by my boyfriend''s best friend''s relatives." Bai Yutang said the truth.


    "Woah! Can you recommend me to the owner for getting the black card?" The project manager then gave him another light pink coloured drink. "Toast with me!"


    "I''ll try, but I can''t promise you." Bai Yutang answered. After Bai Yutang finished his second drink, he felt a little bit dizzy. Some of the project managers and directors are foreigners. They really love to drink. Bai Yutang also received drinks from their CEO. He can''t refuse.


    At 12 o''clock Jian Kang Lu messaged his kitten, offering to pick him up. He looked calm, but his heart was in turmoil. He is always worried when his kitten has to go back home late riding a taxi. With so much criminal news out there, he was afraid his kitten would fall into misery.


    His kitten didn''t answer. At 12.40 Jian Kang Lu can''t sleep even though he is sleepy. He finally put down his tablet, abandoned his book. He made a cup of coffee, sipped it slowly. He called his kitten, but his kitten didn''t answer.


    Jian Kang Lu couldn''t calm himself and finally walked into the closet, changed his clothes. Wearing a dark grey sweater and black jeans, he swiftly took his coat and walked out from the room, bringing his wallet, handphone, and his car key.


    Jian Kang Lu was still walking to the lift when his phone rang. It was from his kitten. He answered immediately. There''s loud music in the background, it seems his kitten is still in the club.


    "Baby, I''ll pick you up. Don''t ride a taxi at this hour, just wait there."


    "Hello!! Hellooo!!"


    Jian Kang Lu frowned. The voice coming is not his kitten''s voice. It''s a stranger''s voice. A man.


    "Hello, who is this?" Jian Kang Lu''s tone immediately changed from his pampering tone into his ''talking to stranger with caution'' tone.


    "Hello..! This is Bai Yutang''s co-worker. He''s drunk. Can you pick him up? We''re in the V club. Sorry, but we can''t send him back!" The other person is shouting, beating the loud music in the background.


    "Okay. I''ll be there in a few minutes. May I know your name and your phone number? Thank you for informing me." Jian Kang Lu politely replied.


    Soon both of them exchange name and number. Jian Kang Lu recognised the name. He often hears it from his kitten. It was Xiang Cai.


    Jian Kang Lu arrived in 20 minutes. At this hour, the road is quiet. Not many cars drive even though it was Christmas Eve.


    Jian Kang Lu saw that the club was still crowded. Lucky for him to show his member card and be granted to cut the line. Without the member card, he can''t go inside. He called Xiang Cai and went up to the 2nd floor, following Xiang Cai''s instructions.


    The call is still connected when Jian Kang Lu saw a chubby man standing near the stair.


    "Mr. Xiang Cai?"


    "Ah.. Mr. Jian?" Xiang Cai cut the call. He then politely shook Jian Kang Lu''s hand. "I''m Xiang Cai. Sorry for troubling you. There''s a few drunk ladies also, so we need to send them home as a priority. We can''t send Bai Yutang too."


    "It''s okay, thank you for telling me." Jian Kang Lu politely answered. "My name is Jian Kang Lu, i''m TangTang''s boyfriend."


    Jian Kang Lu walked to the private area, following Xiang Cai who led him while peeking at his face a few times, then opened one of the doors. "Bai Yutang''s boyfriend is here."


    If Jian Kang Lu is an ordinary doctor, he will feel uncomfortable with this grand introduction. He saw a big room full of people, some of them clearly drunk, some sitting with a calm face. All of them turn their heads to look at him. There are two people singing and both of them stop to look at Jian Kang Lu also.


    "Here here.. Your boyfriend is dead drunk." A lady sitting in the corner waved her hand. Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten sit with his head laid back. His whole body is laid unguarded. Jian Kang Lu''s heart tightened. How easy for people with bad intentions to take advantage of his beloved kitten right now.


    "Hello, sorry for intruding. My name is Jian Kang Lu. Thank you for taking care of my TangTang."


    The music is still played in the room. Some people were too surprised to say anything. The girls who were half sober soar in high spirits when they see a handsome man suddenly appear. This man looked to be in his early thirties, his face was clean and bright. With short hair showing his smooth forehead, tall bridge nose, and kissable lips.


    He was tall, wearing that simple sweater and jeans. Ordinary man will look ordinary wearing it, but on this man, it looked like he popped out from a fashion winter magazine.


    Truly, good clothes make a man. But a perfect man will make any clothes look expensive and good no matter what.


    Unfortunately, a combination of good clothes and perfect man is truly deadly and enough to shift all the people''s attention in this room.


    They thought, who is this male God? Is he entering the wrong room?


    Then they hear Xiang Cai''s voice. With this man standing beside him, suddenly the chubby Xiang Cai was invisible in their eyes. They just notice Xiang Cai when they hear him shouting, announcing that this man is taken! Moreover, taken by another man!


    Really.. Are handsome men easily bored with women? Too easy for them to get a woman, so they switch their affection to men? So hateful!


    People said there are a lot of fish swimming in the ocean. But what to do when the good fish don''t even look at them because they are of a different gender? Why not spare some handsome man who is not gay, ahhh?


    But this doesn''t let them down to savour the good picture in front of them. No matter what, it is still lovable to see beautiful people. Just like girls to admire other beautiful girls, or cute dogs and pretty cats.


    Jian Kang Lu nodded his head several times when walking towards his kitten. The lady wearing an emerald green dress beside his kitten nodded back too.


    "Hello, my name is Huang Shi. Do you want to drink first before going back later?" She politely offered.


    Jian Kang Lu shook his head, "I''m sorry, I still have to drive. It''s better to take TangTang home immediately. Is this okay?"


    Jian Kang Lu afraid, his kitten as the newest member going back home first, is this considered impolite? What if this makes his bosses offended?


    Xiang Cai also walked behind Jian Kang Lu. "That''s okay. Our boss is the one who told us to call Bai Yutang''s acquaintances to bring him home."


    Jian Kang Lu nodded. Huang Shi gave Jian Kang Lu Bai Yutang''s bag. Xiang Cai told him that Bai Yutang''s phone and wallet was inside.


    "Mmm.. Mr. Jian, can you give us Bai Yutang''s membership card? We need to borrow it. Who knows if they will ask us to present it when we settle the bill." Xiang Cai asked.


    Jian Kang Lu understood what Xiang Cai means. He then searched his kitten''s wallet and gave the membership card.


    "Baby.. TangTang.. I''m here.. Can you walk? Let''s go home, baby.." Jian Kang Lu softly whispered, his hand rubbed his kitten''s cheek. It''s a little bit damp. His kitten smells like alcohol, and his shirt is also a little bit wet. It seems his kitten already puked several times.


    Jian Kang Lu never saw his kitten this drunk before. He was stressed to see his kitten in this state.


    "Do you need our help to bring him downstairs?" Xiang Cai offered his help.


    "Thank you, Mr. Xiang. But I can take care of it. Thank you for your help tonight. Let me treat you to another day." Jian Kang Lu then scoop his kitten''s body and carry him in princess style. His kitten''s limp head was laid on his shoulder. Jian Kang Lu then walked out carefully from the room while nodding several times again.


    "Thank you. I apologised for taking TangTang home first." He said before leaving the room.


    The girls and the guys look at them with envy.


    The girls lamented why their boyfriend never did that to them. Girls who never had a boyfriend before secretly pray that their future boyfriend will be like Jian Kang Lu.


    The guys secretly guess Bai Yutang''s weight. No matter if Bai Yutang only weighs 50 kg, it is still hard labour to carry a grown man like that. And this man easily takes care of it. Why does a man like that appear here? Won''t it just make them as fellow men look weak? Moreover, with a face and body like that, why still have to show up his strength??? So hateful!

 Chapter 209 - Truly Hateful!

    Jian Kang Lu was grateful for his car using an electric key. As long as he put the key near the car, the lock automatically opened with his touch. He put his kitten down when he opened the door and put his kitten on the front passenger seat.


    Jian Kang Lu laid the passenger''s seat down to let his kitten sit in a more comfortable position. He turns on the heater to warm up his kitten, then reaches wet tissue from the back seat, wiping his kitten''s face and neck.


    It was a lie if he didn''t say he was not sweating to carry his kitten to the car, but he was not willing to let other people hold his kitten in this state.


    Once reached their bedroom, Jian Kang Lu swiped his wet forehead. He changed his clothes and then stripped his kitten naked. After that he goes to the bathroom and brings hot water to wipe his kitten clean. Once done, he wrapped his kitten tight on his pajama and quilt, then laid his tired body, sleeping while hugging his kitten tight.


    In the next morning, Jian Kang Lu sluggishly wakes up and makes coffee for himself.. His kitten is still sleeping. He ordered light porridge and seaweed soup. When the food was delivered, he checked on his kitten. It''s already 8 o''clock in the morning.


    Bai Yutang was awakened by Jian Kang Lu''s soft voice, light kisses rained on his face. He frowned, his head was so heavy he suspected it was not his own head. He opened his eyes slowly, and his stomach reacted with the light shone by the sun from their window.


    "Are you dizzy? Can you sit up, baby?" Jian Kang Lu asked. He already prepared chamomile tea with a little bit of honey stirred inside. He knew very well what it feels like to have a huge hangover.


    Bai Yutang sat with his lover''s help, then sipped the warm liquid given by his lover. His stomach reacted once again. Want to throw the foreign liquid entering his mouth. But he swallows it, only daring to sip a little bit each time.


    "I want to puke, gege.." Bai Yutang said pitifully. He can''t even open his eyes, the world still spinning around when he sees the light.


    "It''s only the after effect. Don''t sleep again. Just sit and lay back here. Drink the tea a little. You need to rehydrate your body." Jian Kang Lu stressed out to see his kitten like this. If possible, he want to transfer the torture feeling his kitten felt into himself.


    Bai Yutang followed his lover''s advice. His lover also brings some oil to rub his stomach. The lavender oil scent was flying through his nose and calmed his sensitive nerves a little bit.


    "How did I get home last night, gege?" Bai Yutang''s voice is so small. He was afraid his lover was mad at him. He didn''t remember what happened last night. Last thing he remembers is that only Xiang Cai invited him to dance on the first floor with some girls, but he rejected it because he couldn''t walk. Even just speaking already makes him want to puke again. Then one of the leaders toast to him again, which led to him running to the toilet after that.


    "Your colleague, Xiang Cai, calls me when I want to pick you up. Let''s treat him to dinner some other time." Jian Kang Lu said.


    Half an hour later Jian Kang Lu spoon fed his kitten. Bit by bit. Of course Bai Yutang can''t finish the porridge, let Jian Kang Lu finish it himself.


    "Wait for 30 minutes then drink the medicine. After that you can sleep again." Jian Kang Lu rubbed his kitten''s stomach and forehead.


    "I want to bathe, gege.. Yesterday.. Yesterday I puked on the toilet.." It really is not hygienic to puke and hug the toilet tightly.. If he was not dead drunk, how could he do that?


    "I''ll prepare the water first, okay? Wait here." Jian Kang Lu then goes to the bathroom. Luckily they already installed a bathtub here.


    Bai Yutang sighed, arranged his breath like his lover taught him. Take a deep breath slowly, hold it, then release it slowly. It really calms his overactive gaster to a several degree. At least it helps to suppress the acidic taste in the back of his throat.


    After filling his stomach, taking a nice hot bath, then drinking his medicine, Bai Yutang felt his body slowly felt like his own. His head was still throbbing hard, so he just spent the rest of his morning lying down and cursing all the cocktails sent to him last night.


    While laying down, suddenly Bai Yutang missed his father. Bai Haoran used to entertain his clients and officials. He also often drinks to entertain them until wasted. Bai Yutang just did it once and he already felt like he''s on the brink of death.


    Bai Yutang called his mom, and chatted for a little bit. Promised her he will go back on the next Chinese New Year.


    Bai Yutang only felt better after dinner. Luckily Christmas is a holiday in C company, for some companies do not regard this day as a holiday for their employees. Bai Yutang didn''t know how people survive going to the office after getting drunk the night before.


    He then guiltily looks at his lover, then hugs him tight while his lover insists on washing their dishes.


    "Mmm? Just sit, baby. I won''t break the plate." Jian Kang Lu mistook his kitten''s hug for affection.


    Actually Bai Yutang hugged Jian Kang Lu because he remembered when his lover went back home dead drunk last time, he actually left his lover and broke up with him. What kind of boyfriend was he at that time?? While now his lover took care of him the whole day, pampered him like a fragile princess.


    "I''m so lucky to have you, gege.." Bai Yutang''s voice, muffled, from pressing his face on his lover''s broad back.


    "Then I should wash our dishes everyday so you could hug me like this at least twice a day." Jian Kang Lu teases his kitten.


    The next day, Bai Yutang went to the office. He fully recovered, his body felt a hundred times lighter compared to yesterday.


    As usual, he arrived at the company early. A girl from client management greeted him. "Are you already okay? No headache?" She said with sympathy.


    "Morning. Yes, I''m already getting better. I''m sorry to let everyone see my sorry state and leave early." Bai Yutang apologised. He was a new employee and already passed out on his first company dinner.


    "Ah, that''s okay. It happened often. The important thing is you''re good now. No need to be polite. At least we could see your boyfriend."


    The other girl arrived and joined the conversation. "Your boyfriend is so handsome!" She raised both of her thumb to him.


    "Where do you find a boyfriend like that? Does he have other single friends? Introduce us!"


    Xiang Cai also arrived, "Or single female friend! I don''t mind getting an older girlfriend. I heard older girlfriend will pamper her boyfriend more."


    "Dream on! Older girlfriend will choose a handsome younger man with six pack abs!"


    Bai Yutang''s face is a little bit red. He actually didn''t know how his lover picked him up last night. He thought Xiang Cai brought him down and Jian Kang Lu took him. But.. Looking at the others also joining this conversation, it seems.. Why does it seem that everyone saw his lover? It couldn''t be they all coming down to say goodbye to him, right?


    If.. If his lover went upstairs and took him.. Oh My God, does it mean all his bosses also saw his lover pick him up??


    Bai Yutang truly didn''t know where to put his face right now. On the other hand, he was also a little bit happy to hear everyone praise his lover. At least, it was better compared to everyone spreading gossip behind his back that he had a bald and old sugar daddy.


    "Introduce some to us, Bai Yutang! I heard your boyfriend is a doctor, right? I want to have a doctor as a boyfriend too!"


    "All of my boyfriend''s friends are already married. But some of his residents are still single. Let me promote my beautiful colleagues when I meet them." Bai Yutang smiled. It''s good to feel accepted. He also remembered some of his lover''s residents also asked his help to be a matchmaker.


    One guy from the project management passed by and joined them too. "Your boyfriend is a doctor?? Really???"


    Bai Yutang nodded. "He''s a nephrologist in B hospital."


    Hearing that, the guys want to throw Jian Kang Lu to the deepest pit. What kind of human is that? Face, body and brain, he has them all. Damn it. Luckily he''s a gay. God is fair. If that kind of guy is straight, doesn''t it make them look like a bunch of bald quail chickens?


    "So young and yet all his friends are already married? Not even one left any for us?" The girl commented.


    "How old is your boyfriend?" Xiang Cai asked.


    "He just turned 41 this year." Bai Yutang answered while inputting his password to his computer.


    Suddenly all of them who were still busy chatting silenced.


    41???? Do they hear it wrong? It should be 31, right???


    Xiang Cai swallowed, "Forty one?"


    Bai Yutang nodded. He turned to his chair, "I want to get some coffee from the pantry, does anyone want to get some too?"


    Two of them stand up and they go to the pantry together. Suddenly they talk again.


    "41? What the fuck! I didn''t hear it wrong, right?"


    "What kind of guy at that age has better skin than me?"


    "Ask Bai Yutang, maybe they have their own skin care? From his dermatologist friend?"


    "I want to clarify, I''m not the only one who thought Bai Yutang''s boyfriend is young and very handsome, right?"


    "Well, make it two with me. I also thought he was the most handsome man I ever saw in my pitiful life."


    "Ah.. I thought I was drunk and the room was dark, so I was hallucinating."


    That''s why when Bai Yutang came holding a cup of hot black coffee, he was forced to show his photo with Jian Kang Lu. Bai Yutang was confused, but he thought he needed to make a good impression and had to be grateful his colleagues didn''t despise him for being a cutsleeve. Thus he showed their photo when they were on vacation in Dubai last month.


    Looking at the photo taken by this phone, they now believe their eyes still functioned properly even though they were drunk.


    Bai Yutang''s expensive phone, famous for the colour and texture in reality, will be captured perfectly. Even their large pores will be clearly shown. That''s why some ladies prefer the other brand, which camera is flattering them with the smooth filter planted inside to blur their pores.


    The photos of Bai Yutang and his boyfriend taken with this handphone, without beauty filter. Looking at a 41 year old guy with no eyebags and smooth skin crushing their pride as young women.


    Previously they thought Bai Yutang was hateful. Now they switch sides. His boyfriend is more hateful!


    "Is this Dubai?" Xiang Cai asked.


    Xiang Cai truly regretted asking where Bai Yutang stayed in Dubai. As an architect he also wants to visit Dubai someday. He wants to ask the hotel and places to visit, which flight is cheaper, the rental car, and other things. That way he might save some money to choose the best places instead of wasting money and time to choose.


    Xiang Cai wants to vomit blood when Bai Yutang tells him where they stay, or listen to his itinerary. This is like asking a fuerdai which car to buy. Do they need to think hard when spending money? What they want, just buy, ah. Ordinary man like him couldn''t follow this damn rich people''s style.

 Chapter 210 - Revelation

    This year''s winter is not as bad as last year. They rarely encounter heavy snow at night even though this is already entering January. Jian Kang Lu didn''t have to bring his thick coat every time he went to the hospital.


    Jian Kang Lu just finish his presentation and answering questions from the hemodialysis trainee. As one of the best hospitals famous for it''s kidney treatment, B hospital is one of the hemodialysis training centres in this country. Jian Kang Lu will have to give 8 lectures in this 3 months training.


    His phone vibrated. He peered at the screen, it was a call from Zhen Guo. Since it was not a call from the hospital nor his kitten, he pressed the silent button and continued to answer questions from the participant.


    After he finished, he picked up his phone again, wanting to give Zhen Guo a call back. Jian Kang Lu noticed Zhen Guo sent him messages.


    ZG : [I think I need to talk to you about something. When did you have time to meet me?]


    JKL : [How about this weekend? We could have dinner together.]


    ZG : [I just want to talk with you. Don''t bring Yutang. It won''t take long, I think..]


    Jian Kang Lu frowned. It was rare for Zhen Guo to say this. He called Zhen Guo directly.


    "Are you gonna confess your love to me?" Jian Kang Lu asked.


    Zhen Guo sneered, "Only if you could grow breasts and chop your little birdie down there."


    "Then? What is this? Can''t we just talk on the phone? Do you need my help?" Jian Kang Lu opens his laptop. He still needs to check his email, containing data collected by his resident for his research.


    "I think we should meet. When will you have free time? Thirty minutes is okay, I think.."


    "How about today? At Cloud Eight?" Cloud Eight is a restaurant near his hospital which also serves good beer and liquor. Their coffee is also good.


    "Too far! Come to Gioi, ah."


    Jian Kang Lu really hates this side of Zhen Guo. Told people to pick places but then rejected and pushed the other party to follow his own suggestion. Gioi is good, but it was so much closer to Zhen Guo''s company rather than his hospital.


    Jian Kang Lu calls his kitten and tells him that he will meet with Zhen Guo but will still eat dinner with him later, just coming back late and maybe can''t pick Bai Yutang up. Today is Wednesday, a day where Jian Kang Lu usually picks his kitten and has dinner outside.


    "Then I will cook at home. What dishes do you want me to cook, gege?"


    Jian Kang Lu remembered that last Saturday his kitten tried a new recipe. It was easy to cook so his kitten won''t get too tired and very tasty. He likes it.


    "One pot chicken rice."


    "Okay, gege. Have you finished your training lecture?"


    Jian Kang Lu chatted a little bit with his kitten, then looked at the data in his laptop before inputting it to the statistical software. Rather than giving it to someone else, Jian Kang Lu enjoyed this kind of work, unlike his peers who didn''t understand how to manage the data and only took the final result.


    After finished, he prepared to go to Gioi. He will reach there in one hour if he leaves now. But if he leaves later, who knows what time he will reach there in peak hour at B city?


    When he reached there, Zhen Guo was already waiting for him.


    "Have you waited for long?" Jian Kang Lu took his coat off and sat across from his best friend.


    "I order Erdinger for you, the Kristall one." Zhen Guo said.


    Jian Kang Lu raised his eyebrow and looked at Zhen Guo with curiosity, "Why are you so polite? Suddenly you remembered to order my favourite beer."


    Does his best friend really have something bad to tell him? Does he have debt to settle and need to borrow money? Or something wrong with sister in law?


    Zhen Guo and Jian Kang Lu have been friends for 20 year. He didn''t stall and talk straight to the point. In the next ten minutes, Jian Kang Lu was glad Zhen Guo ordered this beer for him while listening and asking Zhen Guo questions. Beer helps him to listen to this ridiculous and nasty story. He drinks and drinks, and orders the second bottle.


    This all started last Sunday when Zhen Guo invited to the annual dinner party held by the architect''s association. Usually Zhen Guo just came, talked for a little bit with his old colleagues, then went home.


    This year, the association asked him to give some speech regarding his last project, the L Life Experience Centre. The client is a property development company who required a space to target consumers chasing a green lifestyle.


    It''s a modular wooden structure that is designed to be easily adapted or dismantled. The modules take the form of tree-like columns that can be applied independently or combined with others like Lego.


    Because of that, Zhen Guo attended this event from the start until they finished the dinner and engaged in conversation with others.


    At that dinner party, he also met the director of F firm, Bai Yutang''s old office. They weren''t really close, but familiar with each other. Zhen Guo didn''t talk much with him.


    The things he told Jian Kang Lu today are not from that person. It was truly a coincidence.


    In this event, a lot of architects come, especially the young ones. The one who could come is the one who already got their architect license. Bai Yutang and his friends are not yet qualified to get their license, thus they were not invited.


    Zhen Guo needed to use the toilet after he was endlessly surrounded and talked. He already decided after using the toilet he wanted to run away and go home.


    When he washes his hands, three men come and talk while finishing their business.


    "It''s true! If you don''t believe me, you could ask old Liu. His cousin was this duck''s classmate. I heard it from him."


    "But it''s a T university student! Are you sure that duck is from T uni? Why a T uni student choose to be a duck?"


    "T uni students just put their heads high and mighty. Who knows what kind of other nasty things they did? Don''t be fooled by their innocent appearance."


    Precisely because of this sentence that makes Zheng Guo, who wants to turn off the water and leave, suddenly perk his ear and want to hear which scoundrel is spreading bad rumors about his alma mater.


    The water keeps running and Zheng Guo pretends to wash his hand meticulously while listening.


    "And that guy working at your firm, Zhong Fan?"


    "Yes. But he resigned a few months ago. Maybe his sugar daddy told him to stop working. I saw his sugar daddy several times. Old man with bald hair and fat. But he seems to pamper this duck. All his stuff is expensive."


    These three men are already done with their business and wash their hands. Because Zhen Guo still pretends to wash his hand, one of the guys queing to wash his hand. Zhen Guo deliberately lowered his head.


    "Then, where does he work now?"


    "I have no idea. We never contact each other. Why should I? I''m afraid of getting near this duck. You know that cutsleeve usually got AIDS, right. We all glad he resigned."


    "What is his name? Don''t tell me he is the new boy assigned to my team last month. But he''s a B uni graduate, not T uni."


    "His name is Bai Yutang. He looks like a proper one, but don''t be fooled with his appearance. All of his classmates know that he''s a duck with an ugly sugar daddy."


    Zhen Guo almost stumbled to hear this. Moreover to imagine his best friend described as an ugly, bald and fat sugar daddy. Does he hear it wrong? But Bai Yutang.. T uni architecture student.. Who else?


    "I can''t believe a T uni student has a double job as architect and duck."


    "A duck might have a higher income than a low architect like us."


    "True, ahaha! All of his stuff is expensive, his bag alone costs 10.000 yuan when I check it in the store. And maybe he also enjoys stuffing his ass. Dirty boy."


    The man and one of his friends laughed while the other man kept silent.


    Zhen Guo angered to hear that. He can''t hold himself and turn off the water. He raised his head and asked. "Hello.."


    The three men have already finished washing their hands and want to go out. They all turn their heads and are stunned to see the man who washes his hand like being possessed by ghost water turns out to be Zhen Guo.


    "Which firm do you work for?" Zhen Guo uses his polite tone even though he burns with anger. He stamps the man''s face who said a lot of nasty things in his brain, determined to get his name and won''t allow this man to work with him in the future.


    No matter if they talk about another person, even if he hear the name Bai Yutang wrong, but this man is clearly homophobic and have a nasty personality.


    "He-Hello Mr. Zhen Guo.." One of the men stammered. They just listened to this man''s speech one hour ago and admired his works so much. Which young architect in this country didn''t know this man?


    "Hello.. May I know which firm you are working for?"


    The three men answered. Three of them are working in different firms. They silently regret why they gossip in front of this God.


    Zhen Guo sighed. The nasty man is working in F firm. Surely.. This might be the reason why Bai Yutang resigned.


    He tried to hold his temper and still politely chat with them while walking out from the toilet. Truly, the toilet is not a good place to talk.


    Zhen Guo just politely chats before saying goodbye to them. If Zhen Guo was a man with EQ, he would dig the story from these three men furthermore. Too bad he was not a man with low EQ. Very low. Like her wife often said, it''s a miracle a man like him could become a successful architect.

 Chapter 211 - Strongest Form Of Love

    Jian Kang Lu doesn''t know what emotion he felt right now. He was over forty years old. He thought he already tasted every emotion a human should encounter. But now..


    Rage. Fury from his kitten''s suffering. His hands trembled while holding the glass. He kept drinking and drinking, holding himself from running to the F firm and lash his anger to the whole people who bullied his kitten.


    Dejected. Why didn''t his kitten tell him this kind of thing? He didn''t believe his kitten didn''t know the persecution done by his colleagues. Is he not strong enough to let his kitten depend on him?


    Remorse, a gnawing pain crept inside.. How hurt and sad his kitten had to face those kinds of things. This is only a small portion he heard from Zhen Guo. What else did they do to his kitten over there?


    Distress. The mental pain he faces right now is hurting his head, and most of all, stabbing his heart. It has been a long time since he has felt this kind of ache. Slice his inside slowly, bleed him out.


    If not because of him, his kitten won''t be bent. His kitten will be just a normal young man with a girlfriend. A normal person in society. Not a freak like him. His kitten won''t have to face these kinds of dark and creepy things from human''s fear and judgment.


    Another emotion blended in those negative feelings he felt.


    Immoral. For he was touched and happy on top of his kitten''s suffering. Happy to discover his kitten still chose to stand by him despite all those bad things that happened to him because of an old man named Jian Kan Lu.


    "So, does my TangTang know what those people talk behind his back?" Jian Kang Lu asked.


    Zhen Guo shook his head, "I didn''t ask for more. I feel they won''t tell me the truth even though I asked. I contacted my friend, F firm director, but he didn''t seem to know, or he pretended to blind. I have no idea."


    Jian Kang Lu knows his friend well. Zhen Guo is not a man who likes to pry into someone else''s matters. He has already asked Zhen Guo to tell this story three times. Now he blankly stares at the bubbles on his beer.


    Zhen Guo noticed the icy tone of Jian Kang Lu. His face was full of black lines, it was rare for his best friend to show this kind of scary face.


    Even Zhen Guo was really mad when he heard them talking about Bai Yutang that way, moreover his best friend who cupped his little boyfriend in his palm, as if he was the most delicate thing in this universe.


    "Liu Xiang hasn''t gone home yet, right? Let''s call him.." Jian Kang Lu reached his phone and dialled Liu Xiang''s number. He was glad Zhen Guo suggested this place to meet. It only takes 10 minutes from Zhen Guo''s office.


    Liu Xiang is still working. Being a junior architect in Zhen Guo''s office means working over time almost everyday. He was surprised to see Jian Kang Lu call him.


    "Liu Xiang. I''m at Gioi with your boss. Come here for a minute. Let''s talk for a little bit." Jian Kang Lu''s voice sounds cheerful and calm at the same time. Jian Kang Lu didn''t want Liu Xiang to notice something was wrong.


    "Jian Ge! Okay! But I can''t go for long. Treat me for dinner!"


    "I will." Jian Kang Lu laughed. "Come, you can order whatever you want. My treat."


    "Does TangTang there also?" Liu Xiang pressed save and took his wallet. He needs to hurry if he wants to come back sooner, finish this damn roof by today.


    "No, TangTang is still working. See you here soon." Jian Kang Lu hung up.


    "You didn''t mind your employee being kidnapped, right?" Jian Kang Lu asked.


    Zhen Guo gave him facepalm. What is the use asking him now?


    Jian Kang Lu ordered his third bottle. He needs something to calm his nerves. His fingers keep trembling from the wrath.


    Liu Xiang didn''t take long. At first he thought the atmosphere around these two people was weird. As if there''s a dark cloud hanging exclusively in that area.


    "Mr. Zhen Guo. Jian Ge." He politely notified the two people of his arrival.


    Jian Kang Lu instantly put on his friendly smile, "Liu Xiang. Come, sit down." Jian Kang Lu raised his hand to call for the waiter, asking for the menu.


    Zhen Guo only nodded and said nothing. He really admired his best friend''s ability to plastered different kinds of smiles in a short moment. Honestly, if this man didn''t decide to be a doctor, he could pursue a career as an actor.


    He saw Liu Xiang''s happy face when he ordered one egg salad and steak. He silently lit the candle for Liu Xiang. Does this young employee still be able to swallow his food after interrogation?


    Of course Jian Kang Lu is a decent man. He let Liu Xiang chat with him and Zhen Guo, leisurely eating, let this man happily chew his dinner first.


    When Liu Xiang happily patted his bloated tummy from this delicious dinner, Jian Kang Lu smiled, "Liu Xiang, can I ask you about my TangTang?"


    Liu Xiang patted his chest, "Of course Jian Ge! Ask me anything!" He shamelessly sells his friend for this exquisite dinner.


    One should know since two of his roommates decide to save their money for the upcoming wedding, Liu Xiang can''t ask them to eat outside again for two months in a row. Those two only eat instant noodles or the cheap fried rice near their apartment as an effort to scrape every cent they have.


    Jian Kang Lu''s smile never faded, he slowly asked, "Then.. Do you know why TangTang resigned from his last working place?"


    Liu Xiang shook his head, "I told you, Jian Ge. I was also surprised. We know we need to work at least for two years before we take our architect license. If he quits, it will take longer to apply for the license. I don''t understand why he decided to quit before two years."


    Jian Kang Lu nodded his head. He knows, and it hurts him more. If his tough and iron kitten decides to resign, it must be unbearable for his kitten. His kitten who didn''t even complain when he holed up in that shabby hostel, doing a lot of part time jobs to support his study and his family, eventually gave up with F firm.


    With that, Jian Kang Lu''s rage flared once more. He really wants to search for a fierce lawyer and sue them all.


    Liu Xiang still enjoyed this dinner even with the strange atmosphere, but then he paused to see Jian Kang Lu''s face. Never.. Never did he see this gentle man show this kind of face.


    "Liu Xiang, then do you know that my TangTang is bullied by his colleagues? I bet you know. Tell me, why hide those facts? Does my TangTang think he could hide it from me forever?" Jian Kang Lu''s smile is frozen, his voice is even colder than his face.


    Liu Xiang''s smile faded. He saw Zhen Guo''s face. Now he knows why his boss''s face is like that the whole night. His scalp is numb.


    "Er¡­"


    "No need to lie. I already heard from Zhen Guo. I just want to confirm what TangTang told you guys."


    Liu Xiang gave up. Then he tells Jian Kang Lu about how Bai Yutang''s peers and boss unfairly treat him. Hearing Liu Xiang''s story made Jian Kang lu''s face colder and colder to the degree Liu Xiang felt this year''s winter is the worst winter he ever faced.


    On the other side, Zhen Guo''s rage is flaring now. What kind of firm is this? He couldn''t believe his friend''s firm turned out to be filled with this kind of trash.


    Zhen Guo also tasted the bitter and painful experience of becoming an architect, but for someone to steal your precious idea, your hard work and claim it to be their own is something unforgivable for all of them.


    "Shameful!" He slammed the table.


    Liu Xiang jumped and looked at his boss with fear.


    "Ah.. I don''t know that my TangTang could hide so many things from me. Why don''t you tell me, Liu Xiang? Actually that''s not what I heard. It seems you also hide so many things from me."


    Liu Xiang''s hand is now trembling. Does he fall for these two wolf''s tricks? Actually they don''t know a thing and are just fishing for information from him? And now he stupidly sold Bai Yutang''s secret.


    "No.." He said timidly.


    "Don''t tell me you didn''t know that TangTang''s colleague was gossiping behind his back. They spread rumors that my TangTang is a duck, with an.. Old.. Bald.. Fat.. Sugar daddy.."


    Liu Xiang almost knocked his beer from the table. He coughed and choked to hear that. "I swear I don''t know about that, Jian Ge! I swear!"


    Liu Xiang also raged now. How did that happen? Who is the evil who spread those rumors again?


    "Really?" Jian Kang Lu''s face clearly shows he didn''t believe Liu Xiang at all.


    "Really! If I know, I will tell him to resign earlier! How could they still spread those old rumors until now??"


    Jian Kang Lu froze, "Old rumors?" His face and tone is now really frightening.


    Liu Xiang clasped his mouth. So stupid. How could he loosen his tongue to this extent? He sighed and gave up. Jian Kang Lu is not stupid. Rather than Jian Kang Lu interrogating Bai Yutang and creating a rift in their relationship, better Liu Xiang comes clean.


    Thus, Jian Kang Lu and Zhen Guo silenced for a long time listening to Liu Xiang''s story. Bai Yutang has endured this for years.


    Jian Kang Lu''s heart ached even more. His eyes are hazy. It was true he wanted to be with someone who was willing to walk with him hand in hand despite the hardship and adversity. But not this way.


    He wants to shield his kitten from all the bad things in this world. He thought he was strong enough to bear all the consequences. But it turns out, his kitten is the one who shields him from all those things.


    Only an idiot who couldn''t see how much his kitten loved him.


    The strongest form of love is not from the sweet act or sugary words spoken between two strangers. It comes from the blood and tears shed to maintain the bond between two lovers.

 Chapter 212 - The Pursuit Of Happiness

    Liu Xiang can''t help but order a bottle of beer to calm himself. The pressure omitted by the two old wolves in front of him is too heavy for him to bear.


    After drinking half a bottle of his beer, he suddenly heard Jian Kang Lu speaking.


    "Can you find out what else they said about my TangTang? And I also want to know how he spent his days over there.. What did they do to him? Is it worse compared to what he went through in university as you told me?"


    Even Liu Xiang''s heart tightened to hear Jian Kang Lu''s voice. There''s a hint of anger over there. But the most prominent tone he heard from Jian Kang Lu is despair and sadness.


    Liu Xiang took a deep breath. "I will try, Jian Ge. I''ll let you know when I find about it.."


    "Thank you." Jian Kang Lu hand''s playing with his glass without drinking it. His eyes looked empty. "Don''t let TangTang know.."


    "I get it. Don''t worry, Jian Ge." Liu Xiang''s voice is soft, assuring Jian Kang Lu.


    They finished their drink and Jian Kang Lu paid the bill. Zhen Guo didn''t bicker with him to pay like usual. He saw that his best friend''s face was really bad. He pat Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder without any words.


    When Jian Kang Lu paid the bill, Bai Yutang already reached the apartment and washed his hands, preparing to cook their dinner. He starts to cook when Jian Kang Lu is already driving home, to ensure his lover eats the freshly cooked one pot chicken rice.


    He starts with deboning chicken drumsticks and marinates the chicken with white pepper, salt, scallions, ginger and Shaoxing rice wine for a while to let the sauce sipped and penetrate the chicken well. Then he fried the scallions and ginger in olive oil until the kitchen filled with fragrant scent, taking half of it to make the sauce later on.


    Bai Yutang rinses the jasmine rice under cold and soaks it. He drains the water and pour rice onto the fried scallions and ginger, add the diced carrot, sprinkled some salt and stir fry while slowly adding the water. After one minute, Bai Yutang placed marinated chicken pieces on top. He cooked it on low heat. After fifteen minutes he removed the heat and let the rice with chicken stand for a further five minutes.


    During cooking, the juice from the chicken flows into the rice, releasing an enticing fragrant chicken rice. While he ensures the chicken is cooked well, Bai Yutang prepares the sauce.


    He added light soy sauce, black rice vinegar and a little bit of chilli to the remaining fried scallions and ginger.


    Bai Yutang finished his cooking and waited for his lover to arrive. Once he heard their apartment''s door open, he shouted from the kitchen, "Gege?"


    Bai Yutang walks toward the living room to welcome his lover. Usually his lover will take off his coat, put his bag, and give him a light kiss. Bai Yutang startled when he saw his lover standing there and watching him intensely.


    "Gege?" Bai Yutang asked. Why does his lover seem to be in a bad mood? Is this related to his meeting with Zhen Guo? Does Zhen Ge encounter some troubles? It was very rare to see his lover in a bad mood like this.


    Bai Yutang startled when he was embraced tight by Jian Kang Lu. Jian Kang Lu even hasn''t taken his coat off yet.


    He silently embraced his lover back, stroking that wide shoulder and strong muscles on his lover''s back. They are just standing there without words. The comfortable silence engulfing both of their closely attached bodies.


    Jian Kang Lu knows his kitten won''t tell him anything. Jian Kang Lu also knew his kitten refused to show him any weakness. He just can enveloped this thin body of his kitten onto his own. How he wished he could put his kitten on a strong protective bubble, to never let him encounter any of those misfortunes again.


    To let this man he loved the most, to never feel any pain again. To let this man who gave his love, never waste life in vain.


    After a while, Bai Yutang''s voice broke the silence. "Do you want to talk with me, gege?" His voice is still the same as what Jian Kang Lu heard years ago. His kitten has already matured, but with him, his voice always sounds soft. Declaring his youthful carefree life, as if he never tasted a single pain in this life.


    Jian Kang Lu slightly reduced his tight embrace, he pressed his lips into his kitten''s forehead lightly, an act full of worship. "Nothing, just missed you so much.." His voice is a little bit hoarse.


    Bai Yutang could smell faint alcohol from his lover. He kissed his lover''s back. "Let me finish cooking. Wash your hands first and go to the dining room."


    Bai Yutang walked back to the kitchen. He quickly blanch some pak choi, put the rice and chicken into the bowl, top it with the sauce, then add the pak choi to the side. Jian Kang Lu already washed his hands and faces and hugged his kitten from the back.


    "Gege, let me finish this first. Go sit down, ah." Bai Yutang slapped his lover''s naughty paw who hugged him and rubbed his waist in an unrestrained manner. He was afraid his lover would pounce on him here just like it happened before. At that time, they eat their cold dinner thirty minutes later after Jian Kang Lu mopped their love making traces on the dining table.


    Truly unhygienic!


    Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s shoulder, obediently released his paws and sat down like a naughty boy punished because of his mischievousness.


    Both of them enjoy the dinner. At this time, Bai Yutang knows his lover won''t say much. So Bai Yutang only told Jian Kang Lu what he did for today, what gossip Xiang Cai told him, what he ate for lunch, those small things happened in his ordinary days.


    They take a bath together, and of course no need to elaborate what happened in the bathroom.


    As a male species with testosterone flowed in their blood, Jian Kang Lu shut his brain while letting his lower brain take control. Indeed, this is why females say that males tend to think with their lower parts.


    Bai Yutang already sleeps after their night exercise. His naked body covered in thick quilt, tightly enveloped in Jian Kang Lu''s arms. The heat from both their bodies seeped to Jian Kang Lu''s bone, engraved Bai Yutang''s name deeper in it.


    Jian Kang Lu still can''t sleep. He only caresses his kitten''s soft hair lightly, afraid of waking his kitten up. His brain went back to active once more after his lower part shut down.


    What can he do for his kitten? He was not sure his kitten will let him sue F firm for discrimination. After all, the law in their country didn''t elaborate on this kind of matter clearly. Even with money and a long time taken in the court, it won''t guarantee they will win.


    Moreover, his kitten doesn''t like to stand in the light because of this matter.


    What could he do to prevent this thing from happening again? Just like what their teacher and textbook taught him when he studied medicine, the best thing is preventing humans from falling into sickness compared to treating the sickness after it surfaced. Just like vaccination is important to prevent major diseases from harming humans.


    Jian Kang Lu is not an official, he could not change the law. Jian Kang Lu is not a big architect, he can''t open a firm for his kitten led a leisure architect''s life. Jian Kang Lu definitely won''t be a tyrant that keeps his kitten at home without a job.


    But one thing Jian Kang Lu knows, every human has a similar instinct to stay alive. They will prostrate to the higher power. Just like slaves feared their masters, employees feared their boss, the poor admired the rich, the ordinary fancied the talented.


    To stand still in this society without fear, one had to establish their position. Unshaken by the cruel society. No matter which part of the world, everyone will fancy the one who contributes to society.


    It doesn''t matter if they talk on your back, the most important thing is to let them know his kitten was not the one easy to bully and to make sure they will be afraid to show any impolite manners in front of his kitten.


    What can he do?


    At least for now, Jian Kang Lu had to make sure his peers and colleagues in the hospital would never bully his kitten. He needs to drill his claws deeper and reach the possible highest position.


    Before, Jian Kang Lu avoided the light. He didn''t want people to notice him more than what he could afford for fear they would pry into his private life more than necessary. To protect his beloved.


    But now, his kitten doesn''t mind walking out from the dark toward the edge of light. His kitten even told his colleagues that he had a boyfriend. Admitting Jian Kang Lu as the owner of his heart. Not ashamed to hold a male''s hand as his companion.


    So, why do Jian Kang Lu need to be afraid? He was the one who needed to protect his kitten, not the opposite. In the dimmed bedroom, Jian Kang Lu''s eyes are full of determination. He calculates, and estimates the time he needs to achieve his target.


    Thus the next day, 74 year old Professor Lin Hsing Hun who is still energetic at his age but rarely comes to hospital anymore, is surprised to receive a call from Jian Kang Lu. Prof Lin is the name known worldwide and still etched as the best nephrologist this country ever had. He agreed to let this young man come to his home for a visit.


    Looking at the expensive health tonic and rare delicacies brought by Jian Kang Lu, Prof Lin gives a faint smile. At his age, he couldn''t count anymore how many times people came to him asking for favours. As expected, the young man with a warm smile in front of him was also the same.


    "But why now?" Prof Lin asked Jian Kang Lu. Prof Lin already offered this young man many times before, but the young man politely retreated. Why now does this young man want to dive into the world of politics and power?


    "What is your target?" Prof Lin asked again.


    "To be the best. To let the world know my name and achievement. To let them know that I give my best to contribute to society. To let my future spouse stand proud with me, knowing that I am the best. I know I''m lacking in so many points, and it might be too late. That''s why I came here, shamelessly asking for your help. I know I could never achieve my target without your help, Prof Lin." Jian Kang Lu firmly said.


    Prof Lin laughed. Indeed, this young man is so amusing. Prof Lin received so many requests before, but no one answered with this level of honesty, with this mighty arrogance, but also with the utmost humble words.


    "For your future spouse¡­ Yes, yes.. What an answer." Prof Lin smiled.


    Jian Kang Lu was the one who chose this road to walk. He didn''t want to lie when he asked for help. He believed honesty is the best foundation when someone needs assistance for they will work together for a long time. If Prof Lin rejects him, then this is not the right path for him to walk. He will search for another path.


    "It makes me wonder, who is your future spouse? She must be a great person to make a person like you who rejected me many times, now willing to bow your head in front of me. Is she a doctor also?" Prof Lin raised his cup of tea and his hands gesture Jian Kang Lu to drink his tea also.


    Jian Kang Lu raised the cup and washed his throat with this bitter tonic tea. He put the cup slowly back to the table. "He is still young. Not a doctor, an architect. And he is a man, not a woman." Jian Kang Lu said. His head never bowed down, he showed his clear eyes filled with determination to Prof Lin.


    Prof Lin almost spurted the tea in his mouth. He coughed, clearing his throat for a while before laughing like a maniac. He coughed again and needed to pat his own chest. Jian Kang Lu was already standing and helped Prof Lin to calm himself.


    "Ahahaha.. Indeed, I was always right. You are the most entertaining among the others." Prof Lin coughed again and wiped his tears. "It will be a long road, and you need to work harder since you''re not young anymore. Who told you to reject me before."


    Jian Kang Lu returned to his seat. "I will work hard to meet your expectations, Prof Lin. I will try my best. I can''t promise you anything besides my effort."


    Prof Lin waived his hand, "I know your capability. First of all, send me all your research list and your accumulated points. Target to fill your requirement to achieve professor title first, and give me the list of your future research ideas. No need to fight for the position in the hospital, better target the position in the committees of Chinese society of nephrology, and later if possible, target to be the ISN head or executives committees in KDIGO. Co chairman if possible."


    "Yes, Prof Lin. I already prepared the files and will send you the report by today." Jian Kang Lu said. He breathed out in relief. Prof Lin didn''t reject him, this is a good start.


    The road is hard and rough. This is only the first step. Like many things in life, everything needs to be done step by step. It doesn''t matter, he knows his own capability, ready to bring out the best in him.


    Jian Kang Lu is not the one who is afraid of hardships. He only feared for one thing. He only feared for his kitten''s suffering. Afraid that his kitten will someday feel tired from living an unhappy life with him.


    He clenched his fist. The road is still long. But as long as it was needed as insurance for his kitten''s happiness, he didn''t mind. For their future life will be filled with wonderful flavours, as they could meet a life as an equal with everybody else. As everyone in this world has the right to pursue happiness and love in equality.

 Chapter 213 - Mothers Tears

    Chinese New Year is always a time to head home, spend time with family, back to your hometown and indulge yourself with the familiar festival you always anticipated in your childhood.


    Airports, train stations, bus stations, the road, all packed with a sea of people who rushed back to their hometown. The people at home anxiously clean their house, decorate it, welcoming the tired flying birds migrate back to the nest.


    Bai Yutang was too late to book his ticket. Usually Jian Kang Lu will remind him from weeks away, but this year both of them forgot. The result is that Bai Yutang could only book the business class, and grit his teeth when he input his credit card number when he clicked the order button on the travel website.


    He could only blame himself for being used to his lover pampering until he forgot to take care of his own things. Even though his lover told him to use his credit card, Bai Yutang felt his salary now is enough to pay for himself.


    Bai Yutang clearly noticed his lover became extremely busy this past month. The only Wednesday his lover picked him up and had dinner together was only when Jian Kang Lu treated Xiang Cai and Huang Shi together for dinner, as Jian Kang Lu''s token of gratitude for taking care of the dead drunk Bai Yutang.


    Bai Yuren picked Bai Yutang up at the airport. Last year Bai Yuren took a driving course and managed to get her driving license.


    "Do you want me to drive, Yuren?" Bai Yutang put his luggage in the trunk, while asking Bai Yuren to help him take his backpack.


    "No, It''s okay. Gege, you only stay for four days? Why so fast? Did you bring Jian Ge''s book for me? And my other things?" Bai Yuren didn''t even say hello yet she was already chirping and asking questions.


    Bai Yutang put on his safety belt and patiently answered his sister''s question one by one. They go to the grocery store first to buy ingredients for New Year''s dinner. They will make dumplings together.


    "Let''s make the wrappers by ourselves." Bai Yutang said while he tried to secure the flour and meat which people snatched away at the lighting speed.


    They drive home again, tired after the battle inside the grocery store. Every new year, humans will be pushed to their most extreme limit to prove their capability of surviving in the jungle of grocery shopping.


    "TangTang.." His mother welcomed him home when he opened the door and dragged his luggage inside.


    Bai Yutang hugged his mother before he went upstairs. His sister comes when he unpack his things, happily snatching her things.


    "Have you put the grocery in the fridge?" Bai Yutang asked.


    ""Of course. Ah! Jian Ge even bought this pack of cosmetics for me! How thoughtful." She took a photograph and sent it to her moments on social media.


    Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu are surprisingly very inactive in their social media, unlike most people nowadays. Jian Kang Lu only posts the good food he ate, and uses social media as storage media for his favorite food.


    "Let''s make the dumplings at 6 o''clock. I''ll help mom decorate first and take a bath after this." Bai Yutang then walks away, his luggage is filled with Bai Yuren''s things, so it didn''t take long for him to unpack.


    Bai Yutang already called his lover twice, when he arrived at the airport and when he arrived at his room. Even though his lover is extremely busy to the point they only make love once a week now, he still didn''t forget to call Bai Yutang and also asked Bai Yutang to call him often.


    The empty big house finally regains it''s glorious days'' atmosphere when Bai Yutang put the last red lantern on the trees in their yard. There''s red paper cuttings on doors and windows with the image of peach and peony.


    Bai Yutang took a bath and headed to the kitchen. Actually it was much easier to use instant wrapper to make dumplings. But this year, Bai Yutang wants to make it by himself.


    He stirred the flour and salt in a large bowl, stirring it with chopsticks as he poured boiling water. Once it is shaped, he kneads it until the flour absorbs all water. Once smooth, he shaped into a ball then covered them with damp cloth. This will need to rest for 2 hours.


    After that he makes dinner with Bai Yuren and his mother. They chat about Bai Yutang''s new job and Bai Yuren''s internship. If nothing goes wrong, Bai Yuren will graduate this year.


    Once they finished the dinner, they made the dumplings together in the living room while watching the Spring Gala. This year''s spring gala is very interesting, with lots of high tech shows combined with the dance and singing.


    They laugh when the comedian shows their skills. Their hands didn''t stop rolling the dough ball, filling it with their favourite filling, then boiling it. The best way of course is to steam it with a bamboo steamer. But for the three of them, boiling it is also fun. They could eat what they make then when finished they''ll make it again.


    On TV, the comedian talks about the headache of single people who have to prepare being questioned about when they will find their other half. Suddenly Lu Hua asked, "You''ll turn 26 this year.. Why did I never see you bring any girl to introduce to me, TangTang? Don''t.. Don''t wait until you''re old. Better to have children as soon as possible.."


    Lu Hua still remembers how she gave birth to Bai Yutang when Bai Haoran was 28 years old. Even at that age, their family still struggled when Bai Haoran left. If not for Bai Yutang''s determination, how could Lu Hua safely deliver both of them to finish their education?


    It''s best to have children as soon as possible, for the children safely finish their education before their parents get too old. If Bai Yutang has children at 30, he needs to work at least until he is 55 years old to let his children graduate from university.


    "I still focus on my career, mom." Bai Yutang felt uneasy about lying again.


    Lu Hua starts to ramble her fear, slowly emphasising to let her future grandchildren be safe and could be whatever they want to be with a strong education background. She wished her children could understand what she felt, and never experience the helplessness she went through after Bai Haoran left her.


    Bai Yuren tried to divert the conversation, but she failed.


    "How about Mrs. Yang''s daughter? She graduated last year and is working in the bank. Or Old Xing''s granddaughter? She''s working in the office, heard her salary is 8000 yuan per month. Why don''t you exchange numbers first, and later could meet each other if both of you feel right."


    "Mom.." Bai Yutang helplessly looked at Bai Yuren, asking for help.


    Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren turn deaf for the next one hour until suddenly there''s a male singer with appearance and voice like a female shows up. His voice is incredibly high and very clear, his androgyny features and his amazing voice was very famous.


    "Ah.. I heard Mrs. Gu told that Mrs. Ling''s son is gay. No wonder he hasn''t gotten married even though his mother desperately introduced hundreds of good girls to him. He is already 31 I think."


    Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren choked at the same time. They hurriedly drink their water and calm their cough. Both of them turn red from the shock. Bai Yuren still coughed, "Don''t listen to those kinds of rumors, mom." She said.


    Bai Yutang''s hand still holds his glass. He stares at the boiling water in front of him, his dumpling already done. He slowly fished it and put it in his bowl.


    "I just took pity on Mrs. Ling. They only have one son. How miserable if she never has her own grandchildren.. Their family line will just end that way." Lu Hua''s tone was not judgmental. She truly felt bad for her if the news is true.


    "A lot of people can''t have children on their own either. It''s their own path, mom. Their fate. No need to pity them." Bai Yuren slowly said. She kneads another dough ball flat and fills it with shrimp and mushroom while peeking at his brother''s face.


    "But still.. At least they tried. If a married couple tried and didn''t have the blessing, then it''s their fate. But how could you call it fate if you didn''t try." Lu Hua shook her head.


    "Mom.." Bai Yutang''s voice trembled a little bit. He didn''t know why, but he suddenly didn''t want to lie anymore. "I''m a gay too.."


    The whole living room became silenced. Only the drum and melody from the television echoed in the room. Bai Yuren almost burned herself when she dropped her dumpling into the boiling water.


    Lu Hua felt she heard something wrong. She carefully looked at her son. "What? I didn''t hear it clearly."


    "I.. I''m a gay too mom.."


    Lu Hua stares at her son. The suffocating silence engulfed the room once again. Bai Yutang didn''t dare to look at his mom. His hands trembling, but still kneading the dough ball.


    "I''m gay, that''s why i didn''t have girlfriend."


    Lu Hua abruptly stands and walks to her room. She closed the door and felt the dumpling she ate choked her. Something heavy stuck in her throat, a big lump formed in her chest. She starts to pounce her chest, desperately wanting to get rid of those big lump out of her chest.


    Did she hear it wrong?


    She must have heard it wrong..


    Her son is gay? It was not possible.


    Her TangTang is the most sensible child since young, never bringing her trouble even once.


    Why? Why does he make that kind of joke?


    Her eyes were hot, and a crystal ball formed in the corner of her eyes. Her heart hurt. Her head throbbing hard. She ran to the bed, her trembling hand took Bai Haoran and her picture on the bedside table. She put it on her chest, her lips trembling as her son''s words echoed again and again in her head.


    "Haoran.. What did I do wrong? What.. Why..?"


    Gay? Not married? Cut their family line? Cut her beloved husband''s family line?? What kind of joke is this?


    She didn''t realise her tears were running like a waterfall curtain on her cheek, she wept bitterly. Her voice choked, her sobbing started to get louder and louder as she couldn''t breath. As if the air was avoiding her lungs.


    "Mom.." Her son''s voice came from behind the door. He knocked the door softly.


    Lu Hua cried even harder. What did she do wrong? Maybe she really is not a good mother, but why need to be repaid this way? If she could take care of her son instead of her son taking care of her, will it change everything?


    She always tries her best to take care of her children, but why does all her effort fail her? How could she face her father in law? Her husband? For her.. For she failed to raise Bail Haoran''s children well. She failed to be a mother.


    Why?

 Chapter 214 - Mothers Wrath

    There''s step sounds coming from the stairs. Bai Yutang knows it belongs to Bai Yuren.


    "Gege.." Bai Yuren tapped his shoulder.


    Bai Yutang still stares at the closed door. He didn''t say anything to reply to his sister''s call. He knocked on the door again.


    "Mom.." He called again softly.


    Bai Yutang wanted to say to his mom, "Let''s talk mom. Let me come in. Let me explain." But his throat seems to be burned. He can only call his mom again and again.


    He could hear his mom''s sobbing coming from behind the door. It seems this door separates their world, a place he couldn''t come in. He knew this would happen when he told the truth to his mom. He once simulated so many scenes in his head how he came out to his mother. But none of it included the burst of emotion on New Year''s eve.


    Bai Yutang still stands and rhythmically knocks on the door, calling his mother again and again.


    Bai Yuren shook her head and finally went downstairs. She wants to help her brother, but maybe it''s better to let his brother talk to their mother alone first.


    It was almost midnight, the year almost turned into a new one. The sobbing gradually reduced to faint sobs, and there''s a light step. Bai Yutang breathed deeply.


    The door opened, Lu Hua''s face was red and puffy. Her hair also turned into a mess.


    Lu Hua sat back on her bed. Bai Yutang wants to sit in the chair, but his legs seem heavy. After a few minutes spent in silence, Bai Yutang walked to face his mother, and kneeled in front of her.


    "I''m sorry mom.."


    Lu Hua''s tears fell again, wetting her dried cheek. The salty water painted her cheek once again.


    "Why?" Her voice is hoarse.


    Bai Yutang silenced. He could not say anything, he also didn''t know why.


    "Why don''t you try looking for girls first? Let''s see if you could change." Lu Hua said. The moment she said this, lots of ideas formed in her head. She needed to contact her friends and introduce a lot of girls to her son. Maybe it''s because her son never had a chance to get near to girls before.


    "You could try first, talk to them, go on dates, and see whether you could indulge in a normal life. And it would be better if you could move back here." Lu Hua stopped crying and spewing so many suggestions at once.


    This time, she regrets opposing her parents when they ask Bai Yutang to move back here. She always thinks her son knows the best since her son is so smart and sensible. But it seems that she was wrong. She needs to watch him closely, not let her son go astray again.


    Soon she started to blame Bai Yutang for going to T university. Maybe if her son never goes away, he will never think that he was a gay.


    "Mom.. Mom.." Bai Yutang helplessly listens to her mother''s rambling.


    "Come, look. This is Old Mao''s granddaughter. She''s quite okay even though she was not as smart as you. She''s very calm and can cook also." Lu Hua shows Bai Yutang Old Mao''s family picture on her phone.


    "Mom.. Mom.. Mom, I have a boyfriend.." Bai Yutang finally said.


    The sound of fireworks penetrate the house''s wall. The cheer from the TV downstairs could not be heard, but people outside already clapped their hands, some went outside and cheered for their neighbours, saying happy new year to each other.


    It''s already a new year, and the first thing Lu Hua heard this year is not a congratulation or wishes to spend a good year ahead. Instead, it was a nightmare.


    A creepy thought crawling inside her brain. Her red eyes changed from a pool of grief into fury and rage.


    "Boyfriend? Is it Doctor Jian?" She asked.


    Bai Yutang deeply inhaled, he noticed how his mother''s tone was full of wrath. "Yes, mom. It was him."


    Lu Hua was so mad at herself, at her son, at that man he thought was so kind but turns out to be a white eyed wolf.


    She almost raises her hand to slap the son in front of him. But even Bai Haoran never hit their child, more over her. Her hands were still hanging in the air, but never could reach his son.


    Bai Yutang didn''t flinch, he was already prepared. But her mother''s hand slowly went down again.


    "Get out."


    "Mom.." Bai Yutang said again.


    "Get out. I don''t want to talk to you anymore." Lu Hua said.


    Bai Yutang didn''t move. He still stubbornly kneels in front of her mother.


    "Get out!!!" Lu Hua screamed.


    Bai Yutang didn''t move until her mother screamed once again. "Mom, let''s talk again tomorrow." He then stood up and slowly walked to the door.


    In front of the door, Bai Yuren was standing there waiting for them. "Mom, happy new year." She tried to say in a cheerful voice.


    Lu Hua didn''t answer.


    "Happy new year, gege.." Bai Yuren said in a small voice.


    Bai Yutang tried to smile and pat his sister''s head. "Happy new year, RenRen. I''m sorry.."


    "It''s okay." Bai Yuren quickly said.


    Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren clean up the dumplings downstairs. No one is in the mood to talk anymore. Bai Yuren wanted to say something, but none of it could be said.


    Once in his room, Bai Yutang saw three missed calls from his lover. He called Jian Kang Lu and said happy new year to him and his lover''s family.


    Jian Kang Lu knows his kitten well, thus when he walked to the kitchen to get another hot water, he asked, "What happened with your voice, baby? Is there something wrong?"


    Bai Yutang didn''t answer. Jian Kang Lu then asked again, "Do you want to talk about it? If not then it''s okay.."


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t hang up. He listened to his kitten''s unsteady breath. He gestured to his parents that he wanted to go upstairs to talk with Bai Yutang. Lin Caihong waved her hands, still busy with entertaining her grandson.


    "Have you finished your dumplings? Are you having indigestion, baby? Eat too much? It''s good to eat more, but not too much. You easily get bloated." Jian Kang Lu said in a soft soothing tone.


    Bai Yutang still didn''t answer, but Jian Kang Lu suddenly could guess his kitten was crying over there.


    After five minutes crying venting his frustration, Bai Yutang took a deep breath. "I told my mom about us, gege.. I''m sorry, I didn''t tell you first.."


    Jian Kang Lu was shocked, but then he quickly tried to soothe his kitten. "It''s okay.. Don''t cry, TangTang.. Do you want me to come tomorrow?"


    In Jian Kang Lu''s plan, the day his kitten comes out to his mother is the day when he and his kitten are holding hands, kneeling in front of Lu Hua asking for her blessing. It was the day when Jian Kang Lu was the one who spoke, it was the day when Jian Kang Lu bore all the burden.


    He sighed inside.. He was annoyed and lost, not because his plan failed, but because he can''t stand to let his beloved kitten bear all of this alone.


    Once again he let his kitten suffer. Just because his kitten accepted him to be his partner. Just because Jian Kang Lu fell in love with him, and turned that pure young man into the same freak as him. A freak to this society.


    "Don''t.. No need to come here." Bai Yutang said. He knows even in the New Year, doctors are still busy. Sick people don''t recognise holidays. In fact, hospitals are busier after the holiday.


    But, he is still happy to hear his lover''s gentle and soothing tone.


    "Then, I''ll come to pick you up. The day after tomorrow, okay? I need to meet your mother too." Jian Kang Lu said.


    Bai Yutang was afraid his mother would treat Jian Kang Lu badly, but he also knew his lover was right.


    His lover is always right.


    The morning comes, the breakfast spent in silence. Lu Hua refused to talk to Bai Yutang even until the families and some guests came to congratulate them.


    Bai Yutang''s grandparents and his uncle''s family of course notice how puffy Lu Hua''s eyes are on this day, which is supposed to be a happy day. Lu Hua refused to explain and just gave a stiff smile when her mother and her sister in law asked her.


    "What happened with auntie and Yutang Ge?" Bai Yuren''s cousin asked.


    "Too much asking will shorten your life." Bai Yuren flicked his head.


    The next day, Jian Kang Lu''s flight is at noon. He just brings one small luggage with him, and goes to Bai Yutang directly from the airport.


    Bai Yutang opened the door for him, and he hugged his lover. Yesterday was really hard for him. Never in his life he received such a cold treatment from his mother.


    Jian Kang Lu gave him the things he brought from B city. This is supposed to be the things he imagined to bring when he asked Bai Yutang''s family for his hand in marriage. If that auspicious day ever comes in future.


    Jian Kang Lu felt ironic. But he still thickened his face and asked Bai Yutang to meet Lu Hua.


    Lu Hua heard his son call for her. These days, if there are no guests, Lu Hua will lock herself in her room, stare at her husband''s picture.


    "Auntie.. Happy new year."


    Lu Hua heard that stranger''s voice. She recognised that voice and suddenly felt very mad. Her rage is swelling from her heart, and spreads to all of her body. She opened the door fiercely. "Who told you that you could step into this house!" She screamed.


    Bai Yutang was standing in front of the door. At first his lover held his hand. But when they arrived in front of his mother''s door, Jian Kang Lu released their clapping hands.


    Bai Yutang stood there and was surprised to see her mother''s face was red and shouting until her lung almost exploded.


    "You bastard! How could you poison my son! Get out! Don''t ever show your despicable face in front of me!" Lu Hua shouted once more. "I didn''t conceive TangTang in my stomach for 9 months and stake my life when I gave birth to him just for you to come and ruin him!"


    "Mom!" Bai Yutang now almost mad and sad to the highest degree he never knew he could feel. He remembers how his lover''s family and friends all welcome him in open hands. Why does his own mother humiliate his lover this way?


    Jian Kang Lu knows this is the thing he needs to face. He pulled Bai Yutang behind, not letting his kitten quarrel with his own mother and regretting it later.


    "Auntie.. I know I was wrong. I''m the one who is pursuing TangTang."


    "Get out! Stay away from my son!" Lu Hua''s eyes were so wide until they almost jumped out from her eye socket.


    Bai Yuren was already walking upstairs when she heard the commotion. She was standing there, not knowing what to do. She could only stand and watch them in silence.


    She wants to remind her mother that her voice is so loud, their neighbours definitely could hear her shouting. But it seems she can''t say anything to her enraged mother. She never saw her mother this angry before.


    "Auntie, I''m sorry. I know I was wrong, but I can''t leave TangTang. I love him, and I will take responsibility for him until the day I die. I promised I''ll do anything to make him happy, but I really can''t bear to lose him. I need your blessing, auntie."


    Lu Hua is so mad to hear that. She once admired how gentle this man''s voice was. Soothing and magnetic, just like a clear blue sky in a lush green forest. But now it sounds like a devil''s voice.


    Lu Hua''s world turns red. She didn''t know what she''s doing or saying until she heard her children shouting and running to her.


    Her breath is unsteady, she panting hard. She saw her daughter holding her tight, while her son ran in panic and came back with a piece of cloth to press Jian Kang Lu''s face.


    The cloth soon stained with red colour. There''s a crack in that smooth face of Jian Kang Lu. The red liquid soon formed again on Jian Kang Lu''s temples, near the corner of his eyes.

 Chapter 215 - Melancholia

    It all happened so fast. Bai Yutang only felt Jian Kang Lu suddenly move and pull him back so he was completely shielded by Jian Kang Lu''s body. Bai Yutang couldn''t see what object that hurt his lover, since so many things that her mother threw at them.


    Around Jian Kang Lu''s feet, there are many things scattered. Cosmetics, bottles, and some glass figures, also an accessories box that broke and revealed some of the jewellery contained by it.


    Lu Hua was still panting but the red layer in her eyes gradually faded and she could see clearly again. She was also shocked to see the mess in front of her. There''s a sad and helpless feeling aroused.


    There''s also guilt, but she shook her head and refused to acknowledge the heavy stone in her stomach comes from guilt. Any mother in this world will do the same.


    Bai Yuren pulled her and let her sit on the bed.. She then asked, "Mom.. Do you need some drinks? Take a deep breath first.." Bai Yuren then looks at her brother and Jian Kang Lu, giving signals for Bai Yutang to treat Jian Kang Lu''s wound first.


    Jian Kang Lu understood, he then slowly spoke, "Mrs. Lu Hua, I''m sorry if i angered you today. I''ll come again tomorrow before I come back to B city with TangTang. I''m really sorry for coming today without telling you. In the future, I''ll let you know and ask for your permission first before coming. Hope you rest well, Mrs. Lu Hua."


    Bai Yutang followed Jian Kang Lu with fear and heavy sadness. He was also mad, so mad until he didn''t have any tears to shed. Never in his life he was hit by someone, it agitated him to see something so violence. Moreover, it was conducted by his own mother toward his lover.


    When they reach the living room, Jian Kang Lu hugs him. "I''m okay, baby. You should go upstairs and accompany your mom. Don''t be mad, don''t be sad, don''t quarrel with her. I''m afraid she will get sick in this state. I''ll tell RenRen to take your mom to the hospital, at least check her blood pressure."


    Bai Yutang could only nod in silence. He was too ashamed to answer his lover.


    "Bring cool water for your mom, clean the room and be careful of sharp objects and broken glasses there. I''m okay." Jian Kang Lu patted his kitten''s head while his other hand pressed the cloth given to him to his wound, stopping his bleeding.


    "Don''t you need to go to the hospital to take care of your wound, gege?" Bai Yutang asked. His head is still buried on Jian Kang Lu''s shoulder.


    "I will. Don''t worry. The most important thing is you accompany your mother and do not agitate her anymore. Okay?"


    "I''m sorry, gege.." Bai Yutang''s rage now swelling down, and only despair left.


    "It''s okay. I kidnap her son, after all. Don''t worry, okay?" Jian Kang Lu held his kitten''s face to try to see the handsome face he loved so much.


    Bai Yutang still refused to see Jian Kang Lu and only buried his head. Jian Kang Lu said slowly, "Try to understand your mother. This must break her heart. We could only do this slowly. Don''t quarrel with her. She must be very confused, and very very sad. If she could be less sad with venting her misery this way to me, I''m more than willing to do that."


    Bai Yutang still has no reaction. Jian Kang Lu then strokes his chin and softly whispers, "Give me a smile first. It was the best medicine to heal me faster. I actually want to kiss you, but I guess your mother will throw knives at me if she finds it later."


    Bai Yutang knows his lover must be okay if he could make this kind of ironic joke. He tries to lift his head and give his lover a bright smile. It failed miserably, but still Jian Kang Lu can''t help but kiss his kitten''s head.


    "Okay, I''m going now. I''ll pick you up at 1 o''clock tomorrow. You have your lunch with your mother first." Jian Kang Lu ruffled Bai Yutang''s head before going to the hospital.


    The wound is not deep, it was bleeding because the skin around the eyes is thin, and there are a lot of blood vessels over there. Even though it was not deep, Jian Kang Lu can imagine the bruises left later on. He sighed in the car, and headed to the nearest hospital.


    There, he only asks the doctor and nurse in the ER to clean his wound and give him stitches. If he were a girl, he would ask for the plastic surgeon resident to do this task, using the smallest needle and the finest silk, avoiding ugly scars formed later. But he was a man, it''s okay since it only needs two stitches to stick the skin together.


    Bai Yutang himself tried to suppress his sadness and rage when he went upstairs. His rage instantly dissipated when he saw his mother crying on Bai Yuren''s shoulder. He silently cleaned the mess and carefully avoided the broken glass.


    He remembered what his lover said. No matter what, this is his mother. She is an excellent mother. A child could never repay a parent''s blood and tears spent for raising them. He sighed..


    "Mom.. I''m sorry. Don''t cry, please. Drink some water first.." Bai Yutang knelt near his mother and gave her a glass of cool water.


    Lu Hua''s eyes were all red. Tears stained her cheek. She hugged her son, and cried again when her son hugged her back. In fact, there''s a fear growing inside her. What if his son is mad at her and runs away with Jian Kang Lu, and refuses to acknowledge her as his mother anymore.


    As a widow, she only lives for her children. As an old woman with no economic power, she only could rely on her children. One day Bai Yuren will get married, her dowry will also be provided by her son. And most of all, a son could provide for his parents, but a daughter belongs to her husband. Unless her daughter could find a husband like Bai Haoran.


    Bai Yuren hugged both of them. She could only calm her mother with soft whispers. This breaks her heart. She doesn''t want to be in the position where she had to choose between her mother and her brother. She knows Bai Yutang is in a more difficult position. She pity all of them, but she can''t meddle too much in this matter.


    Bai Yuren slept with her mother that night. She tried to talk about her internship and her graduation plan. This way, she had to cross B hospital as her future residency plan. With her mother''s state like this, she would explode if Bai Yuren told her that she wants to do residency in Jian Kang Lu''s hospital.


    Near midnight when she thought her mother had already fallen asleep, suddenly her mother asked, "How about you, RenRen? Why you haven''t had any boyfriend yet?"


    Bai Yuren decided to ask for big compensation from Jian Kang Lu tomorrow, for him and her brother dragged her in this mud.


    "I''m busy studying mom. I need to maintain my grade." She turned her head to face her mother.


    "Don''t you have anyone you like? Or someone who likes you?" Lu Hua asked. She got a feeling that her daughter already knew about her son and Jian Kang Lu a long time ago. How if they spread bad influence to her daughter, and turn her daughter into lesbian?


    Bai Yuren sighed. Of course there''s some man that she liked, but they all didn''t like her back. She''s too busy on campus. All men around her are usually the same nerd as her. But.. She then remembered about He Zheng.


    "There''s someone.. He was also smart, a scholarship student like me. He comes from L district. He''s an orphan." She explained.


    He Zheng was in the same class as Bai Yuren. L district is a small town near W city. He Zheng''s parents passed away in a car accident when he was in their second year. Just like Bai Yuren, he was left with inheritance in the form of assets, but the money is tight for him to continue his study leisurely. Thus he heard about Bai Yuren''s condition and strived to get a scholarship also.


    They were in the same study group with all those nerds. He Zheng is not handsome. His skin is a little bit dark, his eyes as narrow as Bai Yutang. His height is also similar to Bai Yutang, not too tall. But his appearance is clean enough, and he also does some tutoring for extra income.


    Bai Yuren, as a young girl, of course prefers a more bright and handsome man. He Zheng is not bad, but she didn''t feel any love. Maybe because their interaction is mainly around the study group. All they talk about is the lecture. Kinda boring.


    But she was not a dense girl. More or less she could notice that He Zheng sometimes looks at her in the same way a man looks at his woman.


    "It''s a man, right?" Lu Hua asked. She wants to make sure.


    Bai Yuren laughed, "Of course it''s a man, mom."


    "Then, bring him home sometimes. I''ll cook for him. He must be very lonely, to stand alone without his parents." At this moment, Lu Hua doesn''t care if her future son in law is a poor orphan or an ugly man. As long as it was a man. Previously, she hoped for a dazzling son in law to match her bright daughter.


    Bai Yuren laughed again, "I don''t even know whether he likes me mom. Maybe because we''re both scholarship students and belong to the same study group."


    "That''s okay. You can get to know him slowly and better if you take him to eat here once a week. I pity that boy also. He must not have a chance to eat his mother''s cooking anymore."


    Bai Yuren hugged her mother. Her mother is truly a kind woman, that''s why she was so surprised beyond recognition when she saw her soft and kind mother explode like that.


    "Okay, okay. I''ll try to invite him later, okay?"


    They still chat until midnight. Lu Hua asked many things about He Zheng. Bai Yuren thought, if this will divert her mother''s attention, then it''s okay. She still remembers her mother''s state when her father passed away. She truly can''t face her mother''s sadness that way anymore.


    The next day, Jian Kang Lu called Lu Hua when he was on the way to pick up Bai Yutang. Lu Hua didn''t answer. Then he sent messages, and also told his kitten that he will wait outside the door. It was not because he was mad with Lu Hua, but he knew he could not agitate his future mother in law anymore.


    Bai Yutang opened the door when Jian Kang Lu arrived. He already told his mother, and his mother refused to leave her room.


    "Say goodbye to your mother first, I''ll wait here. Don''t forget to hug her, and send my regards too." Jian Kang Lu said with a smile.


    Bai Yutang goes upstairs while Jian Kang Lu puts his kitten''s luggage into the car.


    "Mom, I''m going back to B city first. Take care, okay.. And I''m sorry once again to let you down, mom. But gege treats me very well. He told me to send his regards to you." He knocked on the door. His mother didn''t answer.


    Bai Yutang took a deep breath. "Mom, can I at least hug you first before I go?"


    Bai Yutang waited for 5 minutes before finally Lu Hua opened the door when he kept asking.


    Lu Hua didn''t say anything, but she let her son give her a hug before he finally went downstairs. She took a deep breath. Her eyes are rippled with deep emotion before she finally turns back and closes the door.

 Chapter 216 - Birthdays Dinner

    Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang''s life after the incident appear to be the same on the surface. But it hurts both of them.


    Bai Yutang aches every time he sees the purple bruises near his lover''s temple. The bruises are gone after 1 week. But there''s a tiny scar left there. Like a reminder for him of the incident.


    Jian Kang Lu ached every time he saw his kitten''s guilty face. He doesn''t want to see that kind of expression painted on his kitten''s handsome face. Even after two weeks, his kitten still gave him the same expression.


    Therefore, he could only tease his kitten. "Rather than you look at me that way, why don''t you just give a kiss to my scar? Don''t you think that my scar is sexy? A man is sexier with scars left from the war, right?"


    Bai Yutang admired this old wolf who never missed a smallest chance to take advantage of his own miserable condition..


    Fine, if it makes his lover happy when he does that, he is willing to kiss the scar a hundred times a day. Wish it could fade the scar away.


    One month passed, and Jian Kang Lu came up with an idea. "Baby, we visit my parents almost every week, but we rarely visit your mom. I think because I didn''t meet her often it caused her to not see my charming side. What if we took time once a month to visit her?"


    This actually includes on Jian Kang Lu 101 way to snatch your mother in law''s heart guidebook. He already planned, but the plan was a little bit disturbed because of his kitten''s sudden confession. He is also busy lately with his research and Prof Lin''s plan for him.


    There''s no other way, things already happened out of his plan. He could only grit his teeth and cram everything. He delegates the Saturday round to his junior, and uses it to elaborate his research, as well as giving lectures and speech. Prof Lin also arranged both of them to elaborate and make a book.


    He could spare one Saturday and Sunday each month to accompany his kitten back to W city, and slowly let his future mother in law see that their relationship is good. Slowly shows his future mother in law that he could make his kitten happy to be together with him, even though he was not a woman like Lu Hua wished for.


    Bai Yutang timidly asked, "What if my mother treats you badly again, gege?"


    Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten who laid on his arms. "That''s okay. Like I told you, if it could appease her anger, then so be it. When her anger diminished, I hoped she could slowly accept me."


    Bai Yutang hugged his lover tight. He was truly afraid. What if his lover is offended, tired of being in this kind of situation. Tired to be with him. While his lover''s family openly accepted him, he could not make his own family do the same.


    His lover used to be in the position where people always treat him nice. And his lover also treats everyone nicely. What if someday his lover realised that he was not worthy of Jian Kang Lu''s love?


    Bai Yutang could only follow his lover''s advice and tell his mother that he will visit her once a month with Jian Kang Lu.


    Nowadays his mother is avoiding him. Lots of his phone calls were rejected. His messages also rarely replied. But Bai Yutang still sends messages regularly. He was in the position to plead for his mother''s blessing. These are the things he should do.


    Their visit in March still miserably failed. Jian Kang Lu stayed in the hotel near their house, while Bai Yutang stayed at home. Jian Kang Lu visits Lu Hua on Saturday and Sunday, stops at their door and never steps inside the house again.


    Jian Kang Lu doesn''t want to agitate Lu Hua again by trespassing the house without her permission.


    This stressed Bai Yutang so much, especially when his mother was clearly going out on Sunday and didn''t want to stay at home when Jian Kang Lu picked Bai Yutang up to go back to B city.


    Their visit in April is still the same. This time, even Lu Hua refused to be at home when Jian Kang Lu comes on Saturday and Sunday. She only comes back home when Bai Yutang calls her, telling her that Jian Kang Lu is gone.


    Lu Hua will give Bai Yutang silent treatment again every time Bai Yutang tries to make conversation including Jian Kang Lu''s name, or his daily life in Jian Kang Lu''s apartment. She will only react and speak if the topic didn''t involve Jian Kang Lu at all.


    Bai Yutang felt that he was so busy in March and April. Appeasing his mother, and also helping Tang Yuxuan and Yu Dong''s wedding. April especially, since Yu Dong''s wedding was held in S city.


    His own 26th birthday celebration is very simple since both of them are really busy. It is only a dinner at a good restaurant with excellent wine. His birthday gift is a custom small leather luggage. Bai Yutang knows this because he will have a battle to W city once a month to win his mother''s blessing.


    He didn''t even dare to speak about Yu Dong''s marriage in April to his mother, afraid this will agitate his mother again. He didn''t want to hear his mother saying, "Look at your friends. They married women and were happy with them. Why won''t you try it?"


    He was tired of hearing those statements over and over again when he told his mother he was coming to Tang Yuxuan''s wedding in March.


    Bai Yutang tried to explain to his mother, "Mom, what if grandma is telling you to try looking for someone else rather than married to dad? Can you even try when you are already in love with dad?"


    This led to Lu Hua scolding him, crying, and becoming another episode of endless drama. Lu Hua told him that he was an ungrateful son. How could Bai Yutang make Bai Haoran an example for Jian Kang Lu?


    Bai Yutang learns from the mistake, and never drag his father''s name again.


    May is Lu Hua''s birthday. When Bai Yutang told his mother he will come visit again, Lu Hua told him that she doesn''t want to see Jian Kang Lu on her birthday celebration. It''s best if Bai Yutang come and go alone, without Jian Kang Lu following him to W city.


    Bai Yutang was very desperate when he showed Jian Kang Lu what his mother told him. Jian Kang Lu only ruffled his kitten''s hair. "It''s okay, I could cram my lectures on those two days. Go have fun with your mom. Maybe you could take her on a short holiday and stay in nice places."


    "But how about your ticket, gege?" Bai Yutang is very sad and disappointed.


    "No worries, I could change the date to next month. Book your flight for next month also." Jian Kang Lu grabbed his tablet and opened the air flight website to change his ticket.


    Bai Yutang relayed this to his mother, to have a short holiday, but his mother said she wanted to celebrate it at a restaurant at the mall. She also said that Bai Yuren will also bring her boyfriend.


    This actually surprised Bai Yutang and he called his sister asking about this boyfriend who appeared out of the blue.


    Bai Yuren laughed, "He''s my friend, gege. Don''t you dare to say that he was my boyfriend in front of him."


    Bai Yutang doubts this. But he didn''t say much, since he really thinks his sister won''t hide her boyfriend in front of him.


    The restaurant in the mall mentioned by his mother is a good family restaurant. The menu is traditional Chinese cuisine. Their dumplings are delicious, as well as their bird nest soup.


    Bai Yutang wears his casual thin sweater and jeans when he is waiting for Lu Hua and Bai Yuren downstairs.


    When Lu Hua came down, she was wearing a one piece dark blue dress by Bai Yutang bought for her. She also wears a thin white gold necklace with a flower diamond pendant, her birthday gift from Bai Yutang this year.


    It''s actually a real diamond, very expensive, a gift from Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang. But Jian Kang Lu warns his kitten not to tell his mother about this, or else Lu Hua will throw the necklace away.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t tell Bai Yutang the real price of this diamond pendant. He only told Bai Yutang to pay him 30001 yuan for this joint birthday gift. 10% of the real price. He mailed the real authentication certificate to Bai Yuren.


    Lu Hua frowned when she saw his son and said, "Why don''t you change your clothes? Wear something nice."


    Looking at his mother, Bai Yutang smiled. "Okay mom, I''ll dress up on your birthday." He goes upstairs and changes into a long sleeved light blue shirt, rolls the sleeve to his elbow, and wears dark blue pants. This is one of his favorite shirts. His lover bought it as their couple''s shirt.


    He actually brought this shirt not because he wanted to wear it on his mother''s birthday, but because he knew he would miss Jian Kang Lu.


    Prices really don''t lie. A 3000 yuan shirt looks very different from his 300 yuan shirt.


    Bai Yuren also dressed well. She wears a light pink dress with floral embroidery on the lower side. It''s a little bit short, but this is spring. At least it was still covering half of her thighs.


    Bai Yutang drives to the mall and they go shopping for a little bit first before going to the restaurant. The reservation is at 7 o''clock.


    When Bai Yutang followed the waiter to their table, his face stiffened to see that the table is reserved for 6 people. He now knows why his mother refused his offer to call and reserve the restaurant. He has bad premonition.


    He didn''t say anything, but 15 minutes later his guess came true.


    "Here, here, Yang Liu!" Lu Hua waved her hand to a pair of mother and daughter who came walking toward their table.


    Bai Yutang knows Yang Liu. He often hears her name from her mother. She and her husband opened the grocery store next to the restaurant where his mother works. Yang Liu appeared at the same age as Lu Hua, a chubby middle aged woman with a smiling face.


    She brought her daughter with her. Lu Hua introduced them, "This is my friend who i often told you, Yang Liu. And this is her daughter, Zheng Nian."


    Zheng Nian is the one that Lu Hua mentioned on New Year''s eve, before Bai Yutang blurted out that he was in a relationship with Jian Kang Lu. Bai Yutang recalled, it seems his mother several times mentioned this Zheng Nian before, but he never paid attention.


    The mothers are smiling and laughing, both boasting their own children. Their children''s mild temperament, their children''s academic achievement, and so on.


    The children''s face all stiff. Even Bai Yuren hurriedly message He Zheng to arrived here sooner to save this situation. She believed she could divert these two enthusiastic matchmakers a little bit when He Zheng came.


    She felt a little bit shameless, and cruel. He Zheng truly never rejected every thing she asked.


    He Zheng comes to the restaurant with erratic breathing, it seems he just runs outside to reach the restaurant sooner.


    He rode the bus to the mall, thus he took a longer time. He flustered and repeatedly apologised for coming late. He looks ordinary, wearing a checkered green short sleeve shirt. If his face is white, these people might see him blushing from rushing and embarrassment.


    He Zheng was truly embarrassed. He already wears the best and presentable shirt he owns. But still¡­ What can he do? The good shirt he owned was all already worn out. Since his parents passed away, he never bought new clothes anymore.


    Bai Yutang was polite and still indulged in the conversation before He Zheng came. Zheng Nian is also the same. Both of them know how to place themselves in front of their enthusiastic mother.


    He Zheng arrived at the same time with their main dishes. Bai Yuren hurriedly said, "Here, sit here. Don''t block the waiter."


    Bai Yutang silently pitied this young man. His sister sometimes is really¡­


    "RenRen, why don''t you introduce him first." Bai Yutang is actually happy to have this little distraction from his mother''s non stop boasting his achievement in front of the pair of mother and daughter. In a short five minutes he already heard a full resume of Zhen Nian''s life, as well as Zheng Nian got his complete resume.


    At least, he was glad to see Zheng Nian''s face and also surprised when she came. This means, she was also thrown into this pit by her mother, and not because she was willing.

 Chapter 217 - Born This Way

    Bai Yuren looked very calm, while He Zheng clearly looked like he was struggling in the chop-board, waiting for the butcher swinging the knives down.


    "Ah, gege. This is my friend, He Zheng. He was in the same year as me, we were often placed in the same division." Bai Yuren said, answering Bai Yutang''s question. The division Bai Yuren speaks about is the division in the hospital they sent to do their internship.


    What makes Bai Yuren consider He Zheng feeling toward her is that He Zheng is not like the other men in their class. One needs to say internship is busy, they also have night shifts in the hospital. A lot of work to do while studying and observing.


    The number of men and women in the medical faculty is now shifted, more women compared to men. Some said men tend to protect women. In medical school, that is a trash idiom.. Lots of these men sneak away on their night shift, sometimes their phone could not be reached and left the women to handle the task by themselves.


    He Zheng is one of the rare exceptions, and it was not exclusively toward Bai Yuren. It''s in his nature to be kind to women and take more of the guarding hour if he has a night shift with the opposite gender.


    This left a deep impression on Bai Yuren, thus she brought He Zheng''s name when her mother questioned her on that night. If only because He Zheng shows some deep gaze on his eyes toward her, Bai Yuren won''t even consider him at all.


    For the last three months, she still didn''t feel what she had toward He Zheng could be said as love. But she enjoyed their conversation, she enjoyed his companion, and when the day was bad, she sometimes had the urge to chat or hear He Zheng''s voice.


    He Zheng took something from his bag and stood once more, "Hello, my name is He Zheng. Happy birthday, Mrs. Lu Hua. Here is my gift for you. I''m sorry if I didn''t prepare the gift well."


    "Ah Zheng, you don''t have to. This is so kind of you. Come, come.. Eat." Lu Hua smiled and said.


    Bai Yutang waiting, why his cheap sister didn''t introduce him. When his mother talked about his life resume again, he smiled and cut his mother''s conversation with Yang Liu.


    "Hello, He Zheng. I''m Bai Yutang, RenRen''s brother. Where are you from?"


    Their seat position is the furthest. Bai Yuren, Lu Hua, and Bai Yutang are on the one side, while the other had He Zheng, Yang Liu, and Zheng Nian.


    He Zheng answered, Bai Yutang asked again. But don''t need to explain that it''s really difficult to conduct conversation this way.


    This time, it''s Lu Hua''s turn to cut Bai Yutang, "Don''t scream in my ear. Better you talk to Zheng Nian." Then she whispered, "Don''t make her feel uncomfortable.."


    Bai Yutang now often talks with clients and vendors, and his nature is also not the one who is too timid to talk to new people. So he forced a smile and talked about trivial things to Yang Liu and her daughter.


    Luckily Bai Yuren dragged her mother and Yang Liu to talk to her and He Zheng. Lu Hua already knew He Zheng, Bai Yuren took him to their house several times under Lu Hua''s invitation to eat lunch together.


    With mother''s attention dragged away, Bai Yutang and Zheng Nian eat their dinner in silence, and only speak again when their mother remembers their hidden mission and urges them to speak again.


    One hour later after they ate the sweet snow fungus soup, Lu Hua said, "I heard Zheng Nian needs to buy a new rice cooker for her apartment. Why don''t you accompany her for a while, TangTang? You like to cook so you must know which brand is the best."


    Bai Yutang''s face is very stiff. He wants to reject, but he also can''t humiliate his mother. So finally both of them stand up and walk to the supermarket downstairs. While walking, both of them are very silent, until they arrive in the supermarket.


    After Bai Yutang gave his opinion for the rice cooker brand and size, which suits two girls who rent the apartment together, they pay. There''s short queue in the cashier, Bai Yutang took this opportunity to speak.


    "I''m sorry to make you uncomfortable, Ms. Zheng."


    Zheng Nian smiled shyly, "It''s okay. I know you''re not interested in me. Pardon my mother, she''s just too excited and worried about me being single."


    "I already have a lover." Bai Yutang said. "It''s just my mother doesn''t agree with me being with my lover."


    Zheng Nian looked at him with pity, and she didn''t probe further. "Good luck, hope auntie will bless you and your girlfriend soon."


    Bai Yutang didn''t correct Zheng Nian''s words and just smiled. While Zheng Nian paid, he texted his lover, telling that he just finished the dinner and will go home after this. Bai Yutang reflexively took the rice cooker, carried it for Zheng Nian and went back to the restaurant.


    The four people left there already finished their drinks and talked to each other. Bai Yutang excuses himself to settle the payment then they prepare to go home.


    He Zheng said his goodbye. He will ride the bus again to go home. Bai Yutang wants to interrogate his sister later on. What kind of ordinary friend who came to the mother''s birthday? Definitely more than friends. But he has a good impression of this man.


    "TangTang, we''ll send Mrs. Yang Liu and Zheng Nian first to their house." Lu Hua said.


    "Okay, mom." Bai Yutang said.


    Lu Hua and Yang Liu told Zheng Nian to sit in the front. Both Zheng Nian and Bai Yutang were truly good children who didn''t refute their parent''s words.


    Bai Yuren needs to admit, if there''s no Jian Kang Lu, maybe both of them could make a good couple.


    The next day, Bai Yutang prepared to come back to B city again. Last night was still his mother''s birthday celebration, so he didn''t say anything. But he couldn''t sleep last night, and he also didn''t tell his lover about what happened.


    His heart is heavy, and he knows his mother won''t give up if he doesn''t confirm his position. So after lunch, before he calls for the taxi to bring him to the airport, he speaks with his mother.


    "Mom.. I love you, and I know you mean well. It''s just that I''m not interested in women. So please don''t do things like yesterday again."


    Lu Hua sat in the living room watching television. She didn''t divert her eyes from it. "How do you know if you never try. You just blinded by that devil. He always guards you tight, it is only because you never try and never see the world outside thus making you think that way."


    Bai Yutang put his elbow on his knee, his palm supporting his forehead while he lowered down his head. "No mom. I have always been interested in men, even before I met gege. I''m lucky I finally found a man who wants to love me back." He lied.


    "What do you mean by that?" Lu Hua turns her head, her eyes still stubbornly believing that his son is a normal guy who is led astray by the devil.


    "I never could be interested in girls no matter how I try, mom. Since high school, I have only liked men. So even though I force myself to have a girlfriend, it won''t be fair to her since I can''t like them at all," Bai Yutang decides to lie. He thinks this is the best way to cut her mother''s hope for him to have a wife in the future.


    Lu Hua cried again. She didn''t want to hear this kind of conversation. She''s so happy last night to see her son walk together with Zheng Nian. She already imagined the wedding, and Zheng Nian gave her a bunch of cute grandchildren.


    A loving family, a normal family.


    "Why can''t you try again? For me?" She took the tissue to wipe her tears.


    "I''m sorry mom.. I could try but then i can''t be happy, and the girl definitely can''t be happy too. Don''t you pity her? I could only lie to her and rob her future, give her a fake marriage and fake life? Zheng Nian is a good girl. Do you want her to suffer in that kind of life? I definitely can''t give her children like she deserved also."


    Lu Hua''s tears fell again. Her hope shattered in less than 24 hours.


    Bai Yutang walks to his mother and hugs her tight. Her mother is skinny now. His heart ached to know he gave his mother suffering instead of happiness. Just like every child in this world, he also wants to give his parents the happiness and the peace of mind in their further life.


    "I''m sorry mom, I''m really sorry." He rubs his mother''s back. "I''m sorry, but this is who I am, and I can''t change it. This is not your fault, not everyone''s fault. This is not my fault either. I was born this way. I''m sorry I can''t be the son you want me to be, but I beg you to see that I''m happy with my choice.."


    Lu Hua answered with her choking voice. Her tears could not stop. They stay in silence, hugging each other.


    Bai Yutang was still comforting his mother when he saw the clock. It''s almost 2 o''clock, he needs to go now or else he will miss the flight.


    "I need to go, mom.. Don''t cry, okay? I''ll visit you again next month."


    Lu Hua still had some tears lingering in the corner of her eyes when she saw her son call a taxi and took his luggage upstairs. She still has the moist on her eyelashes with red face and puffy eyes when she waves goodbye to her son.


    She slowly closes the gate and walks back to her empty house. Her skinny hands open the door and then close it. She laid her back on the door, facing the desolate living room. Her eyes are empty. She steeling her heart to face another day in loneliness.

 Chapter 218 - 7 Year Itch?

    Bai Yutang felt this year was an unlucky year for him. Things didn''t go smoothly for him this year. Starting from his mother denying his lover, the pile of work in his new job, and also his lover being so busy this year.


    Is this the famous 7 year itch1? But he and his lover are not yet 7 year.


    They rarely go out for dinner, one month passes without them watching movies in the cinema at all. It''s true that they rarely date, but now it''s almost like they never date anymore.


    Jian Kang Lu was so busy until he always spent his Saturday outside. He meets his residents to talk about their research, he meets his assistants to help him write the journal and collect the data, he also meets Prof Lin to speak about his next steps.


    Jian Kang Lu also now often speaks in conferences, going to association meetings, and many more.


    Bai Yutang knows his lover strives to get his professor title, he tries to understand that.. Bai Yutang also knows that despite his lover''s busy schedule, he still has spare time for him to visit Lu Hua together once a month.


    Bai Yutang is really grateful for that, but he can''t help but feel their relationship drifting away.


    Moreover, when he realizes in the past three month, it''s always him who initiates their bed exercise.


    Previously it was always his lover who stared at him hungrily, pounced on him and tossed him around like a hungry wolf. But then his lover is always busy with his phone, his tablet, his laptop. If not because Bai Yutang kisses and seduces him, the closest skin-ship between them is just his lover putting his hand around Bai Yutang''s shoulder while reading.


    And what makes Bai Yutang''s heart ache right now, he tries to hold himself, wanting to see how long his lover could spend his days without them making love, the result is that in these three weeks, they never make love at all.


    The last time they make love is one week before Bai Yuren''s graduation in July. It''s already August now.


    This is Friday night. Bai Yutang stares at the cold dinner in front of him. His lover said he will reach home at 9 as usual. Now it is already 9.30 and his lover still has not reached home yet.


    This happened more than once.


    Bai Yutang knows, he really knows, that Jian Kang Lu''s love for him is still the same. He also knows that he is still the only one for Jian Kang Lu.


    But.. He couldn''t help but feel inferior when he saw Jian Kang Lu speaking in an alien language with his residents and his assistants. He couldn''t understand what they were talking about, he also couldn''t help Jian Kang Lu with anything.


    The things they could speak together now are getting less and less.


    Jian Kang Lu''s assistants are really smart and much more superior compared to him in all aspects. Jian Kang Lu hired two fresh graduate T university students to help him. Both of them are one year younger than Bai Yutang.


    One is a pretty girl with long smooth black hair. She fluently speaks and writes in English, her grades are also superior.


    The other one is one tall handsome boy with round glasses, he''s very good with research and statistics.


    Bai Yutang can''t help but be jealous of both of them. He met them three times, when they came to the apartment on Sunday evening to finalise some of Jian Kang Lu''s research. That time Jian Kang Lu wanted to submit his two finished research to international journals.


    In those three times, Bai Yutang offers them to have dinner together, but both of them politely reject his offer.


    Bai Yutang''s low self esteem resulted with many dark creepy thoughts born in his mind, planted in his heart.


    ''Does gege get bored with me?''


    ''Am I not attractive anymore for him?''


    ''Is he tired of my mother''s attitude toward him?''


    Lu Hua boldly stated she will not be polite to Jian Kang Lu if he comes to Bai Yuren''s graduation. His mother stubbornly refused even when Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren pleaded to her. This resulted in Jian Kang Lu just waiting for him in the hotel like usual.


    Bai Yutang didn''t cry, but his heart went cold along with the dishes in front of him.


    He sighed, and finally reached his phone.


    "Gege, where are you?" Bai Yutang asked when the call connected.


    "TangTang, sorry, forgot to call you. I just finished and will go home now. Eat your dinner first, don''t wait for me. I''m sorry."


    "Okay. Drive safely, gege.."


    Bai Yutang hung up and sighed again. He didn''t eat, but prepared to reheat the food, for his lover to have a warm dinner when he got home later on.


    They had a very late dinner that night. And as usual, their night was like how they spent the last 7 months. Bai Yutang laid beside Jian Kang Lu, while Jian Kang Lu was still busy reading and revising something in his tablet.


    "Gege.. Let''s sleep.." Bai Yutang hugged his lover''s waist.


    His lover used to get horny easily if Bai Yutang put his hand on his waist and rubbed it lightly. Bai Yutang is disappointed when his lover only hums lightly and scratches his head, indicating he is still reading.


    Bai Yutang can''t sleep, he turns around and reaches for his handphone, searching for design''s inspirations. The project he handled is almost finished, and now they have a new project. For this project, their project manager and Gu Jianyu emphasise on green design, environmental friendly.


    Bai Yutang felt sleepy after searching and browsing. He looked at the clock, it''s almost midnight. He sighed, put down his phone, and closed his eyes.


    The next day, he woke up at 6 as usual. Today is Saturday. He didn''t need to go to the office, but his lover later as usual will go outside.


    Bai Yutang opens the curtain, looking at the park and buildings outside their apartment. The pale blue sky above, the faded green lush under. Summer is still hot, but mornings in summer have their own charm.


    He walked outside the room, and didn''t have any spirit to cook. He stares at the cold kitchen, then closes his eyes.


    He was a man, not a woman. Why does he need to be over sensitive?


    His lover will not keep accompanying him to W city if he doesn''t love him. His lover also won''t introduce him to his family if he doesn''t commit to him.


    Bai Yutang knows Jian Kang Lu''s personality is not the one who only says good things at the front and stabbing on the back.


    So what if his lover didn''t initiate sex for months? Bai Yutang is younger, he could be the one who seduces him.


    If his lover finds him not to be attractive anymore, then he will try to polish his appearance and personality to shine even more.


    Bai Yutang is always afraid he will get rejection from people around him, most of all, he was afraid to be rejected by his lover, the one who never rejected him at all.


    But for Jian Kang Lu, even though someday he got rejected, he was willing to try again and again.


    If this man''s love for him faded, he could always try to make this man fall in love again with him. Just like Jian Kang Lu said he fell in love with him at the first sight.


    He is a man. Why does he need to be the passive one?


    Bai Yutang turned around, walking back to the bedroom. He goes to the bathroom, and brushes his teeth. He looks at the shower, thinking whether he should just wash his face or take a bath.


    Finally he took a short bath, carefully cleaning every cranny and nook of his body. He dried himself, and carefully walked to the bedroom.


    Naked.


    Bai Yutang climbed to the bed, walked with his knee on the bed, and knelt on both sides of his sleeping lover. He pressed his palm on both sides of his lover, then kissed the sleeping beauty under him.


    He carefully licked and savoured the sleeping beauty lips, then smiled to see his lover frown. Bai Yutang swept his wet tongue, carrying the fresh mint breath of him toward Jian Kang Lu''s sexy neckline, moved down to the collarbone.


    His lover was wearing a thin T-shirt. Bai Yutang, in the middle of sliding the T-shirt up, wants to search for the two buds on his lover''s chest when Jian Kang Lu awakens.


    "TangTang?" Jian Kang Lu''s voice is slightly hoarse in the morning. The deep low tone was ringing near Bai Yutang''s ear, burning him back with desire. Clearly he was the one who tried to seduce his lover, but why with a single call from his lover, he was the one who seduced?


    Bai Yutang answered by continuing to slide the T-shirt up and slowly put his tip of velvety tongue on the small buds on that sturdy chest. He teases the left nipple with a light touch, just like a dragonfly swipe along the water. Softly.. Slowly.. Circling the small round nub, before it gets wet from his saliva.


    Jian Kang Lu awakened and looked at his kitten savouring his nipple like he enjoyed the most tasty snack in the world, and he could feel his kitten''s other hand rubbing his waist slowly. His kitten clearly knows his waist is his sensitive spot.


    Honestly, Jian Kang Lu felt like he was in the middle of a beautiful dream, since his blurry eyes focused and then saw his kitten seemed to be naked on top of him.


    His kitten raised his eyes to look at him while his naughty tongue was still dancing there. Playing with the bud, teasing him like a naughty kitten asked to be punished.


    "Gege.. I''ve been waiting for you to wake up.." Bai Yutang tongue sliding up, press the bud with that agile wet tongue. His face carried temptation, his pleasant voice and the dullness of desire.


    "I want you.. I want you so badly, gege.."

 Chapter 219 - Burn With Me (NSFW)

    First thing that invaded Jian Kang Lu''s mind was a surge of pleasure. His kitten flexible tongue slowly changed to the other side and licked it lightly, then the pressure increased with a moist sensation.


    The visual effect and sensory stimulation are too strong. His kitten was half bowing on top of him. His face was red due to the blood flow coming to his face in a lower position, while his naked butt swaying in the background.


    "Am I dreaming?" Jian Kang Lu''s voice was still coarse, with sleepiness not yet fully dispersed. His hand raised and rubbed his kitten''s head, lovingly stroking the soft strand of hair.


    Bai Yutang didn''t answer and kept licking the broad chest, down to his lover''s abs.


    Due to Jian Kang Lu''s busy schedule, he didn''t exercise often. He lost his distinct abs and those beautiful mermaid lines. But his overall body is still much in better shape compared to Bai Yutang''s thin and slender waist..


    Bai Yutang licks, sucks, and swipes his tongue along Jian Kang Lu''s sensitive spot, the side of his waist. Bai Yutang knew he was the one who seduced his lover, but to feel the tight and smooth skin of his lover, he was aroused.


    Bai Yutang trails down, leaving a string of wet and hot traces along Jian Kang Lu''s body. His hand pulled Jian Kang Lu''s pants down, and put the half soft rod of his lover to his own mouth.


    Jian Kang Lu closed his eyes again, his breathing going faster and faster along with Bai Yutang movement down there.


    Bai Yutang used the opportunity when his lover''s shaft still not fully awakened to put it all in his mouth. His tongue swirls around the tip, then trails from the base to the tip. Massage the erection, awakened it.


    When he felt the things in his mouth hardened and growing inside his warm mouth, he sucked and lingered fiercely. His throat tightened, there''s a thirst inside him waiting to be quenched.


    Jian Kang Lu''s chest fluctuated sharply, his eyes slightly opened when the blood flow rushed along with his fastened heartbeat to the centre of his abdomen, going down to the place where he felt hot inside his kitten''s wet mouth.


    "It''s so good, baby.." Jian Kang Lu sighed with satisfaction. He really enjoyed this morning service. In this state, Jian Kang Lu didn''t have time to sober up. His rationality is not awakened, only the beast inside who lazily accepts the pleasure provided.


    Bai Yutang served Jian Kang Lu wholeheartedly. He loved Jian Kang Lu so much, and he adored his lover from head to toe. He massaged the shaft with his tongue, curling it around, his lips kissing it tenderly, as if he was tasting the most delicious thing in the world.


    Time to time, while he licks the two balls under the fully hardened erection of his lover, his eyes will raise to see Jian Kang Lu''s face.


    It was satisfying to know this man still lusted for him.


    Few minutes passed with the slurping sound as the only sound could be heard. Jian Kang Lu''s erection all wet from Bai Yutang''s body fluid.


    "You''re so good, baby.. So hot.." Jian Kang Lu can''t hold it anymore. He grab his kitten''s head and fuck that naughty mouth faster.


    "Mmmmffhh.."


    Bai Yutang muffled when he felt the sudden rough movement, and prepared himself for the surge of liquid he knew would come soon. After the hot spurt flowed into his throat, he tried his best to swallow it all, and lick his lover''s erection cleanly.


    "Agh.. Fuck.. You''re so good, baby. Kiss me.." Jian Kang Lu''e heart beat frantically after the shot. He cum so fast. Rarely he can''t control himself like this, to shoot under 10 minutes.


    Bai Yutang moved, feeling his body half dragged upward by Jian Kang Lu. He still laid on top of Jian Kang Lu when his lover carefully observed his own expression. Jian Kang Lu then raised his head up, kissed the red swollen lips who was just working hard for his pleasure.


    The kiss obviously enjoyed by these two men, Bai Yutang''s eyes soon half open with moist layered on his black orbs. The layer of faded red on his cheeks spread along with Jian Kang Lu''s tongue wrapping and probing to his mouth. Greedily savour the soft lips and the agile tongue inside.


    Push and pull dance performed by the two agile pink muscles inside their mouth. Both of them panting hard. Their temperature soaring high, their body was so sensitive with each caress.


    Jian Kang Lu''s hand already traveled all around his kitten''s body, until he kneaded the two round butt with not so gentle movement. He spread the two cheeks and probed the lusty hole in the middle.


    Jian Kang Lu wants to pin his naughty kitten down, change their position. But then suddenly Bai Yutang abruptly pulled himself from their rough kiss.


    "No, gege.. I said, i want you. Since you seem never interested in making love with me again, then I will be the one who makes love with you. You''re not allowed to get up."


    Jian Kang Lu''s mind is still foggy, his brain can''t think straight. He was still confused when Bai Yutang pulled something and then..


    Bai Yutang quickly tied Jian Kang Lu''s wrist with the tie. This is the dark red tie he rarely wears. The price is not expensive, so even though his lover is angry with his movement and will snap this tie, it''s okay.


    Jian Kang Lu''s bewildered. Bondage always in his sex wish list to do with his kitten. But why does his kitten do this to him first? He can''t even say anything because his brain still in the middle of processing this absurd morning sex.


    Is this truly a dream?


    "Don''t worry, gege.. I won''t fuck you.. I still let you fuck me. But you''re not allowed to do anything without my permission. And now, I want you to lay down like this. Don''t get up." Bai Yutang tried really hard to make his voice as sexy as possible.


    If only he knew, his innocent face and his clumsy shyness contrast with his lewd dirty talk. It was a deadly combination that aroused Jian Kang Lu to the max.


    The beast inside Jian Kang Lu already roars and jumps, trampling the green grass around, like a rabies infected animal. The dark thoughts creep inside Jian Kang Lu.


    Bai Yutang squeezed the lubricant, and then he turned around. Show his butt to Jian Kang Lu, while he buried his head in between Jian Kang Lu''s knees. He put his wet finger to his own hole, slowly stretching himself.


    They haven''t done it in three weeks. He needs to stretch himself properly if he doesn''t want to hurt himself.


    Jian Kang Lu''s eyes instantly darkened to see the lewd picture in front of him. Imagine seeing high quality porn in front of you. Live. Starred by your own sweetheart.


    "Baby, come here. Let me lick you." Jian Kang Lu can''t restrain himself. He wanted to get up, his hand was tied but still naughtily wandering to his kitten''s erection and stroking it with his tied two hands.


    Bai Yutang didn''t answer. He only gave his soft moan as a response to Jian Kang Lu''s words. He already inserted his two fingers, and it seems he can''t stretch himself properly. His body is not flexible enough.


    His front was stroked and rubbed by his lover.. It was very comfortable. Bai Yutang bite Jian Kang Lu''s thighs lightly before sucking it. I felt so good.. It''s been too long since their last love making.


    Bai Yutang sucked and licked and sucked the thin skin on the inside of Jian Kang Lu''s thighs before he finally let go. He was satisfied to see that white skin tainted with red colour and his teeth mark.


    Bai Yutang propped himself up and turned around again. He poured another amount of cold lubricant to Jian Kang Lu''s erection, and massaged it to get it fully erected again.


    "Baby.." Jian Kang Lu is full of expectation. His voice was two tones lower, heavier.


    Looking at the intoxicated face of Jian Kang Lu, raised Bai Yutang''s indescribable satisfaction. He propped himself and put the erection of Jian Kang Lu toward his own wet cave. Bai Yutang tries to relax himself, and let the cave swallow Jian Kang Lu''s erection.


    It hurts..


    Bai Yutang frowned, and grit his teeth. He took a deep breath and tried to let himself adapt with his lover''s thickness again. Even though the stretching muscles need time to adapt, he himself remembers the pleasure from the full feeling of his lover''s erection filling his cave.


    With that, he slowly moved down again, bit by bit. When he felt his lover''s tip was already there, he put his two hands on Jian kang Lu''s abdomen. He then looked at Jian Kang Lu''s face.


    Both of them stare at each other. Their chest simultaneously moved up and down, along with the surge of lust wave. The tied hand of Jian Kang Lu slowly moved to stroke Bai Yutang''s erection softly. As if to encourage Bai Yutang.


    When the initial pain slowly disappeared, Bai Yutang brought his body down again, slowly, to swallow the hard shaft until there''s nothing left. All the way down. He bit his lower lips to ease himself from these two different sensations.


    The burning pain from behind, along with the full stuffed feeling, and the feathery loving stroke in the front, along with the softness and electrical beat.


    Bai Yutang could feel the wave of pleasure spread to his spine, to the tip of his shaft, which had been struck by Jian Kang Lu''s tied hand. Jian Kang Lu''s fingertips are slightly cold, but the touch is hot as fire.


    The hands moved to his naked chest, pinched his buds a little, rubbed it with appropriate force, and brought an unbearable feeling of crispness with those slender fingers.


    Bai Yutang breathed out when he finally sat down on top of Jian Kang Lu. The weight of him brings him fully connected with his lover. He moved his hips a bit and felt the current wave of familiar pleasure hit him softly.


    "Ngh.." Bai Yutang can''t help but let his soft moan escape from between his teeth and his lower lips. He tried to move again, slowly raised his butt, and slowly swallowed the hot shaft which burned his cave again, and again, and again.. Until the familiar pleasure comes, hit him softly. Raise him, fly him to the cloud.


    Burn his whole body with familiar lust.


    "Do you.. Ngh.. Feel good, gege?" Bai Yutang bowed down to whisper those broken sentences. His hips are still moving up and down, sometimes with the naughty circling movement like riding a stallion in the wide field.


    Jian Kang Lu bite his naughty kitten lips and circling his hand around his kitten''s nipple. He really wanted to break this tie and tied his kitten back. He put his hand up and encircled his naughty kitten''s back. Hug this naughty kitten tight, let both of their hearts beat to each other.


    It doesn''t matter whether his kitten tied his hand or not, he needs to punish this naughty kitten. Jian Kang Lu moved his hips to punish this naughty one with fierce thrust. His kitten could tease him all he wanted, he definitely paid his kitten back with rough thrust. Faster.. Again and again.


    Bai Yutang''s moan broke with those rough movements. While panting, he smiled and his heart filled with surging of pleasure and happiness. His whole body felt hot from the heat of both their sexual encounters.


    The numb feeling climbing from his tail bone through his spine, up to his brain, fried it with surging ecstasy. Like waves in the stormy sea, drowning him in desire. His mind was floating in the sea of desire.


    ''I want you.. I want you to burn together with me, gege..''

 Chapter 220 - Morning Exercise (NSFW)

    The speed of thrusting movement from his lover is fast and steady, it makes Bai Yutang''s breath scattered around due to the impact of two flesh connected.


    "Wait.. Gege, release me.. Don''t make me come too soon, akh.. Stop, slow down.. Gege.. Please.."


    Bai Yutang tried to release himself from the cage which trapped him tight. He tied his lover''s hand to restrain his lover''s movement, why did it still backfired on him?


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t answer, but hearing his kitten cries, he finally let his kitten go.


    Bai Yutang stops his movement, and just sits on top of Jian Kang Lu, adjusting his breath. He changed his position a little bit to ease his movement. Kneeling on top of his lover while moving up and down is hard labour.


    Bai Yutang leaned back, supporting himself with his two arms while his legs retracted so the body was supported by his four palms. It was like bringing his honey cave floating in the air, only using Jian Kang Lu''s erection as a pole to tie his body.


    Jian Kang Lu''s eyes darkened to see this wanton position. He could clearly see all of his kitten''s private parts, opened in front of him. When his kitten moved again, his eyes feasted with the view of his kitten''s honey cave slowly moving up and then down again to swallow his hot shaft.


    His kitten''s shaft, standing straight, swayed a little bit according to Bai Yutang''s movement. Jian Kang Lu could see all. From his kitten''s lusty face, his kitten''s misty eyes, his kitten''s red gasping lips, the sexy collarbone, the protruding pink buds which are already standing straight due to his hard work kneading over there, and also his kitten''s whole private part.


    His kitten moves and moans along with the movement, making Jian Kang Lu''s heart itched with love and burning lust.


    Jian Kang Lu couldn''t help breathing when he moved his hips to heightened the impact of their love making. He knows his kitten wants to enjoy their time, but it is really testing his patience.


    "Move faster, baby.."


    Bai Yutang only replied with a seductive circling movement and tightened his hole, massaging Jian Kang Lu''s erection inside him. Jian Kang Lu could only groan from the pleasure.


    Jian Kang Lu endured for a long time, and his lower abdomen was already hot as if it was about to explode. The damp and hot place inside his kitten tightly wrapped himself, making him clearly feel that this man who seduced him so hard, truly belonged to him. The feeling of being loved while making love, it was several times better than ordinary sex.


    Bai Yutang''s lips quivered a few times, his temple already damp from the sweat. Actually this could be counted as exercise, right? He trained his whole body this way. From his arm, his back, his buttock, his abdomen, his thighs, even his calf.


    Bai Yutang could feel Jian Kang Lu''s erection getting hotter and hotter, and the pulse belonged to Jian Kang Lu buried in his body. Each time Bai Yutang grinds his sensitive spot toward Jian Kang Lu''s tip, make his body soft and wants to surrender.


    Only his stubbornness, who strives to seduce his lover back, who makes him keep moving. Swaying his erection in front of his lover who stare at him hungrily.


    How he missed that look plastered on his lover''s face. A face who wants to swallow him whole. It made him blush and his heart beat faster and faster.


    In Jian Kang Lu''s eyes, his kitten''s glistening skin and a few beautiful strands of hair stuck to his kitten''s sweaty forehead was very beautiful.


    A drop of sweat flowed down from Bai Yutang''s temples to his chin, then dropped to his collarbone. Jian Kang Lu licked his own lips, quickly found that his throat was dry and thirsty.


    His tied hands sometimes tease his kitten''s erection who is already spreading his pre cum everywhere on their body. Circled down, rubbing the slit opening on the top with the softest touch. It keeps sending electric sparks to Bai Yutang''s body, spreading to his limb, he can''t help but curl his toes due to this sensation.


    Jian Kang Lu''s hips keep moving forward unswervingly until their body always connects deeply again and again, as if he wants to stab the person on top of him.


    Bai Yutang tried his best to adjust his movement, preventing him from cumming. He wants to enjoy this precious time longer. But when Jian Kang Lu''s tip rubbed his prostate gland, the electric sparks shot through, the pleasure spread all over the body again and again, triggering his broken moans even more.


    Like a melodious incubus song.


    "Gege.. Akh, stop.. Don''t.." Bai Yutang really stops and tries to endure, he clamps his lover''s erection, satisfied to hear Jian Kang Lu groan and break his steady movement.


    "Don''t grind me, gege.. I really almost cum, let me be the one who moved."


    The words were clearly begging, but in Jian Kang Lu''s eyes, that innocent face begging him is contrasting with the pulsating contraction deliberately done by his kitten''s naughty hole to tease his erection. Squeeze it tight.


    "Fuck!" Jian Kang Lu can''t hold it anymore. He uses his teeth to free his tied hand and straighten his body up. He hugs his kitten, traps this naughty boy in his arms, kisses the wanton lips roughly, ignoring his kitten''s surprised wail.


    Jian Kang Lu''s hips kept moving, and he then pinned his kitten down. Fiercely thrusting his own erection to that gland of his kitten.


    Bai Yutang could only scream out from this sudden burst of ecstasy.


    "Gege, slow.. Nghh.. Slow down.. Akh!"


    Jian Kang Lu pinned his kitten down for a bit before he slowed down his movement, and then straightened his back. His hands trapped Bai Yutang''s wrist on the bed, not letting this naughty kitten trailing his waist with his slender fingers.


    "Why are you so naughty this morning, TangTang? You need to be punished." Jian Kang Lu whispered.


    Jian Kang Lu''s movement was already slowing down, but didn''t reduce his fierce momentum. Bai Yutang unconsciously wrapped his legs around Jian Kang Lu''s waist.


    "I want to make love with you, but gege is so busy lately.." Bai Yutang''s voice was soft and low, a little bit hoarse.


    Jian Kang Lu instantly feels guilty, he seems to be neglecting his kitten lately. Jian Kang Lu kissed that lips tenderly.


    "I''m sorry, baby.. Thank you for being naughty today. I need to work hard then to make you forgive me." Jian Kang Lu roughly moved fast again while speaking.


    After some time when Bai Yutang finally could only say "Akh.." and "Gege..", Jian Kang Lu looked at Bai Yutang obsessively. That red cheeks, that gasping lips.. Jian Kang Lu knew he was making this person happy, which made him feel more satisfied rather than pure physical entanglement.


    Bai Yutang has endured it to the limit. His pre leaks keep coming out, his hole contracting again and again, as if wanted to squeeze all the liquid inside.


    Jian kang Lu was a little indulgent, he grabbed his kitten''s wrist then fiercely moved. It looked like he was riding a horse, and using Bai Yutang''s hand as the rein. Bai Yutang''s body kept pushing and pulled back again along the movement.


    Jian Kang Lu rapidly breathing from the vigorous body movement. He indulge in the pleasure of ecstasy and bone-eroding thrill. Their connected part never separate.


    Bai Yutang''s body was hit so hard that he felt he was suffocated in too strong of rapture sensation. Tearing his lower half apart from the bliss. With Jian Kang Lu''s action, the tip kept fiercely rubbing against his gland.


    In the midst of summer sun who rise and shine through their window, creating a soft golden light around their body. The crystal sweat sparkling to highlight the beautiful enraptured youth below.


    The sound of gasping and forceful impact lingering in their eardrums. Bai Yutang can''t even hear the sound of their bed creaking from his lover''s crazy movement. He could only hear his own frantic heart beat.


    The more and more intense pleasure hit, finally piled up to the peak. Jian Kang Lu''s waist suddenly turned up. Bai Yutang issued a single syllable with a change of tone. His whole body tightened and the tip of his erection shooting out the thick milky liquid. It splattered around from his chest to his chin, and some dropped to their bed.


    Jian Kang Lu licked the splattered liquid on Bai Yutang''s chest and chin carefully, looked at the trembling eyelashes and sweaty forehead, slowed down so his kitten could have a buffer time.


    After the strong sense of trembling, Bai Yutang found his lover was looking at him intensely. But because Jian Kang Lu is still moving, the picture keeps shaking. The erection ofJian Kang Lu is still hard and slowly rubs his sensitive meat wall.


    Jian Kang Lu noticed the body below him try to run away from him. How could he let it go? When the prey says he wants to be eaten cleanly and sends himself to his door, why does he need to restrain himself?


    Jian Kang Lu sped up again. Even though his breathing was also unstable, he still could afford to grind his kitten''s delicious hole.


    Bai Yutang could only gasp. His legs even powerlessly fell. Jian Kang Lu didn''t need to pin the naughty hands again, so he just grabbed his kitten''s ankle, raising his legs up to provide a better angle for his hungry erection, slamming the hole harder.


    Bai Yutang felt he was about to be shaken apart. Just now the sensation of his pleasure peak is too much for him to handle. It''s a hot pain in comfort, for him being too sensitive after shoot out yet still tortured.


    "Ge..Ge.. Ngh.. I.. Stop.. I can''t .. Ngh.."


    If both of them were looking at the clock in the bed table, they might still don''t realise that this whole grinding and thrusting already took more than 1 hour. No wonder Bai Yutang already feels pain from too much friction.


    "Gege.. Please.. Quick.."


    Bai Yutang can''t even open his eyes properly.


    "You''re so hot, baby.. So tight.. So handsome.. So good.." Jian Kang Lu''s naked chest was already filled with sweat, his back also wet from his energetic movement. He held Bai Yutang''s ankle tightly and moved his waist as if it was a fierce exercise.


    Bai Yutang''s voice was hoarse, his red face showed weakness. "Gege.. Gege.. Hurry.. Please.."


    It was only after he almost cried that Jian Kang Lu moved even fiercer and finally stopped moving, burying his erection so deep inside. Bai Yutang could feel hot liquid filling his hole, making him cramp. His whole lower half felt hot and wet. The thing buried moving again and again fiercely a few times, making sure all liquid squeezed out and filled the cave.


    Bai Yutang''s body subconsciously contracted and relieved when it felt the hard thing torturing him finally softened.


    Jian Kag Lu lying on top of his kitten, his beautiful and slender neck raised back, his lips breathing hard. Like a jade carving body, it was full of sweat and the bright eyes filled with thousand stars.


    "I love you, TangTang.."


    Jian Kang Lu is not willing to go out. The warm cave and the hot meat wall was too comfortable. He lowered his body down and held his kitten tight, stretched his hand to caress his kitten''s scattered hair.


    "I love you so much.."


    Both of them slowing their raspy breath and uttering the loving words while both their chest sending the beat of love towards the other. The enamored feeling of two lovers, the caressing of tender emotion swirling around the two bodies.

 Chapter 221 - Terminal Lucidity

    It''s already 10 o''clock when Jian Kang Lu finally heard the rustling sound from the bedroom. He walked to the bedroom and saw his kitten sit on the bed, rubbing his eyes. Jian Kang Lu approaches his kitten, handing over a cup of warm water.


    "Baby, drink first."


    Bai Yutang obediently took the cup and drank the water. He then raises his hand. Asking for a hug coquettishly.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled and gave his kitten a warm hug. "Do you want to take a bath again?"


    Bai Yutang nods. After Jian Kang Lu cleaned his kitten and dried him well, he took his kitten to the dining table and fed his kitten personally. He didn''t even let his kitten hold the spoon or pour his water into the glass..


    Bai Yutang feels this Saturday is the best Saturday he had this year. It''s been so long since Jian Kang Lu pampered him like a 5 year toddler. He thought he hated how Jian Kang Lu treated him like that, but turns out he got used to it and now even longed to be pampered.


    After Bai Yutang finished his chicken and egg porridge, Jian Kang Lu only gave him a smile and looked at his kitten, waiting for his kitten to finish drinking his water. Then he said, "Baby, if you don''t have anything to do today, why don''t you accompany me to the hospital? I need to meet my residents. I''m afraid you''ll get bored, but I''ll be very happy if you accompany me."


    Bai Yutang nods.


    Jian Kang Lu''s heart ached to let his kitten spend another boring Saturday with him. Previously he rarely asks since his kitten will wait for 6 to 8 hours. Jian Kang Lu knows how boring it is to wait for someone that long.


    Jian Kang Lu reaches for his kitten''s slender hand and kisses it. "I''m sorry, baby.. I know I have been neglecting you lately. Please bear with me. You know I''ll take my doctoral program next year, that''s why i need to fulfil all research requirements this year for i''m not sure i''ll have enough time once i start later on."


    Bai Yutang is actually a little bit embarrassed to act like a kid, asking for affection and attention. But he truly can''t manage to guard from his dark negative thoughts rooting in his brain if both of them keep interacting in this way.


    He softly said, "I know, gege.. But I missed you too. Even though I just wait for you in the cafe, it''s okay. At least I can see you, gege.. I actually want to go with you every weekend, but I''m afraid I''ll disturb you."


    Then his voice got smaller, "I''m afraid you''ll think I''m clingy.."


    Jian Kang Lu hugged his kitten tight. "I like you to be clingy. I love you to be clingy. It was me who was afraid to ask you to accompany me, afraid you''ll get bored with me, tired with me.."


    Most people and relationship experts will oppose you for being clingy with your partner. Healthy relationship is said to be a relationship where two individuals have their own space. No one will advise you to live for your partner only. Humans need to interact with friends and relatives beside their partner.


    One of the literature talking about this is To Room Nineteen by Doris Lessing, a Nobel winner in literature.


    In this short story, Lessing writes about a woman who marries her husband in their late twenties and raises four children. When the youngest child goes off to school, the woman who grows old and quits her job to be a mother, does not experience the sense of freedom that she expected. She feels simultaneously as if she has nothing to do worth doing and never has a spare moment to herself. Her day is taken up in waiting for the children to come home, consulting with the maid or worrying about dinner. She becomes anxious and distant, pulling away from her husband, who begins to have affairs.


    Finally, in order to get some time alone, she rents a hotel room every afternoon where she just sits and thinks. Her husband assumes she is having an affair and tracks her down.


    The story itself is often dissected and talked about in the literature class. Is it talking about someone''s freedom? Is it talking about human''s struggle of maintaining their happy image for other people to see? Is it talking about depression?


    What Jian Kang Lu caught in this story was everyone needed a room to breathe. This is what the woman in this story doing in the room she rent. She just need a room to be herself, without tied to her partner all the time. Freedom.


    But Jian Kang Lu forgot, every individual is unique. Every relationship is different. Same person in a different time could even be seen as two different personalities.


    Things that his kitten needs right now is not freedom or room to breathe, but to be together with him. Honestly, this is the biggest flattery for him. Even though people will say that two of them only live in their own world, it doesn''t matter. What works to other people doesn''t always work for another.


    Bai Yutang confirmed with Jian Kang Lu. His soft voice whispered like a mosquito, "I''m the one who is afraid you''ll get tired of me if I keep following you, gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu kissed his kitten''s forehead, "How come this old man got tired of seeing his handsome young boyfriend''s face?"


    Bai Yutang smiled, "Then don''t get tired with me when I grow old."


    Jian Kang Lu caresses his kitten''s soft cheek, "Do i need to remind you, no matter how old you become, I''ll always be 15 years ahead of you?"


    Jian Kang Lu then brought his kitten hand to touch his own tummy, "Can you feel this? As an old man, it''s very easy for me to lose my muscles. You keep feeding me delicious food, now I grow fat everywhere. Don''t throw me away when I turn into an old and fat uncle."


    Bai Yutang laughed. "Are you mocking me? Your abs are still better than mine. Don''t give me this tactic of lowering yourself to get flattery."


    Jian Kang Lu is still very very sour and angry to remember how Bai Yutang rumored to have a relationship with a bald, fat, old man. He is determined to get a hair transplant if someday he loses his hair. He won''t get bald, ever!


    When they were driving to the hospital, Jian Kang Lu asked, "Baby, do you want to take your master degree next year? Together with me. We could go to school together."


    Bai Yutang was surprised to hear that. Actually he also thought about that. As a master degree holder, he could apply for a better architect license and many more job opportunities opened. To become a project manager, for example, you need a master degree.


    The only thing hindering Bai Yutang to speak about it to Jian Kang Lu is, once again, money. To get a master''s degree means another 40,000 to 60,000 yuan per year. Master''s degree itself will take about two years.


    Bai Yutang actually could afford it, since he didn''t need to worry about Bai Yuren''s tuition anymore. He just needs to reduce his mother''s monthly allowance.


    "I''ll think about it, gege. That sounds great." He finally said after calculating the cost he might need.


    Both of them were smiling while looking at the streets ahead. It will be great to go to school together as students again.


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    In autumn, Lu Hua really wants to go to the fortune teller, asking why this year seems to clash with her birth horoscope.


    First, her son rebel by saying he''s a gay and refuse to leaving Jian Kang Lu. And that devil who kidnaps her son, actually being really shameless, keeps coming to her house once a month even though she gave him silent treatment and cold shoulder.


    And then, her father in law is sick.


    Bai Haoran''s father, Bai Yutang''s grandfather, is 76 year old this year. This actually the average life expectancy in this country. He rarely gets sick, and lives quietly.


    Because he rarely gets sick, everyone thought he only had a minor problem when he didn''t have an appetite. When he finally only stays in bed and doesn''t have energy to get up, Bai Yuren finally comes and checks her grandfather. She and Lu Hua bring him to the hospital, and it turns out he has pneumonia.


    Old people actually could have normal temperature when they have a severe infection. The symptoms are sometimes only lethargy and lack of appetite.


    His condition declined, affecting his kidney and liver due to the severe infection. He stayed in hospital for two weeks.


    After being released, Lu Hua forces him to stay with her in her house. She didn''t want her weak father in law to feel neglected in her parent''s house. After all, her own parents, who are also old, can''t take care of him well.


    Bai Yutang visited his grandfather twice that month. He even feels apologetic to Jian Kang Lu since they only celebrate Jian Kang Lu''s birthday in a very simple way, one short dinner in Il Mare.


    After three weeks staying in their house, Bai Yutang''s grandfather once again said he doesn''t have an appetite. One day Lu Hua called Bai Yutang and lamented that she almost had a heart attack when she got home and didn''t find him at home. Turns out he is going out to visit Bai Yutang''s grandmother''s tomb, and also Bai Haoran''s tomb.


    This incident led to Bai Yutang''s grandfather hospitalised again. This time, the pneumonia is so severe, it actually turns into sepsis. Sepsis happens when an infection triggers a chain reaction throughout the body.


    He lost consciousness while hospitalised and admitted to the ICU. Bai Yutang came back to W city and even took three days leave to wait for his grandfather in the hospital.


    One day suddenly Bai Yutang''s grandfather seems better and awakens. He is talking with his daughter in law and grandchildren, saying he wants to eat hairy crab if he is already released from hospital.


    Two days after saying that, on a windy cold day, at the border of season changing from golden leaves of autumn to icy wind of winter, Bai Yutang''s grandfather passed away.

 Chapter 222 - He Zheng

    He Zheng met the famous Jian Kang Lu before Bai Yutang''s paternal grandfather passed away. At that time, Bai Yutang was on duty guard while Lu Hua and Bai Yuren were going home. He Zheng called Bai Yuren, the call picked up by Bai Yutang. Turns out her mobile phone was left in the hospital.


    Bai Yutang knows that He Zheng is close to Bai Yuren, after contacting Bai Yuren through his mother''s phone, Bai Yuren told him that He Zheng could pick her phone and deliver it to their house.


    At this time, only a fool who still believes He Zheng is an ordinary friend.


    When He Zheng arrived at the hospital, he saw a man sitting next to Bai Yutang. When Bai Yutang stood up and the man following, He Zheng felt intimidated to see this tall man. He Zheng felt the man was familiar. After hearing his name, he realised this is the famous Jian Kang Lu, Bai Yutang''s boyfriend.


    Yes, He Zheng knows about Bai Yuren''s gay brother and his boyfriend.. How could he not, when Bai Yuren often lamented about the cold war between her mother and her brother.


    Well, he had to admit that Bai Yutang''s boyfriend is really handsome, and a famous nephrologist in B city. Even though He Zheng didn''t know him, Bai Yuren told that this man is working in B hospital in B city. Which doctor didn''t know about B hospital in B city?


    He Zheng was embarrassed when this man asking Bai Yutang, "Is this RenRen''s boyfriend?"


    He Zheng couldn''t answer, he could only lower his head and saw Bai Yutang pinch the tall man''s waist slightly and called in a low warning tone, "Gege.. Don''t bully him."


    How He Zheng wished he could answer that he was Bai Yuren''s boyfriend. But he couldn''t, because he was not Bai Yuren''s boyfriend.


    The tall man asks in a completely ignorant innocent tone, "Why do you say that I bully him? I''m just asking."


    He Zheng excuses himself under the pretence that this is already dark, and he wants to deliver the phone quickly to Bai Yuren.


    Bai Yutang smiled, "Be careful, safely drive."


    He Zheng rides his motorcycle and delivers the phone. Lu Hua, as usual, asks him to have dinner first before he goes home.


    He Zheng went home after dinner. At his small rented room, he laid his back on the bed and stared at the yellow ceiling.


    He likes Bai Yuren. He likes her so much. So so much, he couldn''t even describe how much he likes her.


    But.. He doesn''t have the courage to ask her to be his girlfriend. He was afraid Bai Yuren would say no to him. If that happens, he will lose their close ambiguous relationship.


    He Zheng didn''t prepare for it.


    He still remembers the first time he saw Bai Yuren. At that time, he didn''t have a deep impression of her. Just another girl in the class.


    But then they have anatomy class together. They were in the same group. The formalin''s scent is so strong it hurts their nose.


    It amused him when he heard Bai Yuren talking to the girl next to her, "Here, use this. My gege''s friend told me to put this in our mask." Then she turned her head to He Zheng, "Here, do you want also?"


    He Zheng shook his head, politely refused.


    Bai Yuren laughs and sprinkle some of the oil onto the new mask and gives it to him. "Do you know that your eyes are red? Looks like you just got bullied by us. Don''t cry and don''t be shy."


    He Zheng is a timid boy, he doesn''t talk much. He only knows how to study, just like most of the people in the medical faculty. Bai Yuren''s lively personality, who could be close to strangers, is a new experience for him.


    Soon, he saw this girl studying harder. Her grade is superior, better than him. In their second year, he heard that Bai Yuren is a scholarship student. No wonder, with that grade.


    But he was confused, because Bai Yuren didn''t look poor. Her appearance and her clothes showed that she came from a middle class family if not the upper class one.


    It is well known that medical faculty''s tuition is the most expensive among other faculties. Most students come from the middle class, or have doctor''s parents. Only a few of them come from low economic backgrounds, and all of them are scholarship students.


    Medical books are expensive, but Bai Yuren has them. How could she have it if she were poor? Usually they will study in the library, or copy the pirate ebook. Once when they were sitting close to each other, he heard Bai Yuren talking to her friends.


    "This is given to me by my gege''s friend. Here, he gives me important notes on which part is crucial for us to learn."


    Bai Yuren is generous enough to lend her book as long as they return it to her. She said she has the original e-book version in her tablet so it won''t affect her study.


    Sometimes their class has occasions where they go to eat together. Bai Yuren often said, "I don''t have money, I''ll go if someone treats me."


    It was rare for He Zheng to find a girl who was as brave as Bai Yuren. Most people will want to show their wealth, especially girls. But Bai Yuren wasn''t shy to show that she didn''t have money, she was confident with her study, and she always smiled brightly.


    He Zheng was curious, then found that Bai Yuren was indeed coming from a middle class family, but her father passed away right before they started their first year. It was not a secret that her living cost was covered by her brother, who is also still studying in in B city.


    He Zheng still remembers when his friend in the dorm laughed when he said, "It''s true! Bai Yuren herself says that her brother is working as part timer for an architect firm and as a housekeeper, cooking for his friend. I don''t believe it though. Which man wants to work as a housekeeper just for the sake of getting paid?"


    He Zheng didn''t comment on his friend''s words. But later when his parents passed away in a car accident, he thought of Bai Yuren''s brother.


    He Zheng will gladly work as a housekeeper if he could get money to live on. He himself has a younger brother who is still studying in junior high school. Both of them become orphans at the same time.


    For the first time, He Zheng tasted the cruelty of the real world. Their inheritance is not much. If they sell the house, his brother''s future university tuition is secured. But how about himself? How about his brother''s living cost before the house was sold?


    Luckily, He Zheng''s uncle was willing to provide his brother''s daily cost. He Zheng''s brother stayed with his uncle''s family while He Zheng asked his uncle to sell the house.


    Selling their childhood house with many memories inside was a hard decision for He Zheng and his brother. But they didn''t have any other choice. Selling a house is not like selling carrots in the market. It took almost two years until finally someone bought the house.


    He Zheng often talked with Bai Yuren about applying for a scholarship at that time. He would be lying if he said those times are easy for him to pass.


    He talks less and less. But Bai Yuren always brightly asks him whether he wants to join her studying in the library together. Bai Yuren took him to eat in a cheap cafeteria or the cheap restaurant on the back of their faculty.


    "Here. The fried rice here is tasty, a big portion, and only costs 10 yuan! Trust me, the uncle here is an angel!" With those sweet words, the uncle gave them extra fried eggs.


    He Zheng found he smoothly managed to pass the transition from a boy who didn''t need to think about food price to a man who counted every cent he had carefully. All because of Bai Yuren.


    In He Zheng''s eyes, Bai Yuren is the prettiest among all the girls he has ever met. The most dazzling creature captured in his retina.


    She was smart, she was kind, she was honest, and most of all, she never pitied him.


    Some of his friends didn''t agree with how he always followed Bai Yuren''s words, or in other terms, Bai Yuren''s order.


    "He Zheng, you''re a man! Why do you let Bai Yuren command you this way? She''s bullying you, man!"


    How could he explain that he was happy if he could do something for her? He could not treat Bai Yuren to a nice dinner. He could not give Bai Yuren things like other men do when he wants to pursue their woman. He could not give Bai Yuren promises that he will take care of her for the rest of her life.


    How could he? While he himself still couldn''t take care of himself and his brother?


    Bai Yuren''s request, or in other word, Bai Yuren''s order, gave him a strong sense that he could also do things for her. Getting closer to her. Showing her that a man named He Zheng is willing to do anything for her.


    He Zheng once told himself that when they graduate, he will confess to Bai Yuren.


    But then.. Bai Yuren invited him to have lunch at her house.


    "He Zheng, my mom told me to invite you to have lunch with us this weekend at my house. Do you want to come?"


    He Zheng felt like he was dreaming. Why did Bai Yuren invite him? Especially when he came and found that half of the dishes were cooked by Bai Yuren. He dares not to ask, afraid that Bai Yuren won''t invite him again in the future.


    Afraid.. If the answer was not what he expected.


    They meet more often, they talk on the phone, and chat about their private life. Yet the closer they are, the more afraid he wants to say what was buried in his heart.


    He Zheng knows he is a coward.


    After graduation, doctors can''t work immediately. They need to complete 2 to 3 years residency training if they want to become specialists. After that, they need to take a Licensing Examination. To open their private practice, they need to work for 5 years after taking the licensing examination.


    Some doctors who are unlucky and can''t enrol in residency training, choose to work in small clinics or in pharmaceutical companies. Residency training needs money, connection, and luck. He Zheng didn''t have money nor connection.


    After graduation Bai Yuren intends to take residency training in Z hospital in W city. He Zheng often heard her complaining that she had to give up her dream to take residency in Jian Kang Lu''s hospital because of her mother''s conflict with her brother.


    He Zheng now works in a small 24 hour clinic to scrape money. He bought his motorcycle with that money. New graduate doctors only paid 4000 to 5000 yuan per month, depending on their patients. No need to say how frugal He Zheng lived in these past few months.


    With his poor condition, inferior to Bai Yuren, does he still have the qualification to confess to Bai Yuren?

 Chapter 223 - A Girl Named Bai Yuren

    He Zheng met Jian Kang Lu again at Bai Yutang grandfather''s funeral. Jian Kang Lu only came at night, when Lu Hua and Bai Yuren were already going home.


    Why He Zheng still stay there with Bai Yutang even though he was not a family member? Of course because Bai Yuren ordered him to accompany Bai Yutang until Jian Kang Lu came.


    It was already late, Jian Kang Lu brought four boxes containing white jasmine rice, sesame oil chicken, baked eggplant with chilli oil, and fried tofu in sesame soy sauce. Bai Yutang''s cousin looks at the boxes like a rare treasure bestowed by the emperor. He devoured it cleanly in a few minutes.


    After finishing this satisfying late dinner, they couldn''t help but feel sleepy. Jian Kang Lu suddenly asked He Zheng. "Do you know why we feel sleepy and lethargic after overeating?"


    He Zheng thought, is this a serious question or a tricky one?


    "Because we need to digest the food?" He said.


    Bai Yutang''s cousin who is now studying economics sitting with his bloated tummy joined to answer, "But why did people say we  need to walk around to digest the food? If we get sleepy after eating to digest the food, why do they say we need to exercise a little bit?"


    Jian Kang Lu chuckled, "There''s a simple answer and the complicated one. The simple one is blood flow to the small intestine dramatically increases after a person eats. It was needed to digest the food and absorb the nutrient, then deliver it to the whole body. And as blood is pumped into the gut to fuel digestion, a corresponding drop in blood flow to the brain could trigger feelings of sleepiness. As the blood vessels around the guts dilated, the blood vessels in our limbs and brain constricted. Brain causes sleepiness, while the limbs are lethargic."


    He Zheng felt ashamed when he couldn''t answer this simple physiology question from Jian Kang Lu. "The complicated one?" He asked. He Zheng had to admit the way Jian Kang Lu talks and explains things is really fascinating and easy to understand.


    "The complicated one including the hormone release, the body will release many hormones to break down the nutrients from the food then convert it into energy. Amylase, glucagon, cholecystokinin. The mechanisms trigger several hormones such as serotonin and melatonin in the brain, it causes sleepiness to arouse." Jian Kang Lu said.


    Bai Yutang smiled to see his dumbfounded cousin, and was very happy to see He Zheng''s face. It shows him that it was not because he was stupid thus he couldn''t understand Jian Kang Lu''s explanation. It was just the things explained that are too far from their general knowledge.


    He Zheng said, "Ah, that''s why our ancestors told us to walk around to digest the food."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, "Yes. To prevent the vasoconstriction in our extremity, and also to signalling muscles work better on processing the glucose and regulate insulin level. You know that muscles are included in ominous octet in type 2 diabetes pathophysiology, right?"


    "Jian Ge, even without overeating you''ll put me to sleep with this kind of conversation." Bai Yutang''s cousin yawned.


    Jian Kang Lu laughed, then said, "What do you want us to talk about?"


    "Anything except those hard to understand topics." Said Bai Yutang''s cousin.


    He Zheng rejected, "But this is not boring. I found Jian Ge''s explanation easy to understand."


    Bai Yutang laughed, "That''s because both of you are doctors! Spare us the commoners."


    Jian Kang Lu felt like he was a kindergarten teacher, taking care of his students. "Okay, then let''s talk about books, shall we?"


    "What book, gege?" Bai Yutang asked.


    "Noo! It must be a hard to digest book. Why don''t you talk about your university days, Jian ge. A funny one." Bai Yutang''s cousin tries to sit straight and get rid of his sleepiness.


    Jian Kang Lu looked at He Zheng before he said, "Then, let me tell you about the story of my friend. It''s not a funny one, but all of you youngsters could learn from his lesson."


    Jian Kang Lu tells the story of how Luo Yan built his restaurant business. Luo Yan not only has many restaurants and cafes now, but he originally came from expanding his parent''s business as food supplier to restaurants.


    It''s a story where the protagonist failed a few times, almost making his parent''s business bankrupt. He asked for his friends'' help, borrowing money, asking for loans from banks, and struggling to win his wife''s heart.


    "A man needs to know when he needs to bow his head, searching for help when the road is blocked. A man needs to compromise without selling his integrity. A man needs to step out of his comfort zone, facing difficulties with confidence." Jian Kang Lu said.


    "If your mind is always filled with negativity, afraid of failure, then you''ll never achieve anything. That''s what you teach me, gege." Bai Yutang said.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled. Both of them look at each other with understanding.


    He Zheng at first listened to the stories with envy. It was always easy to envy other people.


    Ah, they could be successful because their parents are already rich. If I have parents like that, I could also be rich.


    That''s what people used to think. They envy those who run, while they keep standing without trying to move their own feet.


    At the end of the story, He Zheng felt ashamed. Jian Kang Lu explained how Luo Yan stressed out because he can''t pay his employees salaries. He Zheng forgot, the bigger the business, the bigger their risk. Moreover, as a boss, they are responsible for many lives and families who depend on them for living.


    "Yes." Jian Kang Lu said in a pampering and proud tone to Bai Yutang. "If you never step out of the house, you can''t see how bright the sun is, how blue the sky is, and how beautiful the rainbow is after the rain."


    Jian Kang Lu looked at He Zheng, "And, regret always comes late. How if the beautiful things which could be yours, are snatched away from you because you never try to give your all?"


    Bai Yutang chuckled, he understood what his lover meant. "Okay then, let''s go home. It''s already late. Tomorrow is cremation day."


    Bai Yutang was sad about his grandfather''s death. But he knows his grandfather is old. Rather than suffer from illness, it is better for him to pass with ease. The tears already shed, now is only acceptance filling their heart.


    He Zheng went home, he was still thinking about what Jian Kang Lu said in the end. He Zheng definitely doesn''t want to see Bai Yuren someday standing beside a stranger and introducing the stranger as her husband to him.


    Three weeks later, He Zheng picked up Bai Yuren from the clinic and went to the East Lake. Previously He Zheng nervously asked Bai Yuren to spend Christmas eve with him here, and she agreed.


    East lake water is like a mirror, while the scenery looks like a picture. In winter, it is very pleasant to go out and enjoy the snow, the beauty of the plum blossoms and the flying migrant birds.


    "Ah, I got a fussy patient today. He lectured me back when I explained to him that his stomach ache is due to his medicine over consumption. If he believes in google more than his doctor, then why does he come to meet me?" Bai Yuren rambled while tightening her coat. The wind suddenly blows, it sends shivers to their bones.


    He Zheng half-listened. Honestly, he was just too nervous. They look at the scenery and attraction from people around. Even in winter, there are lots of street attractions here.


    They walk and talk, until they are hungry and walk to the restaurant. He Zheng already booked the restaurant. He painstakingly worked hard in the last three week, saving for today''s dinner.


    After ordering the restaurant''s famous baked duck and some vegetables, He Zheng was very nervous, he thought he surely can''t taste the duck at all.


    "Why are you so silent today? Something bad happened?" Bai Yuren suddenly said.


    He Zheng shook his head. "No, everything is okay."


    "I''m going to see Prof Yun again after New Year. Do you want to come with me? Have you thought about my offer? We could go to residency together in Z hospital. And have you thought about which specialty you want to take?" Bai Yuren sipped her hot jasmine tea.


    He Zheng stiff. "I haven''t really thought about that.."


    "What about the specialty? I''m going for internists, like Jian Ge. Honestly, a recommendation letter would be easy with Jian Ge''s connection. By the way, you also helped Prof Wen''s research last time, right? Why don''t you ask for a recommendation letter from him if you are interested in cardiology."


    He Zheng was actually interested in becoming orthopaedic. He asks for information regarding orthopaedic''s residency, and it was a long expensive journey.


    The food came and they ate the delicious tender duck slowly. No rush, no hurry. When the dinner finished, He Zheng reached into his backpack and took out the square dark blue box.


    "This is my Christmas gift for you, Yuren.." He Zheng''s voice is a little bit low and there''s a shrill in it. Clearly he was nervous.


    Bai Yuren looked at the dark blue box. She already gave her christmas gift earlier, a dark brown shawl. She thought this man didn''t prepare a Christmas gift when he only said thank you after receiving the shawl.


    "Thank you!" She delightedly opened the box. Which girl who didn''t like to get surprised gifts. Inside the box, there''s another velvet dark blue box. She was stunned to see the shape. When Bai Yuren''s white fingers opened the box, indeed, it was what she guessed.


    A round silver ring laid inside, with a butterfly in pink and yellow gem laid in the middle of the ring. Knowing He Zheng, this is definitely not a diamond ring.


    "Thank you! This is so pretty!" She said and took the ring, wearing it in her ring fingers. Don''t know where He Zheng got her size, but the ring fit perfectly.


    He Zheng was so nervous, but he was encouraged when he saw that Bai Yuren didn''t look offended or reject his gift.


    "Bai Yuren, this ring is cheap. I could only afford to buy a silver ring with fake gems for you now. But.. But, if you could give me a chance, I''ll try working hard to give you a real diamond ring someday."


    Bai Yuren was stunned to hear this mosquito''s shrilling voice in an up and down tone saying these lines to her.


    "I.. Uhm.. I like you so much. Could you give me a chance to be your boyfriend?" He Zheng was so flustered he almost choked.


    Bai Yuren looked at the dark skinned man with narrow eyes in front of her. Even though the eyes are small, the light inside the black orbs is bright. The youth in front of her have an honest look with a wide smooth forehead. Even though his hair cut is standard shortcut hair, it framed He Zheng''s oval''s face nicely.


    She knows the man in front of her is like her to the extent he almost never says no to all her requests.


    Does she love him? She doesn''t know.


    But.. She is willing to try to give her heart to this smart silly boy.


    "I thought you''d never asked me." She smiled to see the man in front of her have a glistening forehead. How could this man be sweating in winter if not because of nervousness?


    He Zheng almost jumped from his seat. He clenched his fist so hard until his knuckle went white.


    Why does her response seem to be a positive one? He said excitedly. "I.. I''m not rich, I don''t have parents, and I''m not sure I could afford residency. That''s why I never ask you. But.. I really like you, Bai Yuren. So.. Could you give me your answer?"


    Bai Yuren flashed the ring on her finger in front of He Zheng. "As long as you treat me well, I''ll try to treat you better. I won''t give a second chance to a cheater, and definitely won''t let you bully me. I don''t have a father, and my brother is gay. If you don''t mind me this way, then I''ll say yes."


    He Zheng stood up immediately, he almost wanted to run and jump, screaming, shouting to the world what he feels right now. For his whole life, this might be the happiest moment for him.


    Bai Yuren laughed, "What are you doing? Sit down, people looking at us."


    He Zheng sat down again. He was so nervous he didn''t know where to put his hand. He wants to hold those tiny white hands in front of him. He also wants to jump over there and hug the bright girl who curves her red rosy lips stunningly.


    It is winter. But in He Zheng''s world, flowers bloomed, birds were singing, and rainbows hung on the blue sky. Love bloomed in his universe, all because of a girl named Bai Yuren.

 Chapter 224 - How To Determine A Mans Love

    In January, the icy wind is not as harsh as December''s. The Seasons start to change, welcoming spring ahead.


    Jian Kang Lu once again visited W city with Bai Yutang. Surprisingly, Lu Hua was at home and told Bai Yuren to let Jian Kang Lu step his foot inside the house.


    Jian Kang Lu is really happy. He prepared to go for a long war, presumably more than three years before he could get positive feedback. He didn''t expect it to be faster.


    Jian Kang Lu looked at the similarly shocked face of Bai Yutang. He chuckled. It seems both of them didn''t guess today Lu Hua was being lenient toward them.


    Lu Hua still refuses to see Jian Kang Lu and locks herself in her room.. She only softened her heart because Bai Yuren repeatedly told her how Jian Kang Lu used his connection to give the best treatment to support her grandfather''s treatment in hospital.


    "It''s okay. Don''t think too much about it, Jian Ge." Said Bai Yuren when she saw both their faces a little bit disappointed when her mother didn''t want to go down. Her hands were busy unpacking things that Jian Kang Lu brought today.


    "At least it''s a good sign. Who knows next month mom will approve you to snatch my gege as your wife." She whispered to Jian Kang Lu, who chuckled to hear her statement.


    "Ah, LeTAO cheesecake! You remember to buy it." She screams happily and opens the box.


    "How could I dare to forget." Jian Kang Lu said. He specifically bought every variant sold in the shop, knowing that Bai Yuren would give some to LingLing and He Zheng.


    Bai Yutang walked from the kitchen to give a cup of hot coffee to Jian Kang Lu. "Want to have dinner here, gege? I''ll cook."


    Jian Kang Lu really wanted to, but he considered Lu Hua''s feelings.


    "Why not eat outside? I want to eat Kobe steak, Jian Ge. Please please please.. Without you, when could I eat that expensive steak by myself?" Bai Yuren said.


    Bai Yutang frowned, he really didn''t like how his sister treated his lover as a walking wallet.


    "If your mother allows you, let''s go. Choose the restaurant." Jian Kang Lu, who only had money to bribe Bai Yuren, happily agreed with this mischievous girl.


    "Can I invite He Zheng too?" Bai Yuren displays her big round eyes to plead like the cat in the boot.


    "Ah, invite your boyfriend to smooch free meal?" Bai Yutang teases Bai Yuren.


    The girl happily grabbed her phone to send a message to He Zheng. "Yes, of course. Both of us poor doctors need to depend on our seniors to fill our tummy."


    Both men in the room were surprised, and then Bai Yutang asked again, "Boyfriend? Finally? Did you pester him? Or threatening him?"


    Bai Yuren snorted, "I''m a shy and dignified girl. Of course it''s him who can''t resist my charm and asks me to become his girlfriend."


    "Are you sure? It''s not because he''s afraid of you?" Bai Yutang asked again.


    "By the way, I never asked which one of you confessed first? I guess it was Jian Ge. Does Jian Ge confess to you because he''s afraid of you, gege? Or because you pestered him?" Bai Yuren retorted.


    Now she truly makes them both silent. Once again, how could they tell her that before the confession, they were already rolling in the bed, shooting lewd liquid at each other.


    Jian Kang Lu wisely diverted the topic. "So, how''s your preparation for residency? Are you sure you don''t want to go to my hospital?"


    Bai Yuren once again consulted with Jian Kang Lu about her residency plan. If all goes well, she will start her tests and interview from April to June and will start her residency in July.


    After eating two slices of cheese cake, Jian Kang Lu goes to Bai Yutang''s room, resting a bit before he goes to his hotel.


    Jian Kang Lu who sits on the bed grabs his kitten''s wrist and pulls him to sit on his lap. Jian Kang Lu put his lips on the youth''s cheek, slid to the corner of his soft lips.


    "Gege.. What if I took my master next year, or two years again? I heard residency still needs money, and not a small amount." Bai Yutang said.


    Both of them agreed to take their master and PhD degree this year. Add it with Bai Yuren''s residency, the money will be tight.


    "Why did you never check our bank account? Don''t worry. I have more than enough savings for all of us. I am also still working. Taking a PhD doesn''t mean I''m not working." Jian Kang Lu struck Bai Yutang''s back. He really loves to touch his kitten''s body. It seems his kitten''s body has a magnet to pull him closer.


    "Your bank account." Bai Yutang corrected him. "Okay then.. But I''ll pay for my own tuition. If it was not enough, then I''ll borrow from you." Bai Yutang said.


    Jian Kang Lu is still stroking Bai Yutang''s back when he realizes something. "Are you working out, baby?"


    Bai Yutang almost blushed with pride, shyly nodding. For the last five months he diligently worked out at the gym near the office. Since Jian Kang Lu was so busy, he goes to the gym two to three times a week. The result is not so obvious since he is also distracted with his grandfather''s illness. He thought his lover would never realise it.


    "To the gym? Why didn''t I know?" Jian Kang Lu asked. If not because he stroked the muscles in his kitten''s back and waist, he might not know. The appearance was not really different since his kitten was always a bit skinny. But now he realizes the muscles under the soft skin of his kitten are shaped better.


    "I want to surprise you. But lately I got busy too, so I can''t come to the gym often."


    "Why suddenly go to the gym? With who?"


    "I want to look good in front of you." Bai Yutang said softly and put his head on his lover''s shoulder. Bai Yutang doesn''t want his lover to get bored with him and leave him someday for a better looking man. He can''t do anything with his face, so he works out and also learns how to style himself better.


    "With Mr. Gu, sometimes with the girls from my office too. Mr. Gu''s body is really good. I want to look like him." He continued.


    As a true city gay man, Gu Jianyu present himself well. Eight pack abs, tight buttock, smooth skin, fragrance all over, smooth well treated skin and stylish clothes. Too bad he is still single even with that full ammunition.


    When they exercise together, Gu Jianyu sometimes said he envies Bai Yutang, also complaining about why people thought gays would pounce on the first man who presented himself to them.


    "Even to buy fruits and eggs we will carefully select it. Why did people always think we were so cheap when we selected our life partner?" Gu Jianyu really hates it when people put a stigma on gays.


    Well, he sometimes vent himself with one night rendevouz with some handsome men in the gay bar. He''s not a saint who could hold himself. But he is really picky when choosing a partner. He won''t put himself on hellish pit again for bad relationship with straight nor bisexual man who left his heart bleeding.


    "Are you sure your boyfriend doesn''t have gay friends he could introduce to me?" Gu Jianyu once asked Bai Yutang. In Gu Jianyu''s mind, if a faithful man like Jian Kang Lu have gay friends, they usually the same honest and upright people.


    Bai Yutang could only apologetically say no. His lover really don''t have close gay friends he could introduce to Gu Jianyu.


    Jian Kang Lu was not happy to hear Bai Yutang''s words. "Do you dare to admire another man''s body in front of me? Hmm? Are you not satisfied with my body anymore?" Jian Kang Lu''s hands are already slipping inside Bai Yutang''s sweater.


    Bai Yutang gasped, he kissed his lover softly. Soon the kiss getting rough and wet sound echoed. They haven''t made love for two week. This slight touch suddenly burns their desire.


    "Only your body could make me itch, gege.." Bai Yutang whispered.


    This is bad. Jian Kang Lu''s little brother starts to rise high and proudly poking Bai Yutang''s thighs.


    Both of them stop their movement, try to arrange their breath and calm their mood.


    "Wait until we come back to B city tomorrow. I''ll show you that this old uncle''s body still can satisfy you the whole night." Jian Kang Lu said with burning eyes.


    After that, Jian Kang Lu hurriedly went to the hotel. Before going, he and Bai Yutang stand in front of Lu Hua''s door, saying thank you and stating he will go and later come back to pick Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren for dinner. Jian Kang Lu invited Lu Hua also, but the woman inside the room didn''t utter a single word in response.


    Slowly, patiently. Jian Kang Lu encouraged himself.


    At night, He Zheng already waited in the house together with the pair siblings for Jian Kang Lu to pick him up. He wears a dull grey sweater with black jacket. He was really embarrassed to see both Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu dress handsomely.


    Honestly, he looks like their attendant with his appearance. He knows he is also not worthy to stand side by side with Bai Yuren. She was so pretty today, wearing a loose dark purple wool dress with black leggings and matched purple boots.


    He Zheng knew he was so dull and boring. He actually read many articles on the internet about how to charm a girl. He stutters when he tries to flatter his girlfriend. "Y-You look so pretty today, RenRen."


    "I know, this earring is so pretty, right? Jian Ge bought it for me. But without these earrings I also look pretty everyday."


    He Zheng nodded, "Yes."


    Bai Yuren laughed. This He Zheng is the only one who can stand her narcissism. Maybe her mother is right. Look for a man who loves you rather than look for a man you love.


    Bai Yutang snorted, "Better go to the ophthalmologist, check your eyes."


    Jian Kang Lu who just arrived and hearing the siblings quarrelling stare helplessly to He Zheng and four of them going together with Jian Kang Lu''s rental car.


    "If He Zheng''s eyes are broken, then Jian Ge''s eyes are beyond salvation." Bai Yuren still savagely roasts her brother.


    The dinner was really satisfying. He Zheng felt that this is the best steak, no, the best meal he ever had in his whole life. The buttery marbled meat brimming with the creamiest, most decadent, most flavourful streaks of fat a steak can have. He choked when he saw the price. No wonder..


    "He Zheng, I heard you are also a scholarship student with a magna cum laude like Bai Yuren. Have you decided on your residency?" Jian Kang Lu asked.


    He Zheng''s voice is low, "Not yet, Doctor Jian."


    "Call me Ge, why so polite. If you are interested, do you want to become a nephrologist like me? If you passed the examination and interview, you could take your residency at B hospital. It will be hard to have a long distance relationship though."


    He Zheng really wanted to, he even decided he won''t be picky about specialisation as long as he could take residency. One need to know, without a good background, doctors don''t do really well. Their salary is average.


    He Zheng is not good with words. He could only stammer, searching for answers. How could he answer that he is afraid he doesn''t have enough money?


    Jian Kang Lu heard He Zheng''s situation from Bai Yutang. He smiled and said, "You have potential. And, you might be TangTang''s brother in law someday. I need another assistant to help me. My assistant''s salary is 4000 yuan per month. I will send you tasks through emails and you could send the result back. I also could meet you once a month when I visit W city. For residency, I could help you and you could pay me back slowly. Think about it first and discuss with RenRen. No rush."


    Bai Yuren''s eyes light up. Surely, her brother really knows how to pick a good man. She was grateful, even though her brother is not a normal man in society''s eyes, but who can say that Jian Kang Lu treated her brother badly?


    She knows Jian Kang Lu does this for Bai Yutang. He does this out of his love toward her brother. Because he loved him, he also took good care of his family, and even a soon to be family member.

 Chapter 225 - Dripping Water Penetrates The Stone

    When you''re getting older, time seems to fly like a ray of light. Bai Yutang didn''t even realise but soon it was almost two years since he came out to his mother. Another Chinese new year will come.


    Last Chinese new year passed through in the usual manner. His mother didn''t give him cold treatment like the year before, yet it was not as grand as when Bai Haoran was still alive.


    Last Chinese new year, Bai Yutang also couldn''t accompany his mother going around to their relative''s house, since he could not take too much leave from the office.


    Thinking back of the last two years he spent through, Bai Yutang realised how he and Jian Kang Lu were so busy until he thought their leisure and comfortable years were only a beautiful illusion.


    Bai Yutang actually got promoted which makes him feel guilty, because after promotion he planned to resign and took his master degree. But Gu Jianyu said he was worthy to be promoted even though he only had four months to enjoy the increased salary and benefits.


    Then both Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu were busy with their entrance examination, which they smoothly passed.. It triggered his friend''s envy. All of them strive to get their master degree this year.


    The days as students in the same university were not as beautiful as he imagined. As a PhD student, Jian Kang Lu didn''t have a steady schedule and he was also still working in the hospital. Mostly he did the research in different parts of university.


    The only benefit which Bai Yutang found in their days in university was that they could meet often, and Jian Kang Lu sometimes drove together with him to the university.


    And also.. Their bedroom activity was not as scarce as the year when Jian Kang Lu was busy preparing for his PhD admission.


    Along with increased experience and diligently working out, Bai Yutang also is not as weak as before. Very rarely is he knocked out in bed now. In fact, sometimes Bai Yutang proudly stays alert after ''night exercise'' while Jian Kang Lu falls asleep.


    Bai Yutang went back to his house in W city alone. From the airport, he took a cab. Since Bai Yuren started her residency, she has been extremely busy. She can''t pick up Bai Yutang at the airport. In fact, she stated she could only come home tomorrow morning.


    As a first year resident, Bai Yuren and He Zheng have shifts on New Year''s eve.


    He Zheng also took his residency in the same hospital as Bai Yuren. After carefully discussing it with her, He Zheng bravely asks Jian Kang Lu''s help. He honestly says he wants to become orthopaedic, and Jian Kang Lu helps him by introducing him to his orthopaedic''s friend in Z hospital.


    When Bai Yutang reaches home, he directly helps his mother finishing the new year''s decoration and cooking. Bai Yutang didn''t cook much for New Year, he ordered some food from a famous restaurant, put it in the refrigerator, and will heat it tomorrow morning.


    Bai Yutang only makes the dumpling''s wrap and filling for their dinner that night.


    New Year''s eve with only both of them is a bit lonely.


    Lu Hua boiled the dumplings and fished them when the skin was translucent. She chewed it carefully. Bai Yutang did the same. Without Bai Yuren, they actually don''t have much to say.


    Lu Hua sighed when the Spring Gala on television showed children dancing and singing as a flower garden. "Don''t you think tonight is boring? With only both of us?"


    Bai Yutang tried to smile, "I''m sorry mom. I know I''m not as cheerful as RenRen."


    "That''s not what I mean." Lu Hua stares at her son. She sighed and kneaded the dough flat before she filled it and wrapped the dumpling.


    "I''m lucky I have children. How about you? When you''re getting older, and being alone, don''t you think you will get lonely if you stay at home alone? Watching the spring gala by yourself?" Lu Hua said in a remorseful tone.


    Bai Yutang held his temper, "I''m not alone, mom. I have you, RenRen, and gege."


    Lu Hua put her dumpling on the pot, "He''s much older than you. Who can guarantee he could accompany you forever. Fifteen years.."


    Bai Yutang sighed, is this a way of his mother cursing Jian Kang Lu for not having a long healthy life? "Gege is taking care of his health, he still could accompany me for a long long time, mom."


    Lu Hua wanted to say, "Look at me. My husband left me so early. Not even 50 years old, but my husband let me be a widow." But in the end she held back her words. It''s not good to talk about this kind of thing on New Year''s eve.


    Lu Hua didn''t understand why his son stubbornly stuck to Jian Kang Lu. Honestly, even if Jian Kang Lu is a woman, fifteen years difference is a big joke for normal society.


    If your 28 year old son says he has a 43 years old girlfriend, every mother in this world will act the same like Lu Hua.


    Even if you have a 28 year old daughter, saying she will marry her 43 year old boyfriend, every mother in this world still will act the same like Lu Hua.


    So imagine Lu Hua''s feeling when her 28 year old son insists on sticking with his 43 year old boyfriend.


    "You''ll soon turn 28. Your father already has you at his age." Lu Hua said. Her eyes stare at the television, but her sight is far looking at the memories behind.


    She still remembers how happy Bai Haoran was when they found she''s pregnant with Bai Yutang. How Bai Haoran treats her like a fragile porcelain, trying his best to fulfil all her cravings on her early pregnancy.


    Lu Hua already could converse with Bai Yutang about Jian Kang Lu without throwing a tantrum, all thanks to Bai Yuren and He Zheng. Both of them carefully, slowly, smartly, inserting all their praises for Jian Kang Lu.


    Lu Hua herself realised, without Jian Kang lu, it will be almost impossible for her daughter to take residency in the best hospital in W city. Lu Hua herself heard about the struggles of Bai Yuren''s friends who unfortunately didn''t have good connections and failed to be accepted there.


    In residency, grades are not number one factors. There''s a lot of living proof when a doctor with good grades treats their patient like a textbook and not human. This led to many complaints from patients to hospitals.


    Or cases where the doctor is so arrogant and scolding their nurses. It also led to complaints from nurses to the senior doctors.


    Better to accept doctors who have good recommendations, make sure they could work well with others. As skills and knowledge could be taught, but attitude is inert.


    Without Jian Kang Lu, her son will be struggling to work like horses to support Bai Yuren''s residency, don''t to mention his son now could safely take his master degree.


    This softened Lu Hua''s heart. Deep inside, she knows Jian Kang Lu really treats her son well. He never let Bai Yutang taste hardship he doesn''t deserve. If someone treats your children this good, slowly but surely, the gratitude she feels grows into understanding.


    Just like constant dripping of water wears away the stone.


    Even though it doesn''t mean she accepted Jian Kang Lu.


    Lu Hua''s thoughts were disturbed by Bai Yutang''s voice. "Mom, your dumplings are overcooked."


    The next day, Bai Yuren came back from hospital with a pale face and dark eyes. She only nodded and greeted her uncle''s family and her maternal grandparents before she collapsed on her bed.


    At night, Lu Hua told Bai Yuren to invite He Zheng to have dinner together at the house. They still have a lot of food left, thanks to Bai Yutang who was infected by Jian Kang Lu''s habit to order so much food when there''s a lot of guests.


    Both Bai Yuren and He Zheng already recharge themselves by sleeping for 7 hours straight in the noon. They still have another 32 hours shift tomorrow, no need to describe their lifeless eyes yet still vigorously devouring the food on the dining table.


    "Eat more, we don''t know when we could eat this kind of delicious food again." Bai Yuren put the sour plum duck in He Zheng''s bowl.


    For the past 6 months, He Zheng and Bai Yuren truly transformed into living zombies who could eat plain white rice without difficulty since they don''t have enough time to leisurely pick their menu. It''s good if they can eat.


    All first year residents are famous for having a lot of bread and snacks stuffed in their bags. They don''t have time to eat, but not eating means they will get sick. Sickness is not tolerated.


    When you''re sick, your friends need to cover for you, and that''s a big no no.


    Even He Zheng, following Jian Kang Lu''s advice, brings some energy bars in his pocket everywhere.


    "When will you go back to B city, Yutang Ge?" He Zheng asked.


    "Another three days. Let''s meet up again. I''ll treat you guys in the restaurant near the hospital." Bai Yutang said.


    Bai Yuren nodded, she wanted to tearfully hug her brother. In the past 6 months, every time Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang visit W city, they always take her and He Zheng to have a delicious meal.


    "Does he pick you up again?"


    All the children at the table instantly become awkward to hear Lu Hua''s question.


    Bai Yutang tried to answer in the calmest way, "Yes mom. Gege will pick me up like usual."


    Lu Hua absentmindedly looked at the dishes in front of her. She missed the warm and lovely dinner she used to have with Bai Haoran.


    In poverty and riches, in hardship and joy, they were happy together..


    Lu Hua took a deep breath, she finally said in a flat tone. No emotion filled her voice, void and empty.


    "Then, let him come to the house. I want to talk with him."

 Chapter 226 - Bloodline

    Jian Kang Lu answered his kitten''s video call that night. He stays at his parent''s house as usual at Chinese New Year. Jian Kang Se and family are also staying.


    Fan Mingle is pregnant and her delivery should be next month. Jian Ming is almost 12 years old, actually the age gap between him and his soon to be little brother is quite far. Yes, it''s another boy.


    This fact will be celebrated in any family. Lin Caihong is happy to meet her new grandson. But.. But.. But she also wants a girl in this family!


    "Gege."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled when he saw his handsome kitten''s face appear on the screen. His hair is a little bit damp, it seems his kitten just washed his face and prepared to sleep. It''s already 11 o''clock.


    "Are you tired, baby? How''s the dinner?" Jian Kang Lu laid his back comfortably. When they are apart, they always do video calls until they fall asleep.


    "Gege, my mom said he wants to meet you when you pick me up."


    Jian Kang Lu abruptly straightened his back. "Really?"


    Bai Yutang nodded, confirming his previous statement.


    Jian Kang Lu was anxious, confused, and hopeful. It seems all were proceeding faster than his expectation. This only goes for two years¡­ Some parents won''t accept their son being gay even until ten years.


    Jian Kang Lu doesn''t want to raise his expectations, but he can''t stop his brain from developing many beautiful scenarios.


    "Then tomorrow I''ll go shopping. My present now was not suitable for a direct meeting with your mom." Jian Kang Lu said.


    Previously he only prepared some bird nest and mountain monkey tea beautifully packed as his New Year''s present. But now, it seems he also needs to search for other things. He decided to ask his mother the next day.


    Lin Caihong truly held her reputation as the prominent madam in upscale societies in the capital. She makes the phone call in the morning and the things are delivered to their house by night. One needs to know that the majority of stores were closed in Chinese New Year''s period.


    The additional gifts prepared by Lin Caihong are one calligraphy from the famous artist and one imperial jade ring. The gifts are extremely expensive. But one needs to know when gifting things to your future in-laws, eventually the things could be inherited by their children, which is your future spouse. That''s why Chinese people were never stingy with their gifts.


    On the third day of Chinese New year, Jian Kang Lu arrived in W city. As usual, he rented the car and went to his kitten''s house. He looked calm from the outside, yet his sweaty hands betrayed his calmness.


    Jian Kang Lu''s flight landed before dusk and he reached his kitten''s house around 7.30, the streets were decorated with red lanterns and flowers, screaming the joy of spring festivals.


    Bai Yutang was the one who opened the door for Jian Kang Lu, Lu Hua sitting in the living room.


    "Good evening, auntie. Happy new year, may prosperity and happiness keep flowing to this house and to you in this year. Here are some small things from me and my family to celebrate the new year." Jian Kang Lu politely handed the gifts which were received by his kitten.


    Lu Hua didn''t answer and only nodded.


    Lu Hua had instructed Bai Yutang that Jian Kang Lu be allowed to have dinner together with them. Bai Yuren is still on her shift and can''t make it.


    "Let''s have dinner first, gege. What do you want to drink?"


    Jian Kang Lu peeked at Lu Hua, who stood up and walked toward the dining table.


    "Anything you made is okay." Jian Kang Lu answered his kitten.


    For the whole dinner, Lu Hua didn''t say anything nor answer their question. She silently ate her dinner. For tonight, Bai Yutang cooked steamed fish with scallion, his signature lemon chicken, and egg tofu soup. Bai Yutang sliced the fresh fruits brought by Jian Kang Lu and served it on the table.


    Looking at his son, somehow Lu Hua was annoyed. She didn''t like how her son looked like a virtuous wife serving her husband. Well, Bai Yutang''s gesture was a perfect example of the ideal daughter in law she always dreamed of.


    Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu tried really hard to make the dinner as lively as possible, ignoring the awkward and cold face of Lu Hua.


    After chewing 5 slices of cold sweet melon and crunchy apples, Lu Hua cleared her throat.


    "I will never agree with both of you. Not now, not in the future." She coldly said.


    Jian Kang Lu only froze for one second before he gave his professional smile and coaxed his future mother in law. "I could only show you how much i appreciate TangTang and keep treat him well for you see that i''m really serious with TangTang, auntie."


    "Then, if someday I agree, you won''t treat him well?" Lu Hua frowned.


    Jian Kang Lu almost choked, "I will always treat him well auntie, you know he''s the most important person in my life. I could only try my best because I know I''m not worthy of your son. He''s very smart, kind. I''m so lucky he chose me."


    Lu Hua snorted, "Indeed, my son is too good for you. So, even though I won''t accept you, do you still want to be with him, TangTang?"


    Bai Yutang sat next to his lover and silently held his lover''s sweating hand. "Mom, i hope you will agree with us someday, since i plan to spend the rest of my life with gege."


    The room was so quiet after that, only the sound from outside proved that the world was still spinning like usual.


    Lu Hua took a deep breath, "I know my own son. He''s stubborn and doesn''t want to listen to his mother anymore. I can''t do anything about it. I''m only a poor weak widow."


    "Mom.." Bai Yutang protests.


    Lu Hua cut him, "It''s useless. I don''t know when both of you will get tired and break up. Maybe next year, maybe next ten years. By then, my son is already too old."


    Bai Yutang grip his lover''s hand tight. He didn''t like to hear how his mother cursed him and Jian Kang Lu. But Bai Yutang always obeyed his lover, and his lover told him never to fight with his mother.


    Lu Hua held her cup, feeling the heat from the tea inside seeped to her cold hands. She doesn''t know whether this is the right choice to do, but she really doesn''t want to have regrets.


    "I have one condition. If you fulfil that, I won''t oppose both of you again in the future."


    Jian Kang Lu still maintained his calm and gentle smile even though turbulence in his heart was forming a raging anxious storm, "Please tell me, auntie."


    "I want grandchildren from TangTang. My husband''s bloodline will not cut here. It''s enough if you can give me that."


    Lu Hua is afraid. She''s afraid that if her son stubbornly refuses to leave Jian Kang Lu, and later when he gets old, he''ll be alone without children. At that time, his son''s grievance will also be her misery.


    No mother in this world would want their children to suffer. So, she gave up. She could only protect her children this way. If her son refuses to listen to her, then she could only give him the way out of loneliness in his old age.


    "Mom!" Bai Yutang almost screamed.


    Jian Kang Lu held his kitten and signalled him to sit down. In fact, both of them never talked about children, since they never thought it''s important.


    Most people have their instinct to preserve reproduction, that''s why many gay and lesbian couple try to have their own children, adopted or real birth children.


    In this modern era, actually it''s a luxury for gay and lesbian couple. Imagine 50 years ago, it''s impossible to have children without real intercourse between man and woman. But now, all is possible.


    Jian Kang Lu himself once had a discussion regarding children with Wu Shen. Wu Shen likes children, and always wants to have one of his own.


    For Jian Kang Lu, he didn''t really like children. He felt he was not capable of raising one. He''s not that patient to hear children crying all the time, and he also felt he was not suitable to educate their children.


    After all, he''s still counted as a freak in society. How could a freak teach his children to be an upstanding member of society?


    If Jian Kang Lu really wanted to have children, he was the one who belonged in the adoption category. There''s a lot of unfortunate children in the world. Rather than birthing one, why not take care of the unfortunate one?


    But Lu Hua''s meaning is very clear. She wants Bai Haoran''s bloodline to continue. It means a son, a baby boy. From Bai Yutang''s seed.


    "Very well, auntie. We could follow your wish. But I have two conditions regarding that matter, and I beg for your understanding." Jian Kang Lu said in a calm manner. His tone didn''t reflect any of his turbulent heart.


    "Gege!" Bai Yutang grieved. Does this mean his lover agreed for him to have children with another woman?


    "Nowadays we could have children from surrogate mothers. I assure you the procedure is legal and it will be TangTang''s son. But surrogate mothers are protected for their privacy, which means all of us, including the child in the future, will never know nor meet the mother." Jian Kang Lu explained.


    Lu Hua listening, she doesn''t really care at this point. She only wants to preserve her beloved husband''s bloodline. The world may progress, but Lu Hua is still a woman with a traditional mind. The greatest filial things a child could do is to preserve their bloodline.


    "Second, I love TangTang so much. Naturally TangTang''s child will be my child. I want my child to be protected by law and have their rights preserved. I want to have a voice to determine their future, have rights to take care of them, and also have peace of mind that if I leave them first, all my assets will safely go to them. I have been working hard all these years, all for TangTang. That''s why, before we proceed with the surrogacy, I want to marry TangTang." Jian Kang Lu unconsciously tightened his grip around his kitten''s hand. He''s so nervous.


    Well, he truly wants to protect his kitten and their future children using the law. And also, if he needs to grant Lu Hua''s wishes, he also wants Lu Hua to grant his wish.


    Lu Hua''s hand also tightened around her cup. She pursed her lips. She wants to reject Jian Kang Lu''s request. What a joke, how could a man marry another man? But she knew some countries already approved same sex marriage. With Jian Kang Lu''s wealth, they could always choose one foreign country to tie the knot.


    And, listening to Jian Kang Lu''s explanation, actually it was a good thing for his son and her future grandchildren. At least, his son won''t be a plaything for this man. Even though they separated one day, her son and grandchildren won''t be wronged.


    While Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu silently wait for Lu Hua''s answer, the world seems so quiet and serene.


    Lu Hua finally opened her mouth, "Fine. But I won''t attend the wedding."

 Chapter 227 - Proposal

    Jian Kang Lu felt helpless. His kitten ignored him last night, and until noon when he picked him up to go back to B city, his kitten was still giving him cold treatment.


    Last night, Jian Kang Lu told Lu Hua that he will take care of their wedding first this year, then look for surrogacy next year. Hopefully, the baby will be born and delivered to them when Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu finish their postgrad.


    At night, when they arrived at their apartment, Jian Kang Lu took a deep breath to see his kitten took a bath alone and then buried himself inside the quilt.


    Jian Kang Lu kneeled beside the bed, he knew his angry kitten was not yet sleeping. His kitten was rarely mad at him, but every time he got mad, it was so scary. His kitten basically will treat him like he did not exist.


    "Baby.. TangTang... I''m sorry.. Can we talk, please.." Jian Kang Lu pleaded softly.


    In fact, Jian Kang Lu owes so many things to his kitten, while his kitten always gives him all he had, unconditionally.


    Jian Kang Lu owes a grand confession, which he ruined by kissing and rolling in the bed before he says he loves this man.


    Jian Kang Lu owes a proper introduction, which he is always late to conduct, resulting in his kitten telling his friends first and also there''s rumors about him spreading wildly. Jian Kang Lu''s parents abducted Bai Yutang first, and Lu Hua also knew about them not from Jian Kang Lu coming clean asking for her blessing.


    And now, instead of doing a beautiful sincere proposal which should be a once in a lifetime memory, Jian Kang Lu shoved the idea as a requirement for Lu Hua''s request.


    Jian Kang Lu''s heart ached. Once he also had so many dreams about what ideal life he could give to his beloved, yet life didn''t allow him to realise his dream.


    "Baby.. I''m sorry.. I should ask you first. Please, could you show your face to me? I want to talk with you face to face." Jian Kang Lu speaks to the lump of quilt which is supposed to be Bai Yutang''s ear under.


    "TangTang.. My love.."


    Bai Yutang was still not moving, until Jian Kang Lu peeled him out from the quilt.


    "Why do I need to talk now? You didn''t bother to ask for my opinion last night?" He said resentfully while closing his eyes. He refuses to see his lover''s face right now. Every time they fought and debated, he always lost if he saw his lover''s face. He could never say no to that face.


    "Yes, I was wrong. Please forgive me.. Let''s talk right now, please? Can you see me? Open your eyes."


    Bai Yutang steeled his heart even though his lover''s lips softly rained him with kisses all over his face.


    Humph! If this man thought he was so easy to coax this time, then he was very wrong!


    Jian Kang Lu spent almost thirty minutes coaxing his angry kitten until finally his kitten opened his eyes resentfully when Jian Kang Lu kissed his lips and shoving his tongue inside.


    "Bai Yutang.. I love you so much. No words could describe how much I love you, how I depend on you, how much you mean to me. Can you pity this old man, and bless him by marrying him? Make him your husband for the rest of our life? I promise I will always love you, take care of you, cherish you, honour you, and try to annoy you less."


    Bai Yutang snorted, "What kind of proposal is this?"


    Bai Yutang just snorted before his eyes widened, dazed when a small square velvet blue box appeared in front of him. Jian Kang Lu opened the box and two silvery rings laid inside. The design is very simple, just a plain platinum ring with the brand and their name engraved on the inner side of the band.


    Jian Kang Lu properly kneeled beside the bed again. His eyes straight looking at his kitten, full of adoration, hope, and unyielded devotion.


    "Would you marry me?"


    Bai Yutang still laid on the bed with his pajamas. He was so shocked until his mouth wide opened, and forgot to close it.


    He straightened his back and looked at his lover kneeling in front of him. Right now, he only blurted the first things which came to his mind.


    "When did you buy this ring, gege?"


    Jian Kang Lu still kneeling with the box opened in his hand, "Long time ago. I always missed the chance to give this to you. I actually wanted to propose to you a long time ago, always looking for excuses, waiting for the perfect moment. But last night i realised, there is no perfect time. I just want to be with you. I know I''m not perfect, a man with many flaws. But I hope you were kind enough to let you be my person. The one that I could spend all my life with, forever. Please.."


    Bai Yutang knew this brand. Cartier is so damn expensive, engraving it will take time. This definitely is not something Jian Kang Lu could buy in a short moment. He can''t deny that he was touched that his lover thought about this for a long time.


    "I do.."


    Jian Kang Lu''s smile bloomed.


    "But I''m still angry with you."


    Jian Kang Lu hurriedly took the ring and grabbed his kitten''s hand. Smoothly shove the ring to his kitten''s beautiful finger. It fits perfectly.


    "Your finger size has not changed from three years ago." Jian Kang Lu said with a silly smile.


    Bai Yutang snorted, and looked at his lover''s hopeful face, still holding the box. He sighed, then took the ring and raised his palm, gesturing to his lover to give him his paws.


    Jian Kang Lu obediently raised his paws, letting his kitten slide the ring to his own finger.


    Bai Yutang pushed this big old man who wanted to hug and kiss him. "I''m still angry! Don''t hug and kiss me before you appease my anger."


    Jian Kang Lu kneeled back in front of his kitten. "How could I appease your anger, my little husband."


    "We''re not married yet, you''re not allowed to call me that way." Bai Yutang tries to flatten his mouth, subconsciously wanting to smile.


    He clears his throat, tries to talk seriously. "What kind of nonsense you promised my mom? Do you not mind if I have children with another woman?"


    Jian Kang Lu still kneeled. He needs to thank God this is not a feudal era where the husband was punished by their wife and needed to kneel on the washboard.


    "It''s surrogacy, you won''t have real intercourse with the woman. And we also won''t ever see and know the woman. It will be our child, and will make your mother happy. I don''t mind."


    "But I do mind!" Bai Yutang snarled. "I do mind, gege.. I don''t mind if we don''t have children. I''m content with both of us. What will your parents think of me if they know my own mother forced me to have a child with another woman?"


    Jian Kang Lu hurriedly said, "Don''t you know what my parents like? They will be happy and love our child. If you''re not comfortable with that, we don''t need to tell anyone else about this. Just tell them this is our decision."


    Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten''s face still full of black lines. "Then, how to appease your anger? I''ll follow your words. I will always follow my husband."


    Bai Yutang studies his lover''s face, it seems his lover will grant all his wishes right now, due to his floating happiness. His heart softened to see his silly lover so happy from the successful proposal.


    "Then.. I want you to have children also, gege. If I need to have one, then you also need to give me one. I don''t mind when we don''t have children. But if we have, he will be lonely if he was an only child."


    Bai Yutang lowered his head, and softly said again, "Actually, I just want to hold your child, gege.."


    Jian Kang Lu truly is not interested in having his own child. Until this time, he still believed in adoption rather than raising his own seed. But.. His kitten''s happiness is his happiness. He took a deep breath.


    "Okay." He smiled. "I told you, I''ll follow my husband."


    After his lover easily agreed, suddenly Bai Yutang remembered something. "By the way, how much is the surrogacy cost, gege? I know it''s expensive.." Now he starts to regret his impulse wishes. One is already expensive, paid by his lover''s money. It''s impossible for Bai Yutang to pay surrogacy right now or the next five years. And now Bai Yutang selfishly asks for two.


    Jian Kang Lu held his kitten''s hand, kissed it softly, rubbed it on his cheek. "It''s okay, we could afford it. Why don''t you focus on our wedding first. Do you want to plan for it, or let me handle it?"


    Bai Yutang forgot he just agreed to marry this sly old man. He looked at his silly lover who looked back at him with millions of stars sparkling bright inside those beautiful eyes, and shot him with rays of pure happiness. Unknowingly, it brought a smile upon his own face.


    He had no idea what kind of wedding he wanted, nor he never felt he needed it. All he needs is just the man in front of him.


    But, if he lets this man handle it, he has a feeling this man will just try to compensate him with giving him an expensive wedding. It is better for him to restrain this man.


    "I want to see your plan first, gege. But I need to have the final words and modify the plan according to my wish. And you''re not allowed to add anything I don''t approve of." Bai Yutang said.


    Right now, everything his kitten says is all beautiful. Jian Kang Lu could only nod his head repeatedly like chicken pecking grains in the ground. All his kitten asked, he will make sure he fulfills it.


    For his whole life, tonight could count as the top 10 best moments in Jian Kang Lu''s life. A perfect man he desired agreed being tied to him for the rest of their life. What else could he ask for?


    This man is definitely not the first man to come into his life. But Jian Kang Lu hoped, and he will try his best, to make this man the last man who will fill his life.

 Chapter 228 - The Wedding

    Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang were sitting in Jian Kang Lu''s parents living room when they dropped the bomb.


    "Mom, dad, I''ll marry TangTang this year."


    Lu Hua was still arranging the cake when she heard the news that she had been waiting for a long time. Her eyes lit up and her smile bloomed. Her hands immediately clasped in excitement. "Ah! When?"


    Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang unanimously agreed to hold the wedding on Summer break, hence they told them. "In July or early August."


    Lu Hua almost screamed, "So soon? Why?" Lu Hua remembers this couple is man and man, it''s impossible they held the wedding so soon because of an ''accident''.


    "Summer break." Jian Kang Lu said. "Both of us are still on our postgrad. I don''t want to wait until next year, so we agreed the wedding will take place on Summer break."


    Jian Shen didn''t even have a chance to say anything since her wife dominated the conversation.


    "Where do you want to hold the wedding? B city or W city? How many people will you invite? Have you searched for the wedding hall available? It was hard to book the hall in this short amount of time. I''ll ask my friend which place they have available at that time. How about the wedding suit? Have you contacted the wedding organizer?"


    The three men in the room are speechless.


    "Mom, we can''t get married in this country. I planned to get a marriage license in C country. We agreed only to hold a small banquet there. I''ll look for a nice restaurant there. Only close family and friends are fine." Jian Kang Lu saved Bai Yutang from answering these thousands of questions from Lin Caihong.


    "I''ll let you choose for the date, mother." Bai Yutang sweetly smiled.


    Lin Caihong truly melted to see his soon to be son in law mild attitude. "What about your family, TangTang?" She quietly asked.


    Actually Lin Caihong assumed Bai Yutang''s family already accepted her son, and she asked about the parents meeting to choose an auspicious date. But Bai Yutang assumed Lin Caihong asked about his family''s attendance on the wedding day.


    "My mom can''t attend the wedding, my sister and her boyfriend said they will come. I haven''t asked my uncle yet." He answered with his head lowered.


    Lin Caihong''s smile is stiff. She sighed, but she didn''t show her displeasure. "It''s okay."


    Lin Caihong has Bai Yuren''s number from the last time they met each other. She contacts Bai Yuren, telling her that she and Jian Shen will come with Jian Kang Lu, officially meet as soon as they are in law to be.


    No matter if Lu Hua still rejects his son, she could only lower her head in front of Lu Hua, asking her not to wronged this couple.


    The meeting was arranged for another two weeks in Lu Hua''s house. Actually Lin Caihong wanted to arrange it in a hotel, but Bai Yutang said it was not necessary. Bai Yutang truly didn''t want his mother and his family to make a ruckus in front of strangers. It will humiliate Jian Kang Lu''s family.


    On that day, even Jian Kang Se will also come with Jian Ming. Fan Mingle is on her due date, she can''t travel far, so she stays at home.


    The reason Jian Kang Se brought his son, to show their support for his big brother. Even Jian Ming who is still in his 6th grade understands that his uncle is different from other people, but didn''t differentiate nor look at his uncle and his boyfriend with malice. Jian Kang Se hoped this will soften Bai Yutang''s family.


    Lu Hua grit her teeth, steel her heart, when she told her parents and her brother. Her parents were truly shocked and her mother cried.


    "At least TangTang agreed to give me children, mother. I already asked him to change his mind in the past two years, but he didn''t listen to me. Rather than letting him run away with that man, better to tie him this way." She explained when her mother was crying and hit her, accusing her of being a bad mother who can''t watch for her own son.


    "If I knew, I wouldn''t have agreed when you and your husband sent him to study in B city. Big city indeed gave him the wrong education and bent his views of life. What will other people say about our family? Oh.. Shameful!" The old lady cried and wailed. Her heart is full of grief.


    "Nobody will know. He didn''t live here anyway. If they broke up someday, we could always say that he got married to some woman in B city and divorced." Lu Hua said indifferently. She could scold her son, but other people were not allowed. After all, she didn''t want her son to face unfair treatment from society.


    Bai Yutang''s uncle is quiet. He didn''t really oppose Bai Yutang to marry another man. After all, he received a lot of help from Jian Shen, Jian Kang Lu''s father.


    After meeting him on Bai Yutang''s graduation day, he learns about forex and gains some money from it. Without Jian Shen, he won''t learn it successfully. All his efforts were not having good feedback, only when he followed Jian Shen''s instruction, his money grew well. He still has a little daughter. How could he raise her well if he can''t scrape more money for his family?


    So, when it was time for two family meetings, Bai Yutang''s uncle''s family were showing their support, while Bai Yutang''s grandparents refused to come.


    Jian Kang Lu''s family were not stingy, they brought so many betrothal gifts, as if they wanted to propose for the emperor''s beloved daughter. Luckily Bai Yutang''s house environment classify as middle class family neighbourhood, no fussy neighbour stick their head out to see these small occasion.


    Lu Hua herself didn''t decorate her house. She just stood quietly in the living room, while Bai Yutang and his sister were busy preparing for lunch.


    Lin Caihong flashes her socialite''s smile after she sits on the sofa along with her family. "Mrs. Lu Hua, I thank you for welcoming us. Here are small things we brought from our family as our gratitude."


    Lu Hua could scold and give Jian Kang Lu harsh treatment, but she couldn''t do the same with Lin Caihong and Jian Shen. After all, they were her seniors. Lin Caihong herself is 11 years older than her.


    The meeting is not warm, but also not as bad as Bai Yutang imagined. The two families settled the date, which is mid July, earlier than what Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang planned.


    Jian Kang Lu himself only invited his closest friends, 5 people with their family. But this family extended to their parents also. Jian Kang Lu''s best friend''s parents were very fond of him and didn''t see Jian Kang Lu''s sexual preference as bad things.


    From Bai Yutang''s side, his uncle''s family will come, Bai Yuren and He Zheng also come. Bai Yutang invites his 3 best friends, who agreed to come once they know Jian Kang Lu will provide the plane ticket and hotel.


    Who will reject a free trip to C country?


    Since Lu Hua refuses to take part in this wedding, Lin Caihong freely intervenes in this couple''s wedding without having to think about her in law''s preference.


    In the end, Bai Yutang, who cut all of his lover''s ideas, had to surrender in front of his mother in law.


    Their suits, their shoes, the family''s attire, even their shoes and the restaurant''s menu, all taken care of by Lin Caihong and Zhou Qunfei. Wu Yajun also intervenes and even looks at Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang with disdain.


    "Both of you truly a disgrace to gay''s community. I never met gays who didn''t have a sense of style like both of you." She said.


    Wu Yajun herself already has a boyfriend who is two years younger than her. They planned to have a wedding next year. She cursed Jian Kang Lu who got married earlier than her.


    "I thought I would save my money by not giving you a red envelope for the rest of my life. Truly, Jian Ge, you''re so lucky to meet this poor lamb who wants to jump into the pit together with you."


    Jian Kang Lu only drinks wine with a smug face and sly smile.


    "Don''t forget to give me my money back on my wedding next year." Wu Yajun sneered.


    "I will, don''t worry. After all, my husband is younger than yours." Jian Kang Lu said happily, earning him a jab on his ribs from Wu Yajun.


    In the end, the number of people who come to Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang''s wedding is less than 100 people. Most of them know each other, they don''t need Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu to force them to talk to each other.


    Even the shy He Zheng finally opened up and his face brightened when he was praised by Huang Yin and Cheng Rong.


    Huang Yin, Cheng Rong and his wife, are the only doctors from Jian Kang Lu''s circle who were invited to this event. When the hospital exploded from the news of Doctor Jian''s wedding, Jian Kang Lu only smiled and never intended to show his soon to be husband''s name, occupation, nor the gender.


    Most people in the hospital of course could guess, but when the person who will get married himself didn''t confirm, what else could they say? Jian Kang Lu only prepared 1000 tumblers as his wedding souvenir and apologised for not inviting them to the wedding.


    After all, these people will someday see him with Bai Yutang, and will notice they wear the same wedding ring. No need for Jian Kang Lu to shout to the world that he will marry this man he loved so much. The world is not that kind to them anyway.


    Bai Yutang thought this wedding is just a small ceremony for him, it does not mean so much to him. All that matters is the person beside him will be by his side, forever.


    Yet, when he stepped into the C country marriage bureau, he suddenly felt sentimental.


    From this day on, July 15th, was the day where they will celebrate the day of both of them tied in legal bind. The day where the world forced to admit that both of them have equal right in the eye of law as other heterosexual couple.


    The day where Jian Kang Lu signed the piece of paper stating that he agreed to be the husband of Bai Yutang.


    Bai Yutang felt his eyes getting warm and he bit his own lips, preventing his eyes from forming tears. His slender hand signed the paper. The officer congratulated them with a warm smile.


    Jian Kang Lu held his little husband''s eyes and kissed the soft lips he adored so much.


    "My little husband." He whispered in Bai Yutang''s ear and kissed the soft cheek before giving him a bright smile.


    Bai Yutang returned the smile.


    We''ve come a long way, yet we still have many years to come. I''ve fallen and risen again, for you always be there to hold me in my stormy days. I''ve been weak, and you''ve been my strength. In love, one plus one is not always two, yet two of us will always be ready to face the infinite.


    Because I love you.


    Because you love me.


    Because our love is enough.


    You, my husband, are more than enough for me.

 Chapter 229 - The Banquet

    The wedding banquet was held at night on the same day. Lin Caihong was the one who chose the restaurant in O city, C country, the city where Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang tie the knot.


    Jian Kang Lu had to stand alone in the two months'' war facing his mother and her troops, rejecting their idea of the beautiful small garden wedding while pronouncing their lifelong oath pledge with each other.


    It''s not because Jian Kang Lu didn''t want to, but simply because his little husband rejected the idea but can''t say no to Lin Caihong.


    In Bai Yutang''s view, it is already expensive enough to hold the wedding in C country, not to mention their double surrogacy plan. How could they afford to lavishly spend another 100.00 yuan just to have a one to two hour ceremony in the garden?


    Because of this stingy habit of Bai Yutang, Lin Caihong forbade Jian Kang Lu to tell Bai Yutang how much he had to pay for booking the restaurant tonight.


    If his little husband found out, he could vomit another 1 litre of blood.


    Jian Kang Lu had to admit, this wedding and their surrogacy plan surely drain his savings.. He sells the store which Wu Shen returns to him to avoid emergency matters occurring later on. His parents teach him the importance of having assets but also need to have quick money always prepared in his bank account.


    The restaurant is very beautiful. They held the dinner in the courtyard. Nestled under a Manitoba maple tree lies a beautiful grey quarry stone floor, on which sit black granite tables dressed with crisp white linen and modern Italian chairs. This cosy oasis offers the guest a charming and secluded place in the city to relax and enjoy their dinner.


    He Zheng rarely eats western food, moreover the Italian food in foreign countries. This is the first time for him to go abroad. Even though others praise the food, his tongue is not familiar with the taste. He can''t appreciate the seared foie gras and maple apples with currant puree or the black pepper crusted tuna loin on shredded vegetables with green onion beurre blanc Bai Yuren ordered.


    He Zheng safely chose aged prime striploin and cauliflower mash with spinach and caper. He thought this was the safest option. Nothing could go wrong with steak!


    But He Zheng and Bai Yuren agreed that the dessert is really something else. Vanilla creme brulee with mixed berries and macaron melted in his mouth, lit up his eyes.


    The younger one is happy with dessert and champagne, Bai Yutang''s uncle happy with the wide selection of foreign beer, while the other mature guest from Jian Kang Lu appreciates the wine.


    One of the reasons Lin Caihong chose this restaurant is because she remembered her husband liked this restaurant''s wine. This restaurant was once listed as a top 100 wine restaurant in the world.


    The underground wine cellar at this restaurant houses the most comprehensive wine collection in C country.


    Even though Bai Yutang rejected all kinds of ceremonial scenes in his own wedding, he still couldn''t run away from cutting the wedding cake and drinking wedding wine. They invite one comedian to become the MC and also a band to play in the restaurant.


    Everyone has a chance to roast this newlywed, spilling their black history and shame them in front of the guests. After all, this is intimate occasion, all is family or closest friend. No courtesy needed.


    Jian Kang Lu drinks the wine again to let his embarrassment sink in the red liquid effect.


    Sun Hongjia stood at the podium, his voice carrying the lifelong resentment and definitely he wanted to pay back for what Jian Kang Lu did to him on his wedding day.


    "I always thought this man can''t get married for a whole lifetime. If I knew, I wouldn''t have gotten that limited edition watch on his birthday. But who knew, this sneaky sly man could fool his little boyfriend for years and even manage to get him to agree to marry him. At least, I was happy to know this little boyfriend of his could restrain him and scold him without hesitation. I still remember Bai Yutang is the only one who could manage turning this wolf into a fool man, drunk, crying, wailing, repeating that he misses his sweetheart until we reach home that night. Ah Lu, you owe Zhen Guo so much for finding your runaway sweetheart! Have you paid him yet?"


    Jian Kang Lu shouting, "I didn''t cry, you bastard!"


    Bai Yutang knew Sun Hongjia talked about him, but why he didn''t familiar with the story? His heart felt warm when Luo Yan kindly spilled all the story when Jian Kang Lu drank back then, when he shut himself out after his father passed away.


    Bai Yutang was touched, he didn''t know. He looks at his new husband with a gaze who wants to make the guests tease them more.


    Tang Yuxuan and Yu Dong somehow restrained themselves in front of these seniors. They only talk about the good things, gaining a lot of boo from the audience.


    "Spill TangTang''s black history!" Wu Yajun screaming.


    Jian Kang Lu shouted back, "My husband didn''t have black history! Deal with it!"


    Out of their expectation, it was Mu Xiaoya who graciously granted their wishes. She vividly recreates the scene where Bai Yutang asks for love advice from her.


    It cracks the laugh even on Jian Kang Se''s cold face.


    "Stop, stop!" Bai Yutang hurriedly stood up, wanting to grab the microphone from Mu Xiaoya''s hand. But he was soon held by Jian Kang Lu who laughed, clearly happy to hear how his little husband fell in love with him.


    Bai Yuren smacks her lips, still enjoying her dinner. "Woah, I didn''t know my gege also had this kind of fool phase of chasing Jian Ge."


    He Zheng is the one who feels he was a stranger in this wedding even though everyone is very kind to him. Looking at Jian Kang Lu''s family and friends, he felt he was nothing. He was just a poor orphan who borrowed money and connections from Jian Kang Lu.


    What makes him afraid, is what if Bai Yuren realised he was not worthy of her? What if Bai Yuren looks at these dazzling successful people and decides she wants to look for a better man?


    But, his heart felt very warm when he remembered how Bai Yuren praised him all over when they talked to the senior doctors, Jian Kang Lu''s friends.


    He Zheng looked at the red faced Bai Yutang with his waist being held by Jian Kang Lu. "I think your brother in law treats Tang Ge really well, no wonder he fell in love with him."


    Bai Yuren nodded. She already told He Zheng all the things Jian Kang Lu did to her. If Jian Kang Lu could treat her that well, imagine how good he would treat her brother.


    Liu Xiang is a bit cruel. Under Zhen Guo and Sun Hongjia''s request, he reveals how Bai Yutang never could get lucky with a woman.


    He held the microphone with ease, staying away from Bai Yutang. "I thought he was not lucky with women, since the girl he said he liked turned out to have fallen for our Tang Yuxuan. But then, our goddess from the economic faculty relentlessly chased him, but he didn''t give any feedback to her. We all thought our TangTang''s taste in women is peculiar. Why when a perfect lady chases him, he rejects her? It turns out, our TangTang''s taste is a mature handsome man."


    Sun Hongjia shouting, "Don''t need to be polite. It''s an old man, not a mature one!"


    Luo Yan also shouted, "Don''t be fooled by his appearance! I bet he''ll colour his hair black to cover his grey hair and do the face lift regularly!"


    Jian Kang Lu raised his hand, "Don''t show your envy so blunt in front of the others, ah. I know you all always envy my handsome face."


    This gained another boo from the guests.


    The MC is a C country mixed chinese, he could understand a bit of chinese language. He also teases the newlywed and makes the scene livelier.


    The dinner closed with dance from the newlywed, followed by the audience.


    Bai Yuren, who loved to dance, grabbed He Zheng''s hand and led him to the dance floor. After the slow song, then upbeat song, it changed back into a slow song again.


    Jian Kang Lu''s parents also dance with their bodies close to each other. They were old, but the lovely feeling from this old couple was not a bit less than the other pairs of husband and wife in the room.


    He Zheng never danced before, he felt awkward. Yet because Bai Yuren likes it, and doesn''t mind his uncoordinated hands and legs, he is resolute to accompany the Bai Yuren dance.


    The slow song required the couple to dance closely, and He Zheng was afraid his nervousness, along with his rapid heart beat, could be seen clearly.


    He never stayed this close to Bai Yuren. They have not yet hugged or kissed each other. He Zheng was too afraid Bai Yuren will reject and thought he was just a beast who after her body.


    On the other side, Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang are already back to their seats. They smiled and looked at the happy faces in front of them.


    This is a happy occasion for them. A once in a lifetime moment. Bai Yutang can''t deny, it was a good thing to celebrate it.


    He thought it was okay just to have that piece of paper signed without ceremony. He thought, even without that paper, it was also okay as long as they were together.


    But, happy moments are worth sharing with each other. Spread the happiness to their closest friends and family. To receive their blessing, and the good words shared in between.


    It was okay to have your happy world consisting of two lovers.


    But sometimes, it is better to have a happy world that consists of various forms of love.


    Even though Bai Yutang was not blessed yet by his parent''s love toward their marriage, he hoped, someday his mother would soften her heart.


    And, Bai Yutang pray, his father above will understand, and give them his blessing.


    "Dad, maybe you will see me as a disappointment. Maybe you even disown me as your son. But, I hope, you could see that I was happy. This man makes me happy. I hope you could see us from above with a smile, and say once again that I make you proud, even when I choose this road, choose this man to be my husband."

 Chapter 230 - Surrogacy

    The reason why Jian Kang Lu choose C country to have his wedding was not only because the country legalised same sex marriage even for foreigner, but also because the country allow surrogacy in legal term.


    Actually, there''s so many couples who are grateful for the surrogation method. It was not only intended for same sex couple, but also for heterosexual couple.


    If the heterosexual couple have body condition that not suitable for pregnancy, they will use surrogacy mother help to carry their baby for them. For example, women who were born without uterus, severe heart condition, autoimmune disease, and many more.


    Men also could benefit from it, not only for couples like Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang. For example, the men who have rare genetic or hormone disorders, or the men who are infertile from cancer treatment.


    Jian Kang Lu had asked for the surrogacy in some other country too, and he intended to let his little husband choose for himself.


    Bai Yutang had read the information provided by the agency, yet when he stepped into the agency office, he still had so many questions.


    There''s a reason why Jian Kang Lu wants to have an unknown egg donor and surrogate mother. He didn''t want to have moral and legal implications in the future if someday their children asked about their mother.


    It sounds very cruel, and many couples choose the friendly way. Such as asking their friend to donate the egg, and let them contact the surrogate mother to build the harmonious process of pregnancy.


    This is what''s in Bai Yutang''s mind also. He throws so many questions and arguments to Jian Kang Lu about this. He truly doesn''t mind if their children want to meet their mother or the surrogate mother someday.


    Jian Kang Lu only admired and adored his pure little husband. Bai Yutang truly acts like what his name means, a pure white person.


    Jian Kang Lu might look like a gentle and kind man to Bai Yutang, but inside, he knows and fears how humans could change easily.


    Even between parents or blood related siblings, things were not always pretty. How many cases in the court where they have a trial of siblings fight for inheritance? Or parents shamelessly slander their child to get benefit?


    Jian Kang Lu only wants to protect his future child from any legal problem who could latch a dark and deep scar to their children. Who could guarantee the surrogate mother or the egg donor will always be gentle and kind to them?


    And how if they also have children on their own? Does it not make them become half siblings with someone who they are not familiar with?


    This is Bai Yutang''s question to Jian Kang Lu, "What if they fall in love with their half sibling?"


    Jian Kang Lu calmly said, "They surely will know that they were born from surrogacy. For every partner they fall in love with in the future, we will ask them for a DNA test."


    This left Bai Yutang speechless.


    It might not happen, but in this world, only one thing which could be guaranteed will happen. Only death, one thing will surely happen to all living things in the world. The other is only possibilities.


    Jian Kang Lu coaxed his little husband well until he surrendered and followed what Jian Kang Lu wanted. A total blind surrogacy for both of them.


    Compared to the USA, surrogacy in C country is a lot cheaper, but has few restrictions. After two days going to three different agencies, Jian Kang Lu found out the surrogacy in C country would not allow him to have total blind surrogacy. The intended parent needs to commit to a relationship with their surrogate mother. This leaves him no option except to switch to a USA agency.


    Bai Yutang tries to urge his husband once again, "Let''s just do it here, gege.. I think it''s wonderful to follow the pregnancy process with the surrogate mother."


    Even though this idea of having babies comes from his mother, Bai Yutang knows he will love their children just like any parent in this world. Men do not have privilege like women who can conceive and have emotional bonds with their babies from the beginning.


    Bai Yutang resolutely doesn''t want their children to feel that they were born because of his mother''s request. He remembers how his father loved him so much, and raised him well. He wants to become a father who is as good as his own.


    He will not wronged their children. That''s why in his mind, he wants his children to have rights to know the women who conceive and give birth to them.


    But in this case, Jian Kang Lu resolutely doesn''t want to back off from his own decision. It doesn''t matter if their children are destined to become ordinary people. But what if their children were so gifted and became someone big?


    Just imagine a Bill Gates or an Elon Musk is born from surrogacy, then someday a lot of people claim to become their half relatives and want to earn some benefit from them? Or worse, if their children become public figures or politicians, and their half relatives turn out to become terrorists or criminals?


    Jian Kang Lu knows he might be selfish and paranoid, but he doesn''t want to give room for future disaster.


    Bai Yutang knew how hard his husband could be, he sighed and could only follow what his husband intended to do.


    They were flying back to their country and decided to use winter break to go to the USA. In the 5 months they spent before winter break, they already contacted so many surrogation agencies and finally settled with one.


    Bai Yutang was amazed with how this agency asks which egg donor they want. Of course they could not see the face or the name of the donor, but they could get a description of the race, height, intelligence, blood type, even their eyes and hair colour.


    "Isn''t it a little bit.. Racist?" Bai Yutang asked? He felt it a little bit awkward to choose the donors like choosing things from the market.


    Turns out, so many reasons are provided to let the intended parent choose their egg donors, or sperm donors. Many people who were not blessed with children and yet their beloved leave them forever. Some of them ease their sadness and depression by looking for donors with criteria close to their deceased partner.


    Or, for the infertile couple, they don''t want their children to find out that they were born from surrogation, nor did they not actually have their parent''s genes. So, the intended parent will choose the donor who is as close as to their own appearance.


    Bai Yutang felt this was reasonable after listening to the explanation from the agent.


    So, with a little voice, while lying in their bedroom, he said to his husband, "Gege.. Can I choose an egg donor who is similar to you?"


    Jian Kang Lu smiled and ruffled his little husband''s hair, "Anything you want, baby."


    Bai Yutang''s hand is still holding the tablet, reading the information provided by the agency. "What about you, gege?"


    Jian Kang Lu thought, once again, he didn''t have preferences nor want to choose. Thus he said, "I''ll let the agency choose for me randomly, how about that? No matter what, we still will love them the same anyway."


    "Okay!" Bai Yutang said.


    Jian Kang Lu looking at his little husband, his heart was full of love. No words could describe how the heart could swell from over love.


    It was clear that his little husband was not planning to have children, but now he was the one who was anxious and happily reading everything about surrogacy, pregnancy, and how to take care of their children.


    They have already been together for almost 7 years. It was not a short time, but Jian Kang Lu felt it was just like yesterday when they had their first kiss in a hotel in Boston.


    With 5 months preparation, the couple goes to USA to give their sperm and start the In Vitro Fertilisation process. For Bai Yutang''s sperm, they will do the Preimplantation Genetic Diagnosis first since Lu Hua''s requirement is for Bai Yutang to have a son. Meanwhile Jian Kang Lu didn''t have any requirement nor did he want to know the gender until the baby was born.


    The process is so damn expensive, yet Jian Kang Lu didn''t let his little husband know.


    After 6 week, the agent told them that the baby was successfully conceived. Bai Yutang''s baby was conceived earlier since the process is more complicated so they decide to start with Bai Yutang''s first before Jian Kang Lu''s.


    Even though they choose total blind surrogacy, it doesn''t mean they can''t have reports about the pregnancy process.


    Jian Kang Lu himself couldn''t believe he could feel a surge of raw emotion wash him away when he saw the first ultrasound pictures from the babies. To see that tiny little dot who will grow into a little creature from his little husband, and also his own, is a surreal feeling he could not describe.


    Since then, he diligently asked the agency to give them ultrasound pictures and videos every month.


    Looking at the pictures and the videos is their pure happiness in the middle of their own dissertation. Jian Kang Lu''s research is almost done. He speeds up the process, for he strives to finish and get his PhD before the babies are born.


    When the pregnancy reached 14 weeks on Bai Yutang''s birthday, Jian Kang Lu requested the agency to hold the picture and videos of his own, only to send Bai Yutang''s.


    "Isn''t it wonderful to be surprised later when we see the baby? No matter what gender or how they look, we still love them the same." He said.


    Bai Yutang diligently sending the list of classical songs he politely request the surrogate mother to let their babies listen to it.


    Even though the babies were conceived by two different mothers, Bai Yutang hoped the siblings will have their bond formed early on. Because honestly, they will have completely different bloodlines.


    In July, both of them completed their postgrad. While Jian Kang Lu is still as busy as before with his research publication and working in the hospital, Bai Yutang accepts he needs to be unemployed before he starts looking for a job.


    Since they need to take care of two babies, Bai Yutang felt he can''t work before the babies settled.


    Lin Caihong elated and told the couple frantically, "Just move and live here first! I could help both of you take care of the babies. The room in the house is spacious, you could also hire nannies to take care of the babies! No need to worry, just work if you want to work, or you could wait until the babies grow up."


    Since they were both men without experience, and also it was not good for Bai Yutang''s career if he didn''t work, both of them finally agreed under Lin Caihong coercion.


    In August, Bai Yutang was busy accompanying Lin Caihong to decorate the empty room next to Jian Kang Lu''s room, which is Jian Kang Se''s ex room, to become the baby''s room.


    Bai Yutang had to restrain Lin Caihong to buy everything in the store. Bai Yutang almost vomited blood to see how baby clothes and necessities were so damn expensive.


    "Mother.. Please.. We don''t need to buy this." Bai Yutang returns the clothes for 1 to 2 year old babies. The babies are not yet born, so why do they need to buy these big clothes and even small tricycle???


    "Don''t you know that babies grow so fast!" Lin Caihong still insists on putting the cute dinosaur pajamas into the cart.


    With a great effort, Bai Yutang finally won the argument with his mother in law.


    In September, the babies were born. A 3,4 kg baby boy born in early September, while a 3,7 baby girl born three weeks later.

 Chapter 231 - The Babies

    Surrogate babies could be fetched by their intended parents since they were born. But babies are not safe to have the long hour flight at least when they are 3 months old. Jian Kang Lu was very sad and disappointed he couldn''t accompany Bai Yutang there.


    They both came when both babies were delivered, yet Jian Kang Lu spent each time only for two days to see the baby, after that he will go back to their country. Each trip will take 4 days. He was very tired and had severe jet lag.


    Bai Yutang was worried and his heart was very heavy to see Jian Kang Lu''s haggard face when he came on the day the baby girl was born.


    Jian Kang Lu has no choice, he can''t take one month leave, he could only force himself like this. Yet all his fatigue and tiredness was gone when he saw them.


    Jian Kang Lu believed he didn''t really like children. He could be nice and be their playful uncle Jian to the children of his friends and to his nephews, but he really believed he didn''t have the instinct to have children nor longing for them..


    But he could never be more wrong. The moment he saw Bai Yutang''s son, their son, his heart melted to see that wrinkle reddish face who slept soundly in the baby box.


    The round head with scarce thin hair, the faint eyebrow, the wrinkle on his forehead when want to cry, the soft little fingers, all melted his brain and his heart.


    Previously, he would nod his head and agree when his friends boasted about their baby''s nose or lips who resembled them as the parent, while his inner heart and brain worked hard to see where the parts who resembled them? All he could see was babies all looking the same when they were just born. Red wrinkle creatures.


    But now, he could see the baby''s nose and lips looks are definitely copies from his little husband''s. So cute! He could see how handsome their son was when he grew up.


    When he touched that soft smooth skin, and when he saw their baby drink the milk from the bottle, he felt all the world gone dimmed and blurred, only the little creature in his arm was real.


    Jian Kang Lu thought Bai Yutang was the only one who could make him feel like this in the whole world. But now there''s another who could make him surrender all his life just to make this creature happy.


    Who said men could not bond with their children? Clearly even though they were not the one who held the babies inside their stomach for nine months, yet their love could not be less than women''s motherhood.


    Jian Kang Lu already asked the agency to help him rent the apartment near the hospital where the babies were delivered for four months. Both Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang agreed that they will take the babies home when they''re at least three months old.


    Bai Yutang didn''t live there alone. Lin Caihong also said she will come for the first two months to help him take care of the siblings.


    That was the plan. Yet the fact is, Lin Caihong stayed with Bai Yutang until they were all ready to come back to their country. Even Jian Shen, who was already going back with Jian Kang Lu, finally came again and stayed with them. All because when Lin Caihong saw her grandchildren, she could not leave them alone, and Jian Shen also missed his grandchildren.


    Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu didn''t tell their parents that the baby girl was from Jian Kang Lu. Lin Caihong and Jian Shen just know that the babies were Bai Yutang''s. It wasn''t because Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu wanted to cover for it. They definitely will tell the family. It''s just because Jian Shen and Lin Caihong never asked.


    Bai Yutang offered Lu Hua to come and see her grandchildren also, but Lu Hua said she wasn''t accustomed to the long flight and process to apply for a visa. So they agreed Lu Hua will come once the babies settle in B city.


    For the baby boy, of course Bai Yutang asked Lu Hua to name him. Lu Hua had been searching for a good name for months. She named him Bai Jingting. It Is upright and tall, also the name of the mountain in north China.


    Jian Kang Lu actually wants to point out that Jingting is popular as a girl''s name, but he decides to shut up to avoid Lu Hua''s anger.


    For the baby girl, Bai Yutang asked Lin Caihong and Jian Shen, who were delighted and thinking hard about it. This event led to a rare fight and cold war between the husband and wife.


    In the end, Lin Caihong wins again. The baby girl''s name is Jian Ying Yue, which means reflection of the moon.


    Lin Caihong and Jian Shen are surprised to find out the baby girl will take Jian Kang Lu''s surname. They want to ask, yet they are also very happy. So in the end they didn''t ask and just assumed Bai Yutang knew about their desire to have a girl in the Jian family.


    Bai Yutang truly felt the hardship of taking care of both babies. Wake up late at night, interrupted sleep, thank God he didn''t work and all he does in this foreign country is learn how to take care of babies.


    Lin Caihong holding Bai Jingting in her arms, swaying him in front of the big window to bask in the sun. She asked her son in law, "Why didn''t you plan for them to be born on the same day? If you do that, you could tell people that they were twins even though they have different surnames."


    Bai Yutang, who became a baby expert after one month taking care of these siblings, was in the kitchen, testing the temperature for the milk and walking to feed the baby girl. "Gege doesn''t want to. He only wants them to be born naturally. It''s okay mom, we''ll manage."


    Bai Yutang skilfully holds Jian Ying Yue in his arms and feeds the hungry little princess who made a ruckus five minutes ago, waking her big brother from his nap.


    Jian Kang Lu called them through a video call. He reminds Bai Yutang and his parents not to hold the babies too much, afraid if the babies get used to it and become dependent on being held. He remembers on their internship days in the pediatric division, they were scolded fiercely by the nurses in NICU/PICU when they tried to calm the babies by holding them.


    Lin Caihong scolds his son on the video call, "So what if they become dependent? Me and your father are still strong enough to hold them all day long."


    Bai Yutang could only give his husband an apologetic smile from behind. He knows his husband must be tired, just getting back from the hospital. They could only have a few hours per day to do video calls due to time differences.


    For Jian Kang Lu, the four months separation is like hell for him. He was alone in the apartment, while his little husband and their children were far away from him.


    After Jian Ying Yue was born, Jian Kang Lu only visited them one time in October, on his birthday. Bai Yutang said Jian Kang Lu doesn''t need to visit them every month, better save the flight ticket for the baby''s necessities in the future.


    Honestly, Jian Kang Lu also feels the same even though it torments him. The surrogacy costs him half of his savings. More than 2 million yuan was spent for surrogacy and the apartment rental.


    When Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu''s parents went back to their country, Jian Shen snorted when Jian Kang Lu only bought the business class for five of them.


    Actually, buying three business class seats for Bai Yutang and his parents already costs almost one month of Jian Kang Lu''s salary. Jian Shen upgraded their seat to first class.


    He said, "My grandchildren are still so young! I won''t make them suffer by letting them sit in business class for 16 hours."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled and happily let his father pay for the upgrade.


    When Jian Kang Lu picked his family up at the airport, he saw his little husband walking with big luggage stacked on the trolley while his parents each held the babies. They all looked tired after the long hour flight. Luckily the babies fell asleep and didn''t cry much when they got off the plane.


    Jian Kang Lu hurriedly helped his little husband and stole a peck on his cheek.


    Bai Yutang also wants to hug him. He missed his husband so much. Even though he doesn''t really care about the people in their airport, he is still embarrassed to be intimate in front of his in-laws. So he only held his husband''s hand and pushed the trolley together.


    Old Ming, Jian Shen''s driver, was the one who fetched them. Jian Shen and Lin Caihong cruelly left Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang to handle the big luggage alone and left by themselves with the babies.


    "We''re going back first, don''t want to let the babies get too tired." With that short sentence, the car left in a hurry.


    "Look at my grandchildren, so handsome and so pretty!" Lin Caihong boasted to Old Ming.


    Old Ming actually hasn''t got a good look of this young master and little miss. He could only see two lumps held by each of his masters. But of course he smiled at them from the mirror, "Yes Mrs. Lin. They''re so cute! Why do they look like young master Lu so much?"


    Hearing that, Jian Shen and Lin Caihong laughed and boasted even more, "And they''re so smart! They already could see and ask us to play with them."


    What four months babies could do? This of course is a bias from over pampering grandparents.


    When Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang arrive at Jian Shen''s house, Old Ming and the housekeepers help them get the luggages down from the car.


    In the living room, Jian Kang Lu helplessly saw the babies surrounded by Jian Kang Se and Fan Mingle, Jian Ming excitedly kissed the babies, and their housekeepers admired these two little creatures.


    "I really think these two look like young master Lu when he was a baby! Especially young master Ting! Look at his ears, it shaped just like you, Mrs. Lin! Just took a comparison of young master Ting and young master Lu''s baby picture. My old eyes could not be wrong."


    Lin Caihong laughed, "It was not only me then. I also wonder why the babies would look like me so much. Maybe because they know i love them so much."


    Jian Ming was busy harassing Jian Ying Yue who was held by Fan Mingle by pecking her cheek and holding her hand until Jian Ying Yue started to cry.


    Fan Mingle scolds his son who is still being naughty even though he is already in 7th grade. "Ah Ming, why do you make meimei cry?"


    Jian Kang Lu laughed and walked to kiss his children. "Ah Ming, why don''t you harass your own little brother?"


    Jian Ming pouted, "My brother is not as soft as meimei."


    The one and half year Jian Hao finally could sleep peacefully in the baby box near the piano and free from his big brother harassment since Jian Ying Yue arrived.

 Chapter 232 - Time Is Precious

    When you become an adult, time flies like the wind. You can feel it brushed past you, but it was so faint you could not see until it passed.


    And time for a father with two children, well, Bai Yutang can''t even feel the wind brushing through him. It just disappeared quietly.


    Regarding staying in one house with his parents- in-law, his husband asked him, his friends worry about him, only his sister who didn''t care about it.


    Before the babies were born, Jian Kang Lu asked every hour, "Why don''t we buy or rent a house near my mother''s house? We don''t have to stay there."


    Bai Yutang really doesn''t mind staying there. He just felt living in a two bedroom apartment with two children really not suitable, and both of them are inexperienced dads.


    Buying a house near his parents- in-law''s house is almost impossible. There are no houses for sale in that area, and the price is high.


    His friends, especially Mu Xiaoya, asked every day. "Are you sure? Really? Living with in-laws could make a good relationship severe into a bad one, you know? I don''t think it''s comfortable. It was not as free as living alone."


    It''s true. If not because Bai Yutang worried they will harm the babies, definitely he and his husband won''t stay with someone else. They love their love nest, where they could freely kiss each other everywhere anytime.


    But they don''t have a choice. Their life is not their own anymore.


    The saddest thing for Bai Yutang was he realised they could not live in that apartment anymore in the future. Let''s say the babies could stay in the other room, what about when they grow up? They need to have separate rooms.


    For the first six years it might be okay. After that, they need to move.


    Building a new house takes time. That''s why, Bai Yutang decided to stay with Jian Kang Lu''s parents first until the siblings celebrate their first birthday.


    Bai Yutang stayed in this house to learn how to take care of his children. Yet he thinks that purpose is now impossible to achieve.


    This little prince and princess definitely will be pampered brat once they move out.


    The housekeepers in this house are all the old ones who work here since Jian Kang Lu is still a little snotty brat. Now they all become grandparents. Even two grandparents is enough to spoil their grandchildren to the skies, now imagine if these babies were surrounded by eight grandparents.


    Moreover, Jian Kang Lu hired two nannies for Bai Jingting and Jian Ying Yue. They will come in the morning and go home at night.


    With this small army around them, Bai Yutang even rarely holds his babies.


    Lu Hua came to see her grandson. Her face was stiff when Bai Yutang and Lin Caihong fetched her in the airport. But she still didn''t forget her manner, she greeted Lin Caihong.


    "Gege is still in the hospital, mom. He apologised that he could not fetch you." Bai Yutang took the luggage from his mother''s hand.


    Lu Hua had to admit his son''s tactic is good. She could not scold Jian Kang Lu in front of his mother, right?


    Her feelings once she knew that Bai Yutang stayed in Lin Caihong''s house were also a mess.


    Disappointed, for she feels her son is treated like a daughter in law instead of a man.


    Worried, for she was afraid her son would be bullied there.


    Envy, since Lin Caihong could see their grandchildren everyday.


    Yet, she also feels glad, for Lin Caihong treats her son well. The gentle and soft gaze when Lin Caihong talked with Bai Yutang was real.


    Lu Hua didn''t talk much, until she arrived in the house and saw the bright eyes and chubby cheek of her grandson. She looked at the baby girl also, her eyes reddened to see two pairs of eyes looking at her, and giving their bright smiles.


    "Ahh.. Ah.." Their little hands waving in the air, their legs kick the bed.


    Lin Caihong had washed her hands and walked with lips pouting, eyes widened, making the siblings kick livelier. "Ai ai ai.. Ah Ting and Ah Yue recognise your grandma Lu Hua already? So smart.. Give granny a kiss."


    In China, there''s different terms to call your maternal and paternal grandmother. Yet. Since both Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu are men, with no mother between them, it was quite difficult to differentiate the call. So Lin Caihong decided to just use english general terms.


    After holding the babies, feeling the warmth and the milk scent from their bodies, Lu Hua''s heart melted. Even looking at someone else''s babies used to make her heart soft, don''t mention her own grandchildren.


    "They really look alike." Her eyes still in awe looking at this similar sibling.


    Actually, Bai Yutang also felt weird. Definitely the parents are different for these two children and mixed blood from Jian Yang Yue''s face starts to show. Their faces are different, but Bai Yutang also felt they were similar and looked alike.


    Is this because they were raised by the same parents?


    Bai Yutang receives the milk from the nannies, he truly feels his baby care skill even decrease now. His original purpose might never be achieved this way.


    "Give it to me. Let me feed him." Lu Hua said.


    Bai Yutang could only see the two grandmothers chatting happily and feeding his babies. Even his role is now downgraded into a third party who only gets the milk from nannies and gives it to this two blind grandmother.


    Looking at her grandchildren, Lu Hua finally agreed to stay in Lin Caihong''s house. Previously she refused Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang''s request, but now she only wants to stay near her grandchildren. She only stayed in B city for three days.


    At night, they have dinner together. The babies sleeping upstairs. Lu Hua amazed to see Lin Caihong and Jian Shen dressed well like they want to have dinner outside. She started to wonder whether she was too shabby. Her son also wear white long sleeve shirt under the thin blue cardigan.


    The dinner also looks like a feast from a well known restaurant.


    "Do I need to change my clothes?" She whispered to Bai Yutang.


    Bai Yutang smiled, "No need mom. It is just this family habit. Even if they go nowhere, they will still dress like this in the house."


    Lu Hua now could see the rich families dramas on the television is actually accurate. She once thought the drama was exaggerated when she saw them eating with nice dresses, high heels shoes, pearl necklace, while her own family usually wear T-shirts and shorts when they eat.


    "Try this osmanthus duck. This is our cook''s signature dish." Lin Caihong cut the duck personally and put it on Lu Hua''s plate.


    Jian Kang Lu comes home when they''re in the middle of dinner.


    "Good evening mom, dad, mother in law. I''ll wash my face and hand first. I''m sorry for being late." He said.


    Jian Kang Lu''s plate and glass are already prepared at the dining table. Bai Yutang flips it and fills it with dishes that his husband likes. He also poured a cup of warm tea. He saw Jian Kang Lu wanting to walk upstairs and he said, "Gege, eat first. You could see them later. They just sleep, don''t wake them up."


    Jian Kang Lu turned his head and smiled to see his little husband. He walked to the dining table and kissed Bai Yutang''s cheek before he sat and started to eat.


    This is his instinct and habit branded to his soul. He forgot, Lu Hua sat next to Bai Yutang.


    Lin Caihong and Jian Shen already saw this hundreds of times, so they didn''t look at it differently.


    For Lu Hua, well, it was between shame and rage. She saw her son in law eating calmly and asking about the children today. She looked at her son who had red cheeks, and pretended the kiss never happened. Even though her heart softened, it''s still hard for her to see two men intimate, moreover the man is her own son.


    After a while, Jian Kang Lu just realised his mother in law stopped eating and looking at him. He scolded himself inside but his face was still calm and he smiled brilliantly.


    "Mother in law, how''s your trip? I''m glad TangTang told me you''ll stay here. Actually, three days is too soon, why not extend it? TangTang will be happy if you help him take care of the babies."


    Bai Yutang was helpless. His mother already saw how idly he was in this house. He didn''t have and didn''t need to do anything. There''s a lot of people who wanted to take care of their children until he himself had to queue if he wanted to hold his children. And yet, his husband sells these obvious lies.


    Lu Hua holds her temper, seeing how calm Lin Caihong and Jian Shen accept their own son''s behaviour. "I can''t decide yet. Later I still could come here again."


    Lin Caihong chipped in, saving his son, "Why don''t you come here every week? Or at least twice a month. You know babies, they will start to recognise faces and voices soon."


    "Mm.." Lu Hua could only nod.


    In another two weeks, Chinese New Year will come again.


    "Mom, I can''t visit you on new year, the babies just went through a long hour flight this month. Could you come visit me here?" He asked when they were going upstairs to feed the babies again.


    Lu Hua was smiling and still talking to her grandson, she then turned around to answer her son. Yet her attitude and eyes were so different when she faced her own son. "I''ll think about it first."


    Bai Yutang could only nod and smile, "Okay, let me know earlier to buy the ticket. It''s hard to book in this season. And ask RenRen too."


    Jian Kang Lu came inside and took his daughter from Bai Yutang. He politely chats with Lu Hua while playing with his daughter.


    He could only spend one to two hour per day with his children. Time is really precious.


    In the bedroom, Bai Yutang hugged his husband while the other read his resident''s journal for tomorrow''s journal reading. "Gege, i want to work again after Chinese New Year. Can I?"


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t take his eyes from the tablet, he only played with his kitten''s hair. "Mm... Just do what you want to do, baby."

 Chapter 233 - Alice In Wonderland

    Bai Yutang has been unemployed since he graduated 7 months ago. This time, he had a good resume, passed and got his architect license, and finished his master degree with an excellent grade. Overall, it''s a blinding achievement for a young architect.


    Liu Xiang himself will take a master degree this year, and he took the program which allowed him to still work while studying.


    After much contemplation, Bai Yutang decided to ask Zhen Guo whether he had a job for a master graduate like him.


    Took a master degree has a lot of benefits, but also has its own weakness. Seeking a job is not as simple as a fresh graduate.


    It might just be formality to ask Zhen Guo since Liu Xiang had told him that their department needed additional two architect, project managers.


    It might not be fair, but if Bai Yutang successfully joined Zhen Guo''s firm, his status will be higher than Liu Xiang, all because he had a master degree and work experience from two different places with decent reputation.


    "Will Liu Xiang feel bad about it, gege?" Bai Yutang asked Jian Kang Lu before they slept.


    Their kids are laying in the middle of the bed. These days Jian Ying Yue always makes a ruckus in the middle of the night. It was such a hassle for them to go to their room next door each time it happened. Thus Bai Yutang just put the babies in their bed, let his husband look at him pitifully since he can''t hug Bai Yutang while sleeping.


    "He will. But he won''t let his own feelings settle. He will swallow and get over it soon. The important thing is for you to act like nothing happened if he didn''t show anything." Jian Kang Lu said. He caresses Bai Jingting''s tiny shoulder since he can''t hug his own little husband.


    Bai Jingting''s personality is very much like Bai Yutang. Quiet, and have a gentle smile. At least, that''s what a biased father Jian Kang Lu felt.


    His own daughter is really a little devil who will cry every-time she is put down, cry when she is hungry, cry when she pooped, cry when she wants to sleep. Jian Ying Yue cried one hundred times a day yet the blind grandparents said she was such a lovely angel.


    "When will you have the interview?" Jian Kang Lu asked.


    Bai Yutang''s voice is so soft, afraid to wake Jian Ying Yue. "Next week."


    It''s been three weeks since Chinese New Year. Snow all melted, skies clear as spring clouds hanging in the vast starry night sky. The full moon reflected on a clear lake, while wind blew softly.


    "Mm, then let''s go shopping this week. The weather is starting to get warm, so let''s buy spring clothes for the babies too."


    Bai Yutang nodded to his husband, and they chatted for a little while before they fell asleep. Two hours later Jian Ying Yue cried in the middle of the night and awakened Bai Jingting too. The tired fathers each held their babies, while feeding Jian Ying Yue, checking their diapers, and coaxing them back to sleep.


    "Sorry gege.." Bai Yutang said sleepily. He knows his husband is tired, yet still has to work in the middle of the night.


    "What are you saying? Ah Ting is just surprised by this little devil''s cries. Is that right, Ah Ting? Mmm? Whose babies is this? So handsome. His father must be very handsome too."


    Bai Yutang''s eyes almost fell into a straight line due to sleepiness, his lips curved to hear Jian Kang Lu''s way of coaxing Bai Jingting. His husband said those words everyday, just like he said I love you to Bai Yutang.


    "Don''t call Ah Yue a little devil.. It will hurt her." He said while kissing his daughter''s soft hair.


    Jian Kang Lu could only nod and coax Bai Jingting back.


    At the weekend, Jian Shen and Lin Caihong also join them for shopping. In the shopping mall, Tang Yuxuan and the 6 months pregnant Fei Hong also join them. This is the second time Tang Yuxuan and Fei Hong meet the siblings.


    "I still can''t believe you have children before I do. How is it? Tired? Are you sure you''ll get back to work soon?" Tang Yuxuan asked Bai Yutang.


    Bai Yutang walks in the back with Tang Yuxuan, dragging the folded stroller belonging to Bai Jingting. Jian Kang Lu held Bai Jingting like a kangaroo in the baby carrier, plastered to his chest tight. Jian Ying Yue is in the stroller driven by Jian Shen while Lin Caihong happily chats with Fei Hong.


    "Mm, it''s been more than seven months since I graduated. It''s not tiring though for now. These babies had their little army who took care of them."


    Tang Yuxuan could only look at Bai Yutang with envy written in his face. He and Fei Hong had talked about this a lot. They couldn''t afford to hire a nanny like Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu. The money to pay the nannies better shifted to their babies future education fund. Nowadays, school is expensive. Both of them also still have to pay for their apartment. Each month they have to spare 8000 yuan for it.


    Both Tang Yuxuan and Fei Hong''s salary each month was not even 40,000 yuan. With how expensive living costs are in B city, they could only save 10,000 to 15,000 yuan per month. When the baby comes, how could they spare to hire a nanny?


    This led to Tang Yuxuan''s next question, "Say, don''t Jian Ge want to change his car? His old car was not suitable for a family of four like you, right?"


    Bai Yutang nodded, "How do you know? Gege indeed wants to buy a new car, a family car."


    Tang Yuxuan''s eyes lit up. "How about selling the car to me? We''ll only have one kid at least until the next 10 years."


    Second hand cars are cheaper, Tang Yuxuan and Fei Hong definitely need a car if the baby is delivered. They both believe taking public transportation is not that safe for children. And most of all, they know the previous owner of the car, who takes very good care of the car. It doesn''t matter even though the car is almost 10 years old. Jian Kang Lu''s car is a really good one.


    "You want to buy gege''s car? Is that okay?" Bai Yutang is afraid Tang Yuxuan will feel uneasy about using their used car.


    "Yes! Could you tell Jian Ge to give me a lower price? Or a three months installment. I need to prepare for HongHong''s delivery cost too. It will be better if Jian Ge sold the car to me before HongHong giving birth."


    "I''ll talk about it to gege later. For the price, it''s better if you talk to gege directly." Bai Yutang said.


    The group entered the big store providing baby necessities. Bai Yutang remembers how shocked he was when he saw the prices inside. He prepares to console Tang Yuxuan when they walk inside.


    How could this small piece of fabric used by babies to sleep cost 150 yuan? Don''t even mention the stroller in Bai Yutang''s hand. This stroller costs 4500 yuan, and Jian Kang Lu bought two. Lin Caihong also bought another double stroller with a similar price.


    Walking into the baby store for the first time is like Alice''s feeling when she walks inside wonderland.


    With Jian Kang Lu, Jian Shen, and Lin Caihong in the front, Bai Yutang knows his duty here is to restrain these people who will buy anything they feel suitable for the babies.


    Tang Yuxuan''s eyes almost fell off when he saw the same carrier which Jian Kang Lu wears now costs 1000 yuan.


    "TangTang, say, do you have second hand stuff you want to sell to me?" He whispered to Bai Yutang.


    Bai Yutang only looks at Tang Yuxuan. "I don''t. Just tell me what things you need for the baby once Fei Hong gives birth. We''ll get it for you." Bai Yutang himself could imagine how hard it is for a young couple to raise their children in this city. He could only be grateful for him having a wealthy husband and parent in law.


    Bai Yutang''s sharp eyes catch the movement of his husband. "Wait." He said to Tang Yuxuan and walked to his husband.


    "Gege, what is that?"


    Jian Kang Lu excitedly shows the cute blanket shaped like a monkey when folded. It served as a pillow when folded and soft thin blanket when opened. "Look, which one cuter? This one or this yellow duck?"


    "Gege.. We already have four."


    "But we don''t have monkeys or ducks yet."


    Bai Yutang firmly rejects his husband.


    "How about this one?" Jian Kang Lu pitifully looking at his frugal little husband. There''s a yellow pajama with a bee motif. The babies will look like little bees wearing striped pants, yellow tops, and hats with antennae on top.


    "We don''t have this one yet." Jian Kang Lu said.


    Bai Yutang sighs. "Just this one then." He then took some of the stuff from a pile of clothes and toys in Jian Kang Lu''s basket. "Return this bottle and plates. They already have dozens of plates already."


    "But this plate has a rubber base, it won''t slip, suitable for them learning how to eat."


    Bai Yutang''s eyes narrowed, "Gege.. They can''t even sit yet. We''ll buy it later when they can sit and start to learn how to eat by themselves."


    Tang Yuxuan had to admire his best friend who was even harsher than a real housewife. But to think again, usually housewives are the one who can''t hold themselves to buy tons of stuff for their children.


    "Crap! Yuxuan, help to watch gege. Don''t let him put another thing in the basket." With that Bai Yutang ran to his mother in law who piled a mountain of stuff in her basket.


    Jian Kang Lu was still looking at the pillow blanket and the cute bottle shaped like a duck in the rack.


    "Jian Ge, just take it and pay quickly before TangTang comes again. I''ll watch for you, and defend for you later." Tang Yuxuan whispered.


    Jian Kang Lu quickly did as Tang Yuxuan told. When they paid, Tang Yuxuan frankly said, "Jian Ge, i want to buy your car. Could you give me a lower price compared to market price, and if possible, a three months installment."


    Jian Kang Lu chuckled. So this is why Tang Yuxuan kindly wants to be a shield from his little husband''s fury.


    "Okay. Can you wait until next month? I''ll need to find a new car before selling the old one."


    Tang Yuxuan almost wanted to kneel and cried right now. He didn''t expect it would be this easy. "Okay. How much do you want to sell your car, Jian Ge? I need to talk to Fei Hong first and count our budget."


    Jian Kang Lu indeed already searched for information and wanted to sell his car in the same car dealer to make it easier for him. Trade the old for the new one. He knew that way already reduces the price for the car, but it saved him from the hassle. But since he had a buyer now, he felt it was better to sell it to Tang Yuxuan. He decided to lower the price a bit for him.


    Jian Kang Lu mentioned the price offered by the car dealer. Tang Yuxuan was surprised, the price was lowered compared to what he expected. Afraid Jian Kang Lu would change his mind, he shouted, "Deal! Three months installment!"


    Tang Yuxuan totally forgot his previous statement. This shout makes Bai Jingting surprised and start to cry.


    "Oh.. Shh Shh.. Sorry Ah Ting." Tang Yuxuan panicked and hurriedly coaxed him.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, "Deal. It''s okay, Ah Ting may be hungry. Is that right, Ah Ting? My Ah Ting is so handsome. Whose babies is this? Your dad must be so handsome, just like you." He swayed Bai Jingting and paid for the stuff, then they walked out from the store to avoid the others disturbed by Bai Jingting''s cries.


    Some of the women and store attendant look at Jian Kang Lu who coaxed Bai Jingting. They were amused, between admiring a handsome dad who was willing to carry the baby, and giggled to hear Jian Kang Lu praise himself.


    In their eyes, Jian Kang Lu must be the father.. They completely have no idea that Jian Kang Lu praised his little husband.

 Chapter 234 - Bao Bei

    Bai Yutang successfully coaxes his mother in law who wants to buy every hair accessory in the store. The result of his hard work is still a pile of dresses in every shape and colour for the little princess sleeping in the stroller.


    Fei Hong''s face was red when Lin Caihong gave him one bag full of baby clothes, blankets, and milk bags.


    "Auntie.. You don''t need to.."


    "No need to be polite. Aunties just want to buy these cute things but these babies grow too fast, they don''t fit these kinds of clothes anymore. Just make sure you take care of your pregnancy well and let auntie see your baby later on." Lin Caihong waves her hand.


    "Thank you, auntie." Fei Hong didn''t reject anymore.


    Suddenly the sound of a baby crying was heard from the stroller. Jian Shen quickly checks his granddaughter whose face starts to turn red from screaming and crying.


    "Ohh.. Our little angel has woken up? What''s up? Are you hungry?" Jian Shen took Jian Ying Yue and patted her back.


    Bai Yutang had taken over Jian Yun Yue''s stroller from Jian Shen and they walked outside. Bai Yutang took the milk bottle from the insulated bag and gave it to Jian Shen. Jian Ying Yue''s round eyes were still wet but her mouth quickly sucked the milk given.


    It''s like a chain reaction, Bai Jingting also wakes up and his mouth babbling, asking for milk.


    "Mmm.. Ah Ting is so smart. Even though Ah Ting is hungry, Ah Ting didn''t cry." Jian Kang Lu took the milk given by his little husband, and Bai Jingting also drank it slowly.


    Tang Yuxuan''s eyes twitched to see how Jian Kang Lu overly praised his son, and how Bai Yutang looks like he''s doing nothing to take care of these babies.


    "We still need to do groceries shopping. How about let me and Yuxuan go shopping, while all of you are looking for a cozy restaurant and wait for us there?" Bai Yutang said. He knows it was a little bit uncomfortable for people to shop while taking their babies.


    "Okay." Lin Caihong said. "Fei Hong is pregnant, you should take a rest too with us."


    Jian Kang Lu patted his son''s back while Bai Jingting was drinking. "I''ll go with you, TangTang. Let''s bring Ah Ting too. He stays in the house all the time, this is the first time for him to go out. Let him see more. Let the little devil stay in the restaurant with mom."


    They wait for a while until the babies finish their milk, pat their back, and go their separate way.


    Lin Caihong chose the beautiful tea cafe with floor to ceiling windows. The sun rays reach their table, yet the cold end of winter wind can''t harm the baby.


    When they were seated and ordered, suddenly a couple in their mid forties came to their table.


    "Hello, Mr. Jian Shen. I''m Zhang Ying Hao. I''m working in M capital securities a few years ago." They politely called. M capital securities is the last place Jian Shen worked before he retired.


    Jian Shen looked at them with a smile, "Hello. How are you? Still in M Capital?"


    They politely exchange conversation, and the lady looks at Jian Ying Yue who plays with Fei Hong.


    "Mrs. Jian Shen, is this your granddaughter?"


    "Yes. Come come sit down, why are you still standing? Just sit here if you haven''t got a seat. Lin Caihong gestured to the lady to sit next to her.


    The men start to talk about finance. Receiving permission from the couple to sit together, Zhang Ying Hao asked the waiter to move their tea and cakes to Lin Caihong''s table.


    For Zhang Ying Hao, this man is sort of a legend in the investment industry, just like Bob Farrel or Paul Tudor in Wall Street. He knew it was a little bit impolite to disturb them, but when else he could talk and discuss things with this legend?


    "How old is she? Oh she''s so pretty. Just like her mom." The lady looked at the pregnant Fei Hong and said with a smile while looking back at Jian Ying Yue. "You''ll get a little brother or little sister soon."


    Lin Caihong laughed while Fei Hong instantly felt uncomfortable. From an outsider''s view, she can''t blame people for thinking that Fei Hong is the daughter in law.


    Lin Caihong patted her granddaughter, "We don''t know what her mother looks like. This is Fei Hong, my son in law''s college friend. They''re going grocery shopping and will come here after they''re finished."


    The lady is confused and tries to digest this information. She was confused but pretended that it was nothing. Fei Hong really admires these people''s socialisation skills. Bright sweet smiles still plastered on their face, just like talking about nice weather in the beginning of spring.


    One hour later Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang came back, Tang Yuxuan following them. Bai Yutang holds Bai Jingting in the carrier like a kangaroo mom, while Jian Kang Lu brings the groceries. They didn''t buy much, since for food, groceries shopping was done by Auntie Ming.


    Looking at two strangers who sat with his parents, and the man talking animatedly with Jian Shen, Jian Kang Lu knows it must be his father''s friends.


    "Mom, dad." Bai Yutang said and sat on the empty table.


    The space is enough for Jian Kang Lu and Tang Yuxuan to sit, but since there are baby strollers, it will be cramped. Jian Kang Lu decided to sit on the empty table next to them with Tang Yuxuan. Fei Hong moved to sit next to her husband.


    "Ah, that is my eldest son, and this is Bai Yutang, my son in law. These two are their babies, my grandchildren." Lin Caihong smiled and introduced Bai Yutang.


    The lady is actually still a little bit confused. She thought the baby girl is Jian Kang Lu''s child, while the baby boy is Bai Yutang''s child with Lin Caihong''s daughter. But why previously Lin Caihong said they didn''t know the mother of the baby girl''s mother''s face?


    She praised Bai Jingting once she saw the cute baby boy with clear eyes and chubby cheeks look at her from his father''s carrier.


    "Baby, what do you want to drink? There''s the sakura tea you liked." Jian Kang Lu asked from the table next to them.


    "Mmm.. Up to you, gege. Silver sky tea is also okay." Bai Yutang answered while he took wet wipes from the bag and wiped Bai Jingting''s face and hands.


    One needs to admire the lady''s ability to adjust her face. She''s getting more and more confused but dare not to ask.


    They just drink and pad their stomach with some cake before heading home. Fei Hong and Tang Yuxuan reject the offer to have dinner in Jian Shen''s house. Before they separated, Tang Yuxuan reminded Jian Kang Lu.


    "Jian Ge, don''t forget to tell me once i could take your car."


    Bai Yutang looked at his husband who pat Tang Yuxuan''s shoulder. From their face, he knows his friend and his husband already settled with the car.


    The next day, Bai Jingting, who is usually calm, kept crying and made a ruckus the whole day. Bai Yutang thought it was due to Jian Ying Yue who also kept crying. Bai Yutang can''t even join the family lunch, he''s busy pacifying the babies since the nannies have a holiday on Sunday.


    Fan Mingle checked on the babies after she finished her lunch. She brought Jian Ming and Jian Hao with her.


    "Fan Jie, do you think they have a fever? I think their temperature is a little bit warmer than usual." Bai Yutang asked worriedly.


    "You have your lunch first, then take your thermometer to check them." Fan Mingle said while feeding a soft sandwich with egg and cheese to two year old Jian Hao.


    After Bai Yutang quickly finishes his lunch, Jian Kang Lu also goes upstairs with Bai Yutang and checks their baby''s temperature. It showed normal temperature. But Bai Yutang still feels uneasy.


    At night, his fear comes true. Bai Jingting has a 38 degree celsius fever, while Jian Ying Yue has a mild fever. Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu gave the fever reducer to them. Bai Yutang wants to feed it himself, since he never does it, Bai Jingting keeps rejecting it.


    Jian Kang Lu once trained in the paediatric division before he took his internal medicine residency. More or less, he has more experience feeding drugs to babies and kids. Bai Yutang learns once again, finally Bai Jingting swallows the medicine.


    Thirty minutes later, the babies finally fell asleep.


    "Gege, you go to sleep. Tomorrow morning you still have to work. I''ll sleep here and take care of them. Don''t worry." Bai Yutang said.


    Jian Kang Lu wants to accompany his little husband, but Bai Yutang firmly rejects. Bai Yutang took the warm towel compress on Bai Jingting''s body and placed the fever compress plaster on Bai Jingting and Jian Ying Yue''s forehead.


    Jian Kang Lu reluctantly goes back to his room, tries to sleep. His little husband is right, tomorrow he''ll be very busy. Actually, this next two month he''s going to be very very busy. If nothing goes wrong, he''ll get his associate professor title this year. With this speed, he''ll be a full professor before he turns 50 year old.


    After midnight, Jian Kang Lu awakened. A little bit disoriented from finding an empty bed next to him, Jian Kang Lu sat up, then walked to the next room to check on his little husband.


    Before he opened the door, he heard faint sounds from inside. He pressed his ear and smiled to hear his little husband''s voice, singing softly.


    My baby, baby


    I give you little sweetness


    To let you sleep well tonight


    My little angel, little angel


    Tickle your smile


    Make you like the whole world


    Hualalala my baby


    When you''re tired, there will be someone accompanying you


    Ah lalala, my baby


    I want you to know that you''re the most beautiful


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, because the original lyric should be little devil (Xiao Gui). Chinese people actually using little devil word as endearment to call their child, that''s why Jian Kang Lu felt nothing wrong by using little devil to call his daughter, but Bai Yutang who read too many modern parental books firmly believe parents nowadays should not following old parental teach who used negative words to their children. He believes children will have a positive attitude if the parents respect and praise their children for their goods instead of continuing to punish their bad.


    Jian Kang Lu slowly opened the door, looking at the soft light illuminating his little husband''s back while singing to their children. His little husband turns his head, there''s a soft shadow on his left cheek while the light shows his rosy soft smooth right cheek. The hair is a little bit messy, yet the eyes are still bright.


    If only words could describe how wonderful a life filled with mutual unconditional love Jian Kang Lu receives from his little husband right now.


    Again and again, his heart tickled. More and more, the love multiplied. Once a dream, fulfilled in reality, tastes sweet and sweeter.. Just like a mild warm current of wind fly him to the cloud, high and higher.

 Chapter 235 - Wedding Anniversary Gift

    Bai Yutang can''t count how many celebrations they have this year since the babies come to this house.


    Three months'' ceremony including a welcoming party for them, an exquisite lunch party to celebrate Bai Jingting''s first teething, followed by an afternoon tea party on Jian Ying Yue''s first teething.


    Another lunch party when they could sit for the first time. Another afternoon party when Jian Ying Yue could say ''dada'' and ''nana'' for the first time. And many many more small occasions which clearly don''t count as small for Lin Caihong.


    Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu had agreed to not use little father and big father to differentiate themselves as Zhen Guo suggested. Jian Kang Lu also firmly rejects using young daddy and old daddy as Sun Hongjia suggested. They agreed to use daddy to call Bai Yutang and father to call Jian Kang Lu.


    That''s why Jian Kang Lu''s mood turns sour when Jian Ying Yue''s first word is dada. It was really difficult to make children imitate the words father instead of dada or daddy.


    Lin Caihong of course was very happy to hear nana as the second word Jian Ying Yue could say.


    But all of them were concerned with Bai Jingting. The baby boy is very calm, to the point he rarely says anything.


    One month after Jian Ying Yue said her first word, Bai Jingting finally said his first word under Jian Kang Lu''s repeated effort. It was ''papa''.


    Papa is close to father, that''s why Jian Kang Lu instantly wants to change his address from father into papa.


    Bai Yutang of course lets his husband be happy with this small change. So now they call themselves daddy and papa.


    When Bai Yutang worked again for the first time in March, he was really thankful for the small army guarding his little babies at home. He really admired the working mom who doesn''t have good luck as he does. How do these women balance the work in the office with taking care of their babies at home?


    Even for Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu who had a small squad behind them, it was still tiring and hard to do. Especially when the babies are sick. It torture Bai Yutang''s mind.


    On the first day of his work, some people already know this man is an acquaintance of their God, the owner of this firm, the one and only Zhen Guo.


    Looking at the platinum ring circling his finger, they know Bai Yutang is married already. When Bai Yutang had lunch with his direct superior, he revealed the fact when he was questioned.


    "Yes. I''m married already, Mr. Lin. I have a husband though, not a wife."


    These statements of course silenced all the people on the table for a good ten seconds. But they know it was Zhen Guo himself who admitted this man into this firm. They''re not that stupid to offend Zhen Guo.


    If the owner doesn''t mind this fact, why should they mind?


    After two months working, all of them already know this man is really meticulous and good at his job. He might not have grand ideas nor magnificent designs compared to the main architect. But his work is really clean. Bai Yutang could quickly point out the problem which could arise on the field, give better suggestions, and also take care of the clients patiently.


    Bai Yutang is really suitable to work as the project manager. He also established good relationships with their vendors and contractors. He even introduced the good contractor he worked with before when their previous contractors were not available.


    Once, at the end of spring, before summer arrived, Bai Yutang submitted sick leave. When his superior worriedly asked, Bai Yutang honestly told him that it was his baby boy who got sick.


    "Your son?" His superior asked once again.


    "Yes. I''m worried my daughter will catch a fever from him. So I had to stay at home to take care of them."


    It''s confusing as hell. His superior asks Bai Yutang''s peers, and they say that Bai Yutang and his husband have one son and one daughter at the same age.


    "But they¡­" The superior wants to say that they are both men. How could two men have children on their own? Adoption?


    They told him that Bai Yutang and his husband are having surrogacy in the USA. Now the superior knows that Bai Yutang''s husband must be rich as hell. Surrogacy is extremely expensive.


    This fact is well known in the firm when Bai Yutang''s husband registered as their client. He hired Zhen Guo as their architect to build his house.


    Bai Yutang actually opposes this idea. "Gege.. Why don''t we just use small firms? Our house is not that big. No need to use Zhen Ge''s firm."


    "I want you to design our house too. If I ask you, you''ll have a double job, and will be very busy. Even now you only give me once a week ''ration'', what if you become busier? I will only get my ration once a month."


    Bai Yutang looked at his shameless husband. "Who is it when he''s busy, forgot to give me my ''ration'' for three full weeks? If not because I initiate and ask you to fulfil my right, you''ll leave me moulded, untouched for months."


    Jian Kang Lu hugged and kissed his little husband coquettishly, "It''s not good to hold a grudge. You need to let it go. Don''t let it corrode your heart and harm your body."


    Bai Yutang gave up at last. If his husband wants to burn his money, then let it be.


    Long time ago, Jian Shen gave his sons a piece of land in a good residential area near his own. Unfortunately both Jian Kang Lu and Jian Kang Se didn''t use it, they bought their own apartment instead of building a house on that land.


    Now, Jian Kang Lu intends to build a house for his family there. It was only 15 minutes by car to Jian Shen''s residential area. The place is also a high class area.


    Their old apartment rented out, while Jian Kang Lu sold his other apartment to Liu Xiang.


    Bai Yutang is actually a little bit embarrassed to act as project manager for his own house. It crosses the boundary line in working ethic. But the other is happy, since Bai Yutang as client and also project manager, means they didn''t have a fussy client.


    Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang agreed with Zhen Guo''s design to build a modern minimalist house. Traditional patterns come together with modern geometric forms in one striking design called The Cube.


    Zhen Guo laid the design as result of collaboration with the architect team in the firm responsible for residential design. It was Zhen Guo himself who sketched the main design, the team only elaborate his design to details.


    They will build a solid concrete block and chiseling the void until the residence feels simultaneously protected and open, all contained within a single outer shape while remaining connected to the outdoors.


    From outside, the house is defined by its geometry, looking almost monumental in form. The cutouts give it a lightness in terms of air flow, natural daylight, and weight. The structure itself is designed to be made of concrete and honed silver travertine stone, while black steel, off white stucco, matte walnut wood, and double glazed glass add textural details in areas like the central black metal screen and the walls that line the courtyard.


    Red thin paint will be the only colour strikingly creating the pattern in a small area of the house, to emphasise their ancestor''s culture in this magnificent stunning cold building.


    There are semi enclosed spaces both lush and orderly, featuring two green walls and trees adjacent to areas set up for outdoor dining, lounging, and also for children to play. Floor to ceiling glazing allows several of the interior spaces to look out upon this greenery.


    Some of the ladies who were fortunate to attend the presentation can''t help stealing glances at Jian Kang Lu. They all know this client is Bai Yutang''s husband.


    Who didn''t know Bai Yutang in this office? The only man who married another man. In fact, in their whole life, only Bai Yutang openly announced his sexual preferences and married the man he loved.


    Bai Yutang''s husband looks older than him, they heard that this man is Zhen Guo''s best friend. But.. They all feel yet not dare to admit, this man looks younger compared to their boss!


    Bai Yutang sighed to see the design. Even though he was involved in the project, to see the presentation and look at the whole 3D design is really different from supervising the project.


    His face reddened when Jian Kang Lu smiled at him then turned his head to Zhen Guo, "As expected from our Zhen Guo. I don''t have an opinion. Let my husband decide. This house will be my gift for our third wedding anniversary next year. Could you carve our name somewhere auspicious there?"


    Zhen Guo instantly pulled away his business smile and scolded, "Henpecked! Do you need to show off in front of TangTang''s co-workers?"


    Jian Kang Lu raised both of his hands, "No need to yell. I just stated the fact. What did I do wrong?"


    The serious participant instantly becomes awkward. While Bai Yutang''s face was burning, Liu Xiang nudged Bai Yutang''s ribs with his elbow, "Hey, please say you are satisfied and don''t let us change the design again. I haven''t slept for three days."


    The meeting ended fast, Jian Kang Lu only stated they needed to finish the house before July 15th next year, it was 10 months from now.


    Jian Kang Lu talks to Zhen Guo after the meeting, "Don''t forget to come to my children''s birthday party next week."


    Zhen Guo nodded. He will bring his family there. His own children are around Jian Ming''s age. Sun Hongjia and Luo Yan also will bring their children. The party will have a lot of children of the same age.


    Jian Kang Lu told him that his mother will celebrate the sibling''s first birthday in a garden resort, hired the organizer to rent castles and a lot of games suitable for children.


    After small talk, they intend to have lunch together. Jian Kang Lu called Bai Yutang, "Baby, do you have time? Let''s eat lunch together."


    Bai Yutang has thin skin, he doesn''t want his colleague to talk about how his husband kidnaps him after the meeting for private reasons. Yet, it was common for them to treat their client after a successful presentation.


    Liu Xiang didn''t want to let this golden opportunity go away, he quickly came. "Jian Ge, invite me too!"


    Zhen Guo''s second main architect looks at Liu Xiang with a smile, he knows Liu Xiang is Bai Yutang''s best friend. It is better for them if the client is surrounded by people they know, save their own skin from making efforts to talk and flatter the client.


    With this, everyone in the office soon found out that Bai Yutang, the man who married another man, has a pampering loving husband who gave him a 10 million yuan house as their wedding anniversary gift.

 Chapter 236 - Kindergarten Teacher

    The headache of having a new house lay on how to fill the house. Every small thing is a hassle for Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu who are already busy to death with their job and children.


    Due to Jian Kang Lu''s sudden decision to build a new house, they prolonged their stay in Jian Kang Lu''s parent''s house.


    Actually, some will have the amusement and distinctive joy of decorating their own house. Ask many women and men who will be very happy to personalise their future nest, they will all say the process is fun and meaningful.


    Unfortunately, for two working fathers who could only spend little time with their naughty children, the process only adds headache for them.


    That''s why, even though Bai Yutang could design his own house furniture, and also hold the title as the most stingy wife, instantly agreed when his husband suggested he use Fei Hong''s firm service to decorate and fill their house. Fei Hong is working in an interior design firm.


    Regarding the most stingy wife title, of course Bai Yutang had no idea he was called like that in the back by his own best friends and their wife.


    Liu Xiang as the main culprit for that nickname, unexpectedly meeting his sweetheart when he took his master degree. His wedding will be held in September, after the Mid-Autumn festival.


    The other reason why Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang were very busy was not only because of their work. The sole reason is Bai Jingting and Jian Ying Yue.


    Bai Yutang was really absorbed with his role as parents. He didn''t want his children to feel wronged even a little bit because they were not normal parents. That''s why, he always plays classical music to them, and also reads stories before they go to bed.


    Bai Yutang will cook breakfast for them personally, and dinner if he could manage to get back home before 7 o''clock. He always talks with them starting when he sees them for the first time even though the baby doesn''t understand his words until this day when they are already 21 months old.


    Bai Yutang used his time on Saturday and Sunday if he didn''t have to overwork to play with his children and taught them about colour, number, and alphabet. The toys he chooses are all educational toys.


    What he didn''t expect was, Bai Jingting could recognise all the things he taught.


    Actually, Jian Ying Yue''s development is also faster compared to children her age, but because of Bai Jingting, her development seems to be late, only her mischievousness stands out.


    Bai Yutang just introduced all the toys and taught his children as their playing activities just for the sake of educational entertainment. He didn''t do that to make his children become a prodigy.


    Jian Kang Lu still remembers one night he came back from hospital and his little husband was waiting for him outside, anxiously grabbed his hand and dragged him upstairs.


    At first, this beast Jian Kang Lu held inside was imagining all lewd things about wild spontaneous bedroom activity since they only do that three to four times a month. Jian Kang Lu had to swallow his disappointment when Bai Yutang pulled him to their children''s room.


    Bai Yutang propped himself in front of Bai Jingting who played in the thick fluffy rug. "Ah Ting, look, papa just came home from work. Can you show papa what you did before?"


    Bai Jingting was not really talk-active like his sister, but his speech is more clear and precise, unlike Jian Ying Yue who sometimes loves to talk gibberish.


    Bai Jingting just looked at his daddy with his big eyes. Bai Yutang points at the soft toys shaped like numbers. Only after Bai Yutang did that, Bai Jingting slowly moved and took the toys with his chubby short hand, arranging it from zero to nine.


    "And..? Show papa what you told daddy before."


    Bai Jingting points at the zero, "Zero is green, one is yellow, two is blue.." Bai Jingting kept saying that until the number nine.


    "And, what about the other?" Bai Yutang point at the basket contains the alphabet.


    Once again Bai Jingting arranges the alphabet and says it once again. Some of his pronunciations for several letters are still weird.


    Jian Kang Lu knew his son could recognise some numbers and the alphabet, but he didn''t know his son knew the order. He was as stunned as Bai Yutang. Bai Jingting at that time was only 18 months, not even two years old.


    At their bedroom, Bai Yutang asks Jian Kang Lu, "Is this because I chose that egg donor?"


    Jian Kang Lu shook his head. Genetics from parents might be involved, since Bai Yutang chose a woman whose appearance matches Jian Kang Lu with an IQ as high as 165. But, not all geniuses will give birth to another genius.


    On the other hand, Jian Ying Yue is extremely familiar with the cartoon characters in her story book. She often points at the picture and calls them one by one, or sometimes talks with her dolls in a reprimand tone, clearly imitating Bai Yutang when he reprimands her when she''s being naughty.


    Lin Caihong herself had to admit, even though she is giving birth to two smart sons, her grandchildren''s progress is a bit scary.


    Jian Ying Yue always pestered the nannies and her grandparents with many, many, many, many questions. She, as a 21 months old baby, is really not satisfied with her nannies answers. That''s why she loves pestering her grandparents, and her favorite is her daddy who patiently answers her questions in simple and clear answers.


    "Why is this flower red, daddy?"


    "Why could this dragon burst fire, daddy?"


    "Why does gege have a little elephant on his body?"


    "Why grandma Lu didn''t allow gege to play with my dolls?"


    That last question is tricky. Lu Hua extremely opposed Bai Jingting to play with dolls or wear anything pink. Even though Lu Hua didn''t say it explicitly, Bai Yutang knows the answer.


    Lu Hua didn''t want Bai Jingting to become a cutsleeve like him and his husband.


    Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu never thought that was necessary to differentiate their gender like that. What their children want to be, they will not prevent them from it, as long as they are not harming someone else.


    Why Jian Ying Yue doesn''t like to ask her papa? Well, her papa often gets distracted and teases her daddy instead. Jian Ying Yue, who is accustomed to being a sole star and centre of affection, doesn''t like it if someone she asked didn''t answer her seriously.


    Jian Ying Yue''s questions are so many, but easy to answer. For Bai Jingting, it''s a different case. He is a quiet boy, but his question is giving Bai Yutang a headache.


    For example, the storybook Bai Yutang read for them sometimes in English, but most of them in Chinese. Jian Ying Yue solely focuses on the picture.


    One day, Bai Jingting suddenly brought two different story books and asked Bai Yutang, "Daddy, why is this and that different?"


    Bai Yutang thought his son asking about the story, so he explained it slowly to his son. But he was once again surprised when his son opened the book and pointed, "No, I''m asking why this one is different from this one. This is D, R, A, G, O, N. But in this one, why have so many strokes?"


    The strokes Bai Jingting means are the Chinese characters.


    To satisfy his son''s curiosity, Bai Yutang bought stacks of cards containing the Chinese characters to teach kids how to read it. Also, he needs to think hard about how to answer why there are so many alphabet and languages in this world. How to explain this to a 21 months old kid???


    Being a parent turned Bai Yutang into a kindergarten teacher. He even bought and read books for kindergarten teachers, how to teach children patiently, and also how to answer their bizarre questions. He often calls Fan Mingle to consult with her.


    "Your children are really gifted. My sons are not that smart, I''m not sure I could give you the right answer on how to handle them." Fan Mingle seriously said.


    Bai Yutang didn''t give up. He often searches on the internet and buys a bunch of parenting books.


    Looking at his little husband being so serious, patiently teaching and answering their children''s questions, how could Jian Kang Lu didn''t fall in love again and again with him?


    It''s easy to pick someone''s fault, drift a couple apart because of their differences. Yet, Jian Kang Lu felt their differences complement each other. Rather than finding your partner''s fault, why not cherish their strength instead?


    With a part time job as a kindergarten teacher, Bai Yutang has no energy to design their own house.


    Fei Hong is delighted to get Bai Yutang as her firm''s client. Moreover, to design the interior of a house designed by Zhen Guo!


    Bai Yutang told Fei Hong he planned to have the children stay in one room until they were big enough to have their own room. With that, the two rooms are left empty with basic furniture, one room as their master bedroom, and one as their children''s room. In the future, the children''s room will be changed into their study room once they have their own room.


    The house is finished before July 15th, but not fully furnished yet since their customised furniture is still being made and not yet finished. It delayed Jian Kang Lu''s plan to move to their new house at their third wedding anniversary.


    Bai Yutang had to coax his husband for him not to be disappointed.


    The happiest of course were Lin Caihong and Jian Shen. Actually, the delay of their furniture making is precisely because of Lin Caihong. To save his time, Bai Yutang nods his head when Lin Caihong wants to go with him to the meeting with Fei Hong''s firm.


    What Lin Caihong and Jian Shen never lack is money. Her requirement is very very high. Bai Yutang often pulls his mother in law''s hand and regrets his choice to allow his mother in law to come to this meeting.


    "Mother.." He whispered.


    Lin Caihong just waved her hands, "Change this into a genuine sandalwood for the children''s flooring, and rosewood for their furniture."


    Bai Yutang truly wants to vomit blood. He knows how expensive the wood is, and it will delay them if they change the flooring for the children''s room, since the original flooring was chosen by him when the house was built.


    And what Lin Caihong means with children''s rooms is all three rooms which will be used by the children in the future.


    "Why? It will be my housewarming gift for my grandchildren. I have money. Who else would I want to spend my money on if not for my grandchildren?"


    Bai Yutang had to admit, Lin Caihong and his husband are truly a pair of mother and son. Their words are even so similar.


    One needs to know that Jian Shen truly makes a lot of money. His salary as a CEO before he retired was 400,000 yuan per month, but he could make 60 million to 100 yuan per year from his bonus. After all, he gives the biggest contribution for expanding the investment for their clients in the company. Just look at the top CEO in wall street companies, they could make 15 to 25 million dollars per year from their bonus alone.


    That''s why Jian Kang Lu could become a classmate with Sun Hongjia.


    Jian Kang Lu often joked with his little husband that he was the poorest person in his family, compared to Jian Shen and Jian Kang Se.


    Fei Hong of course smiling and flattering Lin Caihong more and more. She silently gave Bai Yutang a thumbs up to bring this wealth goddess.. The more expensive this project will be, the bigger her bonus will be, since she was the one who brought this client here.

 Chapter 237 - Shopping Time

    Bai Yuren is going to get married.


    The wedding is planned for March, where the weather is warm but the wind is still cool. They want to have a small wedding, in a cheap wedding hall, and invite all their family and friends.


    Bai Yuren actually planned to wait for another year before getting married, waiting for He Zheng to finish his residency. But Lu Hua pesters her, hinting she wants another grandchildren.


    Actually, Lu Hua is afraid Bai Yuren will delay her marriage and pregnancy. She heard women above thirty will have a higher chance of complications when she gives birth. Lu Hua is wise not to talk about it to the doctor''s couple, since she knows they will give a million reasons to deny her opinion.


    After all, Lu Hua gave birth to Bai Yutang when she was 24 years old. She just doesn''t want her daughter to start having a family later compared to girls around her age.


    "Look, YingYing got married last year and now she''s pregnant. Even your brother had children when he was 29." Lu Hua said.


    Bai Yuren is speechless. She really wants to say that her brother is having children because Lu Hua asked for it, but she decides to keep her mouth shut.


    Can''t take Lu Hua''s ranting anymore, Bai Yuren just asks He Zheng to marry her. This almost made He Zheng admitted to hospital because he was choked by the meatball he was going to chew. Luckily the meatball didn''t successfully choke him.


    After marriage, He Zheng will move to live with Bai Yuren and Lu Hua. The house still on Bai Haoran''s name when he passed away and changed into Lu Hua''s name after it. Lu Hua once asked Bai Yutang what he gonna do, since the house should be divided into Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren''s name once she died.


    Bai Yutang said, "Just give it to RenRen mom, take it as her dowry."


    With that, Lu Hua planned to change it before Bai Yuren got married.


    The two families planned to meet for the first time talking about the wedding in winter, before Christmas. Lu Hua initially wanted to say Bai Yutang was not allowed to bring Jian Kang Lu.


    It was Bai Yuren who reminded her, "Mom.. You say you won''t oppose Gege and Jian Ge anymore once they have children."


    Lu Hua was silent before she said, "I''m afraid He Zheng''s family will look down on you because of that."


    Lu Hua also wanted to say, "What if He Zheng''s family is against your marriage?" But Lu Hua didn''t say it.


    Bai Yuren only sighed, "Mom, they know already. I told He Zheng''s uncle before."


    So, on cold December, before Christmas, Bai Yutang planned to come to W city with his family of four. This is the first time they ride a plane since they arrived in this country. No need to say how this makes Jian Ying Yue excited.


    She keeps jumping and asks her daddy a million times a day, when they will ride a plane. She dragged her little bag everywhere, and kept revising her stuff there. She pestered the nanny to arrange her wardrobe for her to choose which dress to bring and tried her accessories again and again.


    Bai Yutang is really speechless and wonders why a two year old girl has a thousand times more energy than him.


    "Princess dress, princess dress!!! Daddy, let''s go shopping! I want to choose a new dress!"


    Looking at her granddaughter who was hopping like a wild rabbit around the living room really lightened up Lin Caihong''s mood.


    "Why didn''t Ah Yue ask granny Lin to go shopping?" She said.


    Jian Ying Yue ran to her granny Lin and jumped next to her. She stood up, put her hands behind, swaying her body left and right. Clearly her strategy, asking for sympathy.


    Then she said with round eyes, her voice sounded heavy and aggrieved. "Daddy says I''m not allowed to ask granny Lin to buy things for me like last time, or he will take away all my princess dresses."


    Bai Yutang choked and wondered where this little girl who looked cute and innocent learned to tattletale. He didn''t say that! He just said that Jian Ying Yue is not allowed to pester her granny Lin to buy a bunch of things for her, since her wardrobe will explode and her dresses will all be ruined if she bought too many.


    People need to know that this little girl''s wardrobe is even larger than him and his husband''s wardrobe!


    Fan Mingle laughed so much until her stomach hurts, especially to see Bai Yutang''s red face. "Poor our little princess. Let''s go shopping with aunt and granny Lin, okay? Does Ah Yue prefer to go shopping with us or with daddy?"


    Jian Ying Yue looked at Fan Mingle, then looked at Bai Yutang with a fearful face.


    If Bai Yutang needs to guess what Jian Ying Yue''s biggest talent is, he will say immediately that her acting capability is number one in this country.


    Lin Caihong held her granddaughter then put her on her lap. "It''s okay, tell granny Lin. Daddy won''t get mad."


    Jian Ying Yue has a face with mixed blood characteristics. Her eyes are so round, shaped like an almond. People often say her eyes definitely will look like peach blossom eyes once she grows up, just like her papa. The orb inside those eyes are light brown with speckles of gold.


    It makes her look so docile. Her little hands opened and gave her granny Lin a hug, then she revealed her white pearls inside her rosy lips mouth and smiled sweetly, "I like to go shopping with granny Lin the most."


    Bai Yutang reads that at two year old children like to play with toys and start to learn how to socialise with children their age. But why does her daughter learn and love shopping at this age??


    "Looking at her makes me want to have a daughter." Fan Mingle still laughed when she said to Bai Yutang.


    Bai Yutang gave up. "Okay, daddy will help auntie Ming to cook. We''ll go to the shopping mall in the afternoon. But you need to take your nap first."


    Jian Ying Yue gave her granny Lin a hug once again, her childish speech sounds so cute when she is begging, "Granny Lin will come with us, right?"


    Lin Caihong caresses her granddaughter''s soft cheek, "Yes. We''ll go together."


    After achieving her purpose, Jian Ying Yue kissed her granny''s Lin, "Yaay! Granny Lin is the best." Then she jumps and runs outside, wanting to pester and play with Jian Ming and Jian Hao outside.


    "Wear your jacket!" Bai Yutang yells and runs to catch his daughter.


    Jian Kang Lu also went outside, bringing Bai Jingting with him, to play together with the other two boys. He didn''t allow Bai Jingting to play inside on Sunday.


    He actually worried about this son of theirs. They know Bai Jingting is gifted. He likes to learn how to read. It was like some sort of game for him. Guessing what character is written on the card. But.. His true talent is on numbers.


    For six days a week, Bai Jingting likes to play with his cards and numbers. A two year old child who can do addition and subtraction, likes to play with numbers instead of playing outside, it makes Jian Kang Lu afraid it will affect his emotional development.


    Luckily, luckily, luckily, Bai Jingting has Jian Ying Yue. If not because of Jian Ying Yue, his son might not want to step out of his room at all as long as he could play with his lego, cards containing Chinese characters, and numbers.


    Bai Yutang plans to introduce him to a musical instrument like piano, but Jian Kang Lu prevents him. Jian Kang Lu didn''t want to isolate Bai Jingting''s world even more. He wants his son to play outside, appreciate nature and physical activity.


    After lunch and napping, Jian Ying Yue excitedly took her bath and asked her daddy to braid her short hair.


    Yes.. Bai Yutang learns how to braid hair for the sake of his daughter. For unknown reasons, even though the nannies could braid her hair better, Jian Ying Yue loves her daddy to do it for her the most.


    Jian Ying Yue''s hair also has hints of a brownish gold tone even though it''s almost black. It makes her skin look fair. If this little princess is not playing under the sun seven days a week, she really will have fair pink skin. But Jian Kang Lu prefers the healthy darker tone of skin Jian Ying Yue has now.


    When they arrive at the shopping mall, Bai Yutang needs to watch for his daughter closely, or else she will wildly run and bump into many people like last time they went shopping. Bai Yutang didn''t believe in his husband to watch for Jian Ying Yue, since his husband will let their daughter run and bump then fall.


    Jian Kang Lu said, "It''s okay for her to bump and fall, or else, how do she know that it was dangerous and bad?"


    Before they have children, Bai Yutang rarely argues with Jian Kang Lu. After having children, their argument increased a thousand fold.


    First floor of the shopping mall is filled with expensive luxurious brands. Bai Yutang really opposed the idea of his children having branded clothes and stuff, yet Lin Caihong loved showering her grandchildren with money.


    Fan Mingle and her family also join them. The store was immediately crowded with Jian''s family. The store attendant recognised Lin Caihong, Fan Mingle, and Bai Yutang immediately. His sweet smile bloomed like red roses in spring.


    "Mrs. Lin, Mrs. Fan, Mr. Bai! Oooh.. Is this your grandchildren, Mrs. Lin? They are all so cute! You came in at the right time, we have new things in store, not yet displayed. Would you take a look?"


    Bai Jingting didn''t like to go shopping, but he knew his sister liked it. He endured it. Even though he didn''t like his grandma and his aunt to make him stand up, he let them stick those clothes to his body until they were satisfied with their choices.


    His papa promised him a new lego if he plays outside today. So he endured it.


    Jian Ying Yue, as usual, started to blabber and choose things she liked. Bai Jingting was fascinated with shape and numbers, so he took liberty looking at the letters and numbers around him.


    Bai Yutang is having an argument with his daughter, only letting her choose one thing from this store. Bai Yutang knows Lin Caihong will enter every single store on this floor and buy things for her granddaughter.


    "But I like this, and this, and also this. I don''t have this colour yet, daddy. Please please please¡­"


    Bai Jingting listened to their argument and heard the prices for these things from Lin Caihong''s conversation with the store attendant. He was annoyed with his sister. The longer she argues with their daddy, the longer he needs to endure.


    He said to his sister, "You dummy. If you bought these three, granny Lin will have to pay 36,500 yuan. Daddy told us we couldn''t buy things more than 1000 yuan."


    Bai Yutang wants to shed tears hearing his son defend him. Lin Caihong laughs when she sees her grandchildren start to bicker with each other.


    "I hate gege! This is from granny! Not from daddy!"


    The store attendant was astonished, he even forgot to close his hanging mouth. He checked the price of three things Jian Ying Yue points, a dress, a shoes, and a bag. He then calculated himself. It was exactly like this small boy said.


    He gulped, "Mrs. Lin.. Your grandson.. Wow.. How old is he?"


    Lin Caihong smiled, "Two years old. Isn''t he smart?"


    The store attendant even forgot to praise this golden customer. Smart? Smart??? His two years nephew can''t even recognise the number yet!

 Chapter 238 - Bai Yurens Wedding

    Bai Yuren''s wedding is crowded with all their family and friends. A lot of their families who they rarely meet also come.


    Bai Yuren''s and He Zheng''s family is ordinary. Bai Yuren''s big family in fact are in lower economic status compared to He Zheng''s big family. A typical common family in this country.


    This is the first time for He Zheng''s big family to meet Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu. At first they were just mesmerized to look at two handsome men holding their cute children. They questioned, where is the mother? They almost choked when they heard that He Zheng''s brother-in-law is a cutsleeve.


    So, no need to speak about Bai Yutang''s status to have a husband instead of wife in his own big family, it causes hidden turbulence on the wedding day.


    Some of them clacking their tongues, lamented how shameful, truly inappropriate for this family proudly showed their dirty deeds. Some of Lu Hua''s relatives mock her on her back.


    "Poor Lu Hua. After her husband died, she needed to work in the kitchen. I remember she used to stand so proud, thinking of herself like a noble lady. Didn''t know that her son is a cutsleeve for years. What is she thinking, allowing her son to marry another man? Peh peh peh. If it was me, I won''t even acknowledge him again as my son."


    Suddenly they forgot, just last year they came to Lu Hua''s door to borrow some money.


    Lu Hua just thickens her face, focusing on her daughter''s wedding. What she could not hear won''t hurt her. She smiled and greeted the relatives and Bai Haoran''s old colleagues, as well as paying attention to the two big families.


    This is the second time for Bai Yutang maternal grandparents to meet their great grandchildren. Bai Yutang previously invited them several times to come to B city, but they refused. Old people''s hearts could be as hard as stone, but when they saw cute children, their hearts suddenly turned to be as soft as butter.


    Even though they still ignore Jian Kang Lu, they quickly attach themselves to these two children. Sometimes, they even forgot they were supposed not to talk to Jian Kang Lu. Their tongues slipped, asking Jian Kang Lu several questions regarding their great grandchildren.


    It''s hard for the guests not to stare at these phenomenal couples. Even without the luxurious clothes, Jian Kang Lu''s face himself is standing out from the crowd. Just like placing a beautiful blooming white lily among wilted grass.


    Moreover, he held two cute children. The little girl whose face is exceptionally pretty, wearing an equally pretty dress. This little girl even looks better than the child star they saw on television.


    Even though the wedding was cheap and small, Jian Kang Lu gifted Bai Yuren to choose her wedding dress, He Zheng''s wedding suit, Lu Hua''s dress, and He Zheng''s uncle''s family in a luxurious designer boutique in W city.


    Jian Kang Lu told Bai Yuren they will also order suits for themselves, and clothes for their children, so the main family will have uniform dress and suits.


    "Let me handle the bill with the store. Take it as my wedding gift to you." Jian Kang Lu said.


    He Zheng chose his uncle as replacement for his deceased parents. When Bai Yuren goes there to meet the designer herself, He Zheng''s aunt is really worried this will drain this soon to be married couple''s savings.


    "Why don''t we rent the dress and suits? It''s cheaper." She whispered to Bai Yuren. She didn''t know how much these clothes would be, but she was 1000% sure it was expensive as hell.


    "Don''t worry, this will be paid by my brother in law. No need to feel bad, auntie. He has a lot of money and my brother stupidly doesn''t want to spend his money." Bai Yuren waved her hands while happily choosing the material for her wedding dress.


    The happiest of course was the designer himself. He didn''t know from which family this girl came from. He knows a lot of big families in W city, yet he never heard of the Bai and He family. It doesn''t matter though, the important thing is they order a set of wedding clothes for the couple and their family.


    Bai Yuren told the designer that she wanted the dress and suits for her family also acceptable to wear on other party occasions. It means the design needs to be luxurious yet humble.


    He Zheng''s aunt already met Jian Kang Lu when their family met each other for proposal. She still felt uneasy that Jian Kang Lu paid for her expensive dress, but her husband then told her to accept it. Their family would give sets of jewellery for Bai Yuren''s betrothal gifts. Looking at these material and expensive boutique, He Zheng''s aunt felt their set of jewellery definitely look shabby compared to these beautiful dresses.


    The beautiful dress she wore today invites several questions from her husband''s relatives who come to the wedding. They ask, "Jiejie, this dress is really beautiful. Is it rented or bought? Where did you get it?"


    Once she mentioned the boutique name, some of them gasped while some were clueless. The ones that gasped are from the younger generation who read a lot of fashion blogs and magazines.


    "Jiejie, is it really from there? Ready made or custom order? How much?"


    He Zheng''s aunt truly didn''t know how much this dress cost. Even Jian Kang Lu also doesn''t know. The designer gave the bill for the whole order.


    Jian Ying Yue especially liked her dress. It was having a traditional hanfu style on top with a fluffy skirt made from soft tulle below. It was the same design for her and He Zheng''s 15 year old cousin.


    Light transparent pink on top, with flower embroidery on chest and sleeve. The skirt was light on the waist and gradually revealed the soft pink rose on the bottom, with thousands of little stars sparkling softly beneath the tulle layer.


    Jian Ying Yue at first behaved since Bai Yutang told her no princess had ever been seen running wild in public. This makes Lin Caihong, who attends the wedding repeatedly caress her hair, braid and styled like a little princess. Lin Caihong didn''t pinch her cheek because she knew her son didn''t like people to pinch his children''s chubby cheeks.


    Unfortunately this decent behaviour of Jian Ying Yue only lasted for thirty minutes. Once she saw children her age running and playing with each other, she couldn''t hold herself and finally ask her papa with tearful eyes, "Papa.. Can I play with them?"


    Even at two and half years old, Jian Ying Yue knows that if she asks her daddy, he will say no. If she wanted to play, it was better to ask her papa.


    Jian Kang Lu looked at the corner where the children play, and he nodded. "Okay. Be careful and don''t fight with others."


    Once his daughter bolted like an arrow released from the bow, Jian Kang Lu glanced at Jian Ying Yue''s nanny who he brought on this occasion. The nanny didn''t need to be told, she already stood up and followed Jian Ying Yue.


    Jian Kang Lu looked at his son, "Ah Ting don''t want to play with your sister and her new friends?"


    Bai Jingting shook his head, and pestered his daddy again. Bai Jingting likes to play, but he often gets bored playing with children his age. He prefers to play with older boys like Jian Ming or Sun Linhong, Sun Hongjia''s son.


    Looking at the cute little boy who keeps asking bizarre questions to his father fascinates He Zheng''s little brother who is studying cyber science and engineering in W university.


    As the only main family left for He Zheng, He Zheng''s brother sat together with Bai Yutang, Jian Kang Lu, Lin Caihong, and Jian Shen. This round table could fit ten people.


    Right now he heard once again this little boy asking his flustered daddy.


    "Daddy, where did that water come from?" He pointed at the small fountain. "Why does the water keep running, daddy? I want to look at it closer, daddy."


    Actually, his papa could answer Bai Jingting''s question better if they were at their own home. But if they were outside, his papa would urge him to play together with his sister.


    Jian Kang Lu took Bai Jingting''s hand, "Your daddy is busy. Why don''t you go with me?"


    Bai Jingting shook his head again, "I want to go with daddy." His eyes are watery, look so pitiful.


    He Zheng''s brother noticed that this little boy is really sharp. He also knows Bai Yutang needs to entertain the guests. He then volunteers himself. "How about big brother? Do you want to go with big brother to look at the fountain?"


    Bai Jingting looked at the man, then looked at his papa. Once he saw his papa nod, he accepted that big hand and walked together to the fountain.


    He Zheng''s brother actually didn''t go well with children. What Bai Jingting asked, he answered truly according to his knowledge. What surprised him, Bai Jingting was fascinated with his answers and said, "I like big brother He so much. You didn''t lie to me like my papa."


    From that moment on, Bai Jingting will stick to him like a chewed gum stick on your sole. Asking millions of questions and dragging him everywhere.


    At Bai Yuren''s wedding, Lu Hua invites Mr. Han, her husband''s old partner in the construction company Bai Haoran used to own. The last time she saw them was two years ago, on the 5th day after Chinese New Year. Mr. Han used to visit their family every year. But since that day, Mr. Han never comes again.


    Mr. Han comes with his wife to Bai Yuren''s wedding. It actually surprised Lu Hua to see them. In these two years, they aged so much. Their body is much thinner, with traces of hard life paint multiple strokes on their face.


    Lu Hua can''t talk much with them. It actually surprised her when Mrs. Han called her one week later, wanting to meet her.


    Lu Hua remembers how her husband cherish Mr. Han, and he also helped their family a lot when Bai Haoran fainted in the office. Mr. Han was the one who took Bai Haoran to the hospital that day. She receives Mrs. Han''s visit with open arms.


    Lu Hua was alone as usual in the house. Bai Yuren and He Zheng at the hospital. The newlyweds only have three days leave for the wedding and already work again.


    Lu Hua looking at Mrs. Han''s stiff smile, ached to see her tired face. She looks like an old woman who didn''t sleep for days. Her eyes are a bit red, with puffy eyelids and pale face.


    "So, how are you and your husband these days? Is he unwell? I saw both of you getting thinner compared to last time we met?" Lu Hua asked.


    "Fine, fine. It''s just getting old. We''re fine." Mrs. Han''s voice is a bit hoarse.


    "What do you want to drink? Hot or cold?"


    Mrs. Han waved her hand, "No need, no need. Don''t bother me, jiejie."


    Lu Hua smiled and walked to the kitchen. She came back and served cold SuanMeiTang. "Try this, TangTang made it for us before he went back to B city."


    Mrs. Han just nodded and took a sip. It was really refreshing. After a round of another bunch of small talk, she asked cautiously, "Yutang... I heard he married a rich doctor?"

 Chapter 239 - Son In Law

    Lu Hua was ashamed. But she held her head high to hide her shame. "Yes."


    Little did she know that her voice betrayed her. It was a voice full of guilt and regret.


    Yet, it seems that Mrs. Han didn''t notice that. Her thin and small face blanked. Her eyes are hollow. Her voice is trembling once she gathers her mind. She came here for a purpose.


    "Jiejie.. I need your help. I.. I was truly cornered. You''re my last straw of hope."


    Lu Hua saw so many relatives who had this same opening when they visited her. She could guess what Mrs. Han wanted. "Are you having difficulties right now? How can I help you?" She gently said.


    Mrs. Han lowering her head. Her fingers are so cold, they grip the corner of her skirt tightly. "I.. We, we need your help. Could you lend us some money?"


    Lu Hua sighed. She was right. She can''t deny her heart is disappointed. They haven''t contacted each other for two years, and Mrs. Han only comes because of money. "How much?"


    Mrs. Han didn''t answer immediately. Her tiny shoulder trembled. She was choked from her tears when she answered, "We need 200,000 yuan. But.. But we know we can''t borrow that much."


    Lu Hua was so shocked to hear that. 200,000 yuan!!! Even his husband''s didn''t leave them that much money when he passed away. She wanted to ask why Mrs. Han needed that much, but she felt it will just poke Mrs. Han''s wound.


    But.. As a creditor.. She has the right to know, right?


    Lu Hua comes forward and hugs this woman who looks older than her even though she was three years younger than her. "Sshh.. Don''t cry. You could tell me if you want, but I won''t push you."


    Mrs. Han''s tears could not stop once it started to rain down her cheek. Her face was all red, she miserably cried.


    "My son.. My son will go to jail if we can''t pay. My husband will also go to jail. Why.. Why is our life so difficult?" Mrs. Han sobbing so hard it ached Lu Hua''s heart.


    Lu Hua remembers Mrs. Han''s son. He was two years younger than her own son. He was a bit fat and big compared to his parents. She didn''t exactly remember what he looked like anymore.


    "Why?" Lu Hua asked. "Don''t scare me. Why does your husband and your son need to go to jail?"


    Mrs. Han sobbing and told Lu Hua the story. She can''t keep her words and story coherently, yet Lu Hua could understand the main story from scattered pieces Mrs. Han uttered.


    Mr. Han founded another small construction firm after Bai Haoran passed away. He gathered some of the old workers to work with him. Mr. Han is a good person, he was good at his job. But construction businesses not only need to do a good job. They need to have regular clients. Clients who need to build good relationships.


    Without Bai Haoran, the amount of work they did was not good. But it was enough for Mr. Han and his family.


    Their son took construction engineering in a low rank university. Mr. Han hoped his son could follow his step, and secretly wished his son could do better than Bai Haoran. Even though his son is not as smart as Bai Yutang, but Mr. Han remember Bai Haoran always say that he also stupid, unlike his children.


    Their life is actually not hard, but definitely not as easy as before. Yet his son keeps asking for money, saying that life as a university student is hard.


    New handphone, new motorcycle, new clothes, money to play with his friends, and many more excuses. When Mr. Han finally limited his allowance due to their income decreasing, their son told them that he wanted to take an English course.


    Mr. Han agreed, he remembered Bai Haoran used to lament that he can''t make connections with foreign companies because he can''t understand English. Six months diligently giving course money to his son, they found that their son was lying to them.


    The most difficult year for Mr. Han and his wife was two years ago. The university expelled their son because he didn''t attend his class regularly, and scolded the professor who failed his subject. The university said their son almost hit the teacher who scolded him back.


    Right after that, an angry couple comes to their house, tells them that their son trampled their daughter''s innocence. Now the daughter is three months pregnant and they demand Mr. Han''s son to marry their daughter.


    When Mr. Han wants to beat his son, the young man throwing a tantrum, destroying their living room.


    "That girl is a bitch! Don''t know how many men slept with her before me. She''s the one who seduces me. She''s so cheap, everyone knows! Maybe every man in my class already tasted her body! Why do I need to be responsible for her? Huh!"


    Under this turbulence, Mrs. Han fell ill. The girl''s parents were not rich, but one of their relatives is in the military. The family said they will not push Mr. Han''s son takes responsibility, but they will do a DNA test after the girl gives birth. If it is proven that the baby was his son, Mr. Han''s son will go to jail.


    The young man who acts like a wild bull suddenly becomes docile, and agrees to marry the girl.


    Everyone could guess what kind of marriage was born under this situation. The young man is not happy, the girl is crushed. Don''t ever underestimate a mad young lady. Her act and words are even more vicious than the young man.


    Mrs. Han tries to treat the girl really well. She is also a woman. She was disappointed with her own son. But.. A mother''s heart can''t lie.


    When she heard the young lady shouting, repeatedly saying that her son is a useless trash, a drop out, a man who can''t give her monthly allowance as much as her parents gave her, Mrs. Han finally can''t take it anymore, she scolds the young lady who just gave birth one month before.


    That was the first time Mrs. Han scolded the young girl. Her words also mean, and hurtful. The girl cried so hard, and left the house with her baby, Mrs. Han''s granddaughter.


    One month after that, the young lady filed for a divorce to Mrs. Han''s son. Mrs. Han''s son needed to pay monthly allowance to the mother and daughter until the young lady one day remarried.


    Mr. Han already told his son to work with him in the firm. He thought, he and Bai Haoran also didn''t have a chance to study in university, yet they still could earn good money.


    Mrs. Han didn''t know what influenced her son. She thought he was finally getting better after divorce. He suddenly has money, and even goes to visit his ex daughter in law, flaunting his money. Maybe it was just to preserve his dignity which was trampled down by a woman.


    Mr. Han even praised his son for bringing a project to the firm. They thought their son had finally grown up. For a man, it doesn''t matter if he failed his marriage before, he could always look for a better girl in the future.


    Three months ago, Mr. Han and his wife finally knew where the money came from. Their own son is embezzling the company money. The firm is not big, the pitiful money he embezzled was enough to collapse their firm.


    Their son defended himself, he used the money to bribe officials to give them the project. He said the profit from the project is more than enough to pay the money back.


    But then, police come to visit the official and their son is implicated. They need to pay for a lawyer and everything. The firm is on the brink of collapse, and Mr. Han will go to jail.


    They try to sell their house and their car. But a house was not that easy to sell. After selling the car and all the jewellery Mrs. Han has, they still need a large amount of money.


    They try to borrow from their relatives and friends. But.. Who could help them? Some pity them, and donate a pitiful amount of money they have to help Mrs. Han.


    Listening to Mrs. Han''s story, Lu Hua''s heart also hurts and unknowingly, she also cries along with Mrs. Han.


    Mrs. Han''s face is messed up. She wailed, "My husband is already old. My son is still young. If they go to jail, how could my husband survive there? And what about my son''s future? And me? I just want to live peacefully in my old age. Now I might live alone for the rest of my life. I can''t even hold my own granddaughter. That family was not allowing us to come, saying we bullied their daughter so much. Uhuhu.. Why Jiejie? Why is my life so hard? What sin have we done?"


    Both women cried for almost one hour. Once they calmed down, Lu Hua wiped her tears. She took a deep breath, "I really don''t have that much money. I still have my private savings, but not much. Only 50,000 yuan.."


    That money was Lu Hua''s salary from working in the kitchen for years. Her salary is only 1500 yuan per month. Because her son was giving her a steady allowance, she didn''t even need to use her salary. Previously she saved it for her children''s marriage. But.. She''s so lucky, all her children were so independent, they didn''t need her money at all.


    Mrs. Han''s voice is hoarse. "Could you ask Yutang to lend us some money? I feel bad if you use your private savings, Jiejie. We accept any amount. We promise we''ll return the money to you once we can."


    Lu Hua has lent so much money in the past. Only a few people return the money to her. She already learned her lesson, when lending money, one needs to let it go. Take it as charity.


    Watching Lu Hua reluctantly ask Bai Yutang, Mrs. Han''s tears flow again from her red eyes.


    "Please, jiejie.. I saw that Yutang''s husband is really kind to him. I heard that he was very rich. I know this is so shameless of me to ask for 200,000 yuan from him. But we really need your help. Any amount, please. Please try to ask him."


    Lu Hua sighed. She promised to call Mrs. Han once she talked to her son.


    That night, Bai Yutang told his mother that he had his own private savings. He said he could only give 50,000 yuan. Give, it means Mrs. Han didn''t need to pay him back.


    "Take it as our gratitude for their kindness when dad is still alive." Bai Yutang said.


    Lu Hua knows, Bai Yutang could ask Jian Kang Lu, but both mother and son are reluctant to do that.


    The next day, Lu Hua made a decision. She gave Mrs. Han 75,000 yuan. The couple didn''t need to pay them back.


    "I hope this matter will settle soon, and Mr. Han doesn''t need to go to jail." Lu Hua said softly.


    Mrs. Han cried again, saying thank you again and again. She knows it''s impossible for Lu Hua and Bai Yutang to lend her 200,000 yuan, but she didn''t expect them to be this generous. 75,000 yuan is a big amount. Their own relatives are even reluctant to help them. Her own brother even said that it was good if her son could learn his lesson in jail.


    "Thank you, jiejie.. Thank Yutang for me also." She took a deep breath. Tears roll again, "He really is a good son. You''re so lucky, jiejie.. You''re so lucky.. I need to learn from you how to raise my son. I love him, we educate him, yet he is still like this."


    Once Mrs. Han went home, Lu Hua sat alone in the living room.


    Indeed, she''s so lucky. Her children grow so well, actually she felt she didn''t have that much influence as a mother. If someone asked her how to raise successful children, she also didn''t know whether her method was really the best.


    Looking at Mrs. Han''s story, Lu Hua also realizes her surrounding has so many unfilial sons and daughters. Her own relatives raise a bunch of useless young brat.


    While she has a good son, always filial, worked hard for her and Bai Yuren.


    Even though he didn''t marry a girl, she can''t deny her son in law was crazy in love with her son. Without her son asked, her son in law already fulfills all his needs, even taking care of her and Bai Yuren, also He Zheng, her father in law, and her own brother.


    She remembers how Jian Kang Lu shields her son, takes all her harsh words, even once bleeds from her rage. Lu Hua still feels guilty if she notices the scar on Jian Kang Lu''s face.


    Her grandchildren are living so well, her in-laws also respect her and her family even though their social status is like heaven and earth.


    Besides the gender, what else does she ask for?


    She, as a widow, just wants her children to live well and be happy.


    She, as a widow, only wanted to live peacefully until the day she reunited with her beloved husband.


    If she needs to choose, if.. She prefers Jian Kang Lu rather than her son marrying a girl who trample his dignity.


    That night, Lu Hua called Bai Yutang. "I want to visit my grandchildren next week."


    Bai Yutang was surprised, usually he was the one who needed to beg for Lu Hua to come. His husband once lightly said that actually Lu Hua wanted to come but was too stubborn to say it. It was better for Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu to lower their heads and make Lu Hua happy.


    "Really?" Bai Yutang asked curiously.


    Lu Hua frowned, "Of course. Why did I lie to you?"


    Bai Yutang hurriedly said, "No no no, I was just surprised. Okay, just tell me the date mom, I''ll book the ticket for you."


    Few moments later, Lu Hua cleared her throat, "Tell my son in law to pick me up at the airport. Just choose the date when he''s not busy. I want him to treat me to the peking duck we ate last time on your graduation day."


    Bai Yutang almost dropped his phone. He suspected he was dreaming or having an illusion.


    Son in law??? This is the first time for his mother calling his husband as her son in law!

 Chapter 240 - We All Are Different And Yet The Same

    What makes Jian Kang Lu afraid to become a parent in the first place was he knew he was never a patient one, unlike his little husband. He also felt he can''t be a teacher to guide their children. Even though his residents always said he could teach well, deep inside his heart he always felt he lacked the talent of being a good teacher.


    Loving your children is different from being a good parent to them. To raise children, love itself was never enough.


    For example, when his children turn three years old. A lot of children at that age are sent to preschool and continue to kindergarten when they turn four. Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang agreed to send their children to preschool at the end of winter, when they are almost 3,5 year old.


    There''s a lot of good preschools nowadays. Jian Kang Lu only chose a good one near their residential complex even though Sun Hongjia told him that he suggested the preschool his son once attended.


    That preschool is freaking expensive. Bai Yutang almost bawled his eyes out to see the leaflet, and rejected it immediately.


    "What kind of preschool has tuition as expensive as university students!"


    Jian Kang Lu only smiled and they agreed to send Bai Jingting and Jian Ying Yue to ordinary preschool.


    Jian Ying Yue was extremely excited. She chooses her clothes and shoes for a long time, making her nanny almost explode from holding her laugh.


    Because Bai Yutang needs to go to the office earlier and have an important meeting in the morning, the task of sending their children to the preschool falls to Jian Kang Lu.


    "Can you record them for me, gege?" Bai Yutang asked pitifully.


    Jian Kang Lu of course won''t let his little husband down.


    That night, when the couple returned from work, they asked the children about their experience of making new friends.


    "So, can both of you tell daddy and papa what you experienced today? Daddy and papa never went to preschool before."


    No need to describe what Jian Ying Yue rambled about. She talks non stop for 30 minutes explaining to her daddy and papa, pity both of them because her daddy and her papa never experienced preschool.


    "We''re not crying! We''re so smart! Because I''m a wise and beautiful princess, I didn''t cry. But there are a lot of them crying."


    "Oh, our Ying Yue is so smart, indeed a wise and beautiful princess. Why are your new friends crying?"


    "They say because their mommy is gone. What is a mommy, daddy?"


    This choked Bai Yutang and he hurriedly detoured the questions. "What about you, Ah Ting? Did you make new friends?"


    Bai Jingting were playing with his new puzzle cube, he didn''t even lifted his head and answer, "The miss who teach us to sing is kind, but she''s a little bit dumb."


    "Ah Ting.. What did daddy tell you before? You''re not allowed to call other people with that bad word. We agreed that you can''t play with your cube if you say those words."


    Bai Jingting instantly held his cube tight, "But she really is! She keeps repeating the same word again and again. She even says the number 1 as 7 several times and won''t stop until one of us says the right answer."


    Bai Yutang sighed, resentfully looking at his husband who laughed out loud and ruffled his son''s hair. His husband really is not helping him at all.


    Bai Yutang explained that the teacher was playing games with him, waiting for the students to recognise the number. "Just correct the miss if she plays another game. Follow your miss and help your new friends to play with her, okay?"


    Jian Kang Lu still laughed and put his princess on his lap, listening to her rambles once more.


    Jian Kang Lu rarely scolds and punishes their children, yet both Jian Ying Yue and Bai Jingting fear him the most. Bai Yutang seriously thought maybe he did not look masculine enough. He secretly wants to grow his moustache and beard because of this.


    Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang take turns sending their children to the preschool. Since they''re having children and moved to the new house, Bai Yutang bought a new small car by himself.


    One week after the children attend preschool, the teacher calls Bai Yutang, ask him to meet them. They don''t explain why and just politely ask him when Bai Yutang is free to come.


    Bai Yutang immediately took a half day leave and went to the preschool office to meet their children''s teacher. Not only the teacher attended the meeting, the headmistress was also there.


    "Mr. Bai.. I do love to teach your children, but won''t you consider putting your son into a special school? He''s so talented! Have you tested his IQ? Honestly we think it would be a shame if he studied here. We''re not capable of bringing the best for your son."


    Bai Yutang speechless. He already talked about this with his husband many times, and they agreed to let Bai Jingting follow a normal life. A life where a kid should have, play with normal children at his age.


    "Me and my husband know about it,  Ms. Hua. But we agreed to let him have a normal life. He needs to make new friends and play outside instead of playing with his cubes and numbers. Please continue to teach him."


    One week after that, Jian Ying Yue asks her daddy and her papa, why does everyone else have one daddy and one mommy, while they have one daddy and one papa.


    Bai Yutang can''t answer that. He threw the question to his husband. Jian Kang Lu thought for a while before he answered his daughter, "Let''s go to the park next Sunday, okay? Papa will answer that question there."


    The next Sunday, they went to the big park near their residential area. On Sunday morning, a lot of old people do mild exercise, the young run or ride their bicycle, some ride skateboards. A lot of people took their children to play, along with people who took their dogs to play together.


    The family of four laid their thin mattress. Bai Yutang opened his bag and took out the drinks along with their simple breakfast. He makes soft little buns with various fillings. Soft savory meat, sweet green beans, honey cream, cheese, and Jian Ying Yue''s favorite, soft sweet coconut. Bai Yutang also brings fresh fruits and steamed broccoli.


    Jian Kang Lu watching his children eating and chatting with their daddy. After eating, Bai Jingting asked him with big eyes widened. His expression was filled with curiosity.


    "Papa, you promise us you will tell us why we don''t have mommy."


    Jian Kang Lu brings his son to sit on his lap, and gestures to Jian Ying Yue to come and sit together with her brother in her papa''s lap.


    Once both children sat obediently, Jian Kang Lu pointed to a man who played with his golden retriever.


    "Can both of you tell papa, what is that animal playing with the man wearing the red hat?"


    "A dog!"


    "Mmm.. So smart. And.. Mmm, could you tell papa, what animal playing with the girl in black t-shirt over there?" Jian Kang Lu pointed at a girl who ran slowly with her poodle.


    "A dog!" Jian Ying Yue shouts once more, while Bai Jingting seems to be thinking. "A poodle." He answered after that.


    Jian Kang Lu didn''t correct both of them, and kept asking his children about different dogs playing in the park this morning.


    After he pointed out six different dogs, all Jian Ying Yue''s answer is dogs, while Bai Jingting only recognised three kinds of dogs. If he didn''t know the answer, he would keep silent. His face clearly shows his dissatisfaction from his lack of knowledge.


    "Now.. Do you see that all the dogs here are different? But they are all still dogs. Even that and that, is the same dog called retriever, but their fur colour is different, right? One is white while the other is brown."


    Jian Kang Lu then pointed at himself, "Now, what is this called?"


    Jian Ying Yue shouted, "Papa!"


    Bai Jingting slowly said, "Human."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled, "Yes. A human called papa. Now look at that one." Jian Kang Lu pointed at the woman who ran past them. "What do you call her?"


    "Human!" Jian Ying Yue shouted again.


    "A woman." Bai Jingting said.


    "Yes. Human, but with a different gender. That one is called a woman, while your papa is a man. But we are all human. Now, dog and human, are we the same, or different?"


    Jian Ying Yue looked at her papa, pitying him. "Of course it''s different."


    Bai Jingting didn''t answer, he knew his papa must ask another trap question.


    Jian Kang Lu raised his eyebrow, "Why different?"


    Jian Ying Yue explained slowly, afraid her papa didn''t understand. Like her miss in preschool said, she needs to explain things to her new friends slowly because some of them are not as smart as her.


    "Dogs have hair all over, while papa only has little hair."


    Jian Kang Lu almost choked while Bai Yutang laughed out loud. Honestly, the words his daughter said right now trigger painful memories for Jian Kang Lu. He still remembers how his kitten rumoured to have a relationship with a bald, fat, old man.


    "Dogs walk with four legs while papa walks with two legs. Dogs have long ears, while papa has small ears." Jian Ying Yue keeps mentioning the differences between dogs and humans one by one.


    Jian Kang Lu waited until his daughter finished, then he asked Bai Jingting, "Ah Ting didn''t want to answer?"


    Bai Jingting slowly shook his head.


    Jian Kang Lu hugged both of his children. "Yes, dogs and humans are different. Ah Yue''s eyes are so sharp, even papa can''t mention the many differences between humans and dogs like Ah Yue just did. But.. There are some similarities between humans and dogs. Both humans and dogs are classified as animal kingdom. Not a kingdom as the prince and princess live in. It''s called biology. Later when Ah Yue and Ah Ting grow up, you''ll learn about that."


    Jian Kang Lu then points at man and woman who run together passing them, "Even humans have differences between them. A man, a woman, light skin, darker skin, black eyes like Ah Ting, brown eyes like Ah Yue."


    Jian Kang Lu kissed both of his children, "But.. All of us are the same human even though we''re different. Just like your friends having one mommy and one daddy, both Ah Ting and Ah Yue are different from them, since Ah Yue and Ah Ting have a daddy and a papa. But it doesn''t mean being different is a bad thing. Even though Ah Yue and Ah Ting are different from your friends, it doesn''t mean that you''re really different. Your friends have a mommy and daddy, who love your friends. Just like papa and daddy love Ah Yue and Ah Ting so so so much."


    "I love papa and daddy too!" Jian Ying Yue turned around and hugged Jian Kang Lu''s waist with her little hands.


    Jian Kang Lu smiled and kissed his children again.


    "Thank you. So, today''s lesson is that you know that both you and your friends are called human. Little humans are called children. All of you studying in the same class, teached by the same Ms. Hua. Even if some are different from each other, it doesn''t matter. The important thing is Ah Yue and Ah Ting become a good children, didn''t say bad words or disturb your friends, follow your miss in the class. The most important thing is, Ah Yue and Ah Ting need to become good children who love daddy and papa as much as we both love you."


    The result from deep conversation in the park is that Bai Jingting asks his daddy and his papa to go to the bookstore and buy a bunch of encyclopedias about dogs, cats, birds, and many more.

 Chapter 241 - I Have Known You For Twenty Years (NSFW)

    Jian Kang Lu and Bai Yutang having their honeymoon for the millionth time. This time, they choose not to travel abroad. They''re going to L city, famous for their Jade Dragon Snow Mountain and Blue Moon Valley.


    Both of them agreed to send their children to go for a Mediterranean cruise tour with their grandparents and their cousin. Their children are happy, and Jian Kang Lu is also happy to spend quality time with his little husband.


    Who says men above 50 can''t do their bed exercise diligently?


    Too bad their romantic sex life have to postponed many many times for the first ten years of their marriage. But now that the children start to grow up, they can focus on their own relationships.


    Life will not last forever. Jian Kang Lu wanted to cherish the time he had left in this world.


    So, they happily arrange a 7 day private honeymoon in a luxury resort in L city, located 2,400 metres above sea-level, offering breath-taking views of the Jade Dragon Snow Mountain. They choose the charming garden suite villa with authentic Naxi-inspired architecture, close to S Old Town and B Village.


    The purpose of people staying here is to enjoy the fresh mountain air, and relax in this idyllic highland resort. A perfect choice to spend your summer in a cool way.


    Well, Jian Kang Lu''s purpose is to enjoy the fresh mountain air while rolling under the blanket with his little husband.


    On the way to the resort, Bai Yutang video calls his children who just boarded the cruise.


    "Mmm.. The sky is so blue. Don''t forget to use your sunscreen, Ah Yue."


    "Already dad. I already rub gege and grandma Lu too just like you told me. Yesterday, granny Lin and I bought three pairs of sunglasses for us ladies. I use papa''s card."


    "Yes, your papa knows. Just use it, but don''t buy anything too expensive, or you can''t use it again once you finish your cruise tour."


    "I know daddy. Have you arrived at the resort yet?"


    Bai Jingting''s head popped up from behind. Both of them are already 12 years old now. Due to skipping class for one year, after this summer holiday they will attend junior high school.


    Some of the teachers suggest Bai Jingting to skip several classes due to his outstanding mathematical ability, but Jian Kang Lu rejects. One year of skipping class is already his limit, and it is also because Jian Ying Yue is crying for weeks, saying she wants to be in the same class with Jian Hao, her cousin.


    Bai Jingting was not always ranked first. He really likes numbers, but hates other subjects. Especially history and geography. Unless his papa teaches him, he won''t touch the history book.


    Bai Yutang and Jian Kang Lu were the type of parent who will give reward for their children''s achievement, but won''t reprimand them as long as their grade is acceptable. Bai Yutang told them, at least they need to stay in the top 10 of their class if they want the same privilege. If the rank decreases, Bai Yutang will cut their privilege.


    Bai Jingting''s privilege is his computer and gadget, while Jian Ying Yue privilege is shopping and her course. Ballet, martial arts, horse riding, archery, piano, violin, any course she is interested in, she will apply. If she gets bored, she will quit. Her parents will pay and won''t reprimand her if she wants to quit anyway.


    As a 12 year old boy, Bai Jingting''s height is pitifully shorter than Jian Ying Yue. He often mistook as her little brother while he was actually three weeks older.


    And now his head popped up behind his sister''s shoulder. "Daddy!" He shouted. "I can''t find my tablet! Did you really put it in my bag? Where do you put it?"


    The culprit of the missing tablet is Jian Kang Lu. After learning his tablet really left at home, Bai Jingting sighed. "Fine. I''ll play outside and not write code anymore."


    Jian Kang Lu was happy to hear that and promised his son to upgrade some parts on his computer. Even though they didn''t encourage Bai Jingting to study anything advanced, he still took a course of computer programming and started to make his own simple program and games.


    After another few minutes chatting with his children, they wave their hands to say goodbye.


    "I missed them already." Bai Yutang turns his head and smiles sadly to Jian Kang Lu.


    Jian Kang Lu hugged his little husband and kissed his cheek. "Just think about me for these seven days and forget those rascals. Don''t worry, they''re going to have fun with their grandparents. Ah Ming and Ah Hao were also there with them."


    Once they finished checking in and were sent to their villa, suddenly Jian Kang Lu smiled mischievously, and attacked his little husband who was not ready.


    The moment Bai Yutang realised, he was already thrust up against the door, and his husband was crazily exploring every nook and cranny of his mouth with his tongue. Bai Yutang''s scalp tingles from the deep, passionate, sudden kiss. Their tongues were entangled like two wild serpents that could not bear to part even a hair''s breadth.


    "Gege¡­ Uhm¡­ Wait.." Bai Yutang managed to get his words out after giving a strong push. "We haven''t unpack our luggage."


    After his final syllable, Bai Yutang felt himself leave the ground once more, but this time Jian Kang Lu was holding him by the butt. Face to face, they stared into each other''s eyes as he walked towards the bedroom.


    Bai Yutang wraps his arms around his neck and his legs around Jian Kang Lu''s waist in order to maintain balance. Of course, he did not let the man off without some teasing remarks. "How indecent! How improper! We''re an old couple and you still want to play hooligan."


    "TangTang, baby, did you really think we need to be decent or proper in our age? I''ve known you for twenty years. Look, my white hairs now dominating instead of my black hair."


    Bai Yutang kissed the tip of Jian Kang Lu''s nose, "Even though we''re old, my gege still strong enough to carry me."


    Meanwhile they were entering the room. Jian Kang Lu headed straight for the bed and set Bai Yutang down. The two men stood face to face but did not resume their kiss. Their words seemed to have been depleted during their short trip, and all that was left was a silent stare.


    After a moment, Jian Kang Lu led Bai Yutang''s hand to his belt before sliding his own hand up to his little husband''s slender neck, carefully unbuttoning his shirt. The fervent urgency earlier had vanished. Slowly and delicately, they undressed each other, and when their eyes accidentally met, they would look down again and continue with the handiwork.


    Such a chaste scene actually befit a newlywed couple who walked through all the traditional observances to finally come to this final step, taking off their partner''s garments in the quiet darkness to consummate a hundred years'' worth of happiness.


    Even when they know each other for so long, sometimes they find a moment where they fall in love again, and again, with their beloved. Amaze, for such a perfect creature actually willing to spend their life with them. They adore each other for more and more, and appreciate the little things their partner did to them every single day.


    Once both had been laid bare, Jian Kang Lu took Bai Yutang into his embrace, and they fell onto the bed. They were both erect and ready, but neither rushed to the main course.


    Pinning his little husband down, Jian Kang Lu went to work exploring every inch of his little husband''s body, which he maintained well because of his habit to go to the gym. Jian Kang Lu marks his sensitive neck, letting his little husband''s small moans fill his ear.


    There they lay together in quietude for some time before Jian Kang Lu finally dipped down and planted a kiss between Bai Yutang''s eyes. His eyes are hazy from the lust, yet sparkling bright like thousands of lanterns on the dark blue sky.


    From there he kissed his way downward again to capture his little husband''s soft lips in a tender restraint. He sucked on them delicately as he gently ground against the man.


    Bai Yutang blindly pulled loose the bed clothes and covered both of them, and under the sheets their naked bodies rubbed against each other with a taboo, secret pleasure.


    It was Bai Yutang who lost his patience first after a long, teasing foreplay. He reached down between them and manoeuvred their members to the same spot so that the shafts and the sacs would grind against together with so much as a lift of his hips. The head of his length felt so unbearably tingly that more and more clear liquid flowed out from the narrow slit, to the point of wetting his abdomen.


    Jian Kang Lu released his lips and whispered in his ear, "You''re so wet, baby."


    Bai Yutang whispered mischievously, "Then how about you suck it dry, gege?" Then he added after a pause, "No, it''s better if I''ll do you first."


    Jian Kang Lu chuckled, "Let''s just lick each other dry." He then shifted his orientation so his legs were next to his little husband''s head. He took Bai Yutang''s erection deeply into his mouth while his little husband did the same to him. The loud, sloppy noises were especially distinct in the room.


    Bai Yutang was not as good at endurance as his husband, but did not want to always shoot first, so after some time, he stopped and bit his husband''s butt, "That''s, that''s enough, gege. Stop it.. Ugh, don''t suck it more!"


    This time Jian Kang Lu truly listened to every one of his little husband''s commands and let his member slide out of his mouth. He trailed his tongue down between the cheeks and began toying with the opening, reaching in deeply to nudge the slippery walls and nibble on the tender skin around the entrance. Having that spot played with, Bai Yutang felt a sense of shame that he did not want to admit but also a burning pleasure inside him even greater than that which he received from the fellatio.


    His husband licked him there on that spot thousands of times, yet he still feels ashamed until this day. "Gege.. No.. I haven''t cleaned myself.."


    Eventually, Jian Kang Lu returned to their previous face-to-face position, and Bai Yutang initiated the kiss this time. While they kissed, he felt his legs being gently pushed apart and a finger sliding in and out of him.


    "Does it hurt?" Jian Kang Lu whispered. "Wait, I''ll fetch the lubricant first."


    Naturally it did not hurt since his entrance was wet and his husband had inserted only one digit. Hearing the concern in his voice, Bai Yutang just smiled and nodded. They haven''t done this for two weeks, it will hurt him if he doesn''t lubricate well.


    But when his husband came back, he didn''t only bring a bottle of their favorite lubricant, but also a set of fluffy things Bai Yutang knew well.


    The silvery white cat ears, and that damn cat tail!


    Bai Yutang''s face was red from lust, embarrassment, anger, and also amused. He didn''t reject his husband''s kinky taste, instead he sat on the bed and smiled, "Then, the same old rules."


    Jian Kang Lu smiled and put the cat ears to his husband''s head. He smears the lubricant well to the soft end of the tails, and is ready to plug his kitten''s pretty hole with it.


    "Gege.. I''m 41 years old already. Don''t you find me so ugly and funny wearing this kind of thing at my age?" Bai Yutang put his hand around Jian Kang Lu''s neck and stared at his husband with a soft gaze.


    "I haven''t seen you in this kind of costume for more than five years. And you still look young, handsome, and very very very attractive. Not even a 20 year old can beat your cuteness." Jian Kang Lu slowly caresses his kitten''s butt and plugs the tail carefully.


    The filling of foreign objects makes Bai Yutang gasping for air. He pushed his husband down, and poured the cold slippery liquid from the tube to his fingers, starting to prep his husband.


    The old rules was, everytime Bai Yutang grant Jian Kang Lu''s request, he have right to fuck his husband.


    Almost 365 days passed since the last time he grinds his shaft inside his husband''s sweet cave, and Bai Yutang shuddered from the pleasure. He took his time to expand his husband, smiled and enjoyed the infatuated face who looked at him closely, unblinking. Makes him feel like he was the mightiest, the most handsome man in this world.


    It drunk him in a sweet intoxicated air, for him to see his handsome husband''s face gasping and lusting.


    The feeling of entering his husband''s sweet tight cave slowly almost makes his soul fly away. It was so warm. It was so tight. Hug his erection closely, suck it, like the man unwilling to let him go.


    "Gege.. You''re so handsome.. So good.." Bai Yutang slowly grinds, again and again, until he increases his pace and thrust deep. He aims for the sweet spot again and again. His smile is full of lust when hearing his husband start gasping from his thrust.


    After some time, Jian Kang Lu who wraps his legs tight to his little husband''s waist also moves his hips, grinding his little husband''s shaft in every direction. The warm wall massages Bai Yutang''s shaft so erotically, while his hand starts to move and rub the cat tail on his little husband''s rear.


    Jian Kang Lu gasping, moaning, and then pressing the hidden button.


    Bai Yutang almost screams from the sudden vibrating sensation. Double sensation magnitudes the pleasure, leaving him breathless. He stopped his movement, yet his husband didn''t want to stop. His husband''s hips keep moving, and moving, and after five minutes Bai Yutang almost can''t hold anymore.


    "Gege.. Ugh.. You''re so tight.." Bai Yutang took revenge and thrusted hard. The action of both them getting wilder and harder, leave both of them sweating and breathless.


    Jian Kang Lu''s hand moved once more and swirled the tail round and round, leaving Bai Yutang''s breath raspier and faster.


    Bai Yutang sped up his movement, and also rubbed his husband''s shaft wildly. No matter what, he wanted his husband to shoot first before him.


    In the middle of this race, which continued for almost half an hour, Bai Yutang felt his abdomen hotter and tighter until he finally wanted to scream and give up, begging for his husband''s mercy.


    "Ah.. Stop.. Gege.." Bai Yutang wants to run away but his lover tightens the legs around his waist, and swirling the tail behind him faster and faster, while grinding his front.


    Soon the numb spark comes to him, filling every fibres of his body with sweet shock, emptying his mind, shaking his brain.


    After the mind numbing sensation, Bai Yutang flopped his body on top of his husband. The overstimulation left him breathless. Yet after his husband hugged him tight and whispered sweet words to his ear, he flipped their body until he laid down on the bed. The tail then unplugged.


    The opening was wet, but it had not been properly relaxed since the tail''s length was only half of Jian Kang Lu''s full erection.


    Jian Kang Lu plunged himself totally into Bai Yutang, and although the scorching, rock-hard shaft did not tear the entrance, Bai Yutang was left hissing and gasping from the previous peak of ecstasy. He sincerely wanted to know why he was suffering this injustice when he hadn''t even seduced his husband.


    "Gege.. No, wait.. Agh.. Give me a minute, agh!"


    "Just hang in there. It''ll feel good soon." Jian Kang Lu''s utterance was as gentle as his thrusts were violent. This was exactly the tone that Bai Yutang found irresistible. As if his husband''s gentle facade was just a mask for his wild beast inside.


    After quietly bearing with the itch which makes his toes curl several times, it indeed is getting slightly better. It was as though his opening finally recognised the intruder as his master and was willingly enveloping it despite the dull discomfort, recalling the blissful pleasure that would soon follow. Thus, it clung desperately to the length, afraid that it would leave.


    Jian Kang Lu felt the tight canal squeezing around him, the tender flesh gently pulsating and massaging his head. A gush of heat rushed straight to his groin and urged his hips to rock more quickly. Wet slushy sounds soon emerged from the penetration, Bai Yutang was actively pushing his hips up to meet his husband''s wild thrusts.


    Jian Kang Lu began pinching his little husband''s nipples while playing with the man''s ear, sucking the lobe and wetting the canal before thrusting his tongue in and out in a suggestive manner.


    "Ungh.. Ahhh.. Gege.. Gege.."


    With multiple sensitive spots being tended to, Bai Yutang was floating giddily on cloud nine. His member was angrily flushed and erect once more even though it was just shooting his seeds ten minutes ago.


    It stuck out against Jian Kang Lu''s lowered abdomen, and the head scraped across the tight knots of muscles on his abdomen with every thrust of his husband''s hips. The stimulation was beyond words, and a strange sensation could not come soon enough.


    Mind clouded, Bai Yutang could only grasp his husband''s broad back, bite his shoulder. If it wasn''t for the lips flush against his ear where the whispers originated, Bai Yutang would have assumed he had hallucinated.


    "I love you, TangTang.." the man said, "Call me laogong."


    "What.." Despite knowing those words were truly uttered, Bai Yutang could only pretend he was dreaming, but then he couldn''t just pass it off as a dream. His face was practically burning now. He murmured between tight lips, "Slow.. Down.. I felt weird, laogong.."


    But Jian Kang Lu just did what he had done several times before, he stroked Bai Yutang''s manhood but kept a finger pressed tightly on the slit, rubbing it again and again. Enjoying his little husband''s curse and wriggling to break free.


    Bai Yutang had learned from the previous time the frustration of a squirting orgasm, so when the pain and pleasure began to build on top of each other, he willingly surrender in this supposed to be romantic honeymoon who turn into lewd honeymoon in exchange for release and uttered the magic word.


    "Laogong.. I want to cum.. Please.. Ahh.."


    The next moment, the pressure on his member was increased, flying him higher and higher, until his soul truly left his body, hanging in the cloud. Once Bai Yutang''s body started to jerk, Jian Kang Lu lifted his finger, and cum gushed out in splurges. Overwhelmed by euphoria, Bai Yutang''s eyes lost their focus, his chest rose and fell wildly in an effort to cope.


    Jian Kang Lu paused his thrusting as the violent orgasm ran through the canal and simply stayed fully hilted enjoying the ecstatic stimulation. He felt as though he had taken a short trip to heaven with Bai Yutang even though he himself had not reached release.


    When Bai Yutang''s mind returned, he held onto the man''s back and bit his shoulder hard in order to catch his breath.


    Jian Kang Lu let him and leisurely patted his back for him.


    "I really really love you, baby.."


    After a while, Jian Kang Lu took Bai Yutang''s hand and interlocked their ten fingers. Then he let go and led it down to where they were still connected. "I love you to the moon and back, I love you until the day i close my eyes, and i wish i could still love you in our next life."


    Bai Yutang''s mind is still not clear yet, but he answers softly, "And I love you more.. Laogong."


    "Well, don''t we look lively?" Jian Kang Lu glanced at him before pinning the man down again. "Let''s continue, shall we?"


    Thus, the lust and passion returned and did not fade until they finished the last strand of their spirit.


    Bai Yutang wanted nothing more than to sleep after this long intercouse, but the now soft intruder was still inside him keeping what must have been a pool of thick cum clogged up.


    "Could you pull out first, gege?"


    He negotiated good-heartedly, but the man circled his arms around him and forced him to abandon his request with a curt reply.


    "Sleep with it."


    Bai Yutang sighed, annoyed, but the exhaustion hit him, and he really fell asleep like that.


    Right before he slipped into his dreams, he heard the man speak. "I''m so lucky I met you, TangTang. I''m so damn lucky."


    In his hazy dream, Jian Kang Lu stands in the night cloud. He was surrounded by tiny million stars.


    Bai Yutang''s love for him was not a blinding hot love like a sun ray shining on earth. The sun is indeed so bright, but it hurts the eye who stares at it directly, covering the sky from other light.


    His little husband''s love is like a warm current, pretty million little stars painting the dark blue sky with their soft lights. He could enjoy the pretty blinking lights, and stars constellations give him guidance for the life he wants. Pull him away from the dark desolate life.


    A love he needs.


    Those eyes, who smiled gently at him, wiped his worry away, washing his loneliness away.


    Those pretty and loving eyes, filled with warm million little stars, become the door to his soul.


    Because his little husband''s love is whole, his missing pieces appear. Because his light carries passion, what was scarred and broken becomes soft once more. Because he was steady and patient, his old wounds have time to seal and vanish.


    Because he is the star he was born to find.